#anyway feel free to correct me XD

[kotikaleo]

BOAT BOYS Obsession continues

Hello my dear smalletho enjoyers. May I present you my quick references for boat boys in their double life time

I will draw more of them, since I like to expand their dinamic to all next series you know it only makes sense, considering how much they are osessed.

Anyway i think their relationship goes through all possible russian rolacoaster. They obviously start pretty low, with Etho clearly not exited to be with Joel, but red life changed many man before them and nothing could've saved them ESPECIALLY with a god demn soul bond. They fell down for eachother bad. But when it was all over, the feeling died down, or atleast that's what they would like to belive.

Hehe more on that in next post, when I finish the rest of the sketches uwu

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i posted there some sketches 👀

[paprikaries]

_" Lux et Tenebrae "_ (WIP !UPDATE!) Fanart: Hazbin Hotel (Spindlehorse studio/Vivziepop/Amazon) Characters: Alastor the Radio demon / Lucifer Morningstar / Charlie Magne / Vaggie / Husk / Angel Dust / Nifty Pilot-verse / Amazon-verse I still expected this! xD

I don't know why, but I'm in the mood to continue this fancomic! I dressed the Hazbin Team in a thematic uniform like in my previous fanart because I wanted to give them a cohesive look. I chose Charlie and Alastor from the pilot because they're essentially the leaders, so I think it's okay if they look a bit different. Hope the dialogues are ok! Anyway, feel free to correct me, if you like! :3

[propenseverbosity]

Gale demi essay when? 👀

WELL SINCE YOU ASKED XD (Seriously thank you <3)

I think Gale Dekarios is Demisexual and here is why:

First things first. The man is devoted. When he loves, he gives his entire heart and soul to his partner. He thrives on a deep connection, and we're all aware of the nerd rizz that drew us to him in the first place.

However, the man is also damn-near OBLIVIOUS when someone starts to flirt with him. It takes a literal mind-reading connection for him to understand that Tav MIGHT like him (because of course picturing kissing him with passion isn't enough to 100% confirm! /s)

"But Gale still has sex with the player" you might ask me. And you are would be correct, but being aspec/demi isn't just about not having sex with someone, it's a lack of attraction until a deep emotional bond is formed. And I do believe Gale forms that bond with Tav before sex happens in act 2.

Some may say that he's just holding back because of the orb, but with the way he seems genuinely surprised that Tav flirts with him at the Tiefling Party, I think he's just using the orb as an excuse to not move things too fast.

Even after the orb is cured, it takes some time (and some water-testing bold flirtations in the shadowlands) to confirm that they're both on the same page before he takes anything further.

When he finally does confess his true feelings to Tav, he doesn't just hit them with an "I love you." No no, that's too vague. He has to give them the full "I'm in love with you." just so they know he means it with his entire orb-filled chest.

He talks about how he wishes they had more time. How "if things were different" he would have taken the time to do things properly, because, as he also says, he cannot change who he is, or how he loves. (let me tell you, as an ace, that line hits HARD)

This is just a side note but if you tell him his kissing is 'out of practice', he says he wishes you two had more time to practice together, and the thoughts of Gale spending time devoted exclusively to kissing his partner, without the pressure or expectations of anything more... You see where I'm going with this (I hope)

Not to mention, even after feelings (and a feelings-cementing kiss) have been exchanged, and he knows Tav feels the same way, he still feels the need to deepen that bond even further before they take things all the way!

He takes them on a magical tour of his home T_T to show them where he came from through what little glimpses into his life he can share. He could just get down to the magical sex part, but he wants Tav to know him in every way.

Physically, emotionally, even spiritually! Gale Dekarios doesn't JUST have sex (unless that is what Tav prefers) he will fuse their souls together in the Weave until they are together as one. (Also, as an ace myself, I think the Weave Sex is fascinating in the fact that there's a way to bond with a partner without using physical bodies. I wish that were real tbh, it sounds very cool!!!)

He knows they don't have the time to act out whatever romantic timeline he had in his head when he first caught feelings (At the very least he hoped to take them on an actual DATE first) but he wants to make damn sure he expresses his love for Tav in the only way he can, with what little time they have left.

Anyway Demi Gale thoughts live in my head rent free, thank you for letting me rant about this on main.

[dropthedemiurge]

Some language comments for Gray Shelter [Episode 5], just like I promised!

"Do whatever/however you want to. (literally: 'Do it the way your heart desires') You do things how you want to anyway."

"I'm sorry" - the translation is correct, it's just it's funny how Yoondae's level of apology to his friend he just lashed out at last time + he wants to ask him for HELP, and all he says is: 미안 (mian). The most informal and short way of apologizing possible. He's so teenager-minded still.

Even when he asks "Can I leave my stuff in your dad's warehouse?" it comes out grammatically more of a demand, like 'Let me do that'. Yoondae is talking like someone who has a lot of walls and doesn't reach out to people, he doesn't talk kindly but he's honest and straightforward and he cries easily but he's very angry about it.

I especially love his facial expression, even when he's at his most miserable, he'll make it everyone else's problem, as if being pitiful is the worst thing that could happen to him. "I have no one else I could ask for help but you >:(("

Fun fact about Korean's sentence structure, when you quote someone or express your thoughts, you put your sentence this way: "quoted phrase" and then + "that's what they said/what i thought/etc". So oftentimes, I see Kdramas use that trick when characters say a phrase... and then take it back with "that's someone else's thoughts" or "that's what you thought I'd say, right? LMAO". It's funny how the translators' way of transferring this was using the word "Sike!" xD

"It wasn't a mistake to me." "If it wasn't a mistake, then [what]? Since you started talking [about it], let me ask you. So what if it wasn't a mistake? What do you want to achieve with me?" "Can I do anything about it? In the past or now, you're the one who runs away and avoids me. I asked you, can I make a decision (do I have any choices)?" "You made the move but you want me to decide? Fine, then. Let sleep together once and end it once and for all. Go wash up first. I don't have time, I only left office for a short time."

The way they both care about each other but their dialogues and words are very sharp and bitter almost all the time, especially here, aaaah. That's the contrast that hooked me for all these 5 episodes. Soohyuk doesn't swear but he's talking to Yoondae very harshly and emotionless here, and for Yoondae harsh talk is the default, it's like Soohyuk is lowering his manners to talk on his level, to provoke him (or maybe that's also how he distances himself from the discovery that Yoondae has feelings for him).

And Yoondae is holding back his frustration and tears, but he understands the way such words were aimed to hurt him, so instead of lashing out back at Soohyuk, as he probably wants him to, he swallows and unusually calmly, almost softly says: "Let's talk when you can be honest. Because I will shut up and wait for you."

And it makes Soohyuk stand there in shock and contemplate.

I'll add next scenes in READ MORE since this post is getting long!

Here's the moment when the boss asks their youngest employee to write something more 'trendy' for their marketing text xD It's very true that trends in Korea come and go very quickly, they also love to invent new terms and phrases all the time. Like "MZ slang", there are many phrases, and the one trendy phrase the boss uses as the example is 킹받네 (king-pad-nae) which literally written as 'receive the king' but means "I got angry" - but with a teasing/playful subtext, like friends could say each other 'ah you're so cute, it makes me angry'.

If I'm not wrong, this phrase was widely used like 1-2 years ago and not really in its trendy peak as well right now but kudos to boss to even learning it xD And it's funny how translator chose to (I assume) use "[living in my head] rent-free" phrase as a substitute. Another fun fact, they ended up using some trendy lingo in their ad that translator gave us as "no cap!" but that part of phone msg was so blurry, I couldn't see which exact Korean phrase they ended up using x)

"Hyung, if you have any ask for help, say so. For you, 2 million... No, I'll try to give you until 3 million won in any way."

