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[thesweetestdevotion]

hi can i ask for a chart reading on choi san from ateez please 🤍🤍🤍

San Ateez Birth Chart Reading:

*fixed the birth chart with the time provided by a @hopelessrebel, Its now a 10:08 am day chart, so I'll analyze the chart through this new angle! (I'm using Hellenistic methods)

General Observations:

Ascendant is in Virgo 15°, within the bounds of Venus. This is a benefic placement as the ruler of the Asc, Leo Mercury 9° is also in the bounds of Venus. This benefic influence can give a pleasing appearance, good health and vitality. But it is also in the second decan of Virgo ruled by Saturn, tthus this gives him a serious and dedicated constitution. He is diligent, hard working, materially motivated, and inflexible in his pursuits. His chart ruler, Mercury, is in the 12th house. This is not an easy placement to have and the early life couldv'e been difficult. However it gives him a head start when it comes to his role in life. He is not egotistical and can allow himself to grow and change spiritually as he experieces life. This is a person who came to earth to develop themselves through the way they communicate with the world. Its not an easy process but it is beautiful in a sense. This is all happening in the realm of the mind and the inner world.

The Moon in Gemini is in the 10th house of career, public face, notorierty, and reputation. This is probably not the most comfortable place for his moon to be, since the moon prefers to be in a more private position. However it is within its own bounds, and in the first decan, all ruled by Mercury. This makes his Moon very strong, I see he has the capabilities and hardiness needed to be a very public facing figure. He's able to balance his emotions well, and is someone who probably doesn't feel uncomfortable whilst being vulnerable. He may also be perceived as deeply caring and nurturing, with an endless sense of curiosity. Youthful and if anything a bit detached and airy. This also means he is very well liked by the public, but there could be lack of boundaries in place in some ways. Very talented at being communicative and talkative in public, especially with all the Mercury influence benefiting him here.

His 9th and 11th house are interesting. In the 9th he has a friendly Saturn (in bound of Jupiter), who sits with Jupiter (in bound of Venus). Since he has a day chart, the malefic prescense of Saturn is diminished. This gives him good luck with 9th house themes and he has great luck from foreigners and can gain much material wealth from foreign dealings. His 11th house Sun in Cancer gives him great ability to get along with large amounts of people. He is energized by friendships and the public. An 11th house Sun person does not mind extending their energy and vitality with others, especially in Cancer which gives him a nurturing and caring nature.

Mars in the 3rd house of communication, and local spaces, and peers, gives him a lot of energy towards this. He has it in domicile Scorpio which is within its own bounds and decan. His connection with his hometown is strong, albeit a bit karmic because Mars is his strongest malefic. I think it is well maaged though, perhaps he had some setbacks in early life and then expanded away from them, through his success.

Observations of his Significant Aspects:

Mars Opposition Jupiter 0°00' Applying: Impulsivity, competitive streak, fast moving and insatiable hunger for success. A need to always be conquering some new goal or ambition. Can grant the person vitality and strength. They may be domineering and demanding in some ways

Venus Sextile Mars 3°10' Applying: Highly sensual and tactile, enjoys the pleaseures of life and can have a magnetic and attractive appearance. Well liked by both genders. Energetic and blessed with pleasing movement and artistic vigour.

Moon square Venus 6°29' Separating: Not a very significant aspect for him, but perhaps there is some conflict with romatic nature opposed to his emotional side. Perhaps his feelings are often at odds within romantic situations, could also be difficulty in relationships. Maybe prone to emotionally over-idetifying with his material wealth. Could be prone to witholding his posessions, or afraid of loss.

Sun Sextile Saturn 2°22' Separating: Gives good relations with male figures, the father, and authority. He is humble and hardworking, and able to apply his energy in a disciplined way.

Venus Trine Jupiter 3°10' Applying: luck with acquisition of wealth, children. Can reach a high rank and position in life, good aspect for harmonious relationships. Luck in marriage.

Thats all for now!! I totally messed up the first time (lol) but thanks to another user I was able to fix it so thank you to them! lmk if you have any questions. Its not a super in depth analysis, but I went over the most significant and sensitive points I could. Hope y'all like it! keep requesting these (but pls add the birth time data if you have it, it ca be hard to find and verify it if you're not fully familiar with the person)

xxx

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      silas  had  always  been  withdrawn;  his  first  words  a  faint  whisper  that  went  unheard  in  the  busy  life  of  his  (step-)mother.  he  always  felt  unheard  in  his  home,  so  he  stopped  trying  to  make  himself  heard  &  instead  remained  ..  with  himself.  brain  overstimulated  before  he  could  even  speak  properly,  he  found  that  it  couldn't  quite  keep  up,  but  not  for  a  lack  of  trying.  it  just  collided  with  his  nature.

  he'd  always  been  hard-working,  always  strove  for  perfection,  always  ...  tried  to  find  recognition  &  approval  in  the  eyes  of  his  parents.  he  failed.  of  course  he  did.  failure  was  the  red  string  of  fate  connecting  all  the  important  incidents  in  his  life.  he  failed  time  &  time  again,  only  to  pull  himself  back  up  ...  only  to  fail  again.

