#dont harass alters because of their source

[miloscrystalsys]

Just wanted to make a little announcement because this account is getting a little bit of attention. Hi, we are a DID system, we have many introjects. A big portion of those introjects are sourced from either Wilbur soot, his characters, or a piece if fiction having to do with him. None of us support his actions and are 100% standing with shelby and supporting her.

Please remember Alters are NOT their source, and none of our Wilburs identify with his actions.

-Sincerely, Lyric/Detective 🗝️

[pastara-cell]

In light of recent events with iskall85 (+stressmonster?) i’d like to take a moment to thank around 98% of the community. I know its rough, and some people are upset or curious, but the community is handling it wonderfully right now, and I’m extremely proud of everyone who is taking a step back and not harassing creators. Heres a list of things we, as a community, can do to help!

1. Please don’t harass any of the Ccs! By that, I mean Hermitcraft AND vault hunters. I know that you’ve heard it a billion times by now, but I do want to emphasise that they have said they cant say much now, and they’re probably taking it more rough than we are. We aren’t owed any information, even if we would like it, so harassing people will only make the situation worse.

2. Comfort your friends with iskall or stress introjects, irls, fictionkins, alters, etc. reminder that none of this is their fault, and they should NOT be harassed for living their lives as they are.

3. Keep speculation private, or to a minimum. Its human nature of course, to be curious, but discussing it in publicly is a BAD idea. Keep it to the dms, or if you’re going to speculate in your blogs, I recommend not maintaining iskall, and putting the discourse tag in so that people can filter it out.

4. Keep your fanarts and fanfictions up until the situation is clearer, or if you don’t want them up, send them to @pearleisuma to be archived. Just because someone did something does NOT mean that you need to delete anything you worked hard on, it just means be wary making things in the future, involving them, about it, until we get more information.

4. DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, Watch ANY commentary youtube channel videos about the situation. This is how false information spreads, and youtubers are going to look to make a quick buck off of anything they can use to blow up. Please only get your information from trusted sources, such as CC’s twitter pages, any videos released by Ccs/streams, or if iskall or stress make a statement themselves.

5. Dont jump to conclusions! Luckily, mumbo has tweeted out that the situation has nothing to do with minors. Jumping to conclusions will lead to misinformation, so do sit back and wait a bit before any assumptions or conclusions.

6. Take care of yourself. Its okay to be sad about them leaving, its okay to be sad that Iskall apparently did something, and its okay to be curious as to what it is about. As a fandom, try to lift eachother up and comfort eachother, rather than bring eachother down about the situation.

Keep being awesome hermitblr, and stay strong 🫶 we’ll get through this

[delphientropy]

BLOCK LIST

BIG LIST OF A BUNCH O PEEPS I BLOCKED

as well as why! i'll add on as i go!:)

we do NOT condone harassment, please just block.

includes: pro/endos, radqueer, transID, anti good faith, and more!! XP

first off, so were on the same page, what are these and why are they bad?

pro/endos: try to demedicalize a dissociative disorder, claim you can be a system without trauma, more info here 👉 [X] [X] (both are carrds that link multiple sources) (sorry they didnt save ill put it in later)

radqueer: these are people who transIDs (transage, transrace, etc. these people claim to identify as a different race or even pretend to "transition" into being disabled like transautistic) or ARE them.

anti good faith: good faith identities are basically identities made in good faith. this tends to encompass "contradictory" identities such as lesboys and other mspec identities. anti good faith people police gender and sexuality identities and invalidate these peoples experiences and try to exclude them from spaces or tell them what THEIR sexuality is. dont be misguided into thinking you're doing good if you exclude these people, its splitting up the lgbtq+ community, and thats what they (TERFs, anti-lgbtq+) want us to do.

now onto the blocklist!:)

radfems, TERFs, and transmeds

pach1-pach1 (deleted his dni but befor it was deleted it said that they support vivzie, are anti xenogenders and neoprns iirc, and anti good faith. a reply on my post abt telling ppl to block them also said theyre a transmed, so did another account. theyve also been seen harassing anti endos despite claiming to be it himself) (they own syspunk-is-anti-endo-losers as well)

radfem-vex

mint-fem

PRO/ENDO

boosystem

domni99

pluralpolls

youokaybro

plural-blocklist

eunoiasys

circulars-reasoning

citadelofmarks

inclusysboxes

thestarpletsystem

bunfart90

alterhuman-culture-is

interstellarsystem

bokuwaamdalla

brainmade-culture-is

fictive-culture-hub

navelgazed

pluralprompts

astrophale-and-fischl

syscourse101

aura-dragonfly

parsnipkit

phantomhunt

funnier-as-a-system

funnier-as-a-fictive

multiplicity-positivity

analog-transid (also transID, as implied in the name) (they run the blog alters-in-a-box which is one of those alter pack things)

freezingnarc

whore-hangout (its 18+ as implied keep yourself safe)

notteserver

cardsoffools (harassed me and told me to kms 🫶)

fools-temps (run by cardsoffools)

the-bride-and-the-ugly-ass-groom

RADQUEERS

stashys-radqueer-userboxes

1nklingsanitized

bisexualsafespace

radqueer-empire

maskaphiliax (also transID, also they have alfreds playhouse in their banner so please be safe)

ANTI GOOD FAITH

kowalapantheon (also a.. "plural aligned singlet?") (headmate blogs are nonexistent-loli, trans-obsessive-love-disorder, ex-harmful-transpeaceful)

forced-silence (18+, lots of violence, please beware on their page)

zomb-bunny (also think they harassed someone??? i cant remember or find the post)

starry-city-sys

endopropoganda

parxgender (also ace exclusive, anti pan/omni, and anti mogai)

yourfavehatesmspeclesbians (because god forbid someone have a complex relationship with gender and sexuality.)

mspobjects

the-party-city

pollingsystems (also doesnt believe in transandrophobia. wtf.)

OTHER

anti-lies (spreads misinformation that can be paranoia-inducing)

theinfernalcollective (claims that bullying isnt valid enough to be a system) (TRAUMA IS TRAUMA.)

disys (same as above)

permababy (transID, doesnt label themself as radqueer but does reblog it)

problema-non-grata (pro transID discourse blog)

thefakersystem (demonizes systems and those with personality disorders, anti good faith, fakeclaimer (literally, fakeclaims EVERYONE.) harasses people minding their own business, overall the worst asshole i think ive ever blocked. dear fucking lord.)

cringey-systems (dumbbb dumb baby fakeclaimer doesnt think systems are real dumb idiot baby man who reblogs systems and calls them fake because they have no life ♡)

ALTER PACKS

(people who make ID packs for people to "create" their own headmates, all are pro endo, radqueer, and transID)

build-a-headmate

alterpacks

headmatestickerbook

naris-alter-shop

brainpal-gachapon

[heavens-roses]

After avoiding tumblr for almost a good 6 months we returned mainly to lurk and find more mogai blogs. In apparently this short amount of time I noticed a huge influx of endo neutral or "syscourse unaligned" blogs come up. Who still claim to be anti radqueer and anti harmful transIDs, thing is 90% of these blogs constantly repost terms from endos and rarely or any from anti endos. Now let's break this down shall we?

