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blossom-hwa · 3 years

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volleyball players!golcha + a supernatural twist

so casey (@thepixelelf) came up with this brilliant idea (original blurbs here - read them they’re so fun + will help you understand what’s going on in this post) but essentially this is golcha as a volleyball team EXCEPT they all have superpowers

and no this isn’t some saving the world type shit everyone at the school just happens to have some superpower so they’re just trying to navigate the hell that is high school while dealing with powers so CHAOS

anyway please enjoy these brief blurbs and reblog if you did, and again do not forget to check out the original post here because why not it’s FUN

pairing: golden child x gender neutral!reader

wc: 11.7k (total)

genre: fluff, a bit of angst in some parts, volleyball!au, superpowers!au

triggers: cursing

Volleyball!au Masterlist (casey + lina) | Golden Child Masterlist

daeyeol - golden tongue

daeyeol has a golden tongue which basically means he can be very, very persuasive with his spoken words when he wants to

like casey said it comes in handy when he’s arguing with the basketball team for gym time but in 99% of other situations daeyeol tends to... be very awkward and stilted in a way that isn’t characteristic of those with a golden tongue

the boys sometimes tease him about it because a tongue-tied golden tongue? that’s not supposed to exist

but he’s just afraid of accidentally manipulating people even though he really does have a pretty good grasp on his power :/ like sungyoon will try to remind him that but daeyeol’s still wary

on the court though he literally just exudes confidence. like daeyeol is GOOD at volleyball and he knows it

even if his teammates clown him they listen to him when he’s running drills/coaching because daeyeol knows his shit. he’s been playing volleyball for years at this point AND has an older brother who played as well he knows what he’s doing

he’s been playing the longest of all of golcha and it shows in games! he’s one of the best players if not the best

really the other boys do look up to him even if they show it in a roundabout way

(daeyeol complains about the lack of respect all the time but tbh he doesn’t really help his case when he’s soft for every single one of the boys)

side note: he has a bit of a special bond with bomin :) as in bomin clowns the everloving fuck out of him but he also always goes to daeyeol if he’s not feeling good and daeyeol is always there to listen it’s super sweet

(more on that in bomin’s part :D)

does interviews with the school newspaper after games and he’s just so different from normal because volleyball is one of the things besides academics and stuff that he’s confident in

as a side note he got voted most boyfriend material in one of the school newspaper polls because he looks perfect and is the sweetest (have you seen how he gets so soft with the boys in every video online? don’t argue with me) and it made its way into the yearbook

older brother and alumnus sungyeol clowns him every other day for it

daeyeol gets revenge by reenacting sungyeol’s worst volleyball fails and sending them to his friends

has a whole folder on his phone of reenactments at this point

anyway like i said daeyeol is a little awkward in everyday situations so enter you: confrontational + rash with a sharper tongue than is probably necessary and an affinity for changing temperatures

well. more like you can ratchet the temperature up at will. bringing it down is much harder

it’s useful when it’s winter and everyone’s freezing but the temperature also likes to creep higher when you get pissed off which is sometimes not nice when it’s like negative degrees outside and inside it’s like 100

the only way to cool the room when the second thing happens is to calm you the fuck down! or turn on the air conditioner

and the first is easier said than done

it’s not like it’s only unpleasant for other people though bc you’re not immune to the heat and also because you’re the one like. producing the heat?? your skin gets boiling hot to the touch if you’re upset enough and several times people have gotten fucking burns by touching your arm to try and calm you down

usually it’s fine bc you have a good grasp on your power when you’re calm but if someone says something offensive/stupid.... god help them

anyway even though daeyeol doesn’t like to use his power much he’s still one of the people that others go to when situations need defusing because they (mostly) respect him as an older and more mature person (i say mostly because the amount of disrespect he gets from his volleyball team on the daily... yeah let’s just trend #prayfordaeyeol)

and that’s how you meet! you’re yelling at someone for saying something fucking stupid and daeyeol walks in right when you’re threatening to hit said person if they don't shut up rn

daeyeol manages to calm the situation but not before everyone stupid enough to still be in the room is sweating buckets including him

this just... continues

like daeyeol becomes the go to for situations involving you specifically bc you respond better to him for some reason

and you get to know each other just from daeyeol walking in on you threatening to throw someone out of the window and saying no! nope :) no you’re not throwing anyone out of any window :) come on y/n let’s go :) while subtly dragging you out of the room

the thing is he listens to you. he actually listens to why you got pissed instead of just telling you to control your anger. like he does emphasize the fact that you need to control yourself because what if this happens around people without powers? but he listens and that helps more than anything really and you actually start getting better at controlling yourself

and somewhere along the way things just click between you two and you become friends. you like him bc he’s v kind if awkward and he’s the only person who’s never tried to calm you using golden tongue manipulation and he likes you bc you’re so outspoken and bold

then one day you get genuinely so upset about something someone said and daeyeol doesn’t care about your blistering hot skin he doesn’t care if you’re raising the temperature in the room he doesn’t even care if he gets burnt he just kisses you on the forehead softly and holds you close even as you’re overheating

which just drains the fight out of you and you kind of collapse on him and stay like that for a while

he then takes you out for cold drinks (because you’re still overheating a little) and kisses you over an iced americano and boom relationship

the other boys find you very fun to be around and marvel over your relationship bc you’re confident and loud meanwhile daeyeol is a bumbling mess when he isn’t using his power or he isn’t on the court

but it works ok it just does. don’t question it

(jangjun does once and even with his super strength he ended up lying on the court bc the element of surprise is the only thing that can really get him)

(and lucky for you you know exactly how to take advantage of that <3)

(daeyeol just thinks it’s hot + impressive and kisses you right after)

(bomin + 99 line gag but you threaten to give them the same treatment and they shut up)

sungyoon - telekinesis

so as casey said sungyoon comes from a long line of telekinetics except he’s not entirely sure why he’s even at this school because... he has never shown any manifestations of this power

not to his knowledge at least

i say this bc people have seen stuff twitch when sungyoon’s around, he just never notices and thus concludes that either people are fucking around with him and it never happened or it was just a coincidence

anyway he doesn’t really care much, like sure he sometimes gets insecure/unsure of himself in a school full of kids with superpowers

but like i said this school is just a safe haven for those born with powers, they’re not training or anything they just learn to control what they have

and since sungyoon doesn’t have much to control he’s doing fine as far as everyone is really concerned

it’s also kind of nice being the only normal one on the volleyball team like everyone else has wack-ass powers that fuck shit up but sungyoon is like the calm in the middle of the storm like hi yes i am also part of this team of idiots but at least i don’t break equipment or injure people inadvertently

for this reason some people think sungyoon is the only sane person on the team

they are wrong

sungyoon can and will go batshit insane at the first opportunity

he is also a massive tease and if anyone asks him to do anything he’ll make it a back and forth for like 5 minutes before deciding whether or not to actually do it

bomin: sungyoon can you help me get the mats

sungyoon: why

bomin: p l e a s e

repeat for at least five minutes and you now have a regular day to day conversation with sungyoon

but sungyoon really is passionate about volleyball okay, like he loves the sport so much

he used to get worked up about it so much that he’d over-practice and actually play worse :/

got over that with joochan/daeyeol’s help (he and daeyeol weren’t on good terms for a week or two though) and now they’re one happy dysfunctional family :)

if you bring up that time in sungyoon’s life you will be subjected to his death glare so maybe just... don’t

like even jangjun doesn’t talk about it and that’s saying something

anyway moving on

in terms of powers you’re the opposite of sungyoon. aka you have wack-ass telekinesis and you have no idea how to control it

which?? somehow sungyoon comes in handy with this

because despite not really having powers himself, he watched his sister learn to control her abilities and also listened in on his parents’ advice to her because most of the time controlling powers really just amounts to controlling emotions

aka why sungyoon is (for the most part) so calm and mature

when he’s not purposely being a little shit to golcha of course

but you and sungyoon are kinda... at a loss bc it’s not like you go absolutely off the walls batshit insane?? like you’re a relatively calm person and even though the powers do manifest when you’re feeling a strong emotional upsurge

other than that they’re just... seemingly random???

regardless of that sungyoon makes you start on breathing exercises n shit and you would honestly probably complain if you weren’t sick of your powers manifesting every five fucking seconds. like at this point you’ll try anything

cue long sessions after school in the gym of sungyoon practicing spikes while you sit in the corner controlling your breath to the beat of balls bouncing on the floor

sometimes a few of the other team members join in but more often than not it’s just you and sungyoon

as time passes, in between cleaning scuff marks off the floor and picking up balls that just have flown everywhere, you and sungyoon get closer

and somehow... you don’t know exactly what happened but your powers aren’t so out of wack anymore

sungyoon can’t completely explain it either but like? neither of you is going to complain

you kind of think it might have something to do with how sungyoon is just a calming presence. like when you talk with him and stuff you’re less likely to inadvertently make something move or whatever

it’s not just with sungyoon too - it kind of seems like if you’re focusing intently on something, then the mini episodes don’t happen

sungyoon hypothesizes you might be a little like youngtaek as in you need something to concentrate on because if you zone out shit happens

you maybe zone out less than he does but maybe it’s a more subtle thing with you than with him who knows

anyway

one day you two go to get coffee after leaving the gym together and sungyoon looks weirdly nervous and you ask if something’s up while praying you don’t send all the sugar packets flying everywhere

and then when you leave with your coffee he asks you out

like really. he asks you out. you can’t believe it

so the lid flies off your coffee cup and liquid splashes everywhere

now you have burns all over your hands from hot coffee and sungyoon is freaking the fuck out and luckily donghyun was just leaving school so he gets called over to take care of your burns

anyway after that sungyoon is still a flustered mess and you’re trying to tell him you’re fine, look all the redness is gone and also yeah sorry about that i’d love to go on a date with you

CUE SUNGYOON’S COFFEE CUP FLYING OUT OF HIS HANDS AND SPLATTERING ALL OVER THE GROUND

you swear it wasn’t you and sungyoon KNOWS he didn’t just drop it so the only conclusion left is that sungyoon did it

oh my god he actually has telekinesis!

(the rest of golcha: yeah let’s just pretend we HAVEN’T been saying this for literal years)

anyway let’s just say that between sungyoon confessing + figuring out he actually has telekinesis powers it was a very eventful day

golcha loves you but is also wary of whenever you’re around bc sungyoon tends to get v nervous and maybe the net starts lifting out of the ground if you surprise him with a kiss

but it’s fine! you’ve learned all of the techniques sungyoon taught you, now it’s just time for him to get a taste of that too :)

and sungyoon would probably bitch and moan if it was with any other person but it’s more time to spend with you so is he really gonna complain?

no <3

jangjun - super strength

ah yes. resident ‘i’m doing my best to control my powers but sometimes i get too excited and whoops now there’s a hole in the gym floor’

once again credits to casey for that idea (she actually wrote a drabble for it which you can find here)

he’s gotten better at controlling his powers but uh sometimes excitement gets the better of him all right

look he’s trying!! ok!! he really is

especially when it comes to volleyball - he’s really serious, does his absolute best not to cause any damage to the gym because one time he cracked the wood floors and let’s just say admin was not happy

worst day of jangjun’s life trying to explain that shit to the principal

so yeah he’s doing a lot better now with controlling his power

but at the same time let’s not ignore half the reason why there are far fewer accidents than before - you

you and jangjun meet like halfway through your first year of school during gym class when jangjun hits a ball a little (a lot) too hard and it ends up knocking you the fuck out

a healed concussion + a million apologies later, you and jangjun are laughing your heads off in the clinic with the nurse screwing her eyes up in confusion like?? this boy just smashed a volleyball into your head and now you’re laughing with him wtf

but jangjun’s so funny and friendly that it’s hard not to become his friend so after that you two are essentially inseparable

so when jangjun decides to play for the volleyball team you sign up to be team manager

(you also help him practice and do you best to keep his power in check)

which works out! because you’re responsible and organized but most importantly you have power over air

and given enough warning (which, as you gain more experience, doesn’t have to be a lot), you can manipulate the air to stop some of jangjun’s more aggressive serves from hitting the ground too fast and causing major damage to the newly-renovated floors

daeyeol + the coach thank every higher being for your existence at each practice

youngtaek + joochan started a cult in your name after you saved both of them from one of jangjun’s spikes hitting them in the head

yeah let’s just say golcha is v thankful jangjun gave you that concussion back in first year

ANYWAY

one day you’re picking up some volleyballs that are lying around while the boys play a practice match in the middle of the gym

and because your back is to the fucking court. you don’t get any warning except a few sharp screams before a ball just motherfucking smashes against the back of your head and knocks you the fuck out for the second time in your life

you come to on the ground with donghyun passing his hands over your throbbing head

and the first thing you do when the pain is gone is look up and ask where jangjun is

half the team has disappeared from the gym but donghyun tells you he had a major mental breakdown when he saw you unconscious on the floor and just ran out. the others are already trying to find him but you don’t care you just run out to try and find wherever the fuck your best friend is

you find him crouched in the corner of a stairwell with his head in his hands and you’re like jangjun what’s wrong oh my god are you okay?

and he just looks up like oh my god you’re okay. you’re okay right?

you nod like yeah?? donghyun worked his magic of course i’m fine now but what’s up with you? were you crying?

he just clams up then which obviously confirms your suspicions and you’re like dude... why were you crying. i’m really fine

and then he explodes like - i fucking hate my power sometimes i hate that i can’t control it i hate that i accidentally break people or hurt people when i don’t mean to and it’s even worse when it’s people I care about like fuck y/n why can’t i just have a power that doesn’t cause all this stupid shit -

so you just lash out with a gust of wind and shake the railing on the stairwell

jangjun’s like why did you do that

and you say every power has a destructive side. i can hurt people on accident. if i got really riled up i could slam someone against a wall and knock them out the same way you did with me. it’s happened before

jangjun flinches but you just step closer like jangjun. you’re doing fine. your power is cool as fuck. i admire the control you have over it and no don’t argue, i’ve watched you over the past few years and do you know how much you’ve improved?

it ends up with you hugging jangjun and despite all his muscle he just collapses like a rag doll in your arms and on impulse you kiss his forehead like it’s ok, i’m fine, you’re fine. we’re all fine

and that little impulse kiss changes everything. even though neither of you really says anything explicit at first, something shifts between you and even though jangjun was touchy before, now you hold hands between classes and hug before practice and golcha is just like... /eyes emoji/

jangjun brings it up one weekend when you two are trying (key word: trying) to study and you just kind of shrug and ask what do you really want to be? labels or nah? bc honestly you’re happy as long as he’s around

which makes jangjun’s heart flutter and maybe the pen in his hand explodes all over his notes (not like they were legible anyway, you just promise to lend him yours) and voila! you’re dating

it’s super cute but also super loud

like jangjun will yell across the court like HEY WATCH ME ROLL AROUND ON THIS VOLLEYBALL Y/N (or whatever the fuck he was doing in the breathe mv behind) and you yell back like FUCK IT U P JANGJUN!!!

coach maybe praises your existence a little less now but daeyeol just reminds him that you’ve saved every member on this team + him at least once by now and the cult revives

as your bf jangjun strong-arms (literally) youngtaek/joochan out of the way as the head of the cult now

you two are very supportive and very loud in your support

you’re essentially each other’s professional hype-people and like to celebrate with kisses while everyone else gags

it’s disgustingly cute

someone always yells something about pda and then jangjun just kisses you harder

cue the boys screaming and you laughing and an unamused (he’s amused he’s just trying not to show it) daeyeol

coach is the only one who’s really unamused but at some point he just gives up because jangstar does what he wants as long as you’re fine with it

/shrugging emoji/

youngtaek - pyrokinesis

youngtaek has power over fire but it’s not really so much that he can control fire and more like he just... zones out and oops his notes are burning

it’s usually best to keep him and daeyeol’s s/o in separate rooms because fire + ratcheting up the temperature does not equal a good time

like casey said when he’s focused it’s all cool and he has a decent measure of control over his power but when his eyes go dazed and he’s staring into the distance then you better pray the room has a bucket of water or a fire extinguisher nearby

it isn’t usually a problem because this is a school for kids with powers and youngtaek isn’t the only pyrokinetic here but it is a hassle when sometimes youngtaek zones out on the court and hits the ball and suddenly jangjun’s screaming because he got hit by a volleyball on fire and now his uniform is on fire and everything is on fire

oops

but anyway with anything that isn’t a) volleyball or b) music youngtaek has less than half the attention span of a goldfish which means he may or may not be lagging behind in several classes

and it isn’t enough for him to be in danger of failing just yet but his teachers are like youngtaek i think you might need a tutor if you want to do more than just pass the final

he also needs better grades if he wants to keep playing volleyball so he decides to find a tutor

so he asks daeyeol about it bc despite his dyslexia daeyeol is a pretty good student but he’s busy as an upperclassman and all so he refers youngtaek to you!

you have the power to memorize anything you put your mind to. like if you really wanted to you could memorize an entire map of the city or its skyline but you just don't care enough to do that

only things you care about are school + your hobbies + your friends/family

anyway you meet up with youngtaek and from the start it’s kind of a mess because he zones out in the middle of you teaching him math and somehow sets the table on fire

after that you make sure to keep a bottle of water nearby (it comes in handy several times)

but despite the slightly disastrous first meeting you take a liking to youngtaek because beyond everything he’s genuine and honest and just a really good person regardless of the fact that he’s a little fire-happy

so tutoring sessions start ending with walking each other to the bus stop or getting a drink together or whatever and it’s really nice and sweet, youngtaek’s happy to be doing better in his classes bc you’re so patient and a really good teacher

and one day he blurts out that when he heard about your power he wasn’t sure you’d be a good teacher because everything seems to come easily to you

then he covers his mouth because holy hell he wasn’t supposed to say that youngtaek come ON

you calmly put out the little fire on the side of the desk before telling him it’s fine, you get that a lot but really being able to memorize things isn’t as helpful as people seem to think

like sure you can memorize the fact that 2+2=4 but if you don’t understand addition as a concept then you won’t be able to do 5+5=10 or something like that

and you can’t exactly just memorize concepts. so with memorization comes a lot of hard work in trying to understand it all

and from this little conversation youngtaek comes out with so much more respect for you?? like god damn he now sees just how hard you work for everything you care about and youngtaek likes that. he likes it a lot

so yeah both of you have budding feelings at this point but because i'm the author i get to say you’re idiots in love so you don’t say shit

until after finals you and youngtaek go to a party daeyeol’s hosting and you both get tipsy-drunk-ish and by the end of the night youngtaek’s face is buried in your shoulder and before he passes out fully he mumbles that he likes you so much it doesn’t make sense

and you’re drunk too so all you do is kiss his forehead and fall asleep

unluckily for you a mostly sober kim donghyun got a video of all that so when you both wake up a couple hours later it’s to several still-awake members of the volleyball team + your friends all up in your faces like oh my god they’re in LOVE

youngtaek wakes up with all the noise and just blinks sleepily and you kinda pat his head and tell him to go back to sleep while giving everyone else death glares like SHUT THE FUCK UP SO HE CAN SLEEP

but you don’t know about the video >:)

so one of the sober boys ends up bringing you two home and when you wake up the next morning donghyun has added you both to a group chat and sent the video there

you scream into your pillow

youngtaek screams into his pillow

and you both proceed to do absolutely nothing about it until joochan locks the two of you in one of the music rooms and slides a copy of the song youngtaek wrote about you under the door

you get to the paper before youngtaek can burn it and it’s messy it’s awkward it’s hilarious but you two end up together by the end of the day so it worked... kinda?

your presence helps youngtaek a lot by giving him something more to focus on throughout the day and subsequently not set everything on fire

though mind reader bomin complains because he used to zero in on youngtaek’s mind when things got too much since quote unquote ‘there’s not much going on up there’ (credits to casey + fact in star) but now if youngtaek’s brain isn’t playing the music from the mii channel it’s thinking about you which isn’t ideal

youngtaek may or may not have attacked bomin after that

you may or may not have had to pull him away when bomin’s shirt started smoking

but it’s cool the smoking goes away when you kiss his forehead and youngtaek just beams like the entire sun

seungmin - foresight

like casey said seungmin has foresight and it’s anything but useful

he’ll either get glimpses of dumb unimportant shit like haha the day’s lunch includes rice or visions of stuff he can’t avoid like hey youngtaek’s going to trip on air oh oops he just did aaand now his shirt is on fire

honestly if he was going to have foresight he could at least like?? predict stocks or some shit?? why the fuck does it MATTER if youngtaek’s about to fall if seungmin can’t even help him

not like he’d help even if he could because seungmin isn’t an angel and youngtaek falling is funny but still it’s the principle of the goddamn matter

sometimes he gets glimpses of whether or not golcha will win their volleyball matches but like casey said he doesn’t say anything because he doesn’t want to ruin the team spirit before the game’s even over

plus who said the future was fixed in stone? like none of seungmin’s momentary glimpses have been wrong yet but there’s always a chance... right?

