#but I'll leave them out for the sake of algorithm

[kerobearus]

Images above are NOT AI-generated. They're my more recent commissions.

This is a long rant post. Just lemme say this as someone who feels like I haven't even broken through the art industry I so revere, but now feel threatened by the oversimplification of the artistic process by AI-generated images (yes beshiecakes, that's the title of this thesis):

It takes me at least 10 hours to finish a clean lineart. I often finish a fully rendered portrait over a span of 10 days. But with AI, one click, and you're good to go. It takes 10 seconds.

Tbh, this new tech makes the long hours spent trying to capture a person's likeness feel like a waste. It brings both the frustration and satisfaction to nothing. It makes the effort and the tears and the sense of accomplishment feel worthless.

But we live in a fast-paced world. Everyone seems like they can't wait to move on to the next moment. And honestly, what's a better way to leave something behind so quickly than not invest any resources on it? Not a single cent paid for commission, or not a second of your life on art practice. Nothing. Just a string of words and a few clicks. And then the image is made. And then it gets posted. And then it's forgotten.

As an artist who is admittedly not an expert, but is doing my very best in every commission I get, I couldn't even imagine the artwork I spent several days on to just be forgotten so easily. Tbh, when I finally get my drawings to look like their models, I tear up. I take painstaking effort to do my best to incorporate someone's distinguishable features into my drawing, and when I or someone else finally looks at the result and says, "Hey! You captured the features well!," I feel rewarded. And it makes me happy knowing someone will look at all my hardwork and be reminded of someone they love.

AI "art" not only robbed artists of the art styles they worked hard to perfect, and it won't only rob artists of future commissions. More than anything, it can rob current and aspiring artists of the will to even put in the effort. It will rob artists of the hard-fought victories and the lesson-giving challenges. It will rob people of the chance to invest in someone's talents and experience being drawn lovingly, by flesh, and bone, and soul, vs. a set of numbers that don't even care that their eyes sparkle when they smile or that their hair color suits them.

If you are amazed by AI image generators, I don't blame you. By all means, marvel at the technology and how far it has come to. But know that the machine-learning technology will not survive in a vacuum. The whole thing stands on people's blood and sweat and dreams. It's ironic and utterly ungrateful to shun artists in favor of lifeless algorithm that feed on their life's work.

[edgarapoecolouredglasses]

Introduction

Before you dive into this heartfelt little story, there's a few things I'd like to say. This includes: Intro, Content warnings, Update schedule, and Summary.

I wrote this in the hope of pulling more fans into Gaz's lane and because I've already read every single Gaz fic on the face of the earth.

This is possibly the fourth Gaz fic on all of Wattpad (correct me if I'm wrong), my baby deserves some more love.

This story was initially meant to be a two-part imagine for my book of COD imagines, but I went a little overboard and it ended up being more than 15k words. 

So here we are. If you've found yourself on my little piece of the internet, feel free to grab a drink and a bite, because I do hope you enjoy what I've been able to put on paper. 

That being said, there are a few content warnings I'd like to get out of the way. 

Content warnings: 

- Violence incl: Gun violence 

- Mention of fictional terrorist organisations (Al Qatala)

- Death of a fictional character (Not Soap dw :).) 

- Mentions of sex

- Angst

- Marriage

- Military themes

- I may break your heart at some point

- I'll probably break your heart at some point

- I will most definitely break your heart at some point :')

Feel free to let me know if I missed anything.

Update schedule: 

I also hate it when I get really into a story and the author suddenly stops updating and my heart feels empty. I'm guilty of letting this happen to my own stories one too many times before. I promised myself and my readers that I wouldn't let that happen anymore.

That's why I finished writing this story before uploading the first chapter. But, for the sake of the algorithm, I won't upload all of them at once.

If you stumble upon this story and it is not yet complete, there's no need to worry because I can positively say that I'll upload every day, because the story is finished. 

It may occur (very unlikely) that I don't upload one day, which means I simply don't have time for my phone all day. The maximum time you'll go without a chapter is one day.

