#but she doesnt consciously know it -- she just knows that things feel Off

[good-beanswrites]

Just wanted to plant an idea if you wanted a bit of fuel: Mahiru asking Yuno to come to her cell before everything goes down.

Edit: I forgot the ask didn't say it but this is part of Kyanako's incredible Order Of Attack AU!

Didn't mean for this to become a mini Mappi study but here we are ✨ Thank you for the request! I fully intended to write them hanging out, but it's more right before they hang out lol. Went a bit on-the-nose with foreshadowing, but isn't that the fun part? It has become Emotional Over Mahiru Hour...

I kept things vague, but TW for mentioning her boyfriend's state of potential self-harm

Mahiru tried not to act superstitious, she really did. As much as she loved the idea of little luck charms, or avoided easy signs of misfortune, it was easier to keep quiet about such ridiculous things.

Maybe catching a bride’s bouquet meant no guarantees; maybe there was no real harm in stepping underneath ladders, maybe a coin tossed into a fountain had no real magic to its wish. However, the one thing she knew for sure held power was a lucky presence. Being in the right place at the right time could alter everything. And today was the right time for something. There was this waiting in the air. The prison had been holding its breath. Mahiru knew it was time to release it all.

“You must be so lonely, why don’t you let big sis Mahiru keep you company?” She beamed at Amane.

She often recalled the good fortune that she and a certain young man had crossed paths on the university terrace. She used to laugh with him about the wonderful coincidence of bumping into each other outside of the bakery, then the convenience store. 

Though she’d never spoken about it to him, she was also grateful for many occasions where she walked in on him at the precise moment to talk him out of something reckless. She always told him that they’d do everything together. He didn’t need to be alone anymore. 

“I wish to be alone. I need peace of mind to think.” Amane turned away from the cell door.

It was a good thing, too. Mahiru’s smile wasn’t as convincing as she said, “o-oh. Of course.”

She made her way around the panopticon, hearing Fuuta pace his cell in anticipation. He must have felt it too, this holding of breath. 

Or perhaps not. He turned down her offer for a bit of company, including a few more colorful words than Amane had. Mahiru just apologized for bothering him and headed back to her cell. She wasn’t sure where Mikoto was at this hour, but she didn’t feel like smiling through a third rejection.

She shook her head back and forth. She wished the motion could rattle the voices inside, she wished she could shake them all away. With her arms secured in place she could no longer cover her ears. She used to hum to keep them at bay, but lately they’d been too loud to stifle. They just kept on talking.

Their words told her the two were right. Nobody needed her company. No – nobody wanted it. Being together hadn’t helped her boyfriend. In fact, being together had been the very thing that got him killed. No wonder Amane and Fuuta wanted to avoid her. 

So then, this was for the best. She would rather deal with the brief sting of refusal than stumble in one day to find them hurt… or worse. As much as she tried to avoid the superstition of it all, the voices reminded her that her very presence could mean life or death. 

“Mappi, are you alright?” Mahiru hadn’t realized a tear had slipped down her cheek until she hurried to swipe it away in front of Yuno. 

“Hah, I’m fine! Just fine.” It was impossible to fool her, Mahiru had learned, but that never stopped her from trying. 

At least she always spoke tactfully. “Rough morning?”

Mahiru shifted her arms in her uniform, making a small sound of agreement.

“Can I do anything to help? What if I stay with you for a bit? I can do your hair, and…”

The voices were right. Amane and Fuuta knew it, too. Presences did hold power, and Mahiru’s was cursed.

But she would sound foolish admitting such a fear to Yuno. She'd heard plenty from the voices about how stupid and airheaded she was, there was no use in getting the same lecture from someone as grounded as her.

Mahiru managed a weak protest, unable to explain her real reasoning. Yuno was insistent. She didn’t give much of a choice. Could she feel the strangeness of the prison, as well? 

At last, Mahiru allowed her shoulders to sag. Yuno was lucky. And kind. Having her nearby would do her good. Amane and Fuuta would be alright. Mahiru had tried spending more time with them after verdicts were announced. Now, she made a mental note to pull back. If her love couldn’t save anyone, at least she could spare them from her curse. They would be safe. 

“Yes. Please stay. The truth is... I don't want to be alone.”

[yippeerrrs]

"Sharing? Oh please."

Part 3. <- You are here

Part 2.

Part 1.

You had just gotten into a short coma, no one knew when you would wake up, hell- no one even knew if you would live.. but two soldiers waited patiently. Giving you gifts daily, visiting you daily and even sleeping in your hospital room, ghost and könig had made a truce and decided to pay off your hospital bills together.

Ghost was your childhood friend, someone you could trust, someone who cares for you, who would do ANYTHING for you. König is your ex boyfriend, you chose him because you really liked his accent, his cute homemade gifts for you, everything he did, he did for you, for your wellbeing, for your good. But he messed up, he messed up bad when you caught him cheating, sure it might have only been a one time thing but it still hurt didn't it? And the fact he was sober too.. all while you were pregnant. But now thats not a worry..

A year had passed by, the doctors had to take away your now dead baby from your stomach, she didn't survive the crash. König felt guilty, he thought it was his fault. But it is his fault.. if only he hadn't been cheating-- your thoughts pause, you felt your body getting warmer, you finally regained consciousness again.

--

You wake up, fluttering your heavy eyelids open to see simon on the couch beside you, he looked peaceful. You couldn't help but smile.

"si..?"

You mumble, your mouth was dry and your voice was barely comprehensable but he heard and immediately got up.

"Love?"

His eyes widen at the sight of you smiling, his heart feeling warmth after so long. He rushed over and pulled you in for a hug, tears in his eyes threatening to fall.

"You're awake! Oh my god.. i missed you so much"

You chuckle, hugging him back, ignoring the pain everywhere in your body. You smile at him, pulling away from said hug.

"where's.. where's könig?"

You ask, hope in your voice vanishing when ghost opened his mouth. He felt his heart clench, his tears falling down. Even after all of that.. you're still looking for him..?

"he's busy, but i'm here.. please! I can treat you better"

You cant help but chuckle at him awkwardly, tilting your head in confusion.

"You like me? I thought you only ever saw me as a friend"

His heart throbbed at those words. 'Friend' friend?! Would a friend wait for years just to be with you?

He hugged you again, tears falling. You hug him back, knowing it's not often he'd be willing to hug someone.

"Please.. give me a chance love, i can treat you better! You deserve better"

Ghost begs, pulling away from the hug and kneeling down, looking up wt you with pleading eyes, this gets you off guard and you look dumbfounded at the sight. The door opens to reveal a chuckling könig at the other side.

"Ghost? I thought you were better than that"

He chuckled, ghost getting up and rolling his eyes, standing in front of your bed in a defensive stance, clearly irritated.

"Look who's talking."

He barked, könig getting hurt but doesnt show ot, he walks over to you and places his hand on your cheek, caressing your face gently, he smiled at you so lovingly before placing a kiss on your forehead, the feeling of his masked lips giving you butterflies.

"König.. i told you we were over didnt i?"

You hiss, pushing him away. Ghost smirks, finding the whole situation amusing. König lets go of you, sitting down and sighing, trying to keep his emotions in check as to not cry.

"You heard what the lady said"

"Shatz, please.. i'll do better this ti-"

"Shut up. You cheated on me."

"4 years of dating and you still cheated? Shame on you könig"

König scoffs, turning to ghost and glaring at him angrily.

"I, however, could treat her better."

He whispers, playing with your hair gently, his gloved hands feeling soft and comforting, you felt butterflies and you blush.

"As if. You don't deserve her."

Konig says in a rude tone, holding your hand lovingly. The two men making you a blushing mess and you're screaming in your head.

"guys please- i'm tire-"

"Do you want a snack?"

"I can order you McDonald's if you want"

"I'll buy you anything you want, sweetheart"

"I can go get some water for you"

They cut eachother off, competing for your love. You cant help but blush, turning away and regaining your cool before responding.

"Water and food sounds great"

They give you a smile, both of them walking away to get what you need.

