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gibberishfangirl · 1 day
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WIND BREAKER | would you kiss me for $10 or the prettiest girl on the world for $1000?
Synopsis ✰ you ask your boyfriend a question
Characters ✰ Hakura Sakura, Hajime Umemiya, Hayato Suo, Akihiko Nirei, Jo Togame, Choji Tomiyama
Contains ✰ sfw! slight cursing, airhead moments during Ume’s section, just content of you testing and teasing your boyfriend
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Hakura Sakura ᡣ𐭩
you’re completely caught off guard when you saw that Sakura was actually thinking about it. he just sat across from you in deep thought. you were 100% sure he would’ve laughed off the question and not give it a second thought. you immediately frowned and glared at the boy. meanwhile, Sakura was trying to find an answer to avoid admitting he wanted to kiss you. Sakura looked up to meet your dark eyes and let out a sweaty smile.
“uh- why would you ask something like that??” he blurted out.
“well what’s your answer? you sure took a while thinking about it.” you glared as he winced.
“well- you know, no! i’m not answering it! you’re just trying to trick me.” he said crossing his arms and facing the opposite direction from you.
“well the answer’s not that hard!” you argued.
“it’s not! it’s obvious, i would kiss you because you’re the prettiest girl anyway.” he admitted with a blush.
“oh? why didn’t you just say that the first time?” you were completely caught off guard by his honesty.
“because it’s not an appropriate question to ask in public.” Sakura argued not being able to fight off the blush or small stutters in his speech.
“why? because you said you want to kiss me?” you teased.
“shut up! i never said that exactly.”
“you could if you want to.”
“stop it!” he facepalmed slowly wanting to die in that moment.
Hajime Umemiya ᡣ𐭩
“so… what’s your answer?” you questioned with an eyebrow raised and your arms crossed. you couldn’t help but tap your foot in anticipation. it’s been precisely 30 seconds since you’ve asked your question but it’s felt like a life time since. “wait you haven’t even given me a chance to reply.” he laughs as you rolled your eyes and threw you arms up “can you just answer the question pleaseee.” you whined.
“i would choose the prettiest girl in the world.” he smiles. his response instantly makes you freeze. what the hell? why the hell would he say that??? he’s supposed to choose you.
“huh?? what kind of fucked up response is that Ume? I thought you liked me, wrong answer!” you scolded with a pout. “i swear you get off at upsetting others, you freak!” you emphasized going full on lecture mode.
“ah? what do you mean? i gave a great response.” he argued completely shocked you were upset. he thought you would’ve admired his response.
“you just said you would kiss a girl who isn’t me, how is that a good response?” you were confused as to why he was confused.
“yeah and who’s the prettiest girl in the world?” he asked as if the answer was obvious.
“well i don’t know probably whatever celebrity is your type?”
“no it’s you.” he slightly smiles once he realizes the misunderstanding you two were having.
“oh.” you were madly blushing from pure embarrassment.
“yes, oh.” he responds before leaning down to place a small kiss on your lips.
Hayato Suo ᡣ𐭩
you had seen all over social media of girls asking their boyfriends if they would rather kiss them for $10 or the prettiest girl on earth for $1000. it seemed pretty harmless so you wanted to ask your own loving boyfriend. although it hadn’t crossed your mind how much it would hurt your feelings if he didn’t choose you. now you were anticipating his answer, although that didn’t stop you from asking.
“Suo. I have a question to ask you.” you managed to get out before backing down. your voice alone immediately had him turning around, “yes?” he responded guiding his full attention from his friends to you before he moved to sit next to you.
“If you had to choose… would you rather kiss me for $10 or kiss the prettiest girl on earth for a thousand?” you finally stammered out after a small pause.
“well technically I’ll have $1010 since I’ll already be kissing the most beautiful girl on earth when I kiss you.” he smoothly and quickly answered with the most heart warming smile. you couldn’t help your lips from parting with a surprised smile of your own.
“how sweet.” you murmured softly with a blush.
“yes, so was this just another way of you asking me to kiss you without directly saying it?” he asked while leaning closer to you.
“i- no! i was genuinely curious.” you huffed out crossing your arms.
“oh okay, if you say so.” he lightly laughed out moving back to his original spot.
Akihiko Nirei ᡣ𐭩
of course he knows the question. unlike some of the other boys he’s very well informed about the latest trends. he knows all about the popular questions and what the “correct” answers are. not that it makes his responses any less true or takes away any meaning.
“i’m already kissing the prettiest girl in the world whenever i kiss you. besides it’s not like anyone would need to pay me to kiss you.” he admitted a bit shyly towards the end. his words almost had you swooning over him. you were cheesing so hard for the rest of the day all your friends kept asking what made you so happy.
Nirei felt a bit guilty about knowing the truth behind the question in a way but it quickly went away since he meant what he said to you. not to mention seeing the smile on your face made his entire week, if not month. Nirei would never tell you a lie or tell you something he didn’t mean… in most cases. depending on how absurd the questions you ask him get.
Jo Togame ᡣ𐭩
he doesn’t even tolerate it, he doesn’t have time for your nonsense. sometimes he’ll tease you or bite into it for some amusement. today was not one of those times. he immediately shut down your question with a stern “no.” you quickly frowned and scoffed at him.
