#deep post

[ghostlyviolet]

I hated him when I realized I loved him

[goldenpoet1]

It's life that's words to hide behind. Or things happen, it's okay, it's fine or it is what it is. We know that it's not. It's okay to say that I'm not okay. The problem is we don't open up and say IM NOT OKAY . Yes, it's a risky thing, but life's a risk, birth, raising children, dreams, goals, working, going outside, and even love is RISKY. We hide, throwing the only part of us that can one day save our lives or even make us laugh and smile when it's hard to. Our happiness is the half that lets us believe that living is worth living. storm comes whipping every ounce of hope you had left to move forward, tragedy strikes like lighting, leaving you paralyzed and afraid. Unable to move with scares that seem unable to heal. Resiliency isn't easy, but the first step is acknowledgment of one self.

[to-be-frank-i-dont-care]

I went on the “Am I Ugly?” subreddit earlier today and honestly? I was stunned at the people posting pictures on there! They would say they had been called ugly before, or list insecurities about their nose/mouth/etc, but every single one of those people was either drop dead gorgeous or super cute! There was no other option, I was honestly baffled they were even asking about that.

As a person who constantly worries about my own looks and whether or not I’m perceived as ugly, it kinda hit hard to look at all of these other people and realize that, although they might not be conventionally attractive, they’re not ugly. It made me realize that no human is ugly. Just because society doesn’t accept your looks as “attractive” does not mean you are ugly, it just means that modern culture doesn’t find your particular look appealing. Which is wrong, because why should society set the standard for how attractive somebody is? Just because they have a big nose, or body, or small eyes, or large ears, doesn’t make them ugly. Everyone has something beautiful about them! Yes, everyone! Even the “unattractive” features aren’t bad. They’re just not conventional, like society wants them to be, so people who have them are labeled as ugly.

But really, nobody is ugly. There is truly no one you can look at without finding at least one good thing about them. And you try hard enough, you’ll realize it’s not difficult to find many good physical qualities in people. Because we’re all people, we are all the same, and no one should ever be called ugly.

[sheviolentlyher]

ew tried to write about him and nothing. nothing came up. nothing came out. expect this.

“No, fuck that”

i am the main character anyways, at least NOW i am. What an Oscar winning supporting actress I’ve been— my career is not over— just finally got the lead role -

— i have life by the fucking horns right now, forgetting i can whip the bull when it doesn’t go my way— life represents its uncontrolled reactions—

it’s about me now, an introverted leader— what MORE could you ask for? that’s like a personal life coach quality type shit. Interpersonal and extremely intimate. im convinced most people cannot bear to be idle—- they are so used to working for the system that when it’s gone — so are they. They have no idea how to start getting acquainted with themselves, they apply old desires to new lust- which will bring them disappointment and existential dread—- so they work something small for the rest of their lives until all the money they had made goes to doctors and hospitals and — a gravestone.

So, no, no more fucking brain space wasted to an absolute vibe killing performance. 🎭

IF HE DOESNT WANT TO BE SAVED—- DO NOT SAVE HIM.

IF HE DOESNT WANT TO BE KEPT—- DO NOT KEEP HIM.

IF HE DOESNT WANT TO BE LOVED—- LOVE HIM FROM AFAR.

-get the fuck up off the floor, —- my mind tells me—— im like a matriarch queen who has locked herself in a tower to detox her mind body and soul of the fucking absolute garbage, pain, misery, shame of life. The crushing mental load that pushes your mind all the way down to your stomach and you lose all ability to regulate emotion. Complete isolation.

praise the devil in times of a spinning moral compass, you please the devil, while you’re here, on this fucking planet he reigns —-and be rewarded with heaven— then follow gods rules.

-x

[yourpostisonpinterest]

@infinityonhighvevo

i found your post on pinterest!

[your-heart-is-a-treasure]

[foxyfrennetic]

internet is actually brain deep fryer

[itsxbrookexloops]

Nothing hurts more than when you find someone that lights your soul on fire, brings out your inner sex goddess, and makes you feel like a goddess, but they don’t feel the same way towards you. They’re not crazy over you the way you are for them.

