#for context i am flaring rn

[bottle-of-newts]

I would gut someone for an Oreo rn

[healingvamp]

BTW MY MOM IS FINE SHES GOING FOR A KIDNEY STONE AND UTI!!!! I DIDNT SPECIFY

[angelgendered]

my foot has suddenly gone partially numb and like... i should be more concerned than i am i think but i'll just throw it on the symptom pile and hope i don't die lmao

[cadaverre]

⋆⁺｡˚⋆˙‧₊☾ welcome ☽₊‧˙⋆˚｡⁺⋆

about me

you can call me juno or astraea

im a cancer sun, libra moon and sagittarius rising

my pronouns are they/she (and my pronoun page is here)

i'm a proud bisexual (i am very sapphic lol)

im taken (you can hear about my love via the “them tag <33")

i am a minor (i won't immediately block people 18+ but if you're creepy i will <3)

australian!! also a bunch of different places, none really interesting

this blog is for me to dump thoughts, interact with people and just have a good time :)

i play the drums and im currently in two bands! i also love playing guitar and one of my 2024 goals is to get better at playing!!

currently listening -> 🍁☕️🎸 nyc

currently reading -> the odyssey translated by emily wilson

currently watching -> doctor who and rewatching gilmore girls

things i like

i love: literature, the arts, queer culture, astronomy, feminism (no terfs allowed!!!!), fruit flavoured drinks, flared pants, converse, dark red, nail polish, eyeliner, burgundy lipgloss, tank tops, tote bags, brie (always dreaming of cheese), pinterest, spotify, my headphones, the ocean, my grandparents house (im there rn i love it), spring+winter, very specific shades of pink and green, black <3, folklore and 1989 girl, fiddling around on the guitar, fantasising about being a famous musician, finding new music, snow, picking silly little outfits,

books: osemanverse, the hunger games, books by rhiannon wilde, tim te maro's subterranean heartsick blues, all the best liars, books by octavia butler (specifically parable of the sower and parable of the talents), the last true poets of the sea, acotar, the weight of the stars, the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, the picture of dorian grey, house of hollow, howls moving castle, harry potter (mainly marauders, FUCK JKR), i kissed shara wheeler, red white and royal blue, song of achilles

movies + tv shows: dont look up, little women (2019), scream (i like most of them but 1996 is my fav by far), ladybird, barbie (2023), some of the mcu (thor and guardians of the galaxy <33), spiderverse (itsv is my love), gilmore girls, stranger things, loki, heartstopper, arcane, scott pilgrim takes off, she ra

musicians/bands: boygenius, taylor swift, lovejoy, glaive, brakence, paramore, ricky jamaraz, melanie martinez, lana del rey, ashnikko, girl in red, billie eilish, doja cat, big thief, adrienne lenker, ethel cain, mitski, remi wolf, cigarettes after sex, ericdoa, tv girl, clairo, the neighbourhood, bon iver, deftones (getting into them just a little), maneskin, courtney barnett, poppy

my favourite colours are black, dark red, burgundy, denim blue, sage green, soft pink, glaucous blue, golden yellow (i love colour theory so all colours are beautiful in their own context but here are my favs to wear/see)

i really want to get into more poetry so if you have any recs lmk!!

i have recently begun practising some very simple witchcraft, so feel free to talk to me about that and i would love to learn more!!

i love learning about astrology and use my birth chart frequently

i write very, very infrequently and think of more stories than i even start to plot lmao.

i draw way more than i write and will occasionally post some!! its not good by any means but its fun ig

talk to me + dni

my asks and dms are open!! feel free to talk to me about anything and everything!! i love talking!!

i love my mutuals so much so if ur my mutual *looks you dead in your eyes* i love you

my discord is the same @ as here, i literally just got it today so idrk how it works but feel free to add me there <33 but please lmk if you do if your username is different

if we’re very close you can ask for my insta!!

i rarely follow people without an intro post/descriptive enough bio (with name, age group, pronouns) so if you want to be mutuals please have one!! if not just shoot me an ask about who you are and what you like so we can be friends <33

dni: rude, racist, homophobic, transphobic, zionist, terfs, sexist, ableist, antisemitic people

tags

#juno.txt -> ramblings, original posts

#asks -> asks ive answered

#ask bait -> hehehe send me asks <3

#tag games -> tag games ive participated in

#beautiful mutuals -> interactions with my beautiful mutuals!

#spotify -> my music obsession dw im fine fhdklfhdal

#them tag <33 -> posts that remind me of my wonderful bf <3

links + sideblogs

spotify

pinterest

@likeasugarcubeinateacup -> my notes app poetry

@slowrotburiedinthepark -> a random sideblog i post art and occasional web weaving on

@stabbingstarsthroughmyback -> my writing sideblog (ask me about my wip!!)

stunning dividers by @chachachannah :))

here is a totally beautiful and amazing moodboard by @svnflowermoon that always makes me so fhadkfhakd

last updated: jan 19th 2024

[tsams-and-laes-quotes]

Please make sure to read this before anything else!!

This is just a silly idea I had and decided to go through with it. This blog is ran by @artoutoftheblue and is just a quote wall for tsams/laes quotes out of context. The episodes the quotes came from will be linked in the posts

•Follower Count: 124

[Posts are queued 9:00 AM - 6:00 PM CST daily. Posts every hour. Right now ModViolet is trying to get them to the point where this will be a steady blog]

Also heres a post that we're using to help catch up on these

And heres a link to the SAMS soundtrack by the same person in case you wanna listen to that too!

Submissions are allowed as well in case I missed any, just make sure that they're formatted the same way I do them! Including linking the episode the quote came from!

