#delete eventually

[heartfullofleeches]

I'm not happy.

There are days I feel something else, but every morning it's so hard to find a reason to get up.

A couple days ago I made I post regarding to my mental state at the time. I went out prior to that and I had a genuinely good time, but I pushed myself too far. Every step for days felt like wire was wrapped around my legs. One wrong step and my legs/hip exploded with pain. I'm so tired of being cooped up in the house, but what is there for me to do when walking causes me pain? I just want to end things but I'm so afraid of what's on the other side/if there is one at all.

I apologize to everyone I worried with that post, but I thank you as well. Being here on this blog has helped me tons, but it's also brought me struggles as well. If I disappear for good someday, just know I love and appreciate you all

[askleaderscrest]

There is no Father's Day post

[eldunari-ignasia]

started thinking of names for the animatic script and I went “maybe I’ll call it ‘Brothers by the Moon’ as a reference to their mother, Selena” and then something in my brain broke

major theme of the book being CYCLES the series is named the Inheritance CYCLE and their mother is named SELENA as in SELENE as in “titan goddess of the moon” and “personification of life’s constant changes” and the MOON is every changing in its shape but it REPEATS and REPEATS and REPEATS

[glbtrx]

and to start the day off right, I just had a panic attack in the subway. Kinda want to die. Tea makes everything better tho.

[velomono]

Every day I feel really grateful to be able to see so many wonderful artists everywhere. I usually perceive my artistic capabilities as lesser than they could be, or not something worth much praise due to the lack of technical skill I have. So being able to talk with other artists or even merely acknowledged by some means a lot. Being friends with a lot of people I've perceived as “way above my skill level” throughout all my time as an artist is something I'm really thankful for as well. It's all a helpful reminder to me that all of the art I admire is really just made by other people, and being highly skilled in art isn't some sort of random blessing that turns you inhuman. Or well, something like that. Either way, a lot of you have my thanks.

[brainbird]

I am already sick of dating again. Somebody go into a ldr with me and we can talk about our special interest. I visit you on the holidays and we have a romantic damn time doing whatever we want and being ourselves together

I am so sick of low effort small talk chats just to find out on the second you have nothing in common and just get alienated from everything urghh

[caspervi]

close to a star

[reunitedinterlude]

dan phil and phil (2018 // 2023)

[lune-redd]

making fiends

[yank-a-ton]

[fwoom]

Charles running into traffic (Max) during a long run and attempting to overtake.

[l3viat8an]

Levi is so clingy in the morning-

As soon as you move to get up, or your alarm goes off and you mumble “….time to get up.” Levi’s arms wrap around you tighter and he lets out a huffy little sigh…not actually saying anything, just trying to keep you in bed. You’re so warm and the blankets are so comfy…..he know it's time for you to get up, both of you actually.

But he doesn’t want to lose you, not yet. he knows the second you get out of bed he has to share you for the rest of the day, fighting for your attention.

And it’s just not fair!! He’ll miss your warmth and he always craves your attention, your scent, your touch- just you. Even if he knows he’ll see you later it’s not the same. so every morning he tries to keep you in bed just a little longer…..just keep your attention on him for a few more minutes.

and you know he’ll do it every morning so you just sigh and kiss his forehead, “Come on, guppy….I have to go….”

"No…..not yet….just…just five more minutes… please…”

….well- five more minutes can’t hurt, can it?

[phyrestartr]

Ok so looks like they blocked me, too LOL bc I cannot reblog their shite so LOOKS LIKE BLOCKING WORKS FOR THE HARASSER THAT'S GOOD TO KNOW 🙃

Yes, I'm talking about you. Searching male!reader tags and being triggered when you find men bottoming is weird and it makes me think this is more of a fetish for you than your interest. I'm asexual. I'm not interested in sex irl. I still have preferences in media but I read descriptions and avoid them because it's not that deep. Hell, sometimes I will even read something I don't like because it's not that deep. You can also filter KEYWORDS and not just tags. Genuinely think this will help you out in the long run and will help writers avoid you.

And if it's not that serious, why come at me saying you're sick of my shit not being tagged to your liking? I genuinely don't think gay men bottoming can be a trigger on the same level as SA or something--you are blowing this way out of proportion and harassing me for what? Not catering to your preferences.

And yes, I find your account suspicious. You're either underage or a very immature, grown-ass adult acting UWU cutesy and flipping on a nasty af switch when yelling at anons/through anon because you're protected by a veil of anonymity, and then running away and blocking when you're found out (which is reasonable tbh). Your behaviour is disrespectful as fuck--you should treat others the way you want to be treated. I am no longer treating you with any semblance of respect as a result of your blatant disregard for another's feelings and not treating a stranger with human decency. It's disappointing to see this always happening online.

Also dumping stuff here to use for my report. Will delete this eventually, but I need to only include post links for the report, so I'm making a master post in order of events ig (bc some shit was deleted since I don't like seeing it):

1. Initial Ask:

2. He responds to a post (pre-block)

3. Finding out they use the same syntax/insults (that anon shouldn't have been a jerk either, though, idky people are so rude)

4. He responds to my post about my concerns with their acc AFTER BEING BLOCKED. He RTs the post as well to respond, and this is, I repeat, AFTER BEING BLOCKED.

5. The reblog after I have expressed blocking them has given me a lot of peace--they blatantly disrespect boundaries and push further before blocking me so I cannot retort (which is fair. we should all feel safe in our spaces, but punching someone and running away like a coward isn't acceptable for alleged adults).

The tag of "tag your stuff" proves it's them. All the evidence correlates. It's disturbing to be plagued online after blocking someone. I've since reblocked them after undoing so to take screenshots.

Edit: This is the post they reblogged immediately after responding to me to send a message ig

Again, if gay men bottoming is a trigger, I'm concerned. Preferences does not equal trigger. Absolutely dumbstruck these folks think they're morally superior when they're not able to simply filter keywords or just, idk, scroll past. You are responsible for curating your safe space. Do not put that responsibility solely on other people

Can someone tell me why this person can still see/reblog my stuff despite being blocked

This is the person harassing me/calling me a dipshit, and I'm pretty sure they're something of a weirdo and they can still see my posts and still reblogged them?? I'm so fucking confused, I thought I was supposed to vanish from their feeds entirely but they're still on my profile looking through my shit and replying to shit bro lol. Can someone shed light? I'm filing a report for harassment rn but goddamn dude this is so annoying. Does it only block from the main blog or what? Bc this is one of my sides

They're the type of person who thinks they're really smart and will not ever begin to think they were ever wrong and think that everything is about them and should cater to them (as those with narcissistic tendencies do) and they're probably gonna keep looking on my page waiting for me to say smth else when they literally started this over their preferences LOL.

Then they reblog smth lke "hate that ppl dont but triggers in the actual tags but the descs" um the desc is at the top on so many fics so ppl can skim it and move on if it's a no-go for them. It's not writers' faults that they lack reading comprehension.

[eldunari-ignasia]

as I’m doing my “Chapter Doodles”, I’d love to take requests for specific scenes in chapters!

In a similar vein? I’d like to make my own interpretations of some the creatures specific to the universe OR a bunch of drawing of urgals because I <3 want to see more of them.

[stealingpotatoes]

me, someone who is technically french (it's complicated): haha yes french are the worst english are still the most worst,

yeah you know what you’re right, at least you guys successfully got rid of your monarchy

[ascendingconures]

spooky reminder that i made a VR map of the Magnus Institute you can go explore on vrchat. Its interactable. Its unhinged. its buggy. its full off references. dont take it too seriously.