#but i have been nauseous for 2 days it's been a trip. i'm questioning

[darehearts]

so my surgery is scheduled for the 17th 😵‍💫

[the-kcm-muggleborn]

Kind For You

Fandom: Hogwarts Legacy

O/C: Sebastian Sallow x Edwart Thompson x Ominis Gaunt ✨️platonic✨️ (My OC)

Warnings: slight swearing shit

Word count: 1056.

Chapter 2

Part 5

"What did you get for question 3?” Sebastian asked.

“Expelliarmus.” Ominis answered as he was pouring himself some pumpkin juice.

Throughout the following days. Sebastian, Ominis and Edwart started spending dinners together. Sharing assignments, chats, food and even a table. Other students were looking at them funny sometimes.

“I have some things I need to attend to.” Edwart spoke rather suddenly after eating his porridge. “I'll probably be back in the late evening.”

“What do you have planned? Ominis asked as he bit into his toast.

“A fellow housemate sent me information about a ghost which might be able to help me find those missing pages from the book I've found in the restricted section. It would really help me before Professor Fig returns from the ministry.”

Sebastian and Ominis were silent and nearly looked at eachother with the same confused looks already thought that asking questions wouldn't bring much if the new student hadn't gotten all the information to share.

“It's all very complex and I've promised to explain everything which I will when it gets sorted out. For now it looks like I'm to have a trip to Upper Hogsfield…”

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Edwart looked again at the combination of numbers on the houses in the village and the numbers he scribbled in his notebook:

Eldritch Diggory,

Helen Thristlewood

Upper Hogsfield 16.

“Hm. This must be the place Minister Diggory mentioned.” Edwart thought to himself and knocked a few times.

“Yes?” An older woman opened the door.

“Hello Madam Thistlewood. My name's…”

“Ah yes.” She said excitedly. “You're that hufflepuff student. Uncle Eldritch did tell me you might come. Come in! Come in! I'll set the tea. Would you like some?”

“No thank you, your uncle said we might be able to help each other. Would you elaborate?”

Madam Thistlewood explained an entire long story about Richard Jackdaw, Apollonia Black and Anne, a prisoner in Azkaban.

“So let me get this in order.” Edwart said with furrowed eyebrows. “You want me to travel to Azkaban with you so I can speak to a woman who has been sitting there for the past decades in hope that she somehow has an answer to Richard Jackdaw's cave wherever it is. And all that is a clue, not a certainty.” Edwart finished unconvinced.

“Yes I suppose one can put it like that. It has to be you though. You could be a fresh breeze to her which could help her talk.”

“Well I'd rather not go to Azkaban. Is there no other way to help?”

“I'm afraid not. I will be right there with you being a retired auror does have its benefits, we can simply apparate right to her. I've escorted Ministers. professors. and many others to that blasted place. Never a student, I'll admit, but I will keep you safe.”

“Very well. Let’s go.”’

“Steady yourself. We'll Apparate together. Don't worry, l've never splinched anyone”

Edwart heard a snap and felt an unsettling change of air which made him nauseous.

“Shit.” He thought “I'm going to barf. Apparating is rough.”

Before he understood what has happened around him he heard a scream: “Expecto Patronum” A beautiful bunny made out of light came out of Madam Thistlewood's wand and busted through the dementors as she spoke again.

“That ought to keep them at bay for now. Though, be aware - you may feel a wave of despair. It will pass. This really is a dismal place. But we'll be out of here soon enough Now, follow me.”

“No one at school's going to believe this…”

Edwart thought while taking in the awfully cold surroundings of Azkaban. Somehow he did manage to drag the information about the cave from Anne even though her mental state was up to question especially after she attacked Madam Thistlewood without using any weapon. Edwart didn't know what had just happened. He was left in Upper hogsfield in pursuit of that cave.

Finally after all that time. Edwart found Richard Jackdaw who promised to help him as he most likely dropped the pages in the forbidden forest.

Edwart finally sat on the grass taking a breather for a second. He took out his pocket watch and noticed it was time he should head back to the castle but he had to get those pages back…

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Sebastian and Ominis were in the great hall eating breakfast. Edwart was supposed to meet them yesterday at the dinner but when he never showed up, Sebastian felt uneasy.

Finally Edwart stumbled in for breakfast. He had enormous bags under his eyes and he was looking paler than usual.

“Merlin what happened to you?” Sebastian bewilderedly asked “You look like you haven't slept in a week.”

Edwar took a seat next to Ominis and groaned a bit. “Very funny. I’ve had the worst night of my life.” He said, grabbing a toast and basically devouring it.

“We thought we were going to see you at dinner yesterday. What happened?” Sebastian asked curiously.

Edwart swallowed quickly and responded “That was a plan. But I had to get those missing pages I was talking about. Turned out. Out of all the places it was in the forbidden forest.”

Sebastian choked on his pumpkin pastry.

“Merlin are you alright?” Ominis asked with a hint of shock in his voice.

“Who are you asking me or Edwart?” Sebastian asked with laughter

“Both. Are you both okay?” Ominis replied with a small grin.

“Anyway I got caught sneaking back in got in big trouble with one of the Professors and since Fig is not here-”

Just then the Owl’s started flying about delivering mail which interrupted Edwart's story. Sebastian got a letter from Anne. He smiled when it landed in his hands.

Just when they thought the owl storm had come to an end. Edwart’s owl Barney dropped a letter onto his lap. He picked the letter up from his lap with a tense grimace.

“What is it, who's sending you letters?” Sebastian asked curiously.

“I-” Edwart stumbled upon his words as he flipped the letter. “Shit, that's not good…I have to go. I- I have that flying class anyway.” With that Edwart ran out of the great hall at the speed of light.

Sebastian signed heavily “I wish he would be more open with us.”

“Give it time Sebastian.” Ominis replied flatly.

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Thank you for reading part 5. Sorry this one a bit short;/ ."I'd rather NOT go to azkaban" haha same Edwart same. Azkaban time for all my hufflepuff babies. Wonder what's that letter Edwart got...? Small disclamer: I made the photos look darker so they fit the Azkaban's ambience. Hope you enjoyed it. More to come soon.

Part 6

[hearteyes-for-killmonger]

-2- Forest of Death

The echoes of screeching chirps increased in volume as more and more green birds were drawn to the forest cave. The sound was too intense for Makae, but Sam and Dawn were intrigued.

There must've been over 100 lime green parrots gathered like bats on the side of the shallow cave wall and while Makae went ahead with the tour guide to escape the shrill ear-shattering sound, Dawn and Sam lingered to take pictures of the many pretty birds.

"If you could have any power, what would it be?" Dawn smiled once she and Sam left the cave together. They'd danced with the same company for over a year, yet this was their first time kickin' it.

Sam appeared to be lost in thought. It probably had to do with her boyfriend. Dawn had heard they were on the rocks. "You always ask the most random questions." Sam's eyes rolled, but she smiled a little. "I don't know... I'd probably teleport or something... Since I'm always late."

Dawn smirked, her eyes focusing on the broad sky. She'd had the same answer prepared since the first grade when her teacher first asked. It was why she loved to dance. It was the closest she'd ever get to flying. "I've always wanted to fly."

"Well, you can have the window seat on the way back to New York. It makes me nauseous. I don't do heights."

Dawn laughed. She didn't consider Sam or Makae friends, but they were all mature and friendly enough to travel together without tempers flaring. Neither of them could say that about the others in the dance company.

Trekking through slippery mud, Dawn's peanut butter skin reddened and glistened with the dew of sweat and fresh rain. It was humid, hot, and muggy. Sweat dripped down her forehead and neck. Her fine coily hair was pulled back in a low bun and covered with a silk lined cap. Dark mud and damp brown dirt clung to her tall black rubber boots. Her long sleeve thin v-neck clung to her skin with obvious sweat stains on the pits. Even her leggings had gotten dirty. Sloshing through muddy water, she followed the petite male tour guide through plentiful tall trees spotting and taking photos of tiny, colorful creatures that were strangely beautiful and equally horrifying.

According to Semi, the tour guide, it was best to touch nothing. The creatures could be deadly as well as the foliage, and it was infinitely worse at sundown.

"Do not touch them or come in contact," he'd warned multiple times in English, although he barely spoke the language.

Neither Dawn, Sam, nor Makae could afford to be bitten or stung.

Though they'd ventured out into the woods on this tour for adventure, memories, and sights, they were in Birnin Zana to perform. They had a show the following day.

"Remind me again, whose nonsense idea was it to come all this way when we have a show tomorrow?" Makae stepped gingerly over a thick fallen tree branch sitting on the edge of the marked path. Checking with Semi first, she sat on it for a quick break. "We have to get back before it gets dark. God forbid we trip and need tetanus shots."

"Don't do that, don't be negative," Sam glared.

"How is that negative?"

Makae had suggested leaving three times already. It was annoying to Sam and Dawn.

"We all agreed this hike would be fun, and it was," Sam reminded Makae as she snapped a picture of a freaky and fuzzy orange and black tarantula the size of a chihuahua. It posed on a thick white human-sized web between two trees feeding on a small red bird that was wrapped.

"Don't get too close," Dawn warned, uneasy watching Sam flirt with disaster.

According to Semi, it was not only poisonous but could jump. He, too, warned her to stay at a safe distance.

It looked like the end of the marked trail, right before a shallow pond. Wiping her forehead with the back of her hand, Dawn sat to take a sip of water from her backpack while eyeing Sam's back in concern. Sam was extremely close to that dog-sized poisonous tarantula.

"Reason 82 of why we should call it a day," Makae said dryly, rubbing sweat from her deep-complexioned skin. Her skin was like Turkish coffee.

"Makae, you should be used to this," Dawn recalled from an earlier conversation. "Weren't you born here in Birna Zara?" 

"... Just say Golden City." Makae shook her head. "I haven't been here since I was 9, and do you honestly think I would've been in this forest of death?"

Dawn sighed. "Well, we don't have much further now before we turn back, do we Semi?"

"No, this is the end," Semi answered.

"Seriously?" Dawn was disappointed. They hadn't scratched the surface of the infinite forest. Dawn wanted to continue. She was an explorer with a love for nature and a desire for adventure, and she wasn't tired. She walked ahead, noting that no one followed.

"TO INFINITY AND BEYOND," she shouted to the top of her lungs, the desire to run wild overtaking her.

