#bless jakes though he really is trying to listen

[sircolinmorgan]

"Trust me, it's the same clock."

ENDEAVOUR | ARCADIA.

[my-secret-shame-but-fanfiction]

Hi Fen! Hope you're doing well <3

I've been having such a hard time going to sleep lately and I was wondering if the moon boys ever have that problem - when they're not trying to stay up that is. So what do you think? Do any of them have trouble falling asleep? What do they do when that happens? And how do you think they'd help a Reader who couldn't fall asleep?

I’m so sorry you’re having trouble sleeping! (And that it’s taken me so long to reply) I hope you're doing better now <3

Rating: PG  Masterlist | ao3 | want to be tagged?

Warnings: brief mention to sex

Steven

Doesn’t have trouble sleeping, and can go to sleep quite easily when he’s not fighting it AND when Marc isn’t co-fronting (Marc’s sleeping issues bleed over into Steven).

When you can’t sleep though Steven is more than happy to stay up with you.

“Spend most of my adult life on 2 hours of sleep a day, didn't I? Yes. So this isn’t even water off a duck’s back, this is air off a duck’s back, this is not even noticeable love.” 

Will suggest lots of different things to do: reading (he will read to you if you want to try to sleep), watch something, listen to music, go on a weird London at 3:30am walk, “the night tube is running and we could go to 24 hour karaoke in Soho?”, “did you know these libraries are open at 4am?”, “I know a 24 gym that has a pool, we could go swimming!”, “Beckenham Place Park actually has open water swimming, I bet we’d be the only ones there! But I’m gonna wear a nose clip because I don’t want possible brain-eating amoeba up my nose, do I? No.” Proceeds to tell you a documentary's worth of information about Naegleria fowleri and how it was found in 1978 in Bath, so “yes it is in the UK Marc.”

Basically he’s full of ideas about where to go in the middle of the night that’s open because that’s what he used to do when he was trying not to sleep. (Also it’s nice to do things when there’s not so many people about.) 

Will suggest driving to a spot he knows outside of London where there’s less light pollution to look at the stars. Will wake up Jake to do the driving. Will bully the hell out of Khonshu if the sky isn’t clear. (And will make him get rid of the cloud.) 

100% would ask if you would like him to fuck you to sleep.

Marc

He’s not asleep either. 

Usually gets Steven or Jake to fall asleep for him.

However, if they’re already asleep, or not available, he goes with the ‘I am laying down with my eyes closed, because it’s still resting’ philosophy. 

He tries not to toss and turn a lot, but he does bless him. 

Has tried to drink himself to sleep on several occasions. 

Doesn’t like to see you having trouble sleeping at all and spends ages fussing over you. 

Fluffs the pillows, gets extra blankets, gets less blankets, turns the heating on, gets the fan out, will run you a bath and put all the lavender stuff in and make you 500 herbal teas, then change the bed covers. 

Will offer to sleep on the sofa or the floor so he doesn’t disturb you while you’re trying to sleep. (Then apologies when you obviously hate the idea of him being away from you.)

Is giving ALL the cuddles, however you want them. Will lay in the most uncomfortable position for himself for you to be comfy (will not tell you the position is uncomfortable for him.)

Tells you the most outrageously made up stories in quiet hushed tones to help lull you to sleep and then acts mock offended if you doubt that anything he says didn’t really happen.

Makes you cum on his mouth repeatedly until you’re so exhausted you have no choice but to fall asleep.

Jake

Can actually fall asleep anywhere at any time. 

I still firmly believe that before Steven and Marc know about him he would front just to go to sleep because they are so bad at getting some shut eye and constantly run the body into the ground.

Has melatonin tablets and a whole pharmacy's worth of sleeping aids to share. 

Will 100% take you for a drive to try to get you to fall asleep (or just to take you somewhere if you want, or if Steven has woken him up to drive.)

“Jake, I need you to drive to-”

“Steven… It's bedtime, time for sleep. No driving.”

“Oh, but S/O is having trouble sleeping and-”

Jake is already out of bed with his car keys in hand.

Will offer to be your weighted blanket and lay all over you. 

Says he will threaten Khonshu to keep the sun down so you can rest if it takes you a while to get to sleep. 

Tries to (lovingly) bore you to sleep by counting sheep out loud and in detail. “This one is a Merino sheep, the ones that are very fluffy. Her name is Harold. She likes grass, but not clover. Which is unusual for a sheep. So that’s one so far, one sheep. Now this next one is…”

Doesn’t offer sexy times because he doesn’t want to be pushy, however if you suggest it he’s happily all over you.

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[oddballwriter]

Werewolf! Moon Boys NSFW Headcanons

Warnings: Okay so now I'm really feeding the monster fuckers so watch out for mentions of knotting, heat, and animalistic sex, and size differences. 

Author’s Snip: Time to really let my monster fucker hair down lol

I’ll shut up now. Enjoy! And don’t be afraid to request.

Marc Spector

Marc isn't against having sex when he's turned. I'm sure he's spent a few moments the morning after a full moon think about it. But he's scared that he might hurt you in the process

Because he's aware that he's bigger than his normal size, in both ways, so he doesn't know if maybe he'll be too big for you to take

Also, he might hurt you because he thinks that while in the moment he'll get to hyped up and he thinks that he might start doing the thing where dogs get really rough when their playing with something and that scares him

You honestly have to look at him and say that you're willing to take the risk for the sake of getting to smash

Okay but hear me out, what do you bitches know about heats and knotting (yeah we're letting the monster fucker freak flag fly today babes)

I don't think that Marc thinks that his dick is able to knot. He knows what it is, but he just doesn't make that connection in his mind that his penis can also knot similar to a wolf

Man has just never fully thought about it he's too busy being angsty and ashamed of being a werewolf. So when you finally get to fuck and he wakes up the next morning with himself still inside you he's like "Holy shit I actually can."

Sex is as animalistic and good as you think it is, and you will never complain. That thang does fucking WORK in there. It's hitting everything and then some

Marc worries about exhausting you when heat comes along but I mean... You're getting a huge dicking for like god knows how long every night

And the growling and snarling, and panting... bitch imagine

Steven Grant

Steven, bless his heart, was aware that having sex while in werewolf form might be something that would take a lot out of you, and at first refused the idea of doing it because he didn't want to hurt you or god forbid break something

But he's just a man, and he has a man's brain, and he can be a completely different size than you are. So at some point, he bites.

Steven insists that you do a safe signal and they he will try to stay coherent when in werewolf state so that he can notice it

But he finds out that you never use it

He was aware of the knotting and he was worried that it might hurt you, but you said it was fine and so he just, lets it happen

Afterwards he licks your face to give it kisses like how a dog would

Maybe clean you up like that too *cough cough*

The heat though, he genuinely wants you to stay away because he doesn't want to have you send all your energy just being his chew toy. Even if you insist that you're into that

He does hold himself back because he is still worried about hurting you though

Jake Lockley

Oh, he's thought about it. A lot. The whole thing

But he never mentioned it until you started showing interest in it because he didn't want to scare you or accidentally force you into it/make you feel like you have to

But upon hearing you suggest it he's on board. Bestie, he was already on the boat. Made the boat to sail, even.

He asks if you want him to hold back or go all out, and once you give your response he's like "Say less ;)"

I mentioned in the sfw version that Jake is mostly the one fronting during the transformation of both turning into a werewolf and changing back and probably just is the one fronting when they are a werewolf, so Jake has been able to be more conscious when in their state rather than being more animal like

So he's there when you're having sex, but he lets some of those instincts take control because he knows that's what you want

Also, he isn't afraid of heats either

Listen, he knows what the fuck you're here for. He's not going to be like Steven and Marc where they're scared and ashamed of having this part of them and the things they might do during sex and heats. He's not going to act like you aren't here for that shit.

Jake knows that you're down for getting split tf open and being it nonstop when they go into heat

Jake's nasty, you're nasty, you guys can get nasty together

Side note. All three of them are secretly into when you call them "good boy" in bed both when in their werewolf state and out of it, and sometimes as a kinky treat you can call them a "bad boy/dog" too

[lovingbradshawafterdark]

Forever devoted

Hangman x fem!reader

Summary: you and hangman’s secret marriage becomes strained until you finally let out your frustrations

Warnings: smut 18+ minors DNI or I will block you, unprotected sex (be safe y’all)

Word count: 1,317

A/n: alright my smut game is slightly so I hope you enjoy plus I didn’t quite know what to do with this nonnie who requested! I also never know how to end a fic lol (requests always open)

Jake just watched as you happily laughed alongside rooster, it made him fine seeing you talking to another man and stormed towards you.

“What’d he say next?”, rooster laughed, you were about to answer before Jake rudely interrupted.

“What do you think you’re doing quickstep?”, Jake growled as Rooster rolled his eyes.

“Hangman we were just talking”, you explained yet you saw him clenching his fist.

“Outside now…”, he hissed before pointing at the door, you just gave him a pleading look as he angrily pointed again.

“See ya around roost”, you said hopping off the bar stool, he looked down at you sadly as you walked defeated, Jake not far behind you.

When you both managed to get outside the shed deck making sure no one would be able to hear you he immediately exploded.

“What the hell was that?”, he halted at you as you rolled your eyes

“We were just talking…we didn’t do anything”, you murmured as he just continued to fume.

“Do I need to remind you we are married?”, he walked even closer.

“I’m not planning on getting with any other guys Jake I was just talking with him that’s it”.

Jake still looked at you angrily, he didn’t want to cause a complete scene but you did want to remind him you are his girl.

“I know..”, you said softly looking down.

“Good”, he smiled again before turning back towards the hard deck.

“Do you know how hard it is?”, you asked, Jake tensed up, his shoulders clearly showing it, “having to tell people I’m off the market because you don’t want me mentioning we are married”

Jake turned back towards you, his eyes showing a sense of sorrow.

“Listen…I know it’s hard-“

“No you don’t Jake you have no idea!”, you yelled as he had a sudden fear of someone overhearing what was happening, “guys jump at the chance to talk and flirt with me no matter how much I say I’m taken”, you hissed out at him making him flinch

“I’m sorry…if it really upsets you can make it public”, he whispered, his voice suddenly very soft and kind.

“We eloped Jake…if my dad finds out we are in fact married even though he turned your blessing we are both screwed!”, you were frustrated at him and he knew it, it was hard on the both of you, “my dad would be pissed I’m sure he’d find a way to have you killed on the spot…”

“Okay listen honey I need you to quiet down”, he looked over noticing Rooster walking out of the hard deck looking around.

“What you scared about people hearing about our lovers quarrel?”, you asked sarcastically as Jake quickly grabbed your hand and hid you behind a car as he watched rooster look around before going back inside.

“Alright we’re safe now-“, he was cut off as you kissed him, he jumped yet he also began to lean into it. He laid his hands on your waist as he fully gave in. You heard let out a growl as you pulled away.

“Been awhile since we’ve done that huh?”, you teased as he pulled you back against his lips, clearly he’d been desperate yet pulled away.

“I’ve neglected you…let me fix that please”, he caressed your cheek, your body craved his touch even more as you nodded. He quickly grabbed you and ran towards the hard deck again, he quickly noticed a door that led to a small storage room. He got frustrated trying to pick the lock before just fully breaking it and watching the door open. You just giggled as he pulled you in, the only light being a small lamp.

“Jake seresin…always the man to get down and dirty no matter the place”, you giggled before he placed on a small dresser.