Quotes gathered from these silly channels here:

The Sun and Moon Show

Lunar and Earth Show

The Eclipse and Puppet Show

Character colors:

-Sun

-Moon

-Eclipse

-Lunar

-Bloodmoon

-Monty

-Earth

-Solar

-Ruin

-Killcode

-Castor

-Pollux

-Solar Flare

-Jack

(Other characters might get quoted as well)

TSAMS Quotes Only

LAES Quotes Only

MGAFS Quotes Only

All Quotes

Attempting to catch up on the episodes rn! Once I'm done with that, itll just be regular posting

ModBlue is currently on break. The current mod is ModViolet

[express-archives]

New OC, new questions! (This one will be short since im tired and its very late rn)

1. Is Ophelia’s name based on Hamlet?

2. Was Ophelia’s “mercy” is the “destroy everyone so they dont need to suffer in what we call life” kind?

3. What are Artemis’s thoughts on her?

- 🐱 Anon

YEAHHH hello beloveddddd 🤭

it's not but honestly that idea kind of slays so we can just pretend it is LMAO... i almost wish i had considered that. usually, when i name my characters, it is rarely in reference to another pre-existing character or figure (exceptions are my ocs like artemis and hestia, who are directly named after deities). usually when i name ocs it's more about the associations that their name itself has (e.g., ambrosia being the root from which ambrose's name comes from. it's actually kind of fucked up because i'm thinking of killing ambrose at the end of their story and uhhhh.... i think we can use context clues to figure out what happens to them... 🤭). Anyways this is all to say my oc naming process isn't that intricate sometimes HAHAHAH however i do really really like the idea of ophelia's name being a reference to ophelia in hamlet. it actually kind of fits her story, so i might actually make it so that it is a reference to hamlet ophelia!

somewhat. her mercy is a blend of destruction to spare mortals further suffering, destruction to spare other beings of the universe suffering at humanity's hand (uhhhh something something humans always destroy that which they touch.. uhhh reference to how we are destroying the earth. Yeah), and destruction for funsies. ophelia has suffered and has delivered suffering and honestly she thinks it's fun in a weird, fucked up way. like all lord ravagers, ophelia is deeply obsessed with destruction and sees an odd sort of beauty in it. the first world she destroyed was her own—to spare her people further suffering, to spare herself further suffering at their hands, and because it's what those inherently disgusting, vile people deserved (in her eyes).

ah! well. artemis and ophelia do not get along. they clash very intensely every time they meet (if ophelia was still an emanator of the destruction, artemis would actually lose to her in a fight, but that doesn't stop her from telling ophelia how she would 🏹🏹🏹🏹 her if ambrose was not so fond of her). ambrose generally does not take ophelia with them when they go to meet artemis because of how poorly the two get along. those two make one another insane. artemis has had her mara flare up just because of how insanely furious ophelia's nasty little smirks make her. ophelia's like "wow so your homeworld was a victim of the old lady phantylia's? that's crazy lmao" and artemis is like "I Am Going To Kill You."

[cookinguptales]

You deserve so much better, and I'm sorry people have treated you this way for any reason. It's especially ridiculous in the context of "differing opinions about the quality of a show/season finale/creative choices," but you absolutely should not have gotten any of these comments for any reason. I love reading your work and your thoughts, but I fully understand if you don't want to share any of that again. There are things I have never posted and likely never will, entire creations that I'm never going to share, due to this exact phenomenon. Online creations, from meta to fic to everything else, are a delight and a privilege, not a given that anyone's entitled to.

You deserve better, and you have the right to share as much or little as you want. Please do what's best for you.

Thank you. This is really kind, and I appreciate it.

Honestly... like, I keep trying to not make a big deal out of this, but it feels so shitty. I know that right now I'm flaring and that makes everything seem worse than it is, but I can't tell you how demoralizing it felt to be unable to eat anything for like 24 hours, then actively pushing my dislocated fingers back into joint and looking on my phone and seeing a paragraph about what a fucking idiot I am. I just wanted to straight-up cry. This is the first time I've ever turned off anon asks, and I've gotten some real doozies over the years.

At first I felt better when I realized it was fewer people than I thought who were angry with me, but I think it's finally sinking in that there were people who hated me so much that they sent me messages for months. I don't get it! Like... I don't think I'm a particularly awful person. Not perfect, to be sure, but I try to be as nice and patient as I can be online. What the heck is so bad about me that I inspire people to follow me around for months?

It feels bad, okay! I'll admit it, it feels bad. I know we're supposed to act like we're above getting our feelings hurt by trolls online, but all this feels weird and bad. I don't like it.

I know that I'm going to keep posting my thoughts again eventually; I think I'm probably physically incapable of shutting up. My thoughts just bounce around in there driving me nuts if I don't get them out. I keep telling myself that there's a significant amount of people who do like me and do like my work and don't feel the need to send me mean comments, I reiterate, for fucking months. Sometimes that does make me feel better, and so did this ask.

idk. I'm just feeling very tired rn. Sorry to be so whiny but I'm just. Really tired. I don't know. I wish I could keep food down. I'm sure that would help my mood. But there's a lot of things I wish, I guess, and all I can really do is curl up with this heating pad and watch people build houses or something.

(...I find watching things getting built to be very soothing. lmao)

Anyway, kind of sucks when your comfort show that you usually turn to when you're stressed is one of the sources of your stress! :')

[storybookprincess]

don’t really have the wherewithal to articulate myself well rn but for context, i’ve spent most of the past 3 days bedridden with a chronic illness flare up. everything has felt overwhelming & insurmountable & meaningless. getting up to get a glass of water can take a solid half hour of summoning my strength. i haven’t been physically able to wash my hair in a full week

and it might seem trivial in comparison, but this lil podfic adventure this evening has lifted my spirits so much. things don’t feel meaningless anymore. so much of writing fanfic is sitting alone in your bedroom & pouring love into fandom for YEARS & every once in a while you get a sign that, hey, fandom loves you back

these sorts of interactions are such an effective weapon against the darkness that is “i am powerless. nothing i do matters. i spend too much time ill to contribute anything of meaning. there’s no point to any of this.” it’s compelling evidence that, to paraphrase the mountain goats, the things you do for love are in fact going to come back to you one by one

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Hii!I just had a question,what do you think about the “drama” that’s happening rn with the dorm uniforms of diasnomia?(I only heard that it happened because of a mistranslation of an interview with yana toboso)

Firstly, I would caution against labeling the ordeal as “drama”, “discourse”, “tea”, “cancellation”, etc., as I feel that kind of phrasing detracts from the seriousness of the allegations. Words have certain connotations that carry over to their meaning (something that is very relevant to the ongoing discussion), so please keep that in mind!