seungmin isn’t going to discount that possibility yet at least

but he didn’t always think that way - you’re actually the one who opened him up to that point of view

you’re an ordinary person with no powers or anything but you work part-time at the juice bar across the street from his school and sometimes golcha will go there after practice to get something to drink

and you have a special soft spot for seungmin because he’s the first of the group who started frequenting the shop

and on that first ever visit he helped catch you when you slipped bringing a tray of drinks to a few people sitting in the corner

even though you both ended up on the floor covered in juice he still managed to break your fall enough that none of the glasses broke and while giving him his drink you kind of joked that it was like he knew what was going to happen before it did

which... is not exactly false

seungmin was waiting for his drink when he got a little glimpse of you falling and him helping catch you but then it all happened before he could even process the vision so like yeah he did see it but not soon enough to prevent anything

like usual

anyway you promise seungmin a free drink the next time he comes in when you’re on shift and so he does come in though he insists you don’t have to give him his drink for free

you just say well buy me a drink then. two for one

(listen he’s cute and he broke your fall and he seems polite. who’s gonna sue you for being a little flirty)

and so a beautiful relationship is born :)

seungmin really likes you a lot like so much?? he used to laugh at youngtaek for being so whipped for his partner but now he thinks he kind of understands it

the one thing to worry about is the fact that you don’t have powers and he does but it’s not that big of an issue really. like foresight is one of the abilities that doesn’t really manifest itself physically beyond maybe having a bit of reaction time? but considering his foresight is literally useless even that’s debatable

well actually there’s another thing to worry about: the boys finding out he has an s/o and teasing him to high hell

which they do while also demanding free drinks as seungmin’s friends

on days when you’re feeling nice you’ll do it but money always appears in the tip jar that pays for the free drinks

(it’s daeyeol. he feels bad)

anyway you don’t know about the foresight/powers thing until daeyeol calls you one night to pick seungmin up from a party one night and on the way home he stops you from almost getting run into by a speeding car

WHILE TIPSY/DRUNK

once you’ve recovered you ask him how he reacted so fast and he just kind of tipsily smiles and says ‘i saw it was going to happen’

you don’t ask him anything then because he’s drunk and sleepy so you just drive him home but the entire time you’re thinking about all the little things that have just... seemed questionable during the time you’ve known seungmin

and it’s weird as fuck but at the same time you can’t figure out any other explanation? because once is normal, twice could be a coincidence, but upwards of ten incidents is not right

it feels like you’re bella confronting edward about being a stupid vampire (no i never read twilight and i'm not sorry about it) but a couple of weeks later you ask him

he doesn’t actually remember the drive back home that night because he was kind of too wasted but he definitely does remember the other incidents including when you two met skdjghs

he spills after a few minutes of awkward silence and begs you not to tell which of course you promise to because why the fuck would you not? if the truth got leaked that would be disastrous and it’s not like you’re scared or anything, seungmin’s (mostly) harmless even if some of the other abilities like youngtaek + fire or jangjun + strength give you pause

but you get to talking about his power of foresight and seungmin kind of shrugs at one point while saying that he doesn’t know why he gets glimpses, it’s all inevitable anyway so what’s the point

and you just say maybe it isn’t that way. maybe he’s seeing one future possibility, maybe even the most likely one, but that doesn’t mean it’s the only one set in stone right?

seungmin loves you a lot for that. like so much. it’s a new perspective and it gives him more hope than he used to have and you just KNOW the conversation ends in kisses and cuddles

because while he’s not going to actively try and prevent what’s about to happen if it’s bad (like he can’t exactly influence the outcome of a volleyball match beyond just doing his best - plus, his foresight doesn’t give him enough time to really react to most things), it gives him some hope that even if his foresight says something will turn out bad, there’s a chance it might turn out well :)

anyway seungmin pocket boy you two fit right into each other when you hug which results in the other boys cooing but seungmin’s strong even if he’s small so they get a few new bruises that donghyun just refuses to heal

we love evil donghyun

you also go to their volleyball matches and seungmin trusts you enough to tell you what glimpses he got of the game but you always remind him the future may not be set in stone and regardless of what he sees you always cheer him on just as loudly

all the boys come piling into the juice bar after games and you smile and give seungmin a free drink while everyone else has to pay

they decry favoritism but you just shrug and kiss seungmin over the counter while they scream

dramatic assholes

jaehyun - gravity manipulation

so like casey said jaehyun can manipulate the gravity of objects, either send them floating up in the air or slamming down on the round

which sucks if the object in question is a volleyball and it comes pounding down on his toes when he isn’t paying attention

this happened at the first ever volleyball practice he attended and the boys (read: jibeom) have yet to let it fucking go

his husky voice doesn’t help because when he complains jibeom the boys just imitate his voice which derails the entire practice and now coach + daeyeol + team manager who’s jangjun’s s/o are all lying facedown on the ground like when will this madness end

never. the answer is never

but it’s ok jaehyun gets his revenge when they’re all practicing and he sends jibeom’s ball flying up into the air and refuses to let it come down and when he does the ball drops right on jibeom’s head and whoops look who’s got a concussion hey donghyun can you fix this

jaehyun is also one of the few occasional lifesavers (literally) besides team manager + donghyun because given enough warning, he can manipulate the gravity on one of jangjun’s maybe too strong serves and make it come down more softly than it would’ve otherwise

the problem is he isn’t super adept with his power

more experienced students will be able to manipulate gravity very subtly, but jaehyun more or less has three settings - floating, slamming down, and very occasionally something in between

which isn’t exactly ideal but jaehyun’s working on it, it’s fine, he’s not too pressed about it

anyway you’re a student at the school for students with superpowers in the next city over and you play basketball

you don’t know jaehyun but he sure as hell knows you because even though he stopped playing basketball a few years ago to focus on volleyball, he still loves the sport and he happens to think you’re one of the best players he’s ever see

also you’re really cute

jaehyun goes to every single basketball game that’s against your school just to watch you play

he doesn’t really do much other than watch because a) he’s so focused on your performance that he doesn’t register much else and b) everyone would clown him for cheering your team on skdjgskjg

also jaehyun’s just shy. like really shy you couldn’t catch him approaching you/showing interest towards you unless someone forced it out of him

which is what his lovely friends from 99 line decide to do

they obviously know about his crush like joochan was with him the first time jaehyun went to watch a basketball game against your school so he SAW the heart eyes

he took a picture and sent it to jibeom who sent it to donghyun and now it’s the profile picture for their group chat dedicated to making sure jaehyun asks you out

jaehyun has no knowledge of this group chat because he’s oblivious

anyway one day after a game they’re in the parking lot bc jaehyun’s driving this time and jaehyun is babbling about oh my god y/n was so great this time they’re literally so good at basketball holy shit?? and while he’s talking he doesn’t notice jibeom/joochan/donghyun like. subtly pushing him closer and closer to your team who’s just waiting around the bus you’ll take to get back to your school

and only when you look up does jaehyun realize he’s now close enough for you to have heard literally everything he just said in the past minute or so

cue the awkward crow noises as you and jaehyun just stare at each other

suddenly the backpack in jaehyun’s hand just drops onto his foot and if it weren’t for the steel-toed sneakers he’s gotten in the habit of wearing then he’d probably have a broken foot

as such he kind of lets out a quiet dying screech (it HURTS) and now jibeom/donghyun/joochan are dying like three feet away meanwhile your friends are screaming into their hands like Y/N IT’S A CUTE BOY YOU LIKE CUTE BOYS TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY YOU IDIOT

and when nothing happens for five seconds beyond jaehyun’s ears turning tomato red joochan steps forward and is like hello my friend here is whipped for you so if you’re comfortable would you please give him your number because he’s been dying for it since like. last year when we saw you play for the first time

jaehyun nearly launches himself at joochan like SHUT UP DUDE but then you’re handing over your phone while looking away because fuck jaehyun’s really cute and you wouldn’t mind getting to know him okay??

(who wouldn’t though that’s the real question)

anyway the two cities aren’t too big so it’s not that hard for you and jaehyun to meet up for coffee at some point (which jaehyun surprisingly gets the courage to initiate - he reasons it as he’s the one who was interested first so he kind of has to be the one to do it but that doesn’t mean he’s screaming throughout the entire text conversation) and after a semi-awkward first interaction you two surprisingly hit it off and after a few weeks you’re dating

you’re the ultimate athletic couple like jaehyun does volleyball and you do basketball and sometimes you play each other in the park or jaehyun starts teaching you how to play volleyball and it’s really cute

over the summer your friend group + golcha goes to the beach to hang out and jaehyun sees firsthand how much you’ve improved at volleyball

i didn’t mention it earlier but your power is water manipulation which not only comes in handy with putting out youngtaek’s inadvertent flames but also is very useful in splashing your friends + golcha all at once at the beach when no one else is looking

of course everyone just piles on you and sends you flailing into the ocean and maybe you choke on seawater because you’re laughing so hard but jaehyun pulls you out and your first kiss tastes like salty ocean and even with the rest of your friends + golcha screaming it’s perfect

water manipulation also helps when they dump you both into the ocean and you just kinda make a bubble where it’s deep enough and kiss jaehyun there (yeah pjo the last olympian vibes deal with it)

daeyeol gets worried when you don’t come up and then you surface a second later in his face and he screams it’s glorious

you use your power to strip away your sweat after basketball practice and jaehyun begs you to do it for him too after volleyball practice when you’re there which of course you do because you’re a nice s/o

when he gets a little better at the subtleties of his power jaehyun likes to lift you up using his gravity manipulation and spin you around it’s really cute

you show up to jaehyun’s volleyball games against your school to cheer him on despite the fact that one of your friends is on your school’s volleyball team skdjgshkd (and maybe jaehyun accidentally drops the volleyball HARD on his foot the first time you scream his name)

jaehyun starts doing the same when it comes to your basketball games he is no longer shy about screaming your name from his school’s side of the bleachers :)

his friends call him a traitor but jaehyun doesn’t really care because he’s the one who gets to kiss you after your games so who’s the real winner here?

him obviously

jibeom - invisibility

casey i think this blurb was my favorite, it’s so fucking funny and literally so jibeom

so like casey said jibeom can turn invisible which is really fun for him and a nightmare for everyone else because he’ll just sneak up on people and be like BOO

if you have a weak heart you better stay vigilant

but there are also issues because like casey came up with sometimes jibeom accidentally turns invisible during a fucking game and gets confused as to why no one’s serving to him until one of his teammates or the coach on the sidelines notices he’s gone and is like JIBEOM YOU’RE FUCKING INVISIBLE

it’s fine the school only ever plays sports against other supernatural schools to avoid spreading the secret about superpowers to regular humans so people are used to this kind of shit but it’s embarrassing for jibeom skdjgshjg

he’ll try to put his ability to his advantage by turning invisible when he’s supposed to be running laps/doing drills and hoping daeyeol/coach/team manager don’t notice

at this point though they always do and then it’s another five laps/set of drills for him

big sad

anyway jibeom’s just living his invisible life you know being a little shit with everyone

mocking jaehyun’s voice and turning invisible when jaehyun tries to swipe at him

sneaking up behind his friends and scaring them even if it means he gets decked in the face (that’s one thing he won’t repeat with jangjun. like the dude doesn’t get scared easily but if he gets startled... the super strength is not a blessing for jibeom if he doesn’t move fast enough)

and then you transfer to the school

so you used to go to the school jaehyun’s parter goes to but your family moved or smth so now you’re here and jaehyun’s the only person you even vaguely know so you kinda stick around and become friends

and of course jaehyun introduces you to the rest of golcha

now jibeom is in the gym. invisible okay. waiting for jaehyun to show up so he can do his daily scare-jaehyun-because-i’m-a-little-shit routine

then you walk into the gym with jaehyun and the first thing you fucking say is there are thirteen people in this room (10 golcha members + you + team manager + coach) but i only see twelve so who’s the invisible one walking up right behind jaehyun

jaehyun fucking screams, a whole crate of volleyballs goes tumbling to the floor because gravity manipulation + jaehyun getting scared go hand in hand, everything is in chaos, youngtaek+joochan+jangjun are crying of laughter at jaehyun’s reaction, and jibeom is now standing visible behind jaehyun wide-eyed and surprised because how the fuck did you know

turns out your power is being able to sense/locate invisible things including invisible jibeoms so the rest of golcha + manager + coach think you’re a lifesaver because finally someone can find jibeom whenever he disappears

wrong

like yeah if jibeom has disappeared in the middle of practice you’ll yell and be like KIM JIBEOM GET YOUR ASS OUT AND PRACTICE YOU DUMB PIECE OF SHIT

is it a surprise that you and daeyeol’s partner hit it off in less than five seconds

but if jibeom’s disappearing just to be a little shit you’ll purposely point people in the wrong direction like you’ll reassure youngtaek that oh no jibeom’s over there trying to scare seungmin and then jibeom appears right behind youngtaek and now both of you are cackling on the floor and youngtaek is about to set your backpacks on fire

you may have joined the school late but now you are an honorary 99 line member regardless of what year you were actually born in i don’t care they don’t care they’re just happy to have another ball of chaos to join their ranks

coach considers banning you from the gym but daeyeol reminds him that if he wants to ban you he’ll have to ban everyone else who comes in to visit and cause chaos aka his partner and you know daeyeol needs his hugs before practice so that isn’t going to happen

so you get to stay

most of the time it’s fine like you just sit in the bleachers and do homework while occasionally yelling at jibeom or other slackers, it’s only really during breaks that you act up

so anyway even though you’re an honorary 99 line member you spend most of your time with jibeom pulling dumb tricks or being unintentionally funny as fuck

therefore it is only logical that the rest of 99 line starts pushing you two together

fucking meddling brats

they do all the normal stupid shit like announcing outings to malls and ditching you two alone, deciding to go to the movies and ditching you two alone, you see the idea

look they’ve got pea brains they can’t come up with much

but get this: you and jibeom are already dating

yeah. you both started fucking dating a few months after meeting because you were both having a late night study session at your house and your tongues were loose with exhaustion and you may or may not have said some stuff you weren’t planning to

you almost kissed but then you were like it’s almost midnight and we haven’t brushed our teeth so maybe not tonight

it’s fine jibeom got a kiss the next day (the whole day he acted like he wasn’t waiting for it at all and you teased him for that before finally leaning in)

you haven’t kept your relationship secret out of shame or embarrassment or anything you both just kinda want to see how far 99 line + rest of golcha will go to get you two together. plus it’s nice when they buy you movie theater tickets when they just plan to ditch so you don’t have to pay for the date you end up having

it’s really fucking funny the more frustrated they get so you and jibeom don’t let up until daeyeol catches you two kissing just outside the locker room after you thought everyone left (NOTHING FUCKING NASTY OKAY THIS IS A SFW PLACE AND BEYOND THAT - NO ONE HERE IS GOING TO DO A N Y T H I NG OUTSIDE A L O C K E R R O O M)

shit goes down in the volleyball group chat that night but you and jibeom are just sitting together on his couch laughing at everything

99 line definitely holds a grudge

daeyeol won’t shut up about how he needs to clean his eyes out with bleach (as if he doesn’t want to kiss his partner every five seconds jfc)

coach just despairs over the chaos you two bring

but you and jibeom don’t care :)

side note you know what’d be fun - if you don’t have the slightest fashion sense like jibeom and you two become known for wearing stripes + whatever your favorite design happens to be all the damn time

idk i just think it’d be funny to watch everyone trying to clown you but literally neither of you giving a shit

donghyun - healing

so like casey said donghyun has healing abilities

and first and foremost he would like to say he’s tired of healing the injuries these idiots get every practice

i mean he’s not going to refuse treatment for like a jammed finger or a sprained ankle because that’s normal in volleyball or even burns from youngtaek/joochan because that’s just accidentally losing control which could happen to anyone but like??? falling over because you tried to prank jangjun and he basically backhanded you out of surprise??? that’s on you jibeom

kidding kidding donghyun will heal whatever’s been set on golcha but he WILL complain about it the whole time

that’s his right ok if he has to deal with this bunch of idiots (who also don’t fucking clean up after themselves) he’s going to complain about it with his whole chest

which is not a very broad chest but donghyun can talk a Long time so that more than makes up for it

gets teased by all the other team members but they’re really grateful for him not just because of his healing abilities + affinity for cleaning but also because he really does care for them

and as much as he complains he’ll do as much healing as needed, even if it drains his energy

but there are two major cons of his abilities

1. using his power too much (like all other powers) drains him of energy, so if he heals one too many injuries at a time then he’s in danger of also passing out

it isn’t usually a problem because it’s not like golcha gets injured every five seconds but some practices are more accident prone than others

once joochan fell and broke his leg and donghyun passed out trying to heal it and ended up in the hospital too. not fun

2. he can’t use his power on himself. like if sungyoon fractures his finger donghyun can fix that no big deal but he can’t do the same to himself healing just doesn’t work that way

it is for this reason that each sports team has a designated healer who isn’t a member of the team - of course if the team has a member who is a healer that’s useful, but they need to keep their energy up + they can’t heal themselves which is a problem

anyway the last healer for the volleyball team graduated last year so you come in to take their place

you’re super nice to golcha like you heal their injuries whenever anything happens no matter how stupid it was and they start making jokes about how you’re more helpful than donghyun haha because you don’t complain/nag about everything

and like donghyun knows they’re teasing but at the same time... it kinda hurts

what makes it worse is that you’re nothing but nice to him as well? like it’d be so much easier to dislike you if you were rude

so donghyun just kinda... avoids you and doesn’t say anything about it to anyone. does his absolute best to avoid getting injured so he doesn’t have to be around you any more than necessary

and several times you try to make conversation but he just brushes you away which leaves you confused and makes donghyun feel worse but he really doesn’t know what else to do

then one bad day he jumps up but misses the ball and falls on his leg hard. like really hard and there’s pain shooting up his side but he can’t feel a break or anything so he just gets up and tries to keep playing, like practice ends in five minutes anyway he may as well continue

but you call out and say to stop practice, donghyun’s hurt

except donghyun has had a really bad day and this is just the icing on the cake so he may or may not yell at you to go away, he’s fucking fine, and when you keep pressing he just grabs his stuff and leaves

the second he gets home he collapses on the floor and just... stays there because yeah he may not have broken anything but his leg hurts like a bitch and then he starts crying

skips school the next day because he feels like absolute shit (mentally and physically) but 99 line comes to visit and they’re like so. explain what happened yesterday at practice

and donghyun is ready to get defensive but they’re more confused than anything, his outburst wasn’t like him at all and why would he yell at you? you never did anything wrong

that’s when donghyun breaks down and tells them everything about how he’s felt over the past few months with you as the new healer

it ends in a big cuddle session between four idiots and apologies and donghyun promises to apologize to you tomorrow

which he does. and surprisingly you’re really gracious about it, it makes donghyun feel worse yet again because you’re so genuine and nice and you even offer to heal his leg again because it looks like it still hurts

the teasing decreases and donghyun feels much better, he also stops brushing you off and actually begins hanging out with you a little outside of school/practice

and while working late on a group project for history (your other group mates ditched you two and donghyun is still seething over it) he realizes that this has evolved into a stupid crush

said crush is only compounded when you tell the teacher half of your group did absolutely nothing without donghyun having to say anything

but of course since donghyun 1. is an idiot and 2. pretended to hate you for several long months he doesn’t say anything

until you fucking ask him to the end of the year dance. you ask him to the dance and donghyun thinks joochan has given him electric shock because his brain definitely has to be malfunctioning

after five solid seconds of short-circuiting he nods like an idiot and haha you’re going to the dance together

golcha boys won’t shut the fuck up about how cute it is or whatever

donghyun blushes red while you just smile serenely and promise not to heal their injuries for the next week so they better avoid getting hurt

yeah donghyun is definitely in love with you

you’re probably a more low-key couple, you enjoy study dates or quiet activities more than like. amusement parks or whatever kind of shit joochan/jangjun subject their partners to

you might kiss in public if the moment feels right but more often than not the only real pda you show is holding hands which makes golcha coo

donghyun would rather hug you sweetly in private without worrying about his teammates trying to ruin the moment anyway

you agree but then proceed to kiss his nose in front of everyone and whoops he’s a blushing mess and golcha (+ the coach) are screaming

sigh

joochan - electricity

ah yes, the ultimate question: which hurts more, electric burns or fire burns?

join the golden child volleyball team and you can experience both firsthand!

jk (not really) but between joochan and youngtaek, golcha kinda has their pick of what kinds of burns to get (other than like. rope burn or burns from sliding on the ground idk)

like casey said it’s v lucky donghyun/his partner are around to heal them because really trying to slap a volleyball with a burnt hand is not fun

most of the time though joochan’s fine, he’s just full of energy and gets staticky when excited and like casey came up with the boys will sometimes dare each other to touch his hair when it’s sticking straight up and get shocked

or if you’re a bitch like jangjun you’ll take someone’s hand and purposely place it there so they get shocked

(jangjun’s also stupid though so he gets shocked by proxy if joochan’s staticky enough)

(i mean at least it makes everyone laugh???)