“what? you can’t just say no. answer it! i won’t get mad.” you lied. Togame gave you an unamused expression with an eyebrow quirked up. ‘you’re lying’ is what his eyes were telling you. what made it worse is you knew you were lying. if Togame dared to imply to that he would kiss another girl you’d probably go to jail for attempted murder.
a small smirk escaped from the corner of his mouth before opening it to say, “well, i guess i got to make money somehow no? $10 wouldn’t be enough for me to last a day.” your jaw immediately dropped at his response with a small gasp.
“so? whatever happened to love conquers all?” you argued, not that those words have ever escaped Togame’s mouth.
“i’ve never said that before, besides love definitely doesn’t overpower bills.” he shrugged.
“how mean! say you’re sorry and that you love me.” you ordered slamming your hands on the table the two of you were sitting.
“i’m sorry, i love you.” he responded with a matching condescending smile and tone. an amused expression finally reached his face as you let out another surprised gasp, crossing your arms and facing the opposite direction of his.
you took a small break from asking Togame silly questions after that day. keyword: small, you were back to your antics and regular self after sulking for three days.
Choji Tomiyama ᡣ𐭩
poor Choji has no idea what to say or how to properly answer. he thinks you’re genuinely asking and want him to be literal with his answer. he’s convinced there isn’t a wrong answer, because you told him so. yes, you tricked him and he obviously fell for it. he thinks strongly about how much $10 can get him and how much $1000 can help him. he wants to answer with a reasonable explanation but can’t help feeling off by his choice. he’s been side-eyeing you for about five minutes now. you’ve been patiently sitting across from him with your head resting between both your hands. you can’t help but kick your feet while waiting, you really wanted to know his answer. you wanted him to answer legitimately but you’ll still be upset if he chooses wrong. Choji was biting his bottom lip, eyes narrowed, unsure if he should answer.
he finally opened his mouth, “are we dating in this scenario?” you could slightly feel your smile drop at his question before picking it back up.
“would that make a difference?” you asked slightly taken back from his question.
“…yes?” his tone of voice came out more as a question than an actual statement. you could tell he was unsure of what to say. you couldn’t stop your smile from completely dropping this time nor did you bother to fix up a new one.
“oh. okay, then we aren’t dating in this scenario.” you stated leaning back into your chair with your arms crossed. after a moment of silence you opened your mouth again to say, “go on…”
Choji didn’t respond, instead he studied your face. his eyes carefully examined each feature and your entire expression before moving onto your body posture. he could tell your energy completely shifted from the excited playful one you had earlier. finally he answered
“…no, i sense i’ve made a mistake of some kind.”
Choji definitely made a mistake. no, he did not answer the question. he asked Togame for advice on what to do next time. Togame facepalmed once hearing what Choji told you in response.
“was it that bad?”
“it’s the worst response i’ve heard.”
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ghoulysaphomet · 20 hours
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An exempt from my newest Chatfic
Sharing this on Tumblr because I actually think it's funny, and because I'm considering making this into a mini-comic scene.
Chatnames:
Abel: Jason
Cain: Cass
Dickiebird: Dick
*Eggplant Emoji*: Stephanie
NotDamian: Damian
Queen: Barbara
Stoplight: Duke
Timber: Tim
Chat Room: Is that a bat? no. Is it a bird? Also no. We don’t know what that is.
Stoplight: what was that 
Cain: you should be asleep
Stoplight: well yeah i was asleep
Stoplight: ?? 
Stoplight: is someone crying?
Timber: It’s fine nothing’s wrong, Stephanie was just overreacting 
Stoplight: it doesnt sound like steph crying though
*Eggplant Emoji*: i thought a fucking demon was in the kitchen excuse me for freaking out 
*Eggplant Emoji*: what did you want me to do? conveniently drop onto the floor with spread legs saying ‘oh no step-monster i tripped and cannot get up pls help me’ huh tim? is that what you wanted? 
Timber: Uhm. 
*Eggplant Emoji*: no tim that’s not what you do in that scenario. no you find the first fucking thing you can find and you hurl that shit. do you understand
Timber : Yes? 
*Eggplant Emoji*: i dont believe you
Timber : But also, why is that your example? 
*Eggplant Emoji*: you know why.
Abel: lol
Dickiebird: but did it have to be my cereal
Stoplight: woah wait a minute
Stoplight: back up a bit. i feel like y’all may have glossed over something
Stoplight: what was that about a demon in the kitchen?
Timber: There was no demon. 
Timber: It was just Jason. 
Stoplight: ..okay that doesn’t really clarify anything? 
*Eggplant Emoji*: yeah well i didnt know that! how was i supposed to know his eyes glow in the dark like some analog horror creature?
Abel: rude
Dickiebird: :( my cereal 
*Eggplant Emoji*: dude you were sitting on the counter (alfred is going to murder you. was the rat not enough?) in pitch blackness eating a soggy bowl of cereal 
*Eggplant Emoji*: thats on u.
