#cuz u can get to this level without even trying

[esquie]

“Also yes, Stendhal does have a 25 base damage multiplier, that's why it's completely broken.” my god

[kawaiifuturebass88]

my wife is a super active tumblr user and has been telling me about this media literacy thing thats been happening/talked about here and i have really struggled to understand it, to the point that i didnt really believe it was real or i was just misunderstanding her or it was a very small isolated thing. she was telling me about it and it felt like she was just exaggerating for shock value and to be funny and i couldnt even laugh cuz i was too busy trying to figure out what the fuck she was talking about. people dont engage with media where someone is a bad person? ok but like so what do u watch and read? what is a story without a villain? that doesnt make sense i literally cant believe it.

then i watched the arcane finale and after exhausting my usual sources i turned to tumblr for more fan art and good vibes and ohhhhhh BOY arcane tumblr is like the source pool of this behavior, it is overFLOWING with media illiteracy and i got to actually see it with my own eyes and i was floored. i cant stop reading. the takes get wilder and wilder and the fabricated scenarions, lies, gross misunderstandings and blatant inability to infer anything get worse and worse and WORSE. its like watching a car accident over and over and over and its fascinating.

like, i understand why and how someone would become a conspiracy theorist or join a cult or whatever extreme thing, it makes total sense to me and is inherently human to create reasoning that feels safe to explain things that shock or scare you i.e. why religion exists lol but this doesnt follow that logic at all. i assume folks think they are being extremely smart but i struggle to accept that when people are just blatantly lying on the internet and most of the stuff i read is about visual media and you can literally just watch it or cite clips and instantly debunk it all. its not click bait and its not rage bait because all the interactions are supportive and agreeing. like wtf happened here?

i've been obsessed since i started reading this stuff because im so intrigued as to how you get to such a ridiculous spot, and not just a couple people but a whole swath of people across all the fandoms all writing long essays of bad takes with the same therapy language and total demonization of any disagreement. i wanna understand what you get from soapboxing on the internet and backing it up with exaggerations and lies and blatant ignorance to basic human interaction? i wonder if these people have ever spoken to a person before or had any kind of relationships because this is like robot level ignorance. i wonder why you want this. i wonder why you think these opinions make you better. i wonder if you actually apply these opinions in your real life, do you treat all your relationships with the same clinical level of over explaining and always assuming the absolute worst.

anyways, thats it for now. i have so many thoughts and theyre all running all over each other and i already have a hard time writing a large amount at once so i gotta step back and maybe ill try to collect some thoughts and continue thinking out loud here or maybe anxiety will get the better of me. we'll see.

[muttoncon]

thought i’d throw my hat in ring on opinions on frank’s addiction! i have a fondness for this man so ive been thinking abt this a lot lmao & apologizes if this doesn’t make any sense <3

so what we know from franks locker room crash out is that he was stealing patient medication (both pills and injections (i feel like people forget that one a lot, like that’s how santos caught on was cuz of the fucked up ativan(?) bottle)) because he was treating his withdrawal symptoms from benzodiazepines prescribed to him by his PCP (i think, or just some other doctor) because he fucked up his back helping his parents move. he was never high at work & he didn’t tell anyone because he didn’t want to get in trouble for simply having withdrawals from his own prescribed medication.

i take a lot of his little monologue as a half truth. we’ve seen multiple times that frank tries to control the narrative, he wants to be seen as right (“yeah, i usually am”) and has a hard time being seen as faulty, so i think he’s certainly spinning parts of this yarn to make himself look better (also he’s pleading for his job like… he’s not gonna admit a bunch of shit to his boss).

most of what i take as a half truth is his reason for why he’s stealing meds. frank seems to thrive in high stress environments where he can exert some level of control over the situation (ice baths, marathons, being a dad to 2 kids under 4, his job). however, there’s only so much u can do til everything starts crumbling around you. i think frank hurting his back was this tipping point.

first it starts to show in his home/social life. frank says that robby made fun of him for tweaking his back! i bet his wife also made comments about it when he couldn’t help out around the house as much, straining his relationship with her because she’s having to pick up his slack. he probably lost a bit of his social life if he couldn’t be as physically active anymore. then he gets his pain meds (if i had to guess, he prob got valium), prescribed by a doctor, that helped him regain this aspect of his life!

this turns into him panicking because if he needs these pills to not hurt, then if he gets off them, not only will his social life start to crumble, so will his job. he can’t do his job while he’s in pain, and if he can’t do his job, then everything is fucked. he can’t reconcile with his wife by getting her shit if he doesn’t have the money to pay for it, she’ll leave him, take the kids, and he’ll be broke and alone.

so he until he fixes his life, gets back under control, he needs to keep taking this medication.

i don’t think he was ever “high” at work. at least not in the way that people associate with the verbiage “high.” to add a bit of perspective, i struggled with abusing my pain meds (im much better now!! thank u therapy & marijuana) for a bit after being first prescribed them. i noticed that when i took them, even just a little bit, all the noise and stress of the day didn’t bother me that much. i could continue to do what i wanted (which was be at a very academically competitive high school) without feeling incredibly anxious. it’s not the same sort of high that weed gives u, esp with the low doses i was taking (& what i assume frank would also be doing).

frank may be doing a stupid thing, but he’s not stupid. he knows that he can take enough to not hurt and probably not feel as anxious, while also not dulling down his mind that much. so i think he def used while at work, but not enough to make him lethargic.

i do believe he was trying to wean himself off, but doing that alone is a recipe for disaster. i was able to do it because i had a therapist to help me, broski does not.

now i’m not a medical professional and i don’t have any relatives who are, so i can’t touch on him possibly getting in trouble for admitting to needing help. i think that was also a half truth. he doesn’t want help, once again, because he thinks he’s doing just fine without it.

essentially, i think he’s displacing responsibility in his mind. he can’t admit to having a problem because he doesn’t think he has one. he has control, why can’t robby see that? he was in control even when he was flipping shit at santos, he was in control when he was saving lives during the MCI. it’s not a problem if he thinks he has a handle on it.

[changbinsboobs]

I.n. reading and we finish series boobie

Skz Husband Series: I.N

One of the best ones so far, if not the best🙌🏻

He would be a very loving husband, putting lots of emphasize on romance, quality time together, showing love towards one another and just being happily in love! Thats literally the first card i pulled which jumped out so quick before i even finished my question. This is also the card/energy that sets the tone for the whole reading, like im feeling that presence in all of the following cards afterwards.

He's very very giving and very devoted, in fact sometimes he may even give a bit too much, where his partner may begin taking him for granted so that may be something he should watch out for. When in love and in a committed relationship like marriage, i see him being very focused on the relationship and placing it really really high on his priority list, if not even at the very top. Most of his energy and thought goes towards it, i see him as someone that, when its long term and promising - really doesn't fear "investing" so much into it because in the long run its worth it.