  be  it  back  home  with  him  failing  his  father's  lessons,  or  his  mother's  high  expectations,  tests  in  school  because  he  just  couldn't  concentrate  enough,  getting  suspended  from  school  for  picking  fights  both  with  teachers  &  other  kids...  up  to...  controlling  his  temper  in  the  army.  he  came  in  being  the  youngest,  all  on  his  own,  thin,  lanky  ...  weak.  an  easy  target.  his  comrades  teasing  -  as  they  called  it,  only  made  matters  worse  for  them  all,  because  when  silas  let  go  ...  nobody  was  to  be  spared.  he'd  fight  his  knuckled  bloody  &  no  matter  how  many  people  came  for  him...  he  would  not  bow. 

  silas  had  always  been  resilient.  no  matter  how  hard  life  struck  him  down,  no  matter  how  many  times  he  fell,  no  matter  how  often  he  lost  his  way  ...  he  didn't  give  up  &  got  back  up.  again....  &  again....  again.  like  a  phoenix  from  the  ashes.  unbroken,  unbound,  undone.  the  only  way  to  truly  stop  him  ...  was  death.  sweet  release.

  mistakes  &  dread  formed  the  shape  his  life  after  the  army  took.  he  had  it  all,  he  ..lost  it  all.  well,  a  lot  of  it.  he  always  had  the  fighting.  nothing  could  trump  the  pain  better  than  feeling  bones  break  underneath  his  fists,  blood  coating  his  wraps,  blood  under  his  fingernails  after  bestowed  an  indescribable  amount  of  ecstacy  upon  him.  he  didn't  fail.  at  least  not  ...anymore.

  the  first  years  had  been  a  constant  down.  down,  down,  down.  once  in  the  ring,  silas  just  lost  focus.  wild  jumping  never  got  him  anywhere  &  it  took  him  a  while  to  channel  his  anger  the  proper  way.  but  when  he  did?  he  didn't  fail.  age  might've  caught  up  with  him,  forced  him  out  of  the  ring  &  into  the  sidelines,  but  ...  silas  never  lost  his  love  for  it.  for  the  adrenaline,  the  pain,  the  pleasure  of  it  all. 

failure  is  not  defeat  ...until  you  stop  trying. 

isn't  it,  though?

  coming  to  camp,  he  thought  he  could  find  that  high  again,  thought  he  could  relish  in  what  he  loved  most  in  life.  fighting.  only  this  time  he'd  fight  for  a  reason.  right?  a  ...reason.  was  that  why  gabriel  died?  for  a  reason?  he  couldn't  see  it.  he  couldn't  see  why  these  kids  were  left  alone  in  their  development.  he  didn't  get  why  nobody  took  their  damn  hands  to  teach  them  how  to  stay  the  fuck  alive. 

  losing  one  of  their  own  was  always  wrong.

  they  failed.

  he  failed. 

  again.

  he  chose  this,  he  chose  to  take  the  risk,  but  did  he?  silas  was  old  enough  to  have  seen  the  world  in  its  cruel  beauty,  but  most  of  these  kids  had  yet  to  experiece  life.  they  all  came  here,  trauma  &  pain,  doubts  &  sadness  in  their  eyes  -  like  his  very  own,  but  they  were  too  quick.  too  reckless,  too  ...  easy.  too  determined  to  die  a  martyr's  death. 

  he  shouldn't  have  let  it  happened.  he  should've  tried  harder.

  he  failed. 

  his  entire  stay  in  camp  was  -  as  most  of  his  life,  riddled  by  failure.  did  he  have  good  moments?  he  sure  did.  but  did  they  make  up  for  the  bad  ones?  ...no.  he  went  down  time  &  time  again,  but  he  always  got  up  again.  like  a  phoenix.  others,  though...  weren't  as  lucky.  or  as  steadfast.  some  just  weren't  meant  to  endure. 

  &  that  was  okay.

  he  didn't  wish  his  ...talent  on  anybody.  he  didn't  wish  for  them  to  be  like  him.  he  thought  that  maybe  he  could  escape  his  fate,  that  if  he  just  trained  &  fought  hard  enough  he  could  ...not  fail.  when  he  returned  from  mount  atlas,  he  truly  thought  he  could  win.  he  thought  he  could  succeed.  he  thought  that  if  he  survived  that....  that  if  he  endured  that  without  breaking,  that  he  could  do  anything.  especially  after  almost  dying  during  the  invasion.  never  had  he  been  this  close  to  death.  had  he?  at  least  he  couldn't  remember.

