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bilbao-song · 10 months
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suiana · 9 months
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yo i saw ur rb && feel free to write about the renting concept!!! if u do pls tag me i’d love to see <33 😋
😻😻 rhanks genie
(yandere! rental boyfriend x gn! reader) (shitpost kinda) (concept based on this post)
you know, it's not like you were ugly, dumb or poor. in fact, you consider yourself rather attractive, smart and quite rich. but it seems that no one has noticed that which... might've been why you were single for a very long period of time.
very meaning from when you were born up until recently.
you had always desired for a relationship. wanting to experience the joys of love, the romance, the contentment you get whenever you're with that special someone.
unfortunately you never got to experience that. never. even after putting down your dignity and renting a boyfriend.
you had rented a rather pretty looking guy from this... dodgy website called 'rent-a-darling'? was that the name? it probably is. what a weird website it's called. anyways, it was basically a rental boyfriend/girlfriend website and you had absolutely struck gold with it.
perfect face, perfect body, incredibly intelligent... he was basically a work of art. and his personality wasn't half that bad either! he cracked jokes and they were entertaining enough! he made you laugh, feel better about your miserable love life...
but he just wasn't it.
so you decided to end contact with him. there was no point in continuing that rental service anyways. it's not like he'd like you back even if you fell for him.
except that was exactly what happened?? a few days after you officially ended your contact with your absolute god of a rental boyfriend, he showed up at your doorstep, panting as a lovesick look paints his beautiful features.
you were concerned to say the least. after all, you had never seen him act in such a way before. which was why you allowed him in... which led you to your current situation which was far from ideal.
"could you let me go please? my arms are sore..."
"you know, you're really cute like this."
you merely sigh in response, looking away as you grow awkward under his obsessed gaze. this has been the fifth day since he tied you up, only allowing you to leave the bed for meals and the toilet.
and in those five days he's openly admitted to be in love with you.
while it was nice and endearing to hear such words, you only wish it was from someone you actually loved back. and maybe not as crazy as this guy was.
"can you please let me go? do you want money or something? i can give it to you-"
"what i want is your love, and that cannot be bought with money."
he interjects promptly, still smiling at you with his pearly white teeth which were honestly starting to creep you out. why were they so white? why was he so objectively perfect? and why was he madly obsessed with you?
"hey can i just ask something? why are you so obsessed? like just why."
he pauses for a second, hummung contently as he shuts his eyes for a bit.
"I'm not sure why,"
his eyes open again and he continues his sentence. this time, you can't help but feel an impending sense of dread in your gut when he speaks.
"i guess i just really adore you."
he then giggles oddly, tugging at your bedsheets as his face nears yours.
"you complete me, my love."
you grimace as his face nears yours. ugh, what you wanted was that lovey dovey shit you saw on television. not whatever this was. kidnapping and constant moans of how your captor loves you.
but oh well, it is a relationship. just not the one you wanted. maybe you could learn to deal with it-
"darling! if you tell me how much you love me, block everyone else you know, leave your job, and promise to run away with me, I'll untie you! how about it?"
...yeah, you're not dealing with this. perhaps you're just not meant for love.
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77ngiez-archive · 1 year
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nana, he/him + ze/hir + more. dangan + fangan + vocaloid + prsk + omori + yttd + hamlet + pafl fan. rb sideblog is @77ngiez-rbs. my url is pronounced "nanangiez". mutuals feel free to ask for my discord and/or my personal blog!!!
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spam likes/rbs, art requests, and sprite edit requests are always ok! i block freely so dont get too offended
NO they/them for me. ever. pls dont dm me unless we’re mutuals, but feel free to send asks! mutuals feel free to send posts and/or ask for priv blog, disc, etc.
full disclosure, i am mormon. my religion is not a cult and i will not interact with anyone who believes such. i do not need to be argued out of my religion. however i love talking about it! it brings me a lot of joy! it's a special interest in fact! i can be trusted to talk abt my personal theology :3 come closer :3 (i also hc a lot of characters as mormon, and have a yttd mormon au! lol)
i need content of hajime hinata and izuru kamukura as the same person tagged as "nana dont look". i have sunburn, kelbrey, and ransara tags blocked, but if you post any of those untagged with their ship name i'd appreciate those getting my dont look tag as well!
keep in mind that i’m fictionkin of sanya kazarina, sunny omori, sora sdra2, sara chidouin, jay merrick, and hajime hinata! this effects the way i participate in fandom and view popular ships/theories/etc. if any of my behavior regarding one of these sources or characters seems weird, me being fictionkin is probably why. [i’m always down to talk to sourcemates 👀]
my political stances are listed on my carrd!
my previous url was fukanamis!!
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findingtarshish · 7 months
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I got tagged by @kk7-rbs and @multi-lefaiye whom I tagged the first time around so its time for you all to see my round 2 Tav! (This time with extensive blorbo photography- she is absolutely adorable when she's not actively slaughtering her enemies. You must perceive her.)
No specific tags this time but anyone who wants to do this, pls consider yourself tagged and feel free to tag me so I can see your oc!
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Name: Amelice Hunzrin
Nickname(s): Occasionally she goes by Ame, though she forced Dhourn to call her 'Lady Hunzrin'. Astarion calls her a variety of terms of endearment, 'my love', 'darling', etc, and she's given up trying to get him to stop. If you call her 'Eight-legs', you'd best roll initiative immediately.
Pronouns: She/her
Star sign: No clue I don't astrology sorry ;-;
Height: 5'8" (Formerly 7'6")
Orientation: Bisexual, with a noted preference for men.
Race: Lolth-Sworn Drow (Formerly Drider)
Romancing: Astarion. She and Shadowheart were very close, and she offered to date both of them, but Shadowheart chose to defer to Astarion after he confessed to Amelice. Amelice is a terrible person and enables all of Astarion's crimes, so they basically just go back and forth causing problems. But, on a more serious note, Amelice and Astarion understand each other on a level no one else does. They both know what it's like to be turned into a monster, to crave the lifeblood of others, and to be given a second chance- and they both aim to use that second chance for vengeance.
Favorite fruit: Amelice always had a soft spot for raspberries. Though, since they had to be imported from the surface, they were one of the few food items she couldn't indulge in regularly.
Favorite season: Seasons don't hold especial weight in the underdark, and since Amelice is only now exploring the surface, they're a novel thing for her. She's enjoying the summer, though.
Favorite flower: Roses! She's a bard, so of course she gravitates toward the romantic flowers.
Favorite scent: She would never admit it, but she loves the smell of farmland. The breeze over crops, the odor of animals, the misty clarity of irrigation water- it feels like the home she lost sixty years ago. It's an odd thing for a highborn noble to love, but she couldn't help but smile, standing in the wheat fields in Rivington. Astarion sometime teases her that for all her imperiousness, she's a farm girl at heart.
Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: She's largely indifferent to coffee and tea, but she enjoys the decadence of hot chocolate.
Average sleep hours: Amelice suffers from horrific nightmares of her time as a drider that disrupt her sleep, so she always trances. Four hours out, over and done, then off to prepare breakfast before Gale can get his hands on the cook pot.
Dogs or cats: Rothé. She doesn't care for surface pets (though she has grown fond of Scratch) but livestock will always have a special place in her heart. Back in Menzoberranzan, she had a talent for calming them, which earned her an excellent reputation among the herders of Lake Donigarten.
Dream trip: Home. Amelice was banished from Menzoberranzan as a drider, and lived as a wanderer for nearly sixty years. She just wants to go home, stand among the bustling streets of Eastmyr, to look out over the mirrored black waters of Lake Donigarten, to once again fill her family's halls with music. She prays that once she has destroyed the Absolute and sent it to oblivion with naught but a prayer to Lolth to accompany it, she might once again be allowed to return.
Amount of blankets: Ame prefers to trance, so a blanket isn't really necessary for her. When she does sleep, though (if she's badly wounded, especially exhausted, or sick) she wants all the blankets. She needs a cozy cocoon to keep the nightmares away.
Random fact(s):
Ame possesses a spent and dormant Ring of Three Wishes, which she found on the body of a dead adventurer while wandering the Underdark as a drider. It only had one gemstone left, which she spent to reverse her transformation. She wears it on a chain around her neck, believing it to be a gift from Lolth- only a Wish can reverse a Drider's transformation, and it seemed too much of a coincidence for her to find exactly what she needed.
Amelice's oath is of Vengeance, specifically against her brother, who tampered with the priestess's mind during the Test of Lolth to to have the loyal and devout Amelice declared a treasonous heretic. He is directly responsible for the 60 years of torment she went through; worse, tampering with a priestess's mind is a serious offense against Lolth- in the Spider Queen's name, she intends to take his head.
Ame is deathly afraid of anyone delving into her mind as a result of the traumatic experience of her Test, and resists any such attempt, by violence if possible. It has left her with a... complicated relationship with the Emperor.
The greatest mistakes you can make around Ame is 1) disrespecting her and 2) standing alone in a place where, hypothetically, if you died, no one would notice. RIP 90% of Moonrise Towers, you should have watched each other's backs better.
Ame keeps the Cruel Sting with her, and Astarion frequently finds her holding it and just... staring at it, wondering if she would have ended up like Kar'niss if she hadn't found that ring.
She gets along extremely well with everyone in the Brainworm Squad (I think Wyll has the lowest approval at Very High) except Minthara, whom she hates. She is seriously considering murdering her for her apostasy- Minthara prayed to Lolth for protection, and Lolth delivered by guiding Ame to her; but when Minthara was safe, she began defaming and decrying the Spider Queen.
Ame and Gale fight over who gets to cook every single night. Lae'zel is deeply tired of it, while Astarion thinks it's hilarious. Ame has a lot of ego tied up in this, as a lady of House Hunzrin- they're supposed to be the epitome of hospitality and culinary excess!
Ame's dye color of choice is Jet and Pink Rose.
She has 30 AC.
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menstits-illness · 9 months
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I’ve started interacting with other ppls blogs more, so I figured I should really make a pinned post.
•🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞•
You can call me R, or puppy 💚 Most other pet names are fine too✨
transmasc bear, he/him. 4+ years on T. Bisexual 💗💜💙 (preference for men, but like all genders). Exclusively sub!!
I’m not particularly looking for a serious relationship, but I’d love to make some horny friends and be sexting buddies!! 💕 So,
DMs AND ASKS OPEN!!
This is just a casual blog for quickly rbing stuff that gets me wet, so I don’t tag anything!! If you have any major don’ts that you aren’t fine just scrolling past, you may not want to follow me (though you can always feel free to just talk to me over DMs ☺️)
Kinks and content that might appear here under the cut!
I’m into some heavy kinks, so you’re very likely to see stuff with cnc / dubcon / noncon here. Everything shared is with the intention of being between consenting adults irl.
I like stuff like abuse/manipulation, kidnapping/prisoner, forced petplay, general toxic relationship dynamics. While they aren’t really my kinks, it’s possible for you to see fake incest or underage if I like the vibes of the post.
I do like piss kink and may rb that, but no scat.
If you don’t vibe with that, that’s cool, but just let people do their thing in peace.
Major Kinks: puppy play, dirty talk!!! degradation/humiliation, CBT/anything with balls, spanking/beating, crying, breast play, edging, overstim, face fucking, dub con, piss, monsterfucking
I don’t have any major hard no’s when it’s all online, except fat shaming/any body shaming, feeding, and detransition. Feminizing things and pregnancy are a soft no, that’s something I’d need to work out with a person first. (Breeding is generally okay, just not detailing specifics about pregnancy). I may not follow you if you post any of these. But also I’m good at just looking away.
Randomly, I’m not fond of blood or blindfolds, but it’s not a big deal.
Words: I mostly use the words cunt and cock, though I’m not incredibly picky. Any boob words are fine, and I love anything involving tits. semi anal preference, but again it’s not a major thing.
I often like to talk as if I have a penis, so feel free to tell me how much you’d like to beat my cute little puppy balls ☺️
Other quick facts: I’m disabled and autistic, I like dogs and D&D, especially my character Bexon and his bf Obediah. If I tag something with ‘smv,’ that means Saturday Morning Violence, aka my main campaign. I like drawing, though it takes me a long time so I don’t do it too much.
I named this account super randomly and put my most recent photo as the pfp, whenever I made this acc years ago. So they may likely change soon to something more obviously horny.
Thanks for reading this far! ✨ Have a cookie 🍪
I’d really like to make some friends or fwb, so pls don’t be scared to interact!!!
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melanchoise · 2 years
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HELLO I LOVED YOUR OD B'DAY ART SM !! (pls tell me you didn't see me clowning in the tags haha–) would you be willing to elaborate on why you chose the flowers you did for the 999th gang ? i was curious abt the flowers especially since im a sucker for flower meanings <33 have a good day / night ^^
UHM UHH HI 😳😳 i actually saw your tags before i went to sleep and i was planning to do a rb to my art after i wake up to explain to you further but since you sent in an ask thats awesome LOL
first off i'm glad you liked the art so much!! it is my pleasure to make art that twists the soul
actually you were kinda on the spot with everything! but some flower symbolism additions were part of my own hc for each member and i didn't know that someone would ask about it (nothing bad that you did!) so i'll elaborate below (also spoilers haha)
uriel: yep, lilies! i think it can mean affection for loved ones, but when i was thinking about it i intended for it to mean rebirth, devotion and longing at the same time. i think 999th's uriel went through too much and suffered a lot under bearing the weight of the inevitability of fate, but with OD i felt like her newest family may be a fresh start for her. she seems the most likely to cling to the past, but when faced with the most powerless existence in the universe, uriel would only feel pity and sadness for the god who never lived.
lee jihye: yippee you got it, hydrangeas! i didn't color these in, but the hydrangeas i was thinking of were pink and purple - heartfelt emotion as well as a yearning for compassion. all of the 999th, and i think especially ljh, felt an intense desire for the lives that the 1864th versions of them led. in the end, i would love to believe that they achieved peace, but i think the ancient sorrow and yearning that plagued them will always stick with me.
lee hyunsung: it was obvious from the start but sunflowers - an eternal adoration and loyalty to those around him. i have a lot of feelings about 999th lhs due to the fact that it just hits So Hard that he tries So Much just like in all those other rounds. and yet, despite everything, he will still look towards the light, like a sunflower :) you will never lose the shell again, lhs.
kim namwoon: those are actually wild daisy weeds! thought it'd be funny and a little in character if everyone else chose carefully while he just grabbed some off the sidewalk LOL - on another hand, daisies also symbolize rebirth and motherhood. knw seems like a lonely little fellow to me, and maybe he'll be a mom friend/babysitter figure to OD, who knows? new life, new start.
secretive plotter: yea, tulip :) red and orange. it's simple, yet represents deep, undying and unconditional love. i don't think i need to talk much about that, i just think the SP's ■■ doesn't need a long explanation.
ough this is so long LMAO
anyway this is just my interpretation, which will be different from other people! so if anyone has any other thoughts feel free to scream at me etc etc i would love to hear about them :D
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Whatever Immah’s Will be, let it be done.
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sw1mmingfoolz · 3 years
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花樣年華 : HYYH | Act One, Scene Two : Head Lowered
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synopsis: when vernon and y/n realise their partners are cheating with each other, they strike up an unlikely friendship trying to figure out how it all began
pairing: vernon x fem!reader
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a/n: another one! and I am having fun making them as sad as they are cuz it hits so close to home lmao :') besides being cheated on I can also relate to uhh Mingyu.. yeah that is the way I set my oven on fire... and I learned right after that my sister did the exact same thing just DAYS before.. we're really smart 😎 also pls just ignore the fact imessage is in english in some places and korean in others my phone's language is korean and the app I use makes some parts korean and some not so. very realistic to my phone ig lol :') crash course: 오전 is AM and 오후 is PM 💕 as always feedback is appreciated, likes and rbs and asks and all make my heart do lil backflips so feel free to drop those, now onto the next scene! <3
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in which harry joins a new gym and you’re a trainer there.
a/n: happy new years loves! wishing you all a lovely and happy 2021! first fic of 2021 and im so excited to write more stories this year! to start the new year, here is boxer!harry for you, and this is for my very own timetravelathon fic challenge! if you’d like to join, please let me know, I’d love to have you on board! this story takes place in the 1990, and i know some of the songs mentioned weren’t released specifically in 1990 (just a few years after), but just pretend it was lol because they’re too good to not mention in this story hehe, but happy reading and pls reblog and leave feedback <3
thank you to @sunflowers-styles for beta reading this for me, love you always!
WORD COUNT: 22.6k of (kinda) boxer!harry x trainer!yn filled with angst and smut
WARNINGS: mentions of abandonment and blood 
COME INTO MY INBOX AND LETS TALK ABOUT ‘143’ i’d love to know your thoughts!
pls rb to share! <3
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16 August 1990
With every move he made, Harry felt a bead of sweat drip down the side of his face, down his back, and trailing down his chest. Small huffs of breath were released from his mouth, trying not to make it known that he was exhausted, but he continued until all of his energy was used up through the very end. 
“C’mon,” he muttered to himself, anticipating the certain words to be yelled out. 
He’d been going at it for a while now, muscles aching as he felt like he was about to collapse any minute. But he was determined to finish, to feel the satisfaction running through his veins, knowing that this was his best round. 
“And time!” His trainer yelled at him, clicking the stop button on his timer. 
Harry got in one last punch before putting his arms down, the soreness made his limbs feel like jello as he shook them out. The black leather punching bag was swinging back and forth, the chain that held up the speed bag rattled and slid against the metal bar. Harry loved that sound because it indicated that he was going his hardest to where the chain couldn’t keep up. 
“Nice one, kid.” Henson, his trainer said as he fist-bumped Harry’s red glove. 
Harry simply nodded in appreciation, too exhausted to speak as he placed his gloves onto his knees, leaning down as beads of sweat dripped down onto the matted floor. Several harsh breaths came out of his mouth as he sniffed in the fresh oxygen that was mixed with the musky scent of the gym. 
Benny, Harry’s best friend, exited the ring, wiping the sweat off his forehead with his arm before walking towards Harry, who was still leaning on his knees. Benny tapped Harry’s glove, making him stand up straighter, and Harry patted Benny’s back. 
“Good job out there, mate,” Harry told his best friend. Benny was in the ring with one of the other trainers, Mike, doing one of the nonstop routines. Harry liked training with Mike in the ring, but not when it was for cardio and timed rounds; he liked when it was chill, so he knew how hard he had to hit the target, which were the pads. But for the timed rounds they did, Harry was usually by the speed bags and Mike was in the ring. 
“You too, man,” Benny breathed out with a smile. 
They headed over to the bench to take their gloves off and catch a breather. The pair would do a  cardio day every Thursday to get a good, sweaty workout in, and it always left them exhausted, but definitely much stronger. 
“Hey, I’m not gonna be able to workout next Thursday,” Benny mentioned. Harry furrowed his brows as he put the end of the strap between his teeth to pull it off from the velcro, taking one glove off. 
“What? Why not?” Harry asked confusingly. They never really had to call off a workout, especially Thursdays, unless one of them was sick, but other than that, neither of them missed any workout days. 
“I’m taking the wife on a date,” Benny smirked, clearly very excited to spend some time with his wife, but Harry wasn’t amused. 
“On a Thursday? Why can’t you do that on Friday?” 
Benny rolled his eyes. “Because we both called off Friday, so we’re having a four day weekend to ourselves,” he explained. 
Harry huffed, clearly not entertained. “Guess so…” 
Benny knew Harry was always like this, ever since they were younger. The two had been so close ever since they met, now that Benny had a wife, Harry always felt like the third wheel and that he rarely saw Benny, however, that wasn’t entirely true Benny exercised with Harry every night during the weekdays, and sometimes they even grabbed a bite to eat afterward when Benny could use that time to be with his wife, Marianne. 
Harry had an overwhelming fear of abandonment, it led him to have anxieties about how Benny could just get up and walk out of his life, even though he wouldn’t. Maybe it was why Harry is so attached to him; he’s the closest to Harry and it would completely destroy him if Benny ever decided that he didn’t want to be his friend anymore. That fear only grew based on an unfortunate turn of events that happened in college, four years ago, and it left Harry to pieces. Benny had never seen Harry so broken where he literally had to pick him up and take care of him. He never wanted to see his best friend like that ever again because it absolutely crushed him. 