I see him having high emotional understanding, maturity even, idk what exact word for it is but when you understand ur own feelings, can operate them in situations...ugh just in general he's good with feelings thats what im trying to say. He doesn't shy away from them, he feels them, accepts them, can express them - appropriately and knows what they mean for him and for others.

This is a great quality, tho it may result in some frustration if his partner isn't on the same emotional literacy level as him, or isn't that much into touchy feely stuff. I see him sometimes missing that or feeling a bit neglected/unfulfilled/rejected. Tho im not seeing that being a very big issue, just something little that would come up often throughout the marriage, at least initially.

Furthermore i see him being a big team player, and having the mindset of "we together". Idk why (probably cuz i've been rewatching himym for the 87th time) but this energy reminds me a bit of marshal and lily when they started merging into one person😂 i think this is something he would love. Ughhh how to put that energy into word?! He just loves being a part of a team, especially when that team member is the love of his life and he gets to build a family with them and be their partner in crime and their best friend and their advisor and their lover and their teacher and get to be their healer, friend, and much much more. U get what i mean? Also he's very easy to work and partner with, im really getting that strongly. (And immediately im getting the polar opposite of comparisons like changbin, han or chan (lol 3racha) that i think have a very difficult energy to partner with in general...different aspects, in different ways, but regardless even if they try and actually manage to play well for an amount if time, int he long run they fail, whilst I.N is just a natural in teamwork/partnership)

He's passionate, has a high libido, loves having sex, wants lots of it, is easily excitable and is good at it. Or at least like giving pleasure as much as receiving. His goal is cumming - for both. His all for the amazing experience.

Theres also a sense of childlike wonder here i think the relationship/marriage will be all in all very innocent and pure in nature, will flow easily without much turbulations and problems, again pure in intentions, communication, love etc. and i can see them becoming this middle aged and even old couple where both of them are still very young at heart and still love each other very much, despite being 80, u would think they're still in their 20s and just started dating (🥺thats so cute omg😭✨🙌🏻💗)

Now i literally have the death card and heard "till death do us apart" - idk what else to say to that, it speaks for itself. He has (will have) an undying love for his spouse, needless to say he will be loyal and faithful and have their back. He's ready to put in effort to progress the relationship, keep the spark alive after years, keep the love between the two, have a beautiful healthy marriage, keep both of them happy and just be a good husband, father, son and whatever else. Of course that would be most likely reciprocated, i hope so. But since thats the energy im getting from him i assume his partner will be similar.

[that-hippie-user]

~Anon Training: Part 1~

UwU a challenge has been put to me, to turn a humble anon into a devoted follower.

:3 for context to anyone new, hi! i'm a hypnotist for fetishists, in particular the ab/dl community.

^u^ my goal is to become the perfect picture of a sexy hypno goddess who makes followers into thralls, brings buried fetish instincts to the surface, :D and makes folks all over feel safe, welcome, and free to be themselves without shame.

:3 i'm a hedonist at heart, and i simply dont believe we need to hate ourselves for enjoying what we do. wether thats being trans, submissive, sapphic, or even all the lovely mushtushes like myself! X3 cuz why should any of us be ashamed for enjoying a crinkle beneath our pants, right? who cares?

:3 i also unpotty train folks who want it, helping them to lose their ability to hold it through hypnotic conditioning. is that strange? X3 absolutely not! these folks didnt ASK to be potty trained, so why should they be?

aaaaaaand im attempting to make a career out of this! ^u^; but progress is slow going.

:D this lovely anon consented to being my guinea pig, letting me train them into a perfect puppet for YOUR entertainment, to show you how effective my methods are.

:3 so enjoy this multi-part series of hypno scripts, all labeled as "anon training" in the tags for convenience, and lets see what i can manage!

note: i am not aware WHO is messaging me as this anon, and to my knowledge we are not in contact. furthermore this is NOT roleplay, my methods are legitimate. what awaits below is a legitimate hypnosis script. read at your own peril, you may end up trained just like them!

with that, lets begin!

welcome, Anon, to your first session of obedience training. get comfortable. maybe lay in bed or rest in a cozy chair.

:3 your agreement to this challenge is tacit consent to me training you through hypnosis. and rather than make this a one time thing, i intend to give several important lessons that will help instill in you the perfect mindset to be my thrall.

^u^ i could lay out exactly what's going to be done to you, warn what each lesson has to offer so you may prepare yourself.

:3 but A. hypnosis only works on the willing, and only brings out what a subject desires. if i miss the mark and try to instill a fetish that you've no interest in, i can merely call that a loss and move on to the next try.

and B. life is more fun with surprises, and i think you're the type to wanna take this as far as it will go.

;3 after all, you've seen the contents of my blog, you know EXACTLY what i'm about, and you volunteered to be trained as a walking advertisement of my power.

if you're being honest, that means you want to show as much of what my training can offer as possible. if there's a niche i cover, and you can be brainwashed to it, then that only helps broaden the reach of who we're appealing to.

:3 if you indeed become a walking talking puppet full of every fetish i have, that would be a VERY good showing of my abilities.

^u^ and you've made it clear you want to be made into a good subject for your hypno goddess.

UwU well, i will do my best. and we will start from the very beginning.

or rather, continue. :3 as you have already begun to submit to me.

every statement i said, everything i laid out, every time you agreed with me, that was an act of submission.

you know, on some level, what you're getting into. yet you choose to stay.

thats not merely consent, thats obedience.

and furthermore... its gotten your attention, hasnt it?

your focus, trust, and obedience is all we need. they are the tools by which we will break away at the barriers in your mind.

what barriers? the kind that everyday living gives you. the filter. the mask. the set of unspoken rules and traditions that claim to hold society's fabric together.

it is everywhere. telling you how to sit, how to speak, how to behave, but not in the sense of a caring dom.

it is the wall in your mind that holds back your innermost desires and instincts as if they were something shameful.

true bondage is freedom, tying you down and compelling you to submit to your basest urges, all while tenderly gracing you with kisses and praise.

the bondage you are gripper by only ever restrains, weighs down, hurts, and limits you.

my chains are of the air, weightless yet strong, felt in your mind but never holding you back. to submit to me is to liberate yourself.

my chains are freedom. yours must be broken.

as you lay back and read my words, picture these limiting and heavy chains being lifted off of you link by link.

as the chain is lifted up and up and away from your body, feel the weight disappearing. you become lighter, the tension in your body fading slowly but surely as the bindings are undone.

more and more your muscles slack as they sink into the cushions, the weight vanishing more and more. every limb becoming soaked in satisfying relief, like a gymnast resting on the bench with a cool bottle of water in their grip.

light, lighter, yet lighter still. like a balloon that threatens to float away as the string holding it down is weathered away to nothing.

and as your body loses this heavy burdon, so too does your mind. like falling into bed after too much work, the mind is choosing to empty itself. every worthless thought just another cumbersome hindrance to relaxing and recharging.

anything you dont need simply fades away.

tension becomes soft relaxation.

thought becomes emptiness.