Can I just say that we had this character for one moment and I'm so not ready to let him go, I want Jeongwan to have his own storyline and everything and he's too sweet and also caring for strangers/his colleagues, and so he stole the spotlight for me xD

Yoondae said there's no food at home. But also, as you can see, there is: beer, water, rice that you can cook in the microwave, kimchi for a side dish and some other microwaved food. According to my Korean friends, typical Korean person (poor like student) can survive if they have rice, kimchi and also ramyeon. That's their the most basic food. Just a fun fact. xD

Also he was on his third can of beer, and he already made a drunken longing call on the verge of tears to Soohyuk, lying about being hurt and bringing trouble just so he'd return home. "Is that okay with you?" - just shoot me, please. :')

"I called [the cleaning service/you] to tell you to stop it [sleeping outside of home]" "Let's have that dinner [that I promised you] today. Wait for me."

After days, Yoondae was ready to give up, he "tricked" Soohyuk to return home just so he could tell him he'll move out and stop pushing any talk. And then, Soohyuk brought up the dinner (the feelings) that he kept avoiding. No wonder Yoondae looked so struck and confused. It just gave him his hopes back (and viewers too, but we probably should've known better with this kind of series haha)

Interesting cultural context: they are getting samgyeopsal - grilled meat, chosen by Soohyuk because Yoongdae said there wasn't anything he wanted to eat. And usually, the youngest one has to set the cutlery and grill meat, out of respect for the seniors. And here we see that Soohyuk is the one choosing the place, menu and even grilling the meat and pouring soju for Yoondae.

Once again, it shows that despite Yoondae's emotions and pleads, he is not mature enough, he is not ready to focus on other people. We know he can't plan his own future, he doesn't know what to do, and we see where their relationship stands now - Yoondae is still more of a burden than an equal partner to Soohyuk, and Soohyuk is more of a parent.

Even when they drink soju (in Korean drinking etiquette usually you don't drink alone, you toast together and drink together), notice how they don't even clink their glasses together, then Soohyuk is the only one drinking and Yoondae wants to follow him but puts the glass back. He's taking a shot later, when Soohyuk grills the meat again. They are totally unsynchronized at this point of their lives, and it's painful to watch.

"I said he [my father] was dead because that's the truth/reality for me. There was no other [hidden] meaning. I didn't plan to lie to you."

"I moved out completely. If I don't organize my life starting from doing this, then I don't think I'll be able to live like all the other [normal] people."

The fact that Yoondae started thinking about improving his life (the word 'organizing'), immediately made Soohyuk stop in surprise. So he started asking what does the normal life like others mean to him, hopeful to find that equal adult footing from Yoondae... but Yoondae's thoughts stopped there. And Soohyuk offered his own goal and life meaning: "to have a place to go back to, that's enough for me".

Here's when Yoondae thoughtfully agreed with him: "It's important to have a home", and took the meat tongs from Soohyuk, saying how high-maintenance he is. Yoondae embraced that realization, he took the responsibility (even a small cultural gesture) and even though Yoondae nagged him, Soohyuk smirked. Because it wasn't a completely hopeless situation. And Yoondae proved it, by saying how eating like this and going home together is his normal life as well. (and yet they were still unsynchronized until the very end! we can't have happy ending yet)

AND HERE IS WHERE I HAVE TO MAKE A SECOND POST! Because tumblr only allows 30 images in one, and I can't stop screenshotting the last conversation so I'm going to make another post that you can find in 'gray shelter comments' or 'dropthemeta' tags (upd. or here's the link to the post!)^^

[the-fab-fox]

Hi, @ocean-blue-orchids here :>

Normally I’m shy about sending in requests but I know how it feels to have that NEED to write requests but an empty inbox so here I am :’3

Requesting a one shot (or headcannons, up to you), platonic, with my Octavinelle oc Wiro Scribe, with any of the Octavinelle characters! Azul or a Tweel, take your pick!

Quick info on Wiro but feel free to dm if you have questions, and here’s his blog which has a small introduction - @trappedinoctavihelle

Wiro Scribe is a freshman who, despite his love for programming and his antisocial (bullied) tendencies, got sorted into Octavinelle instead of Ignihyde. He’s a short guy with white hair and freckles all over pale “doesn’t go outside” gamer skin. He’s timid, afraid of his own shadow, and despite trying his best to avoid trouble, he has a horrible habit of falling into it (He probably ends up on the side of the prefect during chapter 3, getting kicked out of the dorm for three days in the process). He’s in NRC because despite him having the disposition of a sad wet puppy, when backed into a corner he will resort to nasty tactics. He has a glass eye and his unique magic lets him see through others eyes for five minutes a day. He is also from flower town, so grapes are his favorite food.

He is scared of azul, TERRIFIED of the tweels. After the events of chapter three (assuming he gets off the hook for helping the prefect) he’s a bit less afraid of the Octatrio, and is able to at least hold a conversation with them. Wiro has such an obvious crush on the freshman characters, it’s so bad and probably part of the reason he helps the prefect (he would probably end up part of the freshman polycule). He’s the pop music club’s sound mixer which has worked out ok for him. He works reception at the Mostro Lounge. Oh, and Floyd calls him Seaglass since he’s so jittery and he’s got those bigbig eyes..

(Thanks for taking the time to read this! Hope you don’t mind the long infodump)

| Request Fill for @ocean-blue-orchids. To find out how to request your own, check out this post here. |

Welp this got MUCH longer than I planned but it's Floyd POV and you don't really argue with him so...

Hope you enjoy it and that it's close to what you wanted! Thank you kindly for the request, @ocean-blue-orchids. I had a great time getting to know your Twst!OC. Hope I did them justice!

[Request Fill under cut for length. (Not edited as I don't plan to have these requests edited. XD my beta has more than enough to edit with my current twst series on AO3.)]

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Floyd was bored too say the least. Honestly. Ever since Sea Slug's overblot was annihilated everything seemed to quiet down and had become very hum-drum. 

Which really didn't suit the eccentric moray-mer. Not at that moment, anyway. 

“This suuuuucks. I want someone to pester and tease.”

A chuckle reached his ear and he rolled his eyes at his twin. 

“You're just as bored as me, so don't even start.”

Jade raised a brow before grinning unrestrainedly, showing off far too many teeth than most humans would be comfortable seeing. It did nothing to Floyd who had an identical smile. 

“I would like to think I'm smart enough to not ‘start’ anything with you that I would have no hope of winning. That said, you are quite correct. It has become increasingly dull as of late.”

Just then, Azul strode into the Monstro Lounge, carrying what looked like and endless stack of papers. He was heading their way and Floyd’s expression became disgusted. 

“Nope. Not doing it. No papers for me today, thanks.”

Azul sighed in that haughty way of his. When it was directed at others, Floyd found it to be one of the best sounds in the world. When it was directed at him, it pissed him off to no end. 

Jade chuckled in that amused but tentative way of his where Azul was concerned. The tentative part was a smokescreen, of course. There was no part of his twin that was truly tentative. 

“Don't fret, Floyd. Azul asked me, as is appropriate considering I am the Vice Housewarden, to assist with paperwork today.”

“Good. I'd say have fun but I don't think paperwork is any fun at all so I won't.”

He went back to grumbling to himself about the lack of stimulation when another student came in and looked around. The dormmate in question gave an amusing squeak when his eyes met Floyd's and the moray smirked. 

Ah, right on time! 

“Oh, hey there lil Glass Squid. What's got you here off hours? If you're looking for some fun I'm looking for the same. Why don't you come talk with us for awhile, huh?”

Like clockwork, Jade chimed in. 

“Ah, if it isn't Wiro. Yes, it has been too long, hasn't it Floyd? I think the four of us are long overdue for a little chat. Don't you agree, Azul?”

Azul, who had been sorting out the papers into piles, looked up and glanced over in the direction his childhood friends were looking. A smirk slipped onto his face but he quickly covered it with his hand until he could smooth out his expression into one of concern. 

“Ah, Wiro! Yes, quite. Why not come sit and we can have a nice, long conversation.”

The Octavinelle first year narrowed his eyes, one blue and uncanny and the other green, as his mouth formed a set line. 

