#and i did not post about it on this blog. never intended to. because im not trying to be critical or dismissive. im venting to mutuals

[chipjrwibignaturals]

It’s weird how reactionary and non open minded you are about the criticism of men. If someone is lighting someone’s house on fire, we shouldn’t ignore the person whose house is on fire and who is calling for help. People like you who have issues with the public discussion of women’s issues need to take a long hard look at yourselves and wonder why you become so irate and struggle with the idea of women voicing concern about physical violence, rape, assault, fraud, etc.

so first off anon, this was never the point i was making?? these are the only 2 posts i can think of in recent memory this ask could be about and in BOTH scenarios i am NOT complaining about people voicing real and valid struggles and concerns. i am complaining about people openly and solely declaring that they Hate Men, because i feel like it adds absolutely nothing productive and only harms the overall feminist journey towards progress by alienating/villianizing half the population for something they cant control. saying 'i hate men' is not a "public discussion of women's issues", sorry! venting? sure-- but so was my post.

also

[charmac]

i don't think people hcing charlie as transfem are trying to dismiss the transmasc charlie hc! i think it's more of a projection thing for a lot of people, since i know at least a few of the main people who enjoy the headcanon are transfem themselves!! i don't think you have much to worry about in terms of people dismissing the tmasc or other genderqueer charlie hc anyways, since it's already much more popular! i think you're perhaps being a bit too critical.

I've literally never said anything like this at all, I think you've either misinterpreted something else I've said or have the wrong blog.

All of my Charlie gender-based posts or reblogs I've stated/tagged that I think any interpretation of Charlie's gender can make sense, be it transmasculine, transfeminine, nonbinary, agender, whatever you want.

I am one of the ~3 blogs that has access to The Bathroom Problem script and who posted and pointed out that you can make out/slightly hear the Joyce cuts in the episode itself. I would not have excitedly shared that for open-interpretation if I was "worried" people are "dismissing" transmasc Charlie headcanons. (Which, again, I've literally never said, but in any case, I believe it's valid for anyone to dismiss a headcanon they don't agree with, fandom is a sandbox.)

What I personally don't care for are genderbends and, almost by extension, analysis/meta on canon scenes that rename/re-gender the characters with no basis (or, one that comes off wrong). Both topics I've literally never publicly spoken out against here, nor have I said anything bad/negative to everyone who personally enjoys these things, so there is no way for me to possibly be "too critical" in that regard. I keep most of my opinions to myself and my close mutuals, almost exactly for what you're saying: I personally don't want to harsh or dismiss anyone's headcanons.

I have never said, and have never meant to imply, that anyone interpreting Charlie as transfem is attempting to dismiss anyone else's headcanon (which again would be a non issue to me anyway).

[s3aweed-brain]

[percy looks at him] okay, i’ll give you that. this is a break. but you still should be easier on yourself. [he shakes his head, before shrugging] i might try to get nico to hang out with me for a bit, we’ll see. [he laughs] i can’t remember the last time he and i hung out without there being a world-ending event on the horizon [he hums again] i can’t remember exactly what annabeth said about damocles, but the whole thing was that he- or someone? i can’t remember if it was him- hung a sword over a throne that would fall on the head of whoever sat on it or something [his brow furrows, he’s trying to remember the story better]

[Will shows up, knocking on the poseidon cabin, waiting for Percy to open the door, faint bags under his eyes though thats pretty normal for Will, and his bags considerably emptier than they normally are]

@unlicensed-field-medic

[percy opens the door, one shoe half tied, smiling at will, a mostly empty backpack hanging off one shoulder] hey, man

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Hi! I just stumbled onto your blog and saw that you do analogies! And I’ve just been dying to talk about this lol,

I’ve always wanted to talk about Dazai and Akutagawa, and how Dazai ignoring him and never actually apologizing to him is actually helping him in some sick way.

think about it this way, Dazai knows that Akutagawa wants his approval, he needs his approval, even if Dazai abused him.

Dazai knows that if he were to give Akutagawa the attention and approval he wants Akutagawa is going to continue to see Dazai as his savior, however if Dazai continues to ignore him and purposely puts the tiger guy(I can’t spell his name 💔) in front of him multiple times akutagawa is going to eventually have character development and growth and eventually he’s going to grow out of Dazai, In a way Dazai is helping him, because of the strong attachment Akutagawa has to Dazai is a weakness, it’s a weakness that has no place in the port mafia. im sure there’s more to back up this claim but still.

or I’m just talking out of my ass and Dazai just uses him for his selfish purposes(most likely)

thank you for listening to my Ted talk 😓

Hi anon! Thank you for inviting me to your Ted talk!

The Dazai and Akutagawa dynamic is one of the more complicated dynamics in BSD, and certainly one of the hardest to discuss. There are a lot of facets that I couldn't possibly cover all in one post, so I'll just address the question you brought up: Is Dazai, in his own twisted way, trying to help Akutagawa?

Well... I think, sort of, yes. But calling it "help" is generous.

BSD has a running theme of abuse narratives that sit on this uncomfortable fence - neither particularly apologetic nor condemning of them, but simply showing the characters' complicated reactions as they are. Personally, it's something I appreciate as a reader. Atsushi's struggle against the ghost of the orphanage director is one of my favourite parts of the story. The director is dead, but Atsushi spent much of the early story acting specifically to prove him wrong - as if to measure his life's worth against the words he'd been assaulted with. He knows the orphanage director was needlessly cruel and does not forgive him, but he also learns the reason why he did it. He hates him, but he's still allowed to have messy feelings of grief for the man who was the closest thing he ever had to a caregiver.

