#enstars knights fanfics

[seangelfish]

Neck bites

Ritsu Sakuma x [Fem] Reader

Genres: Smut (NSFW), fluff.

Content warnings: blood, blood kink, unprotected sex, riding, missionary, creampie, vanilla sex.

Word count: 2,049

Plot/summary: After trying your blood for the first time, your boyfriend continues to ask for it whenever he's feeling sluggish. Because you loved him so much, you always agreed. You were only doing this for his sake, but maybe there was just more to it than you thought...

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT.

The first time he had a taste of your blood was when you accidentally pricked your finger with a needle. You were sewing a loose button of your boyfriend’s Knights uniform for him, but because of his clinginess, he knocked your hand further into the fabric, stabbing your finger.

“Ow!” you cried. “Ritsu…!”

The tip of your finger began to bleed. It stung, but there wasn’t too much to worry about. It was a tiny puncture after all.

“Ah, (Y/N), I'm sorry!” Ritsu said, immediately taking your hand as he started inspecting the wound.

"It's okay," you sighed. "I did tell you to be careful though, didn't I? Could you grab me a plaster–"

But before you could finish your sentence, Ritsu had stuck your finger into his mouth. You could feel his tongue swirl around your wound.

You didn't expect this from him because despite his vampiric condition, Ritsu doesn't think of himself as a vampire. Sure, he jokes about wanting to drink your blood, but you never took him seriously.

You let him lick your wound anyway. He seemed calm, and he looked cute doing it.

When he was finished, he looked up at you with a big grin.

"Sorry, my love. I should've asked you first," he said. "Hehe, you taste nice though. Let me try you again next time~?"

He looked so happy that you didn't have the heart to scold him.

"Hmm, we'll see," you teased whilst he brought you over a plaster, helping you put it on.

From that day onwards, whenever Ritsu would feel sluggish, he would pester you for your blood. You always obliged because well, he's your boyfriend. You cared about him so much, and if this would help him preform better in the day, you'd do it.

However, you did leave him with a few conditions if he were to drink your blood. You'd only let him drink blood from your arms or hands. You'd never let him drink blood from your neck because you'd hate for it to get scarred.

You were an idol just like him after all. Not only would it cause rumours, but it just wouldn't look good on you.

He obeyed your rules easily. Therefore, during breaks, the two of you would go somewhere private. You'd lift your hand up and he'd kiss it before biting into your flesh, sucking your blood up. It always hurt, but Ritsu would kiss the pain away and patch you up.

But this time was different.

You were visiting Ritsu in his dorm he shared with Mika. Mika wouldn't be back until the evening, so it was just you and your boyfriend.

Ritsu decided to give you a tour of his dorm. You adored how both his and Mika's aesthetics complemented each other's.

"Your dorm is beautiful," you commented. Half of you expected something like this, but the other half expected the room to be completely messy. "You'll let me visit more, right?"

"Of course~" he said, pulling you into an embrace. "I want you to visit me all the time~"

The two of you stayed like that for a while. Hugging Ritsu was always so comforting because he was so gentle with you. He'd hold your head, carefully stroking your hair.

After a few minutes of silence, Ritsu spoke up again.

"(Y/N)... can I have some of your blood?"

“Oh, sure. Are you feeling tired already?”

"No... I'm just feeling thirsty..." he replied, his hands gripping your waist. "But can I ask you for blood from your neck this time?"

“W-What? Ritsu, you know I can’t—“

He was only playing with you, but he was worried about you too.

“(Y/N), I was just teasing you,” he admitted. “At the same time though, I can’t keep drinking from your arms or hands. You’ll be covered in bandages soon, and I’d hate to see you like that.”

He was right. You were regretting the conditions you had set for him as people began taking notice of the plasters on your arms.

"O-Okay... just the back of my neck, alright...? I don’t want bruises on my neck either.”

“Of course, my love,” he said. “I won’t damage you, you’re my pretty girl~”

He sat down on his bed and then patted his lap for you to sit. You hesitated for a moment, but followed suit. He wrapped his arms around your waist lovingly, resting his head on your shoulder as he nuzzled you.

“I like times like this,” he whispered.

“Mhm, me too,” you said, giggling.

“Are you ready? I’ll try to be gentle.”

“Yes, I’m ready.”

Ritsu brushed your hair out of the way to reveal your bare nape. You could feel his breath on your neck as he bit into it. You winced as he held your hands to comfort you.

He sucked your blood slowly. Despite the many times he has done this, it never stopped hurting. You whined in pain, wriggling in your seat. Ritsu caressed your hands with his.

Ritsu loved the taste of your blood, and he loved how you always took care of him, letting him grab a taste whenever he needed it. You were so sweet to him, so he declared to himself that he would do anything you wanted of him.

You started to wriggle yourself even more on his lap, rubbing your thighs together. Ritsu noticed your actions quickly as he let go of your hands to hold your thighs. He had stopped sucking your blood by then.

“What are you doing, my love?” he whispered in your ear and in which you could hear the smirk in his voice. "Is this turning you on?”

You didn’t want to admit it, but the position you were in with him, him gently taking care of you as he sucked on your blood, had aroused something in you. You were so sure of yourself that when Ritsu would ask you for blood, you were doing it for his sake only, that it didn't excite you. However, if you really thought about it, maybe it did.

You couldn't bear to look at him. You were ashamed and extremely embarrassed. Your silence answered all his questions though. Ritsu wasn't dumb. He knew you very well considering the fact he was always with you before you two began dating.

"(Y/N), would you like to take this further?"

As soon as he asked that question, you turned to him, finally showing how flushed your face was.

"Could we...?" you whispered, tugging on his sweater in a needy manner.

The way you looked at him with that desperate face of yours made him want you more than you wanted him.

Clothes thrown on the floor, you were now sitting on his lap facing him. As you laid your hands on his shoulders, his hands held your body in place. He held your waist gently, biting and sucking on your neck whilst you grinded on his cock repeatedly.

“Ahh… mmm~” you went, loving the feeling of your pussy being stuffed with his cock as your neck was being bitten into and sucked. “R-Ritsu…”

He never expected you to have a blood kink, but he was enjoying this the same. He can have sex with you AND drink your blood?! You really were spoiling him today.

He gasped for air, moaning out your name. The way you grinded on his dick felt so good, he would let you do this for as long as you wanted.

“Thank you, my love…” he breathed out. “For letting me do this… ahhh~ you feel so good, hah…”

You just moaned in response as you began to bounce on his cock. He moaned even louder, his hands now sliding to cup your ass.

“Ahh, (Y/N)… nghh… feels so… good…”

“Mmm~ Ritsu…”

He leaned in for a kiss in which you gave him. Tongue in your mouth, you could taste your blood he had just sucked on. It had a metallic kind of taste, but you didn’t mind it. All sorts of thoughts were swimming in your head for you to care.

He broke off the kiss as he began to suck on your nipples instead, nipping them with his fanged teeth, his tongue swirling around the areola.

“Ahh, Ritsu~!”

He loved hearing your moans, but you were just too quiet for his liking.

“You want me to suck on your blood some more~?” he hissed into your ear. “Just say it. I’ll do anything you want me to.”

You blushed even more. “T-Then… can you?” you said softly, and once he was given permission, he flipped your position around.

Now that you were laying on his bed, he hovered above you, his cock in his hand as he inserted it back into your pussy.

He was now on top of you, ramming his dick inside of you, making you moan even louder. You wrapped your arms and legs around his slender figure as he began to take another bite of your neck.

“Ugh… fuck…” he hissed as he licked up the blood that was dripping down onto his sheets. “You’re so tight, I— ahh…”

“Ritsu… f-faster~!”

And he obeyed. Thrusting into your hole, he kept the pace up whilst sinking into your skin yet again. The way he bit you made you feel ecstatic. He was leaving you hickies all over your body, but in places that weren’t too revealing. Despite you giving permission beforehand that he could bite you anywhere now, he was still considerate of the fact that after you were off your high, you may regret it.

“D-deeper!” you exclaimed. “Ritsu, please!”

He didn’t understand where you wanted it deeper, his dick or his teeth, but he didn’t want to take a chunk off your flesh, so he rammed his dick into your pussy even more.

“Nghh…” he groaned. “I… I’m going to come…”

“No…! Not yet…!” you begged.

Because every time he came, Ritsu would fall right to sleep. You didn’t want this to end just yet.

“D-Don’t worry,” he said. “Ah… I won’t fall asleep this time… I promise… hah… fuck…”

He kept pounding you with all his ability, moaning into your ear. You loved the way he sounded during sex. Not only was his voice beautiful when he sang, but when he moaned too.

“R-Ritsu… I’m going to come…!” you cried.

“Alright… then I’ll come with you…”

Loudly moaning his name, you came right on his dick that was still thrusting inside you. A few seconds after, Ritsu finally came, pumping all his cum out of his system and into yours.

“(Y/N)!” he groaned. “Nghh…!”

He filled you up just right. Ritsu panted, pulling his cock out of you. He watched his cum spill out of your hole and onto his velvet sheets.

You were extremely tired now. Your neck and chest were now covered in marks, some of which were still bleeding. Not only was cum coming out of you, but blood too. Ritsu thought you looked beautiful like this.

He licked up the remaining blood off your neck before kissing your cheek.

“(Y/N)… thank you for the meal~” he said, cuddling up to you. “I love you so much.”

“Mmm…” you whined.. “I love you… too… Ritsu… I’m surprised you didn’t fall asleep…”

He chuckled. “Your blood gave me the strength to stay awake~”

“Oh, right… hehe…”

“Come on now, I can’t leave you like this,” he said, getting up. “Mikarin will be back soon too.”

Unfortunately for him, you had drifted off to sleep. He let you sleep for a bit as he cleaned and patched up your wounds. You still looked pretty even when there were bite marks all over you. Thankfully, most of the marks he made only covered your chest, leaving only one mark on the side of your neck — the one mark he kept sucking on. It was already red and sore so he smeared some ointment on it and stuck a plaster on.

He bathed your tired body before helping you put your clothes back on. You giggled to yourself as he blow dried your hair.

The door clicked open and Mika returned. It was already so late.

“Oh, Ritsu, (Y/N)!” he greeted. “You two look really happy.”

Ritsu smiled at his roommate. “Yep, we had a lot of fun today…”

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[mikafaery]

Hihii could you please do a ritsu fic where the reader is sucking him off/then they fuck and them being caught by the knight members?(reader can be any gender!!)

Of course!

Caught - Ritsu Sakuma

AFAB!readerxRitsuSakuma

Warnings: Sexual themes, getting caught in the act, uhh sex, strong language

You couldn't help but to pounce on him as soon as he got to the shared Knights' dorm. You were home alone all day while all of Knights were training and you missed Ritsu, you needed Ritsu

Ritsu sat on the edge of the bed, his hand gripping your hair as his soft moans and praises showed how good he felt. He felt so much pleasure as your mouth pleasured his aching cock after a long day of practice.

"Y/N....Ah~....I'm gonna-" Before he could even finish his sentence, he bucked his hips, his hot cum went down your tender throat, and he let out a loud whine.

You got up, looked at him, then pulled him into a passionate kiss. Ritsu's hands wandered all over your body, pulling off your shirt and undoing your bra.

You then lay on the bed and he hovered up you, "You couldn't wait, could you?~" he mewled and looked down at your chest.

You couldn't say anything but pull him back into the kiss. Your lips intertwined, making the room feel hotter as you go. You felt yourself getting wet under him and he quickly took notice, letting his hand go down your pants and to your clit, rubbing it slowly.

You moaned as he started to kiss down on your neck and play with your boobs with his other hand. "R-Ritsu~" You stuttered from the intense pleasure.

He smiled against your neck then hovered over you once more, "Do you want me to fuck you?~'" he smirked.

You nodded your head quickly in agreement, and without hesitation, Ritsu pulled off your pants and panties. He then lined his dick to your hole and slammed it in. You let out a loud gasp, holding the sheets.

He started to move at a steady pace before he started to go faster. Sounds of skin slapping, heavy breathing, and sounds of pleasure, filled up the room.

