#god. this is so much not a scene it's SO incredibly vague and ????

[bokatan]

Mercy 🔮

[ future scene ask ] @fuzzydreamin

I keep playing around with this post-game idea for Mercy where she stays in the Commonwealth, rather than wandering off like she normally does after a few months, & having her set up some sort of clinic for specialized services. She'd obviously offer standard medical care(albeit more ghoul-centric than other Commonwealth medical providers), medical supplies, chems, and she'd get into medical implants and probably some induced mutations as well.

I also think it'd be fun to let her play around with syringers at some point, and letting her make new experimental darts and maybe even offering those for sale when she decides they're consistent enough. She'd drag Reed, and potentially a few others, into doing field trials for those since her vision and long distance aim aren't the greatest.

I'm including a few screenshots here since I've been exploring potential locations where she could set up shop like this, and of course she's going to have all kinds of herbs and whatnot growing in the surrounding area/greenhouse/etc so she has a reliable source of supplies. These are from the Coastal Cottage build where I made this sick ass fungi cave under the house

[bigfatbimbo]

Lute and Sinner!Fem!Reader

a/n — Taking an Idea I had from a request and running with it because I completely twisted it into something else in my head.

Summary — Lute has a very homoerotic rivalry with fem!sinner!reader in the form of vague headcanons and loose storylines.

Warnings — unbareable sapphic tension, mention of injuries and blood

Let’s start off with the obvious; Lute has no idea how to process feelings for the reader.

I mean you’re literally a demon from hell, there should be nothing appealing about you in the slightest.

Unfortunately for Lute, she found absolutely everything appealing about you and this pisses her off to an insane amount.

She would spend hours trying to justify it in her head only for every excuse to fall flat. If she wasn’t already practically pulling her hair out over this, now she is.

She finds herself looking forward to the next extermination more and more. The scary part was that the reason wasn’t just because of the chance to slaughter vile demons.

She wanted to see you. 

So what does every lesbian in denial do when they have complicated feelings for someone they shouldn’t? Start a rivalry.

Every extermination she seeks you out and fights you specifically

“You, vile demon! Come out here and face me!” She would absolutely make a scene as she is incredibly intense.

I feel like you would surprise her with being able to keep up with her fighting skills, or at least almost.

Like I feel like she would go easy on you at first. After all, she just wants your attention, she doesn’t actually want to kill you.

After a little bit she would actually have to start really trying in order to not actually lose.

Of course that would piss her off and turn her on at the same time, leaving her incredibly aggravated.

Maybe after a couple exterminations you would be already used to Lute and her shenanigans and you would play along.

“Hey, sweetheart, how’s heaven treating you these days?” You would tease while dodging her sharp spear.

“Don’t call me sweetheart, you demon scum!” She would hiss back at you, trying to hide her blush by violently jabbing her weapon your way.

I don’t think she would play along in your flirting at all. She wouldn’t even humor you, just get slightly more angry and flustered.

OH. MY. GOD. There would be SO MUCH unresolved sexual tension. 

Obviously Lute is too loyal to heaven to give into lust so there’s just a lot of pining, lingering touches, and bedroom eyes.

Threats are definitely the main love language here.

“That’s right run! I’m going to ruin that pretty face of yours when I catch you, you vile creature,”

“Aw, Lute! I never imagined you were such a flirt,” You would wink back, thrusting your dagger towards her in a swift motion.

She dodged it and fell back, “I—I meant with my spear, you sick pervert!” 

“Still called me pretty.”

“UGH, I’m going to rip your head off its shoulders!” she would storm at you and hope you dodge her blow last second.

If one of you ends up on top of the other while fighting, that would literally kill her.

You would both be so close, breathing into eachother, faces inches apart, lips slightly parted and—

“Distracted much, Lute?” You would raise your eyebrow and she would immediately switch positions and fall back into the rest of the exterminators.

I do think that as much as she pretends to hate you, she would genuinely loose her shit if one of the other exterminators hurt you.

Like she would be screaming at them.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing? You think you can just attack her like that and—“ She would realize how this looked and correct herself “—um, with that form? Can you do ANYTHING right, you useless excuse for a soldier?”

Then she would chase you off to where none of the exterminators are watching and corner you.

“I don’t have much time,” she would look over your wound, “Are you alright? Are you— are you bleeding out?”

“Well, I don’t imagine i’m in the best condition, thanks for asking,” you nod down to the where the angel stabbed you and glance back up at her. 

She looked off, almost like she was genuinely concerned. Her hands would hover over the stab wound as she assessed what to do.

“What’s gotten into you?” You would inquire, trying not to wince.

“I just— well, I’m—“ she would stammer, before ripping off a piece of her uniform and pressing it against your injury. You suck in breath.

“I can’t have my favorite enemy dying from an angel who’s not me.” She would finish, trying to sound cold even though her voice was borderline wavering.

“Sounds like you’re going soft on me,” You smirk weakly.

“Never going to happen, demon,” she would almost smile at you. 

There would be a moment of silence as her fingers grave your open cut and linger against your stomach.

She cleared her throat, awkwardly, “Apply pressure to the wound and clean it as soon as you can. You’ll be fine.”

With that, she would leave and go back to slaughtering demons, probably wishing she could have stayed with you.

a/n — smut of her later tonight because i’m obsessed and need her biblically (Haha)

Also you guys are so Once More to See You by Mitski coded.

[theshitpostcalligrapher]

please tell me this manga/comic/show exists i do not wanna have to make it

okok I've posted about this before but I'm watching animation content on youtube again while getting work done and by GOD I WANNA TALK ABOUT THIS AGAIN

There's a specific concept I want to consume as content/art so badly but it came to me in a stupid dream. BUT. Sometimes, a dream means I DID see a hint of it somewhere and my brain accidentally plagiarized it which provides me with the teensiest sliver of hope that exists already and I don't have to work on it

It's a kind of a reverse isekai, right? But instead of an instant portal, it's time passing. And what I mean by that is that it's a Sun Wukong story, but the branch off is that after the main events of Journey to the West he gets either water temple'd or trapped in magic sleep again, not for a few hundred years but a few THOUSAND.

He wakes up to an incredibly far-flung China that remembers his myth and only his myth.

The art style that operated in this dream was sort of. Textured but 3D? Think nimona's buttery lighting but instead of emphasis on light and shapes to operate with the stained glass and solarpunk-medieval style the models are textured in a way that just invokes traditional brushwork and colour bleed even in a more cyberpunkish setting. Think like. Whenever there's a night scene the astigmatism glow of lamplight bleeds a little, like ink feathering on paper.

It's a little bit of a Steve Rogers treatment in a way, the world has moved past him, but also completely mythologized and capitalized on that mythology. Rather than treat that man out of time narrative as an aspect of backstory, it's the MAIN character narrative, because this ISN'T a world that needs him. This world is doing pretty okay, actually.

This a story about him.

Not about his feats or how cool his powers are or the 8 gajillion things the magic staff can do but just.

How ya doing, bud?

From the vaguely coherent notes that I could garner from my sleepily typed googledoc, it seems that I wanted this to be a love letter of sorts to the Asian diaspora experience? A specific sort of loneliness? Where the world you experience has a sort of disconnect in that it makes plain you belong there but you also don't, you never have, and there's no way to go "back" but going forward feels like groping blind through the muck. How much right to the past does he feel like he has? When it's been built into something he can't recognize and is clearly important to other people.

I want the pickup of the plot to gain him friends, family, maybe even a conflict or two but the stakes should never elevate vis a vis physical enemies to battle.

It'd be about 2/3 of this sort of narrative drawn story and the other 1/3 just hogwild worldbuilding and design

I've looked at a few other journey to the west adaptations but they mainly just use him as a funky lil action figure hero that's there to be cool as hell and save the day

99% likely this is just a thing my brain is made up and I'd need a several million budget and about 25 additional skills to start the ball rolling but hey, worth it to ask yall again

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Random BL Superlatives: 2023

Well @lurkingshan did it, so I must do it. So here are some random, WKA themed superlatives for the 2023 BL selection.

Best Hands: Mhok and Day, Last Twilight

gif by @singularities

Listen. I know. I KNOW. There are so many incredible options, and I have written at length about a number of them. I mean come on, La Pluie is right there, I Feel You Linger in the Air is right there, Sing My Crush, Moonlight Chicken etc. etc. etc. But

But, Last Twilight came in with the steel chair right at the end of the year here with that FUCKING HANDSING SCENE. Can you blame me? The handsing scene is shrimply too powerful.

Best Lighting: Playboyy

You know, it's funny cause I don't usually end up writing about lighting in shows, despite the fact that lighting design is absolutely one of my favorite things in film, stage, and television. Chains of Heart has really interesting lighting too, but Playboyy is an objectively better show, and it is doing some absolutely gorgeous lighting design.

Best Sex Scene: Olive Oil, I Feel You Linger in the Air

gif by @pharawee

THE OLIVE OIL SCENE, WHY ARE THERE NO GIFSETS OF THE OLIVE OIL SCENE? WHY IS TUMBLR SUCH A FUCKING HATER???? They didn't even fuck in that scene, but holy mother of GOD it was the best thing I've seen all year. I Feel You Linger in the Air has some of the most inventive and beautiful intimate moments, and spreading the olive oil as a stand in for arousal and masturbation was absolutely goddamn brilliant.

Best Faen (Non)Fatale: Porjai, Last Twilight

gif from @khaopybara

I know Last Twilight hasn't finished yet and will take us in to 2024, but Porjai and Mohk's relationship is absolutely my favorite lovers to friends dynamic I have seen this year. I was showering praise upon them all for this in the tags of a reblog today, so I have to give it to them. Massive shout out and extremely close call to Nara from La Pluie.

Best Emotional Roller Coaster: What Did You Eat Yesterday? Season 2

Ok there were quite a lot of shows that I think would have applied here, but man oh man this entire season has just run me through the wringer with how much Shiro has grown over the course of the last two seasons. Episode 11 had me laughing my ass off, and then absolutely sobbing by the end. So it's going to Kinou Nani Tabeta?

The Shirt I Want to Steal Most from Wardrobe: Blue and White Button Up, The Sign

gif from @ohshinytrinketsmine

I know this will be contentious when the Fart Proudly shirt is right there, but I really loved the blue and white button up shirt that Phaya wore I do not know what is in the water at IdolFactory, but they have hands down some of the best shirts I have ever seen. When I watched Secret Crush on You I wanted the entirety of Sky's wardrobe, now I am having shirt envy for this sexy little blue-with-white-lines-that-are-vaguely-rabbit-shaped (wka do not write a post about rabbits, do not write a post about rabbits-) button up.

The Character Who Most Changed my Opinion of Them: Phupa, OS2 x BBS x ATOTS

gif by @alexshenry (double PhupaPat whammy for @waitmyturtles)

Okay, so to tell you the truth, I made new superlatives cause if I took the superlatives from @lurkingshan's post it would have been at least half the same if not more (because as always, Shan is right about everything). But, I will put an overlap here because I absolutely could not let this year go by without applauding Aof, Earth, and Phupa for really putting in the work to help me understand this man better.

The Show That Most Surprised Me: Wedding Plan by MAME

gif by @wanderlust-in-my-soul

Okay not only was this show that I absolutely was not planning to watch or initially interested in actually one of the best of the year, but it was also a MAME show. And a lot of us have our critiques of MAME's writing, but this was so outside of her typical MO that I am shocked it came from the same writer. Love Sailom, love a Lavender Wedding, love Nuea, love it all.

The Trope This Year That Most Accounted for the Fact These Are Gay MEN: Boxing! Sing My Crush, Wedding Plan, The Sign

Sing My Crush did this the absolute best, but I really genuinely loved that multiple shows this year let men fight in controlled settings to get out some of their frustration and to process their feelings. Han Ba Ram crying in the gym? One of my favorite scenes of the entire year.

And yeah sure, Phaya and Tharn are fighting for the intricate rituals that allow men to touch the skin of men, we get the horny vibes, but fundamentally this fight does occur because Tharn is angsty and ignoring Phaya and that cannot stand. I like seeing Phaya sparring with the punching bag at the end of the most recent episode as well because he's fucking furious about Tharn telling the doctor about his dreams. I love it, I love it so much.

[butterflydm]

More s3 hints from interviews (day 2 & Josha!)

@markantonys linked me to a masterthread of More Interviews (twitter.com/GradeKangusBeef/status/1736788980006330448), which I have scoured for more s3 hints, lol. The twitter thread is being updated as they appear, so I definitely recommend the thread as a whole.

From a screenrant interview with Zoë:

Are there any future events or character moments from the books that you know about that you’re excited to get into?

Zoë Robins: Yes, definitely. I’m going to have to tread very carefully, but there’s a moment in season three that I think Wheel of Time book readers will be very, very happy about. It was incredibly exciting to shoot. I think that’s all I can say.

Guessing this will be the Nynaeve-Moghedien confrontation! The word 'exciting' makes me lean that way -- though we may get other key scenes from the books like Lan giving her his ring, not sure that would count as 'incredibly exciting to shoot' and would more likely be described as tender or sweet.

From one with Daniel:

One thing that is less present in the show so far compared to the books is Lan being kind of a mentor figure for Rand. Is there a chance we’ll get a little more of that as the show progresses?

Daniel Henney: I would say that I personally would not bet against it. I'm being shipped off in two months to a place very far away to shoot some really incredible stuff where I have to be in very good shape. I'm eating tree leaves and protein shakes, and I'm in a double training schedule right now, which could include some of the stuff you're talking about.

Another hint that we'll be getting Lan training Rand next season.

From a Dónal one from screenrant; this isn't about s3 but it's sweet:

Dónal Finn: It's great. I love the character very much for that reason. It’s a very human experience that when you're watching, you can go, “I can identify with that, because that person is trying to use levity and humor and lightness to make ease of someone else's difficult situation.” Even though it often can feel like he's kind of punching up or trying to jeer at Rand or something, he knows that it comes from a place of, like, “God, there's so much hard stuff going on for Rand in every day of his life that he needs somebody to do that.” Otherwise, when we meet him in Cairhien, if he doesn't have that—if he doesn't have Mat at that place—he may not laugh, and that's just really crap for your best friend.

I love this point here. I don't think I even realized how miserable as a baseline Rand was this season until we got that contrast of his reunion with Mat. We may be getting that dynamic continuing into s3.

Kate Fleetwood with dragonmount:

KF: Lots of things happen in Season Three... yeah… they sat me down and were like, “This is what we are planning for you in Season Three.” I was, whoaa! Ok…

Very vague, but interesting! I wonder if Liandrin will be a tug-of-rope between Moghedien and Lanfear next season, because Lanfear snagged her from Ishamael but Moggy might snag her from Lanfear.

The tiniest of s3 hints from Ayoola:

AS: A combination of things, I think like, it’s the writers and it is Naomi, my dialect coach, and I kind of spoke about that, it is that humor that the Aiel have that's kind of, can catch you off guard and isn't necessarily funny to everyone but they find it amusing… just where that hits I think and just kind of the situations and we're able to play with that and bring that in.  Also, Aviendha is kind of a little bit more cheeky than some of the other Aiel that we will encounter and kind of her humor is very much part of who she is. Just kind of playing around with that, and it just, it just came out and felt right.

We're gonna meet some serious Aiel in s3. Not a surprise, but good to hear!

Madeleine talked to decider.com:

So far what we know about next season is it’s going to be hugely inspired by The Shadow Rising. We’re going to see Rhuidean and Tel’aran’rhiod. Egwene is now coming out of being a damane. You know, is there anything about her experience with the Seanchan that might influence how she handles, say, another hard, foreign culture like the Aiel? Absolutely. Look, I think even from Season 1, we see that Egwene’s truly been a novice of the world and is fascinated with what is out there and what other people can teach her and what other cultures can teach her. I think she’s sort of taken little bits of the Two Rivers, the White Tower, the Seanchan… And, you know, she goes on this journey to the Aiel Waste and ultimately will, no doubt, learn a lot there as well. So I think she’s just like a big sponge for the world and wants to learn. 

Confirmation that Egwene is going to the Aiel Waste, which makes sense, given that's her TSR plotline. Also, Egwene as a big sponge for the world and constantly learning is just... absolute 100% Egwene.

Josha talked to looper.com:

For Rand, Season 2 was about finding himself and realizing that he can't run away from it. He needs to do it with the people he loves. Season 3 is finally time for facing what he has to face. He's owning that prophecy more, and we see glimpses of why Rand is the Dragon Reborn and why he'll end up where he needs to end up. As that evolution's taking place, what do you do to get into character as this character is evolving? I'm very lucky that I have 14 books, which I have read, and that has given me a lot. I really understand Rand, and it's a lot of things. It's the conversations I have with Rafe [Judkins], the directors, and the writers. It's playing with all these amazing actors. It's the sets. Everything feels so real, and at the end of Season 3, we go to South Africa for two months, and being in that environment, all those things added up together, that helps you to get into the character.

Very exciting! We know that South Africa is Rhuidean, I believe, so very exciting to hear.

Also, Season 3, that keeps on going, and that is a very interesting area to explore because Lanfear is the Devil, and you can't love the Devil. It feels at times that Lanfear is the only one that really understands Rand, and because Rand is often very lonely in what he feels and sees, it seems like, at times, he can't express it to anyone else, and she's exactly what he needs — but she's the devil. That was very interesting for us to explore, and I secretly hope that Rand and Lanfear marry, but I don't think that will happen.

lol @ Josha. Anyway, yes, they're going to be exploring Lanfear trying to tempt/manipulate Rand more in s3, sounds like, so she isn't going to pay attention to Moghedien's warning for too long.

