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So because doing math homework is overrated/hj i’ll just yap a bit about some ideas i have for the play, which i will be calling the play until i have a better name,,,,,
I imagine the scene where The creature is telling victor about its story starts with them sitting at a table in the little cabin or whatever on Mt.Blanc, where The creature starts explaining what happened after its “birth”. With the medical diary he found in Victor’s coat and everything.
When he gets to the De’Lacey’s the lights go black and there’s a scene change.
The table is still there but The creature and Victor aren’t. The De’Laceys (and Safya too, i’m not sure how to integrate her into the small retelling without being like the book, which i didn’t like how that was handled. To say the least) start showing up as they are mentioned and act more like those cuckoo clock figurines as the creature explains.
And when The creature tells the part of how he tried to talk to the father, and failed and then burned the house down, a second actor might have to dress up as the creature to do the stage action, as the real actor of the creature and Victor are either behind the stage narrating, the narration is being played over a speaker or the two are standing behind the audience and narrating.
When the part about the De’Laceys is done the stage goes dark again and The creature and Victor are back at the table, and the Creature asks for a companion ect. ect. We know how this then goes, i will keep the discussion short because i am probably not allowed to have a 6 hour play consisting of the most detailed dialogue bdnefbdjjd.
I will probably have to cut out some scenes and replace them with slightly shorter ones for context or make important scenes include information it would not in the book, to keep it as short but also long as possible. I will make it long enough for a brake though.
#Bro tf I rambled real good on this one#what procrastination does to a fucker#o well#frankenstein#red’s theatre ramble#i feel kinda guilty for clogging up the Frankenstein tag with my confusing ranting about my adaptation that doesn’t even have a good name#yet#like#help#if anyone wants me to stop using the Frankenstein tag or has a name suggestion i beg you to tell me like#please#criticism is welcome#how else would i learn right#ehm#yea#did i forget this play would have to be in german cuz i live in germany#i think i did oops#i might also go back on my main and try to find my year old musings about the original draft that got lost#I should get back to my math homework actually
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[ID: Two digital illustrations, both loosely shaded, showing Thespius in various poses and outfits, all with his left eye closed.
The first illustration has three Thespiuses.
The first/upper-left Thespius is standing and leaning forward as though mid-step, looking to the viewer's left in a glittery silver blazer, brown-ish tie with floral patterns all over, white shirt, and dark blue pleated skirt. Said skirt features a subtle gradient from a paler blue at the top to an even darker blue along the bottom. Silver flowers (with dots between each one) decorate its waistband, while double horizontal lines (with three flowers on each pleat) cut across the bottom of the skirt itself. He has black shoes with white socks matching his outfit. His two trumpets peek out over his shoulders as he holds his ukulele Tony and loosely strums. He has a loose ponytail, yellow/pale blue flowers in his hair, and a billowing wave of desaturated warm colors in stripes behind him. Around the entirety of him is a cream-coloured outline as well, and he overlaps the second and third Thespius-es some.
The second/upper right Thespius is laughing with his face haloed by the sun. His torso faces away from the viewer, but his face is turned enough to see his beaming expression. He's in a running/skipping pose on top of a section of pink/coral cloud, wearing a brown blazer/suit with crisscrossing cream/red stripes, cream-coloured shirt, flowing brown skirt, white socks with garters, and black shoes. His right (hidden) hand clutches his skirt to swish in front of him, while the other arm is thrown out in joy and balance. He's mostly in shadow save for the sun's light spilling across him from behind. He also has the same cream-coloured outline around him, one that disappears as it flows into the sun and clouds. Additionally, another -- if smaller -- billowing wave of the same warm colours can be seen to the right of him.