--

The moment they got outside of the room, könig turns to ghost.

"I think she still likes me"

"She blushed at me earlier"

They turn towards eachother

"..you saw her blush at us earlier right?"

"Let's keep this up for a bit, i think she's into us both"

Simon turns to könig with an irritated expression, crossing his arms.

"I'm not sharing."

"Well, neither am i"

"Guess she's going to have to pick then."

--

YEAHHH PART 4 IS OTW YALL <3

there might be smut in the next part..

[gendrie]

not only do i think gendry will be unbothered by arya being a warg i think theres of tons of stuff to compare and contrast between arya’s bond to nymeria and her dynamic with gendry. 

"There are some things I do not need to be told. Even a blind man could see that wolf would never have left you willingly." "We had to throw rocks," she said miserably. "I told her to run, to go be free, that I didn't want her anymore. There were other wolves for her to play with, we heard them howling, and Jory said the woods were full of game, so she'd have deer to hunt. Only she kept following, and finally we had to throw rocks. I hit her twice. She whined and looked at me and I felt so 'shamed, but it was right, wasn't it? The queen would have killed her." (Arya, AGOT)

nymeria and arya share a soul. the bond between a warg and their wolf is compared to that of a marriage. this is the closest arya will ever be to another being because they literally share a consciousness. arya feels what nymeria feels, sees what she sees, tastes what she tastes, ect. arya is forced to leave nymeria in the riverlands after the incident on the trident. arya goes from believing nymeria is the only one who loves her to fearing her own wolf will hate her. she is filled with doubt in herself and her identity without her wolf. but no matter how strained nymeria is still a tether to arya’s true name. 

when she meets gendry he becomes that too. 

"Lommy and Hot Pie can't know," she said. "They won't," he swore. "Not from me." "Arya." She raised her eyes to his. "My name is Arya. Of House Stark." (Arya, ACOK)

among the night’s watch recruits arya ends up seeing gendry as someone she can confide in. he is wanted by the crown - same as arya. because of this arya tells gendry her true name. to everyone else she is arry, weasel, and nan but gendry knows the truth. gendry sees the real arya and she can be herself with him. gendry never betrays arya to anyone and even actively protects her identity from others. 

She was no little girl in the dream; she was a wolf, huge and powerful, and when she emerged from beneath the trees in front of them and bared her teeth in a low rumbling growl, she could smell the rank stench of fear from horse and man alike. (Arya, ASOS)

"She's my sister." Gendry put a heavy hand on the old man's shoulder, and squeezed. "Leave her be." The man turned, spoiling for a quarrel, but when he saw Gendry's size he thought better of it. (Arya, ASOS)

he doesn’t just protect her identity either. nymeria and gendry both protect arya from harm. gendry actually has more opportunity to look out for arya as he is a closer companion, but nymeria comes thru too. she cuts the bloody mummers off after they are sent to recapture arya and the boys. 

Arya bit her lip. He means to leave me too.

As Arya was cinching her saddle girth, Gendry came up to say that he was sorry. She put a foot in the stirrup and swung up into her saddle, so she could look down on him instead of up. You could have made swords at Riverrun for my brother, she thought, but what she said was, "If you want to be some stupid outlaw knight and get hanged, why should I care? I'll be at Riverrun, ransomed, with my brother." (Arya, ASOS)

but like nymeria, gendry is left behind. first, he chose to join the bwb and arya is hurt by his choice. she lashes out with her words. she pushes him even further away not unlike throwing the rocks at nymeria. its really reminiscent of arya telling nymeria she didnt want her anymore. she doesnt mean it. she wanted him to stay with her just like she wanted nymeria. then, arya is kidnapped by the hound. then, she flees westeros altogether. 

gendry and nymeria remain in the riverlands. nymeria hunts around the trident where she was left by arya. gendry is posted at arya’s last known location: the inn at the crossroads. this is no accidental posting. he is there for arya. boy and wolf both remain steadfast despite her disappearance. 

the groups that both belong to have increasingly dark reputations. nymeria’s pack has long been feared by those in the riverlands. a reputation which has actually been blown out of proportion, but they can do damage. the brotherhood start off with good intentions until lady stoneheart’s reign at which point their mission takes a darker turn. 

gendry follows the undead remnants of catelyn stark and he follows the god that brought her back. he has seen magic. he is no stranger to that part of the world. arya being a warg is no weirder than the dead walking. at some point she will be reunited with her wolf and her blacksmith boy. the direwolves have often been used to signify the starklings feeling towards other so i think a meeting between the two would be meaningful. 

[autism-connoisseur]

what's your take on karkat now that you know his big secret?

genuinely amazing how his whole personality is a defense mechanism.... this guy cares he cares so much but his whole life hes had to push people away lest they Find Out.... living in constant alert ever since he had consciousness of how Different he was and how dangerous that was for him, knowing that everyone around him would cull him on the spot if they found out about It.... if im not mistaken trolls' tears are the color of their blood so he also had to repress himself to Not Cry. and for a person as emotional as karkat thats such a challenge!! not even out of sadness, or grief, but people also cry out of happiness, nostalgia, frustration, anger... those two especially i can see happening to karkat. and hed hate it.

he can be so Mean sometimes, perpetually angry... sure, it might be part of his personality, he is definitely easily irritated and prone to heat-of-the-moment decisions (like when he ran sollux's code and promptly exploded his computer and cast a curse on himself & his friends) but like i said, he's lived his entire life having to be Alert, not being able to let his guard down, because he would die if he did!! and at the same time he needs to prove himself, prove that despite being Wrong and Different he can do things!! he can be useful!!! maybe if he makes himself useful enough someone will even see him as a person and not just a mutant... thats why he is so dead set on being the leader. much like dave he has lived his whole life Needing To Be In Control Of Things (rose too, but shes more like she needs to Understand People, if she can read people correctly then she can avoid them flipping on her (no she cant that is not how it works babe)), but whereas dave is content with letting june be the leader (even if he wants to surpass her, hes very much doing his own thing anyways) karkat NEEDS to be the leader because that way he will prove that hes capable (to his friends in particular but to society as a whole, they are basically a mini representation of society anyways with each of them representing each caste).

but also he blames himself, he blames himself so much whenever anything goes slightly wrong and that feeling just gets amplified since he ran sollux's virus. it's a vicious circle for him since he needs to be in control and call the shots to feel like hes useful (defense mechanism, you wouldn't get rid of an useful pest even if he was a pest now would you?), but whenever something goes wrong under his command he freaks out (maybe relating it to his blood color? like he is Bad so this happened. also we know he takes sollux's virus's curse very seriously), he takes it as proof that He Personally Is Wrong and obviously everyone knows this, but since he doesnt want to be seen as that and he wants society to accept him without ever realizing there was a reason they shouldnt (see: also why he wanted to join the military or some part of it at the very least) he doubles on his efforts on Controlling everything.

and when he realizes they created our universe, it finally gives him a chance to be above someone. to be the powerful and not the powerless, the respected and not the shunned. its why he treats the beta kids as stupid, inferior beings, and why he constantly points out that he is their god even though he isnt (well he technically is but you get it). it mimicks the way some highbloods treat lowbloods, but where the highbloods are like that because society told them it's their natural right that they were born with, karkat does it to forget what that same society told him: that he was somehow intrinsically worse than anyone else. so bad, in fact, that he'd be better of dead. actually, he'd be so better off dead that they want him dead, that they will kill him as soon as they find him. so of course he takes the chance to not feel like that! of course he wants to feel superior! he needs to be the one above for once, he needs that control over someone instead of feeling like he needs to watch out for everything and anything. he sees a chance to not be the lowest link in the chain, and he takes it. sure, he may be a mutant, but theyre human... and not just any humans. the very same humans that doomed their session, the session karkat threw himself into because not only did it grant him escape from a planet that hated his existence (as much as he also idealized, trying to fit in, trying to not be seen as Abnormal even though all the beta trolls are Abnormal & don't fit in), it also gave him the chance to, like i said, prove himself.

