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lizacstuff · 4 years

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Liza that 3rd fragman 👀 "if I was born a 100 times I'd fall in love with you everytime" Eda saying this is their last obstacle and nothing can separate them, serkan's "I'll be right back, close your eyes I'm here" If this isn't all a red flag for shits about to hit the fan then I don't know what is LOL (but also how cute to Edser look and them telling each other they love each other very much 😭😭😭)

That fragman is both the SWEETEST and the MOST OMINOUS thing I’ve ever seen. ALL AT ONCE.

Friends... we’re gonna go through some things. That being said, everything is going to be great. These writers have been solid so far, and I have faith they have come up with something really interesting to increase the longevity of this show. And I don’t know about you, but I’m prepared to go through some things if it means keeping Eda and Serkan for longer. (I heart them)

This show is about Eda and Serkan and their love story, at it’s core it’s a comedy, it will all lead to happy things, but... yeah, buckle up!

I have a lot of asks both about the fragman and last ep, so I’m going to answer a bunch under the cut.

Anonymous said: The fandom theories about episode 28 have gotten so wild that I literally think the most shocking thing would be if they actually got married and were not separated (emotionally or physically). What if the earlier painful episodes were to make us believe that things couldn't possibly go right in 28 and it's a reverse psychology trick?

You could be right! I like your thinking. I checked on twitter and I had to back away slowly. The juvenile temper tantrums were too much for me today.

Look, I think it’s clear something big is coming. It has to, there has to be something that shakes up the show. Some of the theories are more upsetting and catastrophic than others, but the writers won’t do anything that dings either character or their love for one another. Whatever happens will showcase the connection between these two and the chemistry between the actors, that’s the point of everything, and anything that does those things is gonna be a-okay with me.

@jan31 Hi Liza. Do you think we are going to see the wedding in 28 or they will leave it on a cliffhanger for next week. Lots of theories going round mainly cos of Neslihan saying new dimensions coming in episode 29, which could just mean married life etc. I have seen suggestions of memory loss, it's all a dream since episode one. I would personally love Eda to wake up like in episode one but for it to be a total turn around and she is the boss and Serkan the employee. Eda being robot yildiz appeals to me!!! I know it will never happen but leave me here with my dreams!!

I started the day at 90% sure they’ll be married in 28/29, but now I’m down to like 30% that they’ll get married in these episodes. I really, really want them to get married before whatever happens happens, because every scenario I can think of for this reset or starting again, seems like it would be better if they were married.

However, the shooting spoilers from today, make me question that. Namely the videos where Hande appears to still be wearing the ring on her right hand. We shall see, that could be for many reasons.

Honestly, though, I wouldn’t hate a memory loss storyline. Seeing one of them (and Serkan’s line in the trailer makes it seem like it might be him) lose their memory and have to fall in love all over again? There are worse fates for a shipper than getting to experience that all again but in a different way.

Anonymous said: Your response to the fandom drama anon was so good, it's exactly how I feel. While I don't know what the old posts that were like are (that's shady as fuck) I did see all the other drama go down and wow. The actresses def need to stay in their lane and some of the fans, hoooo boy, it's obvious they're young based off their reactions alone. Had to unfollow some people once I realized what they were like. Also some of the IRL shipping reminded me of col*fer stuff, reading into everything and blowing it out of proportion (which then gets picked up by paps....). But you're right in that at least the show related drama is tame compared to OUAT. But still, people being too careless even while they know the paps see everything and harass Kerem and hande (omg did you see the video of hande the other day stopped in the van and she looked so overwhelmed 😔)

You’re referencing this post here about yesterday’s drama.

Today Neslihan made it worse by addressing everything and claiming she didn’t like all those Hande-bashing posts because... wait for it... she was HACKED. Oy. Hackers got in and went back two years to like gross posts about Hande? Sure, Jan. While I don’t believe that for a second, I guess that at least gives her cover with Hande so they can all pretend it’s true and move on so it’s not awkward on set. But, yikes, she needs to consult a publicist, she took a narrative that was circulating in certain circles in fandom and made sure all her followers were aware. Not very savvy.

As for the paps coming after Hande, yes I did see her in the car, she did look overwhelmed. Back off vultures!!! That’s why I think Kerem sometimes throws himself to the wolves so that doesn’t happen. She always handles them like a pro, but you can tell she’d rather be anywhere else on earth than talking to them.

The pap stuff is worse than I’ve seen before, they’re like vultures circling for any conjecture (sometimes made up out of thin air) they can turn into a question and blame fans. OUAT actors dealt with nothing like this. Also I can’t believe they never ask about the show. Like after last week? They could legit ask about the sex scene which probably would have given them some angle on the actors that they wanted, (especially since it was too hot for Turkish TV) but they let that pass them by, and instead asked the same questions about being together that they never answer. Dumbasses. They are not only awful people, they are awful at their jobs.

In Van, the paps pay off crew members for info, they always know more than fans. Also I don’t remember stars of my shows getting this level of tabloid attention before. Except for on Riverdale, Lili and Cole generated that level of interest, and while I didn’t pay terribly close attention to them, I feel like they rarely talked to the paps, were just photographed. Also I don’t suspected the CW of calling the paps on them, but I suspect either the network or production company of sometimes calling them on Hande and Kerem.

Anonymous said: Do you think it’s weird that they didn’t touch the kidnapping at all in either trailer? They might not have filmed it in time for the 1st one but certainly the 2nd. And I’m definitely not complaining about the ones we got because its like a fairytale but the kidnapping was the cliffhanger...? 🧐 I think they should’ve just left the princes storyline at “he went back to his country” but then they didn’t so......

If they’d left his story at just going back to his country, then the Prince really wouldn’t have served his purpose. He was brought on to cause some sort of trouble, so they probably need him to cause the trouble before he goes, lets hope it ends with this kidnapping!

And to answer your question, yes, I do think it’s weird that neither trailer touched on it. On any other show I’d think it was a huge red flag, but on this show maybe not as much because a) there’s obviously a lot of romance in this episode, it’s not crazy that they are focusing on that to draw people in with the promos b) this show likes to do cliffhangers that end up being no big deal, that happens a lot.

Who knows it could turn out to be a big deal that shapes the rest of the episode in some unexpected way (Eda’s captured the whole episode and she’s dreaming about wedding prep, or... who knows) but I think it’s more likely that they resolve in the first 5-10 minutes and then move on. Since we know from the summary (not that I trust those) that Serkan goes on the bachelor weekend, it feels like the Prince is taken care of prior to that. I don’t think he’d leave her alone for a second if there was a chance the Prince was still a threat. Perhaps Babaanne is pissed he tried to kidnap Eda and tells them she’ll handle it herself???

Anonymous said: Semiha not being in the promo is highkey suspicious. The actress is promoting the episode lol. She's about to Evil Queen this wedding ceremony but you know what, I'm fine with whatever she has planned if they end up married at the end of the day. What's funny is that since a lot of fans these days will assume that there will be shocking negative plot twists, not actually having one here would be a plot twist so I hope the writers keep them together for whatever's next haha

You’re not wrong, at this point, having this wedding take place would be a shocking twist for all of us! As for Semiha... hmmm... it will be interesting to see what her reaction is to Eda being kidnapped by her pick of suitor. Serkan Bolat might be the son of the man indirectly responsible for her parents death, but he would never hurt her. Take note, Grandbag!

Anonymous said: Do you mind sharing your speculative scenarios?

After the trailer today, I don’t know if I can even remember some of them.

Memory loss

Grandma forces Serkan to choose between Eda and his company/wealth, he chooses Eda and they start over from scratch with nothing

Time jump

AU starting over, showing a different path they might have taken together

Dream

These actors playing different characters in a new story

I don’t think the last three are likely, but they did spring to mind after some of Neslihan’s teases.

Anonymous said: So this show doesn't get like fantastic ratings (it actually seems to be on the lower end compared to all other dizis airing) but the social media engagement is off the charts. Why is that?!? Is the show just extraordinarily popular internationally? or that this is a "shipping" show? I'm floored by the numbers - its like no other show/fandom is even trying

The ratings were terrific during the summer. But to your point, it has a huge fandom both in Turkey and internationally, but it’s worth noting that most of those charts you see where it beats every other show in every imaginable social metric is just for Turkey.

It’s one of those lightning in a bottle situations where you get the right property and the right actors together at the right time and magic happens. And, for sure, the number one reason is the shipping. Shipping drives fandom engagement, and a fantastic ship with a juicy, fun, tropey love story is what this show offers. It also offers up two extremely attractive, talented, likeable leads with off-the-charts chemistry (plus the added speculation about an off-camera relationship that has intrigued more than a few fans, tabloids and gossip sites and fueled interest) who have done a good job of building the fanbase through their social media engagement. Plus the timing is part of it as well. I don’t know about you, but this show hit the spot during this pandemic and the horror of 2020. We all needed this escape.

Anonymous said:Do you think something happened in the writers room after the backlash of 25 and fan disappointment after Ayse's announcement? I feel like a switch flipped and now we're in fanficland with how much good content we've gotten in these last two episodes. Like I thought maybe they should wrap up the series soon before the characters got completely off the tracks but they may be finding their groove now and I'm interested to see what their next twist is after they can write out Balca/Seymen.

I don’t know about a switch flip, this show has been fanfic land since the first episode! The tropes! That is how I described it to multiple people when I first started watching: an AU fanfic come to life.

As for the writing changes, no, I don’t think backlash after 25 affected 26 or 27, because 26 was already 90% shot, and 27 already written. However, I assume they themselves could tell that 25 got just too dark and had strayed pretty far from the DNA of the series. While I didn’t think it was bad, it was not fun to watch and this show ought to be fun to watch.

Let’s hope, however, that the backlash affects future episodes in that they know what works... and what doesn’t. The last two episodes definitely felt reminiscent of the first batch of episodes. Light, funny, romantic. If they can keep that tone... I’ll be thrilled.

Anonymous said: i didn't realize how much i missed "together" edser until watching 27.. it's been so long since they were "officially" together and we also had such few episodes of it.. ppl have been comparing it to 12 and while in some ways i agree, edser are always so different here than they were there. 12 was them navigating their new relationship.. they were more shy and finding their footing.. here they are very much established, as they should be after knowing their love for so long in comparison to 12!

Yes, it was lovely. You know I’ve preached a lot about how even though Eda and Serkan were broken up, they’ve still been together all this time. And it’s true, but there is something about them truly being together that is magical. We never got enough of that the first time around (a writing mistake in my opinion) and they’re so good together it’s lovely to watch.

Anonymous said: Serkan not asking for help from Balca when asking his team for help with the marriage gifts preparations and refusing her offer of help when she asked made me so happy. Good job Serkan! He's learning! She's not trustworthy!

Yes, that was a good moment. And he was eyeing her very warily when she offered. The thing I don’t understand is how has no one caught on that she’s working with Babaanne? That entire office is filled with nosy people, has no one remarked on the number of times Balca has gone up to the office or they’ve disappeared for lunch at the same time? Come on Leyla! Come on Melo! Notice these things!

Anonymous said: Fingers crossed that we finally make progress towards getting rid of Seiman & Balca now that all the girls were drugged and Eda was put in the car in the last episode. Unless Seiman has a change of heart and takes Eda back inside before anyone wakes & the guys get there then the show has to address it. Although I do not think Balca is going to back down unless Serkan straight up tells her he has zero interest in her and never will. Totally fine if that happens in the next episode.

Will Balca backdown even if she’s humiliated like that? She’s so delusional I’m not sure. What I am sure is that she’s dangerous. This came in before we saw the other two fragmans that have no mention of the kidnapping. Hard to picture how that is so easily resolved. Unless she frees herself (which seems unlikely in her groggy state) or maybe Melo’s future boyfriend is able to stop it before they get far? Or I don’t know. I just know that I want to see Serkan lose his mind and all the other characters see Serkan lose his mind and then I want it to be over. LOL.

Anonymous said: As much as I am loving everything Edser, I cannot wait for Seiman, Balca and Grandma to be gone. And I am even more annoyed to think that the show might try to redeem all 3 characters. All 3 of them are truly awful people and no need to waste air time trying to make the audience think any different. Just my opinion...🤷🏻‍♀️. Show please finally expose those 3 for the psychos they are and get rid of them.

Bye bitches! I don’t think there’s any redemption for Balca and Seiman. They both have poisoned/dosed people, hard to come back from that. And there is no need to redeem them because neither is compelling enough to be a long-term character. But maybe Granny, we probably will see a redemption arc for her.

Anonymous said: i know you were worried a few weeks ago that with ayse leaving as writer, we probably wouldn't have the same sort of comedy as previous episodes... but istg the whole kiz isteme scene, especially with chef alex, had me almost crying with laughter. especially when serkan off the cuff just goes "well if that's an option..." to everyone misunderstanding alex "wanting" ayfer for 2 nights and then eda ready to beat him with the flowers he bought her... comedic gold lmao.

SO GOOD! I was thrilled to see that sort of comedy, the sort of comedy we’d come to expect, from these writers. I think it bodes very well indeed!

That scene was amazing. I know Neslihan said that much of it was improvised. Probably that line from Serkan (since Serkan is SO out-of-his-mind in love I’m not sure he could even joke about having Eda only two nights a week! LOL) was improv from Kerem, and Aydan asking about the other nights, and Seyfi bringing up the weekend. And Eda’s very Hande-esque “Ser-KAN.”

I just love rewatching that scene and checking out everyone who is breaking character and just losing it. Cagri most of all. He’s blurred aback there but you can see Ferit spends the whole time laughing or trying to stifle a laugh. Reminds me of Cagri in the scene in 18 when they’re watching the security footage he was losing it in that scene as well.

Anonymous said: i'm scared - I think they are really about to give us all of these happy EdSer scenes only to have something happen RIGHT before the wedding ceremony due to Babaanne. Based on the last episode, I don't think there's any chance of a breakup (knock on wood) but what if Serkan gets arrested, goes to jail for 2 years, and we get a time jump?

This was sent before the last two teasers, so yes I think something is gonna happen. We shall see! I don’t really think Serkan going to jail for 2 years is in the cards, at least I hope not! Besides if Babaanne did that she would have no hopes of ever reconciling with Eda, so that seems unlikely she’d follow through and leave him there for so long a time.

Anonymous said: With the last week's sex scene, they did a lot of fade outs but the scene was basically still there so it wasn't much wasted effort for the actors. But for what they're teasing in episode 28 - idk how they can get away with showing them in the shower at all if Serkan lifting Eda with her clothes on had required blurring? Is Eda dropping her robe even pushing it? It's intriguing indeed.

Great questions. We’re 36 hours from finding out (well I'm longer than that because I wait for the English subs, hee hee) All I know is I want to see these scenes.. one way or another!

#sen cal kapimi #edser #Sen Çal Kapımı #sck spoilers #sck specualtion #sckask #sck episode discussion #asklizac #Anonymous

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i-can-get-extra-with-my-ships · 4 years

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Sick Of Losing Soulmates

Em posting writing? WHA??? Do people still follow me for my writing? idk. I should write some Sanders Sides. Y’all like that. watch me never do it because i can never finish a project. Anyways

Fandom: Dear Evan Hansen

Ship: Treebros

Tw: Break ups, fights, yelling, mentions of past suicide attempts/past being suicidal and suicide attempts

Word count: 1185

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Based on this Dodie song

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What a strange being you are.

Evan remembered how Connor was the one kid who didn't have any friends and everyone assumed that he preferred it that way. He didn't though. But as Even grew closer to Connor he noticed all of his weird ticks and fidgets.

Like how he would start pulling the fuzz out of his hoodie pockets when he was nervous. And how he rested his elbows awkwardly and pulled his hair when he was focusing.

God knows where I would be if you hadn't found me sitting all alone in the dark.

That wasn't entirely true. Connor knew exactly where he'd be if Evan hadn't found him that day.

He'd be dead. He would have killed himself. At that time he thought there was nothing. No reason for him to stick around.

A dumb screenshot of youth. Watch how a cold broken teen will desperately lean on a superglued human of truth.

It was true. They found each other at one of the lowest points of their lives. At the time the other was the only reason they had to live. Loneliness does that to you.

What the hell would I be without you?

They both knew the answer. A mess. This is what happens when two suicidal teenage messes find each other and end up relying on one another.

Brave face talk so lightly, hide the truth.

If Evan had a dollar for every time Connor said he was ok and that he didn't need to talk about something and wasn't he'd be rich.

Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates. So where do we begin? I can finally see you're as fucked up as me so how do we win? Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates. Won't be alone again. I can finally see you're as fucked up as me so how do we win?

It was comforting to know that there was someone who was just as fucked up as you were in the same ways you were. It allowed for an outlet and helped them feel like the other wasn't staying out of pitty.

We will grow old as friends.

Evan and Connor stuck by each other's side through the rest of their senior year, throughout college and beyond. Their relationship going beyond the realm of friends and into something more.

I've promised that before, so what's one more in our gray-haired circle, waiting for the end?

"Evan I swear to you. I will never leave you. We'll just like, I dunno, grow old together or something." Connor ran his hand through his hair as he let out the thought.

Evan had a panic attack. He was worrying about Connor leaving him.

"You promise?" Evan quirked his head to the side and offered a half-smile.

"I promise." The space between them was closed in a swift movement.

Time and hearts will wear us thin.

"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME CARE ABOUT YOU GODDAMN IT!!"

This was the first time they'd ever fought like this. It was probably the first time Evan had yelled at Connor. It was the first time Connor had yelled at Evan since they began to get to know one another.

"WELL, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE??"

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU CONNOR!"

So which path will you take? Cause we both know a brake does exactly what it says on the tin.

Evan's voice broke and suddenly all the anger melted away.

"I love you so goddamn much. I love you more than I love myself. I love you more than life. I hate it when you think so poorly of yourself." Evan wrapped his arms around himself and tried to make himself as small as possible.

Connor hadn't seen him like this since high school. It hurt him to know that he was the cause of this.

"Evan, honey, I'm so sorry, I- I- don't-" Connor tried to apologies but he couldn't figure out how to. For Evan, it was enough though. He walked over and Connor hugged him for a while. The simple action explaining more than words ever could.

What the hell would I be without you?

Connor knew that without Evan he'd probably be completely disowned and have literally no one. Evan had come in at just the right time to help him through his issues. The same thing when Connor had come into Evan's life They really balanced each other out.

Brave face talk so lightly, hide the truth.

Connor tried to be brave for Evan. He really did. He tried to be better. He tried so hard. But sometimes his thoughts and emotions got the better of him.

"Connor, how did you break your arm?" Evan asked after signing the cast.

"I was leaning too far out over the balcony and fell."

Connor was never a good actor. They both knew he was lying but the matter wasn't pushed. It was almost like Evan knew but asked to prove his assumptions.

They both knew they were fucked up. There was no way around it. They were. But they had shown each other that they weren't as fucked up as they thought they were.

I won't take no for an answer.

"I'm taking you to a therapist Connor."

I won't take no for an answer.

"We're gonna have a fun time and talk to some people that aren't in our friend group. I promise they won't bite."

I won't take no.

"Do you wanna maybe, I dunno, umm... like, I mean, like, go out for coffee sometime?"

"I dunno. Depends on if you're willing to pick me up at 7."

Connor had decided that Evan being confident was hot.

No, I won't take no.

"You're gonna have to coexist with Jared for one night Con."

Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates. So where do we begin?

The fights had gotten more frequent and much worse. The time they'd spent together was now more fighting than actually loving each other.

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me so how do we win?

The thing was, Evan was coming to realize that Connor was just as fucked up as Evan had thought he himself was.

Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates. Won't be alone again.

"Connor, you've gotten me through some tough shit man. But, I think we should break up. This isn't working out. We're fighting 10 times more than we ever used to. And we're not happy."

Connor chuckled dryly. "You were always right about everything. This time I really wish you weren't." He thought for a moment. "So I guess this is goodbye then?"

Evan looked away. "I guess it is. Goodbye Connor."

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me so how do we win?

The simple answer? They don't.

