#and they will disable the phone completely

[wenek-jajecznica]

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[colection-of-chaos]

Can Togruta speak Lekku? Because they have head tails...

Do they have an own language with their head tails?

Could they learn Lekku?

Like as a second or third language?

[pumpk-n]

life updates and rambles below da cut

oh wow! happy summer! happy new moon! what the actual FUCK happened to my life. i got fired with NOOOOOOO security net and technically i do need to figure out if that’s fr before i attempt to file for unemployment and grab all of my shit back from them. crazy how you can sacrifice every good mental health day, your relationships and your future, your physical health and your boundaries to stay employed and they’ll still let you go anyways because you have to deal with the repercussions of the actions of being forced to work past the point of burn out for the past four years. things will be so fine and i desperately needed to get out of there but oh boy! i am! nervous! i am scared!

i still hurt this morning, and mornings are harder than the rest of the day, but my pain is easing, and i hope within the week, i’ll return to stiffness and soreness without much pain. i need to stretch and start slow and easy work out routines for myself so i can start to get better again and maybe - just maybe - stay better.

there’s so much advocacy i need to do for myself right now, so much problem solving for someone who can’t think straight when it feels like someone’s ripping my spine apart and tearing my leg off 24/7 but. i don’t have anyone else, so (: im the only one around who can understand legal paperwork and proceedings so i have to redo and file for a new deed for my parents house for my mom and i just. i’m glad i have resources and know how to help but i am so tired of thinking and problem solving, especially for everyone else but god when can i use any energy i have on myself?

all i was hoping for was a month more of my job to get a couple full paychecks under my belt in the coming weeks and to be able to find a new gig by july/august and now i just. i’m tired of being stressed about money. and now it’s worse. i’m at the point of acceptance that just. like what else do you want to throw at me? i can’t even react anymore im just tired. i’ve been going through the motions for so fucking long i want to remember what it feels like to want to wake up in the morning. what it would be like to wake up with my bills caught up, no pain, safe job? i can’t even imagine what that could feel like.

i’m beyond tired, i need a massage, i need help but alas. it’s Just Me. i haven’t felt like myself in so long, i hope i can still find my way back. there’s so much i want, im hoping for, that i need, and it’s nearly impossible to think i can actually do or deserve anything good. i wish i could take a deep breath, i wish i could relax, i want to believe in myself again, i want to be okay and it just…. all seems so unobtainable.

one day i hope i can be more than fine, one day i want to be good.

[clockworksheep2]

god i'm so tired of crying. it's hardly ever real crying, just getting choked up and tearing up and needing to stare at a wall for a couple minutes to shove all that shit back down again.

not sure what to do about welfare this month. need to hand in income paperwork for January by Wednesday but uhhhh

"within three months of starting assistance" well. we are now past that if they're counting from october (when we began the welfare application process), and likely past that if they're counting from our actual acceptance date (nov 26). so what do we do now lol. our counselor dragged her feet on filling our shit out and now I do not know if we will be able to continue receiving assistance.

thank god we have cash and grocery gift cards I guess. in case they boot us off welfare and we have to begin the entire process anew. jesus fucking christ.

I don't know how to fill out our January paperwork now !!!!

[hummerbythesmashingpumpkins]

10 months ago I accidentally put a sim card in my phone without first putting it in the SIM card tray, like a 1000 year old idiot, and I am still facing the repercussions of this dumb ass mistake

[nahidasgarden]

Miss Nahida! or.. lesser lord.. whatever you prefer! ive been learning languages, what do you think I should learn next?

-as Estella/@murderousaudhdcat

Hello! You can call me Nahida!

I think a nice challenge for you would be learning a form of sign language. There are many different kinds of sign languages for different regions, so even if you are familiar with the Sumeru dialect you may still have a pleasant challenge learning Sumerian Sign Language. :)

I see a lot of scholars in the Akedemia overlook learning sign because it may be more interesting to decode ancient texts. Yet, those who may not be able to speak for themselves or hear the outside world also have their own fountains of knowledge.

It's beneficial to learn about other cultures, even if it's within our same country. I think this would be a great challenge for you, Estella!

[leewire]

sorry for the actual shittiest quality ever i can count the pixels omfg. nintendo ds camera

but i got my sunflower lanyard!!! i’m gonna put more pins on it and keychains probably! so yea!! that happened!!