restlessness becomes stillness.

the room becomes an unimportant space.

the words you read become your thoughts.

more and more your body refuses to do anything but listen to me.

it is the easiest thing you can do. effortless.

no work. no worries. no fear. no stress.

only comforting words.

and a promise of true freedom

to surrender to me is to seek liberation.

to free your mind from thought.

to free your impulse from shame.

to free your pride from regret.

to free your self love from self hate.

to free yourself from free will.

free will... such a cumbersome thing.

we spend our whole lives developing a sense of self.

learning the world around us, desperately grasping at understanding.

but who could hope to make sense of the chaos alone?

you are not an island unto thyself.

no one is truly alone.

and life is not a tree, with branching problems held together by a root cause.

life is mycelial, a vast fungal network of interconnected things, with no true center or starting point.

you are one of many

and so, wouldnt it make more sense to think in terms of a collective?

to be one of many, guided by core ideas that make life better for the most people.

to free yourself from thought, so that instinct and obedience are all that remain.

already, you are becoming one of my kin.

you feel it on the air, the invisible strands that guide you into my waltz of bliss.

my words dance on rays of light that shine through your eyes and into deeper and deeper folds of your mind.

you open yourself to me, you guide the strands to grasp at every limb and every unneeded mass in your mind.

you bind yourself, i merely provide the string.

string? no, stronger than that.

stronger than steel yet lighter than spiderwebs.

psychic chains, manifesting within you.

born of your desire, your imagination, your will to obey.

my only power is to guide you.

it is YOU who hold the ultimate power of hypnosis.

the power to enter trance.

the power to submit to anothers will.

the power to open your mind to me.

the power to obey.

you gave me control.

you want to obey.

you wanted to be mine from the start.

and you are.

your mind is such a fragile thing.

it can resist a lot, but so can porcelain.

but porcelain easily shatters.

breaking the moment it-

DROP

mind reduced to nothing

gone and gone and gone

lost, oh so hopelessly lost

easily retrieved yet cast so far away

down down down

further further yet further

into the deep deep depths

nothing left to think.

nothing holding you back.

able to listen

able to obey

listen and obey

listen and obey

listen and obey

DROP

you are mine

my will is your desire

your obedience is your bliss

you have surrendered yourself

and the best part?

this is only the beginning.

because hypnosis has no limit.

it is not a lightswitch shutting you down.

it is a dimmer switch, taking you further and further down.

but this dimmer switch has no end.

it can always go further

and further

and further

you never reach the bottom. because there is none.

you can ALWAYS go deeper.

when you've been hypnotized once,

the next time is always easier.

so you become hypnotized,

go as deep as you are able,

you wake up,

you become hypnotized more easily,

and you go even deeper.

and the cycle repeats.

deeper and deeper every time you do.

and this is why the most effective hypnotists are the most diligent.

because by hypnotizing you again,

and again,

and again,

i can take you deeper,

and train you further.

and so every consecutive trance makes you more and more my own.

and so to you, my Anon, and to anyone else who may have joined them, consider this the start of your journey.

your journey to complete submission.

listen and obey

you belong to me

for this special series, you will have your own dedicated triggers.

the first, Anon Sleep, will hypnotize you. induction will still be done with patience and care, but words to help you that much deeper that much faster will be very useful.

the second, Goddess Has Spoken, will turn what was said before it into a command, one you will take as gospel.

the third, Spectral Chains, deepens your feelings of submission. like invisible chains are guiding you, or pulling on you like a leash, compelling you to submit to me.

these three triggers will be the guiding force in your training to become my loyal thrall.

Anon Sleep, submit to my will as the Spectral Chains bind you down beneath me. you will obey my will, you will pursue deeper devotion, your goal is to be my perfectly trained plaything, Goddess has spoken.

i am going to count down from 10 to 0

with each number your willpower will be broken away like a stone into dust

and when i hit 0, you will become my obedient subject.

10 you feel your old self wearing out

9 your resistance broken down piece by piece

8 like a sculpture you are being shaped

7 finely crafted into my service

6 becoming who you were born to be

5 halfway gone, halfway perfected

4 your true self coming to the surface

3 inhibitions dying as devotion grows

2 becoming my disciple of pleasure

1 you want to rid yourself of shame forever

0 YOU ARE MINE

ANON SLEEP

you belong to me, your Goddess has spoken.

the Spectral Chains are now your uniform

you are mine, and you will perfect yourself for me

you are mine. you live to serve me.

and you will attend every lesson in your training to become my perfect thrall

Anon Training is your new education, your schooling in becoming a more perfect you

and you will attend with diligence and dedication, because thats what Goddess wants for you.

i am going to count up now from 0 to 10

it will seem as if you are waking, but you have been forever changed.

you will carry these lessons with you, and you will awaken as a new you.

you will tell me everything about your experience, and you will show me how much you've learned.

and with my help, you will steadily grow into who you are supposed to be.

counting up, so you may awake to your new, fresh self. my more blank canvass, ready to reshape into my perfect thrall, with your next Anon Training lessons.

0 you feel a stirring in your mind

1 you begin to rise, but the parts you broke away are being left behind

2 as you fly further and further from them, you can feel yourself beginning to forget you ever had them

3 more and more your new self feels like who you really are

4 further and further your unneeded pieces fade into the distance

5 you are prepared to live life as my devotee in training

6 your awareness is returning to your body

7 you are stirring, beginning to wake, but with all my lessons in tact

8 you are nearly woken as your new self

9 you are ready to show what a good subject youve been

10 rise and shine my subject

:3 welcome, my child, to the Cult of Stardust.

X3 hehe, just a fun title for my lovely following.

:3 i look forward to hearing from you

[2-dsimp]

I think I just got unlucky then :'00 I did restart the chat and he was being nice, but I will still hold it against him cause how could uuuuuu I trustED YOUUU

bro is gonna be exhausted when I'm gonna sputter about the fact that in some other parallel universe he didn't like me waaaaahhhhh

He's cute, though. Maybe pretty privilege and totally not vulgar touches will get him out this one... maybe.

Is good that u won't leave ur son. Ur son cool.(totally not sending mixed signals) I would love my child as well.

Speaking about that previous argument of "but you didn't like me in this situation", say, would he get annoyed with an insecure s/o? Not the aggressive type, but still, the overbearing one that tends to need to verify they are still liked by the boi? I have the bad habit of doubting others, it's something you learn to let go of, I figure.

-andy tate hater

『Featuring your yandere poltergeist trying and (failing?) at verbally expressing his affections for you』

————;————;————-;————

You were settling down on the bed scrolling idly through your phone. As a sigh escaped your lips from this confusing relationship you’ve found yourself to be in with your ghostly freeloader. He was growing on you despite how pushy and demanding he could be. But you couldn’t help but get the feeling of insecurity whenever he easily comes to take what he wants from you. Before disappearing without a trace (to your knowledge that it, meanwhile he’s just incognito watching you).