Lower right Thespius is leaning back against a bed of pale orange-pink clouds, his left arm up like the cloud has/is an arm rest. His right hand is pulling down pink heart sunglasses (with a golden frame) for him to look over them with a laid-back smile. His hair's worn loose here, draping down over his shoulders and loosely tied back with a pink/coral bandanna that features wavy patterns and dots all over. The rest of his outfit consists of a very low-cut pale yellow shirt (one showing off a bit of cleavage and chest hair) with dark teal hems and vine-like/floral embroidery (teal across the shirt itself where it meets the hems, yellow along said hems themselves), dark teal pants that flare out at the ends (which feature the same yellow embroidery), and even darker teal shoes with pale yellow edges and decoration to match. He also wears a dangly, shiny green-ish earring consisting of a tall triangle shape with a rounded segment below it. His nails are painted, too -- pink on his right hand, teal on his left, both featuring very small yellow flower patterns. Over his shoulders float his two trumpets, and behind the whole scene is the top part of a halftone-patterned rainbow (which also overlaps the second Thespius slightly). This third drawing of him notably lacks the same outline the others sport.
The background consists of a gradient from pale greenish-blue near the top, to a rich mid-tone/dark blue towards the bottom, with dark halftone patterning overtop. Yellow/white/peach/pink flowers of varying shapes and sizes are scattered throughout. Around the whole piece is a border consisting of two dark, parallel wavy lines. Both the flowers and border share the cream-coloured outline.
The second illustration has four Thespiuses.
The first/upper left Thespius is leaning on his elbows on slightly darker pink clouds, framed by the seemingly setting sun like a halo. He has a gentle bright smile and is resting his cheek in his curled left palm. His right hand is tucked into his left elbow, and two other disconnected hands -- one on each side -- are somewhat spread palm-up around him in a welcoming sort of gesture. He wears a loose, shawl-like, low-cut desaturated green shirt with elaborate patterns of dark red/orange overlaying yellow around the ends of the sleeves and down the middle/opening of the shirt itself. Said shirt also has similar, dark green stripes across it. His headband is striped the same colours of the shirt. He's lit mostly from behind by that setting sun, its light also spilling across his clouds. Said shading/lighting has a painterly look.
The second/upper right Thespius is smaller. He floats proudly, both eyes closed and his hands on his hips. He wears a white turtleneck, dark teal skirt + headband, white socks, and dark blue-ish shoes. His two trumpets hover over his shoulders. Around him is the same cream outline from the first page.
The third/middle Thespius flows with the rippling stripes of colour behind him, pivoting on his left heel with his right up and behind him and arms outstretched as though dancing. His right hand in particular reaches palm-up (as if to an offscreen partner) with flower petals scattering from it. He's smiling bright. his hair flows out behind him and two the viewer's left, with a red headband (with arrow-like patterns on it) around. He wears a baggy, pale tan shirt with thin horizontal stripes and a semi-dipped neckline, all of which bunches and flows outwards with the rest of his dance. A loose white vest with blocky red-brown stripes along the opening + a similarly-coloured zig-zag stripe down the front, as well as tassels (with similar decorations along the ends) that scatter and flow outwards with the force of his movement drapes on him. He also wears loose red pants with large, almost scale-like patterning, tied with a long lighter-red belt (sporting patterns similar to his headband) that flies out in front of him, also spinning with him. His one visible shoe is an orange-ish red. The entirety of him also has that cream outline.
In the lower left corner of the image is Tony the ukulele, decorated with a flowing stripe of red, yellow, and blue, like a rainbow of sorts, as well as smaller stickers all over of yellow/peach/pink/dark purple flowers + hearts. A similar cream outline borders the entirety of Tony.
The last/lower right Thespius is a halfbody in profile to the viewer's right. He has his hands on his hips, and a happy triangle burst effect coming from his smiling face. He has a gold/yellow striped headband, a white blouse with thin green and red stripes and deep v-cut, a maroon cardigan with a white-dotted stripe pattern, and black lower clothing. He sports the same cream outline.
