#eww gross personal feelings what even is that

[garricks4thwingqueen]

A.M. Smooches - Garrick Tavis

Prompt:   Smooching them all over the face, because that’s the only thing that gets them to wake up. 

*Here’s a small work for my first post into the fanfic world! This is what I came up with for Garrick Tavis from Fourth Wing. Feedback is appreciated especially since this is my first fanfic post. *

  You smiled waking up on the couch in the living room of Riorson house. Your long term boyfriend Garrick Tavis, still asleep on your chest. Being Xaden Riorson's younger sister wasn't easy but Garrick had always made it bearable even with him being Xaden's best friend. 

    It was the end of your first year at Basgiath and the start of Xaden and Garrick’s fourth, which would mean you'd soon be separated again. But for now it was a welcomed reward waking up in your childhood living room in Aretia. As always when your group (Xaden, Garrick, Imogen and Sloane) feel asleep like this in the main room you were always the first to wake. You took in the difference of your group Liam now gone, and Violet Sorrengail surprisingly added to the mix. You still weren't sure how she fit in besides the soul fact she was bonded to your brother till death do them apart now.  “You better start kissing him so he wakes up. wouldn't want the other 100 cadets to see how soft he gets for you.” Xaden teased waking up. 

   “Oh shut up.” You giggled and grabbed the nearest pillow and chucked it at your brother. “Hey. Watch it y/n!” Xad chuckled. “Never.” You smirked and looked down at a still sleeping Garrick. Sometimes what Xaden had said was true Garrick didn't wake up until you started smooching all over his face and you did. You had placed several smooches on his face before going to his lips which finally woke Him up.

  You giggled at his grumbles as he stirred and whispered a “Good morning my little one.” Garrick said through a raspy voice and started to return your smooches all over your face. “Careful Gare Bear my brother doesn't want the other cadets To see how soft you get for his little sister. “Eww I don't want to see it either. Don't you two have a room?” “Good Morning, Immi.” I smirked at my best friend. “Fuck off.” She groaned. “Oh Imogen forever our morning person.” You snickered toward your friend. “Maybe Imogen is right.” “What do you mean my sexy Gary?” You smirk knowing fairly well that your boyfriend only allowed that nickname in the bedroom. “I mean that we could have properly woken each other up then.” Garrick smirked, kissing your lips.  “Eww gross that's my sister Tavis.” Xaden mocked “Plus time for all you lazy asses to get up anyways. Rebel meeting in 15.” “Xad It's not ev-.” “Don't bother my love, it's not worth it and you know it.” Gare smirked peppering kisses all over your face and down your neck as he picked you up and finally carried you to your room if only to get ready for the day.

[bluehourbucky]

Truth or Dare with Yelena that Kate sets up because she's tried of Yelena and Reader acting like they don't have a crush on one another?

As always, no pressure to write this heheh

Backfire

warnings: use of Y/N twice

a/n: sorry it took me so long shdhdud Hope you like it <3

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Kate was getting tired of watching you and Yelena pretend that you don't like each other. She was sick of the heart eyes and dancing around each other and the tension was getting worse by the minute.

She loved her friends but damn was it hard to watch.

Every time she'd spend alone time with either of you, you both talked about the other. Kate didn't mind but she also thought it was absolutely ridiculous.

Every time Kate tried to tell one of you how you liked each other she would receive laughs from you and a push from Yelena.

So she came up with a plan. Kate will invite you to hang out as you always do, but then she'd suggest a truth or dare game. She knew Yelena enough that there was no way she wouldn't accept truth or dare game she was too competitive. Kate still isn't sure how you can win a truth or dare game but whatever.

kate: tonight my place 9pm we order in?

you: ur paying?

yelena: if u pay?

parker: broke af u need to pay

Kate rolled her eyes at her friends.

kate: ok

you: ur the best love you <3

yelena: be there

Kate rolled her eyes at her friends, but her plan was in motion.

"Hi" Kate smiles when she sees that you and Yelena came together.

"Wait I'm here too!" the three of you turn and look at Peter running up the stairs.

The four of you were hanging out for a while and Kate was sure now was the time to get her plan in motion.

"What do you think should we play truth or dare?"

"Ugh we're not kids!" you groan.

"Ah, scared of a little dare?" Yelena teases, and you push her lightly, rolling your eyes.

"It's on Belova."

"Alright, let's go"

Not wanting to seem obvious, Kate avoided asking you questions about Yelena and vice versa. But now it's Kates' turn again, and she's ready to help her friends finally get together.

"So Yelena, Truth or Dare?"

"Ah I will choose Truth now."

"Do you have a crush on anyone here?"

"Nope, never."

"Not even Y/N?" and then your heart broke when Yelena made a face of disgust.

"Eww. Never in a million years that's gross. It's like liking your sister or even worse." as soon as those words left Yelena, she regretted them seeing your face.

"Wow, I didn't know I was that hard to like that even the thought of liking me disgusts you." You stand up, wiping tears off of your cheeks running straight to the bathroom.

"Y/N, wait, please." Yelena follows you and knocks on the closed door.

"Shit I'm sorry I didn't think this would happen." Yelena looks back at Kate and lifts a brow.

"What do you mean?"

Kate avoids eye contact, feeling extremely guilty that she caused this.

"I-, well- you see, I just wanted to make you confess that you like each other because you do. I just wanted to help."

Yelena swore something in russian and told Kate to give them a minute.

"Hey. Can you open the door?"

You don't reply, but you know Yelena is still at the door. The tears are still falling, and you're getting really frustrated because why does it matter anyway? The "what ifs" can now leave your brain. All the daydreams and dreams can finally stop. So what if you've dreamed about kissing her under the rain, that's lame. You'll get over it, it's fine.

"Ask me again." Yelena tries.

"What?" you ask your voice breaking.

"Truth or dare."

"Fine, truth or dare."

"Truth."

You take in a breath.

"Is if true that you can't even imagine liking me? Am I really that unlikeable?"

"дорогой, you are the most incredible person I've ever met. There's not a part of you that I don't like, and your smile makes my day. In fact, you're too good to be true. I've been falling in love with you since the moment we met and and I didn't want to ruin our friendship because I'm selfish and I need you."

Yelena gasps when you suddenly unlock the door and pull her into the bathroom pushing her against the same door she was behind moments ago.

You look into Yelenas' eyes and then drop your gaze to her mouth and then back at her waiting for consent.

She nods, and that's all you need to finally kiss her. It's even better than all the dreams you've had because it's real. Yelena grabs the back of your head, deepening the kiss. You've put everything into that kiss all the bottled up emotion that's been buried for way too long.

You don't pull away until you're breathless.

"Wow." Yelena whispers, her hands holding your hips so you don't move away.

"Yeah."

"We should've done that long time ago."

you laugh at Yelenas' words because it's true, if both of you were just a tad bit less oblivious this could've happened months ago.

"If it wasn't obvious I uh like you too."

"Eh, you could kiss me again just to be sure."

You roll your eyes but kiss her nonetheless.

"I get the credits for this!" Kate yells from the other side of the door, which makes you both snort.

[the end]

[bepisbee]

feeling nasty so heres a hurt/comfort sickfic

read on ao3

He knew what being sick meant. They had told him all about it, but being a monster he had never experienced it before. Before now, anyway. It was awful. It almost made him wish he hadn’t become a regular person. He didn’t realize it at first, feeling slightly off. He sneezed more, kept sniffling, this gross stuff came out. But then his head ached and he could hear less from one side, sounding like static fuzz. Then came the draining and coughing and he sure as hell could not ignore or hide it anymore.

He coughed into his sleeve again, having been yelled at before that it was gross not to.

“Oh, poor Shadow.” Green frowned. “That sounds terrible.” He walked into their room with a glass of warm water mixed with honey, and handed it over.

“Thaah-aa- ahem” he cracked. “Thanks OG.” Shadow drank gratefully. Slightly soothing his rough throat. “Mm.”

“Blue is making some honey candies for you to suck on, some of them with some herbs Vio grows he says will help with vitamins and soothing and… I don’t remember honestly he was rambling. He’s so worried about you, it’s sweet.” Shadow blew his nose into a tissue and tossed it into the trash bin they set next to the bed. “Getting bored yet?”

“Yeah,” he admitted, “I might actually end up reading some of the books Vio left for me. He said they’re not too hard and mostly fiction.” He sighed nasally, leaning his head back and then forward again. ‘ughh okay nope can’t do that. eugh. How can y'all stand this? I can literally feel it draining into my-”

“Eww- Shadow gross! I don’t wanna hear about it.” Green made a face and patted his leg. “Drink your water, Vio’ll bring up some tea and whatever he’s brewing up down there. Let us know if you need anything else okay, buddy?” he got up and Shadow nodded, turning an agreement into another cough.

