I don't think I've written a fictional story since junior high or high school (I took Creative Nonfiction: Journal Writing in college) and I just started writing one again.
This is sort of a RPF, but the real people are me and a friend of mine from high school (the one who's in love with me) and it's based on my own life. A sort of therapeutic way of dealing with this situation and the "what if I didn't move to Milwaukee" question.
It starts out as a true story, but instead of moving to Milwaukee and meeting my spouse, I move to Chicago. Specifically the friend's house (he bought a house 8 years ago and rents out the extra rooms to friends, etc).
I'm not sure where it's going to go or if I'm going to share it (if I do, I'll definitely have to change his name in it), but I'm hoping it gets me out of the "maybe he was the one who got away, not the guy who dumped me for grad school" spiral I'm currently in.
Ugh. I wish I had my therapy tomorrow and not couples therapy. I really need to unpack this with my therapist and I'm not sure I can do it in couples therapy. Especially since Spouse isn't jealous or upset about what happened (there was some cuddling, but I was sober enough to not only drive home, but make sure he didn't cross any lines). But god, did I want it to. I knew if I turned my head towards him, he would have tried to kiss me. And since I haven't had more than a peck from my spouse in weeks, I might have let him and I definitely would have really enjoyed that.
I'm proud of myself for setting the boundary with him, but I'm also longing for more than what I've been getting. And Spouse totally understands the temptation, based on the state of our sex life, but I still feel guilty for wanting it so bad.
But IDK, maybe if they actually kissed me, like really kissed me, more than once a month, I wouldn't feel that way.
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why is your face old!!!!!
this is how mumbo is to me btw
ALSO THIS????WAS SO CUTE???? HELLOOOO
theyre so crazy abt each other lowkey
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yeah, you could say I’m a bit popular with the ladies
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