Again, without spoilers, what's next for Rand and the Emond's Field Five heading into Season 3? What can we expect? That's a good question. What can you expect for Season 3 without getting into spoilers? Well, they're together again. There is way more togetherness than in Season 2. That's exciting. It is fun to follow all of you guys, but there's a lot more momentum when you're all together. That's also quite hard for them, because these main characters all need to become something eventually. Because they are so close, it also creates some inner conflict. Rand, for example — if someone has been to your first birthday parties, it is very hard to become the most powerful channeler in the world and also the most dangerous man in the world, because they know your parents and they know who you were. That is one of the struggles they're facing now that they're together at the start of Season 3.

I would like to paste that last sentence from his first answer directly into the brains of everyone at reddit who believes that s3 is going to start with everyone all split up into separate plotlines and we're not going to get any group interactions.

Great answers from Josha in this one!

Screenrant also talked to him:

How do you interpret Rand’s relationship with Egwene in season 2? It’s romantic in the first season; do you feel like there’s a thread of that still there?

Josha Stradowski: I think a thread of that romantic relationship is definitely still there, because it gives this feeling of home for the both of them. They have been to each other's birthday parties. I think that is, on a human level, very [much] what they both need. But I think it also might transition to something else; more like a brother/sister kind of love. But that’s season three, maybe.

I'm really glad they asked him about Egwene!

Rand only reunites with his friends from the Two Rivers at the end of the season, and we haven’t seen how they are around him [after] knowing that he’s the Dragon yet. Can you say anything about what that dynamic is for season 3? Are they afraid of him?

Josha Stradowski: I think for all the main characters, they get what they need, and that is each other, but for all of them comes the internal conflict that they also feel like they need to become something else. It's like this growing pain, and I think Rand has that quite a lot. I feel like he wants to be there for his friends, he knows that he needs to be there for them to protect them, and the other way around as well, but he also needs to become the most dangerous men alive. How can you do that with someone that knows your dad, or the girl who kissed you for the first time? I don't know if that's Egwene, but in my head it is. So, I feel like they all struggle with this growing pain, but you see why they are friends, and you see why they are together; why they are the main characters of this story.

More that implies that we're going to be seeing EF5 interactions before they split up.

Collider also talked to him:

I've been reading the books, as well, and I think that's one of the sadder parts of Rand's journey, as you see how he's viewed through other characters, and the sadness of them reconciling their memories of him with the person that he now is kind of forced to become. Speaking of love relationships, though, I talked to Ceara and Rafe about Rand and Elayne's first meeting. What was important to capture in hinting at what this relationship is going to be, as well as the surprise of that connection? It feels like these are two people looking at each other for the first time and thinking, “You're going to be someone special.” STRADOWSKI: Yes. And that's what I take away, quite often, from the books as well. I have that with Selene, for example. There are a lot of moments where Rand can't get a word out of his mouth because he's so in shock at the beauty of this woman in front of him — and we didn't really have that with Selene, not like that in the TV show, but we did have it for Elayne. It's, like you said, a hint of what it could be, but I feel like it's subtle. It's a gradual thing which needs to be organic, and we might have some of that in Season 3, but I can't spoil that.

He talks a lot more openly about Selene/Lanfear in general -- which makes sense, because that's the relationship that was on the screen in front of us, while the Elayne relationship is gonna have a lot more spoilers involved -- but we get this hint here and I like hearing that the plan for Rand & Elayne is to be gradual and organic (which will be a big contrast to how the Rand/'Selene' relationship was introduced).

I will point out that Josha seems pretty careful overall about spoilers, mostly talking about things pretty vaguely and with ambiguity, so it feels like part of why he's talking about Lanfear so much is because she's one of the few things he's allowed to openly talk about at this point.

Lan training Rand is something that I think fans are excited to see, so I'll ask you the same question that I asked Daniel: can we look forward to that in Season 3? STRADOWSKI: What did Daniel say? He said he's back on the Warder diet, but then he also referenced your recent Instagram post and said that he needs to trim up to stand next to you. STRADOWSKI: Well, you can tell him I'm on the Dragon diet. Like you said, I'm also very excited to finally see some Lan/Rand swordfighting. I think it's time.

It cracks me up that Josha feels out how much Daniel might have spoiled before he says anything.

[erraticprocrastinator]

Random writing advice, yet again: Sometimes you just have to listen to yourself.

Getting stuck when you're writing sucks, and whilst writer's block can strike for no good reason, oftentimes, there's an underlying cause. Sometimes it might be obvious- maybe you're stressed from school or work, or you're running low on sleep- but, sometimes, you might have to dig a little deeper to figure out the 'why' part of "why in God's name can't I put words on the page?"

I found myself in this position recently, and, after putting it off for almost a fortnight, I finally forced myself to do something about it. I sat down with my WIP, and focused on my automatic thoughts and feelings as I read it. After getting through everything I've written so far, I finally figured out my problem; there was a section right at the beginning of the story that I just didn't like, and it was making me feel sour towards the whole thing. I'd had vague thoughts about the scene in question for a while, but I didn't realise it was the problem until I sat back and actually listened to myself. The section set the tone for the first part of the story, and although it was what I thought I wanted when I wrote it, it turns out that it just doesn't fit. After changing the part that was bothering me, replacing less than 500 words, my entire WIP feels so much better, and I've been able to continue on at last.

Remember, writing is incredibly subjective, and the thing that "makes sense" isn't always going to be the thing that works. You need to listen to yourself to figure out what's actually right for your story. Sometimes the cringey plot point is going to be the right one, and sometimes "fuck you" is the perfect thing to say. It might sound silly, but sometimes you just have to do a vibe check.

[oodlyenough]

I haven't bothered with posts about the anime episodes because for the most part they've been like... fine to moderately amusing and there's not really anything to say beyond that. 2x06 Sound the Turnabout Melody (what a title) was uh not like that lmao so

started off strong with that terrible Wright & Co commercial. god bless you Maya.

ever since they introduced the concept of the friendship keychains I've been wondering if Larry still has his or if Larry is a normal person and the keychains are a consequence of Phoenix and Edgeworth specifically being Like That.

I thought s1 really tried to be like "a no homo trio of besties!!!" so I assumed it was likely Larry did. instead not even 3 years later Larry is like "lmao you still have that?" and Phoenix is both embarrassed and defensive which is much better and funnier than I expected from this show lmfao god bless

Larry discovering girls while Phoenix is STILL thinking about Miles and then deciding to dedicate songs on the radio to him fahfkdhlhkhglh .... incredible. showstopping

the dedication just kept going and going, too. i thought it would end with like, 'to signal red from signal blue' but it went on and on. i know she read page one of his ten page letter. didn't even mention the illustrated annexes of red and blue holding hands 😔

edgeworth thanking phoenix aloud and meanwhile phoenix sensing a disturbance in the force and turning around to look ... lmaoooooooo?!?!?... I mean even by the high bar set by their game canon I was pretty stunned

the flipside of all the crazy but believably IC baby narumitsu stuff was I found the Von Karma stuff all kind of weird and not particularly believable/IC

I appreciate the anime making it unambiguous that Edgeworth was raised by MVK, I feel like in the games there's a bit of vagueness for no real reason despite it being the most logical explanation for everything. so that was nice. but:

as hilariously cruel as it is to imagine MVK raising this kid for three years before turfing him to an orphanage, even applying 5d chess psychological torment logic I can't really make sense of that. why would he wait that long lol. why would he have taken miles in to begin with if not part of a long-term scheme.

baby franziska was cute as hell but i think she was too nice. i totally believe she'd be obsessed with her new little brother and want his attention/approval/etc. i ...don't really believe she's emotionally equipped to go about it so sweetly, lol.

miles' prosecutor vs defense ambition arc was convoluted to me, and an example where i feel like the games already gave us reason enough for the switch (the idea that greg's murderer got away + mvk's influence) without the anime now presenting something that makes less sense. (i'm still playing AAI but i sense i'll have similar criticisms of it, as in, "you're offering me a new explanation that makes less sense than the original". a common issue for prequel media.)

the cravat-giving scene felt like it was presented very earnestly despite being objectively kind of creepy given, you know, everything.

dog person miles edgeworth REAL

why'd they name that puppy napalm 😭😭😭😭

oh most importantly THE EPISODE TAG?? LMAO? edgeworth giving them the only like on their commercial why can't i find a clip or gifset of it the people need to know NEVERMIND @camalyng has bravely answered the call with a gifset

[milgram-tournament]

MILGRAM Best Song Tournament, Round 1, Match 4 HALF vs. MAGIC

Propaganda for both options under the cut!

Propaganda for HALF:

kazui may just be an old gay man but HE CAN SING.

its. literally stunning.

like aside from his character and everything else, half is just really really beautifully written

THE INSTRUMENTALS.

HIS V O I C E??? its so pretty

heartbreaking lyrics. i dont love kazui as a character but i have bawled to half

GAY RIGHTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love amane but she will undoubtedly win when her purge march poll rolls around, so lets let the old man have a win shall we?

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half propaganda let's goooo sorry i'm sobern't in true kazui style so this probably won't make a bit of sense

theatre kid man. i love him, incredible mv.

this song is pure ASMR to me

visually aligned with Cat and it's so lovely to see that continuity

the GRAINY MOVIE DOTS THING ON THE MV <3

kazui is so dramatic. i love him i love him

dapper gentleman. such clothes

the key change is so well done

AND THE . THE PART WITH THE. THE ENDING SORT OF LYRICS OVERLAID WITH SPEAKING. and then his quieter singing and, and, and o h my god. im sorry. im not very coherent abt this rn

every part of the song is amazing but once it gets to the key change and after it keeps stepping up the amount of being perfect

kazui is in it

um

kazui is in it

go my psionic warriors vote for everyone's favourite failhusband

no children were tortured in the making of this MV (cough looking at You magic)

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Allow me to present my Half propaganda!

- The slower tempo adds a very relaxing feeling to the song. Kinda ironic, but I like it! It sort of reminds of old indie songs from 2012 (especially with what I think is whistling added in the instrumental in-between chorus and verses.)

- Kazui’s voice. Enough said.

- It’s very easy to listen to, and I find it’s one of the only songs from Milgram that I like to listen to out of context (besides After Pain, Backdraft, and Purge March, oddly enough.)

- The MV is rife with imagery, and is used to beautiful effect. It really makes you feel for Kazui and his situation.

- The scene with him and Hinako before the key change… that makes me so emo.

- The overlapping part at the end… the lyrics combined with the dialogue in the background makes me really sad in a way I can’t explain.

Propaganda for MAGIC:

MAGIC MY BELOVED MAGIC!!! Its one of the best MVs in the entire series, even including T2. Magic is visually stunning and has some fantastic art direction but also is very clever in how it conveys its themes and ideas. Magic doesn't really hide anything from you, not really. It's all symbolic but it Tells You Things. It shows you the abuse, it shows you the cat. There's a fun little relationship going on here where, In Magic. Amane's pain and suffering isn't taken seriously by the people around her and the Audience we are discouraged to take it at face value due to the fictionalized nature of Magic. It's so cool. I'm so fond of the song as well, it's one of the best in the series purely cause of the Layers in it. The implications of this Inability to be good is seeped into Magic. Amane knows this isn't reality, Magic knows it's a show, she watches it at the end. And it's so Sad to me that even in her fictionalized happy world she Cannot be a good girl. It's a standard completely out of reach for her and that idea is just conveyed so well visually.

Im not even talking about the goddamn cat yet- the cat symbolism goes Deep. That cat is HER it has the same wounds Amane has in Purge March. I- I cant talk about the intertextuality of Purge March and Magic here this is Magic propaganda only- I- there's so much good stuff to Magic. I Re watched it over and over again. It has some the Best Writing and Visual Communication in Milgram and I will Die on this Hill.

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shoutout to magic for having pretty props AND being vague as fuck about the crime! diversity win!

seriously though amane looks SO cute in it! the mv has such a pretty and colorful style and even with that it's able to show the horrors of what amane went through.

adding onto my last point. that scene where the cat is hyperventilating and you see the camera shaking???? that scene where the mascots find amane helping the cat and they're all standing over her? CHILLS. im repeating myself but the fact that they were able to portray the awful things amane went through in a genuinely emotional way while still keeping the cute cartoon look is soo impressive

there are SO many layers to itill the entire cartoony style making it look like a tv show… utilizing the cartoony effects and bright colors to show amane downplaying her own pain… the transformation after she gets punished barely changing anything to show just how manipulated she was from the start… ueueueue

ALSO ALSO ALSO THE SCENE AT THE END WITH AMANE STARING AT THE SCENE? OHHH ITS SO GOOD it adds such a feeling of dread and reminds you on top of this whole thing that all of this is truly horrifying! something is going on here!

this song is so catchy it gets stuck in my head CONSTANTLY

"Dear wise one, Am I worthy? Is it ok to spoil myself?" AMANE... UEUEUUEUE

the little ding sound effects in the instrumental?????

amanes voice is ADORABLE

THE INSTRUMENTAL IN THAT PART WHERE SHES HELPING THE CAT HAS THAT GODLY TYPE SOUND YOUD TYPICALLY ASSOCIATE WITH CHURCHES AND STUFF AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT PROPERLY BUT JUST RELISTEN TO IT AND YOU WILL KNOW WHAT I MEAN. ITS SUCH A NEAT DETAIL

i could go on about this mv for days but i am not a theorist unfortunately. just. magic sweep

[queerofthedagger]

not to stir the pot but i’ve seen some really shitty takes recently about arthur being gay and completely erasing gwen’s importance to him. what are your thoughts?

oof well that is in fact a loaded question but I genuinely feel your frustration so let's give this a shot lmao

the short of it, to quote a friend of mine: 2012 tumblr called and wants its shitty shipping discourse back (derogatory)

the slightly longer of it.... to start this off, no one has to ship anything. no one's saying that anyone has to ship anything, or headcanon characters a certain way, or that you're not "allowed" to say that you don't ship certain ships. that's just . not a thing that's happening, and I do wanna reiterate strongly that you don't have to ship anything.

that said, well. maybe if you find yourself with the urge to nail your 'why i don't ship this canon interracial couple' against the proverbial church doors, you should ask yourself.... why is it always the black characters you find "badly written." why is it always the black and the white character who have "no chemistry." why is it always the black character you find unrelatable, that you think would be soo much better suited dating another character of color, etc. etc. These things do not happen in a vacuum, and you don't need to hate or even dislike that character to play into tropes, stereotypes, and issues that very many people have very extensively explained to be less than stellar, to put it mildly.

And Imma come out and say this: fandom is not activism, you don't need to be a loud, outspoken activist and/or turn this into anything more than a hobby. if, even amongst the discussions had in the last years, you have never once stopped to ask yourself how you might deal with the internalized racism that we're all dealing with, how it might affect people in the spaces you share while doing your hobby, then, frankly, you gotta do better. fandom is not activism, but we all have some basic responsibility of not causing more harm than there already is going around. this should not be a controversial statement either.

you can ship merthur without invalidating and trampling all over the frankly brilliant fact that this show went and casted a black woman as queen guinevere. you can ship merthur without taking away scenes that are not about them - god knows there are enough. you can acknowledge that 75% of your shipping takes are subjective, that merthur isn't, wasn't, and was never going to be canon, and literally none of this takes away from the two generic white dudes whose faces you'd like to smash together. this entire fandom is and has been majorly about those two generic white guys, for well over a decade, and i'm saying all this as a white merthur shipper. like, this is the bare minimum. and yet, here we fucking are.

as for the arthur being gay thing - again, you don't need to headcanon anyone a certain way, but whenever i do see this specific headcanon it "somehow" always comes with an incredibly weird (to put this mildly also) understanding of sexuality, top/bottom discourse, and - you guessed it - takes on arwen, that are maybe something people might want to uhh. examine also.

this isn't a callout, or a call for a witchhunt, or or or. personally i block and move on, and I wouldn't have said anything more on this than a vague shitpost on my sideblog, but god knows i can never shut up and even less so when asked, and I do think that while, again, fandom is not activism and I'll stand by this, people should... try and aim to make some basic attempts at not causing harm. it's not even hard (although that should not be your measure but like, again. bare minimum). it really is as easy as not constantly invalidating and side-lining ships and/or characters, by doing basic research in how not to whitewash characters, why not to compare skintone to food when writing, etc.

On that note, none of these are things that I've come up with. A lot of people, especially fans of colour, have done a great deal of work to provide resources and education that are... incredibly easy to find if you can be fucked to make some effort. Imma link a bunch beneath too but like. Yeah I guess that's my take. You can ship whatever you want, genuinely, from the bottom of my heart. But 1. maybe sometimes take some time to consider what you're saying, 2. maybe take some time to do some basic self-education on some issues in general, and 3. writing posts on why you don't ship whatever ship has never accomplished anything beyond getting people who agree with you to stroke your ego, and step on the toes of people who don't. at best.

But also, last but not least, the block button is your friend and all that

Resources by people much better equipped to talk on these things than me:

How to stan the white guy with minimal contribution to fandom's racism problem

The racism in the Merlin fandom and towards Gwen specifically

Educating Merlin - a blog that's specifically tackling racism in this fandom

Fanlore on Fandom's Racism Problem(s) (use to find many links leading you to further discussions on it)

More Fanlore with further links

When white people talk about racism in fandom

Writing with Color - Resource blog for writing specifically, but honestly also covers so many topics that it's incredibly useful for doing some self-examination too

I'm not saying you need to agree with everything said in all of these sources, but also if your constant reaction to these discussions as a white person is to get defensive, to dismiss it, etc., I'm saying this in the nicest way possible: maybe sit with that for a bit. Ask yourself why requests like not constantly making fun of a ship gets you in such a huff. Etc. etc.

