#learning to let go

[iolite-moodboards]

8/25/2024 - today's moodboard is sponsored by; healing and wellness because it keeps getting worse

[pagesiwontburn]

Day 3: I decided to appreciate things

With all of the things going on around me—good, bad, confusing—I've made a decision. An easy one: to enjoy the little things in life.

The older I get, the more I know that life is short and unexpected. Time seems like it's accelerating, and I don't want to waste any more of it on individuals who don't care about me, or things that empty me rather than nourish me. I used to spend so much time on what was missing, on who wronged me, or what didn't happen… but now, I want to spend time on what I do have.

Because no matter how painful some of the past events were, choosing to appreciate life gave me a new perspective. It doesn’t erase the hurt—but it helps me see beyond it. It reminds me that even on the roughest days, there’s always something worth holding onto. A quiet moment. A kind word. A song. A sunset. A breath. A reminder that I’m still here.

I understand that I cannot dictate everything in my life, but I can dictate how I react. And opting to look for the beauty in the small things—that is how I heal. That is how I proceed.

I desire to live more deliberately. And it begins with gratitude; however, minor it may seem. For all the tiny things add up. Every minute counts. And I want mine to count.

[mytendermind]

so just let me have this. just let me have this moment in time, away from the world. let me believe i am wanted for just a moment.

then i will go back to knowing i am irredeemable.

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Opening To Change: Learning How To Let Go.

Change hasn't always been an easy thing for me. In the beginning, I had suppressed myself in order to hold on to things that didn't need saving. Holding on to friendships that lasted since high school, to deeply trying to change the circumstances with me and another lover just so we wouldn't have to break-up. I made it my mission for long-term things to stay inside of me for as long as possible, til I realized it was the death of me. I was killing my insides all because I would have to face being alone for a while. And it worked.. until it didn't. My health declined, and I was forced into the unknown because your health and spirituality due tie closely together after all. Believe it or not, the moment I had to go to the hospital I realized I had no one left, but my mom of course. But in those moments I had to understand it would be more them. Because my circumstances were making me sick, all because I chose to stay in it.

Don't get me wrong, the people in my life are not to blame for my health declining. It was my choices that I kept for the longest. Not wanting to switch to becoming vegan, not wanting to travel alone or do anything by myself, always waiting and wasting away... Because I was scared to be and do things, alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

It sounded terrifying.

Having to be by yourself is one thing, but being alone with your THOUGHTS?

Thats a different type of hell.

Having to let go made me accept the things I could not change, but helped me see that there was a reason why I had to move on.

As much as it hurt, I couldn't just walk away with the pain.. I had to make something out of it.

At some point I would let go of all my sorrows by walking to the waterfalls near home, and communing with my ancestors & God Almighty themselves.

I NEEDED this. I needed the friends to mistreatment, the exs to misunderstand me. The family members to not appreciate my talents, my skills, my appreciation for them, etc. I had to see it. So that I could let go. I'm open to change because I know that there is more for me around that corner I have been peaking on the other side of. Remember me & my truth, is the exact reason that faith in beside me & I go where God & the mountains tell me to go. I dont NEED the same old energies to see me, I need me. So being alone worked, because it helped me face myself & overcome the damages that society had placed near my doorstep as a little girl. I had to accept the fact that most people that I loved, would not adore me as I did them. So I changed my structure, and changed the way I thought of them in the process. This was so that the new me could take shape, and I could feel the power of love that had been missing for so many days.

So as I write this, if you're problem is with letting go of people, environments, and so on so forth, you have to check within first. Because its YOU that you aren't letting go of. So it focuses on the things around you externally, then internally. Guess you have to decide whether it'll be your insides or the out. But all in all, one will win this round. You just gotta choose you more often. K? <3

[serenityquest]

[its-all-down-hill]

[museinblooming]

Funny how what I considered the bare minimum was too much for them... It’s not high standards... It’s just... how I love...

[snowcloud31]

I love my parents but I know I will eventually, asap, have to move out for my own good.

Sometimes we have to let go the people we love. Even though it’s scary and it hurts both but it will cause less harm in the long term.

[mexicanchoco-lit]

Give me the Ivy drip, let me fade to the dream,

Your smile, your face, a radiant beam.

Comatose bliss, like a Propofol haze,

Don’t wake me up till memory decays.

[egophiliac]

don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12

[gentleoverdrive]

[June/1 of 3] We'll Start Again!

I think it's fine to have a thing that we like but it either has quote-unquote "problematic" elements or it was made by shitheads. For example, I still really love a lot of movies written and/or directed by Paul Schrader despite the fact he's become (or maybe always was in spirit? lol) a facebook uncle. ---- I still love a lot of Deftones' music despite the fact that they were pricks to Sergio Vega behind the scenes and Stef Carpenter is/was (apparently still is) an anti-vaxxer + flat-earther. Same goes for Fear Factory and Dino being very prone to butting heads with people + being more than a bit controlling (I've heard that he's mellowed out considerably now that he's older) ---- At the same time, it's also fine to disown media or people that you loved but that the creator/performers proved shitty beyond repair and it has tainted your perception of the piece of media, like it happened with a lot of people and Lostprophets (tw: SA, CSA) me with Radiohead, etc. ---- Just... like, remember that people can be flawed, and shitty; hell, sometimes your tastes just change, and it's fine. You can like something even if it came at the expense of horrible circumstances/people making it. Or you can stop liking it if it's a dealbreaker. Again, this isn't me chastising anybody, it's just about you knowing when to think about a thing and how not to waste time or energy on something that, truth be told, rarely is ever worth it. ---- Does that make a little bit of sense? Is this just another fucking writing exercise without any rhyme, reason or purpose? Who knows. Be excellent to yourselves and one another. Laterz!

[astearisms]

catalysts, protectors

[count-pudding]

Wizard Installer🧙✨

[kylominis]

touchy feely mornings with mr. clingy [♡]

[taimanzano]

Megatronus Prime, Prima Prime.

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