These narratives crop up again and again. The Orphanage Director and Atsushi. Akutagawa and Kyouka. Kouyou and Kyouka. In all of these, the through line is the initial intent: each one of the people who enacted these cruelties intended to help. However, they're limited and blinded by the cruelties they themselves underwent. As such, they do what they think is best without any regard for whether that is actually what the other person needs. The Orphanage Director thought he was toughening Atsushi up to prepare for the outside world. Kouyou thought she could shield Kyouka in the shadows since her experience was that having hope and losing it is worse than having none at all.

Akutagawa tried to help Kyouka too, in his own way, by emulating what he thought Dazai wanted from him - he tried to forcibly fashion her into a weapon, into someone strong, because that's the only way he thought her life could have meaning.

But the Dazai and Akutagawa dynamic, though it bears similarities to many of these, is much more complex. For one, Akutagawa misinterpreted what Dazai wanted from him. He thought if he fashioned himself into a strong enough weapon, he could prove his worth and be acknowledged. But that's not the case. Here's a few passages from Dark Era:

Dazai wasn't trying to make a sharper blade, he was trying to make him more well-rounded - to learn to shield as well as attack. All this for the purpose of making a new Double Black to face off against Fyodor's plans. Note that it is Atsushi with the claws - the weapon - and Akutagawa as the reinforcer and shield in their team ups.

So, is that it? He just wanted a powerful duo?

There's a little more to it. In the Heartless Cur, which describes their first meeting, we have this pivotal moment:

It's the question which runs through the entire series, and it's the question through which our characters all struggle with. What reason is there to live in a cruel world? How best to navigate it?

Dazai at this point doesn't have the faintest clue. It's blind leading the blind. Dazai says he can give him a reason while being unable to deliver in any reasonable way, but I don't think he was necessarily lying - not out of goodwill or anything like that, but because Dazai has always been invested in observing people's convictions to live and the reasons they come to. He's invested in the human struggle.

But at this point in his life, his attempts to warp and control Akutagawa are met with failure, because he does not impart any good reason to Akutagawa why he should value anything. Even though he recognized that a more patient approach like one Odasaku would take might work, he dismisses it for himself because "righteousness doesn't take" to him. Again, we see this ongoing commonality of people doing what they think is best for another while actually acting on their own biased viewpoints, as opposed to really seeing what is best for the person in their charge.

So, while the idea that Dazai wanted to help Akutagawa by putting him in contact with Atsushi is nice... I believe it is and has always been more strategic than anything. Moreover, Dazai has this weird moment of pettiness where he does the exact same thing to Akutagawa by comparing him with Odasaku.

It's not really "help" so much as it is "hey why don't you go interact with this person I know who values life, maybe you'll learn something"... instead of, you know, actually helping him find things to value. And Akutagawa's later interactions with Atsushi are a continuation of his initial plan to create a new powerful partnership - which is a strategic choice first and foremost. But it can't be overlooked that the only way sskk would work well together is if they come to understand each other - and that sort of necessarily involves them both coming to some kind of reason.

So, in carrying on with similar patterns from other dynamics, and in his intent for the duo, I do honestly think that Dazai wants Akutagawa to find his reason. As always, Dazai has multiple explanations for his actions, and honestly, I do think one such explanation is that Atsushi and Akutagawa would be able to help each other. I don't know that I would call this Dazai "helping", per se, but it is a form of investment.

[stickyspeckledlight]

HAPPY ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO THIS BLOG (and oooo follower appreciation event too and giveaway/raffle; below in the read me bc I'm gonna force y'all to deal with my sappy sappy words first <3)

(don't bully me my art is shit)

Like. Wow. I can't believe this blog is ALREADY ONE YEAR OLD (well, 1 year and one day old, tho technically it's even older since it's just a reblog ACC converted into my writing blog---but I'VE ONLY BEEN WRITING FOR IT FOR A YEAR AND ONE DAY, SO THERE), and how many ppl have gathered here

But seriously, I can't believe how many people actually enjoy my fun lil drabbles (wdym 30k is a drabble---) like fr ppl tysm for enjoying the shit i cook like *blushes* I'm so happy we can all be fucked up freaks together UwU. others may look at us an think we're pineapple pizza, but they're ignorant. in reality they are the pineapple pizza. and yes anon who keeps sending me pineapple pizzas to my house (fabricated) i will come for you, I'm just very busy baking pineapple pizzas to stuff you with when your time comes. the grim reaper thinks it's a bit excessive, but i don't, so that means i am a perfectly reasonable and sane person.

I'd been wanting to write yandere fic for awhile, but never really did anything until last year on the good ol' march 23rd when aventurine made me simp so hard that i finally wrote yan fics. and since then tbh its a bit silly to say but life kinda feels a lot better knowing that I've a community to share these lil drabbles (stop calling them drabbles oml) with, yknow. its the small things <3

seriously, im so awed at how many cool ppl I've met since starting this blog. from the anon who sent me pineapple pizza, the anon who sent me banger comments abt destroyed onset, the anons who give me cardiac arrest, the anon who asked me how my corpse was doing, and literally every single anon who plays along with my bullshit (anon who sent sunday outfit ask I promise I'm getting to answer it but ngl everytime i try to i just end up cuddling into my own blankets thinking about how cozy sunday's outfit is---look if i read abt cozy things then i gravitate towards cozy things ok)---tysm for giving me a giggle! all of your comments and the things you send into my inbox are the absolute highlights of my day.

So, to show my appreciation, instead of working on Destroyed Onset 4 and 5, i will instead be doing.

