#call it self absorbed or whatever HAHA

[miserye]

I keep reading your name as Miserere and I’m like wow mercy that’s so cool I love Latin.

thank you i wish my name was meant to be something this cool but in reality it's because i'm miserable and i go by rye djafklsddlk

[byakuyasdarling]

I wish a man told me I was pretty

[vamptastic]

hate fathers day i am gonna lose it

[egot1stical]

ramblings about how winter king is not a simon but an ice king from my insta story. no idea how much sense this makes

Not to post a serious analysis of mr oncest bait, but it's kind of... *wrong* to say the winter king is Simon? I think it's more accurate to call him an ice king who THINKS he's Simon. His whole bit is that he removed the madness of the crown from himself, but the ice king isn't just "simon but crazy". The ice king is the result of the wish crown's curse over the span of 1000 years breaking down Simon's psyche and replacing and warping and mixing it with Evergreen (specifically Gunther's warped view of him) and adding more madness and sadness till he basically experiences ego death. We know our Simon (at least at this point) considers he and ice king separate entities. They have pretty different personalities

Winter king is more like ice king than Simon:

* Physical stuff. Obviously. He's taller, has longer straighter hair, and is fucking bright blue+ still has evergreen's nose LOL. But also smaller stuff like the fact he dresses different and has different shaped glasses

* WAYYYYY more outgoing. Even before All That, Simon doesn't seem like the most outgoing guy. He would go on expeditions yes but could you imagine that guy throwing a party? No.

* Way more selfish and self absorbed. Which is in line with ice king, but now he's conventionally attractive so everyone else agrees. This is opposed to the fact Simon want to khs

* No consideration for PB. This is an interesting one, because it's the first departure from both our Simon and IK. Obviously ice king was terrible to PB LOL but like....he liked her.....because she was like betty..... And now Simon really respects her (and feels terrible about it.) while WK straight up does NOT care about her. Different from both, but closer to IK because he is a dickweed

* Deals with emotions differently than Simon. Seems to have completely blocked Betty out (assuming they were still close in this universe). And marceline bro... whatever happened there, ice marcy is the KID version of her. He has her bass, so she at least grew up and they've interacted. Maybe she saw him get "fixed" and was like.
Wow! You're not Simon!

* The name. Fionna's dream has the "ice prince", and that's what she calls Simon upon meeting him for the first time. If this was a True Simon, it would make more sense for him to be called the ice prince in universe, no? But he keeps the King title.

Simon spends a lot of the episode jealous of the winter king because he seems so well adiusted while he has the crown.

Simon has no magic, no nothing, but at least he has his brain back. The crown is very much directly linked to his loss of identity and to see WK be CONSCIOUS and LIKED and seemingly HIMSELF with magic is something he desperately wants especially at a time like this when his mental health is down the shitter while everyone talks about how much more fun he was when he was legitimately insane

The difference is that Simon spent every *conscious* moment FIGHTING the crown. Winter king is NOT fighting that shit. He says that he "conquered" it, but no you did not buddy. He is still dependent on it. He cannot survive without it. He just gave up. He's accepted that he's become one with it instead. So did ice king. Except without the madness of ice king, he can be a semi functional human being. He still gets the high of the crown and all its power, but this doesn't change the fact it Changed Who He IS.

Doesn't fucking matter rn becauee Simon hates himself and wants to be someone else but you get the idea. Winter king is just a version of Ice King LARPing as Simon. He can just do this way more convincingly even to himself because he can actually think now

Like “Betty? OH HAHA THE DEAD ONE” is an ice king ass reply and I swear to god at least part of the reason they didn’t get Tom Kenny to do his voice is because it would just be ice king’s voice again

also in regards to why candy queen is like that-Okay one, this goes with the name thing. Princess bubblegum. Normal. Candy Queen. Insane. Same as winter/ice king and ice prince. We cool?

Anyway

The Madness manifested in Simon/ice king in regards to Betty as romantic obsession. With the madness gone, CQ is the one feeling the brunt of these feelings- which would explain why Winter king doesn't remember feeling so Strongly about betty. Because Simon's feelings about her are naturally just fucking insane, it's so intertwined with the Madness that when that part is removed, so are any feelings towards Betty.

CQ is probably also obsessed with WK and "being together" because the sane part of her mind recognises that this madness is HIS and this is her fucked uo way of trying to like. Give it back.

That’s all I got

[cre8inghavoc]

What are friends for?

PT. 12

Status: ongoing!!

Updates: no set date.

WC: 2349

Pairing: megumi fushiguro x FEM!reader

Genre/Warnings:[18+] Characters are aged up. This story contains toxic boyfriend, cursing, name calling, self-doubt/hate, angst, breaking up, post-breakup, alcohol, drug use, drunk moments, new friends, dating!au, college!au, no curses!au, dark humour, dark jokes, SMAU (not always), smut, violence

Recap:

You step out of the car, your voice trembling with emotion, a sense of numbness washes over you. "I-I can't do this right now…" you murmur, your words barely audible.

"Y/n! Wait!" Megumi's desperate shout echoes in the air.

"Y/n…?" Megumi's voice softens as he steps out of the car, searching frantically for any sign of you. Panic sets in as he realizes you're nowhere to be seen.

MEGUMI'S POV:

What the fuck?

Where the fuck could she have gone that fast?

Megumi's panic escalates as he realizes that there's no plausible way you could have disappeared so quickly without a trace. Frantically, he searches the surrounding area, driving through the town in a desperate attempt to find you. With each passing moment, his worry intensifies, his mind consumed by the fear of what might have happened to you.

Unable to locate you, Megumi's anxiety reaches a boiling point. He decides to return home, his heart racing as he bursts through the front door. As he enters the house, he's met with the sight of his friends gathered in the living room, preparing to eat breakfast.

His breaths come in shallow gasps as he struggles to compose himself, the weight of his concern evident in his frantic gaze.

"Where are you coming fr—" Maki starts, but Megumi cuts her off before she can finish.

"Have any of you seen Y/n?" he blurts out, his voice tinged with urgency as he paces back and forth.

His friends exchange concerned glances as they take in Megumi's distressed demeanor.

"Y/n? Isn't she asleep in your room or something?" Yuta asks.

"I thought she was with you?!" Itadori's voice carries a mix of confusion and frustration, his eyes narrowing as he searches Megumi's face for answers.

Megumi runs a hand through his hair, his thoughts racing a mile a minute. "She was but then she… She just disappeared."

His friends' expressions shift from confusion to worried as they absorb his words. "Disappeared? What do you mean?" Nobara questions.

Megumi shakes his head, his heart sinking with each passing moment of uncertainty. "I don't know… One minute she was there, and the next she was gone. I've been searching everywhere, but I can't find her."

"Megumi, what the hell are you talking about? It's like 7 in the morning. Where the hell would Y/n be? Where did you two go?" Nobara questions, her tone sharp with concern.

She glances over at Megumi and notices how he's staring at Itadori, so she turns to Itadori and fixes her gaze on him. "Itadori, you know something we don't?"

"Uh, no… Haha, what makes you think that?" Itadori says, scratching the back of his neck nervously.

"You're really bad at lying, you know that, right?"

"No, seriously, this isn't the time for jokes. What the hell is going on?" Maki says.

"Uh… well, you see, Megumi had to… you know, work?" Itadori stammers out. Megumi just rolls his eyes and adds, "I had to get shit done for Toji."

"What the fuck, Megumi? I thought you said you were done with that shit!" Nobara shouts, clearly frustrated.

"No, seriously, Megumi, why the hell are you working for your shitty dad?" Maki demands.

"Not my fucking dad."

"Well, whatever, you get what I mean."

"Wait, what does Y/n have to do with that anyway?" Inumaki asks.

"Uh, she kinda followed him… I tried to stop her, but she managed to get your keys and, well, took off before I could process what's going on. I chased her down in my car but lost her at the last minute," Itadori explains, his voice tinged with guilt.

"This isn't fucking important right now! We don't know where she is, and she could be seriously hurt! I don't know what the hell to do!" Megumi's voice raises, a mix of frustration and concern colouring his words.

