#but you see i keep signing up for big projects with deadlines

[genderfluid-draws]

watch this space tomorrow 👀

[finishwhatyoustarted-event]

Finish What You Started 2024 - Event Rules

[ID copied from alt: Event Rules on a blue background. ⬒ No new projects ◨ Any medium and any fandom welcome ⬓ NSFW inclusive, warnings must be tagged ◧ Tag #FinishWhatYouStarted2024; boosting/retweeting starts September 13th ◼ Event ends October 31st, 2024]

The goal of this event is to get things done that you’ve already started. We all have unfinished projects whose incomplete status haunts us. Those are what we want to tackle!

The structure is loose, as this is a multimedia event. While primarily aimed at writers, this event is open to any kind of creative fanwork. Fics, translations, podfics, fanart, animations, cosplay - if you started it and never got it done, it qualifies. There is no sign-up required. I will not assign beta readers for writers, but I can boost requests for those who want them! And I can boost messages of those who would like to beta read.

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[writingquestionsanswered]

I used to love writing when I was in high school, but stopped after I graduated because of life. Now, after almost a decade, I want to get back into it but I don't know how. I have so many ideas but I tend to bounce around the same variations and don't know how to stick to one thing, or how to just get back into the rhythm of writing actively. Or even reading actively.

Any advice?

Getting Back to Reading and Writing

What you're experiencing is what I like to think of as "the creative zoomies."

After so long away from actively reading and writing, there's now this flood of ideas, plans, books you want to read, and stories you want to write. You can't settle and focus on a single thing because your brain wants to do ALL THE THINGS, so you keep bouncing back and forth between things hoping something will stick.

First things first... DEEP BREATH.

As I said in an earlier post, remember: there is no ticking clock. It may feel like there is, sometimes, but we're just little ants on a planet doing our things. There are no deadlines unless you sign up for any, and you don't have to worry about that right now.

So... start by taking an honest look at your schedule and your life, and see if you can figure out a realistic estimate of how much time you have in a given week. Where are there slots of time you can dedicate to writing? How about reading?

Next, it can be immensely helpful if you have a comfortable, relaxing space, free from distraction and interruption, where you can go to write. Some people like to go write at a coffee shop or library to get away from family shenanigans or bothersome housemates. If it's not a billion degrees where you are, you might also try your patio, yard, or a nearby park. Listening to soft music or "ambience rooms" (tons on YouTube) through headphones can also help you focus. There are also still some different apps and programs for distraction free writing. Just make sure to save often and keep a master document on your computer to prevent losing all your work in case the app or program gets glitchy. Also: put your phone on silent, turn off your internet if you must, and let people know not to bother you. This is your writing time... don't be afraid to guard it fiercely.

As for choosing ideas, I'm a big fan of the old-fashioned methods... random number pickers, drawing out of a hat, rolling dice... But you can also do a process of elimination based on what appeals to you the most. If you get it down to two, and then you're disappointed with the one you're left with, you know the one you just eliminated is the right idea to go with.

If you're not sure what to write, try doing some writing prompts. There are lots available online and there are some great books with writing prompts. Doing one a day can be a great way to get yourself back in the habit of writing again.

As for reading, start by reading during moments of spare time, such as if you're taking a bath, riding your stationary bike, sitting in a waiting room, or riding public transportation. You can even read during your morning coffee or your lunch break. Also, embrace the world of audio books. This is one of my favorite ways to read, because I can do it while I'm exercising, showering, cleaning, cooking, driving, doing projects... I get through so many more books by listening to audio books. More than anything, just remember that once again, there's no ticking clock. You don't have to finish a certain number of books before the end of the year. Read what you want, at the pace that works for you, and don't be afraid to DNF if a book isn't working for you.

I hope this helps!

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[siswritesyanderes]

Read your Yandere Phineas fic again cause I love it.

Couldn’t help but think about Candace Flynn in this situation, who finds out about Reader.

Candace, who realizes she has to intervene and stop her brother because his obsessive, stalker behavior is a problem that has to be stopped.

Candace, who always fails to bust her brothers.

This is great in a lot of ways, because immediately I'm thinking about Phineas's reaction to knowing Candace's intent to stop him, and it's like...

In the show he's consistently positive and chill about the fact that Candace is trying to bust him and Ferb. Sometimes he acts like he doesn't know she's doing it, like when he'd say something to the effect of "Oh, Candace! You're here to also play with the thing we made!" But he explicitly knows she's trying to bust them. He's said as much in the show, pretty casually. The fact that he knows she's trying to end their fun but remains all smiles with her suggests so much.

First of all, he knows she isn't going to actually successfully ruin anything for him. Stuff has worked out for him always and it's going to keep working out for him because he has a brilliant mind, a positive attitude, and great friends. He sees her scrambling to get their mom to interrupt the fun he's having, and he does not perceive her as an actual threat. She's just his sister being silly.

Second of all, he usually doesn't take what he's doing that seriously. If Candace did get his mom to see that he's building a roller coaster and Linda said to stop building a roller coaster, he'd probably just say "Aw, man," take apart the coaster, and build a different thing tomorrow. (That one episode where they get busted and go to imagination jail or whatever was just a dream Perry had.) We might assume Linda would want to crack down on them doing any more dangerous things in the future, but I think Phineas would be surprised if that was the case. Their dad already knows about some of the stuff they've been up to, and he's been chill about it.

Third of all, Candace's antagonism is a part of the game. It's not even an obstacle in the game. Candace tries to bust them in the same way that Buford "bullies" Baljeet– it's just a thing that happens that isn't genuinely hurting anyone. It's character, it's color. It's a part of her, and she's his sister, and he loves and admires his sister.

But taking all of that in, the times when he's lost his temper at Candace have been when she's actually shown that she might ruin his project for the day. He wants to circumnavigate the globe before sundown, and if she doesn't get on the trike right now, they won't have all met the deadline, so he yells at her to get on the trike. Also, that one time in the Marvel episode. Idk, I only saw that one once, but basically she was such a big Marvel fan that she kept messing stuff up in his work space and he told her to get out.

All of this to say:

If Candace were to confront him like, "Hey, are you stalking that girl??" he would initially take it pretty lightly.

Initially, it's just another round of her hassling him about whatever he's doing while he stays positive. Honestly, he might go, "Yes. Yes I am."

If she lectures him about the moral implications of what he's doing, he would just muse about it with her like they're doing a fun thought experiment, reach the conclusion that what he's doing is actually fine (or resolve to make some small, trivial change to his approach and then brightly thank Candace for reminding him), and just generally shrug everything off.

But if she actually shows signs of taking meaningful steps to stop him– especially trying to warn Reader about what he's doing –he would lose his patience for her part in the game.

I don't think he would yell; he has a better hold on his temper than he did when he was ten, and I'm pretty sure he regretted yelling at her in the Marvel episode. No, he tries to just smile and politely explain to her why she shouldn't get in his way. His smile is tight, like a cheerful warning.

When she refuses to be talked down, he stops smiling. He stops explaining. She can see hints of his adolescent temper behind his eyes, but he doesn't yell.

He doesn't do anything to stop her. As she walks away from him, he just returns to his multi-screen computer set up or whatever other work space he has by this point.

He has contingency plans for this.

He just needs to think of the kindest way to get her out of his way.

[armpirate]

Soundleasure | Choi San || CH. 31

Pairings: Soft!San x fem!reader || Strangers to lovers, fake dating

Genre: smut, angst, fluff, online sex, ghosting

Warnings: inexperienced!San, fem!reader, masturbation, online sex, camboy, first times.

Summary: You can do whatever you please and be whoever you want on the Internet. And San knew that a little bit too well.

After finally following all the signs the universe was throwing at him, he started living a double life that no one was aware of. Everyone in his daily life knew him as Choi San, the reserved and quiet boy who wouldn't raise his voice, and would barely communicate with anyone outside of his comfort group. But only a few knew him as Soundleasure, the man with a sexy voice and a filthy mind that had their toes curling just with his narrations.

He never thought of the possibility of those two lives ever meeting, he had always tried for them to follow a parallel route and had always played safe to keep his friends from ever suspecting that side even existed. But his plans will start to crumble when he gets a little too close with one of his subscribers and she invades his real-self and altergo's universes without being able to stop it.

Y/n will not only help him to keep his secret from his circle, but will also show him there's more of Soundleasure in him than he'd like to admit. 