To be truly unaligned or neutral means either A. You post equal amounts of both sides content or B you dont post either—mainly leaning on the later of the 2. Which again rarely seems to be the case, freely are we opening our space to people who want to transition into "pluralhood" / "systemgood" when time and time again it's been scientificly proven that system hood is created by trauma as an early child. There is also a difference between syscourse and your position on endos, you can be anti endo yet never once partake in syscourse as endos are inherently attempting to demedicalize a disorder. That is ableism, it's ignoring facts based off decades of research, and most of all not very punk of you to support. Syscourse also includes things like are littles considered children, are persecutors bad? Thing of that nature which are a frequent source of discourse among the community. Syscourse has to do which the disorder not people who claim to want a separate community.

For reference I was pro endo back in 21-22 because of their rhetoric. I also believed that i was "neurogenic" aka syshood caused by illness. This isn't me going off a huge amount of personal experience. They don't claim to be disordered, don't want in any way to be connected to OSDDID yet frequently crosstag, copy the majority of the symptoms of the disorders including dissociation, switching, amnesia, having EP vs ANP, and honestly any personal experience with C-DID ive had, ive seen endos copy. But again let's remember these endos claim to not be disordered. So we are claiming amnesia isn't disordered, that dissociation isn't disordered, that EP and ANP isn't disordered (which also includes things like PTSD, BPD/other PDs).

In these same groups who aren't disordered also love to encourage the idea you can create parts on purpose! You know what that heavily reminds me of? TBMC except instead of me suffering through literal torture and abuse as a young child you get to use your imagination to create a persona! Isn't that cute and totally not romantizing a disorder based in trauma? Again endos also support singlets who are at minimum 13 into thinking this is normal behavior and it's ok to want to have these disordered symptoms without you guessed it having the disorder. They also heavily crosstag, have servers where radqueers are very much pro endo and see those communities as interlinked because endos agree you can transition towards systemhood. While not all pro endos are radqueer, all radqueers are pro endo which shows an at minimum connection there which is a breeding ground for misinformation.

The constant boy who cried wolf endos use is also genuinely insane. Calling us sysmed which is both transphobic and again incorrect seeing as you are attempting to demedicalize a DISORDER YOU ALSO CLAIM TO NOT HAVE??? You call us privileged for having trauma which is genuinely disgusting. If you wish you had trauma you are likely traumatized yourself and feel as though it wasnt enough or you have in all likely hood a different disorder! The amount of times endos attempt to use our terms against us is also stupid. They use terms like core, and parts/alters which usage in this sense was all because of medical papers. Core of course is an outdated term that been disproven yet they still love to use it.

You can be anti endo and anti harassment, in fact you should be. In all seriousness most endos could genuinely be systems who were convinced by rhetoric they are not disordered. In other cases it's a different disorder pushed into a box by the people around them convincing them it's being endo. I dont harass nor encourage the harassment of endos. I'd rather have a civil conversation/discussion about how endos are harmful and spread misinformation than go harass and hurt someone.

[l1v3r-al0n3]

📞🔪•~𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓'𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐄?~•🩸💀

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DNI means: don't like my posts, don't comment on my posts, don't send submissions, don't follow me, don't reblog my posts, don't interact with me OUTSIDE of my posts OR within them, don't look at my posts, don't interact at all.

DNI not listed: Goreposts (I've been gorespammed as harassment, so like. Yeahhhhh - MOVIE SHOTS DONT COUNT)

Fine with flirting if you are Billy Loomis + single + not poly I'm extremely jealous and when I get attached to people I get possessive because of BPD <3 + 18+ I'm turning 19 + okay with obsession

Second alter run account is @doggydoorwarrior for Tatum!

[into-the-mortuary]

this is going to be venty, just a warning!! tw loneliness

not to be all sad on main, but i often feel like even as an alter, im just a facade. i never really act like me, no matter who im around, i never feel able to just be myself? and it hurts, it really stings- i started out in this system as a caretaker, a soother, someone whose job is to pretend to always be calm and happy so the kids and the people panicking can have a nice influence, someone to ground them. and i loved it, even if it left me drained and crying in my bed in the headspace and some days so exhausted with the role i played that i couldn’t move. not to say i dont like my current job, but its so much more tiring. i appreciate the reason i do it, emile doesn’t deserve to be heckled and harassed by our headmates just because they were the system therapist, but now its my job and i dont really have anyone to reach out to? some of our persecutors, even if they have reasons behind their actions, reasons to exist, they dont *want* to change-? they *like* being mean, hurting others, pulling at strings. and i try to see the good in them, i really do, because as the new system therapist that’s what im supposed to do- but i dont have people to talk to, to reach out to, to ground myself with like emile does. or like any of my headmates do. everyone has someone here, it seems, and i feel completely alone in this system. which kind of sucks, because i’ve always felt that way, both in source and here. i have friends, of course i have my friends and i love them so much and they’re amazing people, i don’t want to discredit their work! but they need space for themselves a lot, they have their own struggles, and even around then i’ve never been able to put the mask down. “we didn’t see you today?” “i overslept!” even when the truth is that i felt so horrible, so tired, so alone and so afraid of myself that i couldn’t move out of my bed. i don’t know how to stop putting up that mask, i don’t know how to be *me*. i act social and friendly but i don’t know anyone here, i don’t know anyone outside our system, i barely know anyone in it, i know 3 people as friends in this system and that’s it- im afraid of what i’ll become, if i’ll be forgotten and left alone because i can’t stop acting.

thank you for reading, if you’ve made it down this far through my silly rambling

[nonhumancentipede]

TW : Reality Check

"Doubles DNI im [insert character] IRL!!!" no, no you are not. You're just delusional and in a state of psychosis GET HELP.

Also anyone with a "DA" who claims to be someone IRL and then attacks systems because we're "doubles" of whatever delusion they are, you're disgusting and should get therapy. The only double is yourself lmao. Systems do not choose their alters. If one of my fictives source is Marvel, DC, creepypasta etc. they are real and i cant control it. HOWEVER if you're delusional you can control it by seeking medical help and getting someone to check you back into reality by a liscenced therapist/psychologist ofc.

There's nothing bad about not wanting to play along with your delusion or having you in a DNI or not wanting to do anything with you. Not to mention "IRL" is a term used either by fictionkins or Systems (to each their own) it was a fictionkin/kin term exclusively. But was overtaken by "DA's" who try to romanticize being delusional.

Also just to make it clear i do not condone harassment or reality checking of anyone whos delusional, this is not my place to do that and it should be left to either people they trust like a therapist or a friend/family member who actually knows what they're doing!!!!

However, for this post it is necessary of me to reality check. I don't want to sugarcoat psychosis nor do i want to feed into someones delusion as it will harm them and others.

I also want to say that reality checking systems is NOT a thing! systems/alters are real and fragments of us and our trauma. So reality checking doesn't affect us, since we are REAL. Unless a system is psychotic which i dont want to touch upon. The only harmful thing i can think of for us is fakeclaiming which is ableist.