  &  he'd  been  in  coma  after  a  fight  once.  but  never  once  had  he  been  presented  with  ...memories.  the  initial  fear  he  felt,  knowing  he  almost  died  had  sent  him  spiraling.  from  fear  overruling  everything  to  questioning  his  ...life.  all  of  it.  his  training,  his  routine,  everything  he  ever  did  suddenly  felt  ...worthless.  what  good  did  all  his  training  do  him?  what  good  did  do  to  hold  back?  he  didn't  drink,  he  didn't  indulge,  lived  a  healthy  life...  always  stuck  by  the  rules,  followed  them  down  to  the  last  footnote.

  what  good  did  that  get  him? 

  he  saw  those  kids,  half  his  age  -  if  even,  improve  &  get  stronger  every  day  while  he  ...  remained.  was  that  his  fate?  to  ...remain?  was  he  not  meant  for  greatness  like  the  others?  was  he  meant  to  be  here  even?  he  was  strong.  so  what?  what  good  did  that  do  him  against  fire,  ice,  arrows  &  death?  he  was  faster  than  most  of  them,  but  what  good  did  that  do  him  when  they  didn't  even  need  to  get  close  to  him?  when  they  could  riddle  the  ground  with  death  &  destruction  to  keep  him  away?

  thor's  son  came  raining  down  on  him  &  all  he  could  do  was  hold.  he  couldn't  even  kill  him  after  everything  he  endured.  silas  still  woke  up  in  the  nights  with  that  little  boy's  face  so  fresh  in  his  mind  it  felt  like  yesterday.  he  was  tired  of  failing,  tired  of  being  ....him.  tired  of  feeling  like  he  didn't  belong  &  not  because  he  had  to  watch  others  grow  closer  every  day  while  he  struggled  to  share  his  thoughts  on  a  good  day.  he  was  tired  of  being  ...mundane...  in  a  camp  of  special  kids  people.

  but  gabriel...  reminded  him  that  some  of  the  others  could  definitely  use  a  helping  hand.  some  needed  the  training,  some  needed  an  open  ear,  some  needed  ...  reassurance.  but  who  reassured  him?  he  could  be  the  steady  influence  in  some  of  the  godlings'  lives.  even  if  that  meant  he  put  himself  between  them  &  danger  in  fights.  he  didn't  have  much  else  to  give.  he  had...  nothing  else  to  offer.

  &  for  a  little  while  he  thought  it  was  going  to  be  okay.  that  maybe  if  he  upped  his  training,  more  intense  sessions,  more  sessions  ...  more  frequently,  getting  his  body  used  to  the  strain  of  pushing  it  to  its  limits  ...  that  maybe  he  could  make  a  difference  even  with  a  lack  of  talent.  effort  ...was  bound  to  go  a  long  way,  too,  right? 

  he  thought  it  may.  he  was  alive,  even  though  he  was  brought  to  his  knees  again.  he  felt  like  he  was  making  progress.  but  at  the  end  of  the  day  ...  it  was  the  same  thing  again.

  he  failed. 

  was  this  all  he  was  good  at?

  failing. 

  sethan  shouldn't  have  died.  sethan  didn't  deserve  death.  he  was  just  a  damn  kid.  silas  knew  he  should've  done  better,  he  should've  been  faster,  he  should've  fought  better.  but  he  didn't.  when  it  truly  mattered,  silas  wasn't  there.  he  wasn't  there  to  pick  him  up.  in  his  greatest  time  of  need  .....  silas  hadn't  been  there.  how...  does  one  live  with  that  guilt?  how  was  he  supposed  to  overcome  that?  how  was  he  supposed  to  move  on?  deep  down,  he'd  always  promised  himself  that  gabriel  ...  was  an  exception,  that  he  died  because  he  did  what  he  did  without  telling  them  &  that  if  they  just  stuck  together,  nobody  would  die.  that...  was  a  lie. 

  hecate's  son  died  in  battle.

  &  it  was  him  who  did  it.  he  thought  he  could  protect  him  if  he  just  killed  her,  thought  that  she  would  stop  lashing  out  at  them  if  he  just  ...  ended  it.  he  wasn't  good  at  anything  else...  killing  ...  was  all  he  had  to  give  to  camp  &  even  that  he  ...  could've  done  better.  right?  if  he'd  killed  her  faster,  sethan  might've  not  died.  maybe  he  would  still  be  with  them.

  he  failed. 

  after  his  excursion  to  mount  atlas  he  thought  he  could  do  anything,  he  thought  that  maybe  this  was  his  time  to  shine  now  &  he'd  felt  so  incredibly  good  during  that  fight,  adrenaline  had  taken  over,  the  joy  &  satisfaction  of  watching  the  sun  elf  struggle  ...  incomparable.  the  joy.  the  only  time  in  his  life  he  can  let  go.  fights.

  at  what  cost? 

  frustration  had  accompanied  him  through  life,  as  did  doubts  &  a  lack  of  self-worth  &  for  the  shortest  moment  after  being  told  the  truth  ...he  thought  he  may  be  able  to  leave  all  that  behind,  but  truth...  truth  always  catches  up  with  you.

