PARADISE FOUND [n.jm]
PART ONE.
wc: 7.1k
after your bestfriend, jeno, drags you to a party the night before the biggest day of the summer, you wake up too late to get there on time. but maybe the tide will wait for you - if the tide was in the form of a bleached blond surfer with a hatred for every little thing you do, and a connection that leads you back to eachother; again, and again and again.
TAGLIST - OPEN
WARNINGS: mention of alcohol/being drunk. mention of sex. depiction of near drowning/injury
DISCLAIMER: all events/portrayals of people are fake and from my imagination, in no way am i claiming that they act like this irl
PARADISE FOUND - M.LIST
it has been 11 months since you have spoken to him. 11 months of avoiding every lingering attempt of eye contact he has tried to pursue on you. and each and every month has sunk you lower and lower into a state of shock at the initial moment he broke up with you. you were a mess to put it simply.
but summer was coming back around, you would be moved from life-guarding the indoor college pool to the beach and that meant for one thing and one thing only.
you would see him again. you would see yangyang again.
“yn? ynnnnn?” your best friend calls out for you around your dorm. “girl where the fuck are you?”
giselle has been there for you every step of the way during your first year of college, giving you the guidance but also the space you need, you respect her a lot more than you ever tell her. now that you're in your second year, it makes you wonder if you ever should.
“i’m here.” you laugh, grinning at her lousy attempt to find you, tucked away in the bathroom. she walks in, hands covering her eyes in terror as she realises she’s walked in on you ‘dropping the kids off at the pool’ as your brothers friend, mark, likes to call it.
“not a single warning???” the door slams behind her and you cant help but laugh, hearing the faint voice of your other roommate, julie, questioning if giselle is okay.
you love your friends, you really do, each day consumed with laughter and mindfulness. you wouldn’t trade the dynamic you guys share for the world, not even if it meant for you to be happier.
of course you have other friends too, your closest friend jeno, being your most notable, even amongst giselle and julie. but the comfort you feel with the girls allows for you to share your feelings in a different light, even if you are, at times, smothered by darkness.
you head to your morning class, julie at your side. although you’re both very different in personality; julie a sweeter and a quieter version of yourself, you both beam together in studies. being an english literature major meant you were able to put your thoughts into words, whilst she strived to put her words, unspoken, onto paper.
the sun was brighter than usual, an indication towards the beginning of summer.
“i cannot WAIT for this summer.” julie sneered sarcastically.
“come on, everyone seems to love the beach except you. we literally go to a uni, on the beach, surely you should have expected-“
“i came for jaehyun.”
fair enough. you couldn’t argue with that.
jaehyun was jenos cousin, you’d met him many times at jenos christmas parties, their strikingly similar sense of style overwhelmed you at first, but you soon became aware of julie’s little crush on jaehyun, watching as it bloomed into what now is their relationship.
she squealed at the thought of her boyfriend. “6 months on saturday!” holding your hand, she danced around you, you couldn’t help but laugh at her switch in attitude. “ yn im so happy you lead me to him.”
“urg don’t get cheesy on me now, we’re about to read shakespeare in class i dont need to hear it now before i even step foot in the lecture hall.”
huffing, she turns away from you, leading you into the hall. your first class of the summer.
your phone buzzes in your pocket. again. again. again. your anger getting the better of you as you roll your eyes, digging into the pocket of your shorts to read the messages.
[jen] where are u?
[jen] will u reply pls
[jen] im bored
your anger subsides - albeit only slightly - at the sight of your bestfriends name as it flashes up on the screen.
[jen] i know you can see these
[jen] your probably watching them come through and laughing at me 😕😕😕😕
you try not to laugh to yourself, the library sounding empty yet being full of people working.
[yn] the library
[yn] dont come here ill meet u
[jen] beach bar?😁
[yn] beach bar.
packing up your things, you head down the library steps and wander your away across the sandy path to the beach. it isn’t a short walk, your entire college campus is practically on the beach itself, causing for horrible windy winters but the most beautiful place to be in summer. this only means that the winter break is extended, with the college staying open in summer to maximise its use of the beach.
you spot the familiar palm-tree umbrellas and the somehow constant reggae music from afar, squinting around the sofa’s for a hint of black hair until you spot him.
sitting down he looks across at you in wonder, brows furrowing.
