#demoman x male reader

[prettyboypistol]

I'm not sure if requests are open so if not feel free to delete this ask! Can you do the mercs realizing they're into men because of the reader?

Of course! By the way, this is my 100th post! lucky lucky Anon! This goes out to all of the rest of my followers! Thank you for all the support and followers! I'll always look at your messages and write for TF2! I couldn't be here without all of you! Thank you for letting me be the weird gay man who likes writing about old gay men kissing! -PrinceThomas :>

Tf2 Mercs x M!Reader || Gay Awakening! +18

Scout

Super in denial at first, compares you to actors he likes or thinks are hot and kinda shelves it. Is MAD jealous that you just somehow look great no matter what (to him hehe)

Realizes he has a crush on you when his usual spank bank material of girls isn't really doing it for him anymore. It's 4am, he's tired and horny and a little drunk... his mind just wandered, okay?!

Daydreamer 100%, but his feelings for you and his feelings for Miss Pauling kinda fuck him up ngl?? Is he a homo or not?? I mean, he likes boobs and lipstick and girls, but the rough and tumbled grease in your stubble just gets him rarin in a way girls didn't.

Bisexual struggles fr. Assuming that you're a Stonewall riot supporter, he'd probably try to roundabout ask if he can experiment with you.

What really set you apart from the other mercs is that you just look good compared to them! Yeah, there are some conventionally attractive guys, but you're h o t.

Soldier

Soldier, like Scout, assumed his attraction to you was something more akin to respect or friendliness. I mean, no other soldier he's ever met sacrificed himself to save him! That takes guts! Yeah, you respawned after, but the honor was still there for him.

Develops or at least tries to develop a friendship like what he with Demoman. He might come off like a very determined puppy, but you know he means well.

Uses you as someone to compare others too. (Ex. "SCOUT! THAT WAS HORRENDOUS TECHNIQUE! TAKE A LOOK AT THAT FINE MAN OVER THERE! DETERMINED! STRONG! TAKE NOTES, PRINCESS!")

When he does realize it's love, he is upfront and honest about his feelings with you. After all, if Jane did like men, he could find more powerful army and recreate that unbeatable ancient army of homosexuals!

Asks around about romance, probably interrogates Medic about how to court another man because let's be honest Medic looks gay as he'll and I will die on the hill that every merc just assumes that man is queer.

Pyro

In Pyroland, you're a prince on a unicorn. You're straight out of a fairy tale. They're overjoyed to have a prince in Pyroland rather than just babies! Yeah, it's fun to be childish, but a whimsical joy that are more complex are fun too!

Absolutely follows you around and talks about you to Engie non-stop. Engie jokes that Pyro might have a crush on you and they seriously consider it. They realize you're attractive when you do a party trick of spitting out Bug spray and lighting it on fire, making it look like you breathe fire.

As you cough and retch at the lingering taste of bug repellant in your mouth, Pyro applauds your trick and keeps trying to talk to you. They eventually are able to communicate to you, asking if you have any more fire tricks. You show them that you can twirl a pencil between all your fingers when the eraser tip is lit up like a candle.

You can kind of tell that they like you romantically, but you're not sure how to tell them that you know. A few chats with Engie tells you all you need to know: Pyro has never pursued a romantic interest, Pyro likes you, and that you can probably get their attention with an honest conversation.

Demoman

The most casual about their realization that they like you- and men in general. Just a peek at you in the showers after a particularly clutch victory caused a few rather dirty thoughts. It wasn't that big of a deal to him and kept his attitude of a drunken "Well, a hole's a hole, I bet he's tight."

Probably offers a little bit of fun after a long night of party, definitely a lot more drunk than usual as he leans a tad too close for friendship. That deep, gravelly, and warm voice growled in your ear with an open offer to join him in his room that night.

If you joined, he wouldn't remember the night and regret that he forgot the night in the morning when you and him snuggle awake. If you decline it's no harm no foul.

One of those types of guys who actually can balance his feelings for you along with his friendship- he keeps the ball in your court and stayed professionally friendly, maybe a tad brotherly competitive.

Heavy

This man is an iron wall to hide his feelings. He had the idea that he just wasn't the type to want a relationship- which was fine, more time to work to keep his family safe- but then you jumped out into danger to protect him. He was on the brink of death and you selflessly risked your life for him! Yeah, you both respawned, but it was the gesture that mattered!

His eyes trailed you a lot more often, like a security camera. He pretended to be read his book, but he knew exactly where you were. Medic is the first to notice this change.

Medic asks about Heavy's feelings for you, since Heavy had never ordered Medic to go heal anyone else before! Hell, the both of you tended to stay behind Heavy during battles after that, so you two had a sense of closeness.

When you all went out on a trip to the beach, Heavy loved watching you in the water, and even allowed himself to be dragged in by you to play water polo with Soldier and Demoman. He's a long game of chess, hopefully you can win him over!

Is a bit more protective of you out of battle, but that's something only the people he threatens is aware of.

Engie

Oh fucking god holy shit what the hell man's fucking gay PANICS. DELL IS HEARTSTOPPINGLY FROZEN IN FEAR WHEN HE REALIZES THAT HE LIKES MEN.

All you did was scale a chainlink fence with ease, albeit with a small growling as the metal dug into your fingers. Dell swallowed the feeling thickly. He didn't mean to stare at your ass, really! It just sorta... happened.

And then it happened again as he kneeled to construct a sentry. Then when he was sat down at the kitchen table as you walked by. The only time he didn't catch a glance was when you turned to him with a smug look and a "if you wanna look at my ass, you could just ask."

He knows a lot of gay cowboy culture, but was far too scared to go ahead with a few of the gestures. Although, you weren't as shy, giving him a grey handkerchief when he spillied oil on himself.(translation: grey handkerchief=bondage kink)

Finally- FINALLY! He offers you his hat on a very hot day with his head looking straight at the ground.(translation: if a cowboy puts his hat on your head, y'all fucking)

Sniper

In the top 3 of "chillest reactions to realizing he likes men", but barely on the podium yk?

Mick was doing some target practice and had lost track of time, his pot of coffee and snack pile had been long empty. Right as he was about to get up to stretch his legs, he saw you on the last rung to the ladder of his nest. "Oh hey Snipes! You missed lunch and dinner, 'decided to check in on our favorite sharpshooter." When you stay for a few moments and hand him the bottles of water and leftovers from dinner, he realized that nobody made him feel that loved.

You just being kind sends him into a "did he do that to hit on me? Does he do this to everyone?" Yeah he panics about everything you do, but not because you're a man- it's because a crush is a crush to him!

Sniper does genuinely try to show interest, but in a subtle way like inviting you out to take a smoke break, target practice, maybe offer to let you join him to survivalist camp for a few days.

Spy

Silver medalist of the chill reaction podium, mainly because he laments to himself about all the potential money he had lost by not seducing more men in his more freelance espionage days. He could have hooked up with Saxton Hale to swindle that oaf out of millions- if he had thought of that.

