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copia · 3 months

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THIRTY-ONE DAYS OF GHOST ⛧ DAY ONE

first song you heard — Mary On A Cross

September 1969; Papa Nihil and the beginning of the Ghost Project take to the stage at the Whiskey a Go Go club in Los Angeles, under the watchful eye of Sister Imperator. Fifty-three years later, in Tampa, Florida, Papa Emeritus the Fourth performs Mary On A Cross, unaware that he is singing the story of his parents—and that of himself.

#note: i'm aware this song is about so much more than the fictional ghost story. just really enjoying that aspect of it rn #very nearly didn't do this series because some people are a bit silly about fans who heard moac as the first song. i'm owning it sdkjcksh #it wasn't the song that made me a fan as i will show in the next post but moac slaps so hard and #if you only like moac and nothing else you're still a ghestie to me <3 #not my fault i was on instagram in autumn of 2022 #i was going through some stuff then and listening to clips of this pretty song on random videos was something i enjoyed #didn't know the name of it or who sung it but kept hearing it at 4am when i couldn't sleep and everything was falling apart around me #when all i could do was try to escape it until the morning #i feel a bit stupid saying this but when i listen to it now and remember hearing it back then #it's like ghost was there for me even when i didn't know it #waiting for me to find them and everything their music would teach me #until the time was right #ghost31 #papa emeritus iv #the band ghost #papa nihil #sister imperator #mary on a cross #user copia edits #user copia all tag #wait for the next tags i'm also tagging:#rite here rite now spoilers #i'm emotional about their messed up little family finding each other right at the very end. they never let each other go #flashing gif #<- ig

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juniemunie · 8 months

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If we're not giving up, don't give up wherever you are.

That's a promise.

#im not even sure if you can see whats going on clearly on that last pic but i give up im too tired #scenario: we get to interact with the lost soul. cuz its not like he can see us.... but he would definitely know its not frisk though #considering deltarune noelle can hear our voice wHY NOT HUH?? HUH??? WHY NOT US WITH SANS #IM THROWING THAT LINE BACK AT YOU SANS #whats gonna happen after this? he probably wont remember. everyone canonically only remembers flowey and then a flash of white after.#but we will keep that moment close in our hearts hehe #IF HE WERE TO REMEMBER THE VOICE? id say it would become his lil own personal motivation. remembering it brightens his mood on bad days.#it still makes me lose my mind #that THAT PROMISE LINE #is in the code #but is never directly seen in game #BUT ITS THERE #AND THE IMPLICATIONS #makes me so damn emotional #anyways this scene is going to my delusional fanfic that im debating on whether im even going to post it or not #we shall see #sansnomaly #sans x reader #sans x self insert #sans undertale #junie art post

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autisticandroids · 3 months

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CASTIEL: Stop. What's the point if you don't mean it? You fear me - not love, not respect, just fear.

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a godstiel pity party. i'd like to thank an anon i got way back in february of 2021.

#spn #vid #spnamvarchive #so fun fact i started making this more than a year ago. got it 90% done. and then was like no this isn't working #i will come back to this later.#it turns out that i needed to make some videos about cas and angels (the love club + help i'm alive amvs)#in order to make this one. anyway this video is about french mistake robert singer voice season six #i really struggled with it because i could NOT find the thread until i realized that it needed to be literally godstiel pov #it's about love and desire and jealousy and hurt and omnidirectional rage <3 #it's about the fact that cas is so utterly dependent on dean for his self-image - however dean sees him that's it #it's about having a moment of reflection about lashing out before you do it but doing it anyway #it's about taking cruelty and dishing it out #and crucially. it's about being pregnant #mpregpocalypse #fun fact: i made a post about working on three season six amvs all the way back in nov. 2022 #and only now have they come to fruition (this one + love club + metric)#anyway. have you heard that cas is obsessed #the thing is i do kinda want to add some specific director's commentary here. like the first verse is about cas being like.#incredibly deeply emotionally vulnerable to dean. as in: his emotional state and self-image is totally dominated by what dean thinks of him #and if dean is mad at him. and then the second verse is about... dean upsetting him and him responding to that by Killing Everybody lol #like he has a moment of reflection ['certain regrettable things are now required of me' + killing rachel] where he's like i've 1) also done #bad things and 2) i feel bad about it so maybe i will regret Killing Everyone. but then he does it anyway due to everybody keeps turning #on him. i feel like the rest of the amv is self evident. i guess i should note that 'share a paradise' is about how both of them have #a nostalgic view of the early days of their relationship when it wasn't Like This lol. but everything else i think is self evident.#oh and the reason the other angels flash onscreen with their burned wings at the end is i'm EVOKING the image of cas' wings burning. even #though it doesn't happen. i'm evoking it

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thwackk · 1 year

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justice league beach party but i only drew halbarry. *passes away*

#hal jordan #barry allen #halbarry #green lantern #the flash #dc #my art lol #i’m full of emotions #dont have the patience to color things #i always come back to them i can never escape 💀#oh yeha barry wears a t shirt cause he’s a little insecure abt his lichtenberg scars but he’ll never actually say that yaknow like #hal will be like: it’s cause of ur scars isn’t it.#and barry always laughs at him like that’s the stupidest shit hal’s ever said in his entire life and changes the subject #hal looks at the camera like the office

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reineydraws · 10 months

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shanks reminds me of jmw turner's paintings so i wanted to put them together 💥

sketch for the painting under the cut!

