#dn live blog

[thomas-the-goat-of-satan]

seventeen year old creature-boy Light Yagami, who is Totally Interested In Women And Definitely Not A Serial Killer, looks at porn magazines (porn magazines is generous; he's looking at scantily clad women, really) in the privacy of his own room and is so supremely weird about it that L, the man that has been Intently Observing Him Through Hidden Cameras, sees him doing it and goes, "oh. something is wrong." meanwhile, Light is internally monologuing himself into a frenzy. "ha!! take THAT. what're you gonna do now, L!? I look SO normal!!" but he doesn't. he never has. he never will. he's just used to everybody around him being too distracted by his artfully styled bangs and extensive collection of soft knitwear to notice his incredibly off-putting demeanor. he is So used to it, in fact, that he doesn't quite grasp that someone might find the image of him lounging around on his stomach and kicking his feet in the air while he stares at breasts to be. a little different. maybe even. disingenuous. oh no. shock and horror, shock and horror.

[malewifespike]

they really did not have to make death note this homoerotic that was certainly a choice that was made. or maybe this whole scene is more about the Jesus imagery of washing Light’s feet and like I get that but by god damn they made it sooooooooo gaaaaaaayyyy

[xian-acherins]

A LETTER FOR MY MUTUALS.. Mutual list post, (kinda) I love you all equally don't worry!!!

@jkgnggj , one of the very first people who followed me on this blog, Ruru is a caring, and very kind person! I am very glad that I am mutuals with you Ruru !!

@sometimesieatexpiredcatfoof , like the second pep I followed, loved your old theme's! Got me into TD, And is a very nice person!!

@lazepolar , one of my children. silly kuusuke fan, very sweet and can talk randomly too and will reply!

@mac33cheese , second one of my children! A skibidi saiki fan.. is a very nice pep! , tho the skibidi saiki..

@makifishcake , INSANE in a good way. the one who got the skibidi saiki to maccie , pretty cool pep! hoping to talk more!!!

@liquidpaperfoundation , the only dn blog I can go to.. CUZ IT'S SO GOOD! HOPE TO TALK W/ YOU MORE!!

@disfiguredlov3 , LOVE your theme!! your the one who helped me make my carrd! (tho u didn't relies!!) super silly!!

@lucidsadvocate , the only one who make's kubometo!! <3 u better tell me when we can do a art trade!! , cuz your art is so pretty!

@ilostmyhat-lilkittygirl , my partner for parenting laze & mac! love your blog theme!! tho your parenting is uh..

@oceanwithouthermoon , I love your take's on the saiki k fandom! and also your other takes! your super sweet and niceee!!

@tobisiksi , SUPER SILLY. i love your art! even tho u don't post it that much,

@lithth , silly kuusuke fan , SUPER COOL AND CHILL!

@arson-the-living-crime , the only bsd fan I got here! , your icon gives me life Would love to talk w/ you!!

@localmadscientist , silly kuusuke fan three , does science, chill and cool asfff!!

FOLLOW THEM OR I SHALL THROW TRUNK-KUN AT YOU!!!

[goblinbugthing]

Bugthing’s brand-new Pinned Intro Post!!!!!!

Hi! I’m Bug, I’m a mentally ill emo artist and fic author. This is where I put my nonsense for you internet ppl to look at.

I’m transmasc, currently identifying as xenogender, and I use he/xey/it/they pronouns. Mutuals, and only mutuals, can use my other neos, blood/bleed and gore/gory. I’m solian/mspec veldian, fictoromantic, and fictosexual. Please respect that!!

Currently, I’m into Hollow Knight, the Kirby series, A Hat in Time, Bug Fables, Cult of the Lamb, Rain World, and Fate/Zero. Do be warned, though, I can fall out of these fandoms at any time — my interests are almost always fluctuating.

This blog is safe for minorities! (e.g. disabled ppl, LGBTQ+ ppl, BIPOC, Palestinians, etc.)

I am a minor. Don’t be weird.

Other stuff under the cut!

(divider gif via @/animatedglittergraphics-n-more)

My asks are open! Feel free to ask me stuff about my hyperfixations, or whatever you wanna know about me, as long as it’s not too personal.

My other socials:

My YouTube channel (I don’t upload much)

My Wattpad I can’t link for some reason. My @ is koko-the-ann0yance on there (I hardly ever touch this one)

My Cohost (I won’t be posting there much, but I’ll be active!)

My AO3 (All my fics live here now)

My TikTok (Why do I have this? I couldn’t tell you.)

My $$app (Consider supporting me and my reckless spending addiction)

My other blogs:

@princes-creations-askblog — An askblog specifically for my OCs.

@ask-emporianroyals-au — My AHiT AU askblog.

@kirby-souljourney-au — My Kirby AU blog.

@hollowknightinsanity — My HK sideblog.

@kokothedrag0n — My RP blog, where I act as my sona.

