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Ugh I have a therapy appointment tomorrow and I'm so nervous T﹏T
I recently came to the realization that I wanna get top surgery (for both my gender and nonhuman identities) but I don't know how to talk about it.
I haven't told my parents about this yet. I'm really nervous when it comes to talking to them about stuff. They have been really great and accepting of my gender and nonhuman identities, but it's really awkward to talk about it with them. They are trying their best but they have a tendency to accidentally make me feel uncomfortable or ignored.
My parents love me a lot but we have verrry different opinions on things and they grew up in..... difficult times...... and it tends to show. They are trying so hard but they can't understand my situation and don't know what to do or say. despite their best efforts I feel like I can't really talk to them about anything.
The only person I've told is my oldest sibling. They were super great and supportive (and it helps that they are the one that gets this the most. They have their top surgery scheduled this Fall, and I'm really excited for them!!!) They were actually the one who helped me discover this, and they helped me process things when I first accepted that this is what I want.
The problem here is that a lot of places require a letter from a therapist/doctor, and I don't know what to do. I haven't even told my therapist about my nonhumanity yet. I really wanna be able to talk about it, but I'm scared. I really like my therapist and I don't wanna risk ruining things. I have only mentioned having body dysphoria to her once and that was really scary.
Do I try and talk about it tomorrow....??? Or should I continue to focus on the more immediate problems?
I've been having a lot of trouble eating lately. My autism has been causing a lot of problems in that most food sounds gross and inedible to me right now. That's what my therapist, my mom, and I have been talking about lately. Plus I've also had a really hard time getting myself to bed. The other night my dad found me still up and awake past 3 am. I am usually up past 1 or 2, and it's been taking a lot out of me.
I don't know what to do. I want to be open about my nonhumanity, and I really wanna be able to get the affirming care. But I'm really scared to admit it to others.
#eldritchbean speaks#eldritchbean rambles#shapeshifter#eldritch shapeshifter#top surgery#body dysphoria#gender dysphoria#species dysphoria#physical nonhuman#physically nonhuman#eating trouble#autism#difficulty eating#does this count as an eating disorder???#i honestly have no idea#therapy#dysphoria#implied trauma#for my parents#boy did they have it rough#still do#trouble communicating#i don't know how to tag this post hhhhhhhhhh#bear with me here...#rambling in the tags#kinda#alterhuman#nonhuman#nonhumanity#non human
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trapped in the catacombs again 🙄
#as if it’s my fault that i bear the curse.#<-in all seriousness im trapped in the catacombs tho#<- it’s dark down here. what if big clothes eats me.
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Heathers but it's the Bad Boys... Bad Boys but it's the Heathers...
UPDATE: there's a part 2 now, for anyone who wants to see Scott & Martyn as Veronica & JD!
#old-ish art#theres still a bunch of stuff from insta that i wanna re-post here#bear with me pls#life series#traffic life#trafficblr#limited life#grian#smallishbeans#joel smallishbeans#solidaritygaming#jimmy solidarity#digital art#toniaarts#toniadoodles
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Hell's most vanilla couple
#hazbin hotel#kinda nsfw? or well. suggestive#how do i tag this#i still like to stay classy but i am an adult playing with adult characters here so pls bear with me :)#chaggie#charlie morningstar#vaggie#my art
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eepy
#dc comics#batman#jason todd#dc#red hood#my art#i have been sleeping at 11am and waking up at 7pm#also i wanna try and be more active here but im new to tumblr so bear with me skibidies
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fool's hope
#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr fanart#aglaea#anaxagoras#hsr anaxa#aglanaxa#you ever think about if aglaea's obvious hatred for him is something anaxa finds comfort in#because it means there's still a part of her here that she hasn't been completely stripped of ber humanity yet.#like what if anaxa knew better than any other heir how little humanity aglaea retains.#what if he knew on a scientific level how little emotion she's afforded now#hundred of years down the line of bearing this burden#so it's a relief when anaxa gets word that his presence still irritates aglaea.#it's a relief to know there is still some part of aglaea capable of summoning anger at the sight of him#that she would go as far as to avoid him because of it#ouuuh cunning blonde woman and pathetic green man save me...#sorry i'm a little crazy about them#this is probably going to get shot to hell and back with the next update but yeah
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How much longer 'til your luck runs out?
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#Aaargh...I have so many thoughts about this scene.#This is a hard goodbye. I'm not your burden to bear. Not anymore.#This is the culmination of years of miscommunication. There was so much love there. They trusted each other with everything once.#I think it is easy to hear the anger in JC's voice and consider him the aggressor in this but listen to the words not the tone.#It is anger yes - but it is an anger born out of love.#Jiang Cheng wanted him to live - damn the rest of the world to hell if that's what it took. And Wei Wuxian chose strangers over him.#Sometimes two people who once flourished together become each other's worst wounds.#A goodbye to someone you once would have done anything for is a wound you don't easily recover from.#Jiang Cheng could have stood at Wei Wuxian's side and joined him. Consider though; as a sect leader his life is not his own anymore.#JC cannot just abandon the fledgling New Yunmeng Jiang without also dooming people.#And that is the lynch pin of it all. Both of them are trapped by duty. And the older they got the more tangled the web became.#The song I linked (Hi Epic fans) is such a good JC and WWX song that doesn't fit this scene exactly#But it does fit *them*. The words of warning that go dismissed. The Tactical Genius who continues to press on.#The seeds of doubt that grow louder until they creep towards mutiny. Ultimatly this *is* a mutiny! It *is* betrayal!#'You rely on wit and people die by it'. Is that not Wei Wuxian?#Just smashing my brainworms together over here. Don't mind me.
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it's time to study some ancestral history. here's my first attempt at animalifying an isat character, he is known as the isabeastie and he predates every critter!!! my brain still registered this design as something i drew "the other day" that id been meaning to post somewhere? i made him in APRIL? LAST YEAR???
anyway. 'e's a beastie :) if u were ever thinking "love isabird but i wish he was some kind of huge dangerous animal who could curl around me all comfy" then here u go this is for u
#this is not the first time ive wildly misunderstood how long its been since i drew something i meant to post#so maybe this'll be the first of a few uploads of old art i never got to? who knows. most of it was already uploaded in my anniversary post#but there's clearly still surprises. i never showed anyone isabeastie????#anyway the bottom art is newer. the post felt a little naked with just 1 artwork in it#right after i showed some friends this i had return fire art of isabeastie shot at me. and gosh i hope they share here too#sniles!!!! sniles about it!!!! plz enjoy my funny big-cat bear badger dog hybrid beastie thingy!!!! isabeau beast!!!! isabeastie!!!!#cat who wears pants!!!!!#isat#isabeastie#isat isabeau#my art
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More Aurora!
Hey, if you're here, check this out!
#Polar bears are legendary jacked too so surely she must work out#I'm honestly so happy that the previous one got such a positive reception!!#Someone specifically asked me to draw more of her and peeple seemed to like her#So here is another! You won't believe what else I have sketched up while procrastinating lol#Aurora#Arknights#pixel#pixel art#artists on tumblr#Polar bear
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Julie doodles from the vid I just did, girlie is so so stressed 💔 My headcanon that she's the first/only neighbor to curse is REAL RAAAHHHHHHHH‼️‼️‼️
(Bonus Howdy Hand and Bald Frank lmao)
#someone told me frank looks like a pill here LMAO#i love giving julie a little heart tail <3 but a tulip tail would also be SOSOSO CUUUUTE i gotta try that#*julie voice* MAMA'S JONESIN FOR A SMOKE#welcome home#welcome home arg#welcome home puppet show#welcome home update#welcome home spring update#welcome home spoilers#welcome home julie#julie joyful#frank frankly#welcome home frank#welcome home fanart#bear king draws
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I am just seeing this now?!