Does a full background and thorough investigation into your personal life, how you reacted to the huge news event of Stonewall, if you had ever hooked up with a man, anything to see if he had a chance to sneak into your dating pool.

He treats you a lot like how he treats the women he seduces, but has to overcome how you brush him off casually like a man. Women were a language Spy speant years studying, so much so that he seldom kept up with the more masculine way of communicating.

At his wit's end, he just asks you bluntly. "Listen, I find you hot. I've been trying to get into your pants for almost 2 months now, do you want to have sex?"

Medic

This man already knew he was gay before you pulled up, sorry. BUT BUT BUT you are the first crush he's had! Yeah, he knew he liked the idealized version of a man he made up in his head, but you are better than the fictional men in books!

Despite the stereotype for Medic, he didn't fall for you when he saw you on his operating table. You and Engie were theorycrafting about hypothetical cybernetic enhancements. Engie had said something biologically inaccurate about the immune system, and before Medic could interrupt your private conversation, you corrected Engie! Not in a demeaning way, but in a way that clearly showed that you had a love for biological science. Medic's heart skipped a beat.

Constantly offering you new enhancements for your body and coddles you about painful proedures (he actually gives you anathesia! How sweet!) and sends his experimental ideas to you for a betaread over. For Medic, that's essentially a confession in and of itself!

Has written your name in little hearts on his note margins and uses you as his anatomy sketch references when he needs to visualize the human skeleton.

[isaactheterrible]

Masterlist

Team Fortress 2:

Sniper And Demo Talking About Cryptids

Sniper Appearance Headcanon (Art)

Tf2 Main Cast Relationships With Religion

Tf2 Side Characters Rejecting Your Love Confession

Tf2 Main Cast Rejecting Your Love Confession

Soldier x Pyro

Soldier Nsfw Headcanons

Medic Nsfw Headcanons

Tf2 Main Cast Accepting Your Love Confession

Tf2 Side Characters Christmas Presents

Main Cast Christmas Presents

Main Cast Yandere Version

Tf2 Main Cast Queer Headcanons

Tf2 Main Cast Ideal Dates

Tf2 Side Characters Relationships With Queerness

Tf2 Main Cast Relationships With Queerness

Creepypasta:

Jeff x Nina Nsfw Headcanons

Jeff x Nina Accidental Pregnancy

Jeff x Nina (Smut)

Call Of Duty:

Ghost x Male Reader (Smut)

141 x GN Reader Surprise Birthday Party

141 Omegaverse Headcanons

Baki:

Hector Doyle NSFW Headcanons

Retsu Kaiho SFW & NSFW Headcanons

Rules For Requests

[ghsotlv]

I JUST SAW UR TF2 REQUESTS ARE NEWLEY OPEN IM BITING THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE

I am......SO desperate......for anything with a male reader with all the mercs......ESPECIALLY MEDIC AND SOLDIER (theyre my baby girls 😼‼️)

But if you want something extra specific, I would love some headcanons on how they feel about a trans guy reader!

Thankyew so much🤌🤌

YEAHHH i barely see any x male reader so yiypiyppee im so happy to do this request, i am SUPER bad at writing pyro btw im doing this in parts bc its long! so this will be scout soldier pyro and demoman.

PART 1

SCOUT

-He feel like he doesnt mind, like "okay? why are you telling me?" typa feel. If you guys are close he'll take it into consideration. He'd make sure that no one bullies you for it, and prob knocks their skull out to be honest.

-He never seems to make you feel uneasy about being trans. He never left you out of "The Boys" day. always called you dude or bro. It made you feel warm inside.

-If you guys are dating, im sure he wouldnt care if you were trans, assuming you tell him before you start dating. If you having any gender dysphoria he'll be sure to comfort you. Saying things along the lines of " Dude, youre the most handsome man ive ever met" or makes jokes to keep your mind off of it.

-If you have your period, im pretty sure scout gets the gist of it since he lived with his mom for quite awhile, he prob brings u to medic for help.

SOLDIER

-Firstly soldier was confused, but after sometime he didnt mind/forgot you were even trans.

-When you get gender dysphoria he thinks youre sick, like if you come out to breakfest he'll yell "CEDET, BACK INTO SLEEPING QUARTERS NOW. YOU ARE SICK.'' you're as confused as the medic who js gave you a check up. After you figure out what hes talking about and tell him he'll be like, "oh." and js walk away like nothing happened.

-He might use cupcake on you less, to not trigger you.

-He for sure has the "to be a real man u must work for it" mindset and WILL push you to your limit, on battlefields, training, and maybe even the bedroom lol.

-If anyone bullies you he WILL punish them bro "YOU SAY THAT THO, THEY ARE MANLIER THAN YOU, MAGGOT. 20 LAPS." will literally punch anyone who makes you feel bad abt your gender

-He LOVES when you do anything manly, like he will praise you if you just beat scout in a arm wrestle, defend your self, or kill an enemy.

PYRO

-Pyro understands when you tell them, immediately hugs you

-When youre having dysphoria, they'll cuddle you, in their little plushie fort, snacks stolen from the pantry, movie and everything!!!

-If someone makes fun of you Pyro will launch their self onto them and land a few punches, and go back into your arms like it was nothing. how sweet pyro !!!

DEMOMAN

-Demoman is super cool with it, he doesnt mind at all

-Im sure he's met at LEAST one transgender, plus he thinks its cool you trust him enough to tell him something personal

-If youre dating him, he holds you while hes drunking calling you all types of sweet names, like "my boy" or "handsome". Also he calls you lad way more often then anymore merc?? like he puts it after every sentence damn near.

[sa1t0r1]

how would the mercenary react to discovering that s/o is the son of merasmus? as if on halloween merasmus appeared and s/o said "hey dad, what are you doing here? (⁠・⁠o⁠・⁠)" plz

Sorry for taking so long I was struggling to think of headcannons </3

It’s also a little bit repetitive so my apologies

Scout

Jaw dropped to the floor immediately, his baseball even fell out of his pocket

He had no idea I mean you guys don’t even look alike

Asks if you can use magic and if you can he wants to be taught to use it too

Less nervous about Halloween knowing that Merasmus is your dad

Soldier

Immediately bombards you with a million different questions

His old roommate had a kid?????? He knew nothing of this

You would have to diffuse any tension between the two because Merasmus is definitely about to do something with malicious intent

Pyro

Only interested in the magic aspect

They’re incredibly excited about the discovery that you might be able to use magic

Please teach them they want to use the magic for silly roleplays with the other mercs

Demoman

Little bit too drunk for it to hit him immediately

When it does hit him he drops his skrumpy in shock

You guys are completely different from eachother he never would’ve guessed you’re related

Can’t believe he lost such an outlandish bet, handed spy $10 that same day

Engineer

Was preparing things to defend against Merasmus

Stops tinkering with his projects after hearing you say “dad ?? What are you doing here ?”