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Ha ha ha

AnGsT

#tw suicide attempts #Em's crappy attempts at writing #deh #treebros

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lovemesomesurveys · 5 years

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your name: Stephanie. do you like to shoot pool?: I’ve never played pool. are you any good?: what is the scariest movie you ever saw?: Hmm. I’m not sure what horror film gets the scariest movie title. I love horror films, but I haven’t been really scared by one in a long time. the funniest?: That’s tough, too.

the saddest?: I’m not good at this haha. do you daydream?: Yeah. My wanders and drifts a lot. do you dream at night?: Yeah. We all do, it's just sometimes we don't remember them. <<< I rarely remember them. Sometimes I will briefly, but then it’s gone. It has to really affect me or something for me to remember. A lot of my dreams are just so random and weird. do you remember them? Care to share?: ^^^ when you're sick, do you like to be pampered, or left alone?: It’s definitely nice to be taken care of, but I do like to sleep a lot when I’m sick so it’s a bit of both. who's the better actor, jack nicholson or anthony hopkins?: I don’t know, they’re both good at the creepy. are you superstitious?: Nah. I do the knock on wood thing, but it’s really just out of habit at this point cause I’ve done it so long. how many pictures are in your wallet?: The only photo in my wallet is my ID. do you like getting pictures taken?: No. if someone cries while watching a sad movie..do you laugh at them?: Nooo. Not sure why that’d be funny. I don’t even acknowledge it, I just let them have their moment. I’m probably too into the movie to really notice anyway. how often do you change your sheets?: Twice a month. is you bedroom upstairs or down?: We only have one floor. is it true blood is thicker than water?: Sadly, not always. Some people have toxic families. if you could wish someone out of your life ..who would it be?: The only people in my life currently are my family and I wouldn’t wish any of them out of my life! I’m here because of them. if you could be with anyone in the world..famous or not..who would it be?: It’s best that I’m single. are you high maintenance?: No. if you could change one thing in the world..what would it be: No violence. if you could star in any movie..which would it be?: One with Alexander Skarsgard where I play his girlfriend. haha. deliveryman at your door..who's the package from?: *shrug* I didn’t order anything. if you could completely change who you are..would you?: I’d change a lot that’s for sure. if you could live in a fairytale..which would it be?: Alice in Wonderland. if you could live in the past..where would it be?: I just wanna go back to the 90s, honestly. if you could see only one person right now..who would it be?: I’d love to see my grandma again. :( do you wear shoes in the house?: No. do you dream in color or black and white?: In color. what is your favorite accent?: British accents and some southern ones. do you like sunsets or sunrises?: Both are beautiful. what age did you find out santa wasn't real?: I think I was 8. do you write poetry/songs/stories?: Nope. do you wear socks with sandals?: No. I never wear sandals. would you marry for money?: Absolutely not. do you have any "in the mood" music you like to listen to?: Haha there are some songs where I’ve thought it would be a song to do the deed to. :X would you vote for a woman president?: If she was a good candidate in my own personal opinion, yeah. <<<< This. I want to vote for someone who I feel can do the best job. Their gender has nothing to do with it. Are looks/appearances really important?: I can’t say it doesn’t matter at all, but it’s not the most important. what are you most looking forward to?: There isn’t anything coming up. if someone lied to you and came clean is that forgivable?: I could forgive them most likely in time, but whether we remain friends or close is another story. It really depends on what the lie was. if you had to repeat a day over and over again..what day would you pick?: Ugh, my life already feels like that. It’s like Groundhog’s Day. Even a good day I wouldn’t want to repeat forever. When you die, do you want to be cremated or buried? Cremated. Did/do you like high school? Parts of it I liked. Do you like to play video games? Some. I’m always down for Mario games. Do you like Final Fantasy? Which one do you prefer of all? I’ve never played. My brothers loves that series, though. It does look interesting. Have you ever caught on fire? The tips of my hair did once while blowing out birthday candles :X Do you have a YouTube channel? Yeah, but I don’t upload. I use it to subscribe to channels and leave comments if I want. Do you ever go to video game arcades? No. Do you care what people think of you? Yes and no. Not as much as I used to, but that’s not because I’ve become a confident person or anything. I just don’t have the energy to care. I’ve become numb to it I guess. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? Nope. Do you like Lady Gaga? I like some of her songs. Don’t you hate when your foot falls asleep? I don’t have that problem, but I hate when my hand or arm falls asleep. Do you think you have been in love before? Yes. Do you write poetry? No. I dabbled with it briefly my sophomore year in high school, though. They’re super cringe looking back on them. Do you like Edgar Allan Poe? I liked The Tell-Tale Heart. Have you ever met anyone famous? If so, who? Jamie Lee Curtis and Drake Bell. Have you ever gotten hit on by some creeper? Yeah, a few. Do you watch LifeTime? My mom and I used to all the time back in the day when I was younger. Now we do every once and awhile, usually if there’s nothing else on of interest. What happens is once you start one movie, you end up watching the rest of the day. Do you bless random people when they sneeze? Sometimes. Do you have a short temper? No. I get irritated quite easily, though. Do you like Sarah Dessen? Yeah, I’ve read a few of her books. Do you want to have children? If so, how many? No. Have you ever had a yard sale? No. Do you go to Barnes and Noble for books, the library or someplace else? I use the Kindle app, honestly. I have access to a ton of books. If I wanted a physical copy; though, I’d go to Barnes and Noble. Do you have an iPad? Nope. Are you scared to die? Yes. Do you go to church every Sunday? I watch the videos the church near me uploads every Sunday. Have you ever called one of those Hot Line numbers? No. I can’t believe those are still a thing. I see the commercials for them still. Do you think you draw well? Ha, no. I can’t draw for shit. Have you ever wanted to be a meteorologist? No. Do you like Taylor Swift? I’m not a fan.

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himboholhorse-moving · 5 years

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HDSKFJKS I completely understand but lucky for u I LOVE to talk !!

1) How are you?

Pretty good, actually!! Which is a nice change of pace. I went to Walmart with some friends yesterday and got a few things, baked a family recipe that my friends LOVE, and finally did my laundry (it’s been a couple weeks we love depression and executive dysfunction dfhkjsfd). I went to Cracker Barrel with some friends and earlier and played a 4-way game of Tetris after. :3c

2) Post a picture of yourself.

Here you go !!

4) What is your entire name?

Sierra Alexis and my last name is something constantly misspelled so I’ll give you the name of a historical figure whose name is a letter off from mine: George B. McClellan, to whom I may or may not be related because last name variations are fuckin’ WEIRD.

7) Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.

I’m a Capricorn sun and moon, and Libra rising !! And from what I’ve read on Twitter from various astrologers, like Milkstrology, I LOVE her, I’d say it’s pretty accurate with my personality!! I like to say Capricorn’s aren’t cold bitches but, I Have A Tendency To Be One !!

8) What did you do on your last birthday?

God what DID I do on my last birthday… it was in January, so like, I SHOULD remember… OH I went to IHOP with my friends !! I share a birthday with another friend and I got a JoJo notebook and something called a Fuggler! They’re stuffed animals more or less but designed to be “ugly.” I got one that looks like Philadelphia Flyers mascot Gritty because I LOVE Gritty… he’s so fun and funky.

9) What is one thing you’d like to accomplish before your next birthday?

Get all my requests in my inbox over on my writing blog done KJHFDJKSF it’s been a few months and life has been. Hectic to say the least.

13) If you could change your eye color, would you?

There’s so much weird as hell brown-eye-phobia so like… I think blue eyes would be pretty neat. OR PURPLE… give me some unnatural eye colors pls...

18) Do you have any tattoos?

Not yet!! I’m going to get one the next time I go back home for break. :3c And I have a few ideas for other ones!! I wanna get a big-ass “Dragon Age: Origins” tattoo that’s the dragon on the cover on my thigh. I also wanna get a DA2 and “Inquisition” tattoo… and the Joestar birthmark… too many ideas…

20) Left or right handed?

Right-handed !! I could have been left-handed or ambidextrous if I broke my arm AFTER I started kindergarten, but alas that was before.

26) Something you are working on right now:

This !! But also the script for my next podcast episode that I record on uhhh Monday I think. Should probably figure that one out dsjfjhsf

27) Do you have any “rules” about food?

I answered that in the last ask !!

29) What would you say is your best quality?

I also answered this in the last ask !!

30) What do you think you’re really good at?

Writing, I’d say! And memorizing trivia about the stuff I’m super into. If it’s stuff pertaining to “M*A*S*H” or old movies or TV shows or actors or specific historical events, I will know that shit FOR LIFE. Don’t ask me to do math pls thank u

32) What talent do you wish you’d been born with?

I wish I was able to do stuff with music. That was never really in my blood, despite all the music classes they make you take in elementary school. I just never learned how to memorize or read sheet music. :/ I would have loved to play violin, tho… my friend plays and she says I would have been a good cellist.

39) Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?

YES… have for years. I still have my Care Bear from when I was 5, Gritty as mentioned above, a plush of my school’s mascot, and a little Fugo !! He’s so tiny.

40) What do you think about the most?

Everything and constantly and all at once. But the past really because I can never let stuff go and even the small things I mess up on haunt me forever… Wish that wasn’t the case but it is !!

41) Share two habits:

Biting my nails and having a very specific routine in which I get ready when I wake up. Like, I’ve gotta go brush my hair before I put my important cards in my left pocket, then put on my silver bracelet, then my beaded bracelet, then my earbuds in my right pocket, then put my earrings in. I HAVE to do it in that order…

And other oddities that include, like, if I need to go around something I HAVE to follow the urge to go one way and not the other, lest I feel the need to go back and fix it. And then which foot goes first before I reach a crack in the sidewalk, or up or down a curb, etc.

43) What are your career goals?

If I can just make people happy or get some kind of joy out of the things I do, I’d call that enough. :)

44) What is your ideal career?

Mmm, either a film historian or a film professor !! Preferably at the college I’m at right now but wherever the wind takes me, I’ll go! Or a Twitch streamer or YouTuber, it really depends on my mood jdhfjskf

45) Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

It was pretty much the same !! Freshman year was pretty lively, I didn’t have a job on campus yet though, or my podcast. Everything else is basically the same!

46) Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

CONSTANTLY… good or bad it’ll play back over and over and over again.

49) Do you have any phobias?

HOO BOY, DO I… fear of heights; fear of insects/bugs/arachnids/bees/wasps; I have a strong dislike of the number 13 but I don’t know if it’s a phobia, I just. REALLY hate it; the unknown, more or less what lurks somewhere beyond where I can see. Not so much a fear of the dark with that one, just what could BE in it.

51) Are you allergic to anything? If so, what?

I answered this in my last ask, as well!

53) Ever come close to death?

Two or three times, maybe? Two of them involved what’s called a laryngospasm, typically it can happen when your sick, which is what happened to me both times. Basically your throat just closes up on your for a hot minute and you can’t breathe. The first time I genuinely thought I was going to die (and my dad still sent me to school that day… HOE), the second time I was also sick and was losing/had lost my voice DURING A JOB RETREAT and it happened in the middle of the night so that was funny sitting there gasping for breath in the pitch dark.

At the FIRST retreat I went on for that job, you had to take pictures as part of a scavenger hunt, and the place used to be an old military fort, so there were still the old bunkers there. We had to take one on top of it and I was taking the picture, and it’s a wide shot so I go to take a step back but before I do I look behind me. If I hadn’t I would have fallen a good 10-15 feet down onto solid Civil War-era bunker concrete. I’d consider that being a “close to death” moment because I really could have died!

55) A random fact about yourself:

I have a half-brother !! My sis and I finally found him after her 23andMe results came back (which she decided to do despite us being like THE GOVERNMENT WILL COLLECT OUR DATA) and we didn’t think our mom would be happy she found him but she was !! My sis might reach out and contact him, she just wanted our mom’s permission first to do it.

56) What are three things most people don’t know about you?

Well, that I have a half-brother. I don’t mention it a lot. Aside from y’all on here and my sister, most everyone else doesn’t know I’m nonbinary! Everyone else knows I’m bi though lmao. And that there were times I’d stretch or bend the truth or lie about something just to impress someone else. It’s a… Bad Habit. Another thing is that most people don’t know I like coffee? Like I need to put a shit ton of creamer in with it because I’m a Bitch, but yeah.

57) An unknown fact about your life:

I wouldn’t call this an “unknown” fact but I’d used to go to work with my dad every now and again when he worked at the Home Depot and he was assistant manager. I’d either chill in the back room which was an office he shared with two other guys, or walk around the store with him. I had my own apron, too, which was my name with “Mini Mac” next to it, “Mac” being my dad’s nickname and something easier to say than my last name. I actually helped a few customers out so I wonder if I should have gotten paid for that despite being like, ages 9-13 when I’d go jshfkjd

And I guess I technically tested video games as a kid? Basically, when my dad was stationed at Fort Knox, they’d get demos of video games that hadn’t come out yet to test I suppose? and I still have a few somewhere. He’d hand them off to me and I’d play them so there’s that.

59) Five weird things that you like:

Eating globs of wasabi for no reason.

Scaring my friends also for no reason.

I wouldn’t say using cotton swabs to get wax out of your ears because it feels good is weird, just more medically inadvisable if anything.

When I was younger I’d like to floss really hard because the slight pain from it felt good. Young me was a #Freaque KJHDFJJDHF

I don’t know if being fond of alphabetizing and reorganizing things is considered weird but I LOVE doing that.

63) A quote you try to live by:

“It matters not how strait the gate, / How charged with punishments the scroll; / I am the master of my fate: / I am the captain of my soul.” It’s from the poem “Invictus” and the last two lines are what I’m getting tattooed !!

65) Weird things you do when you’re alone:

Practice the “Lucky Star” dance. I GOT THE LYRICS DOWN… JUST NEED TO DO THE DANCE NOW…

69) Leave me a compliment:

“you seem rly nice and funny from your 🅱️osts and I appreciate u... I hope you can find better irl friends who aren't trash”

Anon pls 🥺 I do my best to be nice but my friend really do test me sometimes... my feelings bounce back n forth like if they do something my feelings can switch to angry or like, hate, and then if they do something nice I’ll like them again. It sucks but ! I just take it one day at a time. Anon I care for u 💜💜💜

#anonymous #asks #ask games #I love u anon 💜 thank u for letting me just Talk jdhsksjf #Anonymous

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silver-kitsuneneko · 6 years

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Conventions Are NOT Consent

I hate making rants. But because of this shit with Momokun, I have a few things I would like to say. First, I’m not going to bash her or anything, the internet has done that enough and she’s seriously not worth my time but will use her as an example to talk about why she and people like her are what’s wrong with the convention community. It has become more and more of a problem in the recent years. Whenever you have to have signs all over a con saying something that you any adult SHOULD know is not only sad but troubling. Cosplay is NOT consent and Just because you’re at an anime convention; all social etiquette is still in play! Look I get it, going to a con is a chance for people to be themselves. It’s a de-stressor where you can sit back, relax, geek out with old and new friends and then go back to the grind. Yes, a convention is a space where you can dress up, be weird, or whatever, hell even vendors and artists get into it. What job can you have where you can walk to a person for hours about your favorite TV show and get paid for it! However, there are a few idiots who think “I’m at a convention! This means I can do whatever I want!” Yeah no, just because you’re at an anime convention or event, doesn’t mean you can do whatever, common sense is still in play. And it’s sad that this has to be stated but here are a few things you should not do at a convention

First, Keep You Hands to Yourself! This is a phrase that most of us have learned in preschool, kindergarten, first grade, and by second grade it’s literately drilled into our heads that unless someone says it’s okay, DON’T TOUCH ANYONE! Though there are exceptions to the rule, like spontaneous hugs and things but if you don’t like someone to hug you, PLEASE tell them. Personally, I like getting hugs but some people don’t like being touched at all. We are also taught in school, at home, and early 90s PSAs that we have all no-no areas. For women there’s three no-no area, for men there’s two no-no areas and no one has the right to touch you in YOUR no-no area without consent. So things like groping a woman’s breasts, pinching a man’s butt, or putting something in close contact against or near someone’s private parts without their consent is sexual harassment and violation of that person’s space. Men: if you see a woman in a sexy cosplay, breasts out, ass out, posing and jiggling her breasts, this does NOT give you any right to touch her. If she’s fully clothed and you think she’s attractive and want to talk to her and she’s into you and flirt with you, this does NOT give you the right to touch her. If she’s at a convention or anywhere minding her business, this does NOT give you the right to touch her. If you wouldn’t do it outside of a convention, then don’t do it at a convention. Women: Contrary to popular belief, men are not 24/7 sex addicts. They don’t crave sex and constant stimulation and this should be an excuse to harass them either. If you see a hot guy dressed as a dead ringer of your family anime character, this does NOT give you the right to touch him. If he’s not in cosplay and looks like you average or handsome joe, this does NOT give you the right to touch them. If they are at an anime convention minding their business, this does NOT give you the right to touch them. It’s sad to say but if Momokun was a male cosplayer and doing the things she has done, she would have been blacklisted and jailed by now. But there are other ways people have started to harass others at cons. Also, making a cosplay costs a lot of time and a lot of MONEY. Whether someone gets it custom made, made it themselves, or bought it, money was involved. What does this mean? This means that if you do touch someone’s prop or cosplay without permission and ruin it, you made that person lose money or have to figure out how to save it. It’s not fair to that person that they want to fix YOUR mistake because you didn’t ask for permission and messed up weeks or months of work.

Do NOT take photos of anyone or anything without consent. Now taking pictures to capture a moment is not anything new. It’s actually a fun pastime. But with the way cameras have evolved within the last decade, it’s easier than ever before to have take a photo and upload it and share it. This is a good thing but when it’s used to harass and bully, it’s a problem. In the early days of the internet, there was a website dedicated to making fun at bad cosplay. And their definition of “bad” were people who did do the effort but were overweight, underweight or the “wrong” ethnicity to cosplay the character. Now, the many people just randomly go to cons and take photos of people and use for sites and things. Once again not bad but many people do NOT want their pictures taken. Some are camera shy, some people are sensitive to lights, some may not be in their best look, and some cosplayers know that if someone is chasing them down for a picture with them in a revealing outfit, it’s not for a good reason, so in that case “ask before you take!” It became so much of a problem that for awhile, there were incidents were men were ejected from cons and banned because they had cameras and taking lewd photos of female attendees and cosplayers alike. Because of this, security has been amped up became some of these people have been blacklisted from all conventions. Case in point, there was an incident where one of these people slipped through the cracks. I was at the event and the event itself was disorganized from the get go but because someone stole something they had security roaming and this man came out of nowhere, got down on the ground and took a few up skirt shots of a friend of mine. She of course screamed and tried to restrain him but he got away but thankfully because of the previous incident, security was on high alert and he was immediately apprehended. Because of this and many incidents, taking photographs were added to the cosplay is not consent movement. This also extends to artist and vendor wares as well. I have seen and was a victim of people taking photographs without permission. For artists who draw, they know it’s because they don’t want to buy the print so they’ll take a picture instead. For makers, many take pictures just to see how it’s made but in rare cases, to t come back for it later. In any case, it doesn’t to ask before you snap. It’s just common courtesy. Once again, if you wouldn’t do it outside of a convention, don’t do it inside.

