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watsittoyah · 1 year

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Mix tape (NATE JACOBS X BLK FEM READER)

In which Nate Jacob makes you mix tapes because his toxic ass can’t tell you how he feels…

(Track 01) In my city I'm a young god. That pussy kill be so vicious. My god white, he in my pocket. He get me redder than the devil 'til I go nauseous… -Often, The Weeknd

Warnings- oral sex (female Receiving)

(Next)

You were a straight A student. You didn’t step out of line, hell you didn’t even sneak out to meet boys. But that’s all about to change…

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“What? Little Jade about to step on the field with the big girls?!” Your best friend and infamous influence, Stacey squeals as you two stretch out on the field.

“Shh! Don’t be so dang loud. I’m only trying it out because Tess said it would be fun.” You tell her. “First of all the word is Damn, and second since when you listen to Tess’ stuck up ass?”

Your eyes widen as you look back to make sure Tess, your step sister, didn’t hear her. “Shh! Why are you so loud?” You both laugh and Stacey lean in so no one else can hear.

“Since you’re all big poppin’ how about you come out tonight? I heard McKay’s fine ass is throwing a Halloween party and his parents aren’t even home. You gotta come with me, I want him to see me in my maid costume but I need my best friend there with me to hype me up. So you coming?”

Here you we go.

On the angelic side, you’d decline the offer. Grab a pizza with your family and pass out candy to a few trick or treaters while you watch some boring show on Netflix. And you’d hear about the Halloween party of the century the next day.

On the hot girl side you’d say fuck it, let’s go. And you’d have a ball, smoke some weed, shit you might actually get a guy to touch you, and not act like a priss miss.

So what’s it gonna be, Jade?

You snap out of your inner monologue and raise a brow. “What time is the party?” Stacey bursts out laughing. “Girl I know you’re not serious. I was just playing with you. I’m sure I can ask Monica to go with me.”

You frown at her and pull your braids up into a ponytail. “I’m not playing. What time is the party?” The smile on your best friends face melts away. “Jade, if you’re serious, then it’s happening tonight around ten. Please tell me you have a costume to wear? And don’t you come to this party wearing your first Sunday clothes.” You roll your eyes. “Girl shut up, I have a cute costume.” Stacey rolls her eyes at you. “Yeah I’ll be the judge of that, I’m coming over to your place an hour before then. And don’t even try to cop out last minute.”