“damn, didn’t think you’d really come to be honest”
you hold yourself back from slapping him clean in the face.
“what’s that supposed to mean.”
“yanno….” he looks around before leaning forward, somehow whispering yet shouting at the same time, “yangyang works over t h e r e.” he points with obnoxiously large movements towards the surf shop, using not only two hands but his entire body to point in the direction of your ex boyfriend.
you stare at jeno, unamused.
“i’m about to leave if you keep doing that.”
“noooooooooo stayyyyyy” his voice is monotone, sarcastic.
your’s and jenos teasing of one another was your favourite part about your friendship, knowing so much about eachother that you know exactly what makes the other person crack. but there’s also times where a serious tone can easily take over conversation, and you both can become mutual to each others moods quite quickly.
you bury yourself in the sofa, showing that you have no intent on leaving anytime soon which surprises jeno, eyebrows raised.
“i’ll have to get over him at some point.” you shrug, “why not now?”
he grins at that, nodding in pride.
“atta girl.”
you both talk for hours, talking about your assignments, your friend group and getting excited over plans you could make in the upcoming weeks. one of which jeno seems particularly passionate about.
“beach bonfires every night.” he chants and you look up at him in bewilderment.
“jeno you know i hateeeee parties.” you drag out your words so he understands you in definition.
he pulls out his phone, “well too bad, i already made a groupchat with everyone in it. you’re coming yn.”
your eyes tell jeno that your not entirely joking, you’ve never been a big partier, always opting to stay at home whenever the rest of the group invites you to go. but this time, jeno is going to make sure you have fun. this summer will be different.
“why don’t we have one tonight.” he exclaims. “ease you into it.”
your eyes go wide. “you CANNOT be serious. jeno i have work tomorrow and it’s my first beach shift this year. i need to be there for my training.”
“don’t worry, ill make sure you get there, just let loose a little. why not? it’s the start of summer.”
you’re skeptical. but he’s right; it’s the start of summer and there’s no better time to start than now. you can only wish that you’ll enjoy yourself as much as he says you will.
“okay fine. but you can’t leave me.”
“not at all, ill be by your side the entire time.”
you never believe him when he says that, always going off towards the end of the night with some girl wrapped around his arm. but this time, something in the sincerity of his words makes you trust what he’s saying. he’s giving you a chance. a chance to let go of yourself and everything that’s been bothering you for the past 11 months. a chance for you to set off this summer better than the last. a chance for you to find your own paradise.
after jeno rolls out a message to nearly every living organism within a 500 meter radius telling them of a bonfire that night, it dawns upon you that you shouldn’t feel so scared to hang out with your friends. you should feel like jeno, smile plastered on his face as he reads between the lines of his book titled ‘math for dummies.’ you’re not entirely sure how jeno got into college to study math in the first place, but how he got to keep his place after failing exam after exam is even more beyond you. but anyhow, he’s at peace with the events of tonight, no wavering wash of anxiety covers his expression quite like yours. jeno notices you sitting there, fingers wrapped around thumbs as you try not to think about the upcoming event. would you see yangyang? would he try and talk to you? what if he has another girlfriend already? i mean it’s been 11 months…
he says nothing of your lack of concentration. mind sucked into his book, probably going into shock at the moment the book starts adding letters.
you and jeno finish up your time at the beach bar as you walk back to your dorms. the boys dorm and the girls dorm at seperate sides of campus, you split with eachother early on. texting giselle, you see who’s home.
[yn] are you in
[yn] ???
[giselle 🫶] yes are u on ur way back?
[yn] yes pls let me in i forgot my key
[giselle🫶] give me a second
after waiting at the door for what seems like an hour, giselle finally lets you in, towel wrapped around her hair.
“how the hell do you forget your key??!” she mumbles between her toothbrush.
making your way to your room, you yell back across the hall in response. “i use a different bag everyday.” you shrug. you open your closet, scanning for an appropriate outfit for tonight when julie’s head pokes around the corner of the doorway.