"Stupid," Makae muttered. "Just like a gahdamn American. How far can we actually go?"

Semi looked a bit uneasy. His face was inexpressive, but Dawn, Sam, and Makae all had eyes to notice that it was the first time he'd appeared particularly nervous since the tour began.

"Oh, Semi," Makae smiled, picking up on the awkward change in the atmosphere. "They don't know the legends. They're American."

"What legends," Dawn asked, jumping at the sound of a loud crack. The sudden sound got everyone's immediate panic at once, followed by a thump, the sound of a splash, and the sound of men yelling in Xhosa.

"SHIT," Makae gasped as Semi began to yell back to communicate. That's when another thump sent Sam to her knees into the muddy water with a splash. It happened too fast. Dawn leaped in panic, kicking through water to get to her, dropping low.

"What's happening," Sam shuddered, eyes wide. She was bleeding heavily. 

"I don't know. I don't know!"

The sound of another thump alerted Dawn to the sight of three black men rushing in with big guns. She stumbled through the muddy water, trying her hardest to get Sam and herself out of dodge, but Makae was missing. Makae would've known where to go.

The men grabbed Semi, prodding him with the barrel of a gun and demanding answers as Sam fell and Dawn lifted her again from her knees, trembling.

"Oh my God," Sam gripped Dawn with wild eyes.

Dawn followed her stare to a body lying face down in the water. Makae.

"Oh my God," she echoed, moving faster. The armed men yelled behind them. Dawn looked back to see one charging her way through the pond with a machete.

Sam hopped faster, her injury nearly forgotten as she tried to run clinging to Dawn. Still, the man with the machete caught up. He snatched Sam's shirt and slung her backward to fall flat beneath the water. 

Dawn's heart pounded as he snatched her by the wrist, raising his machete and yelling. She covered her face, and instead of being slashed, she was pulled toward the other men who loaded her and Semi onto the back of their open jeep and tied their wrists with rope.

The men continued to talk amongst themselves, but Dawn couldn't understand a word, and every time Semi spoke, they would hit him in the head with the gun to silence him. What had she or him done to cause this? As far as Dawn knew, she was as good as dead.

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[powerrangersystem]

Ketamine Treatment Experience

This post is about my experience in Spravato and Ketamine treatments (with and without a therapist guide). It will be long, so I will put it under a cut. But if you are interested in what Ketamine therapy feels like, feel free to read on. And if you have any questions, let me know. I'm happy to answer.

So, Ketamine injections and Spravato nasal spray feel basically the same to me, depending on the dose, so I'm going to talk about them together. I'll say Ketamine for short, but I am referring to both here.

With or without a therapist, I meet with the prescribing physician and discuss the dose. We talk about my symptoms (I always fill out a little questionnaire about them beforehand) and how I reacted to the dose in the last session. Then she determines if we need to go up, down, or stay the same

Without a therapist, I would take the ketamine and then put on something to listen to. I would be put into a small room with a comfortable chair or bean bag chair, a light machine, and a small table. The lights would be turned off and the light machine turned on (it resembles stars on the ceiling).

I typically listened to Welcome to Night Vale because I've listened to it before so it doesn't matter if I pay attention to it or understand it, but I find his voice comforting. Most people listen to music, I believe. Just listen to something you find comforting.

I experience a great amount of dissociation with ketamine. I do not feel my body at all when I'm on ketamine. I could not move or walk if I wanted to. I also can't talk.

I don't fully remember everything I experience while high. But I usually feel like I'm moving through rooms. I tend to mildly hallucinate different rooms. I also almost always feel like I've been on some important journey. Trying to figure something out or trying to find something. I sometimes think I've had a very important conversation with someone, but I don't remember it. Perhaps I'll be able to talk about it with a therapist present and remember more, but I've only done one with a therapist so I don't know yet.

I have never had a bad experience (though I did get sick to my stomach once), but I know that it is possible. Having a therapist in the room would probably help with that. In my clinic they have cameras in the room to monitor all the patients as well.

With a therapist: we talk before the dose, do a grounding, and set an intention to think about during the trip. Then I take the dose and relax for a while. I am usually unable to talk while on ketamine. My trip usually last about 20-30 minutes, but I am apparently a fast metabolizer, so usually they last closer to 40-60 mins.

Once I am able to talk, I talk with my therapist about my experience, anything that came up, or really whatever comes to mind. I typically still feel the effects of the ketamine at this point and wouldn't be able to walk well, but I can talk. I usually have blurry vision as well at this point.

After a while, my vision clears and I am able to walk again. My clinic allows us to leave after 1.5 hours, but you can stay as long as you need. They used to require you stay 2 hours to be monitored, but they reduced that time.

You are not allowed to drive afterward, so I take an Uber (though this is expensive so if you can get a ride, do that).

Depending on the dose, I usually don't feel too many side effects after about two hours. I take a zofran to help with nausea before the dose, but if it is too high I will sometimes still feel nauseous. I feel loopy and can't concentrate well for a few hours. But after a day, all the side effects are gone and I am back to normal.

My mood improves noticeably for 24-48 hours after the first few doses. Then, after I've taken about 3-4 doses, my mood improves for longer, usually all the way until the next dose. My treatments usually go on for 2-3 months, though they can go on for longer if necessary. I usually feel better for several months or longer, though I'm hoping that doing ketamine with a therapist will make the effect last even longer.

If you have any questions, please let me know and I will answer them. For context, I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder, PTSD (possible complex), anxiety, an eating disorder (two actually), autism, and medically recognized as having DID. I am happy to talk more about how this therapy affects any of those diagnosis if anyone is interested.

[dudadragneel]

Dear annon! Here it is! I'm sorry that it took so longo and for the lame ending.

Requests are open

hello💞 not sure if requests are open but may I propose a Jake x reader where he’s nauseous and feverish on tour and y/n takes good care of him 💖

Idols schedules were always frantic, comebacks, concerts, MCing, variety programs, interviews, and trips. And sometimes all of this could happen within a week.

Tours were also tiring, sometimes there could be 2-3 concerts back to back, and usually, they had very little time to rest before catching a plane to another country. And that meant different time zones, jet lags, and different kinds of food.

It's actually surprising how they manage to deal with all of that, but, do they really?

You and Jake started dating a while after their debut, and of course, you kept it secret, you were even surprised how the company allowed it, but if it was working, why question it? 

Your dates would usually happen at the company building or sometimes they arranged it so they could go to your house and you could go to the dorms. 

You loved to play games with them and they always welcomed you so warmingly. And of course, whenever you could, you'd go on a few trips with them. But you could not take all of their schedules so, sometimes, if the tour stopped by your home country, you usually stayed there. 

This time, they were mid-tour and they had gone from a really hot weathered country to a cold one. And that messed with Jake's immune system.

You went with them to rehearsal but you and the boys noticed how he grew quiet throughout the dances. And when they were done with the first half of the rehearsal, Jake just slumped down to the floor with a loud sound, alarming everyone.

- JAKE!

You and the members ran to his side, you wrapped your arms around his shoulders and squeezed them reassuring him you were there.

- Hey, babe, what's wrong? 

- I dont...I dont know.... I felt lightheaded all of a sudden.

You noticed that he was sweaty and you felt that he was hot through the fabric of his hoodie but it was only when he touched your hand for comfort, that you felt how hot he was.

- Oh my god, Jake, you're burning up! 

- Jesus man, you're on fire! 

- I'll bring a cold towel

The leader said exiting the room.

- Babe, how are you feeling?

- Hot and suffocated...

- let's take off this hoodie for a bit, hm?

- Okay.

You took off his hoodie and the moment you touched his skin, he hissed in pain.

- Agh!

- What is it? What's wrong? 

- I dont know, it hurts. It feels like everything is on fire when touching my skin.

- Can someone give me a thermometer?

- here.

One of the staff handed you a thermometer and you placed it under Jake's armpit. Five minutes later you took it off and were shocked.

- 37,5°C! Jake, how long have you been feeling like this?

- Come on, it's not that high....

- Not the time to be cute. Answer me.

You were as serious as someone could be and he didnt like to see you like that because he knew it was his fault.

- Maybe, since morning? No. I think it was since yesterday, at the end of the day.

- Why didnt you tell us?

Jay asked, just as serious as you.

- I dont know. I thought it was just because of the cold weather. That once I slept, it would go away.

- And what exactly were you feeling yesterday? 

- My nose was runny and my head was hurting a little. But I thought it was just because of the plane ride... didnt know it would become like this.

- And how are you feeling right now?

- Cold, lightheaded, and tired.

- I'll ask the instructors for a break.

Jungwon said getting up to talk to the staff.

You and the boys propped Jake up to his feet and guided him out of the room. It was too hot and stuffy inside there and it was making him feel out of air.

Jay got a wet cloth and handed it to you so you could wipe off Jake's sweat.

- I know it's uncomfortable, but it will make you feel a little better.

- Thanks....

- Jay, can you buy me a sports drink? I'm a little thirsty.

- I'll be right back.

After a few minutes, Jay got back with the drink and followed by Jungwon.

- The staff said we need to pass the choreography one more time and then we can go back to the hotel. You dont have to participate though, you can just watch.

- Alright.

- How are you feeling right now?

- A little better, I guess.

- Then let's get back into the room. 

- I'll stay with him.

- Please.

You went back to the practice room with Jake and sat in a corner watching the others run the choreographies.

You noticed how focused he was and how from time to time he pressed his forehead and squeezed his eyes.

- Hey, you okay?

- Hm? Yeah... It's just my head, it's hurting a little bit. 

- I have some painkillers with me, do you want one?

- No, thanks. I dont think I can take them now...

- Why? Are you feeling something else?

- I dont know for sure...my stomach feels kind of weird?

- Weird, like nausea?

- I dont know how to explain... It feels like I'm full even if I didnt really eat that much.

- Okay. So slow down on the water, alright? Take small sips. Just for precaution.

- Alright, my love.

The practice felt like it would never end and eventually Jake was feeling too tired, his head was hurting, his face felt like it was lit on fire, his skin felt hot and damp at the same time, and his stomach felt weird. He just wanted to get out of that place, he wanted a shower and a bed, that's all.

Noticing this, you guided his head towards your shoulder and wrapped your arm around him, while your other hand massaged his.

- It'll be over soon babe. Then we can go back to our room.

- Thanks....

He felt safe and comfortable with you and he must've been more tired than he thought because he managed to doze off even with all of that noise.