"Wait, I have her location. Let me check." Toge says calmly as he opens his phone to check.

Megumi's heart races with anticipation as he rushes beside Toge, his eyes fixed on the screen of your friend's phone. With bated breath, he waits for the location to load, his stomach churning with anxiety.

After a tense moment, the screen displays a map pinpointing a general area. "Here," Toge announces, pointing to a spot on the map. "She's in this area."

Without a second thought, Megumi quickly rushes back to the door before his friends can even get up from their seats.

"Wait, we're all coming too!" Nobara shouts as they head out the door and follow Megumi. Megumi hops into his SUV, a seven-seater, and everyone else gets in too. Inumaki takes the passenger seat, his phone opened to the map to direct them to your location.

Y/N'S POV:

As you slowly open your eyes, you take in your surroundings, quickly realizing that you're not familiar with the area you're in. A single dim light hangs above you, casting a feeble glow on the dirty, messy space you find yourself in. The floors are dirt-covered, the walls look ancient, like you're in some sort of abandoned place.

Where the hell am I?

A sense of disorientation creeping in.

Am I dreaming?

But before you can process it further, a sudden pounding in your head jolts you back to reality.

Okay, definitely not dreaming…

You then feel something tight around your wrist, prompting you to turn your head slightly and peer down... but everything feels like it's moving in slow motion, and like it's almost blurry...?

Fuck… What the fuck? What the fuck! The thought sends a shiver down your spine as you struggle to make sense of your situation.

Panic surges through you as you realize the tightness around your wrist is indeed a rope.

Oh fuck, fuck, FUCK! AM I FUCKING KIDNAPPED?

Your heart races, and a cold sweat breaks out on your skin as the gravity of the situation sinks in.

No, no, no. This can't be happening. This can't be fucking happening! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Your heart pounds louder as you hear someone approaching, but the dim lighting and the haze in your mind make it impossible to discern their identity. Everything feels blurry, as if you're looking through fog, and even lifting your head feels like an insurmountable task...

That's until you hear their voice…

"Missed me, sweetheart?"

Haruta.

He moves in closer, his hand reaching for your chin to lift your head, and he smirks as he takes in your half-lidded eyes and constricted pupils. You try to speak, to say something, anything, but no words come out…

He chuckles at your expression before quickly withdrawing his hand, causing your head to fall back down, too heavy to hold up. "Already feeling it, aren't you?" he remarks with a hint of amusement.

You attempt to look up at him, managing to lift your head slightly and scrunching your eyebrows in confusion, but everything feels strange. Your movements, everything—it just feels off. He looks at you and chuckles again. "What's with that face?" he teases, noticing your expression.

"What the fuck did you do to me?" you mumble, your words slurred.

"What was that? Couldn't hear ya," your ex says teasingly.

"I said, what the fuck did you do to me, Haruta?" This time, you manage to speak more clearly, the frustration evident in your voice.

"Isn't it obvious? What I always wanted to do!" he laughs, his amusement ringing through the air. He moves closer, grabbing a chair from a corner and placing it right in front of you. Taking a seat, he reaches for your face again, but this time his grip is aggressive. "Make you take heavier drugs," he smirks, his eyes gleaming with malice.

"What the fuck is wrong with you? What the fuck do you want from me?" you say again, this time more aggressively. "Oh, come on, sweetheart, don't be like that," he says, his hand moving higher up your thigh.

Is he about to—

You panic, not knowing what to do, so you spit on him. "Don't fucking touch me! You fucking disgust me!" you shout, your voice filled with anger and disgust. "Let me go!" You begin to shout even louder, struggling against the restraints of the chair, desperately trying to break free from his grip.

But his grip tightens around your face, and he quickly turns your head to face him again as he rises from his chair. "You fucking bitch! Don't try that shit again, or I swear to God, I'll fucking kill you," he snarls, his voice laced with venom as he looms over you.

He moves his other hand to your throat, tightening his grip until you gasp for air, but you can't do anything to stop him. "Fuck you!" you manage to choke out, defiance burning in your eyes. "I fucking hate you Haruta."

This is it.

This is how I'm going out…

There's no point in fighting anymore…

But suddenly, he lets go of your throat, and you gasp for air, your chest heaving as you start coughing. "This isn't how I wanted to kill you, Y/n," he says, a hint of frustration in his voice.

"Why are you doing this?" you manage to say between coughs and gasps for air.

"Why now?"

"Oh, Y/n, I've always wanted to do this," he says, laughing as he grabs a needle and flicks it with his finger.

"What… What do you mean…" you stammer, fear creeping into your voice as you watch him with wide eyes.

"Don't be stupid. You really think I dated you because I loved you?" he sneers, his words cutting through you like knives. You freeze, feeling a mix of confusion, loss, and hurt wash over you.

"Oh god, you really did think that," he laughs, the sound echoing with cruelty. "Pathetic."

Your heart sinks as the truth of his words sinks in, leaving you feeling raw and vulnerable.

"I only dated you to get close to you, Y/n… Close so I could kill you," he admits coldly, the words like a dagger to your heart. "How do you think people would react if my clan murdered the daughter of the L/N family? We'd be the most powerful clan in the world."

"What the fuck are you talking about?" you say, your voice trembling with anger and disbelief. "Why didn't you kill me then, huh? Why after almost a fucking year of being together, why now?"

"I tried. I tried to fucking give you this shit," he says, looking down at the syringe in his hand before locking eyes with you once more.

"Just two milligrams of this can cause death, and you already have one injected, what's one more, right?" he says, his laughter filled with malice and cruelty.

He steps closer to you, and you frantically try to get out of the rope that's tied around your wrists.

"Please," you plead, your voice barely above a whisper, desperation evident in your eyes.

"Please,"

"Don't do this. I—I'll do anything, just please let me go."

But he only chuckles darkly, the sound sending shivers down your spine. "It's too late for that now, sweetheart," he sneers, advancing closer until you can feel his breath on your face.

You whimper as he comes closer, feeling utterly helpless in his presence. "Please, I don't want to die," you plead, tears welling up in your eyes.

As he looms over you, your heart races with terror, and you struggle against the ropes binding you, but it's futile. Tears stream down your cheeks as you realize the gravity of the situation.

"Please," you whisper one last time, your voice barely audible.

But he simply raises the syringe, his face contorted into a twisted grin. "Goodbye, sweetheart," he says, before plunging the needle into your skin.

You feel the sharp sting of the needle as it pierces your skin, followed by a rush of cold dread as the lethal substance begins to course through your veins. Your vision blurs, and the world around you fades into darkness as unconsciousness claims you.

In the depths of your fading consciousness, you can only pray for a miracle, for someone to save you from this nightmare. But as darkness envelops you completely, you realize that there will be no rescue, no salvation—only the cold embrace of death.

MEGUMI'S POV

"What building is she in? Where does it show?" Megumi demands, his voice tense with urgency. Inumaki quickly checks his screen, scanning the buildings in front of them. "The first one to your left," he says, his voice tight with worry.

Without hesitation, they all rush into the building, their hearts pounding with fear and determination. Frantically, they search every corner, calling out your name until they hear laughter echoing in the distance.

"Fuck," Megumi breathes out, his worst fears realized. They follow the sound of laughter and finally spot Haruta, standing over you with a sinister grin. Horror washes over them as they see you tied up against a chair, your form slumped and barely conscious.

They all gasp in horror as they take in the sight before them, Megumi's fists clenching with rage and desperation.

"What the fuck did you do, Haruta?" His voice is low and dangerous, his eyes blazing with fury.

But Haruta only grins wider, reveling in their anguish.

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO?" Megumi's voice trembles with anger and fear, his hands shaking with adrenaline.

"I'll fucking kill you!" Megumi's voice echoes with raw fury as he rushes forward, his hands closing around Haruta's throat with a vice-like grip. Itadori and Inumaki react quickly, rushing over to restrain Megumi and pull him off of Haruta, preventing him from carrying out his threat.

