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[mischiefmanifold]

"As long as I know the shape of my soul, I'll be all right."

Mischief ▪︎ 19 ▪︎ he/it

autistic & personality disordered

white & learning about my ancestry (mostly focusing on Greek right now)

hellenic polytheist and Athene devotee (see @skandaliaris)

writing since I was in the single digits (see @mischiefwrites)

I have a NSFW blog that I post and reblog to, if you want it you can DM me

I curate my own blog, and you can too!

NOTE: as a general rule of thumb, I do not reblog or post requests for donations or financial aid. I will, however, reblog masterposts of vetted fundraisers for causes like Palestine. If you message me a link or send an ask requesting donations, I will most likely end up deleting it and blocking you.

Non-traumagenic systems, TERFS/radfems, transandrophobes, pro-contact paraphiles, "narcissistic abuse" believers, and bigots are not welcome here.

LINKS:

NPD Subtypes Masterpost

Diagnostic Criteria & Examples Masterpost

NPD Resources

ASPD Resources

Coping & Distraction

Origins of the Term "Narcissistic Abuse"

Tagging System

Adulting Masterpost

Palestinian Aid Donation Masterpost

[momentomori24]

THEY ARE SO INSUFFERABLE AND HORRIFIC AND AWFUL BUT SO AMAZING AND DORKY AND THIS PART IS SO UNFAIRLY FUNNY AND CUTE AND WHOLESOME-- PLEASE, PLEASE HAVE MORE SCREENTIME IN S2. PLEASE LET THEM TAKE OVER THE SHOW. I KNOW THEY'RE HORRIBLE PEOPLE BUT I NEED MORE OF THE VEES.

And the most important scene of them all (to me):

First of all, how is Vox doing that. Second, you just know that these two douchebags are going to bang so hard with Alastor getting his ass kicked replaying in the background after this. I hate them so much.

[puppetmaster13u]

Meme Prompt 10

[the-witchhunter]

DP x DC: Homme Fatale

Noun. homme fatal (plural hommes fatals) An ultimately seductive and dangerous man; a womanizer.

On a bit of a Film Noir kick right now, so blame that

Imagine, if you will:

Danny, a private eye in Gotham, ever the hard boiled detective, sitting in his dark office, drinking coffee you could use to tar a roof. The office isn't in a good neighborhood but rent still ain't cheap. He's fixing to get a new case on his desk soon

Enter one Timothy Drake-Wayne, CEO of Wayne Enterprizes. He walked in shirt unbuttoned dangerously low in a suit sharp enough to cut yourself on and bags under his eyes to large to be counted as carry on. Mr. Drake has a job for him, one he wants to keep quite, and one important enough that he's willing to add a couple zeros to Danny's usual rate. This job is a dream come true... almost too good to be true...

or

Tim Drake aka Red Robin(yummm) needs plausible deniability on a case tied to his civilian identity and so hires a PI and lays down a trail of clues for him. All the while playing up the Noir tropes to flirt with the cute detective.

why doesn't he just take care of it as Red Robin? Shhhhh... the detective is cute and he's having too much fun playing the homme fatale

Bonus: Immediately after wrapping up Tim's case Kon walks into Danny's office dolled up in a vintage dress, period appropriate makeup done, all to play the part of the Femme Fatale and do the exact same thing Tim did. Does he know Tim literally just did that? Maybe, maybe not

[thebramblewood]

As Lilith’s question lingered in my mind — Do you trust me? — it required all of my dwindling energy to focus on something other than the peculiar sensation of her fangs digging into the tender flesh of my neck. Eventually, as my vision blurred and darkened, my mind drifted to a more comforting view, memories of an idyllic childhood. We were innocent then, troubled by nothing, not yet cognizant of the weight of expectation that would soon be thrust upon us. Though only two years separated us, I idolized Lilith. She was so confident and daring, two qualities I’d always lacked. I would have followed her anywhere, trusted her in anything — in fact, I did more often than not.

Only now, as I recall these final moments of my mortal life, does that trust begin to waver.

Previous / Next

Young Caleb: You’ll never make it all the way to the top.

Young Lilith: Will too.

Young Caleb: Will not.

Young Lilith: Will too! Let’s make a deal. If I reach the tallest branch, you have to climb up after me.

Young Caleb: I don’t know, Lily…

Young Lilith: Why are you so afraid if you don’t even think I can do it?

Young Caleb: It isn’t fair if I help you up.

Young Lilith: Just be quiet and stop wiggling. You’d better get climbing, pipsqueak!

Young Caleb: Don’t call me that! Look, I’m even higher than you!