Current works:

Kirby: Soul Journey — My Kirby AU fanfiction, taking place after Kirby and the Forgotten Land. (Read on Tumblr / Read on Wattpad / Read on AO3) (To be rewritten)

Kirby: Soul Journey oneshots collection — A set of oneshots created for K:SJ. (Read on Tumblr / Read on Wattpad / Read on AO3) (To be rewritten)

Hollow Knight: Empty Promises — A set of fics created for my base Hollow Knight AU, Empty Promises. (Read on AO3 / Wattpad link to be added)

My tag key:

#buggie’s rambles — Text posts

#buggie’s randoms — Nonsense stuff! In other words, my homemade memes

#buggie’s doodles — Doodles and sketches

#buggie’s characters — OC stuff

#buggie’s creations — Proper artwork

#buggie’s creations (in the making) — Work-in-progress artworks

#buggie’s building paradise — All my Minecraft build stuff :3 (here’s a list of all the mods i use if you want em)

#buggie’s stories — My original writing

#buggie’s answers — My answered asks

#buggie’s polls — Self-explanatory. My polls

#buggie’s queue — The Very Rare Queued Posts (the only one unaffected by the name change)

#buggie’s stims — Stuff I stim to

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#buggie irl — IRL pics of me, mostly just my gender euphoria

#saved 4 serotonin production — My comfort tag

#quicksave — Stuff I want to look at later

#important — Self-explanatory. Important stuff

#semi-important — I’m honestly not sure, just scroll through the tag if you want an idea, because I can’t describe it myself

#besties doodles — Art from my mutuals

#besties rambles — Ramblings from my mutuals

#other’s art (it’s awesome) — Other people’s awesome art

#other’s rambles (sick af) — Other people’s sick af rambles (I tend to forget to use this one…)

#bbg tag — Posts both by me and by other people about my F/Os

#images that describe my gender — My gender envy tag. Don’t question the stuff that’s in there.

I tag triggers with #cw (trigger).

I tag OCs with #oc: (oc).

If I make any new tags (or remember any ones I forgot), this section will be updated!

Also, please keep in mind that tumblr is a bit fucky and sometimes doesn’t show posts under tags for some reason! Some posts might have my old tags on them.

DNI list:

If any of these fit you, do not interact with my blog.

Pro//shippers

NSFW blogs (I scroll through every blog that follows me. I don’t wanna see that.)

TERFs

Transphobes, homophobes, racists, ableists, sexists, misogynists, antisemites, etc.

H//arry P//otter enjoyers (I fucking hate J.K. Row//ling and all her works.)

D//anganronpa-specific blogs (Very sorry — this is just a big trigger for me.)

People who support Israel’s genocide of Palestinians (Stay FAR away from me.)

People who ship The Knight/Ghost and the Grimmchild (I mean, you do you, but I don’t wanna. See that. Feels weird.)

A//I “art” supporters (this includes A//I generated anything. Text, music, images, ANYTHING. Go away.)

H//azbin fans (😐)

And I believe that’s it! Enjoy your time here :)

[lightyaoigami]

hi lightyaoigami (i love your url.) if you were in charge of making a live action tv series or movie of death note, what would it look like?

(normal voice, not insane at all) thank you for the question. this is something i think about a regular amount.

i think i'm allowed to be bigheaded on my own blog so i'm going to say that i would not do the canon ending of dn. i would branch off after the helicopter scene and from that point on i would follow the plot of my series lacuna. sorry for being real!

okay so stylistically my biggest inspiration would probably be -- bear with me -- the social network. it's got everything. insufferable smart people, gay tension, snappy dialogue, melancholy music. do you see my vision. do you get it. above, i have linked to the iconic opening scene with one of the absolute best original songs of any film of my lifetime.

as far as actual mystery/noir inspiration i would probably borrow from broadchurch or dark (the german netflix scifi series). both are compelling, and dark has the flavor of convoluted that lends itself to light's memory gambit/note-swapping.

if i were following the canon plot beats to the letter and hbo gave me free reign, i would include a canonical sex scene after the iconique lawlight fistfight. people seem to think they hooked up after the rain scene but I KNOW THE TRUTH!!!!!! i will now go into lurid detail. it would start off with the camera shaking all over the place, kind of obscuring what's happening as they are getting into it in the elevator/going down the hall, and then the camera would "sit" on the nightstand, focused on the alarm clock, and you could see the ~action out of focus in the bathroom. if anyone has seen shape of water it would be like the egg timer scene.