Story summary:

Slice of Life follows two childhood friends whose bond is tested as they grow older. Over the years, their shared memories and promises evolve into something more, though neither is aware of the other's feelings. Both are scared to ruin what they've built, so they remain silent about their love for the longest time.

When you and Kyle met in high school, neither of you expected to have such a long and extensive history together. The type of lore you subtly drop to your grandchildren. From making foolish promises under the shade of a tree to becoming soldiers ready to take a bullet for each other in a heartbeat.

"You're a tough cookie,"You snorted. "Tough enough to keep you in line, maybe.""Exactly," he said with a grin, his gaze sliding over to meet yours. "We'd make a good team, yeah? You and me, back to back. Out there kicking ass and saving the world or whatever."You sat up, brushing grass off your arms. "Alright, Gaz. Let's make a deal. If one of us joins, we join together. No excuses.""Deal," he said without hesitation, holding out his pinkie.You blinked at him. "A pinkie promise? Really?""It's legally binding," he replied, deadpan. You huffed out a laugh but didn't leave him hanging. With a roll of your eyes, you hooked your pinkie with his.

Slice of Life is an exploration of friendship, love, and the sacrifices we make for the ones we hold dear. It's a quiet tale of those moments that shape us—some of them full of regret, others full of the quiet joy of knowing you're never truly alone.

Happy reading everyone :)

[sapphire-weapon]

Hey Sirea! How's your Sunday going?

So, I know you're not really into discussing the whole Aeon community thing, but I'm curious about your take on it.

Do you think they've kinda turned into this entitled part of the fandom because of the OG timeline and Capcom pushing Aeon? (I haven't been mingling with the fandom for long, even though I've been a fan for ages, and maybe I should've stayed away from this drama, haha). Orrrr, do you think they've just misunderstood a lot of what happened in the OG events and cling to their own ideas about the characters? Personally, even when I was a teenager and leaning towards liking Aeon, I always thought, "Sure, they've had some intense moments and saved each other's skins, but are they really all that transparent with each other? Nope. Does Leon trust her unreservedly? Not really and he never will." And I thought that was the whole point of their relationship; it was doomed even before it started and it was just teasing and more of an frenemies situation. I never really believed they'd ride off into the sunset together; I thought their "romance" was more of a fan service thing, to be honest. But now I see not many folks share that view in the OG RE crowd and shippers are very intense.

And with the remakes, the changes to Aeons dynamics are significant, but I'm seeing the same attitude (a lot worse, actually), as if Aeon being canon is a given and they're destined to be together, and any other woman interacting with Leon is irrelevant and he has no chemistry with anyone else who isn't Ada, and the other ships are trash because they're not canon and only Aeon has that benefit in the franchise. Not sure where all that entitlement comes from. Was it always like this, or is it generational?

Anyway, feel free to ignore my ramblings if I'm being annoying, haha! Have a fantastic day/night!

hello friend

so, for clarification's sake, i'll answer stuff about fandom history. i just can't stand it when people come to me like "did you see what they're doing? did you hear what they're saying?" no, i didn't fucking see what they're doing, because i don't care what they're doing or saying, and neither should any of you. don't seek them out. leave them alone. don't look for reasons to make yourself mad. if they come to you, block them.

but in this case, like

vigorously rubs face

okay so like

this is actually a really difficult and complicated series of questions, because fandom was just... different back in the day. it didn't function the same way it does now. there was no passive engagement; there was no like button, there was no reblog/retweet option. if you wanted to engage with fandom back in the day, commenting on livejournal or participating on a forum were your only options. you had to TALK TO PEOPLE. yes, even people you disagreed with, yes even people who shipped other things.

and there was no algorithm; there was no curated feed. on livejournal, you joined a community dedicated to resident evil, and you played nice with the other people in it or they banned your ass and you got cut off from a huge portion of the fandom. sure, you might have your ship community on the side, but the general fandom communities always had more people and were often the best place to get news.

so you would have aeons and cleons and valenfields and everyone under the sun sharing this community together. so you literally COULDN'T be obnoxious about your ship, because chances are, that was against the rules.