“Feel better,” he left him alone to his misery.

Shadow woke up, head feeling giant and chest tight. He sat forward coughing harshly. Someone next to him gently rubbed his back. Shadow’s eyes napped up, instantly relaxing when he saw it was Vio. “Hey…”

“Hey, love. How you feeling?”

“Same.” he frowned. Vio handed him a glass of honey yellow liquid that was purple on the bottom. It was warm to the touch. “?”

“It’s a tea short version. It has honey, lemon, menthol, elderberry syrup, cinnamon, and of course water. I made it sweeter for you.” Vio  kissed his forehead. Shadow shut his eyes, the appreciation of care warming him in a way much better than the fever.

“I love you.” Shadow stirred the drink with the long spoon that was in the cup and drank some. “Oh, wow.” he chugged half. “I didn’t expect medicine to taste good?”

“It’s not quite medicine,” he smiled, “But close enough.” he handed over a small compressed thing. “This is, though. A new technique I’ve been working on with Syrup. It’s a bit much to explain everything but it should help your fever and swelling.”

“Are you saying that because there’s some kind of mushroom in it?” Shadow deadpans at him. Even if he couldn’t taste them, he absolutely hated mushrooms. Vio didn’t respond, only pushing the tiny piece at him. Shadow made a dramatic sigh that turned into a cough. “Fuck- fine. anything to feel better at this rate.”

“Take it whole without chewing, drink with it.”

“I know how to swallow, darlin.” Shadow laughed and winked. He winced and then took the medicine. “Ugggh.”

“Good boy.”

Shadow’s face pinked, and the whipped around the face him. “Excuse me!?”

“hahahaha,” Vio wrapped an arm around him. “You earned that one,” He maneuvered Shadow off the bed. “Come with me.”

“Where?” Shadow wobbled, dizzy. He helped lead him to their bathroom, where a hot bathrub steamed a little, smelling faintly of flowers. It had to be strong if Shadow could smell it in his state. The mirrors were all fogged up already.

“A warm bath is gonna help a lot. It soften the muscus in your nasal passages and lungs.”

“Can I have that in Hyrulian please?” Shadow pulled off his sweaty top and pants shamelessly. Despite his earlier joke, he really was in no mood to be fooling around like that right now.

“You’ll feel better. Sneeze and cough when you need to and get rid of it.” He translated, and helped Shadow into the tub.

“Oooh.” He laid back, the salted bath soothing him. He even tilted his head back a little against the ledge. “This is nice.” Vio sat next to him. “Thanks darlin.” he sighed and relaxed in the water, letting the warm steam help clear him up. Vio handed him tissues as he needed between small talk. Which mostly consisted of just Vio talking at him, instead of with, but he was okay with that. Vio leaned in with something on his hands. “??”

He started to scrub his hair with something sudsy. Shadow hummed and shut his eyes and he was pampered. Vio gently rubbing his scalp and washing him clean. “Okay, love, dunk for me?” Shadow submerged his head and came back up. “Perfect,” He grabbed a sponge and soap. 

“You know I can bathe myself right?” Shadow isn’t actually protesting, as evident by his arm he puts out for him right away.

“I know. But I like taking care of you, you deserve it.” Shadow didn’t expect that, not in that sweet tone that Vio reserved only for him. His heart soared and he had to look away. He chuckled and washed him with care, taking some time. Down his thighs and between of course. Shadow grumbled at him for teasing him and he moved on. Vio left a delicate kiss to his lips.

“Don’t- you’re gonna get sick.” Shadow frowned sternly.

“Love, I’ve been sleeping and laying next to you. I’m going to get sick anyways.” he places another on his forehead again. He helped Shadow out of the draining tub and dried him off, while he held the counter for balance. Vio kissed his hand and arms and shoulders and stomach.

“Vio,” he warned.

“Mmmhm.” he relents. “Wait here a second, I forgot to grab clothes for you.” He hands over the towel to cover up while he stepped out. Shadow looked dup to the ceiling. He would be the death of him, he swore. But he did feel much better. Vio returned with some soft cotton pants and an undershirt. Shadow slipped into them, relishing the clean clothing. They walked back to the room where fresh bedding now covered their bed.

“Aw, Vi,” he started.

“Mm-m. It’s good for you. Sleeping in your own germs with only get you worse. Plus feeling clean makes you heal faster.” Vio laid him back down with a fresh blanket. “I’m gonna start on a stew with Red.”

“Potatoes??” he perked up.

“Of course, love.” He could hide vegetables easily in it if Shadow was distracted with his favorite starch. Blue knocked and walked in with a little bag.

“Hey, I got those candies.” he handed them over quickly. “Feel better.” he ran out of there. He really hated germs and sick. Vio thanked him as he ran and Shadow took one.

“I don’t know how I can thank all of you, you’re so nice.” Shadow sniffled and turned away his cough.

“Just try and get better. Worry about everything else later,” he pat his back and got up, “I’ll be right downstairs if you need me for anything.”

“Thank you.” he replied. Even though he felt awful at the same time, he felt really good. They were there for him. Shadow fell asleep like that, a tiny smile on his face.

[starxiasstuff]

How some of the bonten members would react to your period.

(💀the amount of pain some of us feel is just omg)

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Ran Haitani

He would have a basic understanding of it

Unaware of cramps/mood swings and that sorta shit so he would def be taken aback if you winced in pain.

Would tease you but would stop if you're visibly pissed or hurt

Would try his best in getting you the right sort of pads

Will buy you whatever you want "wah, that bag is super cute! " Next thing you know Ran bought it.

Gives you massages

Overall his care is a 9.5 on 10 the teasing made him lose the .5

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Rindou Haitani

PLS he literally knows nothing about periods, he just found you sleeping and happened to see a stain, he lowkey thought you got shot on your ass and freaked out

He is a pretty fast learner so after reading up on some articles about it he would go to the store and buy every single pad/snack available

Would spoil you but not come near you, he's liked kinda grossed outtt idk the idea of bleeding out of your 🐱 for almost 24/7 doesn't sit right with him

He would be a bitch and ask you to sleep in the guest bedroom, but he would end up sleeping on the couch.

"Rin can i get a hug pleaseeeeee" "EWW no way in hell am I comin' near you and your bleeding🐱"

Overall he's a solid 7 on 10, the distancing makes you feel like shit and he doesn't even make up properly just buys you stuff and awkwardly tries to make up for the shitty week your body and he caused.

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Mikey

Pretty experienced because of Emma

Keeps a track of your cycle

Shares his food (which is a stretch even for his "emo" Self)

Butterfly kisses on your stomach

He would take a day off and put either Kakucho Or Kokonoi incharge (no way in hell is he letting Sanzu take over for a full 24 hours)

Thinks a lot before he speaks to you during the week, he is so scared of saying smth that might hurt you in anyway

Personal heatpack <3

10/10 he is literally the sweetest during this time <333333

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Might update later.

UPDATED

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Kakucho Hitto

Contrary to popular belief of him being "husband" Material, I think he would be flustered to talk about it.

"Oh.. You're uh on your.. *cough* monthly cycle... UHH" Poor dude would be confused af and would be super worried if your cramps are bad

He'd come back early frm Bonten hq in an attempt to take care of you, but freak out as soon as he had laid eyes on a stain.

He would properly make it up to you for freaking out about it (unlike someone 😒)

Would cuddle you from behind and rub gentle circles on your back

Same as Ran 9.5 on 10, he lost the

.5 at being awkward, it put you on edge.