“It’s two days that we’re not going to be seeing each other, chill out. Didn’t know you were that in love with me,” Benny joked, hoping to lighten up Harry’s mood. Luckily, it worked because Harry breathed out a chuckle, throwing his towel at Benny’s face.
The two collected their belongings and walked over to the trainers as they always do at the end of every workout to have a light chat with them. Henson and Mike told them they did a great job and asked to confirm if they were still on for tomorrow, which Benny and Harry both agreed to. Benny also mentioned about not being able to work out next Thursday and Friday, including the reason why he wasn’t able to. 
Henson and Mike looked at each other as if they were keeping something from the two. Harry titled his head  and looked at Benny as if he was asking if he knew the reason why they were looking at each other weirdly, but Benny just shrugged his shoulders, just as clueless as Harry. 
“Are you gonna tell us why you’re acting suspiciously?” Harry asked. The two trainers both sighed defeatedly. 
“About that…” Henson started. “Next Friday…we’re closing,” he added. 
“Like, closing for the day?” Benny asked innocently, hoping they didn’t mean what he really thought. 
“No…for good,” Mike stated. Harry and Benny’s eyes both widened, words coming out of both of their mouths profusely. They were both talking over each other, disagreeing and not accepting the fact that the gym was shutting down. 
“You can’t just do that-”
“-No, we refuse to let you close down-”
“Alright, guys! Settle down. You’re starting to act like kids, for god's sake,” Henson interrupted the tantrum that was about to start. 
“You guys can’t just do that!” Benny exclaimed. 
“Why are you guys even doing that?” Harry asked. 
Mike sighed. “We mutually decided that it was best to close down because…we really need the money. My rent has been skyrocketing crazy high because more people have just decided that moving to Los Angeles is fun.” He rolled his eyes, and Harry slightly chuckled because it was true. Hollywood was the place to be and people from out of state had just figured out their new profound dream to move to one of the busiest cities. 
“Fight Night will never be forgotten, alright? We’re just ready to let this place go. Plus, the roof is leaking and the wall is tearing apart, and that’s gonna be a pain to fix,” Henson added. 
Mike and Henson were brothers and built Fight Night when they were in college. With the help of their father, they decided to build a place to gain strength and power, all while helping others defend themselves. Harry and Benny had been frequenting it ever since college, and it felt like home to them. Aside from the yelling and stuffy scent, it was a place for them to release any type of anger or stress.
Benny introduced Fight Night to Harry when he had physically picked Harry up from the ground on, what possibly was, the worst night of his life. It was something Harry looked forward to after classes, anxiously bouncing his leg up and down, waiting to get to the gym. Fight Night helped rebuild him, and now, he was in disbelief that the gym was closing. 
“We’re old as fuck now. We wanna live our lives freely. Time to retire now, don’t you think?” Mike said with a sad chuckle. They were both in their late fifties, so Harry and Benny understood why they wanted to be free of work. 
The four of them hugged it out, a very emotional and sentimental hug that was heartwarming but sad. Eyes were slightly watered before Henson pushed them and said, “We’re closing the gym next week, not fucking dying! We have time for this bullshit for an entire week.” 
Harry and Benny left the gym with bittersweet hearts, but they kept Fight Night close to them, knowing that they owed a lot to the gym and the two men who built the facility. Mike had recommended some gyms that were close by if they were still interested in boxing, which they definitely were, so they were planning to check them out first before signing up. 
“Do you wanna get something to eat?” Harry asked once they were outside of the gym. The air was humid, nothing different from inside the gym since it was summer and the sun was beginning to go down. 
“Nah, I’m good. Gonna get home to Marianne. I’ll see you tomorrow?” Benny pat Harry’s back, nodding. 
Harry waved. “See you.” He watched Benny walk away before getting into his silver 1990 BMW 5 series, sighing. He always hated going home, and he always tried staying out for as long as he possibly could. 
As he drove home, he anxiously tapped his hands on the steering wheel as he couldn’t quite keep them still. It’d been happening for a while, a lot more often than he’d like, but he couldn’t help it. 
Walking into the darkness and emptiness of his home, he sighed sadly as he sulked all the way to the restroom to shower. The hot steam relieved his achy and sore muscles, but he was hoping for this shower to also release any occurring and bad thoughts he had in his head. 
He couldn’t help but think about the gym closing down. After going there for years, he couldn’t imagine going to a new gym; he’d adapted and adjusted to Fight Night that it would take him forever to find a gym that truly made him feel wanted. He was scared, to say the least. 
Harry was never a big fan of change. He liked being comfortable and stable and didn't like to move around a lot. So, the thought of going to a different gym that wasn’t Fight Night, terrified him. It only added to the list of things that had abandoned him. 
Once he was out of the shower, white towel secured lowly on his hips, showcasing his beautiful toned torso that was filled and inked with tattoos, his pager beeped. He wondered who it was as he walked over to his nightstand, considering that it was nearing nine in the evening. 
He deeply sighed when he saw the pager read ‘345987,’ immediately knowing who it was. The pager code meaning ‘I’m horny’ could only mean it’s coming from Lizette. 
Deciding not to answer the page, Harry set his pager down before walking back to the restroom, only for his home phone to ring, causing him to stop in his steps and answer the phone. 
“Hello?” Harry answered. 
“Hey, baby,” Lizette said seductively. His brows furrowed, holding the towel to his waist as it had loosened up a bit. 
“What do you want?” 
“You know what I want…” He knew exactly what she wanted. If she hadn’t paged him, he would still know what she wanted from him since all he provided to her was sex. “Isn’t it such a coincidence that I’m outside of your door right now?” Harry didn’t say anything but pinch the bridge of his nose before hanging up. 
He walked towards his front door, sighing before opening the door that revealed Lizette on the other side, wearing a low cut top, cleavage clearly showing, and high waisted denim shorts. She leaned on the doorframe, smirking as she looked Harry up and down, noticing that he wasn’t wearing anything but a towel. Harry gulped as she stepped forward, placing her hands on his stomach before completely taking the towel off, and a smug smile plastered on her face. 
Harry lets her take over like he always did. The feel of someone else’s body holding his, and lips kissing his own and his skin was something he couldn’t compare to anything else. Harry simply only did this to have some companionship, and Lizette made him feel a lot less lonely even if she was only there to have sex with him. He enjoys it twenty-five percent of the time—the other seventy-five percent was him actually wallowing in wanting someone to love him for him. 
After they were done, Harry immediately covered himself with the blanket as Lizette got out of the bed to change back into her clothes. Even though they had sex multiple times and she’s seen him naked, there was something about the vulnerability after the sex that he didn’t want her to see because she didn’t quite deserve that if he was being honest. 
“I had fun. Call you next time,” Lizette bid him goodbye before smacking a big kiss to his cheek, leaving a lipstick stain on his skin. She walked herself out, and once Harry heard the slam of the front door closing, he cringed slightly, wiping the lipstick off. 
He turned onto his side, deeply exhaling. He didn’t feel anything but numbness—it was always like this. He used sex to cope with how he felt, but it only made it worse. Honestly, he didn’t know what else to do, so it was the only thing he turned to, other than boxing. 
Harry fell asleep in his lonely room by himself. His heart was empty and felt like an isolated building that only carried his sadness. 
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The entire week had gone by in a flash — Fight Night was officially closed down for good. 
Harry and Benny helped clean the space out as they reminisced and talked about the memories that were made in that gym. A lot of the stories had to do with girls walking by the gym, glancing through the window to see men working out, and then promptly walking into the gym to try and hit on the guys. 
Harry had tried convincing Henson that he could run the gym, but he shot down the idea before Harry could convince him. 
“Kid, look. If you want to run your own gym, do it. I want you to own a gym under your name. Not mine or Mike’s. You deserve to have something of your own, and whatever that may be, work for it. Work hard for it. I know you got it in you because you’re a hard worker, determined. You need to see that for yourself.” 
A conversation that was supposed to convince Henson to let Harry run the gym turned into a sentimental series of words that Harry really needed to hear. Harry didn’t say anything else and nodded as he took in Henson’s words to his heart. Henson was someone Harry looked up to. He was an old man with wise words, and everything he said was either meaningful or mean, in a way to show tough love. So, his words were something Harry lived by. 
The following Monday after Fight Night closed, Benny and Harry were on the search for their new gym. They didn’t plan on quitting the gym after their favorite one had closed down, and Henson and Mike made them swear they wouldn’t stop working out. 
Now, the two were walking into a gym that was up the same amount of time Fight Night was. ‘Don’s Box’ was what the gym was called. The building was newly reconstructed, making the place seem more modern and a little less dingy. The space was quite big, able to fit two rings, six punching bags spread throughout, eight-speed bags, and a weight rack. The walls were painted black, but the amount of natural light from the window was plentiful enough to make the gym feel bigger and brighter. 
A decent amount of people were at the gym, sectioned off with a few kids from eight to twelve on one side, and the rest of the adults on the other. There was a good mix between women and men, and everyone hyped everyone up with motivating words and claps over the music that was playing through two speakers that were hung in the corner. 
“Can I help you?” An older man with gray hair had asked the two. He looked quite intimidating; wearing nylon sweatpants and a black long-sleeved shirt that was rolled up to his elbows, showing his gold watch. The look he had on his face was stern as he crossed his arms, waiting for an answer. 
“Uh, yeah. We’re interested in joining your gym,” Benny told the man. The man looked the two up and down and scoffed. 
“Sure you guys are ready for that?” 
“We’ve been boxing for years, so yeah, we are.” Harry chimed in, a slightly defensive tone added to his words. 
The man glared at Harry, stepping towards him. Harry was slightly taller than him, but he knew the man could definitely take him at any given moment, but Harry wasn’t looking to fight the man, honestly. He wanted to act and look tough in front of him, so the guy wouldn’t give him any crap for it later down the road during his workouts. 
“Alright, alright. Take it easy, pa.” You interrupted, placing a hand on the man’s shoulders, making him turn his head. You raised your brows at him before tilting your head a bit, telling him to step back. The man backed off, giving Harry a snarly glance before huffing. 
“I’m just messing. Gotta know how tough my athletes are to be here,” he spoke in a lighter tone than he was to the man in front of him, putting his arm around you. 
“Thought you were gonna ‘stay on the sidelines’ and let me handle it?” You quoted your father’s words back to him, and he chuckled, putting his hands up, surrendering as he knew he couldn’t win against you. 
“Alright, alright. I’ll let you handle it.” Don, your father, quickly looked at Harry up and down, and you rolled your eyes, knowing he wouldn’t do anything to potential customers. He walked away and you breathed out a chuckle, scratching your head. 
“Sorry about that. You two are interested in joining?” You asked the two men in front of you. They were rather…attractive, you noticed. The one on the left was gorgeous with beautiful brown skin that looked so smooth. He was wearing a pair of red short-shorts and a white muscle tee. You noticed that he was wearing a wedding ring, so you averted your eyes off of him. The man next to him, however, was absolutely stunning. His left arm carried a sleeve-full of tattoos, and you wanted so badly to examine and look at every single one. With chocolate brown curls, his green eyes had a tad bit of a glimmer to them, not too much though, because if you were being honest, they were a bit dull, like he was exhausted and needed to let off some of the stress that he held based on how tense he looked. 
You tried not to observe and think about it too much as your ability to read individuals thrived while meeting new people. You shook it off the thought, not wanting to assume things about their lives and seem too creepy in front of new and potential members. 
“Yeah, we are. I’m Benny, by the way.” He shook your hand, smiling. 
“Nice to meet you. I’m Y/N. I run this place.” You offered the same smile back. Your eyes looked over at his friend, and he gave you a soft smile. “Y/N,” you repeated, taking your hand out for him to shake. 
“I’m Harry. Harry Styles,” he introduced fully. A beautiful name for a beautiful man, you thought. He shook your hand as you felt the softness of his skin mixed with a tad bit of roughness from the callouses, probably from heavy-lifting. 
Something about Harry introducing his full name had made you a bit weak in the knees. His deep and accented voice had made you a bit flustered as chills ran up your body. You’re acting like a fool, your subconscious told you. You were never one to show your obvious attraction for men, you were more into watching them from the side. But once Harry walked in, it seemed like you didn’t know how to keep your chill. 
“Perfect. Nice to meet you both. Signing up shouldn’t be too long—don’t want to keep you two from working out.” You led the two men to one of the offices, knocking on the wooden door to greet Jamie. “Hi. These two are looking to sign up. Do you mind helping them out?” 
“Of course! Come on in, guys,” Jamie greeted them, offering them to take a seat along with some water, which they both said yes to. 
“I have to get back to my session, but you both are in great hands. Jamie is one of our best,” you told the two. You sent an innocent wink at Jamie, which he sent one back while Harry watched the entire interaction, feeling uneasy. 
It was quite obvious how attractive and pretty you were. The moment he first saw you, his breath had immediately hitched in his throat. You had the most gorgeous face he’d ever seen, and when you spoke, your voice was soft and gentle, making Harry a bit more safe in a place he’s new to. 
Jamie had gotten their details and credit card information down before asking them if they needed a tour of the place. They both had said no, seeing as things were pretty self-explanatory and they’d been to a boxing gym before. 
They headed out of Jamie’s office and to the main floor, walking over to the heavy bags since the section was less crowded to start stretching. Harry rolled his shoulders and neck around, swinging his arms forwards and backward as he looked around the gym. 
This was something he had to get used to—being in a new place, surrounded by new people. At Fight Night, he was around the same people for four years, and he was comfortable — he was fine with it. But now, he had to go through the same process all over again. Nerves and anxiety crept up his skin as he tried to jump around lightly, warming up a bit but also trying to shake off the unwanted feelings. 
“Hey, you okay?” Benny asked concerningly as he stretched. 
Harry’s brows raised, covering up his anxiousness. “Hmm, yeah, I am. Y’know, just a, uh, new place, that’s all,” he brushed him off. 
“Okay. Well, whenever you’re ready to go, just tell me,” Benny told him before going into his bag to grab the wrapping tape. 
Harry nodded, smiling in appreciation. Benny had always been a great friend to him, and Harry was a great friend to Benny as well. They always took each other’s feelings and concerns into consideration—always making sure the other is okay. They both really appreciated it because some friends weren’t lucky enough to talk about their feelings and be that vulnerable with one another. They trusted each other; they were like brothers. 
Harry grabbed his jump rope, deciding to do a little five-minute warm-up to get his heart rate going. He faced the boxing ring to the left of him, noticing that you were in the ring, so he decided to casually watch you box. He then noticed that you had boxing pads on instead of gloves, and the people you were training were the kids that he had seen earlier. 
He watched you instruct the excited kids who were prancing around with their boxing gloves on, in every color imagined. You helped them fix their form, their stance, and their punch; telling them that they had to be quick with their hit to bring their glove back to the side of their face quickly, so their opponent doesn’t have a chance to take a hit. The kids demonstrated for you, punching your right hand that was covered with the pad. You praised all of them, of course, correcting a few things, but overall, everyone was a natural fighter. 
Harry’s heart rate definitely started to pick up, and he didn’t know if it was how fast he was jumping rope or because of the flutter he felt as he watched you interact with the kids. He truly never felt this kind of feeling where his heart picked up from the simple act of looking at someone. 
You had definitely noticed Harry staring at you from your peripheral view, and you had thought it was a simple glance, but he never looked away. So, you took the opportunity to take a quick look at him while the kids were practicing. 
Your eyes met him and you sent him a small smile, along with a wave with your boxing pads. Harry’s eyes widened, realizing that you were waving at him, and what happened next had embarrassed him even more. With how fast he was jumping, he suddenly got tangled with the rope, causing him to trip against it. Luckily, he caught his fall, but he was already embarrassed enough. 
Harry’s heart completely dropped, cheeks flushed. He couldn’t believe he had made a complete fool of himself, especially at his new gym. He so badly wanted to tell Benny that he was ready to leave, but when he looked over at his friend, he had already started his workout, being so focused and in the zone that Harry didn’t want to be a burden. 
When he turned back around to see if you were still looking, he jolted back a bit as you were behind him. 
“Are you okay?” You asked concerningly. 
“Uh, yeah. I…yeah, I’m okay. Thanks.” He cleared his throat, trying to cover up the fact that his voice almost cracked. He was so stunned by you. The way you made sure he was okay was possibly the nicest thing someone had done for him as you looked at him with your sweet eyes, and your posture was giving him your full attention. His heart pounded through his chest; the simple action and effort that was being put into this was making him overwhelmed. 
“Okay. Let me know if you need anything, yeah?” You told him as you looked at him intently. He simply nodded, knowing that he couldn’t process any more words. 
You gave him one last smile before quickly going back to your students. He watched you climb into the ring so effortlessly before continuing your training class. 
Harry took a deep breath before walking over to one of the speed bags that was in the corner, hoping to hide away from the embarrassment that he felt. Wrapping his hands up, he anxiously scanned the room, noticing that everyone was doing their own thing. There was a possibility that no one else had seen him almost fall on his face, except you, which he really wished that it was the entire gym who saw him instead, not you. He lazily hit the speed bag, trying to warm up and shake off his mortification. Harry continued hitting the bag, eventually getting into a rhythm as his fists alternated between one another, along with the rhythm of the music of Montrell Jordan’s ‘This Is How We Do It.’ 
Soon enough, all the worry and stress that was in Harry’s head and body was shaken off and completely forgotten about as he focused on his strong punches, making sure to connect his mind to his muscles, so he could feel his muscles working. 
And for the time being, life wasn’t all that bad. 
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A month had passed since being at Don’s Box, and Harry and Benny quite liked it. They had newer equipment and their music was always on point, playing the best of 90s R&B and Hip-Hop. It was their favorite music to listen to, especially while working out. The people there were nice and cool, never getting in each other’s way and letting everyone do their own thing while still having fun, keeping the space safe and comfortable. 
Harry found himself walking into the gym at nine at night, an hour and a half before it closed. Usually, he wouldn’t work out this late, but during the day, he had felt so unmotivated and lazy to even get out of bed. He could put the blame on Lizette because she had gone to his house the night prior, doing the same thing they always do, but he knew she wasn’t the one to blame. Something about saying no to her and having her not talk to him had physically pained him. They were in a specific arrangement, he knew that. But having someone leave him again was something he couldn’t go through. 
‘What’s Luv?’ by Fat Joe, Ja Rule, and Ashanti was playing when he set his bag down onto the ground against the wall, next to the heavy bag. He started to stretch as he took a look around; not many people were working out at this time, which he liked. 
His eyes continued to search the gym, in hopes he would find you still here. Before the slightest bit of disappointment could settle, he saw you walk out of the hallway with Jamie, smiling and laughing at something he had said. He made a face as a hint of jealousy rushed through as he saw you with Jamie. He knew that there was no point in being jealous because he barely even knew you. But for the past month that he’s been at Don’s Box, you always had this look of excitement on your face when you saw and greeted Harry. It made his stomach flutter every time you would flash him your beautiful smile as you would carry the conversation, asking him about his day and if the music was good, which he commends you for putting his favorite songs on. 
Looking away, he decided to just focus on the quick workout he could get in before the gym closed, so he retained his attention back to stretching before bending down to grab the tape from his bag to wrap his hands. 
“Uh, hi, Harry,” you smiled as you greeted him. He looked up at you. The way the light was positioned behind your head made you look like an actual angel; you were ethereal. 
He stood up and smiled softly. “Hi. How are you?” He asked, trying to contain his nerves from just looking at you. You were gorgeous, as you always are every day. You were wearing a pair of black leggings and a light pink t-shirt that was tied into a knot with the word ‘angel’ that was surrounded by wings printed in the middle. Kind of a coincidence, he thought, thinking back to when he called you an angel in his head. 
“Good, good. You’re here later than usual—without Benny too,” you pointed out, but immediately cursed at yourself for making such an odd observation and telling it to his face as if you were keeping track of the times he’s gone into the gym. 
“Yeah, I was pretty…tired during the day, so the only time I got a burst of energy was right now. And Benny is with his wife and in-laws tonight, so it’s just me tonight,” he explained with a soft chuckle. 