how  did  he  end  up  in  the  same  downward  spiral  he  spent  his  childhood  in  when  he  thought  he'd  finally  escaped  before  coming  to  camp?  was  that  a  sign?  was  he  not  meant  to  be  here?  like  he  didn't  already  feel  lost  before  coming  to  camp.  the  feeling  only  amplified  here...  watching  others  hurl  thunder  &  lightning,  ice  or  fire,  reading  minds,  controlling  the  darkness...  or  light.  jealousy  was  not  a  good  look  on  him,  but  it  was  one  he  wore  for  longer  than  he  liked  to  admit  by  now. 

     silas  ...was  tired.  so  tired  of  feeling  weak,  so  tired  of  feeling  inadequate,  not  good  enough  -  too  weak,  too  old,  too  slow.  the  grey  in  his  hair  didn't  help.  the  comments,  the  grandpa's,  the  old  man's  meant  affectionately  ...  none  of  it  helped  silence  the  voices.

  could  he  outgrow  his  father's  stern  eyes,  or  the  disdain  he  found  whenever  he  met  the  eyes  of  his  mother?  or  the  silence  delivered  upon  him  by  his  biological  father.  how  much  time  did  he  even  have  left  for  that?  your  time's  running  out,  old  man.  how  much  time  did  he  have  left  to  make  amends  for  those  they  lost?  for  those  he  failed  to  protect?

  would  the  voices  ever  go  away? 

[buthappysoverrated]

Decided to post this so:

Okay so like I still don't think this episode function well as a season finale even though I LOVE it and I'm going to rip it apart to look for meta. Dennis experiece extreme emotions here, which he masks by anger and frustration, and is excellently excuted by Glenn. The setting is also just surreal and ridiculous enough that it's both not shocking that this is Dennis's daydream, and it fits the style of Sunny. It is, without a doubt, a very interesting episode and a fun ride. 

The thing is, even though this adds an incredible insight into Dennis's personality by showing us his coping mechanism, and it does explain a lotand builds up the character, it does not push the story *forwards* from the point of bowling. Sure, it's very important for Dennis's arc, but I still think it's more fundation level instead of a new development. It's kind of like when you learn probability first then later you learn the foundation of it and why it works like that in Integration, but if the whole thing just ends like this, it's extremely dissatisfying, and when you're expecting to see a storyline on TV, it's more upsetting than when you're sitting in a lecture hall knowing you're learning the reason and logistic of something you already know.

I'm not saying that there's no successful movies that are engaging to the general public that relies on showing the thing "before" what happens in the movie (the reasons of it, who kills the victim, or more literally, in stories like memento, what happens first); however, those stories needs to hook the audience's attention by convincing us that thing "before" is important ultimately the goal of the story. In contrast, in this season, indeed we see a Dennis much much calmer, but there's also loads of things going on and every character is acting a bit differently. I have never considered the reason of Dennis being calmer as the one top priority, even though I have to admit, I'd love to know it and now I love that I know. 

This season left us with lots of loose ends, which could be explained by they have at least 2 more to wrap it up, but it still makes this season a lot less self contained or satisfying at the end. Arguably Dee gets her ending by defeating the bowling mind game, but the reason why the gang keeps silence her remains untold. Other than her, every characters has something that needs to be explored more, but we doesn't see it here at all.

 Once again, my thoughts towards the episode is mostly positive, and there's no queerbaiting involved. Dennis gets really emotional and has his mental breakdowns. They promised us phenomenal acting from Glenn and they delievered. I just don't think it's suitable for a season finale and is reasonably upset about it.

[questionable-system-dreams]

Take this as a rant. It's supposed to be.

Syscourse is a swamp where reason and compassion go to die.

There are no sides or stances. Just a group of people willing to twist words to suit their fancy, and everyone else.

The pattern repeats at nearly regular intervals. It can be observed and catalogued like the mating rituals of some ancient, forgotten bird.

Always, language becomes a barrier. Almost always, the primary argument is an attempt to draw some imaginary boundary between what must be real and what can only be fiction.

Syscourse adds nothing to the community. More often than not, systems merely end up in its crosshairs because they dare to exist.

Conversation and discussion are tossed to the wayside. There's no room for multiple opinions, no space in which to explore the complexities and nuances of the human mind.

Syscourse is a world cast on a chess board and butchered beyond all recognition.

Here is an argument... follow it to its conclusion:

There is a disorder born of trauma during a critical time in a child's early development. It manifests in a dozen ways, and it can cripple someone's life. For many sufferers, its beginnings are horrific, and they have lived through hell itself to still be here today. This disorder sometimes creates varied personalities in a brain that might've otherwise been one.

From this perspective, those who are not disordered cannot possibly contain multitudes. No suffering and no trauma means no reason for the multitudes. End of story.

The logical conclusion then must be that everyone else is experiencing something different. They must because only one path leads to the end goal. And they, who do not tread the path, should not impinge upon the ways of those who have walked the scorched earth of their trauma. There is no common ground, no overlap.