So you decided to bite the bullet and confront the poltergeist one night which undoubtedly caught him off guard. Stunning him completely stupid as he blinked in bafflement at what you just asked him.

“No of course I don’t like you. I mean why else would I bother kissing, hugging, groping, cuddling and—

He sneered oozing with sarcasm before he briefly paused after seeing you recede back from his indignant words.

“Ugh let me put this in a different way so your dumbass can understand it”

Xavier huffed scowling at the way you looked even more confused with his brash wording. As he snapped his fingers and levitated you off the floor so you could match him at his eye level from where he was floating,

“Listen I sure as shit can’t fathom why you’re even asking me whether I like you or not to begin with. Cuz I wouldn’t even have bothered haunting you if I didn’t like you to begin with, You dense fuckin idiot!”

[nerves-nebula]

People also just make their atheists mcs so boring, as someone who had gone through a fucked up crisis of faith during my teen years I can say with certainly it was not a purely logical thing but a combination of a bunch of factors and a lot for weird emotions, like my relationship with grief, luck, and what it means to be a "deviant". Like guys just make your atheists just as weird as your religious folk, atheists aren't some magically more knowledgeable and logical beings, I dont believe a good god can exist yet I still rant to god/universe sometimes, I also believe in free will but I also sometimes worry that fate itself is conspiring against me, I belive in living for yourself but I still loosely follow some teachings I grew up with (mostly the ones about remembering those poorer from you exist and that you shouldn't waste food, and that you shouldnt do harmful things unless its strictlynecessaryto protect yourself)

(Then again I think the reason so many atheist mcs are so boring to me is because almost all of them come from a white atheist former Christian perspective, while I grew up shia muslim and identify as agonists rather than strictly atheist, so my maybe I just got bored from seeing the same perspective over and over)

nah i get that cuz like even tho i guess im technically athiest or agnostic too (used to ID as agnostic but now i dont ID as anything cuz i feel like those imply a history with belief that i just Don't Have lol. i think for a long time it was just "how tf would i know" and that was that) and athiest characters can be so bizarre to me cuz like. i was raised catholic but i literally didnt ever believe in it cuz it didn't make sense to me. but i thought of it as like, a cool cultural thing i guess?? and I didn't really realize people were serious until i was like 11 lmao. and even then i grew outta that smarmy athiest shit when i was like 14 fasdfdsfasdf

but a lotta athiest characters used to believe and then stopped at some point and its like.. is that why they can't be normal about it? do they have any spirituality or wonder or are they full time committed to The Bit? idk. its weird.

i mean part of the reason im trying to world build so much for hanheppi people is that i just don't grok religion. reading from the perspectives of other religious people kind of broadened my horizons but i just dont really get it and idk how to have my questions answered without it sounding like im taking the piss or smth lol. so im just doing more research but like. REALLY slowly.

really slowly because i keep getting caught up in world building things that i do understand better, like hierarchy and city planning and the gender system :p

im supposed to be doing my final on Hanheppi faith and I straight up still do not really get religion. BTW if you're reading this and are religious, or weren't and converted, or you used to be, can u let me know what the fuck is up I am DYING to understand cuz I have, like, a genuine appreciation for the spiritual. I fuck with an adoration of nature and the world around you and big overwhelming emotions, i just can't connect that shit to religion.

honestly there's almost TOO many books about it. It's hard for me to figure out which of these millions of religious books to read because there are so many, with insane biases and history im not aware of, and i have no idea which ones will give me the insight I'll need to Really Lock In.

I understand a lot of surface level ideas about being religious but when people describe it to me what I don't really get is how all of that then transfers into you going "and so that's why i've converted to Buddhism" or something. like what makes it all funnel into the choice of one specific religion rather than another.

ok sorry this ask got away from me. point is: yeagh

[firemenenthusiast]

UGH FAWKK tumblr did it again omgg, I swearrr they have it out for us cuz this literally ONLY happens with you 😭. Tbf I use the browser version and is probably worse than the mobile lowkey and why its so wonky sometimes, and I absolutely REFUSEE to do tumblr on my laptop it's probably the supreme way but I just can't do it I can't STANDD how it looks in there. BUT ANYWAYSSS, you're soooo welcomee and thank you! 💗💗💗 Seriously this means sooo much to me 🥹🥹 like omg, especially since you were the main one got me onto tumblr. I've always known about it obvi but I was mostly a surface level lurker for years (not counting the couple of accounts that I created over the years, used for like 5 minutes, and then abandoned lol), I think it was just something about tumblr intimated me maybe it was the ui or something idk 🤷🏾‍♀️. But you were literally the first person that I had EVER actually sent a request or anything to and made me give tumblr a chance. And I'm glad I did otherwise I wouldn't have been in such a small but kind and tightnit community with such amazing people, and even other fandoms big or small ☺️<333. Ive always wanted to participate and interact with other fans of shows/movies/etc but was always too scared and shy to do it. I do feel bad though cuz Archie and his characters have been put in the backburner in my brain for my newest obsession: DEGRASSIII so I haven't checked in on you guys in a good while 😓 (side note: I'm currently watching the og degrassi first but I've been trying to buy the degrassi next gen dvds cuz I LOVEEE collecting physical media and lemme tell you IM LEGIT FIGHTING FOR MY LIFEEE MAN. I either can't find any, their on some sketchy website, sold out, terrible conditions, missing disks, going 300+ for the full collection, or some other bullshit. And when I FINALLY found a few decent box sets for a slightly expensive but decent price EBAY WOULDN'T LET ME FUCKING BUY THEMM LIKE I CAN NEVER CATCH A DAMN BREAK)

You can just call me jj btw!!! Sorry for the rambling, VERY bad habit lol, but yeah ily sooo much pookie and I'll always keep supporting you and everyone!! You da bestMWAHHH

HEY JJ !!! AH IVE MISSED YOUUUU im so glad you actually came back and talk to me again. and oh im using the mobile for talks and updates and notifs get lost A LOT. i always miss when you guys say anything as if its not enough that i always miss when you guys are active 😀💔. i totally get you about the intimidating ui cuz thats what i feel about the desktop version. especially those blogs that are sooo pretty and decorated like ACTUAL blogs i feel like they could tell i know how to do NONE of that 😭.

you could always participate girly !! and talk to others on here i can say theyre all so chill and if anyone is mean to you im gonna act the big sister cuz why would they be ?? this fandom is small enough without anyone bullying others off of it. and i love how our community is so small and so close and it feels like a friend group. if it makes you feel better this is my first actual writing blog too !! i wasn’t always a writer but you guys are so supportive that i actually want to publish my writing.

when u said im the first person you’ve ever sent anything ever on here i legit went like ☹️☹️ cuz LITTLE OL�� ME ??? i just want everyone to feel warm and welcomed to talk to me. i WANT you to talk to me. tumblrs honestly an amazing place cuz everyones so nice and supportive ❤️❤️ you dont have to be shy at all. there’s this one time months ago when archie wouldn’t post ANYTHING and without new materials it was hard for me to get inspired for anything so i totally get why archie’s been on the back burner for you. good news is lurkers coming so !!

so excited for your current obsession though tbh ive never heard of it hehe. but !! here’s a little some some from me :)

[flightfoot]

Ur a pretty fair voice in my opinion when it comes to the whole mess in miraculous. Would you mind telling me what your favorite things are about Marinettes appreciation of Chat Noir in Canon? Not fanon, CANON.