[kylars-owner]

sorry to be sappy but i really appreciate the friends I've made this past week thru this blog and @asylumdweller's server. between ya'll and my new DN friends I've made an amount of wonderfully kind, skilled, and accepting friends that I didn't even think possible just a month ago. I've been severely socially isolated my entire life due to bullying by the my peers and teachers growing uo, abuse and my abuser driving people away from me, bad family, and generally having no one left after i graduated high school so you all mean so, so, sooo much to me I'm serious. I'm at a place where, even though I still can't really see a future for myself, I'm not only willing and wanting but excited to keep living. i just want ya'll to know how much i appreciate ya'll, esp since I'm in a pretty difficult time irl right now <3 thank you sooo much

[srbachchan]

DAY 5268

Jalsa, Mumbai                 July 15,  2022                 Fri 4:17 pm

❤️ , July 16 .. loves and wishes for the birthday Ef .. Sanjay H Aggarwal .. be happy and in wellness .. 🌺 from the Ef .. .. and to Ef Israil Bachchan , endearingly keeping DN - this is for “Display Name” , as in DP for Display Picture ..  endearingly keeps DN after my Family Name .. and one thanks for this ❤️ .. belated happy birthday to you for the 15th .. love .. 🌺

Birthday - EF - Mazal Cohen , Shalini Singh Verma .. Friday, 15 July .. and repeated greetings to the Ef on this special day  .. love 🌹

Work calls and gives impetus to the creative nerves all about , seeking where the effort needs to be pulled out of .. and one discovers to one’s horror that there really is no such gadgetry at all within the system ..

cope with it buddy or give the life up .. !

I was at work for the RBI campaign and in the scene was a little kid about 5 or 6 years of age .. in the middle of a rehearsal he turned to me and said ..

‘excuse me  , how old are you ?’

I said  ‘80′ !

he snapped back  ‘ Oh ! so why are you working ? my grandparents are sitting at home and chilling .. you should do that also ..!!’ 

I did not have a reply for him ..

Primarily because I was astonished at the precocious veracity of this 5 yr old  ! 

And secondly, I did not have an answer  !

So bid him good bye at the end of the shoot , took a picture with him and gave him an autograph, instigated by his Mother , and left .. 

The conversation remained with me , as do many matters in this digitally informative encyclopaedic world, and found its placing today .. this morning .. of retired work .. and screamed and waved and applauded the mountainous presence of the live audience at ‘YKW’ ..

.. humbled in their reception .. and head bowed in apt humility ..

.. that is the very best that one can do in such conditions .. for one does not seem to be having the appropriate words to description .. 

the honour of love and appreciation that is needed to give back, shall ever vary and be insufficient .. but its presence shall never be denied ..

... on a graver note .. the Ef bickering amongst the Blog is an undesired element of the ethics on this platform .. we have , you and I been very cautious and exemplary in its presence .. any untoward action shall have the capacity to deviate from its morals .. 

that shall be destructive .. 

the over 5000 DAY’s of the connect have not been done in that spirit .. it is for all of us to preserve its sanctity and spirit 

Love and admiration 

Amitabh Bachchan

[imscaredofsoup]

Name: soup (to unlock my real name you either need to pay me money, go down my personal biography rabbit hole, be very attentive, or be my bestie pookie sweetie sweet patootie)

Age: 20

Pronouns: he/him

Yes, I'm scared of soup. Ask me about it.

Sideblogs:

art: @imscaredofart

tes: @martinseptimhugecock

mcyt: @quack-city

sdv gimmick blog: @joja-co-official

I straight up meow and whimper

Ah. You think there's going to be something new and exciting here.

Well. Allow me.

That's where I live:

I really like mp100, trigun stampede, star wars, genshin impact, honkai star rail, one piece, elder scrolls, and dungeon meshi. I can and will spam reblog anything related to those things

I love men also

And this is my dog:

I also like to make photos. I took the photo on my banner!

My previous pinned because I like it lots:

https://www.tumblr.com/imscaredofsoup/714606146625880064

If you want to tag me in a tag game and I don't do it I'm sorry I get nervous

My IP address:

IP. 92.28.211.234 N: 43.7462 W: 12.4893 SS Number: 6979191519182016 IPv6: fe80::5dcd::ef69::fb22::d9888%12 UPNP: Enabled DMZ: 10.112.42.15 MAC: 5A:78:3E:7E:00 ISP: Ucom Universal DNS: 8.8.8.8 ALT DNS: 1.1.1.8.1 DNS SUFFIX: Dlink WAN: 100.23.10.15 GATEWAY: 192.168.0.1 SUBNET MASK: 255.255.0.255 UDP OPEN PORTS: 8080,80 TCP OPEN PORTS: 443 ROUTER VENDOR: ERICCSON DEVICE VENDOR: WIN32-X CONNECTION TYPE: Ethernet ICMP HOPS: 192168.0.1 192168.1.1 100.73.43.4 host-132.12.32.167.ucom.com host-66.120.12.111.ucom.com 36.134.67.189 216.239.78.111 sof02s32-in-f14.1e100.net TOTAL HOPS: 8 ACTIVE SERVICES: [HTTP] 192.168.3.1:80=>92.28.211.234:80 [HTTP] 192.168.3.1:443=>92.28.211.234:443 [UDP] 192.168.0.1:788=>192.168.1:6557 [TCP] 192.168.1.1:67891=>92.28.211.234:345 [TCP] 192.168.52.43:7777=>192.168.1.1:7778 [TCP] 192.168.78.12:898=>192.168.89.9:667 EXTERNAL MAC: 6U:78:89:ER:O4 MODEM JUMPS: 64

If you play mahjong soul, kiss me.