After more 45 minutes, the never-ending practice finally ended. You woke him up and helped him to his feet. 

The fever must've gotten a bit higher because the movement made him dizzy. As soon as he was up, his vision blurred and he felt his head spinning before he knew he had leaned his weight on your body.

- Hey! Jake! 

- Oi! You okay?

Jay said grabbing one of Jake's arms while you supported him. The rest of the group made their way to you alerted by the situation.

- Jake-Hyung, are you okay? What happened?

- Sorry guys.... I just got really dizzy when I stood up....

- Babe, I think your fever went up a bit....

You said putting your hand on his forehead.

- Yeah....it feels like it....

- Come on, let's go back to the hotel.

- Can you walk? 

- Honestly? I dont think so.... my legs feel weak.... I'm afraid of fainting....

You could hear in his voice that Jake's condition worsened in the last minutes and that he was feeling more than tired, he was exhausted. 

- I'll give you a piggyback ride to the car, okay?

He was embarrassed to the core but he felt like every ounce of strength left his body, so he accepted your request.

Thankfully he wasnt that heavy so you could carry him on your back.

The ride back to the hotel went peacefully, he slept through the entire ride on your shoulder and you could feel how hot he was. 

Upon arriving to the hotel, the boys and the managers helped Jake to your room.

You helped him lay down on the bed.

- We'll have the medical team check him, okay?

- Alright. 

- Hey, babe, do you want to take a shower? You sweat too much today....

- I dont think I have any strength right now.... I just want to sleep for a while....

- Okay...Lets wait for the doctor, see if they'll give you any sort of medicine.

After a few minutes, the medical team came to check him and concluded that he had a cold, hence the fever and the diziness was being caused by it. They said that since his throat was in good condition, he could perform, after taking the medicine and eating.

- You can rest now, we'll come to get you guys for dinner later, okay?

- Okay. Thank you.

- Do you want to take the medicine now, my love?

- Yeah... hopefully it'll help me rest a little...

He took the medicine and within 15 minutes he was fast asleep, you laid down next him and pulled him closer to you. Jake wrapped his arms around you, and rested his head on your chest, your heartbeat helping him calm down.

You checked his temperature from time to time and felt relieved when you noticed it was coming down.

Jake slept for the rest of the day, until night, which you were grateful for, he really needed that.

Around 7PM, Jake woke up, and he felt better, thankfully, the best he felt all day.

- Good morning, sleepyhead!

- Y/n.... good mornin- wait, what?

- I'm just joking haha

- You startled me, babe. Was I out for too long?

- Well....basically for 5 hours or so. You slept like a ferret.

- I needed that, I feel much better now.

- Your fever went down a lot! Do you think you can take a shower now? We'll leave in a few minutes for dinner.

- Yeah! I'll be ready in no time.

He felt a lot better, so he thought it had just been the symptoms of a mild cold and that he would be 100% better by morning. But his evening was just starting.

Getting out of the shower he decided to put on a hoodie and some pants, it wasnt the most stylish outfit but you had to admit, he looked cute. He said that given what he felt that day, he just wanted to be comfortable. 

The group was going to have dinner at the hotel's restaurant, given Jake's condition earlier, they didnt want to risk going out of the hotel and something happening.

You two met with the rest of the group in the lobby area before heading to the reserved area of the restaurant.

- Hey Jake! How are you? 

- Better. I slept for some time. I feel much better now. And y/n said my fever went down, so that's good. 

- Great! You must be hungry.

- Starving!

- Your table is ready.

The food came and you had to admit, you'd never not be surprised by how much these boys ate. Sometimes you wondered if they ate anything at all during the day. 

Jake ate as if he had been starving all day, and for a while, you were very happy to see him eating like that. But that didnt last long.

30 minutes into the dinner, Jake's body started to feel funny again. There was a slight headache starting, he felt like his fever was coming back and his stomach was starting to act up. He decided to sit back on his chair, trying to get a little away from the food, but you noticed he had gone quiet.

- Hey, babe, is everything okay? You got quiet all of a sudden....

-Hm? Yeah, I'm fine, it's just my head started to hurt a little.

You grabbed his hand and noticed it was a little hotter than when you guys went down to the lobby.

- You're starting to feel hot. Maybe you fever is coming back?

- Maybe. But I'm okay.

- If you say so...Look! Your favorite food is here.

- Ah, yeah, I'm kind of full now...

- Really? But you like this so much! Just a bite, you deserve it after what happened earlier.

- Okay.

Jake started eating again, and for some time, his stomach actually accepted the food but then things took a turn for the worse. 

He had one more bite, and his stomach decided it was just too much. He immediately felt nauseous, he felt cold sweat on his neck, he put his spoon down and tried to keep up with the conversation going on.

But it only got worse, he felt his food coming up his throat and began swallowing convulsively, he held onto the fabric of his clothes with a tight grip, trying to focus on his breathing, but it wasnt working. He was going to be sick. 

- Guys...Excuse me... where's the bathroom?

- Hm? It's a bit in the back. Jake, is everything okay?

- No- I'm gonna be sick-

He gagged onto his hand and Heeseung was quick to get up from his chair and went to Jake's side.

- I'll take you there. Can you stand up?

- I dont- I feel lightheaded...my legs feel weak....

- Come on, I've got you.

Heeseung helped Jake up and held him close as the younger bent over. You wanted to go with them, but you were in a somewhat public space, meaning you couldnt enter the men's restroom.

- Y/n noona, was he like this before?

- No...He was feeling better. He took his medicine and slept. When he woke up he said he was feeling good and took a bath. 

- Maybe the food didnt sit well with him...

Heeseung got to the restroom just in time, as Jake couldnt hold it any longer. He bent over as a thick stream made it's way out, coming out of his nose as well. The sensation was horrible since he didnt drink anything during dinner, it was just solid chunks, which made him even more nauseous, as the texture left a horrible sensation in his mouth and throat. 

He had no time to breathe before another wave came out, hitting the edge of the toilet as well. 

Heeseung kept rubbing Jake's back, up and down and in circles, trying to give the younger a little comfort. 

After a few more rounds, Jake straightened his body, trying not to vomit anymore, but everything he felt that day had escalated to the maximum level.

Suddenly his fever spiked, his head pounded as if someone had landed a punch and he felt incredibly lightheaded.

The movement made him dizzy and he felt cold sweat from his neck all the way to his back. He was going to faint.

- Hyung....I feel like I'm gonna faint....

- Okay, it's okay. I've got you. Come here.

He was thankful that he knew English as Jake suddenly spoke in his native language. It happened whenever he got sick, as it was more comfortable for him. 

He put his arms underneath Jake's arms just in time as the boy lost consciousness, and he felt how hot the younger was. He carefully guided him down to the floor and used his hoodie as a temporary pillow, and he lift Jake's legs up to help the circulation back to his brain.

He soaked a towel with cold water and used it to wipe off the sweat in the boy's face. Slowly, the color came back and he started to breathe normally again.

A few seconds later Jake regained consciousness, but all the information coming back was too much, the lights, the smells, the noise, everything was too much. Before he even managed to get up, he felt vomit coming up his throat again, he barely had time to turn to his side before throwing up again. 

Heeseung helped him sit down and rubbed his back as he continued to vomit again.

- I'm sorry hyung-

- Dont worry about the mess okay? Let everything out. 

Jake's body was determined to get rid of everything as he continued to vomit, each wave hitting the ground with a sickening sound. 

- There you go. Do you think you're done? 

- yeah.... 

- Can you stand up? 

- No....I have no strength

- I'll help you up.

He put his arms underneath Jake's and slowly guided him up, and once he was standing, he made sure to support him and check if he felt dizzy again. He helped the boy to the sink to rinse his mouth, but standing up was killing him.

- Hyung- I dont feel good...I cant feel my legs...

- Here. I'll carry you back.

He helped Jake to his back and gave him a piggyback ride back to the restaurant.

Everyone was shocked with the situation.

He sat him down on a chair and you went straight to him and pulled his head close to your body and started rubbing his back reassuringly.

- Heeseung hyung, what happened??

- He threw up a lot and his fever spiked and he ended up fainting. 

- Oh my god.

- Hyung, isnt it best to take him to the hospital?

- I think it'd be better. We need to figure out what's going on with him. I'll take someone from the medical staff and y/n with us. I'll let you guys know as soon as we have an answer.

- Okay, hyung.

The manager took you to the hospital and after some tests, Jake was diagnosed with a bad stomach flu that was aggravated due to his immune system being weak. He spent 2 hours in the hospital taking IV fluids due to dehydration.

The doctor gave him a prescription for anti-emetics and a fever reducer before you were free to go.

Arriving at the hotel, the manager carried Jake back to your shared bedroom before leaving to tell the members about his condition.

- Hyung, how's Jake? What's wrong with him?

- He's got a bad case of stomach flu. The doctor said that his immune system is weak due to all the trips and everything and it aggravated the situation. They gave him a prescription for anti-emetics and fever reducer. He probably wont take part in tomorrow's performance.

- I understand. Well, we'll let him rest then. Y/n is with him right?

- Yes. The medical staff is with them as well, at least for now.

BEDROOM 

- He probably will continue to vomit, but try your best to keep him hydrated. If you notice that he's losing too much water, call us and we'll set another IV fluid for him. It might be an arduous night but we'll be available any time okay?

- Okay! Thank you so much.

After the medical staff left, you were left alone with your sick boyfriend.

- Jake, how are you feeling?

- Like I could pass out at any time....

- So a bath right now is the last thing we can do....

- Yeah...but I feel gross, I smell like vomit and I'm covered in sweat...

- I can wipe your sweat. I'll call one of the boys to support you while I do it, okay?

- That's embarrassing but okay.

He said, finally letting out a little laugh.

- Yeah, you'll have to deal with it, babe.

You said laughing back. 

Before calling one of the members, you checked his temperature.

- Jesus, babe, 38.5°C! No wonder you feel like fainting. 

- It feels awful....

- And the nausea?

- Gone for a while...

- Thank god.

You called Jay to help you give him a little bath.

- Yo, Jake, how are you feeling?

- Horrible, but at least the nausea is gone for now.

- That's good!

- Babe, let's take off that hoodie.

You said, coming back with a bowl and a wet towel.

- Jay, can you sit behind him? And support his back for me? While I wipe off his chest?

- Sure.

