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reminder that the only reason the "ADHD is actually demigod BATTLE STRATEGIES" and "dyslexia is DEMIGOD BRAINS HARDWIRED FOR ANCIENT GREEK" things exist in the PJO universe is because it's a very direct reference to early 2000s teaching/parenting techniques for neurodiverse and disabled children, which aimed to frame childrens' disabilities and hardships as a "superpower" or strength so that the children would feel more positively about their disabilities or situations. This technique has fallen out of favor since then for the most part since more often than not it just results in kids feeling as though their struggles are not being seen or taken seriously.
Yes, demigods are adhd/dyslexic (and sometimes autistic-coded) in the series. This is extremely important and trying to remove it or not acknowledge it makes the entire series fall apart because it is such a core concept. Yes, canon claims that their adhd/dyslexia is tied to some innate abilities, which is based on an outdated methodology. It's important to acknowledge that and understand where it comes from! But please stop trying to apply it to other pantheons in the series like "oh, the romans have dyscalculia because of roman numerals!" or "the norse demigods have dysgraphia for reasons!" - it's distasteful at best.
A better option is to acknowledge the meta inspiration for why that exists in the series, such as explaining potentially that Chiron was utilizing that same teaching methodology to try and help demigods feel more comfortable with their disabilities and they aren't literal powers. In fact, especially given Frank, there's implication that being adhd/dyslexic isn't a guaranteed demigod trait, which means it's more likely to be normally inherited from their godly parent/divine ancestor as a general trait, not a power, and further supports the whole "ADHD is battle strategy" thing being non-literal. It also implies the entire greco-roman pantheon in their universe is canonically adhd/dyslexic - and that actually fits very well with the themes of the first series. The entire central conflict of the first series fits perfectly as an allegory about neurodiverse/disabled children and their relationships with their undiagnosed neurodiverse/disabled parents and trying to find solutions together with their shared disability/disabilities that the kid inherited instead of becoming distant from each other (and this makes claiming equivalent to getting a diagnosis which is a fascinating allegory! not to mention the symbolism of demigods inheriting legacies and legends and powers from their parents and everything that comes with that being equivalent to inheriting traits, neurodiversity, and disabilities from your parents).
anyways neurodiversity and disability and the contexts in which the series utilizes representation of those experiences particularly during the 2000s symbolically within the narrative is incredibly important to the first series and the understanding of what themes it means to represent. also if i see one more "the romans have dyscalculia instead of dyslexia" post in 2023 i'm gonna walk into the ocean.
#pjo#riordanverse#percy jackson#analysis#meta#adhd#dyslexia#also this symbolism recontextualizes the relationship between demigods and their godly parents so much#particularly Percy and Poseidon and the whole ''I'm sorry you were born thing'' like DAMN that's an ENTIRE DIFFERENT IMPLICATION#honestly in general the first series' meta analogy of being a demigod as symbolism for being neurodiverse/disabled ROCKS SO HARD#that's SO COOL and im SO SAD NOBODY EVER TALKS ABOUT IT#i could write a whole essay on that alone like COME ON GUYS#can we PLEASE ACKNOWLEDGE THIS I WANNA TALK ABOUT THE COOL DISABILITY METAPHORS....#anyways i didnt proofread this cause. re: dyslexia so if it doesnt make sense dont worry about it#i can try to explain further in supplementary posts if people so wish
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thinking about how se0 had dusknoir live a horrifying period of time where he sinks so deep into thr darkness he almost loses himself, so the player can feel and understand his determination to keep his life no matter how hopeless his future is. his life is finally HIS, and he's not giving it away again. and it's only the first step in his journey because by the end of se5 he learns his life doesnt have to keep on going on a literal sense, that letting your actions impact others' future is another way of making your life matter thanks to YOUR own choices.
#anyways im a se0 rampard0s/darkra1 defender i think the way it's executed in the game is pretty#neat to carry to the audience why duskn0ir fights so hard for his own self preservation#the amnesia plot might be a bit convoluted but damn if it doesnt carry home how much duskn0ir#has lost himself and wants to find his place in the world#i see people tend to dislike this arc in tbe game and at first i also thought the amnesia + manipulation was cliché#bur after some time ive grown to like it at all#the entire time duskn0ir has thew choice to be better#its just his rational sense sees the world around him and goes 'no this isnt the logical way to act. i need to defend myself. i need to put#myself in the top of the food chain' so he keeps making worse decisions until he almost dies for it#like im sorry but rhis fan romhack has a better manipulation/brainwash plot rhat super mist3ry dunge0n and its not even close#also i explained ir poorly here bur it really feels like a progression that duskn0ir first learns to want to take control of his life#and#then evolve by learning what taking control of your life and life itself can mean and the different ways it can live on beyond the#physical plane#im rambling but dude idk it just works for me#it annoys me to see it boiled down to 'augh bad villain manipulates other antagonist. booooring' as if duskn0ir wasnt a prick too#and there was not more going on here
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Complaining abt Suicide Squad yet again but the fact that they have Waller exposing the alien community to space racist attacks and talking abt how she got to her position through deceit and being a terrible person and stuff is just. Ahsfiwueh JUST SAY YOU DONT KNOW WALLER.