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Sanzu Haruchiyo

Manz doesn't know what it is and won't care to learn about it, all he needs is a nutshell explanation and BOOM he literally runs faster then Sonic to the supermarket and buys you everything you could ever need

Would take the whole week off just to stay with you

Movies and binge watching cringy rom-cons are a must

Asks you if you can still do the deed

If your cramps are bad in the morning he'll carry you downstairs bridal style throw you on the couch and gets you your favorite instant noodles

Would take a hot bath with you without being disgusted by the sight of your blood

Overall solid 10, he is super ooc here because I refuse to see all his red flags 😌

(**AN, I WILL BE ADDING KOKO ASWELL AS TAKEOMI LATER**)

Hhhgnudvjfvjfc I'm back like I promised, I'll be ending it with koko and takeomi, I'm sorry i just can't write shit for mochi😔

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Kokonoi Hajime

He honestly could care less, but he loves you and hates seeing you in pain

He will def spoil you like crazy, slides you his phone from across the table and asks you which piece of clothes you like better

Buys you some of the best meds, manz hates it when you say you don't need the meds but are literally glued to the bed cause of cramps

After a really bad period he would take you to a gynecologist to make sure everythings ok

Would take a day off to take care of you, but when he returns the whole hq is in literal shambles

Would make sure you have a really or atleast maybe relaxing week

(Fhcghv i low key love this man sm i have sm hcs just based on him)

If your back hurts he'll buy a whole new matress

10/10 no explanation needed

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Akaashi Takeomi (this is the literal first time I've ever wrote anything for him, probs the last time too idk he and mochi are hard to write for)

Would be experienced because of senju

Doesn't keep a track of your cycle but knows when it's near almost like a 6th sense

Cooks gourmet worthy food for you

Cuddles and what not

He asks you literally everything like "hey, would you like it if I went to work today? "

#remote working

Checks in on you a lot to make sure you're comfy and not in too much pain.

10/10 (smh rin better be taking notes)

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Bye bye luvs!! I'll post smth later

[sailorblossoms-snowbaz]

The word cute is interesting to look at in the books. It’s a word one might use when finding someone at least somewhat attractive, but it’s not inherently tied to that, like calling someone “hot” or “sexy.” It’s not even the first thing you would associate with the word – lots of things are cute, like puppies and kittens and small things and certain outfits and colors and whatever.

I think looking at the word cute is perfect to point out how attraction is conveyed in the series... attraction is happening when we can find these 3 elements:

Repetition

Noting something no one else does about the person they're attracted to, in a way no one else does. To an insane degree, even.

Thoughts are derailed. They can't handle how into the other person they are.

They apply to Agatha thinking about Niamh, and Simon about Baz, and Baz about Simon too. They happen to be connected to romantic feelings, but we can make a distinction between pure attraction (Baz looks good enough to eat) and romantic feelings (Simon telling you like he's following him around with his heart on his hand in the same paragraph)

When Simon says someone is cute, it's not the same as Shepard saying Penny is cute. With Simon is a passing comment that doesn't necessarily say anything about him, other than he notes when something is cute, or that tends to comment on people's appearances favorably. A gay man can remember a girl as cute (Baz uses "gorgeous" even, which is stronger and more evocative). Taking context and how attraction is conveyed in the books, it's arguably no different from something like: "Do you remember Ginger's cat?" "oh, the cute orange tabby?" (Interesting that in a memory of talking about magic with Agatha in front of a fireplace and she's all relaxed and sleeping, she's compared to a kitten. Someone who's into her would probably not be choosing that comparison. I mean, when Baz is sleepy, he's not compared to a cute animal, he's compared to a film star trying to seduce you.) I would say that when Simon calls someone cute, is in the presence of Baz, and it says more about Baz actually, and how he handles his emotions/potential jealousy. First, he makes it pass with a comment about barfing or something. It’s juvenile and completely masks his feelings – it helps to mentally remove himself from them, even. Just going "eww, gross" and calling it a day. Then it’s just a silent raised eyebrow, when he's more secure in his relationship with Simon but can’t fully let go of his insecurities yet (kills me because he tells you Simon never shows romantic interest in anyone outside of obvious assumptions made toward the person he dates, Simon doesn't even notice girls showing obvious interest, but doesn't really realize what he's noticing)

Then there's Shepard. He doesn't just say "Penny is cute" and calls it a day. He dedicates almost an entire goddamn page to call Penny cute. He can't handle it. He can't get over it. Before Shepard, no one says shit about Penny's knees, but he's out there like "Have I told you how cute Penny's knees are? They're so cute. They shouldn't be allowed to be this cute. How can it be possible that she's this cute. Cute, cute, cute. How am I supposed to go on, knowing Penelope and her cute little knees exist? How can anyone go on? I know I can't." He can't stop repeating that she's cute. It derails his thoughts. He's noting something no one else would give much thought and is incapable to stop thinking about it.

[footballfanficwriter]

Promises we made

Summary: They made promises to eachother

13 years ago:

"Jude?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you think we'll ever find love"

"Uhm I don't know, what Is love anyway"

"I don't know,but I think it's all about holding hands and hugging your boyfriend or girlfriend"

"But we do that all the time"

"Does that mean we're boyfriend and girlfriend"

"I don't know, maybe"

"But don't girlfriends and boyfriends like kiss eachother"

"Eww,that's gross"

"Yeah, love is gross, I don't think I want to have it"

"Me too"

"But my mom and dad hug and kiss eachother all the time,does that make them boyfriend and girlfriend"

"I don't know Jude, Maybe they are"

"I think they're married"

"I think I wanna get married instead of being someone's girlfriend"

"Isn't that the same thing as being someone's girlfriend"

"No being girlfriend and boyfriend means you have to kiss and hug your boyfriend or girlfriend and do all the yucky stuff"

"Then what does being married mean"

"You live with the person but you don't kiss them, you only hug them and live with them"

"Oh yeah that makes it easier to understand"

"Yeah, so I wanna get married"

"I promise that when we're older we'll get married,then I can become a football player and you can become an actress, and we'll live together and be happy"

"Yeah, then we can have as much candy as we want and no one would tell us to stop"

"But what about kids"

"Only boyfriends and girlfriends have kids"

"Oh yeah right"

"You didn't make a promise to me Y/n"

"Oh right, I promise to always be your best friend and always be there for you"

"Thank you, me as well I promise too"

"Pinky promise?"

"Pinky promise"

10 years later:

Jude an I are at his house just sitting on the floor and talking about random stuff

"Am I really that hard to love"

"What do you mean?"

"I broke up with Isaac "

"Another one bites the dust"

"Stop"

"Why did you break up with him"

"He was too controlling for my liking"

"Good riddance,I never even liked the lad anyway"

"You never liked any of my boyfriends"

"That's because they were all pricks"

"No not all of them"

"Whatever, and to answer your question , no you are not hard to love"

"Well to help you feel beter, Roxy broke up with me"

"What for?"

"Something about not feeling it anymore"

"Oh well her loss"

"You know what we should do"

"What?"

"If all love in our lives fails us we should just get married to eachother"

"That's actually a good idea"

"See I'm clever as well"

"Whatever einstein"

"C'mon let's plan our wedding"

"It's not like we're actually gonna get married"

"Yeah but if it happens we need to be prepared"

He grabs his laptop and starts typing things

"Ok first order of business,the cake"

"Why the cake, why can't it be the wedding dress first"

"Fine, the wedding dress first"

"Ok I pick this one":

"That looks pretty, you're gonna look so pretty"

"Thank you"

"Ok now for the suit"

"Just wear a black suit"

"Oh right, what's next"

"The venue"

"What about that one"

"Yeah that's really beautiful"

"Next"

"The rings"

"Let's pick for eachother"

"Ok I pick this one for you"

"Then I pick this one for you"

"I'm not gonna lie I'm really enjoying doing this"

"Same"

"What's next then"

"The cake"

"Ok I'm in love with that one"

"I definitely agree"

"We need a reception as well"

"Which one should we go for"

"You can pick this one Jude"

"Ok, I pick this one"

"We forgot a color scheme"

"White and Gold"

"Ok"

"Is that all"

"The food"

"So a Buffett"

"Yeah, that way everybody can have how ever amount of food that they"

"Smart"

"Yeah I know I am"

"Whatever"

"JUDE BELLINGHAM HAS JUST SCORED THE THIRD GOAL OF THE MATCH, WHAT A LAD"

Present day:

"Bellingham, Bellingham, Bellingham,BELLINGHAM!"

