#but we’re not on speaking terms rn

[itsb3anbug]

just watched S3 Ep5 of gotham.

i’m never watching this stupid show ever again. how could they do this to oswald?????? i’ve never been more hurt and upset abt a tv show in my life, why would they do this?? they were gonna kiss goddamn it! >:( they were in love! oswald was gonna confess :(((( why? why would they do this to him??? he’s just a little guy :(((

ed istg ur my fav but i won’t hesitate to fuck you up if u do what i think ur gonna do >:( i hope he kills this weird riddle girl

[eggplantemoji420]

Silver linings is that at least my anxiety is back at normal levels and not at ‘you’re actually trapped in an eternal simulation of hell and nothing you’ve ever known has been real’ anxiety anymore x

[shadestar413]

wait did lexi deactivate again..??

She’s under a new usertag not blog so if you knew her as eventide it’s a different thing now

[melanieking]

Have you checked on The Admiral recently??

we’re not on speaking terms rn.

[strywoven]

y’all already know what time it is , popping in with my quarterly check-in.  just the general , thank you for remaining patient with me through the term and a reminder that the queue will assuredly run out soon but i won’t have the energy to do much for it until break starts a few weeks from now.  i’m always skulking about , however , willing to do things over discord or IMs.  anyways , the tea under the cut , for those interested !

well , as you might expect , we’re in rush-hour rn with the final few weeks slamming into everyone full-force.  not much is happening save for me continuing to excessively min-max my time to ensure i get the best grades possible ( please stop me , this is a problem ) . also two of my finals are a presentation and , as we all know , i might have done theatre but i cannot public speak ; pray for me.

i inevitably turned down the symposium despite the board members being like , “you should do it ! you have good research !” nah. you want my stupid ass to talk to the whole campus ? not gonna happen. sorry , maybe come talk to me when i’m , i dunno , another few years more self-assured.

the induction ceremony into the honor’s society is the 18th ! POG ! every time i talk about it , though , i inadvertently keep referring to it as an “inauguration” so now certain people i’ve mentioned it to refer to me as , “mr. president” as a running gag i shall never live down.  don’t you ever let my big-dick 4.0 and verbose mannerisms fool you , i can’t even speak my own language half the time LMAO.

it came to my attention recently that the remaining cornerstone classes for my degree are evening classes. and , just to save everyone a long and miserable story , the TLDR is i don’t drive for traumatic reasons ( and hailing an Uber several times a day back-and-forth is unsustainable when i pay part of my tuition already ) . so i had to sit down to counsel with my advisors and upcoming professors to sort out a game-plan. one of the professors , i shit you not , broke out the , “well , as a psychiatrist --” and she proceeded to grand-stand to me about her accolades , “-- have you considered therapy ?” like , no , what a novel idea-- obviously i have. i literally almost bailed right in that moment ; how fkn rude can you be ? what’s better is that i’ll be seeing her several times next term so … what a good introduction , huh ?

and just a remark about my moral theology course ( again ) . i do not see myself as a “know-it-all” … but i noticed over the term that i am one of the few who contributes consistently to the discussion at all. every time the professor asks a question , I MEAN OBVIOUSLY i have something to say ( like just recently he asked about dostoevsky , whom i was excited to discuss ) . and i swear to god , i cannot tell if this man is smiling when i talk because he’s amused or annoyed -- perhaps both. 

[mishwanders]

🏃‍♂️🧍‍♀️📝🙌😳🤷‍♂️🧍‍♀️🏃‍♂️

Hello MISH devil brain anon here I thought I’d indulge in the fic idea 🫢

Fuck how long has he been here? Years? Months? Weeks? Days? Hours, hours seems more accurate. He was so fucking pent up… its been two fucking weeks you’ve been edging him! 

Its been grueling… he was so fucking hard and horny. He wanted you, no he NEEDED YOU. He NEEDED to cum. 

He was always so fucking hard. Every moment that ache in his legs was still there. He couldn’t do it anymore!!! 

He had to tape his dick on his stomach so he wasn’t pitching a fucking tent at work! He just wanted to cum so badly :(

He knew that you finally broke the brat in him, he has finally come to terms that he was not in charge, it was you. 

Which is why he stumbled in the door desperately undoing some of his clothes to try and help the ache in his legs. 

You were on the couch watching tv as he gets on his knees infront of you. You look at him shocked that he looked so wrecked. 

He had drool dripping past his lips, he had unshed tears in his red eyes and that needy look he used to give you all the time back before the world domination stuff.

At this moment he was the world and you we’re surely about to dominate it. “Yes?” You ask as he struggles to get words out. “N-need to cum… no more.” He manages to speak out. He wasnt even able to make coherent words most of the time.

You turn the tv off. “Promise to be a good boy?” You ask as your head cocks. “Y-yes p-please please please!” He was humping the air at this point. “Disobey me again and you dont have to worry about coming for a month. Understand?” 

He whimpers at the thought but he nods. You smile at his obedience. “Good boy.” You turn his cockring on as he hides his head in your thighs. “Glad we could to an agreement. You better get ready because im gonna be milking you tonight honey.” Oh fuck was he ready.

hope you liked that ❤️ mutuals 😏?

This is the first thing I read opening up my inbox today and OH FUCKING SHIT I AM ON THE FLOOR RN DEVIL ANON! GOD just think of him finally getting to cum and then taking his cuffs to restrain him as you ride and make him cum over and over again, making him cry even harder - just FUCK YES!