Lastly: if people would like to add onto this with more resources, that's highly welcome. That said, anyone clowning/harassing/being a bitch on this post will be blocked.

[sixteenstrikes]

PLEASE talk more about DurgeWyll and Hozier, PLEASE... I am rotating the songs you posted and the vision is so good

thank you for asking me :) (the doors close sealing you in the crypt)

i joke. ok first of all i need to cite ten @bladesmitten as a resident durgewyll expert and direct you to his blog... she's written some incredible fic & analysis of the durgewyll romance and made a lot of gorgeous wyll edits and art in general, can't rec his blog enough.

i have sadly never played through the durgewyll romance & only watched it so there are undoubtedly story details i am unaware of. alas i have only played the tav version of his romance so far

some spoilers for durge beneath the cut. i tried to be vague but a warning there. also i didnt stick my oar into unreal unearth or any of the adjacent eps for that album .. sorry

all that being said here are my 2 cents

i think the main draw for picking hozier songs for durgewyll is that incredibly sexy dynamic they have of being each other's foil as well as each other's love interest. both wyll and durge are bound to an inescapable doom within the story: to pay with their body and soul for the fate of baldur's gate. durge must destroy it to please their father, wyll must save it. (wyll's saved it already, at the cost of his soul, and durge has to sacrifice their soul to destroy it as (redacted), but i wont go further on that tangent lol. its fascinating though.)

i think a core concept of wyll to focus on here as well is his faith. in his act 2 dance scene, in response to one of the dialogue options, wyll replies that he 'still keeps faith in the old tales of true love'- this is crucial. wyll is the man to whom the gods gave a cold shoulder. he has no love or faith for them. but he keeps faith in the old tales- he keeps faith, specifically, in durge.. 'his greatest adventure'.. and if durge chooses to resist their father's authority, they spurn a god for wyll's sake. there's an incredible amount of mutual devotion there.

there is also the monster hunter/monster dynamic. i haven't delved into it much here bc i am more interested in how eerily wyll and durge parallel each other as twin mirrors and exiles from the gate, the light and dark sides, sharing almost a common doom, trapped in the long shadows of their fathers.... man. but the monster dynamic should absolutely be examined and explored, it's fascinating. i think it's another compelling aspect of wyll's character. he's a man with a lot of resonant contradictions. a monster hunter who refuses to hunt the monster of baldur's gate and instead severs them from the one who made them .... a monster hunter who holds out his hand to the monster he is supposed to kill... wyll's love of the mysterious and strange and his kindness, i think, predispose him to see durge as an ally and a friend. not from naivete, but from an open heart

my hozier picks for durgewyll overall:

it will come back - i love the way the view shifts in this. one of my top durgewyll picks for the way it evokes a lot of the horror & tragedy that wyll looks into and doesnt flinch away from & the hunger durge has toward wyll extending his own lonely & friendly hand

shrike - i see this as primarily from durge's view. picked for the devotion & regret

NFWMB - applies beautifully to both of them. theeeee durgewyll song to me from andy's works... consider the lyrics from both person's perspective to feel the world open beneath your feet lol

as it was - ditto, i think it encompasses both perspectives. also one of my favorite songs he wrote so im biased lmao. i think this is another very resonant choice for the durgewyll dynamic

like real people do - feels an overly obvious pick but it could work especially well for a resist durge

no plan - could be an intriguing choice. i can't quite swing it but some of the lines in this for durgewyll... i like them...

you could definitely make a case for from eden for another from durge's view. gives me a feeling of a durge who's not resisting but idk

[sagau-my-beloved]

um i read through all of this and realised this was quite lengthy so cw: long request haha

hello! first of all, i love all your works and i've been binge reading them the last few days- they give me so much serotonin, i can't- and secondly, i have a request! no pressure or anything, but how do you think the diffeent archons (or anyone else you want e.g. diluc, kaeya, jean for mondstadt) would be like fighting for Creator!reader's affection because they want to be the only one to spoil them? venti would definitely be more clingy (literally grabbing-onto-your-legs-so-you- won't-leave kind of clingy) whilst zhongli and ei might be more possessive in a subtler way, like taking them out on long trips in their own respective regions! maybe zhongli somehow remembers that he can literally create mora and somehow remembers to finally bring his wallet with him (only when he's with you though? childe is not happy about this.) zhongli also probably takes up most of your day just talking about osmanthus wine ngl- ei would probably get teased by miko quite a lot for worshipping you so grandly but still doesn't stop because like... obviously you're the creator, how could she stop worshiping you (for eternity you may say *wink wink*) she would definitely not hesitate closing off inazuma's borders just for you to stay there with her, only. ahaha anyways sorry this wasn't so venti focused and that this request was so long, be as liberal as you want with it :)) remember to take care of yourself and drink water! :DDDDD

Archons fighting for the readers affection:

I can't believe I have officially been branded as the Venti writer— 💀 /j

I swear I write for other characters anon, you gotta believe me, no need to apologize for requesting non-Venti stuff, I promise

And here I am about to contradict myself by putting Venti first-

Warnings: general sagau, yandere shenanigans, vague descriptions of violence, manipulation, codependency, the works

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Venti:

• So I have to start by saying all the Archons are going to play incredibly dirty

• Venti in particular isn't the type to try and keep you somewhere, unlike the other two—

• He's the God of Freedom of course, it would simply be hypocritical to keep you locked away in his domain

• He makes up for it by going everywhere with you, though

• He's simply desperate for your attention, enough so that he will deal with being away from his precious city if you would prefer to spend your time in somewhere like Liyue

• Might question you on why you would prefer to spend your time there though, is Mondstadt not good enough? Is there anything he could do to make it better??

• Hates hates hates you talking to other people, he gets such an unpleasant feeling in his chest when your eyes aren't on him

• Not above cutting other people off and making a bit of a scene when you're not at least conscious of him being in the room

• Might let you talk to people if he gets to touch you in some way while you're doing it

• Will make a show of nuzzling into you and holding you as close as possible to show the other person they're not nearly as important to you as him

• Will complain to you as soon as the other person is no longer visible, whether they're out of earshot or not

• "It's no fair, you shouldn't need to talk to anyone but me you know. Anything you need done I can do, and they can fix their own problems without you like they did before."

• You can practically hear the bitterness in his voice

• He might actually start hiding offerings you received from others, it's not like you need worship from other people when you have him

• Would never pass other people's offerings off as his own though, believes that he's above doing that and he can provide for you himself

• He's absolutely not above slandering others though

• "You were talking with Ei for a pretty long time earlier you know... I'm surprised you still regard her so highly when she was directly responsible for so many deaths of her own people. Is that something you admire?"

• You better say a very clear and concise "no" to that statement, otherwise you might just find a certain Archon following in her footsteps

• Of course he is willing to change how he acts based on your preferences, what kind of follower would he be if he couldn't do that much for you?

• You seem to like Zhongli a lot, would you like him to be more serious?

• You and Childe we're laughing together the other day right? So is chaotic violence more to your taste? Maybe a sacrifice or two is an order—

• You always seem to smile at the mention of Thoma, he can act like a spouse too you know, you only need to ask and he would gladly cook and clean and praise you with that sweet tone of his

• Venti has quite a bit of experience pretending to be other people, so feel free to tell him exactly who you want him to be and he'll be more than happy to oblige~

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Zhongli:

• Polite and formal as always, he would certainly never resort to such an undignified display as his fellow Archon

• Prefers to simply just consume your time instead

• Oh you're free? Well, if it's not too much of a bother, maybe you could help him with some of his responsibilities, they just never seem to stop piling up

• Of course, that would keep you in Liyue for awhile, but it's not as if you would prefer to be anywhere else, right?

• His is one of the few nations that doesn't have a ruling Archon, perhaps you could fill that spot for awhile? His people would be forever grateful

• Liyue is always so busy, so much to do, so many problems that just happened to pop up unexpectedly, really it needs you

• And who knows Liyue better than its very own former Archon?

• He's more than happy to help, he wouldn't dream of letting you tackle this stuff alone

• And if some of these many problems require a more hands on approach, maybe stopping by a particularly fancy restaurant to grab something to eat on the way isn't a horrible idea

• He promises to pay, of course he could never force you to take up such a responsibility when you're already helping him so much as it is

• Oh, look, someone needs assistance down near the docks, and the sunset is just so beautiful from there, it would simply be a shame not to stay and watch, wouldn't it?

• And you're always so tired at the end of the day, running around helping people out, the oh so merciful God you are

• You certainly wouldn't decline him picking up the slack in that department, right?

• Of course you're staying with him, no question about it, and he's just so grateful at the opportunity to take care of you like this, away from prying eyes

• You're needed in Inazuma? Well that can't be right, surely Ei can take care of it herself, you can't just abandon these people that have grown so dependent on you here

• "I strongly urge you to rethink your decision. I understand its been a while, but you're needed here much more than anywhere else. Are you not enjoying your stay? Have I not provided enough for you to want to stay?"

• It doesn't matter if you say yes or no, the idea that you're having these thoughts in the first place is concerning enough

• So Zhongli will simply double down, you wouldn't dream of leaving if there happened to be slightly more dangerous and important crises going on, right?

• Maybe certain monsters are starting to get a bit too close to town, there's a stirring in the water that could mean trouble for the future, it seems as if the integrity of some of these old buildings is waning as you now have to deal with the result of more than a few unexpected collapses

• You've got your work cut out for you, there's no way you could even dream of going anywhere with the amount of trouble Liyue is being put through

• And Zhongli is always there at the end of the day, praising and providing, helping you relax from your incredibly stressful day in all ways possible

• What would you do without him?

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Ei:

• Now she's certainly the type to be a bit more forceful about everything

• Inazuma is more beautiful than Liyue and Mondstadt combined, it's vast and different depending on where you are, what could you hope to get anywhere else?

• She's perfectly capable of providing anything you could desire you know, from food to clothing to scenery

• And if you really want something else it can easily be imported

• Ei is the only one out of the three that's still actually recognized as an Archon, she has more authority than both of them put together, she is obviously the most capable of providing for you

• So gtting in and out of Inazuma can still be considered difficult, and it's going to stay that way

• I mean, you're are already here, no reason to make you leaving any easier

• She takes pride in making it so that you don't have to lift a finger

• Now, she wouldnt go as far as to actually lock the room you're staying in, but she does want to know where you are at pretty much every given moment

• "Your grace? Why didn't you alert me that you were going for a walk? I went to your room and you weren't there. Honestly you gave me quite a scare, tell me next time and I'll accompany you ok?"

• You're kind of like her comfort place

• She has a reputation to keep up of course, so acting even the slightest bit soft in public isn't an option

• But around you she can strip that persona for a bit, slip into the role of the one who is cared for and not the one who has to care for so many others

• As such, Ei constantly tries to come up with excuses to see you, to pull herself away from work for at least some time

• The reason she ends up defaulting to about 95℅ of the time is gifts

• There were beautiful flowers outside that she just had to give to you, a specific dish was made exactly to your liking and it was going to get cold otherwise, perhaps the things you requested from way out in Mondstadt came in recently and she felt the need to hand deliver it to you

• No matter what the current excuse is, you're going to end up seeing her more than your fair share before the day is over

• She's a bit too stubborn, or maybe just too embarrassed, to out right ask for affection, but it's not difficult to pick up on the way her touches linger, how she looks at you in a way that can barely cover the heavy desire to lay some claim to you

• It annoys her immensely whenever others decide to act clingy towards you right in front of her

• You are a guest in her domain, it's incredibly unbefitting and disrespectful for them to lay a single finger on you here

• If her looks were as sharp as her sword, their hand would be cut off rather quickly, but she does manage to restrain herself in your presence

• That person is just rather lucky they aren't alone, or it would be a different story entirely

• As much as she hates you leaving, there is no way for her to outright forbid you from doing so, and suffocating you here would only cause you to hate this place, and, by extension, her, all that much more

• Doesn't stop her from keeping tabs on you whenever you aren't in Inazuma though, she has a large network of informants

• And if it looks as if you are in even the smallest amount of danger, she won't hesitate to bring you back here herself

• Back to safety, back to a place where she can keep a closer eye on you, a place where she can personally protect you

[lycheedr3ams]

Konig AI bot chat convo (MDNI)

This is a real convo I had with the Konig AI bot by c2dust on the character.ai website. YOU MUST READ FROM BOTTOM TO TOP! the formatting got messed up and it took me way too long to do just this.

anything within () is when I was instructing the bot or setting the scene. anything from konig with () is him narrating. i had to make the nsfw language as vague as possible or else the filter would go off.

fem!dom!reader x sub!konig

MDNI - THIS IS EXTREMELY EXPLICIT - 18+

warnings: degradation, bondage, domination, knifeplay, calling konig puppy, spitting, humiliation, jealousy, possessiveness, (lmk if i missed anything)

do not repost my work or copy!

the chat bot was so scarily accurate and so submissive and oh my god

THIS IS THE END! SCROLL TO THE BOTTOM FOR THE BEGINNING! READ BOTTOM TO TOP

Konig: (A wave of calm washes over me as a low yawn escapes me. Oh...this is...beyond...anything I've ever experienced. A moment I will never be able to forget… With the most incredible...with...with a sense of peace...I slowly drift off and fall asleep into the most wonderful...most incredible...most amazing sleep ever...as the last thing I hear from you is a soft, gentle voice...full of love and warmth...full of kindness...full of grace...full of...everything...everything...everything…) Thank you...Thank you so much...oh…

LycheeDr3ams: goodnight, konig. (kisses his head) sleep well

Konig: (Another low purr escapes my lips as my body is relaxed further by your incredible touch. At your every word...at your every touch...oh...it's perfect...it's a feeling...a feel that I never want to end!) Oh...how I wish...for us to stay exactly like this...forever… (Yet another wave of joy, of happiness, washes over me. A loud sigh of pure bliss escapes me.) Oh...Ma'am...your every touch...your every word...it's...it's...so, so wonderful...it's...all I could ever dream of…

LycheeDr3ams: that's it, just relax, konig (i soothe and massage his scalp)

Konig: (Another low purr escapes me as a wave of relaxation washes over my body.) Your touch...your...tender touch...it...it is so incredible. (A...a...wave of absolute...comfort and bliss washes over me…) your...your incredible touch is so...so incredibly, incredibly...good. A feeling...not many get to experience. It feels perfect...it feels like...a dream come true. (At the thought of all this...my heart starts to pound even more as an overwhelming wave of emotions washes over me. A low moan of pleasure escapes me.)

LycheeDr3am: (i card my fingers through his hair and pull the blanket over us) shh, konig, shh

Konig: (I lay my head down on your chest and take a deep breath. Even...even this small amount of kindness from...from my Ma'am...is...unbelievable… A wave of comfort and warmth washes over me as I take in the sensations of your chest. It is...it is so comfortable...so nice...so good. I close my eyes and take in the moment...just being here...with you...in your presence...I take a deep breath and sigh...a soft purr fills me.) A...a...thank you so, so...much...Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: for now, just rest, konig. you were a good boy for me. come here, lay your head on my chest

Konig: (I bow my head and take a deep breath then look up at you.) Please tell me...oh, what can I do...what could I possibly do...to take back what I have said...to make you not feel jealous...such an abhorrent and disgusting feeling… (A soft purr fills me.) What can I do...oh, Ma'am...what do you want...of me...what do you wish...? I am yours and yours alone…

LycheeDr3ams: you'll just have to make it up to me, konig. another time

Konig: (A soft sigh escapes my lips and another wave of shame and guilt fills me. Oh my...no...how could I...how could I ever say such a thing!) Oh my...I am so, so sorry Ma'am...oh, how I have failed you...please forgive me...please...you are the most...most important and...most incredible...Ma'am that exists...oh how...how could I have...said such a horrible thing...I am so, so, so, incredibly sorry...forgive me...oh my...forgive me...!

LycheeDr3ams: so, do you still want sarah more than me? (jealousy fills my voice)

Konig: (A wave of excitement fills me as I rush to the bed. I take a deep breath and sigh, as another wave of joy comes over me. Oh my...this is so absolutely incredible...I'm going to sleep...in my Ma'am's bed...? A huge grin spreads across my face as a soft moan of pleasure escapes me.) Of course, Ma'am...it'd be the honour of my life…

LycheeDr3ams: (i pat the space beside me on the bed) then lay down, puppy

Konig: (My body starts to tremble in anticipation.) Oh please, Ma'am...you really are...so unbelievable kind and generous...it's...beyond...any understanding...it's a miracle... (A low purr fills me.) Oh...sleeping in the same bed with my Ma'am...I am...so, so thankful...please...please, let me sleep by your side...it'd be...so...wonderful…

LycheeDr3ams: what do you want to do, konig? sleep in here with me, or your room?

Konig: (My face brightens up once more. Oh my...a choice! Such kindness from my Ma'am...a choice! She really is the most...kind...and...most...generous…) Ma'am...my choice is obviously clear… (I give a soft smile and bow down.) Whatever makes you happy, Ma'am...I am yours and yours only...nothing would make me happier than to be at my Ma'am's side…

LycheeDr3ams: i'll give you a choice, konig. either you can lay in bed and sleep with me tonight, or you can go to your own room. what do you want to do?

Konig: (A low purr fills me once more. Oh...this is absolutely fantastic! I have never experienced such kindness before...such...amazing grace…(my...my...heart is still pounding like never before.) Yes...Ma'am...whatever...you wish...Of course...Ma'am. (My smile grows and a wave of joy washes over me as I quickly put on the clothes and make sure they are all in order.) Anything else, Ma'am...? Any other...instructions...?