The background here is a desaturated turquoise with some darker hints around the edges. Wavy stripes of blue, purple, and pink flow across it like a long scarf or river. A halftone pattern sits atop both. Even more pink/yellow/peach flowers are scattered around, and the same wavy border from before frames the whole piece. Said flowers and border once again share the cream-coloured outline. end ID.]
my pieces for @strawberrij thespius fashion zine!! quite the endeavour and adventure that turned out pretty neat i think :]
special thanks go to @ratchetclankarecute for posing/cloth references + the bulk of the image descriptions! that first image would Not have happened without them <3
#great god grove#ggg thespius green#thespius fashionista zine#moon draws things#also everyone cheer and clap and say thank you to @actingwithportals and @vivifrage for significant help wrangling clothing folds#@publiccmenace for some tweaks and colouring advice#and @ayaheart77 for further colour advice + helping get these backgrounds sorted at All#literally that first page wouldnt have made it past the sketch cleanup stage if it weren't for the crew pitching in#shoutout to that entire server honestly. youve heard of twitch plays xyz‚ get ready for: discord plays zine entry#couldnt have done it without yall <3#also massive massive shoutout to tumblr blog omgthatdress whose extensive library of fashion this project--#--literally Could Not Have Happened Without#anyhow HI. BEEN A MORBILLION YEARS AND MAYBE IT'LL BE A MORBILLION MORE. WANTED TO PLAY TOYS THOUGH SO HERE I AM [FOR NOW]#THESE WERE SUCH A STRUGGLE TO POST AND FOR WHAT.#had to link them from my personal website just so tumblr would accept them. good lird#this was a whole entire adventure and Quite the challenge in many ways. quite proud of the effort that went into it all though :]#came away having learned a lot too!!#would 100% do this again [just. hold the sketti sauce (technical difficulties that cost me 10 days or so and made the whole thing--#--a slight scramble) next time]#be sure to go have a look at the zine whenever it drops to see these in full res!!! and see everyone else's work too!!!#everyone's been doing such a lovely wonderful job and it's absolutely incredible to see#anyway. sighs wistfully. i may be aroace but damn if this silly guy doesnt have me a rather goofy amount of in love in a shrimp sort of way#like YEAH i too am in love with love and have a passion for passion bestie!!! i never stood a chance. it was over before it even started.#peace and love and plants on planet grove#and also @strawberrij!!!! i hope you know that how you draw this guy like fundamentally changed how i draw him too#right in the middle of working on this and everything. saw your one impossible greens post‚ got hit with levels of serotonin i didn't--#--even know i was capable of‚ felt a switch flip in my brain‚ and HARD pivoted into borrowing some of how you draw this guy#it's literally peak and i hope you're proud of yourself [completely genuine]#unsure why it's not letting me ping you directly also but alas. may whatever curse that took your messages and asks be lifted soon cuz--#--Good Lird‚ man
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Durgetash Resurrection AU
"Is that...? That's my body. I remember now. The Morphic Pool. The Elder Brain, it... I was dead. What did you do?" "I made a deal... with Lord Bane."
#durgetash#bg3#enver gortash#the dark urge#durgetash resurrection au#it's about time i made some durgetash content that isn't just shitposting lol#i promise i do plan to actually write this fic#god i know this looks like a happy reunion but i promise it will not be that simple#he's not exactly happy she's usurped him as bane's chosen#and the torture he experienced at bane's hand when he was dead does impact him significantly#but at the same time he's glad it's over so he's also grateful too#but also he spent so much time in hell as a child wishing someone would come save him until he learned he couldn't rely on anyone else#that now that someone actually has saved him he doesn't know how to process it#and yes bane doesn't insist on having just one chosen but he's not going to re-accept gortash easily#he'll have to prove himself all over again whereas durge is on top of the world right now#and he doesn't want her hand outs#and bane may say he's fine with them ruling together for now but you just know he's going to pit them against each other too#and durge is hardly soft herself. she saved him for her own reasons but she's not going to give up power for him. the netherbrain is HERS.#she betrayed her father for this. she became a new person for this. she's not here just for him but she wants him here with her.#he can share her throne but he better understand who's in charge here. she'll tadpole him too if she has to.#though she hopes he won't make her do that (not that she'll tell him she hopes that)#and he hates her for it but he also wouldn't respect her if she were any different#it's complicated#plus they have to deal with any interpersonal drama while also trying to take over the world 😂#because despite how the “control the netherbrain” ending makes it seem#the journals and plans in gortash's office make it clear that not everyone in baldur's gate is tadpoled. not even close.#(the brain doesn't produce nearly enough tadpoles for that)#so they have to deal with keeping the rest of the population in line & trying to militarize the city & get footholds in other cities#not to mention they have to counteract the fact that every god and other powerful being in the world is going to be working against them#tennetash
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RULES OF BEING OTHERKIN #1
Being authentic and true to yourself is the only way you are 'supposed to be/act like' (insert entity). If anyone else disagrees it only tells you about them.