[systemtermz]

I am literally a mc survivor with abuser introjects. I HAVE those persecutors and they nearly drove us to suicide. telling them they can't change or believing they can't is an amazing way to fuck up any chance of healing. do what you need to survive, but understand they did too. people telling them they are as bad as our abuser and nothing else is how you guarantee they'll never trust you or want to change. we're still systems, we're still. people like you literally almost fucking killed us by making us feel like we could never change them. stop killing us and telling us we're hopeless or all our identity is what we were tortured into.

Sir. You do not speak for everyone.

I’m glad you have chances. I’m glad I had a chance!! Hell, I’m fucking up those chances rn responding to you, but I still have chances. I’m glad all your persecutors have chances to change and get better and heal. Genuinely, I’m so happy for you all.

That system requested that term because they DIDNT want to call those alters persecutors for this reason. Because they were programmed to hurt people, to do illegal shit, to kill themselves when away from their abusers, to return to their abusers. Giving them a chance isn’t healing, it can literally get the entire system thrown in jail, killed, or somehow worse.

Hell, I bet those alters have been given a chance, and they took it as a chance to do what they were programmed to do and they have made it clear that they will continue to do that.

Sorry for being rude earlier, but you have got to get it through that skull of yours that bad people exist. Alters who do bad things, who refuse to change, exist. You may have not experienced this, your alters were capable of change, and like I said I’m so happy for you!

We used to have a little who would have let people grope and assault her if it wasn’t for Admin being forced to lock her away and then forced to forget it. And we’re not even a RAMCOA system. She couldn’t heal because she refused to, because that would have meant becoming a different person than everyone wanted her to be. She’s been gone for a while now, and Admin is still fucked up about it, and they don’t even remember doing it.

No one wants to lock alters away. It’s not fun, it makes it harder to heal sometimes, but it’s. The best chance at survival sometimes.

And I’m glad you never had to experience that, again, that your alters had a chance. I hope you have a good day.

Also sorry if this doesn’t make sense, I keep getting pulled in and out of front.

-B0ffy

[lilac-set]

o/ Hi! For the system ask game:

(feel free to pick just a couple to answer, i know we sent a lot!)

🧡 (How does your system handle memories? Does everyone share, or is it split across members?)

⭐ (Do you have a headspace / inner world? What does it look like?)

🍀 (Do any system members practice a religion or belief system? What about spirituality?)

🧵 (How does your system handle the body's / vessel's appearance? Does everyone dress the same, or is there a broad range of styles?)

🤎 (Do system members typically agree on things or is there a broad range of opinions?)

🌼 (Do any members have accents or typing quirks? Are accents/quirks common in your system, or more rare?)

🤍 (Say something positive about another system member (or all of them, if you'd like!))

:o this makes me so happy!! Thank for you the ask!! We’re all cofronting rn which is perfect, although the little has the largest minority i think (dont be surprised if little mannerisms come through significantly) edit: as soon as we starting answering 🔥 came forward instead

🧡 we dont share memory storage, but if we’re cocon we can actively go dig through each others memories, and we’re basically always cocon, so that isnt much of an issue. That being said, some things fall through the cracks if it didnt seem important enough (or we forgot) to actively communicate it and the other one didnt know there was anything to go actively looking for. That doesnt interfere with anything as long as anyone who might have expectations for us is respectful of our plurality

⭐️ kinda? Do you know rose’s room in steven universe? It works kinda like that, we can will things into existence, but unless we’ve done that we dont really have a headspace. For example if we all want to sit at a couch together we can do that, and its always the same couch, its consistent, but we dont constantly keep it loaded in our “RAM” so to speak (computer metaphor)

🍀 religion no, spirituality yes, we’re (all four of us) nontheistic animists who place a significant importance on nature, for now the best term we have is druidry, but there are some aspects of druidry we dont resonate with, for example we dont like rituals (for ourselves), and we aren’t sure about the awen (again, for ourselves), but maybe its just because we’ve mostly seen it described from a more pantheistic perspective, but plenty of druids are nontheists, we’ve just never heard their perspective on it. Learning about the concept of the awen has certainly been inspiring to us to learn about and engage with bardic arts more, not that we’ve actually done it, but we’ve felt inspired to, and i know thats just what theism is for a lot of druids, choosing to believe in something not because you necessarily believe it as objective fact but because entertaining the belief has a positive impact on your life, which i respect. That brings me to my next qualm with it as well, ive heard multiple druids say that one cant call themselves a druid because they simply feel like one, but that active engagement with druidry is essential. Of course we make decisions in accordance with our values at every opportunity, but theres a limited amount we can do in terms or actual activism and engagement with nature according to our/druidic values given our living situation, lack of income, disabilities, etc. So, given that, im not sure we can technically call ourselves druids, but also druidry is a nondogmatic religion/spirituality, there are no hard and fast rules, these are just the opinions of a handful of individuals who happened to express them online, i dont know. Also it obviously feels ableist to us, but like i get it, it doesnt make much sense to call oneself an activist if one isnt engaging in activism, even if you believe in their beliefs. But druidry and activism aren’t synonymous. Yes both are lifestyles but one leans spiritual and the other leans… ya know, active. The last thing stopping me from identifying as a druid wholeheartedly is that druidry has strong connections with celtic culture, which is fine, i dont mind borrowing from and appreciating other cultures (this isnt a closed thing) (cultural anthropology is also a special interest of ours, these are related special interests), but to an extent it feels like an act of patriotism for a country i have no connection to. It would feel more connected to me if i could find a similar set of beliefs associated with a region that either i or my ancestors have ever lived in, but im not sure if that exists. Sorry this was longwinded, and i know i left a lot terms undefined that anyone unfamiliar with druidry is likely unfamiliar with, i just didnt wanna make this even longer and didnt wanna overexplain if no one is really interested (and i also dont wanna make any horrible mistakes when maybe you should be asking a “real” druid about this instead), but this is kinda a special interest of ours, feel free to ask more questions about it! We love to talk about it. Edit: ah shit, i just realized i basically just contrasted our spirituality to druidry but i didnt really tell you much about our actual spirituality itself, feel free to ask about that as well