"Megumi, stop! Gojo will be here, he's gonna handle this," Itadori urges, his voice urgent.

Nobara and the others work to untie you from the chair. With their combined efforts, you are freed from your bonds, though you remained unconscious.

As Megumi backs off, his gaze shifts to you, his concern evident in his eyes.

Megumi rushes over to you, his heart pounding with fear and desperation as he kneels beside you, gathering you into his arms. "Fuck… Y/n, wake up! WAKE UP, please," he pleads, his voice trembling with emotion. Tears well up in his eyes as he gazes down at your still form, his hands gently stroking your cheek.

"Please, angel…" he whispers, his voice choked with emotion, as he presses a kiss to your forehead.

im so sorry this took so long to finish and im sorry that its kinda short...

also im sorry that this is kinda dark....

OK NO MORE SORRYS

also this might be shit? might not be... idek how i feel abt it...

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[aropride]

Where do you get most of your autism info?

oo good question,, tbh a lot of stuff i just know cuz my both my brothers are diagnosed + my best friend growing up has it, so a lot of stuff i just kinda absorbed over the years from my family + friends. usually with factchecking that stuff i just google it and scan a couple sites that look trustworthy to see if it's something that seems widely agreed on or not before i say it conclusively

for specific online sources, i know the autism self advocacy network has a lot of good info, and embrace autism is also good. also spectrumnews.org and autistic women and nonbinary network <- these r all as far as i know but also i havent done like, a full background check on all of them so i might be incorrect

i think the main thing is double checking anything from social media or any article/news story/whatever with big red flags- it definitely varies and most of these things arent like, 100% indicators that something is wrong, more that the source might be biased or ableist or just outdated. but for me big red flags are -> allistic writer/speaker insisting on person-first language (tho thats still very common in psych spaces unfortunately), calling autism a "disease"/"epidemic" or saying it needs to be cured, the puzzle piece logo and "light it up blue" (red instead is the alternative movement for that, it's for autism Acceptance rather than awareness which is the movement with weird ableist undertones (overtones?)), that sort of thing. also checking for things written by autistic people or with imput from autistic people

also academic papers can be super dense (and somewhat ableist tbh) but they also have good information sometimes, so again just checking and seeing if there's other sources for stuff & if those look reputable

+ id say just in general be especially careful with stuff on social media bc ppl will Lie or misinterpret stuff or misremember or whatever and misinformation gets spread very very quickly . but also community is nice & can be incredibly helpful so it's difficult to completely disavow it yknow .

but yeah a lot of stuff ive learned from my family & friends over the years, and dont have super good specific sources for learning that sort of thing other than just hanging out with autistic people and absorbing stuff via osmosis HAHA but i hope some of that helps :}

[skellinore]

Like Father, Like Son...

Lord Cabadath and his eldest son, Slender.

Slenderman has some pretty big shoes to fill.

Being a prince of a very successful and terrifying king is a lot to live up to.

My version of Slender is... very different from everyone else's Slender.

I would say.

Considering I give mine scars and gold accents, and also made Zalgo his husband, but that's beside the point.

I haven't gotten around to drawing Slender's "Mother"

I put mother in quotation marks because, again.

My version of Faceless Demons is that they have no concept of gender, and it's hard to tell Faceless Demons apart if you aren't one of them.

So none of the Faceless Demons have boobs or hair, because I find that incredibly lazy, I dunno, I just don't like it. But you do you, bestie.

(But for the sake of my own sanity, I will be using pronouns, considering I will be talking about three people in this post.)

But most Faceless Demons do look masculine, some of them may have a feminine waist or hips.

I like giving my Slender a snatched waist because he's a power botto-

Heading back on track.

Little story bits and facts:

Slenderman and his "Mother's" relationship has always been rocky, she's controlling and stubborn, with a bit of a temper.

Think... Stella from Helluva Boss, expect she loves her husband to death, she's possessive and self-absorbed, remember in my last Cabadath post, that Cabadath is aroace, and that he was forced into an arranged marriage with her.

She has a set curriculum and plans for each of her baby boys, especially for Slender, envisioning herself in each one of them, pushing her dreams onto them, pushing high standards on them.

By set plans, I mean she already picked out what they're allowed to wear, who to see, who they're going to marry, what they learn, what job they're going to have, etc.

One last quick fact about Slender's mother.

She used to be a guardian of the Earth, basically protecting the forests and wildlife, but she loves the city life in Hell more, so she lost her privilege of being a guardian, and so her blessing passed onto Slender.

So Slender can hear the trees whisper, understand what the wildlife is saying, hear the beautiful melodies that the wind and water provide, he's enthralled in all of it, he loves the wildness and untamed nature around him, and he'll do anything to protect it, which is why my Slender hates humanity.

Head-cannon time:

1.) Cabadath is actually the whole reason that Slender and Zalgo meet in the first place. Considering that Zalgo's father is the King of Hell, (and no not Lucifer or Satan, or whatever you want to call him, Zalgo's family slaughtered Lucifer, making Zalgo's family the new rulers of Hell.) Cabadath works for Zalgo's father, and he wanted his son to meet the King, but instead Zalgo snatched Slender's tiny waist and then they became friends from there.

2.) All Faceless Demons know proper etiquette and mannerisms, because it is forced upon them, most Faceless Demons get annoyed and upset by unproper etiquette and mannerisms including improper speech such as abbreviations. So Faceless Demons have classes for teaching them to get over this. Slender had to learn to get over this problem by Zalgo, to which he is grateful for.

3.) Both Cabadath and Slender like their coffee sweet and light, come on guys, I know how many of you like to make Slender drink straight up black coffee. So I'm doing something different. >:| (it's getting overrated...)

4.) My Slender knows how to control elements! Such as earth/rock/metal, fire/magma, water/ice/blood, and air. (He's the Avatar. Haha, kidding.)

5.) Cabadath and Zalgo's father are really good friends, Zalgo's father is pinning for Cabadath, what he wouldn't do to just hold hands with him. Cabadath realizes this, but he doesn't mind, he finds him much more pleasant to deal with rather than his own wife. Often staying nights or extra hours.

6.) Slenderman hates onions. Fuck onions.

>:|

[simcardiac-arrested]

thoughts on something borrowed (2011) ^_^

okay hi im 6 hours late because im busy as a whale but see i Liked this movie is the thing. it was horrible it was so bad but i was watching it at 9pm and i was so fascinated by how bad it was that i even Liked it a little bit. like i said it was like a car crash. absolutely terrible but i couldnt bring myself to look away. okay so get this there's these two best friends rachel and darcy and the second one is about to get married. The thing is that they are first of all the trope where it's like loser nerd girl who's never socially achieved anything & blonde slaygirl who's annoying and self centered but also weirdly cares in her own way and also fucks everyone. Ok. so darcy is about to get married to this guy dex and she and him go to a party to celebrate rachel's 30th birthday. and then rachel and dex are left alone and he does some shit and she goes this is why i had a crush on you in law school ... and then they MAKE OUT? AND FUCK? LIKE JUS T SUDDENLY JUST LIKE THAT LIEK HUHHHH? HELLO? it's like ok i get you're drunk but seriousy how can you do this to your best friend when she's getting married in a few days. But whatever. AND THE WORST THING IS DEX IS THE MOST WHITE BREAD BORING ASS GUY LIKE THERE IS NOTHINGGGGGG ABOUT HIM THAT MAKES DOING ANY OF THIS WORTH IT he';s literally just. there. and then basically they continue doing fuckall for 2 hours and all rachel does is get mad that dex is still with darcy (?? what is he supposed to do he's supposed to get married to her) and she tries to make him jealous constantly and it's so dumb. ESH you are all horrible people. which is to say darcy spends the whole time slaying and being a self absorbed cunt like always but then in the second half of the movie we also find out she's been cheating on dex??? WITH THE GUY WHO SHE THOUGHT RACHEL WAS WITH ????? and then it turns out she got PREGNANT from him????? SO THEY BOTH CALL OFF THE WEDDING?????????? but then darcy realizes rachel has been fucking dex and she gets SO mad she's like I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU even though 2 seconds ago she was like lol yea it's fine no more wedding i don't think it was working out. and im pregnant from another dude anyways lol haha WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU FUCKED DEX? anyways. if you even care rachel had a best friend who was helping her through all of this and supporting her and he was always trying to push her to do what he wants. and they gave like 0 romantic vibes EVER but then out of the blue at the end of the movie he goes Well i like you. and rachel is like oh lol well sorry im too into thjis white dude who is too much of a pussy to do anythiung ever regarding our relationship. and her bestie is like ok. AND I WAS SO BAFFLED BY THIS ROMANTIC REVEAL BUT AT THIS POINT ? THEY SHOULDVE GOTTEN TOGETHER BECAUSE THAT DUDE PUT SO MUCH MORE EFFORT IN THAN DEX EVER DID ADN HE WAS ALSO LESS BORING AND ACTUALLY HAD A PERSONALITY. ok. and then the movie ends and rachel and dex are together and it's like yayyy!!! BUT WHO FUCKIGN CARES THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS SO BORING AND STUPID . LITERALLY ESH YOU ARE ALL HORRIBLE PEOPLE DONT LET ANYBODY ELSE GET INVOLVED INM YOUR RELATIONSHIP. great movie it was making my face contort with expressions previously unknown to human biology