Leaves you to catch up with your dad in private but asks about it later because although he’s respectful he’s still curious

Thinks it’s cute that you’re finally reunited

Heavy

Doesn’t have much of a reaction to it and stays silent

Leaves the room to let you talk with your dad

Slightly envious of you for getting to see your family again but happy for you nonetheless

Doesn’t ask you about it to respect your privacy

Medic

Let’s be honest he already knew, he saw it on your files

Still happy you were reunited though

If you inherited Merasmus’s magic he definitely wants to experiment (with your permission)

Sniper

Slightly scared, especially if you can use magic

Anxious, hoping Merasmus isn’t going to turn on you (or him..)

Gets skittish around Halloween now that he knows he’s in the presence of your dad

Spy

Like Medic, already knew

Saw it coming, not much else to say

Grinning with pride after seeing demo’s defeated expression as he hands him that crisp $10 bill

[koifish67]

Hello! Welcome to my blog! thanks for coming!I make Male and non-binary reader fanfics!

Rules:

I do pretty much anything but there is a few requesting rules

-No gore, sc*t, pee, r*pe, character x character, smut.

-Don’t do really long and incredibly specific request, I can head-canons or ideas

I can reject any requests for any reason

I do:

Male and female characters

Fandoms i do:

Overwatch

Tf2

Demon slayer

CoD

Tf2

Meeting the mercs parents

Overwatch

solider 76 and a boyfriend both with social anxiety

Junkrat x male reader headcanons

Zenyatta and Ramattra with an s/o who doesn’t talk until later in there relationship

zenyatta x male! Reader headcanons

Overwatch x GN! Reader adopting a kid part 1

Roadhog with a kid who loves puppets and sewing

Zenyatta and Ramattra x Gn! Reader who is having a burnout

Roadhog x junkrat x male reader headcanons

Roadhog and junkrat taking care of you after you got hurt oneshot

Ramattra first kiss

Kissing head-canons with the boys

Misc.

Being with Toki after Magnus kidnapped him

[justyoursicanon]

Hey, it's me the anooon

Uh, maybe something for a certain... one eyes bomber-

Basically Demo with a male S/o who will pass out due to their really reaaaally low alcohol tolerance-

Sorta like how Mark can't handle alcohol but not lethal-

Here ya go anon! (Yes I know thats you G-)

Alcohol is mentioned but overall enjoy!

"And so then I said 'holy shit man that the best ya got? I seriously could beat your ass!-'" Scout continued rambling on about to the others as they celebrated their victory once again. Surprisingly, Spy had decided to pay for drinks tonight since everyone seemed to do 'better then the average as Spy had stated.

And of course, with drinks being paid by probably the richest merc, Demo may or may not have taken advantage of that.

"Aye Scout! And what happened next lad? Did the man kick your arse?" Demo slurred out as he finished another glass. Scout replied to him in great detail how he won the bar fight, until someone came up and interrupted them.

"Say, sorry to ruin your fun boys but Demo I kinda need your help." Engineer said as he grunted and adjusted his arm, which was occupied as it slung around half of Y/N's body to keep the man steady. Demo had quickly forgotten his empty bottle to gather Y/N in his arms. "I'll leave ya boys be, come on Scout I think Sniper's bouta start his little saxophone show in a bit." Scout seemed to light up at the statement and quickly followed Engineer to the small stage at the bar.

"What happened to ya love? Thought ya said ya didn't want to drink while your here?" Demo asked as he set him down on the chair beside him. Y/N only groaned as they leaned onto Demo's chest. "Did I say that??? Naaah not only did I say I would go for youuu but I also said i would try just a tinsy bit." He describes his 'tinsy bit' by putting his thumb and pointing finger together, only to leave a very tiny space in the middle. Demo laughed as he hugged him tight. "Aye your always a cute little one aint ya?" Y/N giggled and kissed Demo's cheek. "Mmm I don't knoow Taves, your definitely cuter hereeee~" But as soon as he tried to continue, his head fell on the others shoulder and soft snores can be heard. Demo only laughed again as he placed a small kiss onto his boyfriends head.

[uwuowotf2waslife]

What does your husbando/waifu/nonbinary barbie-crotched S/O says about you?

TW: slight teasing,but oh well...., also nsfw themes and swearing ( sowwy)

TEAM FARTRESS 2

Scooter/weanie man: complete morosexual or the unhuman need to take care of Boston inhabitants with room temperature EQ ( en englais: you have the mommy/daddy/parent kink and you want to show that boi all the love he deserves)

Soldier: you are a human carpet ( sub) or so Dom my sibling in Christ I am terrified. You think his bravery/randomness is endearing or you got roped in by every tumblr/wattpad headcanon potraying him as the ultimate beefcake ( cant argue with you, mofo built like a brickhouse on steroids without the roids.)

Pybro: A. you are a nonbinary peep and any nb representation makes your ovaries/balls/reproductive parts COMBUst with excitment. B. intense latex/leather kink with slight burn/wax play on main. I am both afraid and faschinated by your ability to flesh out on a person we barely know the most basics of their personaility, Godspeed you allmighty bAstERD <3

eNGIe: cowboy appreciator, daddy seeker and parental figure creamer connesuer, you fell in love with the ( here ) so much you actively search and look out for the gruff, wrench handling and guitar-playing texas man of your dreams. No matter your gender or sexuality engie hits that hotspot only the daddiest of daddies hit !

Heavy: rare breed of bear enjoyer, probs an older sibling that wants to make the older sibling ( tired, unhydrated and slighty (( extremely)) in need of therapy) pair. Probably not a huge shipper since you view HeavyMedic as more of a platonic pairing, or you are of the rarest Medicx Reader x Heavy poly sandwich. Please dont hug him too tight, hell hug tired and make your eyes pop like a cheap pop eyed toy.

Demo: contrary to popular belief, you are not a bbc enjoyer/seeker, Demoman isnt just a sextoy to you. He is just the only level headed person you see in a team of morons ( for u) or manchildren with murder tendencies and well, JUST LOOK AT HIM, HE IS BUILT WITH ABBS LIKE A WASHBOARD AND LOVES HIS MOM, HE IS NOT HUSBAND MATERIAL. HE IS SOULMATE/LOVE TILL DEATH ( WONT DO YOU PART, HE KNOWS MAGIK TO RECITATE YOU) , PLEASE I SALUTE YOU YOU GLORIOUS TAVISH ENJOYER!

Medic: WE GET IT HE IS HANDSOME AND SOUNDS EITHER LIKE A CHICKEN WITH A TOP TIER DANTE DEMON OR HOT GERMAN GILF! Please dont canoodle him so hard, youll throw out his back or break his hip. Also very questionable kinks ( i see you blood kinksters). You unironically are the I cAn MakE HiM So MUch WorSE squad and you scare me.