A convention is not your personal anime fantasy and use common sense. Many people go to conventions. Once again, fun and de-stressing however, it’s not like you’re living in a real life anime or a protagonist in an anime. So what does this means? Don’t treat anyone like literal shit because you want to be funny or edgy just for one day. Don’t ask or be tsundere because that’s what you identify as. Tsunderes are assholes on anime and they are assholes in reality. Don’t run after someone and assault them because you’re a yandere and that person is with your “senpai”. Don’t go up to people cosplaying as certain characters and attempt to carry them off insult them because they are like this character in this show. Sadly in the Hetalia fandom, there were a lot these instances from the Nazi salute with Germany cosplayers and randomly calling Spain cosplayers pedophiles. Or an incident where a group of cosplayers kidnapped a young child because she was dressed as Chibi America. Don’t insult or roast guests or voice actors because you want to look cool in front of your friends because once again, you look like an asshole. It’s a no win solution for most because if a voice actor or actor have a reputation for being rude or mean to fans it can damage their career. A good example of this would be a recent convention with the actors of Infinity War with a group of disrespectful fangirls. As I said, playfulness or okay but roasting and being a complete jerk is not funny or cool. It’s one of the reasons why actors and actresses or voice actors don’t go to conventions. It’s a miracle that Josh Keaton still tries to connect with his fans after all of the hate and backlash he’s gotten. Also, anime girls are different from girls in real life so don’t think “I saw in a manga where a boy meets a girl and he fondles her and she get aroused and he took her virginity and now she’s his girlfriend because of this so it should work with other girls” or “if I compliment her breasts and she’s nice to me, it’s her right to have sex with me” is something that happens. If you saw it in a manga KEEP it in your head, if you try to replicate anything you saw in a hentai manga or any manga of that nature you are not only the problem but you will get arrested. I added this in because there are some people who thing like this and it’s disgusting.

Finally, do NOT blame your behavior on any mental disorder or condition or upbringing anything really. This is something that I’ve seen before and Momokun is just one of many who have done this. Having ADHD, depression, anxiety, social anxiety, autism (high functioning), or bipolar disorder is NOT an excuse for inappropriate actions! I have known MANY people who have used excuses like these as an excuse for being assholes or doing something idiotic and it needs to stop. My toxic booth mate often used her upbringing and bipolar disorder as the reason for being asshole, I knew of an incident where a friend’s coworker was acting obnoxious and loud and when called on it they stated “I have autism so I don’t know any better”. I have a few friends who are high function autistic and when I told them the story they even said “yeah no, you don’t scream and act out if you’re high functioning”. Being “smart” doesn’t give you the right to spout racial slurs or jerking off into cups. Not knowing any better is also not an excuse because you DO know better. If someone is telling you or giving you a sign of being comfortable, STOP your behavior. Being female, LGBTQ, male, or anything does not give you the right to do anything and don’t use it as a reason why you’re acting in a socially unacceptable way. It’s making yourself and anyone with those conditions, upbringings, and groups look bad and it’s not fair to them!

In conclusion, remember to always have fun at a convention. That’s the sole purpose of a con, fun. As attendees you al can make things easier by reporting any wrong doings, calling someone out when you see something not right, or just following basic social norms. Just use common sense people.

#momokun #anime convention #convention etiquette #anime expo #cosplay community #cosplayers #this needs to stop #this needs to be said #this is serious #she's apart of the problem

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everymovie2020 · 6 years

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Oscars Predictions 2019

Suffice to say I'm not thrilled about the Oscars this year, and have only seen like three of the Best Picture nominees – I am meaning to watch Vice, I just haven't gotten around to it yet due to an unforeseen natural disaster circumstances impeding my ability to watch movies – but here we go, with some predictions about what will most likely be the most boring outcome in Oscars history ever.

Best Picture

Black Panther

Blackkklansman

Bohemian Rhapsody

The Favourite

Green Book

Roma

A Star is Born

Vice

What I want to win: A Star is Born, but I will take The Favourite

What I think will win: Look, I honestly don't know. Maybe Roma? But I still feel like it's wide open.

What I don't want to win: Fucking Bohemian Rhapsody or Green Book due to the problematic issues, or if I'm honest, basically anything but ASIB or The Favourite

I think the problem is that in terms of movies that are nominated here, I'm extremely biased towards A Star is Born, and I am preparing myself for the disappointment that comes with it not winning. It's like last year with Call Me by Your Name – yeah, sure, The Shape of Water is a worthy winner, but it still hurts when the movie you love the most doesn't win.

And the other thing about this year's nominees is that I just find them so underwhelming, like… there's nothing on this list that particularly stands out to me other than ASIB or The Favourite. YMMV, obviously, but I'm like… is this a particularly ordinary year for movies or do I just have shit taste?

Last year I was excited to watch most of the movies nominated, it felt like a really good field, there were a lot of ways it could've gone and a lot of things could've won, and I would've been happy with it, but this year it's pretty much the complete opposite.

Best Actor

Christian Bale

Bradley Cooper

Willem Dafoe

Rami Malek

Viggo Mortensen

Who I want to win: B-Coops

Who I think will actually win: Probably Rami Malek

Who I definitely don't want to win: Christian Bale just because meh. Maybe I'll watch Vice and feel differently, who knows?

At this stage I know it's unlikely that B-Coops is going to win but I thought he was damn good in ASIB, remembering of course my heavy bias. And it's not that I don't like Rami Malek (I haven't watched Bohemian Rhapsody yet due to the problematic issues of it not being factually correct, and also due to the fact that the director is a well known piece of shit), and from everything I've heard he did a great job as Freddie Mercury… but I don't know, I just like B-Coops and I want him to win. Besides that, I feel like I was a B-Coops fan long before anyone else, so like… that means something? I mean, he was that hot guy in a lot of movies for me before I knew his name so we have history, yo.

Best Actress

Yalitza Aparicio

Glenn Close

Olivia Colman

Lady Gaga

Melissa McCarthy

Who I want to win: Lady Gaga or Olivia Colman

Who I think will win: Probably Glenn Close

Who I don't want to win: Meh, honestly, there's no one in this category that I'd be super upset if they won over someone else

This is the issue I have with the Oscars right here, though – fair enough Glenn Close is meant to be amazing in The Wife (I'm not going to watch it to verify because look honestly I just downloaded a movie from 1989 called Twister and that's higher on my list of priorities than a movie starring Glenn Close called The Wife, like, I need to see what this movie is all about, there's a tornado on the poster but it looks like a family comedy?!)… okay I went off on a tangent there but my point is that I have an issue with awards/nominations being given to people just because they're "owed it".

Case in point – Gary Oldman last year, like… I'm sorry. I’m not a TimotheeChalamet superfan but I very much feel that he was robbed so they could give Gary Oldman his honorary Oscar, and part of me feels that way about Glenn Close this year. Awards should be given to the people who actually deserve them, not to someone because they've been in the industry for 40 years and haven't won one. That's crap.

Like what, TimotheeChalamet is too young to win one even though his performance was the best (in my opinion) from last year? That's fucking crap. Give the people who rightfully deserve the award the fucking award.

And in saying that, if the award this year was to go the rightful person, it would be Olivia Colman, in my opinion.

Best Supporting Actor

Mahershala Ali

Adam Driver

Sam Elliott

Richard E. Grant

Sam Rockwell

Who I want to win: Honestly, I have no real preference in this category, so I'm going to say Richard E. Grant simply because I've always liked him

Who I think will win: Mahershala Ali

Who I don't want to win: Adam Driver because I have this irrational hatred of Adam Driver that is all-consuming

It's not like Adam Driver is a bad dude or I think he's a shit actor, it's just that I just hate him so much, and I blame Girls for that. Solely. I think I hated his character so much in that show that it's hard for me to separate that from IRL Adam Driver, and thus the hate carries over, and he makes my skin crawl.

So maybe, in a weird way, this is all Lena Dunham's fault?

Best Supporting Actress

Amy Adams

Marina De Tavira

Regina King

Emma Stone

Rachel Weisz

Who I want to win: Rachel Weisz

Who I think will actually win: Probably Regina King, and I'm cool with that

Wouldn't-it-be-great-if: It was Amy Adams?!

Best Animated Feature Film

The Incredibles 2

Isle of Dogs

Mirai

Ralph Breaks the Internet

Spider-Man into the Spiderverse

Who I want to win: Meh. I want Moana to win retroactively from two years ago.

Who I think will actually win: Hopefully Spider-Man but probably something else, let's face it

And if Shallow doesn't win best song, I'm going to lose my mind. Oh my god, like seriously, I can face ASIB losing all the major awards BUT NOT THAT ONE GOD DAMN IT

It's very rare that I care this much about a movie doing well but I just feel very strongly about ASIB and I want it to win.

#oscars #2019 #academy awards #movies #a star is born #the favourite #bradley cooper #lady gaga #olivia colman #rachel weisz #emma stone #this post proudly brought to you by a star is born the best movie of 2018

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GTKY Once Edition

Rules: Copy the bolded questions and answer them yourself! Don’t forget the specific question that was posed to you by the person who tagged you. (See “Individual question for the people you tag”). Then tag up to 7 people, one for each season.

Musical episode: Yay or nay?

I’m still kinda on the fence about it but I guess ultimately yay just because it was kinda fun.

When did you start watching Once, and do you remember why?

Uhhh. 2012/13? I rented the first seaon on dvd from Blockbuster while I had pneumonia. I picked it up because I have a soft spot for modern/different takes on fairy tales and legends and stuff.

What made watching Once worthwhile?

Regina’s journey from villain to hero. Henry and Regina’s relationship. The fact that even when things were really absurd, and full of plot holes the actors were still giving it their all.

First + Current Main Ships?

Swanqueen came first, now it’s them and dragon queen that count as my current main ships. Oh and probably curious archer.

First + Current Favourite character?

My first fav character was Emma. Back when she was the badass bailbonds-woman who wasn’t perfect but always tried and fought, and had the “are you kidding me?” normal person moments when confronted with the weird fairy tale stuff. Nowadays after how her character “grew” over the course of the show I just feel disappointment and anger. My current fav is definitely Regina. Tilly is pretty awesome though. And I have a soft spot for Zelena even though I hate some of the shit they did with her.

Favourite arc (Why?)?

Queens Of Darkness! Even if they totally choked and didn’t fully explore it as much as it felt like they could have. I loved everything about Maleficent, and Lily, and how Good was not always Right. And Once was so good at giving their villains depth that they didn’t get in their original stories. I could and would watch a show that was just fairy tale villains working through their traumatic backstories. Fuck I would jump at the chance to help write a show like that even without any screenwriting experience.

Favourite plot twist?

I just blanked on everything that happens on the entire show trying to think of one. Ummm idk? finding out Rumple made the curse to find Baelfire? Zelena getting through the protective wards because she was Regina’s sister? Henry the Author?

Hardest death to watch?

Idk. Neal/Baelfire? Robin’s death sucked too. Merlin deserved better.

This character should have gotten more time?

LILY. And Also Maleficent. I can’t believe that they set up that whole idea of her carrying her potential darkness AND Emma’s and how she might finally have support to deal with that because her mum finally found her and was ready to give her ALL THE LOVE and they just never got seen again. That was fucked.

Also Ruby/Red. The show needed way more of her across the board. Sure it was on different scales for different reasons but she and Regina both had the whole living/trying to live as a good person even though they’d done horrific things story going on. Plus she was so caring. And gay.

So I cheated and said three but COME ON!

How do you summarize the show to your friends? (max. 3 sentences)

Fairy tale characters got cursed to live in the real world with no memory of their life before, until a ten year old who got adopted by the evil queen who cast the curse, finds his bio mum and convinces her to break the curse. They’re actually just a huge dysfunctional family. There is so much potential and Lana Parrilla will own your soul by the end of it.

Favourite Once specific trope (think Memory Wipe, Family Trees, Glowing Walkey-Talkey Hearts, Head Achey Timelines…)

How even the characters are like our family tree and all these different timelines are insane so lets just be super casual about how we talk about them because if we stop and think our heads will explode.

Three quotes that mean a lot to you?

”I don’t know how to love very well”

”Happy endings aren’t always what we think they’ll be, that’s what makes them special”

“I don’t mind a little darkness”

If you could take home any prop from the set, what would it be?

Maybe the Authors Pen?

Favourite funny scene?

So many. At this very moment. Cruella taking a selfie with kidnapped Henry.

Favorite Platonic Ship: I have so many and some I ship both as romantic and not. Fuck. OH! Regina and Tinkerbell!

Favorite dish from Granny’s? That burger Ruby gave Belle when she’s getting used to things looked pretty great.

A question only for the people you tag (remember to answer the question your tagger made up for you!)

I was asked by @ussjellyfish: What part of the newly merged realms would you like to live in? Really depends on how wide spread modern amenities became during the merge. I’m gonna say Storybrooke just to be safe, because no way in hell would I give up hot showers and flushing toilet full time. I’d probably travel a lot though to see a bit of everywhere.

I’m asking: If you had to pick three minor and/or guest characters to sit down and have dinner with, which three would you pick?

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a flair for the dramatic

pairing: wonhui genre: angst + fluff, enemies to lovers!au + uni!au warnings: alcohol, drunk kissing a/n: to my mobile readers, i recommend reading this on your browser or on ao3 so that the app doesn’t crash on you while you’re reading! words: 6300 summary: wonwoo completely and absolutely hates wen junhui. and nobody in the drama club can convince him otherwise.

or, wonwoo’s and idiot and junhui is too kind for his own good.

"So remind me why you hate him so much?" Jeonghan asks as he spears a piece of lettuce with his fork, frowning with disdain down at the salad Minghao had prepared for him. "Junhui is literally the nicest person to ever exist. Like, nicer than Jisoo even."

Wonwoo looks up from his book, then takes a bite out of his sandwich, pointedly ignoring the older man as he continues with his lunch. Though quite honestly, just the mere mention of Junhui's name is quickly making Wonwoo lose his appetite. Jeonghan notices the way he hesitates to take another bite of his sandwich then smirks a little evilly as Wonwoo sets it down on a napkin in front of him.

If Jeonghan is going to hate his lunch, then Wonwoo will too.

Wonwoo goes back to reading and does his best to ignore the weird twisting knots in his stomach as it strangely gurgles and rumbles loudly. He only looks up again when Jeonghan offers him the majority of his salad, eyes set on Wonwoo's sandwich. Wonwoo takes it, pushing his sandwich forward and then they begin eating again, the light salad making it easy for Wonwoo to continue his lunch.

"Tell me why you hate Jun so much," Jeonghan pipes up seemingly out of the blue, his eyes set on Wonwoo to not miss a single movement.

"Eat your food," Wonwoo says instead, lifting another forkful of the lovingly made salad Minghao had prepared for his idiot, long-haired boyfriend sat across from him. "I don't know why you won't eat this by the way. Minghao is a genius in the kitchen and even a simple salad tastes like something you'd find in a restaurant. You're insulting his art by not eating the lunches he makes you."

Jeonghan scoffs and flicks his fingers at Wonwoo’s wrist, smiling wide because he knows full well that Wonwoo’s wrists easily bruise. “Don’t change the subject. We're talking about you and Junhui right now, or the lack of you and Junhui I should say.”

Wonwoo sighs and ducks his head, biting into the salad slowly now. “Why do you always ask me about him when I’m trying to relax? I have an exam in like an hour and you’re here, being a dick to me.”

“I just don't understand why you claim to hate Junhui so much!” Jeonghan whines, propping his head upon his hand as he stares unamusedly at Wonwoo. “Junhui is super nice, super cute and I bet you're just super jealous because he dated Mingyu first.”

“Mingyu and I broke up two years ago, get over it,” Wonwoo mumbles. “I hate him because he’s a self-pretentious prick, always acting like he's better than everyone just because he's a child actor. I bet he wasn't even that good in the roles he played!”

Jeonghan tsks at him, taking another bite of Wonwoo’s sandwich before he speaks again. “He wouldn't have gotten any of those roles if he wasn't good. If you haven't even seen one of his movies, then shut up about his acting. Just because you’re used to being the lead role in school plays doesn't mean you shit on someone who you've never even given a chance to.”

Wonwoo remains silent, quietly fuming as he ponders over when exactly Jeonghan betrayed him and took Junhui's side.

(Though if Wonwoo’s honest with himself, he’s being an asshole to Junhui for something most wouldn't consider as a solid reason.)

Jeonghan takes another bite of the sandwich as he watches Wonwoo and when he speaks again, Wonwoo wishes he hadn’t. “You know, I bet it's not even jealousy about him getting the lead role. I bet it's just you thinking he’s hot but being too bitter about him upstaging you to actually pursue him and now you bemoan his entire existence to anyone who gives you the chance.”

Wonwoo hunches into himself, avoiding Jeonghan’s sharp gaze. “Shut up.”

“No, you shut up and get over yourself,” Jeonghan replies immediately. “You’re being a dick to someone who literally cries when a bug is stepped on in front of him. Your complaining about Junhui is getting really annoying."

“And, if I’m going to be really honest with you Wonwoo, Junhui's stage presence exceeds yours by miles,” Jeonghan adds on when Wonwoo hasn’t said anything, smiling again as Wonwoo gapes at him. "Don't give me that look. It's true. Ask the cast, they'll give you essays on why Junhui got the lead role and you didn't."

Wonwoo looks back down at his salad and forces himself to eat the rest of it, sweeping his books back into his bag as he stands. Jeonghan tilts his head up to watch him leave, smiling again when Wonwoo rolls his eyes at him.

"Tomorrow, I'm gonna have lunch with Soonyoung," Wonwoo mumbles as he pushes the bowl and fork Jeonghan's salad had come with back towards his side of the table. "At least he doesn't try to shove Junhui down my throat."

Jeonghan smirks, turning at the waist to watch Wonwoo as he leaves. It's only until Wonwoo has reached the next table that Jeonghan speaks up.

"We both know that you want something of Junhui's down your throat!"

Wonwoo groans and rushes out of the cafeteria, doing his best to ignore the fact that as he rushes past the doors, Junhui is entering. They share a moment of eye contact and then Wonwoo pushes past him, his face flushing red as Junhui stares after him with confusion splashed across his pretty face.

"So, you're coming right?" Soonyoung asks him the next day during the one hour Wonwoo always finds himself at the library.

Wonwoo debates looking up from his laptop but then decides against it when he realizes that he has no energy for whatever Soonyoung is trying to talk him into. So he keeps typing, his eyes starting to water a little and he forcefully dims the brightness of his screen to help appease the irritation of his eyes. Soonyoung is pouting at him from across the table and the only reason Wonwoo knows this is because he's known Soonyoung since they were in diapers and he knows about all of his little quirks and habits by now after twenty-two years.

"Hey, Wonu-ya, please tell me you're coming," Soonyoung tries again when Wonwoo only continues to ignore him. "You're coming to the drama party tonight right?"

"Party?" Wonwoo asks, one brow rising in question. "I didn't hear anything about a party tonight."

"Probably because you never leave that fucking cave of your dorm room, you nerd. Your nose is literally buried in books," Soonyoung scoffs, reaching across the table to shake Wonwoo's arm. "Come on. It'll be fun. Everyone's going to be there. I heard even Namjoon will make an appearance."

Wonwoo frowns at his essay but continues to type. "Won't Junhui be there too? You know I hate him. Why would I want to spend my Friday night looking at his annoying face?"

It takes Wonwoo a full minute to realize that Soonyoung has gone completely silent and once he has, he looks up in concern. For as long as he's known the dancer, Soonyoung has almost never been stunned into silence for such a long period of time and it's pretty disconcerting knowing that he managed to do that to his closest and longest friend.

"Soon?" Wonwoo asks as he peers up into Soonyoung's face.

Soonyoung shakes his head in a small motion, his eyes unblinking as he meets Wonwoo's gaze and if Wonwoo didn't know any better, he'd say that the look in Soonyoung's eyes is disappointment. Soonyoung only shakes his head again, the blankness of his expression disappearing quickly as a frown takes its place.

"Wait, you're still on about that?" Soonyoung asks, his voice strangled.

"On about what?"

"Claiming you hate Junhui, of all people," Soonyoung explains, rolling his eyes in an amazing imitation of Jihoon. "We both know it's impossible to hate that guy. He's like a rainbow personified ー and no, that's not meant as a crack about him being gay, that's completely separate."

Wonwoo doesn't know what else to do except to just nod dumbly, itching to get back to his essay again. Soonyoung's eyes practically bulge out of their sockets and Wonwoo has to fight back the urge to laugh at his best friend and his ridiculous antics.

But Soonyoung isn't done talking and Wonwoo feels like his ears are ringing. "You're just saying you hate him because, deep down, you want to fuck him, aren't you? Yeah, that's gotta be it. I mean, you said the exact same thing about Mingyu and yet I find you and him sucking each other's faces off a mere week later and then you dated for like four months before Jihoon swept in and stole him from you. So don't give me that 'I'm serious' face right now because I know you better than you know yourself and you're just saying all of this because you're in denial. You can't hide shit from me, Jeon."