“I am not going to cop out last minute. Damn.”

~~~

There is no way in hell you can go to this party? What were you thinking?

You were pacing your bedroom, on the verge of hyperventilating.

“I can’t do this. I just can’t.” You hear knocking and without even thinking you open your door and Stacey was standing there wearing a form fitted maid costume that cut down low to show her tits. “What’s wrong?” She asks while walking into your bedroom.

“I must be out of my mind, that’s what’s wrong. I can’t go. I don’t have anything to wear, plus what if the police are called? What if they find out I was at that party and that goes on my permanent record? What if they tell me I can’t get into a good college? I’ll be some bum on the street scraping up pennies off of the sidewalk!”

Stacey shakes you by your shoulders. “Jade! Chill! We’re going to a party not some drug run. Now let me see your costume. And before you say anything you’re going to this party.”

You pout and grab the little box you had stashed in the back of your closet. You pass it over to her and she opens the box.

“Where have you been hiding this? And can I borrow it?” You snatch the box back, putting it on your bed.

“It’s been in my closet since last summer. I bought it just in case for times like these but now I don’t think I can pull it off.”

“Go put it on.” Stacey tells you. You open your mouth to argue but she points to your bathroom and you take the box then march your crack to the bathroom.

Once the dress is on your peek out of the bathroom. “Jade, we got ten minutes before the party starts. And I’m all for being fashionably late but my future baby daddy is hosting this thing. Come on now.”

You step out of the bathroom and you’re tugging at the hem of the dress. It was a tight red dress that came mid thigh. It might have been longer if you didn’t have hips and ass on you.

“You look good! Now I know you still have those red thigh highs, because I haven’t took them for my closet yet.” Stacey goes into your closet and you take a deep breathe. Dressing up as a she-devil wasn’t your first pick but the costume was a laugh at the moment and it was on sale last year.

You tug at the dress and Stacey tsks. “Don’t you have a thong? I can see your granny panties.” Your eyes widen. “No, I don’t own a pair.” Stacey circles you and grins.

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You feel uncomfortable not wearing underwear under the dress but Stacey tells you that it’s fine. But you’re nervous. This isn’t something you’d do. When Stacey is about to open the door you grab her arm. “What if I can’t do this?”

“And what if you can? Look, you look fucking amazing. Let loose for a change. If you could be anyone right now who would you be? Don’t tell me just take a deep breathe and be them. Alright?”

You nod and you take a deep breathe and you think about all those girls you’ve seen in those teen movies you’ve watched with Tess. You roll your shoulders back and Stacey opens the door. You’re hit with the smell of weed, bodies, and alcohol. Stacey takes your hand and you two enter together.

“McKay is over by the corner, and I see Cassie trying to get her hands on him. But watch this.” Stacey says in your ear as she guides you two over to them.

Remember me by Wiz Khalifa was playing and you see McKay glancing at Stacey. He then looks your way and your stomach was doing summersaults.

You won’t admit it to Stacey but Christopher McKay was fine as hell to you. But since she was your best friend you took the step back.

He gives Cassie a nod and he leans off of the wall and heads towards the two of you. “Hello ladies.” He greets as he yells a bit over the music. “Hey McKay.” Stacey says in her best sex voice. You turn your face a bit to keep from laughing and you see the punch bowl. “Is there water?” You turn back to ask and see Stacey pulling McKay towards the crowd.

“So much for sticking together.” You mumble as you move towards the kitchen. You see a few freshman dressed as gorillas doing body shots off of two junior girls dressed as bananas. You gently chuckle at that as you grab a small bottle of water, inspecting it.

Once you’ve seen it hasn’t been tampered with you crack it open and take a few gulps. Someone passes you a blunt but you pass and find some cheese puffs. You go to reach for some and your hand brushes against someone.

And that someone happened to be Nate Jacobs.

You knew Nate because he was your friend, at least until he found the gym and became a jock. After that, you both drifted apart and you moved to the upper east side of town.

Nate still had a special place in your heart seeing that the both of you looked out for each other when bad times had hit both of your families. Especially when that shit went down with his br-

“Jade Springfield?” He asks as he squints at you. “Nate Jacobs?” You mimic him and he gives a big smile which makes your heart leap. “How have you been?” He pulls you into a hug and you hold him close. For just that split second it felt like old times again.

“I’ve been good. Damn Jacobs you got tall.” You say to him with a smile. “And you stayed short.” He teases. You punch him playfully in the stomach and he laughs.

“Anyways, how have you been?” You ask him as he keeps his hands wrapped around you. “I’ve been good. Better now that I know you’re here.” The last part of his answer made your spine tingle a bit.

You clear your throat and step back from his touch. “Hey you wanna go outside? It’s kind of-”

“Loud? Yeah let’s go.” He takes your hand and you two head out to the back. As soon as you two step outside the music just stops and you allow yourself to relax. You two were on the back deck, you sit down on the steps and Nate sits down besides you.

“You still don’t like loud places huh?” Nate asks you. “You remember that?” You ask as you empty the water bottle. “Of course, I mean it’s been what almost four and a half years? But yeah, I remember.” He smirks at a thought and he takes a swig of beer. “That better be root beer, Nate.” You tease, bumping your leg against his. He rolls his eyes but smiles when he’s done drinking.

“Of course its root beer, Jade. Because that’s what teens drink of parties like this.” It was your turn to roll your eyes. “Smart ass. So I heard through the grapevine that you’re playing football.”

“I am, and I heard through the same grapevine that you’re cheerleading. When are you gonna come cheer for me?” He says in a flirtatious tone. “Alright that ‘root beer’ getting you talking reckless Jacobs.”

You notice he’s leaning in a bit closer. And you cross your legs. “You remember that one time in the fourth grade when Jason Bateman dared you to kiss me?”

“Oh god, yes and you punched me in the jaw. Your little first hurt.” You two laugh at the memory and you lean your head on his shoulder. “I missed this, Nate-Nate.” He scoffs. “Shit I haven’t heard that nickname in a long time, Jay-Jay.” You smile at your childhood nickname.

“Why did you have to become some jerk who forgot about me?” You ask him as he hands you the rest of his beer. You accept it and down the rest, wincing from the bad taste.

“I could never forget about you, Jade. Actually if I’m being honest when we were kids I had the hugest crush on you.” You lean away from him and turn so you’re facing him. “You’re lying.”

He raises his hands and laughs. “I’m not lying. I took that dare from Jason because I didn’t want anyone else kissing you. As far as I knew you were going to be my girlfriend in the fourth grade.”

The way Nate was eyeing your legs made your inner thighs throb. “I heard…you’re dating Maddie Perez.” You say instantly regretting that.

He sighs and you notice his jaw clenching. “She dumped me last week, so…yeah.” Way to go Jade, you tell yourself.

“Sorry, I didn’t know.” He nods. “No one knows that she dumped me. I just told everyone that we’re taking a break.”

“Why would you tell me then?” Nate shrugs and scoots in close to you. “Because I can trust you, not to tell anyone. And because out of everyone in this fucked up town, I actually like you. And I’m sorry I just stopped being friends with you. I was going through a lot and your parents were going through that divorce. Which isn’t an excuse, but-”

You lean in and hug him. “I know when you ramble you like that, underneath it means you need a hug. You know my number hasn’t changed. If you need someone to talk to I’m here.” He hugs you back and he inhales deep. “How has it been a few years and you still understand me better than anyone?” He asks. You lean back and shrug.

“We just have that connection, Nate-Nate.” You smile at him and he brings his hands to your hips.

The warmth from his hands made your chilly body feel good. And his cologne was making a small puddle between your legs.

Calm down Jade. This is Nate you’re thinking about. The same Nate that you would play with on the playground. The same Nate that you knew before the muscles.

The same muscles that you were sure you wouldn’t mind looking at under his criminal costume.

“A she-devil, hm? Seems like the perfect costume for you, Jade. I especially like these thigh high boots on you.” His hand seems to trail from your knee all the way up to your inner thigh. You bite your bottom lip and look pass his shoulder but he shakes his head.

“No, baby focus. I want those pretty eyes on me.” His hand reaches under your dress and he sucks in a sharp breathe. “You’re not even wearing panties?” You jerk your legs closed and move back.

“I’m sorry! I’ll go.” You were about to get up but Nate stops you. “You don’t need to apologize. I was just surprised is all, I didn’t except a snack ready for me to eat.” Nate eyes between your thighs this time and when he looks back up you find yourself leaning in.

He leans in close as well. Both of your lips meet and you feel yourself move, straddling him. He places his hands on your hips and he presses his erection against your cunt. You let out a moan and he bites your bottom lip. “Do you feel that?” You nod as he presses it harder against you. “I want this inside of you, right now. But only if that’s okay with you, Jay-Jay.” His hand travels up your neck and he brings your mouth close to his. “Use those words, pretty girl.”

“I want you inside of me, Nate.” You mouth as you kiss him again. He grunts as his tongue slides past your lips. He tastes like cheap beer, and some strong mint he probably ate before he got to the party.

He stands up with your legs wrapped around him. And he walks off of the deck. “Mm, where. Are, we going?” You ask moaning against his lips. “Just to my truck.” He answers as he kisses your neck.

When he gets to his truck his presses the key and the door unlocks. He places you inside and climbs in after you. “Get in the back, Jay-Jay.” Nate says to you as he takes off the top half of his costume.

You do as you’re told and he follows after you. He gets on top of you and he looks down at you. “Never thought I would have Jade Springfield in my truck.” He says with a smirk.

“Oh shut up, Nate.” You laugh but Nate wasn’t. Instead he gets down on his knees, spreading your legs apart and placing them on his shoulders.

“Don’t look away, I want your eyes on me.” He says as he leans down and flicks his tongue across your clit. Your legs jerk a bit which makes Nate smirk.

“Does my tongue scare you, Jay-Jay?”

“No.” You lie as he spreads your lips apart. “I think you’re lying. I think my tongue scares you and you like that.” He flicks his tongue across your clit slowly and your breathes hitches.

You move your hips to the rhythm of his tongue and you moan out while your nails scratch at his seat. You watch as his eyes flutter closed and the grabs you and pulls you closer.

“Oh shit, Nate don’t stop.” Your hands find their way to his hair and you grip his hair as you work your hips harder. He sucks your clit and your legs clench.

He continues to flick his tongue against your clit but he slides in two fingers, doing the here motion which causes you to moan out in tongues as he massages that sweet spot.

“N…Nate you’re gonna make me cum.” You whimper. He just keeps eating you out like your his last meal on earth. You feel your eyes rolling to the back of your skull with your back arching. Without warning you squirt in his mouth and on his seats.

You try to close your legs because it’s sensitive but he keeps going. “N-Nate it’s se-sensitive please.” He looks up at you and he twirls his tongue which makes you stutter out gibberish.

“Sure you’re not scared of my tongue, Jade?” He rolls his tongue and you feel your orgasm hit again. “Y, yes I’m scared. I can’t h..handle i- I’m coming.” You moan out as your hips move to your orgasm.

He gives one more good suck to your pussy lips and he leans up, kissing you so you can taste yourself on his tongue. “I could eat your pussy for hours, Jay-Jay. But I’ll do that next time. Right now I know you want this.”

He places your hand on his crotch and your eyes go wide. There no way that is fitting inside of you. Nate sees the fear in your eyes and he leans down kissing your neck. “I know it’s big, but I’ll be gentle. I won’t hurt you. I’d never hurt you.” He sucks the side of your neck and you moan his name out softly.

You feel him move you back against his seat. And you hear his zipper unzip. You can’t see what his dick looks like in the dark but from the feel of it you know it’s bigger than the toys you use.

You hear something rip and in the street light you see it’s a condom wrapper. He moves himself closer to you and you know it’s going to hurt since he is your first but you both freeze when you hear a cop siren in the distance.

Nate moves back and you sit up to see the lights of a few cop cars.

Suddenly everyone runs out of McKay’s house and you two scramble to get decent. “I can take you home.” Nate tells you, but you shake your head.

“I’m not leaving, Stacey behind. Let me out real quick.” He opens the door and you climb out of his truck, looking through the crowd for Stacey.

You feel your phone vibrate and you answer it. “Where are you?” You hear Stacey ask in a panic. “I’m outside, where are you? I’ll find you.” You hear Nate say something but you take off running where you see Stacey’s car.

When you get in she was panicking. “Girl, apparently someone’s ex girlfriend called a noise complaint and got the party shut down…” As Stacey gives you the details you get a text from an unknown number.

Unknown-

Hey, it’s Nate. Maybe we can pick up where we left off. Not just tonight but from back then? 🙂

You feel a small smile on your lips and you go to answer but Stacey says something that makes you reconsider.

“..McKay says he thinks it was Maddie who called, since she heard that Nate was here..”

You feel the guilt in your heart and you give a wow that’s crazy for your comment and lean your head against the window.

Maybe meeting up with Nate tonight was a bad thing.

Boy was it ever…

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dustofthedailylife · 11 months

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hi i have a funny roommate idea!

martial artist!reader brings a lot of potentially comedic scenarios to mind tee hee

-reader coming home covered in bruises and kaveh FREAKS the fuck out while alhaitham has vivid visions of how to best ruin someone's life

-a friend from their class/team/idk whatever sees them in public and starts a friendly sparring session out of nowhere (my instructor used to tell us that if he saw us in public he would put us in a chokehold and see if the training kicks in, lol)

-them inviting a friend over and one or more of the boys walks in on someone being pinned

-them offering to teach one of the boys some moves and the other walks in on someone being pinned

-hey why do you have so many weapons in your closet?

-some npc harrasses reader and they get to see the the poor soul either get kicked into a wall or thrown down so hard it realigns their spine

-a little bit of friendly roughhousing aND WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SO STRONG???

-and my favorite trope, doesn't even have to be martial artist reader: they grab onto one of the boys in their sleep and good luck, bc reader is a bear trap. you're staying here until they wake up.

-oh, how can i forget, the classic "oh my god i've never seen them in revealing clothing and they are ?!?!??"

-crushing a watermelon between their thighs also

[-> Roommate AU brainrots]

omg this is too funny 😂😭

Kaveh would totally be hysteric when you come home with bruises and Alhaitham would just watch the entire thing and listens in. 100% thinking about who he needs to murder and already trying to formulate a plan lol!

And if someone attacked you in public like that Kaveh would freak the fuck out, probably just throwing Mehrak in the way. And Alhaitham would already summon his sword and some light mirrors - you'd probably have to calm him down and tell him it's okay. Or you just kick ass and indirectly tell them that they don't need to protect you with that 😂

Being pinned by your training partner and they think they walk into a compromising situation and then noping out of the room. Kaveh would 100% ask you about who that was later though. Alhaitham would try to find out on his own through connections.

The friendly roughhousing makes me think of Alhaitham jokingly putting you in a chokehold after you've been teasing him all day. Fast forward to him getting flung over your shoulder and on the carpet in the blink of an eye. You can't stop saying sorry while he lies on the floor groaning while Kaveh is laughing his ass off in the background.

And with the sleeping hugs? They'd both get flustered, let's be real. Alahaitham is hard to fluster but, dang even he would be red in the face. And Kaveh... he's a cinnamon roll, of course, he is a blushing mess.

And yes, imagine just wearing a loose shirt in the morning and not wearing any pants (except for underwear) and it just fries their brain. Or some clothes you go out with (Reader's choice what it is) and it shows your collarbones/chest partly and they just completely lose their mind. Your outfit and you are on their mind for the rest of the night. They might just throw you a compliment for it later in the hopes you'd wear something like that more often.

#🍁 dust mail #🍁 garden visitor: anon #🍁彡 gi #genshin x reader #kaveh x reader #alhaitham x reader

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lyssak09 · 1 year

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Hello :D

I love your writings!!!!

And I love your dbd Yandere Leon x killer reader story :3 can you pls make a part two? I would love to know how it will continues :D

Thank you so much for your amazing work!!!!!!

Also have a good day :D

Of course! Your super sweet I'm so glad you like my writing. So I actually started working on a part 2 after seeing your comment. But your ask just really made me work more on it. So thank you for requesting! Also, I tried to make this as gender friendly as possible. If I messed up anywhere Im so sorry. I hope you guys enjoy it 💙

Yandere Leon with Killer! Reader pt 2

Leon is a clingy needy dude after he's yonked you from the killer's realm. So expect a lot of cuddling, no personal space, and following you everywhere you go in the apartment.

He isn’t THAT weird, and lets you use the bathroom in peace.

You think anyway.

The best part about him following you like a puppy is the fact that you can basically make him do anything with a simple sentence.

You could ask for water, and he will zoom over the fridge to get you some water.

Hungry?

Food has been cooked and brought to you.

You are treated like a god dang queen/king/royalty.

As you should be.

He took you without your permission, and has been keeping you basically hostage.

This is the least that he could do for you.

Now, is his cooking very good?

Not really.

He is used to cooking food over a fire and, after joining The Entity’s realm, not eating at all.

If someone came to visit you guys (99.98% not gonna happen but it doesn't hurt to hope) like a friend of his, who didn’t hate him for kidnapping you, he would be giving them a death glare until they leave. Lucky for them that they're friends with Leon or else you'd have a giant mess to clean up and some laundry to do if ya catch my drift.

Btw, Leon 100% wants you to be his house spouse.

You are so missed by your friends. And are enraged and appalled that Leon has done this to you and is able to.

A lot of the killers don’t care tho, since they’ve seen much worse.

But the survivors do, they're also extra pissed he is the one who did kill them for a while as of late.

But hey, not everything was too bad.

He let you have hobbies, as long as you were still inside of the apartment.

Like sewing.

If you were really interested in it, he would ask you to sew some of his old clothes with big holes.