Dickiebird : its perfectly normal to eat cereal as an adult, its an easy meal and i was tired
*Eggplant Emoji*: uh-huh sure and next thing you'll say that you pour milk before the cereal too
Timber: What's wrong with that? That's clearly the superior way to eat cereal if you’ll eat it with milk. 
Stoplight: are we sure jasons the demon
Abel : don't drag me into this
*Eggplant Emoji*: tim. no.
Timber : Uh Tim, yes?
Timber: Soggy cereal is disgusting. If you pour milk on top of dry cereal it’ll all just get mushy and gross! If you pour milk first though you can strategically eat parts of it so it’ll retain the maximum capacity of crunch. 
Abel: it’s cereal.
Abel: only you would be overthinking, planning and ‘strategizing’ the best way to eat cereal. 
*Eggplant Emoji*: why are you surprised this is coming from the guy eating oats like its cereal 
Timber: ?? It is!! Oats with milk and cocoa powder on top is a valid meal? 
*Eggplant Emoji*: you dont even like oatmeal 
Timber: Oats are delicious. Oatmeal is gross. 
Abel: lemme guess. you hate tomatoes but like ketchup? 
Timber: Ew. no. 
Timber : I hate tomatoes and ketchup both, thanks.
Timber: I love tomato juice, though. 
Abel: bruh 
Stoplight: wait if dick was in the kitchen…
Stoplight: why didnt he react to jason/a demon breaking in to rob the fridge?
Timber : He probably recognised him?
Dickiebird : what if the demon had a family at home to feed. huh. what then?
NotDamian: Grayson likes to take stupid risks when he’s tired and hungry, especially when he’s both. I doubt he recognized the apparition as Todd and deemed the cereal worth it. this is backed up by the emotional outburst of brown taking his meal away.
Stoplight: ahh he’s the one crying 
Dickiebird: it was good cereal ok. 
-Cassandra and Jason's usernames are linked and sorta puns, in that Cain was Cass's last name (She goes by Wayne now) and that Jason was the first sibling to die.
And that's it! This is from the 2nd chapter of my newest chatfic "'Cus everytime we touch I get this feeling (That I want to kick your ass)" which can be found here on ao3.
There's no strict plotlines or anything. It's honestly just me having fun with these characters. It's not based on social media usage, because I don't have any other social media accounts aside from my tumblr (nor do i look at stuff from there) so it's just going to be fun scenarios and references to other fandom media by either inside jokes or very vague references lol.
I made this fic because I wanted to do something fun, so this is completely self indulgent.
Just fun tidbits on the batfam in this verse, which is probably more or less aligned with the WFA canon.
-It's an AU where Bruce is a good parent and went to therapy. He didn't revive the joker when Dick killed him.
- Jason wasn't revived as a Wayne and is usually referred to as a family friend in public. He has tattoos from the all-caste, which I believe he has canonically in one of the webcomics.
- Tim isn't UwU soft baby boy who needs help and someone to save him. He's unapologetically unhinged. So there's a lot of references to him knowing things or saying things he's not supposed to know. Let him be creepy, fanon, dammit.
- Damian has a snake, her name is Sting, because she'll sting you if you don't treat her well. She's of the species Bitis Rhinoceros and I love her.
- Tim and Barbara can and often will insert themselves in private conversations because they're nosy, bored or because they think whatever is being discussed could have important information. Jason can do this sometimes too, which he learned from Barbara. He mostly does it to mess with people.
- Duke's chatname is a reference to him being a robin once. I feel like his character is often either boiled down to him being either a tech-dude or moral support, but he was Robin canonically as well, just as Steph was, and he deserves acknowledgement, dammit.
- I'm not really a fan of romance, like, at all. There's very, very few ships/pairings where my mindset is "oh yeah they're in love" because usually it's just "they fuck nasty/they're obsessed with each other lose boundaries that way" - not saying that's a healthy relationship, but it's basically my sort of disclaimer that romance isn't going to be featured heavily if at all. However, Cass/Steph is in a relationship. It's not really mentioned so the reader can interpret it as romantic or queerplatonic, whatever they wanna I ain't a cop.
- Damian's chatname comes from Dick telling him not to put his real name online.
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forbebeandjam · 2 days
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Without You | Bada Lee/ BEBE x Fem Reader | MINI SERIES
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Summary: you mange to find a way back home but two of the girls become infected.
Word Count: 908
A/N: almost done!!! Next would be the last chapter so hopefully it’s to your liking 🩵
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•CURE•
You could recognize her anywhere. That bicolor hair was a dead giveaway. Bada was still hitting the man.
"BADA! BADA! STOP!" you yelled as you pulled her back.
"I told you to stay! I told you to stay with them. Why are you so fucking stubborn!?" you pushed her chest. You were beyond mad at her for making you worry.
"What would you have done if I did, huh?"
"I would have done what I had to. Anything, Bada. I can't lose you!"
"What about me!? What would I do without you!? I would die, Y/N. Get that through your fucking head!"
You stayed silent for a moment.
"Let's not talk about us anymore. I... I don't really care. I want to get to the girls. Sowoen is scared to death and I need to get them out of there. Let's go," You said as you walked towards the passenger door. 