"You've been....ah~....waiting to get fucked all day like this hm?" He teased while smiling.

You couldn't respond but only moan, "Ritsu..I-"

"I can't wait to lay down and-" You got cut off by the room door slamming open and the rest of Knights standing there.

Ritsu immediately stopped and a light blush appeared on his face and you instantly covered yourself up with a blanket.

Tsukasa stood there frozen, Izumi looked annoyed, Leo started to laugh, and Arashi slapped her hand over her eyes.

"Ahaha! I can't believe it! Right after practice too!" Leo cackled.

Ritsu immediately shot him a death glare "get out."

"Get out! we need to let them have their space" Arashi gestured for them to walk out of the room. "Ugh, I can't even get to lay down after a day of practice" Izumi rolled his eyes and walked out, Tsukasa and Arashi following him. Leo soon followed them, still laughing and making fun of Ritsu.

As soon as the door closed, Ritsu sighed and laid on your chest. You frowned and lifted his head up then kissed his forehead, "We can keep going Ritsu" you reassured him.

He smiled up at you, "I never said that we couldn't~"

Notes: AHHH I really loved writing this and I hope you guys like it! I'm thinking of making this a series though. let me know if you guys want different versions with the other Knights members!

[s4egusas]

a/n : it is almost 4 AM and..... yes

# AFTER A BREAK UP

tsukasa suou x reader, yuzuru fushimi x reader, madara mikejima x reader, makoto yuuki x reader

tsukasa suou ;

sends you a letter. it is neatly wrapped in a vintage envelope with a cute stamp on it. his handwriting reminds you of everything. your tears start to fall as soon as you read the first sentence of the letter

yuzuru fushimi ;

yuzuru will clean his place. he will clean, cook, and do everything he can do as a distraction to forget you. he will clean his untouched attic. his agenda failed as soon as his eyes dropped on the picture of you two together last autumn, smiling happily while hugging you in his arms. it feels bittersweet

madara mikejima ;

he will wrap himself in thick sheets on a dark, cold night. with or without music. with eyes open. he will stay in bed all day thinking about what happened to the two of you. his heart starts to hurt every time he thinks about what happened that night. the dark circles around his eyes and his untouched takeout says it all

makoto yuuki ;

sends you a text. a long message with lots of typos. says his i love you one last time. you wake up and see his message. you deleted his number. your breakfast is morning tears. you think that the world is deceiving you again

if you want to get tagged on my future writings, kindly send an ask 🤍

[lieran03]

Black Hole

Ensemble Stars x you

Feeling down is normal, but what if this kind of feeling never left you alone? And it only grows to the point where you can't see the light anymore. Where you think everything is better without you

Unit: Knights

Pairing/ships: all members of Knights (a bit romantic for Izumi, general for the rest)

Words: 4.6k++

Warning: contains self-loathing, self-doubt, talking bad about oneself, thoughts of suicide, and the kinds!

ENJOY~!

She didn't really know what had happened. She even didn't realize how things going. It feels perfect as it is, but somehow at the same time, it didn't feel like one. She did her best in everything, she even just knew that everything went to the right place and moment. And yet, she still has a strange feeling inside her. The unsettling feelings tell her something is wrong. It's not as perfect as how she sees it. It's not as grand as she thinks it is. The achievement she currently feels? It is all only a fabricated truth she creates to console her own self.

She didn't want to believe it, she couldn't believe it. The numbness started to kick off. The void inside her brain. The blank mind keeps appearing once she hears the others talking. And just like that, her record has been flunked to the deepest end. The moment she can't even think about the next stage, the next costume, the moment she feels the blinding light burn her eyes. That's when she knows she has fallen. The feeling inside her grows and keeps growing, like telling her to just go away forever.

It was so sudden, it was too fast to even be called as the same one as the last. Isn't the problem her? She tries to find something, or maybe someone to blame for this darkness that starts to find a safe place inside her heart. But at the end of it, while she lies silently, she knows who to blame. It is her, after all. It was her fault in the end. The feeling was too overwhelming that at first, she thought it was only an illusion she made to run away from reality.

At last, even when she didn't know the core of the problem, she cries. She cries every night until her tears have dried off. And that's the moment where she believes, she didn't deserve to be happy.

"Practice has finished!" A loud shout startled the girl. She looks around, tries to recollect herself, and finds out where is she right now. "Don't forget we have a big live tomorrow! Especially you, Ou-sama."

"Sena is no fun! Live should be full of surprises, right?" The girl didn't notice it, but turns out the man called ou-sama-- or more well known as Leo--talk to her. "Is there something wrong?"

"Huh? What are you guys talking about?"

"Are you not getting enough sleep?" The blonde one asked, making the guy with red optics chuckle a bit.

"Then, I should do the job to cuddle you to sleep."

The girl chuckled a bit before she shook her head, the brightest smile was evidence, a smile that fool everyone inside the room. "There's nothing wrong, I'm getting enough sleep lately." Lies. How could she sleep when all she could think about was the mistake she did in the previous live? "I'm currently drafting the stage for Ryuseitai and Ra*bits next month. Tenshouin needs it this week, which means tomorrow since school will be off the day after."

"But, are you really okay, Onee-sama?" The red-headed asked with a frown on his forehead. Instead of showing weakness, the girl glared at the youngest in the group. "You have deep eye bags."

"If someone asked me that again I will be very mad, okay? This is my job, so that's fine. Everything has been going the way I want." Of course, that's just another lie. Up until that point of the day, she didn't know how much she has lied to the others. All she knows is that she has to.

The five of them look with doubtful stares, and yet the silver one decided to cut it. If she says she is okay, then it is just the way she says it. There's no point in playing detective or beating around the bush if the preparator didn't want to be caught red-handed. Still, with the biggest smile, the girl packed all of her belongings, the stage layout, the lyrics book, the costume book, and some of her school work too. The rest did the same, they didn't want to make the girl feel bad about going home first. At least, that's the only thing they could do to her for now.

Still with the same "stoic" smile, the girl bid her goodbye to the Knights' member. She bow quite deeply before she walk fast, not letting the others see her face nor her expression started to change. She can't keep it up, the more she stays with people, with humans, the more she wants to tell them all about what she was currently feeling. But, isn't that only burden them? She knows exactly that everyone has their own share of problems. And to tell at least one of them, to show weakness when she should be the pillar for them, does that even make sense?

There's no possible way she would tell Leo, the ou-sama of Knights. He has been through a lot, he has been to the deepest end and she did not want to bring him there once again. Once is enough, and she believes that the scar was still there. It's just that Leo has a knack for keeping secrets from others. Acting like everything is fine when in fact, he started to doubt his skill again. That's when she steps up as their temporary manager, their producer.

And then, there's Izumi. No one in their rightest mind would tell that guy. Not only he has a sharp tongue, but he indeed sometimes do not care about other if it did not involve him. He cares for Leo because Leo is his teammate. He cares for Anzu since she was the one who scheduled a lot of their lives and helps with their costumes sometimes. And so, does she even has meaning for that third year? Does she even have value in front of Izumi's eyes? She bet that she was nothing, especially when she did her job poorly.

People might think Ritsu and Arashi would be the best to tell about this problem. And yet, her tongue was tied whenever she wanted to tell the truth, to tell them that there was a pain inside her chest. Arashi always cares for others and she often forgets to take care of herself, how could she add the burden on her shoulder? While Ritsu, might be a genius like his brother, that doesn't mean he didn't have a lot of things going on inside his mind. His unit, his brother, his Mao, why would she add to the list? About her just feeling something is wrong?

Lastly, there's Tsukasa. He probably got no problem getting asked for help, but isn't that the problem? The fact that he doesn't mind being asked anytime, anywhere, and anyhow. It didn't scare her, it worries her. He has the burden of Knights since he was the only one in his right mind to keep Knights as a chivalrous unit. And so, that end of the reason why she did not tell anyone from the Knights even though she spend almost 24/7 with the Knights, either helping them study, practicing or even before live and after live.

While walking to her own home, where she knows no one will greet her, she could only wear her earphones, hoping that the music currently blasting loudly from there could swipe away the loneliness inside her. But the more she listens to the song, the more she realizes, she's alone. So suddenly she decided to stop, listening to the song intently. Why would the lyrics represent her feelings right now? Why does the song only grow the void inside her chest more? If there was a hole before, right now it was empty, there's nothing left inside her chest.

"Am I really going to be a good manager for Knights this week?" she mumbled while she put out the earphones. Stumbling a bit, the girl finally walked toward her room and put her bag just anywhere before she lies on the cold floor. At least she can still feel the cold, at least she feels something. "Why am I ... so pathetic?"

After mumbling the words, suddenly tears trickled down. She hates it. She hates when she's so weak, she hates it when she cries. Crying won't solve her problem, after crying she probably would have no energy anymore. And that can't happen, there's so much to do. With force, she finally rubbed her eyes, trying her best to stop the tears to continue trickling. The pain did make her think about the other thing, but still, something inside her push the button. And with that, the cries only got louder.

"Why are you even still alive? Why are you still here? No one needs you, and no one appreciates your hard work. You are working alone, why are you trying so hard to get praised? You are a failure ... all your work meant nothing. So, why?! Why are you trying so hard? Just why?!" The girl thumped on her chest, trying to feel something there instead of the pain and numbness. "No one loves you, so why are you still here ...? Knights are probably better off without me, they only need Anzu, right? Then it's alright for me to be gone ... right?"

After saying something like that, she cracked open her eyes, tears still evidence. After that, she looks around, trying to find something. It took a few minutes before her eyes fall on something on her desk. Crawling, and walking very hard, she tries to reach it. Once her hand touches the cold metal, her whole body shudder. This is it, right? She only needs to do this and everything will be fine. She can express her feeling. Or at least, she can get rid of the pain with it. Just once.

***

"Don't you think something is strange?" Arashi suddenly asked the Knights when they were changing. The live will be held in a few hours, so it's only right for them to get ready now.

"What is?" Izumi asked, his tone cold and agitated.

"Our manager," Arashi said once again, her tone stern, like scolding Izumi.

"Hm, now that you said it, I think there was something strange about her. Especially, her with that new wound every day."

Tsukasa nodded his head, agreeing with his sleepy senpai. "She rarely wants to put off her blazer too even though she's working outside and gets hit by the sun. I was worried and by accident asked her once."

Hearing what Tsukasa said made all of them silent, even Leo who was busy humming and composing some new song. All of their attention was on the youngest member, but he still didn't say anything, earning a whine from Leo who was already so curious about what will be the answer. Cautious about their surrounding, Tsukasa gathered them in one place and whispered the answer all of them needed.

"She said she's okay." There was silence for a long time, and after that, finally, Izumi snapped at the youngest.

"Do you think we are joking right now? Do you want to get slapped, huh? So annoying!" With his usual words, Izumi pinched Tsukasa's cheeks, earning a yell and whining from the youngest.

"Suo is annoying! We want the real answer!"

"But that's really what she said to me! The only difference was that she pull her clothes, like she want to hide something, and clenched her teeth when saying that."

Arashi sighs a bit, knowing very well where this will go. "Then there is really something wrong with her. Don't you think that we need to do something? After all, she's our manager."

"She didn't ask for our help, there's no use in helping someone who didn't need it," Izumi cut off Arashi's train of thought.

Ritsu stares at Izumi who has walked back to his place, now busy with his phone. "Secchan is really cold. If our manager tries something crazy, then I will blame it on Secchan. Don't you all agree?"

"That's right! I'm with you, Ritsu! It is Sena's fault!"

"Huh? Why is it on me so suddenly?"

But even when Izumi tries to complain and explain everything from his point of view, no one listens to him. With the fear of being pointed to be at fault, and with a hint of worry in him, Izumi thinks about sending a message to the girl. He sighs a bit, looking at his teammates who were getting their make-up done. Didn't know what to do, finally, Izumi decided to text her, saying that he want a drink right at this moment.

Panting, the girl that still uses her blazer even when she was sweating a lot finally knocked on the door. All of the Knights member, including Izumi, stares into the door when it creaks open, showing that their manager seems timid before entering the room. She didn't just bring drinks for Izumi, instead, she brings for all of them. First off, she went to Izumi and give him his drink before going around, earning a confused look from everyone.