The crowd goes wild as I sit there watching Jude celebrating with his teammates, he turns around and blows me an air kiss

I catch it and return it back to him

When the game ends the score is 5-0

I wait for Jude to do the post match interview and receive his player of the match award

When he's done we walk to the car

"I'll drive" I say

"Thank you, I'm proper knackered"

"I know"

"Can you believe we're getting married, this weekend

"I know it feels so surreal"

"What feels surreal is the fact that by this time Next week you'll already be MRS Bellingham, you'll be my wife"

"And you'll be my husband"

"I can't believe it"

"Me too"

Weekend:

The day is finally here I'm getting married to my bestfriend and the man I love

"Aww, look at how beautiful you look,you look so beautiful sweetheart"

"Thanks mom"

"Good God I'm gonna cry"

"No please don't"

She comes in for a hug and when she pulls back, she's got tears in her eyes"

"Mom please don't cry, it's not like I'm leaving you"

"You sort of are in a way" she says

"Ok places everybody, we're up in 5" the wedding planner says

"Let's get you married"

We make our way outside and start walking to where the ceremony is taking place

My bridesmaids make they're way down the aisle

When they're done it's my turn

I take a deep breath before walking

Please don't trip

Please don't trip

Please don't trip

Please don't trip

Then I see him,black crisp tuxedo that looks like second skin on him

He's smiling at me and I smile back at him

When I reach the end of the aisle he grabs my hand and guides me in front of him

"Hi" he whispers

"Hey" I whisper back

"You look beautiful"

"You look handsome"

"I can't believe we're doing this"

"We're crazy"

"Most definitely"

"Thank you everyone for being her today to bring together these two people in matrimony, I don't wanna wate your time so let's get into it the couple have decided to have their own vows , starting with y/n"

"Jude you are my best friend, you always have been, you've been there for me every single day, at first I saw you as my brother, which is weird now that I'm thinking about it , but the point is you've been my pillar, the person to push me when I was not up for the challenge , when I felt like my world was ending and when I felt alone, you showed me countless times that you were right there and if I fell you where always there to pick me up and tell me to try again, I love you more than words can ever Express and I promise to always love you"

"Alright now Jude"

"Y/n, many years ago I made a promise to, a promise nobody but us knew about, I promised that one day I'd marry you here I am now fulfilling that promise, I am so happy you are a person that exists in this universe, because there are thousands of people in this universe and if I'm gonna be marrying one I'm Glad it's you, I can't imagine my life without you or how it where I would be right now without you, but I know for a fact that I wouldn't be standing here making you my wife, I love you more than anything in this universe and I promise to always support you and love you"

"By the power vested in me"

" pronounce you Husband and wife, you may kiss the bride"

Jude doesn't waste another second to kiss me

When we pull away he smiles at me

"I can't believe we did that"

"Well believe it"

We walk down the aisle and take a few pictures before going to the reception

We enjoy with our friends, family and loved ones

And by the time 10 O'clock hits my feet are tired from all the dancing

So Jude decides we should go to bed

"What a day"

"Yeah you can say that again"

"MRS. Bellingham"

"That feels weird to hear"

"Stop ruining the moment, I'm trying to build up something"

"Oh, ok sorry, start from the beginning"

"Y/n"

"Sorry"

"Stop"

We end up laughing and he just pulls me in for a kiss, that slowly becomes heated by the moment

He pulls away and says

"I love you so much"

"And I love you more"

[liquidstar]

i saw a comment by you on an old post saying lesbians are bigots if they refuse to consent to sex with anyone amab. do you still feel that way (about homosexuality being bad) or have you changed your pov?

lol no, i didnt get stupider.

depending on how old the post was its possible i didnt phrase myself in the best way (ive been here since i was a young teenager after all), but youre also clearly prone to the worst possible bad faith interpretation of things so ill at least make this clear: i do believe that anyone has the right to refuse sex for whatever reason they want. whatever. thats fine.

but i dont think thats an excuse for transmisogyny. i dont think there have to be entire "movements" dedicated to this imaginary concept of trans women forcing cis lesbians to have sex with them. no, im not doubting that this situation has ever once happened on an individual level, but its not a systemic issue by any fucking means. people saying that trans women are women, and that having sex with them doesnt make you less of a lesbian, IS NOT the same thing as someone forcing you to have sex with them. no one is making anyone do anything beyond respect people's individual choices. your adverse reaction to this is whats bigoted.

again, i think anyone can refuse sex for whatever reason they want, but i also think that we live in a bigoted society where a lot of people dont want to unpack their biases or shallowness, especially when it comes to sex and romance. so i think that once you decide to base your personality around "EWW I WONT HAVE SEX WITH A PENIS HAVER!!! GROSS!!!" you are a bigot lol, its clearly about a lot more at that point. you are using it as an excuse for your bigotry, a way to recontexualize yourself as the victim in a pure hypothetical. but trans women have said it better than i ever could though, so i dont want to soapbox too much.

im still a dyke btw and homosexuality is awesome :thumbsup: and i think woman are more than just their vaginas, which is why i dont boil them down to the parts they have, even when it comes to sex. if you want to put me on somekind of blocklist for this go ahead, i dont want terfs interacting w me anyway. bye forever now

[leam1983]

Polyamory - FAQ

I'll probably append that to the pinned post some day but for now, I'm just dumping a few tidbits here.

1. What's Polyamory?

It's the wholesome, fuzzy, wistful-sigh-triggering distant cousin to polygamy, if you're looking for a hacky and borderline-insulting comparison. Polyamory is what you get when three or more people agree to form a working system together out of love and mutual respect and support. And yes sexual attraction tends to factor between all parties involved - even if polyamory doesn't exclude aro or ace types in any way whatsoever.

In effect, it's very much like your average monogamous arrangement - except there's a third head poking out of a tee-shirt's hole, somewhere. Or a fourth. Or a fifth. In my case, it's just three of us: myself, Sarah and Walt.

2. Is it true that poly people have a Top and a Bottom?

No. We might have preferred positions in bed, but the relationship in and of itself is egalitarian. Walt leads the business we run together and he tends to run our kitchen on Friday and Saturday nights, but Sarah and I take the lead on most other weekdays. We've figured out how to conjoin our aesthetic preferences into a workable mid-point and decorate the condo accordingly.

Like in any relationship, skillsets and inclinations tend to put some of us on top of the pile for certain things. I lead for most of everything Tech-related, and Sarah is the throuple's Face, as it were. If someone needs to be put on Hold for twenty minutes so one of us renews a presciption, she's the one for it. Not out of some Prescriptivist notion, but because I'm sarcastic by nature and can't keep my mouth shut, and because Walt, despite being a Canadian Anglophone, is incapable of truly channelling that fabled Canadian Niceness that gets us out of most binds.

3. But I met this guy in the Leather scene, and-

Ah. You're referring to BDSM, which is a form of playtime between consenting adults. Having a well-contained degradation kink within the confines of an otherwise loving and fair poly space does not make you a Bottom. Bottoms do not exist outside of the exact moment of intercourse. Even then, they only feature as part of similar kinks. Bottoms. Do not. Naturally Exist. Love is love.

4. You sometimes describe Walt as being able to fake Douchebag status. Doesn't that make him top d-

Stop expressing your relationships as a hierarchy. It's toxic as fuck. Stop projecting a guesstimated hierarchy on my loved ones. It's gross. Next question.

5. Can you cheat on each other?

No, of course not. I can disappoint a partner if I leave them out of the loop for too long, but Walt, Sarah and I are currently in a healthy state that allows us to keep tabs on one another efficiently. All three of us get our daily recommended quota of affection, support, love and care. And yes, we also get in plenty of shenanigans. Great loves are always built on solid friendships first, IMHO.

6. Your boyfriend is in his sixties?! Eww!

Guess what: you'll be in your sixties too, some day, assuming no unfortunate events unfold. Walt is just a few steps ahead of me, metaphorically speaking, but we plan on getting the most out of the time we'll have together. For now, he's incontrovertibly and immutably one of us - the one who turned the couple into a throuple.

7. "Throuple"? That'll never catch on...

Not that I asked for your opinion, Random Person, but it fits our needs pretty neatly. We have the dynamics of a couple, but there's three of us. Simple and elegant.

8. Is Walt still gay?

It's irrelevant, honestly. Walt likes the both of us - that's all. He has a slight preference for me when it comes to bedroom stuff, but what began as base fondness for Sarah turned into pseudo-paternal protectiveness, then to cadging a few kisses, and to slowly figuring out what it feels like to kiss a girl when your last hetero experiences date back to when Ontario's Catholic schools were in full swing. Things more or less unfolded from there.

9. So, Walt's bi now, right?

Again, that's irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. I'll leave the Pride Flag anxiety to people who really do want to make sure they fit in their exact little niche and represent it specifically; I just fly the basic Inclusive Pride design, myself - and I like to keep things discreet. Walt carried the older Pride flag design as a lapel pin for several years, but typically disguised it as a featureless lapel button.

10. You've been poly for how long?

Including my two years spent waffling about and being unsure; about nine years. I met Sarah at my previous job, moved in with her in 2015. I also technically met Walt in 2015, but we didn't become flirtatious with each other or openly attracted to one another until 2019.

11. Did you spend a while thinking you'd gone gay?

Nope. I headed home after Walt first kissed me, gathered my wits and told Sarah. It some getting-used-to on her part, but she knew Walt as a coworker and knew he wasn't the stereotypical Gay Rake. She figured if he'd confessed to me, it had to be serious.