he trusts his friends, he does, and he said he'd tell them his blood color eventually. but he needed to be ready and that's why both jack noir & terezi, or at least their reactions, are so important to him. neither of them shuns him, they don't attack him, they don't make fun of him of call him aberrant or do anything that most trolls would. fair, jack noir isn't a troll, and he doesn't even understand why karkat is freaking out. but when he shows him his own blood, the same color, karkat is suddenly not alone. even if red blood doesn't mean anything special to jack, to karkat it means the world to see that he is not some abomination, that the universe didn't signal him out to be different than the rest forever and always. and terezi, terezi is what really does it for him. shes somewhat high in the hemospectrum, she is someone that karkat likes (and apparently kissed! good for him because God knows the kid didn't let anyone in out of fear of being found out), she is a troll. and she doesn't mind. she even calls him adorable in the same log! the beta trolls are outcasts of the alternian society; and they are karkat's friends. that's why he was willing to tell them eventually: it was his secret to keep and his secret to share. and even if terezi found out when he wasn't ready yet, her reaction was absolutely positive. again, these kids are the furthest away from troll society as they can be, almost its opposite, which is why karkat thought about telling them, is willing to tell them. he knows hes safe with them.

ive seen people point out how his handle (carcinoGeneticist) references his sign (carcinogenesis is the process by which an organism gains cancer) and both these things represent how hes considered an anomaly & something to be rid of, something sick; i also think it's. ironic that he's the knight of blood, but i don't know enough about classpects yet to analyze that. it must have felt like a cruel joke to him, though, being told that his literal title was someone who fights for the same thing he's ostracized for. it would certainly piss me off that's for sure.

[calmingthoughtsinyourhead]

Not to rip off the plot of avatar (like i usually do) but i’d love to see Aziraphel do a hero-vilain-redemption-ark in the next seasons

Like after Aziraphale returns to heaven, it all starts with good intentions and him trying to make the difference he wanted

He makes a vow to himself that once he has done enough, he’ll reach out to Crowly

Let the demon know he made the right decision.

that is was worth it (was it?)

Only it isn’t exactly what he had expected

Only in order to make the world a better place, sometimes that means making tough decisions

At least that’s what Metatron tells him

Maybe sometimes the greater good asks for a few sacrifices?

(What was that quote again about the path to hell being paved with… ah never mind)

Aziraphale feels weird about it

like really weird

But every time he’s about to run back to earth (back to Crowly), the Matatron talks him out of it

It's a bit strange how good he is at that

But Aziraphale can't focus on that, lately everything's been a bit... blurry

“Don’t give up now Aziraphale, we’re the good guys”

And we notice (subtly, but more visibly as we go on) that the angel is slowly turning into someone we do not recognize

Up to a point where the Metatron doesnt have to coax him into doing the dirty work anymore

So that’s when the Metatron announces to him and the other angels in heaven that God is dead

——————————————————————————

God is dead

As in gone

God. Is. Dead

Aziraphale doesn’t even blink when he hears the news

——————————————————————————

God is dead

But Armageddon will take place

Because they will finish what She started

It takes a while before hell responds

(It’s one thing to hate and rebel against Her. It’s another thing to hear the person who created you is dead.)

But as expected hell does NOT like this news

More importantly, most of heaven does not like the news either

sure, everyone wanted the apocalypse at one point

but not like this

Not with Her gone

Not with the archangels acting like they don’t even care

Not with the strange, uncanny power radiating of the Metatron when he speaks

The unthinkable happens: the angels leave

almost all of them do

And for the first time since the world started, angels and demons are on the same side again

——————————————————————————

Crowly isn’t even in hell by the time the first refugee angels arrive.

He’s already on his way to heaven

Because this isn’t just a lover’s quarrel anymore. Earth is in danger

Much more importantly: his angel is in danger

he finds Aziraphale already waiting for him at heaven’s entrance when he breaks in

“Crowly.” He tjirps (he looks so happy and if that doesn’t just rip him in two), “what a lovely surprise”

Crowly has to blink himself back to consciousness when he sees him again.

No time for this. No time to remember what it was like when they ware almost “us.” No time for taking in the feeling if Aziraphale smiling at him like he’s the only one who matters.

He doesn’t even notice that something is just so off about his angel

The way he stands, the way he talks, the way he breathes

“We have to go. It’s all going up in flames, angel.”

“What are you talking about Crowly, i’m perfectly content here.”

“Are you insane! Did you not hear what they are trying to do”

“Ah. I see. They told me you’d say that.”

Crowly only now starts to realize what exactly he’s looking at.

“Aziraphale”, he speaks slowly “your eyes are glowing.”

“Another great bonus that came with my promotion, thank you Crowly.”

“They’re glowing red”

“I don’t see why that’s relevant.”

Azirapha-“

Then his eyes fall on the sword in the angel’s hands.

It’s no longer burning, but he recognizes it nontheless

“Why do you have that with you.” He asks, but it’s not really a question.

And before he knows it, Aziraphale has thrown him across the brightly lit, white hall of heaven (which is pretty far)

So now his face is all bloody and his hands are trembling (just great)

And Aziraphale is standing over him, raising the sword like he had done so many years ago

“I’m so happy you’re here, dear boy. Don’t worry, It doesn’t have to end with this thing. It’s just insurance so you cannot tempt me again. It’s all going the way He said it would.”

“Who the fuck issssss He?”

“Our true God.”

“Go fuck yoursssssself.”

Aziraphale laughs, like the demon is just being silly and it sounds like his old self so much it hurts. “Oh, Come off it Crowly. Just come with me. We can fix all of this mess together.”

Crowly feels nauseous. “Why don’t you just use that thing for it’s intended purpose and get it over with.”

Suddenly Aziraphale looks confused (heartbroken?) “Crowly, what are you doing?”

Crowly just raises his chin defiantly.

“Don’t- don’t make me do this. It’s not supposed to happen like this, I don’t want to hurt you. Can’t you see that his is your last chance at redemption. Do you not understand that? We’re the good guys.”

“Issss that why half of you jumped sssssship” he growls.

Aziraphale’s eyebrows draw together “It’s-it’s okay, my dear, you are finally going to see the light like I did.”

He raises the sword higher.

He gasps

And then he drops it again

“What on earth am I doi-

The bentley bursts straight through heaven’s gates, hitting Aziraphale head on.

Crowly escapes

——————————————————————————

Maybe its the concussion

Maybe it’s the thought of what he had almost done to Crowly

But slowly the angel’s eyes turn back to brown when he wakes up

“Cro-Crowly? Oh no. No no no, hell- for heaven- what have I done. What have I DONE.”

He tries to stop the Metatron

He really does

But with the loss of his red eyes also comes the loss of his new powers.

the Metatron beats him easily

His new God is not happy

And for a second it looks like this is where it’s going to end for him.

“Aziraphale.” The Metatron hisses, slamming him down on heaven’s holy ground (it cracks open beneath his skull in the shape of a hallo). “Snap out of it.”

The angel struggles to break free. He has to escape, he has to warn earth about what the Matatron is planning.

(He has to save Crowly)

“That demon has corrupted you,” The Metatron growls. “that’s what they do. He wants you to rebel against what’s right.”

And Aziraphale suddenly smiles

“You know what happens to angels who rebel against god?”

They fall

Aziraphale sinks out of the Metatron’s grip and through the floor

——————————————————————————

Aziraphale, now part of the war against the Metatron, meets up with Beelzebub in hell (I think she and Gabriel would return to save earth). Where the other angels are already waiting for him.

It takes a bit for the other side to trust him

But the angel’s now black wings are a pretty dead giveaway about whose side he’s on

And with the former right hand of the Metatron on their side, they might actually have a chance.

Beëlzebub shows him to one of the offices, he already recognizes it.

“He’s in there?” The angel asks

“Yes”, beelzebub says

He hesitates.

“You know, he had the chance to rid himself of you many times since you arrived here

“he’d never try to hurt me.” Aziraphale mumbles “but demons… they’re not that quick to forgive”

“No, but when we do it, it means something. Can you say the same thing?”