“Y/N,” he would whisper, before sitting down next to you. You were just sewing up old holes in a pillow case that you found in the back of the closet, hoping to maybe get some use out of it. “Can you sew up this hole for me?"He showed you an old, black shirt with a bullet hole on the chest. “Laurie got me good with a pallet, it put a hole in my shirt, and I haven’t been able to find someone to repair it.”

If you try to stab him with the needle or scissors to skedaddle then your butt is gonna get whooped.

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?" He yelled at you while you tried to break the front door down. "To get away from you! Duh!" You replied before body slamming the door. Leon let out a string of curses as he quickly wrapped his wound with scraps of fabric from the table. Leon soon grabbed you by your waist and dragged you to the bedroom. "Damn it! Let go of me!!" You screamed and held on to the door frame of the bedroom. Leon covered your mouth and pulled you into the room. "You have no reason to scream yet." He hissed in your ear and shut the door.

If you like reading, he would ask force ou to read to him.

“But, if the werewolf liked the girl, then why wouldn’t he keep her? Isn’t that what you’re supposed to do?” he asked. You rolled your eyes, "because the vampire one already had dibs on her. And healthy relationships don't involve kidnapping!" You told him and continued reading. "They obviously don't love her like I love you" Leon mumbled.

If you like drawing, he would ask to see what you’re drawing and he would try to make sure to get stuff for you to draw more.

Like pencils and pens.

“What are you drawing?” He would ask, standing above you as you leaned over the table. “Is it a zombie?”

“No.”

“A cat?”

“No.”

“What is it?”

“It’s a tree.”

"Oh…"

Leon would frame and or put any drawings or doodles on the fridge.

If you have other hobbies, he would try his best to get you stuff to be able to do the things you loved.

If he couldn’t, he would watch you and learn what you were doing.

If he had to go to a trial while you were at the house by yourself, he would lock the doors and take the key.

That way you wouldn’t be able to get out while he was gone.

While that did stop you from getting out, it did allow you some time alone without him hovering over you.

You could do whatever you pleased for the few hours that he was gone.

Wanted to catch up on some extra sleep that got taken away from you?

Then nap time it is!

Want to draw something without him looking over your shoulder?

Freedom to draw whatever you want.

Though, you would have to hide them, since he does go through your stuff regularly.

Especially your drawing notebooks.

But remember, he had to find things that were hidden before he was forced into The Entity’s realm.

So it won’t be easy to try and hide things from him.

Especially if he is suspicious of you hiding something.

“What did you do today?” He asked, walking through the door and plopping on the couch next to you. “Nothing much really, just took a nap and tidied up a bit.”. “Then why are the pencils out of place and why are their smudge marks on the table?” He asked, looking at you. He knew you were lying about what you were doing. “I know you were drawing.” He looked at you with an upset glare, “You don’t have to lie about what you do when I’m gone, you know I love your drawings.” He grabbed both of your hands in one of his, his other hand on your upper arm, “Where is it? I would love to see it.”. “I told you, I didn’t draw today. I tidied up, and that included moving some of the drawings I’ve already made.” You ripped your hands away from his. He started to get angry. "Why are you lying to me?" Leon yanked to towards him. "You didn't draw some boy or girl you think like like right? Because I'm the only one you can see in that way!" He was growling at this point. "Damn it Leon! I didn't draw today, and besides, is it really such a bad thing if I don't want you to see my drawings?" You were sweating now. You may or may not have drawn a hot character you had a crush on. But what's the harm in that? And aren't you allowed to have some privacy? "DON'T FUCKIN LIE TO ME!" he screamed and pinned you to the wall. You got the wind knocked outta you. "You know I don't like secrets." You stayed silent. “I’m going to find it, even if I have to turn this whole place upside down!"

Yeah…he doesn't like secrets

Especially from you. Couples share everything right?

But if you dont draw and play games instead then maybe you get a game system or a game boy.

Or whatever you need/want for your hobbies

Anywaaays when he is forced to chill in the Killer camp he likes to ease drop on the killers and survivors who were you friends before you got yonked. (Yes you were friends with most of the survivors. You were a pretty friendly and chill killer)

Leon started to hear rumors of him making a deal with the entity. Which wasn't wrong. But he still didn't you two to be discussed about with these asshats

He also started to hear your friends talk about plans to take you back and beat the utter crap outta our RPD boi.

But sadly for you, that's not happening. The Entity has gotten so much rage from Leon taking his anger out on his once friends. (He gets angry because someone isn't reciprocating his feelings fast enough.

And Entity is also getting rage and despair from the survivors

To be perfectly honest, I don't think you're ever getting out. Leon's kills is more than making up for you no longer being able to do trials. So the entity is probably gonna leave you in Leon's hands. Forever

"You're mine you got that?" He hissed at you as you kicked and screamed at him to let you go. You had just tried to escape again and Leon caught you. "DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!" Leon screamed and dug his nails into your jaw, breaking the skin and causing blood to trail down your neck. You mumbled out a yes. "Good, because you're never leaving me."

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Maybe one day the Entity decided to let you guys out into the real world for a while since Leon has been so so useful as of late

That also meant everyone could join.

Leon was pissed about this idea. He only wanted you and nobody else.

Besides, his ex-teammates aren’t probably the happiest with him

You know, killing them and all that.

Killers also didn’t really like him either.

They missed you being around the campfire with them.

But he made a deal, and The Entity was one to never let their side of the deal fail.

Neither was Leon though.

He always kept his side of the deal.

And he wasn’t going to let anyone else come near you.

You already knew that though, and it wasn’t like you haven’t tried to bargain with The Entity either.

But at least you could enjoy a day in the real world near your friends.

So, yay

#yandere x reader #yandere headcanon #yandere x you #yandere #yandere male #ask lyssa #dead by daylight #miss blue writing #yandere dbd #yandere leon kennedy #leon kennedy #raccoon city #yandere resident evil #resident evil

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dontdodrugs-dome · 11 months

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Not mad just disappointed

15 yo Desiree

Dad!Jack x wife!reader

“Night mama night dad ” I tell them before leaving their room , I make my way up to my room to get ready for this block party one of my friends is throwing but while I change into my clothes a sudden feeling of guilt washes over me , I don’t like lying to my parents even if I’m technically not lying .

I immediately push the feeling down , I’m 15 I can handle sneaking out the house , all I have to do is manage to keep quiet so I don’t set off any alarms while sneaking out , I put on a crop top that stops just above my belly button and a short skirt that show off my curves just a bit , god if dad were to see this he would flip.

Exactly why he doesn’t know I bought the outfit , I don’t know if I should make my bed to make it look like I’m sleeping or what , but I need to leave soon because my friends are coming to get me , I snuck out my window since it’s not that big of a jump I see my friend car parked across the street away from the cameras so it doesn’t catch the movement.

Here’s goes nothing I think to myself , I really hope my parents don’t find out otherwise my ass is grass , “hey girl loosen up this is your first time sneaking out let’s have fun ” my friend Mia says , she’s not the brightest but dang can she throw a party , I give her a small smile , maybe this isn’t bad after all

Jack Pov

I got up to check on Desiree like I always do , hey you can’t blame me I love my daughter I just want to make sure she is safe and sound in her bed not before giving my wife a kiss on her forehead , God did I hit the jackpot on these two , wouldn’t change it for the world .

Getting closer to des door I slowly peak inside but God I wish I could say I was happy with what I saw but Lord knows I’ll be lying , I get upstairs and gently shake my wife “baby ” I try not to be that loud but I was going through so many emotions I don’t even know where to start “Jack you betta have a good ass reason on why you woke me up ” she says mean mugging me “baby des isn’t in her room ” she looked at me confused “ wtf you mean she isn’t in her room ?!” She starts getting out of bed .

I lead her to des room and showed her the empty bed she turns around to look at me , I never seen her look so mad in my life “she betta have a good ass reason on why she isn’t in this bed or else her ass gonna get it when she get back from wherever the hell she at ” we never took our daughter as the sneaking out type , I’m livid and worried at the same time .

I look around for her MacBook which is connected to her phone , she gave us the password a while back claiming that she has nothing to hide from us , I unlocked it with y/n looking over my shoulder at the screen too , I opened her most recent messages and I couldn’t believe what I was reading .

“She fucking snuck out I can’t believe this ” my baby MY child snuck out , we tracked her location and found out she was at that block party that everybody was talking about , she never been interested in that type of stuff , where is this coming from ? , “ let’s go put some clothes on and go get her - ” I stopped y/n because I had a better plan in mind , she wants to sneak out now she has to deal with the consequences.

Desiree pov

I’m on my 6 shot of tequila I really didn’t want to drink this but my friends insisted , I don’t want to be here anymore I want my parents , don’t get me wrong I love my friends and I’m not entirely against this party but I want to go home all of a sudden my stomach starts to hurt and my head is pounding , “hey Mia can you take me home I’m not feeling too good ” I say trying not to vomit , I don’t see how people drink this for a living .

“Find another way home I’m having a blast ” when she said that all I could do is look at her in disbelief, mama was right everybody ain’t yo friend I groan and leave the area , I call uncle urban not sure if he’s gonna answer I start to cry I regret this so much but he ends up answering “hey bug what’s up ” thank God , “uncle urb I wanna go home ” I choked out ”hey hey what’s wrong ” he asks concern.

“I made a mistake but I don’t feel like talking , can you come get me please ” I never should’ve snuck out “ofc I’m otw share your location ” I hung up after he said that I started sharing my location with him

(TIMEEE SKIP I DON’T FEEL LIKE WRITING OUT THE CAR RIDE 😭)

I make my way into the house not after thanking uncle urb though , he kisses my forehead and wishes me a goodnight , I try to sneak in through my window without making too much noise but suddenly the lights come on I see my parents standing there my dad had his arms crossed and my mom had her head in her hands I could tell she was disappointed and mad at the same time.

“ I can expla-” I frantically tried to reason with them but dad cut me off “ so this what we do now ? Huh we sneak out without permission not only that you snuck out in the middle of night anything could’ve happened ” dad says sternly I put my head down trying not to look him in his eyes because God knows if I do I’ll break down

“Look at me when I’m speaking to you Desiree ” he says sternly and a little loud “ you know what could’ve happened to you ? ” I finally meet his eyes I began to tear up “ I’m sorry ” I say starting to choke up my mom finally speaks up “ none of that wipe your face what did we say about crying ” she says looking me in my eyes I disappointed them .

Last thing I wanted to do was make my parents disappointed in me “that I’m too pretty to cry ” I said finally after a moment my dad speaks up again “I can tell you also been drinking des you do understand you are 15 right ? You do understand that you could get arrested for underage drinking right? " I didn’t think that far he steps closer to me “ you scared me des I didn’t know what you were up to at that party , for God sakes I could’ve lost you WE could’ve lost you , you are our world and if anything would’ve happened at that party we would’ve had to bury our baby , you have to understand that we keep you from things like that for a reason not because we want to take your childhood away but because we want to protect you , you are our little girl and if you would’ve gotten hurt we would’ve blamed ourselves ” my dad says while tearing up .

I didn’t realize how worried I could’ve made them if they were to find my bed empty, I never want my parents to blame themselves for my stupid mistakes “I’m sorry I’m truly am , please don’t be mad at me mama I’m sorry I just wanted to have fun with my friends I never intended on causing such a mess , please don’t be mad ” I say finally giving in and sobbing fully .

I ran into my fathers arms and hugged him tight , mama joined the hug and they both stroked my hair “we are not mad at you just disappointed , we don’t want to see you get hurt that’s all , we love you very much des ” I look up and smile at them “ I love you more ” my father smiled at me " but don’t get it twisted you still are in trouble , no phone for 2 weeks , chores would be given and no friends for 2 weeks , got it ?” My mama says “got it ” I said back while smiling before laying my head back on my father’s chest .

Who needs friends when you have the best parents in the whole wide world .

A/n - they are so cute I can’t😭😭❤️❤️❤️

#jack harlow #x black fem reader #teenagers

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tonberry-yoda · 1 year

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Late Night Snack Run - Satori Tendou

Pairing - Satori Tendou x reader

Warnings - none!

Word Count - 1,008

Notes - i kinda missed writing for haikyuu tbh. i just have this list of characters i wanna write for and got tendou! i literally love this feral lil guy and am pretty proud of this fic. hope everyone is well and staying hydrated! <3

You woke up. Again. God dammit.

The moon was shining in your eyes and you could definitely tell morning wasn't coming anytime soon.

Why couldn't you ever sleep when you stayed over Tendou's house? It was never a Tendou problem, it had to be you. But it was just annoying at this point.

You curled up against him, his bare skin warm against yours. You thought it was funny that he only slept in a pair of boxers because he would always just throw off his clothes and reveal his skinny body and seductively wink at you only to fall asleep softly snoring two minutes later.

God you loved that little guy.

You hugged him around the back of his neck and placed a kiss on his chest, making him giggle in his sleep. You couldn't help but giggle too, your nose breath tickling his stomach, waking him up in laughter.

"Dang it, y/n! You tickled me awake!" He grabbed you in his arms and pulled you closer to him as his eyes shimmered from the moon outside.

"I didn't mean to, Satori! You know I can never sleep when I come over."

"I feel like it's my fault... I don't have dad snores, do I?!"

You just laughed at his stupid comment and got out of bed, pulling one of his hoodies over your head. "Wanna go for a snack run, Satori?"

"Hell yeah!" He nearly jumped out of bed, pulling on a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie. "Shall we?" He stuck out his arm to you as if he was escorting you to some ball, when in reality, you were just going to walk to the closest and probably shitty convenient store.

"The moon sure is pretty." You could see Tendou's breath as he talked, the slight shiver in his movements.

"Sure is." You waited for him to lock up and kept your eyes on the sky. Sure it was cold, but damn night time was beautiful.

"Ready to go, gorgeous?" You felt Tendou's hand glide over your hip before wrapping his arm around your shoulder.

"Sure am."

"Damn," Tendou shivered, pulling his arm away from you and tucking them both into his hoodie sleeves. "Didn't know it would be so cold out here."

"I got to cuddle you before we left, so I tucked all of your body heat I stole into this hoodie. It's not cold one bit." You teased, poking Tendou's stomach.

"Hey now! Give it back!"

"You gotta catch me first!" You giggled and ran off, hearing Tendou's running footsteps only getting closer before pulling you into his arms, picking you up.

"Jesus Tendou!! How strong are you?!"

"Just because I'm a twig doesn't mean I'm not strong!"

"That's not what I said." You squirmed as Tendou threw you over his shoulder, still carrying you.

"I play volleyball, babe. I work out."

"That doesn't mean you can pick me up like it's nothing! I'm pretty sure I weigh more than you, don't I?"

"Yeah, you're a little heavy, but still manageable. Plus I just think it's funny."

You crossed your arms as Tendou put you down. You tried to pout, but couldn't hold back the laugh you had. "Dammit, Satori, your face is just too funny."

"I know you're trying to make fun of me, but I'll take it."

Tendou laughed, placing kisses all over your neck and cheeks.

"Okay, okay!" You giggled, pulling away from Tendou. "How about this: If I manage to carry you all the way to the convenient store from here, you have to buy me a snack."

"DEAL!" Tendou sounded way to excited and managed to get himself on your back for a piggy back ride.

He was way lighter than you thought he'd be. "Dang, Satori, you're so little."

"This should be easy, goofnut. Trot!"

You just rolled your eyes with a smile and carried Tendou, not missing a beat.

"You're pretty good at this y/n."

"You think so?" You could feel him getting heavier the further you walked, but you were not about to give up, especially because the convenient store was right there.

"Mhm. It's like I can see the whole world up here too! I love this! Babe, we should do this more often."

"Hell no." You chuckled, adjusting Tendou, the store only like twenty feet away.

"If you run the rest of the way, I'll buy you two snacks."

"Deal!!" You ran with your entire might, almost dropping your boyfriend in the process, but finally making it.

Tendou jumped off of your back and gave you a pat on the back. "Damn, y/n! Good job! You definitely deserve two snacks now!"

Tendou ran into the store, while you were still at the entrance, completely out of breath.

He peeked his head outside of the store and giggled. "Well? You comin?"

You nodded and held up a finger, catching your breath again. "On my way... just... gimme... one sec."

Tendou got impatient and grabbed your hand, pulling you into the store. "Jesus Tendou! Impatient much?"

"Yup! Now pick out your snacks cuz I wanna get back to cuddling."

You just laughed and grabbed his hand, looking around at the store. Everything looked delicious. Especially considering that you had just run with a six foot tall man on your back.

"Pick out whatever, babe I don't care."

"You don't have to do that, Tendou. I was just playin."

"I'm serious. I really don't care." He pressed a kiss onto your cheek and went on his own snack mission.

After a few minutes of searching you came back with a couple of snacks to find Tendou with a basket full of junk food.

"Hungry much?"

Tendou just laughed, shaking his head and took your snacks of choice, putting them in his basket. "You ready to check out?"

You nodded and kissed Tendou's jaw, walking with him to the checkout.

Not often did you guys go out for late night snack runs, but when you did, it was always a good time.

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viilpstick · 4 months

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Freaking you know what??? *Writes another daiggie scenario bc of brainrot*

I will. Shut up about these two after this. I promise (I'll try)

•••

A few sniffles were heard by a pair of hyena ears that was walking by, his hands occupied with a basket full of clothes meant to be washed. Ruggie continued on his way deciding to ignore the sound, — judge him if you want, he was a busy guy and didn't have time to deal with someone having a crisis — but realized the cries were getting louder each step. Once he made a turn he finally stumbled upon the source of such noise.