Thats all i want to say! i wrote all this because i have "IRL's" in my DNI and i thought about explaining why that is so no ones confused. I also thought since it's been a topic over at my TikTok fyp that i should definitely put my 2 cents in.

!! DNI IF YOU'RE AN 'IRL' , RACIST , TRANSPHOBIC , ABLEIST , TERF , RADFEM , TRANSMED , Z00 , MAP , ENDO , FAKECLAIMER , IF YOU FIT GENERAL DNI CRITERIA !!

[kururuyakku]

little update on myself

hey guys, i never thought id post this here ever again but. hey. i want to give an update on myself since once in a while i get DMs asking what happened and ive updated on my twitter but not here. its under a read more because theres... few triggers.

first if you have question here’s a rundown

so, shit happened. thats the simple way to add it. on what happened on tumblr i wont go into it again because it was honestly so fucking stupid, but here’s the rundown: no, i dont ship pedophilia. i was AGAINST the ship, but someone cropped a comment where someone was wrongly explaining the ship to me, and people jumped at my throat from it. i never shipped it and spoke against the ship. no im not a terf for not wanting to have sex with someone, and sending me rape threats about it and shaming me for it is just rape culture, and it was disgusting of those who did it. shame on you. i’m not white, and all those racist ass anons y’all sent won’t change it. yes, I have black alters, i have alters of different races, and when I provided MANY legit sources yall just said ‘’im not reading that’’, as well as completely ignoring other people with DID who tried to explain. so that was straight up ableism. again, shame on you. (also this post from my friend that explains well too)

now, outside of these things, more shit still happened which im not proud of. but these things won’t be any more public than it has already been, because honestly, it’s nobody’s business but those involved and I already made a mistake by publicly attacking the person involved. so it’s all i’ll say on the matter because again, nobody’s business but those involved and i don’t want to turn my life into a reality TV more than it already became.

my friends and i, now for years, have been accused of pedophilia, grooming, and being predators. Now, yes, some of us/my friends have done wrong things, and we’ve/they’ve apologized for it, but pedophilia and grooming was not part of it. They have NO PROOF PROVIDED, their story never follow each others, and some claimed to be victims despite never having been in direct contact with my friends at all. we have a whole document that we spent weeks making in our defense with visual proof and statements from witnesses.

my abusive, compulsive liar, two-faced, cheating asshole of an ex is now spreading this mess and calling me a predator, and a danger to minor, and completely ruined my dream of wanting to write a children’s book, all because I defended people wrongly accused of pedophilia. I got trauma from the whole thing, even developed two new alters, went back into therapy, because I was harassed so badly from it, got many death threats every day, rape threats, said im a danger to my niece and my nephew, and was stalked and harassed on every platforms. i couldn’t hide, they would find them. we couldn’t block, they would message us on other accounts and tell us to die.

enough is enough. we went through self-harm and suicide attempts because of this shit. went to the hospital. brought to the cops and we’re heavily talking of a lawsuit, but we’re waiting until our friend is mentally stable enough and recovers properly. i truly, genuinely cannot do this shit anymore. im tired of being followed everywhere and having everything i do being watched, tired of crying when i think of my sister’s children, tired of my life being ruined over false accusations.

i know im not the best person in the world. i know ive done some mistake, but im owning up to them. im trying to be better every single day and im just trying to survive another night. but these days, internet culture is just too toxic for me as i battle through the revival of my BPD and crippling depression. 

so, please, leave me alone. leave us alone. we’re tired, and i cant bear seeing my friends go through another suicide attempt or, god fucking forbids, make it work. we’re tired. we just want to draw and have fun. stop with the goddamn harassments, stop calling us predators, stop the witchhunting that goes through social medias. leave us alone. im so fucking tired of fighting back.

ive suffered through rape threats, death threats and massive stalking that gave me massive trauma and caused two new alters. im terrified just posting this but i need to. im scared just commenting on my mom’s post on facebook because what if someone finds me there. im shaking when i hit ‘post’ when i try to be brave just a little and post my art to try and get back out there despite my name being dragged through the mud. im scared whenever i have a notification somewhere. i want to be okay again. 

if youve read this, thank you. if youre a friend of mine, and youve stuck with me through this entire mess, thank you even more. maybe one day i’ll be okay enough to be out there again without being terrified for my life.

[throat]

not to sound like a boomer but lord have mercy on the current generation of kids online. the ones that think they're stealing billions by pirating and that its okay to spend $300+ on sims and having DSMP as their kins/alters like "its okay because i dont accept his racist views and friends!" and doing tiktok challenges that are basically public harassment of people and being like "okay so 1 time i daydreamed during class so this means i can self diagnose DID and have 25 factive/fictive alters all from various sources of bad (like morally bad) content)

[mr-michael-kyle]

A dark web cybercriminal who advertised hitmen for hire was so spooked by a request from a young Washington state woman—who wished her married lover’s wife dead—that he gave her up to the feds.

That’s according to an FBI search warrant affidavit unsealed this week, which details a surreal plot originating with a chance encounter at an event hosted by Landmark, a self-help group with roots in the 1970s, which has been labeled as a sort of “cult-lite” by some. The case centers on a philandering husband and his jealous lover, who planned on using her college money to have the man’s wife murdered.

Far from being disturbed by the revelation, when the man—identified in court filings solely as “J.M.”—found out about the plot against his wife, he “saw the behavior as an indication of her dedication and affection for him,” according to the affidavit.

The unsealed warrant—which The Daily Beast has redacted to withhold the suspect’s identify as she has not yet been formally charged—targets email addresses that the young lover used to register a Facebook account and talk with J.M., and contact financial institutions and a cashier at her community college. A source with firsthand knowledge of the case stated the investigation has been delayed as a result of COVID-19, however stated it’s still ongoing.

The alleged plot to have J.M.’s wife killed first came to the FBI’s attention on Feb. 12, 2020, when the bureau’s National Threat Operations Center obtained an anonymous tip from a ProtonMail account by way of an IP address associated with a VPN in Phoenix, Arizona. The tipster identified themselves as the administrator of a website on the dark web that provided contract killings for a price. About a week earlier, a potential customer transferred $5,000 in Bitcoin to the service to have a hit carried out within the Seattle area, the informant claimed.

“Just kill her ASAP. I don’t care how just make sure she’s dead. I’d prefer if you shoot her in the head,” the client instructed, before adding that the victim worked for a corporation in Bellevue. She added, “I don’t know if that helps you in someway. She has a 3 year old son that she picks him up at 5 P.M. so she normally will get home around 5ish. Please don’t do anything to the boy. That’s all. Thanks[.] Send me a proof when the job’s carried out.”

The tipster informed federal agents that their hitman website was actually only a Bitcoin rip-off, and that “no actual murders had been committed” on behalf of anybody.