"So, you don't care, huh? About us? About me," 
"Don't start. You know I do. But I have no head to think about us when there is other people as stake. Sowoen... she killed someone. She is not in a good state right now, and I can't be selfish thinking about my romantic life. Can we just drop it and go get the girls?" you said looking down. 
"Fine," she said. and got in the car. she took the keys from the glove compartment and started to drive. 
When you arrived the girls already had two more tanks filled and they quickly pumped the gas into the van. They put a spare tank in the back and hopped in. 
Bada drove to the grocery store where she left the other girls. After a few minutes, you reached the store. Bada honked and the two girls walked out of the store. Lusher and Minah walked out holding each other. 
They struggled to walk and you got worried. 
"Girls, are you okay?" You said as you walked to them. 
"No! stay back!" You noticed a bit of blood on them. 
"Bada, help me," You said, and Bada got out of the van. 
"We are infected! stay back!" Lusher and Minah said between coughs. 
"No... no... no! We are not losing you. Is everyone covered?" I looked at the girls all covered with jackets, gloves, and masks. 
"Get in the car. Bada, the keys?" She gave you the keys. 
"Stay covered. No one takes their covers or masks off, understood? Hold on tight," You said and turned the car on.  
Without hesitation, you stepped on the gas pedal making everyone grab onto their surroundings. You drove faster than ever. Bada looked back constantly to ensure everyone was okay. 
"How much longer?" Tatter said as she grabbed onto Minah's hand tightly. 
"A few minutes. Hold on..."
"Y/N, I don't think we have a few minutes..." You looked at Bada and then at the rearview mirror. Lusher's face was extremely pale. Your heart sank and your eyes were welled up with tears. 
"No... no, no, no, no, NO!" You stepped on the pedal and rushed through the streets trying to make it to Kyma's house. 
"Righ here! Unnie, it's right here," You stopped the car and got off immediately. 
You helped Lusher while Bada helped Minah. Kyma knocked on the door like crazy until her parents opened it. They stood there with masks and gloves as well as their lab coats.
"Mom... please. Dad... Minah and Lusher... you can help them right?" she pleaded. 
Lusher was barely able to stand and she was clinging to you. 
"Dear, what happened?" Mrs. Park said. 
"Please help them, Mom..." she cried. 
Mr. Park ran to Lusher and picked her up. he took her inside and Mrs. Park took you all in. You all sat in the living room while they took Minah and Lusher into Kyma's room. 
Kyma hugged you. Everyone was now in tears and Bada was sitting across from you. She looked at the blood on both your bodies and sighed. 
"Y/N, can we talk?" she asked. 
"I don't think now is a good time, Bada. Just hold on for a minute, okay? You must be tired and we still need to worry about the girls... Please," you said not looking at her. You heard her sigh. 
"Girls, I need you to remove masks and any surface clothing and place them in these bags. You will drink this after and we will come around to disinfect the area and bring you some food. I bet you're hungry," Mrs. Park said. 
"How are the girls? Are they alright?" you asked standing up. 
"They will be perfectly fine. We've taken good care of them. Now, please do as I said and then you can rest. Kyma, come with me," Mrs. Park said. You nodded and everyone began to follow her instructions.
After a few minutes, you were done. Kyma and her mother walked in to disinfect the living room. You took antibiotics, another pill, and food. You sat quietly while the other girls slept. You looked at Bada and you hated yourself for yelling and neglecting such a beautiful girlfriend you had.
"Unnie..." you heard a whisper. 
"Come here!" you looked at the door to the kitchen and carefully removed Cheche from your shoulder. You made you're way to the kitchen and stood in front of Kyma. Shwe looked around and spoke in a soft voice. 
"We have to go, now,"
⋆.˚✮TBC✮˚.⋆
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wiitzend · 1 year
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okay okay but inej hides her emotions behind her calm demeanor and jesper hides his emotions behind his joking easy-going personality but neither of them can hide from each other when it comes to saying goodbye this is my thirteenth reason
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suncaptor · 14 days
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yeah this cannot go on i need to take something like my chest is exploding i can't calm down it's 7am i feel insane insane insaneeeee
#though I HAVE successfully testing that ldn gives me an insane amount of (anxious) energy when i'm on a 3-4mg dose but then i get foggy and#empty at 4-5mg i think#i'm not sure if i should go down to like 2 or try to find the window between#i wish i just had like. a year to get meds right and heallllll so badly#but i can't afford going all the way down and having more relapses#i feel like i'm having aheart attack rn it's so bad it's so acutely painful#and it's so weird bc it's so empty#too like last month i was so full of everything and especially uh attachment fear but now it's just like pain empty screaming pain#i think it's the not eating food enough thing#i mean I DID eat MANY crackers today. rolls eyes#not enough hhh#i know theres so much i have to get done but like ic annot do anything i can't even message anyone i can't i need to get sedated#i don't know if i should try having MORE ldn or ritalin (probably not bc it doesn't sedate me like adderall)#or just hydroxyzine or muscle relaxers#hydroxyzine is looking like the most likely option#bc i still associate muscle relaxers too much with trauma i can't take them they scare me#i feel like i'm dying#i don't think you guys get how fast i'm typing rn like i am going fucking insane if i die of a heart attack for real it would suck huh#no i KNOW this is panic i KNOWWWW i'm panicking but i also feel like i'm going to throw up and die forever it's so bad i feel so so bad lik#i don't think people get how bad everything is i need it to all calm down and stop i need it to get better i am not okay holy shit#you know what everything in my life might not feel fixable and i am letting all my professors down but I can probably take incompletes wors#comes to worst i need to take hydroxzyine sleep and then cave and buy some food tomorrow#like what's happening now i#there FEELS like there's a SHAARP HOOOK in my CHEST IMAPLING ME#if i sedate myself enough i might be able to communicate with people for real instead of burrowing my head into the ground forever and ever#yeah okay i'm taking hydroxzyine#i feel like the problem with antihistamines now after last year is [redcated]#trying to convinc emyself this is not a suicide attempt or self harm i just need to calm down hahahahafih;aeifahe;wifahewifae#that's what they're PRESCRIBED for#i think i want benadryl instead though bc it's shorter and it also makes me head clearer i wonder if i have any i think it's not here thoug