🧵 so, we all identify with the body itself, but we dont necessarily agree on how we would present it. In headspace everyone dresses distinctly differently, we have different hairstyles and bodymods etc, but in the body everyone would look pretty much the same, not because we want to but because we still live with our parents, and they have weird arbitrary rules about how we’re allowed to dress. Not about modesty or anything but just whatever their preconceived idea of what our style would be before we were born, that now they enforce on us. We’ve actually grappled a lot though with the fact that once we move out and we would have more freedom, rather than everyone just looking like ourselves internally and the body looking like the body, the body will probably look like a particular one of us at any given moment, depending on who dressed it, and then if we switch, that person has to deal with the dysphoria of looking like their brother, and the first one has to deal with the dysphoria of their brother looking like them, and i know both of those would be really hard for us. Within our parents constraints right now obviously we like to wear our preferred colors or whatever, and we’re good at, like, “oh, he would like to wear this, and i know he’ll switch in later, so i’ll go ahead and put it on, because i know it’ll make him happy” (it does), or like cofronting/cocon compromising “ok ill put this on because i know you like it but ill get to choose the pants” or whatever, so maybe the style on the body in an ideal situation would end up being more of an amalgamation of all of ours, because i know we wouldnt struggle with that, but god do we each long for the euphoria of making the body actually look like ourselves individually. Aaaaas long as we dont switch

🤎 ah nice another shorter one (we like the long ones but god this post’ll be huge) yeah we pretty much agree on everything. 🪨 and i (🔥) experience attraction differently, he’s quioplatonic and hyperromantic and im alloplatonic (presumably?) and bellus-lithromantic, so thats been somewhat of a point of conflict that we cant agree on what type of relationship we want and are comfortable with with collective significant others, but other than that we’re pretty much on the same page about everything in general. I mean, (not to put down systems that cant relate, just talking about it for ourselves), imagine you had a conversation partner who you knew the exact line of reasoning of, you could feel their emotions directly, miscommunication was literally impossible, you share any relevant past experiences, etc. Sometimes it takes some talking but theres really no reason we wouldnt eventually come to a consensus. (Taking an excuse to talk about another special interest) The four of us are different myers briggs types, which means we value different types of information regarding what we pay the most attention to and what we prefer to make decisions based on, so thats something you would notice but isnt any sort of source of conflict. We have one of every xNFx type. Feel free to ask us more myers briggs questions, we could infodump about this forever. This question didnt actually end up being all that short lol. Edit: i realized there multiple uses of the word “opinion”, i took it here more like “belief”, “stance”, etc, but if youre talking about more like “preferences”, yeah we have plenty of different preferences, but im not gonna make this longer

🌼 the little uses babytalk, idk if that counts. No typing quirks or variation is regional accents, but our voices are distinctly recognizable, apparently.

🤍 ah fuck hmm let me think. Theyre so complex and wonderful and i dont want to reduce them to a single compliment, or create pda for them to continue being whatever i would say. I think ill pass on this one, they all know i love them <3

[rainbowr0ses]

Okay part 2 of the protocol journey, idk why I’ve decided to do this, but I’m continuing until I reach the end or run out of motivation. 

This is what I do instead of sleeping (silly… for the most part) if any of this sounds like- off-? Or more unhinged than I usually am? Blame it on my time zone 

(This is after-watching Roses, this episode does talk about serious topics, so I recommend checking the content warnings before listening!)

oh hi Jonny! You’re starting the episode this time? 

Oh hi Alex! Jonny usually does this part, doesn’t he?

Spooky intro! 

Oh that’s a spooky title, knowing the tma/tmp series that is

The SFX my beloved <3 

Dracula-? Hi-?

This categorizing system is so silly to me-

Hahahah she got it wrong!

I love the sounds- it’s so different from the tape recorders

This is gwen right? Cause Alice’s voice is deeper.

I was right! The voices so far are easy to differentiate 

Or maybe I’m just better at it

Damn Gwen 

Alice is so real for that. I say that on a daily basis-

Oh- new scene! 

Oh that’s funky

Zoom-?

THERAPY?????

I- that voice- I recognize this voice

Oh I know that tone from therapists. Mmmm

Whoever you are kinda mystery lady, you are right

Okay, that’s a good way to speak

Patience!!

Fair-

I should not have laughed at the “deep trauma that your itching to unpack”as much as I did-

We love our artists. All forms of artists, but in this case we’re talking about a visual artist

Wtf

I’m sorry- is #makeupfree An actual hashtag-? (I don’t use a majority of social media, because you know (:  )

Ah

Good for you? Feeling more comfy in your own skin?

That’s not a good silence, I know that silence. That’s the thinking silence that means your brain is producing thoughts that aren’t good. Those thoughts are treated respectfully, and those that have them are welcomed in the household, but not the thoughts themself. (Guys I promise I’ve studied psychology-) I paused the episode for this

Continuing!

Daria! Such a pretty name

Ah, makeover is a good term

Oh? Tattoo time?