"I'm so sorry that I forgot to bring you guys some drink."

"But we did not order it?" said Arashi, more like a question to herself.

"Uhm, yeah, yeah ... you guys didn't. But it's just what I should do, it's my work after all."

"Our manager is sure working so hard, I'm so glad to have our manager by our side," Ritsu cooed, hugging the sweaty manager.

"Ah, Kuma-san, please refrain from hugging me. I'm all sweaty from all the running and it will ruin your stage costumes." Ritsu only whined and hug tighter. But turns out, he slowly pulls off her blazer.

"It's hot here, you need to cool off. Here, let me help you."

"Kuma-san, don't ...!" But it was too late. Ritsu has succeeded in pulling her blazer. She was glad that she didn't decide to roll up her sleeves before so no scar will be seen. But even so, they can still see her fingers wrapped in bandages, almost all fingers. "T-this is from cooking! I know that Sena senpai strict with his diet, and Arashi-san need to look out for her body, that's why ...."

"Why are you working so hard when no one tells you to?" Izumi suddenly asked, his eyes full of menace, while his tone was like spatting hurtful truth. "We didn't ask you to cook, we didn't ask you to help us in every stage, we didn't even tell you to repair our costumes, so why did you do it?"

The girl flinched. Of course, she did all of that. Not because she was hoping for praise from them, but because she will feels like she was important that way. But can she even answer that? If she admits that, won't all of them say that she was just trying to get favored by them? That way, she was even more pathetic than she already was. No matter how hard she tries, no matter what she did, in the end, she's a failure.

Instead of answering with a real reply, she only mumbled a sorry. This was what make all of them question everything, but more importantly, everyone throw a glare at Izumi for saying such things to the girl when all of them knows that she was currently not in her right state of mind. Izumi couldn't care less, at least he can't show his own worry. Inside his mind, he has been cursing himself for acting so recklessly like that.

The words sorry didn't die only once, she repeated it a few more times before she stopped. Saying sorry too much will increase their suspicion and she did not want it. She has been okay, or at least she tries her best this past week to say she's okay. And yet, she had enough of her lies. She knows if she stays with Knights longer than that, she probably would start to cry. Especially, when Izumi's words rang inside her brain all this time. She could not hear anything and only Izumi's words.

So, after all, everything she did was futile, right? No one will like her, and no one will approve of her. She will still be a failure. As their manager, as their producer. How much she wishes that she could be like Anzu, isn't it better? Yumenosaki probably only needs one capable producer instead someone like her. A worthless one. And Izumi has approved her thoughts. She's nothing, she's nothing compared to Anzu. Even when they were the same age, she can't reach Anzu's level.

She often slacks off, not like Anzu. She often forgets things or schedule, unlike Anzu who remember them at the back of her mind. Anzu is always one step ahead of whatever the idol needs, not like her who easily forget to bring the drinks for the Knights member. She only need to take care of Knights, but Anzu need to take care of a lot other units. So why can't she do her job properly? Why can't she achieve Anzu's level?

Her face started to twist in agony. This has started again. The void. It feels like there was a black hole inside her chest, taking all of her and her rationality Everything that everyone said was true, so why would she get offended? She should have learned some self-control. She should have been braver and more selfless. No matter how hard she tries to do all of that, she only disappoints herself more. After all, she's only a failure, right? It's not her mind playing tricks. She is a failure.

Clenching her palm, drawing some blood from her palm, she decided that it was not a good time to show this side to the Knights, not before their stage. She did not want to show her monster to them. She's ugly already, why would she show the ugliest side of her now? Or maybe she could do that so Knights will let her go, isn't that a better thing to do? Shaking her head, she stops that thoughts. If she left the Knights now, she will give a lot of burdens not only on Anzu but the Knights' members. How can she do that?

All she could do only make trouble, how much pain would she bring to the other now?

Immediately she ran, fast walking away after saying that she has something to do again. After their manager was nowhere to be seen, four pairs of eyes turn to Izumi, wanting him to fix this. Izumi knows very well that it was, after all, his fault. Yet, he didn't know how to fix it. Maybe he will think about it tomorrow, or maybe after his stage. Or maybe never. Izumi can't think straight, not after he sees that she has no problem making herself hurt. It feels like she likes to be hurt.

Hours passed and the Knights' performance ended. When they went back to their waiting room, there were cookies, some other heavy food and low-carb snacks, drinks, and a note. Ritsu instantly know it was from their manager, but his eyes squinted when he found the handwriting was rushed. He shows it to the others, earning a low sigh from everyone. Izumi can't take any more of this, so he walked away, wanting to find his manager.

"She's been gone ...? No one sees her?"

"I do ask Shinkai senpai too, in case she went to the fountain. Ah, lately she likes to be there and Shinkai senpai even said sometimes she sits inside. When he asked, she said that she just want to try Shinkai's 'puka puka', and turns out it was refreshing."

"Such a crazy girl! What if she catches a cold after?!"

"I think Senpai already knows? She was down with flu yesterday, and everyone has been saying that for today's live, she can leave everything to us. But suddenly, she shows up and says sorry for being late." Anzu's information feels like a truck just hit him. Izumi really can't take this. What is actually wrong with her? Does she get obsessed with saying sorry?

"Did you hear anything else? Or do you know something more?"

Anzu seems thinking for a few minutes before she claps her hand, indicating she just remember something. "It was that one night. Knights didn't have any practice but I found her inside your guys' practice room. There, she was watching her own reflection. I can't hear what she says but ... she suddenly slaps her own face once."

"This is really frustrating! Why is she so annoying?!"

"Senpai, I know I'm not the right person to say this. But I think ... she often harms herself. You know, the feeling when you get an injury like to show you have done a lot and great things? I think she wants to validate her own work."

At this point, Izumi really didn't know what to do. Feeling suffocated, he finally say thanks to Anzu before searching for his manager around the school ground. Unexpectedly, he found her in the Knights' practicing room, alone, in the dark. If he didn't see her reflection, he probably won't notice her. Izumi didn't know if he should say he was lucky or not when he notices the manager didn't know he was there. So, he decided to walk slowly before showing up behind her.

"S-Sena senpai!"

"What do you think you are doing here?! Alone, in the dark! Do you want some crappy student to find you here and do something to you?! Do you want them to mess you up or something?!" Izumi's harsh tone succeeds in making the girl flinch. That's when he knows he messed up, that's when he knows, she's in that phase, again.

"I'm sorry, Senpai," she muffled, "I'm sorry that I became like this again. Even though you have already taught me to conceal these feelings."

"What ...?"

"You said yourself, stop comparing myself to Anzu. At first, I didn't, I didn't even know what was wrong. Am I just delusional? Or am I overworking myself? Can it be that I'm really going crazy? But Senpai ... the pain didn't go away. It starts to eat me, it starts telling me all the flaws I have. I'm not you, Senpai. I'm not ... perfect like you."

Izumi knows. He has seen this side before. It was a one-time thing and he thought it won't ever repeat. But, how many times does this kind of thing happen to her? How long has she repressed all of those feelings so the others won't see them? Izumi admits it. It was all his fault. He said to her, those feeling are not valid, that they only play, toying with her mind. But he didn't realize. Those feelings are what she feels.

"I'm sorry that once again I'm venting this to you. I'm sorry that I'm so weak that I can't even fight my own mind. I'm sorry that I'm ... me." The girl finally broke into small sobs. She can't no longer stare into Izumi's bright eyes. It pained her, to tell others about her own feelings.

Bewildered by what he found, Izumi walked slowly toward her before he engulfed her in his arms. He tries his best to share his warmth, even though his body mostly is cold, with the girl who was shaking. Who is at fault here? Him? Or is it her to have these feelings? Izumi can't answer it, he can't find the answer.

But he knows, there will always be a black hole inside someone's heart, a hole that will take all the confidence, all the happiness. Even though nothing is wrong, even when everything went just like what they expected, the hole will always be there and took away everything. Anytime they like without any break. And it was all his fault for not noticing it from the start. It was his fault for waiting for her to tell him. He didn't need her to tell him first to show, the hole has come back.

"I'm sorry that I can't be a better manager for all of you." Izumi knows it too, even when he said she's been doing great, her mind would only play tricks and say it was only for consolation. There were a lot of questions, and a lot of other answers he could give. But Izumi could only settle with one.

"I'm sorry too for not noticing this. Let's blame the hole inside our hearts. Let's blame them for existing inside. So, instead of hating yourself, let's hate the black hole there."

"Everything was so well, Senpai. Everything! The preparations went well, the music plays well, the singing was so good, the dancing was so on point, but why do I still feel something missing?"

"Can I fill in that missing piece? Will you let me be the missing piece you needed? The hole inside, can I be the one who fixes it?"

"You will get tired of me whining every day," she mumbled on Izumi's clothes, burying her head deep and inhaling his scent.

"You will be tired of listening to my scolding every day too, so aren't we break-even?" Izumi chuckled even when he knows it was not the right time. "You can fill my hole too when it came. I know that I always want to show you my perfect side, but this time, I will let you see my imperfect side too."

"I'm not good at remembering things," the girl suddenly said, looking up at Izumi's pretty face. "I can't remember how to prevent this hole to come back."

"Then let me remind you every time it came back. No, on second thought, just let them. Show the hole to me, and I will fill you. How was that sound?"

"I will bother you all the time."

Izumi chuckled again, this time with an annoyance--not a real annoyance--tone. "You will always be in my head, making me worry all the time. So, this is the only thing that I could do. After all, two pieces of a puzzle can complete the whole series, right?"

"Senpai is so strange." The girl shook her head, smiling a bit.

Both of them know it was not a genuine smile. But at least, Izumi can once again see that smile. A smile that shows, I will do it again, I will try to stand up again even if it's hurt. She too knows it too, there was still a hole inside her chest, the pain, and the suffocating pressure still there. Except for this time, she will face the hole with Izumi. She will learn once again how to fight it off. And Izumi knows it too. He will be by her side when that black hole started to grow.

"So annoying, you should have told me earlier instead of hurting yourself like this!" Izumi sighs, grabbing both of her hands that have a lot of bandages. "And I know that your mind still playing tricks on you. But I want you to listen to me. You are enough, you did well. You did not need any validation of your hard work. Because after all, you know the best for all of your hard work. At least, I know how hard you work. For now, let yourself rest in my arms."

With Izumi's last word, he once again brings the girl into his arms, he will remind her as many times as he needed to, that she was worth it, and she's worth more than any scars on her body right now are. She's worth even when she's broken.

***

A/N: first time writing on tumblr! I hope all of you like this Knights - Izumi story, even though I think it was too long. Though I really wish it's not boring. Please do tell me your thoughts on this story! I always love any feedback about my writing ^^

Also, sorry for the crappy ending, I really didn't know what to do. I still want to show that, that hole will still be there, but even so, they will be all right. So I hope this makes sense

[autisticmao]

GENRE: fluff

FEATURED: sena, yuki

WARNINGS: none

PROMPT: with coming home, mao, izumi and makoto can at last take a break

WORD COUNT: 697

izumakomao my beloved

"Finally, some peace and quiet!" The silverhead of the trio — Sena Izumi — groaned as soon as he, Isara, and Yuki walked through the door of their shared flat.

"Was being with the rest of Knights really that bad today for you?" Isara asked as he stood in the corridor, shutting the front door and sliding his shoes off and placing them by the skirting board of the plain off-white wall to his left.

"You don't even want to know, Isara..."

"Well, we've all been given a week off for a well worths break now, so you don't have to worry about them so much for the time being. Right now, we can focus on ourselves... and possibly head to bed because it is late." Yuki butts through whilst he knocked his head towards the corridor corner that led down to the bedroom.

"You're right. I suppose."

"I'm not going to bed yet. You guys can go on ahead, though." Isara announces as he takes two steps towards the living room doorway before being grabbed by the collar of his shirt, causing him to halt to a stop mid-step, "we're stopping you right there, mister." The response comes from the silverhead.

"Sorry Isara, but Sena and I made a promise to each other that it's you who especially deserves this break we have freely been given, which means no work at all within the next seven days or so."

