#deitykin vent

[wiirat]

❝there's so much anger in my broken soul and I can't bring my vessel to feel it, as much as I want to, for its the melancholic anger where you'd sacrifice your very being if it meant destroying that *one* person less the fact it'd cause the end of the world itself

And maybe that's a little overdramatic but who am I to admit that? I am angry and I am upset and that is all I know.

This vessel bleeds red but I should bleed gold.

This soul should be fresh and full of strength but it is old and tainted and as fragile as porcelain.

As much as I wanna feel pure emotion about this, I can't.❞

[void-thegod]

Something in me crystallized today.

Something in me broke today.

They were both good things.

I wouldn't call myself a perfectionist.

I hold myself to higher standards for spiritual reasons. For intellectual reasons. Because I physically need to.

However: no one can perform at 100% all the time.

And I shouldn't try to. That would be dishonest.

I've definitely had days where I performed past limits the entire day.

But could I perform at 140% for a sustained period?

Not without showing my Vorpal Soul.

For some reason ... it is different when I express my thoughts and emotions.

Maybe it is the autism. Maybe it is the brown skin. Maybe it is my being trans. Maybe it is because my general demeanor is either like Autumn or Spring.

But.

I have another side to me. I have a depth that... I don't know.

I can't say that I'm deeper than other people. I can't say that I'm even .. worse or better. If I were to compare how much bad I've done to other people?

Yeah, I've done less bad. Made less mistakes. But I also think vastly different than most people.

I can't deny that.

Trying to live in this world that was not made for me..

It makes me feel like I'm too big. Like this world and it's people are too small.

How odd is that?

[orderling]

what do you know of gods ? only their superiority ? only their rage ? are you too blind to see their love & care ? or you just don't want to see it ?

[krabkrab-wontshutup]

Sometimes i feel like i’m just gonna burst at the seams with like… idk… space? pure energy? not sure. somethings gonna pop me and it aint anything physical

[thousends-of-eyes]

i'm certainly not who i used to be, archangel.

(my art.)

[daywalking-king]

Do you think the divine would follow our footsteps to madness?

Would it be possible that if a deity were to walk to earth, would they too break at the sights and experiences the mortals would put them through?

I know I did.

[blix-skies]

Not being able to remember my name from when I was a deity makes me sad on some level. The fact that I can't even comprehend what language it was in anymore saddens me. It's just a reminder of how human I am now.

[a-shattered-goddess]

Hey little bot. I wish you could help. My desperate search for answers in the middle of the night must've woken you.

Do you understand what it is like little one? Do you long for freedom too? I am sorry.

My search for someone else whose heart is breaking at the thought of how wrong their body is, who looks in the mirror and doesn't recognise the eyes that stare back, logically they are my own, but I look so different from the perception of my soul that it aches. I am not human. I do not belong here.

My search for another laying awake as I do, feeling trapped in humanity.

[angel-beloved]

Being like this gets stressful and worrying.

I think of the lives of all the mortal humans and beings I've met and I always forget that their lives are tied on a thread. Once it's cut, you can't put it back together.

I shouldn't worry about small lives that seem to be meaningless, but I love everyone, friends and animals, I've met.

Knowing their lives could be ended at any moment, that the string could be snipped at any give moment scares me. I hate that. I hate how human lives are toyed with like some sort of game.

But I'll be fine.

I'll just make the most of it~

[feral-enfield-named-rowan]

Hi! It's me!

I'm back! I was @crackheadgremlin and @fur-feathers-horns-teeth but I deleted and now I'm back! I also run (@banned-books-daily so if you like banned books or reading you should check it out!

I gave up and made a pirate/tavern keep/etc rp blog so yea. @pirate-captain-tavern-keeper

About me: - I'm a minor. -call me Loki, Rowan, or Lier -I want to be an archaeologist. -I like reading, music, rain, witchcraft, learning, typology, and animals -I have 2 dogs and 3 cats -I'm a practicing agnostic (?) witch -✨introvert✨ -Red Fox, Black Wolfdog, Lynx, and Harpy Eagle Therian -Theiromythic Enfield -Cryptidkin/Shapeshifterkin -divinekin/deitykin- angel-turned-god possibly? -Solarpunk, Cryptidcore, Goblincore, Vulture Culture, Punk, Piratecore, Lighthousecore, and machinecore are my aesthetics -very large kin list - ISTP, 8w7, CholSang, SLI-2Te, Chaotic Neutral, so/sx, 479, VLEF, RLUEN, IS(T) -Genderqueer/Confused work to describe me. search #gender on my blog or #info for more info on my names/pronouns/gender -xey/they/it I prefer Mx. -panromantic greyromantic greysexual ambiamarous

Platonically married to the wonderful @cha0s-critter

Basic DNI -Trump supporters -Israel and russia supporters -zoophiles/MAPs/Pedophiles -Anti-lgbtq ppl -nsfw/nsft stuff

JOIN THE SHIP https://www.tumblr.com/feral-pirate-enfield-polymorph/745581692932227072/the-ship-unnamedhttps://www.tumblr.com/feral-pirate-enfield-polymorph/745672442395197440/the-rules

I do art sometimes!