A generic witchy-alchemist character-? I wanna know who cause that’s so silly. Oh wait it’s generic, would it even be a specific character?

Ah so this is the ink5oul thing

I swear I saw ink5oul x bonzo somewhere. Or maybe it was needle?

Oh?

Pfft-

I can see this tbh (I’ve never watched ink5oul-)

Oh-? I love tattoos like that 

Does ink5oul actually exist-? 

Icky

I love when people are so spooky and use they/them pronouns

Omg

Diversity wins! The tattoo artist who is also an influencer that is causing you excruciating pain is referred to with they/them pronouns!

I unpaused the episode at wasp stings- flash backs to the Jane prentiss statement (🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱🪱)

Heartbeat noise!

Oh passing out from pain is such a trope

Not the mediocre dubstep-

Oh that’s so aesthetic!!

Tbh I wouldn’t complain if that was my tattoo

yeah go get your eeps Daria!

I have no idea how you spell Daria’s name-

Oh yay!! She’s having a good time! I can’t wait for it to be ruined

Oh here It goes

Ah-

Mmh

I see where this is going

I- oh dear- 

WHAT DO YOU MEAN-??

THE FUCK??

oh goodness not “perfect”

I- 

Mh

I’m speechless

I’m-

Oh fucking dear

I. The wording of this is- AAAAAAAAAAAA

This is going to go so so so so so so wrong

YEAH, SHE BETTER SCREAM WHAT THE FUCK

Oh? Valid? 

You see, this is what a therapist should do. 

Valid point, valid point, from the lady who tried to remake herself into something perfect by carving it out on a painting. 

That’s a normal painter people thing probably-

WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT LAST LINE-

oh clicking buttons

Alice. Okay Alice and Tim share the same vocal slot in my brain now

That’s so fair actually Alice-

“Paid to not care” I can make so many Political jokes rn-

Camera time!

Echo-y

Alice and Gwen interaction!!

I-??? 

What kind of question?

Oh government stuff

Fucking Alice- I love you so much 

Gwen is my favorite 

I think I like Bouchard characters-

Elias, and not Gwen-

I love one sided conversations, but only when I can understand what’s being said though, but I can get the gist from Alice

Oh she went silent-

Click click click

I love band names-

THE MAGNUS INSTITUTE??

???????

MY INSTITUTE??

I mean. 👀

The computer must be so disappointed

The aggressive beat after its so- quiet? Always jumpscared me (I’ve heard it twice)

Woooo credits!! We love crediting people!! 

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

Woolen Hollow sounds so intriguing and draws me in!! Tell me about it!!

Okay so Woolen Hollow is my fantasy novel that I got 10k into and then realized it was boring so I set aside the draft and started over but this time in 1st person POV (which I've never written in before) to give it a more engaging voice and I started with them already on the road rather than dinking around at home and I like it sooooo much better now. Unfortunately I've only written just over 1k because other things have the priority rn

But there is magic! The kind you control and the kind that controls you. And there is love! The kind between siblings (for better or for worse), between two boys lost in the woods and the world, and between a girl and her sheep. And there is a conniving lying cheat of a fiance who thinks she's hot shit but is ultimately going to be taken down by a closeted shut-in who will carry the guilt of scrambling her noodle for the rest of his life. There will be choices and consequences and lots of bickering and banter because I'm still me.

Anyway, meet Midge and Jax!

*

“Sweet soil, Midge. Keep it down or they’ll think we raised you with the sheep.”

I don’t pause my cursing for a second as Jax squats in front of me where I’m sat, filthy and tear-stained, at the base of the tree that did me wrong. He reaches for my arm but a hard boot to his knee knocks him on his ass and gives me precious seconds to come to terms with the hot, sharp pain radiating from my forearm.

Jax shakes his hair out of his eyes and glares. “The longer you drag this out, the further behind we’re going to fall and you know none of them will wait for us.”

“You’re not even supposed to be here,” I spit. I draw my arm against my chest and press back into the tree as he gets to his knees. “This is my thing. You should be at home in your closet.”

“Did I hallucinate your last ten birthdays? You sound like a child.” He reaches for me again. “Hold still. I need to see how bad it is.”

With grit teeth, I hold very still.

Jax sighs. “You are the most obstinate— Let me see it.”

With great reluctance, I uncurl from around my arm and hold it aloft for him to see. It looks fine. Normal. There’s some blood on my sleeve but that’s from earlier when I had to chase Sarsaparilla out of the bramble. I’ll be up for hours tonight combing the stickers from her wool while she’s too drowsy to put her usual fight.

With deft fingers, Jax unties the leather cord that keeps my sleeve flush against my skin, both for insulation and to keep from leaving tattered bits of cloth all through the forest, and rolls back my sleeve.

I suck in a sharp breath and look away. Blood I can handle. Feces, fine. Snot, sweat, sheep urine, and other various oozes and slimes—bring it on.

But bodies bending where they should not? Lumps that speak of damage unseen under the surface, broken with no clear simple treatment? It makes my skin crawl.

Jax clicks his tongue. “You got yourself good, smidgling.”

“Take your dirt nap, jaxass.”

He ignores me. “I have some [APOTHECARY STUFF] in my pack. It’ll help with the pain and swelling. If you take [MORE APOTHECARY STUFF] and let me splint it, it should be usable by next week.”

“That’s forever. There’s so much I have to—,”

“I can’t work miracles,” he snaps. “I’m telling you what I can do.”