Secondly, I want to put a disclaimer that I’m NOT speaking as someone who has personally experienced the horrors of war, and nor am I an expert in world history, fashion, or Japanese. I am only speaking from the viewpoint of a TWST fan. In sharing my thoughts and opinions, I only hope that it can lend some nuance to the situation, as it is NOT as clear cut as many are making it out to be.

Now, regarding the meat of the matter. I realize that the topics I will discuss are sensitive ones, and as such, I will be placing it under the cut.

Please proceed with caution, as I WILL be discussing war, Nazi imagery, suicide, and other triggering subjects.

For those who may not be up to speed on what’s happening: in early May 2022, a fan translator posted their English version of an interview Yana Toboso (TWST’s character designer) did in 2020. (Tumblr post of TL here, Reddit post of TL here!) Yana used the term “親衛隊” to refer to her design inspiration for Diasomnia, which the fan translator translated as “SS uniforms”. In truth, “親衛隊” more commonly refers to personal bodyguards, elite guards, and/or intelligence agents, and only refers to Nazis when the context of the conversation does. Colloquially, the term is also used to refer to groupies. Please also note that the phrase “親衛隊” was in use in Japan prior to WWII, so it does not strictly refer to Nazis. A different term entirely is added to “親衛隊” when specifically discussing Nazis (“ナ/チ/ス”). I must also point out that in later parts of the same interview, Yana makes reference to “rider style jackets” and “jockey pants” (as in, horseriding/equestrian fashion) as part of her inspiration, so the uniform does not wholly pull design elements only from Nazi fashion. The flared pants may resemble SS uniform fashion, but they are also an element associated with equestrian wear (which, yes, did exist before SS uniforms did).

OP has since clarified their translation with a disclaimer about their word choice and apologized for the confusion. However, others in the fandom have taken the initial translation for fact and have been circulating assumptions and speculation that Yana had malicious intent and purposefully designed Diasomnia’s uniforms based on SS ones and/or that Yana herself supports Nazi ideals. There are those that renounce Diasomnia altogether for their clothes resembling SS uniforms, even if they are aware the interview’s original phrasing does not specifically indicate Nazis. Others are uncomfortable just knowing that the translated phrase can lean into the Nazi interpretation.

First thing’s first: it’s okay to feel uncomfortable or if you take offense to the situation, no matter where you stand on the matter. It’s not unusual to feel discomfort or cognitive dissonance when suddenly there’s word that an entire group of characters from a game that you enjoy so much may be associated with the countless atrocities committed by the Nazis. Whether you believe the idea or not, the mere suggestion can trigger intense emotions, and those feelings are valid. You should be able to express those thoughts (so long as you’re not hurting or threatening to hurt anyone 💦).

Personally, I believe that Yana meant “personal bodyguard” and not the “SS” in the interview. This makes the most sense to me, given how the other interpretations make more sense in context. Diasomnia is full of Malleus groupies. Diasomnia has two members of Equestrian Club. Diasomnia is notable for having 3/4 of its named characters being devoted elite guards to the dorm leader. Meanwhile there is very little to suggest Naziam specifically, and I doubt that Disney (who is notoriously strict about its IPs and “clean” image) would allow Yana to PUBLICLY state that she based a dormitory’s uniform off of such a heinous group’s clothing. I realize that not everyone will agree with my take. That does not detract from the reality that Diasomnia’s uniform does, indeed, resemble military fashion, whether Nazi or not. There are many elements of the dorm uniform that borrow from military uniforms from various countries and eras (for more information on military fashion, I recommend this post!). I would also like to add that military uniforms were, historically, purposefully designed to be “fashionable” and appealing, typically to better convince the public that their country was in “the right” for going to war and to promote a sense of national unity. There’s no way for me to sugarcoat this: no country is blameless; every military kills people and commits atrocities. There will always be some kind of a negative association with the military, which can be considered a detriment to Diasomnia’s dorm clothing design (whether intentionally or unintentionally designed to invoke that imagery). This is not to downplay the large scale of atrocities the Nazis committed; I’m pointing out that the Diasomnia uniforms do not resemble Nazi uniforms specifically and that regardless of what military uniform it resembles, the clothing will always be associated with something negative.

Regarding the terminology used, I want to say that language is not an absolute. Many words in one language won’t cleanly translate into another. If I had to liken what happened with the mistranslation to something, it’s similar to how some words can have a normal meaning but also a vulgar meaning in colloquial language/slang. Of course, this doesn’t have the same amount of historical weight or damage that the Nazis carried out; I’m only using this as an example of how flexible language can be. When a phrase or word can have multiple meanings, I don’t think it’s wise to immediately assume the worst possible meaning IS the “correct” one, or to accept the first translation we come across as the gospel truth.

Concerning Yana: we should not make assumptions in such broad strokes about another person based on what they create. Sure, maybe you may not like her or elements of her work, but it would be inappropriate to assume her character is bad or that she has bad intentions because there are similarities between one design and Nazi designs. Furthermore, people are capable of creating things for reasons other than “I support this”. They may want to call light to something or critically discuss it in a way that isn’t possible in real life. This is true of much of literature, from the classics to contemporaries, fiction to nonfiction.

Depicting insensitive things in media becomes a major issue when “bad” things are glorified or treated like they are “good”. The presence of a “bad” thing in of itself does not necessarily make the entire work “evil”. For example, I’ve seen some people argue that Sebek’s racist behavior (the pro-fairy, anti-human stuff) is “proof” that Yana supports Nazism. However, NEVER in Twisted Wonderland has Sebek’s bigotry been depicted as something to be praised; it’s often played for comedy (where Sebek is the joke or the clown to be made fun of) or it alienates Sebek from his peers. Sometimes other characters (or even other Diasomnia students) call Sebek out for acting the way that he does, which demonstrates disapproval of said behavior. Even Diasomnia mob students are not described as being particularly “good”, but as arrogant assholes that bully kids (see: Ortho dorm vignettes).