- Babe, this might feel bad because the water is a little cold.

He hissed in pain as the cold cloth touched his skin, his fever was so high, the smallest of touches made it feel like it was cutting his skin.

You whipped off the sweat from his chest then moved on to his back, and Jay helped you and him throughout the process. 

After a few minutes, you finished the process and gave him another hoodie, a lighter one this time. He needed to take his fever reducer so he had to eat something.

- Babe, do you think you can stomach at least some bread? Just so you can take your medicine?

- Maybe...I dont feel that nauseous anymore

- Good.

You ordered some bread for the sick boy, which the hotel staff was quick to deliver.

He ate it and thankfully his stomach accepted it and took his medicine.

- Babe, I'm tired...

- Do you want to watch some tv until you sleep?

- Yeah...

- Come here, my love.

You let him rest his head on your chest and cuddled him. You kept stroking his hair and within a few minutes he was fast asleep.

You turned off the main lights and let just a darker one on so you could read.

After 1 hour or so, the boy was still sleeping and you thought that he would finally be able to rest after such a tiring day. But that wasnt the case.

2 hours into the night, Jake started to feel funny again, his stomach started to twist and turn while he was sleeping. You noticed him shifting uncomfortably and woke him up.

- Babe, Jake, wake up. What's wrong? 

- Hm? My stomach....I dont feel good...

- Do you think you're gonna be sick?

- I dont know....

- Okay. Can you walk to the bathroom?

- No...I feel weak, I dont want risk passing out on you....

- Okay. Here.

He sat on the edge of the bed and you gave him the bucket that was near. You sat beside him and rubbed his back.

- Just let it out babe. Unfortunately, you'll only feel better if you let it out.

- I dont want to, my stomach hurts from all the movement.

- I know babe, but holding it in wont help.

He didnt want to throw up again but his body said otherwise. The nausea increased by the second and he started to spit thick saliva into the bucket, he gagged unproductively a few times before another wave of vomit poured out of his mouth hitting the bucket.

- There you go. You're doing good. I'm right here my love. 

You rubbed his back up and down as he emptied his stomach. You thanked the heavens that it had been enough time for the medicine to kick in so he wouldnt have to take it again.

The ordeal went on for a few minutes before he was left dry heaving. You cleaned his mouth and gave him some water to rinse it. 

Given the situation you decided to settle him in a sitting position on the bed, just in case.

- Lets try to take that anti-emetic? Think you can keep it down?

- I hope so...

He took the medicine, which his stomach thankfully accepted.

After a few more minutes he was asleep again, you took the opportunity to clean the bucket and take a shower. You sat beside him on the bed and kept rubbing his hand.

Unfortunately, it wasnt long before he got sick again and that's how your night went on, with Jake getting sick at least 5 more times.

The next day, he didnt take part in the concert, and he also couldnt go to enjoy it with you.

You two spend the day on the hotel room, but this time Jake only got sick two times and by night he was feeling better, the fever being the lasting symptom.

- Babe, next time you're not feeling well, you need to tell us, okay? So we can avoid the situation worsening like this.

- I'm sorry, love. I really thought it was just something from the plane ride. Will you forgive me?

He looked at you with the cutest puppy eyes you've ever seen in your life, and you couldnt help but squeeze his cheeks.

- I love you.

- I love you too, babe.

[lifeflowingon]

| FRACTURED 2 |

Summary: After a traumatic accident, you wake up with memories of a life, everyone around you denies you ever lived.

Pairing: Jungkook x female reader

Warnings: Angst, kinda strangers to lovers, eventual crime, mystery.

A/N: Thank you for reading :)

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TRIP TO NOWHERE

"Um. I haven't had the chance to introduce myself properly" said the doe eyed man walking alongside her to Namjoon’s car "I'm Jungkook".

You nodded. You were still a little freaked out that he had called you baby.

"I think there is something you need to know before we arrive hom- I mean- at your house".

"What is it?"

"Uhh" he looked so uncomfortable you kinda wanted to take him out of his misery, but you barely knew him "What you should know is that- uh - wekindalivetogetherinthehouse".

"Jungkook" chastisized Namjoon opening the car doors.

"Sorry hyung, but she should know".

"We live together?" You asked, confused. Why would they live toget- Oh. That's why he had called you baby... But that made no sense! You weren't dating, you didn't have a partner.

"I won't stay with you because I can tell it bothers you. I just, I wanted to let you know in case you find something mine in there".

You nod curtly and remained silent. You didn't know the guy, as handsome as he looked, you weren't going to risk sleeping under the same roof with a stranger. Less, knowing something didn't add up in this situation.

Once in the house you finally had time to yourself. As soon as the men left, you started questioning everything they have been telling you.

"Star?" You huffed "What a ridiculous name, how can this be my name".

Jungkook had walked you to the door, opened it for you and handed you the keys. Eyeing him suspiciously you had took them and closed the door without further conversation.

Looking around you started getting creeped out, this house was exactly like the one from your memories. The kitchen was in the same layout, bathroom had the same curtains and the main bedroom had all your bedding and even the skincare. Sitting at the end of the bed, you felt overwhelmed. You could feel the anxiousness rising slowly through your body.

"Why does this look the same? I- It- It can't be".

Feeling nauseous you ran to the toilet and threw up. Your insides were burning and for a split of a second you questioned if you had really drowned. With all the adrenaline, you hadn't notice, but right now you were realizing everything ached.

With difficulty, you blocked both doors in the house and laid in bed crying. The next day would bring answers, you were sure of it. This wasn't right.

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The next day didn't come fast enough, and you barely slept, so when you heard a loud knock at the door, you didn't react quickly.

Dragging your foot you take out the obstacles and opened the door to see a chirp Namjoon and a worried Jungkook.

"Good morning" said Namjoon "Are you ready?"

"Ah no, sorry, let me clean up real quick" you answered, warm cheeks showing you embarrassment.

"Sure, we'll wait here" Namjoon sat, getting comfortable in your couch.

When you were ready, you grabbed a purse you found there and walked to where the men were waiting for you.

"Ready? Let's go" Namjoon said.

Jungkook hesitated, but then gave you a mug - your mug to be exact.

"I made you coffee, I hope you don't mind".

"Thank you" you said curtly while accepting the cup.

Once in the car Namjoon said:

"We could go walking, but since we are trying to make it to the city quickly we'll just drive to the dock and then we'll take a boat to the city.

"Sure"

Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Jungkook watching you with frown eyebrows. But you paid no attention, you just wanted to get to the city quickly.

Looking curiously through the window, you realized it was really a village. Lots of wood houses surrounding a small square with a well in the middle. People were walking and talking. There were some vegetable and fruit stalls but overall, there wasn't much going on besides that.

The car got away from the village quickly and followed a path in the mud.

"We are here" Namjoon said, getting out of the car.

You looked around but saw no boat.

"Where-?"

"Over here" called Jungkook, leading her to a small wood dock that was barely visible due to vegetation.

"Ok" you said and started walking confidently in his direction, but as soon as you put a foot on the dock you felt yourself shiver. You tried to keep walking, but your body didn't seem to obey.

"Star?" You heard Namjoon’s voice far away.

Shaking incontrollably, you tried to speak but your throat was sore and you vision was getting plagued by black dots.

Suddenly, Jungkook's face was in front of you. He looked worried.

"Do you need any help?"

You tried to answered him no, but couldn't move at all.

"I'm gonna carry you ok? Star?" He said, sounding comforting.

You didn't want that, but couldn't say no either.

With delicacy, he leaned to grab your legs and support your back so he could carry you bride style to the boat. Still trembling, you tried to move your arms but your body was frozen otherwise. The involuntarily movement pushed your head against his shoulder and the smell of his perfume or his body - you didn't know - surrounded you. It did seemed familiar and it relaxed you.

You were able to close your eyes and fairly quickly, you were inside of the cabin of the boat. The space wasn't as small as you supposed it was going to be, and if you sat strategically you couldn't even see through the few windows.

"Sorry" Jungkook said, helping you to the ground "I know it's hard, is just, this is quicker than by car".

"How long is by car?"

Jungkook was knealing in front of you after he helped you sit on the floor. He was looking at you with a soft gaze, but before you could start drowning in it, Namjoon’s voice filled the space.

"12 hours by car, since we would have to surround the entire island to reach the bridge that connects to mainland".

"I see"

"By boat is more direct though, so it'll only take an hour to reach land. It is a bit secluded, but we also have a car in that dock waiting for us".

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Everything was going wrong.

You insisted on going to your apartment first, but the door has been opened by an unknown woman, telling you she has been living there since she got married long ago. Kindly, Namjoon explained the overall situation and the lovely lady let you wander around the place.

You didn't find anything yours, but the woman had a similar decoration and the disposition of the place was alike. You tried to wreck your brain and find something only you could know, but nothing came to mind and soon enough you all had to leave.

In absolute silence, you walked out of the building. Wringling your hands and afraid you were truly confused, you looked at the sky. How could you create all this vivid memories in your head? It couldn't be. It just couldn't.

"Where to now?" Asked Namjoon, with little emotion in his voice.

"To the preccint" you answered, already making the path you used to take to go to work.

"Star? Where are you going?" Asked Jungkook, confused.

"To the police station?" You said unsure.

"Let's take the car" was the only thing Namjoon said, with no space left to argue.

"Oh, sure".

Once in the vehicle, Namjoon took different routes, never one you knew by heart. So, despite knowing where you were, you had no clue as how to move around if you were to go walking from here.

Sooner rather than later, the three of you were outside the preccint. Obviously, you didn't have your work ID with you, so your only hope was to go and try for the guard to ring you in.

Confidently, you went to walk in hoping the guard will recognize you, but he stopped you almost immediately.

"You aren't allowed to go in miss" he said, blocking the access "This is a private entrance-".

"For workers of the station, yes I know. I work here" you said "I don't have my ID as of now, but if you let me in I'll talk with Captain Min personally".

"Sorry miss, but I can't let you go in, you can try the public access though, just go around the corner."

"My office is this way, I usually don't go through that door".

Eyeing her suspiciously, he moved to block the door.

"You with them?" He asked, pointing at Jungkook and Namjoon.

"Yeah, but if that's a problem they don't need to go in with me" you stated without even looking at them.

"Let me ask about it, please face this way" he said indicating a camera placed high on the wall.

Impatiently, you dared to look at Namjoon who shoot you an unimpressed look, but on the other hand, Jungkook seemed nervous.

