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[againstme]

hello my fellow autistics. i’m asking you a question and giving you two options only sorry but i’m curious if this is just a me experience or just not liking my ex lmao:

i personally thought i would be all about smooching and making out but like. lips are slimy. and i never know what i’m doing sowwwy. 🫣 also my ex used to bite my lips, very hard. what the fuck was up with that

[stupidlittlespirit]

have they ever caught each other looking hoho

Reader has never caught Ford, but Ford has caught them.

Ford however, bless him, was absolutely clueless as to why they were doing it. He lacks the self-esteem and general awareness to assume anyone might be checking him out, so he thought they were interested in what he was working on and showed it to them.

That's the story of how Reader was subjected to a 2 hour lecture on the intricacies of stochastic process.

[laeana]

Man, I love Yuki, and I loved Daniel (I say it in the past as he’s not a f1 driver anymore) but some of you fans are utterly miserable. I didn’t particularly like or dislike Checo so I can’t speak for that but. It’s not because you want your driver in that redbull seat that you should turn into nothing but hatred. Seeing the treatment some of you have reserved to Liam is just so tiring. Why can’t you actively root for your driver to do well, instead of rooting against someone? Redbull is responsible for the situation in the first place, aim your hate at them.

“But his behavior-“ “but he said-“ no. You’re just looking for excuses to justify you have the moral ground into hating a driver. So you can say, I don’t hate him just because in that moment he “stole” (“stole” because that seat is not anyone’s until redbull say so and redbull are the one deciding) the seat from my driver, I hate him because it’s justified to hate him, look! He said this plus he stole the seat from my favorite driver!

Should I remind everyone that all the drivers or almost already said controversial things/acted in controversial ways/hung out with controversial people - but we act in selective memory toward the drivers we prefer, while we exacerbate the flaws of the ones we hate.

Anyway, at least tag your hate with the “anti” tag so I can avoid it (worth for every side and every driver) and those who don’t, well enjoy the block I guess (which is what I advise to do for everyone.)

Wishing the best to both Liam and Yuki, and better fans ❤️

[superfruitland]

"broken mirrors, and what do i see?

a man with no face, he's looking at me

i know i've got a million scars, wear 'em all on my sleeves"

get dipped in goop idiot 🖤 @intotheelliwoods

bonus lineart ↓

just so you all can appreciate the effort that i put into the details, y'know?

[hyperbali]

this idiot is STILL yelling at people about ulder fucking ravengard btw

(also in case you were wondering, the "current Political Goings-On" is that they're a Zionist lmfao)

[silly-feeling]

I love all my OCs but Risio is the one that gives me cuteness aggression every single time I draw him which is crazy because he just looks like a generic cartoon villain lol

My little schmoopie my little angelcake my little tulip 😭

[snowddeong]

This truck shit is so fucking embarrassing and why imo the line between solo stan and akgae is so thin that we as midzys need to get our shit together and find a way to just stop entertaining this nonsense and show these weirdos how embarrassing they are. Ace is a word, it's a descriptor. There can be more than one ace in a fucking group. There is no crime in calling Ryujin an ace. Ffs she is one. Imo ITZY is 5 aces in one group. Acknowledging Ryujin's talent does not in any way diminish Yeji's??? Grow tf up???

[dogboywilson]

missing entire plots of doctor who episodes because i can’t stop staring at david tennant

[genericotherkinblog]

To all the fictionkin who kin characers others may seem as "problematic", It's okay. Everyone has their issues, and you don't need to be embarrassed about it because it's not like you can control who you kin. Anyone who puts you down for that doesn't understand how fictionkin/otherkin works. Love ❤

[midnightmagicks]

The Shroud. But it’s not quite right, is it? The trees are different. It’s quieter. Dangerously so. The air is so still you feel like you can’t breathe. It’s hot. Humid. Even though it’s night? Is it night? Or is the canopy so thick you can’t see the light beyond. Do you belong here? It feels like you might’ve, once. Like the trees miss you. Like they call out in a language you don’t speak; a voice you cannot hear. 

You reach out to no one in particular. Longing. The desire to understand. An arrow splits the silence and strikes you in the chest– right where your heart would be. Your breath hinges in your throat and you cannot scream. You cannot cry. The trees weep for you. 

You don’t belong here, anymore. 

[romanceyourdemons]

still thinking about mo ran’s genius plan to stop people calling chu wanning rude and insensitive, by acting even more rudely and insensitively on purpose to distract them. like ok i see the concept, i see the vision, that could maybe work. if the person who did it WASN’T chu wanning’s literal personal disciple

[vensulove]

sigh got tired of a group lead’s bullshit, so I called out her behavior, and blah blah blah I cried 😒

[bedforddanes75]

MOLLY AND ECSTASY ARE THE SAME THING ???????????

[coldercreation]

brb about to go down a research rabbit hole lol

Question of the day!

Why is showing ‘disinterest’ such prevalent thing when it comes to building friendships and relationships?