that didn't mean that tribalism and ship wars and shit didn't happen. of course they happened. but it was just... different. the discourse was more nuanced. people would write essays back and forth at each other.

and it was fueled by the fact that there was a significant period of time in which RE canon could've just as easily gone the way of cleon as it did aeon. there was a push-and-pull there constantly. sure, aeon had the on-screen kiss in RE2, but SD Perry shipped cleon and people were under the impression that she knew what future canon held. but then RE4 happened and "she's like a part of me i can't let go" happened. but then degeneration happened and it was leon and claire, with no ada in sight. and then darkside chronicles happened and aeons were pissed that claire and leon were co-op partners, but then the aeon kiss was in there and cleons got mad about that.

it really could have gone either way.

basically, cleon existed as a hard check on aeon fandom for years and years, back in the day. they had the numbers and the standing in canon to do it, so they did it.

but then damnation happened. and when damnation happened, a huge portion of cleon fandom surrendered. there was no comeback for "canonically leon and ada most likely fucked."

and then when RE6 happened and leon's campaign was framed as the culmination of the aeon love story, whatever cleons that were still hanging onto hope then also laid down their arms. the war was over, and they'd lost.

and when aeon won, they were sore winners. they'd been in this fight for over a decade, and they wanted everyone to know that they came out the victors. especially since their victory was actually kind of precarious. yes, leon and ada likely fucked, and yes they had whatever the fuck was going on with RE6, but... leon and ada still weren't together. the ship was canon... but it also wasn't. and i think they knew just how easily it could be taken away from them again.

so, fast forward to modern day fandom, and i think what we're seeing is the result of an insecure aeon fandom clinging to their victory, which then got amplified in an echo chamber when fandom moved to social media, until they all basically became radicalized.

and there was no cleon fandom there to body check them back to reasonable levels anymore. not to say there were no more cleons; just that cleon fandom had lost their will to fight.

so the aeon fandom of today came into this frenzied WE'RE CANON WE'RE CANON EVERYONE ELSE FUCK OFF WE'RE CANON, not even knowing why the fandom was like that or where it was coming from, and they just parroted their elders, and now it's a cancer spreading through wider RE fandom.

because what didn't happen was: the fever never broke. there never came a point where aeons calmed the fuck down and took a step back and looked more objectively at the canon. and because they were so loud, no one else did, either.

so, to answer your questions:

Do you think they've kinda turned into this entitled part of the fandom because of the OG timeline and Capcom pushing Aeon?

yes.

Orrrr, do you think they've just misunderstood a lot of what happened in the OG events and cling to their own ideas about the characters?

also yes.

the OG timeline came to favor aeon. there's no disputing that. and because of that, people started to make assumptions that aeon was endgame, and they never let go of those assumptions. this has caused them to misinterpret the ending of RE6 and completely miss the fact that leon rejected ada in the end.

aeon fandom doesn't want to believe that aeon was a journey, not a destination.

so they don't.

and no one challenges them anymore. even though cleon fandom still has the numbers to do it, they don't. and even though eagleone has the canonical standing to do it, they won't.

and it's because fandom is just set up differently now. we don't talk to each other anymore. we're not forced to play nice with each other anymore. in fact, we're incentivized by social media to be cunts to each other, because that earns us clout within our own echo chambers.

and it sucks, dude. because you can't have a conversation about the story in good faith anymore without people wringing their hands and going "b-but aeon..."

even though it's abundantly clear that remake is different and aeon is different in it, people are still too afraid to challenge the status quo. so we're left going around in circles with the same fucking shit over and over again, and just

sigh.

that's why i say just ignore them. block them. because the discourse has basically cemented itself in place, and there's no reason to put yourself through the misery of dealing with it.

[clairelsonao3]

Happy Tuesday!!

Do you find AO3 OC friendly?

Also -

What scenes do you find the hardest to write?

Do you find AO3 OC friendly?