Now, while that brand of bigotry is not glorified or raised as the ideal in TWST, that’s NOT to say that Disney/Yana has not tripped up in the past or that they won’t ever trip up in the future. TWST still very much has its issues (which I won’t get into now, because that would make this post even longer), but we, as the audience, are capable of being critical of a work and critiquing it while still consuming it.

I’m glad that we’re having this discussion because it shows that the fandom cares about what it consumes and wants TWST to be the best that it can be, but we shouldn’t make this situation so black and white and/or send awful things to the opposing side. As I’ve mentioned earlier in this post, there is much more to consider in this, and I would highly encourage everyone to do their own research into this matter (NOT just a quick Google search or running with unverified sources) before forming an opinion or jumping to a gut reaction. I would also suggest looking into other translations of the same interview to see how other fan translators (especially native Japanese speakers) interpret Yana’s words (here’s one to get you started). We must keep in mind that language is not so easy as a “direct translation” and that many words and phrases have nuances that don’t translate well into other languages; seeking out multiple translations may give us a more accurate view of the original intent.

What’s important here is that we understand context, don’t jump to conclusions, and respond accordingly (do research, get informed, ask for other opinions, design alternate uniforms, think critically, consider context, speak mindfully about the matter, ask for change, etc). It does NOT mean you can send death threats or “KYS” messages to Yana, TWST devs, anyone involved in the project, or people that doesn’t share the same opinion as you. It does NOT mean you should assume the people defending Diasomnia’s dorm uniform are Nazi sympathizers or imperialists. It does NOT mean you should dismiss any and all comments from the people that are genuinely concerned or denounce them as mere "clout chasers"; their feelings are just as valid as yours are, even if you disagree on this matter.

That is another human being you are talking with. I want to emphasize talking WITH, not talking TO; there IS a difference, because “with” implies you’re open to to discussion, whereas “to” implies only dispensing your words and not wanting or expecting a response to what you said.

You can be upset and you can express your thoughts on this matter WITHOUT wishing harm upon other people and WITHOUT being nasty or assuming the worst of others.

[therideisfarfromover]

Right, I'm dropping some HSMTMTS opinions, because honestly, looking through the tag, I feel like i'm watching a different show to some of you???

For context, I have loved Rina since 1x05, but I also properly hopped on the Portwell bandwagon in s2, and genuinely enjoy both ships as written. In fact, other than Ricky/Lily, there are v few canon relationships on this show that I haven't enjoyed at some point.

Anyway, a few thoughts on the love triangle that I may get shot for, but oh well.

1) Gina is not emotionally cheating on EJ. Like yeah, her and Ricky have got their friendship back, and the nature of their friendship can come across as flirty, but Gina rn is fully invested in her relationship with EJ. Her and Ricky being close (especially given he was her first friend in Salt Lake) isn't a crime. Even in WDYKAL, she is fully in character to piss off EJ. She is not suddenly over EJ and back into Ricky.

2) Ricky is not trying to get in the way of Portwell. Yeah, he was being a bit of a dick with that comment about EJ stealing Gina because we all know that's not true. But other than that, he has respected their relationship. He had no intentions of telling Gina that these feelings have resurfaced for him, evident from the fact he swears Carlos to secrecy and is devastated when Channing catches it on camera. And he also makes a point of asking "did it show?", demonstrating that he is trying to keep his feelings under wraps. He allowed Gina to talk about EJ without getting defensive, he even answered EJ's question of why Gina was mad at him without a sarcastic comment. Saying Ricky is purposely getting in the way of PW is character assassination for no good reason. The boy has feelings, yeah, but he hasn't acted on them and the narrative has shown nothing to suggest he would while Gina is with EJ.

3) EJ is being a bit of a tool this season, but honestly, I don't think this is the wasted character development y'all think it is. I don't know about all of your own lives, but something I've found in mine is that growth is very rarely linear. Yes, EJ learnt and grew a lot in s2, and there are times it feels he has forgotten that in s3. But also, he is an incredible stressed 18 year old: flaring up in the form of your former self isn't bad writing, that's just what happens when you're a kid going through shit. I am not worried about what they're doing with EJ at all, and I think by the end of the season, he will have developed in a way that is in line with what the writers did for him last season.

4) I completely agree that they should have slowed their horses when it came to reintroducing the triangle dynamic. Especially because it does feel like PW only got a few eps without drama. But also, this is a teen drama, that's kind of how it works? Also, based on the current writing (and I know I'm in the minority here), I genuinely still think PW will be together at the end of this season. Or at the v least, they won't break up until right at the end, and it won't have anything to do with Ricky.

5) I genuinely don't think the Rina storyline is fan service. Maybe WDYKAL was a *little* bit but I loved every second so I'm not complaining. Tim has said right from the start that Rina was born out of them seeing Josh and Sofia's chemistry in 1x05, and the team feeling that they needed to write towards that. And so they did. Similarly, I feel that the PW stuff in season 2 was so great because it felt that the writers saw something v natural between these characters, and just wrote towards it in a way that felt organic with the story. Given how much of a mess 2b was, I still think Portwell is one of the best written parts of it. However , in s2, there was only closure for Rina on Gina's side, so to say it was a 'done storyline' when we've actually never seen Ricky's POV, isn't fair either? Like idk, there are plenty of things I would have done differently when it comes to the love triangle, but also I don't think that any of their dynamic this season has felt out of pocket, like it all seems to follow the tone and prev writing?

Anyway, long controversial venting over. Please don't come for me xoxo

[multi-lefaiye]

💬💬💬 and pen for eden!!!!!

yes thank u <3 heheeeee

okay so the first excerpt is gonna be from one of my flash fiction friday entries, a tftgs fic specifically:

For much of his life, Jack has felt like a used battery. He feels like an old, broken thing, low on energy and with very little left to give. He supposes it was only a matter of time before someone decided to throw him out.

and thiiis is from an older thing i wrote that i might go back to at some point?? not sure though. not gonna give context for now tho <3 (if you recognize the characters. don't look me in the eye rn i know this is self-indulgent):

“Did you just shoot someone!?” Saeyoung cried, still clearly panicking.