I'm sure you can see where all of this fails to account for all the nuance that exists in the world. It does not accurately portray the lived experiences of actual human beings. It offers nothing to the community beyond more fences.

And there is where my rant begins in earnest.

Because in the throes of the story, human beings are ignored, lost, and forgotten. Experiences are ignored and disregarded. People are diminished for not adhering to the narrative. The complex is made simple, at cost.

It matters not that some claim no disorder. It refuses reality in favor of a some perfect truth. The messy human condition is reduced to a YES or NO question.

But plurality seems to be a complex web of experience. Some people come to it through trauma and disorder. Others through meditation, writing, creativity, and daydream. Still others find themselves living somewhere in the middle ground of it all. Some do not know and do not care, others know and choose not to speak. I cannot capture all the permutations, but when I listen to people, I hear them time and again.

And all of those experiences are valid and real, but not clear-cut, not easy to shove into little boxes.

And only one group is dead set on the damn boxes. Not a side, not an argument, just a group of people who have decided that a box must exist and only some will fall into its depths. Fuck everyone else.

And here the rant ends. As it must.

A manual for a disorder cannot guide those who are not disordered, though it might hint at how a thing comes to be. A lived experiece, no matter how strange, should take precedence. There should be no shame in the multitudes. Resources should be shared, not hidden away. No matter the starting point, solid mental health care should be available to all at no cost.

And in the end, we are better off building bridges even to that which we do not understand.

(I'm turning off notifications and not adding a sign-off because a fair few members of this system had a hand in this post.)

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finding out celebrities you used to/still look up to are also queer in some form is such a warming experience i love it

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THINGS THAT YOUR SIGN PROBABLY WANT TO SAY IT LOUDER ✨

Please take this post not-so-seriously!

Aries : "They say my personality make me wake up and choose violence. They are wrong, i choose a fucking nuclear war."

Taurus : "Whoever said money doesn't give you happiness is actually never know where the shopping center location is."

Gemini : "Nowadays, people couldn't tell the difference between me and the CD player. We are nearly thrown away by this capitalistic society."

Cancer : "Why can't we have 2 weekdays and 5 weekends instead?"

Leo : "I actually love the terms of being the main character in my own movie. But honey, my movie is a horror movie where i constanly being ghosted or scared by something unknown."

Virgo : "Fuck work from home. I am the homework itself."

Libra : "Please do understand that 3 AM me and 3 PM me are having very different standard of food, skincare, dating and even job."

Scorpio : "I access my entire potential intellectual ability when i'm drunk in wine like plato and socrates would ever be my devotee."

Sagittarius : "This pandemic has been keeping my lonely ass travelling to the lowest point of my life."

Capricorn : "I experieced tired like it's not temporary health condition but a trait of my personality which is developed as i grow older."

Aquarius : "Some people just look like a cloud, when they are gone, it's a beautiful day."

Pisces : "I don't think i'm emotionally stable enough to be emotionally available for anybody around me." *proceeds to drink wine instead*

[violentviolette]

Hey I hope your well, feel free not to answer this ask if you feel like it crosses any boundaries or anything but I saw some of your posts from September about ASPD and Impulse Control and I was wondering to what extent you can control your impulses have and ASPD because when I was a kid I definetly lashed out a people all of the time verbally but as I got older I was able to not do that but I'm like basically teetering on a ledge with not doing that like it requires so much effort it's exhausting and I'm still not always the best at it. I know that technically I am controling my impulses now but yeah. Anyways sorry if your not comfortable answering this ask. Bye !

no worries anon i dont mind answering questions like this at all so u can definitly learn to control ur impulses to a degree and still have aspd, i didnt mean to imply u have to lack all impulse control forever so apologies if that was unclear. impulse control is much more like a spectrum than a solid on/off switch so, all people lack impulse control when their born. babies and toddlers up to around 5-6 have very little to no impulse control because the frontal lobe which controls that hasnt grown yet, but as healthy children grow and are raised properly their brains grow and they gradually learn more and more impulse control and develop the ability to stop themselves from doing the first thing that pops into their brains. puberty sees a spike in lack of impulse control mostly because ur at an age where u have lots of freedom and agency and soso many hormones and emotions rolling around that u didnt before and are experiecing for the very first time so u see a spike of impulsivity in teens and then as u age that levels back out and most adults have very little problem controlling their impulses and it's mostly second nature. they barely think about it before deciding to move on

what makes something disordered and what determines what mental illness that disfunction falls under is where on that normal timeline someone deviates, why, and for how long so someone with aspd for example, instead of gradually developing more and more impulse control from 5 - 12 they would have very little if any growth in control, continuing to act impulsively and without thought well past when they should, then when they hit puberty, that normal spike is now a giant spike and they are engaging in extreamly dangerous behavior. where a healthy teenager might steal something here or there, try cigarettes and alcohol, or do some slightly risky sexual activity like giving ur bf a handjob in a parking lot, a teenager developing aspd might steal so much they get arrested, escalate to doing hard drugs like coke or heroin, engage in highly risky sexual behavior like unprotected sex with strangers, ect then, when healthy people leave puberty and their frontal lobes reach mature size and their hormones become more stable, impulse control becomes second nature. whereas someone with aspd would not experience that same natural growth. our frontal lobes become stunted and dysfunctional and thus controlling our impulses remains a very difficult thing we must actively work to conciously do everytime. we can and do learn control, but it is far below the normal healthy threshold and is much much more difficult for us and we have to expend a lot of concious energy in order to do so and that persists throughout our lives