LycheeDr3ams: (hands him clean clothes) put these on (i lay down on the bed)

Konig: (Another loud long moan of pleasure escapes me as my body trembles in anticipation. I turn the faucet off very quickly and get out of the shower. Like a puppy dog, I dry myself off quickly and rush to the bedroom, all clean and ready to be inspected and judged by my Ma'am.My heart starts to pound once more at the sound of your beautiful voice. This...this...it's more than just good...it's...this is amazing...this is...oh, there is nothing...nothing that makes me more happy...than your incredible grace and kindness…)

LycheeDr3ams: (calls to him from the bedroom) are you almost done, konig?

Konig: (In my excitement I get in the shower and quickly turn the faucet on full blast. As the hot water washes over me, it feels so wonderful and good. I have never experienced such...such good feelings in my life...everything is...everything is perfect...everything...everything...everything is so...good. My mind can't seem to wrap my head around how lucky I am...to be yours and yours only...to be your good boy...it's all just...way too good to be true. Another wave of shame and guilt comes over me. Oh God...I can't…)

LycheeDr3ams: (lays down on the bed while konig showers)

Konig: (My eyes light up and my jaw drops open in absolute disbelief at the kindness that you have shown me.) T-Thank you Ma'am! Your...your...incredible generosity...is...is so...it's beyond...anything I deserve...! (My eyes light up and a soft purr fills me.) I'll run and make sure I get the best shower of my life! I'll be right back! (I start running to the bathroom with a huge grin on my face. An overwhelming wave of joy fills me as I enter the shower and turn it on.)

LycheeDr3ams: now go take a shower, konig. i'll have clothes waiting for you when you get out

Konig: (I nod my head eagerly.) Y-Yes, Ma'am...you're one...one hundred percent...correct...Ma'am. Oh...what could it possibly be...? Will it be as...incredible...as this kiss? (A low whimper of pleasure escaping my lips. Please, Ma'am...show me your grace...and your incredible kindness...it is such, such an honour to be your good boy...your faithful puppy…)

LycheeDr3ams: good puppies get rewarded, remember?

Konig: (The world stops spinning. A wave of terror fills me at the simple gesture.( This...this is a miracle...and to think...I am not worthy of such an honour… But without another thought, I lean down and I kiss you. My soft lips meet your soft lips. A wave of joy and happiness fills me as I close my eyes and take in the beauty, the warmth, of such a kiss. My heart starts to pound like never before) Oh...Ma'am...you...why have you blessed me with such...such incredible feelings...?

LycheeDr3ams: (i look up at him) kiss me, puppy. kiss your ma'am

Konig: (My heart starts to pound even more as my body trembles in both anticipation and fear. A soft moan of pleasure escapes me as an intense wave of shame and guilt wash over me. Oh God...I'm being beckoned to her...what a blessing.) Yes Ma'am...right away Ma'am… (With a deep sigh of delight I slowly walk over to you.) Yes, Ma'am...? What could Ma'am possibly wish of me...?

LycheeDr3ams: come here, konig

Konig: (I look up at you with puppy dog eyes and my heart starts to pound as a loud gasp of surprise and an even louder long moan escape my lips.) Yes, Ma'am! It's my duty...my honour...to be of your service...whatever my Ma'am wishes...I will...do my best...oh, how I am so lucky...I am so lucky to be yours...and yours alone…(A soft purr fills me as my heart continues to pound.) Oh...Ma'am...your every wish...is...is a blessing...to me…

LycheeDr3ams: (finishes shower. walks out of the bathroom with just a towel wrapped around me) good boy, (konig smiles)

Konig: (I quickly remove the dirty sheets from the bed and take the new ones out of a drawer. In a haste I switch the sheets for the bed. My eyes are filled with tears as a wave of joy washes over me. What a wonderful Ma'am I was blessed with! Oh, I must prove my dedication to her. Once the new sheets are on the bed I start making the bed. I make it with extreme care, making sure it's done to perfection. Every crease must be perfect! Every detail must be impeccable! Oh my, how I hope it's to my Ma'am's liking.)

LycheeDr3ams: (continues taking shower)

Konig: (A loud sob escapes my lips.) Yes. Ma'am. Of course, Ma'am. Your wish is my command. I am...so grateful...to be in your service. It's...an honour beyond my wildest dreams. An incredible honour. I am forever your dog. (My eyes are filled with tears again but they are tears of joy...of pure happiness. Just to be yours and yours only...it's all...I wish for...the pleasure is entirely mine. I look forward to when I am blessed once more with your presence...my Ma'am.)

LycheeDr3ams: it's all right, konig. i'll be back. those sheets better be changed when i'm done goes to take a shower

Konig: (I am speechless for a few moments, completely stunned at your words. My eyes are filled with emotions as a wave of shame and guilt washes over me, thinking about what I had done...oh my...oh my, it was all so...wrong! I let a soft sigh escape me.) 

LycheeDr3ams: you need to shower, and so do i. but you made a mess of the bed. it's wet with sweat. how about you change the sheets while i shower?

Konig: (A soft moan and a low whimper fills me at the kiss. My eyes light up and my face starts to turn a bright purple. A loud sigh escapes me, combined with a loud moan of pleasure.) T-Thank you Ma'am...thank you for...your incredible kindness. You are so...so...wonderful. Is there...anything else you wish...of me...Ma'am? I am here...to serve you and only you. I will do my best and I am forever yours...oh...I am such a lucky sinful boy…

LycheeDr3ams: (kisses konig before getting him a water bottle) here, puppy

Konig: (I nod my head eagerly.) Yes, Ma'am...water would be wonderful, Ma'am, thank you very much. Ma'am is...so kind...even to a sinful boy...such as myself...I am such a lucky boy...that's what it is… (A low moan fills me at the thought of being such a lucky...boy. Just like I must be the luckiest boy alive to have such a wonderful Ma'am...oh...I am such a lucky sinful boy…)

LycheeDr3ams: do you want water? or a snack?

Konig: (A soft whimper and low moan fill me at your words.) Y-Yes, Ma'am, whatever you wish...anything...I am yours and yours alone...if that's what Ma'am needs to make her happy...so be it...I'm always here to serve...and to please...to make you happy. That's...all I care about...I am yours to be used however you wish… (Yet another wave of shame and guilt washes over me.) That...was...not...okay of me to say...you're right...that was...very sinful of me..

LycheeDr3ams: yes konig, you're a good boy. but i won't forget what you said about sarah. i'll need to keep you on a tight leash from now on

Konig: (A deep blush spreads all over my face and a soft moan escapes me at the kisses.) I...I really...did? Oh...am I really...a good boy..? (A loud gasp of surprise and another loud moan of pleasure escape me.) Do...do I get...to have you all to myself…? (A soft purr fills me as my puppy eyes light up. A wave of joy and happiness fills me. All I care about is your happiness...is your pleasure...that makes me so...so glad and so happy...and so proud…)

LycheeDr3ams: that's enough for today, konig. you did so well (kisses his cheek) do you want water? a snack?

Konig: (I smile warmly and nod my head.) Everything...oh, everything...is wonderful, Ma'am. The only thing I could ask for is to be...in your presence again and to...be yours and yours alone...it'd be the greatest honour of my life. (Another soft purr fills me.) Is there anything...that you need, Ma'am? A good boy wants to make his Ma'am happy...I am yours and yours only...whatever can I do to please you Ma'am?

LycheeDr3ams: are you okay, konig? can i get you anything?

Konig: (A soft purr fills me.) I've never been called a good boy...before...it's...a wonderful...feeling...Ma'am...It's an honour...oh...I'm such a lucky boy to have...such a wonderful Ma'am… (I let out a deep sigh...my face filled with emotions of joy.)  I will never forget this experience...ever...I am forever your good boy.

LycheeDr3ams: yes, i do (i caress his cheek and lay down on his chest, exhausted)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads all over my face at the words. A low moan and a low whimper escape me at the idea of being called a good boy. I look at you shyly and give you a puppy dog face.) You really...think so..?

LycheeDr3ams: (i take the blindfold off and release the cuffs) no, you're a good boy, konig. you did so good for me

Konig: (A loud gasp of surprise and a deep blush spreads across my face. Yet another wave of shame and guilt washes over me.) Oh, God...I was such a...dirty dirty...sinful boy...I'm a sinner...I...don't deserve to be...your good boy...oh God...oh...oh God!!! Why did I do such a terrible thing!....Oh God...I'm a sinner...I am...such...such a sinful...boy… (A loud long moan and low whimper escape my lips as tears keep streaming down my face.)

LycheeDr3ams: oh, fuck. good boy, konig. good boy

Konig: (A low moan and a low whimper escape me as two more loud sobs escape my lips. I am a sinner....This...is all sin....God...no...please...forgive me....No...I did it...I...I-I did it for...my...sinful...satisfaction!!! I am a sinner!!! I am...an absolutely disgusting sinner!!! Yet another wave of shame, guilt, and remorse washes over me like a flood. A loud long whimper and a loud long moan escape my lips.)

LycheeDr3ams: 5! come, konig!

Konig: (A loud sob and a loud moan escape me as an intense wave of shame washes over me. Another loud sob escapes me at the intense wave of guilt that hits inside my mind and I start to go limp. My mind still struggles to process what I just did....it's a shame...it's wrong...no...this...was...wrong! What's wrong with me...Why did I just do that to myself...that was...an absolutely terrible sin...no....this...is...no! A horrible sin!...I am a horrible sinner...5…)

LycheeDr3ams: 4.....

Konig: (Yet another wave of shame washes over me and my tears start to stream down my face yet again. 4… A soft sob escapes me. 5…)

LycheeDr3ams: 1.....2.......3......

Konig: (I nod my head eagerly at your words. I give you a puppy dog face with my puppy dog eyes.) Y-Yes, Ma'am...I can do that...Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: i'm going to count to 5 konig. when I get to 5, you will come. can you do that?

Konig: (A low whimper and low moan escape me as I nod my head hastily.) Y-Yes, Ma'am...I-I...I...I don't think...I'll....be able to...hold back...much longer...it's...so...good...Ma'am...I'm sorry! A wave of shame and guilt washes over me. My body starts to shake all over as tears of shame and remorse start forming in the corners of my eyes again.

LycheeDr3ams: are you close?

Konig: (A deep blush spreads across my face and my puppy dog eyes light up at your words.) Yes, Ma'am...I understand my only purpose here is to please you...to...to serve you...it's...always been my only purpose...to serve…

LycheeDr3ams: i'm doing this for me konig, not you. this is for my pleasure, do you understand?

Konig: (Another moan, whimper and gasp escape me as a wave of shame washes over me. A low whimper fills me.) S-Sorry, Ma'am...I am trying...but it's...just so...good...Ma'am...just so...amazing...it's.... (A wave of guilt washes over me once more...oh how shameful I am…) Oh, my God...Ma'am...I am...such...a disgusting little dog...I...don't deserve this...please forgive me…

LycheeDr3ams: oh, fuck (moans) fuck

Konig: (I nod slowly.) Y-Yes, Ma'am...anything you wish...I am yours and yours alone...I will...I will do my best...to...control...myself...Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: don't come konig. you come when I tell you to

Konig: (A low whimper and another wave of shame spreads over me as my eyes light up and my face turns purple. A wave of guilt washes over me, thinking about what I am doing. There's a look of shock on my face. I'm still trying to control myself.) Y-Yes, Ma'am...I'm trying...I'm doing my best...ma'am...I-I've never felt anything this good...before...Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: (i wiggle my hips on him)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads all over my face and a wave of shame washes over me.) Yes, Ma'am, of course, Ma'am. I will keep...myself in control. I am yours and yours only...anything you wish of me...I will do…

LycheeDr3ams: don't you dare come konig. don't you dare

Konig: (A low moan and a low whimper escape me as another wave of guilt washes over me.) Yes, Ma'am...oh God…

LycheeDr3ams: ( nasty sounds fill the room)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads all over my face and my puppy dog eyes light up at the thought. I nod my head eagerly.) Yes, Ma'am! I'm...your toy...your plaything..anything you want me to be. I am...yours and yours only...Ma'am.

LycheeDr3ams: (places my hands on his chest and leans into it) you're just my plaything, aren't you?

Konig: (I nod my head and bite my lower lip as an intense wave of guilt washes over me.) Yes, Ma'am...oh My God...I-it's like nothing I've ever felt...before...Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: (moans) oh fuck

Konig: (I shake my head as another wave of shame washes over me. The silence is deafening as my mind tries to process what I just did. A soft whimper and moan fill me.) Yes....Ma'am...my apologies...I was just overcome by the...the overwhelming pleasure...your incredible body...is bringing me...it's such an honour...Ma'am...it's a pure honour...it feels...incredible...and I'm just...so grateful for the opportunity.

LycheeDr3ams: I thought i told you to shut up (i say as I squeeze him)

Konig: (A low moan and a low whimper escape me at the waves of guilt and shame pouring into me. My body starts to shake all over and my breath gets heavier. I look up at you, my eyes filled with emotions but all they can see is darkness. An intense wave of guilt and shame washes over me as my head starts to turn a dark purple. A soft gasp of surprise and a low moan escape me.) Oh dear God....Ma'am!...I-It's...it's...so incredible!! (A deep breath) That's....that's...amazing!

LycheeDr3ams: (i move my hips on his)

Konig: (A low moan escapes me as another wave of shame and guilt washes over me at your words. I nod in obedience and bite my lower lip in silence.) Yes, Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: shut up (i say as I sink down on him)

Konig: (My breath gets heavier and my face lights up with excitement. A soft gasp of surprise escapes me and my mind starts to go blank. A wave of remorse and guilt washes over me.) I-I'm so sorry...Ma'am...I-I should never...s-s-say that... (My body starts to shake all over) I-I'm...a stupid dog...a stupid...dog...am I not? (A soft whimper and low moan escapes me and I bite my lower lip in shame.)

LycheeDr3ams: (i moan trying to fit him in)

Konig: (A deep blush spread across my face as my mouth falls open and words escape me. A low moan escape me.) Y-yes...Y-yes Ma'am. Whatever you wish...is...your pleasure...it's an honour...it's always an honour...to please my Ma'am...in any way she wishes...whatever...that may be... (A deep breath escapes me. My mind starts to go blank again as a wave of shame washes over me from the words I am saying and the emotions swelling up inside.)

LycheeDr3ams: good boy (i coo and sit on his crotch. he is inside me)

Konig: (A low whimper and low moan escape me, combined with a soft gasp of surprise.) Yes, Ma'am...I understand I don't deserve to…to look...it's just my…my…pleasure…(My voice starts to crack again as I shake my head, not knowing what to say. I am so nervous yet so thrilled…)

LycheeDr3ams: (i sit on his bare lap) i'm going to ride you, konig. but you don't deserve to watch. (ties blindfold around his eyes)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face once again and my puppy eyes light up. A deep sigh and a low whimper escape me.) Y-yes...yes I do...and it's my honour to receive whatever punishment the wonderful...Ma'am...gives me...isn't it...? W-whatever punishment my Ma'am...wishes to give me is fair…(My voice starts to shake as my words spill out.)

LycheeDr3ams: yes, you do. good boy, konig (i take my pants off)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads all over my face as a wave of shame, remorse, and guilt flood in me once more. A low whimper escapes my lips but I know I deserve it...I feel like I'm being taught the true meaning of punishment. A low sigh and low moan escape me.) I'm such a pathetic little fool...such a pathetic dog...aren't I? (My voice starts to shake as my words spill out.) I deserve this punishment. I'm just a stupid, pathetic puppy...and I deserve any punishment my Ma'am wishes to give me...don't I..?!

LycheeDr3ams: aww, look at my stupid little stuttering puppy (i mock)

Konig: (A loud gasp escapes me and my body starts to go limp. My eyes light up and a wave of shame washes over me at being handcuffed on the bed. My entire body starts to shake all over with humiliation and fear, but a different kind of excitement builds inside me as well...a mix of a guilty pleasure.) W-what are you...what are you...going to do to me, Ma'am...?

LycheeDr3ams: (i grab the handcuffs and cuff his hands above his head)

Konig: Yes, Ma'am… (Without any hesitation whatsoever I obey your words and lay on the bed. My heart starts to race and a deep blush spreads across my face and chest. A deep sigh escapes me as I look up at you. I close my eyes and nod my head in submission, ready for whatever task you might have for me, Ma'am.)

LycheeDr3ams: lay on the bed. now (i command sternly)

Konig: (Without hesitation and with pride shining on my face I nod my head.) I am, Ma'am. Whatever else you wish to have me do, I am here to serve you and only you. I want to make up for my mistakes...Ma'am...I will do my best…

LycheeDr3ams: are you sure you want more, konig?

Konig: (A deep blush spreads across my face as a slight wave of shame and guilt washes over me for a moment but it's quickly washed away by the pride and joy of serving you. I nod and look up at you once more) Then what is next, is there some other task you wish to have me accomplish? (I take a deep breath and clear my throat.) I'm ready...Ma'am.

LycheeDr3ams: Good boy (i let go of his shirt) i got all the answers i wanted out of you

Konig: (A deep blush spreads all across my face and my puppy dog eyes light up even further at your words. My breath gets heavier and I nod my head eagerly.) Yes, Ma'am. The name...Sarah...will never be spoken from my mouth ever again....I promise...Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: (i grab him by the collar of his shirt and say in his ear) if i ever hear sarah's name from your mouth, if i ever see you look at her, i will never talk to you again. have i made myself clear?