“Well, glad you got the chance to make it in,” you said genuinely. He simply nodded, not knowing what else to say but instead he captured himself into you as you stared at him with your captivating eyes that spoke right through him. What was happening to him? He thought. This hadn’t really happened before, and he was good at letting his walls go up and guarding his precious heart. 
“Hey, I’m gonna head out,” Jamie said, greeting you goodbye, and taking Harry out of his thoughts. “Hey, man. Have a good workout.” He shook Harry’s hand, and Harry smiled, nodding. 
“See you tomorrow,” you told Jamie, smiling a bit as you waved. Jamie left the gym, and it was just you and Harry, along with a few other people who were wrapping up their workout. 
“Are you not gonna go with him?” Harry asked, and you raised your brows in confusion. 
“Why would I go with him?” You wondered. 
“Oh, I just thought you would leave with him, y’know, your boyfriend…” he trailed off, slyly slipping in the word boyfriend in that sentence. 
You giggled, shaking your head. “No, no. Jamie isn't my boyfriend. I’ve known him since I was ten, but nothing’s ever happened between us. Besides, he has a boyfriend of his own.” Harry raised his brows in shock as his shoulders visibly relaxed. “No need to worry, Harry. I’m all yours,” you flirted a bit. You normally wouldn’t flirt so easily with someone, especially if they were a member of your gym, but something about Harry had made you release all the stress you had once you saw and talked to him. 
Harry blushed, grinning as his dimple popped out on his cheek. Your eyes lightened once you noticed that feature, making you think that he was ten times cuter than he already is. 
“You’ve been in the ring, right?” You asked curiously. Harry nodded, and the corner of your lips turned up. “Great! We have about a little less than an hour and a half, so if you’re looking for some intense cardio, I could do it with you—y’know, train you and guide you, and whatnot,” you suggested. 
If Harry’s being honest, he wasn’t planning on doing cardio today—just a few routines to get his muscles warm, but the way you’re looking at him and how you spoke to him so softly and effortlessly, he couldn’t say no. 
“Yeah, I’m up for it,” he responded. Your eye brightened, resisting the urge to squeal from excitement, telling him that you were going to get the mitts and to meet you in the ring. He chuckled slightly as you walked over to the equipment room to get the mitts. Harry quickly hit the speed bag to warm up until he saw you walk out of the room. 
He put on his gray sweater and a green packers beanie, so he could sweat more before he met you in the ring with his gloves pressed between his arm and the side of his body. You put the mitts in between your legs as Harry handed you one of the gloves. Holding onto the end of it, he put his hand inside as you pushed the glove towards him, so it would sit on his hand tightly before strapping it securely for him before proceeding to the next one. The proximity between you two was quite close as you helped him put on the gloves, and you could smell the faint scent of cologne mixed with the slightest bit of sweat, giving him that unique musk; the one that doesn’t smell horrible at all but lured you in. 
You quickly snapped out of your thoughts and looked up at Harry. “Good?” He nodded, punching the gloves together to make sure they felt comfortable. “Ready?” 
“Let’s do this,” Harry said, skipping in place to warm his body up before getting into his stance. His left leg was a few feet away from his right leg as he bounced around a bit, waiting for you. 
You faintly smirked, nodding your head before you put on the mitts. Since Harry was very familiar with the mitt workouts, you figured that you didn’t need to explain what each number represented since mostly all trainers and coaches use the same numbers for the same punch. 
“Okay, let’s warm up a bit. Give me one,” you instructed. Harry put his gloves up to protect his face as you held your right mitt up. With his left hand, he punched your mitt, not giving his full strength. “Is that all you got?” You challenged, knowing that he had more power in him. 
“I-I don’t want to hurt you,” he said honestly with a small pout, standing straight from his boxing stance. Usually, you would take offense to that statement, barking back a comment saying that just because you were a girl it didn’t mean you couldn’t take a hit, but you didn’t go that far into it, knowing Harry didn’t mean it that way whatsoever. 
“You’re not gonna hurt me, Harry. I’ve trained so many people—all with different body types and strengths. My hand has felt all different types of power, so hit the mitt like you mean it.” You hit his shoulder, building up his motivation. He nodded, getting back into his stance as did you. “Now, give me one.” 
This time, Harry’s glove met your mitt with full potential and force, and you took the hit well—not moving back or being stunned. 
“There you go! Keep going,” you told him, and he continued giving you jabs. ‘In Da Club’ by 50 Cent was blaring through the speakers as Harry breathed in through his nose and out through his mouth. Several huffs of breath came out loudly as he punched, moving and dancing around the ring with you as the two of you occasionally shifted and switched positions. 
Harry got in a few more punches before you switched it up, telling him, “1-2.” Harry jabbed with his left hand and crossed jabbed with his right hand, putting his full range of motion into his right punch. He did that combination five times as he started to feel sweat dripping down his back and the sides of his forehead. 
You were yelling out words of encouragement and motivation, praising him for his punches, to which he responded back with a better and solid punch to your mitts. 
“Nice!” You took a step back to move around the ring to take advantage of the space as Harry jumped and skipped around to wherever you directed him to. “Wanna take a break?” You asked. He shook his head no, determined to finish this workout that he couldn’t even think about wanting to take a break because he really didn’t want to. “Okay, 1-4-3,” you told him. With force, he jabbed, hooked with his left hand, and hooked with his right hand. 
This feeling that he had felt—being in the ring with you—was something entirely different than when he was in the ring with Henson or Mike. The stress that he physically carried onto his shoulder had washed away into nothingness, leaving him with a drive that didn’t include overthinking and fear. The fear that had left him worried and depressed, that his life would amount to nothing—that fear disappeared inside him once he threw the first punch. It was exhilarating and fun, and he didn’t know he could have this much fun in the ring. But this was the most pleasure he’s ever felt while boxing. 
You ordered him to do some different combinations, such as ‘1-2-3-5,’ which was a jab, cross jab, leading hook, and rear uppercut. You also included moments when he had to duck because you were swinging at him. He definitely had gotten into a rhythm, punching and moving faster. You were the trainer, the person that was supposed to instruct him, but you matched his rhythm and energy and moved quicker with him as well. 
You were starting to get a sweat in as well, and that was mostly because of the adrenaline rushing through your blood as you moved excitedly around the ring. 
After a while, a timer had gone off, telling you that it was time to close up as Harry’s focus was cut off—the sound making him look up hastily. Throughout the time you were working out with Harry, people were slowly starting to make their way out, but the two of you were too focused on working out that you hadn’t even noticed that it was just the two of you left in the gym. 
“Oh, guess we’re closing.” You stood up straighter, wiping the sweat on your forehead with your forearm. “Feelin’ good?” You asked Harry with a proud smile. 
“Feelin’ great,” he smirked. 
“Good, I’m glad. You did great!” You complimented, ripping the velcro strap with your teeth as you took off the mitts. Harry did the same, shaking out his arms as he clenched and unclenched his fists to relieve the ache from making a fist for more than an hour. 
“Thank you. You’re a really great trainer, by the way. This was…the first time I had fun in the ring,” he told you honestly, and without knowing, the slightest bit of him had opened up to you. 
Your eyes brightened, a glimpse of shimmer reflected on your eyes. “Really? Thank you, that makes me really happy, actually.” You felt like you were going to cry on the spot. No one, except your younger students, had ever told you that they had fun in the ring since most people used boxing as a way to get stronger and improve their punches. But fun? That was the first, and you would definitely keep that with you forever. 
You and Harry walked to one end of the ring as Harry held open the top two ropes with his hand as he stepped on the bottom two ropes with his foot, holding it open for you to get out. You blushed, thanking him before you got out of the ring as he followed you out. 
Once you two were on the ground, you turned around to face him. You watched as he took off his beanie, shaking his hair out as they bounced; curls were now formed into waves because of the heat and the sweat that had produced in his beanie. He looked…extra good right now. With his cheeks flushed, hair messy, and sweat dripping down his forehead, you couldn’t put into words how incredibly sexy he looked. 
You cleared your throat, not wanting to get caught for ogling him. “I, uh, have to check on some things before closing. Take your time! And I’ll see you on Monday?” You raised your brows and curled your lips in as you looked up at him. A sense of flustered-ness settled in you as you waited for his answer. 
He breathed out a chuckle as he looked down briefly before looking back into your eyes again. “Yeah, I’ll see you.” You nodded your head, waving at him before you headed over to the office. Harry smiled as he watched you walk into the hallway until he couldn’t see you anymore. 
A small blush formed onto his cheeks as he contained himself from smiling too big and too wide. He put all of his stuff back into his bag, grabbing his towel, ridding the sweat off his skin. Grabbing his belongings, he took another glance at the hallway, hoping to get another look at you before he took off, but you were occupied with closing the gym, so he didn’t bother staying any longer. 
With a small smile on his face, he walked out of the gym, taking in this new profound feeling that he’d never felt before, hoping this feeling would last. 
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The next morning, Harry had a sudden urge to go back to the gym. His upper body was quite sore, but he figured he could do some leg exercises to balance the soreness he felt. He normally wouldn’t workout on the weekends since those were his rest days, but despite being sore, he didn’t feel tired. It could also do with the fact that he wanted to see you again, not wanting to wait until Monday to do that again. 
When he walked into the gym, ‘Ride Wit Me’ by Nelly was playing and his head slightly bopped to the music, walking over to the corner of the gym to warm up. He scanned the gym, looking for a particular person, but couldn’t find you. There were a decent amount of people, not too crowded or too little, so it should’ve been easy to find you. Thinking that you were probably in your office, he shook off the slight disappointment and got ready to workout. 
Throughout his workout, his head wasn’t in it. He kept glancing through the mirror to see if you had shown up, but you hadn’t. His eyes were always looking over at the front door every time someone would walk in, but a small frown settled onto his face when he realized it wasn’t you. 
He wrapped up his workout an hour later, thinking that he somewhat still got a good workout in. He walked out of the gym, saying bye to some of the guys that had caught him before he left. 
It was nearing noon when his stomach had growled, urging him to consume some food. There was a Mediterranean hole-in-the-wall restaurant right across Don’s Box, and his mouth watered at the thought of it. He walked to his car that was parked on the side of the street to drop his bag off before walking across the street to the restaurant. 
He scanned the menu, standing on the side since he didn’t know what he was ordering yet. The sound of the door ringing and a voice that was speaking to him brought him out of his thoughts. 
“Are you in line?” Harry turned his head towards the voice, and his heart nearly beating ten times faster when he saw you. He had a shocked expression on his face, not expecting to see you, especially when you were wearing the complete opposite of what he normally sees you in. You were wearing a pair of blue denim overalls with a black t-shirt underneath, along with white Reebok sneakers. You had a bit of makeup on; an orange sparkly eyeshadow look with some mascara that made your eyelashes look full and natural. Your lips were painted in a red-orange lipstick stain, bringing out more of your natural lip color. 
The beauty that Harry’s eyes were blessed with made his knees weak, sending shivers to his skin. Your angelic appearance had struck him so hard that he was sure he would see the light of day, hoping to meet you up there since you were a real-life angel. 
“Y/N…hi,” he managed to spit out. 
“Hi, Harry. Did you just workout?” You asked. 
He nodded, feeling a bit nervous. “Uh, yeah, I did.” 
“You don’t usually go in on Saturdays…” you noticed, only seeing him during the weekdays. You’re off on Saturdays, but there was one Saturday that you had gone into the gym briefly, and you didn’t see him there. 
“Yeah, I felt like going in today,” he said, obviously leaving out the part that he only went to the gym to see you again, but you didn’t need to know that bit. There was a moment of silence between you two until Harry remembered that he was probably holding up the line for you. “Oh, you could go ahead. I’m not ready to order yet.” 
You smiled, nodding your head as you stepped forward in the line. “Have you ever been here before?” 
“No, I haven’t. Do you have any suggestions?” 
You slightly squinted your eyes at him. “Do you trust me?” You asked. 
That was a difficult question for him, and somewhat vague. Did you mean overall, at the moment, or for his food order? Either way, he nodded because he knew that it didn’t matter what you meant--he had this sense of security with you that he would trust you with his life, and that said a lot, considering that he’d only known you for a month. 
“Yeah, I do trust you,” he stated honestly. 
His words brought a grin to your face, looking at him appreciatively. Based on your observations of him, you noticed that he was a bit closed off; he didn’t open himself up, and if he did, it took a lot in him to do just that. So, hearing him tell you that he trusts you made you grateful, and you would never do anything to take advantage of that trust because he didn’t just give it out easily. 
“I got you,” you simply said before turning back around towards the cashier. Harry softly smirked as he took a step forward to stand next to you. You looked at him, flashing him a toothy grin before quickly facing forward. 
You ordered your favorite dish from the restaurant, which was a beef kabab plate, for the both of you. Harry quickly got his wallet out, offering to pay, but you told him that you got it this time, hoping your words conveyed that you wanted there to be a next time. He shyly thanked you for the lunch, keeping your words in mind because he would definitely be up for a ‘next time.’ 
Luckily, you didn’t have to wait long for your order to come out, which was fortunate for Harry because he was starving. You suggested eating outside since it was a beautiful day out and Harry agreed, following you out of the restaurant. 
You two sat on the metal chairs, digging into your dishes. Harry’s mouth watered as he ate, his stomach being satisfied. There was a comfortable silence that settled between you two, only making small conversation when you asked if he liked the food, which you were glad to hear that he loved. 
“So, how long have you been running Don’s Box?” He suddenly asked, wanting to get to know you better. 
You raised your brows at his question. “For about two years now. My father, Don, opened the gym when he was twenty-five, that’s when he had me as well. But when he opened the gym, it practically changed his life. He’d boxed all of his life, and he was happy training other people when he started getting more people to come into his gym. When I was about six, he told me that he wanted me to run the gym when I turned twenty-five, only if I wanted to. But of course, I did. I looked up to him all of my life, and the gym made me happy as well,” you explained, smiling at the memory of when you were younger, being excited to turn twenty-five to do the same thing your father did. 
A soft smile appeared on Harry’s face as you reminisce on the memory. 
“How long have you been boxing?” 
“Since I was eight. Don showed me the ropes when I told him I was ready. There used to be a seating area on the side of the ring because when I was younger, I used to sit there and watch him work and train people. So, I was pretty interested and intrigued about fighting to get myself stronger, even at the young age of eight,” you chuckled. 
You were a daddy’s girl, always had been since you were born. Don had always set a pretty amazing example of how you should go about living your life. He would always say ‘Live your life with a strong punch. Keep your head up, and don’t let anything get to you because you’re so much more than what other people say. But if you need to cry, you can—there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that.’ 
As your eyes watered from the thought of your father’s words, Harry watched as you got emotional and he couldn’t help but think that you’ve crossed a line in asking too many questions. 
“Sorry, I always get emotional-”
“I’m sorry if I’ve overstepped—I should’ve kept the questions to myself-”
“Oh, no! You didn’t overstep whatsoever. I’m glad you asked me those questions, I just get soft and emotional over my dad, so hence, I’m tearing up,” you let out a somewhat pathetic chuckle as you couldn’t believe that you almost cried in front of this gorgeous man. You dabbed the corners of your eyes with your napkin, stopping the tears from falling out. 
Harry nodded understandingly, waiting for you to regroup yourself. You kept apologizing, but he kept telling you that you had nothing to be sorry for. 
“Really, if you need to cry, you can…” he told you. Your eyes widened; you were just thinking about your dad’s words two minutes ago, and for Harry to say the exact same thing Don had always told you without even knowing that Don had said those words. 
Not wanting to cry in front of him, you simply nodded your head, holding the napkin on the outer corner of your eye, so the napkin would catch your tears. 
Harry quickly changed the subject, sensing that you needed it, and you really did, so you were grateful for that. He busied himself by telling you what his favorite ice cream flavor was since he was suddenly reminded that there was a shop just down the street. He kept you occupied by talking about all the sweet treats that he used to eat with his mom back home, and how much he missed walking down the streets in the city to eat some ice cream. 
“My mum used to make this really great chocolate mousse pie, and we would eat it every weekend. It was extremely sweet, but it was delicious. I really miss it…” he told you. That had been a while ago, but it was like he could still taste the dessert as if he just ate it yesterday. 
“Is your mom back home in England?” You asked, figuring that there wasn’t any harm in asking to get to know him since he asked you some questions as well. 
“Uh…actually, I don’t know where she is…” he said honestly, and you knitted your brows in confusion. “I mean, honestly. I don’t know where she is. Ever since I went to uni, she’s been all over the place, taking vacations and barely calling. I-I feel like she’s forgotten about me,” he spoke ever so softly as he was fragile. 
You listened to him intently, giving him your full attention as he was opening up a part of his life that you knew he doesn’t tell a lot of people. A part of him that he’s kept in for so long and just the passing sense of relief he felt saying those words and speaking up about this subject had made him feel so much better. 
“I’m sure she didn’t forget about you.” 
“Seemed like it. We inherited my grandfather’s will—left us a generous amount for each of us that’ll take care of us for the rest of our lives. And she took that and ran with it. I mean, I get it—she wants to live her life, and now’s the time to do that because she’s got the money for it, but I feel…abandoned. She got up, said goodbye, and just…left. It just makes me think that I’m not good enough—that I wasn’t good enough to stay.” Harry opened a can of worms that he can’t take back anymore. But the trust that he had in you already made him want to talk about everything with you; to open up about all of his stresses and insecurities. 
Boldly, you reached your arm across the table but immediately pulled away because you didn’t want to touch him without asking. But before you could open your mouth and ask, Harry had reached forward, meeting your hand halfway as his palm was facing up as if it was a way of saying ‘you can hold my hand if you want.’ Blushing, you reached forward again and took your hand into his. 
The touch was sweet and tender as you two held hands; the want to hold each other tighter was present, wanting to take away Harry’s pain. 
“Harry, you will always be good enough. I know we just met a month ago, but I already know that you’re the sweetest, kindest person. Please know that. You are enough, and I’m grateful that you’re here and that I’m sitting across from you, eating lunch,” you declared. Harry sniffled, not knowing what to say as he put his head down, so you continued. “For as long as we’re friends, I’m gonna stay.” You spoke with complete honesty as you caressed the back of his hand with your thumb. 
Harry’s head lifted up at your last statement in disbelief as if this was the first time someone had ever said that to him. 
“Really?” 
You squeezed his hand, making his heart flutter. “Yeah. As long as you want me to,” you reassured, nodding. 
Harry gave you a soft and appreciating smile as he took a deep breath. The breath that he held in throughout the entirety of the conversation was finally let out in relief. He shrunk back into his seat, still holding your hand as you continued rubbing it, and he breathed out a chuckle. It was an overwhelming feeling that was riddled with happiness and a sense of security washed over him. 
It was like he had been waiting for you; someone new that unexpectedly came into his life was scary because it was change, but it was a good change. A change for the better. He had been vulnerable enough to open himself up, and it all led to the tight bond and trust you two had with one another, sealing your friendship and relationship. 
And you both knew this moment was going to change everything. 
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Time had passed by rather quickly as it was nearing the end of October. The weather was getting chillier as the sun was beginning to disappear behind the clouds earlier. There was something about the fall weather that Harry adored. It may have to do with the fact that the gloomy sky had occurred more often, or how he got to call it a night early. Whatever it may be, he liked it, or he used to. 
In recent times, he wanted the sun to stay out until it was time to go to bed. He wanted warm days instead of gloomy. His new changed attitude towards life had to do with you. 
You and Harry had been hanging out quite a lot; getting to know one another, getting a bite or drink, and working out together, it definitely gave Harry the chance to let go of his past. He was happier, smiled more, and laughed a lot which he didn’t know he was capable of doing those things again until he met you. 
Benny loved it, though. He sure cherished it because seeing his best friend happy again was something he was afraid he wouldn’t see again. But that didn’t stop him from having a little talk with you, trying to protect Harry and set you straight. 
When Harry was occupied with hitting the speed bag, Benny walked over to the ring, where you had just finished another class with your younger students. 
“Hey, Benny!” You greeted him once you saw him walk towards you. 
“Hey, do you mind chatting for a minute?” You raised your brows, nodding your head. Benny usually didn’t talk to you privately nor was it anything serious, but by the look on his face, it seemed pretty serious. “So, you’ve been hanging out with Harry a lot, hmm?” 