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i don’t know what words best describe the feelings i get when i watch s2e2 is except for maybe “really fucking intense”
he’s screaming and begging for death and they have to stifle his pleas because they’re so desperate to keep him quiet and alive. ed knows something is up. he can fucking smell it. that’s his dog. his faithful, loyal iz. as if he wouldn’t know the visceral smell of that dog’s body and soul at its lowest, most rotten points. like he wouldn’t recognize the smell of such a “poisoned atomosphere” in the dog’s own words… really fucking intense
ed gives him what he believes is his last order, a command to kill him just like he dreamt about, only for the bloody, sweaty, infected, ever-devoted, pain-in-the-arse, willing to please, spiteful, vengeful, fucking disgusting dog to laugh in his face and tell him to fuck off… really fucking intense
he’s told him to fuck off before. he’s told him he’s done before. he’s told him he’s a shell of a man, and a namby-pamby, and poisonous. but this time is different. ed gives the order and the dog not only hesitates, but starts laughing. uncharacteristic, haunting laughter that doesn’t sound like it belongs to him. dogs like him don’t laugh like that, much less at their master. but it’s unbelievable, the command, as is the rest of ed’s behavior. it’s laughable. the idea of ed ordering the attack on himself… really fucking intense
does ed think that he’ll do it? does he think that he won’t? he doesn’t care either way. he’ll probably do it, but his lack of toes proves how inconsistent he is with following orders these days, so who knows? he might be too weak and faithful to do it to himself. he might be too strong and poorly-behaved to do it for ed. he doesn’t know. it hardly matters. they’re both dead anyways. goners. should’ve packed it in years ago… really fucking intense
fine. if he can’t follow a simple order, he might as well finish the job. make it fast. fuck off like he swore to do so long ago, for real this time. not like ed could kill him either, so maybe it’s fair. couldn’t kill anyone, much less his “friend” as it were. fine. that fucker is faithful and strong enough to at least do it to himself. “i loved you best i could” and it’s done. quick. fine. fuck off. til death do we part and all that fucking bullshit. good. fucking off. that’s a magnificent storm. perfect… really fucking intense
it’s about to be over. heading straight for it. steering the ship into the storm. not even steering it anymore. he really hasn’t been for some time, being honest. it’ll all be over soon, if he could just— shot, by the same dog he shot. the one he just pleaded for death from. who shot himself, he heard it. of course, maybe it was just a fuckery. a trick. maybe he— no. was obviously just shot, fucking gash like that, christ. hobbled himself up here on one foot on an ocean ed knows must be nauseating and— “indestructible little fucker” why the fuck can’t he just die? why the fuck can’t either of them seem to fucking die?… really really fucking intense
standing over him. finally. put him in his rightful place, on the floor at their mercy, or lack thereof. kill him. fucking do it. fucking do it. “finally :)” uhh… really really really intense
to further articulate: i think the writers of the show clearly know what it’s like to hate yourself and to have complicated feelings with the relationships that make you that way. the next ep obviously gets further into those themes but that only further proves my point and this episode is just so intense. they seem to really get what’s it like to fucking hate yourself and your life and be so unhinged that you’d be willing to bring others down with you because you just. can’t be bothered. to care. and you cry out for help but nobody is any help and they’re long tired of it and of you anyways and hell maybe driving them away is the solution tk your problems anyways since people are the cause of all your problems. yeahhh. writers really said “this one’s for all the homies who ever self-harmed” idk that’s not my only take but it is a big one floating around my head
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gregoftom · 1 year
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oh ok
#succession#tomgreg#OH MY GOD THE SCENE IS THIS CLOSE AFTER?!?? i thought i had some time !!! i jqqqqqqq#man. man. mn!!!!aman!!!!man!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man.#matt johnson you would love tomgreg#what the fuck is this scene though i want to die i PHYSICally want to di e Eeeeeeeeeee#he........i .........fkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkmmmmmmmmmmmm#ok. okok. ok . novel tags ok i can think through my absolute fucking grief. ok so basically.#tom giving greg advice about prison. and then greg like basically begs to have tom take the rap for him. but not directly.#he can never say things directly. but tom translates. and it doesn't take him long to say fine. load me up. you piece of shit.#but he doesn't even mean the latter statement he's too sad. and he won't fight. the fight is all gone out of him.#so much for greg being expendable though huh?#look me in the eyes and tell me tom isn't in love with greg at least a little. yall telling me you'd take the rap for someone and go to jail#for them if you didn't love them? ok bestie you do you#i kind of like as well the comparison of the conversation between them and him and shiv like. it's very similar in that him and greg are#saying sentences that are parts of different conversations like him and shiv's convo ALTHOUGH it is still related bc it's to do with jail#she wouldn't even talk about that subject at all. and then it correlates to the whole. nero and sporus thing right. and the dressing up/ring#ALSO THE FACT HE DIDNT WANNA SLEEP WITH HER AND HES OUT LATE AT A DINER WITH GREG I GET IT G IS HIS MISTRESS#but anyway.