Nervous about what, you wondered. It was because their ruse was going to end or was something else at stake here?

"Name?" Asked the police guard, interrupting your thoughts. You answered and awaited nervously, moving from foot to foot.

"I'm sorry miss, they say you don't have clearance to go in".

"W-What? How-?" You stuttered, starting to feel afraid "W-who is at the desk?"

"I'm afraid I can't give you that information. Sorry for your trouble. You still can try through the main entrance".

"How can it be! A month ago I was working here! I need to talk with Captain Min Yoongi, he'll know me" you pleaded with the guard, feeling your stress starting to rise and rise.

"Let's just try the other door Star" you heard Namjoon’s voice next to you.

"I- yes, okay" starting to walk away, you suddenly thought of another idea. Turning around you said "Just a second, hey could you asked for Captain Min to check the camera?"

The officer seemed worried and you saw him looked around.

"Miss I can't bother the Captain with these affairs".

"Please, just please" you begged him, there was not point in going to the public entrance if you couldn't talk with Yoongi.

"Ok, I'll ask" he nodded moving aside. You saw him speaking through the radio, but couldn't hear all he was saying.

"Miss? They informed me Captain Min isn't available to fulfill your request".

"Oh, thank you. I'll be out of your hair now" you replied, disappointed "Thanks again"

Nodding, the man shared a look with the three of you, but you didn't acknowledge it. You just wanted to go away as fast as possible.

Coughing, he looked at you and spoke again.

"They informed me that, eh- that he isn't available because no one under that name works here".

Stopping in your tracks, you just inhaled. Shaking your head you refused to acknowledge that information and kept walking. You didn't know what were the thoughts going through Namjoon or Jungkook's head and you didn't want to know.

Disheartened and trying to think what to do, you cursed yourself for not knowing the number of Yoongi. He had to be worried, you knew that. You had been working together so many years that you became friends and barely a day went by that you didn't see each other or talked with one another.

But the only number you knew by heart was the landline your parents still had in their house.

Wait! That could work!

"Namjoon do you have my phone?" You asked, stopping yourself in the middle of the street.

"Yeah, in the car though" he answered.

"Let's go then"

"What about the station?" Asked Jungkook, still looking conflicted.

"If Yoongi isn't there - doesn't work there - is of no help".

"To the car then" Namjoon said, changing the direction of his steps.

Sitting in the car he gave you your phone but it was turned off.

"Sorry, you fell to the water with it. I don't think is working".

Sighing at your bad luck, you tried to turn it on, but nothing happened.

"Okay, can you lend me yours?"

Before you had to repeat yourself, Jungkook took out his own phone and placed it in your hand.

"Thank you" dialing your parent's number, you waited for the line to pick up.

"The number you have dialed doesn't exist. The number you have dialed doesn't exist."

Gulping and feeling tears pooling in your eyes, you kept trying until Jungkook took the phone away from your trembling hands. Listening to the message, he shook his head at Namjoon, who just sighed and started the car.

"Let's go home Star" said Namjoon, patting your shoulder. You only had energy to nod.

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You had been laying in bed for a month now. After the disaster that your excursion to the city had resulted to be, you had refused to leave the house until something made sense. But everything was still confusing.

You could understand that the police officer couldn't recognize you, but the one working at the cameras? The guy that usually had that job was one you knew well, you even had dinner with him and his wife!

The same thing happened with your parents, they have had that phone number since forever and despite you telling them numerous times that they should get rid of it, they had never wanted to. It was rare for them to do it right when you needed it the most. The only logical explanation was that all that Namjoon and Jungkook were telling you was the truth, but you had no recollection of any of it.

You only had the memories everyone seemed to think were fake. But how could your brain construct such a complete life without you having lived it?

Another thing that confused you was your newly acquired fear of water.

According to your memories you never were afraid of it, but you reaction to the river had been puzzling to you. Even now, thinking of it made you shudder.

That was the only thing that ring true about everything Namjoon and Jungkook had said.

And even if you kept the silent treatment, Jungkook didn't fail to leave you warm food everyday or just drop by to deliver whatever you might need, despite the lack of response from you.

You didn't know where he was staying, and you didn't want to know. But at the same time you still felt a little guilty, if this was indeed his house, you were keeping him out of it.

"Hey, I'm just dropping by to leave you dinner" you heard his voice while he closed the front door.

Tired of not knowing and curious about what he could tell you about yourself, you left your bed. For the first time in weeks, you went out of the room and joined him in the kitchen.

"Hi"

Surprised, he turned around and smiled at you.

"Hi" he was busy fixing your food and saving some groceries in the pantry "Want to eat something?"

"Sure".

If Jungkook was surprised again, he didn't show it. He just got to it while you watched him in silence, until you couldn't handle it anymore.

"Jungkook?"

"Hmm?"

"Can you tell me about Star- I mean, me?"

"I don't know if I should" he said, looking conflicted "Namjoon said that he was going to talk to you when you feel better. We could call him later".

"Do you really have to ask for his permission?" You said, knowing it might hurt him but not caring at all. You wanted answers now.

You could handle it.

Serving your food, he sat in front of you in the tiny kitchen.

"I know the same he told you. Is what- is what you said when we met aswell. Your parents died in some sort of accident, Namjoon’s dad brought you here, sort of adopted you and I met you when he did the same for me. He, well, I'm thankful because he saved me from orphanage life and you never said it, but I think you are too".

Stunned and and unable to speak, you tried to process the information, but it was so strange to you it just felt out of reach.

"We met as childs or-?"

"Well, sort of. We indeed met as kids, but we never really lived together. For a while, you lived with Namjoonie hyung but then we were all sent to study in the city and we mainly stayed there. I lived with hyung all those years while you went to a different school. We didn't really eh - connect - until we all cameback from university.

"Okay" she said softly, trying to piece all the information together. Didn't ring any bell, but at this rate it seemed nothing ever will "If I spent so much time away from here, why did I got back?"

Smiling at her, his big eyes searched her face warmly.

"We never explicitly said it, but I guess we both felt we owned this place all we had. Here we both work for the village and honestly? We have all we could want.

"Am I happy here?" Coming back to live at a secluded island did sound right up your alley though. Like something you would actually do. Especially if you knew you could help someone in the process.

"I think so" he said "I hope so".

Exchanging an unknown, but comfortable look, you thought to yourself that as long as you were confused about your life, the smartest decision was to continue with this life as Star.

"I was thinking, where are you staying? This was your house too right?"

"Oh don't worry about it, Namjoon hyung has enough space to share and since I work with him everyday, is easier this way".

"Oh, okay" you replied, doubtful "Well if- if at any time you want to comeback, you can do it. I don't mind- since is your house aswell, that is."

Reaching out for your plate, Jungkook stood up and started to rinse it.

"I'll think about it" he mentioned "It's kind of hard to be next to you, but not with you".

"Ah".

"Go get ready, I'll accompany you to see Namjoon hyung, so you can talk to him too".

"Okay".

Walking slowly and without looking back, you heard him hum a familiar tune while he kept tyding your place.

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"Well, hello Star, what brings you both here?"

"Hmm, Jungkook and I were talking about- about me. And he said you also wanted to talk".

"Sure" Namjoon was sitting in a desk in his office "You can leave us Jungkook" he dismissed it, and gave you a smile.

Jungkook patted your shoulder and left you both alone.

The room had a big window at Namjoon’s back, and you could see the movement of the town through it.

People came and went, some carrying boxes, other dragging carts, but overall everyone was busy.

"Honestly, I just wanted to talk with you so I can know if I can expect you at work soon".

"Work? I don't- don't really know what I did- do, its a bit confusing".

"Of course, I understand that. It's just that I've been covering for you and on top of that I've been doing my job, so you'll understand I'm beat".

For someone, who had supposedly lived with you as family for a few years, Namjoon looked really stoic and goal oriented. You wondered if your relationship was always like that.

"It's not that hard anyway, you could jump right in" Namjoon said, looking for something in his desk "Here, this was you notebook, since internet is not that good here, we saved everything in paper first".

Looking through it, you realized it was full of numbers and products.

"Did I do inventary?"

"And other tasks" he confirmed "You checked the numbers aswell. Before everything goes through Jungkook or me, you were the person in charge of the accounting.

"Accounting?"

"Yes, maybe that's why you are confused that you worked as a police station secretary's..."

"I was a victim advocate! I worked representing the survivors!" You yell, getting ofuscated "And don't get me wrong, there is no shame in working as a secretary, but I am so tired of hear that line".

"Sorry" he replied, not looking regretful at all "Going back to business, do you feel like working again? It would save the rest of us the extra work.

"Sure, but I'm not confident I'll know how to do it correctly".

"Don't worry" said Namjoon, smiling mischievously for the first time. His dimples made him look as if he was up to no good "That's what Jungkook is for".

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(La lleva a la casa y es muy parecida a la de sus recuerdos y tiene todas sus cosas, lo que la confunde

La llevan a la ciudad y luego de 1 día de viaje llegan a su departamento y otra familia (pagada) vive ahí y el lugar luce nada que ver, confundida va a la policía y se ingresa con credencial, el guardia (pagado por la mafia) no la deja pasar insistiendo que no la conoce y que no trabaja allí.

Trata de llamar a sus padres y nadie le contesta, suena como número no existente (los locos se lo bloquean)

Confundida decide devolverse a la villa, wlnjefe compra cosas y las llevan de vuelta y otro día de viaje y ella se aclimata a su casa

Le dicen que su trabajo consistía en llevar el inventario de la cosecha y la venta de los vegetales y que quizás por eso ella estba confundida que trabajaba de secretaria de la policía  "no de secretaria! De victim advocate! I was their representant!"

She starts to live there everyone greeting they have light and water and wifi but supposedly bad signal

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| masterlist |

[2023-records]

Day 8 __ Sun Jan 8

Recording this late...

It's tourny day! Suprisingly woke up with no back pain after sleeping on this firm memory foam mattress on the floor LOL

I woke up first and then woke Megan and Olivia up so we would still have enough time to get ready, drive 25 min to Long Beach, and warm up before our first game at 9am. Olivia ended up taking days and our eta was 8:45am, leaving us only enough time to park, pay for parking, put on our gear and jump straight into playing... I wasn't trying to trip too much about this limited time. I just turned on all of our butt heaters and blasted the heater. Olivia was bussing 90mph HAHAH and then I could feel Megan's annoyance of our tardiness in the backseat. Once we got in the gym, our on-time teammates told us that they changed the schedule and we were off the first round! Thank the lord.