Wonwoo sighs and lets his head fall into his hands as Soonyoung crosses his arms over his chest and nods his head as if he just solved the toughest case yet and there was nothing left to be said. He's too tired to really argue against anything at the moment and so Wonwoo nods back, grimacing when a triumphant smile lights up Soonyoung's face.

Soonyoung fist pumps the air and Wonwoo pretends that he doesn't know who he is when the other students in the library look at Soonyoung curiously.

Admittedly, the first time Wonwoo and Junhui met hadn't actually been such a grand event.

Junhui was lost and asked Wonwoo for directions towards the theatre building and Wonwoo had smiled politely, took out his other earbud and pointed the handsome man in the right direction.

Other than the fact that he was gorgeous and practically drool-worthy, Wonwoo didn't think anything else about Junhui until he turned to the side and Wonwoo got a glimpse of his designer bag and matching jeans. Just that very morning, Minghao had shown him pictures of those exact same jeans and bag on his phone and sighed in longing, which was the only reason Wonwoo even knew they were designer.

And just as Wonwoo had registered that, other things began to jump out at him too.

Like the way Junhui had his chin tilted up so he was quite literally looking down his nose at Wonwoo. The proud line of his nose making him look haughty and how he didn't even thank Wonwoo for helping him out once he'd spotted the big theatre building.

Wonwoo watched him run off with a strong flash of annoyance flaring up in his chest and he's never let it go since then.

Even when Junhui turned back around after running a few steps ahead and yelled something that Wonwoo couldn't hear because he'd put both of his earbuds back in.

He'd turned his back on Junhui and let the annoyance build into dislike that then festered into the hate he holds for Junhui now.

As soon as Wonwoo returns to his dorm room, Jisoo is waiting to ambush him.

Wonwoo sighs and slowly removes his shoes at the door, throwing his backpack onto his desk chair before he collapses into the sweet, soft cradle of his bed. Jisoo sits with his back straight and arms crossed as he sits on the edge of his own bed across from Wonwoo's and today just really isn't his day.

"There's a drama club party tonight and we're going," is Jisoo's terse greeting.

Wonwoo rolls onto his stomach and buries his face in his sheets, murmuring a muffled groan where Jisoo can still probably hear him. Jisoo's expression only closes off even more and Wonwoo decides that he's only ever going to leave his dorm for classes, the library, and food from now on.

Maybe showers too, but he can live without those for a while. Or a week at least because Jisoo sends him the death glare whenever he leaves dishes or cups around so if he didn't shower for a week, Jisoo would definitely kill him in his sleep then get Jeonghan to help him dispose of the body afterward.

Point is, Jisoo is evil and Wonwoo needs to sleep with one eye open from now on.

"Did you hear me?" Jisoo tries again.

Wonwoo nods into his bedspread then lifts himself up onto his elbows and squints at the elder. "Why are you going? You're not even in the drama club, to begin with."

Jisoo smirks from his perch and raises both of his brows as if in a challenge. "I'm your plus one. So, we're going. You're not gonna keep me from Soonyoung's ridiculous drunk dancing any further."

"I'm saving you the trouble, believe me," Wonwoo mutters with a groan, raising his own brows right back.

"Yeah, but a drunk Soonyoung? I need to film that for blackmail. It's not fair that Jeonghan has literally hours of footage of that. I need my own as well," Jisoo sniffs, falling back onto his bed when Wonwoo laughs and smiles at him. "I'll be there so you won't be totally bored out of your mind. It'll be fun."

Wonwoo's laugh immediately dies as he thinks of who else will be there and Jisoo stands up, making his way over to Wonwoo's side of the room. "What? You only make that face when... Wait, don't tell meー"

"Junhui's going to be there too," Wonwoo whines as he falls back into the mattress, the rest of his groan muffled by the material under him.

Jisoo sighs and pulls on his hair, clicking his tongue when Wonwoo slaps his hand away. "Suck it up, brat. Everyone knows that you only say you hate him 'cause you wanna suck his dick."

Wonwoo sputters, kicking his legs out in the hopes of landing a blow on Jisoo's slender form, but Jisoo is too stupid to remain so close after saying something like that. "Shut up. You don't know anything."

"Listen, the fact of the matter is that you said the exact. Same. Thing before you dated Mingyu. You griped about how his mere existence grated at your life and then you ended up drunk and making out with him. Don't give me that bullshit about you hating Junhui again. It's annoying having to listen to you get so worked up over someone who's literally the nicest person alive. He's nicer than me!" Jisoo yells, stomping over to his desk dramatically as he does. "I seriously have no idea how you can even dislike him in the first place."

"You are not nice," Wonwoo spits out, pushing himself back onto his elbows again to glare at Jisoo. "And he's a stuck-up rich kid. That's why I don't like him."

"I am nice!" Jisoo shouts back, then backtracks as Wonwoo opens his mouth to respond. "Okay, so not all of the time, but I am nice. Ask anyone."

"You're only nice to them because you don't have to share a room with them for three years," Wonwoo points out and then laughs when Jisoo flushes a dark red.

"You're a dick. I'm surprised Junhui doesn't hate you back, considering the way you treat him ー especially when we all get together as a group. You're a right ass, you know that?" Jisoo asks, tilting his head curiously to the side as Wonwoo blinks up at him. "Of course you know that. If you're the biggest asshole to anybody, it's to yourself. Am I right?"

Jisoo ducks as Wonwoo chucks his pillow at him and then laughs as he picks it up, dusting the pillow off as Wonwoo readies himself to throw his other one. "Hope you know you're not getting this back. So unless you want to sleep without pillows, I recommend that you drop that one."

Wonwoo sighs and lets the pillow fall back onto the head of his bed and Jisoo smiles triumphantly. "See? That wasn't so hard. Now go shower. We have to be at a party in three hours."

"Sometimes, I think you're Satan himself," Wonwoo groans as he rises from the bed, wrestling his other pillow out of Jisoo's hands for a brief moment before he eventually gives up and turns to find his clothes for tonight.

"Yeah, I love you too, brat," Jisoo shoots back as he throws Wonwoo's lost pillow onto his bed and starts digging through his dresser for something to wear. "And none of that 'I-hate-Junhui-so-much' crap when we get there. You hear me?"

Wonwoo rolls his eyes but nods because Jisoo might be skinnier than him and looks like he couldn't ever possibly hurt a fly, but he is more than capable of kicking Wonwoo's ass anytime he wants and Wonwoo would very much like to keep his ass unkicked, thank you very much.

Of the few times that Wonwoo has actually held a conversation with Junhui, he can admit to the fact that Junhui doesn't make an effort in being haughty.

If anything, Junhui has been polite and kind of quiet, his mouth barely moving to form his words. Not like Wonwoo has watched Junhui's mouth as he speaks! That would be ridiculous.

But the moles that surround Junhui's mouth are pretty cute in a non-asshole way that anyone, even Wonwoo, can appreciate. One is near his cupid's bow while the other strays towards where his upper and bottom lip meet and can sometimes be confused as a dimple of some sort. If you look hard enough though, you can tell that they're moles.

And they're cute, but Wonwoo has only gotten the chance to stare at them up-close once in his life because Junhui tends to cover them up with makeup.

Wonwoo doesn't understand why, but he's also uninclined to ask about the reasons behind it either since he and Junhui are sworn enemies. Or, two people who hate each other. Or ー as Jisoo put it ー someone Wonwoo hates because he wants a reason to not fall for them and then get hurt when it doesn't work out.

Wonwoo doesn't agree with Jisoo, but there's some validity to the statement and it's still pretty hard to hang out with Mingyu like he used to back when they were on better terms. Not to mention that Jihoon still gives him a wide berth whenever they're in the same area and while Wonwoo's heart throbs painfully in his chest because he and Jihoon also used to be really good friends, he understands that there are certain social situations that Jihoon refuses to deal with.

So Wonwoo gets that, he really does, he's just aching is all.

Plus, Junhui doesn't actually hate Wonwoo ー he's probably terrified of Wonwoo for always glaring at him, but Junhui has never said anything, so Wonwoo doesn't know ー Wonwoo is the one who hates Junhui. Everyone knows it. The entire drama club has been giving him shit for his attitude directed towards Junhui for months now it seems. He's always the butt of the joke and whenever he enters the auditorium after Junhui has already arrived, everyone always falls startlingly quiet.

It's annoying and makes Wonwoo feel pretty excluded, but he gets it. If someone didn't like his friend, someone he thought could do no wrong, he too would also avoid that person.

So again, it's understandable. He's simply aching with the unfairness of it all and fed up with how everyone buys into Junhui's act.

He'll prove them all wrong somehow at least.

Wonwoo had sworn to himself that he wouldn't drink at this lame party.

He'd sworn he wouldn't (and he had also sworn to Jisoo), but as soon as he saw Junhui walk in with Minghao and Seungkwan trailing after him, Wonwoo decided that he needed a drink.

Or many drinks as it turned out, because, after his fifth, Wonwoo can't actually remember how many he's had. All he knows is that Junhui is hovering at his shoulder, keeping him upright while Jeonghan and Jisoo go bright red in the face, angry at how shitfaced Wonwoo is. They're both probably yelling something, something that Wonwoo's intoxicated mind doesn't understand, but all that registers in his head is the warm hand on the small of his back. The shoulder pressing into his back to keep him upright.

The only reason Wonwoo even knows it's Junhui behind him is because of the cologne he's wearing. Only Junhui douses himself in Chanel No. 5 like some pretentious, rich asshole.

Which he is, unlike what the vast majority might think. Who cares if he's Minghao's childhood best friend? Junhui's still a dick in Wonwoo's opinion.

A rich dick who surprisingly smells nice.

Junhui is rich, true, but Wonwoo's not actually sure that he's pretentious or an asshole. For all the glares they've exchanged, Junhui has never actually glared back at him. It's been more of just confusion and a little bit of fear in his eyes really and now Wonwoo feels like a right ass, but right now, he can't think about that. All he can think about is the fact that Junhui is taking him somewhere and Wonwoo kind of wishes he'd been nicer to Jeonghan and Jisoo since he's sure that they would help Junhui hide his dead body and get away with murder by this point.

The sounds of the party quickly fade and Chanel No. 5 guides Wonwoo through the quiet streets around campus. Eventually, Wonwoo begins to recognize a few landmarks and pushes himself into gear, leading the way towards the dorms. They arrive quickly and Wonwoo doesn't question the hand that is now suddenly holding his or the hand that holds the door open for him.

Wonwoo stumbles into the building and giggles like a fool when he almost trips. Gentle hands catch him and pull him upright again before Wonwoo regains himself and leads the way to his room, his muddled brain able to pick up the trail easily from the many times he's taken it before. The warmth behind him is calming now in the dull hallways and when Wonwoo digs his keys out, a hand reaches out to take them, quickly unlocking his door before handing his keys back to him.

Then he's being ushered inside and before Wonwoo's head can catch up to what he's doing, he's tugging on the warm hands and drawing them close until the scent of Chanel No. 5 permeates the air around him. Wonwoo closes the door and presses the warm body against it, clumsily finding the heart-shaped lips he's been thinking about for months. His tongue reaches out to caress the places he knows lip moles will be, but before anything more can happen, Junhui is pushing Wonwoo away and whispering something that he doesn't understand. Wonwoo blinks and it's suddenly too hot and the room is spinning.

Hands grab his face then, but the familiar brown eyes Wonwoo expects to meet are too blurry and he forces his own to close before his stomach decides to chuck up his dinner.

Wonwoo is guided towards a bed where he takes off his own shirt before snuggling under the covers and the last thing he can remember is a soft voice singing something in a language he doesn't understand while fingers run through his hair.

The first thing Wonwoo think when he wakes up is I'm dying.

The second is something along the lines of What the fuck happened?

And then, of course, that's when his existential crisis begins and Wonwoo pushes himself up to get a view of the room he's found himself in while his head spins dangerously.

His dorm. That's good.

He looks down and lets out a sigh of relief that somehow rattles in his lungs.

His own bed. That's great.

Wonwoo's ears then pick up on the soft snores from the opposite side of the room and he looks over to find Jisoo curled up in his own bed, snuggling the teddy bear that they both pretend Jisoo doesn't have.

No unexpected guests. Even better.

Wonwoo sighs and buries his face in his pillow, groaning softly into it when his temples throb painfully. His mouth is dry and his ears are ringing, but thankfully their curtain is drawn so the only light in their dorm is that from their alarm clocks and the sunlight creeping in from the edges of their curtain. His mouth tastes like something died in it though and his stomach is rumbling with either hunger or the urge to vomit, he's unsure about which.

Just how shit-faced did he get last night? And when exactly did he get home becaーactually, who even brought him back? The last Wonwoo remembers is Jeonghan and Jisoo yelling at him while someone helped him stand and then flickers of images here and there. Most are of the walk home, trees, a few stoplights, but through it all, there's the warmth on his lower back, more warmth curled around his hand, and the lingering scent of Chanel No. 5.

Oh no.

Did heー?

"Fuck!" Wonwoo groans aloud then winces as he instantly regrets it.

"Shut up," Jisoo mumbles from the other side of the room, turning so his back is now facing Wonwoo. "Just because you finally realized you like Junhui doesn't mean you have to be so loud about it."

Wonwoo falls back into his pillows and groans again, unbelieving of the sluggish memories that are now making an appearance. "I don't know what you're talking about."

More shuffling from Jisoo's side of the room can be heard and Wonwoo tries his best to melt into his mattress until he's nothing but a puddle that will never have to face another day with Junhui's face in it. "You made out with him last night. He told me before he left."

"He brought me here!" Wonwoo shoots up out of bed, almost toppling over the edge before he catches himself and stays very still less in case his stomach decides it's rumbling is due to an urge of vomiting instead of hunger. "We kissed?"

Jisoo laughs gently, then shifts in bed again until Wonwoo can hear him getting out of it. "You kissed him actually. Jun thought it was necessary to tell me in case you tried making out with me while you slept too. Though, I could tell he wasn't really all the upset by it so my theory has been proven correct once again. Jeonghan owes me some money."

"You bet on this?" Wonwoo asks, pushing himself until his back has met the wall and stays there as he pins Jisoo with his eyes. "I barely remember anything except that he played with my hair and sang me a song so I would fall asleep. I can't even remember kissing him."

"You're blushing so I'm pretty sure you remember the kiss," Jisoo points out before he lurches out of bed and walks over towards Wonwoo's. "Come on, let's go get cleaned up and I'll make us some coffee."

Wonwoo lets Jisoo drag him out of the dorm room and into the communal bathrooms they share with their floor and after a shower, Wonwoo feels like he might be able to face this day after all. Even after Jisoo places a mug of coffee down before him, Wonwoo loads it up with sugar and cream and accepts the painkillers Jisoo hands him.

Today won't be so bad after all.

Today is fucking horrible.

Wonwoo had to face the utter humiliation of his friends and most of the drama club exchanging money between themselves as soon as he showed up to their "after party" which isn't much of an after party and more of just a consolation lunch in fact. Either way, Seungcheol always ends up paying for everyone so Wonwoo isn't going to say no to free food.

What makes it all worse is the fact that Junhui is there and he's actually giving money just like the others and blushes an endearingly bright red when Minghao thumps his back.

So it looks like Junhui is an asshole after all and Wonwoo has been right all along.

Still, he stays and avoids everyone's gaze and eats quietly, glad for the fact that Jisoo is beside him and keeps passing food from his plate to Wonwoo's whenever Seungcheol isn't looking. Jeonghan sits on Wonwoo's other side, but he refuses to talk to him and so Wonwoo is alone.

On the plus side, Mingyu and Jihoon are here too and Wonwoo's glad that they still look very happy together. Seokmin is also here and Jisoo keeps sharing glances with him that Wonwoo wants to tease him about, but he keeps his mouth shut as Soonyoung starts a game between himself and Chan. Wonwoo can feel Seungkwan's eyes burning into him too, however, Seungcheol has him occupied for most of the lunch and Wonwoo is grateful to the eldest for that.

Junhui keeps trying to catch his eye, but Wonwoo forcibly ignores him instead and turns his body so that he's invading Jisoo's personal space. Jisoo catches on quickly and throws an arm over his shoulders to play the part of more than friends that they both came up with whenever they're receiving unwanted or confusing advances. Wonwoo keeps his head down and continues to eat, glad for the fact that while Jisoo can be a pain in the ass most of the time, he's a good friend when Wonwoo really needs him.

As Seungcheol pays for their lunches, Wonwoo grabs onto Jisoo's hand and waits until the elder has finished saying goodbye to everyone before he waves generally at them all and lets Jisoo lead them out of the diner.

He barely makes it towards the door before a familiar warm hand is grabbing hold of his arm and pulling him to a stop. Wonwoo knows without having to turn that it's Junhui and lets go of Jisoo's hand when the elder turns to stare at him. Jisoo shrugs and trails after Seokmin as they all begin to leave until it's just Junhui and Wonwoo standing alone in the entranceway of the diner.

"Um, could we talk?" Junhui asks as he lets go of Wonwoo's arm with a sheepish expression on his face. "I promise this won't take long."

Wonwoo nods and motions for Junhui to follow him. "We can talk outside. Let's take a walk or something."

Junhui nods and smiles at him and Wonwoo turns on the spot with his heartbeat thumping in his ears. They walk silently together, making their way out of the diner and into the brisk sunny afternoon of spring. It isn't hot enough for Wonwoo to start sweating yet so he keeps his cardigan on and tangles his fingers into the sleeves as Junhui walks dutifully beside him.

Outside is better at least. The crowds of people force them to walk closely together in order to not lose one another, but the noise and smell of traffic numb Wonwoo's senses to Junhui's breathing and his scent (Damn that Chanel No. 5!) and Wonwoo is grateful for that.

There's also more open space and if Wonwoo decides that this conversation will be too much, he can just cut away and run off without another word. He knows Junhui wouldn't follow him at least. And so he has that as well.

Eventually, though, they find the park Wonwoo was leading them towards and Junhui scopes out a bench they can sit on. It's Saturday so that means plenty of families are here enjoying the sunshine and the ducks at the pond, but neither Wonwoo nor Junhui can find an empty bench. Wonwoo steers them towards a large tree, taking a seat on one of its biggest roots and leans back on the trunk, uncaring of sap or ants getting on him. Junhui takes a seat on a root sticking out a little below Wonwoo's and turns until he's facing him, his expression more guarded than Wonwoo's seen it.

Wonwoo stares at him, taking in the little things, then pauses when he finds that Junhui didn't bother to cover up his moles today and that right there lights a tiny fire inside Wonwoo's stomach.

"So, I feel that I should go first," Junhui murmurs, his soft voice making Wonwoo feel a little dizzy with the whirlwind of emotions he's experiencing. "Um. I just wanted to know if you remember what happened last night?"

The way Junhui phrases his words makes it sound like he's asking a question, and Wonwoo doesn't know if he should answer honestly or not, but after the humiliation he faced during lunch, he may as well come clean and own up to what he did. He inhales a deep breath and lets it out through his nose, steeling himself for what he's about to do.

"Yeah, I remember," Wonwoo responds, still staring at Junhui's moles instead of his eyes.

Junhui sighs and settles himself a bit more comfortably on top of the root he's perched on. "Ah. That's a relief. How much do you remember though?"

Wonwoo chances a look up at Junhui's eyes before he drops his gaze again, his voice lowering with it. "I remember you taking me home...and I remember kissing you."

Junhui nods then waits as if there's more that Wonwoo has to admit to and Wonwoo knows what else Junhui wants him to say. His face flushes as he works the words over his tongue, but no matter in what order or way they go through, it's still embarrassing to say aloud.

"I remember you playing with my hair and singing me to sleep too," Wonwoo finally manages to murmur, his face feeling much too hot as a soft smile spreads across Junhui's face. "But I also remember you not kissing me back."