“I don’t know, maybe?” Addison replied, trying to drag him along as they tried to avoid looking in the direction they'd just fired. “Just get in the car, asshole!”

“Sorry, I kind of have a bullet in me right now!” he protested, but still did his best to get to his feet. “I told you to stay in the car!”

“Have your goddamn lovers’ quarrel later!” Vanderwood yelled at them over the sound of gunfire raining down on them all.

and theeen this is for another slightly older thing, but i like the comedy here :3

For a moment, Henry just stared at the unconscious man on his living room floor. Then he asked the question that was nagging at the back of his mind. “Why the fuck is he naked?”

AND a little Eden conversation!!! I'm gonna talk a bit about something I haven't talked about publicly in much detail: Eden's chronic pain and fatigue. I haven't talked about it in Great detail because I'm still trying to research n' such to make sure that my portrayal is as faithful and respectful as I can make it.

I won't go into how it's going to come into play story-wise in the campaign, nor the mechanics and accommodations and such planned for this, but I'll talk a bit about it! Under the cut though b/c this might be a bit long.

So Eden's mother, Hannah, dealt with chronic illness for most of her life. In the campaign, it's kind of an ambiguous illness because she wouldn't have had access to modern terminology (or even really a specific diagnosis in general, considering the healthcare available where she lived), but I think the closest to what she has would be fibromyalgia, which is what I'm focusing my research on for Eden.

(And also, if I do go ahead and write a standalone story/WIP with Eden outside of the campaign, this will be discussed and explored in greater detail since the focus would be on him specifically a bit more.)

The research I've done so far does say that fibromyalgia isn't always necessarily passed directly from parent to child, but I'm thinking it's still something that Eden has, and after his death and resurrection his symptoms start to flare up in a way they wouldn't have beforehand.

Like I said, I am still doing research into this because I want to give the most earnest, respectful portrayal I can, but I do still have some thoughts about Eden's personal experiences with it and how he processes it. Because Eden's thought process is my favorite thing to explore.

So Eden approaches everything in his life from a very analytical perspective, so once he registers that his symptoms aren't normal he immediately goes into analysis mode and tries to determine, to an incredibly exact degree, what his limits are. He's a scientist at heart, and his response to every situation is to experiment and learn everything he can.

This will have... mixed results for him. On one hand, over time, Eden will come to understand his condition very well, even without necessarily having access to a specific diagnosis in the campaign itself. On the other hand, it also means that Eden is going to push himself a TON and possibly seriously hurt himself trying to see how far he can go before he has issues.

I'm still looking into specific accommodations Eden could have as time goes on, but I'm definitely thinking mobility aids would be very useful for him--particularly forearm support crutches, if possible.

And last thing I do wanna say. While it might be easy to assume that, all things considered, Eden would be very against the idea of using mobility aids b/c he's just so stubborn.... that's not the case! Eden is a stubborn li'l asshole, but once he understands his limits better I do think he would want mobility aids and would actively seek them out.

Aaanyway okay I still have a lot of research n' such to be doing, but that's some of my thoughts so far!!! Thanks for coming to my ted talk

[symptoms-syndrome]

Side note I would love to start an accessible wellness/fitness type blog if not for me being extremely soured on the larger online chronic illness/disability/spoonie community for like. A long list of reasons.

So I guess if ur curious or want help w fitness/wellness/yoga/etc within the context of disability/limited mobility/etc (or even like, ADHD or whatever) u can totally ask and I can try and help.

I'm hypermobile (not EDS,) and have chronic pain/fatigue, and I've had the experience of being a wheelchair user/bedbound though that's mostly under control now and only happens w flares and/or overexerting myself.

I also have in the past done a few team sports, as well as boxing, running (which I didn't like & made a post abt b4, but I don't have anything against running itself and can still give tips related) and biking long and short distance. And manual labor LMAO. I also have done yoga for. Quite a while and am getting back into doing it regularly bc it's the most accessible workout to me RN. Most of my workouts are at home RN for obvious reasons but I have been the type to go to a gym, though I don't rly like it that much esp since I'm no longer strength training.

I've had quite the up-and-down regarding like. Body health I should say is the TLDR. But I do really enjoy working out and it makes me sad to think that people think they're barred from doing any of it just bc they're not like. Daily gym rats looking to benchpress 500lbs. And also that most fitness sites/advice/etc is very focused on body image rather than relative health (I say relative to mean like, fitness might not make you go from debilitating chronic pain -> Chris Traeger, but it might make you go from average ouchie level 8 to average ouchie level 6.)

[ravusnightblossom]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER. REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !!

NAME:  Fox ♥ 

PRONOUNS: she/her, but honestly, I’m fine with any pronouns. It really doesn’t matter to me.

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: This is a weird one for me. I have days where I’m super social, but then others where I disassociate entirely, or even just talk to one or two people for a week straight... I’m kind of a textbook ambivert with hardcore ADHD. Messaging me on Tumblr is a good place to start, but don’t be surprised if I get overwhelmed easily or if my anxiety flares up. If we get closer, I may offer Discord. 

NAME OF MUSE(s):  His Esteemed Highness Lord Ravioli of Fleuret. Ravus Nox Fleuret.

RP EXPERIENCE/HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?):  Oh, hell. I think 2001ish was when it began? Maybe 2000? We’ll say 20 years, possible 21.  

PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED:  MSN chat rooms, ICQ, forums, Livejournal, AOL/AIM Messenger, Myspace, Tumblr, Discord, Wire. 

BEST EXPERIENCE:  I had two dear friends that I exclusively wrote with for years. We built an entire world together and eventually turned it into a novel series. Everyone has moved on since then, but that worldbuilding experience was one of the best events of my life and I know it will live on through the books. 

PET PEEVES/DEALBREAKERS: Elitist mentality, too much OOC dash spam, and manipulative behaviour. I’m old and here to write, not to juggle drama. 

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT:  Anything, honestly. I love me some good fluff if the situation allows for it, but angst is also a great balance. Smut is fun, but only if the chemistry and development are there to lead up to it. I’m not one for just writing p*rn without context (don’t get me wrong, I am not judging anyone else who enjoys it. I’m just a big ol’ ace and I need story with it.) 