Anyways literally the 3rd mission of the Squad ever (and the first framed as smth Waller picked and not orders from above) was the Squad discrediting and stopping a rogue vigilante who was only arresting POC and funneling white people into white supremacy groups (of which he was the most prominent member) in SUICIDE SQUAD #4. and it's explicitly framed as this mission being personal for Waller that she's hiding from the government bc its illegal like. Guys. Please why are we having her incite (space bc comics) racist attacks now
Also the whole "Amanda got her position through deceit and being a terrible person" NO. she KEPT her position through being shitty and playing complicated political games!!! She wasn't always that way like there is a difference and it is IMPORTANT ppl PLEASEEEE. In Secret Origins #14 we learn Amanda's backstory and she used to be a normal, caring person! Like even after she entered into working in government and politics she wasn't automatically morally bankrupt like please people. She was originally given control of the Squad by Reagan (*sigh* 80s comics...) to distract and get rid of her because she was so successful at pushing progressive social policy in Congress. Acting like she's this static pillar of evil is such a waste of her character and so fucking uninteresting and disrespectful to her arc it drives me MAD.
Like I am NOT saying Waller is all sunshine and rainbows, she fucking SUCKS (said w love <3) but like there's a human being there. It's a progression, she has a character arc like please, DC, please!!! They've fucked up Waller so bad and made her so opaque and uninteresting she can't even be the protagonist of her own story for fucks sake!
Like I don't know how many times I have to scream it until DC hears me or remembers but WALLER IS THE MAIN CHARACTER OF SUICIDE SQUAD. ITS HER BOOK. yet right now she's a cutout to be used as the villain wherever the writers please. Even in her book we get none of her perspective really displayed, no exploration of her thoughts with any kind of understanding of the role she traditionally has played and was made to play in the story.
#its like youre unable to root for her in any form. which is annoying bc shes actually awesome actually#also having her say “actually im the good guy fuck you'' w/o any actual deep analysis of her psyche or whatever while doing these things#doesnt count as development or showing shes 3 dimensional. its just having 2 dimensional waller say shes right when everyone is obviously#supposed to believe shes wrong#anyways i want real waller back please i miss herrrrrrrr#anyways hope mr john ridley has read secret origins no 14. i know its from 1987 but please guys please. my only hope#also it was a few months ago but i think they tried to push certain elements of a diff backstory in dream team and sorry but fuck that. and#any mention of another waller background like my eyes are closed sry. im a preboot truther#actually im just ignorant of most squad comics outside the original series. im gonna do a readthrough and become knowledgeable on other#stuff i just need to find time. so if im wrong then sorry if its smth factual and if you disagree with my opinion then uh sorry for ur loss#anyways shoutout to the time i had a nerd night w my one friend and she was asking me abt dc and said my favorite villains and i said waller#and silver swan. and she had a “yuck WHY” to waller and a ???? to silver swan. love shouting out my faves and explaining them to the less#informed. didnt say a number 3 but would probably be parallax ig. idk hes kind of slay. or maybe someone else honestly i like hal but waller#and nessie are blorbo level for me i could think abt them for hours#or maybe it wouldnt be parallax actually idk who my 3 would be. hes definitely up there but way below the other 2. maybe the cheetah#interpretation that i personally have. v different from the popular cheetah interpretation esp rucka vers actually. much closer to the pérez#and esp develops some subtext there surrounding barbara and the exploitation and theft of sacred cultural artifacts and pieces but also#like british colonization a lil bit#but i actually despise the cheetah that lives in my head but think shed be interesting to use narratively and see diana fight#vs the other guys who i find interesting and sympathetic and like for themselves#whereas my fave interpretation of cheetah can rot in hell#i got off topic here#blah#swishy rant#also disclaimer that w the main character ik dreamer is the main character of dream team. im talking more in general and that amanda should#always have a huge role as shes the main character of the squad and yet is treated like its villain and not its protag#sui sq
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(heartbreak high) that one babysitting format meme
but my fun lil spin on it
#heartbreak high#fyp#netflix#netflix heartbreak high#ok ill explain#quinni is the best out of all of them#makes schedules and everything; takes job very serious#amerie is an older sibling she's been babysitting for free#malakai probably is like “this is the next generation-- we have to raise them right”#ant kind of just lets the kids play fortnite with him#missy is rlly popular with the kids she babysits. the parents not so much#cash is scared of the kids. is genuinely afraid they'll shatter like a vase if he drops them from too high#jojo is the definition of wine aunt#harper gives older brother core energy but sister if that makes sense#also is shown to radiate big sis energy#dusty probably tries to act cool but probably just comes off lame#darren doesnt like kids. plain and simple#woodsy gives off strict elderly babysitter energy IM SORRY#sasha is just rlly lame. probably makes kids go to bed rlly early so she can just goof off so comes off as mean#fuck chook#spider is self explanatory#cash's nan may seem jarring but im not sure she seems like the type to secretly be a bad influence
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its so funny seeing people say "the arcana fandom is so dead" because i remember returning here after being in the gangreen gang fandom for like 2 years and just being overwhelmed by how active it was here
#arcana spam#i think its vital to your health you get into a very niche fandom with like 3 people#like i remember going to discord like the arcana fandom is so active its crazy!!!#meanwhile everyone's saying its dead. like what do you MEAN. i dont think you know what dead means#this game has only been out in full for like 3 years#like theres no way we've already run out of stuff to do i reject the idea#i was finding stuff to do with a character that hasnt been properly used since like before i was born#and has like 15 scenes#i think. you can do more with a game with 6 unique stories. plus miscellaneous ones#and the people saying theres not enough content#like I'm sorry but again. 6 unique stories with 12 endings plus miscellaneous stories#you are NOT starved for content#theres so much fun to be had here and i see this as such a flourishing garden so its a shame to see people say its dead or the#game doesnt have enough content. like. *it does*. it has an overwhelming amount of content#if youre bored like. get into the inspo behind the game its incredibly interesting!#get into tarot. look into the mythology. look into the zodiac book Dana references it explains a lot#its a shame to see people say they already got bored of the game when they never really gave it a chance to begin with. never appreciated i#for what it is in the first place. this is such a special game man.........#also people complaining about dead fandoms annoys me. ok youre the fandom. make things then
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HEY MOSSY WHATS UR FAVORITE SONG im looking for new music :]
first of all, thank you for the huge compliment!!! you should also know you are saying this to someone who spent 15 minutes listening to the spider man game pizza theme in the car yesterday so. Yeah!!!