Aziraphale swallows. “Does he know? That I’m here I mean”

“Of course he does. He follows all the updates on you.”

——————————————————————————

He walks in

he doesn’t recognize Crowly immediately

The demon has got his back turned towards him

He sees a pair of white wings

And it’s only then that he realizes who he’s looking at

“Crowly?” He croaks

The demon doesnt respond

“I- fuck- I don’t even know where to start. I’m- I’m so sor-I was so stupid, and they trick- but i still - I hurt you and I’m sorry, I’m so sor-, and and and I can never ask for your forgiveness. I just need you to -fuck, I’m so sorry, I just need you to know how sorry I am, and-“

And he feels it.

A wave of love.

The opposite of “this place feels spooky”.

Someone loves him so so so much.

slowly Crowly turns around

His eyes are still golden, like when they first met

“Do the apology dance”

[the-s1lly-corner]

General Kinger hcs

you guys already know the drill; mix of general kinger stuff as well as dynamic stuff blah blah perhaps even some x reader stuff if you squint

not very warm, very hard. hes a giant chess piece and his robe doesnt do much to soften and warm him... though the fur of his robe is softer than the majority of his clothing...

very tall, has back pain, for two reasons. one, because hes old!!!! two, hes constantly huddled in his pillow fort so hes hunching over all the time, i mean look at hos he stands.. hes hunch

this mostly applies to any post digital circus aus where everyone escapes to the real world but i can easily see this being true for kinger atm or perhaps later on, but he has some level of agoraphobia (a type of anxiety disorder, makes you not want to leave places you feel secure in. can range in severity, for some its only not wanting to leave their town for others it can be as bad as not wanting to leave a room in their own home. this is a v brief and summarized description so i recommend you guys look into it) (this might be a little self projection as admin has a mild form of it)

good friends with gangle and ragatha! as mentioned in the general ragatha hc post they have a more father/daughter dynamic whereas he and gangle have a grandfather/granddaughter dynamic!

loves telling embellished stories about himself and his adventures... probably hypes up stories about him bug hunting around the grounds

i think he keeps a bunch of bugs in his room, all in their own little homes! terrariums!

on the fence of hcing the he preserves bugs... maybe he did prior to the digital circus but stopped due to a mix of forgetting that was something he did... and if he does have vague memories stopped because it kinda... makes him feel weird, like it reminds him of how hes trapped in the circus now.. which... admittedly is not the same as the preserved bugs but shrugs

leaves flowers and things at queener/queenies room, usually he visits her old door most nights to talk to it... some nights hes consciously aware of the fact that shes gone, other nights when hes a little more out of it than usual he... doesnt

if he ever does start dating again, i think hes going to be watching you like a hawk... never letting you out of his sight and, as unfortunate as it sounds, he might come off as a little too overprotective... overbearing.... overly clingy... at times.. likely all three

definitely sleeps with weighted pillows/blankets, this one is another one thats more so for post circus au but i can see it also being relevant to the actual.. circus stuff, probably asks caine for them

speaking of caine, i can see them having a... decent relationship

theyre not close friends, i think, but theyre polite and friendly to one another

perhaps its out of familiarity and security, at least on kingers end since caine probably isnt able to abstract and hes been there the entire time

i personally dont think kinger really thinks hes royalty, as he refers to himself as in the pilot.. honestly i think he was just trying to appeal to the gloink queen... perhaps he does joke about him being a king, though

he makes dad sounds (grunts, loud sneezes, diabolical snores, ect)

fidgets a lot... usually tugs and plays with the fur of his robe... or messes with his hands (drumming his fingers, flapping them, cracking knuckles, flexing fingers, folding them, ect ect), probably paces around a lot too

has definitely tried to grab someone and run but due to his lack of arms hes run away without his hands and the person he was trying to take with him

[slttygeto]

SAVIOR — JOEL MILLER & ELLIE WILLIAMS.

joel was anything but easy-going with strangers. ellie had learned that from the many months of traveling with the man, and she was starting to get used to to covering up for him when he slips and is too harsh with his words when all they want is just supplies for their next five hour hike.

and there have been a couple of instances where the people they met were equally as harsh as joel, yet none of them could compare to the situation they were in right now.

joel remembers screaming out ellie’s name right before feeling a sharp pain in the back of his head. shit, he was losing consciousness and he couldn’t even take a quick look at who was about to have their lives right in their hands.

it’s a couple of hours later, and when joel wakes up, his first instinct is to grab his gun— where is his gun? where was he?

the place was unfamiliar. he was laying on a couch, this was a living room and it smelled like food— actual homemade food.

“If I were you, I would watch out for my head.” his head snaps to the side and he’s immediately on guard, a scowl on his face.

“who the fuck are you?” he didn’t know you and you didn’t know him either, yet something didn’t feel right. you couldn’t have possibly knocked both him and ellie out, right?

“the girl is in the bathroom, she’s taking a shower.” your finger points to the bathroom down the hall and it doesnt make things better. he is now marching towards you, hands roughly gripping your shirt.

“I asked you a fucking question, you better answer it or I will fucking kill you.”

“(name).”

“what the fuck did you do to me? and my— what did you to us, huh?”

“knocked you out. thought it was pretty obvious since you seem to be pretty pissed about it.” oh you were annoying.

“let go of me. the food is gonna burn.”

“fuck the food, you hurt me, you drag me to your place and you expect me to trust you?” joel practically barks in your face and you’re not surprised, not even intimidated by his sheer size or raging eyes. almost as if you’ve dealt with people like him before. perhaps worse.

“your daughter did.”

“she ain’t— she’s a kid, she sees food and she trusts anyone.”

“that’s a little disrespectful, she seems like a smart kid since she tried to stab me when she gained consciousness.” your hands wrap around his wrists and you’re roughly trying to get him to let go of you but to no avail.

“let go.”

“give me back my gun.” joel glares at you before scanning the room for his stuff.

“your gun is in the other room. now let go of me.”

“no—“ god damn it was he annoying.

your knee collides with his crotch and for a moment, it felt like joel’s grip on your shirt got stronger only for him to kneel down and groan in pain.

“told you, the food was gonna burn.”

“woah, you got your ass handed to you!” ellie emerges out of the hallway with wet hair and new clothes. the shower made her feel like a new person.

“shut up— how could you trust so easily? she could be the enemy for all we know.”

“she saved us from clickers.” ellie walks past him to sit on the couch, opening the coloring book you had given her.

“she—“

“you let your guard down, old man.” you eventually chime in, hands still stirring the food while joel dusted himself off and stood back up.

“and you don’t gotta trust me, i’ll give you what you need if you wanna leave at dawn.”

don’t have to trust you? that seemed like it was gonna be difficult.

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[demadogs]

What are your non-negotiable Will,Mike or byler scenes for next season? Any you have a clear vision for?

oooo i have plenty of very clear byler visions for next season that are all very plausible and make sense narratively but thats not to say that im 100% confident they will happen.

i think non-negotiable is a pretty aggressive way to define this theory im about to talk about because i think it kinda implies that theres no other way it could possibly go down which just isnt true but i do think it would be a huge missed opportunity of they didnt do this. i think mike will be revealed as gay to the audience through a vecna trance and i think this may also be how el finds out because she was piggybacking in his mind and saw/heard everything.

i do think there is some good evidence to support that mike will be vecna’d. a big one is mike being the one to see max get a bloody nose. you would expect lucas to be the one to see this and worry about her. mike is a really random choice and there is always intention and meaning behind little things like this in film.

also bathing will in light and the idea that max has to go to the light to leave vecna’s mind. they light up will in the van scene but also the cabin scene which i think has a double meaning and foreshadows their conflict with vecna because this lighting is the EXACT kinda lighting we see in the creel house.

max also tells lucas that vecna targets people who have something “haunting” them. mike is such a perfect victim for this. we saw in s4 how much he is trying to be someone else and trying to burry the part of him that likes will and likes boys in general. every one of vecnas victims has had some kinda guilt that theyve been trying to hide. (which is why eddies line “its forced conformity thats whats killing the kids!!!!!” is fucking genius). mike has been doing that for YEARS. i think the only reason he wasnt a target in s4 was because he wasnt in hawkins.