Sitting on the ground, holding her legs tightly and trembling was Daisy, the prefect Ruggie had come to… like, he guessed, in these past two days she's stayed at Savanaclaw. He blinked in confusion, the mere sight of her crying seeming out of character as he always saw her with a smile and a fire in her eyes. Where before she stood strong and courageous by fighting her fears in a battle against Leona by his side, now she looked… small, frail and absolutely terrified of God knows what.

Ruggie didn't know what to say so he simply cleared his throat, making the girl flinch and dry her tears the moment she realized someone was there.

“I-I’m sorry, don't mind me.” She quickly said, but upon realizing it was Ruggie, a part of her seemed to relax. “Oh, it's… you.”

“Yeah, me.” Ruggie said, a bit unsure. “Are you… alright?” A stupid question, he knows, but what else was he supposed to say?

“Yes, I'm just… I guess I'm angry.”

“Angry? You're crying rivers because you're angry?” Ruggie lifted an eyebrow, confused and a bit skeptical.

“Well, I– I guess it's more frustration. I just- just don't know how to get it out so… I started crying without realizing.” Daisy explained, wiping some other tears away. “Please just don't tell anyone you saw me like this. I can pay you lunch in exchange if you wish.”

“I wasn't gonna say anything regardless, but who am I to refuse free lunch?” He laughed that trademark laugh of his and Daisy giggled. Ruggie widened his smile, happy to know he somehow was able to lift her spirits at least a bit.

The hyena beastmen put the basket of clothes down, crouching in front of his temporary dorm member, and tilting his head.

“So, what's up?”

“What?”

“Why are you frustrated?”

Daisy seemed surprised by the question, blinking a few times to make sure she wasn't just imagining things.

“Why… why do you wanna know?”

That was a good question. Ruggie didn't have an answer for that, he just wanted to know, he wanted to know why she was so angry so he could help her cheer up. Why did he want to do so? Oh, don't ask, that was an even bigger question for him.

He just didn't like seeing her like this. Not the Daisy he knew.

“You look defeated.” He said, frowning, making Daisy look away in embarrassment. “It annoys me seeing the girl who basically saved my life and took care of me like this. I don't wanna be in debt with anyone, but specially not to anyone who looks like such a loser.”

“Hey, now!”

“I said ‘looks like’, not ‘is’.” He pointed out. “Is it because of Azul?”

Daisy groaned. “It's Azul, it's Ramshackle, it's the Leech twins preventing me from getting that dang photo, it's- ugh.” She massaged her temples, stress starting to build up once again. “I'm just… so frustrated. I was happy with Grimmy at Ramshackle but now… this stupid guy wants to steal it from me. The only place I'm happy at.” She lets out. The girl lifted her head again, her eyes making contact with Ruggie's attentive gaze, and she sighed. “Sorry, I'll… stop feeling sorry for myself and get to work.”

“You better, crying about it ain't gonna fix anything.” Ruggie said, matter of factly, and Daisy felt a knife through her heart. Afterwards though, she felt warm fingers against the skin of her cheek, caressing her face softly and carefully. “You can't stay defeated like this. Where's that determination you had during the Spelldrive fiasco, huh?” He smiled and Daisy returned it, though it was smaller, weaker, more timid. Her cheeks were warming up. “Come on, you're better than this. And to prove it…”

His other hand made its way to her other cheek, Ruggie was getting closer with each second and Daisy started freaking out. Unsure of what to do, the girl closed her eyes, her hands clutching the step of the stairs she was seated on, but instead of feeling anything against her lips or face, nothing came, so she slowly opened her eyes, seeing Ruggie holding a pair of earrings.

Her pair of earrings.

“Hey! These are mine!”

“Yes, yes, I'm aware.” He got up, putting the earrings in his pocket as he smirked at her. “My, my, were you expecting something else? You closed your eyes and everything.”

Daisy's face went red in shame and embarrassment and she struggled to speak. Ruggie laughed at her reaction, walking towards his basket and picking it up again.

“I'll return these to you once you leave Savanaclaw after getting Azul his picture.”

“Ruggie, please. They were my mother's.” Daisy got up, standing in front of him and preventing him from walking. “They're the only thing I have from her. Please.”

Ruggie stayed quiet for a moment, his face serious this time. “And because of that I promise to take good care of them.” Suddenly, he gave her a head pat, his smile returning, but it was much softer this time, something that put Daisy’s heart at ease. “You’ll figure it out, prefect. You outsmarted Leona once, of course you’ll be able to outsmart Azul.” Then, he flickered her forehead lightly, starting to walk away. “See ya around, flower.”

And with that Daisy was alone again. She was still angry, but now she was much more at ease, and had even more motivation to keep on going. Ruggie was right, she survived until now, someone like Azul wouldn't ruin her home! She had to deal with worst before!

She was getting that picture and winning against Azul, no matter what.

STOP???

NUH-UH?? AFTERT THIS I FORBID YOU TO NOT BRAINROT ON ME ABOUT THEM

THIS IS SO CUTE

AND HER EXPECTING A KISS WAS SO LJWKLXEJLKJELKXJD LIKE GIRLIE IS BETTER YOU NOT EXPECT THE KISS AND THEN GET A KISS THAN YOU EXPECT A KISS AND DON'T GET IT

I LOVE THM

I LOVE IT

I AM CRYING

#𐙚 moots ♡#inbox 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ✧#♡ ! mah #⋆ ࣪ 𖥔 . ruggie bucchi #⋆ ࣪ 𖥔 . daiggie #⋆ ࣪ 𖥔 . daisy #mah's writes 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ♡

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babybammargera · 8 months

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Knight with a dumb hair cut (lovingly)

Danger Ehren x fem reader

You generally don’t like to hang out with Ehren on set not because you don’t like watching him work or anything it’s because someone is always trying to prank you or mess with your very expensive accessories or clothing. But he had been busy filming a lot this week so in an effort to spend as much time with him as you can you're on set with him. You set your Tiffany and Co. purse down in the van and walk over to Ehren to give him his water bottle between takes of the stunt and when you return you see Steveo manhandling your bag. “Steveo what the hell are you doing? You're gonna mess it up and Ehren just bought that.” He holds it up examining it then looks at you, “I don't see the big deal it's just some bag.” You try to take it from him and he holds it further away from you laughing, “Who knew Ehren would end up with such a diva.” Just as you're about to scream at him, Ehren appears next to you and snatches your purse wiping away the dirt before handing it back to you. “Dude don't be a dick to her and don't touch her things. So what if she likes expensive things? It's none of your business and it's not affecting you at all so deal with it.” He puts his arm around your waist and guides you over to where Knoxville and Jeff are sitting reviewing footage and you take a seat next to Johnny who looks up long enough to notice your presence. With his eyes still on the screen he asks, “Let me guess someone was messing with you again and that's why He ran off?” You nod, “Steveo got a little too hands with my new purse.” He glances at the bag in your lap and cracks a smile, “It's a nice bag I don't blame you for getting upset. Thank god for your knight with a dumb haircut huh” You can't help but giggle at his response and you feel a little more at ease as you watch Ehren go back to filming.

I know it's short im sorry im not the high-maintenance type and I always struggle writing longer stuff for Dange.

#jackass #cky #jackass headcanons #bammywrites #jackass fanfic #jackass x reader #jackass imagine #jackass fic #mtv jackass #jackass fanfiction #ehren mcghehey #danger ehren #bammy writes

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paradoxcase · 9 months

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@wellhappybirthdaytomeiguess:

So yeah, Cyrus and Valancy were obsessed with themselves and thought they were the most attractive people alive. The nude paintings with strategically placed fruit are all of them. Relatedly, says a great deal about Cyrus that he kept paintings like that of his long dead cavalier...

@eye-lantern:

@wellhappybirthdaytomeiguess Yeah the mithraeum was built after the lyctor project, meaning Cyrus not only kept them, he took them with him in the move

@wellhappybirthdaytomeiguess:

@eye-lantern and her clothes...dang.

It's kind of funny that Ianthe as the new Third Lyctor is canonically unattractive, and would make sense that Mercy compared her to Cyrus, except for the fact that Mercy also compared Harrow to Anastasia. And yeah, it is pretty interesting than Cyrus took those paintings and all of Valancy's clothes with him

If the Mithraeum was built after the first Lyctors became Lyctors, than it can't be that Anastasia never became a Lyctor, there must be some other reason why she never lived on the Mithraeum

@eye-lantern:

If Harrow succeeds without absorbing her, it means Ianthe was wrong. That absorbing Babs was a mistake and that she could have preserved him. As fucked up as their relationship was I think she has weird attachment to him. Also surviving without being the best is so out of her conception of life she can't understand it, so to help Harrow the only way is to convince her to go back to "perfection", a true lyctor

Yeah, I guess she has put all her money in on the standard mechanism of Lyctorhood, hasn't she? I wonder if Mercy and Augustine feel sort of similarly

@eye-lantern:

I see that you are beginning to understand who Jod is on an instinctual level. I find him extremely well written and human but I want to rip his throat out one time out of two

You know, it occurs to me that if John was a regular human on modern day Earth at one point, in an English-speaking country, he was probably saturated in Christian culture just like most people in English-speaking countries are and probably all of his ideas about how to be a god and what religion should be like therefore come from Christian conceptions of God and religion, so there's actually an in-universe reason why the religion is basically Necromancy Catholicism and it's not just the Doylist reason that the author of the story is saturated in Christian culture

#the locked tomb #wellhappybirthdaytomeiguess #eye-lantern

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its-short-for-jackalope · 9 months

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the second prompt for Slowtember is wind, so I decided it was the perfect excuse to draw Zadock doing some magic and having their clothes flapping in a magical breeze and just looking epic... and maybe a little creepy. they have a talent for unsettling smiles.

I did not think I'd be able to get this one done in time since it got pretty detailed & complicated, but I finished this at 2 am, so I'm hardly late at all, lol! I am REALLY, REALLY proud of this one & absolutely in love with how it turned out!!! (I also had sooooo much fun doing the different little knickknacks in the background, so I forsee more drawings of Objects in my future, lol)

more chatter & my first public reveal of some necromancer lore below the cut! <3

okay so before I get to the Lore™ I have to finish gushing, haha.

at this point, I have filled several pages in my sketchbook with drawings and diagrams and notes about the magic in my story, including many sketches of souls & threads/tethers, but this was the Very First Time I got around to experimenting with drawing them digitally!!!

I was so excited, and I'm so beyond thrilled with the results. Like, guys, this is the closest I've ever been to showing just how I imagine it in my brain. 🤯

this is also like. the coolest thing I've ever drawn in my fucking life—and I have drawn some cool stuff lately!!!—so if nobody looks at this then you are all missing out, lmao. <3

alrighty, now that I am done experiencing a rare surge of self esteem, let's get to the Lore™

I have an entire section of a binder dedicated to how the magic in my story works, so this post will NOT be a super detailed guide whatsoever! I'd need SEVERAL posts for that, lmao. I just wanted to try and run through a bit of background stuff to provide some context for this artwork.

You will notice that I have included two versions of this drawing—one with the crazy glowy lights, and one without. This was not (just) to show off Duck's shirt and their badass top surgery scar that was unfortunately covered right up by their dang soul (😂😭💀), but for lore reasons!

There is only one kind of magic in this story, and it can only be gained as blessings from the god-like entity humans named Death; if the god agrees to give you power, It takes a tiny, tiny portion of Itself, Its essence, and puts that right into your soul. (It hurts, btw. In case you were wondering.)

The first blessing makes you Sensitive, allows you to perceive and sense other souls and to properly bear witness to magic. You aren't able to do any other magic besides seeing/sensing unless you receive more essence. Going back for additional blessing(s) is what makes you a necromancer (if you claim that title) and lets you do some real magic. But we'll get into that some other time.

For now, I will leave you with this handy little comparison thingie I threw together on my phone at 3 am instead of sleeping. <3

the regular folks are really missing out! poor bastards.

#i cant believe im actually Talking about my story/lore where people can read it 😳#ive only told friends & family about this stuff #they will continue to get the juicy details (they have no choice) but i am once again reminding you that #if you have any questions about my ocs or the story or the worldbuilding i will happily talk about them #(prolly not EVERYTHING bc i gotta keep some secrets & spoilers to myself. but there's a lot i can share!!!)#and i would honestly be so so so happy to blab about this all day forever <3 #jack jabbers #my art #slowtember #slowtember23 #slowtember2023 #zadock severine #oc #original character #my ocs #necromancer story #necromancer & musician story #necromancer lore #necromancy #magic #worldbuilding #story lore #writing #magic system #souls #artists on tumblr #digital art #clip studio paint #csp #art

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monkiebois · 1 year

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Feel free to ignore this if this is spoilers, but I'm curious. How did Macaque react the first time he saw Mei’s heat stroke/sick spells from the Samadhi Fire?

theres actually very few things that are spoilers from the kids past. so i dont mind any questions about it especially since its likely gonna take another month for the ask blog to start bc of this dang comic :)

(sooooorrry lilac i stuffed this in my drafts cause this was getting long and i had to go to bed)

(im writing this when im almost done with this writing bit and ooooh boi lilac what have you done/ evil pos)

aright writing this as i finished writing this and oh boy oh boy oh boy this one needs some MUSIC

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"k-kiwi...whats wrong?" Macaque asked, his hands shaking around her small frame. She had asked to rest with him on his folding chair while he was watching Mk. she seemed tired to he hesitantly let her sit next to him only for her to crawl onto his chest and sleep there.

but something was wrong, she seemed tired but now she wouldn't respond to him, she whined as if she was having a nightmare. He checked her forehead and she was burning up.

"sh-shit mei, mei open your eyes!" Macaque was now sitting up and holding mei back with his arms, her eyes were scrunched up, her tails wrapped tightly aroun herself, her ears folded back and sweat trailed down her face unnaturally.

"Papa!" Mk rushed up to Macaque and emmediatly put his attention on Mei "wh-what do you know whats happening? Mk baby whats going on with Xiaojiao" Macaque asked, his voice wavering even more by the second.

"she needs baba! Baba said that if Mei ever got really really hot to get her to-" Suddenly Macaque scooped Mk into his arms and they dropped. Macaque gripped Mk tighter as he yelped due to the sudden fall but when Mk opened his eyes they were back inside of the house and Macaque gently set him down.

"WUKONG, WUKONG!!" macaque yelled out, grasping Mei tighter to his chest. she was hot to the touch, burning his skin through his clothing but he only held on tighter as he searched the house for the girls father.

"W U K O N G!!" He screamed one final time as he finnaly ran into Wukong with adult form Nezha right behind him.

"whats wrong plum, wha-" Wukong froze at the sight of Mei in his arms and the pure fear and panic written across his body.

"sh-she wasnt moving and wouldnt respond i-i didnt know what to do" Wukong took Mei into his arms "Mk told me to bring h-him to you"

Wukong turned to Nezha "Nezha, explain to Macaque whats happening. Ill take care of Xiaojiao" Wukong stated then turned away to leave.

Nezha watched Wukong take Mei into another room and sighed before turning back to Macaque.

Nezha noted to himself how Macaque kept his stance stiff and straight up but the way his eyes scanned across the closed door wukong was behind, how his tail twitched anxiously and his hands twitched open and closed. he was even pale.

Nezha would have found it hard to believe that the man who proclaimed he never needed anyone, that he was only here so Xiaotian wouldn't die from poor care, and that he had nothing else to do, was so genuinly concerned for his little sister if it wasn't for those telltale signs

"Mei...has the samadhi fire"

With those words what remained of Macaques cracked mask finnaly shattered, his eyes widened as he looked at Nezha.

"only a piece of it, she was born with it...which is why we cant remove it. but sometimes, since she's so young, her body cant handle its power and she overheats. wukong is trying to remove the excess magic a-"

"remove it!?! god's i knew Wukong would be shit with kids but removing the excess magic?!" Macaque suddenly snapped his entire demeaner went from scared out of his mind to angry and determined as he stormed past Nezha. Nezha tried to grab him but Macaque's arm turned to shadow and slipped through his grip.

Nezha called after macaque and followed him into Xiaojiaos room where Wukong sat on her bed with Mei in her arms.

"wukong don't you dare remove her excess magic, i swear to the god's do you have any idea what that will do to her?!" Macaque snapped almost slamming the door on Nezha before noticing him and leaving it open.

"you.stay," Macaque pointed at Nezha then turned back to wukong "you both need to hear this because apparently no one in this house understands magic!" Macaque groaned while weaving something blue between his fingers.

"Youth magic is unstable for a reason. its shaping itself. she might have fire type magic because of that ring but it needs to shape itself to Mei and her soul so that she can control it in the future." The blue within Macaques hands shaped into small glass like cubes.

"you know ice magic?" Nezha asked.

"very little, i can only make cubes that dont melt" Macaque now weaved purple through his fingers and wrapped the ice in what looked like his shadows. when he was finished a small ice pack made of no-melting ice and shadows rested in his hand. He approached Wukong who had her tail wrapped around Mei and looked about ready to cry.

Macaque hesitated but then sighed and put a hand on Wukongs cheek. "its alright, you didnt know" Macaque comforted as he kissed her forehead. he moved to Mei and shifted her arms so that h could slip the ice pack into her arms and she could hold onto it like a plush.

"has it been getting worse?"

"yes" Wukong said defeatedly.

Macaque kissed her cheek this time "taking her magic was why, but she's still young so it hasn't caused any damage" Macaque stepped away from Wukong and folded his arms "it might be rough but she needs to sit through it, if she doesnt her magic will only get more and more unstable because it cant develop. since she has the samadhi-well, a piece of it, her body and magic need to learn to live with each other and survive-"

"b-but what if it doesnt?" Nezha asked, macaque turned to him and also noticed a little curious monkey hanging onto his leg.

"it will, she has a seal on her magic right?"

"yes"

"then she'll be fine-"

"but what if she isnt, we cant soley depend on what works for everyone else. Mei has a piece of the Samadhi fire what if she gets worse no matter what we do and then her body cant handle it anymore!" Nezha snapped.