“I need you….I really need you”, he whined, hangman rarely whined he was too prideful for that.

“Then what are you waiting for?”, and with that he quickly pulled your skirt down as well as your underwear, “is someone actually going to eat me out this time?”

“I’ve been a bit too much of an ass and I wanna fix that”, he then did small kisses up your thigh, your breath hitching as he would get closer and closer towards your slit. It was aggravating and you whispered at him making him chuckle, the vibration against your core wonderfully pleasurable.

“Jake please…”you whimper again and you saw that damn look in his eyes, that look where he was still going to make you beg even if this was all for you. He still gave you that damn smug look before you finally yelled out, “just eat me out already!”, you yelled as he chuckled.

“Careful sweetheart we don’t know if they can hear us”, you couldn’t say anything as immediately after he licked a long strip along your folds making you moan. Him continuing to chuckle wasn’t helping as your thighs clamped around his head harshly to the point he had to hold them down as you whimper and whined before nearly s seeming as his sucked on your clit, your hands going towards his hair making him groan. His tongue was delightful as it ravaged your pussy. He barely came up to breath and you felt that familiar knot in your stomach about to snap yet he just stopped, making you tug on his hair leaving him just to laughing.

“Sorry but I’m getting impatient”, he grunted standing up, you saw him unbuckling his pants, your mouth went dry as he pulled out his erect cock, you wanted it in your mouth but you couldn’t do much with out people hearing your. He teased around your entrance, using your juices as lube, his eyes full of lust. He was soon tired of the teasing before fully sinking inside you. His face was delightful…divine even, his eyes already fluttering as his brow furrowed.

“Jake….”, you moaned biting your lip as he was getting accustomed to your walls once again, he thrusted harshly making you yelp but then moan as let out a soft moan as well.

“God you’re beautiful”, you knew when hangman was being serious when his voice was low and gentle, he began an even pace, your arms went yours his neck as the dresser under you began to rock due to how hard he was fucking you, “you still got the ring baby?”

“Of course I do…”, you stammered out as you showed him the ring he had picked out, it was placed delicately on your ring finger and that just sent him, he was suddenly filled with new vigor as he started fucking you even harder now and that knot in your stomach soon snapped and suddenly your walls clenched around him making him moan and hiss as he continued.

“God…”, his voice was broken as he finally came, you felt him completely fill you. He stayed inside for awhile, never wanting to leave. He however saw you whining uncomfortably before finally pulling out, his cum still dripping out of you. You both just panted for a moment before he helped you off the dresser and handed you your skirt and underwear.

“Well then….I guess that’s that then”, you whispered as he just nodded.

“I’m sorry….I should’ve done something sooner…”, you could hear a sudden surge of butterflies as you went up to him and kissed him on the cheek.

“Don’t worry…I’m still you’re girl”, you said with a smile putting your skirt and panties back on. He just smiled watching you even as you exited quietly out the door. You just sighed before being startled as rooster rounded the corner.

“Was looking for you he seemed pissed”, rooster smiled as you just laughed.

“Trust me he’s a nice guy if you get to know him…”, you joked as rooster looked at you confused looking down at your hand.

“Where did that ring come from?”

[nvertheless]

nights with you — lofi love songs for idiots in love

493 words.

you walked to the back of the library to see jake sitting down and on his phone, you mentally prepared yourself before walking to the table. jake looked up from his phone to see you.

“hey y/n!” he said in a soft tone, smiling at you and turning off his phone. “hey jake!” you replied back, taking a seat across from him. you put your backpack down and started taking out your computer, as jake already had his on the table.

“so have you thought of a topic we can do for the project?” he asked as you shook your head. “i can’t think of much, do you have anything in mind?” “hm..” he thought before an idea came into his mind.

“ah, how about music?” he suggested. “oh that could work! what type of music though?” you asked, ‘if he says lofi i actually might kiss hi-‘

“uh.. do you know a genre called lofi?” he awkwardly asked, a little scared you weren’t going to know what he was talking about.

oh my god.

“YE- yes i know lofi! it’s my favorite genre of music anyways.” you said as calmly as possible. jake’s eyes lit up at that moment. “really? that’s perfect! i’ve been really into the lofi genre lately, it helps me fall asleep.” he rambled. he sounded so cute.

“that’s really cool! do you have an idea on what we can do with lofi and romance since that’s the genre we got?” you asked him. “we could try and listen to songs that have a romantic feel to them?” he suggested.

“that sounds like an amazing idea! let’s do it.” he softly smiled, putting his head down for a quick second, getting shy from you complimenting his idea. he looked back up quickly. he opened his computer as he logged onto spotify.

he put his airpods on the table and looked at you. “do you want to sit closer so we can listen to the songs together?” he asked. you felt your heart start beating faster than before. “ye-yeah.” you accidentally stuttered.

you moved yourself closer to jake, your legs were almost touching but not that close. he opened his airpod case and took out the right airpod and offered it to you. you took it and put the airpod in your ear. he put the left one in his.

he opened up a random lofi playlist that had the title “lofi love songs for idiots in love.” you both laughed at the title of the playlist. it was ironic for you right? he started playing the first song. you two quietly listened to some of the songs as they played.

you started to realize that the more you listened to the songs, the more you were falling for jake, and he had no idea. but you didn’t really care about that in the moment. you liked being around him. even if you two were working on a project together.

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notes — i am so jealous of jake and yn….. and im the one who’s writing this </3 me and who?

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[tiptapricot]

I was going to ask abt transfem marc too but they beat me to it lol

You said you had headcanons about the system and their relationship to gender? I'm listening,,,,,,,,,

YUSS!! I’ve talked ab stuff off and on in various other posts, like the ones I’ve done on clothing, Jake’s sense of self/home, and some of these, but I’d love to do a lil dedicated hc post just on my gender vibes for em :-)

Since I’ve just done the one on Marc I’ll do only Steven and Jake in this one, though Marc’s gender stuff can vary, again, based on the headcanons I work with (like sometimes he’s a cis man sometimes he’s a trans man sometimes he’s ?? sometimes he’s transfem, etc).

Some of this esp Jake’s stuff will get into heavy hc territory but I hope I can give my vibes for my thoughts in a cohesive way anyway. This will also ofc be an examination of their genders through the lense of western/American systems of gendering, as well as through English language understandings and descriptions of those experiences. There is so much that can also be filled out culturally and through the lens of different languages when it comes to concepts and connection to gender and the self. So while this is limited to a certain scope, I hope it can still spark some thoughts and ppl are welcome to add on their own ideas as well :-)

Let’s go!

Steven’s vibes to me are generally autigender man/cis+. He would use the label of man, he doesn’t necessarily feel outside of the binary or like he connects strongly with anything outside of being a man, but it’s different for him conceptually and in experience than it is for neurotypical cis men.

He doesn’t really think very strongly about the role he’s meant to play, the stereotypes he’s meant to fit. Gender isn’t really a concept on his mind as far as something to worry about or adhere to or live up to. He’s just… vibing. He’s soft spoken and friendly and snappy and awkward. His experience with others is more shaped by how they accept him for his behaviors than how they perceive him for his performance of masculinity. Because he doesn’t try very hard.

He likes loose clothing for sensory reasons, big sweaters, comfortable pants and shoes, things with patterns that make him happy and relate to his interests. And that includes skirts sometimes, maybe occasionally dresses if they’re long sleeved. He doesn’t think “I’m a bloke I can’t wear a skirt” he just does. He talks to people and connects with them, he’s earnest and kind, he cries and loves his fish. He doesn’t have this same weight that can come with trying to fit within the bounds of gendered expectations.

I feel in some ways if he had to try and conceptualize his own gender it would be strange, a role that’s not exactly been strongly felt or enforced (he wasn’t a part of a lot of the hypermasculine parts of their life, doesn’t have the same input Marc or even Jake do), but he also feels comfortable in being a man, in that being his label and the space he occupies.

He likes suits, he likes being called someone’s boyfriend or husband, he likes being called Mr. Grant, he likes the memories of receiving his tallit on his bar mitzvah, and still leads blessings over wine and challah on Shabbat, but none of it feels like an obligation. He also thinks makeup can be really fun and expressive, he likes wearing earrings or bracelets if they add a pop to his outfit, and he lights the candles on Shabbat without feeling out of place (until he encourages Marc to start doing it, to heal through that reclamation of the motherly role [idea courtesy of @fdelopera ]). He’s just comfortable where he is, not feeling the need to do too much and not feeling a need to change.

His brain experience plays into that conceptualization of gender and self, something that can’t be separated when describing it and in some ways can’t be described. Gender is experienced differently when you do not meet the same social expectations/understand the same social cues for it to be taught to you, when the rules themselves don’t make sense, when you have a blended experience of life.

So Steven is Steven, and that’s all he needs to know, and all he needs to be :-)

Jake is more complicated. Again I’ve talked about it before, I think perhaps even in its own post, but I forget the things I’ve ranted about on discord or in various ppls dms versus actual posts. Most of the text I’ll give here is from a wonderful conversation with spicyboelives over on Instagram, as that’s one of the best times I’ve been able to express my thoughts on this, but the ideas themselves have grown from multiple conversations with multiple people.

Essentially though, Jake’s having a ball.

Gender is one of his ways to reclaim and take hold of his sense of self, of his personhood, and as such it is multifaceted and strange. It has pieces to it, distinct ways of experience. To delve into his gender I have to delve first into my thoughts on his existence, and how he feels about that existence, because they’re deeply related and hard to talk about separately.

Jake Lockley protects. In my headcanon of his role and actions he’s a gatekeeper, a physical protector, and an extractor. He handles things Marc can’t, and his goal is to get them away from the threat or neutralize the threat so they’re safe, whether that be a direct attack, or self harming tendencies Marc may be enacting.

When he’s not out—for fast moments, for adrenaline filled snapshots of an outer world—he keeps them steady on the inside, makes sure whoever’s in the front seat is who needs to be and that no memories are trying to backseat drive them into a car crash. With such limited time out, and such a specific purpose, I think personhood as a concept would be complicated. He doesn’t get to experience things the same way Steven and Marc do, and he’s got a lot of responsibility and awareness from the start on what to do and how to do it.

He’s their transport, their traffic coordinator. He’s not fully a person, and he doesn’t get a chance to Be someone for a long time. So he builds it on his own, finds what he likes, the things he can take and repurpose into his own meaning and use, make them his so he has something to keep and someone to be. He defines his own edges, his own boundaries. Jakob wrestled with G-d and Jake takes that for himself. He is the lock and key for memories and he takes that. He forms himself into a man, into an experience, into a tool and a vehicle and a weapon. He is himself, and he is nothing. He is a man, and he is no one.

Jumping forward, for a moment, there was a joke in fandom early on about Jake using she/her pronouns. This came from that scene at the end of episode two where Khonshu threatens Marc with making Layla his next avatar, but he says “you may not like my next candidate, near and dear as she is to you.”

And as Khonshu ended up always wanting Jake, some people were like “omg she/her Jake real.” And then as me and other people are wont to do, we took that seriously. I’ve seen a lot of transbian Jake headcanons and similar stuff, and I realized I really liked some kind of gnc aspect for him. It tracks. Gender is a part of identity and self definition, and queerness is contradictory and strange and powerful. So then I headcanon Jake with the following:

—he/him for the man, the boy, the cabbie, the smile

—it/its for the tool, the entity, the weapon, the space he displaces, the cracks in between

—she/her like how you reference a car or a boat, taking power from things he loves and the weight of painted nails pushing a flat cap up, or lipstick under a mustache; gender nonconformity is confusing and not stuck to the binary idea of people and men, and he is not wholly a person, not wholly a man

He is Jake, and his boundaries can’t be defined by anyone else but himself because they are his to control and his to grip with moon-shielded knuckles, to pull back beneath the suit and tie into the practiced Someone he’s chosen to be.