All that sillyness aside, I listen to way too much music (my usual playlist is +1,300 songs) of way too many different genres and i am happy to share them with anyone and everyone!! Gonna try and limit this to 10~ish songs for now, since otherwise I will end up with a list 100 songs long lol. Also I am a rare Apple Music user so I'll try and link all the songs to youtube so that they're easier to listen to!!! also bc Spotify confounds me lol OK there was WAY more text than i thought so MUSIC RECS UNDER THA CUT
MOSSY'S COOL MUSIC RECS
DRIVING MY LOVE - Anri GOSH her entire TIMELY!! album is amazing, but this is the song that's been sticking in my mind the most lately. Citypop is a very fun genre of music that came about in Japan in the 70's, and Anri had (to me) some of the most fun songs in the genre :>
New River and Soap - The Oh Hellos OH BOY OH BOY THE OH HELLOS!!! I LOVE this band!!!!! If you were on art social media a couple years ago you probably have heard Soldier, Poet, King, which is by and large their most popular song. New River is one of my go-to songs when I am going through it. Absolutely love the imagery of the song, allowing new and difficult experiences carve new landscape through yourself. Soap, it is important to note, is the culmination of their four-part EP series Four Winds, and is kind of the resolution to that whole series of songs. It's really interesting and worth looking into! I must note that this is a Christian band in case you find that uncomfortable, but I would still recommend checking them out even if you do- the Four Winds EPS focus specifically on their struggles with God amidst the uh. Bad US Political Climate and all that. Most of their music on the topic is pointed and metaphorical (see: Passerine) and so that knowledge isn't super necessary to enjoy the music, I just think it's neat :] And not every song necessarily touches on the subject- these two specifically don't! Also I GOT TICKETS TO SEE THEM THIS YEAR LETS GOOOOO sorry this section is so long i just really like this band
No More What Ifs - Persona 5 Royal, covered by the 8 Bit Big Band Ok back on track lol. This song is absolutely my favorite from the game, but MAN THIS COVER. The 8BBB is one of the best video game cover bands out there imo, and they COMPLETELY outdid themselves with this one. They actually added a few extra lyrics to the song to better round out the overarching theme of both it and the game and MAN. i will never listen to another version again. The album this will be a part of isn't out yet sadly, but I would 100% recommend checking out their other stuff!
Bones in the Ocean (2023 vers.) - Longest Johns There's a lot to be said about this one but it's best if you just listen to it tbh. I will say that this is a new recording of one of the band's first original shanties, and that it includes all former and current members. Would highly recommend all the other songs on this album too, aside from this song it's a very fun listen! But ourgh this song,,,, if i had time I'd make a dozen animatics for it
エビチャーハン! (You’re Telling Me A SHRIMP Fried This Rice?!) - JamieP best miku song no quastion
'Tis Autumn - Nat "King" Cole Trio There's only one song to kick off the fall season and it's absolutely this one! Also The Autumn Leaves, which Nat King actually sung in Japanese once which is cool. He was an incredible musician and all of his songs are great, but Tis Autumn is probably my favorite :>
Catch You Catch Me (Card Captor Sakura OP) - Gumi Do you want to get ready in the morning feeling like a magical girl? Boy howdy do I have a song for YOU! Seriously the amount of people I've shown this song to under that premise who have come to me the next day saying that it worked is a lot lol. Card Captor Sakura has been a big comfort show for me and MAN the music is *chefs kiss*, especially the OPs!!! Linked the full song, but I would also recommend watching the opening itself :D
#41 - Dave Matthews Band "wow you like dave matthews lol thats such dad music" ok listen. I have been listening to DMB since before I was born. Saying I'm biased is probably an understatement here. But his songs are very good and I like them ok. Anyways #41 is a really stupid name for a song but I love the band in it, the weird lyrics, just the overall jazziness of it. If you wanna listen to more Dave stuff I would highly recommend the stuff from his solo concerts with Tim Reynolds- its just 2 guys jamming out on guitars, it's great. Stuff like One Sweet World, Still Water, Grey Street (This one's a tough listen for me but I love it). For the fun full band stuff I love So Much to Say, Ants Marching, just the older albums in general
Stay I Pray You - Anastasia (The Musical) I am allowing myself ONE (1) musical song. My sister is a huge musical fan and an even bigger Russian History nerd and an even BIGGER Bolshevik Revolution nerd so I watched Anastasia with her a lot growing up. Eventually they made the musical and it's actually tied for my favorite (Phantom is pretty hard to beat)! I got to see it tour and MAN. all the music is amazing, but this to me is the standout song- largely because this song, despite not being in the movie, actually was kinda in the movie- there's this bit in In the Dark of the Night that they took and made into a completely different song which is a fun nod to the movie!!
