#and we all know thats worse than being angry

[superhero-smackdown]

not gonna lie im a little miffed damian wayne hasnt been submitted considering the entirety of last years tournament had him as the profile picture

[silverislander]

have discovered a new enemy while doing research for the honours essay. why are you pretending to understand psychology and BLATANTLY misinterpreting actual terms and concepts in order to tear down a movie aimed at teenage girls, my good bitch. i'm going to start biting

[animeshotsh]

Thats MY kid | Dad!Lucifer x Kid!Reader x "Uncle"Alastor |

Summary: Alastor wants to take you out for some time with him!

Warnings: SFW | Probably OOC | Uncle!Alastor | Slight!YandereAlastor | Cursing | Canon violence | Canon hell |

Alastor tried to convince himself he was doing this to piss Lucifer off. No, he did not have any type of attachment to you, he did not see you as his own kid (even if you totally ignored his half request to be called dad when not being around Lucifer). And no, he was not hurt by that.

Right?

Yeah well no. You had touched his heart somehow and now Alastor was down bad, he swears you must have some type of demonic magic (and not just you being you and being amazing) because no one (only his mother) made him feel so much love in his life or after life.

"Uncle?" Your voice called him making Alastor look at you with his signature simile. "Why was dad angry when you showed up?"

~☆~☆~☆~

Earlier that day.

"ABSOLUTLY NO. GET OUT FROM MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW" Lucifer screamed at the radio Demon who just stared back.

"My my, I never had you for the possesive type of dad, with how much freedom you have give Charlie"

"Dont bring my daugther into this" Lucifer said almost breaking a pen. "We both know you want to take (Y/N) out just to get to me. And im not letting you create fake hopes for that kid. That kid is mine Alastor, maybe not by blood but its mine. And I promised I would protect them, for anything and anyone. You can piss me off however you want but dont bring (Y/N) into this".

Well fuck, Lucifer did care for you.

Also, fuck you Lucifer. You did not know how he felt (hell, not even Alastor knew how he felt towards you). After meeting you at the hotel, seeing you interact with the others and also play with his shadows, something started to form inside the old killer. And it got worse when you ran to him asking him how the radio worked, his insides making flips as he explained you.

He also did almost break when you were saying goodbye and hugged his legs. If that was any other Demon they would have ended dead on the spot. But it was you, and it felt right.

"Listen" Alastor started smile still on his face but his tone serious "Im not that low to bring (Y/N) into our....fights. You May not believe me but I care for that kid, if I did not for sure I would not have give him one of my shadows to protect them"

"Wait-you did what-"

"The point is" Alastor interrumped static forming "I dont plan on giving they fake hope, and thats all I Will say"

Silence passed for seconds that felt like hours, finally Lucifer nodded.

"Alright, i will let you take them for today, BUT anything and I mean anything happens to them, you will no longer be here" Lucifer said his tone for once being truly the one from a king of hell.

Alastor just nodded, taking his cane being ready to be out with you for the day.

"Oh and Alastor, I dont trust you. But i want (Y/N) to get here what they missed in life, so dont fuck this up"

~☆~☆~☆~

"Nothing your silly head must worry about!" Alastor assured you. However your face did show you were not buying what he said.

"Smile my Dear!! You know you are never fully dressed without one!!" Alastor tried again, stopping to take your hand and make you spin. Your laught coming out quickly making him relax.

"There it is!" He exclaimed then continue to walk besides you. Right now you two were in the cannibals town. For other demons and sinners this part was even more dangerous than the regular hell. But for Alastor it was like his home, demos in here knew him and liked him, and that extended to you as well. A few had waved and smiled, fresh blood showing. But Alastor had made sure you did not see any dead body, or parts of one.

"Now I have a suprise for you!, I have a friend who owns a restaurant and she accepted to take us in"

"...as food or clients?" You asked joking making the radio Demon smirk, radio laughts in the background.

"Well, since she is my friend, we are clients of coruse" Alastor responded getting a nod from you. "Of course you wont be eating anything...special, regular food I promise"

~☆~☆~☆~

When you two entered the restaurant you found it to be empy....aside from some workers who came quickly to guide Alastor and you to a private room with a big table.

There, on one of the chairs a very pale Demon with deep black eyes stood. Noticing Alastor she got on her feet coming closer.

"Alastor, its so good to see you again" she beamed at the radio Demon stopping a few inches away.

"And who may this little creature be?"

Jokes, Rosie knew who you were. He had to listen to Alastor talk about how unfair it was that you had decided to call Lucifer dad and not him.

Being by Alastor side gave you confidence so you took some small steps closer to her.

"Im (Y/N), im Alastor newphew" You stated proudly making Rosie smile showing her sharp teet.

"Thats wonderfull, now please sit I have prepared the best for both of you" Rosie exclaimed calling over the workers who appear to help the three of you settle down.

"For you my friend, I got you the finist meat from this side of hell" A plate with fresh flesh was presented making Alastor almost growl at it. "And for you little one a bird told me you loved chocolate" a big space on the table was now occupied with the biggest and most extravagant chocolate cake you have ever seen.

"I-its that all for me?" You asked not believing it. Getting a nodd from Rosie "and I cant eat all of it?" Again a nodd.

You almost cried when the first slice was put in front of you. No one ever got you cake in the living world.

"Oh and to help you not chocke with that, Alastor I have some.." Rosie paused looking for the right words seeing how you were now devouring the cake "a very special drink" she finally said, a bottle with red liquid appear. And for you, I prepared a mix of appel juice and strawberry" she said getting the most pure look from you.

"Thank you Miss"

"Oh, just call me Rosie" she responded.

~☆~☆~☆~

Turns out you ate most of the cake and now the sugar had gave you too much energy. Rosie had asked her workers to play with you some game of tag, without biting.

And hell, you were fast. Outrunning the old demons and even letting chairs fall to prevent them from coming closer.

Rosie used this moment to dig as much information about you from Alastor as she could find.

"So, Lucifer just decided to take them in? What a strange guy" she said sipping her own drink. "And now you are taking care of them?"

Alastor nodded "yes, you must see Lucifer's face when I show up and (Y/N) calls me uncle, he its so angry"

"But you truly care for them" Rosie stated. "You would never have asked me to prepare something that does not come from sinners or demons knowing where you are. You also made me order the town to keep the body display low to protect them"

Rosie could read Alastor as an Open book.

"Uncleeeee" your call alerted the overlords, seeing you running towards them with the biggest smile on your face. "The other said they are too tired to keep running after me, does this mean I won?"

"Well centraly!! I knew no one would be able to catch you. You are my relative after all"

You nodded and smiled going back to your chair to drink more juice. "This is amazing. Thanks a lot Mi-Rosie!"

"Aww, arent you the cutest" Rosie beamed her hands squishing your cheecks.

~☆~☆~☆

After the food and some more talking Alastor decided it was time for you to go back with Lucifer (and no, it was not because he had got at least 666 messages from him).

Rosie had told you to come whenever you wanted that no one would hurt you in her town.

~☆~☆~☆

"I had a great time Uncle!" You told Alastor as the big castle started to show in the distance.

"Well im glad Dear! Dont forget to tune the radio for my program tonight" Alastor said petting your head.

"I wont! Dad hates it but I love it, specially that music you use...ummmm jazz?"

Alastor started to think that just kindapp you and made you his kid instead would be for the best.

"(y/n)!!" A very distinct voice screamed

"DAD!!"

But he would not want to hurt your feelings so, seeing you from time to time would have to do.

He waited for the exchange to end, Lucifer asking you what have you done and also making sure you were not hurt. After that he nodded to himself.

"Alright, now go inside, Xin has prepared you a bath"

You nodded but turned towards Alastor going for his legs again to hug him.

"Thank you uncle!! No one ever took me to a restaurant or got me cake. Lets meet again soon" you smiled up to him showing pointy teet.

Before he could respond you were running inside the castle with a very worried maid behind you.

~☆~☆~☆~

"Well..looks like you did not ruin this" Lucifer stated seeing you run off.

"I told you I would not" Alastor responded offended. "(Y/N) has potential to grow up to be a powerfull sinner (no you did not) of course im going to look over them"

Lucifer just shoot Alastor a knowing smile then turned around to enter his home.

"Thanks for not breaking his heart" he finally said then the doors closed behind him leaving Alastor alone.

Of course he could not bring himself to do that, even if he wanted to. You were his newphew. His. Not someone else.

And no one breaks the things he loves.

Not even himself.

[walpu]

hii, the bp hitman aven icon drove me crazy. i've been thinking ab aventurine in a spy mission and reader being the chair girl that watches the cameras, opens doors... specifically i've been thinking ab reader going crazy bc the mission is going horrible while aven is chilling and laghing at her screams through the earpiece bc he's not afraid to die (reader knows that and thats why shes like crazy).

luv your works, im always looking forward for your posts 💕

Thank you so much 🩷🩷🩷

Hope you'll enjoy this!!

spy mission with Aven goes wrong

notes - gn!reader, a bit angsty but just a bit, Aven being a little shit, no beta

It's not that he's not scared of dying, of course he is. Especially when everything seems to be going so horrendously wrong.