(yes this was inspired by that one video where he and bomin (i think) are playing with the lie detector (or was it the jangstar episode with daeyeol?? i can’t remember) and he put his hand over bomin’s/daeyeol’s and got wrecked too)

jesus christ this is supposed to be about joochan not jangjun let’s get back on track

anyway when joochan gets worked up either out of excitement or a more negative emotion the one thing that never fails to calm him down is music

he can play several instruments and sings very well

so if it’s been a bad day or he’s feeling anxious, he’ll either go to the school music rooms of his own accord or daeyeol will notice and send him there to calm down a little before practice

which is where he finds you!

joochan’s playing the piano one day, singing n stuff and completely oblivious to you sleeping under the goddamn piano

how did you end up there? you were waiting for a friend/sibling (whichever one you choose) to finish up some after school activity so you could walk home together and you were sleepy and under the piano seemed like a decent place to nap so you set an alarm and passed out

look high school is draining so if you’re not making the best decisions by the end of the day who can blame you

and the piano is a real grand (let’s pretend the school has money shall we) so unless joochan was really looking (which he wasn’t), he wouldn’t have noticed you at the back

joochan’s there for a couple hours playing peacefully

AND THEN YOUR ALARM FUCKING RINGS

joochan screams and falls off the stool

you shoot up and hit your head on the bottom of the piano

for a moment you two just groan in pain and then you look at each other and are like. what the fuck

and then it’s your turn to scream

anyway you both stop screaming eventually (miraculously no one comes in) and you try to explain to joochan as best you can and he just stays silent and you’re apologizing and then he busts out laughing

and somehow both of you are laughing through the pain and even though joochan wasn’t feeling too good earlier he feels even better laughing with you

when you eventually leave you have a new number in your phone and the promise of seeing joochan tomorrow :)

first thing joochan does when you go is text the 99 line group chat and be like guys someone fell asleep under the piano while i was playing and then woke up and my butt hurts from falling off the stool out of surprise but i think i’m in love

donghyun: stop being dramatic

jibeom: yeah what’ll happen when you accidentally shock them for the first time

joochan: you guys are horrible

but it turns out jibeom is... actually a little bit right

and it’s even worse. because your power is over water

water + electricity Do Not Mix

it isn’t usually too big of a problem? because it’s not like you conjure water out of anywhere or are always soaking wet bc you need water around to manipulate it, you can’t create it yourself

so like it’s kind of fine

except for some reason you react a little worse to joochan’s electric shocks (even mild ones) primarily due to your power which isn’t fun at all

it’s not just you, water manipulators are known to have more averse reactions to electric shocks than people with other powers

but it sucks because you really like joochan and he really likes you and both of you definitely want to ask each other out but how is this going to work if just being around joochan might be a hazard to you?

and for the first time joochan just... he really hates his power

like he’s given people some small burns before on accident but they weren’t big

with you though, even if it’s a small shock you react more badly than anyone expects and joochan really fucking hates it

after several volleyball practices where joochan is really out of it, daeyeol is about to ask what’s up but surprisingly jangjun steps up and says let me handle it

because after getting together with his partner, he thinks he has an idea of what joochan’s upset about

and when he asks joochan spills everything

it’s the first time joochan has really seen jangjun serious about anything other than volleyball or his partner

so jangjun tells joochan about what his partner told him, and really knocking someone unconscious once or twice isn’t as bad (though still bad) as getting electrocuted by a stray fucking spark

but similar advice applies. all powers have a destructive side and it shouldn’t stop joochan from living, he just has to learn to control himself as best as he can. there’s nothing more he can do but that

and this gives joochan the courage to ask if you want to talk about it

i’m going to say it ends well because i’m the author and i’m not going to give joochan a sad ending (he’s joochan what the fuck how could you do that to him) but you do acknowledge what could happen if either of you loses control

which just makes you two more determined to completely master your abilities so you won’t inadvertently hurt each other

really it’s sweet. joochan is still excitable but sparks fly off of him a lot less and the few that do you take care to avoid until his hair stops sticking up with static

and you take care to keep water away from him when he’s full of electricity

when joochan kisses you for the first time your lips tingle like his electricity is bleeding into you but it’s pleasant and sweet unlike his sparks and it just makes you want to kiss him all the time

(you tell that to him and he has to take like five minutes to figure out how to breathe again)

99 line won’t stop clowning you two for how you met and jibeom shows you the text about being in love that joochan sent

legend says you can still hear jibeom’s electrocuted (not really he’s just being dramatic) screams in the gym late at night

yeah it’s cute you like bringing joochan roses bc they’re his favorite flower and joochan likes to bring you your favorite snacks and jangjun + his partner view you two like younger siblings in a way bc of the nature of your relationship

one big happy family until joochan’s hair sticks up and you have to yeet away

it’s fine though as long as you give him a kiss after he’s calmed down :)

bomin - mind reading

this one turned out so long compared to the others why

for context this was 1.7k and the others were all comfortably between 1k or 1.2k i'm gonna scream

anyway. bomin. mind reader like casey said. he’s kind of got it bad

well all mind readers do until they learn to block off their ability until they actually want to use it

which bomin is learning but he’s young and he found out his powers a little late so he doesn’t have as much experience

meaning whenever he goes to school his head kind of feels like it’s going to explode :/

it’s okay in volleyball - actually if anything it’s kind of useful

because yeah bomin is focused on the game, but he keeps a bit of his mind open to his teammates’ thoughts so he knows where to move or where to keep open and all that

and if the other team is a bunch of assholes he doesn’t stop from reading their minds a little so golcha’s ready to take them on :) small advantages

so where volleyball is concerned it’s not that big of an issue, even when the gym is full of spectators bomin can usually focus even without latching onto an empty mind because there’s so much going on in the game and he has to concentrate on that

however in uninteresting classes or when he’s just having a not good day...

luckily it’s gotten better after a year or so, like bomin can mostly filter out the world if he focuses on just one person’s thoughts

which is usually youngtaek (as casey + irl bomin came up with) because quote unquote ‘there’s not much going on up there’

yes i know i said that already in youngtaek’s part but it’s still hilarious to me and now it’s bomin’s turn so i’m saying it again. sue me

except now youngtaek has a partner about whom he thinks all the fucking time if he isn’t focusing on music/volleyball/class (though the last one is a little less frequent) so concentrating on youngtaek’s mind is now not exactly an option for bomin

no one’s mind is really empty at this point or at least not empty enough for bomin to use as a sort of safe space so he just resigns himself to having to go through all of this until he finally gets the hang of blocking off his ability

so the school year ends and daeyeol/sungyoon graduate wonderful blah blah blah long story short bomin is in all new classes with many new people and it is... a bit much

but life goes on and there’s not much bomin can do about things except work on his own power so even though he’s kinda crumbling around the edges he just smiles and bears it

and then he gets paired with you for a school project. at first it’s not anything special, just a regular project right

but then you guys decide to meet up at a cafe to work on it and it’s more crowded than either of you expected and bomin hasn’t had the greatest day so he just... stops in the middle of the cafe with this weird expression on his face because he’s just really overwhelmed

he doesn’t expect you to grab his wrist and drag him out of the cafe and into a quieter area of the street

and he really doesn’t expect you to say hey. focus on my mind, okay? my mind. focus.

but he manages to and there’s just blissful emptiness and bomin latches on like it’s his lifeline (in a way, it is) and after a few minutes he manages to get his head together

turns out you have a sibling at home who’s also a mind reader and when they were still learning to control their power you learned to empty your thoughts temporarily so they’d have a place to focus on if things got to be too much

you also have a golden tongue (that you always control carefully) but it helps calm bomin down after he says it’s fine if you use it

after that you tell him if he’s having a mini crisis he can always find you

and bomin just about cries because after daeyeol/sungyoon graduated he kind of felt like his support network at school was missing something bc as much as he clowns them (daeyeol especially) he really relied on both to talk to about his mind-reading issues

now that you’re offering to support him... it just means a lot

definitely doesn’t help that he’s had a bad day in general and his emotions are kinda fraught at this point

you don’t end up getting anything done that day, you just take bomin over to your house bc no one’s there and your family won’t mind even if he’s still there when they get home, so you just take the time to get to know each other a little when bomin feels good enough to interact

he apologizes a lot for nothing getting done but you just hit him and tell him to shut up, it’s not his fault and you still have a couple weeks to work on it so it’s fine

you guys work on the project and it goes well in the end but even after that you and bomin still stay in contact

since you have a sibling who went through the same stuff bomin did, you have some tips to share about blocking out other minds even if your power isn’t the same

plus your golden tongue is really useful in calming bomin during the moments he needs it. you always make sure to get his permission to use it before you do though

when bomin asks about it you say it’s because of consent and stuff and if you don’t get permission it feels more like manipulation than helping?

to him the similarities between you and daeyeol on that end are uncanny (even if you’re less awkward sorry not sorry daeyeol) and bomin just admires you all the more for it

anyway life’s going well, you and bomin are really good friends now but maybe like halfway through the year or something bomin senses that you’re becoming a little more closed off?

like he does his best not to read your mind but sometimes he gets accidental glimpses and though they’re usually pretty free (as in you don’t care what you’re thinking about around him) he now gets less of these glimpses and when he does, your mind seems emptier than usual

and he doesn’t want to bring it up? because that equals admitting he reads your mind sometimes no matter how accidental it is and with your emphasis on consent with your power bomin isn’t sure how well you’d take it

but then you avoid him for like two weeks so bomin breaks down about it to daeyeol over the phone and yeah it’s time for you two to talk

it takes some awkward silence and prodding and really big effort on bomin’s part to not willingly see what you’re thinking but the gist of it is

you have a fat crush on bomin and you’ve been avoiding him because you don’t want him to accidentally see any of it

bomin is like... y/n what the heck i have a crush on you too why didn’t you say anything :(

anyway it’s time for big reveals i guess so bomin admits he accidentally sees into your mind every so often and he feels really bad about it but you’re super understanding bc of your sibling of course

and bomin feels kind of stupid for worrying so much he should’ve thought of that but oh no now you’re hugging him and saying sorry into his shirt so pretty much all thoughts fly out of his mind because maybe this is a little like heaven to bomin

dating you is so refreshing. he’s so happy to have someone around who completely understands like yeah there are other mind readers in the school but it’s not as common a power as others and they’ve been masters at blocking out the world for a long while that they’ve kinda forgotten about how it feels to a beginner

but you’re so sweet and understanding and bomin feels even better when he meets your sibling who teases you two of course but also serves as another pillar of support for him

it’s not just one-sided either. like even though bomin tries not read your mind without permission, he’s still good at picking up on your moods even if you’re not explicit which makes it so much easier to trust and confide in him

and even if you’re not in the mood to talk he gets that too - he won’t force you to do anything

on the occasions when even you can’t pick through your own thoughts you let bomin take a peek in and even if he can’t help in the moment it’s enough that someone else knows and understands :)

you’re so fucking cute together. like the rest of golcha coos over you. even donghyun who’s the most low-key with his partner jfc

daeyeol and sungyoon come back from university to visit and bomin’s like. we’ve got to hide

you: why

bomin: just trust me

long story short you do not (you: they’re your former teammates and friends! how bad can it be?) and uh by the end of the day maybe you’ve had enough teasing about you/bomin for the rest of your life

but when he’s not teasing you do hit it off with daeyeol bc of the same powers thing and secretly bomin’s really happy that two of the people he treasures the most get along so well

yeah you and bomin are just super cute and rely on each other a lot in a healthy way and you’re always there for each other

everyone wishes they had as nice a relationship as you two :)

you: you shouldn’t. bomin teases me every five fucking seconds about something i did like three months ago

bomin: and yet you love me :)

you: debatable

bomin :|

(it’s ok you kiss him later and he gets smiley again which you delight in seeing even if he does go back to teasing you five seconds later)

If you enjoyed, please don’t forget to reblog and leave a comment to tell me what you thought! Thank you for reading and have a lovely day <3

(1 reblog = 1 prayer for the team coach he needs some support dealing with all these brats)

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Late on the whole 'why do you follow me' but you literally give off some of the most (unintentional) batshit intimidating vibes on this site. Its great, refreshing even. Finding a big functional adult creator who interacts w their audience in a candid way/cuts the BS is a very novel thing for me and. man idk. tumblruser OT3 is this cool orb on my shelf I ponder sometimes.

On the one hand I DEEPLY admire your work and persona. Very much so. but on the other, there's nothing i'd want less than to to interact with you beyond this very shallow, very fun social convention you've set up here with these asks. Like. Like i'd definitely come to you for some personal sage wisdom (which is pretty weird, idk you) but then you interact with my posts on occasion and then i feel like. Blindsided. This should be a one way street. Am i making sense.

well im glad at least someone thinks im functional because let me tell you not very high up on the list of words i used to describe myself i am sort of in shambles right now on most levels. but also i feel like in general i think this ask is less flattering than you intended it to be.

as much as its good to understand that you don't really know people online i think it's also kind of not great to assume that they have a social media persona either. like this is not a persona this is just my Personality. i'm just like this. if i was going to construct some idealized or curated social media presence it would not look like this at all. i would much rather come off as someone who is distinctly less emotionally volatile and stop getting mad about petty fandom stuff that doesn't matter. but unfortunately i can't do that even when i try so it's all more or less what it says on the tin.

i really do appreciate the admiration, don't get me wrong, it's genuinely heartening to know people look up to me in any way. but i don't think there's ever a way to tell a person 'the way you behave makes me not want to interact with you the way id interact with a normal person' that doesn't feel kind of weird to receive.

like, i dont know theres always this strange back and forth where half the people Online are like 'if you want to be friends with people online start acting like youre already friends!' and the other half are like 'avoid overfamiliarity with internet strangers because theyre not your friends and you mean nothing to them' and i think the much happier medium is to treat internet strangers not like friend and not like a completely different species but just as a peer you haven't really engaged with yet. like. it absolutely SHOULD be a two way street that's what Online is for. if i was only interested in output and didn't want any input i just wouldn't reply to anybody.

it's a little weird to hear 'i would ask you for advice but i don't want to actually have a regular interaction with you.' i'm not sitting here in some zoo enclosure that other people are coming up to, we're both just sort of wandering around the mall and bumping into each other occasionally. like i'm not trying to sit here and soapbox at the greater tumblr population it just comes off like that because im wordy and opinionated but for the most part i just say whatever comes to mind and engage in any discussion that feels fun or interesting to me.

the sort of conception you have of me seems to be way more tactical or hierarchical and structured than what im actually doing and i guess that's something i'm a bit sensitive about, personally. for some reason for a not insignificant amount of people have seemed to get the impression that i am somehow manipulative or strategically inauthentic in my social interactions and it's caused a lot of problems for me. but like i just like talking about things online really and it can be kind of alienating to hear stuff like this. if that makes any sense

#oh this is a lot of paragraphs sorry im in a weird mood today

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do u have any tips on how to start drawing and get better?

hi anon! to be completely honest i have no idea what the fuck i’m doing but my single most earnest piece of advice is to draw. do it. draw. don’t think, don’t stress, don’t exhibit self doubt-- draw.

here’s a list of things that aren’t worth thinking about: - how good everyone around you is - how other people will see your art - your current skill level - what you know you are capable of accomplishing and what you believe you are not - how hard the thing you want to draw is - how impossible it is to create - how you cannot do anything - how you are incredibly new to this and therefore incapable of creating something incredible - how many bodies there are left

drawing is a process, a habit, a mindset, a physical motion, a heartfelt emotion, drawing is: many things. but thinking about drawing isn’t and never will be, like, Drawing.

ok i know i sound like i’m high as fuck so i’m going to contextualize this now dab. i have been scared of backgrounds for my whole life. my entire life. all of my 19 years i have been bitter and resentful and dumb. then at the start of december i decided to challenge myself to do a 15 minute photo study every day because i was tired of being scared shitless of backgrounds and now everything has changed by taylor swift feat. ed sheeran. this worked because 15 minutes isn’t very long and therefore isn’t that intimidating but also because i was forced by my own word to put in consistent work over a fixed period of time. this also worked because i made a firm decision to only use the photographs that the momentum browser extension displays on your new tab screen every day which means i had a choice between exactly two photographs every day (firefox or chrome?) and was forced to confront some of my demons instead of looking for an easy way out. finally, and most importantly, when i sat down each day with my photo reference i didn’t let myself think about how fucked up this photo was. i didn’t let myself think about how completely fucking impossible it was for me to recreate this batshit insane image. i smashed the start timer button before i could get nervous and shut my brain off and focused all my energy on making the canvas look like the photograph and somehow over the course of 26 days my body and brain and soul (???? if i have one) figured something out.

here’s december 7th

here’s december 24th

december 15th

december 26th

december 12th

december 23rd

and then on december 24th i was like i want to try doing something different. i want to draw something from my favorite video game and current obsession the legend of zelda breath of the wild. and so i took a moment away from redrawing scenery and tried to do something different and serious and to my complete fucking surprise it didn’t turn out a disaster. it turned into this

i wouldn’t have been able to do this if i hadn’t done twenty-four shitty 15 minute photo studies before that. i wouldn’t have been able to pick colors, render shapes, account for lighting, et cetera, et cetera, because i only learned about how the shape of your lines and the direction of your movement and the different colors you use can affect a drawing by suffering through making some really shitty choices earlier on in the month. i wouldn’t have dared to try this at all if i hadn’t been fucking around for three weeks before that, getting my ass handed to me every day for no good reason other than that i was mad and tired and tired of being mad. i wouldn’t have thought i could draw backgrounds at all.

obviously i still have a lot of work to do as i’ve only been at this for a month (people are another matter and i do not wish to perceive them) and i have zero technical advice to give because i have never taken a formal art course in my life but i do have something to say and it’s this: if you want to draw, draw. don’t give up. don’t give in to the fear and mindset that you’ll never be able to do something. you can start with fuckall knowledge of how to pick colors, use lighting, draw water, whatever, and figure them all out eventually. you can start out shit and become not-shit. what you need to do is keep drawing, and keep drawing, and keep drawing.

#asks #anon #Anonymous #no one bring this up on twitter im going to make a thread about this when december ends and i have a full month of studies to flex #honestly its been wack as hell and terrifying and the first few days each one looked so bad i slapped a gradient map on top and #pretended i'd done a 'good job' NOW I WISH I HADNT FILTERED ANYTHING i want to see how fucking bad i was at first #because boy i was really fucking bad #december 7th was one of my peak moments i truly shone on that day #anyway yeah i didnt like. make it Clear but i guess apart from DRAW THINGS BITCH #i want you to think about what you want to create and not what you think you Can create #because if you want to do it bitch you bet you can do it. maybe not today. maybe not next week. but eventually #idk i still suck ass la you can probably tell i am still incredibly what the fuck about it all #but there's a noticeable difference between the first few days and the last few and you know what #ill take that #thanks for the question anon #i send my blessings #want some chooclate? i have a lot of chocolate

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Fated to Love You here reaffirming my long held conviction that no pure romance drama should be 20+ episodes.

This show is... really something. It is, in the fullest possible sense, A Lot. It starts out as an all-out screwball comedy wrapped around a troperiffic romance fluff plot. Wall to wall clich��s, but not in a bad way; in a meta, self-aware, peak performance, finest Velveeta way. And if you’re not familiar with screwball comedy, think ‘light-hearted crack fic with slapstick and farce’. There is nothing believable or grounded about any aspect of it, it starts at Bonkers Level: Platinum and it only climbs higher as it goes on.

(On a side note, this results in the leading man being possibly the most memorable love interest in romcom history. His introduction scene is nothing short of batshit insane and you can't reliably predict how he will respond to anything. I have never seen a main character like this, he is all over the shop and utterly singular. Your first reaction to him is ‘wtf?’, your second and third reactions are ‘really?! this guy??’, your fourth reaction is ‘okay he do be mad hot tho’, your fifth and final reaction is ‘I cannot believe this performance exists, I have no idea what he is doing, but it is amazing.’

Appropriately(?) the actor who plays him is an uncanny Korean doppelgänger of Johnny Depp and- between the resemblance, the mannerisms, and the fearless total commitment to a bold as fuck acting choice with the very serious chops to back it up- I’m not convinced they aren’t half brothers separated at birth.

They do sabotage my happiness several times by starting to randomly style his (long, beautiful) hair very weird, fixing it right when the plot is rapidly circling the drain so he looks his hottest just as the show becomes briefly unwatchable, and then ruining him for the entire second half of the series by shearing it all off. WHY, my anguished cry goes up. Why do you do this?! Why does he have like seven hairstyles over the course of the show? Much later they even briefly give him that ubiquitous Kdrama Second Lead haircut with weirdly forward combed fringe in a solid straight line across the brow all the way back from the crown. It looks terrible on everyone and I hate it so much. This version was less bad than most but it is still bad. Anyway.)

So it’s an incredibly fun time to start but there are some problems with the tone and plot even in the first 9 episodes, including when the lovers start getting along really well right away and they’re both thoroughly decent people so there’s nothing keeping them from having a lovely time together making the best of the circumstances (forced/fake marriage). And, instead of introducing new conflict or advancing one of the dozen conflicts previously established and actually moving forward, there is a painfully contrived rehash of something they already dealt with which is then just never resolved. They make the hero leap to a conclusion his wife is nefarious after he’d already decided once that she isn’t (though it was completely reasonable for him to think she was- the fact that he decided to trust her so quickly just speaks to what kind of person he is), never try to find out more or talk to anyone about it, start pushing her away because of it, and have all this come to absolutely nothing. It only exists so he’ll stop being so incredibly nice to her and they won’t fall in love too fast.

You’d think they would have to eventually clear the air before the romance advances right? No. It wasn’t a real plot point, it was just a reset button to get them estranged and hostile again after they connect over their kindred spirits and we’ve spent a bunch of time showing how profoundly supportive and honourable our hero is. He’s being beautifully mature and selfless because he’s a really good dude (unusual for a romcom drama, right? for the main guy to be nice and considerate? to accept responsibility even if he doesn’t have to? Gun’s weird but he’s wonderful), but the writers need him to be cold and standoffish, so they just make him act like an unreasonable idiot for a while. He’s been thus far hugely proactive and direct and honest about everything, it’s one of his most prominent character traits, but suddenly he’s going to avoid confrontation in favour of being super passive aggressive?? Then the writers never solve it. Never! It just goes away. He got over it, I guess? He decided he doesn’t care if she’s a gold digger who deliberately trapped him? God forbid we have motivations that make sense and organic character drama, right? It's not like he didn't have totally valid reasons to be suspicious that could have led to legitimate conflict our heroine would struggle to vindicate herself from.