[togaki-kun]

Modern AU Shen Jiu and Liu Qingge Hairstyles

For those of you who came here from my fic, hello! For those that didn’t and are curious about said fic, I’ll have a link at the end. Here are my headcanons for modern au SJ and LQG.

I see SJ as having a clean but chic cut. Something like SEVENTEEN’s Joshua or TXT’s Soobin, both during their appearance on the Game Caterers.

(Above: Joshua from SVT)

He’s probably the type to get a cut that’s short, something that still has a center or close to center part. I don’t think he’d ever go for a buzz cut because he probably thinks that looks unflattering on him, but something with a bit of volume yet easy to maintain. He takes a lot of pride in maintaining his appearance. If I might be brazen, he’s probably also the type to like the way he looks in the mirror when his hair is just slightly disheveled haha. Like a K-drama lead that’s too thin-faced to outrightly preen about his appearance, since that’d seem too self-absorbant.

(Above: Soobin from TXT)

On the topic of growing out his hair, I mentioned in my fic notes that Shen Jiu probably wouldn’t ever grow out his hair, because of his sensitivity toward adhering to societal norms, which as a man, would be short hair. If he ever let go of his self-consciousness and allowed himself the flexibility to do so, I think he’d really enjoy having long hair. There’s a lot he can do with it. There’s certainly a lot he’d *like* to do with Liu Qingge’s hair.

As for Liu Qingge himself, I imagine him being a lot freer, a lot less caring regarding the way he looks (he looks hot either way, so nothing is lost there). He’s likely the type to hamfist his hair into a ponytail and call it good. I personally would love to see him in a man bun. Because. I just like man buns.

(Above: top, Hyunjin from Stray Kids; bottom, Jun from SVT)

Liu Qingge’s go-to shower routine is: get hair wet, three big dollops from 5-in-1 shampoo, rinse, good. He probably has extremely dry hair. Those poor ladies at the hair salon faint every time he visits. So many split ends. So he doesn’t. He forgets, actually haha. That’s part of why I imagine his hair to be grown out. Not because he particularly likes that style, but simply that it’s the way the dice have rolled for him. The convenience factor is a major plus. Oh, and Shen Jiu likes roaming his hands through it a *lot*. Can’t forget about that. So really, it’s pros all around. No cons.

Anyways, those are my thoughts! If, for whatever reason, you’re reading this and you didn’t come here from the link in my fic and you’d like to read it, check it out here. Thanks for reading! 🙏

https://archiveofourown.org/works/43375399 

[yanderefairyangel]

Gotta love how according to detractors Engage is simultaneously an insignificant game no one cares about anymore but also holds an iron fist over the fandom to the point where they are supposedly oppressed for not liking it. Which is it? Does no one care about Engage anymore or do people care about Engage so much the fandom oppresses those who dislike it?

Oh really, it's neither.

We keep talking about it. I remember in one of his most recent videos Ghast said "discussion about Engage are at it's lowest" which got a chukkle out of me. Cause like, discussion about Engage are still super active. Like, I recently started on TwittX and today I woke up to 139 followers ! My Engage content got me a lot of new followers and the video I posted about it reached 232 view in less then 2 weeks. The original soundtrack just released and all day it was just Engage fan gushing about it ! We got a lot of Engage unit in Heroes and the manga is soon releasing. Discussion about the game are super active !

But also, the whole oppress makes me laugh cause if anything I saw people getting oppressed for liking it ! Say you like Engage on reddit, you'll get mass downvoted. Don't get me started on ytb. People will try to tell you you have as much IQ as a 3 year old for liking this game because "cringe, bad, chessey" or whatever lol. We are just tired of people who will say "game bad" and then proceeds to admit they skipped the cutscene. I mean...

I swear to God, that's going from "haha ha, ridiculous " to "ok now y'all are just pathetic". Like someone even tried to tell me that the game was trying to take responsability off Zephia because "it established that Sombron raised Zephia and taugh her many wrong things" (yes, really)

I am getting tired to see people who genuinely believe that Zephia is Veyle's mother, and don't get me started on that one person who managed to believe she was both Veyle AND Alear's mother. And there was that one person who called it a deus ex machina that the Emblem used the miracle to revive Alear because they though it was the same power as the one they bestowed every 1 000 year, never mind that Sigurd literaly explain in chapter 18 that this is a different power. People for some reason keep asking how Alear managed to summon the Emblem back when Sombron "closed the portal" even though both Sombron and Alear says at least 3 times in less the 3 second that Sombron didn't closed it completely !!

Heck, one of those "genius" tried to debunk the response I made to the 2hour long video art becomes obligation and he straight up said that "the story never established Sombron as arrogant"... I kid you not

Because he completely forgot that Sombron murdered the only person who can summon them and absorbed all their power... even though in chapter 25 Alfred explained that the Emblem lost their millenial power because of Sombron and can't perform the miracle any longer, so no one need them anymore.

They really believe we can take them seriously when they do that ? Of course not, they are just making a mockery of themselves. Nothing more, nothing less. We can accept not liking the game and discussing it, but do they really wanna act like the victim when we are telling them "if you skipped the story, you have no right to criticize the story" ?? Like, imagine if someone took one of Shakespeare book, quickly skirmed through the pages and then said "it's bad"... isn't that ridiculous ?

Their argument was already self contradictory enough, but when you KNOW that there is pretty much everything I said behind said argument and that they still lack the self awarness then you know you are dealing with a bunch of walls. Little sheeps that follow their Shepherds of FEtubers opinion. So now, they want us to believe they are "oppressed by the fandom in liking a game that the fandom decided to hate and that should you like it, you will end up burn at the stake ?" Yeah, sure. Makes total sense.