I have talked about this here before in my rants lol, but it just always frustrates me. Like, you know those arbitrary ‘rules’ in dating that you shouldn’t show too much interest or get in touch too soon, or be too ‘intense’ or interested? Like, obviously don’t be a stalker and read the room etc, but I mean if you're just a regular and safe 'well-adjusted' person, why is you showing genuine effort and interest seen as a bad thing (I don't mean love bombing, that's a whole different thing)? If you genuinely like each other, why is the social rule saying that you shouldn’t show that? Same goes with friendships, why is showing interest in the person you want to get to know sometimes, somehow, a bad thing? To a point that some people can get put off by that effort someone is showing to get to know them? Not saying everyone is like this, because I know there are so many people who aren’t. And plenty people also disregard these social rules because they aren’t actually concrete rules. 

This is just a social construct and I’m trying to figure out why it is, because it seems counter productive? By what logic does it work? How are you supposed to make friends/date, if them showing interest in you makes you exit the relationship/ghost/breadcrumb?

How long are we supposed to only talk in one line texts about surface level stuff, to avoid being too much/too intense, before it’s acceptable? How do you know you’re following the same social timelines with the people you’re trying to get close to, when there’s no actual set rules? Someone might think you have to wait three days after a date to get in touch, but someone else will get offended if you take longer than two. But the next day or the same day is too desperate to some folk? And I'm talking about this from the point of view of someone who doesn't have trouble reading social cues/expectations. Can't even imagine dealing with this mess if that wasn't the case. Like what's the point of having these 'rules' if it just makes things more difficult for everyone? :')

These rules, technically, don't need to exist at all. It's all made up, based on... Something? We can always dismiss them ourselves but I'd like to know why they came to be and why we keep upholding them. I want to know the social purpose y'know? Is it a safety thing? Protecting yourself and not wanting to be vulnerable? That'd be valid, of course. But it does seem self sabotaging as it blocks people from actually making the connections they say they want to have?

I’ve been trying to find any research on the social behaviour regarding this, but I’m not sure what to even look up lol. Especially because I think the way we interact and behave has changed so much just in the last five years even. 

I just find it so curious that there’s so many headlines about loneliness epidemic, but people also recoil away from others when someone does show them genuine interest and wants to talk to them.   

I’ve had this initial ‘disinterest’ stage happen in the friendship context more. Also sudden, out of nowhere, communication ending/ghosting disinterest when trying to make friends (like please hurt my heart some more I beg u lmao). I haven’t really dated in the last few years so I don’t personally know how that field is at the moment, but I know ghosting is really common and people actively try to hold back from showing interest at first, even if they are reallyreally interested.

Maybe I’ll try looking more into the effects on social media etc, there’s a lot about ghosting in that context. But I just feel like it’s not quite what I mean, because I feel this disinterest phenomenon thing is separate from ghosting. 

Anyway! Happy Sunday loll xx

[kopivie]

came to the realization that i'm actually... really pretty.

i don't think i'll ever know what people see when they look at me. that's just a fact of life, i guess; you can control how you present yourself to others, but not how they perceive you. that fact caused me to hide away from myself for almost a decade, practically to the point where i couldn't recognize myself in the mirror. as in, i'm familiar with my face – i'm aware that the face staring back at me is my own – but i'm not sure if i'm seeing the right thing... what that "right thing" was supposed to be, i have no idea.

i would go to lengths to make sure i was pretty by my own fucked up standards, but after hearing people describe me, i started doing things for the sake of others and not myself. i tried so hard to maintain their positive image of me that i legitimately couldn't look myself in the eyes without feeling like a fucking fraud.

because for the longest time, i believed that i was lying to people somehow. if you thought i was softspoken, i would disagree; my friends and family think i'm pretty loud. if you thought i was graceful, i would disagree; i bump into anything and everything, i have the worst butterfingers, and i'm as stiff as a board. if you thought i was pretty, i would vehemently deny that; who would see beauty in my bloated body? my fluctuating weight, my hormonal acne, my uncooperative curls. where is the beauty in that?

but just the other day, whilst i was looking at myself in the mirror, my head emptied itself to make room for a single thought:

i'm really, really pretty.

for the first time in my life, i thought i was pretty as i was. there were no filters, no hastily applied eye makeup... nothing. no comparison to my friends, no sizing myself up against the "ideal" black woman... just me and my tired eyes, my oddly shaped, day-old twist out 'fro, and my oversized stitch pajama pants.

i'm not perfect. my dark eyebrows are sisters, not twins; my under-eye area is insanely dark; my eyelashes aren't as long and prominent as they used to be; my hair is always flat somewhere, my tummy is constantly bloated, i look better with my glasses on, and i'm covered head to toe in hair that i'm not entirely proud of...

...but i'm me. i'm me, and for the first time ever, i'm so proud of that. i can look at my imperfections and think of ways to gently fix it instead of hurt myself in the process of trying to conceal it. i'm going to the gym tomorrow and making plans to buy lashes to start my makeup journey – not as a means to hide my insecurities, but to make myself feel beautiful on my own terms.

(side note: i posted a video rambling about this on my instagram story last night. i had said something along the lines of "i don't know what other people are seeing that i can't see, but i know that i finally love what i do see."

and violet, in all his infinite wisdom, replied to my story in under five minutes saying: "that's why you wear glasses."

i told him that it's on sight when i see him again, his reply was: "oh really? would you even be able to see me?"

...why did i have to fall in love with a man? i can't stand his ass 😭)

[bedforddanes75]

fucking crying at swifties posting her lyrics and talking about "shes such a poet" "this clears _" and i read them and its like. "i killed your mother but shes always gonna be mom like bomb because youre bombs to my heart" or something Like please you arent helping yourselves