PLOTS OR MEMES:  Both in different ways. Memes are great for working out those little character deets, but plots are the best. 

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES:  Unless it’s just short bits of dash commentary or a one-off, I prefer longer threads. It’s difficult for me to delve into anything in a short reply.

BEST TIME TO WRITE:  Whenever I can get the peace to do so. I need motivation and silence, so usually whenever the rest of the house is sleeping. 

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S):  In some ways. We have similar romance ideals and some mutual favourite items. Other than that, I don’t really think so. I’m bouncy and bright and a bit eccentric, and... kinda flighty. Ravus is none of those. >> I’m also a “people person,” where as Ravioli is... a frigid bitch.

Tagged by: Stolen from: @magpie-altius​ Tagging: You. Really. Don’t say you stole it; say I tagged you. Because you’re tagged!

[briinstardust]

okay so here we go. We’ll just start with some baseline. bear with me here.

Evan’s ready to come back to work, he suffers a medical emergency leading him to need to go onto blood thinners, and we are not told for how long he needs to be on them.

The problem starts here, Bobby visits Buck in the hospital. and sometime after this encounter decides that Buck is not ready to be in the field. Okay. he’s on blood thinners and doesn’t need to be in the field. period.

Evan is on light duty, as the new Fire Marshall and seems to be happy doing it. Evan stops by the firehouse to drop off the report of the 118′s fire drill. While at the firehouse Evan sees Lena Bosko, and some jealousy flares inside him. From context, we’re lead to believe it’s a jealousy that she’s “taking his place”, okay. fine. We know Evan has abandonment issues. Evan see’s Lena’s made herself comfortable in Buck’s locker. Okay. I can see why Buck is feeling jealous, and see why it feels, to Buck, like his place is being filled with someone else. fine.

This is where we see the rise of the problem. Bobby, okay yes they got a call and had to leave. He could have said, to Buck, there was something important he needed to talk to him about, and told him to call him later? idk, a conversation, a something, to let Buck know he needed to talk to him.

instead what we get is Athena assuming Bobby did the thing he said he was going to do, bc why would she need to think her husband didn’t do the thing he said he was going to do.

So Buck sees this lawyer, this lawyer is a monster. This lawyer preys on Buck. (We’ll come back to this point, I promise. pt.2) We see Buck stand up for himself, and for his team, and his family. “You want to know who’s got my back? They do. They’re more than co-workers, or friends. They’re my family. There is nothing stronger than family.” Evan Buckley says these words to a lawyer who is an absolute monster.

Okay so here are the actual events that happened.

Bobby now with no choice but to confront Buck, and no longer on his own terms, blames his wife, saying “I still can’t believe that you invited him without talking to me first.” to which Athena replies, “I just wanted him to know, that no matter what, he’s still family. Thought dinner would give you two time to work things out.” Assuming Bobby told him, and didn’t want Buck to feel “Thrown aside” for lack of a better word. So when Athena calls Buck to invite him to dinner, Buck accepts, and this is all under the impression that Buck knows what happened with the Chief and everything. Athena refers to him as family. (reference above. this is a mutual feeling.) Athena is trying to build a bridge here, for Evan, to show him he is not alone, just bc he cannot come back to work yet. Athena says “It sounds like you’re taking your health very seriously,” looking at her husband. an indication that she thinks Evan is mature enough to handle being spoken to like an adult. Evan starts spiraling, like he does, leading Bobby to proclaim, “I’m the dumbass. You’re not ready. That’s what I told them, when they asked.” But bc Bobby did not have this conversation with Buck before now, Evan is all up in his feelings when Bobby drops the bomb at the dinner table. This leads to Evan becoming very upset, and leaving the dinner table, and we assume he goes home, all up in his feelings.

The next scene is Evan in the monster’s office.  Evan says, “I’m not sure we have much to say to each other right now, anyways.” and I’m going to talk about this (my feelings ahead.)

Holy Shit. Evan. Is this what we’re doing? Okay Evan. Are you sure? Are you fucking sure about that? You don’t have much to say about anything, to the members of the 118. I’m sorry, not your co-workers, Not your friends, but your fucking family, and you don’t have much of anything to say to them right now? 

This man is entirely up in his feelings, his feelings towards Bobby, I mind you, and has for some reason I’m still unable to grasp, associated the rest of his family with Bobby Nash. Eddie Diaz, Henrietta Wilson, Howie Han, are now all associated with Bobby Nash, and are no longer individual humans who have individual relationships with Evan Buckley. This is how I’ve interpreted this statement by Evan Buckley.

So because Evan has forgotten these people are individual humans, he then says “I’m alone in this fight” to which I have to say. Are you alone Evan? Do you not have a sister who takes care of you? Do you not have a best friend with a kid, you could vent to about how unreasonable Bobby is being? Do you not have a healthy friendship with Henrietta Wilson and her wife, Karen Wilson, who both show you love and support? Do you not have a friend who you’ve known for years, who also happens to date your sister, and who has been on the same side of Bobby’s decision making, that you are on now? But you are alone in this fight. Ok.

So Buck is all up in his feelings, and the lawsuit ensues. Bobby Nash, then tries to blame his wife, for some shit that she literally had nothing to do with, “None of this would have happened if you hadn’t invited him over to dinner”. And I just need to know, what the actual fuck am I watching right now? bc in what goddamn universe is Athena Grant at all to blame for Buck being all up in his feelings? She was trying to build a bridge here, which she might have been able to do, if Bobby had actually had a conversation with Buck, like an adult, if he hadn’t treated Buck like a child (even if he was treating him like an adult child, still a child none the less), and talked to him about his concerns with Buck’s medial situation. Hell, if he’d talked to Buck at all. period. then dinner might have gone differently.

So we’ve all seen that arbitration scene, so I’ll just touch on a couple of things. bc we still have a long way to go.