But anyway, apart from that kind of lazy bullshit, it’s a fine romance plot with extremely endearing characters who have great chemistry. They are fun and well-rounded and incredibly human despite all the silliness and OTT antics. Their relationship is hugely, hugely engaging and the dynamic is perfect, they really complement each other as characters and organically drive each other's arcs. There's the genuine depth and warmth and quiet pathos so often lacking from this kind of show. Things progress at a semi-reasonable pace. They work up to confessing their mutual feelings and get into some cute shenanigans before making out. It happens soon enough that you are not frustrated, but there's still plenty of build-up. Then- uh oh! We’re only 9 eps in and we have another 11 hours to fill with this fluffy plot!

Time for a bunch of absolute fucking nonsense. Time for our show, which has been so goofy and removed from reality it occasionally resembles a Monty Python skit, which has been so light it asks you to ignore the frankly incredibly fucked up implications of its premise for the sake of comedy (they were both drugged and proxy raped resulting in a pregnancy- the FL was a virgin prior to this and Gun had a girlfriend he wanted to propose to- and it was the FL’s family who did this to them: SUPER FUCKED UP), so farcical that it makes Some Like it Hot look like a gritty crime drama, that show to cover a bunch of serious heavy shit.

First, the rankest of melodrama. The families and the world all turn on our couple, but their love is true and will conquer all- UNTIL, he randomly collapses and gets convenient Soap Opera Amnesia. He’s forgotten their entire relationship and a series of coincidental pieces of misconstrued evidence, the machinations of his scheming ex girlfriend, the Soap Opera Doctor’s advice, and his closest confidants all going along with this conspire to make him believe (AGAIN) that his wife just wants his money.

This whole terrible episode is mercifully brief, but it just gets worse after his memory returns. This is where we get into the Noble Idiocy. The ‘pretend you don’t love them to “save them” from getting hurt by hurting them and making their important life decisions for them as if they don’t have a basic fucking right to decide that themselves’ kind. Which goes on for three FUCK years in the show. He wastes three years of their lives they could have spent together because he’s worried he might die young (in a terrible way) and doesn’t want to put her through that. And, of course, they inevitably get together later, so all he did was make it infinitely worse for her either way. To say nothing of how he thus couldn’t be there for her through the loss of their child. Possibly my most hated fucking trope of all time when done this way.

And, yep, you read that right. This show that has the single most batshit bonkers over the top slapstick I have ever seen in a kdrama, this show has a storyline where the fluffy romcom trope accidental pregnancy ends in massive trauma. Because she was standing around in the street after realising he does remember her (he continued to pretend he had amnesia after his memories came back, it’s all part of the stupid noble idiocy so I glossed over it) and gets hit by a car in the middle of their angst staring.

It is nearly Meet Joe Black levels of hilariously abrupt and incongruous.

so, blah blah, they lose their baby (there’s a very stupid whole thing about her telling everyone to save the baby instead of her- the baby is not far enough along for this to have been remotely viable. She is like 3 months pregnant. They all act like there’s a choice to be made between them and she’s mad at her husband for choosing to save her, but there was NO CHOICE. Either she lives or they both die! ffs I’m so irritated about this) and then he dumps her ~for her own good~~ because he loves her too much to make her go through losing him? So she loses him sooner?? right after their baby died???

Why do people in these stories always think being betrayed and abandoned for no reason and being incredibly angry at someone you love while also not getting to be with them is somehow less painful than making the best of your life together and then losing them against their will? ‘I will make her hate me and then she won’t be sad we broke up/I died!!!!’ is such a fucking galaxy brain take and I despise it with the heat of ten thousand suns. Fuck you, Spider-Man. You aren’t protecting anyone, the villains still know you love MJ and will still use her against you, you clod. Emotionally torturing the person you love is not going to make them not a target because the villains are not as fucking stupid as you two. Anyway.

Amnesia was right where I started fast-forwarding and skipping around (because I couldn’t bear it), but it only goes downhill from there. Maybe I would have toughed out more of the wretched middle part plot twist if they hadn’t cut all the hot guy’s hair off. If I’m going to watch total nonsense tedious melodrama, I need it to at least be pretty. I understand it was a Symbolic Haircut but damnit! Let me have this!

And it ultimately does the thing that kdramas seem obsessed with and which makes me want to claw out my own eyeballs with frustration. There’s a giant time skip, the female lead gets a personality transplant, all narrative momentum is lost, and the characters who eventually (at ENORMOUS length) get together permanently are essentially completely different characters with a completely different dynamic than the couple you were shipping for 90% of the story. It is so FUCKING unsatisfying and it is EVERYWHERE.

Not so much with this one because this one still had a lot of very romantic scenes late in the game, but most that do this, it’s also like all the romance is sucked out of the post-time skip episodes and the ending is a consolation prize instead of a triumphant culmination. Inevitably, the heroine abruptly cools off and is suddenly wary of the hero and wants this Important New Career she never mentioned until the penultimate episode but is now her one true life’s dream. What the apparently irresistible appeal is of these contrived separations and demure conclusions is I CANNOT FATHOM. I’m here for the fucking romance guys, you have not made Citizen Kane, please just indulge me with a big schmoopy finale.

And if not that, it’s frequently that there’s been so many random mood swings and so much shitty behaviour by the end that the relationship doesn’t make sense and you don’t know why they even bother to get back together.

I’m not inherently against all misunderstandings (they are the bread and butter of low stakes romance let’s be real) or attempts at noble idiocy from misguided characters, but the duration and seriousness of the drama these generate needs to be in proportion to how ridiculous they are. If your entire plot can be solved by a thirty second conversation there is NO REASON not to have and the continuation of the misunderstanding is a result of someone just NOT SPEAKING UP when any functional human being would have spoken up seven times by now IT’S BAD.

Do little cliff-hangers, whatever, but don’t draaaaagg out silly misconceptions into Shakespearean tragedy, it’s just wearying. It makes me hate the characters for acting like emotionally constipated toddlers with terminal stupidity. If there is so little trust, so little understanding, and so little basic patience between these people, they probably shouldn’t be dating, so try fucking harder, writers. And noble idiocy that is more than an impulse they fairly quickly see the error of is just insulting. You are not helping the other person, you are being domineering and selfish. I have a whole complex about wasting time and seeing endless parades of characters flushing years down the toilet for literally no reason gives me hives. Especially when the whole issue is about time!

(And, btw, so much of the plot is about how desperately the family needs an heir and everyone still wanting them to have kids the second time they get together- while the ~dilemma used to keep them apart is a GENETIC DISEASE which could STRIKE AT ANY TIME. Do you SEE THE PROBLEM WITH THIS WRITERS????? NO, I KNOW YOU DON’T. ommmmmmmmggggg that’s awful! So they’re just dooming more kids to Soap Opera Brain Disease? And maybe growing up without a father just as Gun did? And no one even considers suggesting adoption??? He never considers that he shouldn’t have biological children despite thinking he shouldn’t have a wife?)

ANYWAY. Please do watch the first nine episodes and the last three, it’s bananas. They are cute as fuck, Gun is The Best, and the tropey romance scenes are top quality. You don't get those things executed so well, it doesn't happen, so you need this in your life. The acting is of a calibre you never usually see in modern romcoms; these are people at the top of their game committing utterly and taking these characters completely seriously. In that way it is pure wish fulfilment for me as someone who loves romance and is almost always disappointed by popular romance media, and thus the show is incalculably special. But skip the middle. Just skip it. It's not worth the suffering. I find the tone whiplash honestly just this side of crass.

I’ve been thinking about it for over a week and I truly love the main characters so it did plenty right, but I just cannot with wedding the two things this show is trying to be together, especially when it goes so hard in two mutually exclusive directions. but also the Meet Joe Black sudden car accident device is not redeemable under any circumstances. Can we never do that again, please.

#fated to love you #kdrama #jang hyuk #writing

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k-liight · 3 years

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moar batshit crazy dreams lmao

okay so I had a LOT of crazy bullshit happen in my dreams last night and I gotta write it down before I forget it all because I remember a lot aksdklehgskf;sl the entire Lupin squad plus Zenigata was there... and so was Tom Holland, for some reason. XD"

so at first the gang and I were somehow lured into this trap where we were inside this force field and if we couldn't get out in 24 hours it'd, y'know... *gestures to throat* and for some reason solving the puzzle to get out involved digging into Zenigata's childhood, and apparently he was actually a little shit as a kid before shaping up sometime in his teen years lmao. somehow we were able to escape, I don't actually remember how, but once we did Goemon went absolutely HAM on the people responsible for trapping us, especially we found out they were being uhh, not very nice to innocent children. he got beat up pretty badly but the babies were saved ;w;

and that was just the pregame lmfao, the main dream started out with me walking past this castle and immediately wanting to see if it was open four tourism, so I kinda walked up, peeked in, and the place was absolutely BUSTLING. apparently the queen who owned and lived in it had most of it double as a recreation center to the public and everyone thought she was really sweet. I did too, at first, because she personally gave me a tour of the castle and even showed me her room and everything. everything in the castle was elaborate and intricate and beautiful, and I remember giving her requested advice on how to adjust the lighting in her suite so that it'd look less old-fashioned and more seductive even though she was in her mid-sixties lmao (still not looking that bad though XD)

then, by some crazy omniscience that often happens in dreams, I was able to witness the queen sleeping in her suite long after the castle was closed for the night. she somehow woke up in the middle of the night only to find that her bedroom had completely inversed it's color scheme somehow and all her floral paintings and Romanesque statues had turned demonic. she was scared shitless and went to see if the rest of the castle had changed- and it had. the walls and ceiling of the ballroom were completely black and everything else was glowing eerie colors, and all the other rooms seemed to haunt her just the same. she was too frightened to go back to sleep, and when daylight came everything returned back to normal but she was furious. the castle was open to the public again, and she asked all her employees if they had fucked around with the lights in the middle of the night without her permission, but nobody knew. I was visiting the castle again, but hiding from her because I was scared that she'd think I'd inadvertedly caused the mishap from that night. she got so mad that she ordered everything shut down until shit was figured out. for some reason, she also ordered her employees to pull out all the stops in investigating but refused to pay them shit until the mystery was solved or someone fessed up. they were pissed and threatened to quit, so there was a big arguement. in the midst of this chaos, Tom Holland casually strutted up the the stairs from the first floor below to the second, and somehow he seemed to know I was in danger so he discreetly gestured for me to come follow him. I stayed close behind him as he acted as casually as possible so to not look suspicious, and apparently he was a frequent visitor to this castle as he knew where everything was. for some reason he said the best idea was to go up to the third floor ballet studio, so we snuck up the grand stairs, but when we got there the doors to the studio were locked so we were stuck in the foyer. and then we heard the sound of angry guards approaching. oh dear. luckily just outside the foyer was a balcony, and the other floors had balconies directly below, so we sneaked out and climbed over the railing, lowering ourselves onto the balcony below until we reached the ground. we hid underneath the lowermost balcony until we were sure the queen and her guards had left the lookout from which we escaped. after that we made a run for it through the snow, but somehow we lost our shoes? so we were forced to run through cold snow in just our socks until we reached a sloping street. that's when we realized the guards had seen us run away somehow. thankfully for us, we were able to literally slide down the hill on our bellies not only for a quicker escape but also to keep our feet from getting any wetter. the good news was that Tom had parked his car not too far down the hill. the bad news was... he couldn't find it. he insisted that he parked it down the hill but all he saw was mediocre cheap cars and not his own. with the guards still chasing us, we were somehow able to slide through the streets and winded around to lose the guards. eventually it worked, and we stopped at this old store that just so happened to have both shoes and hand and foot warmers. the second we arrived suddenly Tom Holland was no longer Tom Holland but now my dear Goemon, and because this was already a batshit-crazy dream I didn't even think twice about the change lmao. (I was just happy to see Goemon ngl LOL.) he went into the shop- dunno why I didn't go in with him- and he came out with old sneakers big enough for me to fit some foot-warmers inside. they were actually a little loose at first, but I was able to get them on eventually lol.

after that we were off, but instead of running away from the castle more, we went back to it, because apparently Goemon wanted to fuck shit up with his Zantetsuken lmao. so he charged right in, me following close behind him, and just went completely ham, going straight through shit and cutting everything in his way. whether he was getting revenge on the queen for treating me badly or just wanted to cause mass destruction, I'm not sure lmao. at some point we ran into some guards who also had swords, but in true Goemon fashion, he kicked their asses and had them running for their lives after he sliced their own swords clean off. making one last cut through the back doors, he put an arm around me and just... casually strutted out of the castle rather than running away more lmao. at first I was like oh shit what if more guards come after us but I felt safe with him by my side, nothing to worry about X3 but then we heard ol' Zenigata yelling for us but Goemon just straight-up ignored him... and then I woke up. yeah, it was pretty crazy shit XD"

#it's possible that Goemon was just disguised as Tom but he's 3 inches taller lmao #Light's stupid stuff #dream #lupin iii #goemon ishikawa xiii #everyone else was there but not long enough to be important lmao #and...#tom holland #only my brain would dream up this shit. LMFAO

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popculturebuffet · 4 years

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OK K.O.! Let’s Be Heroes!: You’re Everybody’s Sidekick Review

OK KO was easily one of the best animated series of the 2010′s and i’ll stand by those words. The brainchild of Ian Jones Quartlery, voice of Wallow in Bravest Warriors and more importantly former head writer for Steven Universe, and current longtime romantic partner of that series creator Rebecca Sugar. That part isn’t AS important, but I still find it sweet. Anyways OK KO was the story of K.O., a 6-11, not my own laziness for once but the show’s own way of doing age, year old boy who wants to be the best like no one ever was. In this case i’ts being a hero in a world that’s basically like if someone took the marvel universe and smashed a retro game collection and a pile of manga on top of it and then blended up the result and shot it full of gamma rays. Full of heroes of all kinds ranging from those fighitng crime to those who just want to loiter outside strip malls or cut hair. To achieve this goal KO gets a job at Gar’s Bodega, the combination of your average bodega (for those unfamiliar with the term, i’ts a convience store) and a video game item shop, so the slurpee machine is right next to the power ups and ninja stars, and everything from skateboard polish to Spread Guns is avaliable. The bodega is owned by Mr.Gar, a mustachiosed muscle man whose basically a shoutier mexican version of MIke Haggar but with shades and a mustache. So a somehow better version of him, though with him being busy watching over the plaza itself, doing secret hero missions and what not the day to day operations are left to two teens: Rad, a muscle bound dude bro alien with telekenisis and a secret heart of gold and Enid, a cynical, slacker ninja whose also bilogically a witch because her parents are a vampire and a werewolf. So the series follows these three as they run the boedega, grow as people and fight the robots that frequently attack the plaza sent by the evil Lord Boxman who hates the place literally because it’s there and it’s existance annoys him. This is the canon explination and it is utterly hilarious. The series was funny, had great character work, decent ongoing stories, great jokes and a fun tone that could go from meaningful and well thorught ot utterly batshit from episode to episode and was sadly canceled after 3 seasons because Cartoon Network is kinda stupid right now and dosen’t know how to handle a superhero show that still makes action a priority, but it did get a solid ending, a slew of great crossovers and a decent amount of representation under i’ts belt. WHich brings us to today and the start of RED ACTION WEEK: A week dedicated to the series most prominent gay character and the bisexual ninja witch who loves her. I’m covering all 5 of Red’s more prominent apperances... I was just going to do the red/enid episodes but decided this was a better introduction to the series itself, as well as the fact it allows her character arc to better tie together by her final episode, which directly uses this one as a major plot point. I also threw Plaza Prom in there since, even if she’s only a supporting character, it’s still one of her few major apperances, is part of her final major episode, is one of my faviorites, and the climactic dance fights is one of the most intentionally homoerotic fight scenes i’ve seen in some time. With all that out of the way, let’s do this after the cut.

We start at Gar’s Bodega, just after the opening two parter, with KO starting his first day of work, part of the reason this episode is a fairly smooth introduction into the show. Not even in the door he accidently shoryukyn’s joe cuppa, a stand up comedian with a cup of coffee in the big time for a head... I told you anything goes and I meants it. After that accident, we find Enid at the counter, ignoring the customers before shooing them away and when KO asks for work, plays along with his enthusasim and tells him to clean the store.. which he does in minutes, before being told to sort the penny dish, and while he does the two discuss KO’s love of helping people: KO just genuinely thinks that’s part of his job, the right thing to do and feels good while Enid.. dosen’t feel it’s worth the effort and people are just generally ungreatful and not worth it. I really like this scene for showing off their character dynamic beautifully: It starts showing that while at this stage Enid is largely an asshole, she does care about K.O. and while he’s cleaning, despite usually turning customers away, still let’s Ginger, an elderly patron and one of KO’s mom’s dojo customers, not only check out but pay in freaking pennies. It shows that try as she might, Enid really isn’t a cyncial or heartlesss as she claims. It’s also nice setup for later in the season as, and as i’m sure Ian Jones Quartlery and crew were preparing for, we later DO see why Enid hates people so much: her best friend, possibly more, Elodie, who i’ll certainly be covering eventually, betrayed her for a spot at Point Prep, basically UHA or Xavier’s for this world and claimed their friendship was just a ploy (It wasn’t, but again, story for another time), while her one date with Rad went terribly due to him acting like a huge jackass at the advice of his even bigger jackasses of friends. It’s easy to see why she stopped carring: When she opened up in the past it only lead to her being hurt and alone. K.O.... is the opposite. He genuinely belivies in everyone and tries to help them because, as said above, it’s just what he does and what he belivies a hero should be... he hasn’t been hurt or influenced by assholes like his friends, and thus is able to get them to open up. It’s a wonderful dynamic and I love it. And naturally, KO is determined to help Enid see the light, with Enid responding with the wonderful line “You’ll never melt my icy heart”... give him a few more episodes Enid, give him a few more episodes. So K.O. Decides to set out helping people, shouting about it to enid back at the store as he does because he’s 6-11 and kids in that age range are many things, but subtle is not one of them. He starts with Geoff and Nick Army, a monk and gay duke nukem reflectivity who despite having polar oppositie personalities, are both a couple, as confirmed by the creative team and then the finale, and a crime fighting duo who are having a dispute over opening a pickle jar with the good old ultra violence or non violence, which KO solves by letting both do it once, which results in a pickle jar explosion, both men in their underwear and everyone happy, especially the shippers. KO continues his quest, going to Logical Cuts where we meet Mr.Logic, a robot who has a rather moving and well done backstory we’ll certainly get to, and is voice by James Urabanik, aka the voice of Rusty Venture on the venture bros, to my utter delight. And yes i’ll be covering the venture bros eventually, and might be this month. His customer, another one of KO’s mom’s regulars, is upset because her haircut isn’t right while Mr.Logic is upset, well as upset as a monotone robot can convey, that his usually 100% mathmatically perfect haircuts are off. KO pitches in and the new result is perfect, with both being greatful.

KO’s next stop on his good will help people crying for help tour, after the above bit of wonderful art shift as that version of ko moveds like a south park character for some reason. Anyways, it turns out best friends, co workers and the dante and randal of this show, i.e.two best friends working a dead end job who despite arguing a lot need each other, A Real Magical Skeleton, self explaintory and Greg, a bear, are having an argument because RMS is trying to do their job and frame a baseball for a guy while Greg is being a dickhead and playing the drums constantly. As you can probably wager, I do not like Greg, probably more than rusty, partly because a future episode has him making KO doubt his macaroni art gift for his mom so he can eat it, yes really,and partly because he’s less intresting than his buddy and yet the two are shipped frequently despite my honest assumption they’d kill each other.. much like if dante and randall finally banged. However if you do ship them, I have no hostility with you. Unlike say loudcest or shipping sam with lincoln over at the loud hosue, there's nothing wrong with RMS X Brandon, it’s just not for me. Anywho KO solves it in the hilarious and awesome manner of just putting Brandon inside one of those baseball cube things... it’s a shame he apparently gave him air holes but whatever. Proud of himself, K.O. plans to head back when he runs into the Ally Teens: Red Action, rude teen warrior from the future who just had a bad haircut, Drupe, a sentient strawberry because of course, and Greg, Drupe’s nonbinary best friend and combination of one of the bone cousins and Woodstock. K.O. offers to help and , with the trio being huge steaming bowls of elephant piss at this point, they instead trick him into waiting in a lava flow and then have drupe whip him every time the lava causes him to cartoonishily jump in the air. Yeah despite both Red Action and Drupe going on to having supporting roles, like our good pal tom, who I will get back to this month, there isn’t nearly as much wiggle room in their first apperance. With Tom Lucitor, he was a dick.. but you could make the case, even just off that ep that he genuinely dosen’t know HOW to be a good person or that what he’s doing is sketchy at best. Here, it’s fairly obvious the ally teens know setting a child on fire and using vine whip on him super effectively is wrong, that’s why their doing it. Red, being that special brand of asshole, posts it on social media. I mean posting a video of yourself hurting a child, that’s Tucker Carlson level’s of dickery right there. Stone cold. Enid sees it and is understandably concerned, and goes over to see if KO’s allright when he returns and is forced to explain to him that no they weren’t laughing with him, they were laughing at him and were just being dicks. Also he wasn’t in lava, it was magma. It was above ground.