Previous || Next

MASTERLIST

Aprox. time of reading: 21 minutes

Y/n stared at her reflection in the bathroom mirror, willing herself to keep it together. Her carefully applied makeup couldn't hide the dark circles under her eyes or the tension etched into her features. The past few days had been an emotional whirlwind, with her health scare, the fallout with San, and now, the looming project deadline that seemed to be tightening a noose around her neck.

She closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. She needed to focus. The meeting that afternoon with the board of directors was crucial, a final pitch for the new project that could solidify her leadership in the company. But as much as she tried to stay in the moment, her thoughts kept drifting back to San.

Since their argument in the hospital, things between them had been strained -cold, even. They had agreed to take a break, to give each other space, but the distance only seemed to make things worse. It was as if they were both waiting for the other to make the first move, neither willing to bridge the gap.

With a sigh, Y/n gathered her composure and left the bathroom, heading back to her office. The hallways were quiet, most of the staff either out to lunch or busy with their work. She glanced at her watch -just under an hour before the meeting. She had planned to go over her presentation one last time, but the tension in her shoulders was begging for release.

As she made her way towards the elevator, she heard footsteps behind her. Glancing over her shoulder, she saw Sarah, one of the scholars from the mentorship program, hurrying to catch up with her. Sarah had been struggling to find her place in the company, and Y/n had taken a personal interest in her development. She paused, waiting for the younger woman to catch up.

—Y/n! I'm glad I caught you. Do you have a moment? —she asked, out of breath.

—Of course, Sarah. What's on your mind?

Sarah looked nervous, her hands fidgeting with the hem of her blazer. Y/n could see the anxiety in her eyes, and it tugged at her heart. She remembered what it was like to be young and eager to prove herself in a world that often seemed too big and too demanding. In a way, she saw herself in her.

—I wanted to talk to you about the project. I've been working on data analysis, but I'm worried I'm not… doing enough. I don't want to let the team down.

Y/n softened, her own worries momentarily pushed aside. She placed a reassuring hand on Sarah's arm, meeting her gaze with gentle firmness.

—You're doing great, Sarah. It's normal to feel like this when you're working on something important. But trust me, you're doing great. I can see that, and I'm sure your team does as well.

Sarah nodded, but the uncertainty in her eyes didn't entirely fade. Y/n squeezed her arm, offering her a warm smile.

—If you need any help or just want to talk through your ideas, my door is always open. I also have the best snacks, just in case you need some sugar —she glanced a close smile at her.

—Okay. Thank you —Sarah's smile was shy, but radiating a relief that wasn't there a few minutes back.

From afar, San could only smile at Y/n's delicacy while speaking to everyone. She was always so gentle and close, so eager to help and be there for her team.

She certainly was a hidden treasure inside that company.

As Sarah walked away, looking slightly more at ease, Y/n felt a small sense of accomplishment. She loved mentoring the younger staff, seeing them grow and gain confidence. It was one of the few aspects of her job that brought her genuine joy these days. But that joy was quickly overshadowed by the looming dread of the meeting.

Y/n continued her walk, her heels clicking softly on the polished floor. She passed by the large windows overlooking the city, the bustling streets far below a sharp contrast to the stillness in her heart. Just as she reached the elevator, her phone buzzed in her pocket. She pulled it out, expecting a reminder about the meeting, but her breath caught in her throat when she saw the message.

I'm closer than you think. Nothing will stop me from reaching you.

Her heart raced as she stared at the screen, the words blurring together. It was another message from the mysterious admirer, the same one who seemed to show up every time she forgot about them.

Her fingers trembled as she quickly locked her phone and stuffed it back into her pocket. She glanced around, half-expecting to see someone watching her, but the hallway was empty. The creeping sense of unease settled in her chest, tightening her breath.

The elevator doors opened with a soft chime, and Y/n hurried inside, thinking that small space was the safest corner she could come up with. As the doors closed, she leaned against the cool metal wall, willing her racing heart to slow. The sense of being watched, of being followed, clung to her like a shadow.

The elevator ascended smoothly to the wide terrace, where she often liked to walk to clear her head. The dimly lit space was usually quiet, a perfect place to think. As she stepped out, the air cool and still felt like a soft caress on her cheeks. She walked slowly, letting the steady rhythm of her steps soothe her nerves.

But as she turned a corner, she stopped short. San was there, leaning on the railing, supporting his weight on his forearms as he stared down at his phone. He hadn't noticed her yet, and for a moment, she considered turning around, retreating back to the safety of her office. But something in the set of his shoulders, the tension in his stance, made her pause.

She walked forward, her footsteps softening as she approached him. He looked up just as she neared, his eyes widening slightly in surprise before he masked it with his recent cool demeanor, anticipating her movements before he was even aware of them.

—I didn't know you were here.

—Needed some air. Were you looking for me? —he shrugged, slipping his phone into his pocket.

His voice was calm, but Y/n could sense the undercurrent of tension. She hesitated, unsure of how to bridge the distance between them, the unspoken words that hung in the air like a storm cloud. Part of her wanted to reach out, to find a way to mend what had been broken, but another part of her was too afraid of what he might say.

San studied her for a moment, his gaze flickering over her face as if searching for something. When he spoke again, his tone was more serious, more pointed.

—N… no. I also needed some air —she finally admitted.

—You look stressed. Everything okay?

Y/n swallowed, the image of the text message flashing in her mind. She wanted to tell him, to share the burden of the strange messages with someone she trusted. But they weren't in that place anymore, and the thought of opening up to him now felt too vulnerable.

—Just the usual work stress. I'm a control freak who needs everything to go smoothly —she nervously chuckled.

—Right. Well, I'm sure you've got it under control —his eyes narrowed at her answer.

The words were meant to be reassuring, but they fell flat, heavy with the weight of everything left unsaid. Y/n shifted on her feet, the tension between them becoming unbearable. She opened her mouth to say something -anything to break the awkward silence- but the sound of footsteps approaching from the other end of the terrace interrupted her.

They both turned to see Tom walking towards them, his easy smile in place, oblivious to the tension between Y/n and San while he carried a cigarette between two of his fingers.

—What a coincidence running into you both here.

Y/n's heart sank as she watched San's expression harden at the sight of Tom. Although that same tension on his features was ignored by the intruder.

—I was just heading up to the office. I needed to chill before doing anything.

—We were also looking for some fresh air, too —Y/n answered.

San's silence was palpable, his eyes flicking between Y/n and David with a guarded expression. The tension that had been simmering beneath the surface now bubbled over, and Y/n could feel the terrace was becoming smaller.

—I should get back —San moved first, walking past Y/n—. See you both inside.

Without waiting for a response, San turned and walked away. Y/n just watched him go, a lump forming in her throat. She wanted to call out to him, to explain, but the words wouldn't come.

Tom, sensing the awkwardness, tilted his head slightly.

—Everything okay with you two?

—Yes —Y/n assured.

If there was something she couldn't do, it was to show any weakness in front of that family. Not again.

—I'll also get back. See you.

Alone, she walked back towards the elevator, the silence felt heavier than when she stepped there the first time that day. As she rode up to the office, Y/n's mind raced, her thoughts spinning out of control. She had tried so hard to keep everything together, to maintain control over her life and her emotions, but it was all slipping through her fingers.

The elevator doors opened, and she stepped out into the busy hallway. The noise and activity of the office felt like a jarring contrast to the quiet tension of the terrace. Y/n forced herself to focus, to push aside her personal worries and prepare for the meeting.

But as she walked towards the conference room, her heart ached with the knowledge that things with San were far from over, and that whatever happened next, it wouldn't be easy.

Long after that meeting that seemed to never end, Y/n walked briskly down the hallway, her mind preoccupied with the new project she was involved in. Although it was positive. It was always a good way to keep her distracted and focused on something else that wouldn't hurt her.

As she approached the glass-walled conference room near the end of the corridor, something caught her eye -San and Mia, standing close, deep in conversation. Y/n slowed her pace, her gaze narrowing as she took in the scene before her.

Mia was laughing, her hand resting lightly on San's arm. San, usually reserved and distant since their breakup, was smiling back at her, his expression warm and open in a way that Y/n hadn't seen in weeks. They looked comfortable, almost… intimate.