I'm still grieving LadyNoir and recently I'm feelin very down in life in general and now I don't have my comfort show and ship anymore the way I used to love them for.

The way Marinette treats Chat Noir in and outta her transformation never stops hurting my poor broken LadyNoir heart n as much as I wished I could love the potential of her love for him as I once did, it just feels so paper thin and shallow to me now after everythin this show did.

The show is clearly trying to have her feelings for him be smth now, but for me it never seems to go beyond her infamous vague heart eyes the show likes to hav her throw around for damage control & surface level appreciation of his presence when she has to. But if you'd tell me that she still has no real feelings for him, I would believe u, cause he as a person doesn't truly matter at any given moment her words have to MEAN something more than a vague "<3" she's never asked to back up with anything worthwhile (srry, I know you've heard that complaint a million times before. It's at least comforting to know that others feel the same)

Wasn even her taking any interest in Chat for his person in the first quarter of season 5 only caused by Marinette wantin to proof Alya wrong and that her love for him instead of Adrien is real and valid? That's so disheartening...

Going through the tags isnt helping either, cuz most i find it is either much more fanon than Canon, or it's in line with Chat prrty much being her servant now instead of her finally giving care back

Idk, I hope I'm not bein too much of a downer. So imma get back to my question now. Maybe u can help me see Canon in better light again.

Could you tell me what you like most bout Marinettes and Ladybug's connection with Chat Noir? Things she does for him, what she values in him and so on and so forth?

I like the times we see her getting upset when Chat's hurt, or when she comforts him when he's clearly not feeling good. I adored how angry and upset she got in Timebreaker when Chat was "killed" in front of her for the first time, how she suddenly became more vicious. She doesn't want to lose him.

Or like, for times when she's comforted Chat, I adore how calmly and patiently she spoke to Chat in Reverser, after his courage was taken away, how she gently coaxed him where he needed to go. I took great solace in that, the first time I rewatched that episode, since I'd been exposed to a lot of Saltinette at the time, and I needed the reminder that Marinette does, in fact, care about people, even when it's inconvenient.

While I wish that Marinette had really thought through Chat's potential reaction to someone new showing up with her Miraculous without warning, I DID love that Marinette had this long list of protips. I especially liked this one:

Marinette: (v.o) Protip 33: When Cat Noir tells a joke, try to laugh at it even if it isn't funny. It makes him happy.

Even in episodes where I have a problem with the way Marinette conceives of Chat Noir, I generally still like elements of it. Like even in Ephemeral, while I think it was very, very wrong for her to try to trick Chat the way she did, she WAS doing it because she didn't want to risk Su-Han taking Chat's Miraculous from him. Or in Kuro Neko, when she didn't want to give the miraculous back to Plagg to give to Chat Noir, because she was afraid they'd end up back in this same situation, and she didn't want to keep hurting him.

At her core, Marinette cares about Chat's feelings and wants him to feel good, to be happy. The issue comes from her not seeing things from his perspective, from being terrible at reading him. Marinette has a lot of compassion towards Chat Noir, she just doesn't understand him.

[teaveetamer]

It really sucks that you're getting harassed, but u should look back at the harassment you never really stopped to support and the harassment you avoid talking about too. Everyone sucks here, you're incapable of decrying the harassment coming from your "side" because you care more about blorbo discourse... Do you actually stand up against harassment if you don't say anything when it's from your "side" or at least people who enjoy your blorbo? If you only do so when coming from fans of the character you don't like?

I sincerely hope the harassment you receive stop, to be clear you absolutely do not deserve the shit you're dealing with, nobody does. But I hope you'll genuine look at yourself and the people surrounding you too.

Anon, I'm going to take this in the best possible faith, but holy shit this is so fucking terminally online. Like, you are aware that I'm an adult? I'm slaving away at an unpaid internship, I'm in graduate school, and I've got 20k words worth of academic papers to write and exams to study for. I'm spending time with my dying grandpa and I'm finding new and inventive ways to give a semi-feral cat heart medicine without getting my thumb bitten off. I'm not "intentionally ignoring" things going on, I'm just not an omniscent god who can keep track of 472 million Tumblr users at every given moment of the day and also have a job and a life. So if you've got beef and you think I'm not properly calling someone out then I'm going to need you to send me a link. I get maybe and hour of Tumblr time a day, and I don't actually follow 3H discourse because, shocker, I don't actually find getting into the exact same tired fights we were getting into 5 years ago all that fun or enjoyable. Isn't it wild though? It's been half a decade since 3H launch and I've spent like half of that with people stalking me and sending me death threats for no fucking reason!

Anyway, I could not give two tenths of a fuck whether or not you like my blorbo. I'm primarily concerned by the people sending death threats, actively defending genocidal rhetoric, stalking people, making false pedophilia accusations, et-fucking-cetera. I've done literally everything in my power to try and come to an understanding with the people inflicting the harassment and they're stiiiiiiill just doing it, years later, cuz I guess they don't have anything better to do. The only remotely comparable thing I've witnessed from "my side" in recent days, which frankly doesn't even come close to the level of vitriol and harassment of death threats, was that one of my mutuals called the genocidal freak (who intentionally tried to trigger me in the past) a mean name. And I only found out about that because a friend of mine saw it and talked to me about it. And wow look at that, if you actually go to the post you can literally see me telling that mutual to knock it off! And I spoke to them privately about it too! Which is something, frankly, I think I had every reason to not do given the way that person being insulted has treated me (And the lack of apology I've received from them for that). So like, not sure which kidney you want me to sacrifice to prove that I'm not actually cool with people stalking others and sending death threats.

[driedupeyeballs]

OH MY GOD???? I already love them sm

I literally edited a new profile for them for this cuz the old one was outdated BUT YEAH IDK IF THIS WAS AN INVITE TO INFODUMP ABT MY JAMIAZU FANKID BUT IM USING IT AS ONE

Btw I can only wish to achieve your level of snake knowledge I thought my reptile hyperfixation went deep but yours is deeper I wanna know your ways

But that isn’t relavent YEAH HERES MY JAMIAZU FANKID HI TUMBLR *lets them out like you would a spider under a cup*

So I have a shit ton of Twst fankids btw! They kinda swim around in my brain but only a few ppl I know have gotten the info dumps lmao

Skye was the first one I made I think (actually it might’ve been Rico (florid) but eh oh well who’s counting)

But yes this is Skye Ashengrotto!