Sniper: yes he is the ratman ofyour dreams and yes he is also really pretty, but please stop treating him like a man who aint also a hired killer. Yes he wont even think to correct his Macas orders, but he will and can make you swoon so hard you look redder than Pyros suit, mans gots that outdoors, unshowered , rugged swagg and he is rocking it harder than the fricking 80s <3 <3

Spah: yesh you have a french kink, yes you want him to whisper in your ear soft french while he btters your bagguet, probably into dilfs or gilfs in the distance because none is a dilf /suave/sensual enough for you. ( perfume isnt a shower, go to shower now, mon petit coucou

RESIDENT EVIL VILLAGE ( or the bimbofied RE4)

Lady Alcina Dimitrescu: a cis male/ a sapphic soul/trans,enby vagabond who respectfully wants to drown while motorboating he absolute units of bazoongas. Perhaps slight size kink and perhaps a person who doesnt mind a good blood slurped by their F! S/O if their tumm had the ramblies. Please dont go overboard, or youll enter the unholy assemblange of vore/stuffing kink irl

Donna Bienevento: creepypasta kid, you unironically got spooked first time you read Jeff the Killer. Probably into some questionable types of literature, hardcore horror enjoyer who also has a sanrio addiction. You have tried some kinds of handcraftmanship and might even have some hobbies that involve handiwork. I applaud you, but please dont give the basement FEOTus monster your choccy milk, itll have the zoomies and knock of angies card-castle.

Salvatore Moreau: the epitome of I can fix him! peeps, probably slight hurt/comfort enjoyer. You saw how dirty all the other treat him and you crave to make fish man happy. Both feet in monsterfuckening domain, unironically want to do the dirty while he is at monster form. Maybe you saw the Shape of Water and your brain did the thingy, but oh well, please continue on and make the lord of the reservoir the happiest fish in the sea!

Karl Heisenberg : you slimy, daddy kinked bAsterds, cant we have one game with a slight rat man with a good VA without yall flocking to him like lycans to his factory for french toast scraps??? slight bdsm enjoyer, or person who wants metal rat man happy and softened out like a soviet made breadcutter blade after a top tier professional restoration. Either way, please handle with care he may cry if you hug him the good way

The duke: an absolute chad who may or may not want to drown all your sorrows to a large, beautiful, suave man hug ( or man-thing, you never know.) You seriously deserve the world, because you be pumping fics faster than a heated political debate on Reddit. Also probably a slight hand kink, we all show those monsters at the Shadow of Rose DLC.

[simp999]

Saw that your TF2 requests are open :) could you do some relationship headcanons with Demoman x Male reader?? If you don't want to write headcanons you can do whatever you feel most comfortable with, I don't mind :)

Have a good day!!

AHHHH DEMO MY BELOVED <333 thank you so much for requesting!!! I needed this for the soul, as an enby who likes being seen as masc www

Tf2 Demoman x Male! Reader Headcannons + Mini Drabble

Wc: 0.8k

Masterlist

-I like to think that Demo’s very touchy-feely. Not in a weird way, it just makes him happy having an arm wrapped around your shoulders, or even simply having linked pinkies under the table.

-Like, bro-type affection if that makes sense?? He likes being gentle with you at times of course, and very much cherishes those moments, but there’s something about being able to pick you up and squeeze you tight, or pushing you around then having you giggle because of it that’s special to him.

-Back to those soft moments, he loooves hugs and cuddles, but especially when you two are super close. Like you two can be hugging for an extended amount of time and feel comfortable, then you look up at him and smile (as he melts)

-And it’d just be wrong of him to not give you a kiss right then and there, right?

-Speaking of, TONS of forehead/temple/hairline kisses. They’re his favorite to give.

-He loves any of your kisses of course, but kissing him on the jaw does something man

-Friends to lovers 100%

-He’s your #1 Hype Man tm for sure!! You do anything, it doesn’t even have to be remotely cool and he’s like “HELL YEAH! THAT’S ME BOY!! MY BOY, AAAALL MINE!!”

-Also, since magic is canon, it’s possible he believes that you’re his soulmate. Or at the very least, his good luck charm <3.

-One thing that gets me totally soft is the idea that he drinks less around you, so that he can remember special- or any- moments with you better. 

-If you enjoy drinking as well, there’s sure to be nights where you two just enjoy the night and drink together.

-Though, dating him definitely involves taking care of him. 

-Everytime he wakes up to you caressing his face while he has a miserable hangover, he swears he falls for you even more.

-The fact that you’re a boy wouldn’t change anything really, love is love. That’s just how Demo grew up.

-He’s not afraid to show you off to others, being so proud of you!!

-"Look at my handsome boyfriend!! Isn’t he the cutest?!"

-Speaking of praise, he gets extremely emotional about it when he’s drunk;

“Why’re ye looookin’ at me like..like that, luv?” He sways a bit as he speaks, while he sits on his bed, with you comfortably tucked in his arms. 

He had drank more than usual tonight, wanting to celebrate the impressive win you had earlier that day. The celebration had ended almost an hour ago, but the two of you still wanted to spend time together.

“Am I not allowed to admire my pretty boyfriend?~”

It takes a few moments to comprehend and then put together your words, but you can see the way his face heats up. He quickly tries to hide it by hugging you, and nestling in the crook of your neck.

The two of you lay like that for a while, the position being comfortable and warm. You could easily fall asleep on him, but he backs away before you could. His voice is much quieter, and the way he mumbles makes it tough to discern what he’s saying.

“Aye, luv… ye really think I’m pretty?”

Without missing a beat, you carefully bring your hand up to caress his face, and give him a short kiss.

“The prettiest.”

Extra trans male headcanons for the soul:

-If you’re trans, he is the most reassuring and comforting man you’ll meet.

-If you ever feel dysphoric, he’s so quick to shut it down.

-No!! You’re the most handsome, strong, boyest boy he’s ever met. (Yes, that’s something he’s told you.)

-I highly doubt any of the mercs would misgender you, and none of them would ever do it on purpose. But let’s say you did run into some transphobe douche while you’re out and about, I can promise that Demo would have a short fuse. (Pun intended-)

-He’d quickly passive-agressively say that you’re his boyfriend. 

-And if the ass doesn’t get the hint? Well, you won’t have to worry about them for long after they get blown up.

-If you bind, he will not allow you to do so during battle. He assures you that you can wear the binder whenever you’re out and about, or even as soon as you get back to base if it makes you feel better about yourself.

-He’s always on your ass about taking breaks and stretching, but he does it ‘cause he loves you. :)

-If you had top surgery, he LOVES kissing your scars. Or even tracing his fingers over them, through a shirt or not. 

-He totally loves getting you trinkets or literally anything with the trans flag or trans flag colors on it. He buys so many stickers and pins, and even a white, light blue, and light pink plushie he found.