COMMISSION RAFFLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (3/24/25 - 3/28/25)

it's quite simple. just follow my blog (new followers are welcomed ofc) and reblog this post, preferably with something stupid so i can laugh at it and maybe make a meme out of it. in fact you know what if you do then I'll double draw you into the raffle. see. I've given y'all an incentive now. REBLOG WITH STUPID SHIT IF YOU WANT TO BE ENTERED TWICE INTO THE RAFFLE. IS THIS FAIR? IS THIS JUST? IDK BUT IT SEEMS FUNNY SO IMA DO IT LMAO. what are you going to do, stop me? ha, puny mortal. there is no stopping me now. because I'm having a good time, having a good ti---

once you're entered into the raffle, i'll draw some names and reward the following:

ONE person gets a full-length fic (somewhere between ~2-5k words)

ONE person get a shortfic (so up to ~1-2k words)

TWO people get a drabble (~200 - 500 words)

(but tbh knowing me all of these might end up way longer then i intend them to be---we'll see lmao)

This will run from TODAY, March 24th, to FRIDAY March 28th. One Friday passes, the names will be locked in and I'll DM the winners to discuss commission details.

As for requesting/commission rules, they're on my main page under 'Other Stuff' (alongside the tag guide). But since these are commissions, I'll add that I'm perfectly willing to write OC or Self-Inserts. I will not write non-yan fics though, just because tbh I have a really hard time writing pure fluff; like, it's not that i can't write fluff, but after a bit it's hard to resist the urge to insert something that's at least A LITTLE dark or angsty, lmao. But also just cuz this is a yandere blog, I'd like to keep my writing focused on yandere

Note: Commissions will be private, unless the commissioner gives me permission to post

With that, thank you!

Oh, and for the people who end up getting the above prizes, I might give y'all some participation memes. Just like. Compensary. You don't get fic but you get a lame semi-mass produced speckled meme

[wrecked-cuticles]

aight, i dragged my feet long enough about this...

let's talk about him!!

as i've mentioned before i've been setting up @bosburningplace to be my new blog!

the short of it is this: i've had this blog for nearly a decade. i wanted to delete all of it's content and start anew with my following and followers intact but i could never get the backup file to download. so i figured making a new one is the second best thing.

if you want to read more about my rambling and what to expect check out whats under cut!

so why not delete this blog and start fresh?

im sentimental. even if it makes me uncomfortable to have all of my awkward teenage posting remain on the world wide web, i'd rather it be public than lost. sure it's mostly reblogs but even those are fun to look back at. what media was gnawing up my insides 8 years ago? what completely opposing opinions did i reblog within hours of each other? i just spent way too much time on here not to have a reminder going forward.

but doesn't tumblr send you a back-up of your blog?

they sure do! but i could never get it download fully and i could never see anything in the broken zip file that remained on my pc. i'm not tech savy so i just assumed it was too big for my poor puter to handle and gave up.

but since you are following almost all the same blogs what's going to change?

well you see my dear literary device i have 2 other side blogs! one i made not long after this and another in 2018. the first one was for ~aesthetic~ posts that didn't quite fit what i was reblogging and at first contained bit more original content. the second one was for fanart and fan content that i didn't quite feel spaming my main blog with. it holds a great deal more explicit content as well. with bo's burning place i intend to not edit the stream of conciousness that is my blog so here's what to expect on my new blog:

more original content. i need to start publically stating my opinion if i want to go back to academia and get my ba. i need to start getting used to making 0 note flops because as currently is i'm afraid that if i commit a single thought to writing i'll be ridiculed and exlied. will these be meaningful thoughts? ohnononoo! it's whatever mundane 30 note post doesnt sit right with me for some petty reason or ruminations on breakfast.

spam. i mean the same picture of the same anime blorbo, reblogged 47 times in a row. i see them when i close my eyes and so will you. i will see about making a spam reblog blog if this annoys too many mutuals

more(?) explicit content. i've already started reblogging everything i would've put on a side but i never fully commited to it.

regular smegular reblogs of art, funnies and animal videos as you've come to know this blog

occasional still life photo or painting that i want to lick

for this reason i miiight dip my toe into using tags as they were intendid. i hate typing out tags so no promises

why did i drag the transition out this long?

i thought tumblr would send me one of those "your blog is x years old" notifications and i could post it. according to my archive it shouldve been sent by now but i also have vague memories of getting one in april like years ago? i also vaguely remember making this blog on my pc alone after midnight on new years when i was 14... who knows when this blog was really made, ive surely given up guessing.

anyway i feel like i once more overrated my own importance.

we here at not a newspaper magazine thank our esteemed readers for (nearly) 10 years of being a weird shut-in with us!

[bardan-jusik]

I love how much you love kal 🩷 I am not his biggest fan bc I detest how traviss' misogyny seems to come out mostly thru him as opposed to other characters, especially through the way he treated etain but your take about flaws being an integral part of what makes a person themself is CHEF'S KISS 🤌

omg thank you so much 🥰 i can, have, and will talk about him for hours, i will write a thesis statement, i will make a powerpoint, i will wax poetic about the themes of repcomm and how much they mean to me interminably

goddd please don't take this as me trying to change your mind or arguing with you or anything, i totally understand that the books were written in like 2004 and kt has had some. unfortunate. blog posts ect ect

i am also never trying to bash etain in any way to defend my favoritest blorbo kal skirata, i definitely think that her character arc was poorly handled and the narrative itself was unkind to her. i don't blame any of the characters for that and i choose to believe the best of her as a character despite the narrative fucking her over deeply

i just don't think kal reads as misogynistic

even narratively with many of the female characters beginning to do traditional 'women's work' like cooking ect, the characters treat laseema's ability to run a kitchen for several dozen people as a hugely valuable skill, and most of those women with like, the exception of rav, are not trained as fighters, and it would be hugely irresponsible for the soldier characters to be like 'hey do you wanna come on this mission even though you have no idea how to do black ops shit so that i don't look like im being discriminatory'

that rant aside, and LET US NOT FORGET BESANY MOTHERFUCKIN 'STARTED AN ARMED SIEGE IN A HOSPITAL' WENNEN

here is my take on how kal treated etain and her pregnancy announcement

-nobody ever mentions the Check Incident when they talk about this. etain did something that greatly upset ordo, and although she was right and her actions saved besany's life, one of the points of repcomm is that no matter how morally correct or justified your action was, the consequences of it don't go away. and then instead of trying to solve it directly with ordo (which is fair because ordo is scary as fuck and also violently angry with her about it, and kal is pretty approachable) she talks to kal about it instead. he was pretty unhappy about that, and to him that looks like her not really treating ordo as a man and an equal