Junhui frowns and shakes his head. "You were drunk. It felt wrong kissing you while you were so intoxicated. But I didn't kiss back because I didn't want to. I mean, I've had a crush on you ever since we met. It was extremely difficult not to kiss you back last night."

Wonwoo's face feels even hotter now, but he files that piece of information away for later when he isn't preoccupied. "I also remember you not thanking me for showing you where the theatre building was when we first met."

"I did thank you!" Junhui sputters almost immediately after Wonwoo has spoken and Wonwoo looks up to see that Junhui's eyes have grown ridiculously huge. "You had your earphones in and turned your back on me as I did it. That was really rude actually."

"Oh," Wonwoo says, not knowing what else would be appropriate to say apart from, "I'm sorry?"

"You better be," Junhui sniffs before he smiles again and Wonwoo lets his gaze fall back to Junhui's mouth to take in that beautiful sight. "So is that why you say you hate me?"

"I honestly don't know. I know it was the reason I didn't initially like you at least," Wonwoo confesses quietly between them. "But since it seems to be just a misunderstanding, I guess it doesn't matter anymore."

"That makes this so much easier," Junhui mumbles to himself before he's leaning forward and taking Wonwoo's face into his hands, his eyes practically burning holes into Wonwoo's skin. "Can I also ask why you've told everyone you hate me then? Maybe that'll make us both less confused."

Wonwoo shrugs, doing his best to still not look him in the eye as Junhui inches even closer into his personal space. "Jeonghan told me its because I was bitter about you getting the lead role. Soonyoung said it was because I wanted to fuck you and Jisoo told me that I just wanted to suck your dick. And then he told me to shut up and stop being a brat."

Junhui's blushing too by now and Wonwoo revels in the victory of getting a reaction out of him. But the victory is short-lived because Junhui soon asks the same question Wonwoo has been asking himself ever since he met him.

"And were they right?"

Were his friends right about why Wonwoo hates Junhui? Or are they really just being the assholes Wonwoo's always thought they were? Has Wonwoo just been in denial this entire time then?

Honestly, he doesn't know but with Junhui so close to him all Wonwoo can think about is kissing him again. How he wants to touch the moles above Junhui's lips and tell him to stop covering them up with makeup. Wonwoo can't stop thinking about all the times he's caught himself staring at Junhui during rehearsals and whenever their entire group of friends gathers for parties or other events. Nor can he stop thinking about the way Junhui's entire face lights up when he laughs or how often Wonwoo has caught himself laughing at the jokes he's overheard Junhui say.

Sometimes, Wonwoo just wants to cuss Junhui out and tell him just how handsome he is at the same time. Other times, Wonwoo just wants to knock Junhui flat on his ass and pick him up then twirl them around in a circle when he's overjoyed about something Junhui did. But most of the time, Wonwoo just wants to have a reason for turning his "hatred" on its head and take Junhui into his arms without having to feel ten shades of bitter about it.

Junhui is offering him a reason though. A good one. And all Wonwoo has to do is take it.

So he does.

Junhui is happy with his answer.

a/n: asdfkdj ok so i didn’t actually see the enemies to lovers trope working out so well for wonhui really, which is why i had been struggling with this au for like two weeks now, but if anybody is going to hate someone and claim them as their enemy, it’s wonwoo and you can fight me on that.

(me: *says e2l doesn’t fit wonhui* also me: *writes 6k worth of an e2l wonhui au*)

thanks for reading!

#thewritersnetwork #m; fic #wonhui #wonhui fanfic #jun angst #wonwoo angst #wonhui angst #jun fluff #wonwoo fluff #wonhui fluff #angst #fluff #p; junhui/wonwoo #requests

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jnhao · 7 years

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a flair for the dramatic (preview)

summary: wonwoo completely and absolutely hates wen junhui. and nobody in the drama club can convince him otherwise. or, wonwoo’s an idiot and junhui is too kind for his own good.

pairing: wonhui

genre/au: angst, fluff, enemies to lovers + uni au

words: 923

a/n ; sdfkdj ok so i don’t actually see the enemies to lovers trope working out so well for wonhui really, which is why i’ve been struggling with this au for like a week and a half now, but if anybody is going to hate someone and claim them as their enemy, it’s wonwoo and you can fight me on that. also i’m posting this preview as an apology for not posting anything this week so i hope y’all enjoy this snippet! currently, i have over 3k written and this is merely the opening scene

[full version here]

If Jeonghan is going to hate his lunch, then Wonwoo will too.

Wonwoo goes back to reading and does his best to ignore the weird twisting knots in his stomach as his stomach strangely gurgles and rumbles. He only looks up again when Jeonghan offers him the majority of his salad, eyes set on Wonwoo's sandwich. Wonwoo takes it, pushing his sandwich forward and then they begin eating again, the light salad making it easy for Wonwoo to continue his lunch.

"Tell me why you hate Jun so much," Jeonghan pipes up out of the blue, eyes set on Wonwoo so as to not miss a single movement.

"Eat your food," Wonwoo says instead, lifting another forkful of the lovingly made salad Minghao had made for his idiot, long-haired boyfriend sat across from him. "I don't know why you won't eat this by the way. Minghao is a genius in the kitchen and even a simple salad tastes like something you'd find in a restaurant. You're insulting his art by not eating the lunches he makes you."

Jeonghan tsks at him, taking another bite of Wonwoo’s sandwich before he speaks again. “He wouldn't have gotten any of his roles if he wasn't good. If you haven't even seen one of his movies, then shut up about his acting. Just because you’re used to being the lead role in school plays doesn't mean you shit on someone who you've never even given a chance to.”

Wonwoo remains silent, quietly fuming as he ponders over when exactly Jeonghan betrayed him and took Junhui's side.

(Though if Wonwoo’s going to be honest with himself, he’s being an unreasonable asshole to Junhui for no solid reason.)

Jeonghan takes another bite of the sandwich as he watches Wonwoo and when he speaks again, Wonwoo wishes he hadn’t. “You know, I bet it's not even jealousy about him getting the lead role. I bet it's just you thinking he’s hot but being too bitter about him upstaging you to actually pursue him and instead just bemoan his entire existence to anyone who gives you the chance.”

Wonwoo hunches into himself, avoiding Jeonghan’s sharp gaze. “Shut up.”

Wonwoo looks back down at his salad and forces himself to eat the rest of it, sweeping his books back into his bag as he stands. Jeonghan tilts his head up to watch the younger leave, smiling again when Wonwoo rolls his eyes at him.

Jeonghan smirks, turning at the waist to watch Wonwoo as he leaves. It's only until Wonwoo has reached the next table that Jeonghan speaks up.

"We both know that you want something of Junhui's down your throat!"

#wip #wonhui #wonhui fanfic #wonhui angst #wonhui fluff #enemies to lovers #uni au #drama club #svt #seventeen #g; angst #g; fluff #p; junhui/wonwoo #m; wip

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kara-dolan · 6 years

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All of it sis 💁🏻‍♀️

WELL OKAY THEN

0:Height

5′2 me and my short self

 1:Virgin?

YUP

2:Shoe size

Um… Hold on gotta check (I don’t know cause I don’t get shoes often) Okay so I wear 3 sizes I wear 7 ½ in heels, 8 and 8 ½. My feet are apparently weird.

 3:Do you smoke?

No, I have before tho when i was like 6 with my brother grosses shit ever. But I also use to smoke marijuana but like I havent done that since last year around May.

 4:Do you drink?

Occasionally. But I don’t get drunk. Never have gotten drunk either.

 5:Do you take drugs?

No only thing that came close was weed and that was for my depression and anxiety. It just wasn’t prescribe.

 6:Age you get mistaken for

20 or older. Like I got to see a kids movie tho because of how short I am. So yay!

 7:Have tattoos?

NO Sadly

 8:Want any tattoos?

FUCK YES I HAVE LIKE 17 Tats drawn up and I know where I want them to go.

 9:Got any piercings?

Ears.

 10:Want any piercings?

Yes my nose.

 11:Best friend?

Evelin mi hermanita, but also VIVIANA aka @notanotherdolantwinsblog

 12:Relationship status

Single until Grayson notices me or some shit

 13:Biggest turn ons

FUCK THIS HAD TO BE ON HERE. Um… Jaw clenching, Grey sweatpants, “Babe”, “Baby”, Cute nicknames, Biting, hair pulling, choking, scratching, certain laughs, spanking, deep conversations, weird but like when someone picks me up and I don’t expect it, lip biting, eye rolling, cheesy jokes, puns, dirty jokes, someone being so focused on something like full on has their attention.

 14:Biggest turn offs

Feet, anal (like shit comes out of there no thanks), Smells that would make me like revolt to Jupiter, douche bags like the I am better than everyone type of cocky douche.

 15:Favorite movie

Romeo + Juliet, Titanic, Nemo, Monsters Inc., Scream, It Follows, Little Mermaid (all of them), Austin Powers (all of them). Sucker Punch, Kick Ass, 5th Wave,Let Me In.

 16:I’ll love you if

Oof okay ahhh um get to know me for me and we have a form of bond like that honestly I feel so bad if people give me things they pay for like I feel like I am just taking and I feel like shit so yeah become my friend and I grow to love you for you and you hopefully do the same.

 17:Someone you miss

My Haybug. ( my cousins daughter who I call my niece who I helped basically raise) um Grayson and Ethan, my cousin Austin and my other cousin Pierce.

 18:Most traumatic experience

Yeah this is great, um I have a couple one really fucked me up and the other one almost made me kill myself so I won’t be posting about it because it is not something I want in the world.

 19:A fact about your personality

Uhhhhh…. it is still forming because I am trying to find who I am.

 20:What I hate most about myself

My weight and teeth.

 21:What I love most about myself

My eye color and laugh.

 22:What I want to be when I get older

Financially stable lol but also a musician and actor

 23:My relationship with my sibling(s)

Well I live with my little sister and we annoy the hell out of each other but we love each other too and then my brother is away in a different state with the national guard and trying to join the army, so complicated?

 24:My relationship with my parent(s)

Well fuck. I… this is so complex no one is ready for it.

 25:My idea of a perfect date

Surfing ( hopefully not dying from it) followed by a hike to a high place to over look everything followed by pizza and ice cream and a movie where we cuddle (after a shower of course)

 26:My biggest pet peeves

EATING WITH MOUTH OPEN AND SMACKING IT LIKE NO STOPPPPP.

 27:A description of the girl/boy I like

He is just so beautiful, the way his laugh lines crease when he smiles with or with out teeth is just incredible and the way his brown eyes that change color due to lighting and emotion shine through even when he isn’t at his best because he has the most amazing heart and puts everyone else before himself even though he knows he needs to take time and get to what makes him happy. His hair that goes through hell but it still maintains a soft poofy look and as of right now it is a light brown almost ash brown with bits of dirty blonde. His jawline is the kind you wouldn’t even see on a greek god because it is so unique to his face hell his bone structure is his own and yet in some ways completely different from his brothers. He has an athletic build that I barely pay attention to because his droopy eyes capture my attention with the intensity that he stare with. Not to mention he has the most creative beautiful mind I have ever seen with theories and words he has and things he acts out. His sense of humor is amazing he is such a goof ball and it’s a mix of stupid corny jokes and dirty jokes that he can’t fully say out loud because he is caught in the public eye all the time. He can’t be himself and it is the most painful thing to know because he has the biggest kindest heart ever and is human with insecurities beyond what I know. Plus his scars that add characteristic details to his face that tell a story of a young boy having fun without a care in the world is the most beautiful construct of his humanity. Whoa.

He completely owns my ass…

 28:A description of the person I dislike the most

Cheeto with a blonde toupee

 29:A reason I’ve lied to a friend

To protect them. Or myself.

 30:What I hate the most about work/school

That I don’t do either

 31:What your last text message says

I didn’t know I could describe someone like this

 32:What words upset me the most

You aren’t wanted here.

 33:What words make me feel the best about myself

When someone thanks me for helping them. I don’t help people for that reason but I like to know that I helped in some way. It makes me feel good that they feel good.

 34:What I find attractive in women

Confidence for sure. LIKE YES BOO YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL!!!! YES WORK THAT OUTFIT! YOU ARE GLOWING!!!!!

 35:What I find attractive in men

Honesty, pure real deep honesty. Like how they feel or asking them questions to where they give deep meaningful answers or even if its like “ I just wanna fuck” like Okay you hot but I aint down for that thank you for being honest but oof damn even hotter now but like I am good. (unless they are strangers then thats creepy)

 36:Where I would like to live

Greece, Rome, Italy, California, New Jersey like the nature aspects of all these places oh my damn it’s so beautiful.

 37:One of my insecurities

My smile

 38:My childhood career choice

Musician, I have always wanted to be a musician in 4th grade I even started a band with no instruments and wrote songs but my dickwad of an ex said songs had to be at least 2 pages long and it kind of made me mad and I stopped writing them for a few months. FUCK YOU ETHAN ( not dolan my ex fucking douche side note I dated him in 2nd grade he dumped me for my friend who he dumped for our other friend who only went out with him to dump him)

 39:My favorite ice cream flavor

Vanilla only cause you can add other flavors to it and make a delicious concoction.

 40:Who wish I could be

A better version of me which I am working on currently.

 41:Where I want to be right now

In a relationship with Grayson so I can cuddle in bed with him and watch scary movies so we both get scared and like grip onto each other for the rest of the night.

 42:The last thing I ate

Dark Chocolate covered pistachios I know it sounds weird but surprisingly good.

 43:Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

Grayson Dolan

 44:A random fact about anything

I am related to Abraham Lincoln and Tom Hanks on my Grandfathers side ( my moms, dad.)

#asks #mintdolans #THIS SHIT MADE ME CRY #ESPECIALLY 27

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lovemesomesurveys · 5 years

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What would you say is your favorite food? Scrambled eggs with spinach and cheese, bologna sandwiches, ramen, and pizza. What color eyes does the person you like / love have? Are they pretty? I don’t like anyone in that way currently. What was the first television show you were obsessed with? Barney. I watched it over and over. There was a Barney in concert special that my mom recorded for me that I had on repeat haha. Do you like Mexican food or any other foreign foods? Yeah, I like some Mexican, Italian, and Chinese food. What color is the keyboard you are currently using? Black and the letters/numbers/symbols are white.

Do you own any of those ‘chunky’ and cute rings? No.

What are you planning on eating for dinner tonight if you haven’t already? I don’t know. Do you own an iPod or MP3 player? If so, when did you get it? I have my iPod Touch still, but I haven’t used it since like 2012. Would you rather write a report or type it on a computer? I definitely would rather type it out, which is how I did all my essays in school since high school. The only time I had to handwrite something like that was for class assignments and exams. What color was the last jacket or hoodie you wore? Black. Do you receive more compliments or insults on a daily basis? I rarely get compliments. I insult myself all the time. Who is the lead actress / actor from your absolute favorite movie? I have many favorite movies, I can’t choose just one. Can you recite the alphapet backward? Yeah, it’d just take me a little bit longer. Do you eat chili when you get a hotdog, or do you like it plain? Sometimes I did that. I’m very weird with hot dogs. They’re not my favorite food by far, but sometimes I can eat one. Chili made it better. However, I do really like hot dogs from Costco. Would you say it’s easy for people to make you smile or laugh? Usually. When was the last time you went on vacation? Where was it? My birthday weekend back in July to one of my favorite touristy places. How many states have you been to in your lifetime? 3, apart of course from my own. Do you and your friends normally say you love one another? I had a friend who said that sometimes. I don’t know, I always felt weird saying it to friends. I’m not the lovey dovey type. I never throw those words around loosely. Have you ever been an outcast at your school or anywhere else? Yeah, I surprisingly went pretty unnoticed for being the only student there in a wheelchair. Do you own any dresses? If so, what colors are they? Yeah, a couple black ones and a teal and white one. Would you say you drink more pop / soda than you should? The only time I have soda now is when I take my medicine. I crush my medicine cause I can’t take pills, so it’s basically like a shot of soda a few times a day. I used to be someone who drank a can a day, but that changed about 2 years ago. Would you rather have orange juice or milk with your breakfast? Ew, neither. Give me coffee. How many different colors has your bedroom been painted? The walls were white when we moved in and we’ve never painted them.

Do you cuss? If so, do you ever cuss in front of your parents? Sometimes. I never cuss in front of my parents, though. It’s weird that I’m old fashioned or something about it cause my parents aren’t like that at all. I mean, my dad doesn’t cuss a lot, but my mom kind of does. I just feel weird. *shrug* Now it’s gone on so long that it would be pretty wild if I just shouted out “fuck” one day lmao. Would you ever tell your mom about the things you’ve done sexually? No. My mom and I are close, but that’s something I just wouldn’t share. What was the worst news you’ve heard this entire week? I haven’t heard any bad news so far this week... Have you ever been in a car wreck? No. Do you have your ears pierced? If not, what do you have pierced? Yeah, just my earlobes. Has anyone ever told you that they think you have ADHD? No. Do a lot of people understand you completely? Who does exactly? I don’t think anyone could understand anyone completely. I know I definitely don’t even understand myself completely. How is the weather outside right this second? 63F. Do you have a lot of trees around your house? What about buildings? Yeah to both. Have you ever disowned anyone in your family? For what reasons? No. Have you ever seen That 70’s Show? Do you watch it regularly? I watched it during its original run. If you could choose, what decade would you rather live in? I liked living in the 90s and early 2000s. How often would you say you get sick? I always feel sicky on some level or another, but as far as things like colds go it’s actually pretty rare. I got hit hard earlier this year with the flu and bronchitis, but that was the first time I had been sick like that in a few years. It surprises me because I feel like my immune system is shit. Is there anyone out there who has hurt you so much, you wish they’d die? No. Has anyone ever called you a socio-path before? No. Do you mind it when surveys ask you really personal questions? Nah. If I don’t want to answer something then I won’t, but ya’ll know I’m pretty open. When was the last time you told someone you love them? Earlier. Which one would you like more: kiss on cheek / kiss on neck? Neck kisses are nice. Does it bother you when people steal your stuff on MySpace? Lol I remember when people would get upset if you had the same layout or something. Who would you say is the best actor / or actress in your opinion? There’s many talented actors and actresses. How many times have you been drunk in your life? Several times. What would you do if the last person you kissed said they hated you? That would really come out of the blue at this point. I don’t know what would make them say that now or why they would harbor such strong negative feelings towards me. I’m sure I’d ask him those things. Do you ever think you might be pregnant? I know for a fact that I am not. When was the last time you acted really immature? I don’t know. I get my moody moods and get upset over really stupid things. I’m a big baby. Do you enjoy watching comedies or horror movies more? I enjoy both. I’ve really gotten into horror movies these past few years. As a child, did you ever have an imaginary friend? No. Does anyone call you baby? Who would that be? Nope. Can you rely on one or more people to take up for you? Yes.

#personal #text #survey #surveys

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briteboy · 7 years

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(circumstantial name by @earnoodle)

IT’S FINALLY TIME FOR THE POST YOU’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR (or maybe just that one anon)

there’s a LOT in here, newer questions are generally first so if you asked something a while ago and you’re only interested in that, scroll towards the bottom. also doing wcifs separately (errr i’m gonna try my hardest to ok don’t crucify me)

this mass anons post includes topics ranging from Very Sweet Things Said To Me That I Don’t Deserve, nitpicking stranger things, crying over ramona, lou theories, Cillian Is A Fucking Creep theories (true), and completely unhelpful reshade advice

let’s f0cking do this

You're right, apart from carrying his stupid brain, Santi's head didn't do anything to any of us. I apologize for anon.

I'm pretty sure I said that already but I love Rooney and Santi's relationship so much I literally have no words for it

ME TOO LIKE IT’S JUST SO PURE TWO NOT-KIDS SCARED OF THE ADULT WORLD TRYING TO FIGURE THINGS OUT WITH THEIR WEIRD BRAINS TOGETHER ;__; i love them

YO i didnt know u were a demigirl!! im a demiboy nb Buddies

hell fuckin yeah dude!! we are starting a demi club

Ok but like I really want werewolves. Like I know it sounds stupid but we have vampire and while yes I love my bat babes, I want a giant pupper friend. I have story written out and plans for a cabin to build. Now I’m waiting for EA to give me my big hairy babes.