Happy Tuesday (Wednesday now!) Thanks for the ask! Wow, that's quite the question! Back when the Reddit Ao3 board was still a thing, I used to see questions like this a lot from people wondering whether Ao3 is a good place to post your original fiction. And my answer is always an overwhelming YES, with a few caveats.

My journey posting original fic on Ao3 has been overwhelmingly positive; the response has been beyond my wildest dreams, considering I only started posting Good Slaves Never Break the Rules as an experiment to see if anyone would read it. Over 3,000 hits may not sound like a lot when compared to fanfics from huge fandoms and popular pairings, but for original fiction, it is. And part of the beauty of Ao3 (as opposed to some other sites :cough: Wattpad) it has no algorithm that insists on only showing you what IT wants you to read instead of what YOU want to read. Thanks to the tagging and search system, everyone has an equal chance to be seen, and you almost certainly WILL get readers no matter what. Furthermore, some of my favorite fiction I've found in recent years has been original fiction I found on Ao3. There's great stuff out there!

You'll sometimes see people try to argue that original fiction goes against the Ao3 terms of service. Do NOT listen to these people. The ToS explicitly allows original works that are "fannish in nature," but the ToS also doesn't specify what makes a work "fannish in nature," which essentially means that they're leaving it up to you to determine that. In other words, you CANNOT be reported or kicked off the site for posting original fiction, as long as you're not violating any other part of the ToS. I feel like that's very important, because as writers we tend to stress about this kind of thing unnecessarily.

That said, Ao3 is, and will always remain a fanfic-focused site. For a writer of original fiction who obviously wants eyeballs on their work, that means that you have to keep in mind that the audience will largely be looking for the same tropes they look for in fanfic. (And of course, just as in fanfic, porn without plot tends to get the most hits of all [although surprisingly few comments], but for the sake of this post, I'll assume you're not writing porn and are writing standard fiction, whether or not it includes spicy scenes).

For example, GSNBTR, is a romance with slavery, whump, hurt/comfort, smut, angst, and pining/idiots in love, which are all tropes that show up frequently in fanfic and tend to be fairly popular there. That means that if readers are searching for those tropes in general and not in any particular fandom (which they do more often than you would think!), they'll come across my work. If your work doesn't have popular fanfic tropes (or doesn't mention them in the tags), it will be at a slight disadvantage, but it doesn't mean you're doomed. (If I'd included a tag like, say, BDSM, I'd probably have 10 times the hits I currently do😬). That's just simply the nature of the site. People are looking for certain things and they reward writers who give them those things.

So my first caveat is that if you're writing romance, Ao3 is THE best place to post your work if you want the best chance of finding an audience. However, if your story is fantasy or sci-fi and contains no romance or isn't focused on romance, you may want to check out another site like Royal Road, which is more focused on those genres and has a slightly different audience (I've read that the audience there skews male whereas Ao3 skews female, which would make a lot of sense). RR also has the added advantage that it allows you to monetize your work if that's something that interests you, whereas Ao3 (understandably given its fanfic focus) disallows that.

My second caveat concerns tagging. I gave myself a further advantage by learning how the Ao3 tagging system worked and using it effectively. That means tagging using standardized tags (many of the most popular of which can be found on this page), tagging using terms that people might actually search for, and not rambling in the tags (which just makes your tags harder to parse and doesn't help more people find your work). You can do this even if your work doesn't contain a lot of the most popular tags!

Thanks so much for the question, and I really hope this monster of answer helps! A good portion of what I currently read is original fic I found on Ao3, and for that reason, I think the site needs more, not less! Good luck with your journey!

What scenes do you find the hardest to write?

Sometimes spicy scenes are the hardest to write because well, you have to be in the mood for that! Other times scenes that require a lot of description to set the scene I don't find particularly fun, and usually, I save that type of writing for last (I think dialogue is the most fun, so I usually write that first!) Or sometimes, scenes I really WANT to write but I'm unsure whether I'll be able to pull it off, so I procrastinate. It depends on my mood!