“no way….” her eyes are wide and you motion for her to be quiet. jeno already made a big deal about you going so you can’t back out, giselle finding out that your going to your first party without yangyang will only cause for noise complains from your neighbours. “no WAY.” but julie continues, herself in shock. your shushing does nothing. “giselle get over here RIGHT NOW.”
you want to sink into the floor, perhaps end up at the dorm below where those people don’t know you. but giselle’s reaction is far different from anything you expect.
“you’re coming to jenos party????” she’s so quiet you feel the urge to throw something at her to get her to speak up. “yn you don’t have to go if it makes you uncomfortable. we know you don’t like par-“
“i want to go.”
no you don’t? you do a double take on your own words as they spill out of your mouth. but you were trying to prove something, not only to jeno and yangyang, but to yourself.
giselle, albeit it somewhat annoyingly, runs up to you with an arm full of different dresses, dresses you would never dream of wearing, all embroidered with flowers and different colours you didn’t even know should be in the same outfit together.
but when your eyes lands on one of the dresses, all of your criticism moves to the side. it was just perfect.
giselle can see you staring at it. “i’ve never worn it. my grandma made it for me.”
you look up at her. desperately trying to give it back. “i can’t wear it.”
“yes you can.” she smiles and you hesitantly take the dress back from her, holding it against your body in the mirror.
your nerves were now becoming excitement.
you, giselle and julie get there well after the likes of everyone else. struggling to walk on the sand, you rip your eyes from your feet to look up. jeno was right, you needed this. the sun setting along the line of the ocean, the shadows caused from the bonfire in the middle of the sea of bodies, everyone in their respective friend groups - you felt comfort.
seeing you before you see him, jeno rushes over to you, ditching whatever people he was with prior to watching you walk over. jeno had many friends, yes, but you were his only close one.
“you came!” you scoff in annoyance at the shock in his words, despite telling him you were going to come.
“obviously.”
he pats you on the back leading both you and giselle to the once calm and serene beach bar, now dizzy with lights as well as the reggae music. you presume julie has run off with jaehyun, your theory confirmed when you notice them by the shore, hand in hand.
“let’s get you a drink.” jeno laughs, calling over the bartender and asking for three vodka lemons. you thank him.
giselle rolls her eyes and nods her head in direction of whoever is coming onto the bar decking behind you. you turn around, fear of seeing his face again filling you.
somehow, the actaul face of who was walking in behind you, annoys you even more.
“yn??” your older brother asks.
great.
“jisung..” you smile. laugh even.
“i’m going to kill you.” his eyes find jenos in mock anger as he proceeds to jokingly ready up his fist for a punch. you laugh at their childishness.
when your laughter comes to a halt, you notice the voice of another next to you.
you look up to mark, brows furrowed. “how long have you been standing there??”
he scratches the nape of his neck, “like forever dude.” you huff and giselle laughs. “what brings you here anyways? you never come to these.”
giselle answers mark for you. “she’s bored.”
that’s one way to put it.
“well im glad you are, its nice to have a fresh face around here sometimes. jeno and jisung can be a bit much after a couple drinks.” he teases, jenos face twisting into an exaggerated expression of shock.
after getting your drinks, you all go to sit on the sand, julie and jaehyun beckoning you over. you take your seat between jeno and julie. sat like this, with all your friends, watching the fire wither away in the wind, you feel comfort. you watch as giselle fights with jisung over the remainder of her drink, threatening to push him into the fire if he takes even the slightest sip. you can’t help but smile. jeno notices your ease, nudging you on your shoulder as he talks to you, quietly.
“i’m glad you came.” he smiles. “you’re the only friend i need.”
evidently, jenos words knock a sense of confidence into you. causing you to spend the rest of the night swallowing shot after shot, even indulging in marks beer when he came over after hearing you had tried to run into the sea, wanting to see it for himself now that your brother had gone home.
“you know…w.. i havent seeeen yangyang allllll night. what a loser..hiding….fromme.” you stumble over your words, your lack of experience in drinking causing you to have little control over anything your saying.
jeno, still surprisingly by your side, shares a look of amusement with mark. “i’m going to take her home soon.” he tells him, “keep an eye on her whilst i go grab my stuff?”
mark nods and jeno walks away, causing you, in your drunken state, confusion. “nooo jenooo. don’t leave me with him.” mark tries to quieten you down to try avoid any weird looks but ultimately fails when you blab about wanting him to leave you alone.