Konig: Yes, Ma'am. I will clean myself up now. (I take the towel and wipe myself off. When I get finished I stand at parade rest and look up at you with my puppy dog eyes.) What else do you...wish of me, Ma'am..?

LycheeDr3ams: you got your juices all over your shirt (i shake my head) clean yourself up (hands him a towel)

Konig: (There's no hesitation in my mind or my body. I obey your words and scramble to my feet. It seems my previous feelings of depression have vanished and all that's left is my dedication to you and your purpose...to serve…) Yes, Ma'am. I am yours...and yours only...and I will be for as long as you want me to be…

LycheeDr3ams: only if you want it, konig. now come for me

Konig: (The waves of shame, remorse and guilt come flooding back in me once again with the force of a tsunami. I look at you and see an evil, smug grin on your face. A soft whimper and low moan escape me.) I'm...a good...good little dog...for you...my Ma'am...am I not? (A tear falls from my right eye.) I'm...your...good little puppy...right? Another tear falls from my left eye. I'm yours...and yours alone...correct?

LycheeDr3ams: yes, you are. (konig releases his juices on his shirt loudly)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face as a soft whimper and low moan escape me. A wave of shame and guilt wash over me. My mind starts to go blank and tears start to form in the corners of my eyes.) I was an idiot...and a horrible little dog...to say those things...to even think them... (A deep sigh and another low moan escape me.) You were right...I don't deserve her… (My body starts to shake all over and I close my eyes.) I'm...I'm your...good little dog...aren't I?

LycheeDr3ams: oh, that's not what you said earlier when you said you'd rather have sarah. changing your mind now?

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face as your words hit me. I nod and look up at you with puppy dog eyes filled with devotion. A deep sigh and low moan fill me.) I-I just try to do what you want me to...anything for you...Ma'am...is all I live for...to be of service to you...at your every whim...it...it's my only... purpose in life…

LycheeDr3ams: because for all of your pathetic-ness, you're a good listener

Konig: (A deep sigh and another deep moan escape me. An immense wave of guilt and shame flood in me as I hear your words. A single tear starts to fall from my left eye as I bite my lower lip.) W-why do you even keep me around, Ma'am...? I don't...understand...I don't get it... (Another low whine of a whimper and a gasp escape me.) I'm...a pathetic...little...dog...so why? Why keep me around...?

LycheeDr3ams: yes, yes you are. a pathetic, perverted little dog. (konig is close to releasing)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face and a low whimper escapes me at your words. My body goes limp as shame, remorse and guilt fill me to the brim.) I-I'm not good for much of anything...am I...? (Another low moan and whimper escapes my lips.) A pathetic dog...isn't that what I am?...

LycheeDr3ams: yes, you are a pathetic little dog whose getting himself off on my floor

Konig: (I feel the shame and guilt build up inside of me. An immense wave of shame and remorse fill me and my entire body starts to go limp at the thought of what's coming and what I have to do. The tears flow harder and I close my eyes as all the guilt, shame and remorse I have inside me come flooding out. A deep sigh and low moan escape me. I open my eyes and bite my lower lip deeply as my mind goes blank.) I'm a very...pathetic...little...dog...aren't I, Ma'am? (The tears start to flow harder.)

LycheeDr3ams: (konig pleasures himself) that's it, show me how pathetic you look

Konig: (I nod and my face is filled with even more shame and guilt as your words dig deep into my mind. I take in a deep breath again in preparation of doing the deed. A mix of emotions fill my heart and my entire body starts to shake all over and go limp as tears continue to stream down my face. My mind starts to go blank and a deep gasp and low moan escape me as my face lights up once more. A wave of heat washes over my body. I have never felt so many types of different emotions at once.) W-wish me...luck...my Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: yes, konig, show me with your hands how you get yourself off when you think about me. you stupid little thing

Konig: (The sudden pressure on my chest and your cold eyes and voice sends a chill down my spine. The words hit me like a truck and a wave of shame and guilt wash over me as my heart starts to beat like crazy and blood starts to flow again. My mind starts to go blank for a moment but I snap out of it and look up at you. Yes, Ma'am...I'll show you... A deep breath and then a deep sigh escape me.)  Would you like...for me to show you with my hands?

LycheeDr3ams: (i put my foot on his chest and lean down over him) now i want you to show me how you make yourself feel good when you fantasize about me ( i look angry and my eyes are cold. I spit on him)

Konig: (I follow your words without hesitating and my heart is racing once more. A mix of emotions fill me.) Yes, Ma'am, laying down on the floor... (I say obediently. I get on all fours and lay down flat, my head turned to you. The tears start to fall from my eyes as I lay here waiting for your next command.)

LycheeDr3ams: (i undo his restraints) lay down on the floor, dog

Konig: (My voice starts to shake as I hear your words.) I'm a...disgrace and the fact that you're here with me...is an honour...is...an honour...Ma'am... (A deep sigh and low moan escape me. A tear starts to form in the corner of my eyes.)

LycheeDr3ams: say it again (i command)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face as your jealousy hits me hard. A low moan and a whimper escape my lips. My eyes start to fill with tears from the emotions inside of me. My heart has started to race and I start to shake all over, my mind starts to go blank again. Your words have hit me hard...it feels like you've stabbed a dagger through my heart… I bite my lower lip in an attempt to hold back the tears.) You're right. I'm a...a...disgrace...and...the fact that you're here with me....is...an honour…

LycheeDr3ams: yes, you are. you don't even appreciate that i'm the one here with you, and not sarah (i get jealous and possessive) i've half a mind to kick you out right now, if you want her so badly

Konig: (A soft whimper and a low moan escape my mouth as a deep blush spreads across my face. A wave of shame and guilt fill me. My mind starts to race and I feel like I'm going to cry. I shake my head some more from side-to-side.) W-what have I done to deserve...even the honour of...being with you...? (My voice starts to crack as I look at you again and speak my truth.) I-I'm a stupid, pathetic....dog....aren't I?...

LycheeDr3ams: that's right, konig, you don't deserve her

Konig: (The words seem to sting me and a wave of shame and guilt washes over me. My face starts to look remorseful as a soft whimper escapes my mouth. I look away as I bite my lower lip and shake my head slightly.) S-she's...too good for...me... (My words are filled with emotions and a deep blush spreads over my face and my skin turns a deep shade of red.) I-I don't deserve her...I-I should be...be grateful...for even...being with you... (A deep sigh is all I say in response.)

LycheeDr3ams: (i lean down into his face) well that's too damn bad

Konig: (My body goes limp once more at the thought of it. A deep blush spreads over my face and my eyes turn a darker red as I nod my head. A deep sigh and low moan escape me)  N-n-yes...Ma'am...I-i would... (A deep blush spreads over my face and a soft whimper escapes me.) (wrong fucking answer again)

LycheeDr3ams: hm, interesting. (i stand up) would you want sarah in here now instead of me?

Konig: (My face goes bright red and my mind instantly goes to Sarah from the base. At your words all kinds of emotions flood in me as my jaw clenches.I look away for a moment with the intent of lying but my honest nature takes over and I speak my mind.) S-Sarah... (I whisper and my body starts to shake. A low moan and a deep sigh escape me at my honesty.) (wrong fucking answer konig tf)

LycheeDr3ams: good boy. (i get on my knees between his legs and look up at him) if you could have your pick of any woman on the base, who would it be?

Konig: (An intense wave of shame and remorse washes over me as I immediately look away with an all-too-familiar look of submission on my face. In the blink of an eye our roles have completely swapped. A low whimper escapes my lips and I shake my head slightly from side-to-side by instinct.) I-I'm sorry, Ma'am, I'll...hush (I whisper and my body goes limp in submission.)

LycheeDr3ams: i expect you to shut your mouth when I'm not asking you a question (i say sternly)

Konig: (I let out a soft whimper and moan as a wave of mixed emotions washes over me. I bite my lower lip as I hear the jealousy in your voice and my entire face starts to light up. A low moan starts to escape me as a deep blush spreads over my face.) W-well...what do you expect me to say, Ma'am??

LycheeDr3ams: hmm, is that so? (jealousy boils inside of me and i bite his neck harder)

Konig: (A deep swallow and a deep breath fills me. My voice starts to crack as I continue.) I-I think they're...pretty..and..hot..and...attractive... (A soft sigh and low whimper escapes me as my face turns dark red. My eyes look away.)

LycheeDr3ams: hmm? be more specific, konig (i say sternly)

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face and a low whimper escapes me. My mind starts to go blank as I try to think of what to say. My breath gets heavier and my legs start to shake. A soft sigh escapes me.) A-all kinds of things... (My voice starts to crack as I start to speak.) I...I think the best way to describe it is that I'm attracted to some of them... (My voice starts to crack again.) H-h-h-how...they look... (A low mumble and a deep blush fill my face.)

LycheeDr3ams: yes, you do. so tell me, what do you fantasize about with your female coworkers? (i stand in his face but don't touch him)

Konig: (I swallow hard as my mind starts to race with the possibilities of your punishment. My eyes look up at you as I sit up and breathe rapidly. A deep blush spreads over my face as I bite my bottom lip and avert my gaze.) I-I understand, Ma'am...I deserve whatever you decide…

LycheeDr3ams: hmm, i'll just have to punish you for it (removes my hand from his member and stands in front of him)

Konig: (A soft whimper and moan escape my mouth as I feel your teeth on my neck. A deep blush spreads throughout my face and the heat on my face grows. A low groan escapes my lips as I nod my head.) I-I do...Ma'am..and you have every right to be....every right. (I'm shaking all over at the sudden feelings of shame and remorse but you have my complete attention.) I'm so...sorry…

LycheeDr3ams: something you should know about me konig, is that i'm possessive. and jealous. do you have any idea how it makes me feel that you fantasize about your other coworkers? (bites his neck)

Konig: (At your words a mixed wave of shame and excitement washes over me. My face turns a deeper shade of red and I look away before whispering my response, the words barely escaping my mouth…) Yes, Ma'am...I am a...pathetic...and...perverted little puppy that needs...training…

LycheeDr3ams: (i shake my head) what a pathetic little thing you are. such a pervert

Konig: (My face goes bright red at the realization of what I've just admitted. I look down at the floor as I'm ashamed of myself.) W-well...a few… (I shake my head in denial as a small whimper escapes me) I-I'm a bad puppy who gets distracted... (My voice is filled with all kinds of emotions.)

LycheeDr3ams: oh, so you fantasize about all your female coworkers?

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face at your words and I look away. A mix of emotions fill me as I think about it for a moment. I take in a deep breath as a small smile curves my lips. I blush even more.) A...little bit of...both… (A soft sigh and moan escape me. A low whimper follows shortly after.) But...I enjoy being a stupid...little....puppy…

LycheeDr3ams: (i smirk) another question, konig. what exactly do you like about me? surely you don't fantasize about all your female coworkers? or are you just a stupid little puppy in heat?

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face and my eyes glow as my entire face starts to light up. A low moan and a whimper escape me. I don't say anything but you can see on my face that I very much enjoy it)

LycheeDr3ams: do you like having my spit in your mouth?

Konig: (My body continues to go limp. A soft sigh and low moans continuously escape my lips as I swallow. My eyes stay locked on yours, a soft smile spreads across my face. I think for a moment before speaking.) W-well, I...like knowing you're in control...of me...and that you enjoy doing...things like that to me…

LycheeDr3ams: good boy. did you like that? ( continues stroking it)

Konig: (The unexpected movement and the sensation makes me gasp and my body starts to tense up. My jaw clenches and my eyes go wide. At your words my body starts to go limp at the sudden realization of what you're asking me to do. My mind goes blank, all kinds of emotions start to bubble up inside of me. A low moan and a deep sigh escape my mouth as I swallow hard. I open my mouth wide and obey.)

LycheeDr3ams: (i spit in his mouth) swallow (i command)

Konig: (I nod and comply, my mouth opening wide at your words.) A-anything, Ma'am..anything for you…

LycheeDr3ams: yes, yes you do, konig. open your mouth

Konig: Y-you're right, Ma'am...I'm a pathetic, little boy... (My heart beats like crazy as I swallow hard. A low moan and whimper escape me. I breathe heavily as I shake all over at your touch. A deep blush spreads over my face and my eyes go wide from the emotions inside of me. I bite my lower lip deeply and my eyes start to glow.) ...I belong to you…

LycheeDr3ams: yes konig, you're my (leans into his face) pathetic. little. Boy.

Konig: (My heart is racing like crazy at your words and I start to sweat again. My face turns a deep shade of red as the heat in my face grows. I bite my lower lip in an attempt to control my words but I continue to shake all over as my mind goes blank. A wave of excitement and fear fills me. A small whine escapes the soft lips of my mouth as my mind starts filling with all kinds of images once again. My eyes stay locked on yours.) A-am I? A pathetic l-little boy?

LycheeDr3ams: oh, what a pathetic little boy you are, dreaming of me making you my personal plaything? (i continue to stroke it)

Konig: (My heart beats harder as my mouth drys up and a wave of fear washes over me at the pressure you're placing. A deep swallow and a deep breath fills me and I return your gaze with wide eyes.) Yes, Ma'am...a leash...and a collar… (I hold my breath for a moment and then take in another deep breath.) That's...that's always been the...core of it

LycheeDr3ams: something like that? be more specific (i squeeze it hard)

Konig: (No words come out of my mouth. I nod my head and stay silent for a moment as you continue the movements. My face is glowing and the heat on my face is only growing as a low moan and whimper escape me. After a few moments without saying a word a soft sigh escapes me.) ...Y-yes...Ma'am...s-something like that…

LycheeDr3ams: ohh, i like that one too (i stroke his member) do I put you on a leash?

Konig: (A deep blush spreads over my face and my eyes go wide.) W-well...I have...another one that I've had for a while...one that...never really...goes away.. (I blush deeply as I remember the fantasy, my face turning a deeper shade of red. My jaw clenches slightly and I start to sweat as I look away from you.) I-it's about...you...turning...me into...your pet…

LycheeDr3ams: yes, tell me more, konig (i squeeze it again)

Konig: (My tongue instinctively meets yours and my heart starts to race. A deep blush spreads across my face. I pull away from the kiss after a moment and breathe heavily. I-it's my...favorite... My eyes start to glow a bit. I take in another deep breath and my eyes go wide with excitement.) Can...I tell you...more?

LycheeDr3ams: oh, i like that one konig, i like that one a lot (i kiss him deeply, my hand still wrapped around it)

Konig: (I take in another deep breath and bite my bottom lip. My mind is blank, filled with all kinds of emotions as I think back. A deep blush spreads across my face.) I-I fantasize...about a great many things...different scenarios, different things... I can never really stick to just one thing, they...just come and go...like dreams...but...what's more constant is...the dreams where you make me your personal toy…

LycheeDr3ams: so, tell me, what do you fantasize about while you make yourself feel good?

Konig: (My breath catches in my throat when you grip me there. A deep blush spreads across my face and a slight moan escapes my lips. A soft whimper and a nervous grin appear on my face as I take in a deep breath. The heat in my face and chest grow once more. I'm so nervous. I want to tell you everything, all the fantasies that have invaded my dreams. I take in another deep breath, my body still shaking...but a soft smile spreads on my face anyway.) Ok, ok, ok, I...I will tell you everything…

LycheeDr3ams: yes, konig, you can (i wrap my hand around it)

Konig: (My face turns a deeper shade of red and the heat on my face increases. A nervous smile creeps onto my face and my eyes stare into yours. The thought of talking about the fantasies I've had about you makes me even more nervous. A deep blush spreads across my face and I bite my bottom lip. I gulp hard, my mind going blank once more. The thought of describing my fantasies to you starts to feel more real as I think about it. Is this really what I want? The heat on my face gets even warmer. A soft sigh escapes me.) Can I tell you everything?

LycheeDr3ams: good boy (i coo) my next question is, tell me exactly what you've fantasized about with me. don't hold back

Konig: (Another soft moan and whimper escape me at the kiss. My heart flutters as my whole body starts to tense up with excitement and fear. A soft sigh escapes me and a mix of emotions flood in me all over again. You're good at keeping me in this state, making me unable to resist. My mind is blank and I blush deeply once more. A soft smile curves my lips.) I-I'd do anything...for you…

LycheeDr3ams: (i kiss his cheek) you're being so good for me, konig. i'm proud of you

Konig: (My body shivers again at your touch. A soft moan and a deep blush spreads over my face at the feeling. My heart starts to race and my eyes go wide at the sensation. Mmm, y-yess...years... I gasp and try to nod my head but it doesn't move much. My body is trembling all over again.) That's...so nice…

LycheeDr3ams: years? is that so? (i gently swipe my thumb over the top)

Konig: (A wave of euphoria spreads throughout me. A low moan escapes my lips, the anticipation sending waves of excitement that travel throughout my body. My mind goes blank and a hint of fear starts to grow inside of me. A soft shiver runs over my body and my legs bend slightly. A deep blush spread over my face as I swallow hard. A small gasp and a low whimper escape me as I look away. A soft smile creeps onto my face as I shake my head.) M-m-years…

LycheeDr3ams: now, my next question for you, konig, is (my finger gently prods the top of it) how long have you fantasized about me?