Macaque stood silently, his tail swishing as a million replies ran through his head. instead Wukong stood up and handed Mei to Macaque so she could hold Nezha .the moment Wukongs arms wrapped around the lotus prince he instinctively turned to his smaller form and Wukong had to adjust his arms to hold Lil Nezha up.

"its alright Lotus, this is whats best for Mei"

"taking her magic would only make her more unstable as she grows older, she needs the chance to develop" Macaque said shifting Xioajiao in his grip.

"we'll all be there for her, I promise," Wukong said as she scooped up Xiaotian into her arms as well.

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After that conversation Macaque made more Ice-he hated the ice, despised it. but Kiwi needed it and he was not going to deny her this comfort--and filled up a bathtub where he set her down and let her rest. the ice was colder then normal ice and the water hissed upon touching her skin but one Macaque was able to sit her down within the tub she seemd to relax. So Macaque sat on the closed toilet seat and let out a big sigh.

"thank you" Wukong said from the doorway.

"dont thank me, i just-"

"you didnt want to deal with my moping because i hurt my kid, you only helped because the kid deserved a chance, you didnt help because you actually genuinly cared....i know, i know. I think after three years of raising these kids with you ive heard all of your excuses" Wukong ranted, chuckling when Macaque turned his head away and huffed.

"say what you want, i think we both know just how much you care about these kids...and not just Mk....Xiaojiao, heh even Nezha"

Macaque didnt face Wukong, merely kept his head down as if the floor was the most interesting thing at the moment.

"god's" He finally groaned, burying his hands in his face. "what the fuck have i gotten myself into..."

Wukong blinked, then approached Macaque slowly "i cant...i cant be a parent" He sighed.

"what do you mean, Macaque youve helped me with so mu-"

"there's more to parenting than just, knowing the basics wukong!" Macaque snapped, causing wukong to flinch away the hand he was reaching out.

"i am not a good person, maybe i was back on flower fruit mountain but not anymore. that person is dead and gone and im just...im just a fucked up replacement" Macaque said, running his fingers throug the black fur on his arm.

"Maca-"

"Im selfish, im manipulative, i have hurt people for no good reason. i just wanted someone else to feel the exact same pain that i felt when i was abandoned and betrayed!" Macaque barked grasping onto the black fur on his arm.

"i cant be a parent...i cant-i cant hurt them..." Macaque's voice broke into a sob as he pulled on the black fur.

Wukong slowly approached Macaque and kneeled in front of him. Raising a hand to rest on his cheek and she pulled him forward to kiss macaques forehead.

"ive been watching you and when im not Nezha never takes his eyes off of you...in three years you havent hurt Mk or Kiwi. you love them as much as we do. we all have our flaws plums...but you care enough about those kids to change for the better" Wukong comforted as she wiped away faling tears with her thumb.

"but what...what if i fuck up." Macaque whispered, leaning into Wukongs hold.

"then own up to your mistakes and do what you can to fix them... there's no such thing as a perfect parent. But taking responsibility and growing from your mistakes is what makes a good parent" Nezha said suddenly back in his adult form and standing by the doorway. he looked between Macaque and wukong before turning away.

"...take it from someone who's had to deal with shitty parents..." Nezha finished before turning and walking away.

"i think he's finnaly warming up to you" Wukong smiled at Macaque who raised his own hand to hold Wukongs hand on his cheek and embrace the warmth of this intimate moment.

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yeah he uuuuuh, had mixed feelings.

concern, panic, fear....but because of that sudden fear his denial phase was shattered and he finally accepted that hes a dad.

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The Raven King Deadass Book Review

By Maggie Stiefvater

Alright, here we go. The final book in the series!! AHUAGUAGH

This is an unhinged book review/recap of The Raven King, and I am not okay.

*SPOILERS AHEAD*

We kick things off with a prologue about our king (Gansey). And why he is the way he is. And how he’s obsessed with Glendower because he’s never quite been able to wrap his mind around why he was saved. What are the odds that while he was lying there covered in hornets, at the same exact moment, Noah was being murdered, and the leyline decided to save Gansey. We also learn that he has more or less put together what was going on in that voice recording from Book 1. He knows that spirits appear on the leyline on St. Mark’s Eve. And he knows that hearing his voice announcing his name probably means he’s fated to die.

OH GOD BABY. HE KNOWS!!

Chapter 1 gives us this great scene with all of the women in 300 Fox Way crowded around the table drinking. They decide to do a group reading. So they retrieve Artemus from the closet lol. Apparently he has some REAL BAD PTSD and has been hiding there since they got out of the cave, and he’s super jumpy around Gwenllian. She’s pissed at him for locking her in the cave for 600 years. The psychics all sit in a circle and pull a single card – the Tower. Which basically means the stability of their world is about to come under attack. Then they do this neat thing where they reshuffle and lay ALL of their cards out, and it tells them a story. It tells them that these 4 kids have to work together and use all of their various magical abilities.

They mention that Blue ran away some time last year and had to be brought back by the police. They’re trying to find a way to save Gansey, too. But so far it’s not looking good. Maura says some cryptic stuff like “Does this mean she’s still alive? Does this mean she’s going to leave? Does this mean she’s coming back?” pointing to various cards. Calla says “Probably” to all of this. (I think she’s talking about Neeve). This chapter ends with Maura asking Artemius “Man what’s up with you? Why are you so jumpy?” (but like, in a nicer way)

MEANWHILE, at school, Gansey is pissed because Ronan is skipping class again. Something is going on with Gansey and the principal. It started in the last book. They’re having secret meetings and when Adam asks about it, Gansey just says he doesn’t want to fight. I think he’s going some Gansey shit he’s not proud of and bargaining to keep Ronan from being expelled. Adam, who has a tendency to fade in and out of psychic states, feels a little woozy for a second– and he knows it’s because someone is pulling energy from the leyline. He has a pretty good idea of what Ronan is up to.

Ronan… is a Disney princess. Lol He LOVES going out to the barns and doing farm stuff and dream stuff. He hangs out with DEER and woodland creatures and checks them for ticks and wounds. Like half the animals on the property are dream animals, including this really beautiful stag that is on the cover of the dang book so I’m sure he’s significant in some way.

Alright so he’s dreaming with a mission. He wants to try to dream up some object to keep Gansey safe (so sweet how protective he is). I guess Adam told him about the St. Mark’s Day thing? Or maybe he’s still looking for a solution to the hornet thing. Alright so he’s dreaming, and he’s dreaming up a suit of armor that is invisible and feather light (like cloth) but before he can reach it, a nightmare is coming on. The little Orphan Girl is there and throws herself on him just before the nightmare can get him, and just before he wakes up.

Meanwhile, Blue is home because she got kicked out of school lol. We don’t yet know the specifics, but she emptied a boy’s backpack over the hood of his car. The last time a boy tried to ask her out, she just stared at him until he walked away. So Blue is going through some stuff. She’s in love with a boy who is going to die soon. Her Dad came back, but won’t stop hiding in the pantry. And one of her aunts passed away.

Quick sidebar? I love how no one gives a shit that Kavinsky died. I mean I don’t love it. It’s actually kind of sad. He was a tragic, broken person. But it reminds me of Valerian in the Cruel Prince. Everyone is just like “Hey remember that guy that threw the 4th of July party? Wonder what happened to him. OH WELL!”

Noah shows up while she’s sulking and is SUPER HYPER. Talking a mile a minute about nonsense. They’re interrupted by Gwen who is in the tree, and she says some hurtful shit to Noah calling him “dead thing”. Noah says he needs to show Blue something, and he stands up, and stops pulling energy from her. So we see what he ACTUALLY looks like. The actual state of his soul. And he looks like a decaying corpse. He says he’s scared. We get the feeling he’s not ready to move on to the afterlife, and Blue continues to be a supportive friend even though he’s FUCKING terrifying.

Well the boys come pick Blue up and Gansey is in full on Mom mode, pissed at Ronan for skipping school. But Gansey is also all wound up and excited. Adam is there, in a good mood and wearing the really cute combo of a white shirt and rolled down overalls. I think it’s a cute detail how he turns in the front seat so his hearing ear faces the back. They pass Henry Cheng, who is out with a few other boys protesting Aglionby lol. Before they drive off, Henry tells Gansey that his “tail light is showing” and Ronan turns to the furthest most back seat and goes “stay down!” — that’s at this point that we discover there is a tiny child hiding in the back seat. And she has hooves for feet. Orphan Girl!!

So they decide to take her to Cabeswater. These teens. I swear. We’re resurrecting witches. Framing people. Burying bodies. Birthing small children into existence. These kids are 17 going on 52.

There is a CUTE fucking scene with the gang walking through Cabeswater. The orphan girl starts a song with the birds, and then the whole forest sings along with them. When Gansey puts his hands in the air to catch falling leaves, they turn into fish that swim around them to the music. Each person adds another layer of sound to the song, not with their mouths, but with their thoughts, and the forest amplifies it. There is a super cute part where Adam is feeling the crushing weight of sad Adam thoughts. And the forest is in his brain, so it’s trying to cheer him up. It shows him how other people see him, and how much they care about him and love him and think his smile is the best. He gives in and lets himself feel happy, and when he does, a thundering bass is added to the song. It sounds exactly like Ronan’s car. Everyone is looking around, laughing, like “Who did that? RONAN!” And Ronan goes “It’s not me!” And looks at Adam, who has a little smile on his face. And Ronan pauses for a moment and then smirks the most genuine, appreciative smile.

Adam and Ronan are into each other and it is the cutest fucking…. I can’t. I just can’t.

Orphan girl is scared despite being in the real world like she wanted and meeting Aurora who is an actual, actual Disney Princess. Aurora says she wants to show them all something. And that something is a tree that has some kind of disease. Like black sap. Ronan, earlier, was telling his mom that the nightmare he felt in his dream was unlike any other nightmare he’d ever experienced. He said it felt dead. Like decaying. This tree gives everyone the heebie jeebies.

Then out of fucking NOWHERE the three identical witch-Blues from the tapestry start walking through the forest and chanting “Make way for the raven king.”

Adam is like “Ah sorry, my bad. It was a nightmare I had and I accidentally thought about it and Cabeswater made it real.” — Adam asks Cabeswater to take the scary women away. Everything they touch is dying. Ronan tries. Then Blue runs to grab Gansey’s hand and he knows what he’s supposed to do. When Gansey orders them to go away, they do. Gansey’s magical ability is speaking/wishing things into reality. But he really doesn’t understand it yet.

There’s a few things going on: The Gansey’s are planning some sort of fundraiser at the school. And I think orphan girl is going to stay with Aurora. SOME fucking evil force is messing with Cabeswater, but we don’t know what it is yet (probably whatever Neeve and Piper woke up in the cave). Oh also, Blue and Adam talked about meeting up to discuss the Gansey situation. Adam isn’t sure if this means she’s going to confess she loves him or if she means talking about his imminent death.

And I’m going to copy and paste this adorable part because I love it:

[they’re looking at the tree and how fucking dead it is]

“It reminds me of Noah,” Blue said. “Decaying.”

Her voice was so melancholy that Gansey was struck all at once by what he and Blue really lost by keeping their relationship a secret. Blue radiated psychic energy for others, but touch was where she gained hers back. She was always hugging her mother or holding Noah’s hand or linking her elbow in Adam’s or resting her boots on Ronan’s legs as they sat on the sofa. Touching Gansey’s neck just between his hair and his collar. This worry in her tone demanded fingers braided together, arms on shoulders, cheeks rested against chests.

But because Gansey was too cowardly to tell Adam about falling in love with her, she had to stand there with her sadness by herself. Aurora took Blue’s hand. Shame diffused through him, black as the tree sap.

Is this really how you want to spend the rest of your time?

Blue comes home and yells at her Dad in the closet for a little bit. She calls him a coward. Then she goes upstairs to find Calla, Maura, and Orla in the bathtub together, fully clothed, with Jimi on the toilet with a candle. The talk with her mom and aunties is really cute. They talk about Gansey. And how Blue loves him. And how she’s going to have to come to grips with his death, and plan for her life beyond that moment, and have an open heart to travel and be in love with a new person some day. Blue insists she’s never going to kiss Gansey, so maybe that’ll help.

Alright, so in the next chapter we meet THIS book’s villian(s) and as usual, they are delightful and multidimensional. They are 3 triplets named Laumonier, guys. Older. But very rich. And they all go by Laumonier because they’re kind of like a hive mind. And they hate their rival, Colin Greenmantle. They’re standing around Boston when one of them gets POSSESSED by Piper of all people. It’s here we discover that one of the Laumonier triplets is Piper’s FATHER and she reveals that she’s tangled up in some dark shit that will make everyone rich, and she hates Colin now and wants to take him down. Laumonier is both horrified by her newfound ability to possess people and delighted that she found something magical in Henrietta. She says tell all our rich friends to get over here.

Gansey can’t sleep, so he drives to Aglionby and does laps in the dark. I love how Maggie describes the weightlessness of swimming. It’s exactly how it is. I couldn’t imagine doing it in the DARK though. Noah stands on the edge of the pool and watches him.

Adam is at work plagued by thoughts of the orphan girl and the fear in her eyes. He relates to it so much. When he gets in his car something WEIRD happens and his hand moves by itself. It skitters across the wheel without him telling it to. He asks Cabeswater if that was it, and it doesn’t reply.

Meanwhile, Ronan is having a dream. It’s a memory of being a kid with long curly hair and playing with Gansey in the sprinkler. But the dream goes south pretty fast and turns into a nightmare that is basically about everyone he loves dying horrific deaths and he wakes up SOBBING. He calls his brother Matthew in the dorms just to hear his voice.

This chapter ends with a freaky paragraph about a dark force bubbling outside of Henriette, getting excited thinking “I’m awake. I’m awake. I’m awake” — OH GOD NO LEAVE OUR BOYS ALONE!!!!!

The next day is RAVEN DAY at Aglionby which I think is like a field day. The boys split up into teams and have war games and eat food and have fun. There’s a brief speech from Noah’s SISTER about how NOAH CZERNCY actually founded Raven day because of a dream he had about thousands of colorful flying ravens?? (Another part of the day is each class makes a ton of paper ravens and… throws them around I guess lol) Noah’s sister describes him as hyper. Adam and Gansey are working as “ushers” for this portion of the event, and Gansey notices Adam messing with his eye. He excuses himself to go to the bathroom to look at it, and Gansey joins the crowd out on the lawn.

The Aglionby band is playing. Some kind of game is happening. We get this beautiful but TERRIFYING scene where Gansey is kind of swallowed up by the chaos. He’s having a waking nightmare, like a panic attack. Among the shoulders bumping around him and little paper ravens and noise, he keeps thinking insects are buzzing by his face and he can feel hornets on his skin. He’s trying to keep it together because this is a fundraiser that his family helped organize and it’s not a good look to have a panic attack in the middle of it. Henry Cheng saves him with a cup of ice water, which brings him back to reality. Then he invites him to his toga party that night.

ADAM. MEANWHILE. Okay fuck this scene. MEANWHILE Adam is in the bathroom by the theater which is extra old and spooky and dark. And there is something SUPER WRONG WITH HIS EYE. It is moving on its own, independently from the other, and when it quits doing that and looks at him, this dark shadow starts swallowing the room. He asks Cabeswater to help him, but the forest is slow to respond. It tells him to turn on the sinks and when the water hits the floor, it cuts through the darkness. Adam is like, literally on the sink scared as shit.

OH FUCK THIS DEMON!!

Blue is at work when Adam comes by looking like shit and soaked in water. He tells her something is wrong with Cabeswater and asks if she wants to go to the forest with him later. She says she’s going to that toga party and asks if he and Ronan are going. He says no. And they totally get into a fight, because Adam is like “You and Gansey are together, aren’t you? And you didn’t tell me cause you thought I’d freak out.” And I mean… that’s true. They kind of got together when Adam was slowly going insane. But it’s hard to say that. Adam’s mad about that, but he’s also mad about Blue’s cursed lips and he doesn’t want Gansey to die lol. Bad fight. Doesn’t end well.

We get a flashback to how Maura, Calla, and Persephone met, which is that they were all hitchhiking. Maura is driving around with Gray because she has a bad feeling. They make their way to Colin and Piper’s rental house, which is SUPER CREEPY. Everything feels dark and haunted. They find Noah in the bathroom all crumpled up and freaky and… Piper is written on the mirror in lipstick and there’s a scrying bowl. Maura takes Noah home to the psychics and everyone is generally horrified and impressed that his soul is still here, and looks like shit. Noah doesn’t remember how he got in that house and the psychics think he could be a “Portent” (an omen/messenger).

Noah says he’s a mirror. That’s also what Gwen and Blue call themselves. Is he also an amplifier?? Calla says he can stay with them.

Blue and Gansey arrive at the Toga party and it’s not going well. Henry is pretty cute and amicable but she’s in a terrible mood and is pretty judgmental of these rich boys. Come on Blue, loosen up!!

Next chapter starts with Ronan going to see Adam and Maggie gives us this heartstopping nonsense:

Adam lived in an apartment located above the office of St. Agnes Catholic Church, a fortuitous combination that focused most of the objects of Ronan’s worship into one downtown block.

Yep Chapter 18 is basically the Adam and Ronan show and I fucking love it. Look at this!!

When he pulls up, Adam is in front of his car headlights looking at tarot cards on the ground and kind of zonked out. He’s present enough to hold a hand up to Ronan as if to say “wait” though.

Ronan crossed his arms to wait, just looking. At Adam’s fine cheekbones, his furrowed fair eyebrows, his beautiful hands, everything washed out by the furious light. He had memorized the shape of Adam’s hands in particular: the way his thumb jutted awkwardly, boyishly; the roads of the prominent veins; the large knuckles that punctuated his long fingers. In dreams Ronan put them to his mouth. His feelings for Adam were an oil spill; he’d let them overflow and now there wasn’t a damn place in the ocean that wouldn’t catch fire if he dropped a match.

Adam stands and Ronan is like “What’s up with your eyes?” — his pupils are still the size of pin drops. And Adam says “It takes me a while to come back.” And Ronan goes “Creepy fucker.”