It was clear to Floyd—just as he was certain it was clear to Jade and Azul—that their little firstie had no desire to have any length of conversation with the three of them, much less a long one. Immediately, Floyd could feel his mood lighten. 

“Aww, come on, Glass Squid. Why not pop that eye out and we can play a little ‘Squidy-in-the-Middle’. You'd be the Squidy, obviously.”

Wiro crossed his arms with a scowl. “You three don't scare me anymore so whatever this is, you guys can just… just not.”

“Oooh, Glass Squid’s got a little bite in him today. That's okay, I like when my prey fight back.”

Jade snickered as Azul chuckled. 

“Did you hear?” Jade began, as if he were just bringing up the weather or something equally as ordinary. “That little Wiro here got himself not just one but six boyfriends.”

Azul blanched at that, his mask slipping. Floyd took on a surprised look but grinned. 

“Hell yeah. Glass Squidy doesn't play around anymore, do you, dude?”

Wiro was blushing but said nothing. 

“Six…six boyfriends. I can't imagine you have enough time to finish your homework with so many partners to contend with. Who even are these boyfriends?”

Wiro was tight-lipped but it didn't matter. Jade chuckled. 

“Would you believe that he joined both Ace and Deuce in their relationship as well as Jack and Epel only for Epel and Deuce to suggest they just be together in a polycule?”

Azul and Floyd raised their brows before looking at Wiro with more consideration than he'd ever given them before. 

“That's only four not counting our very own Wiro. Who are the other two?” Azul asked. Jade smiled pleasantly, his sharp eyes not leaving the first year for a second. 

“Well, Yuu joined the five of them not long after. The part that makes the least sense to me… is Sebek is the sixth member.”

Floyd let out a huge guffaw at that causing Azul to cringe at the sharp noise as his twin chuckled. 

“I'm sorry… I thought I heard you say Crocodile is part of this first year love fest. You're pulling my leg, right, Jade?”

“Not in the slightest, Floyd. Ask him yourself.”

“No. Don't bother asking me. Who I'm dating is none of your business.”

“But you got Crocodile to date you and lil Shrimpy to boot. Not bad, Glass Squid. Not bad.”

The first year seemed surprised but pleased with the praise. 

“Well, then be prepared to be even more amazed ‘cuz Sebek was the easiest to get to join.”

The three older students laughed, obviously amused by the fiery show. 

“Well, regardless of how or why it happened, it's apparently having a good effect on you. Still, if you didn't come for a chat, why are you here, Wiro?”

It was a fair question, Floyd supposed. A boring one but fair. 

He was also interested in the reason why as well, for all the question was boring. 

“Oh, right! Yeah. Azul the Headmage is looking for you.”

That got Azul’s attention immediately. Floyd and Jade smirked as their childhood friend sat up straight before getting up just as briskly. His light purple-blue eyes glared at Wiro, who just barely held back a smirk. 

“Why did you not lead with that upon your arrival,” he asked, irritation laced in his words even as he tried to keep his voice as neutral as possible. 

Wiro smiled in a fake pleasant smile as he crossed his hands behind his back. It was generally a sign of respect but for this little squid it was all show. Floyd could tell. 

Huh, lil guy is finally learning the way things are done around here. Good for him. 

“Ah, I was planning on it until you all decided to pick on me. Tit for tat, and all that. Isn't that what you wish us to learn?”

Touché, buddy. Touché. 

Azul narrowed his eyes but Floyd could see that even he was impressed at how well their little firstie was holding his own. It was a far cry from the way he'd been back before Azul's overblot. 

Refreshing, really. 

Floyd also no longer felt bored. 

“Well, get outta here before we decide to put you to work.”

Wiro didn't seem to need telling twice, quickly making his exit as Azul sighed again. 

“What in the Sea Witch’s benevolence could that imbecile want now? When I've already got so much work to do?”

Jade sighed and shrugged. “I haven't the slightest clue but I must admit I'm intrigued. For all he is a useless educator, you can't deny that things get interesting when he comes to call.”

Floyd perked up at that. “You're so right. I say we go hunt him out and find out what it is he wants. Then Azul can do what he does best and make sure it's worth our time.”

Azul sighed again. “You both make excellent points. Very well. Floyd, you'll come with me for bargaining and contingency purposes. Jade, I'll leave the paperwork to you and we'll fill you in when we return.”

“Of course. I would expect nothing less. Have fun with you two but not too much. We do want to stay on our esteemed Headmage’s good side.”

Azul scoffed at that. “For how much he gets from the Monstro Lounge’s profits, it would be in his best interest to keep the three of us on his good side.”

The twins agreed and with that they got to work—Jade digging into the paperwork as Azul and Floyd took their leave to hunt down—that was to say seek out—Headmage Crowley. 

[hotchocolatefanfics]

Rambling About Springtrap/William Afton and FNAF Because I Feel Like It

I don’t know if anyone else had/has this issue with FNAF, but I have always considered the animatronics to be their own characters. Like yeah they’re possessed by ghosts (dead kids and their killer) but I liked the idea that they were possessed in addition to having their own personalities/being ‘alive’.

Basically, imagine Pinocchio being possessed while being a living puppet. XD

This whole idea is due to me having a very “on again, off again” relationship with FNAF. I like the characters and the lore, but didn’t really follow the story very much…Despite knowing more now, there’s still an AU of Freddy, Bonnie, Chika, Foxy Golden Freddy/Fredbear(?) and Springtrap being created by couple who desperately wanted children of their own and somehow came to life but being abandoned with Springtrap locking himself away for unknown reasons roaming around in the back of my mind. 😆😅

But in all seriousness, I love how FNAF explores concepts like body horror (being stuffed into a robot and it becoming your body), immortality as motional/psychological torture, and how being alive could be worse than dying. It also reminds me of Coraline which is one of my favorite movies.

Springtrap and William Afton:

To be clear, I love Springtrap’s design! I love how neglected and broken he PHYSICALLY looks and his human eyes and movements (which I know is Afton but!) adds to the creepiness of him and I love it!

I swear, if the animatronics were in fact their own characters (regardless of ghost possession) I could see Springtrap suffering from pain due to rusted bolts and exposed wiring. Similar to Arthritis or nerve damage!

BUT! How I feel about William Afton is MUCH different. I love redemption stories and it’s my usual go to theme in my fan fictions, but I don’t think Afton could be redeemed. 

It would be one thing if Afton were “seeking revenge for the death of two of his kids and innocent people got mixed up in it” but, no, that didn’t happen. Didn’t he kind of (indirectly) cause their deaths in the first place? And build the animatronics to kill?

Afton is also said to have been an abusive father. I think it was emotional/mental abuse and/or neglect (according to Reddit anyway) which does remind me of the generational trauma and passed down abuse we saw in Bojack Horseman. 

I do not know if Afton’s childhood was ever explored but (again) it would have been interesting if Afton realized he was a bad parent when he failed to protect his kids and if he sought revenge on their killers (in his mind breaking the cycle of abuse and promising to do better) but ultimately making it worse by killing and harming other people and then, in shame, hiding away in the walls to stay away from the world. 

But I know, that’s all wishful thinking! 

William Afton/The Purple Guy is the first villain that I do not feel any sympathy for or have any hope/idea of redemption in him (and I absolutely love redemption for villains!). I feel far more sympathy for Springtrap (the animatronic) than I do for this guy. 

He may be hidden in a suit, seen only as a skull, but William Afton is the real monster in FNAF. 

Please correct me if I’m wrong and feel free to share your own thoughts if you want! 

[cult-bull]

Crowns of Sins Thoughts

What's up with the red crown and sin? Why does it promote it? Does it eat it? Does it need its host to grow stronger? (Most certainly making a Crowns and Hosts thoughts posts later too)

Obviously, the sins of the flesh update came later on in the game's development and in interviews I remember the creators talking about coming up with ideas and letting their writers figure out how it fits into the lore afterwards, so who knows how much is intended from the start and how much just came later.

The red crown being able to talk seems to have been there from the start, since it has speech coming from it so to say during doctrine choosing, at least it feels implied now that we know it can speak.