"But I need to do the papers for Hasumi or otherwise—!"

Sena tuts and shakes his head side to side, his fierce azure blues focused on Isara sharply. "Those can wait. If I remember correctly, you said those papers aren't even needed until the end of next month. Learn to take a break, Isara. Otherwise, you'll be finding yourself in a grave sooner than expected from over-exhaustion."

A small whine of defeat leaves from the thin gap of Isara's lips.

"The papers will still be in your desk drawers by next week anyways. They're physical objects, so they can't run away if you don't touch them just for a bit." Sena continues.

"Makoto could possibly accidentally put the papers in the bin, though, like he has done, though."

"That was only one time!" Yuki huffed.

Sena then reaches a hand down to Isara's own, doing the same with Yuki a second after. "Now come on. I'm getting cold by standing here and talking, let's go to bed already."

"Alright," Isara let's out a small puff of a sigh as he let Sena drag him along to the trios bedroom.

Once inside, the trio of boyfriends respectfully change out of their day clothing and into their own sets of pyjamas (although, Yuki begged for Isara to wear the onesie he bought the said beaujolais younger last Christmas. He couldn't really say no to it, even if Sena teased him about wearing it — the onesie's two sizes too big on Isara.)

Sena immediately gets under the winter-thick duvet, with Isara climbing into bed beside him, and Yuki follows immediately after. As soon as Isara was halfway to laying down, Sena pulled Isara to lay his head over his chest — not that Isara minded at all, the silverhead was extremely warm in a comforting way.

Yuki pulls himself closer to the duo, laying one arm of Isara's side and just about leaning over Sena, too.

A minute later, Isara could feel his shoulders sagging in relaxation. The quiet of the evening sweeped by fast as he got to lay in bed peacefully with the two he loved the most.

A small, soft smile creases his facial expression as he closes his eyes. Maybe taking a break for a rare moment wouldn't be as bad as he always thought. Isara didn't always need to do any form of work to keep his mind busy, especially with his lovers surrounding him.

Just as sleep begins to wave its way through the ocean called his body, a few kisses were felt from Yuki and Sena. One on the temple and the other on the crown of his head. The kisses were gentle and quick. A few loving pecks.

"Sleep well, Isara."

i mayhaps have an obsession with the idea of mao in onesies...

[lightarin]

Confusions and Confessions

Commission for @epeljuice! Thank you for commissioning me!

Enstars Arashi x OC (Mayu)

Pining; fluff; confession

Word Count: 3765

How did we end up here?

Arashi stood in absolute shock as she tried to process what was happening, her violet eyes blinking rapidly as she took in the sight of the sobbing pink haired girl in front of her. 

“I know it changes everything! I’m so sorry! We can’t even be friends anymore because of this. It’s all my fault!”

“Mayu, calm down-” Her response was instinctive, a sign of their long and close friendship. Although she reached out to pat Mayu’s shoulder comfortingly, she was still trying to process the information herself.

After all this time… Is this really happening? I’ve wanted this ever since…

Her mind started wandering even as Mayu continued to babble her apologies. Of course, she wanted to respond to Mayu, and to tell her everything was going to be fine, but first…

First, she had to organize her own thoughts, and figure out how exactly things had ended up like this. 

For her, it had all started on a seemingly uneventful day…

✧✧✧

“So where are you headed now?”

Mayu gave the Knight’s idol a smile as she slipped her belongings into her back, her silver gaze friendly as she responded. 

“I’ve got to head to class. But I’ll see you later?”

“Of course~ We’ve got one of our girl dates planned today after all.” “You still haven’t told me what you planned.” “It’s a surprise!” Arashi smiled, hiding her emotions with practiced ease as she gently booped the pink haired musician on the nose. Mayu let her moment scrunch up momentarily before her features melted into an amused smile. 

Cute. Wait, what am I thinking? 

“Alright, alright. I’ll let you keep your secrets. I’ll see you later!”

“Have a good time in class.” Arashi’s smile melted away as her friend walked out of sight, her hand on her hip as she let out a quiet sigh. The third year turned away, brow furrowed slightly as she made her way towards the cafeteria, planning to get a quick snack as she waited for the pink haired girl. 

She did look really cute… But I can’t go thinking about stuff like that now. After all, Mayu’s only interested in guys and she's been one of my closest friends ever since last year. We’ve even talked about being as close as sisters. 

“Hello, how can I help you today?”

A cheerful voice briefly pulled her out of her thoughts, a quick order leaving her lips before she settled down into an empty seat, her eyes closed in thought. 

There’s no need to dwell on this so much. We’ll just continue on like we always have. I like things the way they are. There’s no reason to change it up now.

At least, that was what she told herself.

Despite her internal claims, she couldn’t ignore the way her mind lingered on Mayu. The way she could vividly imagine her pink hair fluttering in the wind, her gray eyes glimmering kindly, and the bright smile Mayu seemed to have just for her. 

She couldn’t ignore the way her heart fluttered at the thought of holding her hand, hugging her close, and maybe even…

“Here’s your order!” “Thank you.” The sudden arrival of her snack shook her out of her thoughts, the budding feelings quickly buried under her determination to keep their friendship normal. 

✧✧✧

It worked for a while. Despite the feelings that seemed to grow everytime they hung out, there was no noticeable change in the way she treated Mayu.

At least, she hoped there wasn’t.

Even with all intents to keep their friendship the same, Arashi found herself wanting to do more for Mayu. 

I know Mayu likes guys. I know she just sees me as a sister. I know it doesn’t make sense! But maybe… Just maybe! 

“Naru-chan? Are you listening?”

“Ah, yes, of course. I’m sorry. You said there was a new store you wanted to try going to, right?”

“Mhm! 

“Then let’s do it! We have a lot of time to shop after all!”

She walked beside Mayu, her mind wandering briefly once more. 

I wonder if we look like a couple to other people?

Her easygoing smile didn’t falter, keeping her thoughts hidden as she refocused on the girl she was walking with. 

“By the way, should we have a sleepover tonight? We can try using some of the nail polish we bought today.”

“Sure! Maybe we can-?!”

Mayu’s eyes went wide when she felt Arashi’s hand wrap around her wrist, suddenly pulling her closer with a displeased look. The pink haired girl was confused, wondering if she had somehow angered her friend, when she noticed a large group of friends bustling past them. 

“Sorry about that.” Arashi smiled as she let go of her, the warmth from her touch linger as the Knights member took a step away from her. 

“They looked like they would run over anyone in their path. Are you ok?”

She looked up into the purple gaze, slightly dazed as she responded.

“Yeah… Yeah, I’m fine! Thank you.” Mayu perked up when Arashi’s gaze sharpened with concern, letting a smile grace her lips as she reassured the older girl. Once Arashi was sure that her friend was fine, her shoulders relaxed, a sigh leaving her lips as she shook her head in slight exasperation.

“Geez, don’t scare me like that. Come on then Hime-chan, let’s get going.” “Right! By the way, what should we get for dinner? Or should we cook something at home?”

They fell into step with each other, a sign of how closer they were, as they continued their girl date, filling it with conversations that came easily. If she had looked closer, she would’ve noticed the way Arashi’s expressions changed throughout their conversation. The purple gaze softened ever so slightly as Mayu talked, the realization that would occasionally flash across her face, the briefest frown that flickered over her lips. 

All the signs of Arashi’s feelings for the girl in front of her, completely unnoticed by the one who only considered her a friend. 

At least for now…

✧✧✧

Mayu gazed out of the window as her teacher’s voice faded into the background, her mind wandering even without her realization. 

I wonder if holding hands with a girl feels different than holding hands with a guy…? It’s got to feel different kissing and snuggling girls right? I wonder if it feels nice… Wait- why am I suddenly thinking about this? 

Her brow furrowed slightly as she mentally shook her thoughts off, collecting her things as the bell signaling the end of the period rang. With the rest of the crowd, she headed towards the dining hall. 

But still… I’m curious. Would you have the same problems when dating a girl as you would when dating a guy? Some problems would probably stay the same right? 

“There you are, Mayu.” “Ah, Ristu? What are you doing there?”

She blinked down in surprise, eyes following the sleepy Knights idol in front of her, taking note of his relaxed smile. He yawned as he stood up, beginning to walk with her. 

“Mmm. I was practicing earlier, but I got tired so I wanted to take a nap.”

“Was it even comfortable there?”

He shrugged, leaving the question unanswered as he turned his curious red gaze to her.

“Anyways, do you have an upcoming test or something? You looked pretty deep in thought.”

She hesitated briefly, glancing at the people around them as they settled down into a table. 

“Well, I was just thinking about dating.”

Ritsu raised his eyebrows, leaning against the table as he suppressed a yawn from his lingering tiredness. 

“You like someone?”

“No! No, it’s nothing like that. I was just thinking about what it would be like to date… Well, to date a girl.”

“Why are you suddenly wondering something like that?”

Before Ritsu could respond, another voice threw all thoughts out of her mind, surprise filling her expression.

“Izumi?”

“What, am I not allowed to be here?”

“I just wasn’t expecting you.”

He let out a huff, looking affronted as he explained how he was in Japan for a few days because of a job, and how he came to Yumenosaki to check on the juniors in Knights. Mayu nodded in understanding, listening to his grumbling as her eyes wandered around the cafeteria.

“Leo didn’t come with you?”

“Nah, that guy still has a project to finish over there.” “I see. Anyways I was just wondering because… Well, I don’t actually know. I’m just curious about it, I guess.”

“Try it then.”

Izumi seemed indifferent, his blunt words making her pause and blink in confusion. Ristu gave her a sleepy smile before putting his head down to rest.

“There’s no harm in trying it. Maybe you’ll learn something new from it.”

“Maybe, b- Oh! Ara-nee!”

Mayu’s gaze lit up as she waved to the older girl who had just walked in, unaware of the scarlet eyes that watched the exchange silently. 

Well… I’m sure she’ll figure it out.

✧✧✧

Mayu clutched her pillow to her chest, struggling to catch her breath even as she laughed, affection for the girl beside her welling up. Affection that she herself had merely dismissed as affection she would feel for any friend. 

No, not any friend. Her best friend.

Her best friend that she adored, her best friend that she supported, her best friend she wanted to see happy. 

Her best friend who was currently telling her the most ridiculous story. 

“No way! That really happened?”

“Of course it did! This isn’t something I can just make up, you know.”

“That’s insane. I wish I could have seen it myself.”

“I’ll take a video of it next time.”

“Do you think it’ll happen again?”

“Who knows? But if it’ll make you laugh again, then I definitely need to record it.”

“Eh?”

“You’re cute when you laugh.”

Mayu blinked, unsure of why her curiosities about what dating a girl would be like were resurfacing, sitting up as Arashi smiled. The model set her own pillow down and climbed out of the bed. She leaned in, giving Mayu an instinctive kiss on the forehead before pulling away, seemingly unfazed. Her controlled expression made it seem like she was saying and doing all of this as a friend, her feelings still kept in check as she shrugged on her coat. 

“I have to get up early tomorrow for a job, so I can’t stay over tonight.”

Arashi talked normally, unaware of the shock that was sparkling in Mayu’s gaze. 

“Make sure to lock the door once I leave, ok?”

“Oh- of course! Good luck at work tomorrow!”

The idol smiled at her brightly, and Mayu nearly put a hand over her heart, surprised by the feeling that was fluttering in her chest. Instead, she waved at her supposed best friend, her cheeks flushing the moment her door shut. She quickly locked the door before pressing her back against it, slowly sliding down to the ground as she cupped her cheeks. 

What’s this feeling? 

Dazed, her fingers brushed over the spot Arashi had kissed, the lingering warmth making her feel tingly as she suddenly remembered a seemingly off hand comment that Ritsu had made once. 

“Haven’t you noticed? You get super excited whenever she’s around.”

Her cheeks flushed deeper, her heart thumping wildly as a realization dawned on her. In a panic, she pulled out her phone, her fingers trembling as she messaged the first person she thought of. When he didn’t reply, she started calling him, her mind swirling as confusion and realization swirled within her. 