In line with this, through a semi-recent conversation, I realized something else for him. Cars get people from place to place, they’re an escape, the rumbling engine and headlights showing the way, and for the system Jake is their transport. He gets them out, gets them away, pushes them off-road when they have to dodge an obstacle.

And I think there’s something there that really connects, that feels right. Humans anthropomorphize vehicles of all types, see them as a friend and a companion, and isn’t that what he is? I feel like Jake really connects with cars on an identity level, just with what feels right, with what he does, with how he experiences the world and the ways his brain connects with things and people and himself.

So like… in more modern terms, I feel like he might be partly cargender/otherkin for cars as well. He’s not a fully human headmate, and vehicles are something he aligns with, connects to, and loves on a self level. Maybe he’d even be a car in headspace sometimes, stuff like that can happen, and I think it’s an interesting layer to explore for him and his actions and who he is (and can even add an interpretation to the Shiva memory scene of the cab in the background being Jake, being him watching over Marc at the time, hovering in the periphery).

With all of it, with all of him, it is complicated. But she knows, she gets himself. Jake doesn’t need others to understand it, to know why it is the way she is. He just is.

Just Jake.

[floosies]

Salvatore

pairing: mob!jake lockley x oc!fem

warnings: slow burn, pining, cursing, mentions of violence, smut, mentions of dr*gs 18+ ONLY

(A/N: I thought it would be nice to do a double to make up for how long it takes me to write these chapters. I apologize btw)

tagging: @lex-the-flex

"...tell me that your thoughts are all of me sweetheart, all day long I wonder why we're far apart..."

5.

The day after that shit meeting Rogers and Barnes decided to have a somewhat private get together to talk about it. Alicia hadn't expected to be there and she didn't expect to see Rogers' wife. The men stated that they needed the opinions of two outsiders with experience which was fair enough to Alicia.

"It was a fuckin circus and then for her to bring up the rogue sister for solid evidence, give me a fuckin break." Barnes said as he poured everyone's drinks from his bar. The blonde man shrugged, "we've told her that the girl isn't reliable. After that stunt she pulled two years ago, Romanoff is lucky we didn't kick her out then and there." He was talking about the time her sister gave false information on a potential problem to keep her client safe. She worked for hire and had no real alliances except for her sister.

Still the way Jake spoke to Alicia left a sour note, "he just doesn't get that these things come with the territory." Before either of the men could say anything Rogers' wife and her friend said something, "not really. If we're being honest here its mostly an inheritance issue. People who didn't inherit this life suffer the real blows." He smiled at his wife, "she's right Alicia. I didn't inherit any of this, but your uncle helped me get to where I am now-" "I did, but c'mon pal if ya hadn't stepped in Brooklyn would have been a mess by now."

Barnes could tell she wasn't happy with that answer and neared to where she was sat, "he shouldn't have gave you that kind of tone but he has a right to be upset. He started with nothing and he's trying to get in good with europeans who were handed down their wealth." She knew he was right but she wanted to sulk some more. Rogers interjected again, "for that same reason we gotta talk to him. He's built a good reputation with our clients and he's sharp, we need that." They nodded and then Roger's wife joked, "he'd run you out of New York if he didn't like Alicia."

Her face burned from the embaressment, "we're not school kids and he doesn't like me." Rogers laughed loudly and her uncle rolled his eyes, "Jake is practically a lost puppy around you. He has my blessing though." She rolled her eyes as they kept joking about her that night.

-

The men did as they said they would. It had been some time since they'd traveled up north from Brooklyn. They arrived to the Heights finding Lockley in his office finishing up a conversation with an elderly woman who thanked him in spanish for his help. Both Rogers and Barnes smiled and greeted her as she left.

After she left Barnes closed the office door, "look at you being a good guy." Jake chuckled, "old ladies love a good kid." He continued as he grabbed some glasses and poured brown liquor into them, "she helped raise me, she just wants someone to keep an eye out for the kids who play around her building." They nodded along, Rogers speaking up, "someone who cares about their community. You really don't see that anymore." He mentioned as he took his glass and sat on the small couch in the office.

"Is that why you're here? To sweet talk me into some other bullshit idea." Jake asked as he drank his liquor. Barnes smiled, "no we've hurt you enough." They laughed, "we just wanna make sure you're comfortable." He looked at both of the guys, "don't tell me you're thinking of me as a threat." Barnes shook his head, "you're a friend Jake, we just don't wanna lose a good business partner because someone fucked up. It can all be fixed." He sighed out of exhaustion, "listen you don't have to worry about me being trouble. I think i'm gonna step back mostly from the side job to do the legal thing. This place needs a lot of help."

So they agreed that a move like that was understandable and if ever needed any help, Brooklyn's bosses would be there. Money or just making appearances. However it didn't end there, "Jake ya gotta do me a little favor though." Shit. There it was. He prepared himself for the worst, "alright ahora que?" Barnes put down his now empty glass of liquor and stood up getting ready to leave, "apologize to my niece. I know ya did nothing wrong but she cares about you and I know you're a puppy dog with her so just make up already." Rogers shook his head with a small laugh as they headed out leaving Jake to figure out what the fuck that was about.

-

Alicia didn't sulk as much as her uncle claimed she had been doing. Most of her time was being used to work on a presentation she wanted to give for the next meeting. Then again, she had been on the phone with Roger's wife talking about all the things she didn't agree with her uncle allowing. In the midst of one these conversations she heard the doorbell to her house ring. Looking at the camera footage she saw Jake standing at her door with a vase of flowers.

Hanging up on her friend she went to open the door. As soon as she opened it he started talking, "I came to apologize, it was wrong for me to lash out on you about things that didn't have anything to do with you. I don't want you to be mad at me." She looked at the flowers, then at him, "okay." He looked confused, "okay?" A laugh left her lips, "just come in already we'll talk about it this inside." He was confused but he still went inside.

Her home was unlike the one her uncle owned, "you're less flashy than your uncle." She took the flowers from him and set them on her coffee table, "well his wife designed their house." She then gestured for him to sit beside her on the couch of her main living room. "He's married?" She nodded, "after what happened to me he found out she was pregnant and relocated her to a home he had purchased in Greece. It was supposed to be their summer home." He looked kind of taken aback, it was cute to her.

She had a question for him now, "how did you know I liked wildflowers?" Jake looked around trying to avoid her gaze, "I asked around." For a man with a short temper he wasn't acting like the big bad wolf. Still she didn't want to let him win that easily, "so about that apology-" "I was pissed off and you were just trying to help. I don't wanna lose our friendship over this kinda thing." With a playful gaze she replied, "and who said I was going to go away that easily?" He smiled at her reply, but he hadn't noticed his hand on her knee.

They we're much closer than they had been beforehand, "I mean you did slap me pretty good." She giggled, "I should have slapped you again when you got in your car. I wasn't done." He let out a breathy laugh, "i'm sure you weren't. You're something else you know that?" By the end of that sentence there wasn't anything said, their gaze met one last time and then his lips met hers.

She hadn't felt or let herself feel this way with anyone for a long time, at all really. Yet she didn't want the moment to end, his lips felt right kissing hers. Her frame suddenly finding itself sat upon his lap as they continued their now make out session. His hands found their way to her hips gripping her tightly to him.

He wanted to do this right, he carried her up the stairs to her bedroom. The kissing turning into the removing of clothes between the two. His lips kissing over her chest and neck while his hands caressed her back. He hadn't realized til that point how badly he'd wanted her.

She couldn't process how this was happening but she didn't want it to end. He finished undressing her and took no time to place himself between her legs then lowering onto his knees. His mouth latching itself onto her core and then his fingers teasing into her. It'd been so long since she felt this kind of pleasure. Her hands gripped the bedsides as she whimpered and moaned.

He knew she was close but selfishly he wanted her to come undone on his dick. She watched as he undid his jeans, her eyes following his happy trail as he got ready and wondering if he was going to fit. Quietly he whispered into her neck that he'd be gentle as he slowly entered her.

It was all so gentle yet there was a sense of urgency. His lips started kissing her where ever they could. Her arms held onto his shoulders as she felt the weight of him against her and it felt so good. The way she chanted his name only made him want to give her more to know it was him that was making her feel like this gave him a sense of pride.

She knew she was close and he did too, "c'mon preciosa...feel so fuckin good." Moaning out his name she came undone, her head resting on his shoulder as he kept thrusting his climax not far behind. Coming undone while holding onto her, he ended practically colapasing beside her on the bed. The two laid catching their breath and trying to understand what just happened.

After a few minutes of silence, she spoke up, "I didn't think that would happen that fast." He turned his head looking at her, "i'm glad it did though." Then he pressed a kiss onto her shoulder. Turning to look at him with a grin on her face she asked him, "so what happens now?" His hand caressed her cheek and softly he told her, "whatever you want."

(visuals of what i picture alicia's home as:)

[hearts-hunger]

First off: I love your blog and you just seem like such an amazing person to be around :))

Secondly: i do have a question about the boys… (you could do this just abt one or all of em i just wanted to express my thoughts)

Lets say you’re a dancer and it was some type of “bring your SO to practice” type of day, how would t he boys react? Like do you think they would go or put up a fight but eventually go? And how would they be at the practice? Idk it juts seems like a cute little idea!

awh thank you honey!! i'm glad you like my silly little blog <3

and okay this is SUCH a cute idea so here are my thoughts on how the boys respond to being asked to come to practice with you:

josh is 100% there. he's so excited. he's ready to go before you are and he's asking you all kinds of questions on the ride over. when you get there, he listens intently to what your instructor is saying but gets a little ahead of himself because he's so eager. he's trying very hard, bless him, and he'd get it if he could calm down. very much a golden retriever knocking something over with his tail in his eagerness to play. you don't mind because his smile is so contagious and both of you are giggling at each other and just having a great time.

jake is...... less than enthusiastic. in truth, he's nervous, but he doesn't want to say so. you have to coax him into coming, and he's very shy and quiet when you get there. he listens diligently and tries to recreate the steps, but he's not a natural dancer, and he's so stiff. he does try for you though, and once you get him to relax a little bit, he decides it doesn't matter if he's outside his comfort zone because it makes you happy to dance with him, and he likes to make you happy.

danny is willing but perhaps indifferent. he'll definitely go if you want him to, but he wouldn't pick it as an activity himself. he admires your talent and enjoys watching you, and he's never thought of himself as a dancer, but it turns out that he's actually really good at it. maybe it's the way he's used to keeping time with his drums, but danny is steady and confident and perfectly on beat with every single step. both of you enjoy dancing together, and you like to see danny discovering a hidden talent.

sam doesn't think you're serious at first when you ask him. when you tell him you really want him to come, he agrees, but he warns you that he's got the grace of a cooked spaghetti noodle. you know that's not true, but it makes you laugh, and you enjoy instructing him in the finer points of dancing technique. he's not half bad at it, but he's too busy being goofy and trying to make you laugh for you to really be able to give him a lesson. he definitely tries to incorporate his flamingo leg routine into your dance.