How sins work seems quite separate from the bishops and their crowns… until you try to think about it. Kind of. Maybe it's retroactively fitting pieces into where they could belong but hey, this is my blog and my journal of random cult of the lamb thoughts not proper theory crafting XD

I don't think it works though when just limiting yourself to the Christian seven deadly sins.

Leshy I'm throwing out the window instantly. I'm not sure what sin his chaotic ass could represent, as I'm saving wrath for someone else and even then, Leshy doesn't really seem... wrathful. Angry, loud, first boss energy, but not wrathful. He is the youngest god though, so maybe he just didn't have the time to be that sinful.

The only sin he is so far guilty of is being a weirdly cute follower

Heket is almost too easy in comparison. Gluttony, and even greed in terms of hoarding food from others by causing famines and giving their followers food if they worship well, and possibly because Mida's cave is near it, being pretty close to it on Jalala's map right between it and darkwood

It would be a bit easier to tell if we got more proper lines of where each "territory" of a bishop ends and begins. How large something actually stretches is questionable

Anyway, Heket would certainly fit right into a user of a ritual like the cannibalism one (and regain all her devotion through the mushroom drugs) so it just fits right in there.

Kallamar is where my "seven deadly sin" thing not working comes up. He is not guilty of any classic sin, nor does he promote it. I know we all in the fandom like to make him lustful, partially due to that one bishop hotline video I'm sure, but I'm not sure if anything else points him into a lust category in game though, If yes, feel free to correct me.

However

I do say betrayal and selfishness could count as sinful. He is a scaredy-cat (a powerful scaredy-cat but still), but he rather throws his siblings, especially a broken Shamura under the bus of your vengeful wrath when you come to get him post killing Leshy and Heket, just to somehow live. He's a coward, a backstabber, no matter if he feels bad about it afterwards or not. That feels ripe for a sin.

Shamura is weird too, not because nothing fits, but more because it's speculating about their past self. Their broken mind self is... well, broken. Love them, but clearly something changed about them.

Through the lore tablets in game we learn a young Shamura was the one who asked/threatened the older gods to bow to their old-back-then-new faith and began a war against the many gods with at least I presume, the other bishops.

Shamura is a god of war, of conquest, and probably even wrath back then too. Once again, it feels ripe for sin to have someone who seeks the blood spilled in the battlefield. Again though, that's speculations about a past Shamura.

Narinder is a bit easier again, since one can likely assume pride to be a good sin for him. Prideful as he tried to rise, he fell, and retained his high and mighty pride when thinking the lamb couldn't possibly ever stand up to them until being forcefully shown that fact of life.

And fall he did, like he usually does.

With all the bishops having "access" to a main sin source though (except leshy), they could have easily had a way to make their cults, their temples and more, stronger. In the game, we only upgrade the temple visually, but since a god grows stronger with worship, likely do their crowns as well, and it just helps feed that.

Likely a way of how the new gods Shamura and co rose up to power that much could be through this, though i have other thoughts for later dates too on that (and if Narinder was around back then, having the literal death god as your sibling probably helped in a war too-)

The crowns and their relationship to the gods of new and old need more exploring in general, I feel like. Not just from the game, but like, I want to see other people throw their totally-not-a-crown hat into the ring. Where they came from, how they work, etc.

Ramble times over, did this make sense? Probably not. But I like my randoms to an audience of mostly myself👍

[emeraldstorms]

Hi! I'm pretty new to the DD fandom. I saw your post about Matt making up Mike. But people talk about him like he is real? Is this fanon? Is Mike made up or not? I feel kind of stupid to ask because everyone else seems to know what's going on lmao

Please, don’t feel stupid for not knowing 6 decades of comic books by heart.

I’ll try my best to summarize the “Tale of Mike Murdock” as far as my recollection of things allows. I’m sorry I can’t keep it super short because sometimes I need to point out how silly Matt is. Like, I love him, but what a dumbass. 

(DD fans feel free to correct me if I misremember something).

Okay, here it comes(dialogue paraphrased lol)

Not to sound like J. Jonah Jameson, but… this is all Spiderman’s fault. 

In the beginning, Spidey and DD had a rivalry going on. While both acknowledged that they were on the same side, they weren’t exactly fans of one another.

Spidey finds out Matt is DD. Of course, he isn’t gonna out him, but he also apparently can’t just do nothing, but has to let Matt know he knows. So he writes Matt a letter, basically saying “I know you’re DD, but your secret is safe with me” and sends said letter not to Matt’s house or something. No, he mails it to the law firm “Nelson and Murdock”.

In a not so surprising turn of events, Karen Page opens the letter. You know, managing her bosses’ mail as secretaries do. She reads it and tells Foggy about it. Foggy and Karen confront Matt.

Matt is then like “haha, stupid Spiderman! Confused me with my… um… twin brother Mike!”. He says this not only to Karen. No, he also says it to Foggy, who is his best friend since law school, has been to Matt’s childhood home and to his Dad's funeral without seeing hide or hair of a twin brother. 

So Foggy says, “You don’t have a twin brother.” 

Matt says, “Do too! He’s just a loner and also Daredevil.”

Karen and Foggy remain skeptical. But Matt has the advantage that his friends don’t know about his super senses yet. So when a man, looking like Matt but interacting with the world like a sighted person, appears, they do buy it. (It’s a 1960s comic book after all).

For a while Matt juggles his three identities, but at one point it becomes too much (especially the Matt-Karen-Mike triangle getting out of hand). So he fakes DD’s and thus Mike’s death. Then he’s like “Very sad. But my brother trained a successor to be DD in case of his death.” So he can go on being Daredevil, but no longer having to play Mike as well. And that was that for a while.

Anyway, since Matt is not only a dumbass but also a dork, he had a dossier about Mike. For reasons, the dossier got in the hands of Reader, a blind inhuman who has an ability called “Literary Manifestation” aka what he reads (in braille) becomes real. This works three times between two resting phases (with kind regards to DnD xD). So he reads the dossier about Mike and Mike manifests. For emergency cases, Reader has a braille note on his belt, spelling “erase”, but Mike senses the danger and flees before Reader can use the note.

Mike then kidnaps Foggy to get Matt to meet and talk to him. Afterwards, Matt feels it would be wrong to “kill” Mike and lets him go. 

Mike becomes a criminal - I’m not sure if because Matt created him as a “roguelike character” or because he has no other choice with not having any papers. So he joins a group of burglars at one point whose leader has a Norn stone. The burglars use it to open doors, make walls disappear etc, but Mike steals it and uses it to change reality.

So far he is real only for himself, but he changes the world so people remember him, his mother, his brother, childhood friends etc.

TLDR: Mike was just a fake identity of Matt, but now he is real because of inhuman power and a norn stone 

I hope this helps and you’re a bit less confused. <3

[asaka-lucy-dr-rc]

Hello! I'm really happy that you're giving us insights about the original japanese version of the games, thank you very much for that =)

I have a question about one translation from SD2's Island Mode (the dating Sim unlocked after beating the game) while going on a date with Kazuichi; you don't have to answer if you don't want to, of course, it's a bit silly; it's just, if you go with him to the library, and you pick the option 'burn the books' there's one line where he says, in the english version, that he remembers how one time his MOM burned some, uh, dirty books he had. Anyway, I had always assumed he said the same in the japanese version, but apparently he doesn't use the word 'mom' like in english, he uses '親' instead, wich means 'parent' or 'parents', more generically, so he could be talking about his father instead. The complete line is :

'昔、 見つかったエロ本ヽ親に焼かれたのを思い出すぜ…'

And in the english version: 'Heh, speaking of burning books… That reminds me of the time my mom found my porn stash and burned it…'

And, again, it's a bit silly, but this is the ONE time (unless I missed something) that he mentions having a mother. In the rest of his dialog he only talks about his father, so I thought he was a single parent, but this ONE line changed it, and now I wonder if it was a translation mistake ^^;; (it wouldn't surprise me since this is just a bonus mode, not the main game) (also, I should mention that I only know some very basic japanese and I used some online traslators for this so I might be missing some things)

So...do you have any thoughts? am I missing some context? does Kazuichi actually have a mom? would you have translated it differently or am I making too much of a big deal out of this?