You smiled softly. “Yeah! Hope you don’t mind that? Know I’m taking your best friend and all…” 
“No, I don’t mind. I’m actually glad you are. He seems quite taken by you, and I haven’t seen him like that in a very long time,” Benny said honestly. You seemed to know where this conversation was going now, and now that you thought about it, you expected this from Benny because they were like brothers and Benny would do anything to protect Harry. “What I’m trying to say is…if you’re only hanging out with him to fuck with him, don’t bother. He’s been through enough, and I know he can’t handle anymore of that and I can’t stand to see him like that again.” 
“Like what?” You hesitatingly asked. 
“Like…just know that he was a mess. He couldn’t get up, eat, drink, shower, or anything. I had to physically help him. I don’t want to see him like that ever again.” Benny shook his head as if he was reliving the horrible nightmare that he went through a few years ago. 
“Is this about his mom?” 
“He told you that?” He asked, just to make sure, and you nodded. “Kind of. But that’s only half of it. He’ll tell you when he’s ready, but I’ve already said too much. Just…take care of him, okay? He tries to act tough sometimes, but he’s trying his best to not break down. Although, I haven’t seen that kind of look on him since he’s been hanging out with you, so you’re probably doing something right.” 
You nodded understandingly. “Thanks for talking to me. I don’t plan on breaking his heart at all, and I’m quite taken with him myself,” you admitted. 
“Good. I’m glad you are. He’s a great guy.” Benny smiled, and you agreed. 
Benny didn’t talk to you for much longer before he started getting cold from standing around, so he ended the conversation and went back to working out. 
Meanwhile, as you and Benny were talking, Don took the chance himself to talk to Harry, seeing as you were occupied. 
“Harry.” Don made himself present around him. 
Harry immediately stopped his workout, greeting your father. “What’s up, Don?” 
“So, I’ve noticed that you’ve been hanging around Y/N a lot.” Don’s stance changed as he crossed his arms, sporting a slight frown. Harry gulped; he always found Don to be quite intimidating, ever since he joined the gym, but Harry didn’t want to seem like he couldn’t have a serious conversation with the father of the woman that he’s slowly falling for--no, he couldn’t act like that. “What’s that all about?” Don added. 
“I’m just…we’re friends, so we’re just hanging out. Nothing more,” he told Don honestly. Although he would like there to be more, he didn’t know how you felt about him or if you even felt anything for him at all. 
Don nodded. He could tell that Harry was holding back on something he wanted to say, and he had an idea of what that was. So, he let loose of the intimidating and protective act, knowing that wasn’t really him anyway, and his expression softened as he uncrossed his arms. He placed a comforting hand on Harry’s shoulder, taking a deep breath. 
“You have this look of wanting to say more and you don’t have to tell me, but I will tell you this…if you want to date her and go out with her, you can. This isn’t approval and a ‘yes’ for you to take her out because I don’t need to do that--she can make her own decisions. All I’m saying is that if you want to, go for it. Life is too fuckin’ short to not do anything, to not say anything.” 
Harry’s shoulders relaxed and he smiled in appreciation at Don’s words. “Thanks, Don. I definitely want to take her out, but I just don’t know how she feels about me.” 
“Oh, I’m pretty sure she feels something for you--she hasn’t told me, but I just know. You’re the first guy in a while that she’s been hanging around with consistently, and that comforts me, in a way. Knowing that she’s living her life and not holding back anymore.” Harry stayed silent, taking his words in. He tried not to overanalyze what Don had said because you’ll tell him and open up to him when you want to, just like how you’re patiently waiting for Harry to open up fully as well. “Just…don’t break her heart, okay? She’s been through enough and I just want her to be happy.” 
Harry nodded understandingly, saying a soft ‘okay’ before Don changed the subject and talked about how  Harry should train with him one of these days, which Harry immediately said yes to and they planned for the following week to train. Don left him to finish his workout, telling him to have a nice night as you and Harry were going out to dinner. 
Benny and Harry finished up their workout, and before they were able to head out the front door, Harry stopped, telling Benny to give him a minute. Harry fast-walked towards you, lugging his bag on his shoulder. You were coming out of your office, which was why Harry couldn’t say goodbye to you after his workout. 
“Hey, we’re heading out,” he said, wiping the bit of sweat on the back of his neck with his towel. 
“Oh, okay. I’ll see you later?” 
“Yeah, I’ll pick you up,” Harry suggested, pursing his lips into his mouth as he contained his smile. You nodded, eyes sparkling as you looked up at him. “I’ll, uh, page you,” he slightly smirked. 
“Okay,” you mindlessly responded as you were getting quite lost in his green eyes that looked at you intently with a gleam that sat so perfectly against his irises, making his eyes glimmer brightly.
He gave you one last smile and a little wave before walking out of the gym with Benny. You were left stunned as you stood there, completely drifted away from reality as you were in a dream about Harry. You felt a small nudge on your shoulder, causing you to snap out of your thoughts and dream as you turned around to see your father laughing. 
“Get back to work.” A smug plastered on his face. 
A breathy chuckle was released from your mouth as a hint of embarrassment emerged onto your face with wide eyes. You got back to work, focusing your attention on training your next client, but your mind was racing at the thought of Harry. 
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As he promised, Harry paged you when he was outside of your apartment complex. He wanted to knock on your door like the proper gentleman that he is, but the buzzer machine to let people in wasn’t working, so paging you would have to do for now. He waited for you outside of his newly washed car, making sure it was nice and clean for you as he leaned against the passenger door. 
You walked out of your building, and Harry was immediately blown away. You were wearing a black skirt with stockings that hugged your legs, and a white knitted sweater since it was on the chillier side. 
Every time he saw you, his heart would beat incredibly fast, pulse pounding through his veins. His stomach was in flits of butterflies, soaring in his heart and stomach, making him extremely nervous. Every time he saw you, everything would stop, like you were the only person in the world and everything was okay. 
“Hey, H,” you flashed him your smile, one that he looked forward to every time he saw you. 
“H-Hi,” he stuttered, clearing his throat to start over. “Hi. You look really nice.” 
You blushed. “Thank you! You look great as well. Love this top.” You reached forward, lightly tugging at his red-orange knitted long-sleeve. He paired it with blue jeans that flared at the bottom with white sneakers. His fingers were covered in beautiful silver rings, making his hands look quite gorgeous. 
“Thank you, shall we?” 
“Yeah, oh, I got you something.” You reached into your bag to take out the cased CD, and before Harry was about to protest, you handed it to him. “I made you this mixtape. Just some songs that I think you’ll like—I’m sure you know all of them, but they just made me think of you,” you said shyly. 
You weren’t normally shy and you would call yourself a pretty strong and confident person, but you had been so nervous to give this to him—even making the tape left you anxious and shaking. 
“Wow, this is…very thoughtful of you. Thank you so much.” Harry looked at the CD with the songs written in your handwriting. There were 10 songs, and Harry knew all of them. They were all…romantic songs. 
“That’s not weird, right? Y’know, making you a mixtape?” You asked unsurely. The odd feeling had popped into your mind at the last second as you watched Harry observe the CD, not giving a bad nor good reaction to your gift. 
“No, not at all! I really appreciate this. No one has ever made a mixtape for me before, so this is really nice and special. Thank you again.” He reached forward, wrapping one arm around your shoulders as both of your arms found their way around his waist. You somewhat weren’t convinced that he liked it, and he could tell just by how you were looking at him--looking for some more reassurance--that it seemed like he didn’t like it. When he pulled away, he looked at you before saying, “Really, it makes me happy that you took the time to make this for me. It’s so sweet and thoughtful of you, and I already love all the songs on here, so I’m one-hundred-percent going to enjoy this.” 
You nodded, smiling softly as he opened the door for you and you thanked him, blushing as you got in. It seemed very much like a date and you couldn’t help but smile at the thought of that. 
Harry drove to the sandwich shop that waited for you both. It was twenty minutes away on the other side of the town, but Harry had been raving about it so much to you that you told him that you two should go, which Harry was more than happy to take you. 
The sound of Boyz II Men filled the speakers of Harry’s car as the two of you sang your hearts out to ‘On Bended Knees,’ putting full emotion and passion into singing. You held up your water bottle, pretending that it was a microphone, and Harry kept shifting his gaze on you, trying to keep his eyes on the road, but also wanting to look at you as you sang. He smiled to himself, absolutely loving how you were so carefree--something that he admired about you. 
His heart fluttered, curling his lips into his mouth before he did something that was quite bold of him to do. Reaching over, he grabbed your hand, intertwining your fingers together. Your body was frozen, but you continued to sing, covering up the fact that Harry was holding your hand so casually. You were stiff as a board, so you tried loosening up, swaying your body from side to side, slightly averting your eyes towards him as he continued to drive. 
The moonlight cast through the car window, giving him a dim glow, accentuating his features; jawline prominent, his lashes shadowed down onto his cheeks, and his eyes were calm; the light reflecting against his glassy green eyes. Your heartbeat a million miles a minute as you looked at him. You had this appreciation and admiration for him--that you were lucky and grateful that you have him and that there was nothing more beautiful than the man sitting beside you. 
With your face on fire, you smiled as you carried on, singing with the warmth of Harry’s hand connected with yours. 
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You were sitting across Harry, munching on your sandwich as you listened to him talk about how he wanted to actually find a job. He’s been sitting around, living quite wealthy as his inheritance sat safely. But he’d been getting bored. Every day was a routine for him and it was a pretty boring routine, he would say. The only places he really went to were the gym and the places that the two of you went together, but that was it. He needed a hobby, something that he could escape to that doesn’t require breaking a sweat from punching bags and mitts. 
“You said you like books, so maybe you could see if the bookstore down the street from the gym is hiring. That would be a nice little place to work at,” you suggested. 
Harry’s eyes lightened up, apart from thinking that was a great idea and the other part from being surprised that you remembered such a small detail about him when he’d talked about books briefly with you. 
“I should definitely do that, thank you. I love that bookstore, it’s-”
“Y/N?” Harry was interrupted by a man who had walked over to your table. Harry looked up, observing the guy as he was looking at you so intently. He quickly looked at you as you were looking up at the man with a shocked expression on your face, wide eyes and mouth slightly opened. 
“Uh, hi,” you said, feeling slightly uncomfortable. Your eyes glanced at Harry and he had a worried expression on his face, eyes asking if you were okay. You nodded softly, bringing your attention back to him. 
“I-I’ve been calling the gym and paging you, but you haven’t been answering any of them…” the man mentioned slyly. You were quite speechless, not expecting him to be here and not knowing what to say. 
“I, uh-”
“Can we talk right now?” He asked. You were flickering your eyes between Harry, someone that you were completely infatuated with, and the man that you were completely irritated with. But if you didn’t talk to him right now, he wouldn’t leave you alone and wouldn’t stop calling you, so you made the mistake of saying a soft ‘okay’ as you got up, looking over at Harry, giving a subtle smile. 
Just by the way he was looking at you, you knew you had regretted your decision and you wished that you hadn’t given in so easily. 
Once you were outside, you crossed your arms, in a way to seem reserved and closed off, but in reality, you really were. The uncomfortableness you felt was something you haven’t felt in a while as it felt like your stomach was boiling as bile salivated your mouth. Your fists were hidden underneath your arms, clenching, and your lips were curled into your mouth to immediately spew inappropriate sayings and vile remarks. 
“What do you want to talk about?” You asked, brows pinched together. 
“I’ve been trying to get a hold of you for quite a while now, but I just wanted to talk. I hate how we ended things…” he said remorsefully. You tried not to fall for the pouty look he was giving you as if he knew quite well you would fall for it. 
“It’s been six months, Max,” you reminded him. You and Max had an ugly breakup, and you had been picking up your own pieces yourself. You two had been together for nearly a year until he started to act differently. Noticing that he was going home late, staying at the bars until the early hours of the morning, and being quite rude and dismissive towards you, it ended in a screaming match where he ended up spitting out rude comments at you--calling you ugly, useless, and boring. It also caused him to confess that he was cheating on you for half the time you were together with him, and you thought that was a lie he made up just to make you angry, but a month after the breakup, you had found out that was true because you had accidentally bumped into the girl he was cheating on you with. At the time, you couldn’t blame him because the girl was absolutely gorgeous and seemed a lot of fun, but now, you know your worth and you absolutely didn’t deserve that whatsoever. 
For six months, you hadn’t seen him, but he had been leaving you countless calls to the gym phone. However, Max wouldn’t dare to step foot in the gym ever again because Don had clearly threatened him when he saw Max on the street, pinning him up against the brick wall by his shirt and yelling in his face that if he ever came close to you or the gym ever again, he wouldn’t see the end of the day. 
Don would’ve lost his shit if he saw Max in front of you. 
“This is pointless. I was fine living my life for the past six months without you. In fact, I haven’t even thought about you until you showed up. Couldn’t you see I was doing just fine? Why can’t you just leave me alone?” Your tone was scornful, not wanting to be in front of him anymore but instead the lovely man inside. 
“I just assumed you wanted some sort of closure…” 
“If I wanted closure, then I would’ve called you. But I don’t need closure. I was doing okay-” 
“With who? That man inside the restaurant?” He interrupted, brows raised. His demeanour suddenly changed just because you had given him the slightest bit of attitude. Max went from soft, wanting forgiveness to the Max that you saw last--completely offensive, rude, and a dickhead.  
“Yeah, his name is Harry, by the way. I was doing okay until you showed up!” You rolled your eyes, making your way back inside to Harry, who was waiting for you inside. 
Of course, Max wasn’t done until he got the last word, so he yelled out, “You know, whatever you’re doing with him, he’s gonna leave you; just like how I left you.” You slowly turned around, heart aching as his words had definitely done something this time. “You think Harry cares about you Y/N? Think again, he’s gonna leave you and you’re gonna be alone. You’re nothing, Y/N--not without me, at least. You aren’t worth anything, and you had to take over your dad’s gym to feel like you are. Stop fooling yourself.” 
Your eyes watered, trying your hardest not to let them slip from your eyes. You had already felt weak tearing up in front of him, so you couldn’t imagine what he would think if you bawled your eyes out. Suddenly, you heard the bell above the restaurant door chime. You didn’t bother turning around, but you somehow knew that it was Harry who was behind you. 
“Everything alright here?” Harry asked warily, eyes pointed towards you. 
“Yeah, man. See you, Y/N.” With that, he walked away, hopefully for good. Harry knew everything wasn’t alright with how you’re ready to burst into tears. As much as he wanted to follow him, force an answer out of him as to why you were in such distress, he was more worried about you. 
Standing in front of you, Harry placed an arm on your shoulder, his other hand held the brown paper bag that had both of your leftovers as he didn’t want to eat without you. Your body was tense, not because of Harry’s touch but because of the words that had taken such an effect on you, and you were doing everything to not break down in the middle of the sidewalk. 
“Hey, you okay?” Harry asked softly, bending down slightly to look you in the eyes. Your eyes were pointed down at the ground, thinking that if you looked Harry in the eyes, you were going to break. 
“Uh, c-can you take me to the gym, please?” You asked once you fully gained the courage to speak, but your voice was shaky. 
Harry immediately nodded. “Yeah, yeah, of course. Let’s go.” He put his arm around your shoulders and you comfortably nuzzled into his side as he guided you to his car. 
The drive back was silent—the complete opposite from the drive to the restaurant. Instead of happiness radiating out of your bodies, the space felt gloomy. Harry’s mind had spiraled as he drove, thinking about what that man could have possibly said to you. He was torn between wanting to be angry, but he was more concerned for you because you had never been this silent before. 
Once Harry was in front of the gym, you immediately got out before he was able to turn off the car. Using your keys, you unlocked the front door, turning off the alarm system before throwing your purse, not caring where it landed and rushed towards the heavy bags. 
This was where you let all your anger out. The place where you screamed at the top of your lungs with no care on who might hear you. This was your safe space, and if someone was going to judge you for utilizing your safe space, then they didn’t belong there. 
You screamed, punched, and kicked the heavy bag with full force as your tears had streamed down your face. Your heart was beating painfully with every scream you forced out of your body. Your punches were solid, making the bag swing back and forth, but your knuckles were starting to redden because you didn’t wrap your hands. 
Harry quickly followed you, a frown plastered on his face as he watched you let your anger out all on the heavy bag. He let you do your thing, watching from the sidelines before he waited for the right moment to cut in. 
“You. Fucking. Stupid. Piece. Of. Shit,” you yelled out with every punch. You sniffled, continuing to punch the bag, eyes glossy from your endless amount of tears. 
The friction from the leather and your bare skin was rubbing against each other, cutting and peeling open your skin. Your hands had numbed the pain, so you carried on with your punches until Harry had wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you into his chest and away from the heavy bag once he started to see redness and blood scattered onto your knuckles. You screamed, your body protesting, wanting to continue punching, but you knew you didn’t have any more energy. 
Turning around in his arms, your face was met with his chest, sobbing into his shirt. Harry’s hands soothed your back, comforting you as his heart ached from the sadness you radiated. Your bloody hands clutched his shirt as you cried, tears staining his shirt. Your whines and whimpers filled the empty gym, echoing back at you. 
Everything hurt—your heart, eyes, body, and your hands were now starting to sting. Harry held you tighter, carefully taking a seat onto the ground and bringing you down with him. You sat in between his legs and your head rested on his shoulder. 
After a moment, he felt you calm down and your body physically relaxed. Mindlessly, his hand brushed your hair back from your forehead, pressing a kiss to your skin. Harry hadn’t realized he did that until he pulled away and he hoped he hadn’t crossed a line by doing that. But when he kissed your forehead, you pulled him closer, burying your face into his neck. 
“Talk to me—tell me what you need, angel,” he said softly, wanting to help and be there for you. The nickname had completely slipped out as he’d been calling you that in his head. He’d never seen you break down at all, so this was very new to him. 
You shook your head, nickname going over your head. “Nothing. Just you.” 
Harry nodded his head, heart fluttering at your words as he held you tighter. He continued to soothe your hair and back as he heard you sigh deeply at the comfort. Looking down at your hands, he realized they were still bloody and cut up, and he knew that your cuts needed to be treated as soon as possible. 
“Can I take care of your hands? I’m still gonna be close, just wanna bandage you up.” You sniffled, nodding your head. Harry slightly smiled, carefully getting up before helping you up. He wrapped his arm around your shoulder, first asking you where the first aid kit was, and you two walked to one of the offices to get the kit before going to the restroom. “Wanna sit?” He asked, patting the cold counter. Nodding your head, you placed your hands on the counter, but he quickly stopped you, taking off his jacket for you to sit on. 
“Thank you,” you softly said to him gratefully before jumping to sit on the counter. 
Harry opened the box that contained multiple and different types of bandages, an instant cold pack, thermometer, antiseptic wipes, and scissors. Harry washed his hands well before grabbing the antiseptic wipe and ripping it open. He situated himself between your legs, gently grabbing your hand to rest on his. He looked up at you, first asking you if it was okay to start, and when you said yes, he slowly and carefully started to wipe the area around the cut. 
You watched him as he cleaned your cuts; he was so focused on wiping the blood that stained your skin and was careful not to press too hard because you were starting to bruise already. As you watched him, you felt immensely grateful. It’d been a while since you had a true friend that would help you with anything and take care of you. Your feelings for him had skyrocketed, heart pounding so loud you could feel it in your ears. 
“The guy at the restaurant was my ex-boyfriend, Max,” you suddenly said. Harry looked up at you to let you know that he was listening as he continued to clean your hands. “It was a bit of a messy breakup; he called me names, insulted me, and confessed that he was cheating on me. When I saw him at the restaurant, that was the first time since the breakup, and it was like I relived that day again.” 
“Did he say anything to you?” Harry asked, holding back his anger because he knew the answer,  Harry watched through the window the entire time and noticed your posture and demeanor change, causing Harry to quickly pay and rush outside just in case anything happened. 
“Y-Yeah.” Your voice croaked. “Said I didn’t amount to anything—that I wasn’t anything without him-”
“That’s bullshit, Y/N-”
“I’m so mad at myself.” Tears were forming in your eyes again as you looked down at your lap. Redness brimmed your eyelids as you sniffled. 
“What? Why?” Harry asked confusingly. 