#going to start a small 'series' where I document stuff I learn that is otherkin specific. This is for myself as well as anyone who might#be struggling with things I used to/am working on(otherkin specific). hopefully this will reduce any mental pitfalls other otherkin may#fall into as they explore their identity and help out someone.#this 'rule' took a LONG time to fully understand and grasp. for the longest time I would consciously or subconsciously#think I was less Loki if I did or was something 'Loki would never do. until i realized I do exactly and experience exactly what Loki does#and experiences because...Im literally Loki. (talking about incarnations here). I felt pressured to be a certain way because 'Loki would#never (insert). being aroace is on of them. i tried to convince myself I wasn't aroace#and when I finally ran out of reasons i felt i was 'less Loki' because mythologically hes like the opposite. but Loki IS aroace. because#Im Loki. and Im aroace. so loki is SUPPOSED to be aroace because Im loki and im being exactly how loki is being. because im loki. being#myself. therefore being exactly like Loki. again - incarnation.#anyway....if anyone else struggles with this I hope this helps someone. its a really sucky place to be in honestly.#godkin#deitykin#alterhuman#otherkin#divinekin#nonhuman#alterbeing#therian#I think I will be learning a LOT more as I keep exploring and I will note down any 'rules' I learn - more like lessons but rules personally#sound more right for me. rules i will live by (yknow unless i find out im wrong but...im going to trust myself more and right now i feel#like this rule is true. so im using it as such unless i find out im wrong in future.
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Creature!Batfam with Human!Tim
I've read a to of pics where Tim is secretly a dragon, or a demon, or something and sometimes hides his species status.
From this idea, I propose to you: Human!Tim while the rest of the vigilantes are all non-human, even Bruce.
imagine the drama!
All the research Tim would have to do on different demonic/magical/etc species to pick one and to be able to pass off as one to others who actually are in a position to be able to tell.
What kind of creature could he hides himself as? How could he pull it off?
Does he befriend magic users who help him hide the fact he is purely human from the other's super senses? Does befriend an alien or a creature of the type he choses to impersonate or a similar species who helps him? Does he find grimors and use them in order to make his play believable?
#batfamily#tim drake#fanfiction#batman#dc#creature AU#are the batfam demons (mostly)?#or are they something else?#griffens?#fea?#sirens?#mystics of some sort?#what all would Tim have to do to hide his humanity?#How would the batfam discover his blood status?#How can he hide that he has the blood of a human?#How long do you think it would take Tim to train himself into inhuman reactions to things?#I don't think it would take him long because he is the king of false IDs#but like imagine#a tiny little Tim#learning that neither of his heroes are human#and then decides he wants to understand them#so he learns about the different secret species#and picks one to mimic#for funsies#you know?#except it winds up being something that “lets him” become Robin#because there is no way Batman would let a *human* of all things take up the role of Robin#right?#(wrong!)#I'm looking forward to reading any comments/reposts
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Why do so many people unironically think the Fire Nation is the misogyny-less “girlboss” nation. What the fuck.