But panicking won't help anyone especially when you're already doing it for the both of you.

The only thing he can do now is smile and chuckle, telling you to have some trust in him and his luck. As if he himself has it.

But he's been trough worse so it must play out.

"Aventurine, come back immediately, don't risk it!"

He hears your paniced voice in the headphone. It's honestly heartwarming that you actually care.

Or maybe you don't. Maybe you're just worried about success of the mission. No need to delude himself, he thinks, trying to ignore the bitter feeling in his chest.

Only if he knew how little you care about the mission itself right now. How worried and scared for him you are. How angry you are that he keeps throwing himself in dangerous situations.

"You know what? I'll just stop opening doors for you!"

"Sabotaging your own mission? Darlington, just relax and have some trust in me. The die is cast so no need for you to worry. Aaaand, if you actually stop opening the doors, I'll just have to find aboth way around"

Oh how infuriating his carefree demeanor is! You really don't have any other choice than keep helping him.

He is actually so happy that you're not here right now. Not physically. Even if his luck fails him, you won't get hurt and that's the most important thing for him.

And hearing your voice, being able to be playful with you despite the situation, helps him to be less tense.

The mission ends up being successful. His luck didn't fail him after all.

So when he reunates with you, a bit injuried but alive, he of course wants to announce that your worries were for nothing.

Yet he is actually surprised to find out that you're not happy at all, despite everything being okay.

He's even more surprised when the only thing you're focusing on right now is his minor wound.

"Told you to come back and not risk it" you say regretfully, dotting on him.

"Ah, don't sweat it, darling. We're victorious, are we not? The mission is a grand success~" he says with a small laughter, trying to mask his confusion. He did good, he didn't fail you, so why aren't you relieved?

"I don't care about the mission! We could've finish it later, with reinforcement! Look at you, you are- You are injured..."

Oh. Oh. So that's why you're so distressed??? Oh aeons.

He doesn't even have time to react when he feels you hugging him.

Well good job, not he can't stop trembling.

Local gambler just found out his crush cares deeply about him more at eleven.

You decide what to do with him now. Some scolding won't hurt but if I were you I would recommend emphasizing how much you care, this man has trust issues.

[wttt-dirus-work]

So, i saw a post with NY headcanons and it reminded me that while i included my own disabled headcanons in my fics, i forgot to make my own headcanons post (?) and i've got more than i though lol

So here we go!

NY: Dude got a bad eye, someday it's normal, other days it get blurred. He also has a scar over it, and his shoulders can get funky when its humid outside.

NJ: some of y'all already knows it, but Jersey got Tourette's. Mostly shoulder jerking, neck twitching, blinking hard and grimacing. When it gets bad his back jerks, and his vocals tics get worse (mostly whistles and pop, tho if hes anxious/stressed he does repeat some words)

Delaware: he got arthritis in his hands, and can hardly move them.

Mass: He was injured during the revolution, and walking became harder for him (limping and his legs became stiffer), then another injury during the civil war made him unable to walk for some days, therefore he use a wheelchair most of the time. He is still able to walk, but it is either too painful, or he doesn't have the energy needed to be able to stand all day.

Connie: he got shaky hands, when he's tired, nervous or angry, he cant hold anything with those. Its his nerves, and it doesnt hurt but its annoying.

Vermont: he got diabetes! Type 1; and it's so fucking expensive that it's Québec his "dealer" (it cost around 98$US when here its around 12$CAN sooo). He also got a sweet tooth, and forget to watch his sugar level (Hampshire there's for it; buddy's wayy to protective to let anything happen to Vermont)

PA: he's dyslexic, and it's mostly Mass who helps him with paperwork when he's not badgering Connie.

Florida: That gremling got Adhd, big dyslexia and his first language is spanish (which doesnt help with the reading). He also got so many scars from disturbing wildlife (anyone has seen that "yoink" dude in the everglades? Yeah thats flo). He got chronic pain in his left knee, and his right wrist always cracks when he moves it.

Louie: french lover is a people pleaser, but the chillest person you'll ever meet. He never panics, and is sometime too calm; but hurt any of the southern state (or Cal) and you're done. He's the voodoo capital, so dont mess with him

Georgia: hes an insomniac, but is fucking sleepy during the day (the math aint mathing ya know). He can sleep anywhere except during the night. He's bud with york and nevada, you can find those three driking in silence during a poker game.

Virginia: (uses they/them) they have a limp on the left leg, who always in pain (low but chronic with some real bad days). They're also a sleepwalker (think Celinaspookyboo style) and Georgia (or one of the insomniac state) each switch to watch them at night.

Montana: deer in headlights when spoken to. Will not talk to anyone when he doesnt have something to say or isnt upset (that sketch with the clown thing? Yeah he talked to them cause he was angry). Dont talk to him, dont even aknowledge him and he'll be more than happy to not exist in your mind. (Hes jealous of alaskas ability to not being seen)

Cal: dudes his always in pain. The fire, the drought, to goldrushes, hes always hurting. He got big scars from the fires, and his skin is the dryest thing ever despite all the moisturizer he uses. When he's burning up his eyes gets cloudy grey; they itch and cry all the time, and he cant see shit. He also need an oxygen mask when its too bad, and his eyes are naturaly gold.

Washington: hes a bitch. Dude got poor circulation too, so his hands and feet are always cold. When it's raining for too long his hair is oily, and when it's a drought it's the driest (he uses dryshampoo and got a routine to fight it).

Oregon : hes gay. Thats a known thing, and he's the bridge between Cal and Wash. Hes nicer to cal than wash, but he's not kind. The west coast are nice in interraction, but they ain't your friends.

Nevada: ah, vada. He got scaring from the nuclear testing, can see in the dark like nobody, and is the only state who can chose to change their physical appearance. Has coloured hair (pink or purple mostly) and the greenest eyes you'll ever see (or purple, didnt made my mind yet). Hes careful with his diet and always exercice despite the painful joins.

Texas: that idiot got sleep apnea but refuses to get checked out for it (and get a CPAP). He also has asthma (geez that word is hard to write) and colorblindness (can't see red). He only wears his shirt cause he knows what the colours are and refused to be pranked about that.

If you wanna adds your own, your welcome to do so! ^^

[f4y3w00d5]

Vent post

About my mother mainly, but what did you expect, honestly? Its nearly always her.

So i was out at a sleepover last night and coincidentally didnt get much sleep. When i dont get much sleep im irritable and mum yells about that. On top of this, i had ideas for my story, so i went and wrote that for a bit. Mum went out so i stopped to look after Rose. Then i had a nap. She said i had been online 'all day'. 2 hours is nowhere near all day. Then she proceeds to scream at me for not spending time with her when we both fucking know thatd end with me being irritable and her yelling at me more. Then she proceeds to try and guilt me into spending more time with her. Like what the fuck, woman??? Thats emotional manipulation, and a form of psychological abuse!!! Anyways, i was forced off the laptop. And then right after yelling at me she was all like 'why dont you come out here with us?' and its like because im overstimulated and itll end with more yelling??? And shes about to go out anyway. Then she yelled more anyway!!! Said Dad would be home soon and id spend time with him - i wouldnt have said anything more than i said to her (basically what we did at the sleepover) - and its like what???

Anyways, because i was severely overstimulated and close to tears and shed taken away my coping mechanism (writing my story or my plant shit, both on the laptop) i asked to do the other thing i do to calm down, cheer up (go for a walk) and she was like 'no!!! Im about to go out!!!' and me being sleep deprived and overstimulated had forgotten that. Anyways i retreat back to my room and she follows me to be like 'Oh and when youre not spending enough time with us you want to go out?!? Spend LESS time with us?' and its like 'YEAH YOURE YELLING AT ME AND OVERSTIMULATING ME AND WONT LET ME CLOSE MY DOOR WHEN ITS LOUD WHICH MAKES IT WORSE' except of course i didnt say that cos she woulda screamed at me more and then she got angry at me for going on top of my bed which is my safe space and im nearly fucking crying becayse ITS NOT MY FUCKING FAULT I CANT COPE WITH THIS SHIT!!! SHE SAYS SHE UNDERSTANDS BUT SHE DOESNT!!!

And then fucking on top of this ive already had such an emotional day!!! Its so draining!!! Friends nearly dying and then i started falling into a panic attack and spiralling and all the stuff where i barely eat and oh fucking gods im a failure arent i?

[hazshit-hotel-hater]

Ok a rant about Cerri bomb and how much I HATE her

In the addict music video she was a very supportive friend of Angel and I loved her in the pilot! I wish we got that supportive best friend to Angel in the final product, but unfortunately she is a woman in a vivziepop show.