He juts to his feet and towers over me, but not in an intimidating way. More like a stick bug—all bones with no meat—or a single reed in a field of clover, doomed to be slapped around in the wind without the protection of a bed. If he didn’t hole himself up with his cauldron day in and day out, he’d be as broad as Ham. Instead, he’s thin, whippy, and about as threatening as a cooked noodle.

I stagger to my feet and don’t bother trying to swat away the dirt that clings to my pants. Sudden movement makes a shooting pain fly up my arm, through my shoulder, and into my teeth. You only chew tin foil once before you learn to not fucking do that.

“Let’s catch up to the group. Maybe Ham can grow me a new arm. I bet it’ll only take a minute.”

Jax makes a sour face and turns on his heel. His long-legged stride takes no consideration for my short quick steps. “If we’re lucky he’ll grow you a new head while he’s at it.”

The rock I kick ricochets off his ankle and disappears into the forest but he doesn’t give me the satisfaction of looking back.

Brothers.

[udon-udon]

it is finally time for life updates with udon

I know there’ll probably be some points that I wanted to jot down a while ago but kinda forgot what they were since it’s been a while but

life is okay. I think ever since truly and finally getting over some ~trauma~ and its lingering effects, i’ve been doing much much better. Obviously there is still the whole body image/self-conscious issue thing going on but EMOTIONALLY and Mentally, I am currently okay. 

Work is okay. Nothing new there I don’t think. Workload is not bad, it’s doable, and people are nice. I just feel like my department is like so separated from all the other departments that it feels a little like we’re outcasts LMAOO but everyone in my department (3 of us) is pretty antisocial so....

The better sunnier weather also helps a lot with my mood. 

Currently dying over rushing art prints and charms for the 3 day con I got a table at. If you’re around town for Anime Revolution, I’ll be tabling there! 

I want to release a visual novel this year for this year’s Yuri Game Jam cause I didn’t last year, but I really gotta put my time management skills to the test cause last year’s was a disaster, hence not being able to put out a game. 

I’m still maidenless. Bets on if I can find a gf at the upcoming Mamamoo concert?!?!?! Speaking of which, it’ll be my first concert ever eeeeeee I’m so excited

I’ve spent a lot of money recently, due to the concert, flight tickets, stuff for cons, and of course, impulse buying things :))))))))))) hopefully after the concert or so, I can go back to living a frugal life :)))))

In the art department, I think I’m still struggling quite a bit with drawing, there’s still not too much drive to draw, and only drawing cause I have to for cons and such. I still never really drew much of what i wanted in terms of personal art;;; I just feel like I don’t like my style enough anymore and I feel like everything I draw will not turn out the way I want it to. I gotta experiment with new styles honestly;;;;;

ANyway, I think that’s the gist of where I’m at rn. Stay tuned for next update, thanks for listening : )

[m3gahet]

61 85 and 87 for nabgaar?

61. How would they describe their S/O in one word?

I’m gonna give you their initial reactions to the question then once the question was explained.

(Cuz it’s funny)

And then I’ll elaborate

Nathan: Uh…Small and…tall? Oh- um loyal? Yeah that for both of them I guess.

Loyalty is really important to Nathan and I think the show tells us that throughout the series. It can veer into iffy territory when it comes to arguments/taking sides where he seems to want blind loyalty/Loyalty without question. (Ex. Dethdinner. He’s in the wrong but he’s stubborn so Pickles, Toki and Murderface leaving is a betrayal.)

Skwisgaar is always shown by Nathan and with the exception of Fatherklok where he is dealing with his own shit and after the break up Skwisgaar is the only one to stick by Nathan as well as defend him by telling the others multiple times he’s capable of apologizing. It isn’t blind loyalty to Skwisgaar it’s seeing the good and bad about the situation he clearly knows is Nathan’s fault and still choosing to stay. How the fuck is nategaar a RAREPAIR-

Robin is a little harder to explain without the context of her new timeline which if you’re in the server you already know (or if you’re @thatwritingho ) but two major themes with Robin’s character are devotion and determination. While Robin leaves after the band splits (She’s only an assistant at this point. No band? No job.) she comes back to look for Toki and fully intends on staying even though her and Nathan aren’t on speaking terms when Charles throws her into full band management (it’s a whole thing I’m not getting into it rn)

TLDR: even though he was pissed at her then he can appreciate she came back and stayed when he was still being dickhead.

Robin: Stupid- Okay okay! You don’t have to fucking yell- uh…Protective and compassionate? Good? Good. Now fuck off-

Nathan is protective I think that’s pretty self explanatory. Even if he tries to pretend he doesn’t care he clearly does and often gets physical in regard to protecting the band. With Robin he’s a little too protective and it can get on her nerves that he thinks she can’t handle herself but she recognizes the care and appreciates it!

But seriously stop fucking hovering, Nate.

Describing Skwisgaar as talented or handsome feels shallow to her. She sees how much he wants to be valued for something else and she gets it. He’s more than just a “guitar god” he’s extremely caring towards the band and he’s pretty observant when he wants to be.

Skwisgaar: Stable and Warm.

Nathan is a solid constant for Skwisgaar who ,I remind you, was neglected his entire life on top of not exactly having the most stable of homes. We’re told Skwisgaar was constantly hoping from band to band before joining Dethklok (and given he couldn’t have been older than his early twenties when they formed I think that says a lot) but when the band splits he sticks it out with Nathan instead of going back to that old routine. Cause even if Nathan is a stubborn asshole he’s still Nathan. The guy he clicked with and has been comfortable with for over a decade and came after him because he also doesn’t want to be without him. Nathan chose him so he chooses Nathan.