#and the WAYYYYYYY greg's voice breaks and the way he looks at tom with pleading eyes and it looks like he's about to cry#that's what does it for tom i think. that's what breaks him. he can't bear the thought of greg suffering for months.#which makes me believe that that is why he was so sad earlier when greg was asking for advice. he doesn't like greg to suffer#by other hands of course. if it's by his hands that's another matter BUT THATS ANOTHER CAN OF WORMS#LIKE I KNOW ITS KIND OF AN ASSHOLE MOVE OF GREG BUT AT THE SAME TIME HES LIKE. idk early 20s. 26ish latest???#and i would be fucking terrified i'm 30 and i still don't know what the fuck is going on i don't know how i am still alive so i get it.#and if you have someone who has been taking care of you and has in the past flexed their power and money to give you food and parties#and move you up in a company and give you opportunities you most likely would never get. you kinda. latch. and fall into a pattern.#you assume he has a way out for you#has help. i mean greg probably assumed he wouldn't say yes in the first place so he kinda Has to be an asshole for any chance at all tbh.#he even said quid pro quo. but tom didn't even want anything in return. i mean idk what greg could even give him [lol] but still.
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gorespawn · 8 months
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i honestly really love reading your tags on the art you rb!! you're so enthusiastic about each piece and your comments help me to enjoy the art even more tbh!!
oh me too! it's so easy to just scroll scroll scroll and look like 3 seconds at someone's art, think "cool" and hit 'like' and then forget about it. when i write these comments i'm forced to pause and think why i like it. so it really makes me enjoy the art more too! it's part of the reason why i keep doing it now that i've gotten in the habit!
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carmarriage · 1 month
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red vs blue restoration blew such huge chunks im actually mad. like completely enraged. and i wouldnt have it any other way. rest in peace you son of a bitch
#like under the conditions it was made. i can understand why it is the way it is.#but i would genuinely be hard pressed to imagine a way it couldve been worse.#they brought tex back. which is like the number one thing they should have never done under any circumstance. leave the poor woman ALONEEEE#wash had absolutely nothing to do except act like an idiot for no reason and Be Crazy. leave him alone too#carolina showed up just to immediately get her shit kicked in. she doesnt even say a single word to tex so what was the point#and i fucking love tucker so im biased but WHAT!!!!! HOW DO YOU DECIDE TO DO META TUCKER AND FUMBLE HIM THAT HARD!!!!#tucker doesnt get a single line reflecting on Literally Being Tortured for (from his perspective) TEN YEARS????#not a single genuine emotional moment for him???? just gets up and says ''oww that sucked. bow chicka bow wow haha am i right fellas''#the blues got shafted so fucking hard. they barely interact with each other. they get no resolution at all.#wash and tucker didnt even talk. i dont think they were ever even in the same frame. if you wanted me to kill myself you couldve just said#also i havent watched s15-17 since they released and i didnt bother with rvb0 but when did doc die. huh#carolina said something about ''what happened on chorus'' and HUH? did i just miss that completely. what the fuck#also where is donut. he wasnt even in this. im assuming something happened to him that i just dont remember during/after s18 but i miss him#sorry for being so mean lmfao i dont usually like complaining so much but man...........#they didnt even make grimmons canon. smh my head#anyway rvb ended after s13 ❤️ yayyy
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love waking up to my mom giving me an ultimatum and ordering that i have to give up my (admittedly expensive) apartment 1n 2 weeks and move back home for good. i had stuff to do today but i guess being gripped by dread and anxiety works too
#i had been thinking about moving to a smaller one too. but now she's ordering me to do that#and expects me to move back home#when my university and all of my two friends are in the city.#and i have TWO WEEKS to live here if she wants me to move before summer because i have to go back home anyway in early may#for my summer job.#like sure i wouldve understood like a hey. my child. your financial situation is oretty tough so i have some suggestions that could help#but she was like okay here's whay you do: option a) [something i couldnt do before fall] b) find a cheaper apartment and live in two weeks#c) move home for good and commute over an hour any day you have university stuff to do and also essentially lose access to your#friends and all and any independence you have managed to cobble together so i can treat you like a child and yeall at you#the last part wasnt included but it's what she does anyways so i assume it's part of the deal#then i would have to commute or drive an hour any time i wanted to see either of my friends. after every summer im already#tired and desperate to come back to my apartment to get to be on my own. and now she's saying i have to never do that again#and here's the fuckin thing. her husband is planning on fixing my car. my mom pays my phone bill. i know what a loser i am whatever.#she actually owns my dogs and my childhood home. i cannot. piss her ofd too much. because then i'll lose all of those#phone. whatever i can get a new one. car. slightly more heartbrwakin but like i still own it. but the house?#my dogs?? i think i would rather die atm if im being honest#so what the fuck am i supposed to do. huh.#maybe i should just walk into the sea foe good i feel like that would just so neatly solve all of my problems
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trans-estinien · 2 months
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i love being autistic cause sometimes i get a glimpse into how regular people perceive things and its like. what the fuck. what the fuck is that? you live like this? and its normal?? i think YOURE the weird one actually. im fine. thanks though.