[5hrignold]

lsp episodes ranked by how much they make me want to punch myself in the face out of how upset i am that i cant hug and hold her for 4 hours straight

bad timing is the big one. the entire premise of that episode is basically “what if lsp finally found someone who really likes her and she connects with but it was her fault she lost him” and i love it. it consumes my mind that she could’ve had it all right there. and i really think the cherry on top is the way at the end she begs for bonnie to erase her memory of the whole thing. literally who wouldn’t do the same thing. i would

be sweet is rlly good because it has sweet pea and Also because it addresses that yeah lsp is now on good terms with her parents and doing things for herself and doing well but she still isn’t happy. she still feels alone and disconnected from other people and she regrets choices she’s made that make her feel like she isn’t worth good things other people have. it matters a lot to me because that specific thing of hers pretty much is never brought up any other time ever except in this episode so it’s special. also the part near the end where she sings the little lullaby to sweet pea Aaaaaaa. ya! her soft voice is my fav thing eever 😊😊😊

slime central is another one where it kinda revolves around her self esteem being put into a blender on highest speed lol. her idea of perfect is skating with her friends and having a boyfriend Basically. and that just gets taken away with her, she’s rejected and called terrible and humiliated. and yet after that she’s still herself because like. she has to be. the 2 biggest moments in that ep is when she falls over and everyone in booing and she’s just laying on her back in the dark looking absolutely mortified and after they get kicked out where she’s crying about never fitting in

I KNOW loyalty to the king is not an lsp episode but what there IS of her is really good. just that one scene of her wanting to be whatever the nice king finds most convenient for him and straight up PUNCHING HERSELF to force her body to be smooth.. Its a lot. its a good chunk of her character summarised like yea that 30 second scene is literally her

the monster is super important because it’s the 2nd super lsp centric episode and it does a good job summarising what she goes through throughout the series. trouble in lumpy space is like a basic introduction of her life in the most neutral “nothing has happened yet” state and this episode shows what happens afterwards and how it makes her feel. she craves the feeling of being in control of her life but it’s either not getting that or upsetting her parents so that’s already like. she’s in a bit of an emotional corner. so she runs away and is met with nothing but what feels like just more punishment for just wanting to prove to herself that she can do things on her own. also this episode im PRESUMING is where she discovers her love and deep connection to animals!! which is absolutely one of my favourite aspects of her so fuckin awefomeee

the prince who wanted everything is really really good bc it’s an entire episode basically of her venting her feelings through her fionna and cake fanfic of her oc. it’s mostly reflective of her feelings towards finn, how he was the one who made her really realise her worth, but also stuff about how she prefers to do things that make her feel good and free in the moment, and how she views her parents, even if just internally. also people take the line about lumpy space prince only being able to date “someone who is so much like me she doesn’t even exist” as another like ohh classic self absorbed lsp Moment haha! but i really really like it bc it resonates with me lowkey . lol

princess day is another one that revolves around her guilt for acting the way she does and it being all she knows how to be. from the very start of the episode her mere presence is seen as an offense and an insult to everyone around eachother and so, having not much else to do in that position, she lashes out on breakfast princess. which AGAINNN again is very much a summary of her entire character. people hate her no matter what so she resorts to doing all she knows - being loud and assertive to make people respect her at the very least. this episode is also super special bc it shows us the exact moment her and marcy meet !!! in my mind she’s kinda the first to person to really listen to what lsp has to say, and her troubles and stuff, and she genuinely enjoys her company and lsp is absolutely flattered by how fondly marcy treats her and frankly never stopped being super cautious of it for a while until she Knew she really likes her

summer showers is kind of a blur to me but it is super good. i really like viola and her dynamic with lsp in this episode is cute. we get a whole scene where lsp just ends up venting to viola pretty much completely on accident while trying to tell her how to get the raindrops just perfectly right, because everything in the play has to be top tier since it’s very important to her. this episode gives another peek into how much of a little nerd lsp is which NO ONE talks about. she loves writing, she loves acting things out and being super dramatic and getting really into playing characters, she gets invested in silly things, she’s like best friends with turtle princess for crying out loud. she is cringe!!!!! and it’s adorable and wonderful of her!!!

i talked about trouble in lumpy space before so continuing. i do like that basically her first act in the show is screwing something up completely on accident without her being able to control it (her ability to float suddenly disappearing and that resulting in her biting finn). it’s really really good lol. i love this episode so dearly for 2 huge reasons ; it’s the most we see of early seasons lsp, and it establishes what her life was like before she started being more independent. the people she knew, where she went and how her people view her, her relationship with her parents and her friends and stuff. i feel like without all the stuff we learn about lumpy space in this episode there’d be WAY less to lsp. im just extremely grateful for it because the damn place pretty much never appears again in the entire series apart from the happy place thing in elements and lsp’s scene in the come along with me ending sequence

the creeps, again, not at all An Lsp Episode, BUT it does have a scene that reveals some stuff about her that’s important, which is her inability to really commit to relationships without being afraid. she objects to talking about why she broke up with brad at first but while finn is talking to bonnie she just completely falls apart to the pressure (which is absolutely nothing) and breaks out rambling about how much she regrets it and how she thought all you needed to do to be a good girlfriend was to look pretty. which lfhfhfbfdbdbfbfbfbbfbf. my Girl…………….my poor girl

i dont really have anything to say about from bad to worse lol. she’s cute in it! the way she snatches the instructions immediately and pouts at everyone while doing so and the way she shoves everyone aside talking about how she should go first… So good. also she looks so fucking good with wings can we talk ab that maybe some time

gotcha is like Maybe perhaps my favourite out of all of these. and it’s probably because while a lot of these make me sad with the stuff they all imply about lsp and her insecurities, this one makes me SO happy. how she is at the beginning, how confident she is waltzing toward the treehouse talking about how finn won’t be able to resist her because of how beautiful she is, the way she makes the treehouse cozy for herself without anyone’s permission, her friendship with turtle princess sprinkled throughout the episode, the part with finn tucking her in, THE WHOLE PART WITH HIM SAVING HER SND THEN TELLING HER SHE DOESNT NEED TO BE PRETTY PHYSICALLY FOR PEOPLE TO LOVE HER. AHHHHHH . Good Episode. GOOD. Episode.

sorry for the tone change but as for those last three episodes i really dont have much to say like at all. absolutely all she is in them is a device used for a joke. WHICH IM FINE WITH. ADVENTURE TIME IS A KIDS SHOW AND AN OFTEN LIGHTHEARTED ONE AT THAT I DONT CARE. sorry this description really makes it seem like i dislike how she is in these eps. idk if you could tell but i fucking love lsp always. she could do the most heinous things and id defend her and adore her for it always. she has never done a single thing i dislike NOT an exagggerarion. at all. /srs there ill even say that if it makes you believe just how much i love her. space girl help me

[crimsun-n-clover]

updates

mickey and her boytoy broke up. i was right. obviously. she was wrong and clouded by infatuation. typical. said with love.

but now i’m teaching her the WAYS OF THE REVENGE PLOT and she’s a wonderful student. holding his shit hostage as trophies of putting up with him. i’m so goddamn proud.

still miss sugar. been thinking about calling her because you know who fuckin else will i have that weird bond with but she’s the one who left me. ball’s in her court and i hate sports. come find me at concessions bitch.

might make her a gift for the holiday i made up for her. not sure if i should leave a note. “hey you know what day it is haha five year anniversary of the time i thought you killed yourself. don’t do it again. k bye -your dyke” like??? would probably stir some shit up. but i’m not sure if i’d be able to stop myself yk? i have a little pile of paper stars like i made for her last christmas, so i’ll probably just give her another jar of them.

slept on the couch all week. love it. cat loves it too. it’s nice not to feel alone.

i love being alone actually. can’t wait to move out and be away from these bitches. but you know. like i’d rather be with my cat and some cartoons then my sad cave of a room. it’s usually a nice cave but i don’t like it much recently. it’s my hiding place and i’m sick of hiding when all i want to do is leave.

mom keeps looking at land to build a house on once we move out of this shithole. she wants me to park my trailer on it. no chance in HELL. “trailer parks are shady blahblah classism” EAT SHIT. the happiest i’ve ever been is in a trailer park. love em. can’t stand being around a bunch of selfish freaks. love being in a tightly knit community of retirees, families, travelers, and people down on their luck. it’s the way we’re supposed to be as humans in my opinion. just the material shit that you need and the things that will make you happy, independence, and community.

dad went to the corner store across from our closest trailer park and mom flipped shit about suspicious characters or whatever. hey. bitch. they’re poor. they don’t wanna kill you theyre here for a pack of winstons and a scratch off. cry about it. you’re self absorbed if you think they could be bothered to fucking stab you in the parking lot of where they get their goddamn doritos.

me and maggie are kinda codependent now. our routine gets thrown off if i don’t pick her up to drive around town and blast queen. full time passenger princess. she didn’t do anything with me yesterday and my metal cds and stuffed dragon (smaug) took over. she was a little jealous i think.