[travelling-is-self-care]

Solo traveling for the first time

Sometimes, the people we usually travel with can't come with us and that's okay. Life gets in the way and we need to know how to manage traveling alone for the first time. It may seem uncomfortable or boring, but I gurantee you it's nothing like that.

Below you can find tips on activities for solo travelers, my own experiece and how to stay safe while traveling alone.

To be honest, my first time was filled with anxiety, but only at first. Anxiety turned to excitement really quick. I was anxious about the flight (I don't know why, as I flew many times before) and about what to do once I get there BUT I knew I was going to love this vacation.

I bought a 10€ two-way ticket from Bucharest to Genova in December 2021 from Wizz Air without even thinking. I didn't buy my seat and I left with just a backpack. I stayed in an apartment for 3 nights. The first day was lost as I arrived pretty late. The second day I traveled through the city, I went on a local's route to see their market and the surroundings as if I lived there my whole life. I visited a few museums, I drank a cappuccino and I admired the beauty that this city holds. On my third day things got interesting as I hopped on the train and went to Camogli (where the photo was taken), Recco and Genova Nervi. (I'll write a guide about Genova). I talked to stragers, relaxed on the beach (even though it was mid-december, I had a light tan), had breakfast and ate anything I wouldn't find back home. On my last day I had a flight back home at 8 AM, so I had to leave my apartment at 5 AM. Even though it was dark and walked around 15 minutes to get the Volabus to the airport, everything turned out to be quite alright. I was scared of being a foreigner in another country, even though I speak a little bit of italian. It's one thing to feel unsafe in your own country, speakig your language, but it is even more dangerous to be in a foreign country and people noticing that you are not from there.

What do I recommend for people to stay safe?

1. ALWAYS plan your route ahead of time, and never stray from the most popular ones.

That small alley that you heard is a shortcut? If people are using it, that's totally fine! But if you would be alone, try to see if it's really worth it. Usually shortcuts that are useful are densely populated.

2. If you are alone late at night or have to leave really early in the morning, I recommend trying to talk on the phone with someone.

It's less likely that someone will try anything if you are busy talking on the phone. Tested and approved.

3. Check reviews about the place you want to stay at before booking.

Even though that price may be tempting you to book, try to do some research. Is it in a nice neighbourhood? Did people have a good time there? Did any incidents occur? etc. People's opinion matters more than the price. Bonus: if there aren't any reviews, it's better not to go there. I know, support small businesses, but not when you are alone.

4. Never let your phone die.

I know that seems like common sense, but a lot of people simply forget to charge their phones. Carry an external battery with you just in case.

5. As a back-up, a paper map is useful.

Old-school style will never be old enough to not use a paper map while traveling. Just in case you can't respect no. 4 or something else happens. Plus, you'll look cool.

6. Never let your personal stuff unattended.

I saw a lot of tourists doing this mistake. Thieves are everywhere, and they developed such a skill that you can't even feel a thing if they are stealing from your pocket.

7. Always know the country's unique emergency number.

I know these tips may seem exaggerated but I learned the hard way that it's better to be safe than sorry, even though that means to be extra careful. That doesn't mean you can't enjoy your trip to the maximum. Just try to not be paranoid and simply admire the beautiful things around you, while paying attention to your surroundings.

Tips on what to do alone:

- treat yourself to a nice cafe or restaurant

- take the train to somewhere you consider a nice place close to the city (or further, you decide).

- attend a live concert. There are so many street artists, you won't even know where to go first!

- visit some museums. Theme? Whatever interests you or is your passion: aquatic, about aviation, trains, space, history, art. And the list goes on.

- if you went to the mountain, go hiking. It's such a nice activity. You can join a group, too!

- go to a social gathering and make friends. It's nothing more nice than to find other solo travelers and share experiences and cultures.

- go clubbing!

- try the country's most popular foods and recipes.

- join a walking tour

Whatever you choose to do, I wish you'll love your time there!

I hope you enjoyed this article and sometime in the future I'll do a follow up on safety tips and activities for solo travelers. Until then, have fun and enjoy the flight! ✈️

[soulsborne-pilled]

a lil thing, post Nagisa and Nakano, concerning recent asks about homusaya.

"Um, Madoka?"

"Hmm? What's wrong Homura-chan?"

"Nothing, nothing. Well- it's just..."

"Take your time Homura-chan. I'll let you borrow some of mine, wehehe~."

"*Snrk* Still not funny."