Evan Buckley is suing the LAFD, on the grounds of Discriminatory and unequal treatment on the part of Captain Nash. upon hearing this, Bobby replies, “I don’t treat Buck any differently than any other firefighter on my watch.” And Sir, this is false. (I touched on this a little already, and we’ve all seen the scene and know what evidence they produce, so I’m gonna move on).

I just need to say that Henrietta Wilson couldn’t have been more supportive, in this situation, given the restrictions that she has, with what she can and can’t say, so I have absolutely nothing to comment on with her answer of, “Every patient is different. Every injury is different.” except, that I agree.  We know what the monster then says, and we already know how I feel about the monster (so see the referenced quote again, if you’re unsure)

I just need to address the hurt, and disappointment on Eddie’s face rn. Eddie is sitting across this table from Buck, and Evan Buckley has his head hung with shame. The only interview in which Buck starts with his head turned down in shame. Evan is trying his damn hardest not to look Eddie Diaz in his eyes. This man has shame all over his face.

“It does make me understand the chain of command” he says, looking directly at Buck. When Buck feels Eddie’s eyes on him and he turns his eyes up and meet’s Eddie’s. Just wow. It is already very clear to me how upset Eddie is with Evan. More than anything, this reads to me like hurt feelings. (will reference again. Pt.2.)

Buck has Eddie out here in some arbitration bullshit, like Eddie Diaz, doesn’t have other things to fucking do today. They are looking at each other across from this table, while they’re having a wordless fight with each other. The body language on these two? And it’s not even so much of a fight, than it is Eddie looking at Buck and thinking this is incredibly impulsive, and selfish behavior, and you took this entirely too far, and Eddie now has to deal with the fallout of this behavior. (this will get referenced again. Pt 2.)

Buck just doesn’t want to look at Eddie at all. The monster asks Eddie if he was ready to return to work after his wife’s death, Evan’s eyes are looking absolutely anywhere but across the table at Eddie. Absolutely anywhere else.

Bobby will the the last thing we address in this post, we’re gonna have to do a part 2, bc this was entirely too long. Bobby.

Buck’s look of absolute shock and horror, when that monster said “alcoholism”. the second that word left his mouth, Buck’s face was. oh my god. The shock is indescribable. and now Buck is so disappointed in himself. The eyes, His eyes. He looks like he’s 100% about to cry. The eyes, the lip tremble.

I will note that Bobby is giving Buck a look. Buck takes this look that Bobby is giving him, and the disappointment spreads all over Buck’s face.

um I feel like maybe I need to reference back to 1.04 here bc it gets referenced, Buck says maybe ask for help sometime, and Bobby does. Buck helps him without a second thought. He actually did everything within his power to help Bobby return to his job, as Fire Captain. Twice. (I am also referring to the suspension here yes.)

[faunusrights]

OFFAL HUNT REMASTER LIVEBLOG // CHAPTER 7

when will one of these chapters start with ‘wow murphy’s gonna love this and rly enjoy themself’ WHEN IT IS. I HAVE TO KNOW.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

okay i am Recognising this chapter so we’re not quite yet in untouched, completely Feral territory which is. nice. thats nice. i like it when i know what im working w/ but who the kell hnows.

Something nagged at her. A forgotten thing. She thought hard, but even so, it took a long moment for her to remember.

me when i go to my room to fetch my dishes for the washing machine but i get sidetracked by my dog being cute and then i forget and go back downstairs and remember the dishes and then i come back up but my dog is still there and i forget again-

i’m just. rly enjoying this glynda. I SAID IT BEFORE BUT IM RLY THRIVING FOR THIS IDIOT WITH ONE BRAINCELL. THE BRAINCELL IS CINDER.

Glynda’s hunting instincts were primed, the only part of her that worked with absolute clarity, even now.

this is why she hasn’t noticed cinder’s flirting, the fool, the blithering idiot,

In the split second before she faded from consciousness, she smelled ash, the foreign Aura within her flaring until she could taste it: burning flesh and steady decay. Then it disappeared, fizzling out.

hm. is it a callout to say this is. romantic. this is kinda romantic. hey is this? gay? i think its gay. im gonna settle on it.

its gay.

When she awoke the next morning, it was like pulling herself from some great void,

H👈A😎H👈

for some reason THAT was the fingergun that made me spill juice all over my keyboard i see how it is

Then she remembered that at Beacon, her blood usually stayed inside her body.

im thriving for this weird observation. you know when you wake up somewhere new like a hotel or smthng and for a moment yr like ‘where am i’ and u figure it out thru like. normal fucking means. like oh thats not my duvet oh thats not my ceiling oh thats not where my window is-

and then glynda has to judge her location by how much blood of hers is spilled in it. this bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE GOT ONE BRAINCELL AND OFFAL HUNT IS THE THESIS TO PROVE IT-

It was the room she’d all but dissembled in after getting her ass kicked and then saved by Cinder Fall.

sorry im going HOG WILD on quotes but these new lines r SO GOOD and im LIVING for them....................... like until now we’ve had glynda goodwitch, terrifying unstoppable woman and occasional dipshit. now shes all dipshit. just 100% pure dipshit. spread her on a field and you couldnt tell her from the manure. a complete buffoon.

that said its nice to see glynda using her Brainmess for once... i mean she still wont be able to put an otherwise fuck-ton of clues together still because that requires, the ability to multitask, which is surely does not have, but finally she’s taking five fuckin minutes to let herself go ‘well THATS weird’.

There had only been a stirring of life along those red-vein tattoos, swirling just along the cut of Cinder’s dress.

im enjoying the new ‘sexey tattoos’ slant we’re seein in this remaster it was a real shame they didnt get primetime attention last time.

also glynda Why Ya Lookin,

Hello,

she’d be a heretic to the Law of Semblances twice-over,

I May Not Know My Semblances, But I Know A Bitch When I See One!

For the first time in years, Glynda wanted to set everything aside and rest.

we stan a sleepy bitch................ ugh im so glad she’s finally realising she needs 2 give herself some mfing slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!! because as much as im enjoying the Dragfest she rly needs to. chill.