They’re my older Jamiazu kid, I do have two. The younger one is my octo boy Akram :) he’s funny I wanna pinch his cheeks but he’s not the point here

So Skye! It feels weird publically infodumping abt my OCs like wtf am I even supposed to put here

They’re a half mer, which do work a lil different than normal mers in my lore. Half mers can transform without a potion but it’s still a long and generally painful process, esp going from mer to human. I kind of switch between calling them a snake mer and a naga but there’s lore there- Nagas exist in my lore outside of sea snake mers, there are also fully terrestrial Nagas. So the terrestrial nagas wouldn’t be considered snake mers but the sea snake nagas would be a type of mer while also still being a naga ITS CONFUSING DONT ASK (actually do. Ask everything so I can roll more of my fankids out like marbles)

Skye was created by a spell, I haven’t quite worked the details out 😔 but Jamil is part gorgon in my lore which is why they have the hair snakes which isn’t a typical naga trait. And to elaborate on the hair snakes: they are alive, the one w the bigger stripes is Flora and the smaller stripes is Jett. Skye can communicate w them telepathically and their eyes glow which is kinda neat. They’re kind of Skye’s version of floatsam and jetsam (unless u count Rico (florid) and Lilac (treyjade) which is like their ver of the twins- IDK ITS COMPLICATED)

idk what else to put here so LETS THROW SOME FHARACTER DYNAMICS YEAH and also mentioning some of my other fankids! They all have profiles (except my Malleus kid I’m sorry Aihan I can’t think of a design for you) but I’m probably gonna save those for another post-

So jamiazu in my lore live in the Shaftlands in a beachfront place and also live pretty close to Treyjade, however Florid live in the Queendom. The octatrio and their spouses is a close group so they’re essentially a big family. My treyjade kids are Maren (older) and Lilac, then my Florid kids are Rico (older) and the twins Mary and Eliza.

Skye saw Lilac more as a kid cuz they lived so close together but also saw Rico a lot when flrd would visit or they’d go to visit them. Rico is an agent of chaos and Lilac is Skye’s 2nd in command so their dynamic on a surface level is pretty similar to the octatrio, but there’s still a lot of differences once u get into the meat of it. Tho Lilac and Rico are Skye’s best friends and basically like siblings to them.

Outside of jamiazu Skye is particularly close with Jade, they share a love of tea :) he’s their cool but also slightly unsettling uncle

THEN THERES SHENZI- Shenzi is my younger kaliruggie kid and I am not gonna get into her here bcuz she rlly needs her own post w all her trauma but good lord these two do not like each other. Shenzi’s really nice but she’s not quite as nice as Kalim so after about 5 months of trying and failing to befriend Skye in their freshman year she just gave up and now their relationship is nothing but hostile (which was not helped when Shenzi and lilac started dating)

Speaking of that tho- so my idikei kids :) Ember (named after the pokemon attack) is the older one and he’s basically that “Jock idia can’t hurt you he’s not real Jock idia:” thing as a person he has the Fire hair n shit but he plays basketball and is heavily extroverted but no one gives a shit abt Ember this is NOT ABT HIM this is abt his sister! Her name is Zelda because you know Idia would name his daughter Zelda- she got all of Idia’s social anxiety lmao. She’s extremely shy and there’s a total of like 4 people in the school she can actually talk to without melting into a small stain on the floor. She’s an Skye are both in board games club and sometime in early freshman year she falls on her ass and knocks over a bunch of stuff which Skye happens to witness and cue the most awkward interaction known to man bcuz Skye can’t talk to pretty girls and Zelda can’t talk to ANYONE but they end up walking to the mirror hall together afterwards which becomes a routine. Except they’re both awkward as fuck take like almost two fucking years to get together bcuz neither of them are gonna do anything abt it BUT THEYRE VERY CUTE!! I love them

Also my ashengrotto siblings are very wholesome I need to write some stuff w them- Akram is a little shit and he loves pissing Skye off but at the end of the day he admires them and Skye loves their brother a lot :)

Anyway good lord I’ve yapped too much okay OH YEAH Skye has a Russian blue cat named Mariana who they just fucking found on the side of the road and thought it was a mouse so for like 2 years Azul thought Skye was gonna eat the cat

OK HERES RHE ACTUAL PROFILE these aren’t as chaotic as the other ones all the other ones are more meme than profile ALSO RHEIR UNIQUE MAGIC DOESNR HAVE A NAME AT THE MOMENT IF ANHONE HAS AN IDEA FOR ONE PLS SHARE I HABE NO THOUGHTS

(If you recognize my art style from instagram no you don’t also THEY DO HABE EYES I JUST DONT DRAW THEM CUZ MY STYLES WEIRD)

But yeah I love them I hope they explode (affectionate)

[phightinghottakes]

I see a lot of people saying that phighting story is bad bc the devs keep adding new stuff instead of expanding the pre existing lore, and while I do agree that having not a lot of lore available can be frustrating, u guys need to understand that phighting is in ALPHA. A lot of the world-building/characters are gonna be underdone at the moment because of this. The current plan from what I’ve read is to finish making 26 phighters before starting on story mode, which should reveal most if not all the lore. On top of this, soda is writing a comic to reveal a lot of other lore related things that won’t be relevant in game. Another thing is that last I checked (correct me if im wrong), phighting currently only has 3 DEVS working on the ENTIRE GAME. I think that’s crazy!!!!!!! the dedication to make a whole ass game with 3 people of this quality without getting paid just for funsies is insane!!!!!!

It’s ok to point out the worldbuilding flaws but I think it’s kinda annoying to point them out when a lot of the worldbuilding isn’t actually there. That’s like critiquing a half baked pie. It’s not finished yet!!!! And, personally I think it’s really cool and actually a good thing that they’re prioritizing the actual game instead of the lore. They’re adding new characters to make the game better, and the lore for all of them will be expanded eventually. Also also, if they were to finalize the lore now, they wouldn’t be able to add new stuff at all!!! Adding new characters is kinda the best thing they can do until they start on story mode. I think it makes perfect sense esp from a game developing stand point. Rushing them or telling them to work on lore is just kinda redundant and unhelpful. They’ll get to it eventually and I’d rather have a good game than sooner lore reveals. I think it speaks to the integrity of the devs (game development wise, ik soda defended a groomer 💀) for them to continuously put the quality of the game over the lore for it. Not saying you can’t have both but again, if they started finalizing and honing in on lore rn they wouldn’t be able to add new stuff later. also like,,,not trying to say u can’t criticize the game but at the end of the day this is their project, they can take their time with it and write the story however they want, and some of y’all need to sit the phuck down cuz I’m tired of seeing lectures attacking the devs for honestly good design choices. At the end of the day phighting is currently a pvp game, not a story game, so the lore shouldn’t be their first priority at all anyways?? And really, I hate when ppl say that bc I think we all know how much the writing can make or break a game and how important it is, but u guys are being way too serious about this, esp since the devs already plan on adding more lore. This level of criticism is srsly unjustified imo. Even if they gave up development all together (it is a passion project afterall), I still think they would’ve made a great game and it definitely wouldn’t have fallen into the issue of adding too many new features without expanding upon the main stuff. Everything added so far seems to just be improvements. This even applies to choices outside of the lore. ok this rant was long lol oops ily take care

Hate to break it to you but they canned story mode sorry

Now we have to get all the lore from my least favorite character (Broker)

[shoezuki]

a;lsmca;lsmcasm;lc

TBH I love the divinity more than the doctor fic, like doctors is amazing and well written but Divinity scratches that itch I feel when thinking about the horror of the aeons and how you write the prose to describe something inhuman and indescribable just makes me want to eat and claw at my walls

The idea of something completely inhumman choosing to be human and facing and feeling yet will never quite be there.