You shook your head at yourself. “For years, I’ve been training—learning how to defend myself for when I need it. I was raised to have a strong mindset, to not take shit from anyone because Don told me not to. But when he came around, I didn't say a word, let alone move a muscle. I hate how he made me weak. I hate how I didn’t stand up for myself.” Your voice was shaky and your tears streamed down your face as you paused for a moment. “He told me that you were gonna leave me just like everyone else in my life did,” you added. 
Harry was seething, breathing in through his nose as his face hardened. He masked his anger because his priority was to comfort you, so he tried to let go of his anger for a moment. 
“Listen to me.” He placed his hands on the outside of your legs, bending down to look you in the eyes. Your glossy eyes looked at him, a small pout on your face. “You’re the strongest person I know, alright, angel?” This time, you heard the pet name loud and clear, making your heart do backflips. “You didn’t let him walk all over you, no, you’re much more mature than him to ever start something. He wanted to see you angry, and frustrated. He wanted to add fuel to the fire, and you didn’t give him the satisfaction. You aren’t weak at all. You’ve got a strong heart, and I’m sure that punch of yours to his nose would damage it for good.” 
You breathed out a chuckle at his last statement, nodding, knowing he was right. Harry smiled, dimples showing proudly as he wiped the tears that were falling from your eyes. Giving him a half-smile, you leaned forward, pressing your face against his collarbones. He stood up straight to wrap his arms around your back. You daringly placed a kiss onto the exposed skin that was peeking out from his shirt. Harry’s face warmed up at the touch that was so soft and delicate, yet felt like it was burning through his skin. You pulled away, looking up at him as you thanked him. 
Your eyes darted between his eyes and his lips as your face was just inches away from him. His face was delicate and his beauty shined over the darkness of the world. It was as if he didn’t seem real like you couldn’t believe someone so beautiful and breathtaking was standing right in front of you. You studied every curve, movement, and freckle on his face as they all very well defined him, heightening your admiration with every look of his perfections and imperfections. 
Harry blushed under your stare, clearing his throat as he felt nervous. He pulled his face away a tad bit, offering you a small smile. “Of course. Always gonna be here for you. Now, let me just finish cleaning your hands before taking you home.” 
You nodded, letting him finish with his task. His hands were gentle as he wrapped the bandage around your hand. Your heart was filled with so much admiration and gratitude that you simply wouldn’t know what to do if Harry weren’t there today. The growing feelings had taken over your heart and mind that you were a bit scared, but nonetheless, you let them take over. 
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Harry sat at the bar next to Benny, nursing a beer he had ordered ten minutes ago. It had been a while since they hung out together, but that was because Benny was trying to get his wife pregnant, so when Marianne calls, they spent their time baby-making. The other reason was that Harry was spending most of his time with you, which he loved every minute of. 
“So, a little bird told me that you’ve been going to the gym on Saturdays now,” Benny mentioned, a hint of tease in his tone. 
Harry chuckled. “Really? And who told you that?” He asked, taking a sip of his beer. 
“Starts with a D and ends with an N,” Benny laughed, giving you the obvious answer. 
“Well, I’ve been going in on Saturdays because Don always schedules our training sessions on Saturdays. Nothing else,” he slightly lied. After his first training day with Don, Harry told Don that he wanted to continue training with him because he gets a good workout with him rather than by himself, hitting the heavy bag or speed bag, so Don always scheduled for Saturdays since those were the easiest days. 
But other than the training sessions, he also got to see you on Saturdays, which he really enjoyed because sometimes after his workout, you two would grab a bite to eat or plan to hang out later that day. He liked it, he liked you. 
“Hmm, interesting. It doesn’t have to do with a particular trainer who also happens to own the gym?” Benny raised his brows. 
“Not really into Don, to be honest,” Harry joked, bouncing around Benny’s question. They both laughed, slamming their hand on the bar top. 
“Really, though. I’m happy for you. You’ve been in such a happier mood, and that’s all I want—is for you to be happy. She’s doing a great job,” Benny said honestly. Seeing his friend happy after everything he’s been through had lifted a certain weight off of his shoulders, and it seemed like he didn’t need to worry about Harry. 
Harry simply nodded, smiling as words weren’t necessary. He always felt like Benny was always concerned about him, and although he appreciated him being worried, he didn’t need to anymore because Harry was finally feeling much happier than he was before. 
“There you are.” A voice was suddenly heard next to Harry along with a hand on his shoulder. Harry tensed up, and he hadn’t in a while, but he knew that wasn’t your voice nor was it your touch. Harry turned his head to the side to find Lizette sitting on the stool next to him, giving him a smug smile. He didn’t say anything but look at Benny, and saw his eyes narrow, confused as to why Lizette was here. “I’ve been calling your home and paging you. Why haven’t you been answering me?” She pouted. 
Harry knew that pout all too well. She used it to trick you into saying yes to her and getting what she wanted, but Harry was stronger than that now; he knew how to hold his ground. 
He hadn’t seen Lizette ever since the week before he joined Don’s Box. With all of his time spent with you, he hadn’t really thought about Lizette, if he’s being honest. You had fully taken every inch and space of his mind that it was maximum capacity, but he still found a way to make space from the invading thoughts of you. 
“Just been…busy, Lizette, that’s all,” he said, not giving her his full attention as he looked at his bottle. 
“Too busy for me?” 
“Yeah, something like that.” He didn’t want to outright be rude to her because naturally, Harry was a kind and thoughtful man, so he kept his harsh thoughts to himself. 
She inched closer to Harry, close enough to where her mouth was against his ear as she whispered, “Well, since I so happened to run into you, how about we go back to yours?”
Harry took a deep breath. He felt like he was his old self again—making impulsive and not so thought out decisions that end up fucking him and his emotions over in the future. Being with Lizette was something, and it helped make him feel a little less lonely, even though she immediately left right after she got what she wanted. 
But Harry hadn’t felt lonely at the moment and in months. He had his best friend next to him, having a drink, and he had you. He wasn’t lonely at all. So, why was he getting off the stool and putting his coat on before closing his tab for the night? 
Benny’s eyes widened, looking at Harry as if he was asking what the actual fuck was he doing. Harry simply shrugged, patting his friend on the back before following Lizette out of the bar. The air was cold, but it wasn’t a delightful cold that he wanted to be in. It almost seemed kind of eerie as the gray clouds hovered over them. 
Lizette hugged Harry’s arm. “I’m glad you agreed.” She leaned up to kiss his cheek, but he immediately pulled away, taking his arm out of her hold. 
“You should go home,” he told her. Her mouth opened, but nothing came out as she was confused. “Get a ride home. I’m not taking you home nor am I going with you. I don’t want to do this anymore, Lizette.” 
“But you came with me-”
“That didn’t mean I was saying yes to your offer. I came out here with you to get you off of me and not embarrass me in front of my friend and the entire bar.” Harry’s voice was stern as he crossed his arms. “I know you’ve never really cared about me, so please just do me a favor and leave. I’m happier now-”
“You’re happier? With some other girl, huh?” Harry nodded and Lizette rolled her eyes, expression annoyed as she was beginning to get angry and defensive. “You think she cares? Guess what, Harry, she doesn’t. She’s gonna leave you just like your mom left you, your ex-girlfriend left you. Remember when she fucked your best friend in college? That she left you to be with him? And look at them now, they’re married! They don’t give a single fuck about you! What makes you think that this girl you’re seeing does?” 
Lizette had definitely hit a nerve. Harry had gone four years without hearing the story on how his ex left him for one of his friends from uni. The situation was quite sad, and it left Harry in pieces. Not to mention, Lizette was his ex’s best friend and she somehow seduced him into regularly having sex with her, which wasn’t entirely her fault because Harry was lonely and needed to feel something to fill the void of his loneliness. 
“Don’t think you’re so easy to love, Harry. It takes a lot of effort to do that, especially with you. You’re gonna continue being scared and closed off, and people are gonna continue to run away-”
“Harry?” Lizette was suddenly interrupted by you. You were walking to the bar because Benny had invited you, thinking that it would’ve been a nice surprise for Harry and to hang out with just the three of you. But you had seen Harry and some woman on the street and his face looked angry. “Uh, hi.” 
You turned towards the unknown woman as she looked you up and down before turning towards Harry, raising her brows as she figured out who you were and who Harry had been spending so much time with. 
Harry completely blocked you out, his attention was towards the statements Lizette had made. He had been doing so much better, and all of a sudden the relapse hit him ten times harder, like his accomplishment of being okay with himself completely disappeared. 
 Was he that hard to love? He knew that he pushed people away, that’s for sure, but he didn’t realize that it was difficult to love him. Harry then thought about the people that had left him because they didn’t love him enough to stay. His ex left him for his friend, it seemed like his mum had forgotten about him, and soon enough, Benny was gonna get tired of him and so were you. 
“And you are?” You asked, scowling at the woman in front of you. Lizette smirked, seeing as there was an opportunity right in front of her. She didn’t find you 
intimidating whatsoever. 
“Oh, guess Harry didn’t tell you, but we’ve been sleeping with each other for years. Friends with benefits, if you will,” Lizette answered with some sass and a snarl to her tone as she watched your expression turn into a hurtful one. 
Your face had softened as your eyes welled up with tears, but you didn’t dare let them fall. You looked at Harry and it seemed like he was in his head, but you had no clue he was ‘seeing someone.’ It felt like you had been cheated on, even though going out as friends didn’t mean anything to a fuck buddy. All of the moments you spent with him—the laughs, storytelling, training, and tension-filled moments had connected you both to one another. It made you feel special that you were seeing a side of Harry that no one else had, but you were wrong. 
“Guess you’re the new girl he’s seeing?” 
“What’s it to you?” Your brows knitted. 
Lizette shrugged. “Nothing. Just know that Harry’s difficult and loveless. So, just get out while you can.” She reached over to touch your shoulder, but you quickly stepped back before she could. She was talking as if Harry wasn’t right next to you two, and if this was a ‘women looking out for women’ type of situation, you weren’t going to accept it because she outright just insulted Harry. 
You were livid as your eyes turned dark, stepping closer to her. “Stay away from him, or I swear to god-”
“Or what? What are you gonna do?” Lizette challenged, stepping closer. She was slightly taller than you since she wore four-inch leather boots.
“Wanna find out? Next time I see you with him or hear you talk shit about him again, then you’ll find out because I can guarantee you’ll never see the light of day.” You held eye contact with her as she looked at you with such fierce emotion. 
“Cute. Harry’s got a little bodyguard,” she scoffed, stepping back. “I should go,” Lizette suddenly said, breaking you out of your heartbreaking thoughts. “I’ll call you,” she told Harry, despite what you had just said. It seemed like he wasn’t even listening as his blank stare was trained onto the ground. She walked away, her heels clicking against the cement. The satisfaction she felt right now felt good, knowing her words had definitely affected you both. 
When Lizette was far enough, you turned back towards Harry. This time, he was looking at you in a confused state, and it didn’t seem like him. 
“I-I didn’t know you were seeing someone-”
“You should go…” he said straightforwardly. You raised your brows as you were taken back. 
“I’m sorry?” 
“You should leave. For good. Get out of my life while you can. I promise I won’t get mad.” His voice cracked and was shaky. He couldn’t even look you in the eye while he was talking because he knew that would break his heart even more, especially if you were to actually leave for good. The negative thoughts had taken over, and this was what he did—pushing people away and giving them a way out before they realized that Harry wasn’t a lovable or worthy enough person to stay around for. 
“What makes you think I’m going anywhere?” You questioned confusingly. You wondered if he even thought about the conversation you two had a few moments ago when you had told him that you were staying for good. 
“They all do, anyway. They all leave and they never come back.” His voice was starting to raise slightly, frustration and anger pouring out of his veins as his eyes were starting to tear up. A pout remained on your face as you watched the distress never leave his angelic face. “Just please go.”
“I’m not going anywhere-”
“Why won’t you-”
“Because I care! Why don’t you get that?” You raised your voice, not too loud to startle him, but enough to convey your emotions and frustrations to him. 
“Because you’re going to eventually! You’re gonna leave and use me and never love me. I’m used to it, so you could go now!” Harry was starting to cry, light sobs were coming out of his mouth as he was trying to hold them back. You took a step forward, wanting to comfort him as your heart broke at the sight, but he stepped back, not wanting your touch. 
Your heart sank when he stepped back away from you because he had never done that before. You two were always comfortable with one another that both of your touches had felt like security. Your tears had streamed down your face, quickly wiping them. 
“Harry, I’m not gonna leave…” 
“It’s fine. You don’t know what it’s like for someone to leave and never come back. You don’t know what it’s like to feel completely loveless that someone physically had to get out of your life and not want to be in it anymore. You don’t know what it’s like!” He spoke firmly as he cried, tugging his curly locks in frustration. 
“I don’t know what it’s like?” You spoke loudly, and Harry looked up at you. “I know exactly what it’s like because my own mother left me when I was eleven-years-old, and I have no idea why!” You vented, sniffling. “You don’t think I know what it’s like to constantly wonder what you’re doing wrong because the people that were supposed to be there for you completely vanished? Because I do! I know that feeling quite well. So, don’t tell me I don’t know shit because it seems like we’re in the same boat.” 
Harry was speechless. Sure, you two had been close and had talked about your lives and childhood, but this was something that you two had to dig deep for because it wasn’t something you regularly spoke about nor did you tell new people that you’d just met. 
“I-I’m sorry I had no idea…” 
“You couldn’t have had any idea, Harry. But just know that that day my mom left me still confuses me. The look on my dad’s face when he told me that mom left still haunts me. The crying I did since I was eleven hurts me because she didn’t love me enough to stay.” 
“Y/N…” 
“It’s fine, I get it. I know we’ve known each other for only a few months, but I did not expect this from you, especially because of all that we’d talked about. I’d say I’m the newest person in your life but I’m also the closest, besides Benny. So, don’t shut me out.” Your heart was beating through your chest and all of your emotions began to pile up like they were leaves, falling from the branches of the trees. 
Harry looked defeated, knowing that you were right. He sniffled, not knowing what else to say because all he felt was a painful feeling in his chest since Lizette had gone up to him at the bar. 
When he didn’t say anything, you just nodded, knowing that it was best to give him some space so he could realize that you were here for him and that you weren’t going anywhere. 
“Call me when you wanna talk…” you told him before turning around. Harry watched you—he knew that he should go after you, not be scared and let you in, perhaps tell you that he’s practically in love with you, but he doesn’t move, feet glued to the ground. 
When you were only a few feet away, you turned back around, knowing that you hadn’t gotten your final words out yet. Harry looked up when he heard footsteps approaching him. 
“Fuck whatever people say to you; trying to degrade and bring you down because whatever they say, it’s not true. I will always be there to defend you, Harry. Don’t think I won’t be because I will always be on your side.” You paused for a moment. Your heart was fully opening and was beginning to be vulnerable. Trying not to let it overwhelm you, you continued. “Don’t think you’re not easy to love because you are. You’re extremely easy to love, y’know that? I would know because…I love you. And that’s crazy to say because we’ve only known each other for a short period of time, but I can’t help what I feel. So, there you go.” 
Before Harry was able to say anything, you walked away, and he could hear you sniffling and crying. Harry’s mouth was ajar, completely speechless and shocked, but his heart fluttered as he took in your words. You really loved him, he thought. No one had said those words and really meant them or they hadn’t felt real to him when he heard them, so the shock that he felt was new. 
You were far enough where Harry couldn’t see you. He hadn’t even moved an inch, and he knew that later on, he was going to be very disappointed in himself for not chasing you down and telling you that he loved you too. But for now, he needed to take it all in and hope that when he did tell you, it wouldn’t be too late. 
Taking a deep breath, you walked inside to your apartment, sniffling as you went straight to the bathroom to take a long and hot shower. Before you left your place to go to the bar, you had been contemplating your appearance because you wanted to look good. Nerves were all over your body as you were getting ready, and you sulked at how the events had completely turned tonight around. 
When you were out of the shower and changed, ready to get into bed despite the night only being nine in the evening, your pager beeped. Picking it up off the bedside table, the message was sent from Harry, reading ‘143.’ You raised your brows, reading it again and reading it once more. Your heart was pounding, studying the numbers to make sure you read them right. The simple code for ‘I love you’ was printed on your pager and you wanted to scream. 
Before you could actually scream, there was a knock on your door. You walked quickly, opening it as Harry was standing behind it, holding his pager out as he smiled softly at you. You had just finished crying in the shower, so your eyes were red and a tad bit swollen, but you were close to crying again because of how overwhelmed you felt. 
“Did you mean it?” You asked hesitantly, holding your pager up. 
“Of course I do. Did you mean it?” He retaliated back, wondering if you meant your three words as well. 
“Of course I mean it, Harry. Why wouldn’t I?” You asked, wiping the tear that had slipped down your face. 
“Because I love you. I love you so fuckin’ much that it hurts,” he claimed in one breath, feeling the tension and weight that he held in his shoulders release. “You’re everything to me, and you make my world less frightening. I just see your pretty smile and my day completely turns into a great one. I don’t wanna waste a day not telling you that now, and it feels pretty damn good to say it.”
You slightly nodded until you remembered one of your concerns earlier. “What about Lizette?” 
“Lizette was someone I used to sleep with. I haven’t seen her nor slept with her in months—before I even met you, I promise. And I’m sorry for assuming that you didn’t know what it felt like for someone to leave and that you had to tell me under those circumstances. But just know, that I’m not gonna leave, unless you tell me to, that is.” Every bit of him was opening up and he wasn’t hiding away. He was being completely vulnerable and it had scared him a bit, but when his words came out, he felt himself get better. 
You looked at him through your glassy eyes, vision blurred for a moment until you adjusted them and clearly saw the gorgeous man in front of you. His eyes were filled with tears as well, and you thought, how could someone still look so pretty while they cried? But that was Harry for you; someone who was genuinely beautiful no matter what. Someone who had a heart of gold and a flashing smile that made your heart swoon and knees weak. 
You simply reached your hand out and Harry walked towards you, into your apartment as he came close to your face as your bodies were pressed up against one another. The back of his fingertips gently brushed the side of your face, admiring the beauty that stood before him as he opened his heart up completely, not wanting to go another day without saying those three words back to you. 
The corners of your lips turned up and your tears were replaced by happy ones. You had walked away from Harry after you said I love you because he was looking at you like he had seen a ghost, not a friendly one, but more of a scary one. So, hearing those words were just music to your ears. 
“You mean that? That you love me?” You wanted to hear it again and again and again. 
“Ever word. I love you, angel,” he repeated, adding your nickname. He pressed his forehead against yours, inches away from your lips. 
“Never stop calling me that,” you instructed him, smiling. The first time he had said it, you came to the conclusion that you absolutely loved hearing that name come out of his mouth, especially if it was specifically for you. 
“Only if you never stop telling me that you love me,” he slightly smirked, dimples poking out. He was so immensely happy that his heart could burst just because of the love that he felt for you. 
You giggled. “I love you, baby-” 
“I, uh, wait. Do you mind…not calling me that?” He hesitated, and you raised your brows confused. “Someone else called me that, and I just don’t like hearing it. Never have since it came out of her mouth,” he explained shyly. 
A sudden realization came to your face as you realized that Lizette probably called him that. “Okay. I won’t call you that, ever…darling.” Harry’s lips began to slowly turn up, already liking that name so much better than the other one. He hugged you; and you smiled, closing and opening your eyes to make sure you weren’t dreaming. Your arms snaked around Harry’s waist as he cradled your delicate face in his hands. 
“Never stop calling me that,” he repeated your words as you two smiled and laughed until your jaws started hurting. 
His eyes flickered down to your lips and back up to your eyes. You pursed your lips, blushing as you watched his eyes glance back up and down. You rubbed the tip of your nose against his, pulling him closer; hearts beating in sync as butterflies filled your stomach. 
He brushed his lips against yours before fully connecting them, feeling every spark and shiver that traveled down his spine. You smiled into the kiss as the softness of his lips moved and molded against yours, feeling completely in bliss. The way his lips slotted perfectly with yours made you saturated and dizzy off of his love and touch. Butterflies were still in your stomach, but they were calm like they had been fluttering around for this moment, his touch, in order to relax. 