-after the initial blowup, kal isn't unkind to her. i believe the next time they actually see each other in person was on dorumaa when she was having complications, and he was concerned and was nice to her despite how messy the last time they saw each other was. etain was anxious he would still be mad at her, but he wasn't

-yes, he is angry with her at first. he blows up. he's an angry person, that's a very, very core trait of his- he perceived one of his sons being taken advantage of, if he didn't get angry about that he wouldn't be kal skirata

-i hate to bring this up but it is canonical that etain intended to become pregnant, on purpose, while suggesting to darman that she wasn't going to get pregnant. and i choose to believe that that's kt fucking her over narratively. but she did do something without even talking to darman about it at all, and then just like with checking ordo, went to kal about it instead expecting him to be able to fix the problem

-and he did. sure, he made demands, he didn't leave her much choice at all, he threatened her. but he did give her what she asked for. her intention was to give darman a mandalorian son, and kal did what he felt he needed to do to make sure darman's son was raised as a mandalorian

honestly my ideal fix-it for that scenario is actually kal going one step FARTHER and forcing etain to resign from her rank, and possibly the order if she has to. you chose to be a mother. you can't also be a general. for both your safety, and the safety of the baby, you cannot HAVE A PREGNANT WOMAN ACTIVELY PARTICIPATING IN A WAR JESUS CHRIST (yes he thought qiilura should be as safe as possible but STILL)

and just like with etain and ordo, no matter how justified your action was, you still have to face the consequences. and kal does when darman punches his lights out about it lol

also #ETAINLIVES. in anything i ever write or draw or have headcanons about lol. 501st is a whump fic with interesting character information to me, basically. last couple chapters of order 66 on ain't canon. not in my heart.

[swampgallows]

i wish i had the trust and/or anonymity to post about my real life problems on a blog because i feel like that's the kind of therapy i need. i can gather my thoughts much easier when i type than when i'm speaking, i meander too much and my emotions can conflict with what im trying to communicate. but when i'm writing, i can collect myself and better articulate my thoughts and feelings, and even when stream of consciousness i feel it is more coherent than my speech. the benefit of having bloggers read what i write is that they can analyze my mind through analyzing my text, and as someone bred in the fetid moat encircling the ivory tower of academia, textual analysis—the meta "thinking about thinking"—is one of the few languages i feel i proficiently speak. though i suppose on the therapist's end this would feel more like homework or a book report, having 'take home reading' that they then have to annotate and probe me about at our next meeting, but i feel it would make our in-person discussions more comprehensive and promote progress, rather than feeling harried to reach an epiphany in under an hour (i understand the modern arguments for abolishing homework, but for my school's workload in comparison to the length of the average class period i doubt we would have actually learned anything without it; 50 minutes is just not enough time for a fifteen year old to digest jerzy kosinski.)

before zoom and telehealth became prolific i attempted online therapy services through a questionable provider, who assured me i was free to write to her between sessions, "as much as you like". only to be told after a session or two that my letters were too long, and she is "not paid by the word". this humiliated me so deeply that i didnt try therapy again for years, nor did i write down my feelings as often, or make personal posts beyond a line or two. as a result, it was one of the angriest, most bitter, tumultuous, and (barring recently) suicidal periods of my life. being told i was a great writer, that i "should be" a writer, that i should always write, that i am encouraged to write, and then receiving the heel turn that she couldn't be bothered to read what i'd written despite me paying her, it crushed one of my few mediums of self-expression that i actually care about. i dont care that im still a shitty artist; it was never my main method of communication. writing is. it's not as flowery as most prose, even on tumblr; i'm no inkskinned or caretaker or whoever that girl is that posts aesthetic quotes sourced from her own unwritten book gregory berrycone style, but im being myself and for the most part saying what i intend to say. and if my intentions aren't to be beautiful, which they usually are not, then i doubt i will strive to be. above all i want to be heard and understood. so maybe my language is more plain, more blunt, less baroque, but to complain of its length or effort is an admonishment of my existence. "why are you still here?"

[ask-philgraves]

Update?

very triggering content all around the board. please be cautious.

Hi so uh, yall deserve some sort of explanation for why ive been gone and just sort of ditched this mfer in the backseat, so heres the full, unedited reason with no grammarly and shit.

i am *still* getting hate mail on this blog from the whole situation previously. i dont care about it, but its clogging my inbox, and its getting tedious to remove. on top of this, my health is getting worse. my migraines are more frequent, more debilitating. my insurance is refusing to help in any way shape or form for any of my issues and they're only suggesting that i do things they dont cover before they allow the medically necessary surgeries i need, which is now totaling to three total.

in the past 3 months, i have had 4 seizures, passed out/went unconcious 6 times, and my pain has not been any sort of managable. it has been debilitating, to the point my boyfriend had been taking care of my dog for me before i came back to my grandparents (to finish flipping a dresser and pack.)

my brother, who is a marine in the usmc, has turned into a christian nationalist, and is ruining our family with his ideals. i refuse to speak with him at the moment, because he told me i was going to burn in hell for being a pagan, and it was a good thing im detransitioning and my boyfriend can put me in a womans place. (i never transitioned, just changed my label from transmasc to nonbinary.)