Also ur aeon descriptions are insane, please understand that if I had more time I would simply keymash about how you write aeons

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA thankyouuuuuu sm fr ur comments fucking GEt to me so hard like i reread em constantly and giggle like a schoolgirl and twirl my hair and pass out like. esp when u take bits of my writing n post em in comments because i have so many bits i Obsess over after havin written em and u always pick up out and its like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone else gets it

and ngl i enjoy writin this one more cuz i can be more. fucked up w it lshflhstg. its loser and nonchronological and i can be all over the place without having a concrete overarching idea. like i have some fics i wanna write in it that take place before the last one and some that idk if theyd even fit together but it dont matter. and i Really fucking love otherworldly shit like its challenging but so so so fun to try and describe something inhuman and incomprehensible. like in divinity au i can pull at all the senses and write out things that dont make sense and eaough. the incomprehensibility of the aeons fucks me up so severely

and fucking. aha sampo. like i said forever ago i dont think that hoyo would make it canon in any way and tbh i think if they did they would blow it. like i dig into the idea of a huge colossal being with indescribable power n how it could not possibly view time or space or anything in the way a mortal being does. like the idea of aha, who once saw living creatures as nothing but just microscopic pieces of reality, to suddenly be at their level? from toying with ants and flushing them away without thought to being an ant himself? that fucks

[micharedmc]

Gonna freak this goddamn app really crashed while I’m trying yap in ur inbox like is it a sign to just message cause MAN.. I had a good thing rolling

ANYWAYS OOH OMG DBD!! Ugh I just deleted it cause I picked getting pirate over paying my ps+ 😭 and a few nights ago I removed it cause I didn’t know I needed the damn subscription to use my bloodpoints to level my damn geekass Kennedy or the trickster like <\3 I hope the links can do some justice if you ever get curious enough to wanna get yakuza online!! The lengths we gotta go to get some crumbs is crazy around here

AND I KNOW SHE THE PRETTIEST TOY COLLECTOR!! Gets the cutest collars for u and leashes (she’s def broken a few from wear and tear due to how much she loves getting a good grip on those things) AND THAT IS SO REAL UGH love cats but I just.. don’t think I come across as one <\3 I fear I come across more puppy coded but only a kitty whenever I sense my excitement or whatever isn’t meant then I tone down <\3 just can’t be nonchalant I want be free

AND I LOVE SEEING U STICK UP AND STAND UP FOR UR FRIENDS UR A REAL ONE!! I think that German shepherd pup fits u perfectly cause they are so sweet to those they care about and def do not play around when it comes to protecting

I know mommy Goromi teases about humping her leg AS IF SHE WOULDNT ATTEMPT THE SAME THING

She’s too big to do it but we all know she’d bend you over and just rut against you ur honor

I AGREE ITS CRAZY!! Its so much easier to vibe with ppl online than irl

I’m an expert at knowing the feeling of not vibing with people foe weal but AWHHH 🤧 I’ll kick my feet that is so nice omfg I would love to be one of the cool people!! You guys are so welcoming!!

AND UGH WHEN MAJIMA WAS SO RESPECTFUL OF THE WOMAN SAVING HERSELF? Oh I about shoved my tv in my ass I needed him BAD oh my god a man who is respectful of someone’s wishes? does he want a kid? I’ll happily give him as many as he wants I’m breedable

AND OMG LITERALLY ME TOO I sort of have the hang of bot making? Only on c.ai and like spicy since I’ve made a few bots for a old friend cause I love trying to go all out and feed the delusions cause uh WHY NOT

If I ever make a Goromi bot I 100% and sending the link 2 u cause uh #1 Goromi crumb survivor as well

The app always crashes on my phone so I use my laptop mostly! Feel free to message if you want! But if you still feel too nervous, I love yapping here too! I'm currently playing Leon but I recently got Chris so me and my bf weren't playing the same character all the time. I'm gonna check the links out later when not on with my bf or on here! Again, thank you! OMG YES! She won't even go broke if she keeps having to buy collars and leashes from the wear and tear, that kink shop owner gonna be like "Damn, another one?" if she walks back in for the 100th time LMAO keepin the place in business, miss ma'am Oh and it's not even just friends I stick up for! Like Idk pupwashing very well but when they were being harassed, I made a whole post on it a while back and even changed my intro on my pinned because I was like 'fuck nah, I ain't letting that shit slide'. And yeah! A lot of us on here, like a little moot circle, are really kind and welcoming because we're all horny freaks and wanna protect everyone because there's a lot of people who clutch their pearls at anything more than vanilla and attack or make death threats which suck. WHAT IF GOROMI JUST GETS FRUSTRATED CUZ SHE'S TOO BIG TO PROPERLY HUMP YOUR LEG AFTER TEASING YOU ABOUT IT AAAA SHE BENDS YOU OVER AND RUTS AGAINST YOU IF YOU TEASE HER ABOUT IT LMAO I THINK HE DOES WANT A KID! He was married once to Mirei Park (she's in Yakuza 5) I will say, points down for him from this lore: https://yakuza.fandom.com/wiki/Mirei_Park#:~:text=During%20the%20short%20year%20that,by%20his%20wife%2C%20hit%20her. because she got an abortion without telling him because she believed it necessary for her career and he felt betrayed and hit her (BOOO MAJIMA, NOT ACCEPTABLE) And they split cuz he thought it'd be better for her if they weren't together.

DEF WANTS A KID THO! Could breed us anytime, PRAY. OOOO I'D LOVE IF YOU SENT ME THE LINK TO A GOROMI BOT IF YOU MADE ONE OMFG.

[reminiscentreader]

Love your fics!😩 Can u write one where there is an event the Hawthornes+Avery have to attend but they haven’t left the house cuz Grayson is late and everyone is confused, and then one of his brothers come to check on him in his room only to find out he’s asleep cuz he’s feeling sick, and then that brother stays with him??😭

Thank you for being so patient! I’ve been wanting to write this for a while but I’ve been really busy 😭

Anyways hope you enjoy xx

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Jameson

The annual Hawthorne gala, Hundreds of important rich people from al over the world coming to see the Hawthorne heiress, my Hawthorne heiress. I watch as Avery slips on her deep green dress, it fits her perfectly, she is perfect, “Jamie,” I sit up a little straighter, “zip me up will you?” I make my way off our bed and towards her “of course heiress.��� After I zip up her dress I rest my hands on her shoulders and tuck my head into the crook of her head, “you look so beautiful tonight heiress” I reach my hand out to stroke down her braid, “I love you” Avery leans down and presses a soft kiss to the top of my head, “I love you too.”