“DAMMIT IZU-CHAN THIS IS SERIOUS! PICK UP YOUR PH-”

At last, his sleepy and irritated voice came through the phone, vaguely reminding her of the time difference between Japan and Florence.

“You better have a damn good reason to be calling me over and over or I’m ending you when I get back to Japan.”

“IZU-CHAN! I NEED HELP! I'M GAY NOW?”

“What? Why are you saying that like you’re asking me? I thought you knew that already, this is what you’ve been calling me for?”

“THERE’S MORE! I REALIZED I’M GAY BECAUSE I LIKE ARA-NEE.”

“Are you being serious right now?”

She heard a sigh on the other side of the phone, his irritation still evident in his voice as he shifted in his bed. 

“PLEASE. IZU-CHAN, HELP ME.”

“Ok, ok! Will you stop screaming already? You’re going to make me go deaf.”

His sharp tone helped her regain a semblance of sanity, and she sat silently, waiting for him to say something. 

“Look, obviously I support you, and the others will too. You don’t need to worry about that.”

He let out a sigh, obviously relieved that she had stopped shouting, and somewhat resigned to staying on the phone despite the time it was for him. 

“But really? Why her out of all people?”

“I… Well… She’s always looking out for me and things are just so easy when I’m with her! It’s always super fun and super comfortable, and I want to be even closer to her. Not only that but she’s also…”

Her voice shifted from panicked to romantic, not noticing the way Izumi let out another sigh. He swore to himself that he would teach her the meaning of sarcasm the next time he saw her in person, yet settled down to listen to her ramble on about her feelings. After all, she had chosen to come to him about this, and even if he would never admit it he was honored that she trusted him enough to call him before anyone else. It made him happy to have the chance to be an older brother figure to her. 

“Alright, alright. I get it. Are you going to confess to her?”

“...I…” “Don’t rush yourself. You can take your time to think about it.” He stifled a yawn in vain, the muffled sound reaching Mayu through the phone. In her calmer state, she realized just how late it truly was for him and immediately apologized.

“Thank you for picking up Izu-chan. I’m sorry for spamming you. I promise you I will make it up to you when you come back to Japan!” “Mhm… Just so you know, I’ll be holding you to that.”

“Ok!”

When they hung up, she moved from her position against the door, settling into her bed as she turned his question over and over in her head. 

Am I going to confess to her?

✧✧✧

“I don’t want to do this anymore!” 

Mayu ran out of the room in tears, ignoring the shocked expressions that were pasted on all their expressions. Even as she left she felt guilty, knowing that none of them deserved to receive the brunt of her tantrum, but she couldn’t help it. 

“Yuyu-chan, wait-!” Arashi’s purple gaze was filled with confusion and distress as the pink haired girl fled the room. The silence that followed seemed deafening, especially in the wake of the tantrum they had just witnessed. She turned to her fellow unit members, her eyes wide. 

“Did I… say something to upset her?”

Izumi and Ristu exchanged a glance, the black haired member letting out a slight yawn before slowly walking out of the room, leaving the explanation to the others. 

“I’ll check on her.” “I’ll go with-” Arashi stopped when Izumi placed a hand on her shoulder, the slight shake of his head keeping her in place.

“Let Ritsu calm her down first. Then she can come back and explain everything to you herself.” “...Explain everything? Do you guys know something that I don’t?”

“...You’ll see.” That’s if Ritsu manages to talk some sense into her. I swear, she doesn’t think sometimes!

Despite his seemingly harsh thoughts, concern filled him, his blue gaze darting towards the door even as he and the others started to clean up some of the mess in the room. 

✧✧✧

Stupid, stupid, stupid, STUPID! Why would you do something like that? I can’t believe I just threw a tantrum in front of EVERYONE! Over something so stupid too…

She let out a groan, burying her face in her hands, her tears still flowing as the last ten minutes replayed in her mind. Nothing serious had happened. In fact, the only thing that had set her off was Arashi mentioning Akiomi-sensei’s name. In her jealous fit of rage, she couldn’t even remember why, only that it had brought up her own feelings of insecurity and jealousy even if Ritsu and Izumi had repeatedly assured her that Arashi felt the same way she did. 

“I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.”

She hugged her knees to her chest, failing in her efforts to stop her tears as the sound of footsteps alerted her of someone else’s presence. Stubbornly, she kept her gaze on the ground, not even wanting to see who had followed her out. 

“Then I’ll wait until you do.”

Ritsu’s quiet voice responded to her as he settled down next to her, keeping his word and waiting quietly while she calmed herself down from her meltdown. 

“I am such an idiot.”

When she finally broke the silence she leaned back, resting her head against the wall that was behind her. 

“We all lose our temper sometimes. After all, I’ve done something like that before too.”

Her lips twitched to show a hint of a smile at the memory of the black cat that had clung to Ritsu, and the way he had responded to it. 

“Yeah, but that actually led to something good. All this did is hurt people and probably ruin my friendship with Ara-nee.”

“You don’t know that.”

Mayu rolled her eyes, meeting his red gaze with a huff.

“I acted like an absolute child. How would it not-”

“Mayu. Have you actually talked directly to her about anything?”

She fell silent, telling him all that he needed to know.

“Even after Izumi and I told you so many times…”

He let out a sigh that turned into a yawn, rubbing his eyes before nudging her gently.

“Come on, it’s about time you make things clear with her.”

“...Ok.”

The entire walk back to the room, Mayu felt as though her heart were going to burst out of her chest. Now that she had calmed down, the weight of her actions were falling on her, her guilt growing with each step. 

“It’s going to be fine. No one will be mad.”

“I bet Izu-chan will be annoyed.”

Ritsu let out a chuckle, his hand on the door knob as he flashed her a smile.

“That’s normal though.”

She giggled in agreement, smoothing out her clothes as he opened the door.

“Ah, she returns.”

Mayu winced at the sarcastic tone Izumi greeted her with, lowering her head to look at the ground as she hugged herself.

“I’m sorry everyone… You didn’t deserve any of that. I just… lost control of myself for a moment.”

She turned her gaze to Izumi and Leo, bowing in their direction. 

“I’m really sorry to ruin your visit back home.”

“Tch.”

“It’s ok! You must have been stressed, huh?”

Izumi merely crossed his arms as he gave her a look, silently telling her to do something about her feelings. Meanwhile, Leo just smiled cheerfully at her, not quite aware of the true reason behind her actions. 

“Are you feeling any better?”

Tsukasa tilted his head, his gaze glimmering in concern until she nodded in response, prompting a smile from the King. She took a deep breath to calm herself before she stepped up to Arashi, timidly raising her gaze to look into the confused and concerned gaze of the older girl.

“Ara-nee… I’m sorry for lashing out at you.”

“It’s ok, but… Is everything ok? Did I do something to upset you?”

“No, it’s just-”

Her voice broke as her eyes filled with tears once more, causing Arashi to look at her in alarm.

“I-... I have feelings for you!”

“Wha-”

“And I felt really jealous when you mentioned Akiomi-sensei because I know you’ve admired and liked him for a long time, and I know I don’t have a right to be jealous, after all we’re not dating or anything, but I just- I can’t help myself! I like you too much to react and-”

Mayu took in a gulp of air in the middle of her rambling, tears streaming down her cheeks once more. 

“I’m sorry! I know it changes everything and it’s all my fault! We probably can’t even be friends anymore! I’m sorry!”

“Mayu, calm down-” Her response was instinctive, a sign of their long and close friendship. Although she reached out to pat Mayu’s shoulder comfortingly, she was still trying to process the information herself.

After all this time… Is this really happening? I’ve wanted this ever since…

She had finally organized her thoughts and her memories, cupping Mayu’s cheeks just as the pink haired girl was about to pull away. It didn’t matter how they had got here, in all honesty, all that mattered was that…

They liked each other. 

Of course, she still had her questions. When had she gone from being straight to also liking girls? When had she started realizing her feelings? How long had she been hiding this? But all these questions were ones that could be talked about later, once they were alone. Arashi smiled as she wiped the tears from Mayu’s cheeks, letting out a giggle as she looked at her softly. 

“Yuyu-chan. Will you go out with me?”

The shock made Mayu hiccup, her eyes blown wide even as the last of her tears were wiped away by a gentle thumb. It was her turn to blank out, blinking rapidly as she processed the question that had just left Arashi’s lips.

“Huh? W-wait, what? Huh?”

Arashi giggled again, squeezing Mayu’s face slightly as she stepped closer. Joy was evident in her expression, and in every movement she made as she murmured quietly to Mayu, oblivious to the others who were still in the room with them. 

“I’ve liked you for a really long time now. If I had known you felt the same way, I would have asked you sooner. So, Hime-chan… Will you go out with me?”

There was a moment of silence, laden with the tension of all the things they had yet to say to each other, things that were left for later as Mayu smiled brightly, her arms wrapping around Arashi as she pressed their foreheads together.

“...Yes. Of course.”

[writeronartblock]

Semi-organized post of Fanfic Ideas I have but can't get around to write it

Enstars/Engirls:

Enstars Takt Op AU

Originally just a Leokasa-centric AU oneshot, a series of fics set in the Takt Op universe where some of the characters are Musicarts and exploring the dynamics between them and their Conductors

Potential Storylines: Knights w/ Leokasa, Ex-Valkryie and Ra*bits, Chiakana, Five Eccentrics

"A Starting Symphony"

Part of the Takt Op AU

(Leokasa) Tells of how Tsukasa and Leo initially meets and how the eventually become a Musicart-Conductor duo

"Fleeting Memories"

Part of the Takt Op AU

(Leokasa) Takes place before A Starting Symphony and tells how Tsukasa and Leo actually met, with a bit of world building in place as well

"One Girl's Suffering is Another Boy's Sorrow"

A Protag centric (Anzu and Tenkousei-kun) introspective/character study fic following the events of Paradise (Engirls), taking place before Enstars' Main Story and a little during it

"Slight Changes of Fates"

A-Side: Persona 5 AU, where instead of Yumenosaki, Anzu transfer into Shujin and becomes part of the Phantom Thieves

B-Side: Detailing many of Tenkousei-kun's misadventures of being a Yumenosaki student

"Youth Emergence"

TetoKasa, a normal highschool AU where these two unlikely people become friends and possibly fall in love with each other

Side Story: TetoHiiKasa ver, where Tetora and Tsukasa competes to win Hiiro's affection (while he's nonthewiser about it)

"Meetings of Miscellany"

A Tsukasa-centric oneshot fic collection set in a vague fantasy-medieval AU about the various forming relationships (often romantic) between him and other people

Characters Involved: Mitsuru, Izumi, Tetora, and Hiiro

"To the You in the Field of Fireflies"

(Izukasa) A Hotarubi no Mori e AU, not much more can be said

"My Eternity, For You"

(Izukasa) A fantasy-esque AU in which Tsukasa is an immortal prince living in a tranquil enchanted garden within the rubble of his old kingdom, and Izumi is a butterfly who wishes to be human

Side Story: "Sleeping Prince" just Izumi fondly musing about his dear beloved prince while he's sleeping peacefully

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Project Sekai:

A Royal Scandal AU, ft. Tsukasa and Saki as "Chelsea" (is going to be toukasa/toyakasa-centric, sorry)

"The Sun's Come Out to Say Hello"

(Akikasa) Featuring Aged-Up characters, a day in the life of Akito and Tsukasa where they're housemates. With explorations of what their futures could be, likely canon divergent

"Under the Streetlight"

(Akikasa) Based off of Tsukasa's Torpe card and Akito's Anniversary card, a vaguely Victorian(?) era AU

"When Our First Love Ends"

(Toyakasa) Oneshot inspired by the vocaloid song "When the First Love Ends" by ryo (supercell) ft. Miku

A Fantasista Squad origin fic with heavy focus on Touya and Tsukasa from their childhood to current times (tho not necessarily romantic)

"The Mechanical Clown Who Dreams of Love"

(Mafukasa) Inspired by "The Dream That a Girl Doll Had" by HitoYama, Robot Toy!Tsukasa / Toy Maker!Mafuyu

"Fashion Gathering" (working title)

A Ruikasa and Mizuena meet up where they discuss about Wondershows' costumes and other stuff

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Genshin Impact:

(Chongyun/Xiao/Hu Tao) A highschool AU in which all three of them are a part of the newly established Occult Research Club and gets into all sorts of shenanigans, courtesy of Hu Tao most of the time

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Persona:

A Persona 5 × Kagerou Project Crossover, where Hibiya and Ren are brothers. Hibiya follows Ren to Tokyo during his probation and unkowingly gets involved in more supernatural bullcrap again (alternatively, Ren gets a bigger support group with the Mekakushi Dan)

SEES Member! P4 Protag AU, where Yuu was in Iwatodai for the events of Persona 3 when he was in his 3rd year of middle school. Heavily suggests BanKita/Protagshipping

Side Story: A rewrite of Persona Q with this AU in mind

[glazeflower]

RANDOM FANFIC DRABBLE

this is based on the vocaloid song "The flower, the butterfly and the spider"

Imagine you are a low ranked noble person and fell in love with (X character of Knights) and they loved you to for years. But a higher ranked knight (Y character of Knights) loves you to and wants to marry you. (X character of Knights) doesn't want that but had sworn to (Y character of Knights) there loyalty. (X character of Knights) was told by (Y character of Knights) to keep a distance from you, they kept there promises to stay away from you. And now your to marry (Y character of Knights).