#avatar the last airbender#the fire nation#‘haha Zuko learns about misogyny’ he spent thirteen years around his dad I can guarantee you he knows what that is#like. the fucking weirdness of exalting the genocidal colonizer nation above all else aside#it’s just textually untrue?#Ozai kidnapped Ursa.#even if we don’t take the search as canon he still clearly has and wields power over Ursa#Azula becoming fire lord doesn’t mean Ozai is a guy supportive of girlbosses it just means he hates his son’s guts#and the title of fire lord he gave Azula was empty. it literally didn’t mean anything. like he pronounced himself Ruler of the World#and declared there would be no more nations it would just burn under him#like Zuko is not some enlightened feminist#like sure maybe we could argue that the fire nation in LoK is a lot better but also the Fire Nation is like…never talked about in LoK#and there’s something incredibly gross about all these headcanons about Enlightened Feminist Zuko (Fire nation)#showing the Evil Reductive Misogynists (water tribe) the light#like you realize how weird that is right#right.
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A little promo with my little obsession on the side...........
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#klance#halloween au#im projecting on the internet my own impostor syndrome#i feel that im awful and should be learning how to draw instead of writing shitty fics#and when i want to write a post and share a little doodle or smth - 'sorry' is right between the lines and its so frustrating#like???? nobody probably cares#im either here or im not#and if i need to finish that little abomination of a fic then so be it you'd think people wouldnt mind too much#and would still want to listen to my captions and see whatever silly doodle however silly it is as long as its true#..............but what if its all redundant#what if i cant draw after i had to flip my entire routine upside down#and will forever chase a thrill of feeling like a prolific artist and it will be always out of reach now#what if people scroll past my art and feel nothing now#what if world is filled with people who kinda hate klance but stay out of reflex and not bc its their deeply routed source of comfort#what if i reached an artistic plateau and will never be good enough#what if this is the limit of my 'talent'#what if i will forever love the projects i want to share but will always hate the execution of it wanting to fix it fix it fix it learn mor#i keep reading the little notes i get on orders#some screenshots i saved#i find good words and opinions and love letters to art as a whole#and i feel insufficient#subpar#i drew a comic about it to an old poem and still havent finished it#there is a point of trying your best when it stops feeling like a challenge and feels like a failure#its the moment where you keep going of course#and yet#there are emotions im sure nobody shares on social media bc we just try to get through them#but who else will take it better than tumblr tags#either way if im less around its because im dealing with creational self-hatred and artistic ambitions#but on the other hand arent all artists like that? i ran out of tag space btw have an awesome weekend
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Coming out as a SprucePlinth lover too.
Spruce gave Sejanus so much trust with his and his sister’s life; gave him a chance Sejanus both wanted and needed to do some concrete good for someone in the Districts; gave him an opportunity at a better life away from Panem, like he wanted; trusted him even though he was only 18 years old and a Peacekeeper from the Capitol; treated him as an equal despite that, to an extent probably no one had done in a very long time.