Music to Soothe The Savage Snake Plant - Mort Garson Got overwhelmed by my options at this point so I'm defaulting to one of my favorites! I believe another song off this album got popular recently, but I will forever know this one from it being used in the final scene in The Adventure Zone, my first and favorite DnD podcast! Honestly I could recommend a dozen songs from the podcast, but this one in particular always sticks out to me. While I'm here you should also go listen to The Adventure Zone, it's a great podcast, especially their first story (Balance, just start at the bottom lol).
wow that. was a lot more than I meant to write lol. Special shoutout to Virtual Insanity, the bane of my existence and my personal hell. It was my #1 most listened to song last year coming to a total of *checks replay* 239 plays, over 50% of which occurred within the span of a week. another shoutout to The Housebuilding Song. i swear i listen to you once a year how are you always in my top 25
#sorry this took so long i got really excited and then really overwhelmed#anyways just gonna throw a few notes in the tags dont mind meee#i hate to give The Oh Hellos such a big disclaimer especially since most people probably dont realize they're a christian band-#i just reaaaaally like digging into their lyrics and that's an integral part of it!!!#soldier poet king is about King David! they have a whole album called Dear Wormwood which is based on#The Screwtape Letters!!! Passerine is really hard to explain!!! nobody seems to like it when I infodump abt this tho lol#and some people aren't all that keen on religion so yknow. disclaimer for a thing that doesnt need one unless u think abt it too hard#that aside. OOO DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS NOT TO FILL THIS UP WITH SEA SHANTIES. DO YOU EVEN KNOW.#The Longest Johns were my first concert actually! a birthday gift from my sister!!! I even got to meet them *and* i got a signed poster#cool concert! probably the only one where I knew every song lol#Also usually my go-to band for these is AJR but. you already knew them so there went half my recs :') excellent band though. also#got to see them in concert last year! talk about an absolutely amazing concert!!!! very cool setup#The Oh Hellos will actually be my 4th concert ever! most people I know are already in the double digits#gosh there are so many good songs i coulda recommended#go listen to William Taylor from the assasins creed soundtrack#then Willie Taylor from The Longest Jonhs#same old shanty done in two different styles. very neat very cool#if ur still reading this you get my uber special rec. go listen to Lemeney by Sam Lee. old british folk song done up real pretty#Also The Derby Ram by Mat Williams. idk why but it really gives me a sense of how much people love music and how we've always been doing it#and we always will!#ok rant over its 1:30 am#goodnight#mossy talks#asked and answered#pirate posting#music
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1 or 11 !! for your choice :)
1.) Do they have a job?
None* of my ocs really have an official job in any of their universes, at least not for money. In their original universe of rain world they were all supercomputers constructed to solve the great problem, (to end the cycle of reincarnation) so i suppose that would be it. Most of them have long since give up on it though, with only their group senior descent continuing to try and find the solution to the detriment of his health (and trying to convince others to help him , to the detriment of his ability to have friends)
In the au where noone is actually human but i call it the human au anyway, seven golden glories is an immortal shapeshifter who sadly lost the ability to shapeshift so works through puppet proxies he controls to further his ultimate goal of having everyone in the world under his complete control, due to a loophole in the way his mind control magic works he is trying to become an elected politician, as the magic comes into effect when you enter a contract giving him some sort of power over you, and everyone voting for him would count for that
In a different, more silly human au, glories is a twitch streamer and EA rewilds wetlands and raises endangered fish for a living (EA is doing it for personal fulfillment and as an excuse to throw rocks through construction equipment windows) (glories.. likes the sims 4 too much)
11.) Do they have strong attachments to any object? If so what are the associations they have with that object?