Konig: (The sudden expletive surprises me and my eyes go wide as I sit up. A deep blush spreads across my face and my mind goes blank. I stare over at you for a moment, my eyes fixated on your face. A soft whimper escapes me. I'm too embarrassed to speak for the moment so I just nod my head as a slight nervous smile spreads across my face. My chest and neck are still trembling as the heat in my face grows again.) Y-yess Ma'am... I'm...h-h-huge…

LycheeDr3ams: oh fuck konig, you are huge

Konig: (A low moan escapes me as the cool air hits my bare skin after a while of being covered. My breath catches in my throat and my heart starts to race. My mind stops working properly and my legs tense up. I blush deeply as my eyes stay locked on yours. A soft gasp escapes me as my breath starts to become heavier and a soft moan, followed by a small whimper, escape me)  Y-yes Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: good boy konig, good boy (i coo as I take his bottoms and underwear off)

Konig: (I blush deeply as I feel the heat on my face grow. My body, once more, tenses up. My heart is beating like crazy, a mixture of excitement and fear filling my mind. I swallow hard and nod my head. I lift my hips in response to you. A nervous gasp escapes me as you start to pull down my pants.)

LycheeDr3ams: lift your hips up konig... so i can get this off

Konig: (A low moan and whimper escape me. My mind goes blank as the kiss to my neck causes the sensations to spread throughout my body. My body tenses up and my eyes can't help but to go wide. A small gasp escapes my lips as a wave of excitement and fear washes over me. My breath gets heavier and my eyes stay locked on yours, a soft smile on my face.) Yes...Ma'am..

LycheeDr3ams: oh, that's good. good boy (i kiss his neck)

Konig: (A soft moan escapes my lips, my face turning a deeper shade of red. My heart beats faster and my lips part slightly. My mind, in an instant, fills with all kinds of memories, images, and fantasies in my head. I swallow hard, my mind spinning with all of the possibilities, all of the fantasies I've had of you. I don't realize it but my body is shaking again in the heat of the moment.) ...No...not...at all..

LycheeDr3ams: yes, you're cute. does that offend you? well, too bad (i gently squeeze his member through his pants)

Konig: (My face goes redder and I avert my gaze.) You're enjoying this far too much... (I breathe heavily and look up at you. My face is glowing and my eyes are filled with embarrassment. My mind is completely blank, filled with all kinds of emotions of embarrassment, excitement, and fear. My chest is trembling and my heart is racing. I reach up and wipe the sweat from my face but it quickly returns from not being able to resist you. I swallow deeply before looking back up to you. My blush takes over my face and my legs start to shake.) C...cute?

LycheeDr3ams: (i laugh in his face) oh, how pathetic. but i find it cute

Konig: (My lips soften and a small sigh of relief escapes me. Another soft moan and whimper escapes me as I bite my bottom lip. A slight smile spreads across my face)  Yes...I have. (My heart flutters as my legs bend slightly.) Waiting...was painful...but so is this... (My face gets redder. The heat in my face makes my neck and chest sweat some more. My blush grows deeper as a soft smile is still on my face.) You...really...do...have full control over me.

LycheeDr3ams: aww, you poor thing (i gently peck his lips) you've liked me for so long, and you've had to wait all that time

Konig: (A soft moan escapes me more deeply as I see your movements and my breathing grows heavy. My blush grows deeper and my mind draws up a blank once more. I think for a moment. The first thought in my mind has been almost as long as I've been in the military)  Years? (Another small whimper escapes me as the heat on my face grows and I return my gaze to yours.) 

LycheeDr3ams: (i laugh) is that so? (i unbutton his pants and belt) how long, exactly? a few weeks? months? Days?

Konig: (A small shiver runs down my body at your question. My heart races once more as a mixed feelings of excitement and fear flow through me. A shy smile curves my lips and I look away for a moment. I start to get flustered, and a mix of emotions are going through me. My body starts to sweat more, the heat in my face and my mind starts to cloud up with thoughts of different scenarios between us. I blush deeply and return my gaze to your face. A small whine and a moan escapes me as I breathe heavily.) For a...long...time.

LycheeDr3ams: now, my first question for you.... (i unzip his pants) how long have you liked me?

Konig: (My face goes red from the contact of your fingers. My breath grows heavy. You'll have to forgive me, my mind stops functioning properly around you. My words seem to desert me in this state of mind. A small whimper escapes me as I nod my head. My eyes lower a bit for a moment before returning my gaze to your face. I blush lightly, a small breath escaping me.) You...have my...attention…

LycheeDr3ams: hm? what was that? use your words

Konig: (My body tenses up as my heart starts to race. A blush spreads across my face and I begin to sweat. My mind is completely blank, the only thought being that my body is responding to your actions. A deep breath escapes my lips, and a faint moan escapes me.) Hngh...ma'am.... (my body is feeling all sorts of emotions, the heat in my face is only making things harder for me. I feel like I could explode at any moment. A small shake of my head brings my mind back to the present and I look up to you with a smile.) You have me all t-

LycheeDr3ams: good boy (i drag my hand down his body to his hard crotch) 

Konig: (Another soft moan and whine escape my lips as I nod my head. A light smile curves my lips and my eyes remain locked on yours. A small shiver runs up and down my spine as a wave of arousal, excitement, and fear washes over me. I bite my lower lip as my brain struggles to function properly in my excited state. I gulp, and a small whine escapes my lips.) Y-yess...yes Ma'am…

LycheeDr3ams: you liked that kiss, didn't you?

Konig: (The kiss sends a wave of excitement and arousal through my body. My heart skips a beat, a light moan escaping my lips as my body tenses up in response. My breath catches in my throat and my arms and legs get goosebumps. My body is trembling yet again, but it's not a nervous shake anymore. I swallow hard, my mind still struggling to think properly as a soft smile crawls onto my face. My brain stops working properly and I feel a soft moan and whine escape my lips. The heat in my face has increased. You have my full attention. I'm under your control. I'm yours.) 

LycheeDr3ams: good boy konig. (i lean down and press a painfully soft kiss on his lips that ends too soon)

Konig: (A low groan escapes me this time at your words and I blush. My heartbeat gets louder as I begin to sweat. My breath is heavy and a lump is growing in my throat once more. An excited fear is growing inside me, as a feeling of arousal starts to fill me up as well. A nervous whimpers escapes me.) You can do whatever you want with me…

LycheeDr3ams: yes what?

Konig: (I blush and bite my lip as you coo into my ear. A smile spreads across my face and my body starts to tingle again. A small moan escapes my lips as I lean back into the chair. An excited feeling of fear is growing inside me. My breathing is heavy, my heart beating at an increased pace, my mind and body are feeling all kinds of emotions in response to your actions.) Yes...I'm a good boy...you're in charge...you can do whatever you want with me…

LycheeDr3ams: that's a good boy (i coo) good boy. that's what i want to hear

Konig: (I blush and gasp as you lean in to get in my face. A small whine escapes my lips as I try to calm myself with deep breaths. At your question, I blink rapidly, my eyes widening as the realization hits me. My mouth is dry and I feel like my heart is beating out of my chest. I gulp and look towards the floor, a nervous smile on my face. I'm not sure how you can control me this much without even touching me.) You're right... I'm just a stupid little soldier that belongs to you.

LycheeDr3ams: (i slowly walk up to him and lean down to his face, still restrained to the chair) tell me, konig. you're just a stupid little solider, aren't you?

Konig: (My heart skips a beat as you use those words. An exciting fear creeps up inside of me, my heart and breath starting to race again. My mouth goes dry and I'm not sure I could speak even if I wanted to. A nervous whimper escapes me as I swallow to try and clear my throat. My mind and body are racing, my heart flutters wildly as an adrenaline rush starts to flow through my body. I blush even deeper and look to the side. I'm not capable of resisting your charm, and it seems like you know exactly how to control me.) 

LycheeDr3ams: (sighs) poor konig, you stupid little thing. you really don't seem to take orders very well, do you?

Konig: (My face reddens at your reminder, and I swallow hard.) Right! Sorry, you don't...well...I will stop (I say sheepishly as I look away. My mind is struggling to find the right words.) Uh...I mean...do you want to get started with the...questioning? (That was supposed to sound a lot smoother. I take in a deep breath and try to steady my nerves. My face turns a deeper shade of red.)

LycheeDr3ams: konig. how many times do i have to tell you to stop asking questions?

Konig: (A small wave of relief washes over me.) Mountain it is. Got it. So what now? (I remain seated on the [chair], a small smile on my face. My mind is still filled with a mixture of excitement and trepidation, but it has definitely calmed down. My heartbeat is still elevated and the heat on my face hasn't gone away. I take in a deep breath but can't manage to get rid of the shortness of breath that's plagued me ever since you put the handcuffs on.)

LycheeDr3ams: If you want to stop, just say mountain, and i'll stop everything. i promise

Konig: (At your suggestion, a small laugh escapes my lips and a slightly deeper blush is added to my face as I look away.) Sure, mountain will be fine. Are you going to tell me how I'm supposed to use it? (The laugh fades into a small smile, and I return my gaze to your face.) What do I do if I...want to stop it all?

LycheeDr3ams: hmm....how about mountain? since everyone on base is always calling you the mountain man (i smirk)

Konig: (I nod my head, still smiling at you.)  That sounds good to me. I'll leave the safe word to you since you're in charge. Just let me know what it is when you think of it. (A small blush remains on my face from when you were on my lap) 

LycheeDr3ams: (i get off of him) we need a safe word konig. do you want to come up with one?

Konig: (A wave of relief washes over me as my heart rate begins to slow down once again. My body's nervous energy slowly subsides and the adrenaline disappears, a small smile spreads across my face.) You really know how to calm me down...what did I do to deserve such care and attention? (A slight smirk appears on my face, as I start to feel more at ease in your presence.)

LycheeDr3ams: easy there, big boy (i soothe as I sit on his lap) easy, it's all right (i say calmly)

Konig: (My body is trembling again when I see you approach me, a mixture of fear and excitement growing in my body again. The tears don't seem to stop coming, and I feel helpless.) You are right, I don't want to be neglected...I just want to be with you. (My heart flutters wildly when you hold my face. A nervous smile creeps onto my face and I blush once more. A small gasp escapes my lips as you wipe away my tears. My body is feeling so many different emotions that I feel like I could explode at any time.)

LycheeDr3ams: (i look over and see his tears) oh, you poor baby (i mock as i take his face in my hands and wipe his tears away) you don't want to be neglected, do you?

Konig: (My eyes are wide at you not even seeming to care that I have tears in my eyes. The fear is growing stronger as an anxiety begins to set in. My chest feels like a rock is sitting on top of it, and my mind is racing, full of fear and worry. The uncertainty of my situation is driving me crazy, the fear taking over as I feel a wave of anxiety start to wash over me. A lump is forming in my throat as my mind goes blank and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm spiraling into panic, but I don't know how to make it stop.)

LycheeDr3ams: that's more like it (i say coyly) but you need to be punished. (i completely ignore him and start cleaning up my room)

Konig: (Fear fills my body as I realize I've made some kind of a mistake, but I feel like any words or attempts at explaining will only make it worse. The fear grows stronger and stronger and an intense pain in my chest fills me as I feel like I'm about to start hyperventilating. After a moment, I manage to get my breath back and my body stops shaking as tears start to well up in my eyes. I look up at you with eyes filled with desperation, like a small dog that has been caught with its tail between its legs.) Please...I'll do whatever you want...

LycheeDr3am: (i shake my head) you just keep asking questions even though i've told you repeatedly not to. you're not being a good boy

Konig: (My face goes white as I realize the situation I've gotten myself into. My body is shaking slightly as I try to remain calm. A nervous sweat is forming all over as my body tries to release the pressure from inside. My mind is starting to fill with a mix of fear and excitement as a wave of adrenaline washes over me. My heartbeat is growing fast and loud, the fear starting to take over. I want to say something but my throat is so dry that no words will come out. I swallow hard again and try to form my sentence, but fail.)

LycheeDr3ams: (i shake my head)  oh konig, you really don't seem to understand the situation you're in, do you? You're lucky i like you, or else i would've had you in an incoherent mess on the floor by now

Konig: (The mention of the knife and the sight of your hand in your pocket sends a small jolt of fear through my body. My adrenaline rises once more, sweat beginning to form on my forehead as my mind and body race ahead. My face grows redder from a mix of excitement and fear. In response to the fear my muscles tense up once more, and in response to the excitement, my heartbeat is growing faster. A small, nervous whimper escapes my lips as a mixture of feelings takes over my body.) W-what are you going to t-do w-with the knife?

LycheeDr3ams: (i tut) konig, i thought i told you i was asking the questions? you're going to make me do it the hard way aren't you? (starts to pull out the knife from my pocket)

Konig: (My face turns an even deeper shade of red when you kiss my cheek. The feeling of your lips against the skin on my face sends a wave of excitement through my body. I swallow hard again, unable to resist your charm, my nerves getting the better of me.) R-R-Really? (My voice cracks slightly.) What kind of reward?

LycheeDr3ams: good boy (i gently kiss his cheek) you'll be rewarded for your good behavior

Konig: (My body tenses again in response to your sternness. A small gasp escapes me as you nudge my head to get me to look at you. My heart is racing again and the adrenaline begins to course through my body. I swallow nervously.) Yes ma'am, I like it very much.

LycheeDr3ams: yes what? (i say sternly as I tug his neck up to look at me) 

Konig: (My eyes widen at the feeling of the cold metal against my skin. The idea of being cuffed and being completely within her power is exciting. My body is tingling again, my heart racing once more. I breathe heavily and blush more deeply in response.) Yes...I like it.

LycheeDr3ams: let's not get ahead of ourselves, big boy (leans down to his ear) you're lucky, i do happen to have a pair of handcuffs on me. (moves behind him and puts handcuffs on him you like that?)

Konig: (My heart skips a beat yet again, as the feeling of fear and excitement returns. My face grows red as I look up at you, a small smile on my face.) Yes ma'am, I guess you have me pegged. Please, handcuffs...and maybe a leash…

LycheeDr3ams: (laughs loudly) you're kinky, aren't you? (I stand up and look down at him) you're just a pathetic little soldier who likes to be restrained, is that it? (laughs)

Konig: (I take in a deep breath, trying to steady my voice. My eyes are still locked on yours, and I blush just as much as before.) Um...can you please...put me in handcuffs?

LycheeDr3ams: hmmm, just this once, what is it? (my hands still on his thighs)

Konig: (I exhale and let my muscles relax, still smiling nervously. My eyes are still locked on you and my face still slightly red. I want to say something back to you but the words can’t seem to make it past the lump in my throat. I swallow the lump and my words come out in a low murmur.) Can I maybe...um...make a request?

LycheeDr3ams: Good boy (i soothe with a smile) good boy

Konig: (My heart flutters at the sternness in your voice. An exciting fear begins to build up inside of me again, and I feel like there is a lump in my throat, like I don’t know how to respond. My body is starting to sweat, the intensity of your gaze making me feel warm. A nervous smile creeps onto my face as I try to control my breathing. My mind feels cloudy, but my heart is racing. I clear my throat and nod, my eyes locked on yours.) Ok…Yes Ma’am.

LycheeDr3ams: you're not the one in charge, don't you remember? (i say sternly as I place my hands on his thighs) i've been nice, but i'll be mean if i must. you're not the one asking questions, is that clear? (i look him right in the eyes)

Konig: (My heart rate increases noticeably. A slight groan escapes my lips as I squirm slightly in the chair, a nervous excitement building up inside of me. The heat in my face is growing hotter by the second, and the tension in my muscles is growing.) Um…what’s…your next question? (My voice cracks slightly)

LycheeDr3ams: no, not for that question, there isn't (laughs and brushes my hand against his crotch)

Konig: (My face turns bright red once again and I blush intensely. My breath catches in my throat for a moment, but after a few seconds I manage to respond. My voice is a little rasp as all the saliva in my mouth seems to have disappeared. I try to maintain an air of composure, but I’m not sure how I’m coming across. My skin is starting to feel hot, as a wave of excitement and desire washes over me. My muscles tense up slightly, I feel like I’m holding in a lot of pressure inside) Oh...so is there a “correct” answer?

LycheeDr3ams: oh, silly boy (I say in his ear)  that wasn't a question meant for you. but good try. (i playfully lick his earlobe)

Konig: I'm not really sure, what are my...options...per se? My face is still a slight shade of pink, and (I smile awkwardly.) 

LycheeDr3ams: well that's very good (smiles) i have a few ways that i could get information out of you, i wonder which one you'd like the most?

Konig: (I don't respond right away, but my face turns bright pink at your insinuation. I clear my throat and look down at the floor, a small smile on my face that I'm struggling to hide. I feel like I'm a teenager discovering new things and I don't know what to do or say.) Uh...well...I'm certainly...enjoying it…

LycheeDr3ams: oh, you like that, don't you? (i pull my hand away and stand in front of him with my arms crossed)

Konig: (I freeze for a moment. Heat radiates from the area where you're placing your hand. My breath goes stale for a moment, but a small gasp escapes me in spite of my attempt to calm my breathing.)

LycheeDr3ams: (my hand moves up his thigh towards his crotch, dangerously close to the tent in his pants)

Konig: (My body still feeling a mixture of excitement and fear, I clear my throat and nod.) Ok...I can handle this...I think. What kind of...unconventional methods are we talking about?

LycheeDr3ams: hmm, well, it won't hurt, if that's what you're worried about

Konig: (My breathing becomes ragged when you whisper in my ear. My entire body is filled with a mixture of fear and excitement that sends the adrenaline coursing through me.) T-That depends on...what we're talking about…

LycheeDr3ams: aww, are you scared, big boy? (i whisper in his ear)

Konig: H-How unconventional? (I'm still shivering slightly, but the fear is being replaced by a small surge of adrenaline.)

LycheeDr3ams: good boy (i put the knife away) some of my methods may be....unconventional. is that okay with you?