“yn, he’ll be back soon okay. just don’t go anywhere, he’ll kill m-“
“who’ll kill you?”
you recognise that voice.
turning around, you squint in the direction the voice came from. tan skin, a mess of dusty pink hair. dusty pink hair? that’s oddly specifi-
oh.
“why do you care?” mark replies, face screwing up in confusion.
“who are you?” the voice asks again.
“you gonna keep asking questions or are you gonna tell me what you want man”
the man’s eyes drift to yours.
yangyang’s eyes drift to yours.
slowly, you try to inch backwards, your only wish for this very moment being to find jeno. “i’m gonna… i’m gonna go….” you whisper, mark looking at you, utterly oblivious to the situation.
“but-“ mark protests but he’s yet again cut off by yangyang.
“if she wants to go, let her”, unaware the he’s the problem and not mark. but you can’t explain that to mark now, you’re already making your way down the beach to find jeno, stumbling in your tracks.
you can hear mark asking around for where you’ve gone, but your mind isn’t clear enough to realise you should go back to him.
you admit defeat, sitting down by yourself. it’s comical how quickly the night shifted once you became aware of yangyangs presence, only hours ago were you basking in the company of your friends. now you sit alone.
the next morning, you find yourself on jenos floor.
jenos sitting on his bed, scrolling mindlessly through his phone until he hears you stir. “finally, you’re u- oh shit, that’s not pretty.”
it takes you a few moments to process his words, head feeling heavy and your eyes adjusting to the light of jenos room. he throws you a hoodie, nodding at you to put it on. your brows furrow in question. it’s not cold.
you look down at your dress, no, giselle’s dress, covered in a layer of bright vivid orange.
remnants of last night.
shit.
“no no no no..” you ramble, jumping to your feet to make your way to jenos bathroom, his roommate chenle, giving you a look of disgust as you bolt past him.
“you okay, yn?” jeno calls out, a mix of worry and amusement lacing his tone. this was not a time for amusement. “just change into the hoodie and i can walk you to your dorm in time for work.”
work?
your heart drops in your chest.
you were truly and utterly fucked.
the walk to your dorm resembled more to that of a sprint, jeno struggling to keep up with your pace.
“how the hell do you walk so fast.” he pants, “i literally cannot feel my legs.”
you feign sympathy at him before speeding up even more. you have to get to work this morning, you couldn’t lose the chance to uptake a lifeguard position at the beach. the pool has been anything but miserable.
after thanking jeno for his, in his terms, ‘chivalry’, you quickly rush to find your uniform. you pick up the red tankini, throwing on some shorts and a cap to keep yourself covered on your way to the beach. luckily, you find giselle asleep on her bed, throwing the dress in your laundry basket to wash when you get back. julie is nowhere to be seen, most likely having stayed round jaehyuns for the night.
brushing your teeth and drenching yourself in julie’s perfume as a desperate attempt to smell atleast a little less of puke, you bolt out the door.
it has been 10 minutes since training started.
when you get to the beach, it has been 18 minutes.
when you put your stuff in your locker and clock in, it has been 20 minutes.
the moment you get to the group in training, it has been 33.
you plead with the instructor - who’s name was johnny according to his badge reading ‘ncu senior. johnny suh’ - in hopes that he’ll let you stay.
“nope. no can do.” he doesn’t even look at you, too busy watching the 9 other lifeguards in training, swimming out to various buoys out in the water.
“but please i can stay behind after so i can-“
“i said no. it’s not in my paycheck to accommodate extra time for those who are late. if you miss the beach briefing, then you’re at the pool. it’s the same every year.” he shrugs, pulling his cap up to push his hair back before placing it back on his head. “not my problem.”
you couldn’t believe it, you were going to kill lee jeno if it was the last thing you do. you can’t even remember last night, and now its still haunting you into the next day. you cannot imagine it getting any worse.
that was until you hear a scream from one of the lifeguards in the distance.
you look over to johnny, expecting him to leap from his high-chair on the sand and run into the water, but he’s gone, chatting up some woman on the other side of the sunbeds.
a child next to you begins talking to you. no, yelling at you.