Again, please don't feel obligated to answer, sorry that this question was so long ^^;; also, I'm not planning on asking you about every little inconsistency in the translations because it could take forever and I don't want to take up your time; I was just curious about this one thing because I think it changes Kazuichi's backstory a lot.

If you do decide to answer, thank you, and thank you for always being so kind =) I love reading your posts. Have a nice day!

OMG I've already seen the ending for Kazuichi in Island mode, but I didn't know that line! It's SO CUTE! Awww, what a silly boy, Kazuichi 😆💕

And I was surprised to see that Hajime had said such a violent thing as burning books, but it seems that he had actually said that they seemed to burn well. (Though I don't think that's a good thing to say either! XD) Just in case, here are the screenshots from the game:

So, regarding your question about the word '親 (oya)' being translated as 'mom' in the English version, this is correct from my perspective!

As for whether '親' is interpreted as 'parent' or 'parents', in most cases when you want to say 'parents' in Japanese, you would say '両親 (ryou-shin)'. ('両' means 'both'.) So it is definitely either his mother or father.

As for how I can tell if it was his mother, I think it was because his mother was cleaning his room and found his porn stash, and because he calls his father '親父 (oyaji)' in the Free Time Events, so it would be natural to assume that he calls his mother '親'.

By the way, calling your own mother '親' when talking with your friends is a very teenager-like way of speaking. Until they are in elementary school, most people use the same way of addressing their mother as they do at home, such as 'お母さん (oka-san)' (the equivalent of the English word 'mom'). However, when they reach their teenage years, they may be teased about how they address their mother, so many people start calling their mother '親' in front of their friends to hide it. (Calling your father '親父' is also quite typical of teenagers. This is an especially boyish way of speaking.)

That's all my opinion. Finally, I was very happy to receive such a polite and kind ask! I'm also honored to hear that you enjoy my posts. I'm basically just talking about things I love, but it's great to know that someone enjoys it! 😊 Thanks to you, I was able to find out that Kazuichi said such a silly but cute story in Island mode. hehe So if you have any more questions or want to talk, please don't hesitate to ask me! ;)

Thanks for asking and reading! 🫶💖

[ideas-on-paper]

Thoughts on Tron: Identity (quick review)

Finally, I closed the biggest gap in my Tron education: I played Tron: Identity at last!

And let me say, it was an amazing experience - short, but amazing.

I really love that the game digs into the "spiritual" themes of Tron, like the Users being akin to gods for the programs. At the same time, it's kind of funny since all of the programs on the Arq server are ISOs, so none of them were written by any Users - technically, they don't have any gods at all, since they spawned out of nowhere. Still, despite having no higher-ordained function, they're looking for purpose by organizing themselves, and some of them - like Prinz - even turn to the Users for guidance. (I guess programs are not too dissimilar from Users in that regard…)

Also, I really enjoyed the inclusion of the Automata - I love the idea of a faction of programs wanting to evolve beyond the predetermined parameters of the Users, and who place greater value on finding their own path and information being free to access for everyone. (I'm a big fan of AIs valuing their otherness, if you can't tell. xD)

Nevertheless, I think that the theme of control of information/information as power present in the game is very relevant, probably more so now than ever. In the age of the internet, the value of information and data will only increase, and whoever holds them will have control over pretty much everything - and wherever there is power, you can count on someone being there to abuse it.

Aside from this, Tron: Identity also has some pretty existentialist themes, like dealing with the realization that God has abandoned you and that knowledge is sometimes more of a burden than a boon. I can relate to both of these very well, and I love the way they implemented this little bit of philosophy into the game.

From a gameplay perspective, Tron: Identity was my first visual novel, and I have to say I quite enjoyed it - due to the nature of the story, I found myself thinking really hard about some decisions, and to my own surprise, I actually really liked the puzzle minigames intermingled in between. (I'm usually not that big on puzzle games; I think that's because most of the time, there's only one correct way to solve the puzzles, so I'm glad that the minigames in Identity allow for multiple approaches.)

[Spoilers from this point onwards!]

Still, I somehow feel like I got the worst ending possible - Proxy took off with Prinz, Ada turned to voxels from Cass's explosion, and Grish was royally pissed at me. xD In the end, I didn't have much of a choice but to derezz Grish - I considered handing over Cass to him just to keep both of them alive, but I couldn't bring myself to betray Cass. Sorry, Grish, but I had to protect my precious baby. xD

However, from what I've read in some guides, it could've gone much, much worse - if you try to stop Proxy from taking Prinz, you will accidentally hit Prinz with your disc. I was considering to defend Prinz, but I was worried about him being in the line of fire, so I didn't take that choice. (Good call on that one, I guess... ^^')

I suppose 3/5 survivors isn't the worst you can do (since Sierra can't die anyway), but maybe I'll do another run in the future to see some of the other outcomes.

Either way, Tron: Identity is a fantastic addition to the Tron franchise, and you can really tell that Mike Bithell put a lot of love, effort, and care into the story. I just hope we'll get a sequel to it soon, and that your decisions from the first game will have an impact on the second. (When I freed Sierra, I was kinda hoping he would help you out as an ally later, so that's something I'd really like to see.)

[tracybirds]

Hi :-) 2 and 7 for the Thunderpride ask game please (if applicable, if not feel free to answer a different one!)

Hi :DD Thank youuuu for sending these and thank you for your patience (apparently sleep is like ? a necessity?) anyway!

2. Tell me an alternate headcanon for a character

Brains being quietly agender is a fave of mine :) I think he would be privately comfortable knowing that about himself, and relish the opportunity to spend time with those closest to him who also know, but not really having the time or energy to correct people who aren't important to him. Once upon a time, he hated the idea of being ~perceived~ because he was quite self-conscious, but as he's gotten older, he's grown more sure of himself and doesn't really think about the fact that a random on the street sees him as male. I think he would use he/they pronouns, but have they/them reserved for private conversations with close friends.

7. Name a character that helped you love yourself

answered here! Might be cheeky and randomise another question ;D

okay randomiser gave me 6!

6. Recommend a piece of queer media

No-one who knows me is surprised if I say Steven Universe right lol xD I love that show, I think it's a wonderful cartoon with fantastic characters and an immersive world and I love love love the consistent theme of reconciliation and steadfast love. It's just so creative, and it was being produced right at the cusp of queer media going mainstream, particular in cartoons and "children's shows". I remember when Korra and Asami held hands and that was the height of queer themes in cartoons, so things like showing Ruby and Sapphire getting married, the unrequited Pearl/Rose Quartz storyline, Stevonnie (and later Shep!) using they/them pronouns... the list goes on and on :D It was so important to me, and it's a fantastic show that holds up as a bonus!

[questions here!]

[moltengoldveins]

That TCU post…that is truly one of, if not the greatest thing I’ve ever seen come out of this fandom. I tried my own hand a while back at writing “the dsmp but taken seriously”; gave it a name and a playlist but didn’t really write much before I went back to my other projects. If you ever have the motivation to do more with that outline I’d be honored to be a co-writer or help out in any way, or if you want you could just use my title as a name for the series: A Ballad of Broken Dreams.

holy crap op this is so sweet. Thank you so much. I’m… wow ok. That. Wow. Thank you. That’s legitimately so kind and I’m so glad you enjoyed it XD. Id also Love to see your playlist and your thoughts behind the songs if you’re down?! That sounds awesome :D

funnily enough, I’ve had a drafted outline for this heccin thing running around in my head since the Butcher Army arc. Right around when SAD-ist dropped her animatic, I simultaneously realized ‘oh wow, I Adore this concept’ and ‘oh wow, I Highly doubt the CCs are gonna manage to do this the way I’d want to see it’ and lo and behold: I was correct. So painfully correct. (There were also People Involved whom I had Really Bad Feelings About from very early on that, sure enough, turned out to be exactly what i thought they were, rip) So the Emduo prequels, Icarus heccin Dying, and the end of Axe of Peace have been around for Ages.