my mental health has been in the gutter, and my bf and i have gotten into a huge argument. we are still together, everythings okay, but it caused me to relapse with my self harm, and because of that i have gotten really ill because i am immunocompromised.

the government is pissing me off, and so is my family. the united states is officially a fascist police state. it was before it's just way more outward now. everything is doom and gloom, and i have been up for 26 hours because of my insomnia and ptsd.

i start a new job soon, and move in officially with my bf soon. im trying to look on the good days, the good side of things, but im quite literally exhausted.

for everyone to understand: no, i am not suicidal, but when my time comes i will gladly leave the earth so i wont suffer anymore. i love life, but i fucking hate everything about my life. my bodys issues, my brain, my trauma, all of it. it sucks.

i didnt make this as a pity party, i just needed to tell yall that im not the so called saviour nor did i intend to be because bitch, i can barely save myself most days. i havent ate in 48 hours. not because of an ED but because the smell of food has made me nauseous and my migraine get worse.

everythings shit right now, i know it will be better with medicine, but now the government is talking about getting rid of that too, so who fucking knows. not me!

anyways, enough of this. ill post funny videogame pics of a flying swimming fish in Isle Evrima that I captured when i wake up.

love you all, cassie<33

[angel-in-your-basement]

common cala emotional maturity W ‼️🙌👏👏✨ (but in all seriousness i really appreciate the way you respond to anons patiently and take the time to educate when you feel it appropriate- its rare for me to see the amount of patience and compassion that you express anywhere on the internet and even when im myself not learning anything new its very heartening to read and encourages me to have more patience as well. - not to say that i think people MUST ALWAYS respond this way no matter what. i think its important to not exhaust yourself with those kinds of responses because 1. its not your responsibility to educate every stranger and 2. itll completely wear down your patience and compassion eventually. but i feel like you know all this already haha. anyway im rambling but i just wanted to express my appreciation for you and your posts! please have a nice day and a fun treat)

Hi! Thank you so much 🤭

It’s funny cause I never really intended for this blog to involve education or deep discussion. I really did just want to be a horny goblin on the internet, and that is like 95% of what I do. But people are always going to be people, which means inevitably this stuff comes up. And most people aren’t taught anything about this stuff. So if someone learns something through my more serious posts that helps them make sense of something or feel better about themselves, then I am satisfied.

Sex and kink are such vulnerable, under-discussed topics, and I think it’s helpful for people to see that you can approach these darker themes in a way that is healthy and safe. That’s not really what I set out to do with this blog, but I am content that it’s become a part of it all the same.

And at the end of the day, I create discussion because I enjoy it, cause I’m a huge nerd for psychology, as well as being a gross little slut! And I am so so glad that people find that interesting, relatable and helpful 🥰🥰🥰

[lagooneah]

Hello Hello!! Your girl is back and better than ever (i never left).

Soooooo- if you knew me from my other account, Tailored-CasetteTapes, and if you read my extremely long intro post too, then you know that i initially intended for that to be a fanfiction account. Then I started getting busy, posted like two fics in full, and then dipped and just reposted and made posts about Blue Lock for about 2 months 😭. I'm a changed woman, alright? I'm actually serious about sharing my writing and potentially artwork on here to try and find my place in the community, moots and friends who are into the same stuff i am, and so on. SO here we go again...

I go by Rain usually on here and other online platforms, and that's still the case! I go by She/Her pronouns.

Im into writing, drawing, listening to music, reading, hiking... The list goes on, It'd take forever if i listed all the stuff I did, but that's good for now. I wouldnt say im "emo", but i definetly go for the darker aestethic most of the time, though im not afraid to step out of that and explore my boundless whimsy (i cant stop making jokes about everything) I'm a super sentimental hopeless romantic who'll love and accept anybody, so long as they don't hurt others.

I absolutely adore writing, and I have for most of my life. I'm looking to expand my horizons and write a bit more in different contexts and genres, and I hope I can use this blog for that reason!

So with that- here are some fandoms I'm in, guidelines for what I'll write with requests, and so on!

Small warning- mentions of dark/slightly disturbing topics under the cut!

Fandoms I am in and willing to write for!

In no particular order...

Six of Crows (Some book and TV show both)

Dune Part 1 and 2

Spiderverse/Insomniac Spider Games/Venom Movies/etc

Fire Emblem: Three Houses

Attack on Titan (Mainly first 2 ish seasons)

Lies of P

Pokemon

Blue Lock

WindBreaker

Maybe some Gachiakuta (i need to catch up)

Resident Evil 2, 3, 4, and some 8

My Hero Academia

Harry Potter as well as Marauders

Tokyo Revengers

A little Persona 5

The Legend of Zelda

Star Wars

Umbrella Academy

Jujutsu Kaisen

Fullmetal Alchemist

Final Fantasy 7 and 15

Most Tim Burton Films

Arcane

Trigun Stampede

Mazerunner (Mainly movie 1 and half ish of 2)

The Hunger Games

Hunter X Hunter

Demon Slayer

Marvel

A little Soul Eater

Some Sally Face

The Promised Neverland

Yugioh

Jurassic Park/Jurassic World Trilogies

Some Silent Hill 2

The Golden Compass/some of His Dark Materials

A Series of Unfortunate Events

Tintin

Avatar (like, the blue people lmao)

Genshin Impact (take my poc headcanons because Genshin cannot do it themselves)

As well as some fandoms I'm just now getting into and reading for...

Tokyo Ghoul

Teen Wolf

DC/Batfam stuff

Gachiakuta

Gokurakugai

Phantom Busters

X Men

Squid Game

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Dead Plate

The King on Netflix

Bones and All..?