“hey! you’re a lifeguard too! help, my sisters hurt!”
the other lifeguards are too far to hear the scream. you curse johnny for not making them go by groups, and you curse yourself for not wearing a tshirt over your bright red tankini top, spelling out the words ‘lifeguard’ in bold white capitals.
after assessing the situation, you figure that you have no choice but to run into the water, swimming after the waving arm of one of the trainee lifeguards about 20 meters from the shore, a red lifeguard float from johnnys chair in your hand. unaware of if she was just out of her depth or in pain, you push the float under her arms, dragging her with you back to the sand.
she’s limping, so you attempt to hold her weight with the side of your body as you pull her from the final stretch of water and onto the sand. as you place her to sit down, she thanks you and you offer her a fresh towel from johnnys bench, asking her if she’s okay. johnny eventually comes running over at the sight of your situation.
“it’s a sprained ankle.” you tell him, “must have got her foot caught on a rock under the water.”
he nods before calling over two other trainees to take her to the first aid hut, the girls’ brother helplessly following behind her in tears.
johnny stands with you, arms crossed as he finally looks at you. “i suppose we’re a lifeguard short now.”
you try to hold back your smile, realising what this means.
“you’ll need to do the training so i’ll make one of the stronger swimmers of the lifeguard trainees today give you your induction. think yourself lucky.” and with that, he walks off. you could cry at the amount of luck you were feeling in this moment; finally something today had gone right. “well don’t just stand there, come with me.”
you quickly run after him. “right, sorry.”
johnny laughs to himself in response, but he’s quick to try and hide it. you make a note to yourself that you must somehow be on the seniors good side.
when you reach the steps to the closest lifeguard tower, johnny brings you to the desk where he hands you a form.
“sign here and here, i’ll go grab him. he should be up in 10.”
he?
all sorts of names rush through your head. you couldn’t exactly see the faces of which lifeguards were training as they were out in the water, but you weren’t friends with any of the male lifeguards from the pool.
you sit in johnnys chair, silently observing the view out onto the beach, spreading for miles and miles, white sand meets turquoise water, occupying a plethora of - mainly ncu students - but some families too. the college spreads itself on the other side, almost parallel to the stretch of the beach. you wouldn’t wish you were anywhere else.
a knock at the tower door wakes you from your daydream.
you stand up. “come in.”
expecting someone familiar to walk through the door, you’re surprised to find yourself face to face with a man you have never seen before in your entire year at the job.
although you didn’t get into beach guarding last year, everyone had to guard a pool in the winter, switching posts multiple times a day and meaning you’d met everyone in the job. but this man was entirely unknown to you. and if you were being perfectly honest, he did not have a face that you would forget easily. you had to admit, his bleached hair made you a little awestricken. you’d never seen someone suit such a bold style before.
anyhow, you don’t understand how he’s already qualified for the specialised training, general training is multiple weeks and today is the first day of the semester.
he notices your confusion, but says nothing to ease your mind.
“im jaemin. hi.” he walks past you.
past you.
it’s as if you weren’t even there. he sits down, putting his feet up on the desk.
“um… yn.” you reply with a nod. “so uh, you’re training me?”
“i think so, that johnny guy didn’t say much, said something about me being able to surf means i can swim.”
a surfer? great. so not only do you have the new guy doing your induction, but even he doesn’t know what he’s doing.
after asking him what’s first on the list that johnny handed him with the form, he takes you out onto the beach with a stopwatch and johnnys clipboard, reading off the first tick box.
“the first one is..” he says whilst scanning his eyes across the page in attempts to find the first requirement. “ah right, a swim to the 25 meter buoy in 50 seconds.”
you look at him in shock, he’s starting with the short distance one?
“are you messing with me.” you ask, “i’m doing the 25 meter first?”