#THERES SO MANY WEIRD RULES#LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO HOW SOMEONE WALKS LIKE HUH????? WHY????????????#can someone fucking explain the dude head nod thing to me why do we do that. whats that about. ive never seen anyone do that irl before#is that an american thing or do i just hang around too many afab people#i am learning the intricacies of cis people gender rules and i am. what fucking planet have i been on the last 17 years like what is this#was there some like. rulebook they handed out at somepoint they forgot to give to me or something#“best way to learn is to observe the men around you” OBSERVE WHAT. YOU PEOPLE PAY THAT MUCH ATTENTION TO EVERY LITTLE MOVEMENT????#bruh i can barely make eye contact w people...#my ass has never intentionally copied someones mannerisms ever.#i do it subconsciously. but doing it actively feels weird and wrong and like im breaking someones boundaries#“men dont smile at people.” well they should.#ive decided cishet men are the most boring people on the planet#“dont move with your hands” YOURE BREAKING MY POOR THEATER KID HEART#i need to meet more gay men irl to absorb the vibe of cause i only know like two. not counting myself#i want people to look at me and go. ah yes. fruit.#at this point im just going to accept being misgendered for the rest of eternity. id rather die than be boring in the way cishet men are#my flavor of being trans is so influenced by my autism cause my perception of genders is completely off from what everyone else is doing#im like. yeah i want to be a man. and then i look at what the majority of men are actually like and its like. wait no. not like that#shoutout to flamboyant gay men where would i be without them#i think the thing that bothers me the most is that like#in my mind peoples genders are just. the way they express themselves.#its not like. this super big complex deal like how everyone else treats it. if that makes sense? like.#regular people have so many rules for what counts as a man or what counts as a woman or what counts as neither and its like???#you can do what you want???? why do we care????#and ive been doing this since i was little. on account of the autism#i just. dont get why its such a big deal to people.#i cant wrap my head around it at all#not nonbinary not a girl not aegender not a man but a secret fourth thing#(man but i do it my way instead of everyone elses way)#unfortunately doing it my way just. leads to the misgendering dimension. for some reason
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strwbrymlkshake · 3 months
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I am trying so hard but it still isn't ENOUGH FOR YOU? DON'T YOU SEE HOW HARD I'VE BEEN TRYING?
#mine#normally i've been good about not being too upset over things#but oh fucking boy. okay. im glad people are scared of me#i hope they know that im the only right one in the whole world and they are wrong and are justified for fearing me and im glad my existence#will turn them off from sharing their wrong opinions. but oh FUCKING BOY? ive been sitting here the whole time like oh they hate me#oh they hate me so much they want me to die wahhh and im trying to do all the things they like because im for some reason fucking bothered#by their other opinions. even though the people themselves are useless trash#and oh. like i was suspecting it but its finally confirmed huh??? you all cant fucking stand the sight of me because im right?#you dont understand the truth?? they hated him because he told them the truth? thats me as fuck rn dude#i am literally gracing your eyes with the content i make and basically hand feeding you the correct opinions to have#and yet you still reject them! people just love being stupid unfortunately. i want to kill them all.#i would be so much nicer if you all just agreed with me on the objective truth but unfortunate you have to be stupid#i have graced you with so many GIFTS and protected you from my wrath so many times but you do not even give a fuck#WHY AM I CRYING. YOU ARE ALL SO USELESS WHY AM I CRYING!!! MAYBE ITS BECAUSE YOU DONT AGREE?#i guess im crying because they are all so stupid#so what im saying is its very unfortunate that everyone does not worship me and all my opinions and the world is very hard. yes.#friendship ended with self hatred now delusions of grandeur are my new best friend#even trhing to explain myself makes me sound like a shithead but i swear to fuck if you all just listened to me like youre supposed to#then absolutely nothing would ever go wrong! but you all had to be stupid on purpose! do you like being wrong? whats your problem#explaining all the reasons im RIGHT and yet i still feel bad for having the gall to do so. i shouldnt feel bad. im doing great. youre just#uncomfortable in the fact that YOURE wrong and making me have to accomodate you for your wrongness? tf is that about#okay lunatic rant over i have finished crying ☝️
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artistic rendition of my nail under the cut
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i call this one “ooch eech ouch och”
made in iphone notes with my index finger of my poor fucking pinky finger which shall never recover and ill likely have to amputate (/overdramatic)
also fvedyazai NOT THE AO3 WRITER CURSE TAG SHHHHHSUSHSHSHUSHSHHSHSH NOOOOOOO GOD
🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 man.
anyways happy new years in uhhhh (checks watch) 47 minutes? yeah that sounds right. cheers
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cursedthing · 1 year
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watching the little spotify icon on my favorites sidebar dissapear and reappear and refuse to open the app like girlie the fuck are you doing
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faggotmox · 2 years
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ok ig this is...something i can ask.
which one of yous (tumblr in general) has the top surgery recs for the oklahoma area? okc/tulsa, dallas/fort worth. surrounding states are welcome to submit their own fighters bc the more i can sift through the more options i may find. also in north carolina bc i have family i could stay with out there.
just dont know where to start at this point :\ the two places i know of in the okc area are...Not It.