They choose each other 🥲

Robin has less history behind it obviously but it’s something he’s felt since meeting her. She’s passionate! And determined and well…angry. He associates that energy with warmth because he’s a poetic romantic and a fire can keep you warm or burn you. Robin’s like that and the risk is worth it when you’ve been cold your whole life like he has.

85. Their S/O is tipsy. How do they handle it?

Robin has two options. Let them get shitfaced and solve that problem or distract them.

Said distraction usually means sex in some form so depends on how she’s feeling.

Nathan will just man handle the two blonds if they’re tipsy and he needs to get involved. Skwisgaar’s way too light and Robin is tiny it’s very easy.

Skwisgaar is getting tipsy first. He weighs nothing, he doesn’t eat before drinking, he’s a goddamn mess. Nathan and Robin never have the chance to get tipsy before him.

And in the rare chance they did he can’t do shit. They’re stronger than him and incredibly stubborn soooo give him a drink he’s getting tipsy himself.

87. If they ever lost one another in a public place, how do they find the other?

Nathan and Skwisgaar are very large men and very famous. It’s next to impossible for Robin to lose them if they’re in the same place…she also has a tracker in their phones but that was Charles idea and hold on it’s not creepy it’s her job-

Nathan and Skwisgaar have lost Robin a lot though. It can’t be helped in crowded places. She’s 4’11! They usually call or yell for her and that works.

[something-about-sunflowers]

Izzy hands is definitely not a racist. I hate how there’s so much discourse over an actual fictional character rn😭. I am Māori and Afro-Latine and have detected literally no racism from his character. If we’re going to label anyone as racist it would be Stede due to his past w being an aristocrat or whatever the term is. But even then, there is no evidence.

The amount of dread that filled me seeing 'anonymous', 'Izzy Hands', and 'racist' in my notifs at a quick glance. . .

Anyway, yeah, like I'm super white so I know I'm not like. The best person to speak on it (though I believe we've mostly established that the Izzy Hate Anon is ALSO white sooooo. . .) but from my limited perspective, the only people in the show who are deliberately depicted being racist ('deliberately', because there is a Doylist explanation for the anchor raising scene that people like to cite), other than the people who get their shit rocked immediately for it, are Stede and Pete. And there is textual evidence for that, it's not interpretation, the native people literally call them both racist for SAYING something racist. (We'll ignore Stede’s wealth coming from his family plantation for the sake of 'it's not mentioned in the show so it's likely something they don't want us to be concerned with' but like. Izzy isn't the one who owned a plantation. And IMAGINING him coming from wealth to make that a possibility is not, in fact, canon. Or fair when Stede isn't held to the same standard anyway.)

Of course if you tell that to someone who is determined to hate Izzy No Matter What they'll ignore it. And they'll ignore that the very people who trapped Stede and Pete who called them out for being racist very much did not do that to Izzy and in fact did business with him (argue that 'it's because he had Fang and Ivan with him' and I'll point RIGHT at Oluwande).

Unfortunately this ask is likely to get accused of either: me sending it to myself (like we apparently do with the anon hate 🙄) or you lying about your race to justify not hating Izzy (or you being truthful but 'weaponizing' your race to make your 'interpretation' hold more weight, y'know, something the Izzy Haters NEVER do 🙄🙄🙄).

And mind, this isn't me hating on Stede or Pete, just pointing out the double standard and that the bare minimum threshold the show has for 'being considered racist' is something that Izzy doesn't reach.

[adanseydivorce]

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I’ll go with a TSC opinion because it’s you :). Although it is hard with such a vast fandom to completely speak on which opinions are or aren’t popular, and what’s popular here on tumblr is different from twitter is different from general opinions sometimes etc…. so I guess take that with a grain of salt! But an opinion floating around in my head right now is I don’t think that highly of the way cc writes villains generally speaking.  Ironically (since a lot of aspects of her characterization have improved since tmi to me) I think her best villains (in terms of big bads, I’ll speak on side villains separately) remain Valentine and Sebastian especially the latter. And I feel like a big part of that is how directly linked they are to the protagonists and driving their conflict, it allows them to be developed and feel vital to the story in a way a lot of her antagonists lack. As much as I adore TID it’s a very good thing so much of the story relies on the development of the protagonists relationships because Mortmain is such a lazily constructed villain, there’s like nothing there I’ve read those books like 5 times and he’s so unimpressive it’s sad… but within the narrative structure he does the job he’s meant to accomplish perfectly fine and that’s something. Malcolm and especially Annabel are the opposite: conceptually super interesting to me and awaken my imagination more than her other villains especially the backstory of their relationship which hits certain buttons for me, but aside from a few stand out moments ex: the scene where Annabel kills Malcolm after he resurrect her and he lets her, some of the scenes in Lord of Shadows of her interacting with the Blackthorns pre-the clave meeting, some Malcolm monologues in LM etc. the execution in the end is quite lacking. Tatiana is… very flat to me the only thing of interest about her is her dynamic with Grace and the framing of Grace’s pov about her and that’s underutilized in the end (that I was know for a fact is not unpopular though just while we’re talking about it). And even the tmi villains don’t quite make it to my hall of fame they aren’t say, Katherine Pierce or Mona Vanderwaal or Lilah Morgan or Carmilla or Darla or Miss Havisham (fun fact: I did also end up reading a studying GE for a class fall semester last year and found her fascinating tbh so I think that’s also contributing to my retrospect contempt for Tatiana). I do like some of her secondary recurring villains like The Seelie Queen and Camille are fun to me whenever they show up, and The Unseelie King was creepy in way that worked for me. Zara is definitely the worst of those secondary villains (of ones I’m remembering rn) but she doesn’t take away from things I like about tda as much as she has for other readers I think. Nate isn’t anything special as a villain but like I said in another post I think the way his existence is worked into Tessa’s arc and internal struggles is really great so he gets a passing grade on average. 