[muttyagami]

do u have any thoughts on the death note drama? like the live action tv series. (I am so normal about the concept of near and mello sharing a body so very very normal)

so, uh... likely not going to be the answer you hoped for here. this ask may have an expiration date, as well, i try not to be too explicit about my conditions on this blog, but

regarding the mello/near thing in particular: i am the wrong guy to go to for, like, positive opinions on this subject. i'm one of the hosts of a system of 20+. the way the dn drama tackled DID was, hands down, one of the most offensive portrayals i've ever seen. i was cringing the entire time i watched it. please see the very end of this ask for notes.

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regarding the drama as a whole:

other than the above, i honestly think it gets too much shit. yes it's cheesy but it's very, very earnest, and i appreciate that. at first i had difficulties seeing the actor they cast as light as fitting the role, but he grew on me as time went on

i've seen the acting get a lot of shit. again, i say it's fine. the world could use more cheese, imo. watari is very cute (there's certainly an essay to be had about him being genuinely japanese in this adaptation, i feel like it may color the implications behind WH as an institution in a different way- i don't currently have the brain power for this essay but remind me to get back to it.) and L gives me violent cuteness aggression. my only criticism in that respect is that i don't think he was off-putting enough but that's hardly a cardinal sin.

and matsuda. can we talk about matsuda, man? most on the nose casting i have ever seen. matsuda i love u.

the raye penber edits were genuinely fucking ridiculous- i believe that's the one part where i didn't just laugh it off because like... what was any of that. also how dare y'all not give me naomi content.

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end of ask notes: i do not think mello and near sharing a body is an inherently bad concept. hell, done well, i think it'd be super neat. but it was not done well in the slightest in the drama. this isn't me assuming how you feel about it or anything, but as far as thoughts on the concept specifically how the drama has done it, i'm afraid i don't have anything positive to say.

[godsofdeathloveoranges]

Hello! I go by Orange or Citrus! My DN hyperfixation reoccurs roughly every few years so i figured I'd make a blog for it.

Near is my favourite, and my OTP for him is Meronia, but I also multiship him with just about everyone, including Matt, L, Light, BB, Minoru (if there's anyone around who ships that other than me lol) etc

Not keen on lawlight but its not a trigger and I can tolerate it so long as it's not the focus of a post/fic/etc.

Currently only an anime watcher (and dub truther, sorry) but maybe I'll eventually get around to the manga and live actions like I've been meaning to for years

This is a sideblog so if you leave me stuff in the notes know that i do see you and im not ignoring you! I just cant reply w/o coming on main lol

[thomas-the-goat-of-satan]

I wonder what Light wrote in his fake Death Note Distraction Diary. "I am a regular boy. I am genuinely interested in women's naked bodies. murder is supremely lame. I am so so so normal."

[mostlysignssomeportents]

This day in history

#15yrsago Elderly woman prohibited from photographing empty swimming pool “to prevent paedophilia” https://web.archive.org/web/20080726021844/https://www.metro.co.uk/news/article.html

#15yrsago Living on the Edge: Danny O’Brien’s talk about moving our personal info off Web 2.0 and onto our computers https://www.oblomovka.com/wp/2008/07/24/video-from-living-on-the-edge-opentech-2008/

#15yrsago Cameraheads in Seattle protest CCTVs in public places https://slog.thestranger.com/2008/07/in_case_you_forgot_the_city_is_recording

#15yrsago Yahoo Music shutting down its DRM server, customers lose all their paid-for music the next time they crash or upgrade https://arstechnica.com/uncategorized/2008/07/drm-still-sucks-yahoo-music-going-dark-taking-keys-with-it/

#15yrsago British ISPs sign up for surveillance and throttling of accused file-sharers https://web.archive.org/web/20080908081432/http://technology.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/tech_and_web/article4387283.ece

#15yrsago Brit academics call for Bletchley Park funding https://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/technology/7517874.stm

#15yrsago New York Yankees ban sunblock “to fight terrorism” — sell replacements at $5/oz https://nypost.com/2008/07/22/sunblockheads-at-the-stadium/

#10yrsago Machine vision breakthrough: 100,000 objects recognized with a single CPU https://ai.googleblog.com/2013/06/fast-accurate-detection-of-100000.html

#10yrsago Book-scanning brings the 19th century to life https://www.chronicle.com/blogs/conversation/2013/07/22/how-google-rediscovered-the-19th-century/

#10yrsago 14-year-old girl who was called a “whore” for her pro-Choice sign expresses disappointment in adult world https://web.archive.org/web/20130723222641/http://www.xojane.com/issues/billy-cain-tuesday-cain-jesus-isnt-a-dick-so-keep-him-out-of-my-vagina

#10yrsago Goths of Kenya https://thinkafricapress.com/goth-nairobi/

#10yrsago 3-Bee printing: tricking bees into making wax sculptures https://www.itsnicethat.com/articles/film-80-000-bees-work-together-in-a-mould-to-make-a-3d-sculpture