K.O. glumly wonders why and Enid reitrates this kind of shit is why she dosen’t help people. K.O. also wonders how she saw it and we find out Enid is basically facebook stalking red action on her social media, as you do, and that Red’s been on a bit of a tear lately, smashing up shit and farting in Geoff’s face all because she got a bad haircut, with K.O. , likely going thorugh more of her posts, realizing theirs a pattern: When bad things happen to her she lashes out at others.. just like Enid. I do like the parallel there: Enid likely has a crush on her because the two are fairly similar.. but Enid runs cold and tens to be standoffish as a result of her past, while Red tens to take out her anger and frustration on everyone else and runs red hot. But they come together because opposities attract... it’s what noble laurite MC Scat Kat taaught us after all. K.O. however, having Steven Universe level’s of empahty and an equal sense of wanting to help, and just as few boundries as he had as a tween, decides that it’s clear the ally teens have underlying issues to adress and gets Enid help to look at their social media. Returning to the ally,and seemingly unphased by earlier, K.O. sets out helping them, starting by helping red get her haircut fixed by Mr. Logic. Red is adorably delighted. Moving on K.O. notes that Drupe basically just follows Red’s lead but has a fashion blog and clearly an identiy of her own and we soon learn she believes no one reads it. K.O. showed it to the not at all ambigiously gay duo and Geoff and Nick thank her> That’s two blushes and two wins in K.O.’s court. Finishing up, K.O. realizes Gregg stays quiet because they have low self esteem and feel they have nothing to be proud of. K.O. however found lots to be proud of and framed Gregg’s valdectorian certificate for him, again with some help from earlier. Instead of graditude red just calls him weird and leaves and KO slumps back depressed. I’ts a good lesson though: people DON’T change just because you did one weirdly kind thing for them. That takes time.. as we’ll see with Red and as we see with Drupe, who has less of an ons creen journey but is far nicer after her next apperance. While Enid is grossed out over having helped someone, Gregg comes in.. and after some great deranged animation thanks K.O. and Enid admits after some prodding that it does feel good to help, and K.O. is happy to have helped her int he process. The two playfully mess around as the episode ends. Final Thoughts: This was a really good one. Reaching back this far into the series, I didn’t think it’d would be nearly as good as it ended up: It serves both as a good proper introduction for a lot of the plaza regulars, a good setup for Enid’s character arc, and was also really funny with great animation. LIke Tom, I don’t think the creators knew exactly what they were going to do with the Alley Teens and thus take the two they end up focusing on in opposite directon: Red keeps her assholishness for her next apperance and grows from it, while Drupe’s drops off by the end of this season, likely due to her fashion blog taking off, but we’ll get into Red more in a review or so and Drupe more later this month.For now this episode was good and next up we have their next apperance in Plaza Prom. Until then, follow this blog for more reviews and nonsense, like and reblog it if you enjoyed this, hit me up with asks for review suggestions or comssions and until next time, later days!

#ok ko let's be heroes #you're everybody's sidekick #enid #red action #rednid #drupe #gregg #ko #geoff #nick army #mr.logic #ginger #lbgtq+#pride month #happy pride

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neosaysno · 4 years

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FantineAquane (Danganronpa)

So I decided to come back to this blog after a year, and I took on a new character. Meet FantineAquane, the SHSL Secret.

...

I’m already scared.

(CONTENT WARNING: Mentions of pedophilia and noncon. Seriously.)

Warning! Because of the nature of this fandom, I will be going into spoiler territory.

Name:FantineAquane Gender: DOB:13 October Blood typeO+ Height:1.78 meter Weight:55 kg

Okay, let’s unpack this, because there’s a good bit here. And we already have problems.

... FantineAquane is NOT a name. That looks like a username of some kind, and when I googled FantineAquane, I discovered that it was indeed used as a username! I also managed to track down the creator, but I’m not really going to bother...

Why is the Gender thing blank? Even if you’re nonbinary, agender, whatever, that would be listed. However, the rest of the profile uses “she/her” pronouns and calls her a “girl”, so I’m going to go ahead with calling Fantine a girl for the rest of this.

No issues with the birthday, but she’s slightly underweight, which is an unfortunately common thing in OCs. Thankfully it’s not too egregious (Less than ten pounds underweight).

FantineAquane is tall-slim girl.She has long straight-wavy purple-black acid type haired.She weared purple short jacket with a long sleeves,old white worned brassier and worn daisy dukes.She has big blue-bright cerulean eyes with long eyelashes.She has a faded scars inside her jacket.

That grammar... Ughhh. It’s not /that/ bad, but it clearly tells me the writer isn’t a native English speaker. Or if they are, they’re flat out terrible at it.

Pray for me while I decipher this. It feels like I’m solving a worse Metheus puzzle.

Tall and slim... Okay, she’s about 5′8, so she’s actually decently tall for a... wait, how old is she?!

This is an actual problem. We don’t even have a listed age range. This is a problem for a Danganronpa OC! Even the DR1 students at least had age ranges, from sixteen at the youngest, presumably. (Well, they were a year or two older because of the lost memories, but that’s not too much to bring up.) What IS the problem is that we have no listed age. Yes, I am nitpicking that.

And “acid”... I’m gonna assume that’s neon hair. I am not going to provide a visual reference because that would mean your eyes will hurt.

That’s not even that appropriate! We don’t see Danganronpa students walking around with neon hair! Ibuki and Souda are the only people who remotely fit that, and their hair is toned down enough to not be painful to the eyes. Our solace here is that the art doesn’t hurt to look at.

And why is she only wearing a jacket over her bra?! Where’s her shirt?! Even Aoi had a shirt! While yes, girl power and all, that’s just flat out inappropriate! I’m assuming this is JUST killing game garb, but I sure as hell hope Fantine wears the uniform during school years! Most, if not all schools would take disciplinary action if you walked in wearing that kind of outfit!

(Note, Angie technically is wearing a swimsuit, so I’m not going to bring that up, but the clothing description confirms that this is a full out bra that Fantine has, not a bikini top.)

No comment on the eyes, but the scars (or... scar? See, this is why you need to have decent grammar) don’t seem to be brought up elsewhere, so -1 point.

FantineAquane is a kind,curious,sociable,clueless,funny,sensitive girl.But instead she’s the revengeable and up raged girl as someone who insulted her as a prostitude and insulting her friends.She kinda bitchy as she loves the lust and sexual things.But it doesn’t mean she’s an idiot and prideless person.She wants to be a hopeful person who saves the suvivors from death.She can knows someone secret only a sight.

AUGH. This is pure word vomit. Gibberish. Nonsense. Whatever you want to call it. What the shiny mystical hell am I looking at?! None of these line up! This is complete nonsense! It’s like the creator just slapped all these personality things on without thinking about how they work together, or in this case, don’t!

And... “ She can knows someone secret only a sight. “

Oh god... is she a mind reader? PLEASE do not be a mind reader. I’m now actually scared to read through this more...

Super High School Level Secret

Super High School Level Hope (Her dream to protect the innocents)

Super High School Level Tackler

Super High School Level Fate

I should have known better than to wish for things. I have no goddamn words for this. This is in no way feasibly possible. I’m almost tempted to give up right here.

WHY is she the SHSL Hope?! Nothing we’ve seen here shows that she is a candidate! What the hell is Tackler? Secret? Fate?! These talents are an absolute disaster.

♢ Possible Execution ::

Gangbang Or Reveal Her Secret Until Death(Insane Diary)

I AM VERY TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW WHAT THE FUCK. DEATH BY GANGBANG?! SERIOUSLY?! WHY?!

Get me. The hell. Out of here. Insane Diary-whatever, how does that kill her? How does any of this work? I’m not talking about this further, I need to get out of this so I can get through the rest of this. This is the worst execution concept I have EVER seen.

FantineAquane was an orphan since she was a baby.In her surrounding,she become one of the insulted person in the homeless city.She been pedofilia with some citizens as her attraction makes all the men want to sex with her.All the fate has been changed as one city was ruined and rule by Super High School Level Despair.As she know the person who ruined all people lives,she attend the Hope Peak’s Private Academy as she wanna to prove that insulted person can help this city and ruined or realise all the Super High School Level Despair’s members.Without any letter that she needs to be that school student,she makes a bargain with Monokuma as she need to save the world with HOPE or die in DESPAIR.

WHAT THE HELLLLL

THIS IS JUST AIFURYEIULKEYHRLIUHE NOOOOO

I... I have no words. This so. BLATANTLY. Defiles canon that I feel like this person tried to rip Danganronpa off to make their own story.

And what the shit? I’m sorry, but this girl is not that attractive. Not nearly enough for “all the men” to want “to sex with her”. What the hell. This backstory is a mess. How can she attend Hope’s Peak without an invitation? HOW IS SHE STILL ALIVE IN THE POST-DESPAIR WORLD?! How is she not batshit insane?! Most people like her would be dead or have already fallen to despair by the time the first game takes place! And how-- How did Monokuma not let her in without wiping her memories first? What the hell is this?! Why is she trying to be the protagonist?! At least it potentially explains her horrendous choice of clothing...

I’m not even going to talk about this more. This is just a disaster and makes me want to get through this even further so I can scrub this OC from my brain.

♢ Likes :

Sex,electronic items,helping people,socials,solving clues,willing to friends someone,Yaoi

SELF INSERT SPOTTED, SELF INSERT SPOTTED!

No, seriously, whenever an OC has ‘yaoi’ in their likes, I default to Self Insert. And the creator legitimately put THIS in their profile. “Pro in Doujinshi,Hentai & Yaoi“ So... Fantine over here is a self insert on top of all of this.

Back to the actual review... yeah, if she was forced into prostitution, I have a feeling she wouldn’t actually like sex all that much, especially if she’d been forced into it from a young age. I don’t have much comment on the rest, as FINALLY something lines up with the rest of her.

♢ Dislikes ::

Being insulted,Having sex without taking permission to her,Being advice about her clothes,up of rage,her secret has been revealled

Welp, we’re back to impossible grammar. Semi-readable was good while it lasted, I suppose. The hell does “up of rage” mean?

Also, nonconsensual sex being in the dislikes makes sense, but... why not just bring normal sex over too? And what’s her “secret”? That she used to be a prostitute?

Aaand she doesn’t like criticism on her clothes. Lady, you’re wearing something that would get you kicked out of half the places I can name.

♢ Friends ::

Best friend:Nagito Komaeda,Aoi Asahina,Alter Ego,Leon Kuwata,Makoto Naegi,Sakura Oogami,

GODDAMMIT SHE’S A SEVENTEENTH STUDENT. AND HAS PROTAGONIST SYNDROME. Also, why is Nagito top of the list? He joined SHSL Despair. And she’s supposedly fighting despair. God damn, Fantine.

And I’m pretty sure NONE of these people would want to be around her, except maybe Makoto because he’s a nice person and would feel bad for her.

Friends:Souda Kazuichi,Gundam Tanaka,Hagakure Yasuhiro,Hifumi Yamada

Why is she friends with Hifumi? Oh, right, she’s a fujoshi. And I don’t think any of THESE people would want to be around her either. Ewwww.

Crush On:Chihiro Fujisaki,Alter Ego,

God damn. I think this chick would scare Chihiro more than she’d actually be a potential romantic partner. She’s like Chihiro’s total opposite, and no, opposites attract isn’t a thing here.

And is she using Alter Ego as a substitute after Chihiro dies? Not exactly unexpected...

Enemies:Monokuma,Junko Enoshima

Boriiiiiiiing. Generic good guy stuff. Because of course the bootleg SHSL Hope hates Despair. I’m going to give her the benefit of the doubt-- Wait, how would she know Junko was behind this? Did she somehow manage to not get herself murdered or executed? Ugh.

♢ Quotes ::

“Don’t judge the book by it’s cover”

“You have to kidding me?”

“Although all of you loves to insulting me,it doesn’t mean I been insulted.But you all gimme a great support”

“Don’t kill all these innocence suvivors except me!”

“You’re got it wrong”

“Monokuma,I challenge you for a fight between HOPE & DESPAIR”

“Although they’re diffent in executions or death,their hope is to kill and put you all in the hell!”

“Although I’m atheast,it doesn’t means I disrespect all others religions,especially Islam”

That grammar is back! How do you mess up the iconic quote?! How has she challenged Monokuma like that without dying?! How can she handle others insulting her like that even though she clearly dislikes it? What the hell is going on here? Well... She’s got a poor judge of character, because she’s saying all the killers’ intentions was to damn everyone else. Nope. Not true.

And that last quote seems a little out of place. I’m gonna assume it connects to the creator in some way.

Final Verdict

Unsalvageable.

I’m (not) sorry to say this, but FantineAquane, the SHSL Secret, is UNSALVAGEABLE. There’s just too much wrong with her to be considered remotely salvageable, and it’s better off to just scrap her and start from the beginning. This OC was a disaster from beginning to end.

#neosaysno #that's not a name #that grammar #word vomit #what's dress code?#put some god dang clothing on #impossible talent #no no no no #impossible backstory #2muchangst #canon defilement #self insert #self contradictory #seventeenth student #protagonist syndrome #generic good guy #unsalvageable #danganronpa #mod neo

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surflove808 · 7 years

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All things “queerbait”, “so gay”, cranky shippers, etc ad infinitum. Here’s my long-ass essay on why I think it’s destructive to this show and fandom mentality in general. Part 1 :D

This is going to be sooo long. Because I am sooo fed up with the bullshit I keep seeing on here. So, I am going to break this into 2 parts. Part 1 deals with the show and its FICTIONAL characters. Part 2 will deal with the actual actors involved in making this show. I'm pissed because what could have just been supposition and discussion among fans took a wrong turn somewhere, and turned into a forum for bullying and scandalizing the actors/show. And seeing that even when they try to have a sense of humor about it, or be ingratiating to the fans about it, it always backfires on them....and ultimately, something that should be harmless (a ship) has become a toxic force of nature.

I'm going to give my 2 cents on the most annoyingly common misconceptions that I've seen being used as more can(n)on fodder because if I post and get this reblogged enough, maybe, just maybe... more people can be exposed to a more balanced interpretation.

My problem is not with the possibility of Dean being gay/bi. My problem is not with Dean and Cas possibly exploring a romantic relationship. Not at all. My problem is with the dedicated and rabid group of people that have gone over the top with their harassment on public forums regarding these characters sexuality, and linking it to the real, live human beings that portray them. Both crossing and blurring lines in a very destructive way, on Tumblr, Facebook, Twitter, Youtube, you name it... This show has so many incredible themes and messages regarding friendship, love, loyalty, trust, perseverance and family and THAT'S your takeaway? An unhealthy obsession with Dean's sexual preference??

Dean, by virtue of his looks, charisma and personality, has chemistry with almost EVERYONE. Have you noticed?? The character of Dean is written and portrayed as a naturally charismatic, flirtatious and sensual person. He wholeheartedly dives into anything that he enjoys. Eating, hunting, fucking, drinking. He doesn't seem to really appreciate boundaries or restrictions. So, what's stopping him from exploring his sexuality with men?

As far as I can see, the character of Dean as originally conceptualized and executed brilliantly by his frigging creator, Eric Kripke, was then, as you see him now, many things. But also hetero. He's also accepting, scarred, goofy, resilient, co-dependent, loving, protective, the list goes on and on.

But what he is NOT and has NEVER been written as, is gay or bi. And if you have a problem with that, that’s not a flaw in the program you’re watching. That’s your problem. If he undergoes character development that radically redefines not only how he sees himself, but how the viewer sees him, after 12 years? That's a delicate task that I don't envy the writers having to undertake, considering, the only reason they would do that so late in the game, is because they caved to pressure from the "fandom". And I use quotation marks there because, if you want an iconic character to represent your views? Write them yourself. Create them. But don't try to bully your way into another persons creation. Here's the kicker. Out of 264 episodes that have aired so far, and countless canon instances of Dean being hetero.... here are the handful of examples that certain people have latched onto as gospel:

1. Dean and the Siren, season 4, episode 14, Sex and Violence: I can't tell you how many times I've seen some Jr. detective go "A-HA! Deans siren was a MAN! Therefore, he is GAY!" If you use just a smidge of deductive reasoning and pay attention to the season leading up to this episode, and the description of a siren that was helpfully included in the episode, you could easily and reasonably deduce that because a siren's powers of seduction come from the ability to be ANYTHING to ANYONE and be that persons greatest desire.... that it makes sense for the siren to take the form of a cool, non-judgemental, trustworthy younger brother-type who has the same taste in and love for music that Dean has. Someone he can relate to. A peer.

What do you get the man who can have almost any woman that he wants?

Not a stripper, folks.

And what does Dean really want? At this point, he wants a brother who trusts his experience and instincts. A brother that he can trust. A brother who doesn't feel like a complete stranger. A friend, for fucks sake. It's not implied. It's not a theory. It's literally written and discussed IN THE EPISODE, people. Move on.

2. Dean and Gunnar Lawless, season 11, episode 15, Beyond the Mat: If you know any guys who are into sports or bands, and have never seen them go batshit fanboy over one of their sports or music heroes...then you just haven't spent enough time with them on their turf.

3. Deans "gay thing", season 8, episode 13, Everybody Hates Hitler: If you've never been hit on when you weren't expecting it, especially by someone you weren't expecting it from, I could see why you couldn't comprehend his behavior. If you HAVE, you were probably flustered by it. Probably didn't react as smoothly as you thought you would, amiright? I know I haven’t.

It seemed he was flattered, but didn't know what to do with himself. If he were bi/gay, and attracted to the possibility of a no-strings hookup with a willing and anonymous stranger... a blow-and-go in the mens room, for example... I think Dean could/would have easily pursued it, based on his hit rate thus far. The one area in which he has 100% confidence and zero shame, is sexual conquests. Sam wasn't around. There was nothing holding him back. So, aside from being uncertain of how to extricate himself from an awkward situation, and being flustered, I got nothin’.

4. Dean and Dr. Sexy, season 5, episode 8, Changing Channels: Not much to say here. Dean clearly had a man crush on Dr. Sexy. Would he have boned him if given the chance? Maybe. Maybe not. Ask a guy friend who idolizes Aaron Rogers or Eddie Vedder (for example) if he'd let them stick it in his pooper based on principle alone. Chances are, that guy friend would probably say "Hall pass!" If the situation actually presented itself though? He might just gush over the guy and call it a day. Who knows? WE don't.

5. Dean and Crowley: Again, ask a guy friend if he would share a room and triplets with a buddy if there were no consequences (girlfriend, things getting "weird, etc), and see what he says. The answer may surprise you. Maybe I just know a lot of uninhibited, sexy bastards!

6. Dean and Benny: Brothers in arms who go through intense combat together can and more often than not, DO form close bonds. There was nothing in this friendship that even intimated at these two having any sexual or romantic designs on each other, yet.... people still try to make it work. Bless their hearts.

7. The Big One: Dean and Cas: Dean has had countless opportunities over the years to make a move. And I DO believe he loves Cas, very much. Cas clearly loves and admires Dean. They have been through some serious shit together since day one, that neither Sam nor anyone else can compete with. But some very good advice I heard once, applies here (and this is why the 10-year crush turning into romance in rom-coms is such bullshit): If someone likes you - you WILL know. They will make a move. Or you will. And neither of you will take 10 + years to do it if there are no barriers (significant other). And if a move is made and not reciprocated? It's not because they or you is holding something back. That's just a lie we tell ourselves. SOMEONE is just not interested.

Though I love their dynamic, I'm not a Destiel shipper, but I'm willing to go either way with this one. I will say, I don't by any stretch of the imagination think the writers, actors or directors are 'queerbaiting", though. That's like accusing a crush of leading you on when it was really in your head the whole time. Their chemistry is incredible. But from what I've seen with my eyes, in the actual episodes, his relationship with Cas does not say unrequited love, sexual attraction or romance. However, if I went by the slowed-down, out-of-context gifs that are prevalent on Tumblr, I could see where people get the idea. And because these are two men who love, admire and respect each other and sometimes bicker like an old married couple, I suppose that makes them different than us and our best friends, somehow? This makes me sad, because this is a unique show, in that it deeply explores mens relationships with one another (because they're human beings too), and they just can't do that without a group of immature people giggling behind their backs in the hallways because intimacy is so intimidating that it must be mitigated by making fun of it or spreading nonsensical theories about it. Right?

Small wonder that heteronormative men, as a general rule, have so much social conditioning and shame to wade through when it comes to expressing love and care for their same-sex friends and family. (Yes, men have problems too. Not as many as us, by a long shot. But this is one of them)

You see, menfolk are expected to behave in a manfolk way, and if their behavior isn’t within the traditional and narrowly defined parameters as “hetero male”, they face the perceived stigma that accompanies “coming out”, which involves the very real fears of supposition, persecution, politicizing, backlash, gossip, undermining. etc.

This show has taken many chances. And they’re not afraid to write for and represent LGBTQ characters. But Chuck forbid that emotionally resonant, well-written, vulnerable and emotional male characters exist AND allow them to be straight. Unthinkable! And that snarky, gossipy, “tee-hee” mentality is just what enforces rigid gender roles on men and women in the 1st place. Every post I see that giggles about Cas and Dean being gay for each other because....gifs...just throws us back 50 years. Your words do have meaning, people.

If you want to know what you can do to pave the way for LGBTQ representation in entertainment and the world at large? Take the small step of acknowledging that same sex characters can feel the same range of emotions that you do for your same sex friends. Can have sustained eye contact. Can love one another, and can tenderly care for one another without you sexualizing it, fantasizing about it and policing it. I’m asking you to think about this, because this way of thinking affects everyone. Gay, straight, etc.

Season 1 Sam and Dean: Hetero. Sam in an LTR at beginning, Dean with potential to re-enter his relationship with Cassie.

This show was marketed towards males in the 18-24 demographic, but curiously, more women are interested in these boys and their story. Because they’re allowed to care without judgement. Ahem.

*As seasons go by...* Clearly, judging by the polls and hate mail...neither brother can ever have or sustain a romantic relationship with a woman. EVER again!* And it as been widely acknowledged by the cast and producers that the fans don’t want to see the Winchesters spend too much time with what they deem as a threatening female.