A pang of jealousy stabbed at Y/n's heart. And with furrowed eyebrows, she tried to read through their body language as if that would give her the answer to anything.

She knew Mia was after San, it was quite obvious since she started mentoring him, but San? He certainly didn't look uncomfortable or bothered by her proximity.

She couldn't tear her eyes away from the scene, her thoughts racing. She had never thought of San ever having something with Mia, and definitely not at the scene she was witnessing, but suddenly the idea that San could move on, that he could be happy with someone else, made her chest tighten with a mix of anger and sadness.

Before she knew it, her feet had carried her to the door of the conference room. She hesitated for a moment, debating whether or not to interrupt them. But the thought of confronting them, of hearing something she wasn't ready to face, made her stomach churn. Instead, she turned on her heel and walked away, her mind swirling with hurt at a decision she took herself.

Meanwhile, inside the meeting room, San was forcing himself to smile as wide as possible to play along Mia's game, hoping she couldn't make him work on the several tasks she was planning to give him the same weekend he was supposed to visit his parents.

He didn't mind working, he was sure he'd find a way to balance the project with Soundleasure, but that weekend he was finally getting some peace in his life, and he couldn't afford to miss it.

—I'll try to make an exception. Only if you show up at the company's party.

He had been hearing of that the whole day through the rest of scholars, whose minds were deeper on that party than the project. San wasn't planning to attend, he didn't want to be there. It was the last thing he needed: to feel overwhelmed by being surrounded by people he didn't know and wasn't interested in knowing.

But if that was the only way to get Mia to be more flexible on him, he had no other choice but to nod and assure her he'd be there.

That was how he found himself at the doors of the club, wearing one of the black shirts Y/n had bought him, with a pair of black pants that she kept assuring him looked like the best fit on him. Thinking so much about her, he'd have never thought it would work as an attractor.

At first, he only saw her from afar, eyes catching her speaking with a small group with her usual confident demeanor, eyes momentarily flickering in his direction, as if their connection always exposed them to each other.

If only that had been their only interaction…

The first awkward encounter happened when the evening's organizer announced a team-building game, one of those icebreaker activities that always seemed out of place at formal events. Y/n tried to avoid it, making a beeline for the exit, but was intercepted by a cheerful colleague who insisted she join in to integrate her with the team. She forced a smile, nodding along, only to discover that she had been paired with San.

His expression mirrored her unease as they stood side by side, both trying to maintain a polite distance while following the instructions for the game. It involved passing a small object between them without using their hands, a task that required more physical closeness than either was comfortable with. Each time their shoulders brushed or their hands accidentally touched, Y/n felt a jolt of awareness, the proximity rekindling emotions she had tried so hard to suppress.

Despite their best efforts to remain professional, the tension between them was palpable, noticed even by their colleagues who exchanged knowing glances and whispered comments.

After the game ended, Y/n managed to slip away, seeking refuge by the buffet table. She wasn't hungry, but she needed a moment to catch her breath, to steady herself before another encounter with San. As she reached for a glass of wine, she felt a familiar presence beside her.

San had appeared, seeking calmness in the same place she did, with his hand brushing hers as he reached for the same glass. Their eyes met, and for a brief moment, the noise of the gala seemed to fade away, leaving just the two of them standing there, caught in a moment of shared history and unresolved tension.

—Seems like we keep running into each other tonight.

—Yeah, just our luck —she hummed, slipping away again.

The exchange was brief, awkward, and laden with everything they weren't saying. Y/n quickly excused herself, retreating into the crowd, but the encounter left her heart pounding. She wasn't sure how much more of this she could take.

The final blow came later in the evening, when the music shifted from upbeat tunes to slow, romantic melodies. Couples began to pair off on the dance floor, and Y/n had every intention of avoiding it, but before she could slip away, her father dragged her to the dance floor before she could avoid it.

—Smile a bit —he encouraged her, moving to the beat of the song.

—I'd smile, but you forced me to dance when you know I hate it —her tongue clicked—. And what are the scholars doing here? They aren't even part of the company officially.

—So, after fighting so hard for balance and equality, you're complaining about me doing the same thing.

—I know why you're doing it, and it's not because you want the team to build closer.

—You're right —he finally sighed.

San was also caught off guard when Y/n's mother approached him with a tender smile and general conversation, inviting him to dance with her before he found himself trapped in a situation where Y/n was glued to his body while the two people that involved them were sneaking away with proud smiles.

—I'm gonna kill them —Y/n murmured.

The familiarity of being in San's arms again, with the realization hitting her after he giggled, sent a rush of emotions through Y/n. The music was soft, the lighting dim, and despite the crowd around them, it felt as though they were the only two people in the room. But instead of feeling comforted, she was on edge, her thoughts racing back to the scene she had witnessed earlier between San and Mia.

—Y/n, these days have been so tough —he admitted.

Y/n's heart skipped a beat. He was finally addressing the tension between them, being braver than her.

—I know.

San faltered, clearly caught off guard by the coldness in her voice. He had expected resistance, but the distance in her tone made his chest tighten.

—I know you said you wanted space, but this is driving me nuts —his finger stuck tighter on her fabric—. I really miss you. I think all the time about you, I see you everywhere. I need you.

The click of her tongue almost made a dry sound through the music, although she avoided it by looking away. Over his shoulder, she managed to see Mia looking at them with crossed arms, eyes radiating bitterness as her jaw clenched tight.

—Yeah, I can tell you see me everywhere —that sentence didn't sound sweet and comforting, but attacking and threatening—. I see you're pretty close to your mentor.

—Are you seriously gonna come at me for that? I'm not the one working with my ex, I supposedly hate, as if nothing happened. Call it professionalism all you want, but I don't buy it.

—What are you trying to say?

—That it's way too convenient you decided to break up with me at the same time he showed up —they didn't know when they stopped moving, they could only focus on the sadness and anger in each other's voices—. Something you need to tell me?

The words came out harsher than he intended, laced with the jealousy he had been trying to suppress ever since Tom showed up at that conference room. San knew he was being unfair, but the thought of her being with someone else was messing with his head.

Out of everything he said, there was only one thing that affected her to the point of feeling her eyes watering out of her control, and it was the avoidance in him. He didn't deny whatever her assumption was, instead he attacked her with something similar to make her thoughts seem irrelevant, and that only made her think that maybe she wasn't that wrong.

—I broke up with you because I didn't want you to go through an illness that you don't even have —she whispered—, but it's great to know what you think of me.

The song ended, leaving them standing there in silence, the tension between them thick and unresolved. Y/n looked away, her heart aching with the weight of everything left unsaid, before she finally took the decision of walking away from him and disappearing among the crows once again.

As the night wound down, the festivities slowly began to fade. Guests trickled out of the ballroom, saying their goodbyes and heading home. Y/n found herself lingering, not ready to face the emptiness of her apartment just yet.

She stepped outside, the cool night air a welcome relief from the stifling atmosphere inside. Her eyes scrolled over the road, finding a tall man in a suit stumbling despite standing still in the same place, seeing how his upper body always went ahead compared to his lower body.

And it didn't take her long to know who it was.

The party had dragged on far longer than San had anticipated. What had started as a well-organized corporate event had devolved into an evening of mingling, awkward encounters, and, for some, far too much alcohol. He was supposed to stay there for only two hours, make himself seen and then leave, but that last encounter with Y/n made the bar look way too tempting.

—San, are you okay? —Y/n dared to ask, placing her hand on his shoulder.

—I'm waiting for my taxi —her cheeks had a more noticeable blush than usual, and his eyes were hardly open when he turned to her—. Although I'm not sure they'll come —he added in a lower voice—, the operator said the pizza would take fifteen minutes.

Y/n sighed, holding back her laugh when hearing the mistake he made at just making a simple call.

—Let me take you home.

—No —he firmly said, almost falling when he pulled his arm away—. I can take care of myself.

Her eyes rolled, aware of how he was using her own words against her.

—San, let's go home —she tried to convince him.

—So not only can't I have a relationship, and deal with the bad things in it, but I also can't take myself home? Are you sure you're dating me and not a ten year old?

Her lips puckered at that new attack, standing next to him with crossed arms while she tried to come up with a way to get him to go easy on her.

—I'm not taking you home because you can't go by yourself. I'm going to visit Wooyoung, so I can just drop you off since I'm also going there.

—Wooyoung? —his eyes squinted— Why?