#5yrsago Half a billion IoT devices inside of businesses can be hacked through decade-old DNS rebinding attacks https://www.armis.com/blog/dns-rebinding-exposes-half-a-billion-devices-in-the-enterprise/

#5yrsago Europe fines four electronics companies $130,000,000 for price-fixing https://www.cnbc.com/2018/07/24/europe-fines-asus-denon-marantz-philips-pioneer-for-fixing-prices.html

#5yrsago Liberaltarianism: Silicon Valley’s emerging ideology of “disruption with economic airbags” https://www.wired.com/story/political-education-silicon-valley/

#5yrsago Court orders carriers to remotely brick phones that have been smuggled into prisons https://apnews.com/article/ccd7b6429a7f43228f88c17ca469c92c

#5yrsago Voice assistants suck (empirically) https://www.nngroup.com/articles/intelligent-assistant-usability/

#5yrsago Illinois’s “anti-corruption” Republican governor handed out $300,000 in cash at a campaign rally https://www.politico.com/story/2018/07/23/illinois-governor-rauner-cash-giveaway-736244

#5yrsago America’s economic growth has come from subprime borrowing by the poorest 60% https://web.archive.org/web/20180724011828/https://www.reuters.com/article/us-usa-economy-consumers-insight/mortgage-groupon-and-card-debt-how-the-bottom-half-bolsters-u-s-economy-idUSKBN1KD0EM

[away-ward]

This is the message from the Damon Torrance Hate anon. Below the cut is a message I received from someone who has less than favorable feelings (complete disdain, actually) for Damon Torrance.

If you are a fan and might find yourself upset over someone not loving your fav, read at your own risk. It literally opens with the disclaimer: "This is not a safe space for Damon Torrance or Kill Switch fan" so, uh. heed the warning.

Editing Note: Not as bad as I thought at first. It is long though. Edited with some added thoughts.

I actually don't interact with fandom outside my blog or responding to select posts. I mean, I saw people hating on Em on goodreads and was immediately like "this is not the place for me" and promptly created a blog so that I could curate my experiences.

So...I guess this is the rest of the fandom, huh?

(psst, the pizza boxes contain all my love for willemmy)

I don't know. I've always been partial to the "find people who like what you like and you'll have a great time" idea. And I think I've done a pretty good job so far.

These are the only PD books I've read, other than Punk 57 for obvious reasons. I have no interest in the others, so I can't relate on devouring PD's books. And honestly, I was bored with Kill Switch too. I was bored with Hideaway, and Corrupt my second time reading it. I almost didn't get to Nightfall (oh, what could have been. I could have saved myself all this DN brainrot...but alas, here we are).

I don't know where you got the idea that having money and privilege equals competency... but that's very much not the case. In fact, I would argue the opposite? Doing without the things you need and not have access to tools creates creative problem solvers; people who aren't used to having excess tend to know how to get around that or learn how to deal without it.

Added Edit: Also, Winter went to a school for the blind for years. She didn't live with her abusive, non-accommodating family. They accommodated her by sending her to a school where she could dance and that would cater her disability. They also go her a guide dog when she came back, and tried to speak to the school about what she wore as part of the uniform because she didn't like it. She was just as privileged in that regard as the other wealthy people in the story. Her family may have been criminals who valued money above loyalty, who basically sold their daughter for financial security, thereby setting Winter apart as "different," but they didn't ignore her blindness. Arion grew up with a younger sister who got a lot of attention for her disability and being a victim of the Torrance Boy. She acted selfishly and stupidly, but it's easy to see how not being given a fair amount of attention after Winter fell might have given her a complex.

Either way, I didn't walk into DN thinking I was going to get a perfectly planned heist story with intelligent criminals, where you have to study their every word and move because you never know what's coming next. I would have loved it if that were the case, but it's not what I was expecting.

The horsemen in general have double standards. They see things from their point of view and only caring about what they want. I'm not sure if we're supposed to see this as character flaws, a result of their privilege, or if this is something we're suppose to ignore so that we can root for them. *shrugs* it's not really that deep, is it?

What do you mean Michael and Rika got it together by Conclave? These two are a mess every day of their lives. As long as they're happy, I guess? I mean... Rika changed all their wedding plans at the last second to accommodate the multi-wedding party and Michael was just like 'yeah babe whatever you want' ? They don't ever talk about anything.

I have no thoughts on Rika being mayor at 22 other than it's dumb. I guess it's a good thing they live in a town that watched her grow up so she's the town's darling? Who's gonna vote against her, and risk the Torrance sibling's ire?

I'm not sure what character growth you're referring to. I haven't looked at Rika that hard. But I agree that the other characters needed a chance to shine. It should have been more balanced. Come on, PD, share the love. It can't be the Rika and Damon Show all the time.

I always forget he's only have Russian. I really didn't like the surprise mom storyline. Half Russian, half Dutch South African.