“I feel that all targets which were paid for are in danger,” the con artist with a conscience wrote the FBI. “Customers that pay to kill somebody show that they’re serious about killing that particular person[.] I must be in contact with you and to give you the target info, payments proof, and other info to trace the customers. Customers don’t give their name or details and conceal their IP, however still could be tracked.”

The site administrator sent a photograph of the intended victim to agents, one of whom happened to recognize her as somebody she had met before, the affidavit states. The following day, the FBI met with J.M.’s wife and informed her that someone wanted her dead. It’s unclear how the FBI agent knew of J.M.’s wife previously.

When agents asked whether she knew of anybody who’d want her dead, J.M’s wife started to think about people from her past. There was a “snippy” and “aggressive” former colleague from Phoenix, with whom she’d had a “turbulent relationship” and last saw in January 2020, however she didn’t believe that particular person would ever try to hurt her.

A decade earlier, J.M.’s wife continued, her husband sued his boss over a sexual harassment claim. She informed agents she “felt that it was unlikely that J.M.’s former employer would solicit her murder,” the affidavit states, “but stated it was possible as a result of ‘life altering’ nature of the situation.” J.M. was entangled in another lawsuit in 2019, his wife added, when J.M. was sued by a company that accused him of quitting to start his own business, in violation of a non-compete clause.

Aside from that, there wasn’t much else—except for one unusual incident that occurred two days before Christmas 2019.

In an interaction captured on J.M. and his wife’s Ring doorbell camera, a young woman appeared on their doorstep and asked for J.M. by name. When J.M.’s wife stated he wasn’t home, the woman stated she was really there to see her and asked if she might come inside. The wife locked the deadbolt, and when J.M. joined the conversation remotely, the young woman walked away. J.M. informed his wife he didn’t know the woman, and his wife figured the woman must have gotten J.M.’s name from a package addressed to him that had been sitting outside.

The agents then asked J.M.’s wife about her relationship with her husband. She stated it had been “strained for the last few years,” describing the issue as a “loss of passion” which had turned their marriage from a romance into more of a friendship. The emotional distance between them started in 2018, following J.M.’s attendance at a Landmark conference. That year, J.M. asked for a divorce, an idea his wife said she rejected “for the sake of their son,” according to the affidavit. They started seeing a marriage counselor—online, because J.M. was too busy with work to do it in person. J.M.’s wife informed the agents she “had not had an extramarital affair and didn’t believe her husband had either.”

The FBI interviewed J.M. the same day. He claimed he couldn’t think of anybody who would want to kill his wife, the affidavit states.

“When describing his job, J.M. said that he has ‘great relationships with people at work,’ his clients ‘love’ him, he ‘just had a big win’ earlier in the day, and doesn’t believe he makes enemies,” the filing adds. “He said the ‘only major points of serious contention are that lawsuit against me and that thing out in Phoenix,’” referring to the old co-worker with whom his wife hadn’t gotten along.

Asked if he was having an affair, J.M. initially lied. He later admitted he met “somebody” at Landmark that “really liked” him. J.M. stated he took his first Landmark course in 2018, attended a second in 2019, and started a 3rd however dropped out at his wife’s request because it was keeping him away from home. His younger admirer was a college student, J.M. advised the agents, and stated they’d had a sexual relationship lasting “six months or so, a couple times, here and there,” the affidavit states.

“He claimed the romantic relationship ended in August 2019. J.M. stated he last saw [the young woman] in January of 2020, when she informed him she still loved him,” the document explains. J.M. stated he had helped the woman out with money a couple of times, including earlier that month, when he gave her $2,000 after she stated her parents lost their life savings in a burglary. However, she “gave him no indication of being a threat,” J.M. insisted.

On Valentine’s Day 2020, an FBI agent interviewed the college student. She stated the last time she saw J.M. was three weeks prior, when they traveled to Portland, Oregon, for an evening. J.M.’s secret girlfriend stated she was unaware at first that he was married, according to the affidavit. When she found out, J.M. told her that he “couldn’t stand his wife,” but that she had cancer and he couldn’t leave her.

But the younger woman told agents she unearthed pictures online of J.M. and his wife that appeared to contradict his story. After first denying she took steps to have J.M.’s wife murdered, the woman allegedly confessed to soliciting the hit. She then claimed she got nervous and tried to delete the transaction after submitting it, but was unable to do so.

“When asked if she [hoped] J.M. would come live with her as soon as his wife was killed, [the young woman said] ‘…yeah,’” the affidavit states.

Indeed, the younger woman told agents she tried to sabotage their marriage. Before showing up at J.M.’s home in December 2019, she created a fake Facebook account under the name “Katlyn Everson” and sent the wife messages saying J.M. was having an affair.

“I know it because I know the particular person he’s cheating on u with,” Katlyn wrote, according to the affidavit. “If u dont believe me, they’re gonna meet up today at the Kizuki Ramen restaurant in Olympia at 4:30 PM. You can prove it by yourself.”

But J.M.’s wife apparently never saw these messages.

The FBI returned to J.M. for more info in March 2020, since his initial statements didn’t add up. In his second interview, J.M. admitted that he had previously lied to agents when he denied recognizing the younger woman in the Ring footage; at the time, he didn’t want his wife to find out about his extramarital relationship.

J.M. informed investigators that he spoke to the girlfriend shortly after she visited his Bellevue residence unannounced, and asked why she did it. She told J.M. “she was there to kill [his wife] and that she brought a knife along with her as a way to accomplish the murder,” the affidavit states.

Soon after that interview, J.M.’s lover lawyered up and met with the FBI to discuss making a deal. For her part, the woman claimed she never meant to kill her lover’s wife and wasn’t armed during their encounter. She stated she only told J.M. this because she was upset.

She added that J.M. had previously “made comments about wanting to kill his wife and once asked [her] if she knew anybody” willing to do the job.

The woman told authorities that their affair, which started in the summer of 2018, “ebbed and flowed,” and that she’d dumped J.M. a number of times because she was annoyed by his refusal to leave his wife. She claimed J.M. informed her they couldn’t be together until his spouse “died or something happened,” the affidavit alleges.

Over the course of their relationship, she stated, J.M. had a litany of other excuses: the wife had cancer, he was afraid of losing custody of his child, his wife had threatened to kill herself in the past when he threatened her with divorce.

After the couple reunited in the fall of 2019, the college student made plans to end J.M.’s marriage by way of the murder-for-hire plot. She stated she’d used $2,000 that J.M. sent her through PayPal, as well as college scholarship cash to solicit the spouse’s execution.

The young woman stated she and J.M. went out to dinner following her unannounced appearance at his house in December 2019.

“J.M. asked why [she] went to his house, and [she] informed him that she went there to kill [his wife],” the affidavit states. “[She] said that she didn’t actually intend to kill [J.M.’s wife], and was not armed when she went to the house, but told J.M. this because she was upset. [The young woman] claimed that J.M. wasn’t angry but instead saw the conduct as a sign of her dedication and affection for him.”