she’s the aziraphale to my crowley now since sugar divorced me. no more “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING THATS ILLEGAL” just an “i don’t know them” sad. i miss getting reactions. even better when she’d slap the shit out of me. mag just assumes that any little gift i get her is something i pocketed because i thought she would like it. sugar on the other hand would skin me alive. maggie and i are really close and comfortable and all but i have no interest in her. plus she’s been with her girl for almost a year now.

sugar and i still have joint custody of daisy. shame. as if the little bastard doesn’t love me more (calls me her dad, comes to me when she needs a ride, invites me to her plays and recitals, all that.)

found a cheap old fifth wheel that i’m in love with for 18k one town over. there’s a couple travel trailers i’d take too, because that’s what i want anyway, but the fifth wheel would probably be a better place for my kiddos. more room to lounge, play dnd, and beat the shit out of each other.

my collection for moving is coming along beautifully. handful of vinyls, little painting of ducks i found with mag that i NEEDED, and i just bought a set of bowls with little pumpkins on them. i took all the change in all my little hiding spots and cashed it out at walmart. i now have 56 dollars that my parents can’t track, and i’ll be asking for 20 cash back whenever i can. i don’t want them to notice when i buy things.

i want to make a paypal or something for donations, but i don’t think i could get away with that. i’d need an account that wouldn’t need my address or anything, and no bank information. just something i could get as cash at an atm and hide in my cash hoard (stuffed monkey). i don’t want it to be traceable by my parents. i’m not doing anything sketchy, they just don’t understand how bad of an environment this is for me and lash out when i try to reason with them.

223 days until ronnie comes home. 223 days until my vinyls can be played. 223 days until my pumpkin bowls go to use. 223 days until my duck painting gets hung. 223 days until i can bake all the goddamn pies i want for all the little bastards i can handle.

[imagine-organization-xiii]

If i may ask; can i please have how the org 13 members act around their crush? Thank you in advance ❤️

Masterlist - Incorrect Organization XIII - Tip Jar!

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This was a long-ish one that’s been sitting in the back of my drafts forever lmao - I hope you all enjoy, especially since it’s a bit of long read!

Special thanks to Miss Silverspoon, PhantomMuze, and Sam for helping with Luxord, Saix, and Vexen. Such babes.

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Xemnas - Least likely to actually show it. I mean, there will be signs, but it won’t be blatant that he’s acting a certain way because he’s attracted to you. There might be some favoritism (giving you better missions, not scolding you when something goes wrong, looking the other way in certain situations.)

Overall, it’s going to be subtle. You definitely won’t pick up anything weird, but the other org members might. Saix will definitely be the one to come up to you, grab you by the shoulders and give you a good shake. “Please, he’s driving the rest of us crazy.” And you’re like “what the hell???” Saix: “Xemnas has been giving you the best missions and staring at you for five minute intervals. In his language, that means he’s practically a wanton hussy.”

Xigbar - Not ashamed in the slightest. He won’t even act any different. He finds you attractive, you find him attractive (Xigbar: “Everyone finds me attractive, obviously.”) So why bother wasting time?  He doesn’t really call it a crush, though. He thinks crushes are for children and he’s a man, god damn it, he doesn’t have crushes.

An unintentional sap. Before he plucks up the courage to say something to you - and it takes him longer than he will ever admit - he finds himself going soft for you. Thinks you’re pretty, instead of hot; wants to hold your hand instead of slam you against the wall. It’s a bit infuriating to him at first, but also maybe kind of worth it.

Xaldin - Ohhhh, man. He’s been in love before; he’s been hurt before. So he is ready to rein in that shit immediately. But it’s so difficult because he likes you so much and you’re so awesome. He’ll decide to give it a chance eventually, but it will take some time. He would definitely be content with just being friends, though, because he really doesn’t want to ruin what the two of you already have.

He makes sure to always be there for you. Always helps you when you need it. A gentleman in the ways that matter and a feisty, flirtatious beast in the ways that don’t. The type of guy to flirt by making sure that he takes his shirt off after a sweaty workout and casually flexes/stretches when he knows you’re watching but also makes sure you’re hydrated and wrapping your fists correctly when you spar.

Vexen - You’ll probably know about his crush before he does. He’s so absorbed in whatever his task is - his experiments, his theories, etc. - that he doesn’t even notice that his eyes linger on you and his posture automatically straightens when you walk into the lab. He’ll instinctively turn his body in your direction so that you’re almost always in his line of sight.

Doesn’t yell at you for walking into his lab when he’s obviously busy. Actually asks you for your input, likes talking to you and discussing his theories with you. You’re smart, but some of his experiments are beyond you, and he doesn’t mind explaining in simpler terms when you ask questions. It blows Zexion’s mind because he has a running tab on the different ways that Vexen throws people out of his lab and he’s never done it to you.

Lexaeus - not much for flirting. He’s come to terms with the fact that he likes you, but you’ve both known each other long enough that you know him, so there’s no way that he can pretend to act a certain way because you would know that something wasn’t right. It’s very difficult to tell that he has a crush on you - there’s no blushing, no flirting, no favoritism. He’s just his normal self.

When you finally figure it out, you realize that he showed his crush in subtle ways instead - offering a hand to pull you up after sparring, holding open a door for you, and apparently glaring at people who come up to flirt with you when he accompanies you to the market for groceries.

Zexion - “IT’S NOT LIKE I LIKE YOU OR ANYTHING, GO AWAY.” This emo little bastard doesn’t know how to deal with his emotions. He lost his heart at a really bad time, when he was still growing into himself, learning balance between anger, frustration, patience, euphoria, etc. so he’s very unfamiliar and uncomfortable with the idea that he likes you.

There may be a few gentle shoves and punches in the shoulder. He has so many feelings and has no way to put them into the world other than violence - because that’s really all he knows nowadays. But it gets better!!! You learn together.

Saix - Honestly, God help you if Saix gets a crush on you because he really doesn’t make it easy. If anything, he’ll be making your life difficult. He overcompensates about not giving you any special treatment, giving you harder and more difficult tasks/missions, or your workload might remain the same but his expectations are almost impossibly high. He’s not only trying to prove himself to the others; he’s trying to prove to himself that he doesn’t care.

He’s more difficult to be around tbh, and yeah, he’ll definitely seek you out which is a pain in the ass when you’re trying to avoid him. You’ll have to be the one to barge into his office, slam open the door, and yell at him that he’s being an asshole. He’ll probably back off a bit, but.... he’s really only rough on you because he knows you’re capable of more.

Axel - Axel falls in love unapologetically. He’s head over heels almost immediately and not even ashamed of his crush on you. Flirting becomes almost a part of your friendship because he’s just that comfortable with you. His mood is already so bright when he’s around you, but now it’s like the sun and you can’t help but meet his smile with your own grin.

But it gets to be kind of weird on his end because... you don’t realize that he’s being serious when he flirts? So many pick up lines. So many compliments. But you’re just like “oh that same old Axel haha,” and he’s left banging his head against the wall because he likes you so much but you’re so oblivious.

Demyx - He won’t even notice that he has a crush on you tbh. It will take him forever to notice. He knows he’s attracted to you, but he’s attracted to a lot of people so he didn’t think that it would be any different! A crush?? In this economy??? But he’s grateful, you know? Because there really couldn’t be a better person for him to have a crush on - like he could have a crush on Xemnas, of all people, and that would just be disastrous.

Doesn’t act differently until he realizes he has a crush. When he does realize, he’ll get nervous and clumsy. Shouting from across the hall, “HEY LET ME GET THE DOOR FOR YOU” and runs, trips, and knocks out a tooth. Just completely ridiculous stuff. You kind of notice that he’s acting strange, but it’s just Demyx, and it will probably take Vexen going up to you and saying “please put him out of his misery before he accidentally kills himself trying to flirt with you”

Luxord - Luxord is so charming, more charming than he usually is. He always has this endearing aura around him, and man, he turns it up when he tries to flirt with you. A gift giver - small things, a dessert you might like, a flower he stole from Marluxia’s garden, lunch when you’re busy, etc. Very aware of how to approach you; also knows where to stop before he goes too far. Knows how to read you pretty well in that respect.