Hmm... EA has every objects mai is attached to in their original incarnation. He keeps several data pearls with aer favorite messages from ichors friends (EA has a system i like to call neopronoun madness, switch pronouns every time you use one! After a while you can repeat) on haem at all times, and used to count the rarefaction cells they stole from glories as one of their prized possessions, a reminder to never trust anyone again, to push away anyone who comes close. Fortunately mur has healed from that somewhat, and no longer considers them anything special to her. Hae also keeps the broken citizen id drone of aer best friend from before the final public ascension
NRE keeps a pearl with all the data gleaned from the failed attempts to save skywriter, the groups senior whos communications failed suddenly one day, throwing everyone into chaos. Wy looks over the data constantly, trying to calculate a way to save sear from this, but never finding one
Descent keeps a pearl of all the ways he thinks hes failed, and looks at it when he considers slowing his work
#Comrade speaks#My ocs#EA#Glories#NRE#descent#Most of this probably doesnt make much sense to you.. my oc rp blogs are in my pinned post you might find context there if you want#I didnt want to try and explain everything it would be too long#Thank you for the questions i really got inspired i guess#Also sorry for not responding to the last one ever i couldnt think of anything to talk about there#The first sentence is really untrue in retrospect huh
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hi, veni, i found a mention of ro being invis for the video! https://youtu.be/2a6C_1Ois7M?t=18m17s
urs truly mapicc liker with utmost respect to the ro liker :D

THANKYOU SO MUCH, I OWE U MY LIFE!!!!! i did end up watching the entire like 20 mins or however long he was in the vod LOL.
thats so funny tho why did nobody except mape know he was making a video abt this 😭😭😭 like jumper and rek esp not knowing is so funny bc he doesnt even seem like he hid it even a bit??? he told mapicc off the bat anyways, so maybe it was bc those two werent online for him to tell LOL
tysm for the ro info tho, i appreciate it 🛐 u are my absolute fave mapicc enjoyer now :DD
#asks#lifesteal spoilers#roshambogames#why does mape actually know more abt ro and his plans then his team im crying#i think derap might also know abt the invis thing bc he mentioned knowing ros plans#which would explain why he paid no mind to ro running around naked full invis in the fight#but ya insane that derap and mape know more abt ro than his own teammates#actually why has deraps team targets been mapiccs fave non empire people#first he wants to join the sticklers which had ro#then he teams w zam after deciding he doesnt want the sticklers#and zam is the only person outside of empire that mapicc even plays with#sorry im getting off topic#anyways i adore ro so much he is so strange#i wonder how he will Lie and Dramaticize this video /aff
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Back at it again with a sad song to relate to these characters!!!!
This is so!!!! This is so Alex to Jay, or at least how he would want to be to him under better circumstances. Or at least that’s how I saw it.
https://youtu.be/R2zXxQHBpd8?si=-VKZo5PAshjGBfQM
Song is: will he by Joji
you're so right. This is so alex wishing he'd been able to be better to jay. (tho there's also an argument that jay also needed to be better to alex, and cos sorry its locked is all jays pov so far i haven't been able to show that he was also pretty bad for alex just like alex was bad for him. neither of them are the good guy, neither of them are purely a victim, neither of them are purely a 'villain' -can't think of the right word so villain will have to do-)
anyway, analysis thingy
I got knots all up in my chest (Up in my chest, up in my chest) Just know, I'm trying my best (I'm trying my best) 'Cause when you look (When you look) When you laugh (When you laugh) When you smile (When you smile) I'll bring you back (Bring you back) And now I'm sad (Now I'm sad) And I'm a mess (And I'm a mess) And now we high (Now we high) That's why I left (Why I left) That's why I left (Woo)
Pretty simple, just Alex thinking about Jay and how much he really did like him. But Alex was a mess and left Jay for Amy because he didn't know how to cope with his feelings (and with some other stuff I haven't written yet, but i'm ignoring that just so this song will fit with what's already actually out there for this fic)
Will your tongue still remember the taste of my lips? (My lips, my lips, my lips) Will your shadow remember the swing of my hips? (My hips, my hips, my hips) Will your lover caress you the way that I did? (I did, I did, I did) Will you notice my charm if he slips up one bit? (One bit)
Again, Alex thinking about Jay. But also, Alex realising that Tim and Jay are together now from watching the videos Jay uploads, he's watched them slowly get closer, and then one entry something changes and Alex knows that Jay has "moved on". Alex wonders whether Tim hold and kisses Jay the way he did that last night he and Jay were together, and he wonders if Jay thinks of him when Tim messes up. He calls it his 'charm' kinda sarcastically, because he's just kinda caught up in hating himself for what he had to do.
Because unlike in uni (their uni relationship was complicated, i promise I'll write it eventually, just know that Jay did some bad stuff just like Alex did), this time Alex was the only person in the wrong for hurting Jay like he did in chapter 2 of Sorry It's Locked.
'Cause I don't need to know I just wanna make sure you're okay (Okay) I don't need to know I just wanna make sure you're all safe All safe, all safe (woo)
Alex doesn't really want to know if he's left Jay with shit from everything that happened around entry 47 (in chapter 1 and 2), he doesn't want to confirm for himself that he hurt Jay so bad that he's been left with lasting emotional shit. He just wants to know that Jay's okay, that he's safe, but every entry Jay posts just confirms over and over again that Jay is not safe, every entry posted just reminds Alex that everything he did to try and drive Jay away and make him give up on finding out what's wrong with Alex and what's going on with the whole Operator thing.
Everything Alex did was for nothing. He hurt Jay for no reason, and sure, he couldn't have known it at the time, but in his little moments of clarity he realizes that he could have done something else. He could have talked to Jay, he could have asked for help, he could have explained what was going on. He didn't have to hurt him, but he did, and it didn't even achieve what he'd wanted it to. If anything, it just made everything worse because now Jay's got someone else involved.