I thought you were as crazy over me as I was over you. Instead of showing it/talking about it you ran away into the arms of someone else. Left me hanging. No trying new options in our partnership, or what I could do differently that would please you better. Just straight fleeing from something that could’ve been a heavenly relationship. I’m sorry you felt you couldn’t talk to me about it. That you couldn’t express your feelings to me.

Maybe you were as crazy over me, but weren’t ready for that type of committed relationship yet. So instead of confronting that fear, you ran.

I miss you, but I’m glad it ended after just a couple months instead of a year or whatever later. You made me realize so much about myself and rocked my world mentally and physically more than anyone else ever did. Those 2 months felt like wayyyyyy longer than that.

In all honesty, I wish I was good enough for you that you would’ve changed your ways. That I was that person you were for me. I hate that I wasn’t that “it” girl for you. You’ll make some woman out there extremely happy one day. I’m envious of that. So damn envious. So jealous of her and yet i don’t even know her. You were everything I searched for and wanted. I only hope I can find that and more from someone else. In another dimension/life I hope we’re blissfully happy. Family, married, amazing sex life, etc. That brings a smile to my face thinking of the wonderful life we might’ve had. It’s time I move along in my journey. Stop being stuck. Even if I’m forever alone. Thank you again for an amazing season, and the lessons you showed me. I wish you all the happiness in the world. ❤️

[mariegolddoesthings]

One day I'll find true happiness whether it's on this godforsaken planet or not

[kottkrig]

People liking your personal OCs is still such a crazy feeling, I've been doing this for years and ppl asking about them still fills my entire heart with warmth and idk how to handle it

You enjoy this fictional guy I made up for fun?? Whose only content is random artwork or writing made by me and a handful of other artists at most? They have no show/book/game with a large fandom, it's just one person with an art blog?? I love u

[goldenpoet1]

We've lost

We lost humanity, sanity, love, lust and family the mask sits on the face of many. Rust grows self harm; being our own enemy's. Smile in the face of many. I still hold scares from the past, lost in the sea as hands of pain hold with a new grasp. This pain slaves and shames me. We've lost, im lost floating as life starts scolding I'm folding like many before me. Silently screaming,crying, smiling and denying. But I'm trying, crying; slowly death knows I'm dying. We've lost, the sun is nomore and forevermore life I can't adore.

[free-my-mindd]

Someone said “ I don’t walk away to teach people a lesson I walk away when I’ve learned mine” and I felt that.

[sheviolentlyher]

sunday— night.

I’m not looking for signs, I ain’t lost.

twenty five days and I’m right where I am supposed to be.

leave me. leave me. leave me. i am feeding off my own divine and godly energy. every move i make- i make with angelic tendencies.

my cunty side always has great timing, and I’m starting to appreciate that. the more I give her a voice. the more beautiful i stay on the inside. I trust her now. we trust each other. if she wants to act like another entity in order for my divine, godly, potent femininity. it’s an alliance more than a sabotage— yes like I have said before - humans are two fold. I don’t pity the ones who haven’t figured it out because they are probably comfortable, but there’s something that tells me humanity is just so uncomfortable and unstable right now. — I try not to think of this much.

I believe being able to narrow your mind is important. I think everyone underestimates the width of the mind. It’s horizontally placed, broad and infinite— and if we don’t know how to zoom in then— welll— it’s terrifying.

I saw all these beautiful girls on my doom scrolling session—- by the tenth video I was convinced I was ugly— I almost had myself convinced. ALMOST.

I go back to my original form—- a rare and hidden gem in white suburbia. 🏘️

it’s as if I have left a world- and I’m back on earth— reminiscing about another time- another planet.

-x

[adriles]

when we’re done with our overwhelming grief we’ll eat i guess

[aramais]

non human characters who are defined by how painfully human they are

[puerto-nic0]