(send me a 🔥 + a topic and I’ll give an opinion about/related to it)

[variousqueerthings]

okidoki, @elsonambulo and I have been having fun conversations about reading Amanda as aro --

EDIT: this has been in my drafts for months. pre-s5 months, so I probably won’t mention s5 much in here because I cannot remember toooo much rn (I will rewatch it) @elsonambulo I lied to you, I found it and I wrote some more and now I’m posting it-

going through some interesting thoughts that I wonder if exists amongst other people who are aro themselves (I get the same feeling when I hc characters as ace + aroace) of internalised Stuff that makes one feel like that headcanon is somehow “less allowed” than others -- ex. it would be easy to say “oh of course Amanda is now conveniently aro, because then you can have her and Daniel divorce, so he can hook up with Johnny or Chozen or whoever,” and to be clear, nobody has said those things to me!

but those things exist in my head (and they exist because aromanticism and asexuality are considered less interesting in narrative -- too complicated, not dramatic enough, and definitely not normal enough! surprise, it’s just classic queerphobia).

So in honour of saying “fuck you” to internalised stuff, let’s look at why aromantic Amanda is very compelling -- including the idea that... maybe she would have that sort of internalised thinking as well that could stop her from being able to pursue these ideas within herself

Here’s something the ever-intelligent elsonambulo and I talked about (shared with permission):

VQT: considering how gung-ho this season was about the perfect nuclear family, it's just making me even more interested in exploring those cracks! and amanda is such untapped Potential

E: There's just So Much there with her. She is not a traditional wife or mother by any means and I'm sure the writers patted themselves on the back for that and just stopped thinking about it but we know there's more there. She speaks to us jghgg

VQT: it's the mix of how daniel gets the most important moments with sam + presents himself as the family-minded in more personal/smaller-scale ways to amanda's focus on making sure the business continues to run and the notion of what Makes a family and why is it important to maintain it (and what is it maintained on -- is it love? respect? communication? mutual agreement? shared goals?)-- and of course that amanda, while better off than other women on the show, is still full of gaps where her motivations would be, so we're free to invent them!

AND that these notions of "what a woman should do" are so to the left with her/you see her struggling with "performing" marriage and motherhood

E: I will never be over how in making Sam the karate larusso instead of Anthony and in making Daniel an all in family man to contrast with Johnny, the writers almost had to make Amanda the practical go-getter.

And it's clear it's a happy marriage, because the point was that Daniel just kept winning at life. But when audiences get happy marriage + stay at home dad energy + a woman who is, in the end, there to play the role of wife and is therefore not as present as the man, then questions start to come up. Questions like yours about what it takes to maintain a family and a marriage and what a marriage is based on, but also questions on who this woman is and what her motivations and inner thoughts might be.

Because, like you said, she's in the role of wife and mother but she occupies that role differently than others do. So what's the deal there? Yeah maybe she's just "not like other girls" but that's boring ghhjh. Not enough meat in that

First things first, slow clap for that last message!

Secondly, broadly and vaguely perhaps, but reading Amanda as aromantic is simply an incredibly interesting way of queering the text with Intention. I’m under no illusions that the word probably doesn’t even exist in the lexicon of the writers, never mind the ability to compute it into narrative

Amanda doesn’t suffer as much as Carmen in terms of being allowed action and motivation and some internal life, by far. But the creators of the show probably haven’t gone much further than, “ok she’s a little more badass, she’s practical and pragmatic,” and if we were to go a stretch further (and to echo Elsonambulo) there’s also a tie-in to Daniel being a little less acceptable as a guy, because he’s taking on a family-man role

She’s not entirely trapped in the home (like Carmen almost always is) -- in the first couple of seasons she’s in the dealership a lot (a different sort of trapped) and her most emotional moment with Sam happens while Daniel is noticeably away in Okinawa, and then in s5 (which I do have to rewatch) she’s “karate adjacent” which is pretty great, and there’s the babe ruthless moment which, like many things, is kind of a mixed bag for me. 

(“why are they in a womens’ only bar” I ask, wondering if the writers have heard of lesbianism. “why are they suddenly fighting?” “okay but babe ruthless is a genuinely killer name”)

She’s equally practical about the marriage, which is another place to use the crowbar and look underneath for some fun aro-reading. Daniel isn’t putting in the work that’s promised in the marriage and Amanda seems to be calmly moving towards something like a separation, until he promises to make it up and course correct -- the placement of her (dealership) with the narrative about the marriage, can easily be analysed from the perspective of said marriage being equally a business. This not meant coldly -- after all, she is incredibly fond of Daniel and wants them to run these things together -- but simply... practically

So now imagining this practical woman and this highly romantic man -- so romantic that it’s kind of catching and charming and you do wanna just do things to him, and yeah, this is probably what love is, and besides what references does amanda have? that time her parent cheated with her maths tutor and she fucked up that tutors car?

more important than deep, deep emotion of the kind apparently seen in other relationships (dubious, footage not found), is something that works and is good with someone you care about, and also are attracted to! 