Will he play you those songs just the way that I did? (I did, I did, I did) Will he play you so strong just the way that I did? (I did) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Will he treat you like shit just the way that I did? (I did, I did, I did) 'Cause I don't blame you
Again, Alex thinking about their relationship, both their uni relationship and their one night stand in chapter 1. He knows Tim and Jay are together now and he can't help wondering what their relationship is like, since they keep it completely off camera except for the odd hickey just barely peeping out from under a shirt collar etc.
He can't help almost hoping that Tim treats Jay like shit, and he hates himself for it, he just wishes he could have Jay for himself but he knows he can't. Do you know what I mean. Like, he doesn't actively wish harm on Jay, and he's constantly trying to think of ways to keep Jay safe and alive, but he also can't help feeling jealous of Tim and wishing he'd treat Jay badly so that Alex could swoop in and 'save' Jay. He knows if that happened though, and Jay would shy away from him too, he wouldn't go running into Alex's arms, he'd just be angry at and scared of both of them and would probably do something stupid and get himself killed.
'Cause I don't need to know I just want to make sure you're okay (Okay) I don't need to know I just want to make sure you're all safe
Same as before, in the end, Alex just wants Jay to be okay, he want's to make up for everything he's done by finding a way to make sure Jay lives, to make sure he doesn't have to kill him.
#Just. god. them#I both love and hate sorry it's locked so much. So fucking much. I need to give Jay and Alex a hug and then fucking yeet them at therapy#they need therapy#they're so fucked up and i love them#why did i do this to them?#marble hornets#jay merrick#tim wright#alex kralie#marble hornets fanfic#jaylex#mh sorry its locked#song ask#lyric analysis i guess#God they're my babies#i NEED to make Alex such a sympathetic character#you NEED to know that as much of a dick as he is. Jay was also shitty back in college and that lead to why their relationship is this way#and now in MH times alex isnt really able to think clearly. That doesnt make it better but it sure as hell explains his thinking#and makes it so you realise that he really is trying his best to save jay. he just goes about it the wrong way#and that's destroying him from the inside#God the plans I have for these fuckers
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The Bad Batch season 3 has been interesting thus far. I really liked episodes 1-7 and I've nothing particularly bad to say about any of those episodes. But honestly episode 8, and after today, episode 9, it's once again gotten to be a bit of a pain to get through. Maybe I'm just too much of a Crosshair guy, idk. Today's episode especially irked me but last time I discussed the topics it delves into I got some pissy people in my notes and I'd rather avoid that this time around.
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#tbb spoilers#the bad batch spoilers#(not really spoilers but just in case yaknow)#to be as non-spoilery as possible:#midichlorian discourse is a beast and talking to most people about it is about as fun as pulling teeth#finding someone with nuanced takes about it is incredibly difficult#by the way. this post is not an invitation for people to run into my notes and whine#which was a problem i had when posting about s2#fun concept: me having an opinion doesnt mean you have to agree or try to convince me otherwise#sorry if im sounding aggressive in these tags or am being way more weird about this then i should be#i did Not have a good time trying to talk about tbb s2 and the ahsoka show on here and it kinda...#made it less fun to post my thoughts. bc felt like everything i said was being taken in the worst way possible#thus im not posting much about tbb s3 and when i do im gonna cover my ass with lengthy tags like this#also im autistic and i feel the need to explain everything i do. so here we are. sorry to the 3 people who will ever see this#regardless its my blog and if i wanna rant in the tags then dammit. i will
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Thinking about current continuity Vanessa and just getting pissed off again
Like one, LET HER REST oh my god dc you ruin her FUCKING life like an asshole only to bring her back as a villain after she finally got out oh my god-
But also like its just so bad. This is a whole other woman with her name like why are we doing this. Like first you kill her mom (JULIA NOOO) and erase her YEARS of history growing up around diana (the thing that actually made her villain turn [if you can call it that w the level of manipulation involved] interesting and fucking heartbreaking) for some shitty "oh I saved you we were friends" run of the mill whatever. Then to use that and say Nessie had a crush on her OWN SISTER (Diana, so like informally adopted, but still 😡) now????