We were placed in the small gym isntead of the large Walter Pyramid gym, but we eventually made our way there during playoffs. We were all suprisde that the B division pool matches were not that difficult... We definately could have competed in BB/A but probably wouldn't have won frist place. There were 4 our of 7 of us on the team that would switch between outside, middle, and opposite. This meant everyone still gets playing time in every game. It took me some time to figure out my spacial awareness while playing but I finally got the hang of it by the end of pool play. We got into playoffs and kept winning. I ended up playing middle in the finals but I did a pretty good job at slowing down hits, serving the other team off the court, and being a cheerleader! HAHA Although I wasn't playing my prefered position, I felt like I was still doing my part in helping my team in the most necessary way. I'm just glad I got to play with such an amazing group of women who all want to have fun and still put in all our efforts. It was nice that we could all laugh at our own silly mistakes but still bounce back and focus on winning together. I definately didn't feel this way with Dynasty, the previous SF team I played for.

I only cramped a little bit in my left calf during pool play. Once I felt this, I immedately took another magnesium pill, liquid IV, and kept massaging and stretching. I made sure to eat carbohydrate rich snacks in between every match, regardless of if I was hungry or not. I knew that it would help with avoiding cramps. I fianlly figured out how to avoid cramps during my tournament days now. Cramping would always ruin my focus and competitive drive.

Ching and Robin picked up Mama Lu's Dumpling House and brought it back to their house where the whole team came over to grub after a great team win. It was around 7:30pm and I knew that we would have to leave soon after eating and showering. We eneded up leaving Robin's aorund 10:30pm to charge the Tesla until 11pm. Oh boy was the ride home going to be a doozy. The car ride back to South San Jose to drop off Megan took 8 hours... The stops and also the rain slowed us down TENFOLD. On top of that, Olivia was drowsy the entire time and I couldn't get sound naps in since I was scared for my life that we would drive off the road. I tried to stay away to ask Olivia questions and make random conversation so that she could stay awake. At one point I couldn't take it anymore and fell asleep. I felt so bad for Olivia since she basically drank 2 Celcius energy drinks during this ride and they did nothing for her. We made it back to her place in Fremont by 7:45 am and I had to drive back up north to go home. I literally coudln't stay awake as soon as I got on the freeway and immediately felt nauseous. I had to call mikel to ask if I could nap on the couch in the living room. I wasn't expecting Mikel to wake up and I was so ready to sleep in my car parked in his neighborhood. Thankfully he picked up after the second call. I was struggling with exhaustion and hunger... I had basically been awake since 6:30am Sunday and it was 8am Monday. I had to muster up energy to eat the instant Pho before taking a nap. I cried because I was so exhausted and also missed Mikel so much. Although he was still getting over his covid symptoms, he was still able to take care of me :,( I felt so bad because his sore throat was really painful and I was probably acting so delirious. I slept from 9am till 2pm and woke up somewhat revived. I stayed over for the day and got to spend some time catching up with Mikel's parents too. As much fun as it is traveling, I always miss being by Mikel's side since he brings me such warmth and comfort. This weekend made me appreciate the people I currently have in my life even more. You could say it was a really "eye-opening" weekend.

[natsglorifiedsimp]

Hiiiiiii! Your friendly neighborhood anon is back with another prompt. Last one, then I’ll leave you alone :)

Prompt: Can’t Live Without You (part 2) All 6 stones have to be returned to where they were taken. So Natasha returns to Vormir.

The Stonekeeper nods, “You’ve returned with the stone.”

“No, I’ve returned with an offer,” Natasha pulls the stone from her pocket, “a trade: a soul for a soul.”

Hey hahaha. Please I insist you keep them coming. As I said you're the only one who requests fics and I'm happy to have them and write one. So don't leave me alone, keep sharing your ideas anon <3

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"No, you can't go, Nat" steve firmly stated. This wasn't up for discussion and she hated it.

She hasn't been well since the day that you were gone. When she announced it to the team everyone was devastated but Nat has the greatest impact of all.

She was not okay mentally and physically and her being stubborn about getting back the stone herself is a big no-no for the team.

"I can go" she nonchalantly said.

"No nat, you can't go with me" Cap was getting annoyed at how Natasha was being stubborn. He glared at her and the ex-assassin happily glared back.

"You're not okay, Nat" Banner said, looking away from the glaring assassin. "Bruce's right" Sam backed up Banner but was given a death glare by the assassin.

"They're right Nat you're not okay"

"Don't you think I know that!" Nat shouted, fed up with everyone looking at her with pity.

She sighed, guilty for her sudden outburst "Just give me the soul stone then" Nat commanded handing her hand out to Steve. "I'd like to bring back that stone"

"Okay fine" Steve grumbled annoyed at how he's scared and folded at Natasha's commanding glare. But mostly he gave it up to give Natasha closure for your death.

Natasha beamed at him with the most sarcastic smile she could muster. She took the stone and readied her suit.

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The trip to another time was as nauseous as she remembered. The cliff that gave her nightmares was still the same. The purple aura of the sky and the stone keeper who was ugly as he will ever be.

She watched as you and herself leaped at the cliff. She winced and waited until the inevitable happened.

No matter how far she was from the scene she could hear your body slamming to the ground and her bone-crushing scream.

Oh, how she hated coming back to this place but she had a plan. She needed to get you back.

When everything was clear she face the red-faced man again. She didn't question how the man or ghost? Didn't act surprised seeing her again after the scene that happened earlier.

"You've returned with the stone" the stonekeeper stated. He gazes at the stone that's resting in Natasha's pocket.

"No, I've returned with an offer" the stone keeper watched as Natasha pulls the stone out of her pocket and laid out her hands for the red-faced man to see. "A trade: a soul for a soul"

The stone keeper gave her a knowing smirk, the man floated at the edge of the cliff and Natasha followed him.

"Which soul would you like to trade?" The red-faced man said. Natasha wondered how many souls were sacrificed just for this stupid orange stone. How many did lose their loved ones?

"I want my daughter," Nat stated. "I want Y/n Romanoff"

The stone keeper waved his hand and with one swift motion, your body was lifted limply in the air. Your mom gasped at the sight. She thought she'll never see you again.

Your body lay on the ground and Natasha almost ran towards you but the stone keeper stopped her.

"The stone" he firmly stated. Natasha visibly rolled her eyes and handed it out to him. She immediately clung to your limp body and felt how cold you were.

"Why isn't she waking up?" she questioned the man. She jerked your body trying to see anything but to no avail.

"It'll take a few seconds" He simply stated, clearly not caring about the dramatics.

"Honey, it's time to wake up" she cried out, voice shaking, heart pounding.

"Mama?"

Natasha sighed in relief hearing your voice. Hearing those words. She sobbed into your chest and grasp you tightly, afraid you'd be gone again, afraid you'll slip out of her hold.

"What'd I miss?" You asked. Natasha sniffly chuckled at your bad humor at this very bad time.

"Don't ever do that again" she firmly scolded, her eyes filled with mixed emotions. You looked at her and grinned with unshed tears.

"I'm sorry, ma" you wondered how much pain she went through without you. "Seeing you here, does that mean we won?"

"Yes y/n we won" she mumbled. You smiled at her and got up to the ground. Natasha took your hand protectively and scowled at the ugly man.

"Ma" you trailed off and she hummed in response. "Do I get ice cream when we come home?"

"Really? That's what you're gonna say after everything?"

"I mean I just went to the ghost world and there is no ice cream there" you exasperated.

"Nope, you won't get ice cream"

[namjoon-koya]

Hey there, I just LOVE your work with avengers x daughter!reader so I had a request for you...I'm sorry if it's too much..

Could you write an imagine where the reader is the daughter of Stephen Strange. She never went to school but learnt magic with her dad and became an avenger. She was best friends with Peter and was also secretly crushing on him, and was always open to her dad about this but she couldn't tell Peter because he was always telling her stuff about MJ so her dad encourages her into confessing to Peter and she actually ends up with him?

(A/N: dude I haven’t done a marvel request in a while 🥺 but this request is really cute so I’ll do it!!)

Warning: maybe just the reader feeling insecure, but that’s about it.

Being the daughter of a sorcerer was pretty amazing if you do say so yourself, it’s not everyday where a teenager learns magic and uses it against criminals. It also wasn’t everyday where a teenager would join the avengers along side with their father, Steven Strange was your father it was always the both of you, but he would always be busy with being a doctor and everything UNTIL he got into a car accident and was put in the hospital. He wasn’t the same after that.. the car accident messed up his hands badly and his career just vanished before his eyes, until he went on a trip to the Himalayas and found his purpose again. He came back home only to show you what he learned there and told you everything about what happened, after that he moved you into the house where he was trained since now he was the new master for the sorcerers there.

You stopped going to school, but that didn’t mean you’d stop getting an education your father was smart so he taught you eveything he knew. He even taught you magic it amazed him how quickly you learned even Wong was impressed “She might become the new master in the future.” He would always say to Strange which made him proud he knew you’d be amazing if you did. After teaching you everything he knew about magic he decided to introduce you to the avengers, EVERYONE was shocked that he even had a daughter “so why didn’t we know about her?” Tony asked “it wasn’t necessary for you guys to know especially since she didn’t know any magic like I did.” He simply responded.

Everyone become like a close family to you, Steve taught you about his era and even how to draw which was amazing since his drawings looked very realistic. Natasha was like a mother to you, she’d given you so much advise and even how to fight (but you never liked fighting against her since she’d always win.) Thor was like a fun uncle you two broke so many rules and he’d even challenge you to see who could eat the most PopTarts (yeah you’re losing this one too.) Bucky was a bit harder to get close to, he wasn’t sure of himself or anyone else besides Steve, Steve didn’t tell you everything about his past only that Bucky endured a lot of painful things which made him not able to trust people quickly. He slowly did start trusting you afterwards when you talked to him more and showed him the magic your father taught you.

Then there was Peter Parker who was around your age, the both of you became friends quickly when Tony introduced him to you. The both of you shared the same interests in things and whenever Peter was having trouble you’d be the person he would always text or call. It was only a few months later did you realize your feelings for him, but unfortunately Peter always talked about a girl in his class named MJ. At first you tried not showing your feelings about it, but everytime he mentioned her name you couldn’t help; but just roll your eyes. It was obvious he liked her if he mentioned her all the time, you started spending less time with him always saying “I need to go study more spells.” Or “Sorry I’m spending time with my dad.” When really you were sulking around the avengers tower.