#shanks #akagami no shanks #red hair shanks #red haired shanks #red force #one piece #one piece fanart #op fanart #it's kiiiiiiind of what i wanted #i was thinking about how people's eyes flash red when they use conqueror's haki #so i wanted to marry a red sunset by turner with a shanks portrait but it proved kind of difficult to balance the degree of abstraction lol #he's not as terrifying or scary or intimidating as i wanted to convey but the pro of that is that it looks more like a turner portrait #maybe one day i'll try again with a more stormy vibe but yeah the colours and emotion were pretty difficult to put down #i love turner #i tried to explore the more painterly brushes in procreate but i just ended up falling back on my favourite ones aha #the vibe i tried to capture is better conveyed in the sketch 💀 it's the shading. the shading helps convery it better #and i had to sacrifice the shading for the abstraction around his eye. ah well; learning experience!#anyways i know i just posted smth yesterday and also three hours ago but this is my blog and i will post if i want to #(i have to affirm this to myself literallt every single time i feel like im posting too much lmao)#i digress #oh btw that's a marine ship on the left about to go down from haki. jsyk.

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unspokenstydia · 1 year

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✰ ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, GOT THE WRONG INSIDES. ✰

THEO RAEKEN: THE KINTSUGI KID “Real pain is emotional pain. That is the kind of pain that lasts.”

#it’s theo’s false tears of deceit versus these moments of real emotion slipping through. the terror of letting himself feel.#the impossibility of it. and then it’s the dread doctors’ syringe and how carelessly and callously he would give life back and rip it away #doling out both resurrection and murder with this drilled-in emotional distance. perfecting every action to be so necessarily heartless #because bodies were test sites and weapons and /his/ body was an appendage in itself of someone else’s agenda—#versus his own flesh upon gabe’s in this one selfless moment. and how his touch is gentle and light and his hesitance underscores every beat #and how inundating the revelation is—that he’s capable of this. that it's all possible for him.#and how perilous it must be to look forward from that post-hell hinge point and know that the death of the myth he was promised is only the #beginning of his life. and all of this is difficult and painful in ways that are brand new but must (avowedly/somehow/please)#be worth that pain.#theo raeken #flashing gif #tw: blood #twedit #teenwolfedit #teen wolf #fyteenwolf #cody christian #tvedit #fall out boy #so much (for) stardust #there's something so staggering about the fact that theo (in cody's imagination) stays.#he's not much of a pack animal and scott's never going to forgive him and it doesn't matter who forgets because mason won't and #he'sbarelyevenhumanlikeacheapknockoffdotheylookredtoyouithinkyoupushedherandithinkyoulikedit and #he stays.#like. i don’t know how i’m expected to be okay about any of this! i’m undone!! it’s shattering and stunning #and so is the kintsugi kid in the context of like. my insides are copper and i’d kill to make them gold / do you ever get the feeling that #your insides and your outsides don’t really go together? / i wonder at the way that someone can write thousands and thousands of pages about #my insides / it’s about feeling all right and feeling safe in your own skin / on the bright side got the wrong insides !!#and [back to theo] this chorus as a callback to ‘when i’m just the ghost of nothing nothing’ in from now on we are enemies #anyway . will the real hard hard pills to swallow please stand up.

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guardian-angle22 · 2 years

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TK/Carlos + Touch

↳ 2.12 The Big Heat

#911 lone star #tk strand #carlos reyes #tarlos #tk/carlos + touch #tw: flashing lights #the way tk is so protective of carlos during this #pushing him to go back to the room - telling him to go first out the window just in case #just grabbing carlos' face and shaking him like 'hey i love you so lets survive this'#pushing carlos afterwards just enough to get him to open up and let his emotions out #holding him #ahhh thats some good shit #my gifs #episode: s02e12 the big heat #tarlos touch series

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yangjeongin · 2 years

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HYUNJIN BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN (2023 EDITION) ↘ D-11 | through the eras: IN LIFE

#hwang hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #a9gifs #malegroupsnet #hyunjin #flashing tw #*gif #*ccarly #*hyunjin #*carly:hyunjin #*series:hjbday23 #my era...the era i became a stay #i miss this era every day tbh...back door still my favorite skz tt and top three skz song Period i love her #why am i getting emotional over this tf...