July.25.23

[robin374]

TF2 Masterlist

All Mercs or some of them:

Mercs with a S/O who has polydactyly and is insecure about it

Mercs with a S/O who has a hard time getting them gifts

Scout, Medic, Soldier and Engie with a S/O with adhd

Lying in an interrogation (Engie, Medic, Spy)

Medic:

First kiss with Medic (Oneshot)

Medic x Reader (One-shot)

Medic with a daughter reader

Medic with a dragon hybrid S/O

Medic x Reader x Heavy relationship headcanons

Medic with a vampire S/O

RED Medic x Reader x BLU Medic (Part 1)

RED Medic x Reader x BLU Medic (Part 2)

RED Medic x Reader x BLU Medic (Part 3)

The Violinst’s Dance (Medic x Reader || One-Shot)

Incorrect Quote 1 

Heavy: 

Medic x Reader x Heavy relationship headcanons

Scout: 

Scout with a S/O who has their facial nerves paralyzed

Sniper: 

Aquarium date with Sniper

Incorrect Quote 1

Demoman: 

Incorrect Quote 1

Demo with a radio announcer S/O

Soldier: 

Incorrect Quote 1

Spy: 

Incorrect Quote 1

Pyro: 

Dominating Pyro (NSFW)

Engie: 

Incorrect Quote 1

Engie x Male!Reader (SFW)

Engie x Male!Reader(NSFW)

Miss Pauling: 

Miss Pauling with a chaotic S/O

Platonic + between the characters: 

Mercs x reader going to an abadoned hospital

Pyro and Spy being log lost siblings

[2frosty4you]

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨ Masterlist ୧⋆ ˚｡⋆

| FLUFF 🌸 | SMUT 🌹 | ANGST 🥀 | PLATONIC 🌼 | Hurt/Comfort 🌻 | | Request ⭐| FEM | GEN | MALE | Request/Ask box

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ʚ Idm if you send just to ask stuff or for any requests :33 ʚ Things I won't write: Gross shit, Pregnancies and rape/sexual assault

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨ Fanfictions ୧⋆ ˚｡⋆

ʚ-› Child Of Light (South park x reader) - [PAUSED] GEN “You’re like the sun, a ball of brightness and full of joy. But what happens when you have to move away, away from your friend and everyone who understood you. Maybe then people will see the other side of the sun.”

ʚ-› Scorched (Tf2 x reader) - [ONGOING] FEM “The world was full of people who despise (Y/n) (L/n). Be it due to the amount of carnage they engage in, to the perfect privileged life they seemed to live. Being supported so suspiciously through bank transactions ending with the company name; Mann.Co. Suspicions arise as they are taken away to live in the shoes of a deceased merc inside of 'Teufort'.”

ʚ-› Knife In The Frame (Zack Addy x reader) - [PAUSED] FEM

"Dr. (Y/n) (L/n), proudly a great forensic pathologist and toxicologist and head of her own forensic building in New York. Being friends with Cam she takes over her post while she goes on holiday." "But (L/n)'s keeping a secret, one which will be exposed if she doesn't keep it hidden from the Jeffersonian."

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(to be added!!!)

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↬ Tf2

ʚ-› All Mercs ⭐With a reader who’s bloodthirsty but kind to animals 🌸GEN ⭐Mercs comforting teen reader after toxic relationship 🌸🌼GEN ⭐Mercs find out teen!reader takes sole care of siblings 🌸🌼GEN

ʚ-› Scout ✧ Crushing on you 🌸 FEM ⭐Cuddling with him 🌸FEM ✧ Comforting him through a thunderstorm 🌸FEM ⭐ Convinced him to keep a stray pet 🌸 GEN

ʚ-›Soldier ✧ Crushing on you 🌸FEM

ʚ-›Pyro

ʚ-›Demoman ✧ Crushing on you 🌸FEM

ʚ-›Heavy

ʚ-›Engineer ⭐ Convinced him to keep a stray pet 🌸 GEN ✧ Crushing on you 🌸FEM ⭐Sub Engie🌹GEN ⭐Falling for a friend pursuing Phytotoxicology 🌸GEN

ʚ-›Medic ✧ Crushing on you 🌸FEM ⭐Falling for a friend pursuing Phytotoxicology 🌸🌼GEN

ʚ-›Sniper ✧ Crushing on you 🌸FEM

ʚ-›Spy ✧ Crushing on you 🌸FEM ⭐ Convinced him to keep a stray pet 🌸 GEN

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↬ Tf2

ʚ-› All Class ⭐Flustering the Mercs 🌸FEM ⭐Finding you asleep with a cat 🌸GEN ⭐Mercs reacting to underage reader being catcalled 🌼FEM ⭐ Mercs reacting to Teen Reader getting hurt in battle 🌼GEN

ʚ-› Scout

ʚ-›Soldier

ʚ-›Pyro

ʚ-›Demoman

ʚ-›Heavy

ʚ-›Engineer

ʚ-›Medic

ʚ-›Sniper

ʚ-›Spy

Updated 5.03.2024

[web-spinning]

TF2 MASTERLIST

|| Request Rules ||

All mercenaries

Mercs with an angel S/O

Mercs with demon S/O

Mercs with a recruit in their mid-teens

Nerdness scale for the mercs

Mercs reacting to a usually happy energetic reader crying

Mercs finding an injured child ( and attending to them )

Mercs with S/O from the same place as them

Mercs reacting to a child running around the base

Mercs with an S/O with amnesia

Mercs reacting to their s/o jumping in front of danger for them

Mercs when a new team mate keeps appearing out of nowhere

Mercs reacting to someone having a panic attack

Defense classes reacting to a TF2 superfan

Mercs around someone with ( high-functioning ) autism

Mercs reacting to the reader being badly injured, and helping them

Mercs reacting to the reader revealing their beauty marks

Mercs reaction to merc reader trying to kill enemy Scout at all cost

Mercs on a playground

Mercs reacting to a trainee getting a crush on them

Mercs with S/O who always seems sad

Mercs react to S/O who's body is scarred

Mercs reaction to falling for another man

Mercs reaction to getting attached with a reader from the enemy team

Mercs when their S/O dies in their arms

Mercs befriending a mute ghost child

Mercs with an S/O who has burn scars all over their body

Mercs with an S/O with tourette's syndrome

Mercs with vampire S/O

Mercs finding an injured enemy team member outside the respawn zone

Mercs with a child who seems creepy at first, but turns out to be nice

Mercs with a muscular AFAB S/O

Mercs with S/O who dislikes PDA

Mercs with their friend's parrot

Mercs with a teen recruit that's really mature for their age

Mercs reacting to an opposite team member helping them during a humiliation round

Scout

How Scout realizes he's in love with someone ( and how he acts on it)

Scout giving a mid-teen reader a piggyback ride

" Boston Kids "- about how Scout found a new sibling

" Medical Misconception "- about how Medic asked Soldier to knock Scout out

" Tragic End "- Scout's reaction to accidentally killing his lover

Scout and Engineer with S/O who's into programming

Soldier

How Soldier realizes he's in love, and how he acts on it

General Soldier relationship headcanons

Dates with Soldier- headcanons

Pyro

N/A, look for in all classes headcanons

Demoman

Demoman finding a child and taking care of them, Part 1 / Part 2

How Demoman realizes he's in love, and how he acts on it.