DUDE i want more supernatural stuff too, mostly witches like I NEED MY WITCHES AGAIN!!! ts3 witches were so good. i didn’t like ts3 werewolves much but i feel like they’d be super cool in ts4, knowing how the vampires came out. i NEED it

hihi! i've been very quietly (??) following your blog for some time now and i just fawn over your characters way too much ?? anywho, i've been wanting to start my own little simblr story but ,, i'm not entirely sure where to even start? i have so many stories that i'd love to get out there, and i have the means.. butt, how did you go about starting out?? so sorry this is so long but i look up to you a whole ton!!! ty ily! :-)

i’m the (??) lmao that’s me always but ahdhghdfkshg thank you so much!!!!! i’m so glad you love them, it means the world to me ;-; and listen, that was me, i had no idea how i was going to do it because i’d only seen ts3 stories up to that point and i thought there was like a set Way to tell stories but i had no idea what i was doing so i was like y’know what...i’m just gonna do it how i feel comfortable doing it and i’m gonna figure it out as i go along. so honestly try to roughly plan out what your stor(ies) will entail and if you get stuck on planning and can’t figure it out, just jump right into it, try to make a few scenes or get the ball rolling somehow, even if it’s just random posts (i mean that’s all my blog was until i decided to commit to santi’s story.) it’s always gonna feel weird and awkward at first, but you’ll get comfortable the more you do it and it’ll figure itself out, trust me!

I read through most of your story posts the other day and now I’m rereading it again just to torture myself some more (and maybe catch up on some posts I may have missed). I honestly don’t think I’ve come across a sims story that’s so beautifully written & includes such evocative pictures as yours. I’m really at a loss for words, it’s all so stunning. & after a nearly two-month long creative block, it’s planted the smallest seed of inspiration in the back of my mind, so thank you for your art.

AHHHH AHSDHKGKDSJG WHAT!!!!! it’s always crazy hearing that 1) people actually care about my stuff, and 2) that it inspires them. like i really cannot believe that, stilL!! thank you so so much, i’m so happy you enjoyed it (as torturous as it was, lmao) it seriously warms my heart that you’re getting your groove back in the creative world, that means more to me than ANYTHING!! good luck with your art or whatever you decide to do with that inspiration!

can i pls have your editing skill please and thank you

i owe most my editing at this point to reshade so honestly get reshade and u will probably become better than me

o added u on animal crossing and when you added me back i was so happy,, your little person is sooo adorable ((:

OMG!! thank you!! everyone’s person on there is adorable i cry i love them all so much i’m so mad tho it won’t let me add any more friends!!! it probably cuts off at like 100 friends or something STUPID

First of all, I love you. Secondly, I love your photos so much. I'm legit about to just ditch sims 3 for 4 now because of your amazing posts. 😖

LMFAO no but really THANK YOU I LOVE YOU!!! if you can manage playing both i admire u, i’ve invested too much time and effort into ts4 to ever fully go back to any other sims games tbh

The new patch made my game unplayable! I'm crying, I miss my doggos...

NOOOOO!!! hopefully by now you’ve found a fix, i’m prayin for u

long time listener, first time caller yoooo. i like everyone love your stories and your sim aesthetic so so so much and just tbh i was offended on your behalf about that ask from that person wanting to novelize your stories. like you were way too nice. this is your intellectual property and it's fucked up that someone would think it'd be okay to duplicate it as long as they used a different medium. this is prob a bad one to repost just wanted to you to know you're an awesome, singular voice

omfg lmao this is a radio show now *z100 voice* tellem why ya mad euhhh first of all i can’t believe someone even ASKED that, i’m in shock because like what this is so foreign to me. people want to write about MY characters WHAT! like that alone...takes a long time to process. and like i know i should say no but then i feel mean but they’re also my creations so like idk. it warms my heart that you feel so strongly and would stand up for me like that i’m cryin thank u for calling in i love u

I JUST FINISHED YOUR ENTIRE STORY AND I'M NOT OK WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE PUTTING ME THROUGH THAT SHIT IT'S AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER AND I FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE ABUSED MY (NON EXISTENT) INNOCENCE WOW

I’M SO SORRY U HAD TO GO THROUGH THAT ALSO I APOLOGIZE FOR STEALING YOUR INNOCENCE I NEVER MEANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN OSDAFKJDSK BUT THANK YOU FOR READING I’M GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT EVEN IF IT HURT YOU!!!

I've been up all night and it's now 11am. I'm completely binging on your stories bc I am in LOVE and need a Molly in my game asap. Do you think you'll ever upload her?

omG my freaking story inciting insomnia i’m so sorry for ur sleep schedule first of all, but at least that makes you identify with santi even more omg tho ;___; (how many times will i say ‘omg’ i wonder) i don’t think so because she is so dear to me and makes my heart ache, she is just so special, i dunno if i could ever release her into the wild like that lmao. i haven’t even shared her with my friends (not that i really ever had a reason to) but like yeah. maybe in the future that’ll change but right now, no, i’m sorry <3

To change the topic: Idk if you watch stranger things but I only managed to get to episode 3 of season 2 before I stopped watching lmao it was so bad and Billy (a certified Cunt) ruined the whole show for me

YEAH I DID! omg. i have a LOT of issues with this season (mostly in how badly they tried to retcon nancy and everyone else not caring about barb’s death, how bad the writing was in the realm of nancy and steve breaking up and then her and jonathan getting together...holy fuck it was so uncomfortable with that 40 yr old conspiracy theorist guy i couldn’t even enjoy my ship getting together lmao) also ur right, max and billy honestly did not offer anything to the story...like i loved max too but what was the point...billy acted like their presence and the reason they had to move was so dramatic when it was really nothing...unless they’re saving that for season 3 but like. the whole situation with billy was so anticlimactic. he was like a walmart version of henry from IT. like boohoo ur dad’s an asshole and then he beat up steve. good character arc. i liked max standing up for herself but really...that whole thing was so lackluster, i didn’t care about it at all. ALSO I HATED THAT THEY DIDN’T LET MAX AND ELEVEN BE FRIENDS!! i’m sure it’ll happen in season 3 but like c’mon...that would’ve made the max character feel a little more important to the story. anyway yeah fuck billy and i don’t get why everyone is lusting after him or his actor they’re both ugly! thanks for listening

I just got the sims 4 + city living and I’m so excited! I was really inspired by your stories and style in general... I was wondering what packs do you have and also what are your favourite sims 4 hairs? I’m having trouble finding ones and I love your style!

YAY I’M EXCITED FOR YOU!!! omg aww it warms my heart so much when people say i inspire them because i never anticipated that kind of response, thank you so much <3 hmmm i think i have all of them except glamour stuff and fitness stuff. and pretty much all the hairs i download are here or here. (or the subsequent ‘tf’, ‘cf’, ‘tm’ and ‘cm’ tags as well, according to age)

UHM a 19 year old and a 13 year old? Poor baby Lou... Also youre a brilliant writer i cant

😬😬😬 stay tuned ajasdhjhjsahd thank you so much!!!

My stan levels for you have increased so much? like thanks for being a good ally, clAps for femmesim!

lmao thank you, i don’t really deserve praise tho i’m just passing on the knowledge of those patient enough to teach me. just trying to do what i can with my privilege u know. ily

How do you have teeth showing in so many of your pictures of Lou and Molly, do you PS them in?

i’ve gotten this question before and it’s usually just the poses used! i do have some lipsticks that have teeth on them but i mostly use them for just rooney.

Honestly, a fight between Santi and that new guy (srry, forgot his name while typing this) would be so hot. Like, I hope Santi would win but like just watching Santi fight him for Lou would make me happy!! Also, I live for your stories💞

omG i’m about to call up vince mcmahon they both need to fight on smackdown it’s gonna happen. they’ll both be shirtless too ok and THANK YOU ILY

boi poc can be PREJUDICED against white people but there is no such thing as reverse racIIIIIIiiiiIIIIIiiiIIIIsm

Lemme just say that you must be feeling so stressed rn. I love you and your simblr!!! Your posts light up my day!! <3333

OMg kind of. this week has taken A Lot out of me and i really just want to chill at home and play my freaking GAME but obligations. u know. here’s hoping i get a day off this week. i’m mad i’m probably gonna miss gianni’s birthday too (it’s on tuesday) and i wanted to do something for it!! i’ll probably do it late like i did last year too lmao i’m so sorry baby g ANYWAY u didn’t ask to hear about any of this...thank you for this sweet message i love you <3

why,,,, are people... coming to your blog to discuss race you are a fucking simblr WHAT

the real question is why do people go to you like its your job to educate them lmao like theres so many resources out there

SHAWDY u aint wrong reverse racism is literally a joke i am so sorry you have to go through all of this keep stepping on white feelings we deserve it

I was wondering would u consider Asians to be POC?

yes

I just finished Strange the Dreamer and it was fucking amazing. I cried so much and I laughed and I sat in absolute amazement at the world Laini Taylor has created. 100/10 would recommend

ahhhh i really need to read it apparently!! i’m like 10% away from being done with a dance with dragons (and then i have to wait for the next book like a peasant HURRY UP KING GEORGE) anyway this one is definitely on my list!

omgomg!! I just met this girl in my class who has eyes just like ramona's!!! But like instead of being brown w/ a little bit of blue, they were blue w/ a little bit of brown!!! Dude I was so shook I rlly didn't think ppl had eyes like that!

OMG!!!! that’s amazing! and yes heterochromia is a real thing haha. i’ve only met one person with it and he had the same color combo as ramona too, only his was full heterochromia, not sectoral.

*me in the background screaming* nO yOU LEAVE HER ALoNE baD-DAD-MaN!

ME TF TOO

every time i read some of your stories i get an ache in my heart that doesn't go away until i either cry or sleep so interpret that as you like

OMG ;_____; ok me too tho my heart literally hurts thinking about my characters sometimes...mostly santi...i hate him (no i don’t :{ )

hey uhh idk if you've answered something like this before but do you have a spotify or something bc your music taste is GOLD

THANK YOU!! you were the first person to ask about this haha and hopefully you saw my answer to the other question about it! i just made one and it’s here!

hi hi ! i’m seeing all the drama on da blog and i really want to read the whole story but i can’t get to it on mobile so i was wondering if you could link the beginning and tell me what the best order to read it in is ( i’m so confused because i’ve seen sm people y’all about a parallel story so idk if i’m being dumb !! ) i hope this isn’t any inconvenience also your sims are so beautiful sjajsjajs

hey on mobile the link is just: http://femmesim.tumblr.com/tagged/story/chrono i would honestly just recommend that order haha, it makes things simpler and it encompasses ALL story posts, or posts that give context. there are parallels in my story, lou’s is kind of a parallel of santi’s, only different...well...you’ll see. but yeah sorry this is so late! and thank you!!!

TU HISTORIA ES TAAAAAN BUENA POR DIOOOOS (YOURE STORY IS SOOOOO GOOD OMG) <3 <3 *OO* *cries in spanish*

MUCHAS GRACIAS ENCANTADORA PERSONAAAA <333

lou is wendy right? i mean, a wendy complex is someone who is overly mothering to partners, and lou is already a mother and ik that doesn't really count as foreshadowing but it seems like it could be a link to me. it'd make sense too, considering guys that go after younger girls (ew) are usually immature ie peter pan complex. it'd make the most sense that those two go together then.

heheheheh that is a VERY good observation...that’s all i’m gonna say!!

This has nothing to do with what's happening in the story rn, but whatever. I was wondering if you were going to mention lou's struggles with being a single mom and the stigma surrounding single motherhood? As a single mother myself I'd really enjoy seeing you take on the issue. Personally, my biggest problem was overcoming the generalizations people put on you when you're a single mom. People always assumed that I that I was stupid and uneducated because I had my son when I was 17.

yes! that will definitely come up. i will focus a lot on her struggles as a single mom. so far i’ve mostly just peppered in some stuff about money troubles, and that will come up again, and the issues you mention will be pretty central to her character as well. i’m sorry you have to endure that, it’s not fair. people don’t even realize how strong and dedicated single mothers are.

when you say Peter Pan, do you mean the Disney stuff or the og creepy stuff?

i mean the general themes of the story and how that translates into a peter pan complex: boy who never grows up, feels like he fits in more with younger people (haha...yikes), read the message above because that anon described the other half of the equation better than i could

Wait, hold up. That dude is cute but I feel like he’s coming onto Lou way too strong. I have a bad feeling.. Lou is like 13 there and he is 19 I mean I’ve seen bigger gaps between people, but she is not legal yet.. Where are you going with this? 🤨😅

yyyyyyep that feeling is warranted! i am going a way i don’t think you guys expect me to go...i think you’ll be very confused at the end of this part lmao. that being said, i’m not putting any of this in for shock value or to romanticize inappropriate relationships like this. (i’m probably going to be repeating that a LOT for this story but please just keep that in mind)

Hey mom wanna hear a fun as hell story? I just got back from the ER bc I fell on my razor after showering, and practically cut my nipple in half. (I am in so much pain hELP)

OMFG NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR POOR NIPPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M SO SORRY I HOPE IT FEELS BETTER PLEASE UPDATE ME ON THE NIPPLE STATUS

U gotta watch sense8!!! Apart from the v awkward sex scenes it's v good, has a lot of representation and shit Just watch that shit show, u won't regret it (And if you do I cut your throat oops)

i’ve heard it’s good! i remember when it first came out and everyone was like Wow The Representation so honestly anything with diversity has already got me hooked pls don’t murder me.

I'm calling it now. He's Fi's dad. and he's a FUCKING CREEP!! Bitch you are 19!! LOU IS 13!! BACK THE FUCK OFF YOU PERV!!

no spoilers or anything but honestly i’m with you @ cillian die

Are they gonna fucc, o no

right now? no. that would be Very Bad

bABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE

oh same

Hi ! Your lastest edit (graveyard girl) is truly amazing, how did you make that bokeh behind her ? 😱😍

thank you so much!!! it’s reshade (with matso DOF)!

You've probably got this question a lot of times but i can't find the answer for it. What reshade do you use?

i gotta add this to my faq, it’s one i created myself but i started out with this one (it totally doesn’t resemble that one anymore but i think it’s a good starting point)

how do you make good looking male sims? mine always look the same and kinda girly..

hmmm longer faces, prominent chins and jaws, smaller eyes, bigger noses...generally yeah

What do you mean 9 + alt?

you gotta turn bb.moveobjects on and then press alt + 9 when an object is selected to move it upward. so what i did with those poses i made was, i selected a teleporter and pressed alt + 9 until it was at a spot i liked on the roof. that’s why releasing those poses would be tricky, ‘cause every build is different so there’s no set way to place them, you just kinda have to play around with them

You mentioned GoT so naturally, I have to chime in and express my love for Jon. Honestly, he won me over ever since the first season? I'm at season 5 now and people have already warned me so now i'm silently weeping, waiting for something to happen to my precious bby help

JONNY BOY!!!!!!!!!!! i loved his emo ass since the beginning but his arc with qorin halfhand (was he in the show??) was probably the best arc in book 2 and then his book 3 arc was just...SO GOOD, SO MUCH happens to him and i just felt like i was watching my son go through it all...i love that boy so much ;-; i’m almost at the end of the last book and i’m scared for him because of the one spoiler i know lmao and you’re at that point too so GET READY we’ll go through it together ok

So there's this game I'm playing where someone talking about another character says 'maybe you can break him from his ouroboros of self-fladulation' (I know I probably butchered those spellings but I'm not a bright egg and autocorrect isn't helping rip) and tbh it made me think of Santi. (Also I'mma scream of you get this reference jsyk)

OMG THE FACT THAT YOU THOUGHT OF HIM ;-; and it’s okay u are the brightest egg in the bunch to me. I’M SORRY I DON’T GET THIS REFERENCE BECAUSE I’M NOT A VIDEO GAME PERSON BUT I’LL PRETEND I DO KNOW WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT anyway yes santi is currently in the process of breaking his self-flagellation and embracing the oneness of the ouroboros (as opposed to letting the cycle repeat itself until he’s worn down to nothing)

do you have any favorite pose creators?

answered

do you have any tips for taking good screenshots in game? like how to get the good angles and good quality? i play on ultra but i think when i zoom in and then use the arrows on my keyboard to move around, the pictures gets less clear and looks kinda blurry. how should i do this?

well if you’re already using ultra, there’s not much you can do lmao. sims 4 is just bad with textures in general. it also depends on the objects as well, some are better quality than others. if i zoom in far on a sim’s face, i generally know there will be some pixelation and i can clean that up in photoshop with topaz clean and the smudge tool. i am very reliant on photoshop sometimes lmao. it sounds like you already have the basics of taking good screenshots, it’s just sometimes you have to fight and work with sims 4′s less-than-hd quality.

burn it down by daughter reminds me of santi & i'm in pain

ouroboros!!! death! birth! death again! birth again rinse repeat! also santi breaking the cycle because third time's the charm

The tattoo is an Ouroboros. It originated in Egyptian iconography, and it symbolizes recreation. My boy's recreating himself, I'm so proud.

ouroboros, the dragon eating its own tail. it's a sign of eternal renewal

i saw the post of child molly and just started BAWLING i miss her what the fuck she's my fave character i'M CRYING

ME TOO BICH!! ME FUCKIN TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just read all of A Serious Case Of The Novembers so far and theres still tears on my face. some of the best stuff ive read in a while, great job on everything

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ALSO I’M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY

every time you write about molly and her in heaven it makes my heart swell, like the characters were answering asks and someone asked her what heaven was like and even though it was so small short lil answer it still pulls at the heart strings, basically what im trying to say is that your writing is so good! <3

omg ;_______; me too, i feel like she has such a simple way with words and although her descriptions of heaven are brief, they are also complex and beautiful, and even just writing it chokes me up ;-; thank you so much tho i’m so glad you like it!!

Molly: out Molly tatto: also out

why did this remind me of this post:

How did you edit in the fire in the last post? Looks cool

i searched things like “bonfire” and pasted parts of it that i wanted on the pic to make it look more realistic, then put a layer mask on the pasted pic and erased the edges and stuff to make it blend in better. the sparks and stuff i added by pasting it onto a new layer and changing the blending mode to screen!

idk if you have every watched grey anatomy but Lou's backstory is starting to remind me of Jo (Jo is a character from the show) like Jo was in a abusive relationship and she is married to the guy but she cant get divorced or he will come and find her. So like if Lou didn't tell Fiona's dad he was a dad and Lou was married to him and cant escape the marriage (cause abuse), plus it would explain Lou's kink with being choked ;) full circle *god-like heaven music with tiniest violin is playing now*

ooh no i don’t but that’s interesting and i’m excited you even made a connection like that! i will say that it’s not lou who likes to be choked (the very opposite actually lmao) but otherwise the situation does kinda fit. i’m the violin

I have a freakin bio pre ap test tomorrow on photosynthesis and i have no idea what it is im going to fail save me

I’M ANSWERING THIS VERY LATE BUT I HOPE YOUR TEST WENT WELL!!!!!! *spongebob voice* photosynthesis

last time I installed reshade I couldn't get it to open the controls or shaders or anything in game :///// any tips?? I love they way reshade looks too!!

hmmmmm well i know the control panel opens when you press shift + f2, and then you check the boxes of the effects you want on them. i haven’t heard of this problem so i dunno what other advice to give i’m sorry :{ if it’s your first time installing it, you might have to wait a little to get it to load up.

Da puppy is so cute!!!