She’s AWFUL now I can’t stand her, the way she tried to make Angel relapse was so weird like pilot cherri wouldn’t do that! I also really dislike her design it has to be one of my personal least favourites (not the bottom though nothing is worse than alastors design to me) she isn’t enjoyable to watch anymore she had potential if she’d only been introduced earlier! Imagine if she was introduced in episode 4 and played the supportive friend she was originally supposed to be!

And GOD I hate her ship with pentious, it was SO RUSHED, so poorly done and the ship isn’t very “so cute and in love!!” When you remember she showed literally NO interest in him until Angel brought up that he has 2 dicks, and this is supposed to be a romantic relationship we CARE about.

Cherri didn’t need a romantic relationship she needed CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT we needed to get to know her! If you’ve only seen the show and no other Hazbin media at all (which shouldn’t be required you should be able to get all your info FROM THE SHOW) you’d barely know anything about her character or who she is. I wish we got pilot cherri bomb, and that she got a design update, and that her and pent’s relationship was either taken slower or didn’t happen at all

You silly little creature you, you have me writing in my notes app instead of Tumblr because I’m about to go crazy!

Cherri Bomb. More like Cherri what the hell happened

Anyway I’m gonna tackle this one thing at a time, and also forgive me if I word something weird I just woke up an hour ago at the time of writing this.

First thing, design: I personally quite like her design since it very loosely reminds me of Iris from Ruby Gloom with ofc the one eye, the very rowdy personality and kind of the hair, but those are very broad design choices and its just me remembering some random girl I thought was silly but like Iris did it better.

Okay now second thing and then we go into literally everything else: My blog has been an angry pit of despair for everything in Episode 6 as of recent so let’s tap into that again 🤏 just a little. I am going to give my classic centrist opinion and say I don’t mind Cherri Bomb all that much but I absolutely get why people dislike her, and I mean this in the kinda way as people who dislike… Idk Fukuchi from BSD. WILD jump in fandoms but gimme a second. I can’t 100% say that Cherri Bomb in the pilot was better than the series since we have no idea if maybe for some reason she was intended to be like that offscreen, but judging by the pilot and “Addict” alone, it’s very unlikely. I could see her maybe being a bad influence at times and being like “Loosen up dude we’re in hell and its Friday” or something (idk if they have Friday in hell but everyday is probably Monday 🥁) but overall I feel like she’d end up apologising for it. However on the other side of things, I can understand why Cherri did that in Episode 6. Of course not to say this is okay, but Cherri is still very clearly not in the “redemption” mindset. She’s happy the way she is and is really only focused on certain aspects of issues. We see her comfort Angel in “Addict” but thats basically the extent of it. Cherri’s definition of “self-care” seems to be less of actually taking care of yourself and more like just letting go and having fun instead which really only gives a momentary fix to the issue, much like how substances can be abused. Do you kinda see what im getting at? Cherri offering Angel drugs while he’s trying not to relapse is not okay, full stop. But her reasoning as to why makes a bit of sense for her purpose in the show which is honestly not much, since, as you said, she is a woman in a Vivziepop show.

To my knowledge Cherri is like 30-ish years younger than Angel Dust in Hell experience so she’s likely not reached a point where she’s gotten tired of how things work, as well as the fact we don’t really have much of an idea on her backstory aside from that random shot in “Addict” of that guy in a puddle??? But generally she seems to be in a better position than Angel is, so there isn’t really any reason for her to want to change, yknow? I will say I do like exploring characters that are good friends while still being bad influences at times, but I’m going to be honest I feel like thats really not what Angel needs right now. I wouldn’t be as pissy about it if she did end up apologising afterwards (I’m just gonna headcanon she did for my sanity) but even then as Angel’s friend we don’t know like… anything about her. I would’ve really liked to get some kind of callback to the pilot where Cherri mentions she thought Angel was dead until the random Sir Pentious turf war, and maybe we could see her actually being worried about Angel again instead of those 3 frames in “Addict”, but Hazbin is rushed and I guess we don’t have time for that. And also YES it would’ve been great to see her in Episode 4 and actually doing something but again, Vivziepop is boring.

Going forward I would really like to see Cherri, if not become a patron, at least try to be a better friend and sure if she wants to keep doing stuff she can keep doing it, but just don’t encourage other people to relapse. It is very simple.

SIR PENTIOUS! About Sir Pentious, this is going to be incredibly short. I don’t hate the ship but also I’m not really crazy about any of the Hazbin Hotel ships? I also don’t really hate any except for the genuinely horrid ones but thats basic sense. I absolutely agree with you, Cherri does not need a romantic interest. Romance doesn’t always = growth and growth should not always = romance. She needs some genuine character TLC and I hope to god she gets some in season 2. We’ve only seen a few minutes of her so I have yet to give a firm opinion, but as of now I’m just hoping they do something actually interesting with her instead of just alluding to Sir Pentious ship. Also the penis thing. 1. What was that, and 2. It made me and my friends briefly pause to sex Sir Pentious and come to the conclusion he is likely transgender/hj

TLDR; Please give us a fun Cherri Bomb again. ☹️

[p41nkillers]

marshscott dialogue (1/???)

content: nathans working on trust issues

kate: ive never…like had any… uhh- *clear throat* lets just say…that im 'inexperienced' and youre my ‘first’ guy, so being with you.. is a new thing to me. ive always been distant myself around boys, my parents... they would be angry and disappointed if they knew about us…because they want me to be doing this sort of stuff...when im actually married *small sigh*

nathan: so youve been savin’ yourself for marriage this whole time? *chuckle* you hid this side of you cuz' you were scared that your parents might caught you breaking religious rules? yeah, that makes sense.. so why'd u agree to do it with me if you knew that being with me is kinda 'sinful' and it will only make it only worse? i dont understan-

kate: w-well...! i believe that...m-maybe we both gonna work this out and we eventually- *stop talking for awhile* nathan...why do u wanna be with me though? im a religious freak, and youre an atheist… is there.. any reason?

nathan: i have no fucking clue... i really dont okay? y'kno i dont really believe in any of those religious crap u mention about, i just think you were fun to hangout with, guess ive always had thing for religious girls anyway… *chuckle softly* maybe i like to experience with someone whos ACTUALLY different from me y'kno what i mean? i dont know how to word it well..but theres just something.. something about you that i really like alright? so tell me why u sticking with a douche guy like me anyway?

kate: mhm... youve got unique personalities... sure you can be a bit freaky sometimes but i tend to be the freakiest too so we're even *giggle* youre also look so gentle and charming when youre not being such a jerk to me... its like im talking to a different person..

nathan: maybe you should get your eyes checked then...still, that doesnt make any fucking sense right? i mean why the hell would u go that far with me though? its hard for me to give 100% trust on you...just wanna make sure you werent after me for damn money alright?

kate: good God nathan no! of course not! im not like those gold diggers youve been slept with! i-i swear okay..? believe me.. i never even saw you as my 'sugar daddy' i-i mean yeah sure youre rich, you have everything but that's not the reason i-

nathan: stop lying to me katie, the only reason you stuck with me cuz' im just a dumbass jock whos nothing but a spoiled prick little rich kid, just like any other stupid bimbos out there who kept using me for money. so yeah… i dont buy it, youre probably just using me too... *look away*

kate: *sigh* you right, youre such a dumb jock. cant u see that im being genuine this whole time? if you werent rich, id still want to be with you okay?? maybe i'd like you even more, so i wouldnt have to worry about you chasing me like im some kind of prey and treating me like one of your trophies collection... *frown*

nathan: you know what? big fucking thanks for giving me that ideas. maybe i should just go fuck around with other whore out there who isnt much loose as you, who can actually stand me, who isnt a clingy.. or someone who wont keeps whining being sensitive about everything like a fucking toodler. at least them hot chicks are wayyy more experienced more than you though.. youre all the same, just wanting me for cash! because thats what girls like you always do; an attention-starved whore who begged herself like a fucking dog in a heat!

kate: at least i still have some goddamn self-respect! you know what? maybe you should just be GAY instead because you sound like misogynist at this point. *sarcastic tone* and guess what? maybe i am clingy and sensitive; its one of those female traits you just have to deal with it but you cant! you know why?? because youre the most sexist guy ive ever met! and goodluck finding another dumb ho who can put up with your bullshit! *walk away*

note: i want them to at least hv a proper conversation afterward but hv no idea how to make it happen its a bit stretch to do so i just gave up lol

[n3onstarss]

2012 TMNT boys x wolf mutant reader

Type; headcanon

romantic or platonic?; platonic to romantic

type of reader; GN wolf mutant

Leonardo

You CANNOT tell me he didn't have a wolf phase as a kid

He has facts stored in the back of his brain you didn't think he'd know honestly, and he asks you if every one is true or if you follow this specific behavior pattern

i mean, he doesn't ask immediately cause he doesn't wanna put you off, but once you two are more comfortable he opens up more and the questions roll out