Omori

Kingdom Hearts

Kaiju No. 8

Hellsing/ Hellsing Ultimate

I feel like there's more but thats enough I think for now (I'm aware how crazy the wide range of hyperfixations i have)

So! Here are my Do's and Don't's for asks/what I'll write on my own!

Do's:

I will write for any body type, any gender and sex, any race/ethnicity, ANY identity! Just please provide me a lil detail for any specific requests and I'll do my best!

I will write for people with various disabilities, mental illness, and so on- just the same as the previous, please give me a little detail!

I will write Fluff, Angst, a lil bit of spice but not too much. Romantic or Platonic, whatever you like!

I will write shorter fics, as well as longer part stories. Headcannons for whatever, mini scenarios- you name it.

Im okay with writing horror/slightly gorey content, I'll just put a warning and likely keep it to a minimum.

Im ONLY ok with writing about SA or SA victims if it is clearly NOT romanticized and matters to the plot/experience. You will not catch me writing SA just for the sake of it, that is a serious topic that I care about and the people who suffer through that do not deserve a book tok rendition of the worst experience of their life.

I will also write for any ship, so long it is not a proship or otherwise morally incorrect.

Don't's:

I will NOT write proships. If you are a proshipper do not interact with me the block and report buttons are my favorite buttons.

I will not write pure smut- I can do maybe some implications and/slightly heated scenarios- but smut is just a little out of my comfort zone for now.

With that, I will NOT write anything remotely non-con- unless it's like a "this happened to reader and (insert character) defended you" again, shown how bad it is, i will not write it.

I don't really feel comfortable with "x celebrity" or any "x real person" fics. It feels a little parasocial and a breach of privacy. That's just what I believe.

I think that's it? If I have anything else i could always update this, but for now this is what it is! I look forward to writing more and hopefully fulfilling any requests i can!

Bye bye for now!

[ivanaskye]

10 books to read for 2025

tagged by @vardasvapors, though as i already mentioned in the notes of her post, "bold of you to assume my reading list has ever been "planned" "ahead of time" and isn't instead the most chaotic grabbing things when they vaguely strike my interest you can imagine"

but anyway! i can some up with SOME things im intending to read in a kind of planned way. maybe. possibly.

The Republic of Salt by Ariel Kaplan - sequel to The Pomegranate Gate, which I quite liked. i have completely failed to 'naturally happen to run into this book' so i will have to like, 'look for it', but I've already identified a library that has it... now I just have to go there...

Codes of the Underworld: How Criminals Communicate by Diego Gambetta - this was uh, recced on bret deveraux's blog, and sounds precisely down my alley as nonfiction goes. I love concrete details about things. Give me all of them. however available at 0 libraries except as ebook, which means I either need to buy it or read it on ebook or both, which sounds like "steps"

Entangled Life by Merlin Sheldrake - Andie happened to grab the abridged edition with many mushroom photos from the library, but it's abriiiiidged, I'd rather actually read it (and then also look at the photos). so, again, might have to... find it...

The Raven Scholar by Antonia Hodgson - not even out yet but I think is out next Tuesday? saw a review of this that made it sound directly down my alley

The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoyevsky - if/when Andie tracks down a good translation of this for her own reread, that'll make this easier. I did bros karamazov as ebook which worked great, but now that I've been librarypilled I'm so out of practice with reading ebooks?? the dilemmas. I'm realizing that this list is only making me sound more chaotic and insane in every way

The Familiar vol.3 by Mark Z. Danielewski - maybe??? I read the first two volumes years and years ago and fell off partway through the third. Have been kind of meaning in the back of my mind to attempt a reread of the ones I already have, and if it's working better for me this time (I fell off because it hit my mental issues at 2016 at some resonant frequency that made me ~insane) can just continue from there.

Inventing the Renaissance by Ada Palmer - look it's ada palmer........ yes i realize this is nonfiction but also sounds interesting and i trust her

Careless People: A Cautionary Tale of Power, Greed, and Lost Idealism by Sarah Wynn-Williams - I think we've all heard about this one on tumblr. speaking of 'contains many exciting concrete details!' I'm def interested in checking it out.

The Ephemera Collector by Stacy Nathaniel Jackson - literally just the next thing sitting on my pile of books because 'it looked maybe cool'. apparently this is the author's debut novel at the age of 65, which itself might be suggestive of it being not-like-other-things!

(EXTREME stretch goal, what are the chances) The Qu'ran - to be honest, I probably should be approaching this with the goal of "well, I've never read, like, any of it, so I should do some" instead of "what if I read the whole thing" but i sort of feel like i 'should' do the latter if I'm going to do it. realistically what's probably going to happen is that instead of this im going to read uh some of the talmud once i finish my torah reread uh

uhhh i can't think of anyone to tag that andie didn't already tbh. so! consider yourself tagged if you want to be!

[orangepeelshortbreadcookies]

Hello!!! sorry i jum in here but i saw many post of your as a polin pen hater. You can hate what you want of course but its necessary to lie just to hate a character because of her body??? it wasnt that bad, she was not mean.

yes, what she did telling the ton marinas secret was not the best choise but it was what she thought it was the only way. Do you all wish for colin a marriage with not love?? and in a more practical way this is fiction and we all now he was going t end with pen , they are end game and thi is romance, its suppouse to be romantic that theu found each other, and for me it is. She didnt told marina secret because she wants colin for herself , she never thought she cold have him. maybe yo dont understand this but we, fat girls who are foung unattractive NEVER expect love or having a man, even less somone like colin. I think you, as many sadly, jugdge Pen actions too strong and deep down its all becuase of how she looks. Depp down i know you judge her action strongly becuase you can't accept that a woman who looks like that get something. I know you will keep hating, just want to say my opinion

(2) I saw you ask once why we ( pen fans) are mad when people hate her like you do if we got everything, saying like she happy and get married and LW. i will answer that from my perspective. Im fat, people is mean and that herats and yes, maybe it not a good things but it nice to have a revenge for all that suffering , but beside that i feel represented FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME in a romance show, ALL THE ROMANCE FEMALE LEADS AND THIN WOMAN and for the first times she looks like me but everyone is hating her becuase of how she looks and the worst is anyone accept its becuase of that, you all write long essays jugdging her actions but as i said, Were her actions that bad???? think about it fr......