[wuhwoahhh]

ok so ive been wanting to do an in depth review of Dimension: Answer by Enhypen for time and i guess today is the day, here are my thoughts on this I think KILLER sophomore album from a kpop boy band:

We open with Intro: Whiteout. I love this song because it doesnt make any sense. "My eyes are closed. No, wait, theyre open. But i cant see"??? It takes you on a journey right from the beginning, and Jake's Australian accent really delivers it. Plus the pulsing beat in the background feels like you're running to an undisclosed location. Ends with the words: "what do you think?" Its inviting and narrative and just a great opener.

Track 2: Tamed-Dash is next - song of the summer. They mention summer and in the choreo do a hand fan motion indicating hot weather. Great beat, fun lyrics, catchy chorus, good choreo as well with the music video. Jungwon really stands out in this one; overall a great single no flaw track.

Track 3: Upper Side Dreaming: UNDERRATED. This song is constantly stuck in my head and the beat is so good its just catchy, the little chorus "doo, doo doo doo, doo, doo doo, upper side dreaming like. YEAH no exactly. Also the interspersed English words are really fun. perfect transition from Tamed-Dashed.

Track 4: Just A Little Bit: Not a bad song by any means, but much lower key and more acoustic than the others, not my fave, a little boring but they have pretty good vocals. Plus its a good lead into...

Track 5: GO BIG OR GO HOME. This is my FAVOURITE song on the whole album and it just delivers EXACTLY what it is trying to do: pulsing beat, club early 2000s vibe (kind of usher-esque in the beat??), good mix of English and Korean and fun lines (don't get away, I need a diamond ring, im feeling lucky) and then the chorus hits, great buildup to extremely catchy chorus (we going going going we RIDE) like it just delivers so well. The bridge is really good too, good beat drop. Nothing excessive or innovative but i LOVE this song I think I've listened to it at least 50 times its just so well done

Jumping into Track 6: Blockbuster. Right off the bat we get "hop in, big bills" and you KNOW its gna be a banger with some shredding electric guitar in the back. Simple verse but chorus pulls thru with a beat change, Jay with good vocals, Yeonjun feature for the rap is so killer gives a grungier sound, he brings good ad libs "are...you...ready?" Just a fun song, again, does what it's supposed to do. This album overall just delivers a clean, upbeat, well produced pop album. Like yes the members probably had ZERO SAY in anything they did but i kind of don't care bcuz the production is so good.

Track 7: Attention, Please! is another solid track, good clean chorus, nothing innovative but great fun, the "panic, panic, here we go" in the chorus is fun. Well produced.

Track 8: Interlude: Question - this follows similar format to the intro but different background, more relaxed, same kind of narrative feel and arc though. My one critique is that the interlude is only two songs before the end, but to be fair i can't really think of where would be a better place to put it.

Track 9: Blessed-Cursed - solid single, i've heard it way too many times though and don't like it as much as the others. They were def going for an edgier feel, it is a solid track, good pre chorus, good choreo (easy to remember, learn, and representative). I think they definitely took this songs popularity as the inspo for their next album which sadly is not nearly as good. They do fun pop so well idk why they felt they had to go edgy and autotune but it seems a lot of the groups are doing that these days i guess.

Another note: this album is supposed to be in their vampire boarding school era (re: webtoon) but not enough vampire boarding school nrg. Like theyr really set up all this lore and having the other group be werewolves but very little delivery. I mean drunk dazed was VERY vampiric and slay and that whole mini album was but overall it was not as good an album imo and fever i don't like for them. They should have brought more in here.

Ok i am writing a lot because I am stalling talking about my least favourite track: Polaroid Love. Basic, classic, happy acoustic nothing song, repetitive chorus and verses, NOTHING innovative. I guess they wanted to show the kids actually had vocal ability because the audition show focused so heavily on dancing, but its not a good song imo even though one of the members Heesung says it's his favourite. But it kind of fits the theme, I don't like the transition from Blessed-Cursed bc it just softens out so fast and for what

Last is Outro: Day 2: Very similar to Intro and Interlude, the instrumentation on this one is very fun, reminds me vaguely of some kind of Lorde inspo (VAGUELY) and then builds up, he kind of rambles about "writing his day two", idk what plot they were going for honestly but it closes the album out well, fading out.

Ok wrote more than I thought but those are my thoughts. I need to give Day 2: Manifesto (their new mini album) another listen, but Im just not feeling it. It just doesn't have the same precise production and immaculate vibes as Dimension: Answer.

Overall this album is imo a pop masterpiece, and one of my favourite overall kpop albums, and maybe just albums in general. With one HARD skip and that's it, we are doing pretty well, plus the first half bangers make up for it. Its camp, its concept, its well produced and well delivered, and thematically very fun. Recommend to all :)

[fatiguing-thoughts]

“You're cute when you’re jealous.” - Paul Lahote x Reader

A little thought that popped into my head last night, so I needed to write it out haha

I was on my way to the bonfire at the beach with everyone, looking for the stupid marshmallows that were seemingly impossible to find for some reason in the grocery store. 

“(Y/N)? Is that you?” I hear a vaguely familiar voice call to me from behind. 

I turn around and see Fran, a girl I went to middle school with years ago, but she had moved out of state. 

“Fran, you’re back?” I ask, a smile appearing on my face. 

“I am. I came back a few weeks ago. I’ve been dying to catch up, but it’s been crazy hectic, moving sucks. But I came here because I needed some chocolate.” She laughs. 

“I hear ya, it’s tough. It’s good to see you, we really should hang out.” I smile.

“What’re you doing tonight, are you free? We could hang out!” She enthuses. 

I think to myself, this isn’t a pack meeting, just a normal hangout. Nodding to myself, I speak up.

“Well, I’m actually going to a bonfire at La Push with a bunch of friends and my boyfriend if you want to come.” 

“That would be great.” She smiles. 

We grabbed what we needed and headed to the register to check out. I tell her to follow my car to get to the beach.

As soon as we get into our cars, I text Paul and let him know that an old friend of mine is coming with me. He tells me that it’s okay and that they’ll all be on their best behavior. 

Pulling up to the beach, I was met with a salty wind blowing my hair back. It wasn’t quite dark yet, but the sun was setting. 

Fran walks up next to me, nudging my shoulder. 

“Why didn’t you tell me there were so many good looking guys here?” She chuckles, raising her eyebrows at me. 

“Must’ve slipped my mind.” I joke, making my way over to the group.

I see Paul and Jared wrestling off in the distance, Embry and Quil placing a bet on it. I laugh at the thought of whatever caused it. 

“Hey everyone, this is my old friend Fran from middle school, she just moved back to town and I brought her here to get her out of the house.” I laugh, nodding my head towards her. 

A chorus of greetings echo from the group.

“Fran, this is Sam, Emily, Kim, Quil, Embry, Jacob, Seth, and Leah. Over there you’ll find Jared and Paul wrestling for some unknown reason.” I chuckle, pointing to everyone respectively to their names. 

“Nice to meet you all.” She smiles, taking a seat on the log next to me. 

“It’s because Embry and Quil were debating on who’d win in a fight.” Emily rolls her eyes. 

“Who’d you put your money on, Em?” I ask, leaning forward to catch his gaze. 

“You know I gave it to Paul.” 

“Yeah, but he’ll get distracted when he’s winning. He gets too cocky, Jared will get him when his guard is down.” Quil scoffs. 

“Good point.” I nod, smirking to myself. 

“Jeez.” She murmurs under her breath.

“What’s wrong?” I whisper, asking Fran.

But when I follow her gaze, I see that she’s looking at a shirtless Paul and Jared walking over to us, playfully shoving one another and laughing. They grab their shirts they they ditched to wrestle, putting them back on. 

Quil hands over a five dollar bill to Embry, chuckling. Leah watches what’s unfolding on my end of the bonfire, I hear her stifle a laugh as she looks between the three of us. 

“Not now.” I mouth to her, trying to keep a straight face. 

After all, she might be looking at Jared. This might be Kim’s problem. 

I see Paul’s face soften as we made eye contact, but then I watched him stifle a laugh as well when he realized what was going on. 

As Jared walked past us and over to Kim, Fran’s eyes still never left Paul. He walked over and sat on the other side of me.

“I’m Fran.” She smiles, reaching a hand out for him to shake, reaching over in front of me, no less. 

Leah and I make eye contact, and she’s holding in her laughter, her eyes wide and full of surprise. Quil, too, caught on and started chuckling to himself, earning a glare from me. 

“Paul.” He says, waving so he wouldn’t have to shake her hand. 

“Nice to meet you. You’re like really tall, how tall are you?” She ignores me completely, ogling over Paul. 

I furrow my brows, trying to figure out if this was real life. 

“Uh, a little over six feet tall. I dunno really.” He answers awkwardly.

“You know who’s really tall? Jacob’s really tall. He’s 6′7, you should show her how tall you are Jacob. You’re way taller than Paul.” I interject, looking at Jacob with wide eyes. 

By now, Quil was losing it, everyone else was noticing what was going on, Leah was sitting there trying her best not to laugh, and Paul was wearing a shit-eating grin on his face, trying not to laugh. 

“Uh, yeah.” Jacob says, standing up, though Fran’s eyes didn’t waver from Paul. 

Okay what the hell? 

“Fran, look how tall Jacob is. Isn’t he handsome?” 

“Sure.” She says, not actually listening to me and peering over at Jake for less than a second. 

“Ouch.” Jacob laughs, sitting back down. 

“It’s really cold out here.” Fran says, looking right at Paul. 

“It is, I’m sure you’re cold, babe.” Paul looks at me, pressing a kiss to my temple. 

Paul’s warm arm wraps around me, pulling me into his lap. His feverish skin blessing my cold frame. 

“Freezing.” I nod, placing my hand on his chest. 

“(Y/N), you didn’t tell me Paul was your boyfriend, he’s so handsome.” She giggles, moving closer to us. “How long have you guys known each other, been together?” 

My brows furrow, still confused to as if this was actually happening or if my brain was just imagining this unbelievable scenario. 

“We’ve been friends since early high school and have been dating since like, mid high school. We’ve been together for four years now. Each year better than the last.” He smirks, rubbing a comforting circle on the back of my hand with his thumb. 

“Oh nice.” Fran awkwardly smiles, the feelings of how stupid she looks daunting on her. 

“Yeah, it’s great. We’re gonna be planning a wedding, soon.” Paul whispers in my ear, sending chills up my spine. 

We always talked about getting married, but hearing him say it right now was great. 

The rest of the night went by smoothly enough, and when it was time for her to call it a night, we all said our goodbyes and she drove off. 

“Oh my god, that was amazing.” Leah laughs. 

“Jesus, I can’t even believe that was real!” I laugh, disbelief flooding over me once again.

“Jacob’s really tall, show her Jake.” Quil mocks, slapping his knee as he laughs. 

“Oh shut up!” I laugh, throwing a marshmallow at him, a blush flooding my cheeks.  

“You’re cute when you’re jealous, babe.” Paul teases in my ear, his hand finding my thigh and giving it a squeeze. 