[creepychippy]

Self-Reflection Post

Now, before I begin, I want to point out that this isn't some sort of "I'm leaving Tumblr" or "big Changes are going to be made on this Blog" Post.

This is just something Fun I wanted to do for myself and also because I thought it would be fitting, considering it's going to be the End of the Year.

With that being said, I'll put my very lenghty Ramblings under a Cut for those curious to read.

General Stuff:

Now, I reflected what this Blog actually means to me, and the best way it describes it is something someone once on Tumblr said:

Personal Blogs are like open Diaries for you to put the Stuff you like into and People can look at it and even put their own Thoughts down as well if they want to.

I mostly reblog Memes as well as wholesome Content and occasionally post Art onto it because that is what I like. I like how Things are being run here on my Blog and I don't want to change that.

It may sound weird what I'm saying, but I also like this Blog because when the Moment comes where I have to leave this World, then there is always a Piece of me that is still here and for People to find, look at and remember me by. They can always discover what kind of Person I was if they are curious enough.

Regarding my Art:

Just with what I reblog, the Art I post here is what I personally like and enjoy. I make Art when I feel like it and post it if I want to.

I don't make Art for the Sake of gaining Attention and I like the chill Design of Tumblr (that is also why I rarely post on Instagram, since it's a Competition with the Algorithm on there in a way).

There was a Time when I was younger where I would post Art and then compare my Self-Worth with how much Attention it got, but I gradually realized that it was damaging my mental Health, even to the point where I thought about quitting Art altogether.

Don't get me wrong, I do like receiving Attention on my Art. I have Moments where I reread what People left as Tags under my Artworks because they make me happy. However, I don't prioritize receiving Attention as my #1 Goal anymore when it comes to creating Art.

While my t-worded Art receives a ton of Notes (around 80-100, sometimes even over 200), my general/personal Art barely scrapes around 7-10 Notes, sometimes 20 if I'm lucky (which I understand. If you don't create for a Fandom, it is hard to build up an Audience for Artworks they have no basic Knowledge about and therefore Interest in). I still have one Artwork on my Blog that at this point of Time has 0 Notes on it, and you know what I said to myself?

"It's okay."

Because I prioritize creating Art for my own Enjoyment first and don't pressure myself with having to create something out of someone elses Enjoyment or having to create x-Amount of Art with a Timelimit.

Again, why I like Tumblr's Design so much is because it doesn't pressure you with a Timelimit to create a certain Amount of Art, else you're thrown out of the Algorithm (which is what Instagram does).

I don't like when I'm being pressured by Time (same goes for Time Missions in Video Games), because it stresses me out.

So having the Freedom to say "I create and post when I want to" makes me happy.

About Ideas:

Often Times, I will ask my Followers "Would you like me to draw [XY Idea]?/Would you like me to draw [Idea A] or [Idea B]?/etc?" and then receive an Answer, only for me to never draw said Ideas.

There are Moments where I will feel a little bit guilty about it, but then I have to remember something: I never made a Promise to draw anything to anyone.

So I shouldn't fault myself for it, especially since I never judge anyone else for it as well. Occasionally, there were Instances where People asked me in DMs "Hey, can I make a Fanfic inspired by [one of my Ideas I posted]?" with me answering "Of course.", only for them to never create said Fanfic, and I never blamed them for anything nor was I upset about it. Because sometimes, Life gets in the way or your Energy runs out or maybe you realized just later on that you can't actually work with the Idea now that you are holding it in your Hands, and that is totally okay. It happens to all of us and we shouldn't blame ourselves for it.

Regarding the T-Word Community:

There is something funny I noticed when it comes to some of my Posts. Sometimes, when they are reblogged, People will leave a "tickle community" Tag under it (which I don't mind, just pointing out).

However, I realized that I myself don't really feel like that I am Part of this Community.

Don't get me wrong. There are People from this Community that will approach me, talk with me and interact with me.

What I meant is that I am the one that doesn't approach People from t-word Community a lot. I will have Moments where I'll have a Burst of "I should interact with these People from the Community", yet these Interactions essentially boil down to me just making a haha funny Meme or a Joke rather than having an actual Conversation.