Adam tells him the story of his eye and hand going nuts.

He allowed Ronan to lean in to compare his eyes — close enough that Ronan felt his breath on his cheek — and he allowed Ronan to study the palm of his hand. The latter was not strictly necessary, and they both knew it, but Adam watched Ronan closely as he lightly traced the lines there.

They hatch a plan to let Adam scry while Ronan drives and he’s going to try to stay present enough to direct him. Cabeswater is holding him at an arm’s length, so they’re going to try to see what’s wrong. Fucking great chapter.

19 is great too, honestly. We’re with Adam drifting through the ether, and the way Maggie describes it is like accurately describing a dream. Just disjointed and rambling. One word keeps coming up, and that is DEMON. Adam figures out there’s some relationship between that word and Cabeswater, and the demon is inside. Adam is whispering directions to Ronan while he drifts, and Ronan finally wakes him up to reveal that he’s led them to his old trailer. Robert Parrish is on the porch and they have themselves a stare down. Apparently Robert didn’t have to go to jail, but he is on probation. Adam says let’s get out of here. I want to find the orphan girl.

Back to the toga party! Blue loosens up and totally gets along with the Vancouver boys in their bougie Victorian house. They get along well enough that they agree to put on togas and change in a bedroom (and Blue may or may not have peeked). Gansey is really enjoying himself, and the fact he can openly flirt with Blue because Ronan and Adam aren’t there.

Here, he could play his fingers over her fingers as they stood close, she could lean her cheek on his bare shoulder, he could hook his ankle playfully in hers, she could catch herself with an arm around his waist. Here he was unbelievably greedy for that laugh.

Aughahahghgh me sobbing. This party is so cute. They have a great time. And then there’s THIS:

It was Gansey stepping aside to let her pass, but changing his mind. He caught her arm and then the rest of her. She was warm, alive, vibrant beneath the thin cotton; he was warm, alive, vibrant beneath his. Blue slid her hand over his bare shoulder and then onto his chest, her palm spread out flat on his breastbone, her fingers pressed curiously into his skin.

I thought you would be hairier, she whispered.

Sorry to disappoint. The legs have a bit more going on.

Mine too.

It was this: laughing senselessly into each other’s skin, playing, until it was abruptly no longer play, and Gansey stopped himself with his mouth perilously close to hers, and Blue stopped herself with her belly pressed close to his. It was this: Gansey saying, “I like you an awful lot, Blue Sargent.”

And the chapter ends with Gansey saying he’s never felt so known, and so present, in his entire life. Sweet. Baby. Boy.

Back in Cabeswater, we get several huge revelations. First of all, the forest is definitely sick. Everything is gloomy and dark and haunted. Secondly, Adam deduces that Ronan DREAMED Cabeswater. But it’s complicated. He didn’t invent it. It really did exist long ago, but it got destroyed. So he brought it back. There really were once magical leyline forests, Ronan just gave this one shape.

They find Orphan Girl and everything is just off. The forest is possessed and it’s getting worse.

Adam keeps feeling massive drops in energy, so much so at one point it feels like his heart stops. Orphan Girl falls into a pool and Ronan goes in after her, only once he’s in the water, he realizes it’s FUCKING ACID from a nightmare he had once. SO. GREAT. He dives down to get the girl, and they’re both thinking they’re going to die, but then a bunch of branches and vines push them out safely onto shore. They look back and realize that it wasn’t Cabeswater that saved them. It’s Adam. He’s arranged some rocks on the edge of the pool and is trapped in some kind of psychic state until the girl kicks the rocks away. He’s able to snap out of it, but is not looking good. Orphan Girl says we need to get him out of here.

There’s something about the time 6:21. It keeps coming up.

Blue and Gansey get home to 300 Fox Way and it’s like a horror show. The darkness is in the house. All the psychics are suspended in some kind of nightmare. Just being in the space makes Blue and Gansey feel terrified. Noah is being piloted by something and he keeps fighting through it to tell them to run, but then goes back to whatever evil thing is inside of him. He attacks Blue and CLAWS AT HER FACE until Gansey pulls her away and asks for her energy. I think she’s bleeding. She slams her hand into his and he uses whatever mysterious king magic he has to say “BE. NOAH.” And he stops.

Meanwhile, in Boston, Piper appears with black eyes in a mirror and murders her husband with black wasps. So. Okay, that’s horrible.

Next chapter. WELL FUCK. THE THIRD SLEEPER WAS A DEMON AND THE DEMON LOOKS LIKE A HORNET SO….. GREAT! JUST FUCKING GREAT. Piper and Neeve are partners and want to help the demon hornet destroy Cabeswater so they can get their wish: to be famous and successful. Assholes.

When Ronan and Adam get to the urgent care center, Gansey is covered in blood and has his face in his hands. The painting above him is leaking water, but literally no one cares. That would have been a major plot point in book one. We have way bigger fish to fry, people.

Okay but in all seriousness, is this Gansey’s magic making that happen? If so, it’s both cool and sweet.

Blue comes out and she has 2 stitches on her eyebrow and three huge scars over her eye down to her cheek. Gansey and the boys get into an argument. He’s pissed that they went to Cabeswater without telling him when shit is all corrupted and dangerous. He’s terrified that they could have been hurt (and I guess they were). And while everyone is getting everything out on the table, he confesses that he and Blue are seeing each other and want to continue seeing each other. And after airing out the truth, everyone is totally cool. Ronan is even really sweet and tells Blue that her stitches look badass. Adam is fine with their relationship (probably because he’s falling for Ronan haha). The gang is back together!!!

We check in on Declan and learn that Nial Lynch built his fortune by dreaming up magical objects and selling them to Greenmantle, the Lemonieurs, and another Korean lady dealer named Seondeok. Seondeok gives Declan a call to say “Hey word on the street is there’s something hella magical in Henrietta and Greenmantle is out of the picture so tons of ‘wolves’ are coming your way.” — I think it’s cool that Ronan’s Dad built a business off dreaming up crazy shit, then selling it to buyers who THINK they’re getting some ancient, magical sword that bleeds… but it’s just… dream stuff. Pretty cool. Anyway Declan is like “oh shit i need to get my brothers out of there”

HENRY. Okay. WHO THE FUCK IS HENRY? First of all… he’s interesting because he speaks a lot like Gansey. They both talk like old men. Or poets. They both radiate positivity and have a lot more going on than their surface-level perfection. Henry pulls Gansey aside at school and is like “Hey wanna see something cool before lunch?” And takes him to the basement where there’s a little hole in the ground. Barely big enough for both of them to stand in.

And it’s in said hole that Henry tells Gansey the sad story of the time he was kidnapped when he was 10 and his mom didn’t want to negotiate with terrorists or something, so he spent a couple days in a hole like this and has been dealing with it ever since. Gansey is like whoa dude… I’m sorry that happened, but why are you telling me this? And Henry asks how old Gansey was when he got stung by all those bees. He says he was 10 too. He’s like “I’ve waited my whole life to be strong enough to face this fear. Do you trust me? Hold out your hand.” And he puts… a fucking… insect…into Gansey’s hand. And that’s the end of the chapter. My heart stopped.

Henry gives this truly beautiful speech about how… fear is just fear. Think about what’s on the other side of it. Gansey’s heart is about to explode. Then it’s revealed that the bee is a ROBO BEE. Henry shows him the app that controls it and everything. Gansey is sharp enough to know that technology like that doesn’t actually exist… and Henry reveals that this is a dream object that his MOTHER purchased from Declan Lynch. Gansey gains a new ally in a weird hole that speaks like he does and knows magic when he sees it. Henry knows about the Lynch family’s dream powers. He noticed the orphan girl in the car. And he saw the way Adam exploded that concrete with his thoughts. Henry doesn’t want anything, he just wants to be friends and help.

Ronan goes to school and hates it. Declan is trying to call him. Blah blah. Look at this cute fucking part:

Ronan wrenched his tie loose. “You working after school?”

“With a dreamer.” He held Ronan’s gaze over his locker door.

School had improved.

Adam gently closed his locker. “I’m done at four thirty. If you’re up for brainstorming some repair of your dream forest. Unless you have homework.”

“Asshole,” Ronan said.

Adam smiled cheerily. Ronan would start wars and burn cities for that true smile, elastic and amiable.

Holy shit it’s true. Adam very rarely smiles in these books. Oh my god I love these two.

Well Declan shows up after school and has Matthew in the car. Asks Ronan to join them. Tells him the whole truth about their father, how he was dealing with some really shady people and was the one to tell them about the Greywaren. His arrogance got him killed, building up this hype about a magical object that was actually him. Declan begs Ronan to run away with him and Matthew. Burn down the barns and start a new life. Ronan just says to take Matthew and run, because this is his home.

Blue is at school realizing she has mixed feelings about relating to no one in her actual high school, and only making friends with Aglionby boys who used to be her sworn enemies. So it’s the perfect time for Henry to roll up in his crazy car. Some of her classmates give her a hard time, so Henry is like “I’m serious about going to Venezuela with you. If you want, you can yell at me and make a big scene so they don’t think we’re dating.” — which is cute. She takes him up on that and Henry sells the rebuked rich boy a little too well. He leaves theatrically. Her reputation is restored.

So next, Gansey pulls up and is like “Ronan actually used a phone and says he needs us. We gotta go.” Blue is like “Oh shit.”

I was worried. Turns out Ronan just wanted everyone out at the barns for a going away party. He wanted one last friend/family gathering in the place he loves before he sends Declan and Matthew off to another city and fights a demon that may or may not kill him.

I love this chapter. It is chapter 33. There’s a little bit of Ronan and Adam staring at each other pointedly. But mostly everyone just being happy. Playing with balloons. Eating cupcakes. Grilling out. Ronan and Declan actually getting along now that the truth of their past has come out. Ronan asks Adam to look in Matthew’s room for tin foil, and Adam meanders upstairs, getting lost in his thoughts like he always does.

He finds a photo of Nial and Aurora and is struck by how much young Nial looks like Ronan.

He finds Ronan’s room and finds a little model car and recalls a painful memory from his childhood. Where he used $10 his grandma gifted him to buy a similar toy for himself, and he was playing with it when he heard his father in the other room say he regretted having Adam. And his mom fucking agreed. GOD, FUCK THESE PEOPLE. Ronan comes in and sits on the bed beside him. OKAY JUST READ IT:

They sat like that for a few minutes, as Ronan examined the car and turned each wheel to play a different tune. Adam watched how intently Ronan studied the seams, his eyelashes low over his light eyes. Ronan let out a breath, put the model down on the bed beside him, and kissed Adam.

Then there’s a beautiful scene with Adam remembering a time when he was mowing the lawn and he saw a rainstorm coming from far away. And he didn’t go inside, he just let the wall of water hit him.

That was this kiss. They kissed again. Adam felt it in more than his lips.

Ronan sat back, his eyes closed, swallowing. Adam watched his chest rise and fall, his eyebrows furrow. He felt as bright and dreamy and imaginary as the light through the window. He did not understand anything.

It was a long moment before Ronan opened his eyes, and when he did, his expression was complicated. He stood up. He was still looking at Adam, and Adam was looking back, but neither said anything. Probably Ronan wanted something from him, but Adam didn’t know what to say. He was a magician, Persephone had said, and his magic was making connections between disparate things.

Only now he was too full of white, fuzzy light to make any sort of logical connections. He knew that of all the options in the world, Ronan Lynch was the most difficult version of any of them. He knew that Ronan was not a thing to be experimented with. He knew his mouth still felt warm. He knew he had started his entire time at Aglionby certain that all he wanted to do was get as far away from this state and everything in it as possible. He was pretty sure he had just been Ronan’s first kiss.

“I’m gonna go downstairs,” Ronan said.

I was NOT expecting this. I didn’t see any spoilers about this at all (actually, I’ve avoided all Raven King spoilers). I am GUT PUNCHED by how beautiful this is. Holy heck. These two are just amazing. Ronan loves Adam soooooo much. Adam, who has been love starved, his entire life, has someone that literally worships him. I am so, so happy for him. AUGHAUGHUAGH I read this late at night, so I couldn’t scream. But I wanted to scream.

Later that night, Declan and Ronan have a moment on the roof. It’s really sweet and I’m glad they patched things up. Declan was only ever trying to protect Ronan from the hole their father dug for them. Ronan gifts him with a dream artifact that shoots harmless fireworks and light.

Neeve regrets getting tangled up with Piper and the demon in the pursuit of power. Piper is totally nuts and thinks she can sell this demon like any other magical artifact to the hoard of people coming to Henrietta. Neeve scries to try to warn Maura and the psychics, and is able to get the message out before Piper tells the demon to kill her.

Declan and Matthew hit the road, so now it’s the main gang in the living room at the Barns hatching a plan for how to take down the demon. Also there’s lots of cute bits with Gansey and Blue acting like a proper couple (her head on his lap. Him touching her hair). Everything is out in the open!! Well. Almost everything lol. Ronan reveals that he dreamed Cabeswater. Gansey is like “Any other geographical locations you want to tell us about?” And Ronan goes “No, but I dreamed Matthew.” And Gansey is like “Welp.”

Like ya’ll. Ronan is basically a god lol. This is insane.

He also explains the spirit tree, and how it’s a nightmare tree. It doesn’t show you the future. It shows you the worst possible scenario. Everyone is nodding, but Gansey is confused because in one vision he found Glendower and in another he was about to kiss Blue. Adam, on the other hand, is immensely relieved.

Chapter 36. Just all of it. All of it is so fucking cute. Ronan and Blue are messing around in the kitchen, so Adam takes a minute to ask Gansey about love. And Blue’s curse. And how he knows he’s in love. It becomes apparent that he’s talking about something other than Blue, so Adam spills the beans that Ronan kissed him. And he kissed Ronan. And Gansey’s reaction is “Jesus Christ.” — Oh this is so cute. Gansey says sweet stuff like “Be careful with him Adam. He’s more fragile than you think” and Adam is like “I know that..” he’s still figuring himself out. They have a good talk and Gansey tells him to just be honest with himself. And then they resolve to find Glendower.

Henry is taking out the trash in his underwear when Mr. Gray kidnaps him lol. Actually, he doesn’t kidnap him. He just wants to talk and ask who is coming to town and gather information, but Henry of course has some issues around being taken against his will. He summons his RoboBee and is holding it. But then Gray gets a phone call and it’s Gansey.

They meet at a super market. Henry is part of the gang now. Tells them everything he knows about his mom (Seondeok) being a magic artifact dealer. Laumonier shows up and Gray tells them to escape through the back door while he distracts them. There’s some really cute bits of Gansey and Blue being an actual couple, like him wrapping his overcoat around her and putting his hand over her eye, because he knows it hurts. They’re all PDA and it’s precious.

OKAY BACK AT THE BARNS. CHAPTER 39. Just all of chapter 39. Shut up while I copy and paste this whole fucking thing.

That night, Ronan didn’t dream. After Gansey and Blue had left the Barns, he leaned against one of the front porch pillars and looked out at his fireflies winking in the chilly darkness. He was so raw and electric that it was hard to believe that he was awake. Normally it took sleep to strip him to this naked energy. But this was not a dream. This was his life, his home, his night.

After a few moments, he heard the door ease open behind him and Adam joined him. Silently they looked over the dancing lights in the fields. It was not difficult to see that Adam was working intensely with his own thoughts. Words kept rising up inside Ronan and bursting before they ever escaped. He felt he’d already asked the question; he couldn’t also give the answer. Three deer appeared at the tree line, just at the edge of the porch light’s reach. One of them was the beautiful pale buck, his antlers like branches or roots. He watched them, and they watched him, and then Ronan could not stand it. “Adam?”

When Adam kissed him, it was every mile per hour Ronan had ever gone over the speed limit. It was every window-down, goose-bumps-on-skin, teeth-chattering-cold night drive. It was Adam’s ribs under Ronan’s hands and Adam’s mouth on his mouth, again and again and again. It was stubble on lips and Ronan having to stop, to get his breath, to restart his heart. They were both hungry animals, but Adam had been starving for longer.

Inside, they pretended they would dream, but they did not. They sprawled on the living room sofa and Adam studied the tattoo that covered Ronan’s back: all the sharp edges that hooked wondrously and fearfully into each other. “Unguibus et rostro,” Adam said. Ronan put Adam’s fingers to his mouth. He was never sleeping again.

AUAUGAUAUAUGUAGHUAUHH they’re so beautifuuuullll. I’m freaking ooooouuuttt!!!

Back in Cabeswater, the demon is being a complete asshole and killing all the trees. It’s very sad and written like murder. There’s one tree in particular that has been there for a very long time, and is considered the oldest and the strongest. And “she” dies, terrifying the younger trees.

Back in 300 Fox Way, Gwenllian wakes up with the psychic revelation that her mother has been killed by the demon. I think her mother was that tree in Cabeswater (??). She hilariously goes downstairs and rips Artemus from the closet. Chases him up the beech tree out back. Blue and Noah show up to be like “Heyy… you two..cut it out please.” But Artemus is being such a little bitch. Gwen demands he tell her where her father is. But he chickens out and… INSERTS HIS SOUL INTO THE TREE?? To hide? Gwen tells Blue “Didn’t you know? Don’t you feel it. This is your father. You have roots in your veins. The demon is coming and we’re all going to die.”

Um. Is Artemus a tree? Is BLUE HALF TREE?? MIRROR TREE?

…..is Cabeswater a bunch of tree people?? Does this have something to do with the corpse road and human souls walking along the leyline?

Adam wakes up in Ronan’s home and everything is beautiful and morning and foggy and serene and he finds Ronan in the field doing farm stuff and Orphan Girl is there being adorable and holding Adam’s hand and Chainsaw is flying overhead and the boys look at each other with unbridled, unbidden admiration and they fucking love each other and they’re a family and I can’t breathe. I can’t… *GASP*

Chapter 43 is just smart. Smart writing. I see you, Maggie. The Gansey family is in town for the Aglionby slash political campaign fundraiser where all hell is going to break loose I’m sure. They make lunch for Henry and Blue in a renovated schoolhouse (?) that they own and rent out for events and stuff. Anyhoo, Helen is pissed, and pulls Gansey aside for a private conversation where she BERATES him for bribing headmaster Childs in exchange for allowing Ronan to graduate. So the truth comes out. Gansey gave Childs the Monmouth factory. If news gets out, it could affect their mother’s political campaign (bribery isn’t a good look). Gansey is feeling a little lost. He can’t tell his family that he might DIE soon, so that’s why he’s been doing crazy things like this. He just wants Ronan to be okay. He doesn’t care about the factory, he’s going to be dead anyway. He’s more upset about the possibility of never finding Glendower.