“I hate you.” I giggle, nuzzling my face into the crook of his neck.  ___________________________________________________ Word Count: 1226

[enhyupn]

the perfect date! chapter two

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a series in which enhypen’s 02s competitive side shines through when trying to get your attention. the only solution to end this tiring rivalry? three dates with each of them in the course of three weeks.

paring: 02s x gn!reader

word count: 2.8k

genre: fluff, angst, high school!au, someone’s gonna end up heartbroken

warnings: swearing, violence is mentioned, a lot of jealousy

ask to be on taglist, updates are irregular

a/n i can’t tell if i love this or not BUT i say that abt all my works sooooo 🙏 enjoy

taglist: @dchannie17 @simluvbot @jaeyuni @neocrush @penghoons @min-arya @sunooflowerss @badroseee @cha-raena

there you stood. your mouth barely open as you stared blankly at your best friend (there were question marks floating around that word currently), you weren’t able to process anything up until that moment so jake’s few words made your brain explode in utter distress. you put your finger up in the air, trying to figure out this whole situation in under a second so you could catch up with what was going on. no words coming out of your mouth as you tried to communicate with yourself but the outcome of it just left you as confused as you were in the beginning.

“y/n?” jake waved his hands in front of your face to try and get your attention. he sighed before running his hair through his hair, seemingly frustrated by this whole incident. “i swear i was gonna try and tell you this at a later stage in a more romantic way but i couldn’t let him try anything” he paused, licking his lips, “he definitely would of if you told him you liked him in middle school too—”.

“okay can we just let this all sink into my head before we start talking about what the fuck you just told me” you shut him up from carrying on with his little rant. your hands find it’s way to your head, not so lightly hitting it in irritation. your thoughts were already clouded by jay’s return meaning jake’s makeshift confession didn’t help clear up anything at all. especially with all his unneeded rambling; you weren’t be able to understand anything coming out of his mouth.

“what are you—” jake’s eyes widen in concern as he tried to stop you, a glare from you being the thing that stopped him from doing so. you pause what you were doing to blankly stare at jake with furrowed eyebrows, scaring him a little in the process.

“so you’re telling me that” you muttered just clearly and loudly enough that he could understand you. “park sunghoon was staring at me?”.

“yes, but that’s not as much of a big deal compared to what’s happening—”

“we have a new transfer student”

“correct”

“and that transfer student is my first love, jay park?”

“you hit the nail on the head”

“and he told me he liked me? like romantically?”

“i’m sure that’s what he was implying”

“and now you?” you stared at him with narrow eyes. you felt a mix of guilt and confusion due to the fact you should of realised his feelings for you throughout your friendship. the only thing confusing you was why you? what did you bring to the table besides playful bullying and the occasional hyping up for jake sim to have a crush on you? “when did you— why do you— never mind i can’t think right now”.

“you can answer me when you have time to figure this out y/n” he shrugged a little too calmly for you to feel reassured. “i’ve liked you for a while i guess, i even told some people on valentine’s day i couldn’t accept their gift because i had a crush on you”.

“you what?” the memory of the most recent february fourteenth played in your head, the dots connecting when you realised that’s the reason why jake’s number of confession significantly dropped.

“it doesn’t matter okay?” jake didn’t want you to question him about his embarrassing crush on you any further. “i just wanted to make sure you knew so jay park over there can realise you aren’t the same person from middle school”.

“how could he— what does you confessing to me have anything to do with jay?” you furrowed your eyebrows in confusion, your voice raising slightly. jake just laughed in response, biting his lip in what it seemed like victory as he turned around in the direction on your classroom. the brown haired boy seemed like he was proud of himself for accomplishing basically nothing, confusing you even more with a random confession seemed to be the only thing he actually did.

“nothing really, just to put him in his place” jake told you as you two made your way through the hallways. you rolled your eyes as you quickened your pace up to walk beside him.

“you’re acting really possessive right now, put him in his place? you’re so weird” you murmured, irritated at how jake was acting. “plus it’s not like jay likes the high school me, you heard the boy. he liked me, even made sure to make the -d sound pop”.

“i don’t think so...” jake replied as his head replayed the memory of jay entering the classroom again. he scoffed at the image of him, not entirely loving the fact he was right in reach of you. “honestly i think he still—”.

“y/n are you okay?” sunghoon interrupted jake, you two were almost one step into the classroom when he had appeared out of nowhere. it seemed like he was waiting for your arrival but you shook it off as some sort of coincidence.

your eyes widen in surprise at his concerned expression, this being the first time you’ve seen the boy look so warm when compared his cold front he normally puts on. “i told everyone to not speak about what happened, i thought that you would feel a little uncomfortable about it” he added.

“oh great” jake said to himself quietly, “another one”. you rolled your eyes at your best friend’s pettiness, elbowing him in hopes he’d finally shut up.

“no sunghoon” you smile widely at him, a warm feeling spreading around his stomach. “i’m fine! thank you though, that was really nice of you”.

“don’t mention it, it must be troubling to be surrounded by all these boys but i can see why” he smiled shyly. everyone but you could see the pink tint taking over his face as he turned around to get back to his desk. it was a blessing you were as oblivious as you were, completely not catching his last few words.

jake raised his eyebrows in suspicion before catching a glimpse of jay who was watching the whole conversation go down with a smirk. rolling his eyes he looks back at you, a small smile spread across your lips from the small interaction with sunghoon.

“sorry about jake too!” you rose your voice a little louder so sunghoon could catch it, he nodded with a small chuckle before sitting in his seat.

jake sent a glare towards sunghoon, visibly annoyed that he was taking your attention off of him. the boy then replied with another glare back, somehow looking more intimidating than jake was.

“some lunch” you whispered to yourself as you looked back on the last thirty minutes. there was only two minutes left of your break and all you had accomplished was three bites from your sandwich and a miniature war between three of your classmates. normal things i suppose.

it wasn’t like jake had anything against the class president, it was just... obvious what sunghoon was trying to do.

what was he trying to do exactly? get closer to you in hopes that you’d fall in love with him.

honestly anyone could put the pieces together, sunghoon passionately telling the class while you were away to not bother you and the pink in his ears when you spoke to him was only the tip of the iceberg. jake was jealous of sunghoon, not that he’d ever admit it, and in the heat of moment he’d let that jealousy take control.

jay was a different story to jake however, he definitely had something against him, he could admit that easily. unlike his jealousy towards sunghoon, this form of jealousy was much more obvious. when your teacher had come in and assigned jay a seat, it was right beside the two of you. jake made it his entire job to make sure jay couldn’t get a word to you, it wasn’t so subtle due to the fact you could see it from the way jake interrupted jay’s questions.

“y/n where is—”

“if you look at page four of your school journal, it tells you where all the factuality rooms are” jake smiled sweetly, sarcasm practically dripping from his lips.

“thanks jake” jay replied, his words not really sounding sincere as he stared blankly at him. jake chuckled to himself before sitting back in his seat smugly, finding some entertainment in this situation.

you couldn’t help but let a sigh out, frustrated at not only jake (who honestly was being a little annoying) but yourself for letting this whole thing happen. i mean it’s not your fault exactly that jake likes you, the fact that jay had a crush on you wasn’t in your control but the fact they had some rivalry going on made you feel guilty since you were the pathway between the two of them.

“can you stop jake, what is with you?” you whisper to the boy. currently sunghoon was giving a speech to the class, something about festivals and booths but you honestly weren’t in the mood to listen to his rambling. “at least play nice, jay’s still new to this whole korean high school thing”. jake rolls his eyes before turning to you, his tongue poking the inside of his cheek in slight irritation due to the fact you were on your first love’s side instead of his.

“y’know, i don’t owe him anything y/n” jake reminds you as you roll your eyes, placing your chin into the palm of your hand not wanting to continue this conversation further.

“the least you can do is be nice” you muttered, jake not hearing due to the fact he was now paying attention to sunghoon. you had never seen jake like this, the usual yellow bubbly aura surrounding him was now replaced by a repulsive green that was unrecognisable.

“and so, that’s why i think we should sell food at our booth” your ears had finally tuned into sunghoon’s speech, who looked like he was currently desperate for some interaction from your classmates. “any ideas?”.

the classroom was completely silent, nobody wanting to speak up in hopes that sunghoon would just figure out the solution himself. you frowned to yourself, feeling pity for him as trying to engage with your class wasn’t the easiest thing to do. you scanned the classroom, making sure your next few words weren’t going to interrupt anyone.

“we could sell candied apples?” sunghoon’s expression turned into a positive one as his eyes sparkled in gratitude. you stand up from your seat so the boy could get a better view of you. “they’re cheap and pretty much in our budget? plus you don’t really need that many people to do anything”.

“that’s a great idea” sunghoon’s praise only caused your smile to grow wider, an action that didn’t sit quite well with the two boys next to you. “and it fits our limited amount of workers too! only... two people signed up to help out this year, which funnily enough is just you and i”. he glanced around the classroom to only find people awkwardly avoiding eye contact.

you had felt a little happy that sunghoon had said that, being one of the two people he had mentioned just added to your already positive mood.

as for jake, who raised his eyebrow in displeasure, you could tell that he was feeling the exact opposite. as if he wasn’t already annoyed with the fact jay was in the room, now he has to deal with the fact you and sunghoon are going to intimately work together on some stupid booth. he took a quick peek at jay, wondering what his expression was at this news.

sure enough the boy was almost as displeased about this whole situation as jake, his cool yet calm composure being the thing that masked his emotions. the only thing that was giving it away was the way he bit his lip in aggravation, making it clear that sunghoon’s words were putting him in a bad mood only an hour in of attending this school.

“y/n meet me after school so we can discuss this” sunghoon grinned, you nod happily as you sat downback into your seat gleefully. you didn’t know why you were so happy, maybe it was the fact this was one of the first times where sunghoon is actually warmly speaking to you? or maybe because he was indirectly praising you? you went with the latter to answer your question.

“sunghoon— it’s sunghoon right?” your eyes widen in surprise when you realise it was jay speaking up. and from the looks of it, sunghoon was not that pleased with the way jay had tried to catch his attention.

“yes jay?” sunghoon tried his best to hide his growing irritation with a smile. jay sat up straight in his seat, clearing his voice before not so subtly sending jake a mischievous smirk. anyone looking at jay could tell that he was about to plan something, a plan that was going to one up jake in terms of getting closer to you.

“maybe i should help out at the booth, since i am new and it’d be good to be involved i guess” bingo. jay gave him his most convincing smile.

“you guess?” jake repeated to himself as he crossed his arms, a scoff escaping his mouth. a smirk found itself on jay’s face when he heard jake’s mumbling, quite proud of himself that he got the boy pissed off from simply nothing.

“that’ll be... good” there was no sincerity in sunghoon’s voice, a slight scowl present across his lips as he wrote down jay’s name on the sign up sheet. “then see us after—”.

“sunghoon” now it was jake’s turn to speak up. you groaned in embarrassment when you realised all eyes were on you, well mainly the two boys beside you but you could also feel the stares too. you glanced over at your best friend, unsure what to feel at his sudden interest in this conversation.

“yes, jake?” at this point it was obvious to your class that there was something going on between the four of you. from the way you had tried to hide from the stares by slouching slightly in your seat in embarrassment to the three boys not to subtly glaring at each other, there was no way you could deny the tension.

it was kind of like you were playing piggy in the middle. you were the pig but every time you tried to interrupt this slightly (hugely) embarrassing quarrel between your classmates, you were ignored. your eyes scanned between the three boys, unsure what was really going on but from the looks of it, they definitely did not like each other. from sunghoon’s passive aggressive tone, jake’s unusual possessiveness to jay’s hostility towards jake, you really didn’t understand where any of this stemmed from.

and yes, it was very cliché of you to be completely and utterly oblivious to their attractions to you but if we think hard, isn’t it justifiable? i mean three heartthrobs (not just one!) suddenly start indirectly arguing with each other over you in under a day and it would be a little unbelievable due to the fact it sounds more like a shoujo manga or k-drama plot than anything.