—Not your business —she shrugged—. I just thought it was better to share one car to go there, instead of using two when we're going to the same place.

—Well… —his lower lip stood out as he pouted— You aren't wrong. Yeah, it's a good idea to go together.

San's apartment wasn't far, but it felt like miles as they drove through the quiet city streets. The rain started with a light drizzle, casting a soft haze over the windshield. Y/n glanced at San from the corner of her eye, his usually sharp features softened by the alcohol. He was slouched in the passenger seat, his head resting against the window, eyes half-closed.

The silence between them was thick, filled with the unspoken tension of the evening. Y/n didn't know how to break itv-didn't even know if she should. But San, in his drunken haze, seemed to have no such reservations.

—You…you're too good for me, Y/n —his words slurred—. It annoys me, but I can see why you'd take that decision for me.

Y/n's heart lurched at his words, a mix of pain and confusion tightening in her chest. She kept her eyes on the road, trying to steady her voice.

—San, you don't have to say anything. Let's just get you home.

—No…no, I need to —he slowly shook his head—. I don't blame you for thinking I'm not ready to deal with something so big. I got so scared when you fainted, I didn't know what to do when you were in the hospital, I didn't know how to act. I was so confident when I first told you I'd support you, that I didn't realize how serious it was going to be. I got so anxious that I didn't even remember something so basic that you didn't want your parents to know and I…I messed up.

She didn't respond, hoping he would let it go, but he continued, his voice growing more desperate.

—You're such a wonderful and brave woman. And those days you needed someone to support you, not to make your life more difficult and add you another worry.

—But you were there to support me —she mumbled.

—And at work… I've been so petty at work… But I promise I never tried anything with Mia. Shit, I just wanted her to let me be free this weekend because I wanted to see my parents. I'd never be able to look at any woman the way I look at you. Never.

Y/n's hands tightened on the steering wheel, her knuckles turning white as she realized the pain she put him through those days by coming up with that distance. She had been hurting, but San had been suffering from her decision as well, leading to an insecurity she never wanted to cause in him.

—I want you back. I want you to teach me how to work with you through your illness, I want to be that safe place you need when you're lost. And it scares me so much to think I'll never be in that place.

The raw vulnerability in his voice nearly shattered her. Y/n blinked back tears, her vision blurring as she pulled up to his apartment building. She turned off the engine but didn't move, the weight of his confession hanging between them.

—You're already that safe place —her hand softly caressed her temple, moving his bangs away—. I was just overprotective, I didn't want to share my pain with you, and I ended up hurting you even more. I never meant it to turn out this way —she admitted.

San groaned, covering his face with his hands. He was too drunk to fully grasp the gravity of their conversation, but the pain in his voice was real, cutting through the fog of alcohol.

—Let's get you out of here —she announced, quickly cleaning her tears.

He mumbled something incoherent but allowed her to help him out of the car. He leaned heavily on her as they made their way to the entrance, the usually strong and confident man now reduced to a vulnerable mess.

They stumbled into the elevator, the silence once again enveloping them. Y/n pressed the button for his floor, her mind racing. San leaned against the wall, his eyes half-lidded as he watched her, a sad smile tugging at his lips.

The elevator dinged, and they made their way down the hall to his apartment. Y/n fumbled with the keys he handed her, finally getting the door open. She helped him inside, guiding him to the bed where he collapsed with a heavy sigh.

—I'm not sure it's a good idea to wake Wooyoung up now —San whispered, resting his head on the pillow.

—I'll see him tomorrow then —she smiled.

She stood there for a moment, watching him as he drifted off into what seemed a fitful sleep -although she didn't know he still had some things to say. Her emotions were a whirlwind, her heart torn between the love she still felt for him and the pain of everything they had been through.

—I'm sorry, Y/n…I'm so sorry. I love you…

The confession hung in the air, heavy and poignant. Y/n's breath caught in her throat, the three words she had longed to hear now tangled in the mess she had created.

—You're the best thing in my life —he whispered.

Y/n's heart clenched at his words, the sincerity in them undeniable, just like the pain that tinted them as he pronounced them.

As she stepped outside into the rain-soaked night, Y/n felt the weight of everything that had happened pressing down on her. The rain fell softly, matching the tears that slipped down her cheeks. And as she walked away from San's apartment, she couldn't shake the feeling that she had just left a piece of her heart behind.

Taglist: @brown88

[authorsadiethatcher]

It's a new month and that means it's time for another State of the Thatcher Address. I considered doing an April Fool's post where I would announce my retirement from writing, but that could easily be taken the wrong way and I'm not going anywhere. I've got a ton of great content upcoming, which I'll highlight toward the end.

It's also properly spring now, which I love. And after a rough March where I felt like I was constantly playing catch-up with my writing deadlines, I am finally ahead, meaning I can relax and push the fun angle a little more, at least in my writing process.

A quick reminder that you can find my books on Amazon, Smashwords, Google Play Books, Apple Books, Barnes & Noble, Kobo, and Everand. You can also read everything I’ve published under my Sadie Thatcher name since last May on Ream, which is a subscription platform built specifically for authors. You can check out my Ream page below.

Ream: https://reamstories.com/sadiethatcher

And speaking of Ream, I have a Ream exclusive novel called The Muse (extreme dollification) that is now complete. I've made the first three chapters available for free. All you have to do is sign up as a follower at the link above to get a taste of my first real story that is too extreme for Amazon.

I also post the occasional bit of flash fiction for followers on Ream. I have one up already and plan to post another one this week. This week's flash fiction story will be called Reduce, Reuse, Recycle.

This month I plan to actually spend some time on my other pen name, Libby Feron. As Libby, I write fantasy romance. I've got two projects I'm working on. The first is a series of novellas that could stretch into novels by the end of the series. The other is focusing on the sister in Magic's Most Wanted as she heads off to college. I don’t talk about my fantasy writing often, so checking out https://libbyferon.com/ and signing up for the email newsletter is the best way to stay informed. At some point, there will be a free novella offered.

Now it's time to talk about what to expect this month. First, there is one last book in the Spirit Week Series. That will be a double transformation with an orgy at the end. Be wary of the Bimbo Blonde hair dye. I will also be releasing a series about body glitter that turns people who touch it into bimbos. That should be a lot of fun.

The big one that I'm looking forward to, and will begin writing as soon as I finish writing this post, is College Investigation Journal. There is a dorm section at Thatcher College that keeps turning out bimbos. Every woman who lives there turns into a bimbo. And the college is sending in a graduate student to discover why. This will be written in a diary or journal format, similar to Experiment in Submission.

After that, I've got two more series that will appear toward the end of the month. One is about using bimbofication to hide secrets. The other will involve dreams somehow. I haven't figured out the details beyond that yet.

So as you can see, there's a lot of cool stuff coming this month. And I'm hoping April makes for an all around good month for my followers and readers.

[denimbex1986]

'Oppenheimer star Cillian Murphy has signed on to star in and produce a new Netflix movie, Steve.

The actor will play the role of the headteacher in the upcoming film, an adapted version of the 2023 novel Shy by author Max Porter.

Netflix has green-lit the project from Murphy's new production company Big Things Films, founded with longtime collaborator Alan Moloney. Deadline reports the movie will be shared globally on the streaming service, with filming set to begin this spring.

Steve will follow 24 hours in the life of the eponymous headteacher (Murphy), who heads up a last-chance school for troubled boys. Audiences will see the school head's mental health tested as he struggles to keep his students in line.

The screenplay, also written by Porter, differs slightly from his novel, with Shy's original protagonist being a 16-year-old student of the same name recalling one night at the school.

"The same events happen, we're just looking at them through a different lens," said Murphy of the change.

The Peaky Blinders star admitted he's a long-time fan of Porter's writing and his latest work Shy was no exception.

"It's something I've always chased down in writing — is something that has an actual visceral effect on you, an emotional effect," said Murphy.

"Max gave me that book in a proof edition before he finished it, and again it just broke my heart. They're the sorts of things I love as a reader and as a performer, so I really wanted to do something with him."

The actor has previously worked with Porter on the 2021 short film All of This Unreal Time and a stage adaptation of the novel Grief is the Thing with Feathers.

Steve will also reunite Murphy with director Tim Mielants. The two worked together on Peaky Blinders season three and the upcoming film Small Things Like These, which will debut at this year's Berlinale on opening night (February 15).'