Heavy

Dates with Heavy- headcanons

Engineer

How Engineer realizes he's in love, and how he acts on it

Scout and Engineer with S/O who's into programming

Engineer and Medic with a trans FtM S/O

Medic

Medic finding out his S/O is almost as sadistic as he

" Experitation Date ", but the reader is trying to confess their feelings to Medic

How Medic realizes he's in love, and how he acts on it

Sniper and Medic with an S/O who has one week left to live

Medic finding a small child

First kiss with Medic- imagine

Medic comforting the reader after their bird died

" Needles to say..."- Medic x Reader who is deadly afraid of needles

Medic confessing his feelings to a best reader

Engineer and Medic with a trans FtM S/O

Sniper

Sniper and Medic with an S / O who has one week left to live

How Sniper realizes he's in love, and how he acts on it

General Sniper relationship headcanons

Sniper's after- work routine with his partner

Spy

How Spy realizes he's in love, and he acts on it

General Spy headcanons

" Late Night Comfort "- Spy comforting a young adult reader

"A Lethal Mistake"- Spy accidentally killing S/O during battle

Other characters

Saxton Hale with male S/O- headcanons

This list will continue updating. Let me know trough inbox or message if I miss something.

[prettyboypistol]

please lemme rail demoman, or him rail me, hes adorable and i love him

Demoman x M!Reader || Friends With Multiple Benefits~ +18

[M!ReaderxDemoman] [Top!Reader] [Casual Sex] [Heavy Foreplay] [Vers!Demoman] [Oral]

You held Tavish casually as you two watched the ending credits of the team movie night. You two had been poked fun at for your closeness in the beginning of your casual relationship, but the assurance to the others that you guys were just really close and touchy-feely seemed to put everyone off your tracks. Especially since whenever tavish hit on you, he would be obnoxious about it, and you would respond in turn by laughing and saying something equally flirty, but also equally obnoxious.

Once all of your team members eventually left the rec room, you two shared a look. With a glance to all the entrances, you and Tavish shared a quick kiss.

"Do you wanna..?"

"Mine or yours?"

You and Tavish strolled into Tavish's room, keeping the conversation light. As soon as the door was shut and quietly locked, you pulled Tavish by the shirt to meet your lips. The sparks flew as you two held each other close.

"Aye, fiesty today, aren't you?" Tavish teased as you pushed him onto his bed. You couldn't help but nod and smile evilly before sliding between his legs. "I don't mind catchin' this time." Teavish assured.

Tavish pulls his baggy pants off awkwardly, kissing you all the while. You tugged at his shirt, he removed that next. It only took a few kisses for him to fully have a tent in his boxers. Yes, you were in charge tonight, but Tavish couldn't help but try and tease you- even just a little bit- as he bites at your bottom lip and sneaks his tongue into your mouth, deepening the kiss. His hands thread into your hair, pushing you closer to him.

"In the drawer-" Tavish exclaims inbetween kisses. "lube-"

You pull off to rummage in the drawer to find the bottle, coating your fingers in the liquid as the newfound freedom allowed Tavish to remove his boxers. He chuckled, smacking your ass playfully. "Aww, gonna stay clothed tonight?"

"We'll see." You hummed, going back inbetween his thighs. Tavish made it quite easy to open him up, so you decided to play with him a little. You kissed over Tavish's stomach, thighs, and hips, biting occasionally. You look at Tavish's dick, then glance into Tavish's eyes, a smile on your face. As soon as Tavish nods, you swalloed down onto the tip, ellicting a sign of satisfaction. The mixture of you fingering him and sucking him off had Tavish in pure bliss. Not only that, but the promise of his guts getting rearranged? Perfect!

"Think you're ready, Tav?"

"Quit teasing, you bloody bitch!" He laughed, no bite at all in his voice.

"Beg for it?"

"Really?!" Tavish exclaimed, eyebrows raised with a shocked smile. "You're gonna make me beg for it?"

You readjust yourself and lined up, pushing slowly into Tavish. "Nah." You huff, your breath ragged. "Just messing with you."

The slow movements of adjustment drove both of you mad, little thrusts of need disrupt the pace. When Tavish locked his legs around your hips, it was a signal that it was alright to go harder- and thank god- faster. As you fucked Tavish, he couldn't help but hitch his breath and groan into the side of your neck, the hot breaths only spurred you on to get more reactions out of him. While Tavish wasn't the loudest of partners, you definitely enjoyed how grabby he was, his hands in your hair, groping your shoulders and back, wherever Tavish could get his hands, he would squeeze and pull you closer into him.

"God- Tav-!" You whined. The breathy laughter from your friend only drove you even more to the edge.

"Aye, you close?" Tavish teased, moving one of his hands to jerk himself off. Once you nod, he somehow pulls you deeper into him. "Well c'mon then, spill it out."

Who were you to deny him?

With a few harsh thrusts, you felt your orgasm rapture your body. Your mind was hazed in lust, the warm feeling of relief consuming you as slow thrusts filled Tavish a needy groan and the heat of ropes let you feel that your friend got relief too.

"You still got it, lad."

"Just 'cause I mostly bottom doesn't mean I can't make you my bitch too."

[fatgumsurpremacy-remastered]

Welcome folks-

My name is Festen Martinez, you can call me Festen. I am an actor above all else and a writer second. I write and draw for Team Fortress Two, as well as the Batman Rouges, (Some Hazbin), and FNAF. If you spark up a convo with me and I know the property and character you have a good chance at me writing for them too.

Feel free to send me requests and I’ll have a look. Current count (41, with 3 more in drafts).

Follow my second blog @faire-of-fictition

My hazbin oc blogs: @mc-tooley-tobias-toby , and @magnum-pritchard-repro

Other info:

21

He/Its

Bisexual

Transmasc

American (West Virginia, and Texas)

You can send me requests for your OCS or you can ask for mine as well. Don’t me shy, make yourself at home. 🧡

Requests open!

I am a Fandom Writer:

I write for:

Btas villains: Riddler, Twoface, Mad Hatter, Scarecrow, Harley, Ivy. Batman also

TF2: All Mercs AND MS PAULING

I will write:

•Should be obvious but chubby (or fat) reader

•Yandere (preferred)

•Smut (preferred, just reference what you’d want in the ask and I’ll give it to ya.)

•Non con/ Dub con/ CNC

•Platonic

•Headcannons

•Drabbles

•Imagines

I’ll draw any of the above as well

I won’t write (or draw)

•Scat

•Pedophillia

•Age Regression (dkh)

•Detransition

Masterlists:

Tf2

Demoman:

Demo joining a LARP group!

Yandere Demo w/ an s/o who doesn’t like dancing

Yan demo w/ bartender S/O

Engineer

Yandere Conagher Brothers x oblivious reader

Yandere Engie Headcannons

Dell x trans husband smut

Yandere Engie and forced affection

Traveling preist Engie Art by @virginstoner666 💗

Heavy:

Yan heavy cuddles!