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moonlight-stalker · 1 year

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# 93 Dcu x Dp

Nightingale industry is a big name like Wayne Enterprises, they are known to make clean energy and make all kinds of electronics that had a sci-fi look to them. All of it is run by a man named Daniels Nightingale from what the bats can find was that the Nightingale industry had started as a company known as Vladco that was combined with a small company known as Fenton Works. From what the bats can find Vladco mostly created weapons and Fenton works built all kinds of things that use some unknown power source but they also build the same kind of weapons that Vladco made. The problem was that the bats can not find what type of weapons they used to make, but they did find blueprints of a portal in both companies and a newer one that seem to belong to Nightingale.

They want to figure out what Daniel Nightingale is planning the problem is that Nightingale is known to never accepted an invitation to any gathering or event, and he has never been known to do business deals face to face.

#My post #Dp x dc fic prompt #Dc×dp prompt #Dc dp au #Danny is around Brurce's age #Danny hates going outside #His ghost and human form have combined making him look less human #He has black and white hair when he gets emotional his eyes flash green #He has pointy ears and sharp teeth he has sharp claws that are black with specs of color with the tips being white #His body is cold and his heartbeat is slow his skin is a deathly pale #He hates how people will stare at him when he goes out #He is also afraid that if he goes out then the GIW will find him #Danny is making a new portal to both help Lady Gotham and her ghost and has a way back to the realms #Vlad's and Fenton's portals were both destroyed

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madefate · 3 months

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things i am still not over & quite frankly will never be over. blitz wagging his fucking tail when he says i can always do better

#hh tw #( blitz hc. )#do u ever just.#sit & think abt how #full moon is probably the most honest we've ever seen blitz /ever/ & how telegraphed all his emotions were #bby boy how MUCH were u flashing back 2 ur 16 year old self my guy #can't wait for the therapy arc <3

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im-still-watching-anime · 2 years

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the reason naruto has so much filler and flashbacks is for bitches like me who would cry too much and die of dehydration if exposed to too much successive canon content at once

#naruto #naruto shippuden #always take breaks while having long cry sessions😤#anytime it flashes back to obito’s childhood my eyes dry immediately out of frustration #very good and very sad the first time you watch it #but GOD i’ll never recover from the bombardement of obito flashbacks towards the end #the way they stretched out his (final) death an entire episode JUST to show basically every clip we have already seen OOF #completely killed the emotional impact and im still lowkey pissed about it #but at least i am HYDRATED💅💅💅#also something poetic about me still watching naruto at 3am during my last spring break ever

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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 5 months

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

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gepazu · 10 months

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pspspspsps,, coney island by taylor swift w (again) the godheim boys,,,

#★ sweet nothings.#okay so . “break my soul in two - looking for you but you're right here”#= the godheim boys knowing you're so close - a life away from theirs' but also oh so far. an ocean away kind of distance yk?#“and when I got into the accident” = her returning back to her world - “the sight that flashed before me was your face”#“but when i walked up to the podium i think that i forgot to say your name” can mean mc in her proper world getting an award for her manga #+ is at the podium and accepting the award for creating a beautiful story #- but she forgets to mention the names of those she left (and had loved in her time during godheim) because no one would get her.#no one would believe the emotion in her voice and mistake the cracks in them for gratitude instead of regret - longing #- and fallacies among #- all else that she's done to a universe that was real (in her mind)#and to the people she knew (that made her the centerfold/key to grasping freedom and peace)#okay i'm gonna stop now i ramble too much i'm sorry fdjhsdfkfgjhhdfklsddsffdds #lovebrush chronicles #lovebrush chronicles x reader

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seranthy · 3 months

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crazy how my mom did nothing for me except put me in situations that physically, emotionally, mentally, sexually traumatized me and created an environment where I was sexually abused by all the men and boys she allowed to be around me and left me alone with yet has the audacity to say she's a great mother like are you serious I almost let the neighborhood pedophile abduct me just to get away from you. You have the audacity to say daddy coddled me and babied me, insinuating that he made me weak, yet the “coddling” in question was just him being a good father and protecting me from you, who would hit me and strangle me and throw me against walls, your disabled and chronically ill child, just because my crying was frustrating you. I was crying because I was afraid of you, but sure, threaten to “give me something to cry about,” that'll definitely make the toddler with chronic pain from head to toe stop crying.