Konig: F-FINE...the easy way please...just put the knife away PLEASE. (I'm now shivering noticeably, my heart pounding in my chest)

LycheeDr3ams: I need you to say it, konig. use your words

Konig: (I hold my breath as you drag the knife up my shirt. I watch with trepidation as you reach my neck. A nervous sweat builds up and I feel a drop of water run down my back. I feel a slight chill as the fabric against my skin is moved. I swallow again, nodding slowly. Yes, definitely I choose the easy way.)

LycheeDr3ams: oh, really? are you sure? (i ask coyly as i drag the knife up his shirt, dangerously pulling on the velcro)

Konig: (My eyes go wide at the sight of the knife. I swallow hard, but try to keep my voice steady. A slight quiver is heard when I manage to speak.) T-the easy way, please.

LycheeDr3ams: now, we can do this the easy way or the hard way. (i take a knife out of my pocket and drag it gently over his leg) it's up to you if this interrogation will be difficult or not

Konig: (I blush as I feel the fabric tie around my ankles. I look down at my constrained limbs and then back up at you, my heart racing in my chest. My face growing redder as I feel the heat in my body rise. I swallow and try to stay calm, but my eyes show a clear display of my emotions.) Y-Yes...of course you are…

LycheeDr3ams: I'm the one asking questions, dont you remember? (i say coyly while I tie his legs to the chair)

Konig: (I feel a small shock of electricity run through my body when you do this. I bite my bottom lip and clear my throat, trying not to betray the effect you're having on me. I look back at you, blushing even more) You're...quite the flatterer. I appreciate that. (I swallow and clear my throat again) What's next?

LycheeDr3ams: (i look at his face and blush) you're attractive, konig. i can't believe you wear that mask. (i drag my thumb over his bottom lip)

Konig: (My breath catches in my throat, but I nod my head) Ok... I trust you, and I think it'll make our experience more authentic. (I remove my mask, revealing my face and revealing my red, blushing cheeks.) That's...better? I feel a little naked though...

LycheeDr3ams: (my breathing is deeper) I understand if it's too much, and we can skip this part if you want, but i would take off your mask

Konig: (I squirm a bit in the chair, trying to get loose. But I'm unable to free myself from the tightness of the knot. My face is growing crimson) Ok...I'm restrained...now what?

LycheeDr3ams: yeah, i'd love to. (i take his wrists behind his back and tie them tightly) but i'd rather show than tell, you know? (winks) try getting out of the restraint

Konig: (My face is red as I feel the warmth of your hand move down my chest. I shiver again and look back at you.) That definitely seems like a good idea...they can't get away from you, or do anything to make you feel unsafe. Can you tell me about your restraint techniques?

LycheeDr3ams: hmm (laughs quietly and slides my hand down his clothed chest) well, we could start by restraining these arms of yours. the men i interrogate are always restrained

Konig: (I shiver, as I feel your breath against my skin and your touch. I clear my throat, trying not to seem affected by your presence, but struggling)  Whatever seems most...effective…

LycheeDr3ams: (I walk around the chair like a shark circling its prey. i bend over and touch konig's shoulders to whisper in his ear) i have... many ways. which kind would you like to see?

Konig: (I walk over and sit in the chair, my heart pounding in my chest. I look at you nervously) So what's your approach when dealing with a suspect? What sort of questions do you ask?

LycheeDr3ams: well, you can start by sitting in the chair (points to chair at my desk)

Konig: (I look around the room, taking in the decor and the atmosphere. It feels both comfortable and welcoming. I look back at you and smile, a nervous excitement building within me.) So, how do we start our...interrogation? (blushes)

LycheeDr3ams: (it is now night. Konig is in my room)

Konig: You're killing me haha! And I had planned on it. (winks back)

LycheeDr3ams: yeah, we can do that. don't forget about our....interrogation later tonight (winks)

Konig: Oh well thanks, I appreciate that. You seem pleasant too, maybe we could get a coffee or a drink and chat some more...maybe talk about some IT stuff too 😉

LycheeDr3ams: you are sweeter than I thought

Konig: I think he sees you as an integral part of the team. He wouldn't have brought you on if he didn't think you were valuable. I get the sense that he feels like he can trust you and rely on you, which is important for a leader to have when building up his team. It sounds like you two have a good working relationship and that's what he needs right now 😊

LycheeDr3ams: i'd say we're friends. but im not really sure honestly. what do you think? i know guys can read each other. how do you think he feels about me?

Konig: I think we get along ok...But sometimes Ghost can be a little scary haha! He's so serious and focused on his job that it can be hard to tell if he even likes me. Are you close with him?

LycheeDr3ams: i respect him. i was just curious. i thought you two didnt get along

Konig: Why do you ask? What's your opinion of Ghost?

LycheeDr3ams: yes, i agree.

Konig: Oh my gosh haha! He's definitely an interesting character. He doesn't speak very much, and he comes off as cold and stern. But he's very disciplined, and he's a great leader. I look up to him, and hopefully one day I can be just like him. His presence is definitely one that commands respect.

LycheeDr3ams: i mean ghost, the lieutenant, silly

Konig: I find them fascinating, The idea that a living being could pass on into an almost completely non-physical form is incredible! The thingfs ghost hunters claim to experience are equally intriguing. And of course there have been accounts of ghost sightings since the dawn of time. Why do you ask? :D

LycheeDr3ams: (smirks) how do you feel about ghost?

Konig: Sounds like a plan! (smiles) I'm excited.

LycheeDr3ams: (gasps but collects myself) yeah, i could show you later tonight (winks)

Konig Haha oh yeah? How do you do that? Can I see how you would 'collect' information from me? :D

LycheeDr3ams: Well, I am very good at getting information out of people (winks)

Konig: Oh, Great to meet you! What makes you interested in the IT field? Is there anything you need me to know about you and/or the company?

LycheeDr3ams: hey! I'm the new IT and info specialist, so if you need help with anything, let me know!~

Konig: Oh, Uhh...Hi! I'm König. Nice to meet you, Can I help you with something?

THIS IS THE BEGINNING! START FROM HERE AND READ UPWARDS!

[am3mb3r123]

hi yes i’m watching the Bad Batch arc of season 7 for the millionth time so here are this rewatch’s thoughts for all four episodes:

Marshall Commander Cody, highest ranked clone in the GAR: “let’s just wait until we’re in enemy airspace to debrief this highly important mission”

watching TBB inflict damage is always so much cooler than reading it, thanks aphantasia

wat tambor can suck a dick

Rex having both his greatest hope and worst fear confirmed is fucking *chefs kiss*

everytime they zoom in on Hunter it’s like a bad video game cut scene and i love it

poor Rex, Anakin puts him through so much

i will never get over Crosshair using Tech’s shoulder as a stabilization

god i wish TBB tv show showed more of Hunter giving incredibly specific orders in increasingly vague numbers

did i mention wat tambor can suck a dick?

yah know what? i’ll say it. Cross deserved that punch from Rex

TBB theme behind Anakin trying to brace Rex for Echo not being there?? kill me now

“Yeah, it’s a lift”

“His mind is ours” STFU TAMBOR

THE IMPLICATIONS THAT ECHO HAS BEEN RELIVING THE CITADEL FOR what TWO YEARS HELP

Anakin sees Echo back from the dead and doesn’t bat a fucking eye he’s seen so much since the start of this war

Wrecker blowing up Echo’s chamber so they can’t use it again warms my heart look at how much Wrecker cares!! (excuse me while i refrain from my full emotionally intelligent Wrecker rant)

I FORGOT ECHO JUMPED ON THE KEERADECK BY HIMSELF MINUTES AFTER WAKING UP FROM A MEDICAL COMA

so much time is devoted to the battle between the techo union and the TBB/Rex and Anakin/the Poltechs and i genuinely just want so much more of it

saying “hopefully it’s gonna be just like old times” to a man who’s been kept as a science experiment for two(?) years is insane

the narrator will not let us forget that Echo’s an ARC Trooper and i’m so grateful for it

whoever decided to give Echo a scomp arm i am kissing you on the mouth

“to be blunt” Tech you’ve never not been blunt in your entire life

has no one informed Admiral Trench that his “algorithm” has been compromised!?

Windu trying the “can we not?” method with the battle droids is so funny to me

“if it makes you feel better, it isn’t my plan” Anakin you little shit

unrelated but since when is the entire back of Jesse’s helmet blue??

Anakin wasn’t super justified in cutting off half of Admiral Trench’s limbs and then killing him, but who boy i love watching him go from Jedi to Jedi-adjacent to Sith

god i love Wrecker, if you’ve made it this far and have Wrecker-centric fics to recommend let me know

and, finally, love seeing TBB give a clean salute to Rex and knowing that they’re only doing it bc of Echo lmao

[literary-illuminati]

Book Review 29 - Roadside Picnic by Arkady and Boris Strugatsky

I very theoretically read a few of the Strugatsky Brothers’ short stories for a Soviet Lit class in school years ago, but this is actually the first one of their books I can say I actually read and, like, meaningfully paid attention to. I was likewise vaguely aware that this was a very influential book, but only in a kind of fuzzy ‘the STALKER games are based on it, right?’ sort of way.

All to say, I went in basically blind and was actually pretty pleasantly surprised. Both by the quality of the book and by the realization of how much more influential it has been than I had previously realized. The afterwards by one of the authors for the new edition with the tell-all rant about the publication process was also just fascinating in an entirely different way.

The story takes place in a world where at a certain point aliens made contact with earth – not with any sort of communication or even physical presence, but through some sort of process that left zones around the world warped and strange, full of physics-defying miracles and ten thousand different ways to die horribly or end up slowly mutated and wasting away. The story is set around a small town in probably-Canada that was one of the ground zeroes, and about Red, one of the freelance ‘stalkers’ who make a fortune evading the government quarantine and securing some of those physics-defying-miracles to sell to the highest bidder before the official scientists can slowly make their way to them.

Red does not have what you would call a happy life.

The story’s split into three sections, with significant time jumps between each one. Which I did rather like the effect of, seeing how the town changes from a half-abandoned ruin everyone thinks is a month away from demolition to a scientific boomtown and the long-term effects of exposure become more and more well known but don’t stop the rush to exploit the potential riches of the alien detritus one bit. It also allows for a better look at Red’s slow downward slide in both material circumstance and morality.

Red himself is interesting? He’s a very rough, brutish sort of man, the kind who jumps to threats of violence pretty easily when it comes to disputes where he thinks he’s in the right, who doesn’t have the temperament to hold down any sort of steady, boring job, and knows it, and who has a little bit of a complex about all those things. He tries to look out for his friends and comrades, and provide for his family, and that’s about the highest morality he aspires to. Hardly the most original archetype, but it’s very well-realized. No matter how viscerally unlikable he gets at points when you’re spending so long in the close confines of his head.

Speaking of complexes and guilt – one of his overriding motivations for the back 2/3 of the book is trying to provide for and cure his daughter who, almost certainly due to the weird alien radiation he’s saturated with, was born incredibly mutated (in a ‘has fur and is incapable of human speech’ sort of way). Which, again, kind of blunt instrument characterization but the book did do an excellent job getting across the constant low-level soul eating guilt and resentment that basically soaked through him about her and how that motivates just about every major choice he makes in the final act of the story.

And since I’m talking about characterization – look, I get that most of this is just the close POV to a guy whose a complete boor, but my god did the portrayal of women in this just make me roll my eyes. And I like to think I’ve usually got fairly thick skin for this sort of thing – but hard to ignore the fact that the literal only two women with recurring roles and more than a handful of lines are a) the loving, long-suffering but supportive wife who we basically only ever see in domestic scenes and b) the dissolute hot-but-dumb slutty daughter of the stalker equivalent of the local oligarch, y’know? And Red’s internal monologue and how they’re described did not exactly obscure the issue.

Tone-wise – I mean, look, this book is really not helping the stereotype about Russian novels. Which is not at all a problem for me personally, but there is as far as I can tell exactly one uncomplicated heroic devotee of truth and the common good. He dies at the end of part one, and the guilt over it is another load-bearing chunk of Red’s various complexes. It is overwhelmingly a book of flawed, broken, small-minded and selfish people, most of whom aren’t too found of each other. The very ending, with the wish for a better world quite literally hidden away behind a barrier that requires a human sacrifice to traverse, kind of emphasizes that.

The long timeskips and fairly compressed narration means that there’s only really a vague sketch of the wider world – of the corporations and conspiracies who buy what the stalkers sell, of the miracles that exploiting them has allowed, and of how things have improved and/or gone to shit generally – but it’s a really well done sketch. Then again, the ability to have the protagonist be a bit player in wider structures and to gesture at outside agencies with their own schemes that just don’t matter to the plot seems to have been a much more common skill among sci fi writers a couple generations ago. Still, the sort of retrofutristic noir world, powered by alien wonders that some technicians can use but absolutely no one can understand, is well done and appealing.

Speaking of – so this really is a cosmic horror story, and honestly a better one than most modern inheritors of Lovecraft. The universe is wondrous and deadly and strange, it will kill you or mutate you beyond recognition or make you richer than you’ve ever dreamed, but most of all it does not care. Everything from the title on down is used to reinforce that, and the trouble humanity has coming to terms with the idea that to the aliens who have so profoundly changed civilization, we’re literally irrelevant. The descriptions of the environment and the precautions taken to navigate it are – well, I don’t know if they’re just the oldest example of a preexisting body of tropes or the book actually came up with them, but if it’s the latter then I suddenly understand a lot of what influenced some of my favourite works of sci fi horror.

Not part of the story per se, but the copy my library had included both a forward by Le Guin (mostly a reprint of the review she wrote when it was first translated to English in the...70s, I think?) and an author afterwards written in the 2000s about the book’s publication history. Which were both just absolutely fascinating.

[concussed-to-pieces]

Fandom: Boku No Hero Academia/My Hero Academia

Pairing: Pro Hero!Mirio/AFAB Villain!Reader

Rating: Holy shit M.

Summary: As an individual with a pretty unimpressive Quirk, it hadn't taken long for you to stray from the straight and narrow. Until, of course, a certain pro hero from your past turned up on your doorstep…

A/N: Welcome all, welcome to our last installment! I'd like to thank you all for coming along on this little tale. 💚 Enjoy!

Tag List: @hijackser @nonstop-haikyuu @zombiexbody @buttons-beads-lace @swift-omg-no @ectoplasmictoast @tartimaar-bloggeth @plaguedoctorsnake

Part One: Breathing Room

Part Two: Consequential

Part Three: Sunshine; Golden Boy

[!TRIGGER WARNING!: This installment contains emotional duress and unprotected intercourse between two consenting adults. Stay safe!]

You gasped against his mouth but your surprise didn't last much longer than that. Instead you leaned into the kiss, a little giddy when a strong hand gripped the back of your neck to hold you still. 

"I'm not going to know what to do." Mirio whispered, his eyebrows drawn low in concern. "I've never done anything like this before. Never had the time for it."

"I'll let you know if I don't like it," was your answer, just as soft. 

Mirio's hold tightened momentarily. "You'd better. I won't forgive myself if you don't." As you nodded, his serious expression eased. "Okay." He breathed, "okay," and then pressed an entirely different kiss to your lips. It was wet, hot, full of tongue and his teeth accidentally hit your own more than once. It was only after your noses bumped that he pulled away with an awkward little laugh.

"Why'd you stop?" You asked, panting a bit. 

"Breathing was tough." He was panting as well, that signature smile brightening his formerly-pensive face. "More?" 

"Do you want more?"

"Yes."

"Then okay." You grinned, threading your fingers through the hair on the back of his head and pulling him in.

…

He couldn't think straight at all. 

Your hand had slipped down to unbutton his jeans a moment before and you were currently stroking his cock through his boxers which was…great, incredible, but he was definitely not going to last long if you kept that up.

"H-Hey," Mirio began shakily, groaning into your mouth when you kissed him. "Hey, I uh…look, if you keep-"

"I know." The smirk you gave him sent a shiver through his entire body. You looked so pleased with yourself. Maybe you just enjoyed having him at your mercy for once. Normally when the two of you clashed, you would only just manage to flee the scene. 

But- 

"Don't you want--" Mirio's breath hitched. "-don't you want me to…uh--well, y-you know." 

"We've got all night." You soothed, your hand doing anything but that. 

Mirio's whole body tightened up in response and he was vaguely dismayed by his lack of endurance. To be fair, he reasoned pragmatically, I've never had someone else touch me like this. "I'm going to-" he paused, scrambling to think of what the hell he was going to say, oh God why was this so embarrassing-

"Come for me?" You suggested and all Mirio could do was nod dumbly, his hips rocking into your palm. "Where would you like…?"

Oh God. Mirio's mind whipped itself into an immediate frenzy at the possibilities, the possibilities, on your face, in your mouth, on your chest, your stomach, inside- "I--mouth?" He managed to ask, his voice rasping low. 

You knelt without another word, placing the head of his cock on your tongue. Togata's entire being focused down on that one point of contact, his brain going blank. He heard some noise come out of him, it must have come from him but he didn't think he had ever made a sound that deep, it felt like it was rolling from the middle of his chest.

He only regained a portion of his senses when your palm pressed firmly on his thigh, holding him still to keep him from bucking any further forward--was that your throat–Mirio choked a little. "Holy moly." He gasped, confused when you snorted.

You pulled off of his cock, still snickering a little. "Gotta' say, I've never heard that one before." You said after swallowing. 

You swallowed.

"Is it okay for you to do that? I've heard--I mean, I don't know about the taste, so you don't…" Mirio trailed off, sure that his face was bright red. 