I'm pretty sure he's asked more questions then Donnie ever has

Immediately decides 'thats my best friend' the INSTANT you prove you're not trying to hurt anyone

who cares that you were breaking and entering into a mall late at night, you were probably just shopping anyways

surprisingly okay with commiting crimes with you, on accident or on purpose

arson? YES. murder? less of a yes, not off the table when it comes to the foot clan. Graffiti? if you want to, go ahead

still a strict leader and overprotective mother hen to his brothers and sisters

but you're not a brother or sister so you're chill

never outright asks for anything from you, you just gotta guess

piggyback rides? sure, if you want. help this stubborn, short turtle get something off the high shelf? if you insist. sparing in the dojo and teaching each other moves? YES PLE- well, if you're sure you want to

denies everything his brothers claim

one time Raph told Karai y'all were dating on one of her visits and Leo denied it so fast. luckily you weren't there, he already felt bad for how quick he'd denied it

if you're poly, it's either you and Casey or you and April for him, and he doesn't want anybody else

wants to be big spoon, smaller spoon by majority vote. secretly enjoys it, but won't admit it readily

Will eventually just start climbing in your lap or sitting between your legs whenever he can. he likes when you're even taller than him then usual and it makes him feel small and safe

like, if you're meditating or reading or something and sitting crosslegged then BAM, here's Leo climbing up and leaning into you

Raphael

Eugh boy, 'kay

he ALSO had a wolf phase, but more of a werewolf phase in specific

like, old horror movies, teen wolf, tricking his brothers into thinking a werewolf lived in the sewers, the works

When they find you, wandering NY looking for help and confused when people run away, he feels kinda bad

he knows how it feels to be alienated and hates seeing anyone else experience it

y'all are fast friends, being fast, deadly and violent together is perfect

you're actually invited to missions really quickly since you, Raph and Casey are such a good team

no home to go back to? no problem. motherfucker helps set you up wherever you want to be

roomies? a park? the woods? cryptid along the highways? an abandoned apartment? the docks? farther into the sewers? whatever you need and wherever you want to live, he'll help

if y'all get together romantically, he won't believe he deserves you for a bit

if you're polyam with either Mona or Casey or both, the feeling is worse in the best way

how did this angry little turtle score a wolf, a salamandarian and/or a human?? he doesn't know

LITTLE. SPOON.

refuses to admit it to anyone, but he MUST be little spoon somehow. face to face, spooning properly, laying on top of you, sitting between your legs on the floor during movie nights, he needs you as a shield, it's the only time he can let his guard down

if you're poly, he needs to be sandwiched at all costs and will do his best to wiggle in where there's room

Is super clingy, pretends he's not. calls you the whole way home every single night and will end up just popping over to yours for sleepovers if he can't sleep with a little paper note on the table

once he decides your Chompy's other parent there's no going back from that

Donatello

OH, OKAY HERE WE GO

meets you the same way as either Raph or Mikey, your choice

if Mikey, throws a wrench instead of an iPod-

knows quite a bit about wolves and mutation both. not from phases, just research

almost immediately starts lecturing to no one in particular about wolf traits, diets, behaviors and other such info until Raph hits him over the head or everyone wanders off

everyone except you, that is.

friendship is immediate and he can't believe he finally met a mutant who isn't family and isn't out to kill them!

after you start showing interest in his work, he's head over heels for you, he falls faster but you fall harder

loves trying to make your tail wag even before y'all get together

little compliments, small practical gifts like coffee or a weapon

eventually it progresses to you always sitting near him so he can pet you! he uses it as a stim and it calms any anxiety you have, win win! plus, it's almost the same as having your hair brushed and/or braided as a kid

if you're poly it's, once again, with April or Casey, or both even

doesn't have a specific cuddle spot since some days he's touch adverse and others he's not, will just get comfy and pass out wether it's bedtime and your asleep or not

PLEASE PLEASE CARRY HIM HOME FROM MISSIONS

if you carry him home, princess style or piggy back or whatever, he'll blush like a tomato and, eventually, doze off

tends to overwork himself, you're gonna have to physically drag him away from his work with the lure of cuddles and kisses or just straight up grabbing him and walking away (if he's at a good stopping point, be nice about it :p)

no home to go back to? new roomie! or if you lived on your own he just makes sure you're safe there, either way you prefer it

can and will set up a mini lab in your apartment/house for "emergencies" but really it's so he has an excuse to come over and stay over longer, he may not look the part but he is CLINGY

Michelangelo

meets you not dissimilar to Leatherhead

you ended up wandering the sewers to get away from the people on the streets, and somehow wound up at the entrance to the lair

he was just dancing around but when he opened his eyes there was some glowing eyes in the shadows and he kinda panicked and threw his iPod at you lmao

Bonk

new friend instantly, introduces you to ICK and the fam

probably the only one out of his brothers with no clue about wolves, just assumes anything you do is normal for the longest time

cuddles even before romance, he is a physical touch person! will hang off your arm or neck like a little kid or just constantly be touching you

baking partners! you always need to shower at a local warehouses chem shower after because flour fights are inevitable and it gets stuck to your fur easily

French braids all day baybe!! will even steal a wig so you can style his hair back

if you're poly it's either Casey, Mondo or Renet

must be big spoon, surprisingly. doesn't like being babied for a while but eventually just gets comfy in whatever cuddle position he feels like and passes out for the next 3 hours

will ask you to carry him around from the get go, no shame or shyness

once y'all get together it's even more clingyness and now kisses added in too

tries to teach you to skateboard, but you end up rollerblading across the rooftops instead! loves just being near you when he can

Will straight up walk through Times Square or Central Park with you when it's really late. pretends y'all are furries or cosplayers and keeps moving

DANCE PARTIES

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale's Countdown: Best to Worst, Ramona's Evil Exes (Scott Pilgrim)

The Rules:

I will be covering ALL mediums Comic, movie, video game and even Show

When I say Best, I mean in which their actions are the least Egregious, they are entertaining, and they are more palatable, The lower on the list the worse they are

I must view them by their most detestable actions, as determined by either medium

This is a subjective list based on my opinion, so feel free to put your thoughts and opinions on the list.

Spoilers for the Comic, the Show, the Movie and the Video game

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The Best Ex: Roxie Richter

Roxie is probably the Evil Ex that is probably on the best terms with Ramona in all iteration (save the movie). Roxie was seen occasionally hanging out with Ramona in the comic, and while the Half Ninja did try to kill Ramona and Scott, its clear her reasons for being an Evil Ex are pretty justified. Ramona's dismissive nature of their relationship as a "Phase" and her leaving without a word was pretty damn heartbreaking.

And while she claims to be the most Emotionally intelligent, she has just as much trouble explaining her feelings as the other Exes do. But In Scott Pilgrim takes off we see her at her core and she just needed some damn closure. Which compared to the rest of the people on the list, she is the most justified.

The Second Best Ex: Mathew Patel

Okay so for a guy that only dated Ramona briefly in middle school and being a super petty Theater nerd... he isnt actually that Evil.

Yea he tries to play up his evil side, but he is actually a really polite dude. He sent Scott a warning about how the Evil Exes were going to attack him, and even took time to ensure Scott understood what was going on instead of just attacking him.

Sure in the Comic, Game and Movie we dont get much of his character, but in the Anime. We find out how after he won, he realized that the League was stupid and decided to Challenge Gideon after realizing this whole thing wouldnt actually win Ramona over. He eventually moves on with his life not even pursuing Ramona further, he rightfully Blames Gideon for his stupid assumptions and even BEATS GIDEON. Now Mathew is still a selfish jerk, but he is oddly not hostile towards Ramona and simply moves on with his life after this. Guess he just needed some self confidence to know his own worth was more than just the first guy to get defeated.

The Third best Ex: Lucas Lee

Bad boy skateboarder/ Action star. Lucas Lee.

In the Anime he is just kind of a Himbo that seems more angry with Todd than Ramona over how the relationship ended. In the movie and Comic he is not really caring much about the League and just decided to fight because why not. The comic has him at his worst which he simply says if Scott pays him 50 bucks he will simply leave him alone.

In this context he really hasnt done anything to Ramona and actually in the movie version asks how shes been casually. Regardless of the version Lucas never seemed to have any real negative views on Ramona. And He is arguably interchangable with Mathew, I do Put him lower because Lucas never called out how dumb the League actually was unlike Patel.

The Fourth Best/Fourth Worst Ex: Kyle & Ken Katayanag

I put them to share these rankings because they are interchangeable. No matter the story they both are always grouped together. The worst thing they did was Kidnap Kim and send robots to Attack Scott, but regardless of the version they arent outright hostile to Ramona but do blame the cheating fiasco on her. They are usually pretty chill outside of that and thats honestly the worst they get, they are just only sort of Asses but that is about it. They have a cool Robot though.