“yup.” he laughs, “unless… you don’t want to be a lifeguard anymore.”
unbelievable. actually fucking unbelievable; not only is this newbie doing your induction, but now he’s threatening you. you were wrong, your day could and definitely did get worse.
throwing a middle finger in his direction up on the lifeguard chair, which earns you a laugh from him in response, you run into the water, diving once it reaches your thighs. you get flashbacks of the save you just did, imagining that the buoy infront of you is actually a person yelling for your help (morbid, but it works.) your arms ache, your legs ache, your body aches but you keep going, lapping around the buoy until you find your way back onto the shore.
you’re panting as you make your way back to jaemin, who climbs down the chair, pencil in his mouth as he tries not to fall.
he walks over to you. “43 seconds. not bad.”
not bad????
you wish you could punch him. one day you will.
“whatever, barbie.” you sneer back passively, his face contorting into an expression of shock, mouth hung wide open. but you can tell he’s trying not to let out a laugh.
you go through each tick box, continuing with the 200 meter swim and then the 200 meter beach run which, indoubtedly, makes you feel a little stupid. but you pass all the tests with ease, much to jaemins surprise.
if it wasn’t for the fact that he was new and annoyingly arrogant, you would probably have been friends with him, he seems funny enough.
as jaemin was ticking off the final box, johnny returns.
“how’d she do?” he turns to jaemin, who’s smug face tells you everything you need to know. he’s about to lie.
“i passed.” you butt in; you were on johnnys good side already, a joke about failing would have immediately ruined that. jaemin squints in your direction and you can only smile back in arrogance.
johnny pats you on the back, “good job. you guys are both done for the day, check your emails in the next few hours for your schedule.” he turns to walk away before stopping himself and turning back around, “and, thanks jaemin. i owe you one. ” he turns for real this time, back slowly shrinking as he walks up towards ncu.
“well, i better be off then.” jaemin quickly remarks, giving you little to no time to tell him a quick “bye” before he, too, is walking back to campus.
you wonder to yourself if you’ll ever see him again, and if, for some reason, you would even mind his company.
but you brush off that thought as quickly as it came.
when you get back to the dorm. giselle is waiting.
“hey yn.” she smiles.
suspicious, she never says hey when you get in.
oh.
the dress.
“look, giselle, im so sorry.. i woke up at jenos and by the time i got back it was already 10am and then i-“
“i bought you some more!” she squeals. now, you are really confused.
your brow flips in confusion, “but i ruined your dress..”
“exactly! i got some more for you.”
you actually couldn’t believe your ears, unable to think of what to say.
until you realise exactly why she’s not mad.
because its an excuse for her to buy you dresses. dresses to go to parties wearing; parties that you will NOT be partaking in.
“oh i don’t think so.” you shake your head, giselle running up to you excitedly. “i’ve barely even recovered from last night, and today wasn't exactly relaxing either.”
“oh come on yn, it’s not gonna a big one like last night, we’re just going round jaehyuns frat for a few hours. you don’t have to drink!”
it sounds appealing, it really does. despite the fact that you can’t remember much about last night, you do remember enjoying yourself. but the idea of spending hours if not the entire rest of the night socialising after swimming and running down a beach all day in the sun, removed any sort of energy you had remaining.
“please yn, just one night.” she’s nearly sobbing at this point.
after multiple attempts at begging you to go throughout the evening, giselle and julie finally convince you to come. if anything just to reduce their insistent pressure on you to change your mind. it got so bad to the point where, as you were trying to make your dinner, giselle kept turning the oven off whenever you weren’t looking. you nearly slapped her out of irritation.
giselle gives you one of the dresses to wear, and the three of you make your way to the frat that jaehyun was in.
you aren’t familiar with many of jaehyuns friends, let alone any of them in his frat, so you were relying on both the girls, and jeno, being jaehyuns cousin, to keep you company.
as you arrive, you’re shocked to discover how loud the music blares from the outside, booming along the sand which surrounds the path that stretches to the front of the house.
jeno greets you at the door. nodding at both giselle and julie in acknowledgment, his face yet again contorts into shock when he notices you with them.
“why didn’t you tell me you were coming!” he yells over the music, leaning into you so you can hear him.
you follow him deeper into the crowd of people. ‘it’s not a big one like last night’ my ass. if anything, there was more people.
“i didn’t even know i was coming myself until an hour ago.” you reply, jeno squeezing your arm in response to let you know you’re safe.