I’d honestly love to do more with this concept, (i am designing movie posters as we speak) but due to Chronic Illness Pog I’m in a rather unstable financial situation? And don’t have a ton of free time for art. Any big projects are gonna take a While, or id need to find a way to use it or something adjacent to fund, y’know, Rent. That being said, I’m definitely writing the emduo prequels, both as movie scripts and as novels, as those are the films focused on, yknow, My Bois. I also think it’d be hilarious to release the novels and then the scripts and watch people Loose Their Minds over the ‘inaccurate adaptation >>:(‘

I’d absolutely love to work with other people in the fandom on this stuff, though I’ve never been the best at directly co-writing (my writing method and style is painfully specific (ie needlessly poetic) and I’m very autistic: I don’t like it when people touch that Specific Thing) but literally anything else? Im open ears. I love collabs.

and finally, I adore your name for the series, (excellent word choice there /srs, it fits perfectly with the symbolism of the whole story) and I think it works really Really well for the actual DSMP, but if I’m entirely honest… I’m not sure it fits the TCU? Like genuinely I’m so grateful for the suggestion, I love when people offer ideas and bounce things around like that. But one of the main things I tried to do with this concept was work out how the story could actually end Well. A deep-seated belief in the good-but-fallen nature of man, the importance of hope, and the inevitability of redemption kinda comes part and parcel with the whole Being-A-Christian Thing (if it doesn’t, you’re missing the Whole Point Of The Bible) and while the actual DSMP may have ended in broken dreams… this doesn’t. That was my first thought when writing that outline: This Is Going To End Well. Not for wish-fulfillment reasons, not because I’m naive or I don’t like bad endings, but because fundamentally, everything sad is a lie, and if the story has ended in tragedy, it hasn’t ended yet.

If I had to pick a series name now, I’m not sure what I’d pick. A part of me balks at referencing anything popularized by Our Local Redacted, but ‘unfinished symphony’ wasn’t his in the first place, it was from Hamilton. “The Finished Symphony” has a cool ring to it? I dunno. If anyone else has ideas please feel free to toss them in here aight, I’m not settling on anything for a While.

Anyways, thanks for Ted talking with me, drink water 💜

[tamelee]

fuck booktok fr it literally recommends the same ten books over and over again, mischaracterises or twinkifies half the characters and then act like theyve done no wrong when other book communities hate on them. LIKE BABES YOU LITERALLY TURNED LITERATURE INTO FAST FASHION. capatalism is at an all time high in booktok, with ppl having 200 physical tbr's and five editions of the same book. but if you say anything about it, you hated on for hating???? we really need to go back to libraries, its like ppl have forgotten those exist. anyway that was my small little rant hehe (sorry feel free to ignore)

Oooooh, book-community discourse is a thing? *-* Interesting. I do know they get a lot of backlash from the art-communities because every damn novel has one of three cover-designs and they all look the same nowadays. You can hardly tell the authors apart. Most are made by AI as well -.- (I mean, shouldn’t writers/authors and artists be on the same page about the matter? No? Imagine complaining about your writing being stolen and then using AI for your cover-art… come on now.) 

Feel free to rant always xD I’m actually happy to know I’m not the only one feeling weird about these 10’ish recommendations that you see over and over again. I picked one out that was Goodreads #1 bestseller once (2022, I believe) and seeing people rave about it and giving the monstrosity 5-⭐️ catapulted me to an alternative Universe to rethink my entire life. I don’t think I’ve ever been more confused. (Beautiful prose though, I’ll give it that.) 

((I put book-tok and -tube together because to me it didn’t seem like it’s much different? I don’t really use tiktok, but they all repost their vids and recs through yt-shorts. Not sure if putting the two together pissed someone off then, but please do correct me if I’m wrong.))

Yeeaaahh, you’re right actually. I never really sat down to think about it, but that analogy you made is pretty brilliant. I mean, it’s sad, but a lot do treat books like fast fashion from what I’ve seen. I may not like majority of these ‘trending’ books, but treating a piece of work that way (cheap and trendy) hurts my book-loving heart a little. If ever possible in the future, I’d love to have a library in my home with my favorite books. (Dark academia style of course.) I usually only buy a physical copy if I really liked it after reading the digital version. Unfortunately around here, most libraries have closed :( So I’m afraid you’re right about that as well— people really have forgotten. 

[agentnatesewell]

OOOH okay! So I have been reading plenty of this blog about your N-Sewell thoughts would just like to say "I tip my hat to you from one legend to another" xD.

Now I gotta ask! Since I am also somewhat new, if you have some fun information or headcannons about your Detective Suri and Nate!!!

Especially now that the relationship route in book 3 is both steamy but also sweet!!!!

Hello, my friend! You are so very sweet - thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts! Truly, I have so very many of them regarding my favorite fictional character.

Thank you for asking! Here are some of my favorite Nate and Suri, “Nuri” headcanons (you’ll see some align with canon and some are just what I’ve cultivated in my mind and with friends between the books):

* At some point, Nate and Suri elope. It’s a wonderfully impulsive and romantic decision. Afterwards, Suri is Suri Batra-Sewell and she will gently inform, remind, correct anyone that calls her Batra (I guess it’ll be Agent now? Agent Batra-Sewell)

* They adopt a dog, a small terrier. Fluffy, furry, full of personality , and very cute. Perhaps up to fifteen pounds. His name is Bishop

* Suri’s grandfather is Arab and she’s always wanted to learn Arabic to be, at least, conversational. It is a very good opportunity for them to learn together

* There is a lot of romantic and romantic, physical affection between them (pretty touchy-feely)

* Adam is important to Nate, his oldest friend. Thus, Suri has made an effort to get to know him and befriend him, and she is glad she has. Because Adam is actually pretty great

* Suri likes poetry, and sneaks in a few lines to Nate. Whether spoken in a private moment or written on a note and left in his jacket pocket or in a book he’s reading. Favorite poets include Rumi, Khalil Gibran, and Pablo Neruda

* Whether they’ve communicated it or not, they both know that despite the attraction and feelings of love have come easy, this relationship isn’t necessarily so. They know that it’ll take time, work, and believing in each other and themselves (well she does, anyway!)

*Suri is as protective of Nate as he is of her

* Before book three, my friend and I hc’d that Nate called Suri ‘hayati’ and she called him ‘rouhi’. Now after book three, that’s switched!

Thank you so much for asking and letting me talk about my loves! Please, please feel free to send me your headcanons about your detectives and their ros!

[thedeluluverse]

Summary: While you have been working for BTS for a little over a year, you and your boyfriend Taehyung have only officially been together for two and a half months. Everything is going well until he starts tagging along to your shoots with your other clients, Stray Kids.  Are his suspicions correct or is he seeing things?

Pairing:  idol!Taehyung x multi-group-photographerGF!Nari a.k.a. “Burning Film” couple

Rating: PG13

Genre: idol!au, mutual pining, angst, fluff, early relationship, jealousy, coworker!au, work crushes

Word Count: 1, 965

Warnings: angst, fluff, feeling insecure, slight teasing, jealousy,

Author's Note: Here is the "Burning Film" couple again! I have created an oc basically for this storyline of Tae named Nari who represents y/n! It isn't necessary to read BF first but it would help you understand what they've bee through already plus I am proud of it so if you do, let me know what you think! Also, we stan SKZ and Felix in this house so no hate, this was just an idea I've had for awhile. Enjoy!! :)

P.S.- yes I am going to go back into Burning Film and replace y/n with Nari but another time. I have work in like 6 hours so going to catch some sleep hopefully XD

The last three months have been much deserved bliss with your new boyfriend Taehyung; not only do you finally have the man of your dreams, but your work has garnered a plethora of attention earning you the title of official photographer for the kpop group Stray Kids as well! Tae is supportive of your dream but is having a hard time adjusting to you being away from him more than usual. Noticing his demeanor change every time you say you’re going to “other work”, you make a decision as you are getting ready one day.