[maireadralph]

Entrapdak Zine 5 - “Nostalgia” is now open for submissions!!

Did you know this issue will mark two years of this Entrapdak Zine? I’m just as surprised as you!

Right let’s down to business!

The deadline for this issue will be Saturday JULY 1st 2021 at 9AM GMT.

What’s that in your timezone? Go here for a Handy Dandy Countdown -> https://www.timeanddate.com/countdown/wfh?iso=20230701T09&p0=136&msg=Entrapdak+Zine+5+Deadline&font=hand&csz=1

I am flexible on this Deadline so anything that arrives on this date or by my 9am the next day July 2nd is allowed (I’m in the GMT timezone BTW)

I am LESS flexible on the Extension Deadline (see FAQs Section for more information on that)

The Zine will be out mid July the actual date is flexible and dependant on when all the Submissions come in and my own personal work schedule.

So most of this is the same as the last few - really if it ain’t broke don’t fit it!  Also a polite reminder I am only one person running this and I am a part time Barista.  It may take me a little time to reply to emails/comments especially after the Deadline time (when I have the most amount of work to do on this project) so please be patient with me.

Our basic guidelines are the same as last issue.  This is:

A Digital pdf Zine containing content created by the fans for the fans

A 100% Free Zine

Preferred Language is English

SFW content suitable for a Y7-PG13 age range (same as the show’s age rating)

You may notice I run this different to other zines as there is no sign up period, just submit work before the deadline - I’d rather people have more time to work on their pieces 

Anyone can submit regardless of age or skill level - this is not a job application - just follow the guidelines and email in your work

Submission can be Fan Writing (poems, fan fiction, character analysis, eassys etc), Fan Art, or even photos of your Entrapdak IRL content (cosplays, fancrafts etc)!  You can submit an older work that you have published online previously if you wish - or even update a work you submitted to the last Zine! Just have fun!

Guidelines applicable to all work:

Content Age Rating:

Like the show this Zine will contain content rated Y7 and PG13 rated - so please no swearing 

There WILL BE NO NSFW or 18+ content - where possible let’s keep this suitable for all ages please 

Sub note on character minimum clothing requirements: 

for male presenting characters to be speedos/underpants

for female presenting characters to be a bikini/bra and underpants 

if not sure please use the female presenting criteria

Theme:

This issue’s theme if you wish to use it is:

“Nostalgia”

This theme is a suggestion and if you’d rather make an Entrapdak piece without this theme please feel free to do so. I want you to have fun!

Allowed Characters:

As long as both Entrapta and Hordak are the main focus and the piece follows Age Rating it will be allowed.

Other allowed characters in the Entrapdak family include Emily, Imp and the Clones (also known as Spacebats)…yes weirdly this also  includes Horde Prime.

Other She-Ra characters will be allowed but Entrapdak is to be the core element.

Phew that’s a lotta text sorry about that - now on to the fun stuff! What sort of stuff is allowed?

Sex Swap AU, Species Swap AU, Furry AU, Toony AU, Anime AU, Fankid AU, Coffee Shop AU, married AU, Spacebat AU, just besties AU just to name the few that pop into my head! Oh yeah Canon Lab Partners Entrapdak too…hehe nearly forgot about that one XD. Make something Entrapdak related that’s PG13 rated and have fun!!

Fan Writing guidelines:

This includes fan fiction, analysis eassys, poetry or whatever else you’d like to write about.  I would ask this content to be between 1k-10k words in length, it’s not a big deal if the writing is over 10k or even if it’s 20k - write whatever your story needs. If you’d like to write Chapters then please do!

Written work can be emailed in the body of text, sent as pdf attachment or as a link to a Google Doc - I can work with any of those.

Please include you name/username somewhere as it helps. If there’s no name on the piece I’ll add one at the start with the title.

Fan Art guidelines:

Fan art can include rough sketches, screencap redraws, comics (appox 1-10 pages length), coloured sketches or full colour pieces. 

Fan art can be in the digital or traditional medium.  

Traditional fan art can either be submitted as a photo or scanned, which ever you prefer.

Preferred sizing for Digital art is as follows, my aim to to have everything on International (UK) A4 paper sizing where possible*

2480px x 3508pm DPI 132 

Portrait layout is preferred**

PNG is preferred but I will understand if you only wish to send a workable JPEG

The aspect ratio (width:height) of A4 paper is 1:1.4142 (1:√2)

If you need a template here’s one -> Here’s a prepared A4 Canvas PSD File (2480pm x 3508px 300DPI) if you’d like to download it and use it <- Template

Notes: 

*Images outside these sizings are still okay but may end up with a white border on the edges due to the PDF publishing settings.  

**Images in the landscape layout will get boarders when posted on a portrait page due to the PDF publishing settings, however if I receive landscape art I will make some extra pages at the end of the Zine and attempt to turn landscape art into a two page spread (which does look awesome!).

How to Apply:

Make your content and email it to entrapdakzineisluvd[at]gmail.com by JULY 1st 2023

Please make sure to include your Social Media contacts and which name or username you wish to be identified by.  If you forget to include social media details and have been a part of a previous Zine I’ll use the details I have on file 

I will reply to confirm I have received the content and that’s it I take care of the rest!

Please note I DO NOT KEEP any records of anyone’s email addresses.  When the Zine is out I batch delete all emails sent to the email address (this is usually done a week after the Zine is out) and I keep no further records of these address. I respect your email privacy at all times.  

The only records I keep on Zine applications is a private Google Sheet that has the following details: Submitter’s name, rough description of the item submitted and their social media contacts. I’m the only person with access to this Google Sheet as I use this as a Master List reference when compiling the Zine 

FAQs:

Why no Application form?

I don’t want anyone to feel like they are applying for a job here, this is supposed to be fun.

Will there be Guest Artists or Guest Writers?

If they apply sure, I’m not advertising who applies to be a part of this Zine until it’s ready to be published.  I don’t want anyone to feel intimidated just because a certain person has chosen to participate.

Can I submit more than one piece?

If you’d like to certainly!  If you’d like to submit up to three pieces of art and 3 fan writings, sure go for it! I’m certainly not going to stop anyone having a good time

May I post a preview of my work to my Followers?

Sure! Bonus points if you link them to this post so that they can take part if they wish

May I post my work online?

I would ask if you could please wait until the issue featuring your work is published. Of course this does not apply if you are chosen to submit and older work - in this case may I ask that you edit or add to said post to mention the work was also used in the Zine?

Is this only for people with a [insert certain social media account here]?

Nope, this is for anyone who wants to take part.  I only ask for a social media contact so that others who like you work for the Zine may follow you on your preferred social media platform.

Can I send an update to a piece?

Of course! Just let me know which piece you want to use and I’ll update on my end

Can I send another piece on later?

Of course that’s not a problem!

Ah I can’t get this done before the deadline - it’s almost ready!!!  I need another day!!!!

Contact me, either through the submitting email over via my Tumblr or Twitter DMs or just emailing the email address. There is extra time scheduled as an extension for anyone who needs it with no questions asked to why it is needed. Just get in contact, I'll put you name on the Extension List and that extra time is yours.  Once all names come in (or the deadline is reached) I will finish up my work and get the zine out. I will not be sending out a further reminder (because I’ll forget sorry 😅).

Why don’t you make the Extension List time public?

Because I can’t finish up the Zine if extra stuff keeps coming in at the last second - I get jittery enough with final deadlines so this is how I manage my stress

More Entrapdak Zines??

Sure why not? If the community still wants them I’ll keep compiling them ever three or so months.  I’ve seen what us nerds can do!

Where can I find the finished Zine?