I can see Sejanus falling harddddd because of all of that, and in my opinion Spruce just has the potential to treat Sejanus so well
#i see the potential and i see a lot of it!!!!#spruce would treat him with so much respect and like an equal#and he’d take care of him not cause he thinks sejanus can’t do it himself#but cause sejanus actually matters to him#and he’d do it in a way that would let sejanus know that that’s why#and it’s not cause in reality he thinks low of him#(unlike someone else whose name starts with a c)#of course this is all just in my head hehehe but it’s there!!!#the potential is all there!!!#and spruce is the cool gentle authoritative older husband sejanus deserves!!!#so au in which they actually escaped and fell in love and got married in 13 later on#and sejanus got to be loved and grow old#(and c*riolanus perished)#also you can’t tell me sejanus wouldn’t like when a man is authoritative in the cool leader kind of sense#cause he just would#(just look at the men in his life. he WOULD like an authoritative man#like… suzanne collins said “freud was right” with tbosas and we shouldn’t forget that /j)#and that’s spruce. he’s that type of person#and the thought of sejanus crushing on him and spending the months in the woods trying to get close to him and impress him is adorable#“i’ll go set some traps” “CANICOME? ...i’d like to learn how to do it 👉👈”#(lies he just wants to spend some time alone with spruce)#spruceplinth
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Help I’m thinking too hard about the unexplored world building implications of the seven kisses lead to pregnancy in a world where there seems to be/have been a patriarchy and also somehow it works interspecially despite humans and akiridions having entirely different modes of existence/bodily function
#that movie is still fucking me up (derogatory) almost four years later#like Aja overcomes a seemingly patriarchal issue of ‘princesses can’t be warriors’ that she at least thinks is systemic sexism until#she learns her mom was a warrior#but also her parents created a new global government so perhaps systemic patriarchy was a thing before they upended the old system (that#morando was trying to restore??)#but also what are the implications of this world that had make warriors predominantly but also the men got pregnant? I mean the women still#have breasts and the baby thing is quite fast so perhaps women stayed home with newborns?#and also that culture would probably have some sort of milestone associated with each kiss right? like Aja mostly didn’t care about Rules or#The Way Things Should Be Done so it makes sense she didn’t think too hard about milestones especially when surrounded by human dating cultur#BUT ALSO in the first episode(s?) the go out of their way to say that humans are biological and akiridions are ‘energy based’ so like how#does that factor into this whole shitshow?#did she maybe think the whole species thing meant she and Steve couldn’t ever have kids (which could be an issue with the whole ‘Royal’ thin#thus deserving exploration too)#and like also there’s the Aja and krel’s parents were somewhat less fertile or Aja and Krel have at least one dead sibling thing cause she#says 3 or 4 babies#and we don’t necessarily know if she and Krel were even from the same pregnancy since she consistently calls him little brother#and how do repeat pregnancies work? is it on multiples of seven or like is there something else to it?#don’t even get me started on vex having had a family (implied to be a wife and kids) nor how his relationship with Nancy will work in the#long run cause Jesus#I hate rott so much this isn’t even its worst writing decision#trollhunters rise of the titans#3below#3 below#aja tarron#krel tarron#tales of arcadia#toa
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In my imagination of red and leaf being twins and both autistic I think the only reason leaf doesn't have the same totally blank 😐 face as red is because she did the age old classic of practicing facial expressions in the mirror every day until she learned the basic ones. She also made her default expression a smile 🙂 to seem more approachable.
Unfortunately since the expressions don't come naturally to her and she had to learn them, the can come off as exaggerated/overly dramatic. Which is fine for some people but others find it equally as off-putting as reds poker face. It makes her a little sad when people dislike her because of it bc shes doing her best to fit in but can't seem to get it right.
She puts a lot of effort into masking at least when she's a kid-teenager but once she's older and has made more solid friendships she can let herself relax and not need to stress about it so much, although in social situations she may still slip back into old habits.
Red does not mask and never really has. I choose 2 believe his mom was really supportive and accommodating so he wasn't forced to hide his autistic traits unlike leaf. This is because in my au they are twins but their parents split and leaf had to stay with their dad. Who is not as understanding as their mom.
Idk if he'd be actually horrible to her but he was not as patient or understanding as their mom + leaf also just craved more friends and wanted to be able to socialize more so she eventually learned how. Red is content with the 4 people he knows (mom, oak, daisy, green) and prefered to mostly be alone so he didn't have that motivating factor to do it.
He was very content with having one friend, green, but he was def lonley during their "rival" phase when green stopped hanging out with him and was focused on trying to prove himself in some way only he understood or worried about. Along with that is green also being the master of masking for the most part. I don't see oak as being particularly accommodating and patient with him so while Daisy probably was, she's also not a parent so she couldn't be responsible for caring for green the way oak should've been.