Governess: [distantly] Lilith and Caleb Vatore! Get your behinds down here! Your mother will have my hide if you scuff up your Sunday best.

Young Lilith: [giggling breathlessly] Last one inside is a rotten egg!

Young Caleb: Wait! Help me down, Lily. I’m too scared. Don’t leave me here, Lily! Come back!

-

Caleb: [faintly] Lily?

Vlad: Goddamn it, girl! Get the hell off!

[discordant piano notes]

You’re killing him!

[fun-esta]

[sciderman]

Peter can't pull Wade's hair for obvious reasons so he improvises and shoots a web store the back of Wade's head and using it like a ponytail.

actually he pulls the nub (erogenous zone)

i've drawn art of this and will happily direct you to @mywadeyisthecentrefold for you to behold it

but god. that reminds me of another of my million wips in the wings... the nubbin fic. the nubbin fic. i forgot all about the nubbin fic...

[rabid-citrus]

Please do not thank me. Please don't ask me to donate, Gofundme won't accept it. (also, likes do NOTHING, reblog this to help it reach more people) (edit: I DO NOT verify campaigns and I don't know these people in person!)

Correction: approximately 43 now. PLEASE SLOW DOWN, I can't keep up!

The oldest one in my follower list started following me back in July. They've been flocking to me ever since. I'm sorry, but I'm not the person you should be looking up to.

The list:

@m7meds / https://gofund.me/1f6f3d0a

@noor678 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/save-nour-and-her-family-from-war-help-them-escape

@asmaayyad / https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-to-live-and-rebuild-a-home

@help-manal-family / https://gofund.me/cc51a060

@yasermohammad / https://gofund.me/e7c7528a

@mahmoudayyad / https://gofund.me/fe3cd6dc (https://www.tumblr.com/90-ghost/757710479206563840/legit-fundraiser < verified!)

@basel1995s / https://gofund.me/0dc0aa34 + https://gofund.me/e7b5377c

@abeer-adel / https://www.gofundme.com/f/urgent-relief-for-family-living-in-tent

@hudameq6 / https://gofund.me/a25b42f8

@shadowyavenuetaco / https://gofund.me/ba5b76e9

@khaledgazacity / https://gofund.me/65d3c667

@hazemsuhail / https://www.gofundme.com/f/urgent-help-needed-a-journey-from-gaza-to-safety

@engalaazaqout / https://gofund.me/5182be01 + https://gofund.me/d86eead0

@kenzish / https://www.gofundme.com/f/urgent-help-needed-a-journey-from-gaza-to-safety

@hirheem / https://www.gofundme.com/f/emergency-hamza-and-family-for-survival?utm_campaign=man_ss_icons&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link&attribution_id=sl%3A9892cda3-7c45-4c41-a4e1-adaaa071280a

@lobnaalser / https://gofund.me/2284158c

@shery-89 / https://gofund.me/fbcbb293

@alimeq92 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/fm8uf-khan-younes

@falestine-yousef / https://gofund.me/7e05a237

@mahmoud-gaza / https://gofund.me/0ba1af9f

@kareem-family2 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/give-them-hope-kareem-family

@melhindips / https://www.gofundme.com/f/hcz2n6-help-my-family-fleeing-the-conflict-in-gaza

@mohammad2 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-mohammad-survive-the-genocide

@mohmadelser / https://gofund.me/f784eeba

@ayoosh-gaza / http://gofund.me/87a0fa9f

@ranibra71 / https://t.umblr.com/redirect?z=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.paypal.com%2Fdonate%3Fcampaign_id%3D2PCAGRSXEUK3J&t=ZGFiMTRkZWMwNDUwOTllMThhNDJkY2I2ZGIwNzYxMGQ1YmQyNzQ2OCxmYjQyNjQ3N2EyMzg2YzBjYzMxYWU4MmI0MDUxNWQ5NWZiMWE3NDY4&ts=1726082177 + https://www.gofundme.com/f/displaced-gaza-family-seeks-help-after-war-destroys-lives

@hanyfamily / https://gofund.me/03d12215

@danahayat / https://gofund.me/9d9df629

@safaa-amir / https://gofund.me/9955bd5a

@moh266 / https://gofund.me/dc7a3a6b

@mohammedsh88 / https://gofund.me/b598a3e1

@belalahmedgaza / https://gofund.me/2cbfba4f

@ahmadresh2 / https://gofund.me/c4472150

@lawyer-adhamayyad81 / https://gofund.me/dd27f564

@ibramogh / https://gofund.me/aaba65e6

@hashemabd / https://gofund.me/39b9335b

@aseelo680 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-aseels-fight-for-life-and-family-in-gaza