Idk if someone is going to use this idea, I thought it was a cool. If any enstar fanfic writer is going to use this im going to be so happy.

[traumxrei-chatters]

[ personal profile ]

name: trau ! (nicknames are okay ! none w/ negative connotations please ^^)

age/pronouns: 19 + they/them

currently playing: twst, enstars, tears of themis, (occassionally) genshin

currently watching: case closed + criminal minds

currently reading: the way of all flesh by ambrose parry + a shitton of fanfics jsfsjdfk

favorite characters: leona kingscholar, octatrio, jamil viper, eden, knights, switch, xiao, albedo, marius von hagen, vyn richter...so on and so forth—

special talents: procrastinating on schoolwork by pumping out a HUGE amount of fics bc serotonin. (help me this is such a bad habit)

[ tiny qna session ]

why did you make this account? i made it because i consume a lot of fanworks on the daily, but i end up only giving likes and such since i only had my main blog. i didn't want to saturate my reader's feeds with all my rbs, hence why i made a separate acc where i can yell freely about fanworks that i enjoy :D

can i send you asks? 100% yes !! i love to talk and if you have something to say then i'll try to answer it in a timely manner.

will you follow me back? maybe not on this account since this is solely for reading + reacting, but i definitely will on my main, @/traumxrei-archive ^^

any other rules on this account? yup, there are a few:

please refrain from dm-ing me on this account bc i will probably not see it.

please don't spam asks, i am a university student and i will be replying to things on my own free time.

if you find a like or reply to a comment from @/traumxrei-archive, that is me ! that's my main account hehe

and lastly, if you do follow this account,,,,get ready for all the screaming that i'm going to do in the tags. (listen, i'm a very verbose person...you can't expect me not to react to the things i love)

[natsaoba]

attention enstarries!

im an enstarrie and im looking to get back into writing so what other way to do it than write enstars fanfic! i will write just about any ship, i will write for male/gn readers, and will write just about any trope! send in requests ((:

[seangelfish]

Can I request the Anemone Fluff with Leo please ? I kinda got sick so thinking about Leo has been rather good comfort

A/N: I hope you get better soon! <3

Leo Tsukinaga

🌼 anemone: how would they react if their s/o is sick?

– Leo would try his best to care for you, but he won't be the best at it. He does put in the effort though, so you can't be too disappointed in him.

– But because he's an older brother to a younger sister, the way he takes care of you when you're sick is satisfactory. He'll be right by your side, running to get things for you, and checking up on you so frequently it may be too much.

"Hey, (Y/N)! How are you? Are you feeling better yet?"

"I feel the same as I did thirty minutes ago when you asked me the same question," you replied, rolling your eyes with a smile.

– Despite how disoriented he can be, he's really attentive towards you. He'll make sure you're comfortable in bed, fluffing your pillows if needed, even grabbing another blanket if you feel too cold. One sign of discomfort on your face will have him running to get something you may or may not need.

– Leo would definitely be the one who offers to spoon-feed you. He even makes it into a game, treating you like a little kid.

"(Y/N)! (Y/N)! Here comes the airplane!" he laughs. "Open wide!"

"Leo... I can feed myself."

"But I want to feed you!"

– He's still pretty clingy when you're sick that you'll have to tell him off. Sometimes, you would find him cuddled up against you, but most times, he'll sit on the floor close to your bed, eyes shut, snoring lightly.

Intro page | Ensemble Stars masterlist ; Enstars Plant Asks masterlist | Rules

[ren-deru-16]

"Don't go... Uchū..."

This is just a fan art of Tsukinaga Leo of Ensemble Stars with my OC. I had a drabble of this but I haven't published it. But please enjoy my not so clean and perfect fan art.

(╥﹏╥)

I may or may not post the fanfic here lol.

[flugelato]

Of mishaps and cat naps

Ritsu Sakuma x Producer/Reader

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It was just a cut, really. Nothing serious. A careless slip of the hand while handling an apparently very sharp knife (she was trying to peel apples and cut them into those cute bunny-shaped pieces). It was her own fault for not focusing on her task and letting her mind wander about the idols’ next project and ways on how she could deliver a copacetic work.

Lately, she’s been getting the feeling that she’s doing unsatisfactorily at her job. The idols have been working hard, racing here and there to meet photoshoot schedules, practicing dance choreos, polishing their vocals and preparing for lives. It was a very taxing, very exhausting and demanding course yet at the end of the day those dorks still manage to smile their brightest, which amazes her. Which is why, if they were doing their best, then she too should put some more work and give them only her best too.

It somehow slipped her mind that she was holding something dangerous, possibly lethal, and in a fit of frustration gripped the damned knife too hard and drew blood. She immediately snapped out of her remuneration when she felt the stinging pain and the blade digging through her flesh. Crimson liquid dripped to the counter blending nicely on top of the red peelings which was to be discarded. Now, she thought sadly, she would have to throw away the whole fruit after soiling it with her blood.

“Ah”, she muttered, feeling stupid

A gash, which ran across her palm from the middle of her thumb and forefinger through the base of her pinky now adorned her hand. It was an ugly sight, but weird enough she thought papercuts hurt even more.

She immediately went to Sagami-sensei after cleaning up her mess, and the girl can’t help but snort mentally at the fussy doctor who was scolding her nonstop while treating her lacerated hand. After getting bandaged up, she tried to assure him, repeatedly of course, that she was fine and well, that it hurt a bit but it was nothing she couldn’t take. Alas, it seems her words fell on deaf ears as the doctor stubbornly insisted that she must rest at the clinic, and that she was free, or rather prohibited from doing any work until her wound heals.

She sighed in resignation when she realized that she wouldn’t win this pointless debate and straggled towards one of the clinic beds. She slipped through the curtains and layed on the bed, closing her eyes and inhaling deeply.

Stupid sensei. He was always worrying about other people’s health and well-being when couldn’t even take care of his own. Plus, just because she couldn’t use her not-even-dominant hand for a while doesn’t mean she wouldn’t be able to do any proper work. She was a producer, and her role is to produce songs, not write a 500 page novel. She furrowed her forehead.

Deciding to disregard the doctor’s instructions (what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him) she resolved to rest only for a while and get back to her job right after. Yes, that is exactly what she’ll do.

After coming to a conclusion she finally layed on her side and pulled the blanket up to her chin.

She didn’t know how long she was asleep. It could be hours or minutes, she wasn’t sure but she was definitely awakened by the sound of the curtains sliding across the metallic rod.

Silence.

She made no indication that she was awake, but she didn’t hear the curtains sliding back. It could be sensei, trying to check whether she escaped or it could be another patient looking for a place fo rest. Those are the only possibilities she could think of, and yet she had this funny feeling that someone is staring at her, that someone’s gaze is practically boring at the back of her head. She discarded the thought, thinking it silly and ridiculous and tried to went back to sleep.

Her attempt to rest was halted however when she felt the other side of the bed dipping from an unfamiliar weight. Her eyes widened in shock but closed them immediately. She wanted to know the identity of this weird and mysterious person, but if this is a prank then she’d very much like to see what the idiot is up to by feigning sleep and scaring the shit out of him later.

Expecting the tip of a permanent marker to land on her face (it was a classic prank she had to admit) she was definitely surprised when she felt the sheets move as if the person was trying to lie down beside her. Alarm bells blaring in her mind, her eyes snapped and she automatically twisted her body to face the perpetrator of this so called prank.

She met with a pair of droopy, bloody red eyes.

“Ritsu.” she voiced.

“Hn.”

…

“What the heck are you doing?” she asked, thinking she didn’t need inquire the obvious.

He blinked and continued to stare blankly at her. For a second she was tempted to smack that perpetually bored face of his just to see his deadpan expression crack.

“Producer, can I sleep here?” he asked in the middle of her contemplation. Her mind strived to process his words.

“Uh, sure?” her reply came out as a question. Of course, this boy has always been languid and tends to sleep anywhere, if not everywhere. Now that she think about it, it made much more sense if he suddenly felt sleepy and looked for somewhere comfortable to rest. Which brought him to the clinic, and he couldn’t be bothered whether someone was already inside if he wanted to doze off and stay in dreamland.

Just when she was about to get up, he grabbed her waist and pulled her back down to the sheets. Her eyes widened in surprise. Puzzled, she asked, “Ritsu what are you doing now?”

“I hate it when someone bothers me while I’m sleeping.”

“So?”

“I hate it even more that I’m doing the exact same thing I hate.” ‘What?’ She mentally asked while raising an eyebrow.

“It doesn’t matter,” she assured. “I’ll just move to the other-

"It is occupied,” he cut her off.

“Then I’ll just go. I’m wide awake now anyways,” she tried to get up once more but Ritsu only gripped her harder.

“No,” he mumbled. 'Ritsu I swear..’

“Then what do you want me to do?”

“Go back to sleep.”

“I can’t.”

“Sleep anyway.”

“Sagami-sensei will scold you.”

“He was not here when I entered.”

She groaned. Ritsu being pushy is something new to her. Perhaps this is his everyday disposition towards his members or classmates, but this is surely the first she’s seen him act like this.

“Why? Is this to satiate your conscience? You feel guilty about waking me up is that it?”

Instead of replying, he burrowed his face in the soft pillow and nodded. She grunted. It was hard to scold him when he was acting like this.

“Fine,” she muttered. Showing her back to him, she tried to put some distance between them, which wasn’t much for the bed wasn’t wide and can only occupy one person to begin with. She inhaled and closed her eyes.

And opened them again when she felt Ritsu’s gaze at her back. She mentally shook her head and shove the thought aside resolving that it was only her imagination. Despite all the convincing she made the uncomfortable feeling wouldn’t leave her alone but seemed to sink its claws deeper on her instead.

She gulped.

Was it just her or does Ritsu suddenly seemed nearer. His warm, steady breath was tickling her nape, making the hairs on her back stand up.

“Ne, producer.”

She bit her lip and tried to calm down her hammering heart. Ritsu was now sniffing her hair, tickling her even more. Because she couldn’t see his face, she could only imagine how wrong, not to mention intimate their position was. His hot breath fanning her nape sent shivers down her spine, and her heart thundered inside her ribcage once more.

“W-what?” she asked, face red in embrassment.

“I like your smell.”

Right after he said that his hand landed once more at her waist and pulled her towards him. He boldly burrowed his face deeper at her neck and inhaled her scent.

'She smells like Arashi-senpai’s flowers.’ he thought. Eager to get more of that scent he took a big sniff and exhaled at the girl’s ear. His warm breath swirling at the shell of her ear and ghosting across her cheeks leaving behind a trail of red taint on her soft flesh.

'Lavenders’ thought Ritsu.

Meanwhile, the girl couldn’t help but shut her eyes tightly. Is this a joke? Is this a test to see how well she can control her raging heart? If that’s the case then she was definitely failing especially when his other hand parted her hair and exposed her nape. As if suddenly feeling cold, she unintetionally shivered. Ritsu, unconsciously or not responded by pressing his chest against her back to warm her up.