Helen: “What then? What if you do find him?”

Gansey: “That’s all there is.”

GASP he said the thing. Fuck, he said the thing. This chapter ends with Helen joking about them making it out of this weekend alive and I’m over here just like… sobbing with Gansey like AUGHAHAHAUGH MEE TOO.

Ronan attempts to dream and Adam scries while he does so to act as backup. Orphan Girl comes too, somehow. They see the forest hanging by a thread. Everything is super fucked up and dead. Right as they’re like “Yep. Nah. No way. We’re waking up now.” But before they go, they find Aurora. And i think she’s dead. Fuck.

Jesus CHRIST things are escalating. So the Gray man and Maura pull up to the Barns. They find Adam and Ronan in the living room unresponsive and the orphan girl is fine. Maura scries to go bring Adam back, and when he does he’s like “Get Ronan get Ronan don’t leave him!” And Orphan Girl wakes Ronan up. We see what it looks like when Ronan brings something back. He’s paralyzed but slowly gets covered in blood and gore (from his mom omg). Gray tugs on Maura to bring her back. Maura is instantly like “what the fuck is that? The demon?! That was awful!” And then. AND THEN BECKY. Laumonier steps out from nowhere and shoots at Gray!! They hit the deck. And Gray fires back, killing this Laumonier. And thus, starting a war.

Alright so Gray heads out. He says he’ll handle the Laumondiers if Maura and the kids can slay the demon. No biggy. Blue and Gansey arrive and Adam has Chainsaw on his shoulder. She knows her new other Dad.

And Ronan is basically like… disassociating in his car. Augh poor baby. Just totally shell shocked from seeing his Mom in what I can assume was a really gory state. Gansey is so sweet here. Like a comforting Dad. Noah is there too and looks so guilty about Blue’s eye but she tells him it’s not his fault. Ronan says “Say the word, Gansey. You know how to defeat this thing. Your commands are powerful. So command me, and I will go wherever you say to go.”

Blue goes to have a talk with her father who is still inside the Beech tree, but agrees to come out, and he tells her that he is a “Tree Light” (A person that can either look human or just decide to be a tree if they want to). Dang, Blue. And you thought you weren’t special! Artemus drops some bombs on us like Glendower and the tree people were allies (he was all about magic). Ya’ll. I think Glendower fucked one of those trees. (Aka Gwen’s mom)

They also talk about how the only way to kill the demon is for someone to willingly die on the leyline. Gansey and Adam are within earshot listening to this. Well fuck.

It’s late though, so everyone tries to get some sleep.

Ronan refuses to leave his car, so Adam is like “WELP then I’m sleeping here. I don’t leave you.” And curls up in the passenger’s seat of his car. Orphan Girl is in the back.

Meanwhile Gansey is on the couch, when he sees Noah. Noah leads him upstairs to Gwen, who is sitting on the roof. She tells him she is Owen Glendower’s daughter, and also the daughter of a Tree Light. He asks her how she had the strength to stab Artemus to prevent a war and she’s like “Whatever, I just did it because it needed to be done” and she kisses him on the cheek and says “Godspeed King.” Her weird little pep talk gives him the courage he needed to finally WANT to find Glendower.

Gansey uses whatever magic it is he has to command stuff and is like “Tell me where to find Glendower.”

Like he hadn’t been able to find him up until now because he wasn’t ready. He didn’t want to find him, yet. Not really. Then it would all be over (“That’s all there is”). But now he’s ready and he’s fucking off. Nature is heeding his command to show him where Glendower is.

A big group of ravens and birds cluster at his command, ducking and swooping and flying (Just like in Noah’s dream! Just like on Raven Day!) and Gansey follows them. He gets in his car and chases them because they’re not waiting. And also probably because he doesn’t want anyone to get hurt.

Meanwhile, Ronan is still in the car kind of like… staring off into space. He’s not asleep (because sleep means going to nightmare Cabeswater), but he’s not awake either. Blue comes and knocks on the window and Maura, Calla, and Gwen are there too. (Everyone else was sent away for safety). Blue says Gansey’s run off on his own. So Ronan says he’ll dream one last time and dream up something to help them locate Gansey. Adam, boyfriend of the year, is like I got you babe I’ll scry and protect you. And the psychics are like yeah yeah let’s do this thing. We’ll work together.

MEANWHILE. The fucking car breaks down lol. The birds keep going and Gansey is just like fuck fuck fuck. Then Henry shows up! RoboBee has been instructed to let him know if Gansey is ever in trouble or needs him, so there he is. Henry is a sweet lil cinnamon roll. Gansey drives Henry’s car and they race off together to where the birds are leading them. … Which is the massive old mansion Gansey DIED AT when he was 10. It’s all run down now, though.

There are so many amazing introspective parts in these chapters. Gansey knows this is it. This is the night he finds Glendower, kills the demon, and probably dies. He has a moment to himself over the spot where he stepped on the hornet’s nest and reorients himself with the idea of death. Then Henry comes to find him and says he found a cave opening in the basement. It’s not natural. The cave looks like it just appeared and broke everything when Gansey commanded the way to be shown to him.

So Gansey is like “I’m going on” and he doesn’t ask Henry to join him because he knows how Henry feels about being in underground dark places. Gansey’s not stoked about it either, and misses having his friends around to talk him down from panic attacks and literally transform hornets into birds for him. But there he is. In the dark. Feeling time slipping around him. Henry gifted him with his Aglionby sweater to keep him warm and he feels water on his shoulders from the cave (EEEKK!! This is what he was wearing on St. Mark’s day!!). His cell phone light goes off. And he hears the sound of hornets in the cave — building and building and building. Like thousands of them. IN THE DARK.

Then his friends show up!!! YAYYYY!!! Ronan, Adam, Blue, Henry— and they’re all like “Dust!” “Wind!” “Leaves!” And the hornets turn into dust and wind and leaves. AUGH I love these kids.

Ronan dreamed a firefly that is a Gansey tracker (AWW!) and Henry has RoboBee. So he asks RoboBee to help them find Glendower, and after a few more hours or minutes of walking around in the cave with Gansey’s court, they fucking FIND IT!

And the vibes are totally different. When they found Gwen’s fake tomb, Gansey was all scared and didn’t want the ride to end. Ronan kicked the door down lol. THIS time, the tomb is real humble. Not decorated at all. And everyone is approaching it with a sort of reverence. In fact, Glendower isn’t even in a tomb. He’s literally just laying on a slab in a full suit of armor, unprotected. There’s also a skeleton in the corner with a sword through it?? (And the skeleton is wearing clothing/armor from Glendower’s time. So. I dunno what went down there.)

Okay so here’s the big moment. Gansey goes to remove Glendower’s helmet and wake him up… tension builds… and when he removes the helmet he finds just……. Dust and bones. Glendower is HELLA DEAD and has been for a VERY LONG TIME!

I am devastated. Gansey is devastated. Everyone is standing around like “What the fuck?” And they try their “waking bones” magic, like they pulled off in the other cave, but it doesn’t work. Glendower is just too fucking dead.

I’m so confused then!! So how did Gansey have the vision where he SAW Glendower and saw him waking up?? I guess it was in Ronan’s nightmare tree that didn’t show the future, but just worst possible scenarios. Maybe it was just a reflection of Gansey’s innermost wish or …. Maybe if they DID wake up Glendower, something bad would happen.

I kept waiting for the magic to happen, but it doesn’t. Glendower is not happening, Gretchen.

There’s a really cute part when they’re driving home where Henry abruptly pulls over and says to Gansey “Get out. I know you need to. Just get out.” And Gansey steps over to a picnic table away from everyone and has himself a good cry. Sweet thing. And SWEET HENRY for realizing he needed this. Gansey is feeling a lot. And for the first time, he understands Adam’s pride and doesn’t want them to see him like this. But he accepts Blue when she comes to check on him. Soon, the others join. And they have to come up with a new plan.

So Gansey is like… well. If we don’t have a favor from Glendower, the only other option to get rid of this demon is a sacrifice.

(Was that why the skeleton was in Glendower’s tomb? Was that a sacrifice to seal the demon away?? Am I thinking too hard about this??)

Anyway. Sacrifice. And it’s going to be Gansey. Ronan is like “No.” and Gansey says “It has to be. Blue already saw my spirit on the corpse road a year ago. It’s going to be me and it has always been me.” And Ronan is like “WHAT THE FUCK EVERYONE? When were you going to tell me this??!” And they say “Never because you’re the most EMOTIONAL PERSON HERE!”

Gansey says “For what it’s worth, I’d rather not die? I’m terrified? So if anyone has any other ideas I’m super open to them.” — Adam proposes a shaky plan that maybe they go to Cabeswater? Like maybe if he dies there, Adam could scry and bring his soul back to his body before it gets too far away. Everyone says “COOL! Worth a try!” And they’re walking back to the cars…

WHEN ADAM ATTACKS RONAN.

Omg omg his eyes and hands belong to the demon now. Because the demon is in Cabeswater. This is heartbreaking. Adam is fucking GOING AFTER Ronan. Strangling him. Clawing at his face. He nearly breaks his own hand on a tree. The worst part is Adam is still conscious and shouting at everyone “Stop me! Stop me! Hit me! Knock me out! Whatever you need to do!”

This line from Ronan, who is not fighting back at all:

The choice was death or hurting Adam, which wasn’t much of a choice at all.

Eventually, between all of them, they get Adam pinned. He hurts everyone though. Tears open Blue’s stitches. He’s absolutely freaked out and terrified and Gansey’s like “We got you bud. Don’t worry.” And they tie his arms behind his back and blindfold him. Henry is oddly enough, the only person who knows how to bind arms properly lol. Thank you traumatic childhood hostage situation!

God there’s this sad bit where Adam is finally tied up, and collapses into Ronan’s chest, out of breath. And Ronan whispers in his ear in Latin “Someday even this will be something we look back on fondly.” And Adam says “You asshole” but sounds close to tears.

Everyone is bloody. Adam is like “I might as well be the sacrifice, I’m corrupted.” And Henry delivers this great line:

“Let’s not get carried away just because you tried to kill someone,”

Hah. If we thought Gansey speaks like an over-educated 50 year old teen, Henry is like… up in the stratosphere. I love his sense of humor.

Meanwhile, at Aglionby, Gansey’s family is freaking out because they haven’t heard from him. They’re scared, but then they’re pissed at him for missing the fundraiser. Seonduk is there, who is Henry’s Mom, and we learn that she got into magical artifact sales because she had a nervous breakdown a few years ago and developed psychic powers. So. NEAT! But she really does love her kids, and seems like a good person even though she put Henry through a little hell being a mob boss, basically.

She has a nice chat with Gray who tells her he wants Henrietta to be safe territory and wants her help to do so. She’s like yeah okay fine.

Then Piper arrives… ON A BLACK CARPET MADE OF BLACK WASPS. Wearing crazy clothing. And a GIANT BLACK WASP on her arm. This girl lol. I love to hate her. She’s like “What up everybody! I’m Piper. This is my demon. He’s my bitch and not the other way around. Bidding starts at a million bazillion dollars, who wants to start?”

And Laumonier is like “Piper… honey… put the demon down.”

“Shut up Dad! I can control it. It made me these pumps and did my makeup. Let me sell this demon and then we can all go have breakfast.”

(I’m paraphrasing and being funny, but the actual dialogue is not really that far off)

When Piper starts controlling people with the demon (not allowing them to run away since everyone is being bombarded by negative thoughts from this thing), Laumonier SHOOTS HIS OWN DAUGHTER. Shoots her. And everyone fucking scatters. Gray and Seonduk are like “Yeah we’ll be in touch. Nobody wants anything to do with Henrietta anymore. Fucking bye.” And the wasp like… bathes in Piper’s blood and gets even stronger.

Chapter 61 is amazing. It’s so well written. I love how Maggie did this. So the entire thing is told from the perspective of Adam, who is bound and blindfolded, and doing his usual Adam thing of wallowing in his thoughts. He can’t believe he almost killed Ronan. And really hurt everyone else. Blue puts her head on his shoulder even though he’s like “Don’t” and comforts him. His fingers are still twitching.

The car stops because there’s blood on the road. It’s raining. And they notice there’s Blue flower petals floating in the blood. (Remember how Ronan’s Dad said the day Ronan was born, the cows cried blood and it rained blue petals?)

Ronan’s driving. There’s a thunderstorm. They are trying to decide whether or not to ford the damn blood river, when Ronan says “Do you ever feel like things come full circle?” And then there’s silence. Then Gansey is like “Ronan? RONAN?” And Adam hears the gas pedal slam even though the car is out of gear.

Everyone is panicking and shouting Ronan’s name. All the while Adam is like “What’s happening?!” And we’re right there with him reading… going “WHAT’S HAPPENING?!”

Basically, Ronan keeps passing out. The demon is pulling him into unconsciousness, into the dream world to UNMAKE HIM. And he is fighting hard. He keeps waking up, gasping for air, and bringing back dream objects to hold on to life. At one point, we get these disconcerting lines??’

Blue: “Can we pick it off him?”

“Don’t,” Ronan gasped. “Don’t touch it — don’t —”

Like, we never find out what is on Ronan. I think it’s either a dream thing he brought back or maybe a wasp? Blue is screaming at Ronan not to close his eyes, and Henry is like “WHAT IS HAPPENING?” And Adam is like “I thought being possessed was bad. This is worse. Listening to my boyfriend die and being tied up and blind.”

So Adam decides to scry. He knows it’s risky, but he does it anyway. And in his psychic state, he sees Persephone, who is cool as a cucumber and tells him “You made a deal with Cabeswater, not this demon. Don’t let it push you around.” And that’s enough for Adam to regain control of his hands and eyes. He comes back to his body, pushes the blindfold off with his shoulder, and watches in horror with everyone else while Ronan is bleeding black from his nose, passing out and waking up over and over again, each time with some random object. One random object is scrolls of paper with “claws and beaks” written on them, which is what Adam said to him while making out by the fire. Gawd.

This whole time, Ronan’s cell is blowing up, and it’s Declan probably calling because Matthew is bleeding black from his nose and ears (the same thing is happening to the little girl).

Ronan is dying.

Gansey says “This is it. We have to kill this demon now or it’s going to unmake Ronan. We have to make the sacrifice right now.”

They’re nowhere near Cabeswater, but they are on the leyline. So it’ll work.

Henry unties Adam so he can fist bump with Gansey one last time. Hah I love how Maggie writes that. “It was stupid and inadequate.” But they’re best buds, so there you have it. And then we get the moment that Blue saw in the vision tree. Gansey holds the sides of her face and tells her “It’s going to be okay Blue.” And they kiss. AUGH MY HEART.

Yep, copying and pasting this whole thing:

Blue said, “I hate this.”

It was right, though. Gansey felt the feeling of time slipping — one last time. The sense of having done this before. He gently laid the backs of his hands on her cheeks. He whispered, “It’ll be okay. I’m ready. Blue, kiss me.”

The rain spattered about them, kicking up splashes of red-black, making the petals around them twitch. Dream things from Ronan’s newly healed imagination piled around their feet. In the rain, everything smelled of these mountains in fall: oak leaves and hay fields, ozone and dirt turned over. It was beautiful here, and Gansey loved it. It had taken a long time, but he’d ended up where he wanted after all.

Blue kissed him. He had dreamt of it often enough, and here it was, willed into life. In another world, it would just be this: a girl softly pressing her lips to a boy’s. But in this one, Gansey felt the effects of it at once. Blue, a mirror, an amplifier, a strange half-tree soul with ley line magic running through her. And Gansey, restored once by the ley line’s power, given a ley line heart, another kind of mirror. And when they were pointed at each other, the weaker one gave. Gansey’s ley line heart had been gifted, not grown. He pulled back from her. Out loud, with intention, with the voice that left no room for doubt, he said, “Let it be to kill the demon.”

Right after he spoke, Blue threw her arms tightly around his neck. Right after he spoke, she pressed her face into the side of his. Right after he spoke, she held him like a shouted word. Love, love, love. He fell quietly from her arms. He was a king.

GOD NOOOOOOO!!!!!

So it took me a minute to figure out what was happening. I always thought Blue and Gansey kissing was a catalyst to some other event that was going to kill Gansey. (I honestly thought the demon was going to sting him). But the mirror thing is what’s important here. You know what? I’ll come back to this. All we need to know right now is that Blue’s kiss killed Gansey. Because she’s a mirror.

The demon is dead.

Chapter 65 is great. It’s all from Noah’s perspective. This poor sweet boy. The thing about being dead is that you exist in loops. So Noah just kind of drifts around periodically reliving his murder. Or hanging out with the guys in Monmouth before they realized he was dead. Or shoving plants off the shelf in a fit of anger, when he himself realized he was dead. Over and over again he relives these moments, because that’s what ghosts do. Noah goes back to the moment he died. Then he goes back to the moment Gansey died from hornets.

We learn that NOAH was the voice that Gansey heard that day!!

Noah crouched over Gansey’s body. He said, for the last time, “You will live because of Glendower. Someone else on the ley line is dying when they should not, and so you will live when you should not.” Gansey died. “Good-bye,” Noah said. “Don’t throw it away.”

And then Noah dissapears. That was his last loop. MY HEART!!!

And it makes sense, right? “You will live because of Glendower” — not taken literally, but like.. “You’re going to press on in life and have this purpose for yourself because you’ll be obsessed with finding Glendower. This mission is going to introduce you to all of your friends. And you’ll change the world.”

Chapter 66, everyone is just reeling. Especially Ronan, who hasn’t had as much time as everyone else to sit with this. He curses out Gansey’s dead body and is crying. Adam just collapses. Blue is of course, devastated. HENRY has had even less time to process what’s going on, and he kind of yells at them, “You’re magicians aren’t you? What good is magic if it can’t save him!”

And Adam proposes taking Gansey’s body to Cabeswater. Maybe they can beg the forest to save him. Maybe they can beg the forest to sacrifice itself for Gansey. (Which seems like a lot to ask but I also love Gansey, so I’m fine with this.)

Cabeswater is probably like “Um, you just got done saving me, and you want to what now?”

So Cabeswater, in its limited tree vocabulary, is trying to explain to the kids that this is not as simple as it dying and Gansey living. I’m just imaging Adam and the forest speaking frantically in psychic over this lol. Cabeswater can only MAKE things. So it makes itself into life. Into Gansey’s life. And when all the trees are done falling, Blue tells Gansey “Wake Up.” And that ends the chapter.

Okay.

Several things going on here. Let me see if I got this.

At this moment, Gansey becomes infused with the life force of Cabeswater. And because Cabeswater does funny things with time, he has actually been Cabeswater for this whole book series. Possibly since he died when he was 10, and this loop started. The one Noah has been drifting around for years. That’s why he’s constantly had this feeling of time slipping. And like he’s done this before. And everyone has this uncanny feeling that Gansey is all ages at once.