All finished Zines are all hosted on a shared Google Drive free folder -> https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1My_hDY8NmOWV7v6z0sYi0TSvxv07WowX 

Oh you made it to the end of this Wall of Text…someone actually read all of this?  I mean it’s mostly the same as the last two times… uh here’s a picture of my Son Smudge because I should really pay my Cat Tax with toe beans:

[angst-in-space]

february '24 writing progress

words written: 7.9k

most words written in a day: 1,502

least words written in a day: 0

yearly total: 18.7k

projects worked on:

ya sci-fi book rewrites

sylvix pacrim au

matchablossom bedsharing fic

sylvix dreamscape fic ch 10 edits

planning some bsd fics...

works published in february:

none

february goals:

*stares into the camera* please let me finish ya sci-fi book rewrites. please for the love of god

keep working on query package

perhaps send out one query for funsies

finish editing sylvix dreamscape fic ch 10 and send to betas

work on fic at least a little??

maybeee at least touch one of my other books i.e. keep working on arctic monster book or planning space dads book, idk we’ll see

march goals:

if i don't finish ya sci-fi book rewrites this month you all have to kill me fr

errrm work on query package some more...?

finish editing sylvix dreamscape ch 10

work on other fics if i have time

keep planning bsd fics

notes:

haha... pain...

idk. rough month for me, lads. my mental health was hmm not great. i'm still not done with my ya sci-fi book rewrites and to be frank i feel like shit about it LOL. only rewrote like One Chapter and i still have like 7(??) more to go so....urrgghh. some delusional part of me believes i can still finish it this month somehow but at this rate it'll probably take me the rest of the year so lmao who knows at this point!! not me!

i did at least work a bit on my query package this month so wooo!!! a friend was helping me out with it so i still have a ton of edits to do on my query/synopsis but that's a problem for future me.

i did have some stupid plan to send out a single query just for funsies by end of february—and honestly i was gonna do it, but... missed the deadline to query the one agent i was going to query, and took that as a sign for the universe that it was an idiotic idea anyway. lol. maybe by end of march, but i am feeling so hopeless about my book currently that that's a very very big Maybe.

i also worked a bit on sylvix dreamscape fic ch 10 edits... unfortunately there was a big chunk in the middle i've had to basically totally rewrite bc i changed some stuff and also hated what i'd written but akdfjdk i really do want to finish it this month ;; i know some people are anxiously waiting for the ending so i feel terrible that it's been so long... hopefully i will make the wait worth it 🙏

umm wellll ALSO fell into bungo stray dogs hell this past month. i had actually been watching it since...september?? (can that be right?) but took me like six months to get through the whole thing, then suddenly the brainrot hit haha. and i ended up getting like three fic ideas for it soooo... i've been vaguely working on planning those! no idea when i will have time to actually write any of them (esp considering the 14938 fic wips i already have) but hope to at least keep planning them during march.

aaaand yeah that's all for now folks! 💃

[thebraxiatelcollection]

Hey April, I feel so behind. I only started following you for your fun Big Finish takes, not realizing you actually write for Big Finish too. 🙈 I'm just now reading your bio. I've always wanted to be an author, so I'm utterly fascinated. How did you get involved with them?

Hi! *Waves!*

So a couple of years ago, big finish ran a Bernice Summerfield competition for people to write a short story for the Bernice Summerfield: True Stories Collection (Winner ended up being Xanna Eve Chown. I'm sure it was rigged as Xanna had already written for the company before).

I entered it for fun and when the winner of the competition was announced, I thought that was that and I would try again for the Paul Spragg writing competition they do every year. A few months went by, and I received an email from the lovely James Goss saying they loved my entry and if I would be interested in pitching to write for an episode of the next boxset that was released in 2019.

Of course, after fangirling about for the rest of the day and rereading, and double re-reading to make sure I hadn't entered a scam, I said yes, absolutely.

I sent a couple of pitches in, but none felt right but then I had an idea of dead and breakfast came and sent that into James and he loved the idea and he paired me with the lovely Simon Guerrier.

I got on well with Simon and we had the opportunity to meet at Gallifrey one and discuss the idea together at the convention as well as hanging out with Lance Parkin and Paul Morris who said lovely things about my writing and sounded thrilled by my idea. (I still can't believe I got to hang out with Lance Parkin and he was so lovely and kind to me).

I have never written a script before, so I did a lot of research about script writing. At the same time, @doctress was also on a writing project as we both kept vaguely posting about our WIPs but until the boxset was actually announced, we both didn't realize that in fact, we had been working on the same boxset! They wrote Burrowed Time, the last story on the boxset.

After I completed my script, and sent it to Simon for edits and we checked it over a few times, we had a deadline of August and sent the script over to James. James responded a few days back saying it's one of the best-drafted scripts he has seen and hardly needed any editing at all.

I was lucky enough to be invited down to the studio to see the whole thing recorded, and it's still one of my favourite moments. Everyone was so kind to me, and I have met David and Lisa a few times before and Jacqueline King once a long time ago at a convention, but it was my first time meeting Sam Hallion and Zaraah Abrahams who were playing my side characters. I will always remember the surreal moment of James leading me into the recording booth and there's David and Lisa, reading the words from my script. Actors I have both admired and respected for years and there they were. It's something I will never forget.

My only regret was that I didn't ask for any of the folks to sign the script, but I was a little shy and the nerves of being around such talented people kicked in. (And yes, I did get to try the famous big finish lunch!).

Writing Dead and Breakfast has been a huge honour and a great learning curve for me, and everyone has been so lovely and kind about my story it makes me proud at the fact that actually, I can write and this is where all those years of writing fanfiction can lead you too.

Never give up, and just keep writing. You can do it. People have stories inside of them that are just waiting to be told and read by others.

[rebornbythunder]

The Announcement. (IC and OOC)

“[Okay, it’s time.]” Is he ready? As ready as he ever will be.

“[This Friday, the project I’ve been working on for the past few months will finally become publicly available. I’ve mentioned it a few times here and elsewhere, but I’m finally ready to tell you all what it is, now that the gears are in motion.]”

“[On Friday, March 31st, my autobiography will be released. All my history, my secrets, will be open for everyone to see. It’s available in stores and as an e-book, I’ll provide a link the day of when it officially releases. Thank you everyone for your support through this really complicated and taxing process both physically and emotionally, and I hope to see you all on the other side of it. This is some extremely personal stuff, some of it incredibly painful, but I’m proud of the end result and how far I’ve come from it.]”

“[In tandem with my book’s release, I’ll be starting out on a real, proper journey with my new team- and my Rival Green. I can’t wait for what the future holds- this really is going to be the end of an era for me.]”

((OOC under the cut!))

Thank you everyone for your patience while I’ve been working on this project! I know I’ve been spotty with replies because of this, and because of work being kind of crazy. I’m literally so excited, this is a passion project for me.

As of this Friday, I’ve been writing this version of Red for Ten Years. A massive portion of my life I’ve dedicated to this muse, and he’s grown alongside with me. He’s changed as much as I have really, and I’m excited to finally solidify his story and get it out for all of you to see.

Red is special to me in a way none of my other muses are. He’s been there with me through my coming out, my transition, through some of the darkest times in my life and his backstory reflects that. I don’t have any way to really convey what he means to me, and what it means to me that so many of you have stuck it out with me. I fully intend on doubling down on threads and making sure I follow through on them, especially once I’m out from under this project.

The in-universe autobiography will be posted all at once on my Ao3, and I’ll be adding the link to a reblog to this post when It’s up and pinning that. And while I am so excited to see how everyone else responds to this deeply personal project, it absolutely is something I made for myself. Very rarely do I finish big projects like this, both because of life issues and because of my medical problems; I have Bipolar Disorder and DID, both things that cause massive major memory issues and a tendency to drop passion projects and interests like nobody’s business. But I finished this one. I finished it and now I’m sharing it all with you. That’s a sign of growth for me that I really can’t under-state.

The Green mentioned in this post is my own Green muse, found over at @jade-hearted-gymleader. Feel free to interact with him as well, but my focus is absolutely going to be on Red for a while.

Thank you again for your support, for following my Red and writing with me. I’ve got a few other projects in the works for other fandoms (YuGiOh and The Mechanisms specifically), but this is the only one I had a deadline on. If you’re interested, feel free to follow me on Ao3 to keep updated on that one, or add me on discord at 🍉 !Melons! 🍉#0833 .

Those of you close to me already understand what a huge thing this is for me, and how much energy and time I’ve put into this thing. It’s... I don’t even really have words for it. Shout out especially to my partners who have been my biggest cheerleaders, and to everyone in the Outcasts server who have supported me with this muse even through all the craziness the RPC can throw at us.

<3

[jheqiawrites]

A bit of Christmas Fun

As some of you know, I have a Patreon account and I have a few stalwart fans who support my writing. I have asked them to pick from a list of Christmas writing prompts so I can create "The Twelve One-shots of Christmas". However, Only one person responded, so I am opening it up to my tumblr fans as well. I will post the (epic) prompt list below and you guys can pick some. The first ten commenters with the numbers they want to see will be will have their choices written as part of this series. (Any others that tickle my muse might also be turned into one-shots, but not in time for my deadline of Jan. 6th.)

