#for the summer event specifically

[zurazakis]

daughter acquired i suppose

[kindahoping4forever]

AshtonIrwin: Have you ever seen a professional musician in the studio? 😂 “THANK YOU CLEVELAND!!!”

[abirddogmoment]

In the same vein as my Dog Thoughts post about performance foundations last night, the more I watch Sports People, the more motivated I am to distance myself from them and be done with dog sports completely.

[capn-twitchery]

gotta say, trying to decipher firmament as someone who couldn't play horticultural hell/estival last year is 10x more difficult and it's an odd choice that a big chunk of context for it is hidden behind year old content that newer players have absolutely zero access to right now

i don't have a Shred of context for the starved men, the starved war, stalactites falling or not falling, it's all very ??????? in an already confusing story

[madillhethen]

The thing I really love about Yu Mei-Ren is that no one expects her to be any foil/parallel to Archer/Shirou because it’s just not obvious. She’s not made to be the obvious foil like Gilgamesh to Emiya, or the half foil/parallel of Cu to Archer, or even the obvious reminiscence that Saber is to Archer. People think Yu Mei-Ren is just a True Ancestor so in love with her husband and that’s her motivation, and no one would connect that to Archer/Shirou because there’s no direct conflict to pit the other against another.

But this Chaldea’s Thriller Night lays it out pretty well that she does contain something you can relate to Archer/Shirou. Not only do both Emiya and her take a well-deserve center stage in this event but Emiya also shows up in her interlude. Before I thought it was a bit random of why any character he should show up in her interlude.

It got me thinking after she says this in the event.

In UBW, Shirou confronts is ideals/dream head on and despite the path it led Archer down, he decides he was going to go down it all the same. Stardust is a theme that is pretty much associated with Archer. He’s not the starlight that Saber is, the star that Shirou hopes to become, he’s the aftermath of what the ideal truly is, destroyed and broken—he’s stardust.

Yu Mei-Ren refers to herself as stardust because she is no longer how she used to be—an elemental spirit in love who lost her husband and wandered for thousands of years, wishing for death and lamenting. She’s only gotten back what she’s lost, and even as the stardust, she presses on which at the end of UBW Archer does too after having his Hope renewed.

The foil/parallel I see it as that she is an elemental spirit who wished nothing to do with humanity and Archer a man who wanted to save humanity, both fought for some survival of themselves and eventually lost the things they wanted to keep (his ideal; her husband). Both trapped in an endless cycle of pain, him constantly killing as a CG and her constantly being killed and hunted by humanity.

On a slightly different note, throughout the event despite numerous warnings, Yu Mei-Ren keeps dying which is more comical in the event, and because she’s immortal, it gets brushed off. In a similar light, Shirou is constantly wounded nearly mortally many times throughout each routes, but thanks to Saber’s sheath, he comes back as if nothing happens. During the Zombie Movie Segmant, Yu Mei-Ren risks her life to save the others and willingly let’s herself die (only to come back in a comedic way later) but her resolve reminded me of how Shirou fully accepts Archer’s Arm in Heaven’s Feel and decides to face Heracles (a mindless servant at that point like the zombies).

Towards the end of the event, Xu Fu wants to give Yu Mei-Ren death, what she wanted so long ago because that’s the way to end her suffering. But Yu Mei-Ren refuses, and accepts the fact her path may very well end up suffering again and she may go on, angry at her past self (sounds familiar? Archer is literally that.)

Regardless of it, Yu Mei-Ren decides the path she has now, the happiness she has found, is worth it. Like Shirou decided that his dream isn’t wrong, he would continue down that path.

Of course, there’s a segment where she is fighting her doppelgänger but gives up, and makes a reference to UBW of Archer’s own conflict to Shirou, which Archer is visibly pained by.

Even if her choices to not die will come to haunt her later, she accepts that her choice now and before (this event tries not to spoiler LB3 but you can connect the dots) to be reunited with her husband are not wrong.

Which I really loved this event for touching upon these subjects, and having Emiya being such a delight during it all. His story was already told but he gets to still be a guiding figure in an event that reminiscences his own arc.

[edge-oftheworld]

might be the cheesiest post I ever make but

this year I learned from luke how to slow down, switch off, feel my feelings, be comfortable with and accepting of myself, and process them in however a creative way I like and be consciously proud of the output

this year I learned from ashton how to listen to my intuition, what I really want to do and what satisfies me, which is something to always be curious about especially when I don’t feel satisfied, and go after that with all that I am (but rest too)

this year I learned from calum to be as weird as much and disappear from perceived obligations as much as I need to be happy, to focus on what matters to me and that sharing my unhinged side is an honest way of connecting

this year I learned from michael that there’s someone out there doing the things I long to do and with whom I’ll feel understood and validated and if I just keep doing the things that I love and feel like myself in, it’ll bring me to them eventually

[lazlohno]

A ramble about hidden disability lanyards and early expression of my identity

i wear my hidden disability lanyard whenever i go out. it’s VERY decorated, with lots of pins on it, as well as keychains and stim toys clipped on. i am emotionally comfortable wearing it. it gives me something to communicate why i do certain things.

just now i was thinking about something i was asked in school; “Doesn’t it make you nervous that everyone around knows that you’re disabled?”