“i’d like to sign up too”

considering jake was your class’ unofficial yet official golden boy, it was a surprise to know that he didn’t really involve himself in class activities. it was mainly you, who’s aim was to buff up any application you were going to fill out in the future, who was involved in almost everything. well, besides school council, you didn’t think you were ready to have that amount of authority.

“that’s a first” sunghoon joked, one that wasn’t received well by jake.

“ha ha ha” jake laughed dryly but loudly enough that the whole class could hear. you almost elbowed the boy for the second time that day in more embarrassment but you stopped yourself in fear you were going to cause a scene.

“anyone else want to sign up?” sunghoon asked the class, slightly pleading that nobody else would answer him. the class shuffled uncomfortably in silence, a clear sign that nobody else was going to speak up anymore. “i love the enthusiasm” a sarcastic sigh left sunghoon’s mouth, “so i’ll see you y/n after school... and the two of you i suppose”.

“asshole” jay spoke under his breath as he sat back in his seat. the quiet reply was only heard by him and your seat mate since you were in the process of trying to figure out how to make everyone understand you weren’t involved in this silent argument.

while jake, for the first time, finally found something he agreed with that came out of jay’s mouth.

[official-hawknose]

I really like your scourge lives au I read the part about scourge not trusting bramble or tawny because they just remind him of tiger and I was thinking would that be worse when he finds out they helped kill bone? Would he hold some type of resentment towards them and the other cats that killed him?

For a while, yes!

In the au, Scourge is barely a year younger than Bone. They were both young cats who felt wronged by their situations and the lives they'd been given. Scourge was the one that wanted to make Bloodclan, Bone followed to have a place by his side.

Scourge definitely has some trepidation toward Bramble and Tawny, because of how much they remind him of Tigerstar. Finding out that they helped kill Bone, had he not been injured still, he likely would've died trying to kill them.

Well, probably not. Scourge still has a mild sense of morality, and while he'd threaten it and avoid them, even argue when Firestar wanted to make Brambleclaw deputy, a part of him knows why the apprentices killed Bone. He knows that in a battle, cats die. But he still wishes that it hadnt been Bone.

Of course, he still avoids the apprentices entirely. And when Scourge is conscious again and can walk, per blessing of Cinderpelt, Firestar takes him back out to where they buried the cats from Bloodclan that died, and sits with Scourge. He even prays for Starclan to allow Bone and Scourge to be together again

Which, hint, they don't go to Starclan at all. They, like Feathertail and Jake, can freely walk to and from Starclan. But most of the time, they roam together, going places they never got to see alive

And! Scourge does, eventually, trust Brambleclaw and the other apprentices. Not as much as he'd trust anyone else in the clans. But Firestar makes Brambleclaw his deputy, though Brambleclaw steps down shortly after and insists he never wanted to be leader, and that he never wants to have that power.

But in short, Scourge doesn't trust the Tiger kids at all! He's the first one to suspect Hawkfrost is evil, and he's the last one to listen to any of them. Eventually, he does.. mildly warm up to Brambleclaw. On one hand, it'd be warming for Scourge to go on the journey and for Tawny or Bramble to take turns helping him and Goldenflower, because Scourge definitely struggles long distance walking. His joints ache and his paws are scarred from the claws. But on the other hand, I feel like he might stay behind. Stay with Bones grave.

Though, maybe he does stay until the last of the elders pass on, he tells Princess where the clans have gone and goes on his own to follow the clans. Because half the clan would've ensured he knew the way they'd be going, to make sure if he came on his own, he'd follow their pawsteps and find them soon enough

[jungwon-crush]

(1) home - enhypen

(listening to the song while reading the chapter is recommended~)

rolling green hills stood before me. i closed my eyes as i laid on the wet grass that dampened my hair, while cool breeze flew around my figure. i should appreciate this type of weather since winter is starting to approach, i thought to myself. i want to laze in autumn forever.

"byeooolll!!! byeol byeol byeol byeol byeol!!!!" a nasally voice exclaimed. i internally sighed at the call of my name. there goes my relaxation time.

i stood up from my position, whilst the setting sun gazed at me, and began to search for a hiding spot. i need to at least give him a hard time looking for me, as compensation for ruining my moments of being alone. i barely get the chance to be by myself in nature.

as i looked around, i finally found a shrub to conceal myself in. so, as quietly as i could, i made my way to the bush.

i attempted to place myself inside it, forgetting the fact that i was a complete eighteen year old.

"owww!" i quietly screamed to myself. even though i wore a lengthy brown skirt, i somehow managed to get pricked by a thorn on my right knee. i guess my kilt moved around a lot while i was trying to adjust my stance.

unanticipatedly, the same voice that yelled my name just a short time ago appeared behind me.

"wh-what are you trying to do? imagine being so stupi-"

"shut up, jungwon!" i turned around to see the boy staring at my situation. his two hands covered his mouth, as if he was struggling to hold in his laughter.

"i hope you know that you look like a cat stuck in a tree. except you're a really big cat and that's a very small tree." he giggled.

"oh, be quiet! if anything, you're the cat. now, get me out of here!"

to be honest, i did not need much assistance. i was just in the mood to bother the boy who kept snickering at my condition.

he sighed at my request. nonetheless, he continued to move towards me. his hands found his way to my waist, while i placed my own hands onto his shoulders to steady myself as he lifted me off the hedge. he then placed me back onto the moist grass that i was previously laying on.

once he let go of my frame, i started to dust off my skirt and shake off the coarse leaves on it. i suppose jungwon took that as a cue, because he began to brush the strands of grass out of my braided hair.

with a hue of pink spread on his cheeks, jungwon complained, "and you wonder why others assume that i am older than you! i really do need to stop babying you.."

i crossed my arms and stuck my tongue at him. in return, he mirrored my actions and ruffled my hair.

"it's already sunset, byeol. we should go back home before it gets dark." jungwon said as he forcibly took my hand and led me out of the plain.

i rolled my eyes, "i thought you said that you needed to stop babying me? come on wonnie, please let me stay here a little longer! you can go back home by yourself so heeseung doesn't get worried."

"i'm not leaving you alone in this area. why were you not at your house in the first place? everyone's noticed that lately, after school, you always seem to be out. these days, i constantly look out my window and expect you to be in your usual spot in the living room, but you're never there."

i tugged at the long sleeve of his button shirt, "i don't wanna talk about it, how'd you know i was in the pasture anyways?"

"jake told me he saw you coming here after he finished his classes, he sounded concerned so i came to look for you. and talking about it helps, you know that. i've never allowed you to bottle up your emotions, i've listened to every single word you've uttered since we were kids." jungwon glanced at me with hope written in his luminous eyes.

"i hate how persistent you are. are you like this around other people too? you should take care of yourself too, wonnie."

"don't change the subject. let it out, byeol."

when it comes to yang jungwon, i can never resist.

i huffed into the air, "my dad... he... he  told me he'd return to lutton last saturday, and now it's thursday a week later yet he's not back. he sent me a letter saying that he's still in the city, his boss asked him to work for an extra amount of days there."

"mr. sun's gone again?" jungwon questioned. he moved closer to me in order to put his left arm around my shoulders. i realized that he does this a lot, especially when he notices that someone is under stress.

"mhm," i replied dismally, "i don't blame you for not noticing though, whether he's in lutton or not, he's barely at home. i think we all know that ever since my mom died 6 years ago, my dad avoids staying at the house for too long because our place is filled with memories of her."

"he's been coping like that for too long, when will he come to his senses? does he ever consider the fact that his daughter has been going through a hard time too?" he commented as they reached a district near their neighborhood.

"wonnie, you know his excuse. he always pulls the 'i work hard because of you' card. i can't even argue with him about the issue because, like i said, he's never home. i just want to distract myself from him because this matter has been getting to me a lot. so, recently i've been wandering outside our community. i don't want to disturb you guys with my troubles as well. i don't like seeing you lot get constantly frustrated over my issues."

jungwon grumbled, "byeol, suddenly dissappearing makes us fuss more. we share our problems, remember? whether they're big or small - when niki's bike got stolen it wasn't only him who went looking for it. all of us put effort into finding out who robbed it. we all know that your father's always been... something else, which is why we're here for you. anyways, forget him, have you been sleeping alone? what have you been eating for dinner? most importantly, are you doing your homew-"

the moment those questions left his mouth, i immediately put my hands over his lips. "everytime i mention my dad being gone in a conversation, you start nagging! sometimes i wish you would stop talking."

jungwon let out a muffled,"im gonna lick you." accordingly, i placed my hands back to my side again.

the boy annoyingly flashed his middle finger towards my direction. however, he quickly stopped due to an old lady passing by who gave him a judgemental glare.

it was hard to hold in a sneer.

he hurriedly picked up the discussion again while he scratched the back of his neck, "you still didn't answer my questions."

"i've been surviving on instant noodles and spam."

"heeseung would approve, but i don't. so, you're gonna eat with us at sunghoon's tonight."

"i'm not gonna oppose that, sunghoon's mom makes the best carbona." my stomach rumbled at the thought of pasta.

jungwon screeched as a response, "i know right! and the garlic bread she makes too? she's a five star michelin in my eyes."

i nodded my head in agreement. we were nearing our vicinity already.

"moving on, what about sleep and homework, byeol?"

"i sleep just fine. i'll probably ask sunoo to stay over tonight though to help me with homework. thank god we're both in the same class this year."

i glimpsed at jungwon to see his reaction, but instead of wearing an accepting look, his brows were furrowed and he looked... displeased?

"i bet sunoo hasn't even done the homework, after school today he went to niki's house straight away. all they do is just watch recorded shows - i can help you instead." he suggested.

"trust me, sunoo did the work."

at this sentence, jungwon's tone became a bit more aggrivated, "how would you know?"

"he did the assignment in our study period while i was sleeping. i saw him finish it when i woke up. he sits directly in front of me, conveniant, isn't it?" i grinned.

jungwon answered with a disheartened mumble, "fine, byeol, you do you."

why's he so irritated about sunoo doing homework for once? i wondered, isn't it a good thing that he's finally starting to put effort in school?

due to me spacing out, i did not register that jungwon and i already arrived at our neighborhood.

after bidding goodbyes (the goodbyes being another lecture of how to take care of myself from jungwon because i am already a legal adult), jungwon reminded me to go to sunghoon's house for dinner. he was about to unlock his front door until i ran up to him and pulled his form into my arms.

his arms went stiff for a while, but they ended up finding a way around my lower back - like they always do. he placed his chin above my head, this way i was in the perfect position to nestle in his chest.

"in all seriousness though, thank you wonnie. for always taking care of me." i whispered.

he clicked his tongue, "there's no need to thank me, byeol. i know by now that my prescence is a blessing."

i chuckled while he played with my  tangled hair underneath the nightfall. his fingers intertwined between the locks, then he released me.

he gently pushed me using his shoulder and said, "now go change for dinner."

taglist: @wonwobbles 

a/n: hiii first chap!!! i kinda hate how i wrote this so i'll probably redo it when im free again djdjdj. anyways the rest of the characters will be introduced in the next chap <3

[enhypenova]

Failed date

words : 1.3k genre : fluff warnings: none ig? maybe a tiny bit angst if u blink but aside from that IT'S JUST A WHOLE FLUFF

(okay but imagine if we get jake in red suit again!??!?)

just in case you won’t notice it, here’s the song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aTsAs4JNZ9Y&feature=emb_logo

You glared at Jake who's trying to avoid your deathly stares for a while now.