For me, cracking Jokes and being funny is the easiest way for me to interact with someone because it's the most comfortable way which also doesn't require a lot of Effort since I mostly don't know anything about the Person I am talking to.

On top of that, since I already have a Friend Group that isn't Part of the t-word Community whom I talk to daily and love and cherish, I often forget to interact with People that are Part of the t-word Community.

I also have to mention that often, either the Chemistry between me and someone else clicks or it doesn't, which is totally okay and natural for it to happen.

Now, I am not saying all of this for People to pity me and forcefully try to interact with me after reading all of this, since that is the last Thing I want. I am saying all of this because this is something I personally noticed after reflecting on it.

While by Definition I could be considered Part of the Community, in a way it doesn't really feel like I am truly Part of it since those Interactions between People who share the same Interest as me are largely missing.

Truth be told, there were also Moments on Tumblr where Posts were made in which People talk about a ton of Creators that create t-worded Content - and I was rarely if never mentioned in them despite me by Definition having been in said Community for Years and created Posts for it. My very first Post I ever made on Tumblr was a t-worded one.

It may sound rough with what I am about to say next and People can disagree with me on this, but I am essentially an Outsider in the t-word Community as far as I know. (I am not saying that out of negative Emotions like Sadness or anything like that, but rather what I see as a Matter of Fact in my personal View.)

In a weird way, however, it gives me a sort of Freedom which I enjoy. Because for Example, People never rush to me for my Opinion when "Community Drama" happens. I never get bombarded with thousands of Requests either which I appreciate.

Again, this is not in order to gain Pity Points, but something I realized, reflected upon and acknowledge.

In Conclusion:

I like how my Blog is being run right now and how Things are going, so I'm not going to change anything about that.

As for Interactions with other People, I could try to work on them but I am also not sad if it doesn't work out and just ends up being like before.

I enjoy the Type of Freedom I have on this Blog.

[If any of you read all of this to the End, you get a Cookie- 🍪]

[silentmassacres]

tue, nov 19

there came a time in which the length i was so far ahead of people became shorter. even those either behind or equal to me came to have an easier time with the things i'd prided myself in, or things i needed desperately, yet couldn't reach. it's become so easy to surpass me.

and so, i feel the need to make up for it. even if not a soul listens to me, i can pride myself in certain aspects. of course, these aspects just set me apart more, but they always have.

it's harder now. and, unfortunately, the aspects that push me ahead are seldom noticed. when there's little recognition of the things that i can do well, then we go back to the feeling of being behind.

it makes me bitter, which is awful, of course. but when it feels as though i'm looked down upon constantly, it almost feels justified. "if you look down upon me, then i'll switch those roles" kind of thinking.

—

i do get. worried, with my emotional issues. those around me get it, i've made sure of that, but i can't help but wonder what that implies for my relationship. i'm not an outwardly emotional person, including affection, and i know that's bad. it's subjective, i guess, but in this situation, it is a bad thing.

i don't mind my emotional processing. i prefer it and i don't want to force myself into the unknown for the sake of being more. palatable, or something. that's the part that worries me — how much will i, or both of us, have to change to function together?

maybe therapy will help. maybe somebody will tell me the key to not being deeply traumatized and behaving normally in a relationship. the hard part is accessing therapy. i might start fighting for it again

—

i hate discussing trauma. in personal contexts, at least; if it's detached, then i feel less connected to the conversation.

but discussing trauma is like discussing any other issue, and when aid is based off of who listens, then it tends to get to you when nobody does.

and, of course, it tends to come down to whoever screams the loudest. but sometimes that's not it, sometimes it's just chance or severity. i hate thinking about severity.

i know what i've been through is bad, yet i can't help but feel like maybe i'm just dialing it up for. pity, or something. this thought process often goes hand in hand with straight up denial — if it wasn't a severe experience like anybody else, was it even bad at all?

i still do question it. i know that the brain is able to freak out over things that aren't real or that bad, so i have to wonder if that's the case. sometimes i wonder if pretending i have no trauma at all would be easier. or less, at least.

i think it'd make me look bad. there's a reasoning for my more unsavory behaviors, be it mental illness or trauma. if those go away, then there is no reasoning — i'm just broken, or evil, or something irredeemable altogether.