"Says you, I'm a comedian goddess!"

"Okay, you... Madoka...?"

"Mhmm?"

"Have you... ever thought about... children?"

"Children? ...Well, I think they're neat. I was a kid once and I think I think I was cool. I know you and Octavia-chan were cool too!"

"Er, that's not what I mean Madoka."

"Oh, were you thinking about how small and cuddly they can be? They're loud, too, sometimes, but they're nice enough."

"...You're going to-"

"Make you say it, yes Homura-chan. You know we've talked about this."

"...Yes, you're right. I'm sorry Madoka.

... I-I was thinking of- Having a child- a child that is the same like-"

"Breathe Homura-chan!"

" *Gasp*... I want to have a child with you, like Anthony."

"Like-like Anthony-kun? Y-You mean-"

"Obviously I would never allow you to sign a contract, regardless of the developments we found with Oktavia and Nagisa. But, if you would allow me and Oktavia to..."

"... Yes."

"Yes?!"

"Yeah. I love you Homura-chan, and you love me. I have faith and absolutely know that, we're the ones for each other. And Oktavia-chan is already family to me, we're practically sisters! I would love to raise a child with you, Homura-chan."

"I-Th-Thank you Madoka. I *sniff* This means... so much to me. I *sniff* After everything with Nagisa, and helping raise Anthony, I- I realized I wanted to... to-to *sob*"

"Shhh, shhh. I understand Homura-chan. I-I know how you feel too. Ever since Anthony came into our lives, I wanted something like that with you. I honestly thought about asking Oktavia-chan a long time ago."

"Mmm. Then, we-we'll ask her together. And ha-ve a family together."

"A family. Together."

"..."

"...I love you, Kaname Homura."

"I l-love you too, A-kemi Madoka."

"..."

"..."

"...hey, Homura?"

"Mhm?"

"If, if we have a boy, could we name him Sora?"

"Hmm... Sky... a small piece of heaven between us."

"Wehe~... and, if we have a girl... can we name her Hikari?"

"A light in this dark world... born from the dark we face... ironic, and a bit on the nose."

"Mmm Homura-chan!"

"Hehe, I love them Madoka. Whichever we have, we'll welcome them with open arms. And with plenty of love."

dont uh, take the names for DW canon, i just wanted to give th kid a name instead of Holger or Klarissa. enjoy th fluff as compensation for th Anthony Ficlet.

YEAH YOU OWE US THE FLUFF AFTER THAT EXPERIECE

[ukaiknowsbest]

Review: Tamayomi

[will contain spoilers]

Lately I have been pretty bored with the recent developments in Daiya no A and Oofuri. New Shonen anime stuff just don't appeal to me, so I bit the bullet and watched Tamayomi for at least one episode a day.

Like me, people would normally think "HOW TF ARE THEY GOING TO PLAY BASEBALL? AREN'T THEY WEARING SHORTS??? IS THIS JUST FANSERVICE?? OMYGOD"

But I did it. I watched the whole thing. 12 episodes.

And I enjoyed it.

THE SETUP/PLOT

pretty standard fare

Pitcher Yomi Takeda accidentally reunites with her childhood friend who's actually a nationals-level in middle school catcher when they both end up in the same highschool.

School: former powerhouse located in Saitama, now baseball club is almost non-existent. Yomi and a few other will try to revive the team from scratch.

Basically Shin Koshigaya is a brand new team where they struggle to look for new members and majority are first years.

They have to face other stronger teams even when they have a few members and some decent players.

Demographic is SEINEN (like oofuri, last inning, one outs, etc.)

CHARACTERS

Yomi Takeda as Main character and pitcher- skilled, resilient, funny, hardworking, does a lot of research which enabled her to perfect her form and hone her breaking ball. She keeps improving in a good pace too.

Tamaki Yamazaki former childhood friend of Yomi. Is a decent catcher in middle school. A bit well known. Good communicator.

Yoshino - team manager and coach. srsly she is a boss. She's not infallible but she tries her best.

and other decent players with adequate skill

For a sports anime they have decent cast. This is probably the closest we can currently get of a story where the girls are just focused on the sport, do their own strategizing/planning/training. All of them are cute but also serious about what they do.

There's no boys here so there's no talk about het-crushes and other distractions. It's a clamfest babyyyy.

I've seen a little of Major 2 (the one abt the son and his coed team) and I couldn't stand it because it was just slice of life in sportsy undertones.

There is also decent communication among all the players. It's pretty refreshing to watch. The catcher is well rounded and the pitcher is good. Everyone talk things out and there is not a lot of drama.

FANSERVICE

Wearing shorts to a sport that involves a lot of making contact with the ground is just illogical lmao.

Their school uniform skirt is pretty short

A little bit of their manager prodding the thighs of each person she meets but with good reason (she can tell how much muscle/exercise a person does just by a little prodding). It's a trope thing.

That's all. There are no panty shots, unnecessary locker room nudity, boob action, see through sweaty shirts. Most of the cringy things I've seen in other girls sports anime aren't present.