When she finally emerged from the bathroom, a towel around her waist and her dirty clothes balled in her hands,

look i didnt make this blog to lie that my first reaction to this was tilting my head and going ‘tiddy out? tiddy? is the tiddy out? tiddy?’

look women look hotter doing all the things guys do and this is fact i wont sit down and i Wont Shut Up

No more rushing ahead and getting herself torn up for nothing.

H👈A😎H👈!

thats a Good One, Glynda,

Winter Schnee had the pale white hair of her bloodline, and the sharp features of the famously reclusive Willow Schnee.

YES BITCH WE ARE IN IT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! POP THOSE MFING BOTTLES

i have been WAITING. FOR WEEKS. 7 FUCKING WEEKS I HAVE SAT HERE AND WAITED AND IT FINALLY PAID OFF OH MY GOD MY BITCH IS IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As Ozpin had said, she was twice the age of the younger Schnee daughter, and her blue eyes held all the acuity that age had brought her.

i made a Sound at this i CAN SEE WHAT YOU DID. I SEE IT. I SEE IT,

A single photo hung on the wall next to a placard detailing some kind of award. Glynda pushed her glasses up on her nose to get a better look. Though it had the appearance of a family photo, only the women of the Schnee family were present, Willow and Weiss flanking a newly ranked Winter.

why am i being targeted directly anyway

safdjhgfsdajgh WINTER,....... im still. im Love w/ this main bitch finally... Finally.... i love winter in offal hunt so fuckign much and im so glad she’s here and that we’re getting more details because AAAAAAAAAAAAAA i love her!!!!!!!!!

also i cant.... say anything because spoilers..... but also............. NNNNNNN this convo has just. so much behind it. SO MUCH CONTEXT. its Killing Me,

A strange expression crossed Winter’s expression. It looked like how bruises felt.

im losing my fucking mind rn diesel and kc are going right to hell and they know it but do they care???????????? no. they already are the devil,

okay i went silent for ages and read ahead because i screamed in discord for like ten minutes and it looked like this

so YEAH theres that, i guess,

Instead, it only filled her with deep unease. Glynda didn't know what Cinder’s game was, but it was becoming clear that it did not align with her own. And the more she thought about it, the less she understood. The less she understood, the more wary she became.

cinder: i wanted to tell this girl i liked her so i wrote her a note that said get out of my desert,

im rly thrivin in this chap i already said it but we’re rly jumping into the meat n bones of the Plot now and its a Good Plot so im excited!!!!!!!!!

“Yes, I think you’ll like her!”

“she’s a lesbian, like you, so maybe her distinguished energy will chill your dysfunctional energies out-”

Glynda pressed her lips; she needed a delicate hand here, needed to carefully choose a response which would divert Ozpin away from the topic. “No reason.”

YES MY FAV LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is Big Me and literally this is MAYBE the best and also funniest line in this entire shitshow remembers the Pasta Bit and /sweats

i also rly enjoy glynda n ozs friendship... i mean im out here remembering the glynda/ozpin/cinder fic so i was already sold on all their interactions but its rly good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GLYNDAS BEST FRIEND MAY BE 200 YEARS OLD BUT GOD DAMN IT WHEN WILL YR BFF EVER BE THERE FOR U LIKE THAT,

theres a Bit here im not gonna go into but. honestly once u kno how offal hunt basically ends? Its Sad and Im Sad. i hate how knowing this whole thing just inflects on everything else and everything glynda wants and honestly this whole fic sucks. why am i reading this AGAIN.

“I have faith in you, Glynda. But there are terrible things that can be done to a person even without killing them.”

👈😢👈

we’ve popped the first sad fingerguns but also What The Literal Fuck, Oz,

“Come and catch me, then.”  

im LAUGHING this is much better than the first version because this is SUCH a cinder-brand of shit to say dsfjhgfds she’s SUCH A SHIT-STIRRER but i love her,

“She’s just sent me something. My Scroll is working fine, but I think it’s safe to assume she knows what we’re discussing.”

“What did she send you?”

“An invitation.”

oh finally glynda works out the whole CCT business JHGDSFSDF i wonder if cinder knew shed figure it out or saw her msgs to oz and went ‘ah shit well’

BUT YEAH..... DATE! DATE! DATE! HOT DATE WITH CINDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am. VERY excited as many of u will remember i made a prime shitpost abt That Chap back in the day and ill have 2 REDRAW IT!!!!!!!!! POPPIN BOTTLES!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway this chapter sucked and was also very good in equal measure. as it is Wont,

[anigraham]

Last Month in Tweets

I think in this comic I am going to use a lens flare on Vivec every time because he's so shiny. 

Believe it or not, it's actually okay to never forgive someone for hurting you. Letting go of your hatred doesn’t mean forgiving someone.

You don’t “have” to forgive anyone in order to live a life that’s fulfilling to you. Learning to accept what happened is what releases you.

I love it when someone is clearly going through my Rumarin tag on my Tumblr and just "like"-ing everything.

I really need to figure out an easier way to draw hairy men. 

I understand why I hardly get carded now. Saw a kid who looked half my age walk into a liquor store.

Well. Good bye folks. Just admitted on Reddit that I thought WALL-E & Wreck-It Ralph to be bad movies. I suspect they will come for my head

Not happy. I just want to go to bed and cry myself to sleep rn.

HaPpY bIrThDaY

tfw you're sad. And you realize why you are sad. But realizing why doesn't help.

Out of context drunk quote: "20/20 is hindsight!"

Seeing a doctor I cant afford. At least they aren't having patients fill out “are you depressed?” forms anymore.

How to ruin bread: Add banana. How to ruin pizza: Add pineapple or banana. 

How to ruin life: Add banana.

M&Ms with caramel are the candy I didn't know I needed in my life.

Someone take my tablet away from me.

The pharmacy changed my last name and not my first name. My credit card changed my first name and not my last name.

YOU GUYS. ENTIRE NAME CHANGE. WHOLE NAME. ALL OF IT. Come on!

Never imagined my lack of depth perception would cause me issues with graphic design work, but here we are...lol.

And yes I am drawing my Dragonborn wearing a Fus Ro Dah shirt.

Today is brought to you by the letter Tea and his friend Caffeine.