now for el, i have less evidence to backup that mike will be outed to her but i do think its possible and i really really hope el is the first person to know mike is gay. i think it would help him so much to hear from someone who didnt grow up the way he did and wasnt ever taught to hate people like him.

i have always thought this shot meant that el was suspicious of mike and wills feelings, and it probably does mean that, but now that i think about it it could also foreshadow her piggybacking into mikes mind too and seeing will in his mind.

i think mike is overdue for a full on panic attack. we see will express his emotions pretty much every season but mike has been suppressing them so deeply for years. the last time we saw him totally break down was in s2 when he was yelling at hopper. since then, he’s been trying to be someone else, whether its consciously or not. he needs a scene like wills destroying the castle and el needs to be the one to comfort him.

i envision mike waking from his trance of being tortured by vecna with all his feelings for will and being gay and hes breathing heavy with tears down his face. hes frantically looking around the room and everybody there and then he sees el take off her blindfold and wipe the blood dripping from her nose and he realizes she was in his mind. i see them both looking at each other, el with sympathy and mike with total panic, and mike runs to a separate room and el follows.

then el would sit with mike on the floor and mike would apologize profusely and theyd have a long, sweet discussion. mike would come clean and just tell her everything. that hes gay, that he loves will, that he felt so bad not breaking up with her as soon as he figured out, then he said he loved her because he thought it was the only way to get her to live. and el would just listen and then admit that she doesnt think she ever really loved him romantically either and that she wants to just be friends. i want this scene to be SO SWEET AND SO EMOTIONAL AND I HOPE IT MAKES ME CRY!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways thats just part of how i envision queer mikes reveal to the audience and his first coming out experience.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

also this master has such a flair for show, for performance. i guess they always do but i feel it way more with him. first o: “look at all the evidence i gathered, and they just mocked me 🥺”

and on the eiffel tower: “not sure how to describe what i found. pulverised? burned? nuked? all of the above. someone destroyed it. our home, razed to the ground. everyone killed.... everything burned.....”

then the timeless children being this entire show and tell with the doctor as audience

it’s interesting bc im only really familiar with modern masters and like, simm!master plays it up for sure but hes in no way this controlled about it. and missy is,,,,i get the feeling with missy that she isnt sure herself when shes acting and when she isnt. the line between artifice and authenticity dissolves with her and in her interactions with other people, especially the doctor: ”maybe youre trying to impress me”

but dhawan!master is their synthesis and it shows so beautifully. he will act, especially to the doctor, he will play parts he knows she likes, but he never loses sight of his own emotional reality. he takes the stage to play and he doesnt when hes off. maybe he even plays the parts he knows she likes ironically. self-aware, other-self-aware. more aware than she is.

oh the horror

and she doesnt buy this, of course

but it’s the wrong part she doesnt buy. his emotions about it were feigned, not the events themselves (which is interesting in terms of this being post the doctor falls but i dont know what to make of that yet; im sorta leaning to just like, general overcorrection/her understanding of him and their relationship is a lot less nuanced than his. The Master Lies, with no abilty to maybe differentiate between different kind of things he could be lying about for different reasons. but maybe im underestimating the doctor)

anyway tldr i think because of the vault this master has a very complex understanding of his relationship with the doctor and their relationships to their own identities, i think he understands it better or more consciously than the doctor does at this point, which allows him to play his own identity self-aware and ironically whereas the doctor is still dead serious

[ot3]

I don't think i really have a deep enough understanding of phoenix's character yet to know if im right about this being ooc for him, but do you think that phoenix keeping thalassa's secret and not telling apollo and trucy they're siblings is like, something he'd actually do or is it an aa5/aa6 writing goof thing. bc on one hand I don't think he'd willingly do something that can hurt trucy like that but he is a generally secretive person and does try to do right by most people who ask things of him. Tho the secretiveness is more about himself and his feelings and again i dont see him willingly doing that to trucy for like 2 years. also it's dumb that they STILL don't know like come on man it's been like 15 years

i could definitely see him keeping it secret, not for that long though. i think no sibling reveal for two entire years is the result of just them dropping all of the aa4 plotlines and not actually any sort of conscious choice re: phoenix and/or thalassa's character writing.

the way i've always rationalized phoenix's decision to not tell trucy that apollo is her brother is that i think initially he wanted to vet apollo first. phoenix didn't even remember apollo's name until 4-1 he doesnt know shit about this kid. what if he is not fit to be trucy's brother. so a lot of how phoenix treats him is essentially hazing. by the time he's really made up his mind on apollo fully and is trying to gear himself up for it, he finds out about thalassa, and decides he's going to put the ball in her court, because he really does not want to do this.

like phoenix and trucy have some really fun codependency happening that i am absolutely obsessed with and i think this would manifest in phoenix being terrified to change that dynamic by introducing trucy to flesh and blood family, whether consciously or subconsciously, so he really wanted an excuse not to. and thalassa being alive was the perfect excuse once he could no longer even pretend to claim that he was Unsure about apollo.

the impression i got at the end of aa4 was that thalassa pretty much intended to just wrap up the tour she was on and deal with any immediately outstanding business before returning to her kids. there didn't seem to be any hesitation from her in wanting to reunite with them. so i really just see the refusal to address that in the timespan covered by aa5-6 as fully negligent writing. i think if thalassa DID continue to put it off, phoenix would try and egg her on and if she refused to he'd eventually cave in and tell them out of obligation. but i really do think it realistically would be her first priority once her affair were in order except capcom said fuck them kids

[seancamerons]

Mia Jones

so mia's life post degrassi isn't very simple there is a life beyond degrassi community school. (under the cut!)

so its like what? 2009? 2010 if i remember correctly she went to paris so from paris onward. she was working there for a time but it's different than growing up where she did and maybe she wants to do things beyond modeling. holding that thought on the back burner but it comes in and out her consciousness.

she's isolated or with the party scenes and such maybe she experiments a lot left to own devices goes a little bit overboard in a lot of ways. after some clarity or fear of losing everything, eventually maybe if things dry up or things are changing going in other directions job opportunities aren't so much of a pay off just getting generally bored and exhausting and competition and it all becomes too much maybe she gets homesick or something? whatever it may be, maybe she wants to focus on her lifetime responsibilities. so before all that realization and looking inside of herself and her life big picture, aiming high but being realistic of course say initially her mom and Isabella pack up and move and join her in pairs where the damage was done and mama jones regrets the whole thing, and sees mia is either depressed, addicted to drugs, maybe drinking to much or a combination and maybe something huge happens where she hides it for a long time and then by the third or fourth week it appears to be what it is and mama jones and mia talk rehab, talk about maybe making changes, and mia is disillusioned self conscious and like it or not tired. the money and vices that come with modeling perhaps come up they have to devise a new game plan, for the best interest of everyone. mama jones (name?) maybe wants more stability for isabella, while she can't live with irresponsible lucas, and jane has since skipped town and eventually traveled and did run into mia and updated her in the 411 back at home. what became of peter and their other friends and lucas came up naturally or whatever. he seemed to never really launch or aspire to be anything and still lives with their mom. who does continue to keep in touch with mama jones and mia and of course always sends her love and gifts and such.

lucas had since been kind of on the outside of mia's life and Isabella's. but now that he's older he feels guilty, but also doesn't want to do anything with his life either. with his former friends in varying things such as working, or in jail, or bad boy turned good johnny dimarco distantcing himself from his bad boy past.

like mia and all avoiding that kind of stuff too the difference between mia and lucas is that mia clawed her way out in contrast, lucas stayed pretty much the same and got by coasted on videogames and weed self medicating and in the last 10 years has not communicated much. he signs moms cards. he doesn't go out of his way. isabella stopped caring or expecting anything from lucas.

she doesnt even call him dad but by his first name. legally he's not even responsible because something I'll explain later. obviously he's not really dad material so mia as always picked up the slack with the help of mia's mom obviously.