I'm not sure if it's "fetish" with Russians or just a love of mafia stories? Because I see just as much for the Italians and Irish as I do for Russians...

The thing about Damon is that he has a valid excuse actually, let's go with "reason." He had a valid reason for the way he is. Between all four boys, I'd say that Damon and Kai are the only ones who can actually explain why they do the things they do.

Damon didn't just experience "abuse." He was neglected and experienced CSA and punished for things that weren't his fault, over an extended period of time. With no one to come to his aid until he forced Banks to stay with him. And the most truly unfortunate part of this is that there are far too many readers who can relate. Too many readers have gone through the exact same or similar enough experience and find comfort in Damon's inner thoughts. Not that they support all of his actions (I truly hope not), but maybe they understand where he's coming from and the journey he has to undergo to being a better person? Also, sometimes people just like fictional men who like to draw blood.

Now, all that is to say... I didn't find Damon any more interesting that the other guys. He wasn't more twisted or darker. Just a different shade of gray. For me at least. I wasn't here for the hype, having read the series long after it finished. I don't completely understand all of the Damon love either. I wasn't impressed, but I was sympathetic to his story. I liked him a lot more in the past scenes with Winter than most other parts of the series. But because he was such a wild card, I usually was paying attention to what he was doing. Was I overall entertained? No. but I was paying attention.

I think a big part of this series was supposed to be "These men underestimate and don't appreciate women...except for the few that can keep up." Banks and Rika (and Emmy and Winter) are supposed to appear more competent than the boys sometimes. Otherwise it's just dumb, hot girls getting strung along by even dumber, hotter boys. And that's no fun. So yeah, of course Rika and Banks are going to pull the rug from under Damon sometimes.

I'm not gonna pretend that if Damon had tracked down a brother in addition to Banks (come on, we know he probably has like at least ten siblings somewhere out there), that Gabriel would have chosen the male heir over Banks. Banks was a last resort and a way to piss Damon off. I can't remember if it worked or if Damon was happy to be rid of the responsibly. And honestly, Banks was happy to take it. She'd been underestimated her entire life and finally had the chance to do what she knew she could. I hope that Banks and Damon had a good long talk and he was happy for her.

But oh, Damon standing back and letting Banks kick ass? Love siblings who support each other. Can we at least agree on that?

Damon biding his time was weird. But I think that had a lot to do with the fact that the story was tied to only happening in October, so Damon had to simmer for a year between books. I think it might have been interesting if we had seen through the narrative that Damon had been making moves and October is just when it always came to a head because of the pressure of Devil's Night. But Damon has a tendency to go to extremes, so being overly dramatic (throwing an entire wedding to Arion to get access to Winter and her family's fortune) or being completely invisible does fit his MO. He's a drama queen, after all.

I would have loved if we'd gotten to see more of the relationship between the guys. If we knew how Damon's bond with Michael and with Kai worked, instead of only with Will. I think their friendship should have had more emphasis overall, since it was such a catalyst for events in Corrupt.

I've never watched VD (and I'm not going to) so I have no idea how they compare. I know who you're talking about - just not the details of the character.

No worries. We'll crown you ruler of Damon Hater Nation. Here's your crown.

Yeah, i didn't feel much towards Winter one way or another. On my part, I was mostly confused. It seemed like she liked to tempt and tease Damon and then convince herself she was innocent? But again, I haven't re-read Kill Switch so I don't remember very well.

But I will disagree with you on the Emmy front. Winter was immediately accepted by Rika because of their past relationship in school. Kai and Michael didn't have a problem with Rika bringing her into the group, and Will was all for using Winter to get to Damon, but did seem to genuinely like her as well.

Winter had the benefit of being the enemy of their enemy, until the Damon was no longer the enemy. And then they were all just friends, except for Winter and Damon, who were also lovers. At no point was Winter on the outside of the group or made of feel less than because of what she did to Damon (other than by Damon at his worse moments). Those boys, whether intended or not, tried to make Emory feel like she was the worst person for sticking up for family.

You bring up an interesting point about Alex. Unlike Banks, Winter, and Emory, she was in the books from the start. She got the chance to interact with every single character. So even though she not a main character, not even deserving of her own novella, we have plenty of interactions of her to pull from, and barely any from the other three girls with each other or other members of the group. That's really not fair.

I have no thoughts on the group sex scenes. I basically read DN for the character dynamics and wanting to know about the little nerd Will loved enough to commit several crimes for. I could do without them and it wouldn't change the story much for me.

Added Edit: I thought Winter was trying to comfort Will and herself from the trauma they just experienced together. I think Will went along with it because he finds comfort in sex. It could have been anyone and he would have been in the same spot. Damon was the one who put limits on their interaction because he has control issues and doesn't want anyone else to be "in" Winter, ever.

Beyond that, I have no thoughts on what it says about their characters.

I haven't read ZA (zodiac academy, i think? I also won't be reading it).