Feeling bolder by the moment he touched her naked neck with the tip of his nose. Because she didn’t say anything he dared to move, rubbing his nose against her nape as he smelled once more that addicting fragrance. Somewhere at back of his mind was a voice persistently telling him to stop, but he seemed to have lost control of his actions, tightening his hold on her waist.

Was he…purring?

This was too much. The heat and of his breath and body was too much that she could feel herself heating up in turn. Her face was now burning, and it seems like her heart might jump out of her ribcage or burst. She dreaded thinking about what would happen first.

As if in a trance, Ritsu trailed his nose across her neck, his blood-red eyes closed as he travelled upward when his supple lips accidentally collided with her jaw.

Stunned, her brain didn’t comprehend the added weight on her back. Somehow, along the way Ritsu stopped sniffing her like a dog and was now leaning on her side, rubbing her cheeks with his. Yup, he is definitely purring.

The friction created by his soft cheeks and her warm flesh sent electrifying sparks and jolted her out of her reverie.

In one swift motion she grabbed the hands on her waist and twisted her body to face him. Now she was above him, their faces inches apart. Their breaths mingled in the little space between them as they stare at each other’s eyes, one pair in shock while other was back in its usual half-lidded look.

'Wait. Why am I breathing hard, dammit.’

She groaned and tried to get up. She was on her feet and ready to leave when Ritsu once again stopped her by capturing her wounded hand with his own.

“Where did you get this?”

“I-it’s none of your business,” she stammered.

Seeing Ritsu study her palm intently suddenly brought back memories of that certain duel. That time, Ritsu noncommitally licked the blood off her bleeding finger and started saying nonsense about Rei and blood and things she couldn’t quite remember because she was too flustered her mind went blank. This situation was exactly the same, except instead of a bleeding finger she now has a deep, wide and glaring gash across her palm.

'He w-wouldn’t try to do that again, would he?’

She internally panicked when Ritsu bent his head down and slowly pulled her hand towards his face. As if time itself slowed down, she watched, eyes wide, as Ritsu brought her bandaged hand to his mouth. With misty eyes Ritsu spared a quick glance at her stunned form and smirked, the rubies of his eyes slowly and almost painstakingly being concealed by his lids, like curtains trying to hide those mysterious, precious stones from onlookers who stare for too long.

She held her breath as he parted his lips, just a little, enough to peek a bit at those pearly whites, he bent down and closed the tiny gap between his lips and her hand and…

She felt the most tender, most gentle and warmest medicine she could receive; a kiss for her bleeding hand.

Ritsu looked up and gave her a heartwarming smile. Eyes twinkling with mischief he said, “Be careful next time, producer.” A laugh. “But if you ever get wounded again, come to me and I’ll heal you with my kisses.”

Blood rushing to her face, she pulled away ftom him and took a step back. She opened her mouth and tried to say something but no words would come out. Ritsu stared at the blushing producer and smiled.

After taking a few deep breaths to calm herself she once tried to speak.

“Ritsu y-”

She was cut off when she heard a loud and obnoxious voice entering the clinic.

“Ritsuuu where are youuu?”

Ritsu’s smile dropped. At once he sat up and giving one last look at the girl, he opened the window nearby and left quietly.

'Huh?’ she thought, puzzled at his actions. Her attention was brought back from Ritsu’s exit when she heard the curtains open.

“Oh, producer. Have you seen Ritsu?” Ah. It’s Rei. No wonder.

“Um, no,” she lied. Smiling awkwardly, she hoped he wouldn’t suspect a thing. After studying her a while Rei finally spoke.

“Oh okay then, sorry to bother you,” he promptly left.

She sighed. Geez, what a day. Remembering what happened a while ago, she blushed.

'Come to me and I’ll heal you with my kisses.’

Dammit. She really needs to be careful so as to avoid any more mishaps.

[knights-escort]

A Jar of Stars Chapter 1

Chapter 1 is out!

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I'm Takase Shinju, a student in class 2B of Yumenosaki Private Academy.

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I'm not really into these idol shenanigans as much as my friends are. It's honestly just a bunch of pretty boys getting their chance to shine while others are left in the dust.

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“Shinju, Emiko got us all tickets, which includes you too.”

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What are idols and what makes them so admirable?

[autisticmao]

GENRE: fluff

FEATURED: akehoshi, hidaka, yuki, hasumi, kiryu, kanzaki, ritsu (fricking heck-)

WARNINGS: none!

PROMPT: a small percentage of the human population has a life companion or a few named a ryune, mao is one of those people, and this is one of his many daily moments with them (and friends!)

WORD COUNT: 1,520

✎: the daily life of mao and the ryune's

"Wait... Subaru! No! Don't tear that... apart... too late." A sigh of defeat leaves in between the small gaps of his lips. Three levitating figures zoomed around his bedroom. "I swear you guys get more chaotic with each day that passes! Is that how you Ryune's really grow?"

Ryune's are little mythical creatures that live alongside humans. They're like humans, but much smaller — like the size of fairies, and they don't speak any human language other than in some tones of squeaks. A Ryune is like a companion that only a few people in the world are born with the power to summon.

Isara walked over to his desk in the corner of his room, grabbing the manga book he left wide open from a few nights ago, staring with a frown as he grabbed the said manga by its few pages and shaking his head in disappointment. "Looks like I'll be spending my pocket money on buying a copy of this manga for Sazanami... again. He's already mad at me for having the original one I borrowed all wrecked. Thanks to none other than you, Akehoshi Subaru."

A high-pitched squeak comes from an orange haired Ryune who floated towards Isara, sitting on the said teenagers shoulder in triumph. A smile of pride wiping over his facial features. "That... wasn't of gratitude, I was being sarcastic~" he places the torn manga book down onto his desk and glances around his room, a thought hitting his mind.

He got distracted with scolding Akehoshi off, that he forgot what he was almost doing... getting ready for school. He checks over himself, seeing that he has his bag over his shoulder, shoes done up, and wearing them, his phone in his school blazers pocket as he situated the hood of his pink jacket from under his blazers more comfortably and soon begins walking towards his bedroom door.

He only takes a couple of steps, reaches for the door handle, and pulls the door open when he's suddenly halted to a stop by his two other Ryune's squeaking loudly, practically scolding at him in someway, as they held something in their tiny hands, struggling to carry it by just the two of them. Ryune's aren't exactly the strongest creatures in the world... they barely have any strength as is, other than for the see-through wings they could carry on their backs all their lives.

"Oh - right... I almost forgot my tie! That would have been stupid, I wouldn't want to get another scolding from Hasumi because of it, thanks, Hokuto and Makoto." He takes the coloured tie from their tiny holds gently, the two bow their heads at him once the tie had been taken as he lifts the white collar pieces of his school shirt up a bit, wrapping the tie around his neck and begins doing it up and pushes the collar pieces back down not long after, pulling the tie to a comfortable knot at the front.

"At last, let's go!" He smiled towards his trio of Ryune's.

...

"Isara, you're late."

"I know... and I'm sorry. I tried getting here on time, but these idiots just don't know how to behave most of the time. So I had to keep stalling by telling them off." Isara apologises to the vice president of the student council, Hasumi Keito, as soon as he walks through the door whilst pointing to his Ryune's that always seemed to be curious about every object within the room no matter how many times Isara has entered the student council room.

"You should take them to a facility to get them trained for their manners. I've done so with mine, and cope well with them."

"Not to break your bubble, Hasumi, but... I don't think your two Ryune's are exactly behaving well right now." Isara points out to behind the taller student, where a redhead Ryune seems to be fighting with a purple one who was chewing on the corner of a handle belonging to the big window at the back of the room, wishing to go outside and do something fun and free.

A sound of frustration leaves from Hasumi Keito as he walked towards his little Ryune's, grabbing them both by their small collars of their clothing. "What have I said about this, you two? Souma, stop chewing on everything you see. You'll get your free time soon!"

In the meantime, Isara turned around and walked towards his desk, ready to catch up on some paperwork that needed to be done for the day, and to move onto other subjects for his role in the student council as quickly as possible.

...

"Mao~!"

"Ritsu! Don't sneak up behind me like that!"

"Couldn't help it. The pathway was too easy to manoeuvre through, plus you're just so easy to scare." The carnelian eyed friend mentions as a yawn escapes between his lips as he slumps his taller figure over Isara's back. "Take me to the lunch hall with you, please."

"Can't you walk yourself this time around? The hall is just literally right around that corner."

"Is Mao learning to backchat me now? Rude~"

"No! I'm just... you know what, never mind, there's no winning to this battle. At least you said please this time."

Isara positions himself properly, so he is holding Sakuma Ritsu on his back, his heart racing of hope that he doesn't drop the older boy at all during the short walk. "Anyways, where are your Ryune's? Don't tell me you've lost them again."

Ritsu hums, "I don't know."

"You... don't know?" Isara glances over his shoulder for a second towards the older teenager and then forwards again as he rounds the corner, feeling thankful that the lunch hall was at the end of the corridor he now walked upon.

"I let Izumi take charge for a bit with the others. Taking charge is too tiring... and boring." Ritsu mutters at the end.

"You let... Izumi... out of all four of them to take charge, really? Don't you remember what happened last time you let that happen?"

"Uh... nope. Mind reminding me?"

A noise emits from Isara of frustration, "he almost hurt Makoto! Along with threatening Subaru to an all-out fight that caused them both to be on the brink of death!"

"Pretty sure your Subaru Ryune started that one. My Izumi is innocent~"

"Ritsu-"

"Hush~, go buy some nice food. I want you to feed me for backchatting a lot this week."

...

A cough emits deep from his throat from where he sits on his bed, his winters' thick duvet covering his whole figure, his figure shaking from the cold that surrounds the room as a sniffle reaches from his being.

A tiny squeak sounds from Isara's left. He looks over to see Yuki Makoto holding a white powdered tablet in his hold, whilst Akehoshi Subaru and Hidaka Hokuto were pushing a bottle of water from one end of the bedside table to the other where Isara could more so reach it from. Isara reaches one hand out from underneath the duvet and grabbed the tablet out of Yuki's hands, along with the bottle of water that Hidaka and Akehoshi had unscrewed the lid from.

"Thanks again, you guys." He smiled down at his Ryune's. "This sickness sucks... I don't even know where I got it from." He places the tablet on the back of his tongue, sipping some water and tilting his head back and attempts at swallowing the tablet. He groans out of annoyance when it doesn't go down the first time, so he tries swallowing the tablet down again with more water and felt pride in the success of it going down at a second attempt.

Isara then places his bottle of water back onto the bedside table, screwing the lid tightly back onto it so the water doesn't spill from it for whatever reason.

He reaches over his bed a second after, noticing another manga lying on his floor. He goes to grab it to read it but gets stopped by his three Ryune's squeaking loudly in madness once again, but at him this time of around. "Am I not allowed to read before bed now?"

That question got even more multiple squeaks from the three, causing Isara to back away his hand up from the floor and to lie down on the mattress of his bed. "Alright... fine." He turns himself around to his other side, pulling his duvet up to under his chin as he stares blankly at the wall for a moment. "I guess... going to sleep early isn't so bad." A yawn emits from the thin gaps of his lips, a noise following with it as his kelly green eyes blinked closed a couple of times.

Just as Isara let's the sleep begin to take over, his little Ryune's: Akehoshi, Yuki, and Hidaka flutter down to the side of his pillows that Isara wasn't laying on, the trio sat in a triangular shape with one another, their bodies stiffening as they fell asleep with Isara, with their protective modes still engaged for any reason possible.

[seangelfish]

"Are you sure you don’t like me back?"

Ritsu Sakuma x Reader

Genres: Angst to fluff.

Word count: 2,562

Plot/summary: Ritsu has had a crush on you for the longest time. He doesn't even try to hide it. However, you believe that you don't share the same feelings for him...

A/N: Oh, I just know how sweet a boyfriend Ritsu would be. He's adorable and I love him so much. I'll be writing more fics of him, so please keep a look out!!