—

i've been somewhat vocal about my worsening state. it's a warning sign, really, to tell others that i'm not being malicious but instead can't find any energy to do anything.

it induces worry, i know that much. i wish i could talk about the extent of it, but i don't want to induce. that much worry.

i worry i may fall into disordered eating again. social media algorithms have been seeking me out and it's making me consider it. i don't know what happened to my discipline; maybe i could do it again, if i build up to it.

but i'm horribly depressed. and when i'm snacking to cope, that only leaves me starving and miserable. i wasn't miserable over the summer, not because of it.

—

i'm scared about the self harm thing too. i wish i could say i know better, but it really is a slippery slope. i don't want to get rid of my blades, partially because i use them for multiple things, but it gets hard trying to distract myself sometimes.

i got really scared that night, when the blood wouldn't stop. it hasn't even scarred yet, though it is decently healed, and i find myself wanting more. that scares me.

i feel like i'm 14 again, trying not to make cutting myself into a daily habit. nobody noticed before, i don't see why this would be much different.

[akirathedramaqueen]

'you'd be doxxing too'

I am not sensitive. But I fucking can't even fully copy down the sentence written not by me even to bash at it and not feel utter disgust.

Are you okay, people? Do I have to spell out that harassing people is fucking utterly wrong FOR ANY REASON?

Look, I'll help. Let introduce you to a magical concept, 'don't like; don't read.' Here's the correct algorithm of actions in case you've got upset by any piece of media to the point you hate it now:

Go away.

No, seriously, stop watching, reading, consuming it in any way. Stop interacting with the fandom. Remove yourselves from the space dedicated to the media.

Okay, you can leave a negative review if you feel strongly about it, focusing on what made you upset. About media. Not author's personality or, for FUCK'S SAKE, their relatives, or ANYONE AT ALL.

?????????????????????

YOU'RE AWESOME. Now move on to the next thing, which hopefully will suit your tastes better.

I promise: after your emotions boil down, you'll feel much better than when you keep simmering in it and keep throwing in the kindling. You won't achieve anything by attacking Viv's fans or (fucking hell, I can't internalize it without seething) people who aren't even involved in production.

Yes, your ship got busted. Shit happens.

So what? Get over yourselves. Write fucking fics which involve your ship. Do your art. Produce a new piece of media involving dynamics you wanted so much to see.

Do you think your feelings about ship are so special it's worth ruining someone else's day? NOT TO EVEN FUCKING START ON DOXXING SHIT. What in the world makes you feel entitled to fucking DEMAND your ship to be included?

This is fucking illegal. Shame internet's anonymity keeps them safe from being brought down a peg for harassment and doxxing. Or at least get publicly called out for it. They violate other people's privacy while keeping theirs at bay. Ugh.

Okay, I am going to stop here because I am getting violent myself.

I just . . . I don't understand. Is it such a hard thing to stay civil?

Yo wait did the doxxing shit actually happen?????

if you're referring to that time Vivzie's siblings got doxxed over what appears to be because Blitzker didn't happen, then yes, that unfortunately happened. For a quick overview of what happened, just look at this image from a twitter thread.

I have linked this twitter thread I have referred to below this image, detailing EVERYTHING that is relevant in regards to this instance of doxxing.

[eldritch-spouse]

What flora and fauna lives in The Clergy’s garden?

Is it spices and herbs for Morell? Or it experimental plants by Patches? Are they all dangerous? Or just look menacing? Is it basically like a maze made out of poison ivy? Or fancy miles of royal worthy flowerbeds? Are they from human realms or from Hell? Are most of plants basically mutated version of Earth’s carnivorous plants that can eat a grown up?