Pyro

Yandere Platonic Emesis py Reader

Semi unmasked art

Ms. Pauling

Yandere Ms. Pauling

Semi Marriage proposal

Platonic Ms. Pauling and new trainee

Medic:

Yandere medic smut

Yandere medic with a captive that goes missing

Yandere medic and a partner w/ stolkholm

Yandere medic lap dance

Yandere medic Cycle of violence smut

Scout:

Get bonked

Yandere scout, kissing practice

Platonic scout

Sniper:

In my style

With a bratty so smut

Soldier:

Nsfw thoughts

Platonic Solly and overstimulated hugs

Spy:

Yandere spy egg vibes

All:

Yandere Red Octoberfest drawing

Would I trust them with my pets?

Demo and heavy x reader Head-cannons

Mercs reacting to a love letter

Yandere emesis Blue x reader

Yandere medic and sniper w/ clingy s/o

Emesis character comfort

Yandere mercs and if they’re comforting or not

Yandere mercenaries and how scary they are when jealous

Yandere Angel au with Sniper, Solider, and Medic smut

My my mercenaries

Soldier/Demo

Medic/engineer

Merc Headcannons

Memed science party

Spy and Engie dad stance

Btas

Alberto

Cornelius Stirk:

Stirk img.

Eddie

Yandere Arkham asylum riddler w/ shy and anxious reader

Yan telltale riddler with a reader who tries to escape

Yandere telltale Eddie

Yandere Arkham Eddie hcs

Handling it (smut)

Caked up Eddie img.

Eddie frame redraws💚

In my style: Ed and Jerv 💚💙

Nightmares img.

An Ed Kento for Sunny 💚💛

For Arkhamverse simps

Scantily clad ed

5’2 Au pt 1

5’2 suited up

5’2 Au ground img.

5’2 classic mv

5’2 smut pic

There’s a light img.

BTAS Insp. Art

Indulgent riddlebat

More fancy Eddie Art

Dilf Eddie?

Flashy Eddie ing.

Yandere platonic Eddie teaching riddles

Harley:

Harvey:

Au art

Harvey and insert art

Tasteful nudity

Ivy:

Jack:

Joinker au

More whore clown img.

Jervis:

Bonkers img

Jervis img.

Wonderlan img.

Reading img.

Johnathan:

Johnny img.

Scarecrow design img

BTAS scarecrow yandere head-cannons

Comp drawing w/ batman

Yandere BTAS headcannons

Ozwald:

Oswald Img.

Compilation

Au Squad: Jervis, John, Jack, and Edd

5’2 height matrix img (WIP)

Batman Vigilante Squad Au

Hazbin/Helluva Boss

Alastor

Under the Same Young Sky (male reader, ao3)

Vox

Yandere Vox housespouse

It Takes Time to Sew a Doll Yan!Vox x CisFem P1

Ocs

Maddox

Maddox x reader play fighting

[ghsotlv]

HIII new writer alert...!!

HI im alphonse u can call me all!!! pls send in writing requests for TF2 x reader or overwatch please!!!! im starting with headcanons until i can learn to fully write fanficts !!

all mercs

very few overwatch characters, i will write for junkrat roadhog zenyatta lucio reaper sigma etc

[sa1t0r1]

Tf2 Mercs with a masseuse S/O

this is so short I’m sorry

Scout

His whole gimmick is running so I think you would see him frequently, especially after training with soldier

Mostly comes to see you for leg cramps and sprains

Likes to make small talk, jokingly flirt and crack lighthearted jokes while you do your thing

Thankful he no longer has to go to Medic for little things like this

Soldier

He doesn’t come in that often

When he does show up it’s usually because he strained a muscle during training

Although he’s stiff as a board when he sleeps so don’t be surprised if he comes in due to neck pain

You constantly have to remind him to relax because he tenses up subconsciously

Pyro

I don’t think they’d come in because they actually need the treatment

Awkward because you have to massage them through their suit

They enjoy the physical contact

Excited because they’ve seen people do this at sleepovers before

Really just wants a sleepover

Sniper

Never comes in on his own accord, his role isn’t super physically straining

If you offer him a massage he’ll accept your offer though

He gets anxious

He’s not used to such an ‘intimate’ situation although he relaxes eventually

Might fall asleep if he’s tired enough

Medic

Definitely a regular

He stays up until the crack of dawn researching and hunched over his desk to work

His work mannerisms did a real number on his old man back

He probably has terrible neck pain as well

Very appreciative of your services

Won’t fall asleep but he will get drowsy

Spy

Comes in late at night

He’s a very tense and stressed person

He usually shows up after a losing match

Doesn’t talk much, he prefers to revel in the comfortable silence but if you want to start a conversation he’ll entertain it for a while

Has so many knots in his back it’s almost unbelievable

Heavy

Does a lot of heavy lifting during missions which impacts his body a lot

He cramps up often, especially after a payload match

Won’t talk during the massage but will thank you afterwards

Brings you sandwiches to show his gratitude

Demoman

Sometimes he’ll get cramps in his arms after throwing bombs at an uncomfortable angle

Very talkative when he comes in

Sometimes he’ll fake needing your services so he can have long, uninterrupted conversations with you

Definitely falls asleep sometimes

Engineer

Like medic, his work practices cause him a lot of neck and back pain

Likes to tell stories and explain his latest inventions to you while you massage him

He’s a little bit shy sometimes

Really appreciates your help and makes sure you know he’s thankful

Comes in if he can’t sleep

[amirsirwrites]

Hey-hey! I got a request!! (Hope you’re feeling well!)

So.. Spy x Male!Reader oneshot, where the reader bottles up his emotions and hides his negative feelings. Then one day he breaks and starts crying in front of Spy..

Hey-hey, anon! I'm feeling well, thank you. I've finally finished your request, sorry for the long wait. I hope you enjoy it. :)

Spy comforts you ❤️

Requested

Spy x M!reader

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Death and killing comes with the job of being a mercenary. Most mercs are completely fine with it. In fact, most enjoy it and make a game out of it. 

However, there are exceptions to everything and in this case, you are the exception. 

Seeing people get shot and torn apart almost every single day of your life has been taking a toll on you. 

During some of the battles, you'll freeze and stare at the dead bodies on the ground as your breathing gets heavy and uneven. You know that they'll be fine and wake up in their Respawn point a few minutes later but still.. It doesn't take the pain of seeing them die in front of your eyes away. 

One of the other mercs, more specifically your darling, Spy, often notices you doing this. He’s asked you on all occasions if everything is alright. You always wave him off and say you’re fine but until now, he’s not convinced. 