Gansey was the first one to demonstrate a strange control over this place. (Turning fish colors, etc.). And his commands are some kind of magic. He’s constantly referred to as a king.

And that’s why Blue’s kiss killed him instantly. She’s a mirror. When she kissed him, he was already Cabeswater. Because time is a loop. And he has been a type of mirror this whole time.

QUESTIONS:

Why is Glendower dead? When did he die?

Who is the skeleton in the tomb with him and why is it stabbed?

What is the significance of the shield and Camaro tire they found at the bottom of the lake?

Glendower must have also fallen in love with a tree person, because Gwen states that her mother is a tree. (Her and Blue are the same? Half human half Tree Light?)

I’m still kind of wrapping my mind around this?? Because Ronan dreamed Cabeswater… (or, more pointedly, the leyline magic memory of a forest was there, but he gave it shape). And I’m not sure how that fits into the narrative…. You know, I was really relieved to find so many memes on tumblr about how no one understands this book lol. BUT I WANT TO!!!!

I’m pretty sure Cabeswater was full of… people trees. Like old souls that had been around since Glendower times.

And there’s this whole OTHER layer of things about the 3 sleepers. And who is who. Demon is definitely one. Gwen might be one, but not really because she never slept. Adam might be one, because there’s a line when he understands his psychic ability that says “I’m awake”. Glendower we thought was one, but probably wasn’t because he was super dead this whole time. Then, I think Gansey is one. He wakes up from being dead and is now some magical time god disguised as a seventeen year old.

EPILOGUE

Adam drives Ronan’s BMW to his parents’ trailer and confronts them. I love that he does this, because he has a car, but him driving around in Ronan’s just solidifies… EVERYTHING. I love this scene because Adam is so cool and confident. These people can’t hurt him anymore. And he tells them as much, in the most mature way possible.

Ronan gifted Henry, Gansey, and Blue with a scavenger hunt for graduation. The gift is the location of Kavinsky’s car graveyard, only they find the first version of the dream Camaro that runs with no engine. Blue loves it because it’s the most green car ever. They love it because they’re going to go on a threesome road trip around the country in a car that doesn’t need gas.

Ronan is hanging out with Orphan Girl in the woods where Cabeswater used to be. It’s just a regular forest now. Oh, she has a name now, by the way. And it’s Opal. Ronan gets to thinking about how he’d imagine Cabeswater differently. How he’d design it, if he had to design it again.

And the book ends with him settling down to dream.

HE’S GONNA DREAM THAT FOREST BACK. And … start the cycle over I dunno.

So... Trees are people. Ancient people forest that used to exist. But now no longer does (like a ghost on the leyline). Book ends with Ronan making trees. Time is loop. Trees become life for Gansey. Ronan make trees. Ronan make... Gansey life?

This book series is a MIND BENDER.

It did not go how I thought it would. It avoided tropes left and right. All of the climaxes of the books left me very confused, but not in a bad way. They just never ended how you thought they would. For instance, I thought this whole thing was going to end with the kids literally slaying a demon. But it was more about sacrifice. That’s a theme that comes up a lot.

And things making and unmaking. And changing. Exchanges.

My brain hurts. But I loved it. I love these characters. This found family. I love that everyone lives in the end and is happy and okay. I know there are epilogue books that focus on Opal and Ronan. I’ve seen some spoilers that it’s slightly in the future where Adam is going to college and Ronan is part of some kind of…dreamers… squad I dunno. I’ve also heard they’re sad, so I think I’ll save those for some other time hahaha. But Ronan and Adam ARE together in those books, so that’s nice hahaha

Oh shit, what happened to Aurora? I think she just...dies. I’m assuming Matthew is okay because Opal is okay. I saw a meme on Tumblr that other people were asking about the comet, so I’m glad I’m not the only one lol. (No one knows. It just goes away haha).

Alright. Time to say goodbye. This one is going to leave a big hole in my heart. I finished this book 2 weeks ago and I keep coming back to this document trying to figure it out hahaha Thank you Raven Cycle! You were a RIDE!!!!

Deadass Rating: 8.5/10

Unofficial theme song: “Mum” by Luke Hemings

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Every Rose Has it's Thorn

-Part 3-

>Part 4

<Part 2

Universe: Teenage Mutant Teenage Turtles (Bayverse aged-up turtles)

Rating: R

Raphael x OC (female character)

Tags: Fluff,sexy moments, original character, slow burn romance

-Rose and Raph have a -heated- discussion about her living arrangements, and to cool down she and Mikey play some video games. However, she can't run from her emotions forever and everything catches up to her all at once.

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He could not get her out of his head. Raph had hoped that throwing some weight around would help distract him from how much she turned him on, but all he could think about was how damn sexy she was. He put another 20 lbs on the bar, totalling the weight out to 520 lbs, and laid back down on the bench to do another 30 reps. He wasn’t working himself that hard, but hoped the high reps would push him enough that he would have to focus on the technique instead of thoughts of Rose. God, she even smelled good. Her perfume was a mix of leather, carmelly scotch,and vanilla, and Raph fantasized it would cling to his pillows after she left the lair. As he worked through the reps he couldn’t help but think about what it would feel like to smell her perfume up close, pulling her into his chest and kissing his way down her neck-

He had been so into his daydream, he didn’t realize that his arms were shaking from exhaustion. He’d lost track of how many reps he’d done, but re-racked the bar and grabbed some water from the jug he kept nearby. Sweat trickled down his face, but he still couldn’t shake the thoughts of Rose in his arms.

“I’m fucked, man. Completely fucked.” He said to no one. Wiping the sweat away, he stood to change the weights on the bar when he heard a voice behind him.

“Hey, Red. Whatcha up to in here?”

Raph turned to look at the beauty leaning in the doorway. Damn, she was stunning. Her curly copper hair framed her face, giving a wild look to her classically lovely features. Her face was round but defined, and her eyes made him stop in his tracks. They were so green, almost as dark as his skin, and they seemed to pierce through his soul. They looked like pools of moss, and fuck did he just want to get lost in them. When he didn’t answer immediately, she chuckled and tried again.

“Earth to Raphael, you good dude?” She smirked, amused and completely aware why he was staring. As Rose waited for a response his eyes were drawn to her lips, full and so fucking kissable. He loved the way she said his name, and he wanted to make her say it again and again.

Focus, Raph. Focus.

“Uh sorry. Jus’ workin out, that’s it.”

“Ah, I see. How much weight are you throwin around? Looks like around 5 hundo, am I right? Dang, that’s pretty impressive.”

As she spoke she sauntered over to the weight bench, her hips swaying as she could feel him watching her. Rose’s joggers were well cut and flattered her lower half in all the right places, and the oversized crop t-shirt she was wearing was cut to show a surprising amount of her olive skin. He noticed that she was actually pretty muscular herself, and the terrapin was impressed.

Raph stood in place and took a drink of water from his jug, watching her over the rim. He couldn’t take his eyes off her, she was enchanting. Her curves alone were enough to make him want to throw her up against the wall and take her, and despite her loose clothing he could definitely see the outline of her figure and was desperate to see what she looked like sprawled on his sheets, screaming his name-

Dude, what’s wrong with you? Focus.

“Ah, yeah about. Thanks.”

“So are you going for a PR or something?”

Raph raised his eyebrow ridge, letting a smirk broaden his face.

“Nah, this is a warm-up. My PR is around 700 lbs or somethin.” He looked back at her now, and reveled in her expression of absolute shock.

“You’re messing with me. There’s no way- it’s not possible.” She gawked. He could feel her eyes take stock of his physique, lingering on his biceps a bit longer than socially acceptable. For a second he thought he saw lust in her eyes as she took him in, but he had to have imagined it, right?

“Maybe fer a human, but I ain’t human, remember?” He spat with a little more attitude than he intended, but he had to put some distance between them. He couldn’t take her being this close to him for much longer. She would never want a freak like him, and her flirting was killing him. Raph stole a glance over at her just in time to see her brows furrow, which would be cute if what she said next didn’t piss him the fuck off.

“God, sorry your highness. Didn’t mean to ruffle your panties.” She retorted with just as much attitude, crossing her arms.

“The fuck you just say?” Raph growled back, turning to face her completely. He crossed his arms as well, flexing his muscles in his arms as she glared back at him.

“I said,” Rose took a step forward and jabbed a finger to his plastron. “My apologies to your royal pansy highness. Can I get you anything, a pacifier perhaps?”She paused and took a breath. “Yes, you’re a mutant. So what. From what Leo told me you guys are fucking heroes. That’s what counts, not what color your skin is or where you come from.” She lowered her hand and crossed her arms again, glaring at Raph as he stood there staring at her.

The red masked turtle was speechless as his brain wrapped around what she just said to him. All the anger he felt a moment ago washed away, and he was left standing there in front of this small goddess, feeling like an idiot. A proud idiot.

“You get offended way too easily dude. You’d think you’d have tougher skin, kicking ass everyday.” She punched his arm, and turned to walk out of the gym. As soon as she was out of sight Raph let out a sigh. She was sexy as fucking hell. Beauty and brains, and she had no fear of him or anything it seemed. Most humans would have shrunk back with fear as soon as he appeared, let alone when he’s angry. Even Leo avoids him when he’s pissed. “The sooner she’s outa here the better”, he thought. “Things will go back to normal, and I can just try to forget about her.”

“Oh, I totally forgot to tell you.” She stuck her head back in the room, almost making Raph jump. Almost.

“Donnie asked that I stick around for a few days, so he can monitor my ribs. And he’s working on some sort of treatment or whatever. So!” She paused as Raph knew what was coming next. “Looks like we’re going to be roomies for a bit.”

Smiling, Rose winked at him as she left the gym. Raphael put his head in his hands and sighed. She was going to kill him.

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As the day wore on, Mikey kept Rose entertained with the vintage video game systems they had in the lair. She had never seen so many N64 games, and hours quickly passed as she had more fun with the turtle than she had in a long time. Mikey seemed almost psychic, sensing when Rose was lost in thought and making her laugh or showing her another game or system. Before she knew it he had talked her into playing guitar hero, and Mikey convinced her to sing.

“Fine, but no being weird, ok? And, I get to pick the songs.” She raised an eyebrow, and Mikey nodded but gave a look.

“Ok, but why would I be weird? Are you that bad? Like are all the glasses in the kitchen gunna shatter?”He teased, laughing at his own joke.

Rose rolled her eyes and looked through the song list. As she did she took stock of where everyone else was in the lair to minimize her embarrassment. Leo was in the dojo, Splinter in his room doing “rat stuff”as Mikey put it, and Donnie was still in his lab. She glanced over at Raphael’s closed door, sighing. After their um, colorful exchange Raph stomped to his room and slammed the door. He hadn’t come out for a while, but Mikey said that was normal Raph behavior. She wanted so badly to hang out with the brute and get to know him better. When she laid eyes on him in the weight room earlier it had ignited a part of her that she thought died a long time ago. He was so unbelievably sexy, and she almost drooled when she walked in and saw how much weight he was casually lifting. His muscles rippled as his arms moved, sending shivers up and down her spine. He had taken off his gear that he and all the other guys wore and was lifting in just his shorts, and she got a much better view of just how ripped he was. He even had those sexy abdominal v-lines visible under the edge of his plastron that disappeared under his shorts, and it made her want to jump him and see what he was packing under those clothes.

Woof.

And the way he just watched her, fuck. She was wet just thinking about it. His smirk as they talked, all while maintaining eye contact, turned her on so much. His eyes were full of desire and lust, and she could still feel his gaze if she closed her eyes.

Down, girl. You’re on the couch with his little brother.

Re-focusing, she saw a song title she recognized and pressed go. Mikey looked over confused, obviously not knowing the song. He played the guitar controller, and seemed to do fine as the familiar guitar lick sang through the speakers. She hadn’t heard this song in years, but it was one of her favorites. It felt right. As Mikey played she started to lose herself in the music, remembering her last performance of the song on stage and letting go of everything else around her.

“Gonna take a freight train/ down at the station/ I don’t care where it goes/ gunna climb a mountain/ the highest mountain/ jump off nobody gunna know.”

Rose’s voice rang out clear and beautiful, the acoustics in the lair being really quite ideal for music. Mikey kept playing despite wanting to just listen to hear her sing more. If he stopped they would lose the level, and she’d probably get mad at him. So, this is what she meant by “don’t be weird.” She had the voice of an angel, and it was mesmerizing. He watched as she closed her eyes and just let herself go.

“I’m gunna find me/ a hole in the wall/ I’m gunna crawl inside and die/ cause my man now/ a mean old man lord/ never told me goodbye”

Mikey looked at her as she sang the verse and could see tears rolling down her face, but she continued on almost unphased. She chose this song on purpose, he could tell that much. As she sang, Mikey could see Raph’s door opening and his brother stepping out into the living room. Raph’s jaw had dropped, and he was staring in disbelief.

“Can’t you see/ oooh can’t you see/ what that man/ been doin to me?”

The other brothers had stopped what they were doing as well to watch what was going on, all captivated by her voice and the emotion you could feel from her performance. Leo and Donnie exchanged looks, an unspoken agreement that Rose was amazing, but she clearly was not processing her trauma from yesterday well.

“Gunna buy a ticket now, as far as I can/ ain't never coming back/ gunna ride me a southbound, all the way to Georgia/ 'til the train runs out of track.”

You could feel the sadness in her voice, and Mikey began to realize she was revealing more about her personal life in these 5 minutes than she had all day. As the song ended she continued to riff over the guitar solo he played, until the room was once again silent except for the sound of the fake crowd cheering over the speakers. Rose didn’t move or say anything, she just stared at the tv screen in silence. All four brothers noticed, but no one knew how to react to the young woman standing in the room with silent tears streaming down her face.

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God, she was so embarrassed. She knew singing this song would make her cry, but she couldn’t help it. She needed to cry after everything she went through yesterday, but now the tears wouldn’t stop. Luckily she wasn’t an ugly crier, or this would be really embarrassing. Someone told her once that she cried like a 1940s actress, and she liked to think they were right. The thought that she could still be utterly beautiful like that and be shedding tears at the same time always cheered her up a bit.

She stood frozen in the living room of the turtle's lair, emotionally numb and so tired of being strong. She was always a rock, always kept everything bottled down deep to keep life light for everyone around her. Hell, even when she walked in on her ex-boyfriend yesterday she soothed him as he cried, ignoring her own tears to take care of someone else’s. Fuck, she was so tired of carrying everyone’s weight. Her fists clenched in anger as she tried to get her mind away from the depression that lurked in the corners of her soul. She was so tired of fighting it, fighting the world to stay afloat.

Suddenly, she felt her body being scooped up and heard voices call out as she was being carried off somewhere. Rose looked up through her tears to see Raphael’s jaw clenched as he took off through the tunnels. She was never so grateful to be picked up in her life.

Rose turned her head to rest against his chest plate as the tears continued to flow, glad for the space from the others and the freedom to cry. Her arms curled up against Raphael’s body as he maneuvered his way through the tunnels, feeling like a little girl again as the strong turtle easily supported her weight with one arm. After a few minutes of silence she felt an abrupt whoosh of air as he simultaneously knocked a manhole cover over and jumped out of the sewer, leaping to the nearest rooftop. She normally hated the sensation of falling, that flip-flop in your stomach when you’re on a roller coaster, but in Raph’s arms she felt more safe and secure than she had her entire life. Raph looked down at Rose and smiled.

“Wanna see somethin’ cool?”He asked, eyebrow ridge raised.

“Bring it on, Red.” She smiled back, her face tear stained but feeling much more like herself again. Before she knew it, Raph ran and jumped to the building in front of them, catching the fire escape railing with one arm and pulling them both up. Rose dug her nails into Raph’s neck in fear as she yelped, and Raph tried to ignore how much of a turn on her nail scratching was on his skin.

“You up for a climb?”He asked, checking in. He gestured his head upwards towards the 20 or so flights ahead of them. Rose looked up and winced, a hand on her ribs.

“Normally, I do not shy away from a challenge- but Donnie might have kittens if he finds out.”

“Good point.”Raph chuckled. With how scrunched up Don and Leo’s faces were when he grabbed Rose he knew he was already never going to hear the end of it, let alone if they found out she climbed over 20 flights of stairs. “Well, this might be awkward, but you’ll have ta hang on to my neck. I need both hands.” He smiled, trying to put her at ease that this was not his intention from the start. Rose paused for a second before wrapping both her arms around Raphael’s thick neck. She lifted her knees to straddle his hips, and Raph worked hard to keep his composure as he started to climb up the side of the building. They were so close, and all he could smell was her perfume and it was driving him crazy. Luckily with both of his hands free he raced up quickly, and after clearing the ledge set Rose down on the bean bag chair he kept up there. She looked up at the turtle, obviously confused as to why there was a beanbag chair, some speakers, and a few other miscellaneous things on the roof of this 25 story building with no roof access. Raphael sat down next to her on the cement, legs bent so he could sit comfortably with his shell not getting in the way.

“I come up here a lot, mostly when I’m pissed off. Sometimes….just ta think.”

Rose nodded and took in her surroundings, looking out over the skyline. The city felt darker, grittier than it had yesterday. Despite that though, it was a beautiful sight. The sun was setting, and everything had that golden hour vibe to it.

“It’s a pretty good view, Raph.” She said quietly, glancing over at him. He was sitting there, just watching her, a content look on his face. He looked so effortlessly sexy in the light as it draped shadows around his muscular body. His eyes almost seemed to glow in the golden light, and they sat there, looking at each other, until he spoke.

“Yeah, yeah it is.”

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