You were sitting near Bucky as you had a notebook in your lap as you drew a sketch of him, he never really cared if you drew him he was always happy to see the results when you were done. This time though something was off you were glaring down at the paper and you were pressing your pencil so hard onto the sheet of paper “Y/N is something wrong?” He asked you finally looked away from the sketch and looked at him “n-no! What why would you say that?” You ask nervously. “Well.. you seem to be really.. rough with the paper and I could hear you often mumble some words.” Shit why did you always forget he was a super soldier and he could hear things so easily?! “Have you ever.. liked someone?” You asked brining the notebook a bit higher to your face so Bucky wouldn’t see you blushing “Y/N why are you asking me this? Seriously what’s going on?” He asked.

“Finnne! You can’t tell anyone! S-So.. I’ve been liking Peter for a while and-“ Bucky quickly interrupts you “the spider..kid?” He asked. You sighed “Yes Bucky the Spider-Kid anyways.. I’ve been liking him for a while, but I think he likes someone else.” You frown sadly “he’s always mentioning their name when they have absolutely nothing to do with our conversation so I’ve-“ suddenly you hear someone come into the room you quickly shut your mouth and pull the notebook up to your face again. “and here I thought I was alone in the avengers tower.” You heard Loki say as he sat next to you.

“We were having a conversation.” Bucky said to him while crossing his arms “oh? Do enlighten me about this conversation.” Loki said sarcastically.

Bucky then starts arguing against Loki as Loki only argues against him, you let out a sigh before getting up from the couch and leaving to your room. Once you get to your room you set your notebook down before throwing yourself onto your bed and whine into your pillow, it was so frustrating. You wanted to tell Peter how you felt, but he already liked someone and you were scared that you’d ruin the friendship between the both of you. You got up from your bed and you summoned a portal to where your father was, you stepped inside the portal as you did it closed right behind you.

“Dad?” You called out to him as you did so suddenly you saw your father’s red cape quickly rush to you before wrapping itself around you, you giggled “I missed you too pal.” You saw your father walk down the stairs “Y/N? What are you doing here?” He asked as his cape returned back to him. “I just.. wanted to see you it’s been 2 days since I’ve last seen you.” Your father smiled at you gently “I know and I’m sorry.. I’ve been busy with the other sorcerers and helping them master magic.” You nodded “it’s okay.. I actually wanted to talk to you about something.” You said before going over to sit down, your father followed behind you as he sat down across from you.

Two cups of tea summoned before you both “thank you.” You said taking a sip “You’re welcome now what’s wrong Y/N?” Your father asked. You let out a sigh “you know Peter Parker right?” He nodded “that spider-kid right?” You rolled your eyes “Yes.. well we’ve been best friends for a long time and you know we get along pretty well and I’d say we have similar taste in things and well.. I-I’m in love with him, but I don’t think he likes me.” Your father didn’t interrupt you as he carefully listened to every word you said “he keeps mentioning someone else and I can’t help, but get jealous y’know? I try not to because I don’t want to ruin our friendship, but.. I just really care about him and I want to tell him; but I’m afraid..” you said lowering your gaze down to the ground.

“Afraid? Afraid of what sweetie?” Your father asked “of getting rejected.. or him wanting to stop being friends with me..” you said bringing your knees close to your chest your father quickly gets up and wraps his arms around you “Y/N.. it’s okay to be afraid, but I think you should tell him.”

“But what if he doesn’t like me?” You asked.

“Sometimes not everyone we love will be in our future Y/N, but if you don’t tell him how will you know if he does or doesn’t love you?” He was right, even if Peter didn’t like you like that at least you would know.. “Thank you dad.. I’m going to tell him then.” You said getting up from your chair you summoned a portal to your room before you leave you quickly jump into his arms and give him a hug “thank you dad for the advice.” You say to him he hugs you back gently stroking your hair “of course Y/N I’ll be at the avengers tower soon.” He said letting you go. You nodded before stepping inside the portal and close it, you send Peter a message asking him to come to your room once he was done with school for the day.

While you waited you felt yourself getting nauseous as seconds and minutes passed by what if he wasn’t coming? What if he stopped being friends with you because you didn’t hang out with him anymore? Suddenly you heard your door click open you looked up and saw Peter his faced was flushed as he was breathing heavily “I-I got your text what’s up?” He asked He came running to you? Why would he even do that? You didn’t know what to say you only grabbed your pillow and held it against your face don’t cry, don’t cry! You kept shouting to yourself “p-please turn around Peter.” You mumbled against your pillow. Peter gave you a questionable look before turning around, you slowly pulled the pillow away from your face.

“A-And don’t interrupt me.. please?” You saw him nod “I’ve.. liked you for a long time Peter-“ you saw him tense up “I know it’s awkward, but I need to tell you that I really love you Peter you’ve become such a good friend to me especially when I didn’t have anyone around who was my age, you’ve shown me how to be happy and how to have a fun time-“ your lips trembled “a-and if you don’t like me back that’s okay! I just wanted to let you know because it’s been building up inside of me for a few weeks so-“ before you could finish Peter quickly turned around and pulled you in closer to him before planting his lips onto yours. You gasped against his lips you didn’t expect him to kiss you like that.. and what about MJ? you melted into his kiss his lips were so soft against yours it all felt like a dream..

You both pulled away from each other “P-Peter I thought-“

“Sorry Y/N I’m not really good with my words o-or even showing signs that I like someone.” He said holding you against his chest.

“So.. you liked me all this time? What about MJ?” You asked.

“MJ? She’s just a friend Y/N.. don’t tell me you were jealous.” You pouted as he said that you gently slap his chest “oh hush! Don’t ruin the moment..” you said to him. He laughed while planting a soft kiss on top of your head, you felt your heart flutter “so.. does that mean we’re dating now?” You asked him “if you want to then yes.” Peter said you bury your face into his chest “of course I do dummy I wouldn’t have poured out my feelings like that if I didn’t.”

Bonus!

“See? I told you they’d end up together Rogers.” Tony said to Steve who only scoffed “I thought you were protective of Y/N Tony.” Steve commented back “I am, but Parker is a good kid so I know he’ll treat her right.” While they both bickered Bucky turned his attention to Strange “what about you? How do you feel?” He asked him “I’m happy for her she deserves happiness, but I won’t hesitate to send Peter off to another dimension if he breaks Y/N’s heart.” He said glaring at the TV. Bucky chuckled “I think we’re all on the same page as you.”

[leelee10898]

Fast cars & Freedom: Bad Liar (12/?)

The end of summer zoo trip has arrived, as tensions run high will the trip be a disaster? Catch up HERE

Pairings: Logan x Ellie, Colt x Ellie

Rating: Mature

Ellie had gotten herself in well over her head again. After Logan told her what he wanted, and the blow up with Colt. She made herself busy with work, and spending her free time with Luca. She had been looking forward to the zoo trip all summer, but that morning she woke up dreading the day. She had minimal contact with Colt, and Logan was often at the track preparing for a big race coming up. She got up and got herself ready before waking Luca up. Once luca was ready they went down and had breakfast. Ellie sat there picking at her muffin, not having much of an appetite, and her stomach was flopping all over the place.

“Hey guys. We're sorry but we're not going to make it to the zoo today.” Ellie gave her dad a confused look. “Um ok. Not that I didn't want you guys to come but, it was only supposed to be The four of us. Luca, logan, colt and I.”

“oh Logan invited us the other day. But, sally and I are going away for the day.” Frank grabbed a cup of coffee while the frustration swirled in Ellies head. “You ok kiddo? You look a little pale.” Ellie shook her head “Yeah, im fine just, my nerves are shot.”

“Grampy, I'm going to the zoo today. I'm going to see Lions and pandas and tigers and hiphopitamuses.” she grinned, Ellie and Frank chuckling at the mispronunciation. “You mean hippopotamus’s” Frank snickered. “Yeah, that's what I said hiphopitamuses. Silly grampy.”

“Well you have fun. And don't let the monkeys fling poop at you.” Frank waved. “Dad! Seriously?” Ellie scolded him. He stuck out his tongue and walked out the door.

Ellie and Luca drove alone, meeting Logan and Colt there. After a 2 hour drive they pulled into the parking area of the zoo, meeting Colt at the gate. “Colt.” Luca went running, a wide smile spread across his face “Hey princess.” he scooped her up in a hug. “Hi Colt.” Ellie walked up to the too. “Ellie.” He acknowledged her. He still was angry, her stomach churned again, the stress was eating at her. “Hey Luca, Hey Ellie, you guys made it finally.” Logan came walking up, Ellie turned towards his voice glad he was there but her face falling slightly seeing Stacie standing next to him. “Oh, hey Stacie I didn't expect to see you here.”

“Oh, yeah Logan asked me to tag along.  Riya and Darius couldn't make it.” Stacie grinned.

Ellie chewed the inside of her cheek, trying not to say something she might regret.

They paid for their tickets and made their way into the zoo. Luca was ecstatic,  she loved the zoo and Ellie would often take her back on the East coast. She would always tell her how her parents would take her when she was a little girl, and her favorite animals to see were the otters.  Logan was just as excited as Luca he had never been to the zoo before. They walked around coming up to the Arctic Fox. "Wow, so pretty. Its fur is snow white." Ellie marveled at the beautiful animal before her. "Well, its white what did you expect." Colt snorted, Ellie shot him a dirty look. "Let's move on." Stacie suggested, sensing the tension.  

They walked up to the baboons, they watched them run around and jump, playing with each other.  Ellie stood next to Colt, who had Luca on his shoulders, her gaze set on Logan standing with Stacie. His hand planted on her shoulder as he stood behind her, pointing things out.she watched as Stacie laughed, and then playfully slapped his chest.

"Ok. Let's move on." Ellie snapped, they all looked at her as she quickly turned making her way to the next animal.