You're currently situated under the roof of whatever restaurant Jake said he booked days before your planned date protecting yourselves from the heavy rain because you couldn't get inside since it was actually a different restaurant and to add to that, it was closed.

You sighed exasperatedly which got him to look at you with a worried yet scared look.

"Yes, I know, you told me I should've double checked and should've have parked the car somewhere near but don't you worry! I'll fix this!" He said trying to uplift your mood smiling at you while raising his brows (you know the thing he usually does)

You sighed in defeat, not being able to stay mad at him especially when he gives you the puppy dog eyes

"What are you gonna do then?" you said looking at him shivering a bit because of the dress you're wearing and noticing this, he gave you his coat while looking around searching where he parked the car

"I don't know..." he said trailing when he saw the car "Oh! Maybe just make a run for it" and with that he abruptly ran towards the car without letting you realize what he just said

"YAH!" you hesitated following him because it was really raining hard but realizing that he was just wearing a thin dress shirt since he gave you his coat, you decided to catch up to him too. You stumbled upon him when you accidentally slipped, bless his instincts for catching you on time

"Hey! What are you doing here? You're gonna get sick!" He said helping you stand properly while trying to cover your head with his coat

"YOU'RE gonna get sick" you emphasized while sharing the coat and trying to protect the both of you from the rain. He shook his head and just smiled, he brought you closer by holding your waist and you did the same while holding the coat with your free hands, you went and ran carefully towards the car

Reaching the car, he opened the door for you first, making sure you're all settled, right after getting inside, he did not hesitate to turn the heater immediately just in case your cold since you're basically dripping (how much more him?! but he doesn't care about that right now)

He looked at you hugging his coat even though it is also wet and he really felt guilty on how this day turned out and you met his eyes and was about to say it's okay but he beat you to it

"I'm really sorry babe" he said reaching for your hands trying to warm them up

"If I listened to you awhile ago we wouldn't have be-" you shushed him by squishing his cheeks

"You don't to be sorry, it's okay and it's fine! I'm fine! See?" you smiled at him in which he returned back

"Oh right! I think I have some extra clothes and some blankets with me" he said reaching at the back seat of his car

"Oh no! It's fine! I think I can manage..." you tried telling him while he's still searching for the bag that has his extra clothes for when he sleep overs at Hoon's or Jay's but he just insist telling you it's fine since it's a big sweater anyways

"Here, you can change into those so that you'll be comfortable and warm." he said handing you his dark blue oversized sweater

"Take it or else you're gonna get sick!" he urged you on since you were hesitating to take the sweater

"But what about you?" you worriedly looked at him while holding the sweater "We're both soaked and you're gonna get sick too!"

"No, I think I still have an extra shirt here, I mean I could even go shirtless, who cares..." he jokingly said while shrugging and you just looked at him like 'I'm serious here c'mon' while he just laughed at you muttering something along the lines of 'I'm kidding'

You looked at the sweater that he gave you and just by looking at its material and it's fluffiness you can tell it's one hell of an expensive sweater, a sweater that might add to the list of sweaters of his that you are yet to return...

"Are you sure you're letting me borrow this sweater?" you said and he just replied 'duh, of course' while you tested him and said "last chance... because you might not get it back once you let me wear this oh so fluffy sweater" you looked knowingly at him

He exaggeratedly reacted as if he was just betrayed and said "Well... I have the keys to your apartment so..." he shrugged and ya'll just laughed at it

After joking around, you realized you didn't have anywhere to go to change clothes since all of the stores are closed plus it's still raining hard outside and so you conflictedly looked around, trying to see if there are any stores open or restrooms nearby where you can change into and Jake, noticing this, cleared his throat and said

"Y-you can change in here..."  he shyly muttered and you looked at him surprised, holding the sweater close to you as if attempting to cover yourself up, and like a deer caught in the headlights, he defended himself

"I WON'T LOOK!! I SWEAR! I WON'T EVEN BREATHE!!" he said, panicking but that last sentence got you laughing because of how adorable he was

"Babe, no need to panic, you know I was just joking and I trust you, okay?" you reassured him and with that he sighed in relief and smiled at you then proceeded to turn off the lights and looked out on the window on his side. You took a little time admiring and appreciating this very moment with him, every moment you've been through and how sweet and genuine he is as a bestfriend but also as a boyfriend

"Don't you dare peek or else..." you jokingly threatened him

"Or else what" he scared you, pretending to turn around which got you surprised and playfully hit his arm to which he just laughed off and you went ahead and changed into his sweater, you gushed about how comfy and fluffy his sweater was hugging the garment to yourself despite wearing it already

"I'm guessing I can turn around now?" he asked still facing the window and you just replied a small 'mhmm' still feeling the soft fabric and the moment his eyes met you tiny frame being swallowed by his sweater, HE MELTED (internally screaming bc not only are you wearing his clothes but you also look so cute in it and he just like damn I luv u SFDGHJGKHFDSFGHJA = soft)

"Alright, MY TURN" he suddenly said lifting his shirt up getting you caught off-guard that you immediately turn to your side while blushing

"AISH SERIOUSLY JAEYUN!! You have to stop surprising me like that" you said trying to calm yourself, while hiding your tomato cheeks and he just giggled at your cute reaction. After changing into his dry shirt, he asked for your wet clothes and kept it in a plastic together with his

"So... you all set?" he asked after putting the wet clothes at the backseat and covering you up with the spare blanket he has in his car

"Yes, I'm all warm and comfy now because of you... Now please let's drive thru some donalds or something I'M STARVINGGG" you said hugging the blanket and he just giggled and pinched your cheeks at you exaggeration. He turned on the radio then proceeded to drive away

"Oh my!! I looove this song" you said closing your eyes and Jake just looked at you thinking 'Damn... I do love you... so bad' he held your hand and kissed the back of your palm and sang the rest of the song with you.

You went ahead listening and jamming to the radio, glancing at each other and laughing the night off whilst looking for  some fast food that could fill your appetite.

✿ ͡◕ ᴗ◕)つ━━✫・*。

- hey! this is actually not the first thing that I've written but this is the first one I've had the guts to post

- I'm not really a good writer and it takes me a long time to writes scenarios, imagines and basically just everything in general but my mind goes above and beyond that I just want to put these Imaginations and share them with all of you

- Tell me what you think about this pls!! If it's okay or it needs improvement, I want to do better in the future!

- ALSO PLEASE VOTE OUR BOYS ON SMA FOR ROTY!!! WE NEED TO WORK TOGETHER FOR THEM TO WIN!! WE CAN ACHIEVE IT IF WE ALL COOPERATE!!

[imgoingtocrash]

Made of Iron, Born of Fire: The Fanmix 

by @imgoingtocrash

Listen on Spotify and 8tracks

Read the series on Ao3

AKA: A labor of love for @savvysass’s birthday!!!!

What can I say that hasn’t already been said because we’re both incredibly sappy people in our Author’s Notes? Writing this series with you has brought me so much joy in the last two years, and I never could have hit over 100k words without you. Here’s to whatever we write next in the series...and all of the WIPs we’re working on right now...and only god knows what’s next for us personally and professionally...and most importantly, to you on your Birthday. Thank you for being such a good friend, in both fandom and outside of it. I’m so, so thankful to know you and love you. 🥰

Director’s Cut Below, because we all know I love talking about this series, and yes, that does extend to why I picked these songs. (And also maybe because these song choices only make sense in my brain and hopefully Savannah’s?? Who knows! Feel free to ask questions if you want but let’s be honest this series and fanmix are most importantly for us, because we love the series so dang much.)

My Wildest Dreams by Ron Pope

I spoke in riddles and in rhymes, but my time with you has taught me to simplify, you’re not quite what I pictured you would be, you’re better than my wildest dreams.

We’ve talked about this one before, and I’LL TALK ABOUT IT AGAIN!!!! Ron Pope is so good imo, and this song wowowow the father-child feels, but especially with Tony and newborn Peter a la A Foreign Feeling and A First Time For Everything.

Big & Scared by Raleigh Ritchie

I want to be better for you, let me do that now, you’re my favorite human, so you should be prepared, I’ll help you get through it, when you’re big and scared

We’ve mentioned Tony’s thoughts about legacy multiple times by now, and I think this song really represents Tony looking forward to the person Peter could be become and that “breaking the cycle” mentality of supporting Peter even when he’s not a perfect father.

Legacy of Sadness by Ron Pope

irrational as it may seem I guess I’m sorry, even though I know that none of it’s my fault, it is easier for me to count my blessings, than to cry for every single thing we’ve lost

I have 0 shame putting these two songs by Ron Pope almost back to back because they’re the opening and closing of an album dedicated to his child like...it’s so perfect for Tony and this theme of reflection on who he is and who Peter will become/is becoming and all that entails.

this is me trying by Taylor Swift

They told me all of my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential, and my words shoot to kill when I'm mad, I have a lot of regrets about that

I wrote something...very sad but also soft recently??? and this is for That it’s about pre-CW Pepperony being separated and the road to them trying to come back together including Tony working on himself and I love it!!! It hurts really good!!! This whole song is perfect for it and I can’t wait until people get to read it.

Be Good When I’m Gone by Four Year Strong

I'm sorry I can't stop to listen, but I've got so much to do and I've got some place to be, the house looks like the aftermath of a hurricane, I hope it stays that way

Tony being a busy parent but doing his best to make time for Peter in his life and making that time count has been something super important to illustrate to us, especially the transition from being a CEO to being a superhero and how that changes how Peter sees Tony’s absence over time.

I Won’t Back Down by Johnnyswim, Drew Holcomb & The Neighbors, and Penny and Sparrow

Tony puts on the original version by Tom Petty in Home Is Where The Heart Is, but I think this cover has a very slow, emotional undertone that’s really great too. The interludes, if you didn’t catch it, have all been featured in a fic previously.

Let It Matter by Johnnyswim

So if it matters let it matter, if your heart's breaking let it ache, catch those pieces as they scatter, know your hurt is not in vain

Pepper in Never Tell Me The Odds ALL DAYYYYY. She’s the emotional rock of that fic (and of our Ironfam TBH) and it’s all because she allows herself to feel her feelings and encourages the Stark boys to do so as well.

Simmer - Acoustic by Hayley Williams

And if my child, needed protection, from a fucker like that man, I’d sooner gut him, cause nothing cuts like a mother

Post-Home Is Where The Heart Is...y’all know Pepper’s not that mad about what happened to Obie. Also just Pepper when someone hurts her family?? I always write it as her sort of putting all of her emotion into something she can control and doing it well, so, this song is all about that.

Tightrope by Nia Hendricks

one step after another, keep holding on to each other, don’t look back, move on and let go, that’s how you walk on a tightrope

Pepperony trying to navigate their relationship and the insanity of superhero stuff and also co-parenting. It’s all excellent, I love them so much, I enjoy writing it so much!!!!

Dancing With Your Ghost by Sasha Sloan

Never got the chance, to say a last goodbye, I gotta move on, but it hurts to try, how do I love, how do I love again?

This song is tilted towards romance, but if you’ll remember, we’re a Pro-Tony Survives Endgame AU series, so it’s not about THAT...but well...Infinity War sure will hit something fierce for certain non-romantic relationships in this series, huh?