And then they took away her curls and made her a redhead but not even the realistic kind. DC SHE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT
It just makes me so mad. Freaking guys. They could have used another name like oh my god. She's not even the first silver swan why the fuck would they do that if they're not going to explore her history w diana (which she no longer has!!!!) or how intensely fucked up everything got for her. What is even the fucking point of this then other to drag a main character of the ww supporting cast through the mud again for genuinely no reason. They could have easily had her be Valerie Beaudry (sorry Val) instead or just MADE UP ANOTHER NAME because it's obvious that no one actually cared about her as a character they just wanted the wondy villain back so like !!!!!!!!!! Why even bother
#her entire treatment just makes me so angry#like in general it makes me mad and sad and a million other emotions#but the fucking robinson version just makes me enraged. beyond pissed off. because theres no fucking reason for it its bullshit and its the#one in current continuity right now. so i get to see tom king ww panels put on my dash that have this stupid fake vanessa and its so#infuriating. like thats NOT her!!!!!!! oh my freaking god people#her hair is BROWN and CURLY and shes dianas BABY SISTER who she lived with for YEARS like she was a MAJOR supporting ww character for the#longest time. like shes got about 100 appearances (just checked) preboot this is not a minor character#so freaking frustrating#blah#ALSO. FUCKING ALSO. THE FACT THAT THE WHOLE CURRENT VANESSA TURNED EVIL BC SHE REALIZED SHE WASNT SPECIAL TO DIANA BS. FUCK YOU THERE LIKE#OH MY GODDDDD “isnt special to diana” im going to fucking kill you. what do you mean she doesnt care about her specially. thats her FUCKING#BABY SISTER. not to sound like vanessa herself a la silver swan but those clowns at dc would never say that shit about cassie oh my god#not special my FUCKING ass. nessie and her mom were literally the first people invited to themyscira in post coie continuity#like yes diana trevor and steve trevor and even baby julia kapetelis washing ashore but like the kapetelises (and you could even say just#nessie bc again her mom had been there before) were the FIRST ones invited there like you cannot say diana didnt care about them more than#the average joe dc i fucking despise you.#this girl has been through so much why is dc incapable of throwing her a bone ever. nessie i am so sorry they did that to you sweetie.#gonna tag it bc her tag deserves the traffic#vanessa kapatelis#just makes me so mad#doing all that to the normal teen girl character in a wonder woman comic is so fucked actually like dc comics i should not have to explain#that to you. what message do you think you are sending here be serious
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Everyday I see another youtube video or whatever say smth along the lines of "this character is badly written because they're unlikable/annoying/insert negative description here" and everyday I end up massively disappointed because I came here for analysis on the actual writing of a character not just a description of the feelings they made you experience
#rat rambles#like when criticizing a character's writing its important to understand that a character being unlikable to you isnt always a failing on#the writing and when it is you have to actually explain Why it doesnt work in the context of the story and narrative for it to be#meaningful criticism in my opinion#for example a lot of ppl complain abt unlikable protagonists in very unproductive ways imo#because narratively speaking protagonists who kind of suck ass as people very much can have their place#so I always get disappointed when I see ppl talk abt the cases where I agree that theyre poorly written and not getting any elaboration#upon the initial 'they do bad things and are a bad person therefore I dont like them'#like there are plenty of ways for a character to be unlikable and a bad person or whatever#just please explain to me Why you think that the character themself was misandled or otherwise poorly written without listing their crimes#like for example. and lets all get our long sighs out first. sighhhhhhh. ok. shuichi.#hes a bit of a prick. anytime Ive seen criticism of his character it basically amounts to that statement.#and that doesn't at all adress any of the actual numerous problems with how hes written.#thats just a description of a character trait. which isnt a writing flaw on its own.#the reason him being an ass is a problem is that he is meant to be and written as a camera pov protag#so all of his judgy bullshit is meant to be how the audience feels too. which causes problems in a game where you're supposed to give a#shit abt the cast and want to hang out with them and get attached before they die horribly#and this is a problem that exists in all dr games ofc but shuichi just makes it most obvious because the v3 cast was built with a lot more#malice than the other two casts generally speaking#ok thats enough shuichi talk Im so sorry for making yall see that I promise it wont happen again its just the easiest example to draw#basically: poorly written characters are pretty much never that way because of any isolated traits they have as people#its about How they are written and positioned in the narrative#saying a character is bad because theyre annoying or unlikable is just saying theyre bad because you dont like them#and its plenty easy to not like well written characters so if you wanna make a real point then stop just writing a callout doc#like half the time your issue is with narrative framing not with the traits themselves talk about that instead thats much more interesting#and I Dont mean 'oh a character we're supposed to like shouldn't have this negative trait' because thats also unproductive#generally speaking saying that any certain character trait is inherently linked with bad writing beyond being a sentiment I disagree with#is also just not a very helpful statement for actually understanding what the actual problem is#and for me the why is what character and literature analysis is all about#and in terms of media criticism its especially important since you don't exactly learn anything by being told a character is unlikable
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every time i send an angry email to my old university (which happens way too often because they SUCKKKKK) the same girl replies and i feel sooooooo guilty because we’re kind of friends and went to school together and she’s really sweet and it’s not her fault that the school sucks :((( but then i remember thats she’s straight up addicted to one direction rpf (like she’s constantly liking larry conspiracy theories on instagram.. like the entire world can’t see it 😐) and she probably has a larry fic open in the other tab while she’s replying to me and then i’m like okay never mind she’s doing fine she can handle my annoying emails