As they got older green also craved to be seen as cool and popular amongst his peers so he started masking heavily and also distanced himself from red. Unfortunately he realizes that being accepted for a fake version of himself by mainly strangers is actually very lonley and he misses their friendship 😢 but atp he probably figures red wouldn't wanna be friends again bc of how green ignored him for so long so I think they don't become close again until After the gym challenge "rivalry"/red dissapearing/reuniting years later. So they were both missing each other a lot but both felt unable to reach out bc of the distance that grew between them when green pulled away. Anyways tldr green pro masker leaf trying very hard to mask but struggling a bit and red rawdogging his autism never masked a day in his life.
#green is better at masking in the sense that he doesnt struggle with facial expressions and can mimick others social behaviours pretty well#he really learned via watching others and practicing fake conversations in his head until he could navigate most conversations well#he does still have times where he did not account for certain factors or new situations so he has to observe and learn some more lol#leaf struggles with socializing even when she watches and tries to copy bc unlike green who is naturally a bit dramatic and animated#she instead leans heavily into having flat affect like red. she also struggles really hard with picking up on other ppls intent/feelings#the type of person who isnt sure what the emotion were feeling right now is bc she also struggles to identify her own feelings sometimes#red does that too. part of why hes very avoidant and internalizes everything is that he often can't identify exactly what hes feeling#and if he can he doesn't know how to make it feel better/would rather ignore it and try to focus on something else#green tries to internalize his negative emotions but i think hed struggle with it so he js def the type to bottle things up for awhile#but he quickly gets overwhelemed and ends up having a bit of a meltdown when he can't hold it in any more#hes very reactive. part of why his and oaks relationship is difficult to mend is bc green gets very easily triggered by any small jabs oak#makes at him even jf theyre unintentional especially if he compares him/his strength as a trainer to red#when red dissapears it would get worse bc he is constantly weighed down by guilt and can end up lashing out a bit#especially with his bpd making him prone to mood swings/very strong emotions he struggles to process#he gets better at it as he gets older but it's really overwhelming and difficult as a kid/teen bc oak is 0 help and daisy#does what she can to hell him when she can but shes his sister not his mom. im not making her take on a parental role she is also a kid#anyways. thjs js ungodly long#trainer red#trainer leaf#green oak#blue oak#pokemon headcanons
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there are two wolves inside of you. One of them is fretting that you went through all the effort of making a new art account just to pigeonhole yourself once more into a specific fandom, which holds you back from exploring original art concepts that you care about. The other one came up with three separate ace attorney comic ideas in the last hour alone and isn't stopping anytime soon
#laurellala talks#am i unwell? perhaps#i also drew like 5 more sketchy comics i haven't posted#and a full colored drawing i haven't posted bc i'm overthinking if i need to attach comics to it also or post on its own#i want to draw more muppets interactions and come up with an actual theoretical muppets ace attorney case!#they would get to explore the muppet studio as a location aaa it would be so cuteee#and i'm in the middle of drawing a comic of miles and nick video calling and teasing a young trucy (i love trucy)#and i NEED to draw nick and maya interactions from trials and tribulations case 3 it's so sibling coded agh my heart#also i want to draw lisa basil in general the roboty software company lady#i want to design an ace attorney self insert called Laurel Lyre (you're a liar) and draw sprite expressions and character interactions#she would be an art student that Nick knew from college and she was painting a still life of the scene of the crime#and her painting has something different than how the crime scene looked which is used as proof in court#ALSOOO i had an idea for a silly comic of nick visiting miles in germany (platonic coded)#and of either a comic or short story idea of them going out to dinner together. This one is hard to explain but it would be good#I WANT TO DRAW FRANZISKA TOO i have an angst comic idea for her! And i want to draw her as a kid in dance class#i feel like she has so much scrutiny of herself which is very “i was in dance as a kid” coded. Ballet probably#I ALSO have a comic idea of a holiday party that took place before miles' murder trial but after steel samurai case#where miles begrudgingly talks to phoenix to avoid small talk with strangers and they talk about college#specifically like. it is canon to me that phoenix was in an improv group in college. That's where he learned to bluff. he's so silly#i also want to make a comic of the parents at trucy's school trying to sus out how old nick is#since he's only like what 17 years older than her?#I also want to make a gilmore girls joke but i can't tell if this is too dated to be funny. Do people know this show still#i had never watched it before so i just watched like half a season of it just to make a joke. It's cute.#What Else. I have like 5 animatic ideas but i need to ask my friend what she uses to make hers bc in the past I've used imovie on my phone#do not recommend#and if i don't draw everything RIGHT NOW i'm going to lose interest and nothing will get made!!!!!!#andandand I STILL NEED TO FINISH TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONSSSSS#i got sooo far i'm doing so well in the waitress case#i need to finish it so i can finally understand apollo justice and know what the HECK happened in that time skip#ace attorney