The Third Worst Ex: Todd Ingram

Ah Yes, the first Big Ex of Ramona's. They Dated throughout Highschool and then broke off when he left for Vegan School. He is probably the most Vanilla Scumbag, but he is actually even worse because he is Vegan and believes he is better than everyone else. And the Psychic powers that come with being Vegan... well He might have a point. But he is constantly cheating on his Girlfriend. And in the Show he ends up cheating and catches feelings for Wallace (who I am CONVINCED has a +7 Charisma boost) or Magic balls.

Anyway, regardless of iteration he is a serial cheater whether its in love, in a fight, or even on his Vegan Diet. He is also willing to punch girls for no reason other than they are annoying him. He punched the highlights out of Knives hair in most iterations, its f***ed up.

The Second Worst Ex: Scott Pilgrim (Specifically Even Older Scott)

Ramona once said that Scott was an evil ex just waiting to happen. but in the anime we actually get to see what that would be like. Take all of Scotts worst qualities, He dated a high schooler (no he didnt do anything but STILL), he cheated on girls, he would hide things from people, he wouldnt take responsibility for his own faults. And now have it where he is able to beat the Exes and get Ramona WITHOUT all of the emotional growth that let him realize he was an absolute Scumbag and needed to change.

In this timeline, Scott ended up separating from Ramona after a Rough patch, which lead to him trying to stop himself from ever dating Ramona by pulling him out of time to convince himself, but when that failed he trained for 10 YEARS gained the powers and Skills of ALL the Evil Exes then decided to fight EVERYONE in order to stop Scott From dating Ramona. Its arguable that he is probably the worst because he was more than willing to wipe out his own friend if needed just to achieve his goal. Showing how Tunnel vision Scott can be. In a way, Even Older Scott is Nega Scott fully realized. And is Ramona's most Dangerous Ex

The Worst Ex Gideon Gordon Graves

If anyone has read the Comic, Gideon is by far the Worst of the Evil Exes. Sure Scott of that other timeline maybe the most powerful, this Emotionally abusive prick is far and away the worst.

He created Emotional warfare to manipulate people, including Ramona. Messed with peoples memories, Was Physically and Emotionally abusive, His grand master plan was to gain complete control of the Glow, brain wash people, have Ramona get frozen and become one of his frozen Exes that he pulls out of stasis to Date whenever he gets board, (basically a sex slave)

The Anime REALLY cuts a lot of this out and makes him much less then he is, and the movie only has a control collar on Ramona where he is still an asshole control freak.

But the Comic REALLY goes out of the way where he is like Scott but at his ABSOLUTE WORST in every category.

Power maybe debated but when it comes to EVIL ex. there is no topping Gideon

[malewife-yoomyeongwoo]

I need to talk about an idea i’ve had for a while regarding Yoojin’s title “Perfect Caregiver”.

As we all know, its a skill that influences its target so that they see HYJ as their caregiver (the LN states that it makes their target associate HYJ with someone they see as a caregiver in their mind, but, if there is none they associate as a caregiver, they just see HYJ as HYJ). Its described as a one way influence, However, I’m starting to think that this skill goes both ways; that it affects HYJ just as much as it affects his target.

Despite intending to use his targets for his personal gain, HYJ ends up, again and again, acting as a proper caregiver for them and, instead of chaining his targets to him in order to reap the fruits of his labor, lets them have the freedom they need to leave if that’s what they desire (he lets YMW do his own thing rather than forcing him to be stuck with him after gaining is SS class skill and he, instead of taking advantage of the contract with BYM, makes sure to make a contract that is fair). We all know that HYJ isn’t above manipulation and murder, so using people or chaining them to him for his benefit wouldn’t be so unusual, but, when it comes to his influenced targets, he just. Doesnt.

Not only does he properly take care of them —he goes above and beyond for them and gets angry when anyone harms them and will, usually, get revenge on their behalf (consider how he handled the guild that forced YMW into an unsavory contract and the fact that he became BYM’s guardian so people wouldn’t take advantage of her). He even feels bad about the idea of taking advantage of them as he’d originally planned. Sure it could be argued that he started to actually care for them, but, based on the amount of time that had passed, it hadn’t been very long before YMW and BYM got to the point where he could start benefiting from them. It wasnt long enough for him to form a deep connection that would warrant him “risking his life” for YMW (when he saved YMW from that loan shark guild) or personally dealing with BYM’s uncle (as he does in the LN).

He rationalizes his behavior as being the thing that would benefit him the most, but its easy to come up with a logical reason to explain why youre doing something; its much harder to uncover the real thing thats motivating one to act a certain way. He’s acting, for their benefit, before he has the chance to rationalize his actions.

He’s soft with his targets in a way that a proper caregiver would be: even though it annoys him how clingy they get with him, he handles it like a parent who’s kids want his attention and handles it in ways that a parent would (in the LN, when YMW and BYM first meet, he says something along the lines of “i like people who diligently do their work” when theyre arguing about who HYJ likes more instead of giving them a proper answer). He doesn’t get mad at them or show his annoyance towards their clinginess. It could be cause of guilt he feels about it (the LN explains that he lets HYH’s extreme behavior go because its only worse cause of his skill), but he was letting HYH be extreme without making a big fuss about it or getting mad at him about it even before he’d realized that it was due to his skill (he did try to escape but he hadnt been harsh with HYH).

To further emphasize this point, consider his whole interaction with blackie/inky. He spent 30min bonding with this salamander monster and applied the keyword on it. Normally, one would be sad about an animal they bonded with dying on their behalf, but, not only did HYJ try to fight so that they wouldnt have to die, he expected that blackie/inky would most likely die and still tried to make it so that they wouldnt have to die when he could’ve just waited to take advantage of final gratitude rather than getting in harms way. When blackie/inky died, he was already regretting the fact that theyd passed, but became even more distraught after receiving their memories saying that “(final gratitude) it really was a skill that shouldnt be used”. Blackie/inky had felt affection towards HYJ and HYJ felt the affection towards blackie/inky as a caretaker would.

Of course, HYJ didnt let the guy that killed blackie/inky live peacefully or die without pain.

So, my theory is that the “Caregiver” title makes it so that HYJ genuinely starts caring for his targets the way a caregiver would once its target has been influenced. HYJ doesnt think or seem to know about his skill affecting him so that he ends up genuinely caring for his targets, but, again and again, even for targets he’s only recently acquired (spoilers: Noah) he ends up being really soft and yielding towards their needs. He’s like a parent who gives in when their kid begs for candy.

HYJ is no doubt self centered and manipulative; but he really puts in the effort for his kids (whether he realizes it or not). It’s in his nature to be a caregiver (not a lot of people would drop out of school to work and support their younger siblings education). Being a caretaker is all he knows and, really, its all he truly wants (he’s at his happiest when hes able to live peacefully with his kids). Whenever he has the chance to talk about his kids, he does so lavishly with unending praise and affection. He automatically likes people who speak well of his kids and actively dislikes anyone who speaks ill of them. His kids are his entire world.

He laments over the fact that monsters arent allowed outside after seeing how happy peace is to be out of his room and in the bigger training area, and actively lets peace play to his hearts content. He plays with a rope in a tug of war game with peace cause its what peace wants to do even though its the most tiring thing for him (to the point where he needs to wear a lot of gear in order to play with peace in this game) and thinks “if you like it, so what if its a little tiring”.

This is coming from the guy who constantly talks about living the rest of his days in a lazy fashion without much work involved. He also is shown thinking, in the LN, about getting things for HYH cause HYH might like them or cause they might help his dongsaeng.

Even his skills are all centered around being supportive in nature. And who is he supposed to be supporting? His kids of course. He laments not having any offensive skills, but its literally in his nature to support others and care for them. You could also look at is as his caregiver title influencing the types of skills he gains so that he can use them to support his kids.

At his core, he’s a doting parent who loves being able to support his kids, so the caregiver title just increases the potency of that, as well as creates a fast pass, for those he ends up influencing.

I think theres something to be said about titles and skills and how they relate to one’s nature or personality but this is what i got for now.

[yellowbluemoonshine]

Relationship of Touya/Dabi and Rei

There are a lot of takes of how Touya loves his father and all and how different he views his mother compared to his siblings but i think his relationship with his mother is far more close to love than he ever had with Endeavour.

Touya was raised by Endeavour the most and they had training together, Rei most likely had to let this since this is the reason they got married. She raised Fuyumi more and Endeavour ‘raised’ Touya which is why Touya adapt a lot of problematic behavours from his father, just like Fuyumi who imiate her mother. Usually, little boys act like their father and little girls act like their mother and their relationship with opposite gender parent, usually affects the way they see opposite gender. As child, he viewed his family as normal, of course because most children dont know when they are being abused. They dont understand their parents behavours are problematic or not.