Nari: “BAAABBEEE!!” – you shout from the bathroom as you put the finishing touches on your outfit.

Tae: rushes to you out of breath “Yes jagiya? Is everything alright?”

Nari: giggles and turns towards him “Yes silly, I didn’t scream fire or anything. Still cute though.”

Tae: kisses the top of your head “Fair enough but I just had to make sure, and you’re the cute one baby. Anyway, why did you summon me?”

Nari: blushes slightly Wellllll, I was going to see if you wanted to accompany me to the Stray Kids photoshoot today. I know it’s been rough having less free time together lately. If not I totally get if it’d be boring for you so no pres-“

Tae: interrupts you by picking you up and spinning you around “Oh I’d love to y/n that’s such a great idea!!! I’ve always wished I could see the magic behind the camera so this is perfect! I’ll meet you by the car in 5 minutes, you’re the best!”

You can’t help but chuckle at how puppy-like he could be, but it was endearing that he wanted to understand what you did for a living. In true gentleman fashion, he opens your door when you get to the SKZ location, carries your equipment inside for you, and even brings you a water and an easy snack for while you work. Halfway through the shoot, you tell the guys to take a 10-minute break so you can assess what else you need and so they can grab a snack as well.

Tae has been waiting nearby during the shoot in case you need anything, so he takes this opportunity to use the restroom and refill his water. As he returns he sees you talking with Han, Bang Chan, and Felix, which was fine until he heard Felix exclaim, “Woah Gracie, I love you for that!”. He doesn’t say anything, but he is not thrilled about the fact that he of all people has a special nickname for you. Before today he had no issues with the guy, so what changed? You and Nari will find out soon enough don’t worry!

The shoot comes to an end about a half hour later and Tae can’t help you pack up and get out of there fast enough. I mean, you can’t really blame him since y’all have been there for close to 5 hours but it’s not like he hasn’t had longer shoots. Guess time is more of a drag when you aren’t an active participant. In any case, after picking up a quick bite y’all are home bound! As soon as he puts the car in park you can tell something is different. He uncharacteristically grabs his meal and goes inside before you can even open your door. Chalking it up to him being hangry and missing Yeontan, you give a tired exhale and head inside.

As you kick off your shoes and scan the house, you don’t see Tae anywhere; you peak into the living room and his room because he likes to eat in there sometimes but still no luck. Assuming he must have something to work on after hearing him in his studio, you resign yourself to eating at the kitchen island alone with Yeontan peacefully asleep at your feet.

After eating, you shuffle to his studio door looking for some company, but your knocks are met with silence then a “C’mon Nari, can’t you tell I am busy right now? I’ll be out when I’m done, go watch TV or something aish!”. Tears pricking behind your eyes, you give a quiet “oh, okay sorry I won’t bother you anymore love…” before you walk away and curl up on the couch listening to calming lo-fi music as you try to quiet your brain. You didn’t do anything to make him upset as far as you can recall so unless something gets brought to your attention, you decide to enjoy the rest of your afternoon doodling in your notebook.

The sun has long set, and you can’t remember when you passed out on the couch exactly before you got awoken abruptly by the loud opening of Tae’s studio door and him stomping to take Yeontan on a walk. You are less in a daze when he comes back and are just looking up pleadingly at him only for him to bark out a “what?!” and in return you croak out an unconvincing “nothing” just for him to scoff at you. “Yeah sure, you’ve looked pitiful since we fucking got home. What’s the problem huh? Miss your strays?”.

You blink wide-eyed “what the hell are you talking about? You’re the one who has been in a shitty mood since a random point in the shoot. You wanna tell me what’s going on?” He sits in the big armchair near you, running his hands through his hair then gets up and paces for a good 3 minutes before sitting back down with his elbows on his knees and hands clasped; deeply sighing, he finally reveals the truth.

You sniffle, heart pounding in anticipation trying to look strong even though you were terrified you had blinked wrong or something and were about to be single. He takes a long sip of water then glares up at you, “So you wanna know what’s going on huh? Well, I don’t ‘knaur’ Gracie, what is going on?” Confusion shadows your features as you meet his eyes, “Why did you ask like that and why on earth did you call me Gracie???” He darkly chuckles and says, “Oh, is that an issue?” Nari rolls her eyes and says “Why are you laughing first of all? And it isn’t an issue per say, it just shocked me because you have never called me that once since we’ve met.”

Tae leans back in his chair manspreading trying to affirm his authority and explains, “Well, here goes and don’t you fucking interrupt me. If you somehow have questions, be a patient little cheater and wait until I’m done okay?” You nod in anticipation trying to stay strong and not react to his accusation yet. “Well, whatever name you’re going by, you are right. I haven’t been in the best mood, and it wasn’t a ‘random point’, it was when you had called for a 10-minute break. I had returned from the bathroom and saw you had relocated from our spot to near the Aussies and Han.”

You raise your hand giving him the grandest power complex to which he only tilts his head towards you beckoning you to speak. “You know I’m friends with all of them so why did seeing that turn you into a dick?”. Poking his cheek with his tongue, he clarified, “It didn’t turn me into a dick darling. I just don’t like people trying to take what is mine.” “Nobody was trying to take me you dumbass.” “Then why the shit does Felix have a special nickname for you AND said he loves you??” he slightly yelled with tears in his eyes.

As he hid his face in his hands, taking deep breaths to avoid sobbing, you were trying to process the words that just came out of his mouth. After stuttering and trying to form sentences, you explain the situation as he comes to sit next to you. Turning towards him and covering his hands with yours, you take a deep breath and bring him up to speed; “So the name thing first. Well as you know he and Bang Chan are Australian. So, them trying to say my first name just winds up in a 10-minute loop of aggressive ‘nauring’ you know? So, I decided to tell them my middle name and Bang Chan immediately fell in love with calling me ‘Gracie’ so only the Aussies call me that, for that reason only okay?” He cracks a small smile, “I guess that does make sense….. but why did he say he loved you?” You choke on air, and you ask incredulously, “Ummm when the hell did he say that?!?!”

He glances at the floor sheepish worried he misheard something now and is starting to feel like the biggest asshole to ever exist. “I dunno, I just heard him tell you ‘Woah Gracie, I love you for that!’ and just after the unexplained name thing it sent me spiraling.” You give a small smile this time and go “calm down tiger, I had just shown him a photo I had edited of him and hella fixed the lighting, so he was grateful because it was an important photo of him. That’s it I promise okay? I swear on Tannie!!”

It was his turn to go big eyed because he knew when you swore on a pet, you meant business! “Okay I believe you Nari I really do.” You breath the deepest sigh of relief ever until he interrupts with “But I do have one more question…” “Oh?” you question, “what’s up Tae?”. “Okay now don’t get mad, but are you sure there’s nothing there? I mean it seemed like there was some flirting, at least from where I stood.” “I mean I doubt he was flirting with me; he knows I am with you plus I double doubt you started a trend of fine Korean men finding me attractive.” you chuckle.

Suddenly his countenance darkened again in an instant as he backed away, “fine Korean men????” you gulp, “I mean, I didn’t mean fine fine, I just meant that I am a photographer, so I appreciate aesthetically pleasing things and people.” You say as you start to get off the couch, but he stands and pulls your hair getting you to look him in the eyes “So you aren’t attracted to him AT ALL then??” Tears form once again in your eyes as you explain yourself, yet again…”Okay so he maybe was my first SKZ bias, and you aren’t the first person to point out that he flirts with me a lot. I won’t deny that before we were together it was very nice, but I love you not him okay?”

There’s a long pause until you both sit back down, and he looks like he has seen a ghost, “wait…love me???” You chuckle, “Yes you idiot, lovingly of course!” He has tears in his eyes then asks, “Are you sure??? I mean, it has only been a few months and I know I’m taller, but my voice can’t get near his and I was an ass earlier…” “Hun, I agree you could’ve handled everything earlier better and come to me sooner and been upfront. But it doesn’t mean that you are inherently an ass okay? I don’t care that your voice isn’t just like his, I love your voice and it’s been my peace for years now.”

