#can’t even look at myself anymore

[aphroditestummyrolls]

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[gojoest]

do you ever think about the last night you spend together with satoru holding you in his arms before he goes off to fight sukuna and then never comes back

[flygonscales]

2 weeks at uni and I’ve already reached peak procrastination. I found masking tape and somehow decided that the best use of my time was to make a tiny Belphemon-sleep.

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

[kavehater]

Chappel Roan saying she’s sad she’s demisexual and then there’s me being aroace as a whole like don’t you think I’m even more sad 😭

[blueookashi]

I am being so slow at that one Library animation and it’s because that perfectionism of “it HAS to be consistent it HAS to look good!!” Has come back meanwhile I’m working on the god damn STORYBOARD!!!

I am trying so hard to kill that part of my brain that is so ingrained because of past shit, like even if I was at the refinement stage why does it need to look perfect?? This is supposed to be for fun!

[what-even-is-sleep]

Craziest advertising flaw I’ve seen in my life is: it’s impossible to look up “spider catcher” or even “spider catcher for arachnophobes” without EVERY. SINGLE. PRODUCT. having a blown up picture of a spider in it.

[ithinktoodumb]

“The Disconnect”

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My phone is plugged in,

its cord stretching from the wall like a lifeline,

and I sit here on the floor,

fingers tapping out small fragments of us,

keeping the connection alive—

at least on my end.

But then he says,

“I have to go, my phone is out of charge.”

A pause,

not long enough to register as anything more than a flicker,

but it lands hard.

He didn’t used to care about that—

letting it run low,

talking until our words were the only things left buzzing

in the dark.

Now the battery matters.

Now he cares about conserving what’s left

for something else,

somewhere else,

someone else?

I sit,

my phone full,

our conversation draining.

I don’t blame him.

I built this silence, didn’t I?

I poured myself into those moments,

let him become everything

while I forgot to leave something for myself.

I stretched us thin,

like the frayed wires in my hands,

and maybe it’s only fair

that he’s unplugging now.

I remember the nights

when we’d talk through the dead hours,

when nothing in the world

was worth more than the glow of his voice,

when charging didn’t matter—

not if it meant staying with me,

staying in the conversation.

But now,

he lets the charge run out,

lets the silence stretch between us

like the fraying cable in my hands.

He says he cares,

but care isn’t found in the dead minutes

between texts that don’t come,

in calls that end before they’ve begun,

in the excuses, the distractions,

the dying battery

he won’t fight anymore.

And I’m still here,

phone alive,

waiting by the plug,

while he lets his go dark.

[apathyfairy]

if i read through my old notes or my old posts from like 3 years ago i’m like. who is that like that person is dead. who even am i anymore like i have lost all sense of self at this point

[seilon]

shouldn’t have checked my bank account as expected my mother has taken thousands more dollars from my savings and has almost run me dry more or less. Cool!

[cetoddle]

feeling sooooooo bad about myself rn. teehee :)

[natashatrace]

+

[whenthegoldrays]

Hmm

[whoblewboobear]

Knowing that I have to go home after an 8-hour shift at the job I hate to force myself to deep clean the depression nest my room has become while neck deep in the same depressive episode for the past 3 months on top of chronic pain makes me wanna scream like can I just smoke weed and sleep on the couch instead pls?

[hobisexually]

long winded rant in the tags coming that’s partly about weight but in a very unfiltered sad way so if that triggers you do Not read on

[astxrwar]

there needs to be more one-sided enemies to lovers content. by which i mean one person HATES and the other is like “aw you’re adorable + utterly nonthreatening to me *enrages them on purpose*”

OR!

One hates + has the power to actually make the other’s life miserable but the other one is like “well I admire you a lot and I know I can prove you wrong so *tries really hard and stubbornly shrugs off the criticism/mocking/cruelty*”