So wait? You hate Alex but hate the way people treated Alex??? I have no idea what you mean, honestly, because one of my biggest gripes with NF was the scene where Alex was laying in a hospital bed while the boys made all sorts demands of Aydin because "Alex deserved it". like. Those boys very much did love Alex and consider her one of their own. Will didn't go after Martin until after he shot Alex. Because who did Will fight when it came down to it? Not Martin.

He picked Aydin.

He left Emory try and fight Martin.

So don't start with "the group doesn't love Alex." Because that is absolute nonsense.

And why did Emory have to stand there and watch them act that way in the hospital??? When they'd never said or did anything for her? They never even apologized!!!

I mean...Alex said it was her job? At least he respects her right to claim it. Rika was always trying to get Alex to do something else, like she was still stuck on her friend wanting be a sex worker. I think Alex could have gotten any job she wanted (Rika could have hired her for literally anything; Alex worked at the dojo; she was helping Winter plan tours). The job she chose to introduce herself with was clearly a point of pride for Alex (healthy or not) and Damon acknowledge it was her right. Was he gross about it? yeah, probably. It's Damon, after all. but he didn't shy away from it. She owned it and he respected that.

The group/share scenes mostly went over my head.

Added Edit: I think I do understand what Anon was saying now. They hated Alex for being in everything and the way she treated Emory, but hated the way the Horsemen and occasionally the other women treated Alex as if she was disposable.

My only response to this is Alex made it her job to get close to powerful, wealthy men. She was also the only one unattached romantically in Conclave, so she wouldn't be "cheating" on anyone by preforming her "job."

For PD, I feel that Alex was whatever they needed her to be, and that's Alex's biggest failing as a character.

Did Rika do that more than once? Must have missed it...

And I'm not sure if that scene was more about Damon than it was about Winter comforting Will. At that point, Damon and Will's friendship had been reestablished and Winter held some affection for Will as well. So similar to the Rika comforting Kai scene, Winter wanted to comfort Will and Damon just had to let that happen because he couldn't "control her" or tell her what do to. But he could control Will, so Will got the limits.

It was the exact same situation with Michael, Rika, and Kai. Michael couldn't impose his will on Rika anymore than Damon could with Winter. I have a lot of sarcastic thoughts about this scenario, mostly because it does conflict with Michael and Damon's characters up until that point, but PD needed it to happen so...

But that's what I meant when I said PD uses the same scenarios over and over again. What happened with Michael/Rika/Kai was the same as Damon/Winter/Will. And what happened with Will/Emmy/Alex/Aydin was the same thing that happened with Michael/Rika/Banks/Kai. It's the exact same situation, and even similar motivations, just with different faces.

I'm so tired.

What do you mean they don't matter to Will? Everything Will did was for the family. Will was gone for over a year, and I'm sure he thought about home in that time. We come into the story with Emory, which is what consumes Will's thoughts from that point forward. The circumstance changed for Will but we didn't get to see the before, only the after.

Alex was shot by Martin while Will was fighting Aydin so Aydin couldn't get to Alex. And then Will threw Martin and himself off a cliff, nearly dying. Like...Will clearly cares too much sometimes.

Wait wait wait are you switching tracks of the Damon hate train? You know that any Damon sympathy is strictly forbidden in Damon Hate Nation! Do I have to revoke your crown????

Why would Emmy need to make it look like she wanted nothing to do with him? In high school, she didn't want anything to do with him. After, they had that bond over you know...killing a person...And he was the only one who defended her (kinda). She didn't need to pretend to avoid him, and she didn't even really try to.

I mean, I think of all the boys, Will would have probably been the most likely to help Damon. But Damon wouldn't have let him. Mainly, he'd have to explain his abuse, which would tarnish Will's sunshine view of the world, and embarrass him. It might have changed the dynamics of their relationship, and Damon couldn't allow for that. But I think if Will wasn't out getting drunk, or was getting drunk in the cemetery instead of the bus, and had stumbled upon Damon, he probably would have helped. He's a ride or die kind dude.

I mean...overall, the guys do suck. They're also just not meant to be analyzed to this degree lol. I mean, I do with willemmy only because I want to write silly little stories about them. I really don't think this deeply about the rest of the series usually, unless I'm asked...

...and I certainly didn't intend to become any type of voice in this fandom.

I...have no thoughts.

Did you mention Em???? I mean yeah...Damon and Emory did have a deeper connection that Winter and Will!

Where were their moments? I want me some Damon and Emory non-spicy moments. The scene at the end wasn't enough.

I guess they're over hyped but maybe I only feel that way because I think Willemmy isn't hyped enough?? and technically they're also just a bland white couple with a boring trope for a backdrop (I mean, rich popular jock and the scholarship nerd? GrumpyxSunshine? Golden retriever bf and black cat gf? who's never heard of that???)

I hope you rested after all that. Do you feel better having gotten it off your chest?? I sure hope so, that was a lot. It's okay. this is a safe space. deep breath in....and exhale.

It's okay. Damon Torrance can't hurt you.