@hanangazaa / https://www.gofundme.com/f/9s6zht-please-help-my-family-in-gaza?utm_source=copy_link&utm_medium=customer&utm_campaign=man_sharesheet_ft&utm_content=amp9c&attribution_id=sl:3834f25d-d0cf-48ab-8eb1-7486b0785867

@sfaamq10 / https://gofund.me/b25cb4bf

@nooralanqar / https://www.gofundme.com/f/rebuilding-lives-a-mothers-plea-for-hope-and-safety-in-gaz?lang=en_US&utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link

There is also a list of those who reached out to me via asks:

[korkiekenobiconfirmed]

hilarious and severely underutilized jacegan modern au dynamic is when jace starts out the fic like "ooh perhaps a night of casual fun with Mr. Emotionally Unavailable?" but then by the end it's not-so-casual and he's fully acquired an entire toddler son

[mem-fr]

[clementimetodie]

Abuser is abusing me. I am going to respond by dragging myself down to their level and abusing them in the same way they abused me, but it's okay when I do it, because I am Morally Righteous, God Himself even told me so!

[deoidesign]

hi i have a bit of an odd question and im so sorry if it comes off as rude at all!

ive seen a lot of your posts about canes, i have hEDS and chronic pain and im trying to convice my mom and my doctor to let me have a mobility aid. my mom is very adamant that i dont need a cane because i dont have balance issues, but my knees and ankles are pretty much always aching. i was just wondering if you think a cane would help with chronic pain or if i should look into other aids?

Canes can help chronic pain, they are not guaranteed to help you specifically

You can get a cane for ~$30 at most stores and try it out

A physical therapist and/or a specialist in rheum will most likely know more than your PCP about your specific pain and situation

Parents often don't want to admit their kids have health problems

I wish you luck

I won't be answering any more asks about mobility aids.

This is nothing about you specifically, you were not rude, I just get a lot of questions like this in my inbox. It becomes draining to get so many asks with people's personal vents about their medical issues or religious trauma or the homophobic situations they're living in.

While I would love if I could help people, I am not a doctor. I am not a therapist, I am not a social worker. I'm just a random artist on the internet who has EDS and is barely getting by myself.

I prefer to keep my blog about my art and about my work, not about my disability. It is relevant to my work, of course, and discussing my conditions in vague terms in how they relate to themes present in my work is more than okay, but I prefer this space to be dedicated to my work and getting to engage with my readers through my stories.

Personal information about my pain, my medications, my tests my doctors and my trauma are not things I want to make public.

Thank you for understanding.

[edstrid]

Slowburn Au I thought would be really adorable to draw out--

Basic premise; Adrien doesn't immediately fall in love with LB and instead kins her bc she says the things he could never as Adrien. Marinette understands can relate to Adrien social inept-ness on a spiritual level so she finds herself playing the middle-man to help him make friends.

Adrien doesn't think he's in love with LB because he was taught that love is gradual and love at first sight doesn't exist.

Marinette doesn't think she's in love with Adrien bc (Canon divergence starts here) Love is a spark and happens instantly; Like the stories she's been told by her parents.

Obvi they get over this and realize in some ways they're both right and wrong and it takes 4-5 seasons to realize its love, and another 4-5 for a reveal-

[pollen]

i'm going to enroll in a personal training certification course for fun :)

[charmcoindied]

need to call the student health center n try to get on testosterone i cannot keep living this way i don't think. like i keep telling myself oh i'll do it when i feel ready but i think it's like jumping into a cold pool and i'll never really Feel Ready but it's also like The one thing preventing me from ever feeling happy and i don't know if it will ever be possible for me to love living my life if i don't do this right now. and like i'm scared but i've always been scared and it's clear enough that just ignoring the feeling and pretending it's not a problem or i'll get to it after i do xyz is obviously not working. and like i keep saying this and every time i hit what i perceive to be a breaking point i just keep doing nothing until it happens again i'm tired of living so passively!

[fitgothgirl]

family blow up. long story but went to my parents' for dinner with my sister and we literally got kicked out, which has never happened before (we are 34 and 36), and over non-personal/idealistic shit at that. my dad said he didn't want to have us over anymore. i feel like i got fucking disowned. i just keep sobbing and can't seem to stop and i keep almost panicking/hyperventilating.

for i think the 3rd time in my life, i'm very glad i have ativan.

update about 2 hours later: i took a day off work tomorrow. my sick time is maxed out anyway, fuck it. i almost didn't cuz i was thinking it would actually be good to be distracted by work tomorrow, but tbh i don't think it'd actually work out like that and i'd just be shitty at my job while still being just as sad and preoccupied.