In order to pursue the murder plot, the woman informed agents, she used an old cellphone she’d obtained from her pastor, then used it to download an application to access the dark web. According to the affidavit, the student surfed reviews of websites providing hitmen—whose services included beating, maiming, or killing victims, she stated—and requested price quotes before landing on the alleged Bitcoin scammer. She chose the Phoenix killer because their website “had an escrow system, giving her a sense of security that her funds wouldn’t be stolen,” the filing states.

The gal pal instructed the phony hitman to not hurt the wife’s child and sent them the victim’s Facebook profile image and address. She’d release the funds, she stated, as soon as she had photographic proof that the victim had been murdered.

Weeks went by, and J.M.’s wife was still alive, the young woman informed the FBI. She contacted the “hitman” through their website and asked what was happening. The scammer, who claimed they by no means really planned on carrying out the assassination, provided an excuse: The hitman they hired for the job had been arrested, so they had been searching for another person to pull it off.

Needless to say, it never happened. The search warrant was executed last April, and filed in court this week, showing that FBI agents mined two of the woman’s email accounts for further clues and proof concerning the aborted hit.

The young woman was unable to be reached. Her lawyer isn’t identified in the filing and isn’t listed in court records.

There have been myriad reports of attempted murder-for-hire plots hatched by way of the dark web in recent years, though a majority of them end up being scams. In each of the instances, men paid online goons several thousand {dollars} in Bitcoin. Around the same time J.M.’s girlfriend was looking for an assassin, CBS 48 Hours highlighted the case of a Minnesota teenager whose British gamer ex-boyfriend had ordered her murder online by way of a mysterious dark net fraudster referred to as “Yura.”

In April, The Every day Beast reported on the case of Spokane physician Ronald Ilg, who’s facing criminal charges for trying to hire dark web killers to assault a former employee and kidnap and extort his wife. Police say journalists from an unnamed news organization foiled Ilg’s plans. One month later, reporters disrupted another alleged murder-for-hire, this time in Beverly Hills. Scott Quinn Berkett, 24, is charged with attempting to orchestrate the killing of a woman he met on a Facebook anime fan page.

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Callout post for Rhiannon / tumblr user irl-harleyquinn / not-yandere-kuudere / otaku-umaru-chan

I have been planning doing this callout for a long time but I haven’t since it’s mostly personal beef between me, my boyfriend and aer. Now I’m at that point I can’t let this pass and I want aer to take responsibility of aer actions. I’m very sorry for this being so long. I’m going to make another post if I recall more.

tw for: abuse, suicide, stalking, pedophilia, incest

EDIT 12/8/2017: This post has been updated, ae has deleted some of the posts mentioned, but theres more evidence on their abusive behavior now.

Summarized version: Rhiannon has been abusing both me and my boyfriend since we met aer. Ae has sexually harassed both of us, sexually abused my boyfriend (the other callout on my byf), been generally unapologetic, copied my whole personality and done lots of bad things in general. For me ae caused episodes regularly; one time ae even ignored when I was this close to killing myself, ignored my triggers, ignored my well being in general, started copying my interests etc. 

All in all ae is very abusive and this callout post is mainly made for aer to realize what ae has done wrong and try to change aer behavior in aer future relationships since straight-up telling aer doesn’t seem to help as proven by both my boyfriend’s and my experiences.

EDIT: Ae didn’t admit to any of these and lied about being sorry:

But then on my IMs (censored my irl name for obvious reasons):

NOTE: I have never done a callout post before so I dont know how to structure this well. I also don’t have lots of ‘proof’ or screenshots since I deleted our convos (most of the stuff happened on Skype) and blocked aer everywhere after breaking my ties with aer because at the time I thought ae would learn from aer mistakes, but I was wrong. Most of these are from aer blog or from what I could recover from my old blog.

1. Causing breakdowns on me, not taking me seriously, triggering me

Since I started talking with aer I got this ugly feeling inside my chest to which I probably should have listened. Ae was very clingy toward my boyfriend, ignoring that I had abandonment issues; I am diagnosed with both BPD and DPD and ae knew this. Despite this ae didn’t honestly think about my feelings at all. Below is one example of the gross things ae did to my boyfriend (which caused me to dissociate and have a panic attack) and didn’t change aer behavior even after this.

EDIT 12/8/2017: It has been revealed to me that ae used to sexually abuse my boyfriend which makes this all a lot of worse. Please check the details from my main blogs byf or on his blog.

Rhiannon also ignored me and changed subject when i was clearly in need of help or someone to vent to. This is me talking about my abusive childhood:

And this is me talking about my abusive mom in a middle of episode:

I honestly felt like ae might have been jealous about me because ae obsessed over my boyfriend so much. Me telling about my age regressing and young mental age and aer response is this:

A convo I don’t have screenshots of was me nearly killing myself and ae treated me the same as in previous convos. Ae was the only person online that late so ofc thinking ae was my friend I contacted aer. A mistake. This honestly scarred me a lot because there was a really big chance I had died that night and ae wasn’t helping me at all.

Rhiannon also talked a lot about aer sexual abuse which is kind of a triggering subject to me because of my own experiences. Ae knew this but constantly brought it up. Sometimes ae would talk sexually about my IDs which also made me have break downs. One time ae sent me a picture of aer nsfw art knowing it would make me uncomfortable. According to my boyfriend ae talked a lot about sex to him even though it made him uncomfortable.

Ae also was weirdly coming onto me even though ae knew at the time I identified as aromantic (censored my irl name again):

No Rhiannon it’s called being uncomfortable.

2. Obsessive behavior, stalking, copying, being abusive and manipulation in general, lying

Rhiannon bases all aer abusive behavior to “being mentally ill”. This is complete bullshit since ae does realize ae is being manipulative.

As mentioned before ae was really obsessed with both of us; but mainly with my boyfriend. Ae never stopped talking about my boyfriend when ae talked to me which made me frankly annoyed and triggered my abandonment issues. According to my boyfriend ae spammed him 24/7 and wanted to video chat every single day. Ae got upset if my boyfriend didn’t want to hang out with aer and during group chats commented on every single thing my boyfriend said. Ae spammed me too and after we broke our ties apparently still talked about me a lot as if we still were friends to my boyfriend which I honestly find creepy.

Aes obsessiveness sometimes got very creepy:

Even admits it:

I live in Finland and ae brought up moving here for a few times all over from America after my boyfriend which always turned alarms on inside my head. Here’s one of them and ae is making it seem like ae is half joking; ae isn’t since ae brought it up so many times (censored out my boyfriend irl name just in case):

Ae clearly didn’t notice my discomfort with this or rather didn’t want to notice. Ae also made fun of my grammar even though English isn’t my first language. My boyfriend told me later that ae was in fact a bit racist; ie. making remarks on my boyfriends ethnicity.

Rhiannon has/had?? a fp who ae was even more obsessed about and made a text post (which ae deleted after awhile) where ae wished that this person would break up so ae could be with them. This has also been confirmed by my boyfriend. Ae also admits falling in love yet another friend of aers:

Ae does stalk others too. After cutting with aer, my boyfriend blocked aer on text, facebook, twitter, tumblr, snapchat, skype and youtube, but ae still managed to reach him via pinterest with a long and hateful message.

