#borderlineproblems

[mysticmoon02]

Symptoms of BPD no one talks about:

•extreme attachment to certain people

•fear for the future

•delusions

•poor emotional control

•dissociation

•sensory overload

•chronic feelings of loneliness

•intrusive thoughts

•shutting off emotions

•lack of sense of identity

•black and white thinking

•paranoia

•psychosis

•the need to control things & people

•risk taking

•age regression

•the need for reassurance

[dollop-clotpole]

brain: hey u up?

me:

brain: nobody likes you

me: that's not true

brain: you annoy everybody

me: stop

brain:

me:

brain:

me: go on i wanna know more

[lostlonelysoulx-blog]

Guessing which friend is going to leave my life next... How can you explain to a sane person that you want to be proven right that everyone leaves but you don't want them to go?! You know they will go so you purposely push them away but wait....please don't leave.. borderline personality disorder got my head going crazy tonight....💔

[acidic-anger]

During an impulsive breakdown, I gave myself bangs, and I don’t know how to feel still.  I tried taking selfies, but I was quick to realize that I don’t recognize the person in the pictures. Its as if the bangs changed the entire face I was trying to get used to. Its like i’m staring at an entirely different person. A stranger, I don’t recognize them. Is this good, is this bad? I don’t know. I’m still trying to figure out who I am. Its so strange, how some disorders distort your personal perception. That such a small change can drastically alter the form you thought you knew. I had been the way I was for so long, and now its different, my face is framed differently, now I feel like I have to figure out who I am again in body again. Do I have to rebuild from the start all over?  Would that be best? Would shuffling the pieces in to a different place again make me feel any more whole?

Will I get it right this time?

[myjournalcentral]

When you crave love and attention but when you receive it you just

[sullenmorose]

She doesn’t speak to me anymore. I knowingly ruined us. But I couldn’t help it. I can never help anything I do.

.sullen.morose.

[loveandnarcotics]

when all you want is to have one solid best friend that you know you can count on through whatever but for some reason none of your friendships ever work out yet you always see them maintaining friendships for years??? y am i like this??? i guess it's not u it's really me???

[papertrail-s]

daily impulsive money spending -> check

[dollop-clotpole]

I know people love me but I don't feel it???? I need people to constantly show me their love and support in order to feel loved???? Why me, borderline?

[spaceforbpd-blog]

[myjournalcentral]

Hypocrite

Stop telling me to fucking “get over it” or to just “ignore it.” Honestly shut the fuck up you ignorant ass. You’re one of the fucking reasons I’m like this.

Oh?

OH.

You’re playing the victim now? You’re playing the victim after you’ve caused so much damage? You still DID what you DID. You still hurt me. I’m your child and you refuse to believe this. I’m YOUR CHILD and you can’t even be my dad! You’re a boss. You’re a business man who orders me around. My mom calls you cold. She asks about where her husband went.

Where did the dad I loved go?

Where?

WHERE GOD DAMNIT?!?!

...

Stop saying “to try is to fail.” Stop saying “You only do.” You have to try in order to do.

I’m sorry I don’t worship the ground you walk on and praise your intelligence. I’m sorry I don’t dress the way you wish.

I’m sorry I can’t do things by the snap of your finger and have it done in seconds.

Understand me for once. Understand me for me. I’m me.

You’re such a hypocrite.

Your tricks don’t work on me anymore.

Never again.

[dialectical--revolution]

Omg I feel this so fucking much. #borderlineproblems.

[papertrail-s]

hilfe

ich vergesse

ich vergesse zu viel

ich vergesse den schmerz

ich vergesse den unglaublichen schmerz

ich vergesse den unglaublichen schmerz der mich verfolgt

das unerträgliche gefühl wenn sich alles in mir anspannt

das unerträgliche gefühl wenn ich mir am liebsten die haut wegkratzen möchte

alles um mich herum mit einer gewaltigen wucht wegschlagen möchte

mich selbst verbrennen möchte

sterben möchte

ich darf es nicht vergessen

den mit jedem moment wird die erinnerung daran schwächer

ich kann es selbst nicht verstehen

wie wenn jemand eine wand dazwischen steckt

helft mir

oder ich helfe mir selbst

es ist mir egal ob ich sterbe

überfahrt mich

[dollop-clotpole]

that moment when you can ACTUALLY FEEL yourself going from good day to i’m unstable af again no shit help me™️

[dollpartsmichelle94]

#bpd #borderlineproblems

Me, taking a few things from a show/movie to add to the imaginary world in my head and then never watching that thing again:

[myworldingreen]

Sick of feeling unloved and abandoned #borderlineproblems