UPDATE: I decided to proofread this a second time, so to any returning readers, a bit has changed to some parts of the dialogue.

Koga was explaining to Anzu that Ritsu needed to rest before tonight's concert, and to do that he needed her help to convince Ritsu to take a nap in the music room where Rei had already prepared a bed for him.

"We don't get along well, but he will listen to you," Koga said. "Sorry, I would've asked (Y/N) to do it, knowing how much Richie likes her, but she's busy with her own rehearsals... although I did tell her that she should rest too."

So, Anzu agreed to accompany Koga to get Ritsu to go to sleep. When they finally found him, he was pushing a pile of boxes on a trolley.

"What do you want, Corgi?" asked Ritsu, slightly annoyed. "You even dragged Anzu with you."

"Who you calling 'Corgi'?!" Koga yelled.

Ritsu ignored him. "Perfect timing, actually. The people in charge of food asked me to make a lot of desserts." He took one of the lids off the boxes to present them a dozen of neatly decorated cupcakes. "I get half of the profit. Easy money~" he sang happily.

Koga berated the younger Sakuma sibling on why he was wasting his energy on things unrelated to being an idol, but Ritsu ignored him again.

"People didn't really like these ones," he continued. "I even offered one to (Y/N), and even though she tried to be nice about it, I could tell she just wanted to spit it out. So, I tried a new recipe."

"Aren't you preforming later?" cried Koga. "Get some rest!"

Ritsu stared at him hazily for a second before smiling. "Okay, I'll rest... only if you try out my new recipe to see if it's okay. I would've asked (Y/N) again, but I don't want to disturb her when she's practising."

Koga was right, Anzu thought. He really does like (Y/N).

Ritsu opened up another box, and the sight was shockingly horrifying. In the box laid another dozen of cupcakes, but these looked like it came from some toxic wasteland. The cupcakes were even emitting its own purple aura.

Anzu and Koga gawked at the cupcakes nervously. It's a good thing you weren't here to witness this catastrophe.

"These are definitely not safe for humans to eat," commented Koga who grimaced at the sight of them.

Ritsu was offended by his comment and insisted that he should still try it – well, he forced Koga to try it. As Koga's screams were heard throughout the hall, Ritsu asked Anzu if she could try one too. She hesitated for a moment, but in order to get Ritsu to go sleep, she needed to take the risk.

Her eyes lit up. "These are actually good…!” she exclaimed.

Ritsu smiled. "I'm glad. Thanks for being my first taste testers, Anzu, Corgi."

Koga was on the floor trying to wipe away the sugary sweetness off his tongue. Ritsu couldn't help but smirk at this. He knew very well that Koga didn't like sweets, but he knew that it would be funny if he gave him some.

"As promised, I'll go rest," Ritsu said. "Corgi, could you transport the cakes..."

Anzu lead Ritsu through the hallways to the music room. She looked around the room for the bed Rei had prepared for him, but it didn't seem like there was one. Ritsu, on the other hand, was distracted by the piano.

"I often come here to play the piano," he said, describing his fond memories of being scolded by Mr. Kunugi, receiving lessons from him after, and how Arashi got mad at him because of the fact he was receiving those lessons. Then Ritsu continued, "And (Y/N) would listen to me play too."

"(Y/N)... you really like her, huh?" asked Anzu curiously.

"Yep..." he replied nonchalantly. "I like her a lot, but I know she doesn't like me in the same way I like her. ...I bet you were wondering why I don't keep this crush a secret, right?"

Anzu nodded, she did wonder why Ritsu was so open about liking you. She knew that you two were close, and she knew a little bit of his feelings for you, but what she didn't know was how you felt about the overall situation. Did you know that Ritsu likes you or were you just painfully oblivious?

"(Y/N)'s not an idiot," he began. "She can read the room, and she knows of my feelings towards her... it's just... she hasn't answered my feelings properly, but I want her to. So, at one point, I couldn't keep it a secret anymore."

Ritsu pointed at something from across the room, changing the subject completely. "By the way, what's that?"

Anzu turned around. In front of her laid a long, rectangular vessel that was covered in a thin sheet. That must be the bed Rei prepared for him!

She ripped off the sheet and lo and behold, a coffin appeared. Her jaw dropped at the creepy sight of it.

"Eh...? If I sleep here, I'll be like my brother," he stated, disgusted. "I don't want that–"

"I designed it!" Anzu said quickly. "I thought that because you were a vampire too, you'd like it this way!"

Ritsu wasn't buying it, but he was tired, so he plopped himself inside the coffin and drifted off to sleep. Anzu was relieved that he ‘believed’ her.

She got up and left the music room, closing the door behind her.

A few minutes passed, and the door clicked open again. This time it was you who had arrived at the music room.

The only reason you were here was because Koga kept yelling at you to go rest before the concert. Though, you knew he was just looking out for you especially when you also had to perform for said concert too. And anyways, you were pretty sleepy.

But because of your frantic footsteps, Ritsu woke up. He wasn’t a light sleeper, so this surprised him too.

"Ritsu?" you questioned. "I'm sorry, I didn't know this room was occupied."

Koga didn't tell me Ritsu was sleeping here! This is so awkward! you thought to yourself.

Ritsu couldn't help but smile. You, the person he has loved for so long, was here with him. Although he saw you earlier today, he was still happy to see you again.

"Did you come here to sleep too?" he asked you.

"Yeah, Koga told me to rest here," you replied, picking up the thin sheet that was used to cover the coffin. "I'll be performing before you after all~”

You walked over to the corner of the room and made yourself at home.

"(Y/N), you can take my place if you want. It's comfier here than over there," he said.

"No, it's fine. Rei probably prepared that coffin for you anyway."

Ritsu sighed, but then said, "At least sleep closer to me..."

You looked at him from across the room. He gestured for you to come closer. You giggled at this, it’s not like you could refuse his cute tactics.

You got up and laid yourself by his coffin, but you spared a safe distance between you two.

"(Y/N), seriously, you can take my place," he repeated, worried that you'd get yourself even more dirty. "Let me sleep on the floor; I sleep on the floor all the time."

You shook your head. "Nope, not happening!" You turned away from him as you wrapped the sheet around you.

"(Y/N), I don't want to see the girl I like sleeping on the floor whilst I sleep on an actual bed."

You winced at this. You knew that Ritsu liked you since he never kept his crush on you a secret, but you just didn't share those feelings that he had for you. You believed that you didn't anyway. You avoided all romantic feelings since you were an idol at Yumenosaki too. Of course, you liked being with Ritsu. It was fun being around him all the time. You couldn’t see yourself without him, but you believed that those feelings were just platonic.

"Ritsu, I–"

"I'm sorry," he interrupted. "This will be my last time."

Huh?

You couldn't see his expression as you were turned away from him, but you could make out the hurt in his voice.

"You know that I like you, right?" he began. "I've liked you for years... ever since I met you, but because you've never answered my feelings properly, I feel like I didn't deserve to like you. I can’t keep pestering you about my feelings, so this will be my last confession, I promise."

Wait.

"I love you, (Y/N)… so much... Will you please give me a proper answer now?"

You were silent, and that silence to him was unbearable.

"I'm sorry..." you said finally. "I just... can't accept your feelings."

Once you bared those words, you immediately regretted it, but before you could say anything else, Ritsu forced out a chuckle.

“Okay... thank you for your answer," he croaked out. He expected this, but your answer still hurt him. He was hoping that by time, your feelings could change, that you two would be able to share the same feelings for each other. But he got his hopes up, and for what?

You felt incredibly guilty for the answer you gave him, but you just couldn’t correct yourself. Your tongue was tied, and for some reason, it was getting harder to breathe. No one said a word, and the atmosphere in the room was suffocating.

You knew he was upset, you could feel it, and now you felt awful. All he ever was to you was sweet, the loveliest boy you have ever met. He had always helped you in your time of need; even when he was constantly tired and needed a nap, he would do his best to stay awake for you. He loved you that much, and all you’ve been doing is avoid his feelings.

Why did I do that? you thought to yourself, berating yourself for being so awful. However, you still didn’t understand your feelings for him. You always believed you didn’t have romantic feelings for him, but now you’re questioning that.

Finally, you turned around to look at him. He was staring at the ground, eyebrows narrowed and lips pursed as if he was trying to hold his tears back. In the past, whenever you’d turn his advances down, he’d usually laugh it off, so this wasn’t like him at all. This really was his last confession.

You didn’t want that. You couldn’t bare seeing him like that. You regretted everything.

He glanced up at you, noticing your worried expression on your face. Instantly, he smiled at you. He didn’t want to make you feel bad for him. You weren’t entitled to like him back after all. But seeing him smile at you so sweetly like that, knowing that his heart was broken, made you feel even more horrible.

"Could you at least give me a kiss before I give up on you for good?" he joked.

You couldn’t take it anymore. You sat up and scooted over to him. He giggled at the joke he had just made, but out of the blue, he felt your lips crash onto his.

He was taken aback by your action, but he couldn’t help but melt into it. His lips were soft, kissing them felt like heaven. You wanted more of him, you didn’t want to let him go, but he was the one to break off the kiss in the end.

"I... was joking... but thank you," he laughed.

His face was red, he could feel how hot it was. He was glad that the room was dark so you couldn’t see it. Your cheeks were heating up too.

"Alright, I'm going back to sleep," he said. "Corgi might get mad at me if I don't rest well–"

"Wait!” you cried. "...Can I have another one?"

Ritsu was confused. "What?" he asked.

"Another kiss..."

Even though he couldn't see you that well in the dark, he could still make out how desperate you looked. Were you really being serious? You turned him down, didn't you?

But he obliged. This time, he was the one who went in for the kiss. The way he kissed you made you feel happy. You wanted more, you wanted to touch him, and you wanted him to touch you. You didn’t understand why you were doing this, you always felt like these feelings were platonic, so why were you enjoying this so much?

“Satisfied?” he teased. "This is weird... why did you want another kiss? Are you sure you don't like me back?"

You were gripping onto his blazer.

"Ritsu, I don't understand this..." you said slowly. "I always thought I didn’t like you the way you like me, but when you said this was going to be your last confession, I felt sad..."

Ritsu looked at you wide-eyed.

"I don't want you to move on," you admitted. "I don't want you to leave me."

"H-Hey, I won't leave you–"

“I-I think my feelings for you aren’t platonic after all. Ritsu, I think I really do l-like you the way you like me…!” you stuttered. “But I don’t want to ruin our friendship… if we were to date, things would change, wouldn’t they? I like the way you treat me now, I like the way we are right now, I don’t want that to change…”

Ah. So that’s why. He understood you clearly now. Maybe you were an idiot after all. If Ritsu saw Anzu again, he would take all his words he said about you back.

"(Y/N), things won't change between us if we got together," he told you, cupping your face gently. "I'm still going to treat you the way I've always treated you, and I promise to treat you even better. The only things that will change is the new ways I'm going to show you my love."

Your heart ached, you were feeling incredibly emotional now. You really thought you had lost him.

"I'll give you another chance, okay?" he said. "I'll give you as many confessions as you want. Just answer them truthfully this time."

You nodded.

"(Y/N), I love you so so much... Will you let me be your boyfriend?”

You nodded again and again, sniffling. "Yes, I would like that," you whispered.

He chuckled. "Ah, don't cry, silly. I promise to not leave you... Come here..."

You crawled into the coffin with him as he made room for you to lay down. He held you close to him and your arms naturally made their way around his body.

The two of you looked into each other's eyes longingly. Ritsu couldn't stop himself from smiling.

"Ahh, I'm so happy..." he said, caressing your cheek. "You really do like me back..."

"I'm sorry for being stupid..." you murmured. "I love being with you… so much…”

"I'll love you even when you're stupid," he replied. "I'll always love you, (Y/N)."

He nuzzled your nose with his which made you giggle.

“I want another one," you said.

"Ehhh, you want another kiss?"

You were slightly embarrassed. You've only kissed him twice, but you were already addicted.

"Yes, you'll give me another one, won't you?" you asked sweetly, tugging on his shirt.

He sighed happily.

"I'll give you as many kisses as you want."

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