Rhiannon admits stalking aer ex:

A really minor thing but Rhiannon used to copy my interests a lot. If I were interested in something ae was too overnight. This wouldn’t bother me as much if I didn’t have identity issues such as BPD and DID. My boyfriend noted ae did this to him too.

EDIT 12/8/2017: This wasn’t as minor as I thought it was. As I browsed through my old tumblr convo with ae I noticed that every time I told something about myself, ae seemed to become the same over night. Ae was stealing bits and pieces of my identity. I told ae about my mental health problems, ae had the same ones suddenly. I told about the fashion trend I was into, ae was suddenly into it too. I told about being an age regressor, ae was suddenly too. I id:d as bigender, ae suddenly did too! I told about being aroace at the time, ae became one as well!! My boyfriend noted that at some point suddenly aer blog was pink as was mine and reblogged and posted similar content as I did at the time even though ae had always been stating ae is goth and had dark blog before. Here is about me telling ae about how me and my alter like fairy kei:

Then later:

Ae didn’t bother even use the right terms.

Rhiannon also guilt trips a lot and threatens people with suicide. This is debatable if it’s serious or not, but every time things won’t go aer way, ae will make text posts guilt tripping how ae wants to die and how everyone abandons aer which was one of the reasons I forgave ae tons of times. 

Ae also lies regularly. one example is when ae told my boyfriend aer IQ, then later admitted to lying about the number. Then again ae said ae was "lying about lying" about aer IQ.  So ae is not a credible source and will likely manipulate the situation as ae sees fit.

3. Guilt tripping both of us while breaking our ties with ae

After I finally broke my ties with aer after withstanding aer behavior for almost a year, ae started guilt tripping me telling I shattered aer sense of self even though only thing I did was stopping being aer friend. I had constantly stated how ae could change aer behavior but ae never listened. 

My boyfriend however got it worse. After he got fed up with aer too ae has constantly, I MEAN CONSTANTLY, been vagueing and name dropping him. My boyfriend hinted and tried to set boundaries but this didn’t help. Rhiannon is trying to paint my boyfriend as this awful backstabber even though ae was the one breaking boundaries. 

Here is

A Few

Of them

WARNING!! They get really creepy, just showing how obsessed ae was with my boyfriend

Additional stuff:

Rhiannon has reblogged incest: (the characters are sisters in canon) 

Rhiannon also approves a pedophilic ship:

AE REBLOGGED LITERALLY SEXUALIZATION OF A MINOR (note that ae is an adult too)

Theres a lot more in aer yoi + aer kin tag.

Ae also obsesses over an underaged character:

Ae talked a lot about this character, sexual stuff too, and it kinda freaked me out since she’s only 14.

Ae did stuff like this without our knowledge which is fucked up (note that my mom is a single parent and this freaked me out even though my responses seem calm):

Admits wanting to commit a crime????

The most recent thing ae has done is claim calling aer out on being manipulative is ableist. However, it is ableist to blame mental health for abusive behavior; this claim demonizes mentally ill people as a whole. (I edited out our names again; I’m black and my boyfriend is blue) 

 Not 24 hours before stating the above, ae wrote this:

   Ae is showing clear hypocrisy here.

Rhiannon, please listen. All you can do now is apologize, try to change your behavior, dont make excuses blaming abusive behavior on you mental illnes. Just write an apology and then we can move on. You can’t get us back, but you still have hope for becoming a better person for your future friends. I will keep this callout up until you make a proper apology.

EDIT 12/8/2017: Since Rhiannon didn’t make an actual apology to me or my boyfriend and with the new information of ae sexually abusing my boyfriend, this post will forever be here.

[antiradqueef]

ok first of all having a diagnosis makes you no more knowledgeable on whats going on inside someone elses head. at most, being a psychologist would, however psychologists refuse to say people on the internet are faking because they dont know them, and you are not a psychologist.

how do you know this? syunkiss has OSDD which is known for its lack of memory loss. and even if not, the only way alters wouldnt know that kind of stuff is if you have bad communication between parts, which you cant assume syunkiss has.

"not to villianize the concept of DID" is WILD because its exactly what youre doing. people with DID arent killers and are actually more likely to be abused than be abusers. and look at how many sources you gave to support this harmful claim that people with DID are serial killers.... ZERO!

we shouldve left evil alter bullshit in the 90's. give me a break.

what?? does this have to do with anything? yes, DID is a trauma disorder, but you dont know what abuse they went through. the fact that you intentionally picked out small events that you would perceive as insignificant is just you trying to downplay and minimize their trauma without even knowing what it is!

and how many times do we have to say that trauma is not the event, its the reaction???

(EDIT: i have been informed DID is a dissociative disorder, not a trauma disorder, although trauma is almost always present.)

"this is scientific fact."

well wheres your scientific source, doctor??? anything from natural disasters to chronic neglect can cause DID.

AGAIN,,, source????

it is impossible for the human brain to create anything originally, so technically every alter has sources, although they might be too little to be able to pinpoint. a fictive is just an alter with one or very few source(s), unlike the creator of this post.

fictives are a common, documented occurrence. a "fictive heavy system" is just a system who's brain is more likely to take one source instead of several.

-skipping over the headspace part because my head hurts-

this is the biggest nothing burger ever. to call this "harassment" is CRAZY. what harassment really is is what syunkiss is recieving in their inbox currently as a result of this post!

This person is faking D.I.D, and more. and its time we actually talk about it. ( As someone with DIAGNOSED D.I.D. )

CW ; faking disorders, lying, swearing, antiship debates, harassment, mentions of serial killers (as example), mentions of abuse and trauma (unspecified),

DISCLAIMER ; I am aware this will cause a lot of attention if seen by a lot of people in the D.I.D community. a lot of fakers tend to have similar "aspects" to syunkiss, so I expect hate. as well as a lot of syunkiss fans who will run to their defence (for some reason) this is to spread awareness. This entire post is based on SCIENTIFIC FACTS and my OWN EVIDENCE. i am medically diagnosed and have been for 7 years now.

OTHER BLOGS OF NOTE ; @/idonoiyo @/duckduckgoose-exe @/rab1darachn1d (also faking)

syunkiss is a popular blog, being seen in many areas of the bungou stray dogs fandom. and for some reason, barely anybody seems to actually acknowledge the fact they've been faking D.I.D, or OSDD. whatever they "claim" to have. this is proof of them and their lies.

i don't know how this hasn't been brought up before. it is so obvious that they are faking it and yet everybody seems to nod and agree. the same goes for their circle of friends, by seeing how they have acted for a while. they would be faking too.

I am speaking as an actual system. I have a right to speak about this subject. it is bad for our community and it leaves a bad impression. they do not know the struggles we have to face. let's get into it.