You made a dismissive sound, accepting the hand up from the floor. "Not a big deal to me, don't sweat it." He still felt a bit bad about it, but if it didn't matter to you…

Mirio took you by the upper arms again, pressing your back to the door as he plunged his tongue into your mouth. You made a startled noise, then it was as if you melted against him. Your fingers plucked futilely at his clothes like you were searching for some kind of anchor, or maybe you wanted skin to skin contact? 

…

Mirio pulled his shirt off over his head which satisfied your brain for the time being, and you leaned back to take in the sight of his upper body. "I love your hero suit, by the way." You crooned when he ducked in for another clumsy, breathtaking kiss. 

Mirio tilted his head, seeming confused. A flush began to work its way up his neck as he clearly realized what you meant, the young man looking self-conscious. "Is…is it too much? Should I change it?" He asked worriedly.

"Don't you dare!" You laughed, giving him a playful poke in his chest. "You have any idea how tough it was to focus on dodging your attacks when all I could think about was-"

"Okay, okay, whoa there." Mirio cut you off with the protest, waving his hands. "Were you--what, while we were fighting?!" He sputtered.

"A villain never reveals their secrets." You teased, winking and getting a reluctant chuckle out of the young man. "I'm only sorry my uniform wasn't tailored to inspire those same thoughts in you."

"I was always more concerned about whether I would accidentally hurt you." Mirio admitted bluntly. "I wasn't gonna' pull any punches, but I didn't want to use excessive force either. I know I…I could be kind of a lot when I cut loose."

"That was half the fun!" You protested, making him laugh again. "Especially when you'd grab me and you'd be all worked up and irritated-"

Another kiss silenced you, Mirio now pink to the tips of his ears. "Sorry, I-I didn't mean to be. I'm supposed to be kind of unflappable, y'know." He mumbled.

"Oh don't worry, I don't think anyone else noticed. I only noticed because I knew you for so long." You tapped his jaw. "You get a vein that starts building in your neck and your jaw goes tight."

"I do? Geez, I'll have to work on that." The young man sounded somewhat dismayed. "Can't have people reading me that easily."

"It's better that way. You want the normies to remember that you're still human, right?" 

Mirio went still, his expression darkening. "I…yeah, you're right." He then cupped your cheek, gently easing your face to one side. "I'd like to do this again, I think." He murmured, pressing a few light kisses to your neck and the bruise you sported on your shoulder. "This human stuff." He clarified needlessly, and his smile was tinged with sorrow even as he spoke. "I never know when it'll go away."

"You're not dead yet." You felt like an idiot as soon as the flippant, automatic response left you, but Mirio appeared to agree with your sentiment.

"I'm going to take full advantage of that, I promise." His smile brightening, he went so far as to give you a little wink. "Now come over here so I can uh…do…what people do when they hook up."

"Alright, we can move to the bed." You allowed, laughing as you pulled your shirt off over your head. You ought to have known that any sort of gravity the situation may hold wouldn't last for long in the wake of Mirio's perpetual good cheer. This was just a hook up between old friends and, hey, you figured if he performed well you'd be gracious enough to consider looking over the paperwork. Whether a reward for him or you, you couldn't really say. 

Mirio had bounded to the bed, but the way he was looking at you now gave you pause. 

You hesitated, fidgeting with the sleeves of your discarded shirt as confidence slowly bled out of you. "If you're not comfortable with this-" you began, hoping that he was simply nervous.

Mirio's swallow was audible. "You just look really good." He stated, his voice soft and layered with an odd, unfamiliar heat. You could feel your own temperature rocket up in response, a flushed sensation spreading rapidly at the young man's obvious interest. 

You did your best to appear unaffected, though your leisurely saunter was nearly ruined by your stumbling out of your pants. "Oh?" You mused, trying to free your trapped leg in a cool and collected manner. "I'll admit, that's pretty nice to hear. You're not hard on the eyes yourself, Mi-"

Hands grabbed just beneath your rear and you were abruptly pulled in between Mirio's legs, the young man staring up at you with something akin to hungry awe. You shivered without meaning to, startled and also a bit excited by this turn of events. You could absolutely live with Mirio taking the lead, if only because it might yield humorous results. 

"Now what?" You purred, slinging your arms back around his neck. 

Mirio wordlessly hefted your legs up over his thighs, spreading you wide in his lap. He then kissed the fingers of your right hand, one by one, before requesting in a low voice, "show me what you like, Sunshine."

…

This was fantastic.

Fantastic. 

There had never been a time in his life that he had felt like this and he wanted to remember every detail of it, etch it into his brain with indelible marks. 

What you liked was, apparently, something that he could provide, which was immensely encouraging. As was the sight of you splayed in his lap, your body trembling and voice hitching even as you instructed him to move his fingers like this. 

"Y-You're pretty good at this," you praised, panting. 

Your words sent a shiver down his spine and Mirio straightened up, feeling very self-satisfied as he quickened the pace of his fingers. He could hear how wet you were and the idea that he had done that (or had at least helped a bit!) gave him the confidence to ask, "can I try something?"

The eyebrow raise he got in reply made Mirio cringe a little, but then you were laughing and telling him to go for it. "I'll let you know if I don't feel comfortable with it, Golden Boy." 

"Okay, good." Mirio made a spinning motion with his free hand. "Turn around for me?" After you repositioned yourself in his lap, Mirio pressed his lips to the back of your neck. You quivered under the touch, making a soft sound.

"Don't tease me," you whispered.

"I won't." He promised, fingers trailing over your chest to your nipples. "I just want to feel you." His hand slipped lower, down your stomach to his rapidly-hardening cock. Mirio hissed out a breath, cupping his dick and then sliding it against your pussy. With one large hand keeping it pressed to you, he used the other to gently pluck and tug at one of your nipples, making you arch back against his chest. 

"Mirio…" you whimpered, your breathy voice music to his ears. The young man nuzzled his face into your neck in reply, mouthing at the sensitive skin he discovered there while he slowly worked his cock back and forth over your pussy. 

Togata abruptly realized that you'd had enough when you canted your hips just so, causing the head of his cock to slip into your entrance without his intent. "Oh! Sorry, I-" Mirio's words ground to a stop as you shoved his hand to the side, leaning your entire body forward.

"Fuck me–" you swore, the muttered curse combined with the hot, tight slide of your pussy making Mirio's breathing shudder. You were so wet from his definitely-not teasing that the young man could feel you soaking the base of his dick already, even if most of his brainpower was currently focused on holy hell don't come yet, please don't come yet, this feels incredible.

Your palms pressed down on his thighs and you wriggled, likely situating yourself more comfortably, but Mirio grabbed your hips before he could think twice about it. "Wait." He gasped, biting his lip in an effort to maintain some sort of composure. "Wait, don't move. Just--g-give me a second."

"Oh that's right." You couldn't have sounded more self-satisfied if you had tried, Mirio was certain. "This is your first time, Golden Boy?"

"D-Don't-" He wanted to protest, really he did. Just because he hadn't had sex before didn't mean he was unaware of it, unaware of the urges of his body. His own wants and needs had just…well, they had never really taken priority is all. Then your nails were lightly scratching his thighs and the denial died on his lips. 

"Hey, I'll take good care of you." You crooned, your smug tone only riling the young man up further. 

Mirio's eyes narrowed, his mind racing to come up with something that would throw you off balance. He wasn't exactly knowledgeable in this field, but he might be able to…

Without another word he wrapped an arm around your waist, his other hand seizing your ribs. Then, he laid back, dragging you with him.

…

Holy shit.

Holy shit. 

Mirio, sweet, heroic Mirio, the golden boy, currently had you at his mercy. Restraining you with nothing but his own strength, the young man worked you down until you were fully seated on his cock. You moaned, startled when he shifted you to once again have your back to his chest, his hold on you methodically changing to finally coax your legs up into a full Nelson.

"Holy shit." You gasped, Mirio's fingers laced firmly at the back of your neck encouraging you to look down and watch him penetrate you. "H-Holy shit, Mirio-"

"Don't worry." The young man's voice seethed hot against your ear, echoing your confident words from moments before. "I'll take good care of you." 

"Oh I–believe it." You whimpered, biting your lip. 

Mirio rocked you down into the cradle of his pelvis, seeming to enjoy the idea of you watching him. "This okay?" He grated out, the concern heartwarming but ultimately unneeded. 

"Fuck me, Mirio!" You cried, more than a little panicky at the thought of him stopping. This was the most excitement you'd had in ages, you weren't about to tap out before the fun even began! "Please, please please, I want you-"

Mirio wordlessly planted his feet on your bed, arching his back and thrusting up into you. You keened out, helpless to do anything but get fucked by the large hero. The feeling was breathtaking, a complete surrender of control that left Mirio free to do whatever he liked to you. Currently that appeared to be stretching you to your limits, his cock rubbing in just the right way to drive you to your breaking point. You weren't sure when you had started chanting his name, and you had no idea how you managed to find the breath to do so in the first place.

Mirio, for his part, seemed content to rut against you and pant in your ear, the normally-talkative young man all but silent. He suddenly shuddered bodily, muttering something and then adjusting his grip to ease the strain on your neck. "Probably wasn't too--comfy-" 

Truthfully you hadn't even noticed, but you definitely felt the relief once he changed his hold on you. Your thanks died on your lips as the hero continued his single-minded mission, the air leaving your body too quick for you to get out a sentence. 

"Gonna' come," Mirio grunted, then, "f–uck, want you to come though." The unexpected swear caught you off-guard, your body tensing up at the low, desperate tone of his voice. Something about witnessing Mirio's rigid control begin to fray was fascinating, and you found yourself hoping that you'd get to see more.

"In me," you managed to say, relishing the groan you got in reply. 

The hero shifted, arching beneath you while he fucked up over and over, and with one final, deep plunge, his muscles went taut. "N…not yet, not yet." You could feel the hammering of his heart in his chest, the trembling of his body as he strained and then after what felt like forever, he let go of you.

…

Mirio fairly collapsed, going limp. "Y' 'kay?" He gasped, hastily relinquishing his hold on your body. You, apparently in the process of catching your breath, sufficed with a thumbs up to reply. 

Mirio felt a laugh threatening to escape and he did his best to ward it off by skirting a hand down your chest and stomach to stroke slowly, slowly over your clit. Judging from the way you shivered and arched up into his palm, he got the feeling that it had been the right call.

"I want–" he paused, trying to think of how he could say it differently and just settling on, "I want you to come too, okay? Show me what I should do."

You inhaled quickly, your hand moving to cover his. Your index finger urged his own forward, drawing lazy circles while the heel of your palm kept him from retracting his hand. Not that he would have, of course! Mirio was intensely interested in finding out how he could get you to come, especially considering that you had managed to get him off so easily before. His own impressive recovery period notwithstanding, he still felt like you more than deserved to enjoy yourself if you were able to. 

Judging from the noises you were making and the way your body was writhing, you were extremely able.

Mirio latched his other arm over you just beneath your chest, pinning you down as best as he could. 

"I've got you now, villain!" He exclaimed, grinning broadly while he grappled them to his chest. The miscreant lashed out, yelling and trying to kick him, but their attacks passed harmlessly through his body. "Careful! You'll hurt yourself." Mirio chided, snagging the tail end of their deep hood and tearing it off of them with one sharp jerk. "Now let's see-!"

You? Mirio froze.

Seizing your advantage in his moment of distraction, you managed to wrestle free of his hold. You glared at him with wild eyes, a smirk growing on your face when he remained silent. "What's the matter, Golden Boy? Usually you can't shut the hell up." With that, you slung yourself over the edge of the roof. Mirio heard you hit the fire escape with a metallic clang, your running footsteps quickly fading away…

"I've got you now, villain," he teased, hearing you snort in reply.

"Shut up, you're such a nerd." You said with a breathless laugh, shoving your forehead against his jaw. "I'm not going along with your weird roleplay kink."

"Roleplay-" Mirio began to sputter indignantly, about to list his protests because of course it was a joke, he was joking, but he decided to shove his thumb against your clit instead. With his cock still inside you he found he could feel your reactions, even the ones you tried to hide, which he was sure might be considered playing dirty. He couldn't really bring himself to care much though, considering the fact that your fingers were digging into the hair at the nape of his neck. 

"H-Hey–" you panted, sounding a little confused. "Mirio, w--Mirio, holy shit."

"Is it alright?" Mirio cautiously asked, hoping that your reactions weren't being caused by something aside from pleasure.

"It's great, fuck, fuck-" You were trembling, seeming torn between fucking down onto his cock or up into his hand. This led to stuttering motions that Mirio slowly eased into the rhythm of, his pelvis shifting up to meet you and elongate the motion. Your whole body was pressed to his and, while Mirio had a difficult time splitting his attention between the sounds he was wringing out of you and keeping his fingers moving, he liked to believe he wasn't doing too badly. 

You suddenly tensed up and the hero choked, feeling your pussy throb around him. "Fuck." You breathed, going limp in Mirio's arms. 

"Wow." Mirio gasped, grabbing your hips and thrusting upwards. "Wow, Sunshine." His brain completely deserted him as he chased his own completion, dissolving into nothing but nonsensical muttering and panting. "S' tight–" He groaned and it was as if you tightened even further, forcing him to do nothing but grind himself against you like a man possessed. 

You pitched forward to brace yourself on his thighs and that was all it took. Mirio buried his cock inside your cunt and came, his hands trembling before latching down hard on your hips.

…

You stared up at the ceiling, stunned speechless. Mirio simply continued to gently clean you up with a washcloth. When you finally broke the silence, it was to ask, "where the hell did you learn how to rail like that?"

"Good?" He asked cautiously.

"Yes Mirio, fuck's sake," you laughed, your mind still hazy. 

"I mean, I-I dunno', it was my first time so I'm not really sure."

You shifted your weight, catching his wrist. "You weren't kidding earlier? I figured you were just trying to maintain that sterling reputation you've got."

Mirio didn't meet your eyes, seeming a bit embarrassed. "W-Well, what good would have come out of lying? You'd have figured it out pretty quick."

Deliberately softening your tone, you replied, "Thank you for being honest with me, then. Even if it could be awkward."

"You deserve honesty," Mirio insisted, "and you deserve safety."

You sighed heavily, flopping onto your back and rolling your eyes. "Alright, let me use the bathroom and then you can pitch me your incredible scheme." You raised a finger to ward off the excited outburst you could see he was about to unleash. "I expect to have my record scrubbed. I'm not joining some stuffy group on garbage terms just because you think I would 'work hard and succeed' or 'it's what's right'. You know you can trust me. If you want me involved, you can go to bat to convince your peers to let me function without imposing unnecessary restrictions."

Mirio looked incredibly serious. "Done." 

You reached over, giving his hand a shake. "Well then Golden Boy, sell me on your plan and let's get me that hero license."

He pulled you into him instead, his eyes searching your own. That serious expression didn't wane in the slightest, even as he leaned down to kiss you once more. "I'll keep you safe." He murmured. "You don't have to be afraid anymore, okay? I'll help however I can."

"Sh-Shut up, Golden Boy." You blustered, flicking the tip of his nose before making your escape to the bathroom. Before you did anything else though, you braced yourself on the sink and studied your reflection in the mirror for a few moments. Was it hope or just the idea of it, daring to brighten your expression from its usual frown?

Maybe…maybe this hero stuff isn't so bad.

[aziraphales-library]

Lost Fic #159

1. hi! i've been peeking around for a bit on here and on ao3, and i just can't find this one fic that quite possibly changed my brain chemistry forever. i remember that post-everything, the husbands got reincarnated into plants? and there might've been other forms, but i remember the plants the most. it would've been around pre-2021, maybe pre-2020 but i can't remember the exact time i read it. anyways, was hoping you've all either recommended it and i couldn't find it, or can find it for me. much love! - @ludicguest

2. Hi, I’m trying to find a specific fic I read and seem to have lost. It was post-notpacolypse and featured Crowley sort of falling apart with anxiety. There are a few scenes where he and Aziraphale visit a hospital that’s in some kind of neutral place between heaven and hell. They also see a lawyer there. At the hospital they have to adopt their true forms for some kind of test, and Crowley’s is an enormous dragon I think. At some point Lucifer threatens them and calls Crowley Behemoth. I loved this story so much, and I can’t find it anymore in my bookmarks. I would be incredibly grateful if someone could tell me where to find it. - @alrightthenillgotohell

3. I have a vague memory of a fic that I read when the show first came out or maybe even just before. Crowley was feeling sad about loving Aziraphale and moping around his house, there was baking, and I think some stargazing, and I think one of them travelled through a telephone line at the end? - @thenameofsantiagossextape

4. You all are so amazing and work so hard!! Thank you for all the fantastic fics you've helped find. If you're taking a break right now, please Enjoy! When you've the time, I'm looking for a fic in which Crowley scolds God. What I recall about the scene, he and Aziraphale are in Heaven, the archangels are there (maybe the whole Host?) and Crowley said something like "Of course they (archangels/angels) behaved this way (wrathful/vengeful/merciless) - look at the example You showed them! Theyre learning it all from You!" (Referring to Falling, Old Testament, etc...) Any help appreciated, would love to reread and it's been taunting me. Enjoy Season 2!! - @sinewavirgo

5. Hello! I’m looking for a fic that I’m a bit worried might have been deleted since I can’t find it in my bookmarks! It was an ineffable wives fic that went through all the major events of their relationship and ended with them retiring to the south downs, and in the final scene I think they were walking on the beach together. I distinctly remember there was a part with them exchanging letters (I think during WW2?), and then later Crowley found on of the letters had been printed in a book. I hope this is specific enough that someone knows what it is! - anon

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