Rei and Endeavour’s relationship, she was never as his equal, even at start. She was a lot like servant and he was the boss. He would demand it and she would have to do it. Children look for authority figure and sadly, Rei is mentally too fragile to be that one. Most children dont respect adults who lets others to disrespect them (Not just children, most people do this, even they dont realize it.)

I dont think Dabi is woman hater or something. He was just child who refused to see problematic behavours of Endeavour, thats why he acted toxic, makes sense in his situtions. And he knows how woman are treated in this house and how Fuyumi and Rei kinda turn a blind eyes to issues and honestly him being abandonded because of Rei’s genes makes it worse, of course.Touya has this desire to please his father and he seems to disrespects his mother so you would think he loves his father more? I kinda disagree with that.

Touya viewed his father less like father but more like creator. He liked th special treatment he got from his father, children loves those things, he was special, even as a ‘tool’. He didnt know it better. He viewed himself as tool which is why we see him constantly trying to get his father’s attention. Touya doesnt even lash out to his father, like he did to other members of family so you would think he loves him the most, right? But actually, opposite. The thing about relationship is if you cant even fight with someone, it simply means you dont have relationship with them. Touya can get mad at his mother, not just because he disrespects him or just because he got mad but also because he can be angry. Respect doesnt always equal to love. You can respect someone because they are powerfull, because they are successfull. Touya is concious child, he knows how to get respect and be worthy in the Todoroki household. Touya aound Endeavour is a tool, is a failure but when he is with his mother, he is just a little boy. Which is why i think even he doesnt know it he is emotionally more clse to his mother. Children feel those things, the parents who actually care about them and worry about their problems.

Rei neglected Touya and some of her children. She got into marriage for the purpose of making children. She was pressured but she made a decision. She let Endeavour to raise Touya and let him abandon Touya and make more children. And every time she made another kid, she had to take care of them one by one which is why you shouldnt make babies whom you cant take care of. She turned a blind eye to her son’s pain. I mean especially Touya who literally train by himself for years. Literally burning himself, not making any friends, having growth spurt and not growing since then, and his hair change.....Literally every sign of his story is full of child neglect.

Yes, she failed them but she didnt mean to do any of this and i think she really didnt have much choices. She is responsible but not completely. Just like Touyai she was mentally loosing it since the beginnig and they are even parallels. They both lost their mind because of Endeavour. They both treated as tools and thrown away like trashs when he doesnt need them anymore and lash out to Shouto without meaning it. They both mentally ill and lost connect to their family and many other things. She acts like she is equally bad as Endeavour, not because she actually is but because she feels guilty for not doing enough for her children. She deserves more empathy.

And all of them know this. Touya also knows this. He knows that his mother care about his well being more than Endeavour ever will. Which is why he can get mad at her for failing him. Even the scenes when he gets mad at them shows the difference the way he called them. He calls his father as ‘Todoroki Enji’ and ‘Endeavour’ because he views him less as father and more as ‘hero’. Meanwhile, his mother is stil his mother because it is his mother. She acts like one, unlike Endeavour, she actually acts like a parent.

Touya know his mother is victim and made poor choices too and he has empathy for her too which is why his first instict after he woke up is going back home and apologise to his mother and others. Not from Endeavour but others. Especially his mother because the thing is he didnt mean to say those words. He was child and got mad and lash out. But he doesnt actually see her as equally bad as Endeavour. He knows who should be blame really well. Just like Shouto and others siblings.

Even after he became an adult, never once he target Rei and his siblings. When he made that broadcast, his pov is a lot like Earlyroki, He is telling people that Rei is victim, he avoids talking about his siblings as much as possible. He avoids making people Rei as guilty as much as possible. Only person other than Endeavour he mentioned is Shouto, he talks like himself and Shouto as some kind of object and he does remind the viewers that Shouto was abused by his father. The one who should be blamed is Endeavour, not other members of his family. Dabi avoids them because he know they will get in away, his feelings will get in way so he avoids them, just like when they ignored his pain when he was a kid. Karma.

Dabi still loves them and this is why he has to avoid interacting with them so he could continue his suicide plan. Dabi still loves Rei too. He wants to go home and he wants to adress the issues between them. Because before everything, even they didnt spend much time together, the answer is obvious. Him viewing her as mother tells what he really wants. He wants to forgive her and be forgiven by her so they can be family again. this is what he really wants. I hope it happens.

Same for Rei too. Touya’s death broke her more than anything and he clearly wants him and her other chidlren to get best in life. Even they dont forgive her, its fine for her. She feels so much guilty for failing them and ready to be better person for them and for herself too. Biggest hint of this is Shouto's coming to hospital became the start of her healing and Dabi’s broadcast became the reason she stand up, even talk with her abuser. Its almost like missing pieces she lost finally connecting together. What she truly needed was just her children. Not to mention she seems to be shocked and recognize her son Touya before he mentions his real name, unlike certain person, lol. How ironic that her reaction is opposite of Endeavour. Facing Touya made endeavour runaway as possible and avoid the problem while seeing Touya made Rei stronger and encounter the problem.

Problem with Rei is her treating Touya as the problem to be solved but she and whole Todoroki family should handle the Endeavour problem first so then Touya and everyone can heal too. I persnally think Touya’s interaction with Rei is more interesting than Endeavour. Instead of wishing Dabi unrealistically forgiving endeavour, depsite fact that he broke his soul (This is what happens when you idolize your abuser, in most situtions, you feel nothing for them at the end). I would like to see him and his mother forgiving theirselves so they can heal together. They both deserve empathy really. Touya also will still have issues with Rei and his family but i hope at the end, they can handle all of it together.

[sparksnevadas]

Hewwo its me sparks, a little bug that hasnt been feeling well for the past x amount of time. I wrote a little angst/comfort drabble thats not really canon to gihasm but it fits where you want it to fit after last chapter. Its not my usual quality but it seems lots of people are not doing great so im just going to share. I hope you all feel better. <3

(tw: negative thoughts)

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The alarm bell rang and Grian knew it was going to be a bad day.

He had had the dream again, the one about flying high above the clouds before something changes, and he plummets to the ground. He’d kept dreaming as he hit the floor, pain a distant thing (shock, his sleep-brain reminds him, shock can make things hurt less).

On the floor, he was twisted up, broken and civilians gathered immediately. He can still hear the disgusted murmurs of them, see their pointed fingers and see their sneers.

“Someone put it out of its misery.”

Grian forces himself to turn off his alarm through the fog. His body feels tense, his wings are tensely held on his back. He doesn’t feel like moving at all, and barely manages to curl back up when his energy leaves him again. The wings on his back feel like a burden, their ugly state makes Grian want to go into hiding and not see another person. He was broken, trash that someone forgot to take to the curb.

Amidst dark thoughts and the blankets, Grian slips in and out of restless sleep. When he’s not asleep, he stares at the wall. He feels like a broken computer, repeating the same ideas over and over, feeling worse and worse as it gets harder to quiet the thoughts down.

“No one cares about you if you can’t help them,” his brain reminds him. “You're nobody if you're not Apollo. No one trusts you.  No one cares.”

He covers his head in the blankets, upset and angry at himself. “I'm useless, if I can't help people or make them safer, what's the point of it all? Why do anything at all?”

Pressure builds in his chest, something heavy and disgusting. “Im pathetic, worse than…”he hesitates as he realizes he can’t insert the name of his former nemesis, not after the past months. He lets the sentence linger.

Grian both wishes for and hates the idea of Scar or Mumbo noticing his lack of presence today. Maybe theyll realize how much of a burden he is to keep around. Will they realize it's better to drop him off at a random bus stop, send him back on his way to be dealt with by Pearl?

Mumbo would know. He left for a whole year and didn’t need him at all.

Grian surprises himself when tears burn through his eyes, forming fast enough that he doesn't process he's crying until he's struggling to catch his breath. It still hurts to remember that Mumbo did not trust him enough. Maybe he had been right to not trust him. Grian was an idiot, a fool who had to have his eyes pried open to actually see the reality of the world around him. The world was cruel, it hated him and it was right to-

Distantly, Grian hears some sort of sound behind his cries. It's only when a door is being opened that he realizes it was knocked.

“Grian?” Mumbo calls out cautiously. “Are you sleeping in?”

“Mm,” Grian hums noncommittally. Something must sound off to Mumbo, because he doesn’t retreat.

“Grian?”

“I’m fine,” Grian chokes out. “Give me a moment, I’ll- I’ll be back to-“

“Grian?” Mumbo closes the door and immediately steps further into the room, coming to kneel at his bed. “G, what’s wrong? Are you hurt?”

Grian frowns, face still hidden from Mumbo. He shakes his head emphatically so Mumbo can see his answer. His throat is swollen, he won't be able to talk like this.

“Are you sick?” Again Grian shakes his head. Mumbo pauses. Slowly, like a person approaching a wild animal, he asks. “Are you not feeling well?”

Grian doesn’t respond.

Mumbo waits for a long moment, before taking a deep breath.