[meduwusa]

i work at a froyo place where customers serve themselves and then i ring them up at the end. theres only one person on shift at a time at my job, so i get to experience every single customer that enters for six hours myself and i am solely responsible for their experience at the store. sometimes this can be overwhelming and stressful, but it also grants me some of the best interactions with people.

the other day i had a 10-year-old boy and his grandmother come into the store during one of our rush times. the boy was being a bit of a disturbance (loud and making a mess), but it was obvious he was excited and there are plenty of kids that come in and do similar things. no reason for me to rain on a kids parade yknow? (not to mention he was teaching some first-timers how to use the machines! put this kid on payroll!) anyway when things died down and there were only a few people left in the store, he was skipping around the room while his grandmother watched from their table. he skipped up to me time and again to ask a question about my job, the machines, the toppings, etc. i would answer and he would skip off again.

as they were leaving, the grandmother stopped to thank me for my patience. she said that he was recently diagnosed with adhd and autism, and many establishments dont tolerate his behavior. that my smile and engagement with him was more than most people bothered to do. i told her that a majority of my friends are on the spectrum as well so i totally get it, and that he was a treat honestly. her eyes lit up. she asked me if they were doing well in life and if they made it through school, and i told her they were doing just fine, making their way through college now. she thanked me again, for a different reason this time.

ive been thinking about that interaction for days now. i hope that woman breathes easier knowing there is more kindness and acceptance in the world for her grandson. i hope that kid grows up well knowing he is loved and not just accepted but welcomed. i hope more people encourage children's joy and enthusiasm, especially for neurodivergent children. there is so much hope and joy and relief in the world, if only you are willing to give it.

[certified-scoundrel]

me: *has had stomach issues since I was very young and chronic joint/muscle pain for over a year*

my father:...

my father: I think its because of all the monster you drink >:(

[abigails-ear]

Only been watching The Pitt for a few days but Mel King is THE best autistic character ever written in a medical drama. She doesn't "make connections no one else can" or "just see things differently" or any other Savant with Special Abilities stereotypical bullshit, she's a resident physician who's exactly as intelligent and capable as any other resident physician in the same year. She hates unnecessary yelling because it's loud and annoying, not because she's completely incapable of handling conflict. She usually keeps her stimming subtle enough to hide but sometimes she can't. She loves having a furry critter to pet. She accommodates an autistic patient by lowering the lights and closing the doors because she understands the sensory nightmare of an active medical setting. She speaks in a straightforward and honest way but she isn't an overtly rude inconsiderate asshole. She misses some jokes and takes things too literally on occasion but she does have a sense of humor and she is funny. She speaks up against misinformation and parent panic about autism and other developmental disabilities. She has emotions. She looks at a video of a lava lamp on her phone to chill. Doctor Mel King you have my entire heart

[mediumsizedqueerlynx]

when your parent says your best isn't good enough but if their best had been good enough you wouldn't even be in this situation

[tophats-tea]

drawing fanart everyday for Danganronpa: A New Generation until the First Episode comes out

Day 359: matter of time

Check out the fangan!

[dont-open-dead-inside-net]

Absurd. Tumblr ads are crashing my touchscreen

[thistlecrimes]

Things I've learned from getting covid for the first time in 2023

I wear an N95 in public spaces and I've managed to dodge it for a long time, but I finally got covid for the first time (to my knowledge) in mid-late November 2023. It was a weird experience especially because I feel like it used to be something everyone was talking about and sharing info on, so getting it for the first time now (when people generally seem averse to talking about covid) I found I needed to seek out a lot of info because I wasn't sure what to do. I put so much effort into prevention, I knew less about what to do when you have it. I'm experiencing a rebound right now so I'm currently isolating. So, I'm making a post in the hopes that if you get covid (it's pretty goddamn hard to avoid right now) this info will be helpful for you. It's a couple things I already knew and several things I learned. One part of it is based on my experience in Minnesota but some other states may have similar programs.

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The World Health Organization states you should isolate for 10 days from first having symptoms plus 3 days after the end of symptoms.

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At the time of my writing this post, in Minnesota, we have a test to treat program where you can call, report the result of your rapid test (no photo necessary) and be prescribed paxlovid over the phone to pick up from your pharmacy or have delivered to you. It is free and you do not need to have insurance. I found it by googling "Minnesota Test to Treat Covid"

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Paxlovid decreases the risk of hospitalization and death, but it's also been shown to decrease the risk of Long Covid. Long Covid can occur even from mild or asymptomatic infections.

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Covid rebound commonly occurs 2-8 days after apparent recovery. While many people associate Paxlovid with covid rebound, researchers say there is no strong evidence that Paxlovid causes covid rebound, and rebounds occur in infections that were not treated with Paxlovid as well. I knew rebounds could happen but did not know it could take 8 days. I had mine on day 7 and was completely surprised by it.

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If you start experiencing new symptoms or test positive again, the CDC states that you should start your isolation period again at day zero. Covid rebound is still contagious. Personally I'd suggest wearing a high quality respirator around folks for an additional 8-9 days after you start to test negative in case of a rebound.

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Positive results on a rapid test can be very faint, but even a very faint line is positive result. Make sure to look at your rapid test result under strong lighting. Also, false negatives are not uncommon. If you have symptoms but test negative taking multiple tests and trying different brands if you have them are not bad ideas. My ihealth tests picked up my covid, my binax now tests did not.

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EDIT: I'd highly suggest spending time with friends online if you can, I previously had a link to the NAMI warmline directory in this post but I've since been informed that NAMI is very much funded by pharmaceutical companies and lobbies for policies that take autonomy away from disabled folks, so I've taken that off of here! Sorry, I had no idea, the People's CDC listed them as a resource so I just assumed they were legit! Feel free to reply/reblog this with other warmlines/support resources if you know of them! And please reblog this version!