That dog and Romona are so adorable, I might cry

Ramona's cheeks are so big im in love

NAJKSDJGKJSD THANK YOU i love her and her chubby cheeks ;-;

OMG TOTORO IS SO BEAUTIFUL I LOVE GHIBLI UGH FKSJFJANFB

SAME!!!!!!! if i could only watch ghibli movies for the rest of my life i’d be totally fine with that

THE DOGGIE HAS EYES JUST LIKE RAMONAS IM GONNA FUCKIGN CRY

ME FUCKGN TOO!!!!!!!!!! it was fate (aka me creating the wolf pup to look just like her shh i am fate)

Hope I'm not bothering you but i wondered if you knew how to make Tamo sims eyebags work on a toddler? Do I just click in s4s to work for toddler on the "age and gender flags" when looking in My CC or do I have to do something a little more than that please? Thank you.

for any skin detail or makeup, you have to go into s4s and open the package up, go to one of the tabs (honestly i don’t remember which one because i don’t have it open rn lmao) and you’ll see the different age groups and you check the box for toddler. and then save it of course. (there’s probably a better guide on how to do this somewhere lmao)

Hey :) Sorry to take up your time, I was wondering if you use win7, win8 or win10? I'm trying to decide on one and people seem to have very strong feelings about it. Also what web browser do you use? I've used Firefox, but I had some problems on CC websites. Thanks<3

i use windows 10 because it came with my laptop lmao i honestly don’t know much about windows systems at all!! and i use google chrome because it’s never failed me (even though windows keeps pressuring me to use the new internet explorer called “edge”)

i just finished all of novembers in a sitting and 1. i'm Sobbing, 2. your music taste is bomb

THANK YOU!!! my music taste is like one part indie shit, one part rap and hip-hop, twelve parts emo middle school bands

what is the size of the original unedited screenshot?

1920x1080

For reshade when your first install and select the reshade you want to use do you have to edit the settings? Cause last time I tried to (I didn’t know what most of the things meant lmao) but it kept saying error or something so I couldn’t play the game so I ended up taking out reshade

do you mean the preset you want to use? i mean no you can just play with that preset, you don’t have to change anything about it. i’m not sure what you mean but i followed this guide for setting it up

Will you ever share your preset?? Or maybe a preset made be you??

i’ve answered this before but the answer is Maybe

Hi!!!! How do you make the rays of light you have in your photos?? THANK U BBY <3333

that’s actually in my editing tutorial but here you go <3

is reshade only available on windows + do we need to pay for it

yes and no

Hello love! I was wondering (and maybe it's a dumb question, idk) but what life span setting do you use? I would assume you turned off aging for your story but maybe I'm wrong ;w; Thank you!!

i do actually have aging off ‘cause i’m a coward lmao even in the ts3 days when i wasn’t doing story stuff and literally just playing i had it off for the most part and just aged sims up when i wanted because i like to be in control of Everything (aries)

I really just wanted to say that I’m new I your tumblr but your stories are amazing and I love them so much!!! Keep doing what you’re doing💞👏🏼

hey thank you!!! you are so kind and i’m glad you’re enjoying everything!!

In your reshade settings where have you set it to save your SS's to and which key please? I can't find mine after setting it to desktop/screenshots :(

i just set mine to ts4′s screenshots folder because it’s what i was used to and it works for me haha. hmmmmmm did you copy the exact address or whatever it’s called of your folder’s location and then paste it into the reshade box? try doing that with another location and see if it works. if anything you can do what i did ‘cause it worked for me

ok SO i came across this music video for this like spanish/english speaking indie band called The Marías and the song was déjate llevar and literally everything about the music video reminded me of rooney and gianni

OMMMGGG i love this so much, i cry @ music suggestions and this is so them ;-; i think i’ve heard of this band before actually!!

a little life is going to fucking ruin you,,, just a warning

great! i look forward to it

can a steal ur talent

have it i don’t need it

What app are you using to make them cool edit things??

i tagged it but it was doodle face

omg Strange the Dreamer is so freaking amazing! It’s literally one of my favorite books of all time; You’ll love it. The writing is absolutely delightful

you guys are really singin the praises for this book!! i have so many dang books to read i swear

#nonsims #saviorhide #anonymous #sunny answers #it is done and i never want to see another anon message again #i retire

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200 Questions to Ask Me!

200: My crush’s name is: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 199: I was born in: Michigan198: I am really: Depressed, bored, hungry, lonely197: My cellphone company is: Verizon196: My eye color is: Brown/ugly195: My shoe size is: 11194: My ring size is:8.5193: My height is: 6″3192: I am allergic to: Medicine, tree dust191: My 1st car was: The piece of shitmobile190: My 1st job was: Illegal ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 189: Last book you read: How to Think About Weird Things Critical Thinking for a New Age. (Yes it’s a college textbook, but if you love debating with people on the internet [ though this is pointless] this book is a must read).188: My bed is: a college loft that I fear is going to fall any second. 187: My pet: Pet no, mascot my HARAMBE FLAG! 186: My best friend: @rinkatai @aesthetichalestorm @bookerdewiit 185: My favorite shampoo is: Whatever I have in the shower when I’m showering184: Xbox or ps3: either, but Mario Kart trumps them all183: Piggy banks are: cool if they aren’t the break ones182: In my pockets: wallet, room keys, a “Thanks asshole” note someone graciously wrote me 181: On my calendar: Peoples birthdays, and predictions for stupids shit. (5 for 6 on them being right)180: Marriage is: dumb, combining debt together over a stupid ceremony. Why not just say fuck it and save the money for a sweet house and lots of animals179: Spongebob can: keep coming out. I love that show. If given the time, I could probably quote almost all the episodes178: My mom: is my mom177: The last three songs I bought were? People buy songs? I can name albums: Reaching into infinity, Begining of the End, One More Light176: Last YouTube video watched: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jsx0d3p4SMQ

175: How many cousins do you have? That I talk to, 3,4. total like 22+

174: Do you have any siblings? Youngest of 5

173: Are your parents divorced? No

172: Are you taller than your mom? Yes

171: Do you play an instrument? Guitar and Trombone

170: What did you do yesterday? Stayed up til 5 am playing Garrys Mod

[ I Believe In ]

169: Love at first sight: Sort of, doesnt work out though

168: Luck: Luck is an undeclared claim.

167: Fate: Nope

166: Yourself: Never. I always fail

165: Aliens: Hard to say,

164: Heaven: No

163: Hell: I am a living hell

162: God: not a god, but a something

161: Horoscopes: Nope

160: Soul mates: Yes

159: Ghosts: No

158: Gay Marriage: Marriage is Marriage, IMO calling it Gay marriage is trying to make it different than regular marriage.

157: War: Yes

156: Orbs: YEs

155: Magic: No

[ This or That ]

154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs

153: Drunk or High: Both. ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

152: Phone or Online: Phone

151: Red heads or Black haired: Red Heads, but thats just from my experience

150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes

149: Hot or cold: Mild

148: Summer or winter: Winter

147: Autumn or Spring: Spring

146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

145: Night or Day: Night

144: Oranges or Apples: Apple

143: Curly or Straight hair: Curly

142: McDonalds or Burger King: BK

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White Chocolate

140: Mac or PC: PC

139: Flip flops or high heals: Flippers

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and Poor

137: Coke or Pepsi: Don’t care, just gots to be diet

136: Hillary or Obama: Norm is my OTP ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

135: Burried or cremated: Cremated, that way I’ll still be around people when im dead because no one would come willing if I was buried

134: Singing or Dancing: My singing is 1 of a kind

133: Coach or Chanel: Chanel because meme

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Kat McPhee, only because I don’t know any of them and Hick is a bad name with my life.

131: Small town or Big city: Both

130: Wal-Mart or Target: Target

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller

128: Manicure or Pedicure: Pedi

127: East Coast or West Coast: Weast Coast ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Birthday, people notice me :)

125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers

124: Disney or Six Flags: Datknee… Disney

123: Yankees or Red Sox: Neither

[ Here’s What I Think About ]

122: War: Pointless, but happens, Realistically, will never end.

121: George Bush: All politics have goods and bads, we’ve had better, but we also had far worse.

120: Gay Marriage: Always said

119: The presidential election: Popular vote and the current way are both fraud by the way America is. A completely new system is needed.

118: Abortion: Not a women so my opinion is not valid or needed. Honestly I hate kids. so Pro

117: MySpace: Last i checked (like a year ago,) its pretty much a Soundcloud.

116: Reality TV: Stupid

115: Parents: Do what they do. Different generation so their ways of parenting are theirs.

114: Back stabbers: Too many in my life… DAMN… MAYBE THIS IS WHY I AM FUCKED UP.

113: Ebay: I spend too much money on it

112: Facebook: Fuck the Zuck

111: Work: Never had a legal job

110: My Neighbors: Can go shove a knife up their asses

109: Gas Prices: Better than the past

108: Designer Clothes: I’m making a separate post about this.. I might be in a bit of trouble with my college over this.

107: College: I don’t fit in anywhere. only friends I have I went to High school with.

106: Sports: Really wish I played football in High school. I know I wouldn’t play at my school, but a smaller one I would.

105: My family: Family is family

104: The future: WIll not be brighter.

[ Last time I ]

103: Hugged someone: Too long ago

102: Last time you ate: yesterday (2:00pm 12/13/2017)

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: Emotional abuser has a drug dealer that lives in my colleges town. Saw her :/ cried for hours.

100: Cried in front of someone: Summer 2017

99: Went to a movie theater: whenever IT came out. Got in trouble with my colelge cause of roommates

98: Took a vacation: too long ago

97: Swam in a pool: summer 2017

96: Changed a diaper: never

95: Got my nails done: never

94: Went to a wedding: Spring 2017

93: Broke a bone: with a doctor knowing never, but like 6 years ago

92: Got a piercing: None

91: Broke the law: ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

90: Texted: I stubbed my nose on the elevator

[ MISC ]

89: Who makes you laugh the most: Doc

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Nothing

87: The last movie I saw: Cure For Wellness

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Going home so I wont be alone with my depressing thoughts and questionable music

85: The thing im not looking forward to: going to the meeting

84: People call me: Davie Crocket Davy Divad Garbage, fucker loser, pretty much every name in the book

83: The most difficult thing to do is: pretend to be normal

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Talked the cop out of it with my mindfucking bullshittery

81: My zodiac sign is: Scorpio

80: The first person i talked to today was:

@rinkatai

79: First time you had a crush: 9th Grade

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Rink

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Last week

76: Right now I am talking to: Myself

75: What are you going to do when you grow up: Good question ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

74: I have/will get a job: No, I cant do interviews I alwasy fuck them up or never get called back

73: Tomorrow: hopefully do something better

72: Today: Watched 9 hours of netflixs

71: Next Summer: Too far to determain

70: Next Weekend: Too far to determain

69: I have these pets: None

68: The worst sound in the world: College kids screaming because finals when they are just being cliche

67: The person that makes me cry the most is: myself

66: People that make you happy: Happy? whats that

65: Last time I cried: Today

64: My friends are: Rin Doc

63: My computer is: Fucked up because everything I own always gets fucked up

62: My School: College sucks, High School : IN A LOT OF HOT WATER

61: My Car: is a piece of shit

60: I lose all respect for people who: treat me bad… damn thats like 95% of the people I see

59: The movie I cried at was: The Producer

58: Your hair color is: Ugly Brown

57: TV shows you watch: The OFfice

56: Favorite web site: Higher or Lower Youtube

55: Your dream vacation: Somewhere with the right person

54: The worst pain I was ever in was: The emotion and things I live with everyday.

53: How do you like your steak cooked: However it is cooked

52: My room is: MY STUFF IS CLEAN roommate 1 is not

51: My favorite celebrity is: Too many to name

50: Where would you like to be: A better state of mind

49: Do you want children: NO

48: Ever been in love: Sadly

47: Who’s your best friend: Rin Doc

46: More guy friends or girl friends: Girl Friends

45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Dark humor

44: One person that you wish you could see right now: :’(

43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I only plan 5 minutes in advance

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No, honestly asking 10th grade me, i only planned up till graduation

41: Have you pre-named your children: NO KIDS

40: Last person I got mad at: ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

39: I would like to move to: Sanity land

38: I wish I was a professional: Musician

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37: Candy: Sour Skittles or Mega Sours

36: Vehicle: Piece of Shit Mobile

35: President: Suliman with the Onion hat

34: State visited: Iowa.

33: Cellphone provider: Verizon

32: Athlete: Cardale Jones

31: Actor: Bill Mother Fucking Murry

30: Actress: Emma Watson

29: Singer: Davey Jones, Davey Havok, Chester, and many more

28: Band: Too many, but I will say I’ve personally met one of them

27: Clothing store: cheap ones

26: Grocery store: cheap ones

25: TV show: Office, Simpsons South Park TWD

24: Movie: Cure For Wellness Clockwork Orange, Cant remember the name, but the original hunger games… the japanese one

23: Website: youtube

22: Animal: panda pugs

21: Theme park: cedar point

20: Holiday: leif erikson day

19: Sport to watch: hockey

18: Sport to play: football

17: Magazine: ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

16: Book: Too many

15: Day of the week: Monday. Because I play a game of what sucks more… I win a lot

14: Beach: na

13: Concert attended: Alice Cooper 3x, Deep Purple, Stone Sour, Skillet, Motley Crue 2x, FFDP, Wayland, Valraven, Alterbridge, Iron Maiden, going to see Judas Priest with someone in April

12: Thing to cook: Pasta and muffins

11: Food: ^

10: Restaurant: places with spicy chicken nuggets rice pudding and chicken noodle soup

9: Radio station: 101 WRIF Q106

8: Yankee candle scent: N/A

7: Perfume: N/A

6: Flower: Idk Roses or Marigolds

5: Color: Black orange green

4: Talk show host: ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

3: Comedian: A lot

2: Dog breed: PUG

1: did you answer all these truthfully? Like 4 are not :/

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August Actions 2019

Words cannot express… the emotions going on inside me right now.

AUTUMN IS A FEW SHORT WEEKS AWAY. This is absolutely the start of the best time of the year because it’s basically autumn eve. That’s how I treat all of early September. Last year I went a little nuts in celebrating every single day of autumn and… I want to go even harder this year. I sort of winged it last year, but this year I’ve already started planning ways to celebrate the best time of the year. I have a problem. I know. But I’ve come to terms with that, so you should too. So let me tell you what went down last month so that we can fully move into the GREATEST, PUREST TIME OF YEAR.

I watched Why Do Fools Fall In Love on Netflix and jesus christ, the dog-being-thrown-out-the-window part? WHY DID NO ONE WARN ME. Will not watch again.

I love a good summer shark/alligator/dumb movie, so we obviously saw Crawl and it was very fun. The dog was the best part. (Are you seeing a pattern here? I’M NOT HARD TO PLEASE, HOLLYWOOD.)

I forced Maya to come to a sunflower farm with me and it was lovely. Why would a person with a bee allergy want to go to such a place? I’m not well.

I rewatched my favourite John Ritter movie Stay Tuned because it’s just something everyone should do once in awhile. Such a weird, perfect movie.

I attempted to read Samantha Irby’s book We Are Never Meeting In Real Life and I just couldn’t get into it, so I stopped. It’s weird ‘cause I really enjoyed Meaty, so I don’t know what happened here. Maybe ‘cause it’s summer and I think I hate reading in the summer? Haven’t picked up a book in months that I wanted to read.

I do not need to be the one who tells you how good hazelnut Kit Kats are, but I guess that’s what I’m doing at the moment - SO GOOD.

I watched part of the new 90210 reboot and ughhhh. It’s awful. In every way. Also, Luke Perry JUST died. They couldn’t have postponed or cancelled this trash?

I watched the first season of Tuca & Bertie and it’s so, so crazy good. Absolutely love it. Thank you to Harmeet for making me watch! I was so skeptical at first, but it’s incredible. So many similarities to Broad City in its goodness.

I went to the CNE with my Mom for the first time is yeeeears and it was so nice.

Above Photo: She did my braids, I can’t do nice braids on myself

Since Restaurant Week is always a big part of my life, I went to Park Avenue Summer for lunch earlier in the month and got the corn bread, corn gnocchi and corn creme brulee. YES, YOU’RE READING THAT RIGHT. Love a fucking cob. It was all very tasty, if not a little too corny (but that’s my fault, let’s be real). I also got the chicken and it was incredible. I’d love to be able to crisp a chicken skin as perfectly as they did.

Absolutely love this short piece about food and getting together with loved ones.

I got a Fanta Apple from the new section at Square One and holy shit, it was delicious.

I saw Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark with Layla and it was so good! I’ll have nightmares from this image.

And now you will too!

I made this hot honey salmon and if salmon weren’t such a disgusting fish, this would be a killer recipe. (And if you actually enjoy salmon, this really is great.)

I finally watched the rest of the new Black Mirror episodes and I stand by my thoughts that the Striking Vipers one was the best one of the season. Smithereens was okay and all, I’ll always love a Topher Grace. The main actor (Andrew Scott) did a great job, too. And the Miley Cyrus one was just okay? I don’t understand why that’s the common favourite of the season. It’s average, at best.

Favourite thing I’ve bought this summer: this jumpsuit with lace from Zara.

I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned it before, but I love reading the (monthly?) Grub Street Diet columns from New York Magazine. They profile different (semi-known, sometimes-famous) people and what they eat in the span of a few days. I mostly love it for recommendations of good things to eat around New York, but also I love hearing about what people do for snacks and routine meals.

Someone buy me this Danny Meyer Chocolate Cream Pie. Please.

I watched all of On My Block on Netflix and it’s so, so good (thank you, Marla!). I’m an idiot for not watching it sooner. My favourite character is definitely Jamal, I love the florist with the gnomes, and the musical choices are phenomenal. Such a great show. If you haven’t seen it, I’d describe it as a modern day coming of age story set in South Central LA inspired by The Goonies. SO GOOD.

Did you know that eating tomatoes helps prevent colon cancer? Did not know. I’m forcing Nathan to eat them now, enough of this “I don’t like tomatoes” shit. Not standing for it anymore!

I went to two weddings this month, which were both beautiful. LOVE a wedding.

I tried the seasonal tomato gelato at Il Laboratorio Del Gelato and it was rough. I did taste the corn gelato and that one was actually pretty good, I should’ve gotten that one. This was my first time here and my main thought: it has a horrifying interior. Like if Patrick Bateman ran an ice cream shop.

Lately I’ve started shopping more at small businesses and less at chains. Partially because these places will disappear if I keep doing what I’m doing and I hate that idea. So no more writing/drinking at Starbucks. No more books from Amazon. No more crazy cheap dish soap at Dollar General. No more plants from Home Depot. Enough of this shit!

Nathan and I celebrated our ten year anniversary and went to Vermont (again, haha) and I did a full post on it, so take a look over here if you like. While we were away, we did rewatch the first It (still great), Sleeping With The Enemy (always a favourite of mine) and The Hand That Rocks The Cradle (which is even better than we remembered, SUCH a good movie). Also, if you enjoy Instagram stories of vacations as much as I do, I posted our whole Vermont one on my Instagram.

This sounds like a broken record, but I did Nathan’s podcast again! We talked about our relationship and why we think it works, etc. etc. Very self-indulgent stuff here, guys.

So you know how I tried and loved that chocolate dessert hummus a few months ago? TRADER JOE’S IS RIPPING IT OFF & has made their own version. For two dollars. Now look, I know companies get ripped off all the time by bigger corporations who steal the idea and make their own… but fuck. This fucking sucks. I first heard and tried dessert hummus because of seeing it on Shark Tank (the company is Delighted By Hummus) and I want to say that they invented the idea, but I can’t say for sure. I hate this.

Some things that I’m looking forward to this month: I’m SO excited to see It: Chapter Two, possibly planning out details for a trip to Salem, finishing up the last of the summer things to do list, I’ve gotta find something new and good to read, there are so many photos that I love from visiting my family/friends this summer so I might do a photo post solely of my favourite ones, finalizing my AUTUMN THINGS TO DO list, and I’d really love to pack away all of my summer clothes at some point this month to make room for the gazillion sweaters I’m waiting to wear.

If you’ve got any interest in reading last month’s roundup, go on over here!

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its-love-u-asshole · 7 years

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hopping into puddles [Final]

Pairing: Tsukishima Kei/Kuroo Tetsurou

Summary: Tsukishima Kei has bad luck when it comes to a lot of things, mainly when it comes to love. In fact, if it were up to him, he wouldn’t be looking in the first place. But because of a curse brought upon him by his idiotic ancestors, his only hope for a normal life is to find someone who accepts him and his…particularly abnormal nose. Not that it’ll ever happen…

Or at least, that’s what he’s accepted.