“I can imagine what this might be about, mate, we should talk about-“ Mumbo says, and Grian curls up further into a ball. Mumbo pauses. 

Tense quiet fills the room. Grian tries to suppress a sniffle but doesn't succeed. He grips his arms, trying to hold himself together, at least while Mumbo sticks around.

Mumbo shifts, more of his weight pressing against the mattress.

“Y’know what usually makes me feel better on bad days?” He asks Grian. Something light touches the bed beside him. Grian hesitates to peek at it, but Mumbo tells him what it is. “Holding a friend’s hand.”

Grian tears up again at how considerate his friend is. Consideration even for someone as undeserving as himself. He pulls away the blankets, revealing himself in the process of taking Mumbo’s hand into his own. He doesn't look at Mumbo as he sniffles and silently cries. He's overwhelmed again.

Mumbo’s hand is warm and heavy. Grian holds his hand tightly, almost scared that Mumbo will disappear. Mumbo’s thumb caresses his own idly, his hold more loose, but still caring. Grian lays there, holding Mumbo’s hand tightly until the wave passes him, his head coming up for clear air after an indeterminate amount of time.

Grian slowly, almost cowardly, looks up to find Mumbo’s face, only to see that Mumbo is already looking at him. He looks saddened, but not angry. Grian isn't sure why he expected Mumbo to be angry. Mumbo was not an angry man by nature.

“I think it works a little,” Grian says, his voice a little stronger now. He squeezes Mumbo’s hand even tighter for a beat. Mumbo smiles and sighs through his nose.

“I'm glad,” Mumbo says. “Do you want to talk about it?”

Shame fills Grian’s mind as he shakes his head. Mumbo doesn't press further

“Then, Is there anything else I can do?” He asks sincerely. “I don't like seeing you like this, Grian, it hurts me.”

“Im sorry,” Grian apologizes quickly. “You don't have to stay-“

“No, that's not what I meant,” Mumbo cuts him off. “It's just… Grian you’re my best friend,mate, I don’t want you to ever feel bad. I… y’know I really care for you. You're one of the most important people I've had the luck of ever meeting, much less become friends with, yknow?”

The words almost fall on deaf ears, Grian’s brain twisting the words against him. How unlucky, Grian mentally corrects. He means how unlucky he is he's stuck with me.

Grian struggles to quiet his brain, something Mumbo likely notices in his face. He looks conflicted, almost lost as he leans closer to Grian.

“It’s true, you're my best friend,” Mumbo insists. Grian’s mouth twists, feeling himself tear up again.

In an impulsive moment, Grian lets go of Mumbo’s hand and throws his arm up, looking at Mumbo. Mumbo hesitates for only a second before climbing into the bed and wrapping his arm around Grian. With his weight against him, Grian suddenly feels like he can breathe.

He tucks his forehead against Mumbo’s neck, soaking in the warmth of his best friend's body. It warms him where he hadn't realized he had gotten cold, something human replacing the mess of tangled emotions in him. Grian presses his entire body into Mumbo’s, clinging onto him, feeling relief in every touch Mumbo easily offers.

Mumbo’s heartbeat is loud and clear, heavy and smooth. He presses closer, almost suffocating warmth in Mumbo’s embrace.

“I love you,” Mumbo whispers into his ear. It's not the first time he's said it at this point, but it's still rare to hear this soon. “You are so, so important to me. To scar too. He told me to check on you. Wouldnt tell me why.”

Grian nuzzles him, throwing a leg over Mumbo’s. He can feel Mumbo’s heartbeat through his neck, and he concentrates on it, closing his eyes. 

Scar knew he was feeling bad but hadn’t wanted to come in. Was Grian that much of a burden? Or was it that Scar knew Grian would more likely kick him out than let him close like he would Mumbo when he felt this terrible? Grian isn't sure. He feels himself starting to shake, his wings shifting and rustling. Mumbo reaches for them, but Grian pulls the betraying wings away, shaking his head. Mumbo relents, wrapping his arms tightly around his waist.

“Can we lay down like this for a while?” Grian chokes out through his guilt. “Or-“

“As long as you like,” Mumbo nods. “I don't mind.”

“…You're too nice,” Grian whispers. “I don’t deserve you, do I?”

“Grian…” Mumbo answers softly. “Don’t say that. You mean the world to me.”

It only makes Grian want to cringe more. It made him feel guilty. “You deserve someone as kind as you. Someone good.”

“You’re good,” Mumbo insists, hugging him tighter for emphasis. “Grian, you don’t understand how happy I am that you’re in my life, that you cared enough to keep looking for me after I left. It takes a good person to assume the best in others, even if we did nothing to deserve it.”

Grian frowns. “Still,” he tries to enlighten Mumbo. “That’s just the bare minimum of what you deserve, you should be with-”

“Stop it,” Mumbo’s hold loosened. “Stop talking about who deserves what. I love you. I don’t care about anybody else,” His hold shifts, one of Mumbo’s hands reaching into Grian’s hair as he pulls the avian against him. “Only you and Scar. I’m going to love you no matter what, Grian, stop trying to convince me not to!”

And Grain can’t help it. He tears up, feeling like a child. He whimpers and sobs and wipes his tears on Mumbo’s poor shirt, holding onto the shirt for his life. He’s so undeserving of this kindness, but he wants it so badly. Mumbo holds him through it, whispering little reassurances into his hair, gently combing it with his fingers. Intense and burning fondness for his friend rears its head in Grian, making him catch a sob in his throat as words spill through.

“I love you too,” Grian sobs into Mumbo’s neck. “I love you so much.”

“I know,” Mumbo kisses his hair. “I love you just as much.”

And to imagine this much  love and adoration flows through Mumbo like it does Grian breaks him a little inside. Mumbo deserves so much more. He deserves a nice set of partners, with a normal home and a normal kid. Or maybe it would still be Grumbot. But if this is the life he wants, all Grian can do is count his luck and love him back more.

Grian tilts his head up and kisses the underside of Mumbo’s jaw. Mumbo leans back, tilting his chin down to look at him. The angle gives him a bit of a double chin, which Grian eagerly obliges with another kiss. Mumbo smiles at him. Grian can’t quite replicate a smile on his own face now, but he leans up and gives Mumbo’s cheek a kiss. He kisses across Mumbo’s face until the two are forehead to forehead across Grian’s pillow.

“I don’t like my wings,” Grian says quietly. 

“Do you want to bleach them?” Mumbo asks.

Grian hesitates. “I’m not Apollo anymore.”

“You can still bleach them if that’s what you want, Grian,” Mumbo answers calmly, still playing with Grian’s hair, softly kneading Grian’s scalp in a way that makes him want to sigh dreamily.

“I don’t know,” Grian closes his eyes against the sensation on his scalp. It tingles pleasantly.

“Or we can dye them another color. Not white, but something different,” Mumbo suggests. “You’ll still be nice with any color of wings.”

“Pretty?” Grian asks, smiling a bit. He opens his eyes to see Mumbo roll his eyes.

“Yes, very pretty,” he corrects. “And very handsome, Grian.”

Grian smiles, leaning forward to press a kiss to Mumbo’s nose. Mumbo huffs.

“Can you stop missing already,” he says with mock annoyance. “I want to be kissed by my very pretty best friend.”

Grian smiles for a second, leaning in incrementally before the guilt makes him freeze. Mumbo closes the gap, pressing a kiss to his unmoving lips. Mumbo pulls back.

A few seconds pass before Mumbo leans up and kisses Grian’s nose. “It’s not just the wings, is it?”

Grian frowns, not meeting his eyes. Mumbo nods anyway. 

“We don’t have to talk about it now if you don’t want to. But Scar and I are here when you want to,” he reminds him. “We love you, you know.”

Grian sighs. “I know.”

“We love you a lot,” Mumbo nods, pressing his nose into his hair. “Do you want to cuddle until Scar misses us and comes looking?”

Grian rolls his eyes but tucks himself into Mumbo’s shoulder, closing his eyes. His dry eyes find relief in the darkness again, this time a lot less heavy than before. Before he knows it, he starts to fade into dreamless sleep.

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Grian wakes to hands combing through his wings, the sensation of a loose feather being pulled giving him relief. He finds himself laying on his stomach, warmly tucked against Mumbo’s heart. More than a pair of hands make their way through his wings, bringing him pleasant warmth. He spreads his wings further with a soft groan. Mumbo stiffens under him. Scar has the opposite reaction; he laughs delightfully. The sound is full of love, especially when it gets closer, and Scar presses a small kiss to the back of Grian’s neck. Grian tenses, feeling a warm wave wash down his spine from the feeling.

“Go back to sleep, birdie,” Scar coos. “We got you. We’ll take good care of you. We’re right here.”

And for the moment before Grian falls back asleep, Grian believes him and smiles.