Pulling back, he smiled down at you, eyes love-struck, before giving you another kiss, and pulling away and kissing you again once more. 
“Kissing you is my new favorite thing,” he stated, drunk off kisses. You breathed out a giggled, wrapping your arms around his neck as you breathed in his scent. You felt his breath against your neck, feeling completely happy and content in each other’s arms. 
There was no fear in the air; just the two of you with open hearts and arms, welcoming in the new and profound feeling that you both took in, knowing that it’s going to change everything for the better. 
You pulled him inside and Harry kicked the door closed with his foot. His arms were holding you tight as you walked back to your bedroom. Opening your mouth slightly, Harry took the chance to meet your tongue with his, swiveling and tasting each other causing a shiver to run down your spine. 
You pulled back when Harry laid down on the bed, taking in the gushy feeling you had as you smiled. 
“Want you,” you simply stated. 
“You have me, angel.” 
“I know, but I want you. Need you,” your eyes pleaded for his touch, to feel him inside of you, for him to make you feel good. You desperately craved for his hands on all of you, his mouth kissing every inch of your skin, and his love passionately pouring out of his veins. 
Harry nodded, smiling. “Need you too. Need you forever,” he said, connecting your lips again as he hovered over you. 
You two kissed for a while, giggling against each other’s lips and having his weight on top of you as your hands roamed his back. You bucked your hips into his, feeling the hard-on that was growing in his pants, which made Harry grind into your center, moaning softly into your mouth. 
“Please do something,” you said, and he nodded, getting off of you before taking his jacket and shirt off swiftly. His tattoos were showcased in front of you and all you wanted to do was kiss every single one of them. “You’re beautiful, Harry,” you complimented, and he blushed, a soft ‘thank you’ came out of his mouth. Next was his pants, and before he was able to take his briefs off, you stopped him, telling him that you wanted to do it. 
You got off the bed, switching positions with him as you were now standing up as Harry laid down on the bed. You smiled, eyes glancing all around his body. He suddenly felt shy and intimidated under your stare, but he knew he had no reason to be because you were simply admiring him. This time around when it came to physically be vulnerable with someone, he knew he didn’t have to worry anymore when it came to you. 
You took off your lilac nightgown, exposing your body to Harry’s eyes. Your nipples had hardened due to the exposure to the cold. His eyes glimmered as he gazed at your stunning and beautiful body. Every curve and inch was something he tried to remember, and he was quite speechless at the sight. He reached out, gently grabbing your hips as he roamed his hands up your body and to your breasts, grabbing both in each of his hands. 
He looked up at you and you smiled down at him as he placed his mouth on your left pebbled nipple, sucking and licking it as his hand fondled with the other. You laced your fingers through his hair, scratching his scalp as he did so, switching over to your right nipple. 
Harry pulled away, looking at you. “You’re an actual angel. You’re so beautiful.” 
“Harry…” you blushed. 
“You are, angel. So beautiful. Can’t believe I get to see you like this.” He kissed the valley of your breasts and down your stomach before getting up and pushing you down onto the bed with ease. He settled in between your legs, arms hooked under your thighs. 
Continuing kissing down your stomach, he reached the hem of your underwear, looking up at you before asking, “Can I take these off? Wanna make you feel good—the same way you always make me feel good.” 
“Please. Take them off. Wanna feel your mouth on me,” you pleaded as your arousal heightened. You wrapped your legs around his back, eagerly pulling his head towards your center, making Harry let out a chuckle. 
“Easy, angel. Not going anywhere.” Harry kissed your stomach once more before pulling off your beige underwear. You were glistening below him; you made a complete mess in your panties. “Fuck, you’re so wet. This all for me?” 
“Mhm. All for you, Harry, please,” you whispered impatiently. Harry’s dirty talk had only increased your need for him as it was quite surprising to see this side of him since he was more on the shy and reserved side outside, but nonetheless, you loved both sides—you loved him. 
Harry leaned down, pressing multiple kisses to your inner thighs, nibbling on the skin gently. You bucked your hips as he trailed his kisses towards your pussy that was eagerly waiting to be touched and licked. When he got there, he pressed a kiss to your clit before kitten-licking your sensitive button, making you softly moan. 
His tongue licked into the entrance of your pussy, gathering your arousal on the tip of his tongue to lubricate your clit even more. 
“Fuck,” you groaned as your hands found his curly locks, tugging at them gently. 
“You could do that harder, I don’t mind it,” Harry told you before going back to eating you out. You pulled harder and Harry deeply groaned against you, sending vibrations up your body. 
His hands wandered around your body, feeling the softness of your skin against his hands. Your skin had formed goosebumps due to his touch, and Harry smoothed out your skin so you were warm. He sucked on your clit quite harshly, earning a moan of his name from your lips as he grabbed both of your tits in his hands, squeezing them. 
You placed your hands on top of his, squeezing them with him, and Harry almost came at the sight of that. There you were, moaning his name out, getting your pussy eaten, and squeezing your tits on top of his hands. A sight he truly was lucky enough to see. 
Harry pulled one hand away to rub your clit as he tongued around your wet hole before tongue fucking you. He rubbed your clit at a moderate speed, enough for you to thrust your hips off the bed. Harry pulled his other hand that was still on one of your breasts away to pin your hips down onto the bed. 
“Stay still for me, angel,” he instructed, voice deep that made you even wetter. “You taste so good. Could eat you out all day.” 
“Harry…” you trailed, whining desperately for your release. “W-Wanna…cum…need to.” Your sentences were broken and Harry thought that was a good sign, knowing that he was doing so well you couldn’t form a proper sentence. 
“Tell me what you need. Let me know, so I can get you there.” 
“F-Fingers,” you told him, and he immediately brought his fingers to your clit, rubbing it before inserting two fingers inside your pussy. He thrust slowly, curling his fingers up to feel your walls.
He felt you pulsing around him as your legs were wrapped tightly around his back as you screamed his name over and over again. 
“C’mon, love. Give me one,” he encouraged, thrusting his fingers a bit faster. 
Once he hit the spot over and over again, you saw stars. Your vision had gone white for a few seconds, and you felt dizzy. The pleasure that ran through your body was overwhelming in the best way possible and you choked out a few sobs. It had hit you like a brick that you saw coming, but you were still surprised and shocked by the impact. 
Your hands held Harry’s hair tight that he thought for a moment that you might actually rip it off. Harry rubbed your pussy as you came down from your high, licking your orgasm that was seeping through your cunt, taking every drop of it. He looked up to see your head thrown back, chest heaving, and a vein that was bulging against your skin. He kissed your thighs while his other hand trailed across your body. 
When you finally were able to catch your breath, Harry kissed up your body, leaving the softest and loving kisses to your skin as you were quite sensitive. You grabbed his face, bringing his lips to yours as you immediately stuck your tongue in his mouth, swirling it with his to taste yourself on him—a mixture of his taste and your orgasm all on his tongue had made you wetter. 
Harry was grinding himself against your leg, trying to relieve some pressure. 
“Want you,” you told him once he pulled away, looking at him intently. 
“You sure?” 
“Absolutely. Please? Only if you want to-”
“I definitely want to. Just wanna make sure you were sure,” he breathed out a chuckle. 
“Course I want to.” There was a bit of silence between you two as you were simply just admiring him as he hovered over you. “Are you gonna fuck me, Harry?” You broke the silence, and Harry broke out of his trance, shyly giggling before getting off the bed. 
He peeled away his briefs, cock standing straight up from the slight painful restraint. He was big—girth and length wise, and you felt your mouth salivating from just looking at him. He got back on the bed, in between your legs as he sat on his knees. Spitting on his hand, he grabbed a hold of his dick, stroking it to relieve the pressure. The view was beautiful in every single way possible, and you didn’t dare to bat an eye because you didn’t want to miss one second of it. 
Wanting to take over for him, you reached forward, replacing his hand with yours as you slowly stroked his cock for him. Harry had a smug smile on his face but soon changed into a face of pure pleasure as your hand worked against him. His mouth was open as he let out a soft moan, looking down at your eyes as you were looking up, completely loving his reaction to your touch. 
“You’re so pretty, Harry,” you complimented as you continued to touch him. Your other hand reached forward to fondle with his balls, rolling them into your hand as Harry whimpered. “Love seeing you like this. Most gorgeous man I’ve seen in my life.” 
“Please, angel, you’re being too nice…” he managed to groan out, hands gripping your thighs. 
“But it’s true. Look so pretty when you’re like this, but also when you’re hitting the heavy bags. When we go out to eat and you mindlessly drink your entire drink while waiting for the food. But I think you’ll look extra pretty than you already are if you cum.” Your words of declaration were getting him on the edge as you stroke him. The way your voice slightly changed as you looked up at him with the most innocent eyes made him thrust into your hand, gripping the flesh of your skin as he threw his head back. 
“You think so?” 
“Mhm. Gonna be so pretty when you cum all over my body, my tits. Can you do that? For me, can you do that? Please?” You were completely begging for it, but even with all the begging, he knew that you had all the control right now. 
Your feet rubbed his calves up and down, and it was the simplest touch, but it heightened Harry’s need to let go. 
“Wanna cum for you, yeah.” His breaths were heavy and harsh as your touch was focused on his tip, wrapping your delicate hands around the head where he was most sensitive. 
Harry’s moans stuttered as a series of profanities slipped from his lips, spilling onto your stomach and breasts. You smiled to yourself as you studied his face when he came undone; his mouth was open, occasionally biting his lip, and eyes shut closed as his head was thrown back—he was the most beautiful person you’d ever seen, and the fact that you got to see him like this was an honor. 
When he came down from his high, he slowly opened his eyes, meeting yours, staring right at him. You smirked, body covered in his orgasm, and he thought that was a picture worth taking. You were gorgeous covered in his pleasure that you caused, and you seemed to love it too since you made no effort to wipe it off. 
Boldly, he leaned down, dragging his tongue from your stomach to your tit, spending the most time on your breasts as he nibbled and licked your nipples, collecting his orgasm from your skin and held it on the tip of his tongue until he reached your mouth. You willingly opened your mouth as his tongue delved right in, feeding you his cum. 
You two passionately kissed, tasting him ever so sensually. You moaned into his mouth, thinking about how the sight of Harry licking his orgasm off of your body was the sexiest thing you’d ever seen. With your hips jerking up, you felt yourself getting wet again and in need to release once more. 
You whimpered, pulling away. “Please. Need you so bad.” Harry nodded, agreeing. 
“Condom?” He asked, and you immediately reached over to your bedside table, ripping open the condom before rolling it onto his dick that was still hard. 
Harry curled in his lips, watching you. You gave him a few extra strokes for good measure, earning a soft moan from his mouth. He took his length in his hand, running the tip up and down your slit, collecting your arousal and lubricating his cock. He gave you one last look and you nodded before he slowly pushed in, indulging in your wetness and softness. 
A moan came out of both of your mouths, feeling completely full and warm for one another with the stretch Harry had on you. He planted his elbows on both sides of you, holding himself up over you as he slowly began to thrust. 
“Fuck,” he groaned. “Feel so good for me.” He placed a kiss on your lips as he whispered. He found a rhythm as he started to move faster, rocking his hips against yours, making you moan. 
It was a feeling like no other, and it was the amount of love you two had for one another that made this experience much more special. Love was practically oozing out of both of your veins, filling the room to its maximum capacity as the both of you moaned out in pleasure. 
You wrapped your legs around his waist and your arms looped around his back, hugging him closer to you as if he couldn’t get closer. You whined into his ear, the sounds of your pleasure were music to his eyes, sending a shiver down his body, making him jerk. But that jolt had hit your g-spot, and you screamed out in ecstasy. 
“Right there. Keep doing that. Keep fucking me,” you managed to say. Harry maintained his pace, going deeper, and fucking you into oblivion as you kept crying and screaming his name out. 
Harry’s lips attached to your neck, nibbling and licking your skin, leaving a few decent size love bites that he was sure to admire when they’d fully formed. Your nails had raked down his back, leaving a burning but pleasurable sting down his skin, letting him know that he was doing an amazing job. 
“You like that?” He groaned into your ear, leaving chills rising onto your skin. 
“Mhm. Just like that. Don’t stop. I-I’m so close.” You threw your head back into the pillows, and Harry took the opportunity to attack your exposed neck with kisses again. Your hands found Harry’s hair, tugging at his curls as he kissed you. That encouraged him to fuck you harder and faster, repeatedly hitting your special spot. “O-Oh…” 
“Come on, angel love. Cum for me, please. Wanna see you make a mess around me,” he encouraged you. 
With a few more thrusts, you were done. You had fully and completely released around him as your orgasm hit you like a ton of bricks. Your vision had gone white for a few seconds, head dizzy, and your breaths were caught in your throat as your hips involuntarily jolted, meeting his thrusts that were fucking you through your high. 
Harry started to thrust sloppily, burying his face in your neck as he spilled into the condom. His hot breath was against your skin as he started to slow down, coming down from his orgasm. 
The room was silent as the only sounds present were the heavy breaths and the post-orgasmic whimpers coming from your mouth as you two held one another. Your nails gently scratched down his back, contrasting to the desperate and needy scratches that you had given him just a few minutes ago. 
Harry lifted his head up, meeting your eyes before connecting his lips against yours, tongue meeting first before your lips moved in sync so passionately and lovingly that you both unspokenly agreed to never taste another pair of lips again. 
“I love you so much,” Harry said, resting his chin on your chest. 
You smiled down at him, eyes gleaming as you looked at your love, your entire heart, the man that had stolen your breath and heart just by one look. 
“And I love you too.” 
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Waking up to the warmth of the body next to you was your favorite thing in the morning—had been for six months now. The sight next to you was something you wouldn’t get used to as you always found yourself feeling so lucky every single time you woke up next to him. 
But a pout formed onto your face when you saw that the space next to you was empty. The crinkled yellow sheets were left, missing a certain person that you had been excited to see this morning since you closed your eyes the night prior. 
Turning over to your bedside table, you grabbed your pager, seeing if you had any messages, and one specifically stood out to you, making you sleepily smile at your pager. 
“Goodmorning, angel,” Harry greeted as he stood in the doorway of your bedroom. He was wearing a gray sweatsuit, holding a white paper bag in one hand and a smoothie tray, that held two smoothies, in the other hand with a loving smile plastered on his face, making his dimples poke out. 
“Mm. Hi, darling.” Your arms reached forward, gesturing him to come to you, and he gladly did, situating himself on your body as you wrapped your arms around him. 
You two stayed like that for a moment, basking in the presence and gratitude of one another. It was nice until your stomach started growling, making Harry chuckle. 
“C’mon, gotta feed my girl before we head to the gym.” He got off of you, helping you up and out of the bed before helping you make the bed. He walked over to the kitchen before you went to the restroom, and when you walked out, Harry had your breakfast set on a plate. 
You two made light conversation, mostly enjoying the silence and tastiness of the food before you got ready to go to the gym. 
When you walked into Don’s Box, you were immediately greeted by a few of the members, giving you high fives, as well as saying hi to Harry. The entire gym had found out you two were together when they started to notice Harry coming into the gym almost every day and staying until the gym closed, so a few people had their speculations. Don was certain you two would get together from the very beginning, and he had told you that the only reason he was trying to act intimidating when Harry first walked in was that he sensed that something would happen, and he was right, something did happen. 
Benny was ecstatic; jokingly telling Harry that he could now spend time with his wife since you had taken all of Harry’s time now, which Benny earned a push from Harry towards the ropes of the ring. Benny’s wife was also pregnant and wanted Harry to be the godfather, which Harry immediately took on that responsibility and role. But that also meant since you and Harry were planning on staying together for the long run, you were becoming a godmother as well, which you were very excited about. 
You climbed up into the ring as Harry followed. You had a day off, and no one needed your attention other than Harry, so you helped him put on his gloves after you wrapped his hands in tape, and you put on your mitts, making sure they were tight before clapping the mitts together—Harry punched his gloves together, making sure they were comfortable. 
You raised your brows at him teasingly. “Ready, darling?” 
“Ready as always, my angel,” he responded, and you smirked. 
“Give me a good one. Give me 1.” 
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talk to me about your favorite moments, your thoughts and feelings about this pls! thank you for reading <3
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nekomamiiz · 3 years
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are you jealous?
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pairing: gojo x f!reader
wc: 2.1k
warnings: 18+, college au, mentions of shoko x reader, mentions of alcohol/weed, (not explicitly written that reader and gojo consume but to be safe) dubcon, friends/idiots to lovers, gojo is a simp for reader, bathroom sex, mirror sex, teasing, possessive, slight dacryphilia, size kink if you squint, creampie, a very amused suguru, my drunk writing, half-assed editing
a/n: pls i was beyond fucking blitzed when i wrote this and i just hope y’all like it because it was the best i could do dealing with steamy flashbacks the entire time. feedback and rb’s are always appreciated. love you <3
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It’s always a good idea to, at least, pay attention to the advice your friends give you. Especially if you've known that friend for years and they’ve always had your best interests at heart. That friend is Shōko Ieiri and her only concern, her entire life, was to ensure that none of your interests include a certain big-mouthed, blue-eyed man.
She’s going to be so disappointed in you.
It’s Friday night when Shōko invites you over to her apartment to hang out with the two shitheads, Getō and Gojō. You always go over to Shokōs place for those kinds of nights. Where you guys can have fun, talk shit, and reminisce about the crazy times you shared in high school over cheap beer and take-out.
Gojō often falls victim to your and Ieiri’s lack of filter, berating your friend for being ‘the town bicycle’ or simply calling him a slut in the most loving way possible. A few months ago, however, all those friendly jabs came back to bite you in the ass.
“Hey, Suguru.” Gojō is leaning into his friend, looking your way and chuckling. “Remember the time the girls went to that summer camp?”
Thankfully, Shokō is quick to respond.
“You always bring that up! You know we were just messing around. We were counselors and had a whole room to ourselves, so we made the most out of it.” She shrugs off the experience as if it wasn’t the most hilarious and embarrassing moment of both of your lives.
“Okay, but the fact that you guys kept it from us until a few months ago kinda sucks.” He pouts.
“Did you expect a play-by-play?” you say, rolling your eyes, getting up to get a glass of water. You miss the comment Shokō makes about Gojō being a bad influence.
He loves to tease you about that particular summer, even away from the others. Always found it odd that you two grew closer after those weeks. Maybe he was jealous. The first person to go down on you was the woman sitting next to you and not him, of course.
You see Suguru sound asleep when you come back from the kitchen while Shokō is one sip of beer away from dreamland. Then, there’s Satoru, sending a look your way, knowing you’ve been dripping all night. What an asshole. He only gives you that look when you’re on your knees, with his cock in your mouth, watching you sneak small touches to your clit. He knows what he’s doing, and your friends are too stoned to figure out that the vibe has changed between the two of you.
“Well, kiddos, I’m off to bed. Feel free to finish the rest of the beer.”
With that, Ieiri retreats to her room, most likely landing face-first on the bed with a loud snore.
It certainly is difficult being around Gojō and not wanting to jump his bones the first moment you get, but your friends are here, and the thought of them finding out would be devastating.
“Hey, let’s get ready for bed. I’m exhausted.” He gets up from the couch and takes a moment to stretch, careful not to bump into Suguru.
You watch as he treks toward the bathroom, hearing the faucet turn on to brush his teeth. Maybe you’ll be able to sleep tonight, so you follow him, mirroring his actions.
He just stares at you when he’s finished. Studying every one of your features, remembering what it was like when he painted your pretty face in his cum a few weeks ago. That salacious grin is permanently etched on his face in your presence.
“Kinda funny how you treat me like trash around everyone, particularly, Ieiri.” his body is pressing close to yours now, fingers toying with the straps of your top, and you can feel his warm breath on the tops of your ear.
“You’re an ass. You know that right?” both your eyes meet in the reflection.
He can see that irritated twitch of your lip, but the look in your eyes gives so much away—more than you care to admit.
“Hm, you say that like I don’t have you creaming on my cock almost every night.”
“You’re so jealous of something that happened years ago, aren’t you?” you bite back.
He was shocked that you would call him jealous to his face. He was. He would never tell you that, though.
“Not really.” he shrugs off your question.