Others please also refer to this post for more context.

I did not intend to answer this ask, because honestly, I'm really very lazy. Since there are only so many ways I can make my argument against the same accusation over and over again, especially to someone who clearly doesn't want to listen, I figured ignoring was the right decision. I'd rather spend my creative energy and efforts on my own writings, instead of figuring out another elaborate wording on how being critical of a character's actions does not equate fatphobia, and that personal adversity does not equal a 'get out of jail' free card for repeatedly inflicting pain on other people on a mass scale. I've talked about it in depth in my own blog, as well as reblogging other eloquent, well thought-out posts from others, Polin fans and anti-Polin fans alike. You can just scroll through my blog to see that. But I don't think you have come after me, time and again, to be convinced.

Even now, I still think ignoring you would have been the smarter, or at least, easier course of action for me. But I digress. Maybe it's one of those days where I feel more confrontational, maybe my ADHD is acting up and my meds are not hitting as well today, maybe after weeks of stress-filled personal achievements I'm feeling talkative seeing someone trying to disturb my peace. Nontheless, since you've made diligent efforts in seeking out my response, today's your lucky day, once and for all.

Something my mutuals and followers might have learned about me, is that I, being pretty fucking lazy, don't post/write a lot. To remedy this, when I do post, oftentimes I try to be as thorough as I possibly can. So, in the spirit of being thorough, here's a little log of the things I have received in the past weeks, on this site as well as on AO3, some of which, @cherryblossom970sblog, I have reasons to believe came from you

So you feel represented by character. Awesome. Good for you. You should celebrate it with like-minded people. You think nobody likes Penelope the way you do? Find the ones who do. I can assure you, they exist. I saw them daily on my dash. Read fics that bring you joy. Don't read the ones that don't. I have seen way too many Penelope/Anthony, Penelope/Benedict or even Penelope/Gregory fics, or fics where Penelope just straight up abused Colin that are celebrated in the comments. I don't like those and you know what I do? Scroll past those fics or click out of those and not read them. You know what I don't do? Go after the writers, try to police their writing, and accuse them of bigotry for not catering to my preferences.

Accept the fact that it's not going to be a 100% percent approval rating. And that's fine. That's part of life. I'm a primary Benophie fan, I've seen people wanting Benedict to end up with different people. It's their prerogative, I leave them alone. I have mutuals who have different takes on actions of Kate, Edwina, and Anthony, with varying degrees of feelings regarding how season 2 ends, and I have my own opinions. Personally, I find all three parties were wrong in that triangle, especially Anthony, and the sisterhood between Kate and Edwina in that season ought to have been handled with more respect and care. And my mutuals and I have civil, nuanced discussions about such things and ending those with still different opinions. That's okay. They're fictional characters and their actions are up to character analysis. It's fine.

What ISN'T fine is obssessively stalking inboxes of strangers, REAL people, unleashing insane level of hate and prejudices in defence of a FICTIONAL character, and accusing them of crimes they OBJECTIVELY did not commit, all because they don't share your opinions. I know you don't think this kind of behaviour is okay, you said so yourself that it's not a good thing. You've experienced fatphobia, you have my sympathies for that, but it doesn't give you the right to be shitty to other people. Your own bad experiences do not entitle you to disrespect, dismiss, invalidate and insult the people you harassed, including me, many of which are WoCs who have valid concerns regarding how their own experiences are represented and treated on the show. My struggles of being a bisexual, Asian, immigrant woman does not excuse me from being toxic to people who have done me no harm. I will not be vindicated in demeaning someone who have criticisms against the actions of fictional character who share my traits, criticisms that I just happen to disagree with.

And frankly, I find reducing the nuances of a character or person to only their bodies, to contribute (as either condemn or excuse) their actions to be only the result of their bodies, fucking insulting. It's infantalising and dehumanising.

Have a nice day and happy shipping. Leave us alone.

[rileys-battlecats]

omg?? i adore everything ab all of ur work, but especially ur warriors oc stuff. all the characters are so well-characterized and designed. and also the names?? did i mention designs?? honestly mudpaw is one of the most relatable characters ive ever seen. also i love that the other apprentices are actually understanding and more like actual children cats instead of existing to be mean. (ok that sounds like im saying children aren’t mean i promise some of them are)

but like, to the actual question/s. how did you come up with the concept and get it to this point? in that one commentary video you made, i remember you mentioning that he used to be mudstripe, and he was a serial killer (sidenote that’s actually so baddie) although you decided that you wanted to tell the story of a victim rather than a villian. but did it take a lot of thinking to get micaclan as a whole to this point, or did it just kinda come naturally? also im so sorry i typed an entire essay

WAAAAHHSVDJHSDJAB THANK YOU :') also you don't ever have to apologize for sending me essays in my inbox I love asks like this <3 <3

The story and world as they are now have developed incrementally over time. In the beginning, I never really intended to make anything more for this story beyond "Johnny". I had a very specific animatic visualized for that song (because I'd been listening to it on loop for days lol), and I made characters and a story that fit with the idea.