we know mia's mom did double duty but mia is ready to give Isabella stability. we all know the modeling gigs she got in France were lucrative. she did jetset for a time to Milan and became a muse for a start up fashionline and it was the most she'd been paid for anything ever but felt tempted again and started inching her way toward the allure of the lifestyle that almost killed her career and had to take a step back.

by this time, she's getting older now, she wants to leave that part of her life behind. she's not so keen on returning back to degrassi/toronto so she settled in california and with her earnings she saved up over time. she did it smart, played it safe but for good reason. she always knew it wasn't going to last forever but it was a fun experience while it lasted and something she was immensely she's grateful for. modeling was sometimes good, but ultimately it wasn't for her.

between the consequential nature of her first gig (t-bombz) there were several smear campaigns (fans of tom of course) that caught wind of the less than clean-cut contradicting image of tom who was embroiled in scandals after a while when people started tipping off the press to his less than innocent sex parties with minors it landed in him in hot water naturally metoo movement decimated his career and he was hurting in his wallet. he allegedly was injured around this time and all these things were coming out and none of it looked good for him or mia, and his career dried but he has money like mia, but he's low profile. he'll do anything for the limelight he's cashing in and worked on some memoir where he dished.

so he does some interviews for promoting the new book on tv and it was all over the place, inescapable and the fall out was AWFUL and like holly j in the past the receipts and past caught up to mia and her now teenage daughter by this time in life.

she sues for defamation, he countersues but eventually they both settle it's rough on both of them this lasts a long while, Isabella is discovers this about her mom and thinks back to her limited memories and finds it horrifying and their relationship isn't the best and they go thru a rift and low point in their dynamic. she really didn't know her mom, raised by her grandma for over a year while mia was first starting out with her modeling career obviously, so she became more accustomed to that. mia made sacrifices but claimed it was mostly for them, issy doesn't buy it. mia and her daughter fall out privately, now that was all in vain because issy doesn't want her mom around her, she needs time to heal from that and is closer to grandma anyway.

so with her deadbeat dad, mom's bad reputation and sordid rep, grandma seems the best option. they relocate back to toronto and she even goes to degrassi for a time but mia stays in California for commercials, modeling, influencer culture and tries to put the past behind her. a roller coaster esque uphill and downhill battle.

she really never intended to be a mom anyhow and doesn't feel the motherly connection she did when she was full-time mom part-time student, pre-modeling.

she and peter reconnect and they make beautiful music together literally and figuratively. he too lives out in la and works for various music outlets as a producer and mia was signed to one of these record companies, he helped her cultivate her image, hire staff and they eventually though late night recording sessions made a love story of their own working on mia's album. they lived pretty happily ever after and eventually got married a year or two later.

her mom's upcoming marriage to her former high school flame prompted Isabella to want to be close to mom once again, mend fences and such both suffered a lot. maybe they didn't have the traditional mother-and-daughter relationship at any point in their lives but Isabella decided to accept peter as a father figure and reclaim her place with mia once again. mia put her mom in a motherinlaw suite by their pool house to take care of her mom so she's still close. she approves of peter. lucas' life tragically continued going downward and he stayed in toronto watching mia continue to rise, their daughter being taken care of by mia's family and he feels hurt. jane's mom chooses to be more active and visits Isabella and mia with jane sometimes. lucas on the other hand does nothing about it accepts it, and signs over his parental rights and neglects to tell them.

So Jane and of course their hs friends and former studz members even spinner and such visit peter and mia from time to time a few times out of the year and its nice. sometimes it truly takes a village, absence makes the heart grow fonder. sometimes found families are the best families. nobody has it completely together, teen moms can live productive lives, sometimes the career you initially pursue realsiticly isn't the best fit. sometimes people struggle. sometimes with the best intentions, you can't control the feelings and reactions of others such as Isabella and mia's struggle to find peace and comfort in their later years and eventually can rebuild their relationships. some people even if you push them, they got to want to be successful or try and fail, instead of remaining complacent and doing nothing to improve their situation. all people are valid, all of this is some people's reality perhaps not the modeling and singing and peter' (i can't believe this is peter) but some version of a guy who started one way and grew up to be admirable, sweet and responsible with goals and passions and living sober and working hard every day to remain that way and be a good example to friends, family and success isn't linear

blady blah. this is rooough, and long and all but here ya go! thank you! TLDR mia models for a long time but grows disinterests and tries on many careers before finally moving on and up and reconnects with peter and they later marry. her relationship with Isabella is rocky and inconsistent and eventually become better than ever and mama jones lucas' mom, jane and old friends often visit and take big roles in Isabella, mia and her mom share a property and mia takes care of her mom and is thankful for her and Isabella. lucas' life tragically never becomes much of anything and is essentially a bum, a footnote and not involved, signed over his rights and Isabella doesn't take him seriously being burned by his neglect and does not really talk or keep in touch. it's not all perfect.

💌 ask me about a degrassi character/fictional character to rewrite/expand upon

[1loer]

I feel like Hajime's parents probably wouldn't like any of his friends except for maybe Chiaki lol

Also I am Intrigued by your thoughts on Nagito's parents and would like to hear more if you wanna share 👀

Oh gladly !

I kind of think the opposite! I think that Hajime’s parents are very, very fond of talent. I think his father especially. I think that because they don’t have talent themselves, they really look up to those who do, which is where I think Hajime got a lot of his insecurities around being talentless from. So, I think that Hajime’s parents would love that Hajime is friends with people who have talent. I think they’d have some…Reservations about some of them (Souda LMAO), and I think they’d 100% have to lie about Kuzuryu’s talent but overall would totally approve. With Komaeda, its reservations and him being unsettling and holding huge signs of trauma and abuse that they, especially Hajime’s mum, can spot from a mile off, on top of him not even having a real talent that they become less fond of him. Plus, Komaeda is just a weirdo. So whereas Kaz would be able to overcome the reservations they have towards him by just being himself, Komaeda…Well. NKQDNKQNDKWN. But oh, Nanami????? Yeah, They Adore her. They’re always asking after her. Hajime’s mum is always trying to get her to come over, even makes her bento sometimes which is SUPER embarrassing for Hajime but Nanami finds so touching even if she doesnt understand why they like her so much.

Im actually kind of thinking of writing something that lightly explores Komaeda’s relationship with his parents, so i’m still working out the kinks here and there but im very invested in his parents and childhood and upbringing. *puts on badge that says I’m Sorry I Have A Masters In Psychology*

Idrc to know what Komaeda’s parents did for a living. Im not rich enough to know the jobs that people do to get rich. Its probably just a long line of a family being rich. But i like the think that they were artsy.

I think Komaeda’s dad was a proper jokester, prankster, dad-joke dropping nuisance. I imagine him being the life of the party, and loving to entertain people. I think he was very musical, with him being able to play the piano really well, and his wife being able to play violin and they do it together at these big parties they constantly throw. I think he’s very proud that their first child was a son, and boasts about how he’s going to be talented and have something amazing about him. Very loving and doting in the early years when this is still a possibility. Komaeda is almost like a trophy child. This lessens as the time goes on and no talent (that they can recognise) surfaces in Komaeda. But not consciously, if that makes sense. He still loves his boy very very much.

A side tangent on whether they themselves are talented, im stuck on it. I think maybe not though, because I think Komaeda is supposed to mirror Hajime like this. Hajime and Komaeda are like the same character, so I think it makes the most sense that Komaeda’s parents also not be talented. Also side side note, the only thing i can remember about Komaeda’s parents being discussed in canon, other than their death, is Komaeda saying that his mum never called him pretty or whatever he says. If theres anything else thats why theres contradictions.