Worrying that he might make you uncomfortable, Spy doesn’t try to push any further after that question. However, he’s also noticed that it’s getting worse every single day to the point that it affects you even outside the battlefield, and because of this, he feels that he’ll need to confront you about this issue very soon.

~~~~~~

It’s another day at Gorge. BLU took a huge beating and you won with ease. You were put off the entire time as usual. Everyone was doing their own thing while Heavy and Medic packed all their equipment into the van. 

Scout and Soldier were chasing each other.

“Get back here, maggot! I’ll make you regret the day you were born!” Soldier screamed at the top of his lungs, waving his shovel around like a madman. Scout just laughed and pulled a face, pissing him off even more. 

Nearby, Demoman, Sniper and Engineer were having a friendly chat together over a couple of beers that Demo had brought along (despite Medic very clearly telling him to try and lay off the alcohol). Pyro was there as well but they were focused on playing with their favourite brand of matchsticks. 

Somewhere closeby, you were seated on the ground, knees to your chest, deep in thought. Your eyes were fixated on the blood-stained grass in front of you. It quickly made you feel sick, reminding you of the unpleasant battle earlier. You closed your eyes, trying to think of something more pleasant. 

Just then, Spy sat down beside you, wrapping an arm around your shoulder and giving you a kiss on your temple. 

“Salut, mon beau. You seem bothered. What’s wrong?” he asked you in a gentle tone. 

You looked to him, meeting his eyes. 

You really wanted to tell him what was going on but you felt so ashamed. Everyone else was fine with all the killings, why weren’t you? You don’t want to appear silly to Spy or the others so you always bottle up your negative feelings and just do your job. 

You thought that you’d get used to it eventually but you were dead wrong. It’s been eating away at you. Most nights, you struggle to fall asleep and even stay asleep due to recurring nightmares. The lack of proper sleep has given you bags under your eyes and constant headaches throughout the day. 

During mealtimes, you picked at your food and ate very little, having lost your appetite to the disturbing images that are stuck in your mind - bloody, beaten bodies with lifeless eyes. It made you feel like throwing up your guts. 

“I..” you bit your lip, turning away from Spy’s gaze, “It’s nothing, darling.”

You felt his hand on your shoulder tighten a little. 

He gently guided your face back to look at him with a hand, “You always say that. I don’t believe you, mon cœur. Please.. tell me the truth. I’m not going to judge you, I swear on my heart.”

He smiled at you encouragingly. You felt so vulnerable beneath his gaze. 

Before you had a chance to speak, Medic called out, “Time to go home, everyone. Get in the van!”

The other mercs started to head to the van from their respective places and you quickly took that chance to escape the conversation you were having with Spy, getting up and following them. 

Spy sighed as he watched you scurry away. He would have to ask you another time. 

The drive back was uncomfortable for you and Spy. The air between you two was tense. The other mercs didn’t seem to notice, chatting away as usual.

You tried to run off to your room as soon as you arrived back at base but Spy pulled you to the side. 

“Y/n, please. Just tell me what’s going on. I’m really worried about you.”

You shook your head, “I- I really need to go.” 

Then you made your escape to the safety of your room. 

~~~~~~

You decided to just skip dinner later on, partly because you couldn’t work up any appetite as usual and partly because you didn’t want to see Spy right now. Perhaps you’ll eventually tell him the truth of what’s going on with you, but for now, you just wanted to be alone. 

Wrapping yourself in the warm covers of your bed, you closed your eyes and drifted into an uneasy sleep. 

…

You awoke with a start around a few hours later after a particularly bad nightmare. It was one of the terrible ones - back in the battle field, surrounded by dead bodies while you drown in your own guilt and remorse. 

Clutching your shirt, you desperately tried to control your frantic breathing. Your chest and throat felt painfully tight as tears slowly ran down your face. Your hand went to the bedside table to grab your phone. 

You brought it to your face, ‘2:48 a.m.’

You dropped your phone down beside you and rubbed your face, staying like that for a few minutes. The terrible sinking feeling in your chest wouldn’t fade away though. 

Your mind drifted to the only person you knew could make you feel better - Spy. Knowing that he was most likely going to press you to tell him the truth, you hesitated going to his smoking room where you know he’ll be. 

That didn’t matter anymore though. You just wanted to be in the comfort of your boyfriend’s arms. 

Making sure to be quiet, you made your way to Spy’s smoking room. All the other mercs are asleep by this time, it’s usually just Spy who’s burning the midnight oil, reading and sipping on a glass of his favourite wine. 

When you reached his door, you slowly brought your hand up and knocked. 

Inside, Spy paused his reading and looked up towards the door. No one has ever come to his room this late and so he thought he might have imagined it for a second but he decided to call out just in case, “Who is it?”

You replied back, your voice hoarse from earlier, “Hey, it’s me..”

Spy already knew about your bad sleeping schedule so he was extra worried to find that you’re awake at this hour. He got up from his seat and rushed to the door to greet you. He pulled you into his arms the second he saw you. 

Withdrawing a bit, he cupped your face in your hands and kissed your forehead.

“Did something happen, Y/n?”

You let out a small laugh of self-pity, “Just.. a nightmare.”

Without a word, he stepped out of his room fully and closed the door behind him. He took your hand into his and led you down the hallway to his bedroom. Inside, he took off his coat and shoes and laid down on his bed, signalling for you to come over and lie beside him by patting the empty spot beside him. 

You climbed into it and sank into Spy’s open arms, sighing deeply when you felt his arms wrap around you tightly. 

You two shifted into a comfortable position - both lying on your sides, facing each other with you buried in his embrace, snuggling your face into the crook of his neck. 

He stroked your back comfortingly, allowing you to fully relax before he asked what was on his mind. 

“So, Y/n,” he paused, making sure he had your attention, “It’s time to tell the truth.”

You winced at his sentence, knowing that he was right. It’s time you told someone what was going on instead of suffering in silence. 

Whispering softly, you asked him, “Promise you won’t judge?”

Spy pressed a light kiss to your lips, “You know I won’t.”

A few more minutes of warm silence passed as you silently built up the courage to finally talk to Spy. 

“I.. I really don’t want to kill people anymore, Spy. I know I said that I was completely fine with all the bloodshed and everything during my very first mission but I-”

You had to stop to let yourself breathe. Tears started running down your face once more, accompanied by sharp and painful breaths. Spy guided your head against his chest, letting your tears soak his shirt, still holding you close.

He finished your sentence from earlier, “But you lied, didn’t you?”

You spoke again, your voice rushed and raw with emotion, “I- I can’t stand it anymore! I hate it, I hate having to kill people! I go to sleep and all I can see is their lifeless eyes and blood, I’m sick of it!”

Your chest burned with shame, terrified of what Spy was going to say to you. You thought he might think you’re being ridiculous or stupid. 

But no.

He just continued to hold you, rubbing your back soothingly and whispering sweet nothings into your ears. All the emotions you had bottled up over the past few months were flowing out now through pained sobs.

Once you had calmed down a bit, Spy spoke in a soft tone, “Don’t worry. You won’t have to anymore, okay? I’ll have a talk with Ms Pauling and the Administrator and we’ll find another way for you to help.”

You sighed in relief at his words.

You wanted to thank Spy, apologise to him for not telling him earlier, tell him you love him, but he shushed you, “Just rest, mon chéri. You can speak to me tomorrow when you have regained your energy. Je t'aime.”

Spy gave you a kiss on the head and with that, you drifted off to the most pleasant sleep you’ve had in a while, glad that everything would finally be okay.

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'Salut, mon beau' - Hello, my handsome. (French)

'Mon cœur' - My heart (French)

'Mon chéri' - My darling (French)

'Je t'aime' - I love you (French)