The Bones by Maren Morris

Call it dumb luck, but baby, you and I, can't even mess it up, although we both try, no, it don't always go the way we planned it, but the wolves came and went and we're still standing

Post-Endgame Ironfam!!! Tony and Pepper married with their kids, their family and HAPPY...THIS IS WHY WE DO ALL OF THE ANGST...FOR A FAMILY...WE LOVE THEM

Carry on Wayward Son by Kansas

Considered Pepper and Peter’s ‘song’, as it’s referenced multiple times in the series, and was one of the bigger solidifying moments of their mother-son relationship as a whole.

Mundane by Hardcastle

And I’ve been sinking into silence, dwelling on my thoughts, and in these months, I haven’t felt that most conversations have left me anything but blue

Peter’s selective mutism was something very special to us when we originally had the idea, and making sure we talk about it and utilize it in the right way is something we’re still working on, particularly with the Therapy Fic we’re brainstorming atm.

survivin’ (One Eyed Jack’s Session) by Bastille

What can I say? I'm survivin', crawling out these sheets to see another day, what can I say? I'm survivin', and I'm gonna be fine, I'm gonna be fine, I think I'll be fine

Spoiler Alert: Peter’s not fine, like, a decent amount of the time. But he’s sure trying, and we love him for that.

Jacob from the Bible by Jake Wesley Rogers

Mama, don't worry, it took me years, to say I'm sorry, to see your tears, Mama, forgive me, I grew up too fast, but it's not on you, it's in the past

Mostly part of Peter growing up to become a hero and realizing what his parents--particularly Pepper--have gone through for him to become the person he is today, but that sometimes he still doesn’t feel like he’s making them proud enough.

Compassion Is a German Word by To Kill A King

Don't be so arrogant, you ain't no different to anyone I've met, we're all the heroes in our own film, or maybe the villain in someone else's

Spider-Man being an excellent superhero boi!!! Being kind and good!!! We love it!! Also, I put a TKAK song on...a LOT of my playlists, because I think they’re great.

brutal by Olivia Rodrigo

And I'm so sick of seventeen, where's my fucking teenage dream?, if someone tells me one more time, "Enjoy your youth", I'm gonna cry

I mean...this song is such a Teenage Mood...I had to do it...

In The Wee Small Hours Of The Morning by Frank Sinatra

So, I had this cute little scene in my head that went with this song for SO LONG but there wasn’t really anything for it to fit into so...yeah that’s part 2 of Savannah’s Birthday Gift, a little soft Baby Peter drabble. Fluffy Goop from top to bottom. That can be read here.

Home by Phillip Phillips

Just know you're not alone, 'Cause I'm gonna make this place your home

...I know it’s not original, okay? It’s found family, it’s great, I don’t care!

Comes and Goes (In Waves) by Greg Laswell

And this part was for her, and this part was for her, this part was for her, does she remember?

This song is good family angst in general BUT these specific lyrics made me think of Mary and that they never forget her in their lives despite the other stuff going on (because we refuse to let them).

I Have Made Mistakes by The Oh Hellos

I have made mistakes, I continue to make them, the promises I've made, I continue to break them, and all the doubts I've faced, I continue to face them, but nothing is a waste if you learn from it

No one in the Ironfam is perfect, but they all do their best to try and grow even when they’re scared they’ll never be able to. The ups and downs are all par for the course of this series to us.

Easy Days - Demo by Bastille

Cause I don’t wanna fall back again, back into the easy days, everything was so simple then, little fires burned away

Strife is a part of life, and the family in this fic growing through their loss and struggles and moving ahead as a unit to get to a better place is super central to making the fic what it is...but it’s easy for them to remember the old days before being superheroes and wishing it was simple again.

North by Sleeping At Last

Let the years we’re here be kind, be kind, let our hearts like doors open wide, open wide, settle our bones like wood over time, over time, give us bread, give us salt, give us wine

The way Tony went from feeling so alone to having an entire built family that’s so full of love and everything he never dreamed of...*screams into my pillow* I love this series so much thank you and good night!!!

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which bmc scenes make you the softest bc for me it's gotta be most of the stagedorks scenes ESPECIALLY a guy that i'd kinda be into. mostly bc of christine cause her and michael are my favs (i love them all sm though) but also bc of jeremy because he is a close second to both of them. also vimh but vimh makes me cry a lot although nowadays i can hardly watch one scene without at the very least tearing up. anyways yeah which ones make you soft

i simply rewatched bmc and took notes for this and really got off track at points in the sense of sticking to What Makes You Softest but that’s how it goes babey

ACT ONE - in mts when jeremy is just having a whole moment being smitten in christine's presence while she's inelegantly picking herself up off the floor and smearing on lip balm and adjusting a skirt wedgie - jeremy and michael just being default that glad to meet each other in the middle of a random schoolday - michael hyping up jeremy's crush on christine and just encouraging this momentum to get jeremy to sign up for the play - ilpr.....that christine stops after like, the first two verses and goes back to her book b/c she doesn't figure someone's looking to listen to her beyond that but then she sees jeremy's still 110% paying attention and the whole rest of the song enfolds with increasing enthusiasm - jake doing that whole bit "all the pressure i feel to be the best at everything all the time" lmao classic stuff here, depressing content delivered in this humorousse way. charming moment - "leave me alone, i've had a bad day" - 2pg......when michael taps jeremy on the shoulder to get jeremy to join in on his choreo, which jeremy then does.....that michael asks if jeremy will be too cool for Video Games and jeremy just responds Emotionally Directly......we love the Favorite Person moment......that this song just ends with the two of them grooving 2gether god bless - jeremy stammering and Tics and Fidgeting when the squip remarks uponst it - jeremy delivering the Looking Pretty Sexy Brooke as awkwardly as possible and she's just like "thanks :)" - jeremy's own Theatricality coming out......hey hamlet - jeremy spinning around in place alternately addressing both brooke and the squip with "oh i'm supposed to meet my friend michael" - nice little detail wherein brooke signals for chloe to join in on her choreo - speaking of, v fond of the Moment jeremy is in on both their choreo......brooke sort of alarming jeremy with her whole attempted grande finale, straw and all, ft. the first instance of her messing with his hair so much she's just tugging his entire head around - cute that jake and rich have a sort of 2pg-esque handshake routine too - jeremy's "that's sad, what should i do" reaction re: jenna - rich's Earnest invitation to come over and play xbox... - "bonjour, jeremy" "ooh brooke!" and this whole exchange, her complimenting him, him laughing at "That Was French" and remembering to ask about pinkberry - love the whole choreo sequence/s in sync up, especially fond of his Moments with the girls, bumping hips with chloe (twice), hearing some Gossip from jenna, posing with brooke.... ;__; - the bowling alley performance art exchange before agtikbi ;____; - agtikbi......the glittery hearts choreo.....the whatever! the interlude or whatever!!! the I Guess A Part Of Me section hhhhoughhh ;o; ;o; ;o; ;o; ;o; that she pulls him into a hug and puts her head against his shoulder omggg ;_________; - brooke just trying to interact with jeremy the Right Way w/o any guidance on the bleachers and it continues to be awkward and funny....like comforting just his Leg while he converses w/his squip.....how she just ends up Physically pushing him around by the hands and head and shoulder and etc......whole situation here in upgrade.mp3 clearly less than Ideal but jeremy and brooke are nevertheless very cute individually And together - meanwhile jake also trying to genuinely Be With christine in upgrade is also charming lol, quitting archery to hang w/a girl like her.... - i always love when the Playful Shove brooke gives jeremy at "but at the mall, you looked at me" pushes him back a whole few steps....this moment of them truly Getting each other sans anyone else's interference.....tres magnifique - jeremy being That psyched to see michael for the first time (in like, less than one full day lol)....michael being That psyched just hearing that jeremy's cool scifi thing worked out after all - lgw ;_________________________; - like i'm some normal, handsome guy..... - giving us All that silence after "The Problem Has Always Been Me" - the whole bit where he launches into the "I'm Not The [series of insults]" and i've realized it's really especially a stretch to say i'm Soft for these moments in lgw but i Am vulnerable and that's its power. little 1" tall will roland on my screen here just made me shed a real tear doing That.....

ACT TWO - brooke's Howl at the end of her verse lmawooo - oughhh jeremy and brooke Greeting each other at the party too, jeremy unable to disappoint her and going for the Real Compliment, just v charming. rip - jake and jeremy's danceoff lol hell yes and then jake just having Misunderstood the costume plan between him and christine lol - the squip getting in on the dancing :) go you funky little ai - jeremy and brooke singing that last verse of Halloween v enthusiastically at each other, - again that jeremy is just genuinely glad to see michael.... - the inherent intimacy of singing mitb b/c your bff dumped you..... - AGTIKBI REPRISE..... ;______________________________; hhhhuouuuoh my god :'3 the lil detail that at the Height of things christine is Shy and turns away.....just. This Scene oh my god - soft in a vulnerable way like, rip to jenna where we're seeing chloe's Lack Of Enthusiasm in accepting a call from her :[ - the Shift at the start of the pants song :] - and the lil mitb reprise during said pants song lmao, also always having a great time w/this concept of "maybe this teen having a rough time needs some guidance from someone grown w/all that bonus maturity here" - i wish there was a way i could help everyone but i don't know how so i guess i'll just do theatre..... - jenna being Moved simply being asked for the first time ever How She Is u_u then her being like "....Okay!" lmfao jenna's great - just have to say in whatever context i'm v fond of pitiful children there at the end lmfao the bass kicks in like that and we're having a great time - the audience always having that response to "all the way to broadway" - jeremy going "you came to see me in the play? :)" like, that he's processing the significance of that in the middle of these Very Raised Stakes - i'm soft for will roland's vocal glitching mouth noises live every night!!! - jeremy like "ha! >:)" flipping his squip off after he's successfully Apologized lmfaoooo love him - but then having that real And I'm Stronger Than You Think I Am victory like :'| - that michael's been by like a ton btw during jeremy's probably somewhat concerning coma. also cherish the lil dance he does while they're celebrating mr. heere's bepantsedness - jake and jeremy sharing a Dab - and just the Popular Kids actively seeking him out to help re: christine b/c they just Want To Be Supportive.....very nice - this vimh interlude or whatever with christine and jeremy like jlsdfhh i think of this all the time - me and the voices in my head have made up our collective mind ;__; what do they say we should do ;______; and the Woohoo! ;_______________; - huoughh kiss and you KNOW especially the [jeremy spinning away in sheer enthusiasm] of 2.0 just KILLS THE MAN ;O; - jeremy not missing a beat despite the squip's interruption leeet's GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - the more than survive na na na na na na na na na na na's but they're all So, and jeremy ending With everyone but also there with Himself and it's so Good and Everything Wants What Vimh Has!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hhrough ;0; - that jason does that spin at curtain call w/his excellent squip costume... - that in virtually any given curtain call when they get into line together there's that lil ritual of george smacking will's ass lmao love languages

i mean tl;dr quite Same in that like, most likely to inspire tearing up over something or other includes agtikbi reprise and vimh which is just like, again any finale wants what it has, and the I Guess A Part Of Me bit of the non-reprise agtikbi like Oof augh this is so cute, and lgw always Gets me, and while i was rewatching speaking of being soft and move-able i was also just continually struck with delight over various moments throughout, and noticing little details for the first time thank god. just Vulnerable the whole time