#tw csa vent #tw abuse vent #vent post #chronic depression #chronic pain #chronically ill #chronic illness #trauma survivor #actually ptsd #emotional abuse #actually traumatized #child abuse #abusive mother #she literally threatened to throw me out into a tropical storm because i wouldn't stop crying #mind you i was crying because i have severe sensory processing disorder and the storm already terrified me but my disorder made it 10x worse #imagine feeling like there's stones being thrown on the roof over your head in the midst of an earthquake that shakes the ground #beneath your feet every few minutes with the addition of a blinding white light giving you a mini heart attack every time it flashes #and the rain sounding like a rumbling avalanche while the wind sounds like a wolf howling and your own MOTHER telling you #“stop crying or im gonna throw you out there” in response to you being terrified. that's literally what it was like for me.#i'll never forget that moment bc that was the first time i heard daddy yell at her in defense of me. looking back on this memory #i share the same outrage as he had back then. my mother was the worst bully i've ever had.

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seithr · 5 months

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Randomly remembered the half-reason i call my oc-verse by the name it has while laying in bed. One-half of the reason i still knew, but I had forgotten what had truly, really cemented it jointly until now

(it was a song from my favourite band I haven't listened to in a while.)

(the song fit so well at the time, still does, that i needed to hold onto it for the main protagonists forever, by partially naming their story in reference.)

Does this explanation make any sense? Does anyone know why I'm tearing up remembering this. Aahh

#(I'm emotional because I've been feeling bad about it all lately. enjoying things I make I mean—art or ocs or frivilous things.)#(So remembering that song and when it came out. That I couldn't see them in person. But i held onto it my own way. As something I loved)#(Something I still do love a lot... Parts of me saying no—you don't hate it. No. I'll help you remember more. I'm a little misty about it.)#The song is just The Killers - Run For Cover. I couldn't see them in person all those years ago—family went without me.#All my new oc rework with Zin and Hunter and Caia were like a year old or so.#It's a little silly. But the character Zin's derived from was a lightning mage so I stuck to it—I like monhun's zinogre for what its worth #So there's recurring theme and imagery. Thunder's not lightning but the sound and the feeling after the flash the flame and strike.#There's that meaningful thought—the story is the aftermath of a big tragedy. It matches what I like in monsters and other chars.#And at that time—my favourite band I missed out on puts out a really good song I download everywhere and it goes like:#He motioned me to the sky/ I heard heaven and thunder cry/ Run for cover/ Run while you can baby don't look back/ You gotta run for cover #And it goes on of course. The rest of the song's still really good. There's more that fits but point is; More evocative imagery.#So there. Why my bundle of OCs—Zinadia Hunter and Caia's story—is called Thunder 20XX. minus the 20XX. That's tongue-in-cheek #About some day I'll manage to make something tangeable or broadly shareable with them. I guarentee this century!#Thunder... oh my darling Thunder. Eight years man. More than that if I really want to count pre-rework INTO the complete original work. but #I like that it's definably 8. I like that I remembered I've always loved them a lot. Always been my thing to lean on even by name...#I need to get to sleep. Ive gotten a little more emotional over one song than I'd rather regularly be. Give it a listen maybe? Goodnight #Armour clanking #I need an oc tag #What have you gathered to report to your progenitors?🎶Are your excuses any better than your senator's🎶He held a conference #and his wife was standing by his side🎶He did her dirty but no-one died🎶#I saw Sonny Liston on the street last-night black-fisted and strong singing🎶Redemption song🎶#He motioned me to the sky🎶I heard heaven and thunder cry🎶RUN FOR COVER #What are you waiting for—a kiss or an apology?🎶You think by now you'd have an A in toxicology🎶#It's hard to pack the car when all you do is shame us🎶Even harder when the dirtbag's famous🎶#I saw my mother on the street last night all pretty and strong singin🎶The road is long🎶#I said 'Mama I know you tried!'🎶But she fell on her knees and cried🎶RUN FOR COVER #Just run for cover - you've got nothin left to lose...

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dea011 · 4 months

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twt is no fun w out tags. how am i supposed to say out in the open that im late in posting because i both missed a psychiatrist appointment and shes ghosting me???

#it was a federal holiday yesterday when our appt was + i misremembered it as being today #its the first doc appt ive ever missed so ive been very stressed waiting for an email back #but i havent been notified that i missed my appt nor did she send the meeting link this time around #it is very strange and i am now crying at a 3/10 anime im only finishing due to the misery of my situation #and i woke up before 6am due to the constant flashing disco lights of lightning and severe storm warnings #+ yesterday my old friend ran into me at the grocery store when shed been out of state for years #and it was crazy bc im avoiding her (whoops she knows at least)#but it was emotional bc it was nice to see her familiar face and i care about her a lot still #it took me 2.5 hrs to draft a text to her afterwards and i cried nearly the whole time #like i cant say this in a post!#but tea is so fun to share in tags ^^#theres so much lore to a tweet that twt will never know

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