Normally, I would post a poll for which writing prompt you guys would like me to tackle this month, but you guys have been such a big part of 2023 for me that I wanted to give each of you a little something. So, instead of a poll, I am going to post a list I have compiled of holiday writing prompts that I think would be fun to write.

Please pick a prompt or two that catch your eye and mention the number or prompt in the comments below. I will work on getting these done by January 5th - the twelfth day of Christmas!  This is open to all my members - paying or otherwise - and I reserve the right to tweak things as needed (and there are some of these that already have Felinette stamped on them in my head, so a change of ship might also be involved.) 😜  If you would prefer artwork, please let me know.

Jheqia's Holiday prompts list:

1 Character A and Character B, sworn enemies, are chosen to prepare the company Christmas Party.

Character A’s best friend rigs the Secret Santa, because they know Character A has a crush on Character B.

Character A works as a Santa’s helper. Character B has a small sibling/child.

Character A is desperate to find a particular item (book/toy/etc.) as a present for someone, but it’s been sold out everywhere. Character B helps.

Character A and Character B are co-workers, but they barely know each other. But they both have to work through the holidays.

Character A and Character B meet in the ER on Christmas Eve.

Character A can’t wrap gifts to save their life. Character B is thir neighbor and can help.

Character A’s ex will be at the Christmas Party A is attending. Character B poses as A’s fiance.

Character A vows to do something nice for a stranger during the Christmas time. Character B is that stranger.

Character A and Character B both sign up for a Christmas Pen Pal project to exchange postcards.

Character A and Character B broke up, but now they meet at a Christmas party.

Character A is stuck working in coffee shop on Christmas Day and Character B is the lonely soul spending their whole day there.

Character A’s little sibling/child wants to meet their favorite celebrity/writer/person for Christmas. Character B is said “Christmas present”.

Character A can’t travel to see their family on Christmas, so they invite their grumpy loner neighbor Character B.

Character A and Character B compete in Christmas house decoration.

Character A bakes too many Christmas cookies so they share it with Character B.

Character A has to dress up as Santa for Christmas.

Character A and Character B have to save Christmas.

It’s Character A’s first Christmas since a tragedy.

Character A returns to their birth-town for the holidays. Character B is their estranged childhood best friend.

Character A is pretending to be their friend’s lover for the sake of the friend’s family. Character B is said friend’s sibling.

Character A loses a bet and has to wear a different ugly Christmas sweater every day till Christmas. Character B works at a clothes store.

Character owns a struggling toy store. Character B is looking for a Christmas present.

Character A doesn’t feel the Christmas spirit but Character B, who lives above them, keeps playing Christmas carols really loud.

Character A overhears Character B’s Christmas wish and decides to fulfill it,

26 Are you pulling down mistletoe?

27 If I hear one more Mariah Carey song I will riot!

28 Remind me why I can’t kill the carolers?

29 My house, my rules. The Christmas Music stays on!

30 You do know that throwing that snowball is declaring war, right?

31 You;re kidding! I;m not going out in that snow storm!

32 I can’t believe you did all of this for me!

33 You don’t have to go through all this trouble, you know.

34 You didn’t really think I would let you spend Christmas alone, did you?

35 I hate to tell you this, but you make a really terrible Santa/Santa’s helper.

36 It’s a time of peace and goodwill, not… whatever that is you’re doing!

37 How on earth did you even get tinsel up there?!

38 It looks like Santa threw up in here!

39 What are you doing to that poor wrapping paper?

40 What did the wrapping paper ever do to you?

41 Exactly hpw much more hinting do I have to do?

42 Have I told you how much I hate Christmas shopping?

43 Secret Santa is a bad idea!

44 Why are you impossible to shop for?!

45 Please tell me you weren’t searching my room for where I’e hidden the presents.

46 How many Christmas sweaters do you own?

47 Girl/Bro, do we need to hold a candy cane intervention?

48 But why do the sweaters have to be ugly???

49 One normal Christmas! That’s all I ask!

50 I;m sure whatever threat is out there can wait until after Christmas dinner.

51 You are wearing a santa hat whether you like it or not

52 Who turned off the oven?!?!

53 This calls for eggnog!

54 I’m surprised the eggnog hasn’t been spiked by now.

55 Just how much eggnog have you had?

57 No offense meant, but I don’t trust you to carve the turkey.

58 Oi! THat’s my hot chocolate!

59 I don’t care about anything else. The pudding is all that matters!

60 You made gingerbread zombies?!?!

61 Step away from the cookies and no one gets hurt!

62 Normally, I;d say no, but I’m on like my 14th candy cane so sure. why not.

63 Person A and B's heater go out so they have to cuddle together by a fire to try and stay warm.

64 Person A has never seen snow before so Person B gets to watch Person A see it for the first time and look utterly amazed.

65 Person A waking up to see that Person B has decorated their entire house for the holidays overnight by themselves.

66 Person A having to wear multiple jackets, scarves, and hats to stay warm outside while Person B is still in a t-shirt and shorts.

67 Person A trying to decorate for the holidays while Person B teases them about how it's still months until then.

68 Person A trying to set up the tree for Christmas but Person B has to pick Person A up for them to put ornaments on the tree because they're so short.

69 Person A getting frustrated when wrapping presents while Person B being able to quickly wrap beautiful presents and A being absolutely amazed and jealous.

70 Person A being sad when they weren't able to buy a real tree to decorate for Christmas so Person B buys a little bonsai tree for them to decorate, even though it's only a foot tall.

71 Person A and B decorating their house/apartment together and when Person A goes to another room to grab some more ornaments they hear Person B yell. When they rush back into the room they see Person B has somehow tangled themself into the Christmas lights and fell over.

72 Person A waking up on Christmas morning and being confused to find only one small box under the tree. Person B acts like everything is normal and convinces Person A to open it and when they open it they just see a note and an engagement ring.

73 Person A has a fairly large following on [insert social media] where they post their art. They post a lot of drawings of person they have a crush on. Little do they know that their crush (Person B) follows their account and recognizes themself in the drawings

74 Person A's computer is dead and they don't have any reference but they need to draw anatomy for their art class. They end up asking Person B to model for them and shennagians occur

It was midnight and I couldn’t get what she said off of my mind.

75 Listen, I’m not very lucky so you better have a good plan or some magic to help out.

76 I am an adult and you do not have to keep telling me that... although I do appreciate it.

77 It wasn’t until he showed up that I viewed the color blue like that.

78 If she didn’t love me then I’ll make sure no one in the world loves me.

79 It was only a stuffed animal but I couldn’t help but feel like it was something much more than just a toy.

80 I still got butterflies when I saw her, but they were much different than before.

81 It would be nice to get some sleep tonight but since that isn’t gonna happen I guess I can talk.

82 Person A always gives Person B little sweet or encouraging notes throughout the day. One time while helping B clean they find a stash of every single note A ever gave them (possibly from before they even started dating)

83 “Please stop calling me at 3 am for advice on this video game.” “Okay... but you still didn’t answer my question.”

84“Avoiding me isn’t going to solve this.” “I’m not avoiding you, I just can’t talk to someone who eats oreos like that.”

85 Person A is a lounge singer and Person B is the silently pining member of the waitstaff who's been leaving roses for Person A after all of their performances.

86 Person A being super tired and as Person B is helping them to bed Person A says "You know I have a crush on you, right?"

87 Person A and B are having a sleepover and as Person A is falling asleep they suddenly pull B in close and hold them for the night

88 Person A asks Person B why they're acting so weird and B replies with "I'm sleep deprived and I have a crush on you and so I don't know how to act normal right now."

89 Person A having to stay up late to finish something and having Person B on the phone sleepily cheering them on

90 Person A trying to set up the tree for Christmas but Person B has to pick Person A up for them to put ornaments on the tree because they're so short.

91 Person A getting frustrated when wrapping presents while Person B being able to quickly wrap beautiful presents and A being absolutely amazed and jealous.

92 Person A being sad when they weren't able to buy a real tree to decorate for Christmas so Person B buys a little bonsai tree for them to decorate, even though it's only a foot tall.