AMNESIA

something common among people with types of D.I.D (using it as an umbrella label) is huge amounts of amnesia. most people are not aware that they may be switching or even know who they are.

it is almost physically impossible that you would know to sign off with a emoji every time you have switched alters. much less switch entire blogs, or even know who is speaking.

your alters are not you, some of them would not even remember you had a tumblr account to stay active on. let alone to add an emoji or any types of sign off in general. a lot of the time me and my alters dont even know where we are, let alone able to go on tumblr and answer asks constantly.

an example of this (not to villanise the concept of people with D.I.D) is that many serial killers have some type of D.I.D, some of them are not aware of the people they might have killed at all. because they have amnesia. this is how it works.

USERBOX

I had managed to save the userbox before they had deleted it.

this is just... what? that is now how fictives or any types of alter are formed. fictives/introjects/factives are valid, we have one in our system. however this is not how they are formed at all. D.I.D is caused by trauma, it is not something that can cause you to split into another alter by daydreaming.

D.I.D is developed (begins developing) at a very young age as a result of intense amounts of trauma, both physical and mental. (it is not from something as small as your parents grounding you or hitting you once. it has to be intense amounts of trauma.) and signs only typically show when you are in adulthood.

there is cases of it showing in younger people, but the trauma is usually extremely worse, and the chance of this happening is very low. there would have to be life threatening levels of abuse at the ages of 5 to 10. and still the youngest it can be confirmed is at 17. this is a scientific fact.

this userbox shows ignorance. if you are going to fake a disorder, do some research at least. or talk to people who actually have the disorder. it was so confidently said im in shock nobody picked up on it.

FICTIVES

this one is going to get me a lot of hate. I know that. however it has to be said.

they claim to be a fictive heavy system, but the chances of fictives being present in systems at all is a very unlikely chance. they usually form after some connection with trauma towards that franchise, related or indirectly related.

having so many fictives from bungou stray dogs is extremely unlikely. it is difficult to house 3 normal alters in one body, but this person is claiming to have so many and all of them are from bungou stray dogs somehow. this is a very obvious sign they are lying. this does not happen. it is even more unlikely they will have every single period of a single character as fictives too.

if they just wanted to roleplay they can. but faking D.I.D for this is damaging to my community.

I am mentioning littles here so I do not have to make a new category for it. it typically develop from dissociation caused by prolonged early childhood trauma. having a fictive who also happens to be a little is so unlikely. if it is age regression, then okay. but syunkiss described it as a little alter.

HEADSPACES

this is a little difficult to explain. but I will do my best.

headspaces do not exist. there is something similar, but that is just your subconscious. you cannot have your alters interact in your headspace like it is a minecraft world.

switching alters works like a timeskip, this is because of the memory gaps and amnesia. this is not fully targeted at syunkiss, but mostly at their friends.

you cannot see what is happening in the "headspace", that is just not possible. switching alters is like sleeping in minecraft, you just wake up whenever you switch back with no memory of what happened between the dates.

HARASSMENT

this is a short section, but it needs to be addressed. syunkiss claims to not go out and harass proshippers or people he disagrees with, and he just "blocks them"

that is their pinned post. that is what it says about them being an anti.

that is them going out of their way to harass somebody else in their inbox.

no, syunkiss it wasn't them who even sent the asks. it was one of my friends who also encouraged me to speak up and make this post. you are contradicting yourself.

I am not a proshipper, I am quite anti. but that does not make it okay.

tdlr ; syunkiss is lying about D.I.D, not even doing research before doing it and he is going against his own word and harassing people.

thank you for reading. my askbox is open if anyone wants any extra questions. i may add to this in the future if more shows up.

[teddy-the-queer-wizard]

Well okay then. Its not bad enough to insult my mother, you have the gall to try and go through her to try to talk to me when youre upset - not because you believe you did anything wrong but because you feel bad for making me upset - that I'm not talking to you. I just. Dont want to hear you apologize and try to beg your way into my good graces because youve stupidly managed to convince yourself that I'm the one true love and you couldn't possibly go on without me. I just want to calm down so I can have an adult fucking conversation without lashing out because I'm upset and hurt and your constant desperate harassment is not going to make that process any shorter. I dont want to hear you cry and sad and mopey when its my mother and aunt you hurt and upset. I dont want you to make me feel sorry for you when my family has on numerous occasions made it clear that they are handling you with kid gloves because of me, when I've made it clear you either need to unfriend them and end the stupid avoidable drama or to make sure youre prepared for a ten page dissertation with sited sources before engaging in serious discussions, when you decided to personally attack and make snide petty comments like an immature brat, when this isnt the first instance, when instead of making a retraction or altering your statement or even just admitting youd fucked up TO the people youve insulted your first instinct is to run to me and cry on my shoulder because I MIGHT be mad at you, when this isnt the first time this happened. I dont want to feel sorry for you and right now I dont. I know at some point I'll stop ignoring you - hell its only been a day and I've self isolated for a month with only minor concern from you - and Ill stop blocking you on social media and Ill sit down and have a reasoned discussion with you. But right now I dont feel its cruel to take some time to myself and figure out what I feel, what I want to say, or to ignore you right now.

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My Presentation

My presentation and the main concept of my final major project is looking at the negative effects of a camera, that intrudes privacy and dehumanises people, and how it has changed society.  Photography has always had a lot of ethical gray areas, and Im interested in what makes people react differently to photographs, why some are seen as okay but others aren't. In what situations is a camera appropriate but in others not, and how the use of a camera has affected our generation and its authenticity.

One influence for this topic is my interest in photojournalism, Photojournalism is the practicing of communicating news by photographs, and is always providing reasons for controversy as images are often explicit. I want to look at what distinguishes between an images been ok, and not ok.

These images here are from the same time, September 2015, when the refugee crisis was at the height of every news story and we were inundated with new stories every day. The image on the right was a massive influence on the way that people responded to the crisis, as it was so shocking, and really resonated with people on a personal level. However, there was a large outcry after this image was published as many found it too explicit and tragic to be on our front covers. But it was the truth and it made people change, so why wasnt it ok to be published? It differs greatly to the image on the left, whose colour is edited and which has a dreamy depth of field, the subjects look happy, and its portrayed to look joyful and beautifully photographed - which is a completely fake portrayal of the refugee crisis. It makes me wonder if we only want to see edited versions of lives, because real life images are never accepted graciously.