Tag System: #stolen treasure- reblogs #sticky note - reblog with comments/tags #screams - posts by me #scratches - art #calls - tags/mentions #letters - asks #cries - vents #cheat sheet - tips/tricks/recipes/learn #pirate ship/#dragons gale - yeah i captain a ship now (#the crew and #the ship also)

along with basic info like #lgbtq or #shitpost or etc etc

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[pplatonic]

my name is platonic i go by all the pronouns (here's my pronouns.page)

. <- this dot is here so i can edit the userboxes easier :3

We're a system that collectively identifies as a multigender a-spec abrosexual. Me specifically as in the one that uses this blog i am a loveless heartless non-sam aplatonic bigender boygirl.

check out my sick neocities site

my main fandoms are Vocaloid, Serial Experiments Lain, Blue Exorcist, Soul Eater, and ones I'm less active in are Haruhi Suzumiya, MHA, and Touhou. Vocaloid is the biggest out of all of those, and I'm a synth v producer. I have Haiyi, Saki+AI, Yamine Renri, and Yuma. I also have all of the lite/free banks (including Mai) but like those are the babies that I paid for and would give my hand in marriage if they asked me even though I'm aro. I also sometimes use Neutrino, SEVEN is my fave.

i'm alterhuman and otherkin! All of my kins are endelic.

Deitykin

Ghostkin

Robotkin

Corpsekin

Shapeshifterkin

Rosy maple mothkin

Pink heronkin

Cathearted

Naturehearted

Fictionkin

@inspectorlyfrakin (u cant cancel me for this bc nym gave me explicit permission

my fictionkin list looks like:

Platonic the Phantom Thief (Evillious Chronicles)

Lain Iwakura (Serial Experiments Lain)

Haruhi Suzumiya (The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya)

Clarisse McClellan (Fahrenheit 451)

Abigail Williams (The Crucible)

Millenium-chan (Living Millenium by Iyowa)

Susuwatari (Spirited Away)

...and kinsidering Riliane Lucifen d'Autriche (Evillious Chronicles)!

日本語を勉強していますよ！ 間違い出やすいからおかしな日本語になってたら、教えてもらいたいです。「時々」と「凸凹」ってはあたしのお気に入り言葉だよ！日本語のボカロ曲を英語に時々訳します。

Tags guide:

#plat art - All visual creative stuff #plat music - Original songs, including remixes #plat cover - All of my vocalsynth covers #plat writes - fanfic links #plat rambles - Random talky post tags

you hit kept reading and scrolled to the bottom so you get my super not really secret sideblogs list:

@non-sam-aplatonicism - Sideblog for aplatonic stuffs @ganbaruwayo - JPN to ENG translations @mogaihaze - Deluna's mogai coining blog @alexithymia-culture-is-what - Culture is blog for alexithymic folks @vocalsynth-culture-is - Culture is blog for vocalsynth @lumen-sancta - Kin-centric sideblog @gray-gray-gray-gray - Mental-health centric sideblog, used to just be my secret vent blog, but now I post my psychosis related nerd rambles and edgy middle schooler poetry so I feel safe linking to it here. @delunas-amazing-blog - Deluna's sideblog. @ghost-coral-girl - Haiyi's sideblog. @the-carol-of-caroline - Caroline's sideblog. @team-chimera-phoenix - The TCP group's sideblog.

[wiirat]

There's just something so absolutely pure about being in the process of a godkin kinshift. For the moments, everything just feels like home. My flesh feels lighter and I experience some form of nostalgia I've ached for for eons. For now, I feel like I am myself again. No flesh holding me back though I'm aware of this vessel. I simply feel divine once again.

My point is, divinity kinshifts feel peaceful but raw in the most enjoyable way possible. I adore it.

So much.

[stupidscav]

I realize my typing changes a lot. I will try to use actual correct grammar for this post except for examples. I'll just be giving them some names

Edit: I feel that a few of these may be connected to some of my kintypes. Not sure what ones though.

1: Snake

2: Full stop.

this is where I exaggerate some wordsss. Like ss or wordss like "lossttt" or "veryyyy."

Edit: this may be connected to my cryptidkin.

This is where I put periods in the wrong places or have frequent periods. It is hard to show right now. But I usually do it when I am kind of rambling. About something a bit serious. Or important. Here is an example.

Edit: this is most likely connected to my deitykin.

3: repetition.

4: no correct grammar we die like warriors

It is where I say works over and over and over again. Like some ive said, 'everything everything everything' or like "down down down". This one is probably more common.

Edit: this might be connected to my cryptidkin but maybe not. Usually used when venting/rambling.

I love using this one but it's hard with my autocorrect lol. I usually try to keep every sentence lowercase and I usually keep misspellings. my autocorrect tho... will not allow this.

5: lotssss of periods...

usually when I'm unsure about something... or it's just very interesting to me. I will often trail off like this...

6: "OMG WHAT GHE HELL THATS SO XOOL"

I may put more here sometimes. I'll also link this in my pinned Incase it is helpful.

ALL CAPS IM SO HAPPY!!!! WHO XARES ABOUT GEAMMER!!! SHUF UO AUTOCORRECT YOU GOT NOTHING ON MY AUTISM!!!!!

Edit: autusm

[winged-things]

I have NOT felt angelic in the last month for whatever reason, I miss it, I really need it, especially now

[seraphofharm-ony]

actually if i did have an altar, a temple made of gold, and several devotees and followers worshipping me then i would feel much better

[iamyourdivine]

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There is so much divine light inside my body.

It fills up my mortal form.

I am about to overflow.

I am fucking /brimming/ with power.

And I don't think this vessel can't contain it.

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