93 Person A and B decorating their house/apartment together and when Person A goes to another room to grab some more ornaments they hear Person B yell. When they rush back into the room they see Person B has somehow tangled themself into the Christmas lights and fell over.

94 Person A waking up on Christmas morning and being confused to find only one small box under the tree. Person B acts like everything is normal and convinces Person A to open it and when they open it they just see a note and an engagement ring.

95 PersoN A complaining about how they've never had a New Year's kiss before so Person B surprises them with a kiss when the clock strikes midnight.

96 Person A being super sleepy and falling asleep way before midnight so Person B waked them up at 11:59 so they can kiss at midnight before tucking them back in bed.

[finishwhatyoustarted-event]

Finish What You Started 2023 Event Rules

[image ID, copied from ALT: Event Rules on a blue background. - No new projects. - Any medium and any fandom welcome. - NSFW inclusive, warnings must be tagged. - Tag #FinishWhatYouStarted2023; boosting/retweeting starts September 15th. - Event ends October 31, 2023. End ID.]

The goal of this event is to get things done that you’ve already started. We all have unfinished projects whose incomplete status haunts us. Those are what we want to tackle!

The structure is loose, as this is a multimedia event. While primarily aimed at writers, this event is open to any kind of creative fanwork. Fics, translations, podfics, fanart, animations, cosplay - if you started it and never got it done, it qualifies.

There is no sign-up required. I will not assign beta readers for writers, but I can boost requests for those who want them! And I can boost messages of those who would like to beta read.

The mod is a danmei fan mainly, but your work can be any fandom. Maybe something you started before your current fandom excitement took over, or one you keep putting off in favor of compelling new ideas.

Feel free to pass this event info along! The more the merrier!

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This account will post weekly morale-boosting messages and helpful resources. Every Friday, starting September 15th, will be Finished It Friday! All the completed works posted that week will be boosted together in a big thread, so we can celebrate your accomplishment!

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[writingonesdreams]

Year in review 2022

2022 has been an incredibly productive year for me. So much happened, progressed and changed in just one little year, I almost don't recognize myself.

At the beginning of 2022 I was an insecure and unsure student, worried about finishing her bachelor in just one more year, worried about the possibilities, about leaving the safety of my beloved faculty and having to look for a job out there in the real world, where everything worked differently.

I was worried about starting offline classes again after Covid, after 2 years in blissful setting at home that I really liked. Dicussions, homework and classes all nicely done from home, no annoying travelling and lots of time with my family, those were the 2 best years of my life. Until now.

In 2022 summer semester I got my first job at uni as tutor that I really enjoyed.

I started my course for writing mentoring at the uni as part of an extracuricular activity, met the best teacher there, learned a bunch of new stuff about writing and started my research project in writing sciences.

I made 3 new close offline friends and my first ones at the university. 3 awesome girls that study things I considered studying myself, who are super sweet and philosophical, smart and thoughtful and hardworking. It took a year, but I'm finding out we are agreeing more and more on stuff that matters and that's gratifying.

I got my new job as writing assistant at the university in September 2022 and it was a giant jump from that. Proper 10 hours a week, a work collective for the first time, advising students, holding classes and advice sessions of my own in academic setting, organizing my time around classes...incredible work skill progress.

I can see my future in academic setting now. I can see myself finishing BA, MA and then going for PhD, in topics I love, holding classes, publishing articles and being happy.

Now I'm excited about finishing my BA this February and starting my master's degree, about continuing as an univeristy assistant until I can start working as PhD. About being more active, joining conferences, travelling, doing a semester in foreign country altogether. I'm so excited about the future and so happy everyday.

I finished my BA thesis this Christmas, 2 months before the official deadline so I can sign up for Master classes on time. It's been such a beautiful experience. I read incredible books for it, my knowledge grew to the sky, my view of studying popular culture and literature totally updated and progresses, changing my world of the world and life.

I was worried how difficult my BA thesis would be to write and what quality I managed as a assistant myself, but the progress was enjoyable and I'm proud of the result. The first feedbacks have been very positive.

I have grown more bold, outspoken, more oriented in what I want and care about and want to accomplish.

I finished my first novella, Tears of Iron, in 2022. It needs some editing and a wrap up chapter, but I still never wrote so much consistently in one project, never shown it to an editor before, never had betareaders looking at it. Big shoutout and thank you to @avrablake who keeps giving me comments, thoughts and tips that are incredibly helpful, joyful and encouraging. I'm very grateful.

I also want to thank @myhusbandsasemni for being an amazing friend who really helped me out and supported me in hard times.

Overall I want to thank you guys who stuck around, who witnessed what happened and stayed on my side, didn't blame me, or turned your backs on me against bullying and attacking of such a degree. Lots of my close friends jumped the vagon and joined in the hate-blame wave to look cool, hence my break from tumblr that taught me as much as my presence did. But my win lies in not shutting down, in not staying silent, and moving on from the wrong people.

You are going to see what you are looking for, and if what you look for is negativity, unfairness and power structures, no matter what is there and gonna blame people for seeing something different, well, then we can't be friends and I'm sorry there isn't a way to tell this apart before a crisis happens. Perspective depends on the reader (Cawalti/Berger/Storey)

Anyway. Up into a new year, learning and shaking off the bad, focusing on the good and making progress in goals, knowledge and dreams.

[galactic-pirates]

Fandom, Creation and Me

With it being NaNo tomorrow I am doing update posts, and planning posts, and basically sorting everything out. It's also something I do at the end of/start of every year. It's part cleaning house, part goal setting.

This has been a funny year with moving house dominating all of it. I was just going to update my art goals, only to discover I didn't make my customary end of December post because that was during the madness. Then I remembered I didn't think I updated here either. I checked the archive and I did say I'd finally moved on September 13th but as to my fandom plans not a whisper. So I'm going to talk about it now!

Mid-April I made a post in which I said:

SO! My mission, should I choose to accept it bwahaha is to write EVERY SINGLE fanfic idea on my list (that I still want to write when I get to it) before the end of the year. Deadline December 31st. After that the slate is wiped clean. 

This started to go off the rails when I stopped writing in the summer. Some people write more when they are stressed as an escape. I wish I could say I was one of them but alas I unfortunately do my best turtle impression instead and basically very little gets done.

When I moved into my house that was a fresh start in the biggest way possible. I want - no I need - to make the most of that. I had to think about what serves me, and ultimately I decided to make my clean break then. So yeah, no more fanfic from me.

I have a few WIPs on my HD but thankfully due to my policy these days of not posting until stories are complete, that doesn't matter. I do feel... I wanted those ideas to be brought to life as I do like them, but I had to make a choice about what was best for me, and wistful thoughts about what could have been aren't going to change my mind.

So am I quitting fandom?

No.

I'm still co-mod of Saffi Prompts and I intend to help with that if it comes out of hiatus. I'm still running Saffi Bingo, in as much as I sent out the cards months ago but nothing seems to have happened. I'm helping put together the 13th anniversary event for Bering and Wells next April.

I also just signed up for a Leverage Bingo Card because you see while my fanfic days are over, my fanart days are not.

I want to get into art in a big, big way. I feel like fanfic helped me a lot with my writing journey. Fanfic helped me see projects through from beginning to end, helped me produce on a schedule, helped me keep up the practice when my mental health wouldn't permit me to write other things. I owe fanfic a lot. It's my hope that fanart might fulfil the same function in terms of getting me started.

Now I know I've promised I would do art in the past and then haven't done it. For years I have made it a goal to do 1 piece a month and I've never got close. I think the best I ever did was at the start of 2021 when I think I made it to April before I stopped.

That was before though, and the start of my writing journey was a similar tale. I went through a time when I wrote once a year - for NaNo - and didn't write at all the rest of the time. It's unthinkable now but that's how it was. So just because I didn't draw on the regular in the past, despite saying I would, doesn't mean I will always fail at that.

TLDR

No more fanfic from me. Expect fanart - eventually. I want to work through some art courses I have first before I go back to trying to draw what I imagine. Hopefully this will mean when I attempt those imagined pieces they will be better, and not as cringeworthy when I look back later as to how I ever dared post them on the internet.

P.S. What about gifsets?

Nearly forgot about that. Fandom Friday will not be returning. I don't have the time. However, I'm not ruling out making sets when/if I feel inspired to do so.

[tastepiner]

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