12. Was Walt sad that you wouldn't break up with Sarah for his sake?

Maybe, but for something like a minute or two. We'd discussed Walt earlier, and I figured there was a chance for us to either go from a couple to an at least open relationship, but I was pleasantly surprised when Sarah admitted that she also felt things for Walt.

Everything was cleared up in the span of a single conversation, over dinner.

13. None of this can last, can't it?

Of course it can't last. I'll die, Sarah's also going to croak, Walt's going to shuffle off his mortal coil - leaves fall, the seasons change, atoms shift their positions and constantly unmake and remake the Universe as we know it, quantum entanglement is this ever-changing morass none of us will ever fully tame, and-

Oh, you meant the relationship? Well, that's just none of your business now, isn't it?

[vex-bittys]

Bittyswap (part 27)

My version of Bittyswap involves full-sized bittybones (and other monsters) living in the Underground and getting miniature humans as pets.

———-

Cherry's severe anxiety ruled him out as our food fetcher, and Lil Bro declared that he'd met his activity quota for the month. Yanyan couldn't be bothered with menial tasks like lifting and carrying, nor could he be seen in a lowbrow location like Grillby’s. That left the task of gathering our meals to fall upon Cap's broad and hopefully capable shoulders. It also meant that I would be going to Grillby’s since Cap took his job as my caretaker so seriously that he refused to let me out of his sight again. 

I don't blame him. If my “pet” trashed my kitchen so badly that the entire worldly concept of breakfast suffered a critical hit, I wouldn't leave them unsupervised either. Brassberry never took me to Grillby’s with him though because the Snowdin Royal Guard frequented the establishment. Nobody else seemed concerned, but I couldn't help wondering if this was a good idea (says the human!bitty who thought a homemade pancake breakfast was a good idea).

Gathering everyone's order became another ordeal in our fraught-with-peril quest to just have a meal today since each skeleton had specific requests, and each of his housemates felt the need to pass commentary on those requests.

Cherry asked for the Junior Grillby’s Special with extra mustard on the burger and fries, which was met with a chorus of indignation and outrage. I added a tiny “eww” under my breath. Mustard is gross, but I didn't want Cherry to feel bad. Hopefully someone else would order something that I could nibble off of. Lil Bro dashed those hopes when he spoke up next. He wanted the Grillby’s Special with, of all things, honey slathered on the burger and fries.

“Degenerate,” hissed Yanyan.

"Gross,” Cap said, making an exaggerated gagging sound.

“Why?” cried a distraught Cherry.

I just gave my best Neutral Face of Displeasure but said nothing. Maybe Yanyan would share his food with me. He had impeccable taste… except when it came to burgers and fries apparently. 

Before Yanyan told us what he wanted, he launched into a lengthy tirade about the quality of any establishment that didn't serve Glamburgers. To Yanyan, the Glamburger (which I'd never even heard of) was the pinnacle of branded gourmet cuisine, unrivaled by anything that came out of the cut-rate grease trap next door. I assume he meant Grillby’s. Yanyan took a moment to collect himself from the emotional distress of not getting a Glamburger and dictated a long and complicated order to us with special requests for things like kale, tofurkey, vegan cheese, and sprouted chia seed buns. I looked around, sure that the haughty skeleton was joking, but the other housemates were just sighing and rolling their eyelights.

Tofurkey is a real thing? What the heck is it? Toes? Fur? Keys?! I grew more alarmed the more I considered the possibilities, and I hadn't even thought about the other ingredients yet!

“you're really gonna waste a trip to Grillby’s on health food?” Lil Bro asked,  scornful. Ah, healthy foods. Antioxidants and Omega-3s and superfoods and whatnot. I know nothing about health-conscious options; I am all about flavor with the curves to prove it. You couldn't change Yanyan's mind by mocking him though. A person needed tact and an appeal to the skeleton’s ego for that.

“You're already so slender, Yanyan. Isn't kale and-” I struggled to remember the words he'd used. “-tofurkey for people who are on diets?”

Yanyan preened at the compliment, just like I knew he would. “I WOULDN'T WANT ANYONE TO THINK I NEED TO DIET. I GUESS I'LL GET THE SPECIAL.” Finally, food that I can actually eat with no weird add-ons! “WITH EXTRA GLITTER ON THE BURGER AND FRIES!”

Dammit!

I couldn't count on Brassberry, asleep or not, to choose something normal. His usual consisted of a Grillby’s Special double with steak fries. This might seem normal for a monster who prides himself on being tough and macho, even if the fries are thick cut potatoes and not actual meat. The problem is what he does to the aforementioned food. He absolutely saturates it in appalling amounts of ketchup. 

Cap was my only hope to finally get a taste of non-ketchup-flavored food from the Underground's famous Grillby’s Bar and Grill. I believed in him, but I got a bit less confident and a lot more nervous when Cap placed me carefully against his cervical vertebrae and tucked a warm scarf around me. I usually rode around in Brassy's pocket, safely hidden from sight. Sure, I could enjoy the view from Cap's mountainous height, but any monster we passed could easily spot me.

I felt exposed, despite burrowing down into my little scarf nest. Maybe Grillby’s, a popular hangout and restaurant destination, would be totally empty during the lunch rush? A very small and vulnerable girl can hope.

“Make sure nothing happens to our human!bitty,” Yanyan called to us as we stepped outside, which isn't at all ominous. I watched the door close on him, flanked on either side by Lil Bro and Cherry who nodded their agreement to ensuring my safety against dangers unknown (to me anyway).

I was now alone with Cap in the big, wide dangerous world of Snowdin, and all I could think of was that I'd been upgraded from vermin to pest to Brassy's pet to their human!bitty.

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[stevishabitat]

Did I never post this??? Found it in a folder and then searched my posts and apparently I didn't.

Anyway...

My Notes While Watching Daredevil 2003

First, the NYC building lights changing to braille, changing to text? Cool.

DD draped around the cross? Iconic.

DD splatting on the floor of the church? Typical.

My kiddo giggled.

Me: Oh Matty, you're so good at superheroing...

Oh wow, the young!Matt actor looks shockingly like Charlie Cox. Even more so than the kid in the Netflix series (which is fine though, that kid was a hell of an actor!)

Is his dad already retired from boxing at this point?

Special effects for Matt's senses is pretty cool. Possibly better than the 'world on fire' stuff in the series.

Ah, I see. Jack is going back to boxing, to get out from under Fallon's thumb?

No Stick? He's training himself?

Parkour!Matt

Oh damn, he's there in person? Hearing the whole murder?

OK this is all a little over-dramatic.

TF? He's in a sensory isolation tank? Weirdo.

Yikes, that is truly some hair.

LOL, Foggy is Happy Hogan, OMG.

Matt is a little too uptight for my liking. Maybe he'll feel better after punching somebody.

Woah, he's gonna start something in front of all those people? No back alley? Dude, at least take him out to the hallway...

Fuck. Flashing lights. There wasn't even a warning on this.

And apparently no descriptive audio??? Fail. HBO. Absolute fail.

Got my kiddo to tell me when the flashing lights were over. God I hate that shit. My head was already splitting.

Woah. Did he just let that guy die???

No no no. He left a calling card? Who is this? #NotmyMatthew.

He has a secret lair? And/or his apartment is in the church crypt? What even...

Why does Heather sound like she's calling from the 80s?

He just pulled out a tooth. Gross.

Wait wait wait... He *sleeps* in the isolation tank? Dramatic bitch.

Oh, they went full 'Irish priest' on the priest, huh? Irritating. Offensive.

Matt really is uptight. And do he and Foggy even like each other?

Oh its the hot girl radar.

Aaaaaand we get our first blind joke as Foggy has a coronary in the background. This feels more normal.

Oh, Matt, creepy stalker is not a good look.

WTF is this? In broad daylight? I assume this is Elektra?

Did not like any of that.

Well here we have someone who is obviously Fisk. Smarmy looking weasel is Wesley?

Mr. Natchios *daughter* would willingly and easily take your head off, Wilson.

Bullseye is a skinhead? A skinhead who is also Colin Farrell. OK then.

Oh look, finally a good fucking hallway.

You're not the bad guy, huh? You just stand in the rain like a sad puppy and convince yourself.

I love how Foggy assumes he's the plus one.

Why does Foggy put up with him being like that?

Self pity?? Get ahold of yourself Matthew.

"What happens to that lie detector of yours when it detects your own bullshit?"

Good question Fog.

Foggy has to know about his senses then, yeah? But it doesn't seem like he knows about Daredevil? That's... strange.

Oh god, it's the rain trope.