“well you can rest assured that yangyang isn't here tonight. he won’t try and confront you again.”
what?
oh.
you remember now.
you remember everything: trying to run into the ocean, yangyang coming up to you with a clueless mark by your side, walking off alone.. jeno must have found you after that.
“oh shit, i totally forgot that even happened.” you laugh, jenos face responding with a look of concern.
“really? you were that drunk?”
“i guess so.” you laugh again, even though deep down, you’re panicking. “did you fill mark in? i feel bad he didn’t know who yangyang was and i sort of just ran away.”
jeno, for some reason, finds this hilarious, hanging his head back as he tries not to spill his drink from laughing too much. “yes,” he slows his laughter but it’s still continuing as he talks. “he got so worried thinking that you hated him.”
“oh my god…” you’re embarrassed to say the least, but atleast jeno had explained to him who yangyang was.
you look around for giselle, wondering where she’d ran off too before jeno snaps you out of it. “i think she went off with chenle.” chenle? you’re not one to judge when it comes to your bestfriends taste in men, but you’ve heard giselle talk about how much she hates that man, so you can only say you’re surprised. but you brush it off.
leaving yours and jenos own little bubble, you continue to look around the room, the lack of familiar faces causing you to feel a little uneasy. you see julie and jaehyun in the corner, like usual, but you don’t want to interfere with whatever they seem to be doing. jeno can tell you feel uncomfortable, taking your arm and leading you to another area of the house, still packed with people.
“i want you to meet someone.” he says. you can tell he’s been thinking about introducing you to this mysterious someone ever since you started talking, his mind seemingly a little less focused than usual.
but when you realise who the someone is that he is referring to, you start to wish that you had just listened to your gut and stayed at home.
“this is yn.” jeno starts, pointing at you, unmoving in your stance.
“hi.” the someone replies
his hand goes out to shake yours.
“i’m jaemin.”
you want to sink into the floor and never come back to reality.
your mind whirls with confusion and horror as you look at the person infront of you, no longer in his white tank and red shorts, hair no longer a blond mess of sand and sea salt, his hand extended towards you and a knowing smirk cascading across his lips.
he was having so much fun.
“ouch,” he sucks in a breath, feigning pain, “haven’t even known you 30 seconds and already been rejected.” he says, the irony in his words making you want to run out of the party and go back home. he’s pretending not to know you.
you turn to jeno, hoping he would see your distaste in his friend, but he’s laughing.
the one person you would hope to be of comfort to you. and he’s laughing.
you give in, shaking his hand and faking a smile which you know he picks up on. “nice to meet you.” you say. words feeling sour and dry in your mouth.
his grin widens.
jeno pats his hand on both your backs. “jaemin’s just moved here from LA, i went to school with him before he left.”
so that’s the mysterious best friend from jenos childhood, the bestfriend who jeno constantly speaks about, wishing he could meet him again. and here he is, the very same man who has taunted your mind since you left the beach earlier today.
“LA?” you give him a look of shock, this time a real one. no wonder you hadn’t seen his face before, he was in an entirely different country. “i’m guessing you got your lifeguard qualification over there then.” you ask out of both genuine curiosity and stupidity; revealing to jeno that you’d met him at the lifeguard training earlier today.
jeno looks surprised, turning to jaemin. “you didn’t tell me you were applying to that.”
jaemin shrugs. “might as well, need the money.”
“yeah especially after you spent it all on-“ jenos words are interrupted, jaemin holding a hand over his mouth to shut him up and leading them both into a fit of laughter.
you stay stood there, unsure of what to do but to look at your feet. you would never believe you could feel left out in jeno’s presence, he always made sure you were okay.
but he isn’t right now.
jeno and jaemin are still laughing about something you don’t understand and you consider turning around and trying to find julie. but you figure you would rather third wheel two old bestfriends than a overly-affectionate couple, so you stay.
“…and then she told me she faked the entire thing!” jaemin says, jeno laughing and slapping the former on the shoulder repeatedly as they both share memories and jokes that you don’t feel you should be part of.
you feel awkward.
“i’m gonna go.” you say, too quiet for either of them to understand but loud enough for them to hear you.
“what?” it’s jeno that leans down to hear what you have to say, but jaemin speaks up before you can repeat yourself.