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I know that there is so much we can't control as individuals right now, and that's frightening. All we can do is try our best to reduce harm and to care for each other. I hope this info will be able to help folks.

[exxistential-nightmare]

"the trick is to recognize that there’s nothing intrinsically exhausting about reading a book or painting a picture or doing any of the activities that are meaningful to you."

For disabled people like myself, quotes like this are simply not true. My main hobbies are crafting - crochet, drawing, painting, etc. They are exhausting, and they hurt to do. They are not simple tasks that require no thought or energy the same way they are for abled people and I really wish we could start recognising that as a society. Because when people say shit like "Oh, it takes no effort to sit and read a book", yes it does. I have to continuously move to stay comfortable, I can't focus on the words or understand them in the correct order, I have no visual imagination so I have to interpret the visual ideas in the pages myself, based on memory and reference.

Yes, for non-disabled people this is great advice, but to the crips out there like me, this is just another way to induce guilt over my disability and a reminder that abled people don't get it with our symptoms.

In terms of like, Please For The Love Of God Get Hobbies That Aren’t Scrolling Through An App For Six Hours A Day, I understand and experience completely the argument of like. with the stressors of modern work, you don’t have the energy at the end of the day to do anything but mindlessly watch Netflix and scroll through your phone. but like I would like to gently encourage you to simply force yourself for a time to do something instead of pick up your phone, bc the phone is literally designed to light up your brain with no effort from you whatsoever and it does in fact rot your brain. It makes literally anything but scrolling on your phone seem difficult and joyless. But if you stop scrolling on your phone all the time, and start like, reading or embroidering or gardening or going for walks, you will eventually find the joy in them once more

I understand and it is true that it is hard to have a life outside work and scrolling but there is not a near future where that won’t be the case and you should still live a life. And you won’t create a future where that isn’t the case if you don’t have the confidence and experience and drive to fight for it

[yourlocalbreadenthusiast]

Kindly take a break from scrolling to read this, it's important.

Take your time to grieve and come to terms with the election results, but once you've done that, it's time to get to work. We have two months. And a lot to do in that time. We have to prepare, to be ready.

Be careful about what you post or say online. Anything potentially incriminating should be avoided. Threatening language, even if clearly a joke, can be used against you.

Know someone who's trans? Someone who's had an abortion? Someone who's LGBTQIA+? Someone who's an immigrant? Someone who attends protests? Someone who's disabled? Someone who might in any way be at risk due to laws being put into place? No you don't.

Move away from social media platforms and browsers that require you to use your real identity or input a large amount of personal information. Now's a good time to find alternate means of communicating online. Tails, Element, Tor, Mastodon, Firefox, and Lemmy are all decent options.

Find a community. Someone you can talk to, either online or in real life, that you'll have reliable contact with. We need to try and create a network, but one that's as anonymous as possible.

Start scrubbing your trail as much as possible. Get rid of old accounts that can still be traced to you but are no longer used, delete personal data off the internet. There are websites out there that will freely remove your data from the internet, but be careful about which one you use, make sure it's safe and legitimate first.

Change any usernames that you can that contain any personal information. Names, birthdays, anything.

Plan B has a four year shelf life. Stock up, but don't take more than you you'll need. We don't want a COVID repeat where everyone buys an excessive amount of things and leaves none for everybody else.

There are doctors that will sterilize you, if that's the way you want to go.

Stop using online period trackers right now. Delete all data from it if possible first, then delete the app itself. If you must, write it down, but in a subtle manner and on something you keep at home. Don't label it, just put the dates. If you're really worried, discard older records and only keep the most recent few, and label the dates as other random events, like "go to mall" or "chicken salad for dinner this night"

Get your vaccines now.

Save money.

Archive. We have to start collecting records, media, data, books, and articles now. On racism, on fascism, on homophobia, on gender, on self-reliance, on survival, on safe travels routes, on equality, on justice, on anything that may be useful and/or censored soon. We can't let them erase it.

Collect those online resources. Bookmark them, copy files into your storage, Screenshot pages. Create a decentralized library where everyone is working to be part of a whole, storing what they can individually and sharing it between one another. Again, be careful about doing this.

Second-hand bookstores are your best friend. Books are usually very cheap in them, and they often have a decent stock. See what you can find.

When buying ANYTHING I have mentioned above, or anything else that maybe put you in danger, try to use cash to reduce your spending trail.

Check your car information online, many newer models can be remotely tracked.

Turn your phone completely off if you may be at risk due to your location and current activities. Turning off your GPS also helps.

Take note of where you are. Who are your friends? Who's a safe person? Where can you go besides your own home that you know you'll be safe? Establish these connections now.

Who around you is not safe? Who and where do you need to avoid? Do you need to move? If you cannot afford moving but need to, there are fundraisers that can help you. If even that is not an option, at least try to make sure your home is secure. Have someone who can help you. Have a fallback safe place.

And finally, I want anyone with resources to put them in the replies. Flood it with useful links, information, tips, anything. We're in this together. Do not panic. Organize.

EDIT: Please be civil in the replies.