Definitely prefer the boxing ring sex scene. This is boring. Zero chemistry. Possibly because Ben Affleck has no emotional range.

Party time.

All the cigarettes and cigars must be hell for Matt.

Eww, he *sniffed* her. My Matt would never.

Aaaaaand the glasses trope. And now we're sad about his blindness. Gross.

Fight time!

Meh.

Oh damn, that was unexpected. Are we going to pit Elektra against Daredevil now?

Damn, more flashing lights.

Time for guilt and self flagellation...

No no no no.... It's Evanescence, I can no longer take this movie seriously.

Matthew left his billy club behind like an amateur.

Also, I just realized his cane is really short. Like... really short. That's weird. His sighted guide technique seems inconsistent too. Somebody needed more practice.

More Evanescence. Please send help.

Elektra's training montage looks like it was copied straight from BTVS. Could easily have been Eliza Dushku in that scene. In fact, maybe Eliza Dushku would have been better.

Well now what, kids? She's just gonna believe him that it wasn't his fault? Could we get a little emotion from these people?

Bullseye & Elektra fight! And it's over real fast.

Oh no, really? Is she getting fridged? Shit. That's disappointing. I wanted a full-on team-up to take down Kingpin.

Apparently Matt's radar has been knocked out a bit.

I dislike the smugness of this Bullseye. Our Dex was somehow more sympathetic, even if he was a horrible person. Granted, when is Colin Farrell ever sympathetic?

They really went for actors who refuse to emote. It's a whole theme here.

Oh damn, using the church bells against Matt? Clever.

None of these fights are doing it for me.

Damn, Wilson is just gonna Hulk smash our baby.

The lightning is killing me. And now with way too much rain. Like visual snow. Sensory nightmare. Can't even watch this fight.

Mr. Fisk, you've just made yourself an archenemy.

This is better Matt and Foggy banter. I guess Matt got some stuff out of his system. Apparently he's not that sad about Elektra?

Oh, that's a nice t-shirt.

Urich, you aren't gonna out him are you?

Nah, I didn't think so.

Woah. A mid-credits scene? That's a surprise. I recently watched The Incredible Hulk, and mentioned to kiddo that the final scene felt like it should have been a mid-credits scene. But I said that was less of a thing at the time. But this is even older. Weird.

OK. Thoughts. I feel like the entire script needed more editing. I feel like it didn't do enough to make Matt likeable. I needed more Foggy & Matt friendship and less snarking. Idk if part of it was Ben Affleck's acting, making Matt too stoic?

Elektra was incredibly disappointing. Especially the fridging. Yikes. Way to really counteract any build-up of the character and the little bit of agency she had, just to take her out like that. She should have been way more formidable.

There was definitely some cringey moments of ableism and stale blind tropes that easily could have been avoided if they'd had someone read the script with that in mind.

I've lost all respect for Joss Whedon over the years, but I feel like back in 2003, if he'd had the opportunity to edit this script, it would have been better. I kept looking at how they played Elektra, and all of the church imagery and stuff, and it felt almost like a knock-off of Buffy/Angel. So if you're going that route, just get the guy who knows how to do it successfully, right?

Anyway, it scratched a bit of the Daredevil itch. But there was a lot that I feel like could have been so much better with a little more effort on the script, and maybe a few different acting/directing choices.

And it could have had 100% fewer flashing light scenes. Damn, I really didn't remember movies being that bad about that in the early 2000s.

Speaking of the early 2000s, how about that soundtrack, huh? Ode to 2003 pop radio, lol. I had flashbacks to the office I worked in at the time and how the radio station was playing Evanescence like every third song all day long.

[xiao-lantern]

rant on the g3nshin community + ship discourse. feel free to ignore xo. idk if i actually need to “censor” words on tumblr but i’m gonna anyway sorry /gen. “y’all” is used as a general “you” and not to anyone specific. also heterophobia does NOT exist don’t try to bring that bullshit here. also ETA this rant was made before the 4.2 archon quest

the g3nshin fandom as a whole has a HUGE problem with biphobia, and hypocrisy tbh. like other than the ob3y me fandom, i’ve never seen such blatant biphobia. your faves can be in a mlm/wlw ship and be bisexual. they can be in a het-passing ship and be bisexual. or t4t, etc.

like twt is a hellhole in itself, but it is MASSIVELY toxic and weird how some of y’all act about certain ships that aren’t even implied.

y’all will go on about how “amazing” rarepairs are if they’re wlw/mlm, and you’ll ship characters who barely or don’t even interact. and that in itself is NOT problematic!! i’m a rarepairs fan too.

but i literally saw someone mention how “gross” Focalors x Neuvillette is. even tho… they’re both grown adults, and Furina isn’t depicted like a child like Nahida (who is also hundreds of years old, but is shown as a child). like if you don’t see them romantically/see them more like family, that’s fine!! that’s valid!! but nowhere is it implied, hinted or outright said that they’re like/are family (like Diluc and Kaeya, Jean and Barbara, Albedo and Klee, etc.). so like,, What. please remember to differentiate your hcs from canon 😭 like i personally see Ganyu and Xiao as a family with Zhongli, but if you wanna ship them idrc. cuz they’re all pretty much the same age (fought together during the Archon War). like that’s a non problematic ship right there.

y’all shipped so many characters before they were even released (ex wriolette, chlorivia, which are valid in their own right btw), but how dare people ship Wriothesley and Chlorinde (for example) instead /sarc. like,, the two characters who DID have more screen time with each other than with their “fandom popular s/o” (Wriothesley is probably an exception tbh).

and again, the biphobia. if you don’t like m/f or het-passing ships, fine whatever that’s you. but to automatically assume we think a character is straight, or to ignore bi headcanons is just,, really weird. you don’t have to like or agree with them either, but to say “eww why did you make them straight” is just weird too 💀

this is not me trying to dictate what you can and can’t ship (if you’re a pr0shit then stay away obviously). this is just me ranting about the hypocrisy many g3nshin fans have :/

and don’t get me wrong, there’s a LOT of homophobia towards mlm/wlw ships too. but i’ve seen a recent rise in weird ass takes on non-problematic ships just bc you don’t like them… and while i am on the “just block and move on” side, some people DO go out of their way to leave behind weird comments when they don’t need to

[wat-the-cur]

I've noticed that even in queer media a butch character is often the butt of a joke like 'haha look how ugly she is.' Like a futch or soft butch is seen as attractive like to them, if your totally masc then eww gross but if you're a bit masc and a bit femme then you're hot and sexy. So thats why i keep making characters butch in my head, cause i want to see butch characters who arent a laughing stock, yknow?

I get what you mean. I’ll be honest, I’ve not seen a massive amount of specifically lesbian/bisexual media (working on it), but I’ve seen a lot of examples of this in older, or more mainstream media. It’s a big, thorny issue, so I’m not going to get into it now. I may end up waffling, and I don’t feel qualified to do so.

Reading this, though, made me think of the reasons I often choose to turn cis male characters into butches, instead of female characters. There are a few reasons, it’s a bit difficult to put into words. I suppose, on a more superficial level, it is because I envy their masculinity. As you say, a lot of butch characters in media look like they would clean up well in a more feminine look. There is nothing at all wrong with this, but you know that this choice is often intentional on the part of the creator. It’s not to appeal to sapphic women, butches, or gentlemen who are actually attracted to butches, either. It makes me feel that they are afraid to present a woman who would not clean up well in a more feminine look, and that is what I love, and desire more, in myself. The men I turn into butches in my head, would largely be called ugly if they were female, and yet there would be women, perhaps also men, who would not think them so. They would think they are handsome, beautiful, love and respect them in their undeniable masculinity and so called “ugliness”. That is something I find so lovely and comforting. That is one aspect, a bit of a shallow aspect, but it is an important one to me. Of course, this in not taking into account their actual characters and personalities, which I enjoy and project onto very much.

[knucklesex]

one time i told my friends i like this one guy from our class and they were like "HIM? EWW". like. he looks fine. he even acts fine. what the fuck is your problem. like idk how far they were just saying it as a joke (because it's funny to insult your friend's crushes these days 🙄), but even if they were, someone's appearance is not to be joked about so casually? how would they feel if they found out someone was calling them ugly?

i dont know why but i feel the need to emphasize this: the guy was cute. in no way did he look "gross" (idfk know what makes a person look gross but whatever).

it used to be that mostly conventionally unattractive people would get bullied about their looks, but now it's even people who look OKAY. like no, there is no set guidelines for what makes a person beautiful or mid or ugly, but I'm just trying to demonstrate how much worse we're getting about body positivity.

these comments are usually passed around as jokes and no, most of these "mid" people don't regularly get harrassed but like. bodyshaming has just seeped into our casual vocabulary. if you think someone's a dick, you can't just say they're a dick, you have to say they're an ugly bitch. you can't just say someone's petty af, you have to say they're not that cute.

it's disgusting.

im just so mad?? if my friends think that guy is ugly, what do they think of me? am i ugly in their eyes, too, or am i just mid? Just unremarkable?

sorry, but being adamant that a person is Unattractive when another says they find them Attractive doesn't make you seem more Refined than anyone. you're just a pick me

[decomposingpoet]

I just had a conversation with my cousin that went something like this

Her: *telling me about a guy in her school" yeah well then anyway I saw him hanging out with the weird gay kids lol

Me: ...