You're fine. My day wasn't ruined. I don't consider myself a Damon hater and I was a little confused at the start (for some reason, I only get these messages right before I go to sleep so I'm half awake when I read them for the first time), but we got there in the end.

If you have anything to say to me or the anon, all I ask is that we're respectful in the comments and replies. Thanks!! This is all meant in good fun (at least from my end).

[eyecicles]

Can you tell me about the fanon theories which exist in the dn fandom ? I just noticed that weird ryuzaki persona theory while I was checking your blog and now I am curious about the other other weird theories? The only other theory I know is that Light lived through old age and then went to "mu" and suffered the same way in which he wrote the victim's deaths . And are there any creepypasta theories ?

Haha, I've never heard that one before. But here are a few theories that come to my mind:

Light becomes a Shinigami after his death (pretty much the fault of DN Relight)

that “Mu” means something more than literal nothingness

Near controlled/killed Mikami (this one is obviously in the manga itself and not that far-fetched)

Near controlled and killed Misa

L is Light from the future

various theories about L faking his death

B and L are actually twins

B's father is a Shinigami

And I sadly don't know any well-known creepypasta about DN, though there are, of course, people who claimed they either bought or found a “real” Death Note, and that they killed someone with it. Stuff like that.

[nevermoredragon-main]

i have never considered namimatsu before but now i am Intrigued. as a Matsuda Enjoyer i can always be convinced to pair him with handsome men. i wish to hear your thoughts on the appeal of namimatsu, if you're so inclined to share!

Ahhh I'll do my best to explain why I like it, but honestly my thoughts might be all over the place because I like to ramble.

I think at the very heart of it to me is I honestly love shipping rarepairs a lot, and pairings that no one, or very few, have decided to ship before. I discovered @namimatsuceo's fic and blog, and then after a bit of digging discovered a very old untranslated namimatsu doujin that is from like 2005(which I then commed a friend to translate for me. I put it on my tumblr and I'll dig up the links later). Then this previous summer was one where me and a bunch of mutuals in the dn fandom had the time to really have fun thinking about the pairing.

That's the history for me. A very good chance encounter with a pairing I felt inspired to try to think of stuff about. And honestly thinking of interesting new situations and dynamics between characters that haven't really ket before is very fun, and I think you could do a lot with. Like, for instance, did you know that Namikawa dies a week before the one year anniversary of Ukita's death? Finding that out some time ago threw me and started giving me major angst. Then also, in between Higuchi's death and Namikawa's death, there's a period of around 8 months, so it's fun thinking of how namimatsu might get together, and then proceed to fall in love, in that window of time. (and then immediately try to think of ways namikawa could avoid death lmao)

My personal favorite way to think about it is Namikawa falling hard and fast, and trying to be a tsundere but ultimately failing, giving into the inevitable Matsuda obsession all of us have, and Matsuda meanwhile is currently a mix of just depressed and feeling like he's useless and just "I am literally just some guy so why does a rich guy like you care so much?" And I think it definitely also is a mutual admiration between them too. Not to mention I definitely think it would be good and healthy for Matsuda if he had a relationship with someone not in the task force, and not involved in the Kira Case(because after Higuchi I think the rest of the Yotsuba would mostly just focus on trying to restore their company/just move on with their lives after that)

I think my last note about it for now is that I think the reactions of Matsuda and Namikawa's groups to them dating would be really funny.

Like, "wtf Namikawa, you're dating the guy who was spying on us and faked his death and caused Higuchi to die?!"

"That was weeks ago. Things change."

Then of course for Matsuda he's dating a suspect who at one point was definitely involved with the murders, and the entire task force is definitely not gonna be happy to hear that.

Aside from that, definitely check out my friend @infinitelycynical's fics, and namimatsuceo's. They definitely deserve the love if you are interested.

I have a lot more thoughts too. But too many brainworms. I tried to make this sort of short but I definitely failed lol. (If any mutuals have any other thoughts I would definitely like the additions lmao)

[13eyond13]

13 are you doing okay? You posted a suicide joke and some other sad stuff. I know you’re an adult and can look after yourself but I hope you’re okay :(

Aww I'm sorry, you're right that was pretty dark even for a DN blog. I'm okay and not suicidal, though I wasn't really doing that okay maybe a month or two ago? I was having trouble getting out of bed or doing anything that I was supposed to be doing like my schoolwork or my job or taking care of myself, and my mom got pretty worried and checked on me. I ended up getting help from my doctor for depression, and I am much more functional and getting better now. It seemed to have been sort of brought on by going through the bad hurricane and falling into too much thinking and alone time at home by myself maybe, but I also realized it's something I've also been living with basically my entire adult life and just assuming was totally normal until now. I think it can be helpful to talk openly about mental health struggles and not feel like you have to hide them or disappear until you're feeling perfectly chipper again, so that's why I talk about it, but I don't mean to cause any alarm or to joke callously about seriously upsetting things. I appreciate you checking in anon ♡