Loves the romance that comes with having a crush because there’s so much raw potential. Feelings are confusing, they take a while to grow, but the idea that something amazing can be coming in the future is a great feeling to him. Great potential hangout ideas that don’t necessarily have to be dates, but they help you both metaphorically test the waters about what a real relationship could be.

Marluxia - arguably the most romantic out of everyone. Surprisingly?? Also the most sensible. Of the mind that, you know, if you like someone then do something about it. He has a crush on you? Why not just give it a shot, then? He’ll bring you flowers! Accompany you when you go somewhere! Take you for garden walks! Take you out to dinner!

Somewhere along the line it just becomes a relationship and not just a crush and he’s like, yeah I did this. When everyone’s like “omg how did you get her to like you back” he’s just like “because I did something about it unlike all of you idiots.”

Larxene - Listen. Listen. Larxene is a strong independent woman who doesn’t need someone else in her life to make her feel loved and powerful but damn, you’re so awesome and she has the biggest crush on you even though all of her instincts say that she’s being dumb. Will ask you to spar with her as an excuse to get close to you and don’t be surprised if she’s extra harsh when sparring - she definitely won’t be pulling her punches.

When you get closer, she’ll open up to you in a way that she won’t open up to anyone else, which is a big, obvious flag for you that her feelings may be more than friendship. She doesn’t like talking about herself or her past, so hearing things she’s never told anyone (except maybe Marluxia), makes you feel really great about being her friend.

Roxas - Man, he is such a cute little marshmallow, not shy in general but shy around his crush. He’ll do his hardest not to blush around you, but he does get nervous. So nervous, in fact, that he might make you think he doesn’t like you because he’ll tend to avoid you when he can. He doesn’t want to look stupid in front of you.

This baby feels things deeply, despite the lack of a heart. He always has felt things more deeply than others. Likes physical contact so when he gets over his fears of being around you, he’ll probably end up asking to hold your hand, randomly hugging you, giving high fives, etc.

Xion - Only really falls for people that she’s already friends with, because she knows them and she’s comfortable with them. It’s subtle for her, though. She’ll realize her crush one night and suddenly she can’t even speak to you without blushing, cheeks a bright pink against her pale skin. She’ll stutter, too, and she hates that’s she’s so nervous for no reason because you’re friends!!! And she has no reason to be nervous!!!

She’s also so helpful when she has a crush! Like Demyx, she’s eager to help you with whatever you’re doing, whether that’s mission reports, cooking, cleaning, etc. Unlike Demyx, she actually gets the job done and doesn’t get injured when trying to help. You’re always so grateful and thankful and that just makes her blush even more.

[likeabxrdinflight]

Started out researching what being raised in a cult is like then came across stuff about narcissistic parents, and I was blown away by how that fits the Fire Nation royal family dynamics (talk about intergenerational trauma!). To what degree do you think that Ozai is a narcissistic parent, and how would that impact the maladaptive traits both Azula and Zuko develop?

I would say he shows signs of that, yeah. I’ve drawn the comparison before when talking about the golden child and scapegoat dynamic, which is commonly seen with narcissistic parents. Ozai himself is actually incredibly hard to analyze though, because he’s less a character and more an archetype (and an excuse for mark hamill to be...mark hamill.) But let’s try a little haha.

The defining trait of a narcissistic parent, in my view, is that they see the child not as an independent, autonomous person, but as an extension of themselves. The child exists to serve whatever needs the parent has, and deviations from this are not tolerated. The narcissistic parent can be manipulative, lack empathy for their child, and controlling. They may be possessive of their child or even obsessed with whatever it is they want their child to be for them. They can be self-absorbed and grandiose, as is the telltale sign of narcissism. This is going to vary by each individual, but there examples of this kind of parent all over fiction. Shadow Weaver from She Ra, Cora Mills from OUAT (when her heart’s removed, anyways), Mama Rose from Gypsy, Mother Gothel in Tangled (and if you’re noticing a trend, yep, the Evil Mom trope is usually a narcissistic parent...)

Children of narcissists, as I think I’ve mentioned before when talking about complex trauma, don’t develop a fully authentic sense of self. Instead they form what can be called a “false self”, which is a more defensive persona. They learn that manipulation is way to get your needs met. They conflate aggression with love and may become aggressive themselves, if that’s the narcissistic parent’s style. They likely aren’t able to develop healthy or appropriate boundaries as they’ve never had that modeled for them. Healthy relationships may feel threatening or even empty, because that’s not what love looks like to these children. They may also go the opposite way, and become sensitive, guilt-ridden, full of shame. They become prone to future victimization.

As for Ozai, I think he ticks most of the boxes for the narcissistic parent type. He clearly sees his children as extensions of himself and of the Fire Nation more broadly. Azula is his weapon to mold and shape into the perfect tool of war. Zuko is his heir whom he feels he should be able to break and bend however he wants in order to make him the kind of Fire Lord that Ozai wants him to be (this of course is unsuccessful). He is of course possessive of them in his own way, not because his children are fulfilling some attachment role for him but because he needs them to become a specific thing for him to use in order to win the war, and if they can’t, he tosses them aside. Even Azula, his golden child, he’s perfectly willing to throw away when she’s worn out her usefulness to him. He certainly lacks empathy and is highly controlling, though to be honest I’m not sure how manipulative I’d call Ozai. He’s pretty straightforward with his threats and with his desires- and those who don’t bend to his will get burned. But he’s definitely grandiose, Mr. “I am the Phoenix King.” You don’t have to psychoanalyze him too deeply to see he shows plenty of narcissistic traits. 

I’m guessing your sources mentioned the intergenerational nature of narcissism, because it’s true that narcissistic parents tend to produce children that grow up to be narcissistic parents. It’s not predetermined, and oftentimes I think the child that is favored is more likely to emulate the narcissistic parent and in terms become more like them. There are so many real life examples of this, but the Fire Nation Royals seem to fit the bill too. I think we can infer that Azulon may have treated Iroh and Ozai similarly to how Ozai treats Zuko and Azula. He seems to favor Iroh, though it’s not totally clear, but he definitely dismisses Ozai’s desire to become Fire Lord after Lu Ten dies and has no difficulty ordering Ozai to kill Zuko. As fucked up as it is that Ozai was willing to do it, it’s equally if not more fucked up that Azulon even demanded it in the first place. We don’t get much characterization from him besides this one scene in the show, but it’s...pretty damning. So you can probably connect the dots and trace the trauma.

Which leads us back to Sozin, who is a real mystery. We never see nor hear any inkling of who mothered Azulon. In the entire flashback episode we never see Sozin marry or have a wife. We never see a child Azulon, which means either he was born after the war began, at which point Sozin was hella old and already obsessed with imperialist expansion, or he was born before and would have seen his father change over time. 

I’m actually inclined to believe it’s the former, as Sozin seems to be the rare person who grows into a more narcissistic personality. Sozin starts off all right, essentially decent, but becomes more power hungry over time, more obsessed with colonizing and “sharing his prosperity with the world”, and escalates it to the point of outright leaving his best friend to die and committing genocide in order to eliminate the one enemy that could stop him. It makes more sense to me that Azulon would have grown up in that atmosphere in order to become the kind of person who would expand the war effort and order his son to kill his son.

And the thing with this kind of trauma is that it literally changes our genetic coding. It is literally inherited.

So this is what Azula and Zuko are born into. They’re the third generation, not counting Sozin, to inherit this trauma. And because I think Azula personally bore the brunt of it, as she was the child into which Ozai injects all of his narcissistic ideals, all his father’s ideals, all his grandfather’s ideals- she’s the one who snaps. Zuko was lucky enough to get away (though not to minimize the cruelty and abuse he was subjected to), but Azula didn’t. And she and Zuko both show signs of being children who grew up in the home of a narcissist- and frankly, they both grow into bullies for a while. Zuko was just as angry and aggressive as Azula for a time, and likely would have stayed that way without Iroh’s (or someone else’s) positive influence. 