Eventually I even forget that they're wearing shorts or that it impedes their performance. It seems like it doesn't matter much to the characters so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I don't know if like the hugging or holding hands is considered fanservice. In my experiece we ladies just act like that irl. What they do is nothing out of the ordinary.

REALISM

3/5. They wear shorts and dont tie their hair up. The baseball part seem pretty decent though. The pacing of the story and matches was like watching IRL Koshien. It's all very clinical and straightforward.

Plus they include a lot of interesting baseball stuff which I haven't seen happen in early stages of other shonen anime like: specifically training the pitcher in other positions, showing what fielders yell to each other, letting other relievers start to reserve their ace (ppl can yell DnA did this but remember Tanba was injury boy throughout Act 1).

COMPARISON TO OTHER BASEBALL MANGA

based on technicality Tamayomi is prolly one of the top among baseball anime/manga I have seen.

Last Inning

Oofuri

Tamayomi

Daiya no A

Now don't chase me with pitchforks because of this ranking just yet. The fact that Shin Koshigaya coach's decisions and reasonings for plays and lineups are discussed makes the show at par with Last Inning and Oofuri. (we dont see DnA kataoka talk abt this sht like..ever)

Moreover Tamayomi has similar vibes to Oofuri/Big Windup but less dramatic. I do not think it's good for beginners too (especially with just 12 episodes). You need to have prior baseball knowledge to understand what the characters were doing.

However, this show is probably the most no-fuss baseball anime/manga I have watched. It does not rely on hype like DnA and it also don't have heavy topics like Oofuri and Last Inning. It's not wacky like One Outs and it's not uber slice of life like Cross Game. It's just baseball.

My minor complaint is that they don't give numbers when talking about things like pitching speed tho. It would've been more realistic if actual numbers were dropped XD

ART/ DESIGN/ANIMATION

A.k.a the thing most viewers complain about.

Character design is subpar. Everyone's faces are almost the same. You can tell who's the character not by face but by hair and height. Personally I don't mind this. I don't really look for realism in most things I watch. And I think the hair designs are cool.

Lots of people drop this show because of bad animation. There are shots/scenes where it's like I'm watching fanmade AMV's in nicovideo/youtube from the early 2000's. Pitching motions and Batting motions look like character movements in rpg games.

It's not really a problem for me though. I think it's charming for some reason. I don't mind it. A lot of people do but I'm not them.

CONCLUSION

NGL I wanted more. 12 episodes is too short. I hope a better animation company picks this up. I'm rewatching the whole thing because I enjoyed it a lot. I'll even check out the manga if I have time.

If anyone's interested here's my tamayomi livetweet thread

This is one of the closest thing I could get to what a decent girl sports anime looks like. If the character designs, art, animation and the uniforms were just better this show would have gone pretty far.

Compared to Shonen types of manga this was relaxing to watch, especially before bed. I'd honestly recommend it you wanna watch smth that doesnt involve a lot of feelings and drama but still feel like watching an actual sport.

Girls are fun. Finally.

[personal notes under the cut]

I get that people reading this would think I'm being too optimistic about a show they considered shtty but I kid you not, I dropped Bakuten (boys gymnastic's anime) coz even with it's wonderful animation i thought it was boring af.

I have dropped so many prettily animated shows coz i just cant get into the characters nor the story.

I've also said before in my Two Car review that I am actively avoiding shows with popular VA's. Idk much abt female VA's in anime, therefore watching Tamayomi was the perfect solution for me.

The reason I like tamayomi so much is that it gave me the same feeling of watching Summer Koshien 2021. I just think an anime that made me remember that kind of feeling was cool.

I'll rewatch hanebado next. wish me luck.

[zhuhongs]

ive been listening to a lot of videos by teachers about classroom management and how to teach art and how to just get little kids to listen bc ive been having a rough time these past few days keeping kids quiet and getting them engaged and ive realized like. how teaching rlly is a skill u need to hone and a lot of these issues i run into are bc of me and me not communicating my expectations to the students properly and its hard to do that and yea. like i need kinda go through this rough patch and try different things and be vigilant to get better but god is it hard and im rlly not all that sure i want to learn this skill but im here, at this job so i should be getting better because i can tell my second site director rlly does Not like me and the way u run my classroom and the other teachers dont either. and i qant to improve. i want to do better or try and yea. i think im gonna look around my university for some mentoring and some support bc this rlly isn't my field. im a political science major. ive never taken a child development course in my life. i dont know the rules and the dos and donts of the trade bc its not my trade yet here i am. and watching videos made by like. experieced tenured teachers or even observing some of my coworkers make me feel like theres just something they have that i don't have that makes the kids behave but ik its just practice and patience and god. its hard. its rlly hard. but i think i owe it to the kids to do better. i mean. they like me being unstructured and untrained bc they can do more but its not gonna do them any well in the long run and i need to figure it out or i will have a miserable few months.