“Well, good points all around and I just…. I really am sorry that I freaked out so much earlier, I just love you too, so it lit a fire in my soul. I’m sincerely sorry and I’ll do better okay? I can’t lose you…”. You are both sobbing at this point and then while you pull each other into the most intense embrace, you reassure him

“You won’t”.

[shychick-52]

Thoughts about Gandra Dee and Fenton? (Pt. 2)

So, in this post I raised a bunch of questions that always confused me about Gandra and Fenton's relationship and her being in F.O.W.L. In that last post of mine, I invited others to chime in with their own ideas. I'm just listing some of my own headcanons for them, which I've used in my fanfics. Please feel free to add your own two cents. (And I'm only listing my thoughts on the questions I actually have headcanons for).

How and when did they reconnect after 'The Dangerous Chemistry of Gandra Dee' (which took place in the middle of season 2, while 'Beaks In the Shell' happened near the end of season 3)?

How did that conversation go and what was said? How exactly did Gandra earn Fenton's trust after hurting him so badly? That is, how could he be absolutely sure he could trust her (even after she presumably told him- off-screen, anyway- her backstory leading to making a lot of bad choices in her desperation to get her science projects funded?

How did it not compromise Fenton's morals (because he's such a morally upright person, a total goody-goody) to be in a relationship with somebody with such a shady past, who was currently part of an evil spy organization? It's obvious he wanted to give her a chance after hearing her backstory, and understood that she's not really a bad person, but I just don't understand how he still didn't feel conflicted.

I like to think maybe a few days to a week after their so-called date, Fenton- who had Gandra's contact info, as it showed in 'Dangerous Chemistry'- couldn't stop thinking about Gandra, and reached out to her to talk about everything that happened. She was just so intriguing and he'd never met anyone he so strongly connected with, somebody who shared his passion for science (not counting Gyro) and who he shared such chemistry with (science humor, ya'll XD). He knew there was a real spark between them (and not just when she shocked his hand with her electric nanites when she demonstrated them to him XD). And he also felt really conflicted, because she was a crook who did take advantage of him and totally betrayed his trust (and although she helped him defeat Beaks and left him with the correct equation to help him complete his experiment, which he was undoubtedly very grateful for, I imagine he still felt conflicted).

They reconnected and talked about everything, and she earnestly apologized for everything she did- including just taking off without a word in the end, which I think she did because she felt too ashamed to stay and face him- and explained her backstory (about how she was always misunderstood for her passion for super-science, which was always rejected for being too dangerous and unorthodox, leading her to experiment on herself and allowing herself to be hired by bad guys- the only ones who would fund her work, because they didn't care how much destruction it caused- and become this hardened, tough-as-nails, lone-wolf scientist who did what she did from desperation). And that led her to admitting she was in F.O.W.L. and explaining about them, knowing she owed him the truth. She hated being unable to truly be her own scientist like she originally bragged to Fenton, and she felt so trapped in this lifestyle and disgusted with herself, but always felt she had no choice- and she tried to look at it like she was the one using them for her funding, even tho she knew they were just using her too and didn't care about her brilliance.

(Gandra explaining her past and reasons for being in F.O.W.L. to Huey in 'Beaks in the Shell')

Fenton was shocked, but filled with sympathy and compassion for her, even if he strongly disapproved of her lifestyle choices (but couldn't really judge her for them). He wanted to give her a chance and be the source of support she never got, and realized she wasn't fundamentally a bad person. And that led them to confessing their feelings for each other and developing their secret relationship (to keep the people in Fenton's life from finding out he was involved with an 'enemy' and branding him a traitor, and to keep F.O.W.L. from finding out she was a traitor involved with Gizmoduck and an ally of the Ducks- which was even more serious in her case, because they could do a lot more than just fire her for her treachery...). And ofc they eventually developed their top-secret VR space for the science community to conduct super-science in a safe, controlled environment, which she used her funding from F.O.W.L. and their resources to build, and planned to finally quit F.O.W.L. for good once the project was finished.

How long Gandra had been in F.O.W.L.? Did she join before or after meeting Fenton?

I like to think she was already in F.O.W.L. when Mark Beaks hired her, because it wouldn't make sense for her to join F.O.W.L. after reconnecting with Fenton, apologizing, and confessing everything, him giving her a chance, and them becoming a couple; that would look very bad, and I just don't see how Fenton could have trusted her if she did that afterwards.

What was the extent of Gandra's knowledge of Bradford's plans? Other than retrieving the Missing Mysteries as part of F.O.W.L.'s ultimate goal to destroy all adventure, chaos, and unpredictability and take over the world (which she already knew), what else did she know?

What was the extent of Fenton's knowledge of F.O.W.L.'s plans from Gandra? (Did he know everything she knew? Did she fill him in on anything? Or did she withhold certain information from him for his own protection?)

I think she knew the basics- that F.O.W.L.'s main objective was to ransom the world and take it over, to remake the world in Bradford's perfect image by eliminating all adventure and anything chaotic and unpredictable. She knew about the Missing Mysteries of Isabella Finch (she was the one who informed Bradford the Ducks found her journal they planted at the end of 'Challenge of the Senior Junior Woodchucks') and that Bradford wanted the Ducks to find the artifacts so they could steal them all from the family.

However... I don't think she knew just how truly evil or insane Bradford was. I don't think she- or any of the other agents, until much later- knew about his plan for the Papyrus of Binding or his plan to clone Webby (which was all related to his convoluted plan to get Scrooge to give up on adventuring forever). Gandra was with the other agents at the end of 'The Sword of Swanstantine' when Heron contacted Bradford and held up the feather they managed to secretly get from Webby, saying "Mission accomplished"- and the other agents obviously knew about May and June by the time of the finale (not counting Gandra, because she'd been captured three episodes away from the finale before they were created)- but I don't think any of the agents knew about Bradford's plan to clone Webby until much closer to the end of the series. If Gandra had known, which she would have if she didn't get captured at the end of 'Beaks In the Shell', I think that's something she definitely would've tipped Fenton off about so he could warn the Ducks! So, I don't think any of the F.O.W.L. agents knew why their real objective was to obtain a feather from Webby on that mission- they just were following orders. It's my headcanon the information the agents got from Bradford and Heron was strictly on a need-to-know basis, only telling them what they deemed appropriate when they deemed it appropriate (Bradford obviously didn't trust his people with too much information at once).

Proof of this is at the end of 'Beaks In the Shell' when Bradford caught onto Gandra's treachery before she could quit, and ordered her to be captured and brought to the Lost Library. Gandra cried out, "What?! What library?!" Bradford replied, "You have your secrets, Agent Dee. I have mine." And obviously Bradford finally told the other agents about the Lost Library by 'The Last Adventure' because F.O.W.L. relocated there on Bradford's orders early on in that episode.

And she obviously also didn't know about Bradford's plan to capture and destroy everyone even remotely associated with the Ducks (family, friends, allies, enemies) along with all the Missing Mysteries- which she warned Huey about when he found her in the final episode- until she herself was imprisoned in the Lost Library with everyone else. Again, that's something HUGE that she definitely would've alerted Fenton to if she knew!

And she was just as shocked as everyone else when Ludwig Von Drake dropped the big reveal that Webby was cloned from Scrooge (even more proof she didn't know anything about the whole plan to clone Webby):

And I absolutely headcanon that Gandra and Fenton agreed that Gandra wouldn't/couldn't tell him most of what she did know about Bradford's goals and plans, for fear of putting them both at risk (including the secret location of F.O.W.L.'s headquarters underneath Funso's Fun Zone), as well as to avoid making their relationship awkward and reduce conflict in it.

Anyway, those are some of my thoughts for those questions that never got addressed in the show. There are the other questions and plot-holes (again, see the other post I linked to at the top of this one) that have me scratching my head, but I wouldn't mind your thoughts.