After making and uploading it, though, the characters and their story kept knocking around in my brain!! I wanted to expand on them, and to develop them more. If my memory is right, "Johnny" was the first time I'd ever made a video telling a story of my own making (previous projects had all been stuff from existing media), and I was excited by the idea of making more :) the storytelling aspect was really interesting to me!

I started coming up with more details in my head, things like character traits and names and the next story beats I wanted to portray. By the time I made "The Garden", I'd worked up at least a loose idea of the story in my head (though I wasn't sure where exactly I was going to take it in the end at that point), and I had designed most of the clan members (mostly to fill backgrounds tbh).

Then, some folks in the youtube comments started asking about references for the different characters, and I started this blog to share them! This is definitely the point where I got REALLY into worldbuilding and fleshing out characters haha. Each reference I posted included a little bit of text about the character, and I got to put to words some of the ideas I'd had previously. Or, it gave me the opportunity to come up with some character traits for background characters I hadn't given much thought to previously! Then people started engaging with the blog more, and having people ask questions gave me the opportunity to think about lots of different aspects of the story, characters, and world. From there, it feels like the entire story expanded, bit by bit, detail by detail. So it definitely took a lot of thinking, but that thinking happened pretty naturally over time, if that makes sense!

[thegreatimpersonator]

okay so I'm gonna share my personal experience with you. Im 29 and two years ago I ended a relationship with my former boyfriend. We dated for 5 years. I overromanticised every single aspect of that relationship and told people that we're totally fine even if I knew deep down that that wasn't true but I guess I never realised it back then because I was so caught up in that lavender haze (no pun intended). only when I got out of that relationship I realised that those 5 years were the absolute hell and it was just me being too optimistic about everything. That being said, if Taylor feels that way too (which we don't know! And we shouldn't because it's not us!) I get her changing those songs because idk maybe she sees the song lover as something else now (that it actually was never that good) BUT she should know better to not put it out in the world like that. She knows her power and influence and she knows her massive fanbase that will eat this shit up. She's allowed to feel like that but she shouldn't make it public. That's what these people need to realise. None of us is telling her she isn't allowed to feel how she feels but she shouldn't force all that information onto us because she's in her 30s and at that age you should know better what your rabid fanbase will do with that information.

Anyways! I love you and your blog and I hope you don't take all the hateful messages you're getting right now too much on your heart, I appreciate you and your opinions very much Sarah, I hope you have a lovely day🤍

yes exactly! lets use the hypothetical scenario that you brought up: lets say your situation is what taylor is going through and she wrote a song on ttpd that has a lot of ties to lover but references how she feels now, like there are parallels to how she used to feel vs now. that's great! thats a beautiful and common practice, if she were to do that it would also be very mature of her to be aware of how immature her fanbase is and do something like ariana grande did with her album and post something like this:

her expressing and processing her emotions through her art while also corralling her crazy fanbase and trying to prevent them from harassing and hurting people would be great, but instead, she's pointing out old love songs and being like 'no this song is actually about ignoring red flags' and changing the entire identity based on how she feels at any given moment, while also riling up her fanbase even more is just messy.

[miss-mossball]

hi!! im the same anon who sent that ask, that makes me really happy to hear!! we were worried it may have come across as rude somehow but we're glad it meant well as intended!!! and heck yeah!! we're so glad to hear you're doing good.

DID rep is something that matters a lot to us,, to where we were actually very nervous engaging with the idea and showing our own perspectives on it. because we somehow got it in our head that people would accuse us of faking it. or misrepresenting, or whatever the sort. which! seems a little silly, now that it's put into words,

but those types of insecurities rule over us, so seeing it elsewhere is very deeply encouraging!! we're two years out of our bad life, and like... a year into figuring out who we are. so i think that'd be a good start! ehehe...

it's hard to accept the idea of being treated softly, even Now, but maybe it'd be easier to get used to the idea and the feeling if it's not.. Directly us experiencing that gentleness. hard to say, but an exciting experiment to conduct in soon time.

....this got deep i initially came here to make an amusing observation,

wanted to say 'wassup fellow ally of the Moss Allegiance' because i used to be called moss online, so my partner whose also been very deeply supportive of us and our explorations of our everything calls us marimo!

I only took your ask as something nice, please don't worry <3

DID rep is super important for me too! (which is why I have a review blog specifically for reviewing DID in media - @bunnidid-reviews ) I haven't done a proper review in a while, but I'm always trying to sniff out pieces of media that treat DID with compassion most of all

About your insecurities of being fakeclaimed, I can relate to that. I've done many things to mitigate ever being directly pointed at for having DID, like partitioning off my parts stuff and integrating them into stories so they're more like OCs, as well as changing details so when people do get nasty, at least I have some distance. It's not a silly fear, it can be very destabilizing when the disorder is based on denial itself. However, I've only ever had two people try to fakeclaim me, and one is a stalker who doesn't understand DID but I trusted with details with, and the other was someone who seemed very insecure about their own DID. Both those people don't know me well enough to actually say if I do or not, when I've been knowing and working around this for about 8 years.

And as for not feeling worthy of being treated softly, you are. But I also understand the struggles with not feeling worthy or conflicted about it, which is a major theme of my art. It might be worthwhile exploring the darker themes of the disorder in your art and stories. I find it helps me a lot to put my feelings into some sort of form that I can also look at later.

Also, no one says you have to post it publicly! I have dozens of writings that the public will never see. I have art I don't share with anyone at all. I just post here so Rou and Chime can see it without me shoving it in their face =v= )b (I also cant tell when im developing OCs or if parts are drawing always)

Ummm anyway thank you for your asks <3 Sorry for the super long ramble, this is stuff I'm passionate about. Much love and care your way fellow Moss!! (moss is great, I love Marimo as a name)