#went to a consultatoin today and the place was a fucking butcher shop#like im not kidding you it was hacksaws in there#i was also treated poorly and when i had questions and concerns#that were ignored#they acted like i was being a bitch for asking my questions#they want 1000 non refundable just to get a date with a surgeon#and then 11500 up front before the surgery#they do no accept insurance and id have to take loans out just to be able to get surgery#like i didnt get this job for 3 years of wanting to die bc of it just to not use the insurance which is trans firnedly???#anyways please help#im actually dying lol#i got too hopeful in the last two days after keeping a level heart abt it for like a year#of course ic ant be so easy huh#of course of course i cant just...get it#of course they wanna butcher me#i told them i was worried abt being outed in unsafe spaces bc of the surgery scars#and the dude straight up said well whats the difference between two horizontal scars or a verticle one?#my brother in fucking christ i can explain a verticle chest scar with something like heart surgery#top surgery scars look LIKE TOP SURGERY SCARS#you cant explain them away with something else!!!!! and he just didnt get that#and was like offended that i was worried abt my scars#like as a trans person i should just be thankful to be hacked up bc the alternative is --do nothing--#which he said#he was like well its this or do nothing#fuck that place#id post phtoos of their patients from their website to show yall just how scary the scaring is they do to their patients#but i dont wanna shame other trans people for care they --had to have--#oklahoma#okc#oklahoma city
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noxtivagus · 2 years
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I LOVE FINAL FANTASY SO MUCH
#🌙.rambles#coping mechanism!!!! all left i have to do for school this week is just smth easy for math :] then after that it's the weekend n all#i will use fiction ! as an escape ! wooooo . my thoughts are suffocating. n i am so goddamn tired c:#fuck i am so tired of being trapped in my mind n being bind down by my past n everything. just everything#wait i feel like crying why is dynamis playing god i love ff sm.... i am actually crying rn it saved me. it really saved me back then. n no#i am such a goddamn slave to sentiment. to nostalgia. to memories n the past n everything i have lived through. it all means sm to me n#that's one reason why it hurts. i love it all so much but it's so fleeting it hurts.... oh this is bad i am actually crying a lot right now#how do i carry it all? how do i remember it all? i can't die i can't forget i can't deny all these bcs as much as it hurts#it reminds me that i'm alive yk? these memories these words serve as proof that. in the past. once upon a time it really was real#n the concept of reality is something i'm so weak to bcs it feels so lonely in my inner worlds#oh despite all this pain i'm still soft at heart huh. i'm crying so much.#so much thoughts i have. that i don't know how to write. but i try so much to share what i can despite how afraid i often get#when you live a life i have. in these worlds i have. in my head. it's so lonely. it's so so lonely#n. god ffxiv makes me so vulnerable in a way that. fiction is something that's. i really grew up with it being#sometimes even stronger or more present than my own reality#i've always loved the stars too. the moon. celestial beings. everything i've read in those books; whether it be fiction or non-fiction#but always. always something far from my reach. so to have something so real to be a part of#wait i'm crying even more i remember again HAHA fuck wait listening to dynamis rn is making me even more emotional#hermes as a character. i feel like he felt like he didn't belong. he wanted answers. to be understood. to understand.#n we're so similar in that regard. n i'm so weak to those sort of similarities yk? it means sm to me when i've always felt so different#ffxiv here is. it's fiction. so i can freely lose myself here. fly as high as i can without fear of. idk. maybe the#vulnerability n ephemerality of reality...? it's so beautiful. it really is n i wonder if i ever really belong there#sob i realize. there. i've been so accustomed to always reaching out futiley to something i can't have. does not exist. or yeah#reaching out to a past i cannot relive. just to remember again how it was exactly in those moments. or a future i'm uncertain of#or the present. which i'm not ever quite sure about what exactly it is. or what's going on. or myself.#understanding. understanding.... until i understand all i can of this world n finally accept that i too am living n real. i won't give up.#there's so much to life that will forever be left undone. i'll do as much as i can. so i can hold unto my humanity. unto reality. im crying#i did not expect to cry so much tonight;;; but maybe i still underestimate the pain i carry. i deserve too the kindness that i give others#because i'm human too. i'm young. n i know what that means to me. sm thoughts sm words it hurts sm im crying. but fuck that i'm still alive#i'm so confused i'm so lost. on what really is my reality. on who i am. god it's so overwhelming i don't know where to start it hurts .
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