They stood in front of  the penguin display. "OOH penguins, I love penguins Colt. Get closer. " Luca tugged on his hair. "Ouch. Alright, Alright. I'll move closer." Logan stood next to Ellie and Stacie. "Awe look at the babies." Stacie swooned. "Did you know the father hatches the egg while the mother hunts?" Logan crossed his arms, pleased with his input. "Oh yeah? Where did you hear that?" Stacie quirked her brow, Logan gave her a lopsided grin "happy feet." Ellie rolled her eyes annoyed.  Stacie was her friend, but why did Logan invite her on their family outing, or for lack of better terms, dysfunctional family outing?

Of course you'd be impressed by that Ellie mumbles under her breath.  Colt cocked his head to the side.  "Something bothering you Elle?"

"NO." she snapped.

"You know most penguins go through life with one partner. Once they find them, they never seperate." Ellie shot him an unamused look. "If only some humans were like that." He focus on her as he spoke.  "Come on squirt, lets go look at the giraffe's."

Ellie stood there alone a minute while everyone followed colt. She could feel her stomach churning again. This was not how she anticipated the day going. Once she semi composed herself she joined the others.

After an afternoon of snide remarks and jabs between the 3 of them Ellie finally had her fill. They were standing in line to get drinks. It was hot, and tensions were running high. "Can we go see the tigers? Mommy, I want to see the polar bears, you promised we could see the polar bears. When Can we see something else. " Luca whined.

"Luca, we will go in a minute. Calm down and let stacie get her drink." Ellie snapped. "Whoa Ellie calm down. Are you mad about something?" Logan questioned as Ellie stood there, mouth agape "Seriously Logan?" She threw her hands up in the air "Why did you invite Stacie here?"

"I didn't think it would be a problem." Ellie rolled her eyes. "Of course not. Nothing is ever a problem. This was supposed to be a family outing. Is. Is something going on with you and Stacie?" She pointed at him, just as Stacie walked up. "No, were just friends Ellie." Logan said in defense prompting stacie to chime in "Ellie, I told you I would never do that to you."

"Why do you care so much Ellie? You want to be with Logan?" Colt broke his silence. The four began to argue amongst themselves for a few minutes, finally Ellie spoke up "I'm done with this. Come on Luca, lets let's go see the polar bears." She turned looking for Luca, she was nowhere to be found. "Luca? LUCA!" she shouted panic setting in.

"Luca." Logan shouted, still not getting a response.  Ellie began to hyperventilate colt on her immediately "Ellie, Elle I need you to calm down. We're gonna find her. Breathe in." He looked up "Logan, go look by the polar bear enclosure, and then to the Lions.  Stacie, go tell a staff member we have a missing child." The two nodded and took off.

"Colt, my baby. What if we." Ellie sobbed.

"Hey, calm down. We're gonna find her, trust me." He pulled her into a tight embrace, calming her down. "Now, is there anywhere else she would go?" Ellie's eyes went wide "Hippos."

Colt grabbed her hand as they took off running, darting around the other visitors. They came upon the Hippo enclosure, their eyes darted around before Colt locked eyes on the small brunette child "Luca." She shouted, she turned smiling at him. "Ellie, I got her." He shouted as he scooped her up in his arms. "Luca, you scared us. You can't wander off sweetheart."

"Lulu, oh thank god. Baby you can't wander off, you scared us to death." The three stood ellie and colt holding onto her for dear life.  

Logan and Stacie ran up, thankful she was ok. A slight pained look on his face as he watched the interaction between the three. "I'll go and inform the staff we found her." Stacie gave his shoulder a squeeze as she parted. Logan made his way to the trio "Thank god you found her. Hey lulu, you really gave us a scare." Luca reached over for Logan. "Are you mad at me uncle Logie?" Logan chuckled "no. I'm glad you're ok. But you can't wander off like that ok."

They decided to call it a day after that. Luca having school the next morning. Both men agreeing to come see her off. As Ellie put Luca to bed that night the day replaying in her head. How did things get so screwed up. Was there really something going on between Stacie and Logan? She knew Colt was upset about the divorce, but the way he stepped up and took control of the situation made her really believe he would be a good dad, if he was Lucas father. And the few minutes Luca was gone terrified her, it was just a few minutes but it felt like a lifetime. The nagging nauseous feeling crept back up again, she couldn't wait for it to be all over, the divorce,  the paternity results. She laid down, tossing and turning in bed most of the night.

The next morning she woke up, got Luca ready and sure enough both Colt and Logan were there to see her off. Luca was excited to start school, she excelled in preschool,  and placed much higher than a kindergarten level on her school entrance test. Though she most likely got her smarts from her mother, Colt was also very smart, and Logan really showed his intellectual side during the study date with Riya and Darius all those years ago. She would definitely be a force to be reckoned with in school, that was for sure.

Ellie took the day off of work, she knew she wouldn't be productive with her mind occupied with Luca being at school. She spent the day wandering around the house,  cleaning up, unpacking boxes she still hadn't gotten around to. If she were being honest with herself she was also trying to block out the fact the court date was the next week. She often found herself wondering if she were making a mistake,  and every time she wondered it, Dracys words popped in her head. He loved Luca, he really seemed like he would be a good dad. But what if being a family wasn't enough? What if he turned out to be just like Kaneko, wanting more, the crew again. She took a deep breath, allowing herself to think those thoughts brought back the familiar nauseous feeling. She took a deep breath calming herself down,  she would cross that bridge when the time came, only if she were Colts.

Before she knew it, it was almost time to get Luca from the bus. Logan had a race he coming up, so he had to take off right after they got Luca on the bus. Colt however, would be there. Ellie sat on the front patio waiting when she heard the familiar sound of a bike coming down the street. She watched  him as he pulled into the driveway. She always loved the way he looked when he rode. He had traded in his old leather jacket for a new one, his shoulders broader than when he was 19 going on 20. He was still as fit as ever, ellies mind flashed back to the night they hooked up, her hands pressed against his muscular chest. She bit her lip at the thought,  his impossibly tight shirt not helping the situation as he walked towards her . "I knew you would be out here already." He smirked as he walked onto the porch. "Yeah, how'd you know that." She tilted her head at him. "Because you're always like an hour early for everything."

He was right, and she couldn't believe he remembered.

"You ever think you'll go back to a car?" She asked.

"Not anytime soon," He chuckled "Guess I'll have to use one of the cars I Have sitting around for when I have Luca."

"I miss it." Colt eyed her "miss what? The bike? You want that too?"

"NO. I miss the riding. The thrill, the feeling." A blush crept up on her cheeks she prayed he didn't notice.

"Let's take a ride. " He stood holding out his hand. Ellie hesitated "I ahhh. I dont know, Luca-"

"will be off the bus in 45 minutes, we have time. Come on, we have plenty of time." Ellie contemplated for a split second, before an old feeling she had tucked away ignited her body. "Let's do it." She jumped up following him to the bike. They climbed on and he fired up the bike.

She wrapped her arms around his waist tightly, her head rested against his back. She watched as the scenery flew by in a blur, the sound of his peaceful breathing putting her at ease. She missed this more than she thought, she needed just one last ride before she closed that chapter of her life completely. They drove for about twenty minutes and then came back to the house. They got off the bike, "thanks. I needed that." Ellie smiled as they walked together to the patio. "Yeah  anytime." He sat down fidgeting with his thumbs. "I'm leaving town Elle." He blurted out. Ellie felt her heart drop into her stomach. "Colt. We have court, and what about Luca?" She was shocked, she couldn't believe he would just leave.

"I can't go to court, I can't go and I won't.  If I go, I will contest it all. But if I leave, you'll get what you want,  you'll be happy." He turned looking at her "That's all I want for you El, to be happy, that is all I ever wanted. I'll tell Luca, it's not forever,  just until after the court date." His voice cracking a little, she could tell he was giving everything he had not to break down, she had seen it once before, the night his father died. She tried to do the same but her eyes failed her terribly.  "Colt I. I'm sorry." She began to sob, a wave of emotion crashing over her. She hated this, she hated all of this. Why couldn't he of just got the annulment 6 years ago, why did she still have to care about them both?

"Ellie please don't cry, please." His voice wavering more. As he pulled her into a hug. "What. About. The test results,  what if they call?" She sniffled. "You call me, text me leave me a voicemail. Its shotty connection so I may not get them right away. If for some reason i can't get there, and she's not mine, just don't call me and tell me." Ellie shook her head. "When will you leave?"

"This weekend, friday morning. Just  for a week."

Before they knew it the bus pulled up. They were greeted by a bright eyed, big smile little girl. "Mooooomy, coooolt." She flew into Ellies arms almost knocking her over. "Whoa." Ellie goggled, steadying herself. "Did you have a good day?" "I had the best day ever!" She ran to colts arms as he scooped her up twirling her around. "Hey sweetheart, what did you do today?" He put her down as they sat down "Well my teacher tried to teach us counting today and they only had us count to 20. I said that's it?"

"Oh yeah? Well what did she say?" Colt cocked his brow, knowing Luca she gave this teacher a run for her money. "Well she said that we would work on counting past 20 later on in the year. So I said, lady I can count past 20 with no problem." They looked to her to finish.  "And she said oh yeah, that's excellent what can you count to? And then I said um like 1,000. So she didn't believe me so I started counting." Her face going somber "She. She cut me off at 497." Ellie and Colt both looked to each other and laughed.

"That's amazing squirt. You are so smart, just like mommy." Colts sincere gaze met her eyes. "Hey Luca. I have to tell you something ok?" Luca looked up at him "I just wanted to let you know that I have to go out of town for a little bit."

"You're leaving?" She sniffled.  "Yeah but not til Friday, and just a few days."

"Will you put me on the bus every morning?" She batted her tiny little lashes, Just like her mom, he was a sucker for it and Colt was warped around her tiny little fingers. "Yes I will."

"And get me off the bus?" Ellie chuckled, she was persuasive.

"Of course, wouldn't miss it for the world." Colt hugged her.

The week flew past, she missed Logan and wasn't sure what to do about him. Could she really divorce Colt and then date Logan? Was that even fair? Would she lose him forever? Could she handle that? Friday morning Colt came to put Luca on the bus, Ellie thought it best if he did it alone, it would be hard on them both when he left. Just a few short days and it would be over, but was she ready? Only time would tell.

Colt drove the biggest part of the day. Fighting back the urge to turn around and show up to that court house next week.  He needed to push through to get to his destination and try to clear his mind.

After almost 8 hours he pulled into the Lake Tahoe area. Up a gravel driveway to a nice cabin that sat by the lake. The woman stood there hands on her hips,  "Bout time you came up here to see me."

"Hey Mom."

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