“she wants to leave.” he says to jeno.
he didn’t hear what you had said, but considering he’s been watching you in his peripheral for the past 5 minutes, he figures from your awkwardness you wouldn’t want to stay much longer.
jeno raises an eyebrow at jaemins words. “but why?” he asks you. you don’t want to have to explain to him that you feel left out, so you tell him you’re not feeling too well.
walking you to the door, jaemin behind you, jeno holds your shoulders before fixing a stray hair at the top of your head. “are you sure you’re okay to walk home by yourself?”
you nod but he doesn’t believe you, you’ve never liked walking in the dark.
“yo jeno.” jaehyun calls to him from the living room, “someone called big papi ‘pink heart emoji, winking emoji’ is calling you!”
jeno rolls his eyes before yelling, “DON’T ANSWER THAT ITS HAECHAN.” panicking, he asks jaemin to make sure you get home safely before running off in jaehyuns direction.
you begin walking through the door and out to the porch, there is no way in hell you were about to let jaemin walk you home. you know jeno has had a few drinks, but he must really trust jaemin if he can run off and leave you with him.
but that doesn’t mean you have to.
after walking for around 30 seconds, you feel a presence behind you. turning, you see jaemin trailing behind you, falling beside you once you slow down to face him.
“what?” he asks, “jeno asked me to, i can’t just leave you.”
you roll your eyes. “i’m fine to walk by myself, just have a headache, that’s all.”
“so it has nothing to do with you standing in that party desperate to leave the moment you saw me.”
his words render you speechless. not because anything he had said shocked you, but because he’s completely and utterly right.
he continues. “you and jeno seem close.”
“he’s my bestfriend.” you say, and he looks at you from the corner of his eye.
“have you guys ever…” he’s smirking and it takes you a few moments to realise what he’s implying.
“no! god, no, absolutely not!” you retort, and he laughs.
“i met with him the day after i came back, would not shut up about you. would never have guessed the rude girl i had to induct at the beach was the girl he spoke so sweetly about.”
you were taken aback, not only did he just straight up insult you, but him bringing up jeno made a part of your chest sting. jeno had met with him days ago and hadn’t told you about him until today?
jeno never hid anything from you, and it makes you wonder why he had held off telling you about jaemin.
jaemin isn’t alarmed by your silence, only continuing to talk to you. but the next question he asks you pulls you from your thoughts.
“you don’t like me, do you?”
you look up at him, unsure of what to say, attempting not to fall over your feet as you try to match his walking pace.
“ive only just met you.” you respond.
“and yet you don’t like me. i’m not an idiot, yn, i see the way you look at everyone else compared to the way you look at me.”
you feel caught. in all honesty, you haven’t thought about it. you haven’t known jaemin long enough to form an opinion on him. but after tonight, you fear that he may be right.
you hate the fact that jaemin can read you so well. ever since you arrived at the party, he’s been able to pick up every little part of you that seems even the tiniest bit out of place and you hate it. you’ve never felt this seen.
“i don’t hate you.” you tell jaemin and he sighs. he smiles in annoyance, tongue poking the inside of his cheek in attempt to stop himself from saying something he’d regret.
“but you don’t like me.” he instead replies.
“i don’t know you.”
you’re starting to get a little angry, going round and round in circles. but his reaction to your words differ from yours.
“so get to know me then.”
this time, you stop walking.
when he notices that you’ve stopped, he asks you again. “get to know me.”
your eyes, originally dropped to the floor, look up to his and you sigh. “i don’t think im going to have a choice.”
his head cocks to the side and you remind him of jeno and his crippling party addiction, jaemin laughs.
as you begin to walk again, you wonder why you have these feelings of hate towards a man you met today but nothing rational in your mind confirms it.
when you get to the outside of your dorm building, you turn to jaemin. “thank you for walking me back.”
“get some sleep.” he nods to you as you give him a small smile, his hands in his pockets. “and yn,” you turn quickly to face him, “for the record, i don’t like you either.” he pauses. “goodnight.”
what a way to end your night.
(a/n: tysm for reading the first part!! i’ve had so much fun writing this and i appreciate every single one of you who interact with and enjoy the stuff i write as much as i enjoy writing it. part two will be out soon ♡)
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