His hair and the sweat on his brow and cheekbone are paid actors. Bob is not too bob, y'know. I lied. It was still giving BOB, but he's a cutie.
From 1, 2 (Utah Hockey Club @ Vancouver Canucks, Mar 16, 2025) (Other anthem Quinn during this game here)
#ngl this woke me up; no more naps for me#sir jeff uploaded this in mar 22 no complaints here#quinn hughes#qh43#qhughes#huggy bear#vancouver canucks#canucks#nhl#hockey#ruinix net
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#polls#i might be totally wrong in assuming these are the common childhood interests so if i am uhh just bear with me here#i was a dinosaur kid but also a dog kid
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Shiguang size difference my beloved








Also, shout out to Lu Guang's noodle arms dropping Cheng Xiaoshi in a heartbeat

#I'm being so normal about this rn you have no idea#studio lan would only occasionally take advantage of this fact but cmc ran wild with it and I gotta love them for that#anime#donghua#link click#shiguang dailiren#时光代理人#shi guang dai li ren#time agents#shiguang daili ren#cheng xiaoshi#lu guang#yingdu chapter#bridon arc#shiguang#guangshi#please bear with me here—this is my way of coping with the withdrawal symptoms this series gives me#can't believe i fell down this rabbit hole instead of working on the happy edit or literally anything else that requires significant time
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Happy birthday to the most special girl in the universe!! Wanted to try something ambitious and ended up with the biggest comic I've done to date
#signalis#ariane yeong#elster#overestimating elsters ability to paint so ignore how it looks probably way better than she could have done ok?#myart#i have nothing cool to say here i am so tired. i baked a cake from scratch lol and that took so much out of me...#im old..#im like cycling(hah) thru three diff elster designs bear with me here#elster seems like the type of person to be really good at gifts..kinda feel like u gotta be when ur on the same ship for um like. 15 years
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longtime fan of his | another one
#spiderman#mustasekittens#earth 40311#yeah hes just a really big fan#a chunk of his paycheck goes into his philza subscription#i cant draw cities yet sorry gang bear with me here#philza#philza minecraft#kristin minecraft#dadza#mumza#mcyt#philza fanart#peter parker#fanart#sketch#my art
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Look, Aym, I know you wanna annoy your big bro sometimes, but y'all really gotta stop putting the death god into silly mode. He is Very Dangerous, you see. ŎuŎ;
this idea wouldn't go away until i drew it so here it is lmfao
#fanart#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl narinder#cotl aym#cotl baal#comics#the lamb tries to engage narinder's silly mode One (1) Time#they regret it the instant his giant paw comes bearing down on them like fukken kitty armageddon#get martyr'd idiot#anyway my buddy told me the dialogue could come across as flirty somehow??? which my aroace ass doesn't get At All#but just in case i wanna say right here and now:#if you tag this as shipping between aym and baal you are getting a block from me So Fast#ship what you want - i am totes cool with that - but keep it away from my art k thnx :)#aside from bishop orphans it's basically gonna be all narilamb from this point on#i just had to get the rest of this stuff outta my system first XD
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