Then Kuroo Tetsurou shows up.

Rating: T

Warnings: None

Note: I can't believe it's the end! Thank you all so much for reading my first multichapter kurotsuki fic, I appreciate all the support and comments I've received along the way <3 I hope I can write a lot more for this pairing in the future, I love them so much <3 Thank you @emeraldwaves for reading this whole fic over ^^ Enjoy!

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Like all trends and hot topics, the story of Kei's situation and the curse which caused it, faded into obscurity. The world moved fast, new tragedies, new highlights, they all soon overshadowed his once overpowering headline. Now his story, where he was and what he was doing, was relocated to page three of the paper, then page seven, and then not at all. He hadn't disappeared of course, sometimes when he'd be walking down the street people would recognize him, would squint at the scarf he still kept around his neck (more out of convenience than actual fear at this point). It was aggravating being stopped every now and again, people asking if it was really him. He'd flip them off, and if they were truly persistent, lift up his scarf for a split second or two. He hardly cared anymore if people saw, but he hated the attention, and especially giving into strangers.

After a while though, even that diminished, people forgetting all about him. It was nice, more than nice, since he didn't have to worry about people interrupting his grocery shopping or dates anymore.

And speaking of...

"Hey beautiful, ready to go?" Kuroo stood in the doorway to their bedroom--bigger now, since getting their new apartment. He looked good even dressed so simply, in just a hoodie and skinny jeans, and Kei wondered when the spark would wear off. It had only been a few months since the wedding, a year since they'd met, and something about Kuroo standing there made his heart race as strong as ever.

Kei scowled, rising from the bed as he tied on the shoes he'd been searching his wardrobe for. "You better not call me any of that crap in front of your coworkers." Since Kuroo had booked a more permanent singing gig at the bar, the management had apparently needed more part time bartenders, and the two newbies had invited Kuroo out for a movie. Polite socializing, Kuroo had called it, getting to know the new workers to make sure they were good guys. Kei didn't much mind, though meeting new people was never his preferred way to spend a Friday night. But alas, Kuroo had promised him plenty of sweets at the movies, and that's all he really needed to survive. Kuroo was keen on doing most of the talking anyways, and Kei secretly felt sorry for the guys, having to be analyzed by his critical husband.

Regardless, it sent a surge of fondness through him all the same, and he touched his wedding ring in appreciation. How he had ended up so happy, he didn't understand, but he was thankful to wake up next to Kuroo every morning.

No matter how annoying.

"Aw, but how will they know how in love we are?" Kuroo smirked as Kei shoved past him, making a beeline for the front door. "Why do you think I asked if I could bring my husband? I gotta show off."

Kei rolled his eyes with a slight smile, knowing full well they were going to a movie anyways, and Kuroo wouldn't have much opportunity to be his usual sappy self. "You're gross."

"I'm wounded."

Kei gave him a flat stare, but there was only so long he could look at Kuroo's stupid grin and painfully mismanaged hair before he cracked, laughing as he got ready to pull a scarf around his nose. Before he did so, he paused, waiting for the kiss which he knew would come automatically. And ah, it did, Kuroo's lips planting firm against his, the other's tongue trying to sneak past his lips for more action. Usually Kei would indulge, but they were on a time crunch as it was. He pushed the other away with a huff, making a note to continue where they'd left off later.

Kei didn't know how the night would go, but for some reason, leaving the safe confines of his home with a kiss always seemed to calm his nerves. He couldn't remember when he'd gotten used to this routine, but he dared not question it.

Kuroo smiled at him, linking their hands as he opened the door to the chilly air. I better be getting popcorn too. Something told him he didn't have to say it though, Kuroo already knew.

With a pleased sigh, Kei tied on his scarf securely, and followed Kuroo out into the night .

"Ah thanks for all the tips about the manager Kuroo, I wouldn't want to get on his bad side."

The two coworkers, Shun and Yuto, ended up being decent company. They were polite when they'd introduced themselves outside of the theater, but had for the most part clung to Kuroo throughout the time before the film started, eager for work insights and tips. Kei hardly minded, content with eating his snacks and listening to his husband talk about the job he loved. The movie had been fairly decent too, but Kei might've been biased due to the actors. Not to mention he was blissed out on the candy, popcorn, and soda Kuroo had gotten him. When the lights had dimmed, Kuroo had grabbed his hand firmly. In short, everything was to Kei's liking. So far.

Now they were leaving the theater, it had gotten darker and colder, and Kei bundled up as best he could. He'd never been built for chilly weather, he could barely handle keeping the fan on in his room. The parking lot was clearing out pretty quickly, and Kei hoped the talking wouldn't go on terribly long.

"Yeah no problem," Kuroo said with a laugh. "If he gives you a hard time let me know, he doesn't always mean to."

"Thanks! And hey, thanks for coming, we should do it again soon," Shun said, and Yuto was nodding along with him.

"Yeah, and of course your husband is welcome too," Yuto said, and Kei nodded politely, brain on autopilot while his body dealt with the chill. The comment seemed to direct Shun's attention to him, and Kei reached up, gripping his scarf to provide him with more warmth. The motion caused Shun to bite his lip, and Kei wondered if his theory was right.

When they'd first been introduced, both men had looked at his scarf oddly, but had said nothing out of respect. After a while, the weird moment had faded, and the evening had went along smoothly. However, there was just one thing Kei kept noticing, even as the two men began to take their leave. Shun hadn't stopped staring at Kei's scarf for the whole outing, eyes flickering to it occasionally, as if the question was eating at him. Kei had of course, expected this. He'd be a fool if he didn't think either man would make a comment, but he wished Shun would get it over with.

They were in the middle of the parking lot now, Kuroo's car in the opposite direction of the other two's, but Shun halted, coughing as he looked at Kei. Any day now or not at all would be nice...But soon the other managed to force the words out, barely keeping his grin back.

"Ah, sorry but...I gotta ask," Shun said rubbing the back of his neck. His excitement was clear, and Kei figured he'd be another one of those weird enthusiasts, the ones who wanted a picture or proof. Whatever, it was better than the ones who outright insulted him. It was frustrating still, but it didn't make him as humiliated. "You're the one right? The cursed one with...well, you know--"

"The pig face," Kei stated, shivering slightly from the cold. Kuroo stayed silent beside him, and Kei knew it wasn't a good sign. Kuroo tended to get more offended about people bringing up Kei's face as a negative, but for now, Shun wasn't, so Kei hoped he'd keep his cool. "Yes, that's me."

"Oh shit you're kidding! I thought the scarf was weird but I didn't seriously think it could be true!" Yuto jumped in, and Kei resisted the urge to roll his eyes. It was all over the news months ago, his picture, and his height tended to set him apart from the crowd in the first place. And it wasn't like he'd moved far or anything...he could get to his parents' place in fifteen or so minutes if he wanted.

Kei waited for the questions he was used to from the usual fanatics.

"Can we see?"

"Can I get a picture?"

"Does it hurt?"

Simple questions with one word responses, that's what he was used to, what he could handle. It wasn't what he got.

"Shit, and you don't care at all Kuroo?" Shun laughed, and Kei's stomach plummeted, because shit this is not going to go well. "I...I mean no offense, I'm happy for you but I don't know if I'm that open you know?"

Kei rolled his eyes outright this time, not caring. I'm right here you bastards. "Um--"

"Yeah like...okay not to be weird, but when you guys kiss or...do stuff like, it gets in the way yeah?" Yuto whispered, as if it was some taboo thing, kissing Kei, being intimate with him. Whatever, the fact of the matter was it really didn't get in the way. Not more than a normal nose anyhow.

Kei was basically over the conversation, he was cold, and he wanted to curl up with Kuroo in bed, maybe catch up on that series they were watching. Not deal with these losers. But that was him, and Kuroo was a different story. Kei glanced over, noting Kuroo's clenched fists and set jaw. He looked calm, too calm, but Kei could tell when he was fuming, when he was on the verge of decking someone right in the face, and Kei had to intervene before it reached that point.

Yeah these guys were assholes, but they were people Kuroo had to see and work with everyday. It wasn't worth it.

"No it doesn't, and before you ask, it doesn't hurt either. Is that all?" Kei asked, grabbing Kuroo's hand as he did so, pleased when it relaxed considerably.

"Man just...that sucks, I couldn't imagine," Shun breathed, looking at Kuroo, and Kei knew the statement was meant to sympathize with his husband and not him. Because dating someone with a facial deformity must've been so damn hard, pft. Idiots. "Anyways it's late, we'll see you at work next week man!"

The two started to walk off, and Kuroo did manage to give them a proper goodbye, as forced as it was. Kei didn't drop his hand the whole time, maybe as an effort to ground him. Over time, Kei had grown more and more immune to harsh criticism or slights about his appearance, though his views had changed. He didn't ignore them because he thought they were true anymore, no, he knew they were baseless and had no reflection on his actual personality. Again, they were upsetting, but he paid them no mind.

Kuroo on the other hand had never been comfortable with it, was protective to a fault. It was simply his instinct, and Kei was grateful, but he hated seeing his husband getting so riled up.

Nowadays, it was the only reason he ever found himself wishing for a normal face, only to spare Kuroo the idiocy of other people Kei had to deal with his whole life.

Oh well, we can't have everything.

And that was fine, because Kuroo made him feel like they did.

They made it to the car, the doors shutting to encase them in a tense, emotion heavy silence. The keys dangled in the ignition from the force Kuroo had put them in, but hadn't been turned. Kuroo set his hands down on the wheel, taking a deep breath. The car was freezing, but Kei suddenly didn't mind it. He just wanted Kuroo to be alright.

"Tetsu..." Kei breathed into the quiet of the car, watching Kuroo's hands shake from how hard they gripped the steering wheel. "Tetsu, it's ok--"

"Let's just...go home first alright?" Kuroo interrupted, voice trembling with the anger Kei hated. It was so unlike him, so weird to see something make his husband genuinely upset. The fact that it was on Kei's behalf was both touching and irritating, and it made Kei want to go back and slap Kuroo's coworkers in the face for their ignorant words.

But for now, they could go home, talk about it amongst themselves, and in the morning it would be better. Or at least, Kei hoped.

"Okay," he said, settling easily back into his seat as the car's engine roared to life.

Kei wasn't ashamed to admit that as soon as he was through their door, he toed off his shoes at lightning speed and flung himself onto the couch, burrowing into the blankets he kept there. So fucking cold.

It didn't take his mind completely off the predicament, in fact it made him more aware, now that he wasn't so focused on getting warm. Naturally, without thinking, he'd made space for Kuroo on the spacious couch, and his husband followed after him, movements stiff.

Ah, he doesn't know what to say. Not a good sign.

Kuroo always knew what to say, even if it was pure nonsense.

His husband's arms wrapped around him, pulling him close. Kei was on his back, Kuroo on his side, making eye contact mandatory. Not Kei's strong suit, but he knew it was necessary. How to even broach the topic was another issue, and Kei wasn't good at that either, but he could try...

He looked into Kuroo's eyes, and the intensity of the emotions inside them almost made him choke on his own. Fuck, how could he have ever doubted Kuroo loving him, when he gave him faces like that? The other's golden eyes were sad, searching, as if ready to offer any comfort Kei needed. It was nearly laughable. Here Kuroo was, worried about Kei, when Kei was only worried about him. Guess that's how relationships went.

"Tetsu, you know I don't care right? So you can stop looking at me like that," Kei said, trying his best to sound annoyed. Maybe if he tried to bring back some normalcy, Kuroo would forget about what his coworkers said. But his voice was small, not convincing in the slightest. I just don't want you to be upset, you ass.

Those coworkers...they weren't worth it.

Kuroo shook his head adamantly, his voice carrying tremors of his earlier anger, and his grip tightened on Kei's waist. "You heard what they said about you, how they..."

"It doesn't m--"

"It does matter. Kei...I won't let people say those things about you! I love you," Kuroo said, louder, his voice carrying through the apartment. His eyes were desperate as he brought a hand to Kei's face, and Kei wished the mood was different, so he could kiss him. "You know it's not true right? All that stuff...I don't think you're hideous or have problems kissing you, or regret--"

"I know." I know. Kei bit his lip, remembering their wedding, Kuroo's efforts to gain Kei's forgiveness when they'd first met, every small and intimate gesture from Kuroo. His husband showed his love in a thousand ways, so thoroughly and sincerely that it was impossible for Kei to doubt him. The blond almost felt guilty, making Kuroo worry about whether Kei believed him.

"I'm serious Kei, no matter what I--"

"Tetsurou," Kei said, rising from the couch in a sudden surge of certainty. The tables had turned hadn't they? To think Kei would have to comfort Kuroo about this. He would gloat, but he knew this was important. He had to be clear. Once he was, they could leave this behind them forever, fuck what anyone else said. "I believe you. I...I love you too so, ugh! Those guys were stupid, everyone is stupid! I don't care what they say, I'm not worried about you leaving me or being grossed out anymore."

"But--"

"I used to be, yeah I know," Kei continued, watching as Kuroo's eyes went wide. His husband rose from the couch too, face now directly in front of him. Kei didn't know if he was crying, but he wouldn't acknowledge it even if he was. "But I'm not anymore. I swear. I..."

Kei's breathing stuttered, and he remembered. He remembered being laughed at, being run from. All the matchmaking meetings, his mother's worries, being holed up in his room wishing he was either dead or someone else, all because of his face. But he'd done fine with this face hadn't he? He had friends he'd made on his own, he had Kuroo and his family, he was well educated and had hobbies he enjoyed. He was...he was happy. He'd be that way, with or without this face. If anything, his face had brought him so much, had taught him so much...how could he begin to resent it?

"Babe?" Kuroo looped his arms around Kei once more, their faces close enough to where Kei could feel his breath against his cheek, and he knew the answer for sure.

"I..." He breathed once, letting his forehead touch Kuroo's as a flush took over his cheeks. "I like myself the way I am, alright?"

The air was gone out of his lungs the next second, the world spinning around him as he fell back off the couch. He could hear Kuroo call his name in panic, but it faded away into oblivion, and Kei could do nothing but hope for the best. Images flashed in his head, the sounds and smells accompanying each memory whirring past his senses. The sound of people running, his mother crying, a servant perishing in anguish because of a scorned love...

It was as if he watched his own family tree from the roots up, every sin and birth, the crimes and accomplishments, all until it came to him. For whatever reason, as he felt his eyes watering and the world coming back into view, it was his mother's voice he heard, mixed with one he couldn't place.

"Never give up honey!"

He hadn't, he'd found what he was looking for.

"Not until one of your own kind accepts you as their own, shall the curse be broken."

The phrase repeated itself over and over again, booming in his skull. The curse, the myth, all replaying in his mind.

One of your own kind....

And then the sound stopped, and he was staring at his ceiling, the silence of the apartment sinking into his bones as he took what felt like his first breath in hours. Kuroo was above him, eyes wide and jaw slack. In any other situation, Kei would make fun of it, but he felt lightheaded, like something was amiss, and he couldn't place it.

"K-Kei...are you...you're..." Kuroo was at a loss for words again, abnormal, and Kei squinted at him as he sat up from the floor.

"What is it? What was that? I..." Kei brought a hand to his head, willing himself to relax. He breathed in through his nose slowly, the nostrils expanding as it scrunched up. He made a noise of confusion, and his hand slid down to his nose as if compelled, fingertips tracing the curve.

The singular, smooth curve.

No ridges. No snout.

He shot up from the floor, ignoring the dull pain in his head. Kuroo's arms were behind him, telling Kei his husband had cushioned most of the fall. He kept his hand on his nose, and Kuroo's jaw remained open, staring as Kei tried to remember how to breath correctly.

It's gone...is it...

Kei made a dive for his phone, opening the camera app, confirming his suspicions with a magnitude he was unsure of how to deal with.

His face was normal. Or, as normal as he'd once desired. Back when he'd fretted over his appearance and accepted every cruel criticism about it. There was no snout, just an average, human nose, fitting on his face perfectly.

"T-tetsu..." Kei called, for no purpose other than to know if he was dreaming or not. But ah, he wasn't. Kuroo was there in a split second, cradling his face with the same gentle smile as always. Nothing had changed below the surface, and it almost put a damper on the shock Kei felt. Because honestly, normal nose or not, this life of his was perfect.

"My nose is...I broke the curse." Kei finally said, and it felt strange to finally acknowledge the legend aloud, now that the proof of it was gone. It felt like a weight fell from his shoulders, the past crimes of his family finally moving on into oblivion.

Kuroo grinned at him with a shrug, mirroring what Kei already understood. This would change nothing. "Yeah moonshine, I guess you did."

His mother reacted about the way he'd expected. She fainted.

Luckily though, Kuroo must've seen it coming, and stopped them from taking an impromptu trip to the emergency room for her concussion. That he could anticipate, that he could handle. His family being happy for him, overjoyed even, coupled with confusion over how and why now of all times the curse was lifted.

What he couldn't have expected was the surge of emotions which came after. It was natural to suspect his family would blame themselves for the curse, but Kei hadn't even thought of it that way.

"We could've broken the curse a long time ago..."

"Oh honey, we should've accepted you as you were from the start! None of this would've ever happened!"

"You must hate us..."

The tears had been too much, the words more so. Kei had swallowed his pride and outright hugged his inconsolable mother, because of course what they all said was untrue. He could never hate them, no matter how annoyed he'd get or how dismissive. His family was his family, and they'd been there since the beginning. He didn’t know if they’d ever let go of the guilt, but he hoped so. And in the meantime, he visited and called often, never letting them doubt his appreciation.

"Alright Akiteru, I should go," Kei said into the phone with a yawn. He'd been working for a few weeks now, but the early rising was something he continued to be against. Mornings were not his friend. "My shift starts soon, and Kuroo gets whiny if I don't walk out with him."

"Hey! You're right but I'm offended," Kuroo said from where he stood in the doorway, dangling his keys in a subtle push for urgency. Kei nodded, grinning smugly.

"Ha yes, yes, I won't keep you two," Akiteru said, and Kei was thankful his brother chose not to tease him for once. Kei thought after a few months of being married he'd stop hearing it, but he'd been wrong. "I'll see you at dinner tonight. Later!"

Kei said his goodbyes, loving how he no longer had to untangle his phone from his scarf when he hung up. Sometimes, he found himself reaching for it before leaving the house, a force of habit after so many years. It was a benefit to breaking the curse, not having to hide, and an even better one was his vanishing presence in the media.

Conspiracy theories about the mysterious disappearance of the pig faced boy surfaced throughout the internet and tabloids, and they were fun to laugh at with Kuroo when they were bored, but for the most part, Kei was hardly found on any major news sites. No more pictures, no more attention. The world had moved on. Now he could enjoy the world he'd created for himself in private, without the interruption of 'fans' or uncaring journalists.

And of course, Kuroo was his husband, and Kei loved him. But that wasn't new, was it?

Kei smiled as he walked past his husband, and it was then his stomach chose to let out an embarrassing growl, ratting him out.

Fuck.

"Keiii, did you not eat breakfast again?" Kuroo's worried tone made Kei roll his eyes. Normally it was endearing, but Kei had been in a rush this morning. Besides...

"So? Neither did you."

Kuroo looked as if he was about to protest, but luckily for Kei, his husband's stomach chose to growl at that exact moment, winning Kei's case for him. Kei snickered as Kuroo pouted, opening the door as Kuroo leaned up for a surprise kiss on the blond's cheek. "Yeah, yeah. C'mon."

Kei smirked, but nonetheless felt his skin warm up, his heart and mind content in ways he never thought he'd get to experience.

Kuroo grabbed his hand, and Kei squeezed it, walking through the door of the home they shared together. And yeah, this was definitely something he could get used to.

In short, Tsukishima Kei was cursed with a lot of things; an unpleasant attitude, a smart mouth, and so far today, an empty stomach. But as he watched Kuroo walk towards his car, stopping for a final kiss before they went their separate ways, he thought he was blessed with plenty too.

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