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ok this isnt a tumblr person (theyre an irl) but i am sooo annoyed with them and they are like. The only part of school i completely hate rn. anyways im a senior and theyre the same grade as me and they act literally the exact same as her freshman year... pansexual theatre kid who WILL sing loudly in public and acts like shes in charge of EVERYTHING when they arent even like. A teachers assistant just a student. They never get lead roles in theatre (bc they. arent a great actor or singer or dancer or anything???) Like theyre... fine at some things but they project their voice ALL THE TIME for no reason and interupt students and teachers contantly to correct them and theyre barely right (AND NOT IN CHARGE? THEY HAVE NO AUTHORITY?) and like. Ugh theyre annoying in general and theyre Christian (which isnt inherently bad but most of the school is lgbt in some way and a loooot of people are uncomfortable with christians especially when you start reciting??? Bible passages???????) Anyways theyre kind of a dick about it and she gets suuuuper hissy when someone asks her to not project her voice across the whole classroom while talking abt christian shit and they genuinely act like some gay high schoolers not liking christianity makes the religion unpopular and controversial and like. shes never said it directly but she acts like shes oppressed for talking abt the bible. the other day she called the old or new testament "too pc" like bruhhhhh it was written so fucking long ago and anyone saying "pc" is a red flag for me. oh and this isnt like the worst things btw. (1/?)

She complains about cancel culture. All the fucking time but not in a reasonable way, no just a freak way bc they dont care abt racist musicians and stuff like that bc??? Idk???? Last week or so she said to my face "haha i kinda do ship the beatles like they were sooo gay for each other like omg" and the amount of violence i felt... like i was gritting my teeth so hard my orthodontist is gonna be mad at me, thank fuck for masks bc i could not handle them with my whole face out there. Anyways they talked abt shipping the Beatles more lately BUT i was talking to a friend and apparently in their (the og person) freshman year they talked to my friend abt their house being haunted by famous ghosts (they said this to me too) BUT THEY APPARENTLY SAID THEY HAD GHOST SEX WITH ONE OF THE BEATLES?????????????????? i wouldve left my school if i heard that freshman year but my friend said she said that to her and hhhhh. she told me in our freshman year that was communicating with freddie mercurys ghost and that he had a crush on her and it was soooo weird but telling ppl u had ghost sex???¿?¿?¿?¿??¿????shes also said shes in love with the beatles like. Romantically and like this is off topic but they never listen to people and always interrupt with what they want to talk abt and WILL and HAS yelled at me and people around me for saying we don't like/dont care abt the beatles and its so fuckinf annoying. if it couldn't get worse, shes a hardcore dreamsmp stan AND KEEPS THINKING SHE CAN TALK TO ME ABOUT THEM and talking abt how she's cosplaying one of the characters for halloween and jow theyre soooo funny and something somethjng doesnt support dream bc of his FICTIONAL MINECRAFT CHARACTER not even his racist shit but still likes the smp and i want to rip my hair out abt her. i had a drean i yelled at her for the. Everything and it was sooooooo cathartic or whatever and the closest high ive gotten is talking shit abt her and staring directly at her while saying it while theyre talking to someone else bc theyre so self absorbed they never notice. Ok this is kinda minor comparatively but they wear like 1-2 inch heels all the time and like. fucking stomp in them everytime they walk to make it sound louder but they act casual abt it and talk abt how its sooo cool they make noise when theyre really being loud as hell on purpose (its so fuckinf obvious) and they always give me terrible advice (i wanted to work at this place and i was mentioning how they were hiring a manager FOR THREE RESTAURANTS and they immeaditely said i shouldve applied bc i was qualified and everyone there was ??? that doesnt make any sense but they didnt back down and it was so stupid like im 17 why the fuck would i manage three restaurants with no prior experience???? but they always assume shit and act like its fact and its literally gotten kids in trouble and they always divert blame its infuriating) AND they keep bragging abt how many ex boyfriends theyve had and like........ idk if theyre counting ghost sex with the beatles in that but they very much could be. ALSOOO they misgender kids all the fucking time and dont apologize or correct themself AT ALL but whine abt their one second cousin of theirs maybe possibly being transphobic with no evidence and talk abt how hard it is when they live thousands of miles away and barely talk like shut upppp!!! also the people they misgender are almost ALWAYS transfem and theyre tme and its. Very uncomfortable and they touch ppl without consent a lot (not excessively but Enough) and also they call me a bitch all the time in a "friendly" way even tho ive told them i dont like it and they call me hispanic when ive told them to call me latino and UGH. i think im done but i fucking hate them so much i hope they die -_- (2/2)

[mpfuro-station]

Remember the cutie? He's a weird one. Tarot card nicknames, here we go!

Furo: Empress

UPRIGHT: Femininity, beauty, nature, nurturing, abundance

REVERSED: Creative block, dependence on others

The Empress greatly encourages compassion, beauty, and love. She is deeply connected to Mother Nature, and her influence is powerful when you absorb the energy of the natural world around you.

I chose this card because of it's emphasis on nature. But if you feel uncomfortable with the feminine nickname, please let me know! I'll make sure Xenon doesn't refer to Furo as 'Empress' in future interactions.

Mortimer: Justice

UPRIGHT: Justice, fairness, truth, cause and effect, law

REVERSED: Unfairness, lack of accountability, dishonesty

Justice is your firm-but-fair reminder that karma is real, and there is a consequence for every action. Whatever life is handing you at this moment comes from decisions you've made in the past, and whether it's a punishment or a reward, it is exactly what you deserve. When this card comes up in your Tarot reading, make sure you are acting fairly in all your interactions with others.

Tido: Star

UPRIGHT: Hope, faith, purpose, renewal, spirituality

REVERSED: Lack of faith, despair, self-trust, disconnection

The Star is the embodiment of hope and healing. She is a calming influence that brings messages of renewal, optimism, and inspiration. When The Star comes up in your Tarot reading, she reminds you that the universe is working in your favor, and encourages you to have faith in where you are being taken.

Furo: it's fine! it does fit them very well!

It took Furo awhile to realize the first year was referring to them. When it finally clicked, everything made sense. "Wait, you mean me? I'm Empress?!"

"Yes, you seem to embody the card very well," Xenon nodded. "If it bothers you, I can always stop."

Furo shook their head. "Not at all! I find it endearing," Furo laughed a bit. "Heh, although I have no clue about tarot."

"Really? I thought I heard you are referred to with gender ambiguous terms."

"Well yeah, but if you use they/them pronouns it'll be fine. My name is still feminine in nature, so it's like that." Furo explained away. "Besides, now you get spot number 2 for people who gave me a female title!"

Xenon asked, "And who holds number one?"

"Oh, Rook-senpai. He calls me Madame Furet," Furo smiled. "But feel free to call me what's easy for you! Gotta build a good relationship with my juniors!"

Mortimer:

"Justice, little old me? You flatter me!" Mortimer laughed. "Well, if that is the case, I will fulfill my role justly!"

"I am glad that you like it." Xenon responded.

"When it appears, karma is sure to follow, is that it?"

"Well yes, but it also - "

"Haha! I wonder how my dear old father would feel hearing that. He always pesters me to return home, but maybe he'll stop once he hears what others think of what my presence brings." Mortimer muttered to himself. He smiled wide as he gave Xenon a clap on the shoulder. "Thank you, my wonderful underclassman! It's always a pleasure to hear how my peers think of me!"

Tido:

Tido looked at Xenon confused. “Shtar? Heal-healing?” He tapped his chin before he knocked his hands together. “OH! My, my, uh, leg! Doesh it gotta do do wid dat?!”

He sat down where he stood and took off his prosthetic leg, with the shoe and all. Tido smiled and laughed, “Ehehehe! I don’t di-dink dis is healing doh!”

“Please...put your leg back on...”

“Oki, oki,” Tido relented still giggling to himself. “But dat’s a nif-nif-nifty name-a-ding! Should I, I give ya one? Hmm? Bud-buddy-bossh? Yeah! Buddy-Bosh-bosh!”