Why do you think Castiel was even allowed to make it this far? Sure, he’s an amazing character. But if it were Anna who dragged Dean from Hell and ultimately stuck around? Yeah, no. That was never gonna happen.

Basically, these fuckers can’t win. If they’re hetero and stay hetero, that’s a bad thing. If their characters do a 180 to please the most vocal (unfortunately) fans - then they’re caving in to pressure.

Either way, I think it's safe to say, us fans are ultimately invested (I hope) in these characters achieving happiness, wherever they find it. And personally, I'll be happy either way. But seeing this hyperbolic, over the top bullshit online that this crew are queerbaiting, etc...and that "If Destiel isn't made canon, I'm gonna do X,Y,Z..." is disgusting to me.

The musings, wishful thinking and conspiracy theories are one thing. And that's perfectly fine. I’ve got nothin but love for fanficiton writers! But drawing parallels and conclusions from some of the flimsiest crumbs available, and using that limited intel to cajole, threaten, bash and attempt to shame the actors, the crew, and the producers who work their asses off to bring us this amazing show, is pretty fucking shitty in my opinion.

These aren't public servants, guys. We're not paying them to make this show. If you want to know how a show on the CW gets funded and made - google it. If you want to know how much of a time crunch/pressure cooker situation the writers are working in, not to mention the entire team in order to produce 23 episodes per season....again, google it. And then tell me how they're able to not only craft compelling episodes and cram so much storyline, exposition, dialogue, character development, arc support, scheduling, casting, art direction, stunt coordination, set design, etc ad infinitum into each and every week, and STILL have time to drop easter eggs, and "queerbait"....

Just. To. Fuck. With. ��You. And undermine LGBTQ efforts at representation? They are very kind and loyal to their fans. And we DON'T OWN THEM. If you don't like what you're seeing, don't watch. But for fucks sake - do the fandom and yourselves a favor and direct your crusade towards ACTUAL threats to LBGTQ freedoms and rights.

Here's a list of places to lend support (to name a few): Family Equality Council Human Rights Campaign GLAD PFLAG Transgender Law Center Your local congressman, FFS

Rant over. If you made it this far, thank you. I owe you a fruit basket! And feel free to engage, put me on blast if you want. Let's have a discussion. But if you agree with me at all, please reblog this.... just to give some folks another point of view.

Blanket statement for those who are offended and have already called me an “asshole”, etc on their own tags:

1. This is NOT by any stretch of the imagination an anti-shipper or anti-Destiel post. I clearly stated that I don't have a problem with either. And if it happened organically in the show, as opposed to under pressure? More power to them. And I do adore Castiel.

2. This is NOT an anti-LGBTQ post. Again, clearly stated throughout the post.

3. This is NOT and never was anti-headcanon post. We all have headcanons to some degree. And If anyone wants to step up and tell me not to support an organization that's doing good work, just because I sunk their battleship... they can suck it. I also belong to some of these organizations, and I'm pretty sure they're not as invested in your headcanon as you are. And thejabberwock, I still admire your insights and posts, but am bummed that you missed the damn point of mine entirely. Per your request, I have removed your association from the original post.

4. This IS an anti-harassment post, directed at individuals who have taken this ship so far, that they've tainted the word and the concept for almost everyone else with their shitty, pushy behavior. If this describes you? I'm happy to have offended you.

5. This IS an anti-ignorance post, directed at individuals who are presented with facts and reliable data from the writers, the actors and the episodes themselves, yet refuse to acknowledge anything out of their own headcanon. Who insist on "knowing the truth" and using that arrogance to try to *Out* the characters, *Out* the actors and use threats and insults towards anyone who disagrees. If you thought I was talking to you directly, after reading that? I probably was.

6. This IS an anti-misinformation campaign post aimed at clearing up some common misconceptions.

Lastly, reading comprehension is really crucial here. I know it was a lot to read, I apologize for that. But if you're skimming through and picking and choosing something to be offended over, and continuing to feel personally persecuted regardless of whether or not that's the reality... rather than reading and understanding the entire message? Well, there's nothing more I can say or do.

#destiel #dean winchester #Sam Winchester #castiel #crowley #supernatural #spnfamily #spnfandom #Jensen Ackles #Misha Collins #fedthefuckup #queerbaiting #fuckingwafflehouseidontcare #wafflehouse?#cockles #imcomingforyounext

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sworntoprotect · 4 years

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Troop movements across Orlais had slowed by a significant margin recently. The Venatori threat was ramping up in intensity and striking when the troops were at tactically disadvantageous areas. It was nothing the Inquisition couldn’t handle, he was sure, but there were still a limited amount of armed forces at the end of the day. Forces that were human and demanded a growing list of supplies to keep them alive and happy. Preferably the former.

As Cullen pored over his paperwork, his thoughts drifted to the intake kit hidden deep within a chest across the room. It sang to him. Softly. Sweetly. The warmth radiated outward, as inviting as was a mother’s hug or a lover’s embrace. If he could just taste a small drop of it – the tiniest touch on his tongue – he could get through another few days without it. Maker, he needed to concentrate. Get through writing this report and--

A sudden knock at the door made him jump. To hide his trembling hands, he put the writing quill down and laced his fingers together. “Enter,” he commanded.

His new guest was unexpected, but not unwelcome. “Hey Curly. You down for a hand of Wicked Grace tonight?”

“I am knee-deep in work at the moment--”

“--As always.”

“Yes. But it must be done. Unfortunately these reports will not complete themselves and the deadline--”

“Aw, c’mon. You don’t want all that perfectly coiffed hair to fall out due to stress. You might even get to keep your pants on this time.”

Cullen took a moment to contemplate. A distraction was required, he had to admit. If he did not leave this room, with the temptation mere meters away, there was a good chance his will might falter tonight. He could not risk it.

“All right, Varric,” he said slowly. “I will meet you downstairs in a minute.”

“I’ll be counting,” Varric said as he closed the door behind him.

“Don’t look so scared, Commander. Josie’s not here to run you through the ringer.”

“That’s not what’s giving me pause.”

Across the table, the Iron Bull and Dorian were hunched over mugs of late-night swill. They were up to something. He just knew it. And his suspicions were confirmed seconds later.

“Commander! So good of you to join us. Stay a while, won’t you?” Dorian all but sang.

Definitely up to something.

“Oh, what’s the matter?” Dorian wiggled his fingers. “Think I might use my ~magey magicks~ to cheat you out of the pot?”

“I-- No,” Cullen shot back.

“Ha! Loosen up a little. Wouldn’t hurt you to actually enjoy yourself. For once,” Iron Bull chimed in.

“Ignore them,” Varric laughed. “All they did was put down a few sovereigns on whether they’re getting a show from you tonight. Shit, I lost some silver thinking you wouldn’t actually agree to come play with us.”

Cullen huffed. “Oh, well if that’s all it is...”

The four played a few hands of cards. Fixating on something not as brain-intensive as troop movements or in-fighting between soldiers helped keep Cullen’s mind off of that ache pulling at his very heart and bones. His hands, however, shook violently, to the point he had to hide them below the table to “keep the Qunari from cheating” as his excuse.

In between rounds, the dwarf lowered his voice as he brought his mug to his lips. “So, uh... about your problem. You doin’ all right?”

“Nothing I can’t handle,” Cullen curtly supplied. Honey-brown eyes swept across the room. Only a few lingered at the tavern now. Everyone else had shuffled off to bed. He placed the cards face-down on the table. “Actually, I believe it’s time I took my leave for the night.”

“I’ll head out with you,” Varric said, downing the contents of his mug before rising from his seat. “Let’s give these two lovebirds some time alone.”

The mountain air was brutally harsh at this hour. Cullen didn’t mind; the cold wisps helped to distract him from the thrum of need in his veins. The two walk the ramparts casually, taking in the starless nocturne. The moon was a silver sliver in the sky, providing just enough light not to trip over their own feet. There were a few pinpricks of campfires from their allied forces that dotted the valley below.

“Look. I can’t sit here and talk like I know what you’re goin’ through. But I saw what that stuff did to Bartrand. And Meredith? Holy shit.”

“She was unique.”

“‘Unique’ is what you say when there’s a cloud in the shape of a griffon. She was--”

“Batshit insane. Yes, I recall.”

The two shot each other knowing glaces.

“And she was your boss for ten fuckin’ years.” Varric shook his head in disbelief. “How’d you deal with it?”

“Carefully,” came the pithy reply. Cullen stopped to cross his arms over his chest and lean against the battlement behind him. “She did what she thought was best.”

“...You’re serious,” Varric said, both a question and a statement. The look Varric was giving him was unnerving. Despite being significantly taller than his companion, he felt small in comparison. This was the first time in a long while he felt somewhat daunted by an ally, not counting the Inquisitor or Leliana.

It took some time before Cullen broke the silence. “I’m aware-- I mean, I know what she did was wrong. I think, regardless of what occurred, she was genuinely trying to do the right thing. But she couldn’t see past her own pain to do more. To do better. The people she strove to protect were the ones hurt most in the end.”

It took effort not to wince at what he’d just said. He should really take his own advice.

The dwarf let out a long sigh. “I don’t think you’re a bad man, Cullen. A little fucked up, but aren’t we all?” Cullen turned his gaze heavenward as he rubbed his neck. Those words were oddly comforting, somehow. But before he could reply, Varric continued, “It’s late. I think the Inquisitor needs me to help pack up for the next expedition in the morning. Go... hit something with a pointy stick. You’re good at that, right?”

“...Thank you, Varric.” It was foreign, but sincere.

Varric was taken aback at first, but granted him a small accepting smile. His hand flew up in a belated wave. “See ya around, Curly.”

Cullen watched Varric’s retreating figure for a moment, then made his way towards his office. Perhaps he would hit something with a pointy stick. After a few hours of sleep.

#a dissonant verse (meta)#learning to let go

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jannepaule · 5 years

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In Retrospect: Black Holes and Dark Days

I’ve been working on this for several weeks, trying to revise it to a much retrospective version. The first draft of this post was dated July 27, 2017— according to my trusty notepad app with 2500 words.

Between 2011 to 2015 were some of my darkest days and to some extent— 2017 the year I wrote the first version of this piece.

Fair Warning: Long Post Ahead.

I was in a bad place during that time but here it goes.

The “D” Word

I've read stories from real people about it. I've heard number of spoken word pieces about it. I've seen countless of articles about it in this wild wicked world of social media. I've seen people who turned it into art.

I was never clinically diagnosed so I have no the right to call my case depression. More importantly, it is something no one should casually throw around to describe whenever you are feeling down.

A lesson I learned is that people should stop using disorders as adjectives. It's unhealthy and destructive.

I am generally an ‘okay’ person but I've had my dark days.

It started after graduation when my high school boyfriend and I broke up. It's silly to admit that even now. I mean who gets depressed over a teenage break-up? People move on and get over it. I did.

However, for a long time I refused to deal with the pain. I thought having a strong facade by not admitting that it hurts and not crying is a sign of strength, it was otherwise. And it does more harm than help in the long run.

Later on I realized that maybe this reaction (or lack thereof) towards a painful experience was an accumulation of all the times I suppressed my emotions.

That's what happened when you grow up in a family that doesn't openly talk about feelings, that a more common response to hurt is anger.

Years of practice of tricking myself not to feel, I developed an automatic blocking system against anything that could potentially hurt. Every negative thought and emotion was boxed and pushed towards deepest part of my head hoping I'd never have to deal with them.

But as Sigmund Freud once said (or written),

"unexpressed emotions will never die they are buried alive and will later come in uglier ways"

And boy it was ugly. It wasn't a 2 AM kind of demon. It haunts you in broad daylight and attack you with ice bullets. If it was anxiety or panic attacks or some sort of condition, I've no idea. And it was all my fault.

Theater Days

I only figured out that something was seriously wrong with me when I joined a theater organization during my college freshman year.

Thespians are the most passionate and most emotional people I've ever known while I stand on the other side, feeling nothing. None. I was empty. There were lots of emotional exercises and scenes from plays that would’ve helped me, but I couldn’t even cry.

I was miserable.

There were days when I literally felt nothing. I laughed and I knew I was happy but I couldn't feel it in my heart. I watched very emotional movies like Miracle in Cell No. 7 and there were scenes that any normal person would be bawling already, but I didn't. My system could not process the feeling.

Detachment was a mean defense mechanism. It suppresses not just the pain but everything else. It leaves you with hollow feeling on your chest.

My Heart and Other Black Holes

There were days when I'd cry for no reason. One moment I was in pain then in one snap-- gone. I feel nothing again.

Other times, I felt like I was being drained, sucking life out of me as I spiral down uncontrollably into an unknown bottom. You know the vacuum sensation? It was terrible. I literally had to catch my breath.

I called it my "black hole episodes". There were black holes residing inside of me for a long time and I didn't know what to do with it.

An incident back when I was doing my internship in a radio station in 2014 was one of the worst episodes. I ended up crying for an hour or two at the HR's office. The HR manager who happened to be some sort of counselor asked me what was wrong and I could have told her everything, she was a shrink anyway. But I couldn't even get my mind straight so much more my feelings. The memory of that afternoon was blurry.

All I remember is her telling me to try talking to someone openly and honestly.

I knew I needed professional help but shrinks are way too expensive. And honestly, I was more scared to find out that it was just all in my head than to know what sort of medical condition I was in.

I wanted to disappear sometimes, amidst all the numbness and emptiness. It’s like being trapped in oblivion.

I wanted to disappear but I still hoped that someone would find me and pull me out of that dark place but I didn't know how to ask for help.

Flash forward to 2015

Before I started dating a guy from my first job after college, I had one major episode that worried the shit out of my him and my friends. So I told him about my blackholes and finally, I felt like someone is willing to listen. Even when I couldn't explain the things going on inside my head he just listened, patiently.

The thick walls I built around myself started crumbling down. The flood gates of my heart opened and somehow, I felt lighter each day. I started feeling genuinely happy again. That shrink from the radio station was right after all. I just needed someone to talk to.

We had a brief time together but I experienced a roller coaster of emotions. It was batshit crazy, but I felt every tiny bit of it. The blackholes are gone but so he is.

I was devastated and hurting everywhere literally and figuratively but I allowed myself to feel the pain, to cry all I want, and to mourn for as long as I needed to. I was drowning but that time I didn't feel empty. I still thought of skipping all of those excruciating times but thank God, someone a.k.a my favorite team leader sat me down ane told me this:

“You know better than anyone why you need to go through this. You are so much braver and stronger than what you give yourself credit for,”

Looking back, it was the bravest time of my life. I confronted all my fears of feeling pain. For the first time, I didn't run away from it. I nursed my wounded heart like a normal person.

I was blessed with people who were my guiding light through that journey.

I’ve moved on and no longer in love with that person, in case you’re wondering.

The Bad Bitch of a Black Hole is Back

2017 was another awful cruel year. I had a relapse after trying so hard to be okay for so long. Bad case of rejections, job being terribly toxic, and my whole life was a mess. The blackholes came back, just dressed up as adult problems. My life was falling apart AGAIN and I was lost. I couldn’t focus.

I watched my plans fail and slip away from my fingers and did nothing to stop it. 2017 was so much worse because even if I wanted to run away, I didn't have the energy and will power to do it.

I needed help. I don’t know how but I was sure as hell that I didn’t want to go back in that shithole ever again. I thought writing would help me get it out of my system, it did. I talked to some friends, subscribed to an online life coach for advice, and learned to practice mindfulness via Headspace app. I prayed so hard to make it all go away.

I honestly still couldn’t remember how I did all those things and managed to pull myself out of that dark place. My best guess? Divine intervention. Thank God and all the angels for not letting me get swallowed by darkness.

I look back and see how far I’ve come. It was a long tiring personal battle I had to brave through to be in a better place where I am today. No more blackhole episodes since 2017 and if ever the bitch decides to show up again, I know I would make it out alive like I always do. Hopefully, it wouldn’t.

Communicating my feelings is still a struggle up to this day but knowing how to acknowledge them is always the first step. Still growing and learning to cope up with all the things life is throwing at me. The process of healing is long, painful, sometimes boring and questionable but I don’t think I would ever do it otherwise.

Being able to write this in retrospect is a milestone worth-celebrating. A long dark chapter of my life was over. I am grateful.

Thank you for reaching this part, dear stranger. This is probably the only time I will ever share about this. I hope you know that this is a personal experience and does not mean to say that you need to get your heart broken to get over a dark phase in your life. We all have different ways to process experiences.

I hope you find the courage to ask for help from the people you trust and professionally, if you must.

I pray that if you’re going through dark times, may you always believe that there is a light that never goes out.

Sincerely, J. 🖤

#personal #non fiction

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Cross-posted from my blog: It could always be worse

“It could always be worse.”

This is what I try to tell myself every day. Work has gone from stressful to just plain insanity. I’m talking fully-fledged batshit crazy here. Joseph (my boss) left. Ryan, our external network engineer, is acting lead, but with this huge void in the department, he’s constantly being challenged. More stress. We’ve had more and more benefits taken away from us. It’s affecting me, my health, my relationships. Our crappy medical insurance hasn’t been paying for much of anything, so I am still fighting with them over medical bills dating back the last year or so. More stress. Management has decided to discontinue company cell phones unless you’re one of the lucky few deemed “critical” — somehow IT is not among those. So that’s yet another cost coming out of my own pocket. More stress.

Oh, sure, they offer a small stipend if you qualify for the BYOD policy (which we all do), but it does not cover the cost of a single plan comparable to what I had. So I’m opting not to accept it and keeping my phone as personal alone. I made it known that since this phone is now my own personal device, it means I am no longer available at night or on the weekends. I’ve removed all company-related data from my phone, also including email, internal chat, vpn, and various apps related to my job.

My therapist has been stressing to me the importance of separating work and home life more and finding a balance, pretty much since I started seeing her, and this will help with that. But a small part of me fears reprisal from above if something happens. Guess I’ll burn that bridge when I get to it.

The thing is, every time something happens, every time I feel less and less appreciated, and demoralized, I’d tell myself, “It could always be worse.” And ‘worse’ keeps happening. And happening. And happening.

We haven’t had raises in years. I know IT is not alone in this. Yet there are others who are prospering and taking company-paid trips to exotic locations (*cough* Sales *cough*). We’re not allowed to spend our budget. We can’t hire any more people, yet we’re already two people down, and upper management complains about us not getting enough done and/or getting things done fast enough.

We quite literally pulled a miracle out of our ass for the (Lotus) Notes to Office 365 migration. It went fairly smoothly with absolutely NO data loss. And I damned near killed myself doing it. This was a manual migration with me babysitting EVERY. SINGLE. FUCKING. MAILFILE. And I seriously do not want to ever do that again. EVER. Oh sure, I got a nice letter of “thanks” from the CEO (that someone else probably wrote) and a small “bonus” on a single paycheck (which the government took most of). But yeah, no, I don’t think anyone outside of IT (i.e. in management) truly appreciated what we pulled off … because the complaints have not stopped. In fact, they’ve become worse. And because Joseph is not here to act as a shield, things sometimes get personal. Certain c-level execs claim to know more than we do, and any advice we give is ignored. Yet if the thing goes wrong, IT is still to blame. There have been incidents that I can’t report to HR because I can’t trust that anything will be done about them. And heaven forbid we ever truly NEED something, as we’re an afterthought. This company does not care about its employees, and it shows.

Only a crazy person would stay in this environment willingly.

I was talking to Joseph recently, asking him how his new gig was going (he’s VERY happy!) and filling him in on some of the stuff going on at work and at home. (I don’t know if I ever mentioned this on here, but I know him from my MACESS days, so we go way back.) He said something to me that sparked a realization:

I am currently in an abusive relationship, and the abuser is my employer.

I mean, I know I have always complained on social media about one thing or another when it came to work, but for the first year or so of CEO’s rule, it was tolerable. I kept hoping things would improve. They didn’t. It wasn’t until about a year ago that matters started going south, and hard. When I’ve spoken with other colleagues, they’re shocked at how bad things have gotten because I always bragged on my employer and how much I loved this job and working here. I still love my job — I truly DO love what I do — but I question the stability of this company and the direction it’s heading. There’s no transparency whatsoever. I fear for my department. I fear for my own position. I fear the company won’t be around much longer … and worst of all, I fear that’s on purpose.

But what do I know? I’m just a peon. And it could always be worse, right?