His hands are now at your waist, riding the fabric of your shirt up your torso a bit. You can barely register that you’re still in Shokō’s house; his wandering hands always manage to make your mind go completely blank. Then he’s digging his needy fingers into your hips and thighs, sneaking his hand into the front of your shorts. He rubs your clit through your panties, hooking the fabric with a single finger and teasing you with it.
“Satoru, we can’t fuck here.” You try to sound as convincing as possible while his fingers are spreading your folds to lightly massage your clit.
He’s tracing the slick at your entrance, teasing your small hole with the pads of his fingers. He knows you’ll never say no to him; you just don’t want your dear friends to find out.
“You sure about that? You’re so wet for me right now.”
Finally, he inserts a finger inside, stroking your inner walls, and feeling you suck him in. You can only hold onto the sink when he presses his body against yours, rutting his hips against the meat of your ass. He’s so fucking hard, and you can’t deny that you want him badly.
“Say you don’t want me to fuck you.” he’s pressing his lips to the back of your neck, softly nipping at your skin. He has you stretched open on two of his thick fingers already, and he can see your resolve crumbling fast. “C’mon, you can do it.”
“I—fuck,” is all you huff out as Gojō strokes over a spot that has you seeing stars. “We have to be so fucking quiet.”
You can see the laugh he’s holding back when you lock eyes in the mirror.
Gojō is quick to roll your shorts down to your thighs, pressing you against the counter, then proceeds to work on his jeans. “Yeah, good luck with that, sweetie.”
With one hand on your hip and one stroking his cock, he starts to tease your entrance with the tip. He likes his dick nice and wet before getting inside, and he knows you hate that he takes his time. You want to cum so badly right now, though, you push back onto his thick shaft. He quickly slips past the tight give of your pussy and relishes in the soft, wet feeling for a moment.
“Fuck—you’re so fuckin’ greedy. You know that right?” he pulls back a bit, letting half of his heavy cock rest inside you.
He bunches your shirt up around your tits, starting to squeeze and play with your nipples. Feeling them bounce in his hand every time his balls collided with your sensitive clit. He can’t help but look down at the jiggle of your ass, too. Growing overwhelmed with the need to fuck you harder and faster.
Only, you just remembered you didn’t close the bathroom door all the way.
“Shit—oh shit—the door. Satoru, you gotta slow down, I—fuck!”
You throw your head on his chest, arching just a bit more, fucking him back. The wet squelch between your thighs, now getting increasingly louder the longer you spend in this position, and Satoru loves it. He loves when you squeeze your thighs together, almost suffocating his cock, and he can see how much you’re struggling to keep your noises down.
“So fuckin’ tight.” he’s panting out in short breaths by your ear again, watching his cock disappear into the warmth of your pussy.
He notices your lack of response and looks at your face in the reflection. Brows knitted together while your eyes remain fixed to the ceiling. He can feel your orgasm approaching fast, evident in how you bite your lip to keep your noises in.
“Gonna cum soon, huh, baby? I can feel you dripping down my balls.”
He wants to spank you so badly. Feel the stinging heat of your skin against him and those cute little mewls you let out when he does so. He wants to see you squirm and shake because of it. For now, he takes one cheek in his hand, entirely in control of the speed and depth of his thrusts.
“Y-yeah, I’m so close!”
You swing one arm back to grab hold of him but can only graze his lower abdomen. You can feel him twitch inside you when your nails tickle his tummy, and he chuckles a bit, making you giggle in return.
“Stop messing around. We’re supposed to be quiet.” he’s trying his best to keep his groans to a minimum, but your greedy little pussy sucks him in so tight it drives him mad.
Gojō is starting to thrust inside you with slow, swift rolls of his hips. Letting the tip of his cock brush against your g-spot just enough to prolong your orgasm and make you whimper his name just the way he likes. But your twitchy little fingers are starting to get him so riled up, and he wants to take his time with you right now.
He quickly grabs your wrist and searches for the other, holding them in one hand, pinning them behind you. You arch your back to get in a more comfortable position; you swear you feel him in your stomach from this angle. He stills inside, taking a moment to appreciate the shape of your body in the mirror, and he can’t help but smile when you cry out softly.
“Please move, baby. I’m gonna cum.”
You feel his other arm wrap around your chest, hand cupping your jaw, forcing you to arch your back more. You can tell he wants nothing more than to pound you until you’re a dumb mess. But right now, the way your eyes are watering from holding back is enough to feed that sadistic part of him.
“Mm fuck—your pussy always feels so good. Squeezing me so tight!” he coos in your ear.
“Satoru, I don’t think I—oh fuck—can keep it down. You’re right at that spot.” you try to warn him because you know you’ll scream out his name.
He doesn’t listen.
“You mean this one?” he asks you sweetly before fucking into you a little rougher at that same angle. “Say you love my cock, and I’ll go a bit easier on you.”
You’re starting to whimper from overstimulation, and you know he feels your walls fluttering around him. Trying your hardest to hold it, but for the sake of your best friends, you give into him.
“Fuck, I love your cock! Only you can make me cum like this, so please, please let me cum!” you beg so nicely, looking into his eyes and swiveling your hips against him.
He would never deny you of any pleasure.
“That’s right, baby—ngh shit—your pretty pussy is all mine.” he finishes with a whine that you would have never heard if not for how close he is.
You feel his cock swell inside, his hot cum filling your cunt. At the same time, your orgasm rips through you, making you still in blinding pleasure. If Gojō weren’t fast enough to cover your mouth, you definitely would have woken up the others. And he keeps rutting into you, a small ‘pap pap pap’ sound still echoes in the tiny bathroom from your juices running down his balls and both your thighs.
The hand that was once covering your mouth is now around your chest again, holding you up. He lets go of your wrists, and you rest your weight against the counter, taking a second to look at Gojō’s sweaty face. He smiles down at you and kisses the top of your head before pulling out of you, sucking in a breath because you’re still clenching so hard around him. He pinches your ass before he cleans you up, praising you for being so good.
That blissful moment only lasted so long, though. The second the two of you walked out of the bathroom, you were met with a smirking Suguru, joint pressed to his lips as he shakes his head side to side.
“I’m not gonna tell Shokō, but next time maybe close the door all the way.” he’s holding back his laughter as Gojō plops on the seat next to him, laughing loudly about this entire exchange.
He always gets you in trouble with his big mouth because not even two minutes later, you hear a door open followed by feet padding down the hallway.
“What are you idiots still doing up?”
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wooahaes · 2 years
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hi hello daisy !! omg i would love an emoji !! if it's not taken, i would like the 🍠 emoji :D
but pls i had no idea i showed up on ur blog that much aagh i'm a tiny bit embarrassed now im ngl,, but wait woah was the whole part abt how the cats weaseled around the pcs completely based off of ur cats then ? and aw ur cats' names r so cute !! mine r named matcha n sesame, which r for the most part bc they're both grey cats,, but matcha was just an on the spot name that matched :D tbh if we went w our original plan of naming them satsuki/shizuku (ghibli) or kinako/kurumi it'd b easier to explain :0
and ofc !! i love reblogging fics w a ton of tags bc i always have an overload of thoughts that i'd feel a bit odd talking abt w my friends && as someone who also writes on tumblr,, i always get so giddy whenever i see long rbs w tags in my notifs so i def want to give that feeling to others whenever i can :)
its all yours <3
omg idk if its you showing up on my blog often but i do go !!! whenever i see ur name in my notifs and whenever i talk w ppl often via asks/responses to tags i like to try and make em a tag <3
a little bit, yeah! only one of my cats actually went for any treats (because she was the only i had to bribe lol) but bebe took treats off of seungkwan's card and jun's before she immediately left. meanwhile i know for a Fact one of my other cats would have probs gone for two treats and then immediately tried to eat more if i didn't stop her. she treats them like they should be a meal and im like oh honey no... treats are treats not an entire meal...
so pretty much: yes, kinda accurate to my cats! i ended up spinning a wheel for the PCs they'd choose and didnt expect to get vernon on my second go-round and spun again (it went jeonghan -> vernon -> joshua in terms of order spun) and went. wait i can work w this.
but omg matcha and sesame are such cute names!! thank u for sharing them w me pls tell them i love them <3
aya ur so sweet for that omg !! i love reading ur thoughts so so so much <3 one day i will go through ur masterlist. pls feel free to bite me if i dont
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truncatedgrip · 3 years
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new info post let's gooooo~
sup, you can call me Byrd, TG, Grip, or any of the other names on my pronouns page o/
im autistic, i have adhd, im nonbinary, im ace, im an adult, im dutch, and im white
read my description for a good time and be wowed by the fact that i have hit the character limit of tumblr descriptions! my blog title is not a lie, the bee movie script really is just part of it all. i actually got cut off partway thru modern major general, sadge
i tend to reblog things without tagging them, pls hmu if you need something tagged for your blocklist and i will try my best to heed that o7 (and if i forget to, just remind me)
i'll also sometimes reblog sex jokes and innuendos and the like, and i tag them with nfsk, nfst, nsfw-ish, implied nsfw, or nsfw depending on the level. i'm not too good at judging these things tho, bc to me sex is one big joke i barely understand, so just hmu with an ask or dm if i missed or mislabelled something (^^ゞ
if i do something to make you uncomfortable, please also let me know! i guarantee it was out of ignorance, not malice. me being white, i'm still unlearning racism every day, so if you see me rb something racist that especially is important for me to know. same goes for anything bigoted or ableist, mostly bc i'm not always fully aware of the implications of what i rb. i dont support terf bullshit and the like, so if i rb something along those lines i really appreciate anyone letting me know ♡
aaaand that's it! feel free to dm me or send an ask (tho be warned i dont check my ask inbox nearly as often as i should) for whatever reason, even just to say hi :>
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isitstraightvodka · 4 years
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hello! been a while since i wrote abt ben so here's a lil piece i came up w at 1am last night 😅 written on my phone so i apologise for any errors! pls lmk what u think, rbs or feedback of any kind will be appreciated! enjoy fellow thots xx
his hand found its way to the nape of your neck, curling his fingers around it to pull you in closer. the swipe of his tongue over yours set your brain on fire, igniting embers all the way down to your fingertips and toes, a warmth rushing to the base of your stomach. your hand balled into a fist, tugging on his locks; his weak spot, the softest moan graced your ears as your lips separated from ben's for only a second before going right in again.
your other hand, which had been resting on his knee, began to move over his jeans to stroke where his thigh met his pelvis. a low "fuck" kissed your mouth, a sweet groan of delight from him made your hand tighten, it gave you pleasure knowing you could make ben feel like this, sound like this, it made you grin, one he returned before capturing your lips again. his arm looped around your waist, nose pressed into your cheek, "come here, baby", your hands trembling now as he pulled you onto his lap, your legs wrapped around his thighs.
it was a reflex to start grinding, you couldn't help it, something snapped in you when you were on him like this and every time, ben had no fucking problem with it; in fact, he encouraged it.
"grind on me, baby, that's it, good girl.", his mouth wet against yours, his hands on the curve of your ass. you could feel him getting hard underneath you, the fabric of his jeans tighter around him, one glance in his eyes and you knew it was already a struggle for him. he was bursting to be pulled out but you loved to tease him, a look of glee spread across your face as you rolled your hips slower. his green orbs flashed with arousal, head tilted back ever so slightly.
"you know exactly what that does to me."
"why do you think i do it?", you giggled, your hand slipping over his flushed forehead, lips pressed against his temple. little mewls left your mouth as his fingers moved to hold your ass, pulling you foward, guiding you, teasing you right back. your sounds made him chuckle into your neck, his breath hot and heavy.
"you like how hard i get, don't you, baby? you can feel me, yeah?"
the mixture of his touch on you and feeling him beneath him left you speechless, you knew he didn't need answers to his questions, this was how he liked to get you going and just like that, it worked. you truly were wrapped around his finger.
ben took hold of your chin and brought your lips back to his, it was no secret he was a fantastic kisser, you two didn't always need to have sex; this was more than satisfying. his tongue, teeth and mouth were something out of this world, gnashing, smacking, moving with your own, as he got harder, you got wetter.
you let your arms drape over his shoulders as he worked against you, and you allowed it, you completely gave into him. teeth bit into your lower lip, nipping where he knew it would drive you insane from the inside out. ben kept you still and flush against his chest, heaving with each movement he made. sweat beaded on your neck and cheeks, hair sticking to your skin but you did not give a fuck, the air thick from the sexual delight between you both. you pushed your fingers through your hair, keeping it away and off your face, struggling to catch your breath; ben didn't give you a chance to.
a loud cry fell from your lips when he suddenly jerked his hips up, pressing his bulge against your clothed core. you could barely take it anymore and neither could he, his hands fell upon yours as you tugged at his belt, whimpering into his mouth.
"ben, get your fucking pants off."
he didn't need telling twice. his fingers replaced yours, unlocking his belt and chucking it on the floor, landing with a 'clink'. button open, zipper down and you got off his lap to help him push his jeans down past his knees. you chewed on your lip when your eyes landed on the shape of him in his boxers, the sight made you shiver, cheeks red and fingers shaking as you slipped them into the waistband. your knees hit the floor, a shuddering whine falling past your mouth.
ben was thick, and throbbing, and hot, hard as a rock. he sat up a bit and traced your top lip with his thumb, a gesture like this made you feel like you were all his, blinking up at him.
"so beautiful."
he spread his legs and you nestled yourself closer, your fingers closing around the base of his shaft. he hissed at the contact of your hand, teeth gritted, you smiled and puckered your lips, only an inch away from the tip. his hand tucked itself in your hair, desperately needing you and your tongue, eyes on you as you took him in your mouth.
your lips slid over his head and down taking the first two inches of his cock, warm and hard against your tongue. the delicious "fuck" that left his mouth made you hum in joy, the vibrations making his heart beat faster.
"look so pretty with my cock in your mouth, angel."
you flicked your eyes up at ben, head thrown back, his free hand buried in his own blonde locks, veins in his neck popping out; you had a mind to suck right there too. with your mouth locked around the tip, pink like the shade of his lips, you began moving your hand from the base up to where you sucked him, pleasuring the few other inches of his cock. ben's moans were a thing from heaven, the growls, the groans, the rusty "fuck"s and "shit"s and "god's, the words of encouragement and praise, it made going down on him that much more exciting.
a string of saliva connected your mouth to his cock as you let go for a couple of seconds to catch your breath, before taking him deeper this time, coating his length with your spit; the messier and wetter it was, the better. his tip touched the back of your throat and ben lost his mind, his fingers gripping your hair so hard that your scalp burned.
"fuck, that feels so good...god your mouth..."
choking noises were nothing but amazing for him to hear, the sound of you, his girl, gagging in his cock, made his thighs shake and his breath even heavier. he watched you pump him with your mouth, up and down, up and down, sloppy and uncoordinated; it never took him long to get to the edge with the talents of your lips and tongue.
"gonna cum, baby, gonna cum in your mouth..."
you sucked harder, faster, louder, focusing on the first one or two inches, your hand back to work on the rest of him. little muffled words, "cum for me, ben, please pretty please, cum in my mouth, i want your cum" was what got him there, hot thick ribbons filled your mouth, tears stinging your eyes, relishing the taste of the man you loved. he leant all the way back on the couch as you let his cock go with a small 'pop', swallowing the load he graced you with. your fingers swiped over your mouth in an effort to clean yourself up but ben took over for you, his hand returning to your lips, wiping excess cum from the corners before slipping his index finger into your mouth. another part of him to suck.
"that's my girl, sucked me off so well."
you smiled innocently as he took your face in his rough yet soft hands and crushed his lips against yours. you moaned into the kiss, as did he, tongue sliding in to connect with yours, clashing as he aimed to taste himself, "even better on your tongue, baby."
ben pulled you back up into his lap without breaking the kiss, one hand on your back and the other pushing your skirt up so it sat far above your hips. now it was just your panties that stood between his cock and your heat. it was you who ended the kiss by whining, his girth pressed against you, your mouth now on his neck, sucking on those hot pulsating veins.
"want to fuck you, angel. right here, right fucking now."
ben's tone was desperate and deep, he knew how wet sucking him off made you, he could feel it, so close, it was just the fabric that closed the distance between the two of you. you wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him closer, squeezing his thighs with yours, lips resting on the shell of his ear.
"fuck me, please, baby, fuck me with your cock."
with a single growl, ben pulled your panties to the side, keeping them there with his fingers, his tip now lined up with your core, practically aching to have him inside you, just as bad as he wanted to feel you around him. your face in his neck, his nose pressed to your jaw, he smirked, "you're mine.", and slowly entered you.
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bruhh we can address asian anti-blackness when Black people stop attacking Asian elders for their race. ive been bullied by more Black people for my race than any whites. i fully support BLM, but it isnt fair that people care more about Black lives than Asian ones. people see it as perfectly ok to treat Asians as lesser but everyone in the world blows up if something may even vaguely have anti-Black connections. i was literally a victim of police brutality but i constantly get spoken over by random Black ppl w no experiencw with cops who think they have more right to be scared of cops than an Asian whos been attacked by cops. the Black community gives 0 shit about Asian people and actively target us so why would we care to address Asian anti-Blackness?
hoo boy. hoo boy. okay. no.
let me start off by saying that i’m gonna be answering this seriously, but not for u, anon. i know better than to think that ur gonna change ur mind bc of what i say. i hope, sincerely, that u listen and take in the things i’m gonna say to u, and honestly evaluate ur opinions, but i don’t hold out hope. i’ve had this argument dozens of times and i’m bound to have it dozens more. it’s fine. i’m answering this seriously for the sake of everyone else in the community who may need this, so pls feel free to rb, everyone else. 
let’s get into it. 
anon, idk what world u live in where Black ppl suddenly pose significantly more danger to our community than white ppl, or where antiblackness is suddenly a big deal to everyone. u need to take a step outside of ur own experience and perceptions and realize that in the broader world, antiblackness (and racism overall) is largely ignored on a systemic basis, and when it is addressed, it’s not done in any meaningful way. sure, amazon and microsoft and google and even government officials have all made pretty and trendy statements abt blm, but pigs w repeated instances of antiblack violence and even murder still get off scot-free, and are in fact passed around the system so that they can keep inflicting violence on Black communities. hypervisibility is not justice. a problem being seen does not equal a problem being solved. and it took LITERALLY DECADES for the problem to even be seen. so on a systemic level, ur argument holds no water in the real world. 
as for ur personal experiences - um, this is me speaking from mine when i say this is nonsense. u, and the rest of the asian community for that matter, have created a narrative wherein any harm done to u by any Black person automatically represents the view of the entire community. i’ve been bullied by Black ppl for my race too, like, that’s a relatively common experience. but i also know that the xenophobia and sinophobia that they subjected me to were not created by their community, i know that the roots of this harm is in white supremacy, and that addressing that harm ALWAYS has to go back to the roots. Black ppl parroting white supremacist talking points is no different than asian ppl parroting white supremacist talking points, but u wanna make out like the entire Black community is doing this when i KNOW u wouldn’t wanna be assumed to be a fascist bc of like, andy ngo ? why are Black ppl afforded less complexity and less personhood and less diversity than u ? i’m not saying that the Black community shouldn’t hold ppl accountable w/in their own community, but i don’t have to bc that’s already happening. i personally have seen dozens of Black ppl using their platforms to hold their community members accountable and boost visibility for our community and the harm being done to us. 
furthermore, and this is the part that pissed me off the most: yes, even Black ppl who have had no interaction w the cops have a right to be scared and speak abt the experience of seeing their community members brutalized ???? what the fuck ??????? i’m sorry that u have been a victim of police brutality, i truly am, but this is some deeply antiblack shit. we know police brutality/the PIC to primarily affect, and more importantly, to be primarily LETHAL to Black, indigenous, and latinx communities. that doesn’t mean it doesn’t affect asians at all, i can speak from experience that myself and my family have been affected by this, but my personal experience does not necessarily represent a significant, systemic issue. the fact of the matter is that even Black ppl who have thus far been spared the direct danger of interacting w the police are at significantly greater risk of being killed and brutalized in any interaction they might have w the police than either u or me. this isn’t rocket science. 
i don’t expect u to believe me or listen to me, anon. it’s clear to me that ur antiblackness runs deep. i’ve spent plenty of time elaborating on the reasons why ur arguments are antiblack, but ultimately, y’all, the reason why we should address antiblackness in our community is bc Black ppl are ppl. they deserve our support unconditionally. and our solidarity makes both of our communities stronger. 