And who inhabits it? An Earth animals like birds and squirrels? Mutant squirrels? Or little winged imps? Definitely ravens, Krulu loves them

This post details plenty of what you asked already, but I'll touch on a few things here.

It's safe to say, in general, that most lifeforms which stumble there don't leave the same. I would liken The Clergy's garden to quicksand.

The Clergy itself is a constantly working organism with a great deal of curiosity towards the creatures that frequent it. Meaning trash, personal belongings, corpses and food will all be absorbed, studied, taken apart and put together in brand new ways as the entity essentially plays with the laws of reality. It's like feeding an algorithm several prompts and then telling it to expand on its own.

The closest things to "natural" animals that inhabit The Clergy's garden are gargoyles, a decently-sized flock that has stationed itself rather stubbornly in it. They have the blunt strength and wits to mostly survive.

Creatures originated in the garden range wildly in terms of physical composition and behavior, but the theme of plant-like attributes is consistent regardless. I have a couple of ideas for potential side-characters originated by the garden, as a result of it absorbing random personal belongings from several monsters. Anyway, these entities will generally not interact with clients too much unless engaged with first- This is due to the fact that The Clergy's Eye has instructions not to directly maim/inconvenience clients too much unless told to.

It's like a small, wondrous zoo made by a cruel god's silent, childishly innocent minion that knows no better. Krulu often thinks about eradicating the garden's fauna for the sake of safety, but that reminds him too much of what was once done to him. They cannot bring themselves to kill the establishment's tentative creations, because they're also indirectly his.

Patches, Belo and Nebul are, again, the ones who love this the most.

[system-of-a-feather]

Really glad XIV has found something he likes so much just for the sake of liking it, it's a wonderful feeling. - Green from @reimeichan

For REAL though.

Like I literally can count the things I experience regular positive affect for on my hand, actually I'll go ahead and do it now 1) The system, specifically Riku who is the yin to my yang 2) Martial arts and violence 3) The guitar / guitar music 4) Communism and 5) chewing things.

1, 2, and 4 inherently tie to trauma, 2,3 and 5 are solely because they are the easiest sensory de-escalators. #3 I think I'd still like even if I didn't need something to quickly calm me / defuse me / give me a non-destructive outlet; but I really really don't think I'd love it even remotely as much if it didn't serve as one of the few relatively reliable things that can take me out of an aggressive fit and/or fight response.

And like honestly? Beyond that, that's it. I have a good relationship with our fiance, but my attachment is fucked and my feelings towards relationships as a result are a lot more transactional than not. I like his presence, and I like him and what he brings into our life, but as it is I don't think I could in true honesty say that I like him for the sake that I like him. Kinda shitty thing to say, but he's aware on how this be for me and its a work in progress.

But to actually have this mysterious thing I love and get positive emotions and care for.... for little more than it being an aesthetic and a mood and honestly just having a great character design / combat design / sound design?? Just for all those arbitrary reasons??? It's pretty nice honestly and like, I am definitely "overplaying" / leaning far far into the joy this gives me, I could easily like disengage from it because I really don't get caught up naturally in positive emotions most of the time; but like no joke its a major sign of healing for me that I **can** experience this affect so I see absolutely no reason that I should mute it at all.

Plus anyways, I live hard by the rule in life that I exist to enjoy and live happy with myself and live my most genuine life as myself that I can and anyone who has an issue with that can get the fuck out and leave since I quite frankly don't have time for people that want to stifle me or make me change for them. I intend to get better and I intend to fix a lot of my toxic and antisocial issues, but that is for myself. If they can't see the vision of where I'm going in life and/or see it and don't like it, that's up to them.

If me never shutting the fuck up about Vergil and Bury the Light is something that would drive someone away, then good riddance, saves me time on a waste of skin, space, and breath.

But I digress, I can experience a consistent unadultered positive feeling towards something that isn't transaction / function driven and so I'm gonna sit here and make Riku scream about Vergil being around every corner cause the algorithms on everything know what I want to see.

It's a good time for me and its a funny time for them. Anyone upset with that can suck it to be quite frank

-XIV