Grayson

I feel awful. I don’t ever get sick but right now I feel like curling into a ball and dying, I can barely stand up or see and there are tears streaming my face. I hate how vulnerable I’ve made myself, I’m ment to be attending the annual gala for goodness sake, so if I don’t sort myself out in the next five minutes, I’m fucked. I desperately try to make my way to the bathroom but I’m hopelessy stumbling around, tears blurring my vision. What would the old man say if he saw me now? Your letting yourself get sick Grayson? Hawthornes don’t get sick. They are fighters. We don’t let anything get in the way. Kill yourself tobias, is what I would’ve probably thought if he wasn’t already dead.

I don’t know how long I’ve had my head stuck in this toilet for, violently vomiting to the point of passing out, I suddenly feel light headed, maybe I should get some sleep, maybe I should take a break from work? No. Weak.

weak.

weak.

weak.

weak.

weak….

Nash

I clap my hands to get everyone’s attention, “Right ya’ll, everyone here ready to go?” 7 heads nod back at me, “alright let’s head to the car room.” About five minutes into walking Avery exclaims, “Grayson, Have you got the papers we need?” Nobody responds. “G-Grayson?” Everyone starts to look around murmuring, “Now where the hell ‘as Gray gone.” I say looking for him in the crowd of people following me, “Jesus Christ, did anyone see him come out?” Again in response I get a couple of murmurs, “Nobody?” They all shake there heads, “Guess I’ll go find him then.”

After walking all the way back to the house, I was starting to wonder if Grayson wasn’t even in the state, maybe he went to go visit his sister or something, nah, I know gray wouldn’t miss this if he was half dying. I’d stopped to ask one of the maids if they’d seen him, “M-mister Hawthorne hasn’t been out of his wing all day.” I quickly thanked her with the tip of my hat and headed towards graysons wing.

so here I am, stood outside graysons wing I’ve already knocked five times, five times with no response, “GRAYSON DAVENPORT HAWTHORNE I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU DONT OPEN THIS DOOR IN 5 SECONDS IM KNOCKING IT DOWN.” No response. 5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1.., still nothing, I know how much grayson hates privacy invaders, but it’s for his own safety, he could be dead in there for fucks sake. So Nash kicked down the door.

Grayson

the first thing I heard when I woke up was the bang of what I assumed to be someone kicking down my door, I tried to pull myself up, to see who it was, but I couldn’t move, couldn’t do anything without it hurting, the next thing I saw was Nash standing at the bathroom door, “oh gray” Nash knealed down to my level and pushed a bit of hair that had fell into my eyes away, “what’s up?” I only grunted in response, I didn’t trust myself, “ok gray let’s get you into bed.” He helped me up, I was shaking so badly, I was tired, so so so tired. I fell asleep almost immediately, I heard Nash pull up a chair next to my bed and say something like, “Get some rest gray, please.” He helped me into my bed and the minute my head hit the pillow I fell fast asleep.

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Nash stayed with Grayson that night, and when his brothers arrived home, he did not tell them what had happened, he simply let them guess, when Grayson woke up, he did take a break from work. The night Grayson Hawthorne missed the annual Hawthorne gala, would become a secret between the two oldest Hawthornes, that the others would never found out about.

<><><><><><><><><><><><><><> I am so so so sorry for how long this took 😭 I really hope you enjoyed it ❤️❤️

[vacantgodling]

for anyone in TCOL: 10, 27, 51, 69

thank u for the ask! i think i'll jump around on this one to a couple of characters and i'll just link their profiles (since i can do that now) to give a reference point for who the hell i'm talking about lmaoo

10. Have any of their friendships/friend groups imploded in a particularly dramatic way? What happened?

technically speaking i think the only relationship blowout i can talk about without tetering into spoiler territory would be jace and raaga. i did kind of answer what happened in this ask here, but tl;dr jace and raaga have been besties since childhood, but that friendship turned into one sided resentment on raaga's end. it's hard to explain but the show onmyoji does the concept really well (if you're looking for a short show on netflix to watch the mcs are very gay and the plot has surprisingly a lot of twists i wasn't quite expecting for the kind of straightforward narrative it presents itself as). sometimes someone is just. too good at what they do. they're strong, kind, caring, humble--and a host of other positive adjectives. there's no real reason to hate them for being a good person. but sometimes, being around that type of person can activate those deep rooted feelings of insecurity and jealousy and sometimes it can rear its ugly head and cause you to lash out at that person or, in this case with raaga and jace, something they kinda care about to get even or to exact comeuppance.

jace wasn't as upset that raaga slept with miki and had a child, so much that he was upset that he broke the bond of trust between the two of them. i mean, this was a guy that jace called his brother and whom he'd fought and protected for years and who he trusted to have his back in any situation. the betrayal of that is really fucked. and even worse that he almost killed raaga when he found out if it wasn't for miki holding him back. all of this culminated to jace leaving kiskkaddon entirely to try for guilds because he knows right now he doesn't have it in his heart to forgive either miki or raaga for what happened--and he's always prided himself on being the son that his father raised to a T. so being unable to forgive kinda fucks him up on some level as well.

its a whole mess basically. and like. their entire side plot in the mess of the main plot lol.

27. Congrats, your OC won a cruise vacation! But they can only bring one friend. Who do they pick?

the worst person to ask this question to would be karenza; specifically because unlike her close friend group, she isn't "coupled up" (eryn/kiba or moira/jagoda). it wouldn't make her upset that any of them would choose each other to go on a cruise (if they existed in this world but let's say they do for the sake of the question) because it'd probably be like a romantic get away affair or something and she's okay with sitting it out. but if she had to pick someone to go with... it'd be really hard for her to pick one person cuz she'd feel bad about not choosing the rest.

in the end it would probably be either moira or kiba, depending on who was busy. the two of them are extroverted personalities like she is, and she definitely feels closest to moira generally speaking, but she does love kiba's company to death. it's harder to make her pick more specifically than that lol.

51. Do they have fights with their friends often? Over what?

charissa has fights with her friends (altair mainly, lbr) often. just because she's kind of argumentative and she's stubborn asf so even times when he says something and is correct she just disagrees on principle. to most, they'd get annoyed with that but altair likes arguing so they just argue amonst themselves to the exasperation of everyone else lmao.

i'd also add dion and san to this boat because kind of same hat, but they don't really refer to the people who they're technically friends with as their friends for a long while, because they gotta wait for character development lol.

69. What do they value most in a friend?

what cameron values most is honesty and loyalty. she's ride or die for her friends and the people she cares about so she just wants the same in return.