Her: ... What do you think about gay people

Me: honestly I have no problem with them like who cares

Her: yeah well.. idk why they have a whole month for gay people and only one day for veterans lol

Me: I mean if you think about it, gay people have went through so much that it makes sense. Like before you could go to prison or lose your job of you were gay. And gay people fought alot for their basic human rights to just exist and there's still so much hatred so like it makes sense to have a whole month to celebrate it idk

Her: you see I don't hate gay people though I don't really hate anyone. It's just I disagree with that but I would still be their friend, I would just tell them about Jesus lmao

Me: well.. it's good that you don't hate them at least but think about how you would feel if people reacted to you being straight as something that's wrong and has to be fixed. Like if someone was like eww gross you like guys?? Especially since you can't control it. I mean that would still hurt even if they didn't hate you

Her: hm..

Anywayyy the reason I'm recapping all this is bc I was just so proud of myself in this conversation. Like I didn't shy away from my opinions and pretend that I agreed with all the bigotry being said around me like I often do but try not to do. Of course I still hid the fact that I was gay, but baby steps lol I'm def not ready for coming out to this person. I'm really happy with the way I just calmly presented a different perspective into her life and she can do what she wants with it. I'm just such a coward sometimes that I'm proud of myself that this time I actually dared to express my opinion :)))

[cazort]

nope, if someone says they're jerking it to me i'm calling them disgusting

I love getting asks like this because it allows me to draw attention to these posts again. I assume this is in response to this post.

So again for my followers, of why I don't think it's constructive to call someone "disgusting" if they say they are "jerking it to you":

We live in a sex-negative culture that shames people for being sexual, while under-emphasizing the importance of consent. A lot of people feel guilty about their sexual attraction, but don't feel guilty about overstepping other people's boundaries. And this is bad because it causes sexual harassment, assault, abuse, etc.

When someone randomly tells you they are "jerking it to you" what is wrong about their behavior is that they didn't get your consent. They made an unsolicited sexual comment going from 0 to 100. It's kinda like sending a dick pic or sexually harassing someone in the workplace, stuff like that.

What is not wrong about their behavior is the fact that they are jerking it to you. That's their own private business and they can do it in the privacy of their own home and as long as they don't share it with you or the public, that's fine.

When you call someone disgusting, it is using the same language that sex-negative purity culture uses. Eww, sex is dirty, it's gross. Eww masturbation is gross. Eww you masturbate thinking about me, how disgusting, how wrong, you're disgusting, you're a creep, you're a perv. Keep in mind, a lot of the people who harass people in this way grew up in religious environments where they were taught masturbation is wrong, fantasizing about people is wrong, any sort of sexual feelings outside of (straight) marriage is wrong. And people who do these things are creeps or perverts, they are disgusting. Even people who don't believe in these things can be deeply influenced by this culture.

Yeah no.

It's obvious how people in our society are gonna hear this. They're not gonna internalize "I am disgusting because I overstepped their boundary." They're gonna internalize "I am disgusting because I was sexually attracted to them." But they're not going to stop harassing people like you, they're just going to feel disgusting, and keep doing it anyway, because they've been already told that they're disgusting for being sexual beings, and they've internalized this.

If you take a peek into spaces that tend to have a lot of men with incel or misogynistic tendencies, what do you see? You see a lot of them complaining about "not being allowed to be attracted to women". You hear a lot of complaints about shame and guilt associated with feelings of sexual attraction, and frustration about not being able to express these feelings.

What you don't hear is concern about overstepping women's boundaries, how to express sexuality in a way that is respectful of people, how to get consent and respect boundaries while flirting, etc.

I don't know about you, but I actually care about tearing down misogyny, rape culture, and sex negative purity culture. And I care about these goals more than about my own sense of vindication. Yeah, you can take the easy route out and feel a sense of moral superiority when you call someone disgusting. But it's fake. You're not morally superior, because you've put your own desire to put another person down, above the well-being and safety of all the people who might be harassed by the same person in the future. The guy you called disgusting is just going to go on and harass more people, and you may even be facilitating it. It's a lazy response. And I refuse to do it.

And I will always keep encouraging people to think about this stuff and refuse to do it too.

[hijack711]

CHAPTER 4:

Tag(s): fluff, story building, daily life, wholesome moments

Another new day came, and the rays of sunlight gradually crept into every corner they could. Even though he wasn't bothered by the alarm, Rehn still woke up relatively early, stretched his arms to pick up the phone, and the time displayed was 05:50. Rehn himself was surprised by this. Looking to the side, Rehn smiled and stroked the hair of the girl he loved. Her lips were somewhat pursed for sleeping sideways, making Rehn always feel like she was a little child. Getting out of bed, Rehn pulled the blanket over Rosé before heading to the kitchen to conduct his morning ritual.

All 6 members of Unity loved the scent and bitter taste of coffee, and 3 of them had a certain level of passion for this drink, so on the long marble kitchen countertop placed several tools and machines for coffee making such as a moka pot, an espresso machine, a manual espresso maker, and Rehn's personal favorite, the phin filter, his homeland signature coffee brewing tool.

Rehn put the coffee in the filter and poured in a little bit of boiling water just enough for the coffee to bloom, expand, and set, then added another round of it. Feeling craving for a breakfast dish with eggs, Rehn decided to make scrambled eggs, served with tater tots made from last night's grated potatoes.

It was 6:50 a.m., and Rehn heard something coming from upstairs, where the door to the room at the end of the hallway opened and closed. Rehn immediately knew that Rosé was awake. Walking towards her boyfriend, Rosé instantly hugged him.

“Jesus Christ, don't bite me! Go over there and clean your mouth, babe.” - Rehn

“Okayyyy.” - Rosé dragged her feet lazily toward the sink

“I wonder what dish you would like to eat?” - Rehn

“A bowl of pho with a glass of iced milk coffee, honey.” - Rosé

“Sorry, babe. Remember? Drink less caffeinated drinks, babe, or I can make you a glass of fruit punch.” - Rehn

“Oh okay.” - Rosé

While waiting for her boyfriend to make breakfast, Rosé kept staring at Rehn with her eyes half open while sitting at the kitchen island.

“Don't stare at me like that, I can't concentrate, hahaha.” - Rehn burst out laughing when he heard Rosé said

“How did you know that? Oh, and the last few times too.” - Rosé

“Rosie, babe, it's been two months since we went on a date night, guess where I'll take you to eat tonight.” - Rehn

“Hmmm, is it the bulgogi restaurant where we took your parents to?” - Rosé

“Okay, it's decided, thank you.” - Rehn

“Huhhh? What was that? Confused unga.” - Rosé

“Learning from my own experience every time I ask you where to eat, I finally came to a conclusion that I'll just let you decide, it'll be quicker.” - Rehn

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About an hour later, Ivy and Damian arrived at the kitchen area.

“Seriously, do you intend to live here rent-free?” - Ivy

“You've only been here three days but you've almost demolished all the food in our refrigerator, Chaeyoung noona. Every damn time we suffer from food shortages, it is mainly because of you.” - Damian

“Why is everyone in this house so mean to me? Okay, if that's the case then I'll call your parents so they can lecture you again, honey." - Rosé

“Da fuq? They called you that and now I'm at fault. What in the f*cking logic is this?” - Rehn

“That's because you're the leader of the group and also considered the head of the family, so you better be prepared for your parents to give you another whoop in your pretty bum, honey. By the way, I do like your butt.” - Rosé winked

“Eww, gross, go show your feelings elsewhere, go back to your room.” - Ivy and Damian

A few minutes passed, and the four people's conversation gradually became more lively. Due to the loudness of the conversation, and the volume of the chat still showed no signs of decreasing, it woke up the remaining three members of Unity and they undeniably displayed signs of dissatisfaction.