This image by Stanley Forman is from 1975, but raised the same kind of issues. It was again published on the front cover of a newspaper titled Fire Escape Collapse, and went on to win awards for World Press Photo of the Year and a Pulitzer Prize. However the children were in fact falling to their death and so there was outrage at the image being so highly commended as it was argued by many that it takes away the dignity of ones human death.  Many wrote to the newspaper expressing their feelings yet the editor defended the photographer in a statement that concluded:

“I recognize that printing pictures of corpses raises all sorts of problems about taste and titillation and sensationalism; the fact is, however, that people die. Death happens to be one of life’s main events. And it is irresponsible — and more than that, inaccurate — for newspapers to fail to show it, or to show it only when an astonishing set of photos comes in over the Associated Press wire. Most papers covering fatal automobile accidents will print pictures of mangled cars. But the significance of fatal automobile accidents is not that a great deal of steel is twisted but that people die. Why not show it? That’s what accidents are about. Throughout the Vietnam War, editors were reluctant to print atrocity pictures. Why not print them? That’s what that was about. Murder victims are almost never photographed; they are granted their privacy. But their relatives are relentlessly pictured on their way in and out of hospitals and morgues and funerals.”

in addition to this, the idea of editing what we put into the public eye has swung so far in the opposite direction that these days, outside of the news, almost nothing we see is real.

photographers whose subjects are celebrities, or better known papparazi, have been at the root of many disasters. The word paparazzi derives from the word pappataci, which is italian for small mosquito,suggesting that a paparazzi is an annoying buzzing creature. It then entered the english language and refers to an intrusive photographer.  They are responsible for the most widely seen images we have in contemporary culture, and whilst not ideal, its true that they make thousands of pounds or dollars from a single image. They inhabit a weird form of postmodern journalism thats seen as both despicable and a part of the media we indulge in. They have a history of invading the privacy of celebrities, whether its waiting outside their homes or sneaking into their hotel rooms. Perhaps the most extreme case of paparazzi torment is that surrounding Princess Dianas death. A leading theory suggests that the reason her taxi driver was going so fast was to escape a following photographer. This was a particularly serious case, and although some regulations were changed after this incident, ((including that legally ‘Journalists must not engage in intimidation, harassment or persistent pursuit.’, )) its still a very big part of todays culture. However, whilst for some its an invasion of privacy, for others its their money maker. Certain celebrities who are famous for they lifestyle, what they wear, who their with, and what their doing, they rely on these images taken to keep their fanbase updated on their movements and therefore cant have much say in stopping it from happening. So its difficult to stop a culture such as this as for some it may be torment, but for others, its their job.

Further on from this, and my last point into exploring the intrusive sides of a camera, is the devices that we use them on. Im not sure if any of you saw this article, where a photographer created a series of photos of people engaging in their phones, but edited them out of the picture to show the true reality of what was happening. This caused a lot of reaction and showed the harsh reality that we forget day to day of how people are so absorbed in their phones that they dont engage with people. The photographer, Eric Pickersgill, created a short video explaining his series, which to conclude is about how we kind of notice, but tend not to act upon these addictions. He also mentions how its easy for him to photograph people on their phones, as they dont notice him.  As a photographer myself I can relate to this, as if photographing people, you know its safe to capture someone who is on their phone, as they wont see you. But it also can make you feel slightly uncomfortable, as I more often than not now, almost feel bad for taking a photo, as I feel like theres a line between just enjoying an experience, and capturing it on your phone. (And i barely even take photographs of anything anymore because i want to enjoy the moment.)  We've seen this before however, at concerts perhaps, where people barely watch or join in with the performances because they are filming it all on their phone. We have come to a day and age where people are so infatuated by their phones that they almost don't even know whats going on around them anymore. Its become part of our culture, to spend any spare time we may have, endlessly scrolling and looking at photos. We are exposed to a greater amount of worldwide information than we ever have been, as we have such great access to photos of people and places from all over the world. This is great, as people are travelling more than ever, and using this source as a way of maintaining contact with people from all over the world, however it can sometimes be a little overwhelming just how much we are exposed to. Its said that the average mobile phone user checks their phone around 200 times a day, and in a  survey of college students 94% said they would feel troubled if they didn't have their phone with them. As a generation we are addicted and we are constantly posting or taking some kind of photo or video. I really want to explore the effects that this has on people, on authenticity, their relationships and their actions, as well as their feelings. My main concentration would be in fact authenticity, as I very much feel like as someone who doesn't really have any specific career path in mind, it can feel quite daunting to watch what everyone else is doing in their lives, and appearing successful on their social media platforms, and to see how authentic people really are these days, and how much is influenced by what they see everyone else doing. I have a theory that if we weren't exposed to as much information as we are, of other peoples lives, and lived in a generation such as our parents, many of us would be doing very different things. I think we would be more concentrated on purely what we like doing, as opposed to what other people like and what we feel we should.  I also think that this mobile technology has really altered our expectations of reality, and Im going to explore the ways in which it has, and what we would potentially be like without these cameras after all.

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You’re bringing up not only things that aren’t part of the argument, but misinformation yourself. I’m trying to be kind as well.

I agree with you - endos aren’t trauma systems, and let’s say for the sake of the argument that Endogenics, full stop, do not exist. I’m willing to accept that easily.

The argument here is that going into the spaces of trauma victims and bullying them is stupid. Further, I wish people would stop going into the spaces of trauma victims and insisting either their experiences aren’t real, or that they DO have trauma (which these people clearly are not ready to address, and shouldn’t be FORCED to address by some tumblr user who isn’t prepared to walk them through trauma memories).

Your misinformation is where you say you have to be ages 4-6 in order to have a chance of having a system, but then you even turn around and say age ten. Please use an age range actually backed by science. Let’s find a few:

“Current research suggests before the ages of 6-9 (while other papers list even as early as age 4).”

“Research suggests that children ages 10 and younger will develop signs and symptoms of a dissociative disorder.”

“It cannot form after 6 to 9 years of age.”

There’s three sources with a more accurate age range. I’m glad you are least went to 10 years old in the paragraph after, but even then:

Speaking as a system who CANNOT remember any trauma from before age 11, but knows I experienced trauma, hearing this sort of thing makes me feel horrible. It makes me believe I’m faking, that I’m no better than an “endogenic system”. “But it’s okay not to remember your trauma! It’s just not okay to say you’re a system without it!” But for me I DONT have trauma!! I don’t have trauma that *I* can remember. It doesn’t matter that I know it HAD to have happened, these sorts of post still send me spiraling.

I can at least accept I had trauma before 11. But what about these systems who ARE systems, who can’t accept even that much yet? All that going into their space and saying the types of things that get posted in pro-endo spaces by anti-endos does is hurt them. It hurts *everyone*.

Let me use the terminology I see in form anti-endo spaces to explain the ramifications:

It makes genuine traumagenic systems who have been brainwashed into thinking they’re “natural systems” believe the brainwashing even more. They’re now martyrs. It gives endogenic fakers more ground to stand on about being harassed, because so many people attack them by saying they should kill themselves or similar. And it makes the actual community, the real systems, tear each other apart over minuscule details, such as diagnosis status and alter counts, because “what if they’re an endogenic in disguise?”

No, the endogenic community is NOT without fault here. They need to get help, desperately, and need to address if what they have is traumagenic DID, c-PTSD, or something else entirely. They need to stop using terminology that doesn’t belong to them. They need to stop speaking over the voices of traumagenic systems. And NONE of that means you should enter their spaces to tell them they aren’t real.

Friendly reminder for traumagenic systems!

Going into endo/endo positivity tags to start syscourse with, harrass, and invalidate endos is not okay! Even if everything negative you believe about them is true, it's wrong to go into people's safe spaces and tell them they're invalid.

Yes, even if they did it to you first.

That's troll behavior. We don't tolerate it when people we disagree with politically do it to us, and syscourse is not potentially life-threatening like politics are.

Please think of the person on the other end of what you're saying, and try to be kind.

- a fellow traumagenic system