Komaeda’s mum is a very graceful woman whose also very artistic. Like i said, i think she can play violin to compliment her husband’s piano playing, but I think she’s more of a painter. I think she’s quite sly, able to cut through her husband’s joking sometimes in a way even he doesnt realise but others in the room do. Its very hard to tell sometimes when she’s being genuine in her words or if she’s actually making fun of you, especially because she smiles so easily and so prettily, it makes it easier to forget that she could have any ill intentions. I also hc Komaeda to be mixed race, and his mother to be French. She leans on the excuse of Japanese being her second language to get herself out of tricky mishaps she gets herself into and it only sometimes works LMAO. Her husband has to step in to defuse half the time. I think Komaeda’s birth was very very complicated and a really rough process. They both really really wanted a baby, but Komaeda’s mother was told it wasn’t going to be possible. Komaeda was a bit of a miracle baby in this sense, but also I think his mother struggled A LOT a lot. Postpartum depression out the wazzo. I think the lasting scars of this develop into postpartum psychosis and manic depressive episodes that sort of change her completely from the person she was before he was born. This leads to her being very distant from Komaeda when he’s really young because she simply cannot handle caring for him, meaning the care was left mostly to nannies. This slowly got a bit better, and by the time he’s walking she begins to build a relationship with him, but its still difficult. I think she was probably very hot and cold towards komaeda in a way he couldnt understand. One minute she’d be loving, brushing his hair and complimenting him and reading him stories, then the next day or even a few hours later he’d ask her to read to him and she’d be catatonic, or acting strange and scary and then the nanny is pulling him away and saying she’ll read to him instead. I think she really does love him though, and in the moments where she feels enough that she can she shows it, she’s super affectionate, half through a guilt bc of how she treated him, half genuine love for her miracle boy. Komaeda really lives for these moments. He’s super helpful around the house, and runs to boast to his mum about how helpful he’s been because most of the time when he does she’ll give him attention for it. When his luck starts to show through, and terrible things start happening, Komaeda’s mother’s anger can be explosive towards it all or completely numb. Komaeda takes neither very well, but her lack of reaction always hurts the worst.

I think Komaeda’s father was in no way equipped to deal with any of this. He was ready for a child, but not for what it did to his wife. He sort of just shies away from it all, scared of and unable to understand whats happened to his wife and not really wanting to accept it either. Its especially hard trying not to blame Komaeda for it, especially on harder days. I think he pushes for Komaeda to smile a lot, and has no time for Komaeda’s negative emotions, often getting angry and frustrated when Komaeda is upset but he cant make him stop crying or calm down. When things do happen because of Komaeda’s luck, and it upsets Komaeda, he defaults to trying to find the brightside of what happened to make him feel better. He’s very focused on positive emotions, always laughing and smiling and never letting anyone see him down, to the point where he wont let himself feel down and always takes another view or another perspective on things to make the situation good again, even when its really really not appropriate. Mega mega toxic positivity. He’s way too unserious a lot of the time, and too away with the fairies to be anything solid and reliable to even begin to combat how much of a ghost of a person Komaeda’s mother can be sometimes. He likes to think he makes time for his son, but what he doesn’t realise is the only time this is is in front of other people for performance purposes. Even then, half the time he’s more invested in the guests than he is Komaeda.

Image is very important in the Komaeda household, so keeping up appearances of everything being fine was rlly important to them both. They tend to focus on this more than Komaeda, so Komaeda is roughly forced into performing the act of the perfect, docile, well read young man and is basically ignored throughout the performance except for when his dad wants to boast or rare, odd moments where his mum will sit next to him and ask what he’s reading and compliment him on it.

I think they’re also really involved with talent, in much the same ways that Hajime’s parents are. They really wanted Komaeda to be talented, and wanted him to be friends with people who are when they started to think that maybe he wasnt. I think that, in a universe where they survive, they would still love Hajime at first for appearances sake, which just slowly develops into genuine affection when they get to know Hajime. Also he’s like the only person Komaeda’s ever brought home, so they instantly have a soft spot for him because he’s Komaeda’s first friend so they try and push away any biases they have towards him not being talented. They also have the buffer of living comfortably, which Hajime’s parents don’t.

But they didn’t survive so this doesnt matter LOL.

Even so, i think there was maybe money or family stressors on them that made them really want Komaeda to be talented. I think Komaeda maybe had this on his shoulders as well, and felt this directed towards him but like didn’t really understand it. He just understood that talent was really really important. And that all good people are talented and non-talented people are bad.

Wow that was long. I hope that was interesting at least ! Thanks for giving me an excuse to blabber about that LOL

[nonbinaryaubrey]

Also, because I genuinely want to hear more about it, what's the Revived Mari AU? You've talked about it before and it seems very interesting, but I don't think you've given a proper summary before. I mean, I talked to you about my AUs for days in your ask box, that makes it fair game for you to talk about AUs to me. -🎀

OKAYYYY.. revived mari revived mari. i dont know entireellyyy?? how to summarize it <- theres a lot going on and also i tend to be a bit indecisive so i kinda change things around sometimes. i can answer any other questions you have thoo!!

anyways uhh. basic plot rundown. forgive me for poor wording i kinda struggle to explain this stuff </3. After Mari's death and her being a ghost for a short while, she ends up inside Sunny's headspace, taking the form of headspace Mari.. For awhile being there is actually,, very nice for her. Of course it would be to her, especially at this point.. Its a world where shes alive. Where she still has her friends. Where she feels... a lot less angry and upset. She isnt sure how to feel about.. her brother here. Omori.. silent and near emotionless. It doesn't feel right but when shes here she cant exactly figure out why. But she can easily disregard it for now. This place is nice and shes happy here.!

But,, then headspace resets. She doesnt exactly,, remember it. or what happened before it but. she can kind of tell something is wrong. things feel like theyre repeating. it feels off and. she wants to leave. and she does,,, but. not for long. shes quickly drawn back to headspace.. (<- made up ghost lore stuff. ghosts easily get attached to certain things, such as buildings, people, etc. they can go away from these technically but will always end up being drawn back). Mari cannot leave Headspace pretty much,, even less so the longer she stays there. Things quickly go down hill from there. which is explained in this post but tldr: with each Headspace reset Mari loses a piece of herself and her memories in the process.

Things continue like this for the next 4 years up until Sunny begins going outside again. I think him doing that and him repressing some of his memories a bit less also helps Mari regain some of her memories too. which allows the scene at the dreamworld ocean and the scene at her piano to happen.. though when she really gets all her memories back is first when the black light bulb gets broken and Sunny goes through the truth sequence + when Sunny goes through Memory Lane... She performs the Final Duet with him and watches him leave Whitespace behind before her vision and consciousness fade away. She is happy and shes ready to pass on.

Thats until... she wakes up some time later (a couplee months id say? maybe during christmas break.), in the middle of the night and shes seemingly broken out of her own coffin. Its the most alive she's felt in years, its feels nothing like Headspace. But she feels as if this has to be a dream, another version of Headspace perhaps? One thats more like the real world Faraway town now. But either way she.. kind of has no idea what to do with herself, she no longer has a script to follow like she did in Headspace. Which I imagine is,, quite the sudden change after 4 years. She ends up just kind of wandering for a bit after leaving out the church, eventually finding herself at the old hangout spot (and.. accidentally scaring off Angel and The Maverick, who had decided to sneak out there. idk to be rebellious or what ever <- kind of a joke idea i came up with ig) She sits down at the abandoned picnic blanket and falls asleep there. <- thats kiinda where she hangs out for a little bit. Up until a small black cat runs in and quickly goes over to her, its purple collar having the name Mewo on it, soon followed by 2 younger boys, Sunny and Basil. She immediately stops at the sight of them, and they do the same. The 3 of them are all kind of stunned, but Basil and Sunny almost immediately run off as soon as Mari opens her mouth to say something.

^ ^ thiiiis is kind of where the stuff i have becomes very non-linear. i still have ideas and stuff but theyre more broken apart and inconsistent. but this is most of like the main plot/lore stuff thats important

I HOPE THIS ALL MAKES SENSEE!! heres a little mari for u if u read this all <33

[thisloveforyourmom]

Everyone criticizing the new helluva boss episode because the characters do unhealthy things instead of resolving everything in the most perfect and mentally stable way....yall been watching the show so far??