“Why is it so noisy? I was having a great sleep!” - Sirene

“Oh, you're not leaving yet, unnie, why are you here for so long?” - Yuki

“Watch your mouth, you little shit … There, your coffee.” - Ivy

“Thank you.”- Baekgi

“So, what have you been talking about just now? I vaguely heard you guys say something about food.” - Sirene

“Well, I was going to invite my girls to come here for a feast or we could go to a restaurant this weekend, it's been a while since our two groups went out together.” - Rosé

“So noona, what are we going to eat?” - Baekgi

“It could be seafood or grilled food, I'm still wondering which one to choose.” - Rosé

“Or we can go eat yakitori, I know a place.” - Rehn

“Ah, I remember that restaurant.” - Ivy

“By the way, unnie, how was the checkup?” - Yuki

“It was good, the doctor just told me to pay attention to my diet and get more rest.” - Rosé

While Rosé was chatting with the four members of Unity, Rehn stood at the side and smiled, watching his girlfriend have fun and relaxing moments after a long period of tiring work, which was nothing good for Rosé's health, especially for her current physical and mental condition. Noticing that her younger brother was dumbfounded looking at someone she knew, Ivy nudged his shoulder slightly, she smiled proudly at Rehn.

“It was a bit risky, little brother, but you managed to pull it off, such a man you are.” - Ivy

“I just did everything I could, we didn't even plan for it, even if we did it would have been much later in our lives. Thank you for backing me up, sis!” - Rehn

“When you told me the news, I was so worried, but then I remembered that you spent most of your childhood in America with the guys from the hood, you even beat them at their own game, so I was relieved, glad that I was right.” - Ivy

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It was a quarter to eleven, a black coupé was speeding towards a designated place, the car took one last turn and then drove straight into the parking lot. The suicide doors opened and stepped out of the car were Rehn and Rosé. The two then held hands and walked into the elevator to go to Rosé's apartment which she shared with Lisa. Walking up to the door, Rosé had to do what she always found a bit annoying which was unlock it and it had two layers of security.

“Lisa, I brought food home.” - Rosé

“Oh, you're back. Ah, oppa, hiiii. You go girl, you have a boyfriend so there is no need to care about your sisters, right? Well, it is obvious when you are in love. Back then, she always said "Single life is so fun, it's just the four of us.", but now she mercilessly pushes us aside." - Lisa

“Honey, let's go, leave her be.” - Rosé

“No no no, I'm sorry, it was just a joke, did you have to take it the hard way.” - Lisa

“I've always been curious why you're always single but now I know, it seems like your communication skills are not on par with your dancing ones, Lisa.” - Rosé

“Ouch, sis, that's hurt. Oppa, did you hear what your girlfriend said? Being in a relationship with oppa, your sarcasm is getting better and better.” - Lisa

“Okay, stop teasing each other. No offense, Lily, you are good with your words, you have a sexy brain and a great sense of humor, but you often carry your jokes too far. You have your own beauty, Lily, just continue to nurture your beauty and improve what needs to be improved.” - Rehn

Because Rehn was in the kitchen and was busy arranging the food containers neatly, he didn't know that Lisa's eyes were wide open and surprised by what he said.

“Ah… uhmm… thank you oppa.” - Lisa shyly answered with a blush on her cheeks

“Awww, Hank, sweetie, are you doing good with Aunty Lisa? Come to mommy.” - Rosé

Upon hearing noises in his territory, Hank woke up and had a look around the apartment. Hank heard his mother call his name but decided to do a feint and rushed towards his dad.

“What the???” - Rosé

“Hahahaha, kekeke.” - Lisa and Rehn burst out laughing at the expression on Rosé's face

“Hank, you love your daddy more than me?” - Rosé was in disbelief

Suddenly the doorbell rang, attracting everyone's attention. Looking at the indoor monitor screen, Rosé saw that it was Jisoo so she quickly opened the door for her sister.

“Hi unnie.” - Rosé

“Oh, you're back, I thought you were still at oppa's place.” Jisoo

“Oh oppa, hiiiii, do you need any help?” Jisoo was in a great mood today and it was even better when she saw the jokester of Unity.

“Hi Chichi, ah, thank you but I'm okay. We brought you girls’ favorite dishes.” - Rehn

“Thanks, oppa!” - Jisoo

“Well, that's a bummer.” - Lisa

“What is it?” - Rosé

“Jennie just finished her pottery class but couldn't find a cab due to the traffic jam.” - Lisa

“Was it the pottery class you girls told us when our two groups went to the pizza place near it?” - Rehn

“Yeah yeah, that’s the one, oppa.” Lisa

“Honey, can you go pick her up? How long will it take, 20 minutes?” Rosé

“Are you underestimating my driving skills, you amateur?” - Rehn asked in a playful tone while doing the pointing pose of Jotaro

“Pfftttt, hahaha, what the heck, oppa?” The girls laughed

“Hahaha, stop fooling around, you comedian.” - Rosé

“Okay, I’ll be right back.” - Rehn

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Standing on the sidewalk watching countless vehicles jostling and competing to move forward, Jennie felt unlucky to have chosen today to go to the pottery class. KakaoTalk's notification bell rang, it was a message from Rosé telling Jennie that Rehn was on his way to pick her up. The displayed time showed that Rosé's message was sent 10 minutes ago. Before Jennie could reply, she heard someone calling.

“Yen-ah. Hop in.” - Rehn

Jennie did not respond but just smiled exposing her mandu cheeks and hopped in the car.

“Pfftt, heeheehee, oppa, what’s up with your hair? It's a mess.” - Jennie

“Well, apparently, Jisoo can handle the spiciness better than my jokes, and because of that, she gave me one hell of a smash.” - Rehn

“Hahahaha, wait, she “smashed” you?” - Jennie teasingly asked

“Yeah, ……, wait, no, not that kind of smash.” - Rehn tried to save his life after realizing what he just said

“Ohhh, someone doesn’t think before they talk, yet you dared to tell me to mind my words, hmmm.” - Jennie

“Ok, thanks for reminding me, and let me clarify, Jisoo only gave me a few blows to the head.” - Rehn

“Huhh? She gave you head? Hahahaha.” - Jennie

“Wait, fuck, NO, Kim fucking Jennie, you seem to love wordplay, huh? What got into you today?” - Rehn

“Hahahaha.” - Jennie

Rehn couldn’t help but laugh with Jennie at his own mistakes. The jokester was in disbelief that Jennie had given him a taste of his own medicine. Rehn wasn’t even mad but joyful at Jennie’s friendly retaliation, he was relieved that Jennie was back to her happy self after all the drama.

“You dare use my own spells against me, Potter?” Rehn

“Hahaha, and also, oppa, I know you have a good sense of fashion but THESE?!!” - Jennie

“You are specialized in roasted foods, right, because you are doing a very good job at roasting me.” - Rehn

I was kinda out of words to describe the sound of Jennie’s laugh at this point so the best I could come up with was Jennie laughed out loud and then wheezed as she started to slide out of her seat.

“Whoa whoa whoa, girl, get a hold of yourself.” - Rehn

“One thing for sure is you’re starting to adopt some of mine antics.” - Rehn

“I think I’m kinda becoming more like you, oppa.” - Jennie smilingly said

“Yeah, you’re becoming more like me.” - Rehn

The laughter of the two was gradually replaced by a pause of silence as Rehn needed to concentrate to weave through the traffic. Noticing that they were no longer caught in a traffic jam, Jennie asked.

“Oppa, are you free tonight?” - Jennie

“Oh, sorry Yen, Imma take Rosé out for a date tonight.” - Rehn

“Oh, you don’t have to be sorry, oppa. It’s just that our group is about to get back to work so I was kinda hoping to hang out with you … anddd your group.” - Jennie breathed a sigh of relief

“Well, no need to worry about that, we still have many opportunities, you just need to set the date.” - Rehn assured her

“Okay, oppa.” - Jennie

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Returning to the apartment she shared with Jisoo, Jennie left her belongings there and accompanied Rehn to the apartment of Lisa and Rosé which was right next to theirs.

"Hi, Girls." - Jennie

"Wow, that was fast, oppa." - Lisa

"Next time, when we need to order deliver, I'll call you, oppa" Jisoo

"Then I'll make sure to charge you triple." Rehn

“Honey, come, have some lunch. Jennie unnie, here’s the plate, come on, dig in, oppa made a lot. ” - Rosé

After the lunch ended, Lisa and Jisoo went to the room leaving a poor Jennie to clean the table while Rosé and Rehn had to wash the dishes. Jennie looked towards the two of them and then shifted her eyes to Rehn.

"Wish I could have more opportunities like you said, oppa." - Jennie thought to herself

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