Hm. I had never thought about it that way. No, not really.

I mean, before I wore my lanyard, I still exhibited autistic traits and behaviours. people just called me weird and crazy for it. now, if they still wanna do that they’ll get (deserved) dirty looks.

Maybe it’s because of how I’ve interacted with my identity. I discovered I was some form of LGBTQ+ fairly young, maybe 9? Age isn’t a reliable marker of time for me. Anyway, I was also very much on the internet, and quickly discovered other people like me - people who were loud and proud about their identities, which gave me the confidence to be like that too. Because of this, I was very confident in that aspect of my identity (despite having issues everywhere else, as is - I think - usual for that age.). I expressed my queerness openly online and among my… nicer peers.

Perhaps my early experience in expressing my identity, as well as receiving backlash and ignorance for it, prepared me to be more confident in my neurodivergence?

I mean, in my mind, the worst they could say is some ableist rhetoric that I know is untrue, right?

Sure, some comments will stick with me for longer, (Looking at you, “Are you gonna get the Barbie set for your Christmas?” guy, who said that after making fun of my stim toys and comfort items I was actively using to regulate myself.)

but meh. I’ve lived through worse. I’ve heard worse, and worse comments come back to me when I’m feeling worse.

So I can handle it, genuinely.

It just made me a bit confused. The question from earlier, I mean.

Yes. Everyone around me knows I am disabled.

But they would’ve known anyway.

I might as well be proud of it!

[ziracona]

FGO is falling behind in so many areas of the game it's not even funny. I think because the initial outfits were all free they were too hesitant to make any paid ones or didn't know how to differentiate them enough to explain a price tag that we're just stuck with having a handful once in a blue moon. And yeah I loved the Valentines gift, the bullet is so practical and sweet, just wish his story was longer. Interesting observation about the CE outfit, I didn't notice it looked similar.

Frfr. I’ve only heard about some of it, but so many arcs since LB1 have totally missed the tragedy and dynamics that made the premise good. :’-] [the foreign god reveal imo was just super weird and weirdly handled too, as far as like, cohesion and emotion/pacing]. Just as far as mechanics go yeah!! Like, I’m FTP (except on guaranteed NY summons once a year), but /I’d/ shell out 5, even 15 bucks for an outfit once in a while if it slapped enough. I very much know I’m not alone.

The new character adding makes sense and to a degree must happen, but I don’t think that necessitates any kind of a lack of returning to older ones. Some of the minor characters, despite having virtually no time in the story (Jekyl for instance) are wildly popular! It’s like Pokemon. Every single heroic spirit has at least one person who is obsessed with and adores them. I think seasonal events could stand to do something with this—like the board game one did a great job giving Emiya Alter more character development and love as a supporting cast member, than all of SERAPH did. They (or some of their writers) absolutely can, and it’s a huge hit with fans any time they do. I wish they put more into, even briefly, showcasing minor characters not in just a ‘and they’re here too’ way but a sincerely ‘we’re going to give them time to talk about their struggles or beliefs or relationships to others in a meaningful way, even if it’s for only five minutes’ way. They just need to let Higashide write more arcs… TuT

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Con is over! I feel like I've been hit by a truck

[kindahoping4forever]

Luke IG Story

[grandorderconfessions]

[galariangengar]

STRESS STRESS STRESS!!! The one community college that cleared me for Pharmacology is giving me an error when I try to register for the class, even though I already submitted a prerequisite form and my transcripts! I’ve tried calling their admissions office AND their counseling office, BUT NOTHING! I sent an email and I’ll leave a voicemail right now but HHHHHH I AM VERY STRESSED AND ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW!

[nomaishuttle]

ALSO sry im so talkative today idk whats gotten IN to me but anyways. its sooo crazy 2 me that ppl have other birthdays that arent the sake day as my birthday like obviously i know ppl do but its crazy to me. bc january 13th is like My birthday ykwim. like its such a good day to have a birthday on so beautiful 1/13/2005 gods specialest girl was born ykwim.

[deus-ex-mona]

felt cute, may mentally scar someone else later idk

and now…

featuring a small taste of the ✨cursed✨:

[transgaysex]

im going to sleep here in a bit but i just like. started thinking about outer wilds

[seishun-emergency]

rewatching the enstars anime after having read a lot more stories both in ! and !! era and also having listened to a lot more of the songs that exist in the discographies is a really fun experience