#i’m always like FUCK YOU GUYS FUCK YOU MY FUCKING TRANSCIPT DOESNT HAVE MY NAME ON IT OR THE SCHOOLS NAME FUCK YOU UBC HATES ME NOW BECAUSE#OF YOU FUCK YOU FOR GODS SAKE SEND ME A PROPER TRANSCRIPT#(obviously i’m not saying that but i’m saying that in a professional kind way)#and she’s like hi mari 😊😊😊 i can definitely send u a better copy!! thanks so much for asking xox <333 💕💜💜💜💜#like i’m so sorry girlie i’m so sorry its not ur fault#i keep forgetting that ur the receptionist :’( ur an angel go enjoy ur yaoi#she’s also the one that told me that the school owed me a bunch of money in overpaid tuition 🥲#idk like if rpf is bad explain that🤨#mari.txt
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#nirvana#fall out boy#punk#grunge#hi hello sorry i haven't been active uh. live has been. bad!#i have another piece to upload that will probably explain it but i gotta see if i wamna tweak it first.#ANYWAY ive been getting way into nirvana and other 90s grunge music#i think all apologies is hands down my favorite song by them but i also like most of nevermind#pearl jam is also ok but i dont like eddie vedder's voice as much. but jeremy is a very good song#and also daughter which. looks at that other piece again. heh.#but yeah may still be a bit before i put out a new comic#partially because! when i designed this eli character it was meant to be uhhh. me#but my hair doesnt look like that anymore! ive been growing it out and havent dyed it in ages#so idk what to do about that. idk why im hung up on it but i am!#its not like junes character looks a ton like them. like they dont have pink hair at all. and BOTH of us wear glasses.#idk! i was also still battling art block most of last year#hoping things turn around soon. gripping the wheel gritting my teeth desperately. things will turn around soon.#anyway how are yall doin#smth art
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I see it now! I was literally reading and listening about their relationship in your podcast! i really thought that Statice and Nick DESPISE eachother. This AU is interesting, I love it vry vry much. Im not fond of it at first because I can't really Imagine Basil. Basil doing all of that stuff. because he's my favorite character(and I can't really see him being like that). But I eventually learnt to separate them and sees Nick as his own character. Like an actual oc(Still sees him a little bit as Basil if you understand what I mean)( can't wait when Sunny's other friend gets revealed or maybe the parents. *Maybe* they're not that important to the story but the CURIOSITY IS TOO STRONG AND SORRY FOR YAPPING HSJSKAK IT MUST BE TIRING TO ANSWER ANY OF MY QUESTIONS I WON'T DO THAT AGAIN)(Also excuse my grammar also, english is not my first language 😣)
-Anon from the previous previous post.
(the aura I felt after asking that is unimaginable. I used to be so shy to ask anything on people's blog so Im a *bit* proud of my confidence!)
Oh I see !!
Yeah Nick is... more or less an OC, he's got very little to do with Basil now. I refuse to cut of all ties to OMORI/Basil because it's very important to his origins and taking that from him would be taking out a lot of how I personally see him, but, well... He wasn't exactly based off of normal in-game Basil, either, so it makes sense that he's very different. He looks different, acts different, has a different family, age, personality, story, nationality even, different interests... He's like, 70% OC and 30% OMORI AU. Basil is also my favorite character, and that's not how I see him at all either.
I understand why you thought Statice and Nick hated each other — to be fair, there aren't a lot of people who don't hate Nick, lol. Being around him and knowing why he is the way he is makes it easier to love him, though.
#also no parents are important to the story — in nick and statice's case their abscence is what counts even#so i dont think they'll ever even get introduced#i'll do something about the third friend eventually when i'm motivated enough but tbh--#--that plotline is one of the earliest things i worked out about the AU back when it was really just an outlet for venting#so it's not very detailed. i have a very good idea of the events but. yeah since it was for vent purposes and im better now--#--i guess i dont. really want to think about it anymore. lots of things have changed in my brain since november...#i like playing with arsenic and sunny like dolls. it's less about having a concrete storyline and more about playing around with dynamics.#i've always been a slice-of-life person and this is no exception... i'd rather just take snippets of their lives to think about#i like the more mundane aspects. i like putting them in different circumstances and seeing how they'd act#but i'm not super interested in making this a very structured thing with a beginning then story then ending#this au is very personal to me so i guess i like thinking about it and explaining things about it more than i like. making Content for it#there's a difference between Content im giving people and what i do with that AU. so it doesnt end up looking very logical or structured#and it's hard to understand some things if you're from the outside looking in (like statice and nick's relationship for instance)#most of the characterization and info is hidden away in discord chats. sorry everyone#btw ! PLEASE dont be afraid to send more asks i LOVE getting asks like you wouldnt believe#you're not annoying for asking about things i promise !!!!#i love talking about them ! so much !!!#if someone gives me an occasion to talk about them i will NEVER SHUT UP (as im sure you've come to realize by now)#i love asks !!!!!#arsenic#rant#ask#anon
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#the thing about being so bad at writing is that when you also do it very irregularly about shit nobody else cares about#you drive yourself into a hole where absolutely nothing motivates you cause nobody misses your fics#also ive been made to feel bad lately about choosing fic writing over drawing so its. been a really fucking bad brain time#idk. i dont feel like a contributing member of the fandom. like it doesnt matter at all what i do i dont provide anything of any value#i hate it here and once again im just. sad and done but im useless with anything so what does it matter and who cares#its so hard to explain. i just dont feel like im doing anything meaningful#and i know thats not an actual indicator of the quality of my work but. try telling my garbage brain these two things arent related lmao#sorry im just. im just useless. i dont just feel that i know i am. with anything i cant do just piling up and the list getting longer i jus#maybe i should finally give up writing too. would make thinking about everything so much easier. nobody would miss it#and nobody can convince me otherwise about that#im gonna go cry in my cocoa now goodbye#night is an absolute mess on main
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