[quillkiller]

I have just seen this and maybe you have talked about it before but Effie x Walburga

I’m like shaken because I can’t imagine James mom ever wanting to be with someone probably cruel from birth. I mean they would have been together in the fifties, idk it made em giggle

would you all still love me if i said i was a walburga defender… :(

ok ive been pondering this all day, and ive also spent an insane amount of time on public transport trying to find a post i made in defence of walburga. @sugarsnappeases pulled up her laptop as my own personal hacker and stalker and couldnt find it either. however i found a snippet of an ’what are ur unpopular opinions’ ask and found this:

and that’s the gist of it. if anyone remembers the post i made or know how to find it pleaseeeeee send it to me. me and kara went through hell and back to try and find it :(((((((

anyway!

1. i hate the concept of people being born ’cruel’ or ’evil’. people are people and sometimes people do bad things. i think its important to still acknowledge that abusive people aren’t monsters who just couldn’t help themselves. abusers are people and those people chose to treat you like that. that was a choice they didn’t have to make, but they did. abusers aren’t monsters or monstrous. it’s important to me, due to personal experience, to remember that abuse is a choice. it allows me to feel betrayed and hurt and angry that a person chose to do that to me

2. i think walburga was a victim her whole childhood. atleast my own depiction of her. it’s different when she becomes an adult, has children, etc, and she should know better. there’s no excuse for her abuse towards her children/no excuse ever for abusive parents. and i want to be very clear about how there are NO excuses !!!!!! i am not team walburga and will never ever be team walburga !!!!!

3. walburga was a woman in the 70s, she held no power over orion what so ever. he was the man in the house. the head of the family. the abuse was allowed because quietly sat back and allowed it. absolutely ridiculous to me that walburga would be worse than orion. i simply think its an ignorant and misogynistic take. a silent father will always scare me more than the active abusive mother. like.. the patriarchy in the 70s in pure blood families ? lets be real here

ive seen posts saying orion was scared of walburga and thats why he never did anything. like are we being serious here. no way she got to choose her husband. and he’s a powerful man from a powerful family. in the seventies. why woud he be scared of her she has absolutely no power what so ever

4. i love exploring the womens narrative in the marauders fandom because their canonical narrative is based on sexism and the nuclear family. i guess you think it’s outlandish that effie would fall for walburga (cruel from birth) because shes james’ mother, and the anti walburga in the way she opens up her home and basically adopts sirius and makes a home for him ? to me that’s not interesting sadly :/ i love effiebarty because i get to explore good housewife effie tearing down her walls and acting on her desires and urges. like…. i want her to leave both james and monty behind out of pure selfishness. like.. im the girl writing the baby killing fic where lily is the sole survivor….

5. to me walburga is sort of similar to alicent from house of the dragon. what did she ever do that wasn’t expected of her? she was a girl in the 60/50s in a powerful family and had less choices than either reg or sirius ever did. she didn’t leave like sirius did. she stayed like regulus. and for similar reasons reg stayed probably. and she’s a woman. her sons are more priveliged than she will ever ever be. even disowned sirius is more priveliged than her.

6. i want to be very clear again. i am not a walburga apologist. i think there’s a clear distinction between her child- and adulthood. at some point the abuse becomes a choice. she didn’t break the cycle and she’s bad and rotten woman who abused her children. no excuses !!!!!!!!!! however. it is interesting exploring the circumstances which led to the woman she is

7. to actually answer your question. i dont necessarily care for effie/walburga but i can see the appeal. maybe i’ll get into it we’ll see……. like honestly they wouldn’t be that different from jegulus?

[bonny-kookoo]

will we ever find out why joon is so against hybrids? im thinking maybe he had a bad experience with one before… like maybe he adopted a hybrid but they didn’t trust him so they ran away and now he just doesn’t like hybrids?

It's quiet in his home, no lights turned on as he sits in front of his bedroom closet, box in his lap. The words Yoongi had thrown at him had punched him harder than the producer would've ever been able to.

"-and don't you dare try and contact authorities about this!" His friend's voice echoes in his mind.

Namjoon knows it's not all that simple. There's no way to just undo what has been done, no good option available to simply remove those hybrids from his friends lifes to spare them the hurt that might be inevitable. They're idols. Busy. No private life. Always in danger of being dragged into something that might end their entire career in a heartbeat. It's not only Jungkook or Yoongi he's scared for- but those hybrids as well.

"They're not pets for fuck's sake!" He hears both of his bandmates in his head, and he knows that. He knows it probably just as well as they do.

It's been two years almost. It's going to be next month, on the thirteenth. And yet he still can't look at the green metal tag in the box, one he's seen Jungkook's hybrid wear as well. It's the international standard color for category 3 hybrids- it's not a surprise they're similar.

The design isn't the same, Jungkook's hybrid probably having received a newer version at some point, since the tags have to be renewed every year.

"But- you told me that I'd still be able to at least see her once in a while!" He'd argued with his management, having asked for where they'd brought you after workers had picked you up a few days prior.

"Namjoon-ssi, it's better this way." They'd explained to him. "With everything going on right now, it'll be easier to handle it all without the added burden of a hybrid." They'd told him.

"Thats not for you to decide!" He'd yelled, panic setting in as the reality slowly became too apparent to him. He hadn't just given you into temporary care. He'd given you away. He'd promised you, as you'd been crying the day before they took you, that it wasn't how it seemed. That he would always come see you. That he would get you back full time as soon as he could manage.

To you, it now must've seemed as if he lied. He himself at least feels as if he did, even if he didn't even know that what he said wasn't true.

Do you hate him now?

Surely you do, if you even remember him these days. He'd searched every shelter for your name, your ID number, everything, and nothing ever came of it- so you must have a new home at this point. He hopes you're happy.

He just wants to protect his bandmates from all of this.

Jungkook is easy to manipulate in his eyes. He would definitely fall for the same lies they've told the bandleader back then as well- and he doesn't want to imagine how devastated the youngest of the group would be if his hybrid, his partner, was to be taken away like that.

And with Yoongi, it's even worse, since he wouldn't even have a choice. If he wasn't to give his hybrid up voluntarily, there would be other options to get her taken by the system itself with just a call.

Namjoon closes the box again, burying it in the corner of his closet where he keeps it safe. He knows he'll come back to it just like tonight, whenever he feels like he needs to at least remember a little bit when it was all alright. When things were okay.

Maybe he should change his ways. Maybe he should start to try and protect both or his bandmates from this not by doing the same his management had done to him in the past- but by trying to be an example of what not to do. But at this point, with Yoongi clearly angry at him, and Jungkook more or less equally hostile, he's not sure if that's even an option any longer.

Maybe he's just doomed to lose.

[theblurrysystem]

Space themed System ask game based on common fakeclaim "criteria" because these things are valid and cool actually

🛰-Do you have a large headcount?

as of writing this, we have a headcount of 85, i guess thats considered a large number?

👾-Do any alters in your system have typing quirks?

i dont think so. a few of us type differently (no caps, proper grammer, etc) but i dont think any of us have any quirks

🚀-Does your system have any Non-human alters?

yeah we answered this in a other ask game. we're non-human heavy right now

☄️-Is your system neurodivergent?

we consider did to be a neurodivergency, but other than that, we potentially have another neurodivergence but no diagnoses yet.

🔭-Does your system use neo Pronouns?

some of us do, but we dont collectively use them

🌠-Do any of the alters in your system have dyed hair?

dont think so. but some of us do have naturally unnatural hair colours

🌙-Are there any nonverbal alters in your system?

yeah we have 3

🪐-Does your system have Angry or "dangerous" persecutors?

yeah we have anger holders, as well as persecutors we try not to let front and who are genuinely harmful

💫-Do your syskids talk like children?

a couple do, not all of them, but a few of our younger ones do

🌌-Does your system have little to no amnesia between switches?

depends on whos switching, so id say sometimes but definitely not all the time. we almost always need to communicate a bit

🌟-Does your system have fairly clear communication?

yeah its decent. some days it worse. communication between certain alters is better than others. but overall its okay

🌘-Do you have a large or complex headspace?

yep sure do. have lots of areas

🛸-Do any alters in your system have exo-memories?

i think only our introjects have exo-memories? i could be wrong, but from what i can remember, its just some introjects

👽Does your system have any tics?

yeah

☀️-is your system bad at masking?

not really? some people struggle, but i dont think anyone is bad at it

✨️-Do any alters in your system have an accent?

some have one internally, but none speak with it in the body. we just struggle to keep it consistent, so we dont try. we did have an alter with an american accent in the body, but theyve fused

🌎-Do any alters in your system speak in a different language?

a lot of us know auslan (australian sign language)

☁️-Does your system use things like pluralkit and simply plural?

we personally use simply plural. we aren’t on discord, but if we did use it, im guessing we'd use pluralkit

⭐️-are you out about being a system?

yeah we've told lots of people in our life but mostly with family, it goes undiscussed

these are fun, might do more

-virgil (he/him)