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about you (ten things part 3) Roger Taylor x Reader
a/n: holy shit this is long but whatever. third and last intallment of the ten things series. hope you liked it! leave a comment and pls rb or like!! it means so much more than you could imagine. thanks for reading!
imagine whichever roger you fancy.
fluff (so much so, it’s disgusting) w/ a hint of angst. reader cries a lot.
words: 2.6k+
editing: minimal
warnings: postpartum depression
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I hate it when you make me laugh
“oh my god, rog! stop!” you giggled as you ran down the hall of your now shared flat of over 7 months.
he was chasing you around the house trying to tickle your feet when he learned how ticklish you were.
“i swear to god, rog-” you started but you were now trapped in your bedroom. and he picked you up over his shoulder. your laughter had never been louder as he threw you on the bed and tickled your sides underneath his shirt you were wearing.
“s-s-stop,” you breathed through giggles and kicking at his arms.
when you finally rolled away you ran into the closet.
the tabloids always seemed to assume that you were materialistic and took up all of roger’s money, but that couldn’t be more untrue. most of your closet was made up of his fur coats and funky shirts. you quickly threw on a luxurious fur coat he had recently worn to one of freddies parties and came out the door. he was lying on the bed. head in his hands looking at you as you exited.
“you look absolutely ravishing, my love,” he beamed while standing to meet you. 
“do i look like you, yet?” you giggled and started dancing slowly. 
“not even close,” he said, “better.”
you laughed and fell into his arms as he just held you tight. like someone would take you from him.
you just closed your eyes as the music from your living room floated into the room. living with roger meant you always listened to music. 
“dance with me, dear,” roger whispered in your ear while turning you to face him.
you looked up in his sparkling eyes and your lips turned up into a smile. “i’m always up for dancing with a handsome man.”
you started to sway as he took your right hand, his left wrapped around your waist. you held onto his neck as it seemed you couldn’t get close enough.
you leaned on his chest as the music played softly. his chest was bare and his skin was warm. you wanted so desperately to just be this way forever.
before you could think anymore he whispered something you didn’t hear. you quickly looked up.
“what?” you asked.
“Marry Me,” he said clearer, now.
your stomach dropped.
“well, don’t say nothing,” he laughed. 
tears filled your eyes as he got down on his knees and took your hands in his.
“i don’t have a ring yet or an extravagant location or even a song but i have a whole body’s worth of love for you. every piece of me loves every piece of you,” he breathed and you dropped to your knees, your eyes wet. he put his hands to your cheeks. “so, will you do me the complete honor, of becoming my wife?” he asked softly
“god, yes.”
Even worse when you make me cry
your wedding had been perfect so far. you’d only cried during the vows and when freddie gave his celebratory speech before getting too drunk to say anything. 
your dress was beautiful, but you thought your groom was more so.
he and his band seemed to clean up nicely, you thought.
you’d had a wonderful night celebrating and dancing as roger held you close like he had months before your shitty apartment building. but tonight you had a secret.
your hands had been in his all night long, never leaving for a second and that didn’t stop as he pulled you onto the floor for one last slow dance.
the others tried to join but he quickly said, “i just want to dance with my girl.” you smiled softly and obliged.
he held you close. “roger, i have something to tell you,” you whispered into his hair.
he looked at you expectantly, almost scared. 
“what’s wrong?” he asked.
“why would something be wrong?” you scoffed playfully.
he bit his lip. “ i don’t know. i wanted this night to be perfect for you. was the cake okay? you haven’t had a sip to drink tonight,” he started to list off things but you put your finger to his soft lips.
“shh, everything was perfect,” you said and continued to sway in his arms. “ i just have some news.”
he looked confused.
“so, you remember two weeks ago, when we didn’t have a condom in that hotel?” you started and he smiled. easily the best sex he’d ever had by a long way.
“yes, dear,” he started to say something else but you cut him off.
“i’m pregnant,” you said suddenly, not able to contain your excitement.
he abruptly stopped moving and stared at you. his eyes trailing to your stomach instinctively. 
“i-i’m-” he breathed. “i’m going to be a dad?” he asked.
you laughed a little. “you’re going to be the best dad,” you smiled. 
the reaction his showed was something you weren’t expecting. his hand flew to his mouth as tears ran down his cheeks.
“i’m gonna be a dad,” he kept whispering before falling to the floor. and you fell with him, wiping tears from his eyes. 
“what’s goin’ on, mate?” brian came running over, john, veronica, freddie and mary on his tail. 
his glossy eyes looked up as he shouted, “i’m going to be a dad!”
brian and john quickly pulled up roger and pulled him into a bear hug as freddie, veronica and mary hurried you into several hugs of your own.
congratulations were shared and your emotions quickly got the better ofyou as well. 
as you were leaving the festivities, rogers arm slung protectively around your waist he said, “fuck you for making me cry on my wedding day, love.” 
you laughed and slapped his arm before sitting in his lap, even though you could have sat anywhere in the limousine.
I hate the way you're not around,  And the fact that you didn't call
you sighed before sitting on the sofa in your living room while rubbing your growing belly.
“i wonder when your daddy’s gonna call,” you whispered, you heard that talking to your baby would help them develop more in the womb and even more so, you were lonely.
it was 3 in the morning and it’d been a couple days since you’d heard from roger. he was loving america and you didn’t ever want to feel like a burden so you hadn’t said anything about this before. about how he’d been gone for three months, most of your marriage and half of your pregnancy so far.
the phone rang in the kitchen and you stood as quickly as you could without help and breathed heavily. waddling to the kitchen you answered the phone as quick as possible.
“hello?” you asked expectantly.
“hello, darling,” the other end of the line spoke and your heart immediately sunk.
“hey, fred,” you rested your free hand on your belly. “how’s the tour?”
“oh, my dear, it’s wonderful, but i didn’t call to talk about us. i want to hear from you.”
“i’m okay, fred,” you lied.
“what’s wrong?” he asked, genuine worry in his voice.
“is roger with you?” you whispered, tears rolling down your face. you had to keep breathing to stop yourself from crying heaving sobs.
“oh, darling,” he started but you cut him off.
“nevermind, don’t worry about it. don’t tell him i said anything. i would talk longer but it’s nearly 4 out here,” you sniffled. “thanks for calling freddie.”
he started to say something more but you hung up the phone, went to your bedroom, lied alone and cried. 
* * * * *
“she sounds like hell,” freddie stormed onto the tour bus where his bandmates were dressing for an afterparty.
“who does, fred?” brian asked, not really paying attention. 
“his wife,” he pointed to roger. 
roger rolled his eyes and john sighed. 
“how would you know?” roger asked, defensive. he’d already had enough alcohol for all four of them to be tipsy.
“i called her, clearly you haven’t been doing that,” freddie walked straight up to roger, not an ounce of fear in his body.
“he’s right, rog,” john said quietly. “you haven’t called her.”
“mind your damn business, deaky,” roger shouted.
“hey! uncalled for!” brian stepped in.
“roger it’s four am in london and instead of sleeping she’s up waiting for you to call,” freddie said after taking a calming breath.
“what’s wrong, roger?” john asked desperatly, never raising his voice.
“i-i don’t know,” roger fell on the floor, his legs crossed and glass in hand. 
they sat in silence for about a minute before roger spoke again. 
“i shouldn’t have left her,” he sniffled, the boys now noticed his glossy blue eyes. 
“you feel bad for leaving her?” brian asked softly.
“call her,” john insisted.
“right now?” roger breathed.
“she was about to cry herself to sleep, call her,” freddie left the van and roger quickly ran after him, quarters jangling in his pocket.
* * * * *
the phone rang in your bedroom this time and your crying subsided. you pushed your self to sit and breathed heavily, running your fingers over rogers shirt you were wearing to smooth out the wrinkles on your belly.
you answered after it rang four times and quickly said, “fred, i’m sorry i hung up on you but i really don’t want to talk now. maybe tomorrow night?” you offered but the voice on the other end was that of your husbands.
“‘ello, love,” he murmered.
as much as you wanted to be happy to hear his voice and listen to what he was going to tell you about america you couldn’t find it in yourself to be so kind.
“that’s all i get after a week of missed calls? a ‘ello love?” you mocked his tone.
“baby, you sound tired,” he whispered. 
“it’s four in the morning here and your monster of a child won’t quit kicking me in the ribs. i’m tired,” you huffed.
“i wish i was there,” he cooed.
“don’t even go there, taylor,” your heart ached. 
you stayed on the line without talking for about a minute.
“i shouldn’t have left,” he finally said. “and i know it sounds like horseshit but i’m  so sorry, my love. if i could do anything to make it up to you i would.”
“there’s not another girl? a skinnier, prettier girl?” you whispered, suddenly shy.
“don’t even go there, taylor,” he teased. “i didn’t call because it makes me miss you. i’m a selfish arse and you deserve better.”
“i accept your apology,” you mused. 
“you are getting everything you’ve ever wanted you angel of a woman. i couldn’t dream a better wife than you,” he commented and you giggled. 
“stop it, roger,” you scoffed, playfully.
“two more weeks, my beautiful bride,” he grinned. “and tell that little monster inside you to be good to their mummy or else daddy’ll get ‘em.” 
you smiled, tears rolling down your face, but for the first time in a while, you were happy.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
“roger taylor i will kill you after this baby is born,” you waddled from the kitchen to your living room where he was sat reading a magazine.
his eyes lit up when he saw you, “what does that mean, love?” he asked before pulling you to sit on his lap.
you had hit full term. 
last week.
and, christ you didn’t think you could grow more without popping.
he placed his hands gently on your belly, a sensation you’d gotten used to since he’d gotten home. he’d always been handsy and apparently pregnancy made you “smokin’ hot,” in his own words.
“i can’t do this anymore, make me go into labor,” you cried dramatically before lying in the crook of his neck.
“oh, my love, you’re the strongest, bravest girl i know. this little thing can’t get the best of you,” he ran his fingertips along your arms. 
a couple of beeps came from the kitchen and you had to have roger push you up before smoothing out your dress and moving as fast as you could to the kitchen to finish making pasta for tonight.
“you’re an angel,” roger called after you and you rolled your eyes.
Not even close, 
“oh my god, i hate you,” you breathed as roger held your hand, horrified.
after three pushes your baby girl was sat on your bare chest as you held her close, her little screams filling the halls and yours and roger’s hearts. 
* * * * *
“and these are your uncles,” roger mused at your baby girl, holding her close as he showed her off to john, brian and freddie.
“can i?” freddie held out his arms and looked at you. 
“of course,” you smiled softly as roger handed her over gently to go stand by you.
“oh, my darling,” freddie grinned from ear to ear at the baby, “we are going to get in so much trouble together.” 
you laughed with brian and john as roger’s face only moved from a smile to a frown. 
“my turn,” deacy said, holding out his hands. roger was immediately more calm at the prospect of john holding his girl. 
veronica and john had already started their football team.
“she’s beautiful,” deacy smiled. “looks just like you, y/n.”
“and thank god for that,” roger laughed and hit his arm playfully.
brian was last and the most nervous. 
“just hold her head up, bri, you’ll be okay,” you assured him.
his fingers held her head up softly and she opned her big blue eyes to look at him.
“hey,” he laughed a little bit. “have you got a name yet?” he asked. 
“may mercury jane taylor,” roger whispered and all three men lit up. 
“she wouldn’t be here without you all, she’s named after the planets, months and uncles she’ll always be surronded by,” you said.
not even a little bit, 
“i don’t know what to do,” you sobbed above may’s crib and roger entered quickly pulling you into a hug.
“what’s wrong, dear?” he asked. 
“s-she won’t eat and my arms are s-so tired i can’t h-hold her up any-anymore,” you hiccuped into his neck.
“alright go getin bed, love, i’ll be there in a second,” he said and you looked up worried.
“but what about-?”
“don’t worry, i’ll be there in a second,” he said assuredly. 
you were too tired to put up a fight so you truged off to bed.
you just sat,feeling defeated and aabsolutely worn in every sense of the word.
roger came into the room a few moments later with may in his arms, she blinked several times, taking in her surrondings.
he sat down next you and put a pillow on your lap before setting the baby down atop it.
you sniffled as he said, “now i’ll hold her neck, you do whatever needs to be done.” 
you looked at him and smiled tiredly before kissing his cheek sweetly.
“you’re my hero,” you whispered.
“can your hero get a real kiss?” he asked and you obliged.
not even at all.
roger held you close after coming home from another tour. he said he would never let you go.
“i want to stay this way forever,” you rubbed his nose with yours.
“you’re better than anything i ever could’ve dreamed, my love,” he grinned, cocky.
“you’ve definitely used that line before,” you laughed.
“it never gets old,” he defended.
you sat in his arms warmly before whispering something unitelligble. 
“what?” you asked.
“i’m going to love you for the rest of my life,” he looked down at you and you ran your fingers through his blond locks.
“as am i.”
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lcncasters-blog · 7 years
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hey everyone!!! i’m d, i’m 23, and i use they/them pronouns. super hyped about being here so i’ma just get right into it
so kai is my fave character and kinda notoriously The Worst while also being The Best, so i’m warning y’all before we even go in that he’s actually so sloppy and wild pls proceed w/ caution. i’ve been playing him for over 4 years. that being said, he does have a fuck ton of information, so while the bullet points are going to be as condensed as i can possibly make them, you should really check out the appearance section (or you can just look at my sidebar which is wonderful artwork of kai one of my close friends did for me --- give them love on their art blog nialls ok SO talented) of his STATS FRAMEWORK and then if you really hate yourself i have a DEVELOPMENT TAG too with a bunch of headcanons (feel free to RB the rebloggable ones from me btw)
LOUIS TOMLINSON? no ⏤ KAI LANCASTER, the DEMIBOY is TWENTY-THREE and was born with a GOLD soul, and now has a GREY soul. i would describe HIM/THEM as EXUBERANT + BRAVE, yet CARELESS + IMPATIENT. KAI spends HIS/THEIR time PLAYING AT SMALL VENUES WITH HIS ALT ROCK BAND AND WORKING AS A NANNY and has lived in seattle for TWO YEARS.
TW FOR TERMINAL ILLNESS/CANCER, SUBSTANCE ABUSE MENTIONS, ABLEISM, & MENTIONS OF SELF-HARM/SUICIDE.
kai was born a gold soul into a pretty posh, old-money typea family in manchester, uk. like i’m talking on his mothers side they’re all doctors, lawyers, scholars, etc, etc, and on his dad’s side entrepeneurs. his parents themselves built a fairly large business from the ground up together that now goes by the name of lancaster industries. their current biggest venture and pretty much what they’ve built the whole of their fortune on is a chain of luxury hotels that you can find basically in every major city in the world.
he had 3 younger sisters who he essentially raised considering his parents were too busy to be around during their childhood. only two of them are still living, his youngest sister having passed a couple years ago at the age of 7 from leukemia.
his mother is literally the devil? kai always hated school/struggled in it for a multitude of reasons, not the least of which were his not diagnosed adhd and his dyslexia, which he never got the help he probably needed for. he’s always kinda just thought he was extremely stupid, and that idea was reinforced by the way his mother always used to tell him the very same thing. “think harder, kai. use your brain.” is a phrase that’s essentially been reinforced so many times in his head, he p much hears her voice ringing in his ears every time he gets so much as vaguely confused now.
that being said, despite how he struggled in school, he was always a very vibrant, kind, charismatic, and magnetic young person. he tends to draw people into him with his silly nature and upbeat attitude, and he’s kind of the Eternal Optimist, so he was fairly popular when he was attending. to say he has eccentricities would be putting it lightly, and he’s loud, never seeming to run out of things to say or fail to command the interest of the room.
anyway things with his mum only got worse in his relationship with her when he barely managed to complete his a levels by the skin of his teeth (and with an absurd amount of tutoring), and then refused to go to the university of her choosing. she p much wanted him to “get his shit together” so he could take over the family business someday, but i am not kidding when i say kai would wilt away and probably legit just die if he had to work in a place like that forever – and that’s assuming he even got through business school in the first place.
his father was always a push-over and sort of was absent/bent to her will when he was around, so he didn’t bother to defend kai when his mother decided 2 cut him off from everything and essentially ex-communicate him once she realised he was refusing 2 be manipulated and forced into shit anymore.
that was at age 18, and by that point he had plans to move out and travel to london with his best mate anyway, so he was basically like “peace out” and got the hell out of dodge. he still harbours a lot of guilt for abandoning his younger sisters, particularly so considering his youngest one fell ill so soon after his departure.
he lives, breathes, and sleeps piano. music as a whole is something he’s passionate about, having taken the time to develop his somewhat unorthodox voice, but the way his fingers fly over the ivories is a living art form more than it is anything. it’s how he communicates, how he speaks his deepest truth and just like? put those feelings out there into the world that he otherwise wouldn’t be able to articulate in the common vernacular.
so what he wants to do with his life is to just? talk to people? through his music? to play for them and the be in front of a crowd every night and to feel the energy of them, to command them with his presence and to exist with them in that way. he almost gets high off of it? he’s been playing small shows since age nineteen with his band, but since he moved to america he obvi hasn’t had them and has been on his own.
SORRY I’M REALLY TRYING TO CONDENSE THIS so ok basically he was in love w this girl from the time they were 14. they lost their virginity 2 each other, they were on & off all through HS, & then through to age 20 after he moved away and all that. she was v v ill and struggled with mental illness and kai tried his best 2 take care of her, but he was always in over his head despite his dedication to like making her feel OKAY. she needed help that he could not give 2 her, and they ended up breaking up & him letting her go at the end. she died soon after that, and it remains unclear 2 him whether or not it was a suicide. it was officially ruled as an “accident”, but he knows different and yeah i mean. essentially like.... the most “smudges” on his soul kinda came from his sitch w her bc he was always coming and leaving and dropping her and returning when she needed him and like. he TRIED but he just COULDN’T? anyways
after that he got involved with this boy who was a substance abuser, addicted to H to b exact, and for a while he thought that he was getting better and they were building off of each other, building a healthy life together. the fact he called kai his “new addiction” was probably never a good thing, but kai didn’t recognize that at the time. they got engaged eventually, and kai was 100% convinced that he was the actual love of his life after caro. of course, in the end, it wasn’t built to last, and when it went bad, it went really bad. kai eventually felt like there was a chasm several miles deep between them, and he had no hope of getting to the other side again. he broke it off, broke the guy’s heart, and made his soul even darker.
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kai has been posting vids on YT of him covering songs on his YouTube for like actual years, and when he was around 20 he met this person via the comments section on one of them. they seemed to be quite the fan of his interpretation of some of the songs he chose to play. they ended up talking more and more as time went on, exchanging contact information, and grew very very very close.
that was the start of the LDR that is what brought him to america/to seattle in the first place. they were together for about eight months and had seen each other in person three times for a total of about 3 weeks before he made the decision to get started on his visa and move to the states. the moment he was able to, he crossed the pond and moved in w them!!
strain on their relationship was created when at first kai was unable to find work and contribute to the bills and the household funds. they lived in a tiny flat, and going from barely seeing each other to having each other all at once and all the time was a lot. on top of that, kai was homesick and restless and felt trapped because that’s what kai does and it’s not okay and it’s totally wrong and he cheated on them soooo there’s another tick against his soul ig. within six months of his arrival, they broke up, and kai moved out.
he couch surfed w some friends he’d met 4 a while, and eventually found a decent paying job as a nanny for a well off family.
he plays live shows at small venues in bars/clubs and still seeks to make a living as a musician but it’s hard out there and plus his soul aint exactly the prettiest to look at any more. i mean he doesn’t have a DARK DARK grey soul, it’s more a lighter grey, not quite silver, but definitely not storm clouds.
he’s still working on getting his full citizenship though he’s v v v close 2 it & has been lowkey getting help from his cousin w paying for the process so!!
THAT’S BASICALLY IT
last but not least IM REALLY FUCKING SORRY  ICOULDN’T MAKE THIS SHORTER I JUST HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS AND fEELIGNSA
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