Deadass saw someone saying octavia doesnt need to apologize to stolas bc hes obviously such a bad dad she is in the right to want to get away from him.......king. Octavia didnt do this to "get away from him." She did it because she had been consciously holding him to a promise he made offhand 10 years ago that she didn't remind him about. It's entirely possible if she'd waited an hour, had breakfast, took a shower, etc. she would have been able to remind him and they could go. Instead, she stole a pricelessly valuable artifact directly tied to stolas' ability to perform his responsibilities in Hell and ran off to the immensely dangerous human world without telling a soul where she was going.

Is it a childish reaction? Yes! Octavia is a child. This happens. It'd be unrealistic to make her perfect. But part of making childish mistakes is apologizing for them when you realize you worried everyone around you and put them all at risk because you were too in your feelings to think about the consequences your actions might have. She had no idea how to use that grimoire - what if she'd been stuck there? What if she'd been sent somewhere much, much more dangerous? What if stolas lost them both?

This episode was not about octavia forgiving stolas for everything ever. It's about the realization she has to go through that everyone is flawed - even her parents. That stolas makes mistakes not because he doesn't care enough to fix them, but because he's not a perfect person who's confronted all HIS issues in a healthy way. And that's a really hard thing to realize about your parent! That they can love you and still hurt you on accident like every other person you know. But it's one you need to have when you're on the cusp of becoming an adult.

And when Stolas realized that he'd totally forgotten something Via was really, really excited about, the FIRST thing he does is try to apologize to her. He's not angry with her for running off, he doesn't call her motives childish. He just apologizes. It's Via who cuts him off, because she's now had the realization that Stolas forgot not because he's prioritizing his hatred of Stella over his love for her, but because a divorce and public disgrace and a traumatized, angry teenager he desperately wants to help is a lot to deal with and he doesn't always have room for everything in his head.

Everything about Octavia's arc so far is about her shedding the naivete of childhood. She's facing the fact that her parents don't - and maybe never did - love each other. She's facing the fact that her parents are flawed and might struggle to express themselves or connect with her even when they desperately want to. She has to confront the fact that she won't and can't always be the only priority in her parents' lives, especially as she gets older and more independent.

And is stolas good at handling that? God no. Lmao. This is not a "FOWGIVE STOWAS OR DIE >:((((" post. But he and octavia are both having realistic reactions here - the disappointed daughter, trying to find ways to understand her parents' love for her when their love for each other is in question and her household is a nightmare, and the stressed out father, trying to keep control of everything even when it's all blowing up in his face. There's no one right or wrong party. The only goal we can have for them is to eventually figure this situation out in a way that works for them.

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In the aftermath | Part 4

Paring: ReaderFem! X Wanda (Mom)

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

Prompt: Heaven lasted to long on both of you. What happens when it all breaks apart? It all takes one night for hearts to shatter

Warnings: Angst, violence ( a little)

The days went on, and as expected, Wanda’s leg made its recovery just fine. A good thing, right? Well, it surely didn’t feel like it for the both of you, and this fact troubled you immensely. On one part, Wanda didn’t have any desire to leave you, she didn’t want you to be alone in case anything happened to you, or that’s what she thinks, the other part of her… The other parts scream of how the only danger you are exposed, it’s herself. And this is stronger than she wants to admit.Both of you knew that these feelings weren’t one-sided. So it wasn’t a matter of one-sided love,no. The very thing that made you two grow apart is the secrets and walls. And let’s face it, most of them were from the redhead, the task of building something else was nearly impossible.

You knew that she was troubled, that something happened to her, and that it was causing her great pain. And for that you didn’t dare to pressure her on. But every time you wanted to ask, to share the heavy weight that she carries, the only thing you archive is her closing off. It doesn’t mean that you gave up in discovering the mystery she was.

Her face was…familiar. Like you have seen it some where kind of familiar. Maybe she was some kind of celebrity,who knows? You never kept up with this kind of things You didnt know or asked and she didn’t tell you either, both of you didn’t acknowledged.

So you just learnt to knew her from scratch.Know her as Wanda.

Wanda, who wasn’t a morning person at all and was grumpy until her cup of coffe. Who loves chocolate chips in pancakes with whipped cream on the top and strawberries on the side. Wanda who loved sitcoms and star gazing when sleep didn’t want to come. That always listens at your (probably) nerdy talks about movies and flowers, and not once showed signed of tiredness or annoyance by your antics or jokes or puns or sarcastic comments. The days went well after she opened that day at the garden. But it all started go sideways after her frequent nightmares.

Specifically that one night, where you heard pain yells and cries coming from her room. With a velocity that you didn’t know you were capable of, you quickly open her door, alarmed. The sight made your heart ache. Wanda was trashing around, pained cries and yelps coming from her mouth.It wasn’t the first time you saw her like this.Frightened,scared. In pain. It broke your heart every single time. Sometimes she talked in dreams, once when you two fell asleep while watching Modern Family.You lay on top of her, her chest rising rapidly. She mumbled names. Billy and Tommy, you think?

When you asked she didn't answer.

You were brought back when Wanda yelped again.Your legs started moving, but just as you were about to make contact with the bed, Wanda’s eyes opened wide, shining with tears, the hatred gaze made you shiver. Lifting her arm, you noted something choking you, making you gasp. Your body lifted slightly from the ground.

“W-wanda…” You gasped, holding your neck, red mist surrounding it. She is still dreaming, you realize. Your eyes get glossy, the colour starts vanishing from your face as you struggle.Your body stat to give up as she doesnt let her grip slip.It was like she didnt recognize you.

“Wake..up, Wanda!” And with a snap, the scarlet colour of her iris vanished away, the natural green coming back alongside her consciousness. She quickly gasped at the realization of what she was doing, quickly realizing you. She watches how your body fell on the floor with a thud, more tears releasing at the realization of what she had just done.

You started coughing, desperate for air to enter your system. But you weren't worried about the lack of air on your lungs. Wanda stretched a hand at you, but quickly retraced. She had done this. She hurt you. You were almost killed because of her.

“Oh god, no, no, no…” Her powers came back, and she used them against you. She didn’t want to, she didn’t… Shit. “I’ms sorry,i’m sorry…” Sending a pained look at you, she quickly ran away to the door, the old air of the night hitting her on the face.

It’s all her fault. If she just left. Why was she so stupid? She breaks anything she touches. And her selfishness put you in danger.When will you learn? The Scarlet Witch isn’t destined to love, but to hate. She will never be able to love someone without hurting them. And she won’t hurt you ever again.

“Don’t you dare!” Your scream made her head whip. God, you look so beautiful. You always are. But then she sees the red mark painted on your neck, and it snaps her out of trance. She won’t get you destroyed, you are far too precious to perish because of her. “Wanda, please!” A sob scape your moth, increasing Wanda’s own pain at seeing you in such a state. She doesn’t want to leave you, but you will be safe, and that is the only thing that matters to her.

“I’m sorry detka,.Please dont make this harder.” She whispers with a pained smile, but just as she powers up her hand to leave, something tackles her, making her fall to the ground “What the…” She look down, and there you are, your arms tightly gripped around her, eyes closed and a stubborn face. Wanda stands there in shock.

“No, I won’t let you until you talk to me first!” You complain. “You won’t…I won’t let you go, do you hear me?” Your trembling voice makes Wanda’s trears come back. “I jus..I just-Why dont you listen to me for once?! Please!”

The redhead stares at you in denial. You don’t have any idea how important how have became to her in such short time. Of how you havent only healed her leg, but her heart and mind to. Your kindness and warmth healed her, but not enough to stop being afraid of herself. She won’t be selfish this time.

“I’m so sorry detka.I really am.” She hugs you close, like you were about to vanish.Your head placed on the crook of her neck as she held you close. “But I have to keep you safe. I need to.”

Your heart sinks as she starts to go, flying. You hold her torso with all the strength and eyes shut, heated tears burning your face as she starts to slip from your hands.

“No,no,no…Wanda,please!” She doesn’t look at you “I’m okay, it’s okay! You cant..y-you can’t just leave me! Not now that you have my heart!!” Red mist surrounds you.

“You have mine too, detka.”

And then you are left alone,hugging the cold air of the night.All strength leaving you as you drop to the ground in broken sobs.