- here I note that I know this was once meant to be a much longer text, but it’s been a few months, so much of the thought process has gotten a bit muddled since, but I wanna just post it as-is. the main conclusion is

1. young!Amanda who doesn’t feel the way other girls feel about the whole cute falling-in-love type thing, and is rather just very sexually confident and gravitates towards Daniel’s whole Thing in the way a lot of the guys do, but without the toxic masculinity or Need For Ownership that they seem to have -- but his magnetism, his open charm, his ability to work hard, his honesty-

2. which speaking of honesty, do headcanon a large part of her own private “fuck this whole thing” is discovering he has a secret past of karate trauma that she simply wasn’t let in on, which is Breaking The Marriage Deal 

3. I wonder as well -- in terms of that pragmatism it’s not simply that she’s aro, but there’s an element of some kind of neurodivergency in that. she’ll go for the steps that seem most correct to her, and unless genuinely freaked out (the house alarm going off, Daniel having his breakdown in s5 about Silver, Sam getting hurt), she’s quite cool about most things

4. Amanda slipping under the radar, because she’s simply -- from the outside -- a very confident, capable, heterosexually married woman, and that is the Image she likes to present, but canonically she has this whole side to her that she’s very effectively buried, that may not be as extreme as karate-rivals, but is evidence of her as not this picture-perfect being

5. and so this whole process of karate rivals coming out of the woodworks on Daniel’s side, offers her a chance to think of some stuff on her side, like why she does the things she does, and why she’s in this marriage, and what is important to her about it (and is it this nebulous idea of “love” or is it something more hardy, more pragmatic, more physical -- like a business and kids)

6. not to say her dedication to Daniel isn’t real, but she has to go through what exactly that consists of, and why Daniel matters to her, and also she’s not onboard -- not with Kreese and not with Silver -- until she has real, tangible proof that they’re bad guys who can directly threaten the things she and Daniel have built. so she’s not with Daniel through everything no matter what, she’s with him on the condition that his whole deal is something that can at some point presumably be ended through fighting back. if it were just that Daniel was having a breakdown of some kind, she was ready to call it broke and pack up the kids

7. this might seem cold from the outside, but it just makes good sense. and again, does not mean she doesn’t care for Daniel, just that she’s not in it for the true love, she’s in it for the contract they’ve made (truly truly wonder what would happen if Kumiko and Amanda were onscreen together, alongside Daniel) 

8. Amanda going through this process and maybe wanting to lean into her bisexuality more? just try some things out? if it won’t ruin her marriage, and it won’t ruin her business, and she’s not deemed a slut, then... actually that feels quite appealing? 

9. Amanda’s queer karate awakening deserves to happen is all I’m saying. we already know that she’s just as into it as other characters.... 

10. there’s more thoughts but this is kind of the gist of it all. Amanda isn’t technically closeted, because she doesn’t even have the vocabulary, she’s just aware that she’s in it for other things than is traditionally expected, but she’s not “struggling” per se with her identity, because she’s not even aware of the option

11. you know those middle-aged men that are like “yeah I fucked around with a guy when I was in my late teens/early 20s but then I got married so I’m straight” -- Amanda has those vibes but with women + bonus “and I got married because that’s the thing that’s expected of me and it was the best way to merge my interest in running a business with performing correct womanhood, and he gives good head, so I’m just winning all around. what do you mean he has several men in his past who are obsessed with him to the point of violence????”

[cookinguptales]

watwudbuffydo said: I agree they could work on better responses but I also appreciate that it seems like the cast doesn’t want to mislead anyone/get anyones hopes up over nothing. In fact I’m wondering about the extent to which OFMD has had an impact on the dialing back because  that show followed through with that in the first season so I can see how maybe they want to pull back so there isn’t mass disappointment if the same thing doesn’t happen this season.

That being said I’m personally ok with this season being more about Guillermo trying (and likely failing) to move onto a “normal” life and Nandor coming to terms with how he really feels about Guillermo and for possible getting together/advancement in that direction happening next season.

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idk much about OFMD, so I can’t speak to that. (I’ve actually been actively avoiding hearing much about it; I know I want to watch it eventually but I don’t have the brain power for a new fixation rn.) But I do think that the WWDITS fandom’s tenor has changed a lot over the last year and they were perhaps unprepared for it. It’s not the first time I’ve seen cast/crew overwhelmed by fan response, especially re: a ship.

I don’t actually mind them being vague, but yeah, it’s more what they say than why they’re saying it. I wish sometimes they’d just say something like “oh, I can’t say much because we want to keep the tension” or something. It’s when they start talking about how the relationship might be more special because they’re not having sex or they’re “non-sexual soulmates” or something that I’m like “...okay, but why’d you have to put it like that...” because that’s when we start getting into some ideas that have been used to dismiss gay love stories for decades.

I actually agree with not wanting it to be canon this season. I’ve been saying that for months, haha. I think Nandor needs more time to “cook”, so to speak, and now I guess Guillermo needs more time to realize what he really needs out of life. (I wrote “wants” at first, but lbr. We’re talking about needs that he may not particularly want at this point, lmao.) I’m happy to see both of them kind of starting to lean toward that. Nandor is starting to become more affectionate towards Guillermo and is starting to acknowledge all he’s done for him, and Guillermo is starting to fall back into the vampires’ unbelievable bullshit. He really seemed like he was having fun trying to outlawyer the Djinn and I was so relieved.

A statement like “it might happen in the future, but isn’t happening this minute” doesn’t actually bother me! It’s... it’s the way they keep couching it...