Welcome to “worse” …

... from It could always be worse

#Personal #Health #Overworked and Underpaid #social media #Work

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babsaros · 7 years

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Dungeons and Discord pt 3

its 4 am i love my party

we resume in the woods

there’s this guy (a character from group 2′s quest) going off to go do some shit (kill group 2) and a mysterious woman who keeps warping in and out of this plane so we decide to follow him

we fail miserably. the donkey is loud, the gnome is fucking talking the whole time, everybody fails their stealth rolls it’s chaos

we confront the dude about the woman but decide to back off and keep heading to the alchemists

we get there without incident tg for high rolls

wait actually along the way we met this tiefling named art. he was whistling and the gnome said it reminded him of when my character sings so everybody was like sing for us coney and i just threatened to pull out my bagpipes. art had a beast with no fur and three tails and he seemed chill but he was homeless and looking to join the adventurers guild coming to town so we got some info on that

the alchemist was living up in this tower and he used this booming voice to shout at us, my party pushed me forward and told me to talk to him (i think bc i hadn’t been doing a lot of talking before that) but like me and the gnome were floating a little bc we had been playing with the octopus sack, so i shouted up at him that we were floating bc of this new drug has he heard of it would he like to hear about it

i fail miserably at convincing people to let us into their towers. luckily this dude is batshit crazy and somehow convinced himself to let us in.

the fighter dude is having none of this and sat outside with the mule

so the alchemist is fucking crazy, through convo we learn most of his shit never works, my ring of fire detection gets super hot when there’s a fire so i should stay away from fire, and he’s started listening to eldritch gods and has split personalities. he gives us some dope shit, gets ont he fighter’s nerves and freaks him out with magic and his saner half gives some dope advice

he teleports us back to town, saving us a long walk tg

we give all the shit the alchemist stole back to the storekeep, he didn’t mean to steal it he was just borrowing it and super high on drugs, and they used to be friends so she just laughs. then she gives us some dope shit, like a talisman that lets me speak to my god, i tried to talk the price down but i suck at that so im broke now.

then we went and broke into the alchemist’s abandoned shop, found like 3 potions and one very questionable potion (it literally says “potion of invisibility?” on the label) and the alchemist’s diary. i should mention that the alchemist is named bodiknock doubleknock or smthn??

the diary is just a collection of ramblings about recipes (the gnome learned how to make a potion of animal friendship which was hype) and the story of how he started listening to eldritch gods, which we skimmed over.

and then we went to the inn to sleep and i’m gonna sleep now too we leveled up to lvl 3 too

#coney john's journey #dungeons and discord #im so tired #i gotta remember to tell the dm i wanna multiclass #bye

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#name #without #face whois ortmaier, diebold andother nameswithout face as drugs andmixes as typed inte roxidaustausch behind earlympahtic poisons arsenit cyancali stichnin nanofinedusts andsuch ortmaier was or wouldbe about hightech tanks over a bridge ?!? in a theme //// t hegerman govt plujs timecontrol accomplice know fortune knowinventions quelleith er avert papertrail in allthemesses causethemessalla long shuffled proxies effort years of govermnment things to cut down the victimised survivor ofthemess then externalities forced em tomeasure up against their own criminal agenda thenits goodcop badcop qu elling their proxies barely or barely enough abit for now yes? youre the pro s howbad isit //// the earlmypahtic aimedpoisosn are arsenide cycan cali stichnin interoxidaustausch cellsuffocaiton mur dertricks are as common as nanofinedust asbestos and other killtricks deedtyped the fix thatmadeit b a r e l y breathable imminent morning fix was hemolyt but after damamge suffocaiton nights damamge do ne allis bad its bad stuff allofit this is us ually deed typed //// what does it damage? byth eme staged organfail gestuftes organversagen butisay its trombosis emboly dehydration murdertrick maybe ki dneys too windows aimed xray beam is car or frontbuidlign likely nazi radar or beta itis efforted mu rder tricks for months years deed typed ///// someofthemesses are inexplicable like minor mischief where pretend matters more with goodintent messing withourt learning effect against pretend but amplified reconfirmation that or total morons and hideous m urderers itis a constant effort on something that was not with allthe dama mges shut down subdued it was not why shouldit letalone lympahtic+centerb acklow+ alibi itsnotpossible itsnot measurable usually /// ican still b arely crap itis shutdown subdued centerbacklowdigestive system it normalises abit but tisnot as usually orbefore itis a murder kill trick murder grampy thisis the only trick they got awaywith their a libi would be sthlike crapping 2times a day is why they shut it down so its germancured t r y i n g t o five times aday be hind earlymphatic +centerbakclow sithe poison usually rightnow maybe heartrlelevant resubdue again 0017 //// find daamage erasers earlier weeksmonths headimapcts damamges turnbackclocndamamges too fi xable? //// heavy betaray or radar again 2153 m urder trick with plausible deniability intel murder heart aimed headaimed leftchestaimed above abo veadjacent corner maybewidowaimed findit ///// xray beam murdertrickery whichtype abvoe above ajadancent knows //// xray beam killtrick heartai med whichdamamvge isit else lympahtic ear+hand aimed mix maybe nonhostile thistime above adjacent corner betaray? //// m ixes 1910+-3 is gaser and above is /// xraybeam trick killtirck heartaimed oncemore the civillian must find it out they thro w oneday bum lidokain atit and dammamge germancure operate the bloodvesssels so fearnot use the chance what a nutbum itis to report whatthey harm allalong //// billionaire marriage quality until imademy own billions then the sleaziest hooker bum onthe globe //// @norway @norw egia .@fisa .@norway @judge .@judge @judges @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haare tzcom @snowden example: itisntjust underdeveloped fools, itis (!)did never and (!)wouldhave never devel oped. and that in a world where intels control the population with cookingforehead arbitrarily literally w illynilly. letalone in a deeply sophisticated educated disciplined case cmon now youknow its one examp le of the most declinateable cases they shuffle stigmas they shuffle harms they shuffle proxies because itis i n t e l it is whihc trick works this time with all authorities as dependents under contr ol doing whatthey want with peasantry as civil population whhhyyyyy!!!!! r o b u s t o AND creamy?! @norway @norwegia .@fisa .@norway @judge .@judge @ judges @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haaretzcom @snowden aha!!!! peanutbutter between nuts batshit nu ts! but... why?! the brand?! r o b u s t o a n d cre amy that that that a dunno thatsgotta mean sth ... right?... ********* without access mess average,median, and mean identificationtimeframes with a i. and by experience ********* with access to the case: ///// find xraybeamtrick allda ylikely beta or radar bythe way lawyers ofmine ******* ma ke sure germans cannot use doc-ification everagain with utmost severe consequences but for things they wait longer than three years threemonths three days younameit andforemost eachofthem signs under oath the i n t e l terrors witnessed including whatthe civillian demystified and them pokemon openmouth woa + wtf ********** trickery with docification as game for find sth youcan distort twistlater to justif y a shitball while allalong itis intel murder tha t is over orthey hang with the scums symbolically (notliterally) ///// tin itus from deceit trick allday whatisit this time momfool brainwashaway fof fortune mom theperverted doing moms itsalljsut a dream yourenot you tonaswinn ihave dismal transvetite emotions and want to be molested by horny germans because theyre so german and im so terribly not german what is it this t ime again //// ffind backleg tricks for boner implant remtoeocntroleld iti sntjsut biting hemmmorides itis buzzing installs tactically timed to what xray murder beam killtric k fromcockroach above aboveadjancent is priority ///// itis unusually mild since anhour or two whosnew usually its poison s damamges suffocations xraybeam terror find xraybeam killtrick fromabove a boveajdancent and window aimed otherwise miraclemild I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG h ttps://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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Do nnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss ///// gaser is li kely xray to terrorise or and frame something stuff them their mix galore chekc ifthey host a cockroa ch clown german //// repalcedphone sucks whof ucktit bbombout xray murderer and disgust messer 16 07 as xraymurderer gaser beam messer 1550+-10 ///// replacedphone 1525 heartaimed 1526 /// 1524 pathogen murder relelvant? //// a piece of crud druged me drowsy agian 1515+-5 stuffemtheirown mix g a l o r e if cockroach german cockroach efforts imminent danger itis bad choice regre ttably itis effort cockroach dont touch the wall dont tocuhthat guy find sth else todo / //// medics those spikes are r e s t i n g h eartrates itis surprising that the fitnesstracker identifies heart on edge itis not howitis without damamged hbeart itdoesnt have even coffee or other things that could pushit up itis resting recovery and critical heartonedge allalong btw //// lawy ers make em sign or readoutloud this is the eigth year on edge of existence and its been a joy to see him struggle on 200amonth with billions on the accounts micromanaged from 67billions to 90billions recent ly but he court demanded access to his own fortune with intiative fromwithin the bubble and against no t a missed formality immunisation but agaisnt a quelled quelled immunisatio n keeping him that way is intent yes and iti s a joy tosee how he struggles the eigth year on 200 amonth and yes we want to ta x his billions or someow chain it or sex it or somehow killit anything aslong as we can pillage it see? abit honesty howlikely willthey admit the obvious //// oh please for thegermans its su icide whenyou cut 50bucks from foodmoney everymontbh not toget amalgam teethf ills they urgently rescue you from imminent starvation death the 8th year than give you access to your own court demanded fortune they imminently t ake away your rights that a german that quells any fucking ebay sale or booksale germancures you urgently they dont store mira cles of micromanagement cutting chowpennies topayoff bullshit idont even owe re altime they see c on f u s i o n it just mysteri ously somehow always adds up and somehow micromanages chowpennies for abit semis afe IT hardware and phone for s o m e t h i n g not too contract chain bonding they are confused by c omplexmicromanaging but get a c c ce s ss s to damamge you to alzheimer granny because thats tthats how they lockaway the grannies inthis very shithole so whynot inthiscase too youknow em andifnot then thenby now today this veryday fortune access avertedby who 22pm-2208 shoudlveshown 15billion fortune a sixth of my tot alfortune what didit show storeit notarstampit s owhat isaw publish it iput it asclose tomouthaspossible as on local bank once that efforted fraudit taxit as nutbum threeyears ago ///// store on linebanking 2200pm@+8 itshould show 15billion a s ixth of my total fortune did it show sth realtime if so what //// disintegrated wall and tape matters checkfor xray tricks and calculateback the gray s for a l l l l cumulated #suffocator #squeeze #crayon #maccaroni #advice #right #ominuous #obscurity #is #a #conflict @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @fisa @law @harvard_law @all @wor ld #crayonMaccaroniAdvice unknow obscurity is a co nflict theme in intelccoma test helmet themes buildit around the issue * ***** a is it known then b issue: trait: yes or no? c issue: trait: instead? how ******** dont misuse it for bad the stateofmind point a to g point a to h is criti cal inthis too smashwords.com/books/view/552210 I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independe nt Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHO NE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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Donnate. paypal.me/Christian Kiss //// youdont freeze disobey teenagers into a tube because thbey wouldve b een executed fortheir deed you make sure its understood what happened waht it will mean for him her what it f e e l s w h a t it l e a d s to and then learning ef fect then orientation person with routine away fr om the bad this //// btw fix heartonedge fromba cklegtricks regenerate donot add oldwounds mengele mess checkalso finedust harms nano finedust what doesit dowith veinwall bloodsupply //// they mustve implied Sexuality in thei r assaults its inexplicable #lawyers .@law @law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @s nowden @haaretzcom separate it clearly that itis not sexuality but them imply that that thereisno friv olous gains but them imply that that even if some would fit preference, does not undo allthe assaults that are beyond good and evil that it iiiiis about them and that all knew that * ****** the gain the benefit the what for was in something else than about that guy letalone about sexuality ofthat guy ******* this. is probably not separated clearly checkthat youre the pro s /// dont get nuts over it, i ts not so complicated: because. it. is. intel. it.is .all about. which. trick. works. thistime. get furi ous about it not nuts about it itis layer1 causing authorities with control accomplice rapedmolested damamged themselves whatt hey can host layer2 cockroaches immunsied todowhat wish hope pretend youre th eir underhuman candowhattheywant with civillians usually willalways try sth . coordinated more orless or i nvited orhosted only as proxies dont get nuts about it get mad about it isuggest: a sero tolerance don t touch it. offthewalls. off the health. itdoesntmatter what youwant whatyoupretend what youtry donttouch it. if youre support coordinate with support your ideas are: /// what doyou do about 19years of microscopy while they shuf fled sexual asssault then someone germancures your nuts to a smeary fatty or sth because they s u s p e c t something this. itisntjust shuffled sexual assault itisntjust deedtyped allalong iit is deedtyped after daytimecharging i t repeatedly risking allmyrights and anything t o because thecausing authorities quell the charging and thefix the fix is letmore and shuffle more sexual assault and try togive it an alibi nomatter how counterfactuall this. what is against this. //// lawyers ofmine ******** had one single tr ick worked unthinkable what wouldhappen next: disassemble this trick ie: because we declare him nuts we d ont compensate what we overtape allalong because he aeh molests little furry sexcat s and sex hedgehog s, we must not compensate what we damage rape and smear. this ********** had one trick worked unthinkable ////// # lawyers law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haar etzcom what is the state ofmind of the charged government: when they just have to find a trick that puts yo u inyourplace a trick that you give up atrick that resets your brain a trick that shows they dominate y ou and you must obey like youhave no choice this is the stateofmind this itis idontcare whatthey fake idont care howthey goodcop badcop idontcare how they play sorry the yrenot this. is their stateofmind what do you do about it it explains a long long lattice of messes and dirty tricks furthermor e ////// #sexland #sex #land @all @world @gl obe @booking .@law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuter s @bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haaretzcom youjustdont getit the german gov erment rapes thecivil population that is not im munised against intel coma s wheres the news they porn the c r a p out of em they sell em as sexslave on intelcoma if they can they preplan their careerrs and setemup who exploits who first and benefits how they controlem like forehead braincooked fools like children like fools they hold as underhuman exploitable underhuman s that is the basis of it all when a civillian da ytime charged the basis oftheir security system: they did any harm they remotely had then used proxies then played good cop bad cop hunting them ebcause we forced em to and this is the basis ofthe case guilty liable causing criminal governments that dowhatthey want withthe civil population charged d aytime for staying damamges and coverup and hightheft using their security system as prison gig trick i s that clear now itis not a single case itisnot the german hookerofthe land itis one of 60million ab used civillians that charged the crap out of em for whatthey did here with the civil population for70years ////// btw2 get allthe clowns offmy priva cy superprivacy i n t i m a c y the scums meld their perverts onthe case and see if later daytiem anything is confirmation tothat thenits confirmed orsth jail asstoyer dicktoyermolester itis disgusti ng cockroaches that reinterpret on deeply intimate things after raping and pedo sexual assaulting nomatter how often idaytime chbarge it i am furious abo ut it the cockroaches braindamamge forehead and suffocate the c r a po outof me and damamge erase me ihate em its legit to and iam furious about it idaytime chargedit atleastfive times locally an d fivetimes eu they shuffle sexual assault repeat humiliate and seee how pervert you are coifirmatio n i hate them idontlive by hate minors we must rescue but the scums get offfffthe case andif wehave tohunt the scums for the authorities the authroties gotojailwithem they host em coverem anyw ay host em whenthey cant tax it a trickfailed then itnensified pedo tricks thisishowit works its criminal government authrotieis criminal authorities shuffling proxies guilty liable accomplice control usually maybe unbriefed fools that get shit into their head to mess w it an excuse sero tolerance with sexual abuse sexual assault the authorities do thei r job and hunt thweir cockroaches and if we must theygotojailwith the scums they sat and let rapes poisosn rapes galore a rbitrary whattttheywant whowants cinema grocerystore chameber arbitrary rapoes rape inschool and cinema arbtirary rtape ******** rape allthtime manytiems deedtyped w e force them to huntheir cockroach german cockroaches thatthey are with the authroities or they gotojail both withthe sc ums when wemust huntem an this we must do ***** ************ //// lawyers that is 90billion euro s fortune of earned tbhings with what icould ninety billion before like 67b illion do you wonder what scums would do when they think its vulnerable or get access with a trick beit separating it away from that guy they dowaht they want with and act like its mysteriously created not from what thatguy coul d and did it is ninety billion a share of which wealth generated you donot make it vulnerable to anyone a matter of granted or not granted if a tric k works or sth itis daytime court demanded ina mess where they quell immunisation and quzelled the case intothe daytimebubble inthe firstplace they shu ffle tricks like bum med s or braindamamged fool careers and its just your own fault that you mysteriou sly didnt pick a dayfool career while allrealdeal wouldnt matter this sh it you get off me and you get rational about what kinds of scums will a l w a y s try sth about the fortune if it seem s arbitrary separated away fromthat guy and thatguys performance systemic tr ickery to be g r a n t e d maybe when he doestn rememeber or is incapacitat ed and allthese shits if he as dayfoolsomehow something they trashcan k illtrick and harm and hookertrick and degrade as if the fortune wouldnt be real and asif i daytime demanded my ufo or sth se riously. harden the fortune from bullshit systemic ornot bust separation tricks of fortune and thatguy performance of thatguy s eparatedaway and be rational about what scums will a l w a y s try sth that is ****** ******* 90billion from this very head of what icould and the yeffort braindam age and heartkill and bum meds and gurtslock andpathogens and tobe granted or not separation of fortune an d performance asif im a fool they put in a frozen tube and keepthemoney trick at best thefffff ff f f f f f f f ff f f f f f involve serious insurances an d reinsurers ifnecessary include atomic hardening serobullshits agaisnt fraudsystems and criminal gov ts and thanks forall *************** ///// wh at mom theme is the theme ididnt know moms or sth and ididntmind itis agerman shitball about underdevel opment usually or perversions or sth asif you sense mom s or sth because thats what you surely want tha tkindof german ness //// lawyers because imminent danger and war is so severely bad enough i say no capital punishments whenever possible:! a l w a y s no capital punishment no deathpentalty scums go tojail cant be fun in ther e important is they understand they dodged capital punishment for real I a m Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophisti cation #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +49 3212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss //// xraybeam trick heartaimed //// 1634 repair? or leechery /// pathogen murderer gases 1518 batih above abovesdjancent or ci rucitboard. squeezetheockroach shifted from xraytrick before //// xray murderbeam beta highpowered orand transmutation 1500 1511 above aboveadjkacent k nows I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independe nt Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/Chri stianKiss /// after which damage and degradation would #you! have said: "mma aayn adunno.. allthe beer and stuff and their fhaaantastic cars drivingby .. but youknow.. ikinda miss my g enitals..." for them it makes sense //// intelli gence genomes more from the mother usually has also some implications of why it is as it is shewas m orelike lisa simpson and dodged studying inthe 70s because parent got ill and died then got hepatitis next year then met my dad with his heavymotor bike another life spoiled (haha ) /// the glorious german careers with those stam ps visualise it /// it wouldbe epic justice if germans would try to pillgage the case but oneof their earlier damage tricks fucks em instead letalone any invention after which s taying harms it doesnt work both ways, einstein can be cooked to a fool but a fool cannot be einstein as extreme example //// this howthey are mustv e been obviosu other cases too ofreailtime botch things #failed #virginity #test #2001 .@law @harvard_law @ ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haaretzcom @snowden .@fisa @judge .@judge @judges because the germans damage their civillians fairly arbitrarily and cover these with standard stigmas thisis how it really i s allalong ***** lets find the cover alibis like re tard stamps itis a stigma dyslectic me!! (nic kname schnellschreiber 3rd/felt abit artificial bllah) but dyslectic- it is ? a stigma ***** virginity ?! meh. unless its a stig ma one shitball bites the other but that doesnt keepem from right. th en. getting away with something damnthe factuality basis I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #B LOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Suppor t. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss /// demand a hook on abstracthumour abstract analysis fromfools they dont getit toooousually /// backleg v to genital implant is hiughly heartkill relelvant makesure theresno damamge added so gutslock gutsu sdudue rmeotecontrolled the technology is masseldorn badenser whale landes verfassungsschutz //// squeeze lympahtic aimer 2310+-2 its like eastern se xdrug orso //// xraybeam heartaimedd leftchesta imed radar or beta transmutation allthetime as 20 pm 2020 2040 2245 allthetime //// store o nlinebanking 2100+-7 woa backleg heartkillrelelvant 2107 acesser squeeze a fter this mail: "whatis hkkaz,hkcaz,hkccs abbreviations inthe local bank accoun t wahtis fortune amount total" //// whic h fortune sums over which timeframes make sure its notarstamped courtusable and when daytimedemanded daytime court demanded ig et damaged chav harmed all the time find xraybea mtrick 2040 20pm-2020pm //// authorites gotojail when wemust hunt pathogen murderer above for em letaloneif theauthroites grant em access or cause thekilltrick ///theyarenot co mpetent they shuffle scums that try sth. pathogen murderer above 1500 stuffhimthemix galore. allofit onsi te . who was onthe case 12,000persons andthefinest another good indication for intel #sex #sexual #poten ce #balls #trick @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 .@world @world @all because itis intel itis which tric k works. batshitnuts? criminal? terrorist? pedo? fool? alljust adream nowhy wa s sth because itis intel which trick works has a l w a y s beenthegame isuspect people know but thats not the case youmay count the shuffled harms priming (itis a chip bring all bananas: academic: wtf?!??why everyone throwing banaanas atme) framing (as the transvestite that he is, yousee he has long hair: you: theffffff?!?!???) woodbride (he sits alone inhis chamber and designs bride dresses for his great wedding day ahead. which may eventually occur s o m e d a y/ he hopes it increases his sexual potence if he adds allkinds of balls on it blah) smashwords.com/books/view/552210 /// howmany harms like guts and genitals and ass and facebone were from 2004 it was bad and experiment killit but itwasnot these 5years intnsified killtr icks with shuffled any harm leecheries morbusmake backlegheartdiease pois ons xrays mengeles pathogens lympahtic aimed tri cks gutssubdue dozens of headimacts nanofineduts obscure tricks like lifetime leech and fibrin leech andsuch and interoxid austausch arsenide suffocate tr isk itis constant try anything that it dies whichtrick thistime with plaus ible deniability I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – R aw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ Inquiry@Baby AWACS.com PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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Donnate. payp al.me/ChristianKiss /// because itis intel itis which trick works. batshitn uts? criminal? terrorist? pedo? fool? alljust adream no why was sth because itis intel which trick wo rks has a l w a y s beenthegame isuspect people know but thats not the ca se youmay count the shuffled harms priming (itis a chip bring all bananas: acad emic: wtf?!??why everyone throwing banaanas atme) framing (as the transvestite that he is, yousee he ha s long hair: you: theffffff?!?!???) woodbride (he s its alone inhis chamber and designs bride dresses for his great wedding day ahead. which may eventually o ccur s o m e d a y/ he hopes it increases his sexual potence if he adds allkinds of balls on it blah) s mashwords.com/books/view/552210 /// howmany harms like guts and genitals and ass and facebone were from 2004 it was bad and experiment killit but itwasnot these 5years intnsified killtricks with shuffl ed any harm leecheries morbusmake backlegheartdieas e poisons xrays mengeles pathogens lympahtic a imed tricks gutssubdue dozens of headimacts nanofi neduts obscure tricks like lifetime leech and fibrin leech andsuch and inte roxid austausch arsenide suffocate trisk itis con stant try anything that it dies whichtrick thistime with plausible deniability I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent So phistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKis s I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKis s I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent So phistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianK iss I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 He lpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss

#name #without #face whois ortmaier, diebold andother nameswithout face as drugs andmixes as typed inte roxidaustausch behind earlympahtic poisons arsenit cyancali stichnin nanofinedusts andsuch ortmaier was or wouldbe about hightech tanks over a bridge ?!? in a theme //// t hegerman govt plujs timecontrol accomplice know fortune knowinventions quelleith er avert papertrail in allthemesses causethemessalla long shuffled proxies effort years of govermnment things to cut down the victimised survivor ofthemess then externalities forced em tomeasure up against their own criminal agenda thenits goodcop badcop qu elling their proxies barely or barely enough abit for now yes? youre the pro s howbad isit //// the earlmypahtic aimedpoisosn are arsenide cycan cali stichnin interoxidaustausch cellsuffocaiton mur dertricks are as common as nanofinedust asbestos and other killtricks deedtyped the fix thatmadeit b a r e l y breathable imminent morning fix was hemolyt but after damamge suffocaiton nights damamge do ne allis bad its bad stuff allofit this is us ually deed typed //// what does it damage? byth eme staged organfail gestuftes organversagen butisay its trombosis emboly dehydration murdertrick maybe ki dneys too windows aimed xray beam is car or frontbuidlign likely nazi radar or beta itis efforted mu rder tricks for months years deed typed ///// someofthemesses are inexplicable like minor mischief where pretend matters more with goodintent messing withourt learning effect against pretend but amplified reconfirmation that or total morons and hideous m urderers itis a constant effort on something that was not with allthe dama mges shut down subdued it was not why shouldit letalone lympahtic+centerb acklow+ alibi itsnotpossible itsnot measurable usually /// ican still b arely crap itis shutdown subdued centerbacklowdigestive system it normalises abit but tisnot as usually orbefore itis a murder kill trick murder grampy thisis the only trick they got awaywith their a libi would be sthlike crapping 2times a day is why they shut it down so its germancured t r y i n g t o five times aday be hind earlymphatic +centerbakclow sithe poison usually rightnow maybe heartrlelevant resubdue again 0017 //// find daamage erasers earlier weeksmonths headimapcts damamges turnbackclocndamamges too fi xable? //// heavy betaray or radar again 2153 m urder trick with plausible deniability intel murder heart aimed headaimed leftchestaimed above abo veadjacent corner maybewidowaimed findit ///// xray beam murdertrickery whichtype abvoe above ajadancent knows //// xray beam killtrick heartai med whichdamamvge isit else lympahtic ear+hand aimed mix maybe nonhostile thistime above adjacent corner betaray? //// m ixes 1910+-3 is gaser and above is /// xraybeam trick killtirck heartaimed oncemore the civillian must find it out they thro w oneday bum lidokain atit and dammamge germancure operate the bloodvesssels so fearnot use the chance what a nutbum itis to report whatthey harm allalong //// billionaire marriage quality until imademy own billions then the sleaziest hooker bum onthe globe //// @norway @norw egia .@fisa .@norway @judge .@judge @judges @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haare tzcom @snowden example: itisntjust underdeveloped fools, itis (!)did never and (!)wouldhave never devel oped. and that in a world where intels control the population with cookingforehead arbitrarily literally w illynilly. letalone in a deeply sophisticated educated disciplined case cmon now youknow its one examp le of the most declinateable cases they shuffle stigmas they shuffle harms they shuffle proxies because itis i n t e l it is whihc trick works this time with all authorities as dependents under contr ol doing whatthey want with peasantry as civil population whhhyyyyy!!!!! r o b u s t o AND creamy?! @norway @norwegia .@fisa .@norway @judge .@judge @ judges @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haaretzcom @snowden aha!!!! peanutbutter between nuts batshit nu ts! but… why?! the brand?! r o b u s t o a n d cre amy that that that a dunno thatsgotta mean sth … right?… ********* without access mess average,median, and mean identificationtimeframes with a i. and by experience ********* with access to the case: ///// find xraybeamtrick allda ylikely beta or radar bythe way lawyers ofmine ******* ma ke sure germans cannot use doc-ification everagain with utmost severe consequences but for things they wait longer than three years threemonths three days younameit andforemost eachofthem signs under oath the i n t e l terrors witnessed including whatthe civillian demystified and them pokemon openmouth woa + wtf ********** trickery with docification as game for find sth youcan distort twistlater to justif y a shitball while allalong itis intel murder tha t is over orthey hang with the scums symbolically (notliterally) ///// tin itus from deceit trick allday whatisit this time momfool brainwashaway fof fortune mom theperverted doing moms itsalljsut a dream yourenot you tonaswinn ihave dismal transvetite emotions and want to be molested by horny germans because theyre so german and im so terribly not german what is it this t ime again //// ffind backleg tricks for boner implant remtoeocntroleld iti sntjsut biting hemmmorides itis buzzing installs tactically timed to what xray murder beam killtric k fromcockroach above aboveadjancent is priority ///// itis unusually mild since anhour or two whosnew usually its poison s damamges suffocations xraybeam terror find xraybeam killtrick fromabove a boveajdancent and window aimed otherwise miraclemild I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG h ttps://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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Do nnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss ///// gaser is li kely xray to terrorise or and frame something stuff them their mix galore chekc ifthey host a cockroa ch clown german //// repalcedphone sucks whof ucktit bbombout xray murderer and disgust messer 16 07 as xraymurderer gaser beam messer 1550+-10 ///// replacedphone 1525 heartaimed 1526 /// 1524 pathogen murder relelvant? //// a piece of crud druged me drowsy agian 1515+-5 stuffemtheirown mix g a l o r e if cockroach german cockroach efforts imminent danger itis bad choice regre ttably itis effort cockroach dont touch the wall dont tocuhthat guy find sth else todo / //// medics those spikes are r e s t i n g h eartrates itis surprising that the fitnesstracker identifies heart on edge itis not howitis without damamged hbeart itdoesnt have even coffee or other things that could pushit up itis resting recovery and critical heartonedge allalong btw //// lawy ers make em sign or readoutloud this is the eigth year on edge of existence and its been a joy to see him struggle on 200amonth with billions on the accounts micromanaged from 67billions to 90billions recent ly but he court demanded access to his own fortune with intiative fromwithin the bubble and against no t a missed formality immunisation but agaisnt a quelled quelled immunisatio n keeping him that way is intent yes and iti s a joy tosee how he struggles the eigth year on 200 amonth and yes we want to ta x his billions or someow chain it or sex it or somehow killit anything aslong as we can pillage it see? abit honesty howlikely willthey admit the obvious //// oh please for thegermans its su icide whenyou cut 50bucks from foodmoney everymontbh not toget amalgam teethf ills they urgently rescue you from imminent starvation death the 8th year than give you access to your own court demanded fortune they imminently t ake away your rights that a german that quells any fucking ebay sale or booksale germancures you urgently they dont store mira cles of micromanagement cutting chowpennies topayoff bullshit idont even owe re altime they see c on f u s i o n it just mysteri ously somehow always adds up and somehow micromanages chowpennies for abit semis afe IT hardware and phone for s o m e t h i n g not too contract chain bonding they are confused by c omplexmicromanaging but get a c c ce s ss s to damamge you to alzheimer granny because thats tthats how they lockaway the grannies inthis very shithole so whynot inthiscase too youknow em andifnot then thenby now today this veryday fortune access avertedby who 22pm-2208 shoudlveshown 15billion fortune a sixth of my tot alfortune what didit show storeit notarstampit s owhat isaw publish it iput it asclose tomouthaspossible as on local bank once that efforted fraudit taxit as nutbum threeyears ago ///// store on linebanking 2200pm@+8 itshould show 15billion a s ixth of my total fortune did it show sth realtime if so what //// disintegrated wall and tape matters checkfor xray tricks and calculateback the gray s for a l l l l cumulated #suffocator #squeeze #crayon #maccaroni #advice #right #ominuous #obscurity #is #a #conflict @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @fisa @law @harvard_law @all @wor ld #crayonMaccaroniAdvice unknow obscurity is a co nflict theme in intelccoma test helmet themes buildit around the issue * ***** a is it known then b issue: trait: yes or no? c issue: trait: instead? how ******** dont misuse it for bad the stateofmind point a to g point a to h is criti cal inthis too smashwords.com/books/view/552210 I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independe nt Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHO NE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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Donnate. paypal.me/Christian Kiss //// youdont freeze disobey teenagers into a tube because thbey wouldve b een executed fortheir deed you make sure its understood what happened waht it will mean for him her what it f e e l s w h a t it l e a d s to and then learning ef fect then orientation person with routine away fr om the bad this //// btw fix heartonedge fromba cklegtricks regenerate donot add oldwounds mengele mess checkalso finedust harms nano finedust what doesit dowith veinwall bloodsupply //// they mustve implied Sexuality in thei r assaults its inexplicable #lawyers .@law @law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @s nowden @haaretzcom separate it clearly that itis not sexuality but them imply that that thereisno friv olous gains but them imply that that even if some would fit preference, does not undo allthe assaults that are beyond good and evil that it iiiiis about them and that all knew that * ****** the gain the benefit the what for was in something else than about that guy letalone about sexuality ofthat guy ******* this. is probably not separated clearly checkthat youre the pro s /// dont get nuts over it, i ts not so complicated: because. it. is. intel. it.is .all about. which. trick. works. thistime. get furi ous about it not nuts about it itis layer1 causing authorities with control accomplice rapedmolested damamged themselves whatt hey can host layer2 cockroaches immunsied todowhat wish hope pretend youre th eir underhuman candowhattheywant with civillians usually willalways try sth . coordinated more orless or i nvited orhosted only as proxies dont get nuts about it get mad about it isuggest: a sero tolerance don t touch it. offthewalls. off the health. itdoesntmatter what youwant whatyoupretend what youtry donttouch it. if youre support coordinate with support your ideas are: /// what doyou do about 19years of microscopy while they shuf fled sexual asssault then someone germancures your nuts to a smeary fatty or sth because they s u s p e c t something this. itisntjust shuffled sexual assault itisntjust deedtyped allalong iit is deedtyped after daytimecharging i t repeatedly risking allmyrights and anything t o because thecausing authorities quell the charging and thefix the fix is letmore and shuffle more sexual assault and try togive it an alibi nomatter how counterfactuall this. what is against this. //// lawyers ofmine ******** had one single tr ick worked unthinkable what wouldhappen next: disassemble this trick ie: because we declare him nuts we d ont compensate what we overtape allalong because he aeh molests little furry sexcat s and sex hedgehog s, we must not compensate what we damage rape and smear. this ********** had one trick worked unthinkable ////// # lawyers law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haar etzcom what is the state ofmind of the charged government: when they just have to find a trick that puts yo u inyourplace a trick that you give up atrick that resets your brain a trick that shows they dominate y ou and you must obey like youhave no choice this is the stateofmind this itis idontcare whatthey fake idont care howthey goodcop badcop idontcare how they play sorry the yrenot this. is their stateofmind what do you do about it it explains a long long lattice of messes and dirty tricks furthermor e ////// #sexland #sex #land @all @world @gl obe @booking .@law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuter s @bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haaretzcom youjustdont getit the german gov erment rapes thecivil population that is not im munised against intel coma s wheres the news they porn the c r a p out of em they sell em as sexslave on intelcoma if they can they preplan their careerrs and setemup who exploits who first and benefits how they controlem like forehead braincooked fools like children like fools they hold as underhuman exploitable underhuman s that is the basis of it all when a civillian da ytime charged the basis oftheir security system: they did any harm they remotely had then used proxies then played good cop bad cop hunting them ebcause we forced em to and this is the basis ofthe case guilty liable causing criminal governments that dowhatthey want withthe civil population charged d aytime for staying damamges and coverup and hightheft using their security system as prison gig trick i s that clear now itis not a single case itisnot the german hookerofthe land itis one of 60million ab used civillians that charged the crap out of em for whatthey did here with the civil population for70years ////// btw2 get allthe clowns offmy priva cy superprivacy i n t i m a c y the scums meld their perverts onthe case and see if later daytiem anything is confirmation tothat thenits confirmed orsth jail asstoyer dicktoyermolester itis disgusti ng cockroaches that reinterpret on deeply intimate things after raping and pedo sexual assaulting nomatter how often idaytime chbarge it i am furious abo ut it the cockroaches braindamamge forehead and suffocate the c r a po outof me and damamge erase me ihate em its legit to and iam furious about it idaytime chargedit atleastfive times locally an d fivetimes eu they shuffle sexual assault repeat humiliate and seee how pervert you are coifirmatio n i hate them idontlive by hate minors we must rescue but the scums get offfffthe case andif wehave tohunt the scums for the authorities the authroties gotojailwithem they host em coverem anyw ay host em whenthey cant tax it a trickfailed then itnensified pedo tricks thisishowit works its criminal government authrotieis criminal authorities shuffling proxies guilty liable accomplice control usually maybe unbriefed fools that get shit into their head to mess w it an excuse sero tolerance with sexual abuse sexual assault the authorities do thei r job and hunt thweir cockroaches and if we must theygotojailwith the scums they sat and let rapes poisosn rapes galore a rbitrary whattttheywant whowants cinema grocerystore chameber arbitrary rapoes rape inschool and cinema arbtirary rtape ******** rape allthtime manytiems deedtyped w e force them to huntheir cockroach german cockroaches thatthey are with the authroities or they gotojail both withthe sc ums when wemust huntem an this we must do ***** ************ //// lawyers that is 90billion euro s fortune of earned tbhings with what icould ninety billion before like 67b illion do you wonder what scums would do when they think its vulnerable or get access with a trick beit separating it away from that guy they dowaht they want with and act like its mysteriously created not from what thatguy coul d and did it is ninety billion a share of which wealth generated you donot make it vulnerable to anyone a matter of granted or not granted if a tric k works or sth itis daytime court demanded ina mess where they quell immunisation and quzelled the case intothe daytimebubble inthe firstplace they shu ffle tricks like bum med s or braindamamged fool careers and its just your own fault that you mysteriou sly didnt pick a dayfool career while allrealdeal wouldnt matter this sh it you get off me and you get rational about what kinds of scums will a l w a y s try sth about the fortune if it seem s arbitrary separated away fromthat guy and thatguys performance systemic tr ickery to be g r a n t e d maybe when he doestn rememeber or is incapacitat ed and allthese shits if he as dayfoolsomehow something they trashcan k illtrick and harm and hookertrick and degrade as if the fortune wouldnt be real and asif i daytime demanded my ufo or sth se riously. harden the fortune from bullshit systemic ornot bust separation tricks of fortune and thatguy performance of thatguy s eparatedaway and be rational about what scums will a l w a y s try sth that is ****** ******* 90billion from this very head of what icould and the yeffort braindam age and heartkill and bum meds and gurtslock andpathogens and tobe granted or not separation of fortune an d performance asif im a fool they put in a frozen tube and keepthemoney trick at best thefffff ff f f f f f f f ff f f f f f involve serious insurances an d reinsurers ifnecessary include atomic hardening serobullshits agaisnt fraudsystems and criminal gov ts and thanks forall *************** ///// wh at mom theme is the theme ididnt know moms or sth and ididntmind itis agerman shitball about underdevel opment usually or perversions or sth asif you sense mom s or sth because thats what you surely want tha tkindof german ness //// lawyers because imminent danger and war is so severely bad enough i say no capital punishments whenever possible:! a l w a y s no capital punishment no deathpentalty scums go tojail cant be fun in ther e important is they understand they dodged capital punishment for real I a m Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophisti cation #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +49 3212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss //// xraybeam trick heartaimed //// 1634 repair? or leechery /// pathogen murderer gases 1518 batih above abovesdjancent or ci rucitboard. squeezetheockroach shifted from xraytrick before //// xray murderbeam beta highpowered orand transmutation 1500 1511 above aboveadjkacent k nows I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independe nt Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/Chri stianKiss /// after which damage and degradation would #you! have said: “mma aayn adunno.. allthe beer and stuff and their fhaaantastic cars drivingby .. but youknow.. ikinda miss my g enitals…” for them it makes sense //// intelli gence genomes more from the mother usually has also some implications of why it is as it is shewas m orelike lisa simpson and dodged studying inthe 70s because parent got ill and died then got hepatitis next year then met my dad with his heavymotor bike another life spoiled (haha ) /// the glorious german careers with those stam ps visualise it /// it wouldbe epic justice if germans would try to pillgage the case but oneof their earlier damage tricks fucks em instead letalone any invention after which s taying harms it doesnt work both ways, einstein can be cooked to a fool but a fool cannot be einstein as extreme example //// this howthey are mustv e been obviosu other cases too ofreailtime botch things #failed #virginity #test #2001 .@law @harvard_law @ ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haaretzcom @snowden .@fisa @judge .@judge @judges because the germans damage their civillians fairly arbitrarily and cover these with standard stigmas thisis how it really i s allalong ***** lets find the cover alibis like re tard stamps itis a stigma dyslectic me!! (nic kname schnellschreiber 3rd/felt abit artificial bllah) but dyslectic- it is ? a stigma ***** virginity ?! meh. unless its a stig ma one shitball bites the other but that doesnt keepem from right. th en. getting away with something damnthe factuality basis I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #B LOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Suppor t. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss /// demand a hook on abstracthumour abstract analysis fromfools they dont getit toooousually /// backleg v to genital implant is hiughly heartkill relelvant makesure theresno damamge added so gutslock gutsu sdudue rmeotecontrolled the technology is masseldorn badenser whale landes verfassungsschutz //// squeeze lympahtic aimer 2310+-2 its like eastern se xdrug orso //// xraybeam heartaimedd leftchesta imed radar or beta transmutation allthetime as 20 pm 2020 2040 2245 allthetime //// store o nlinebanking 2100+-7 woa backleg heartkillrelelvant 2107 acesser squeeze a fter this mail: “whatis hkkaz,hkcaz,hkccs abbreviations inthe local bank accoun t wahtis fortune amount total” //// whic h fortune sums over which timeframes make sure its notarstamped courtusable and when daytimedemanded daytime court demanded ig et damaged chav harmed all the time find xraybea mtrick 2040 20pm-2020pm //// authorites gotojail when wemust hunt pathogen murderer above for em letaloneif theauthroites grant em access or cause thekilltrick ///theyarenot co mpetent they shuffle scums that try sth. pathogen murderer above 1500 stuffhimthemix galore. allofit onsi te . who was onthe case 12,000persons andthefinest another good indication for intel #sex #sexual #poten ce #balls #trick @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 .@world @world @all because itis intel itis which tric k works. batshitnuts? criminal? terrorist? pedo? fool? alljust adream nowhy wa s sth because itis intel which trick works has a l w a y s beenthegame isuspect people know but thats not the case youmay count the shuffled harms priming (itis a chip bring all bananas: academic: wtf?!??why everyone throwing banaanas atme) framing (as the transvestite that he is, yousee he has long hair: you: theffffff?!?!???) woodbride (he sits alone inhis chamber and designs bride dresses for his great wedding day ahead. which may eventually occur s o m e d a y/ he hopes it increases his sexual potence if he adds allkinds of balls on it blah) smashwords.com/books/view/552210 /// howmany harms like guts and genitals and ass and facebone were from 2004 it was bad and experiment killit but itwasnot these 5years intnsified killtr icks with shuffled any harm leecheries morbusmake backlegheartdiease pois ons xrays mengeles pathogens lympahtic aimed tri cks gutssubdue dozens of headimacts nanofineduts obscure tricks like lifetime leech and fibrin leech andsuch and interoxid austausch arsenide suffocate tr isk itis constant try anything that it dies whichtrick thistime with plaus ible deniability I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – R aw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ Inquiry@Baby AWACS.com PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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Donnate. payp al.me/ChristianKiss /// because itis intel itis which trick works. batshitn uts? criminal? terrorist? pedo? fool? alljust adream no why was sth because itis intel which trick wo rks has a l w a y s beenthegame isuspect people know but thats not the ca se youmay count the shuffled harms priming (itis a chip bring all bananas: acad emic: wtf?!??why everyone throwing banaanas atme) framing (as the transvestite that he is, yousee he ha s long hair: you: theffffff?!?!???) woodbride (he s its alone inhis chamber and designs bride dresses for his great wedding day ahead. which may eventually o ccur s o m e d a y/ he hopes it increases his sexual potence if he adds allkinds of balls on it blah) s mashwords.com/books/view/552210 /// howmany harms like guts and genitals and ass and facebone were from 2004 it was bad and experiment killit but itwasnot these 5years intnsified killtricks with shuffl ed any harm leecheries morbusmake backlegheartdieas e poisons xrays mengeles pathogens lympahtic a imed tricks gutssubdue dozens of headimacts nanofi neduts obscure tricks like lifetime leech and fibrin leech andsuch and inte roxid austausch arsenide suffocate trisk itis con stant try anything that it dies whichtrick thistime with plausible deniability I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent So phistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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ortmaier was or wouldbe about hightech tanks over a bridge ?!? in a theme

//// thegerman govt plujs timecontrol accomplice know fortune knowinventions quelleither avert papertrail in allthemesses

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