Trying to figure out what's been causing my migraines and finally have some leads!
Suspect n.1: my iPad. Another artist friend apparently started getting AWFUL migraines once she started using it, and swears she solved it with blue light filter glasses.
Apparently the iPad *can* cause migraines, because of the way it regulates luminosity which is different from most like laptops or screens. AND I did get the most intense migraine after like the first busy month after I bought it, when I drew on the iPad most days.
So this sucks, but I'm gonna try the blue light filter - and while redoing an eye checkup for the new glasses (last time was 6 yrs ago oops), the ppl at the eye center took the fact that I was having migraines pretty seriously and basically double-checked to see if my eye muscles were like. Always a bit too tense to make up for my eyesight EVEN with glasses and it turns out they were right!
It was pretty cool, they basically paralyze the muscle that makes the pupil focus so that it HAS to stay relaxed, and then check your eyesight again. And yeah I needed a bit of a correction on both eyes! This was also the most pleasant medical thingy I've had to do thus far - the technicians that checked up my eyes were young women who took me seriously and patiently explained what they were doing when I had curiosities.
It's a bit sad to say but I always light up when I see younger women at these jobs bc in my experience they're the only ones who take me seriously and treat me kindly. Like they basically did my eyesight check twice because they were worried about my constant headaches and knew eyes can play a part. Bless their hearts and I hope they go on to be full on doctors bc we need more healthcare professionals like them <3
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since james and i were able to meet up today (!!!!!!!) that means there’s only one person in this country left that i wanted to see that i couldn’t, but i think all of the people i met up with by chance or by surprise more than makes up for one scheduling conflict omg i’m so so so happy with this week i have missed everyone so much, and yk what it does honestly seem like i might have been missed just a little bit too… okay this is my last post about being in the uk i’ll be back to (probably being miserable in) the us tomorrow lol
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Went to a pretty dark place last night
Actually somewhat considered the possibility of having a kid at some point in the distant future
Although I then almost immediately turned around and imagined having a hot gay affair where the person I was cheating on my husband with forced me to take T, so 💀
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just thinking out loud but
I've always wanted to try songwriting but I feel held back somehow. it's hard to explain cuz I've never really encountered a creative endeavor where I've felt blocked quite like this. up to this point I've attributed it to simply a lack of training because it's the one creative pursuit I've never been actually taught how to do at some point, barring a couple years of recorder lessons in middle school 20+ years ago.
I actually really responded to the recorder. I think I would have done really well in the school band. if I could go back in time and change one life decision, I think it'd be that. but it wasn't in the cards, whatever.
that blockage still existed, though, even then. it's so hard to describe because it's all cognitive. some of it feels like garden variety lack of dexterity. some of it feels like whatever circuit is busted in my brain that makes math so difficult for me. some of it feels like whatever circuit is busted in my brain that gave me aphantasia and makes it hard for me to translate 3D to 2D when I'm drawing. it's like process errors happen and connections get missed. it's weird.
some of it is also just psychological too. me psyching myself out cuz new thing scary. but I don't think that's the primary road block. that feels more like a pothole to avoid.
I think I'm going to find a songwriting course to take while I'm on vacation.
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