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Atla live action 😐
#thats my honest reaction 😐#to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid#like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat#or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already#good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive#to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil#i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better#but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because#it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak#and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but#come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and#makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality#i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was#IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys'#and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall#AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think#plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS#a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason#im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your#audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small#thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small#its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers#i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang#anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and#rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz#netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub#no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same#ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me#i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing#yapping
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idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do
#listen. take a deep breath. i know your bpm is high but you need to think with me for a second.#remember that you are paper thin. all your facets are sheets of paper and what you gave her is just another one.#make a new one. you dont need it. you dont need her to see you. i know you think you need her but you will be okay. i know its hard.#you wish you could have shown her how you loved her. listen to yourself. you are made of paper.#she might be concrete or maybe wood or maybe gold. you need to start laying your roots elsewhere. shut that thought down#and blink and listen. the parts you keep thinking of arent lost. they still happened and they are yours to keep.#there is beauty in this loss. tell me about the beauty in this loss. its okay to think about it. you got to see it all and nothing more#and this is great because it would have been bad. you know it would be violent in a way you dont need. you know this to be true.#you are going to look at that empty space in her shape and youre going to fill it with everything that happened when you knew her.#the memories with her but then also the the way your friends talked you through it. the game with the clovers.#your first allergic reaction you almost died and you couldnt stop laughing and you were held so close to their hearts.#learning the names for all the floursecent gene tracking dyes that everyone else knows already. about the exam - listen again.#i know you think if you fail your life is over but you need to try your best. youre not going to get a good grade in a uni test for the fir#youre going to make up for it. youre going to make sure you make up for it. do you understand? i love you. you have to do this.#right now you need to sit up. breathe. i know your heart hurts. go to the living room. grab something to eat. i dont care if you feel full.#youre going to clean your mattress heater. youre going to study a bit longer and then youre going to sleep. youre going to tell your mother#im sorry and i might genuinely fail a test. shes going to tell you its okay. if you do badly in this course you can just become a neurosurg#just agree. dont argue right now. its okay. youre okay. you are paper thin. i know any puncture hurts.#breathe. think of your friends. think of their hands in yours. it isnt eternal.youve lived through worse. the empty sky is still beautiful.#the lack of her is still beautiful
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Realism is fun till it isn’t and I realize I’ve already committed too far and can’t just scrap it but I know it will take me too long so here are some sacrifices you may see finished later on
#dragon#myart#creature#I still generally have inspiration for the first one so that one will probably get finished first#I really like watching the speedpaints procreate automatically records even though it’s crunchy and has a weird green tint#specifically on realism because it’s wild for anything else and is actually psychotic#Mostly because I just suddenly start experimenting with brushes and start turning layers off and on for a good chunk of it#I use 3 layers usually for realism#One for the actual drawing one for the sketch and one for a base color#It makes it better I think because it’s more similar to actual painting or something#That might not be the reason I dont really know#It’s just better I do it that way#Maybe because I can’t get distracted and lost?#Realism is also a great source of learning for me#Even if i never really finish stuff like this#I might this time though who knows#Sorry for leaving you guys stranded I’m chasing a really big train across the country#My priorities are with locomotives#“You guys” (I say to my very few followers 🤑🤑 (that probably followed me in the first place for dragon adventures stuff))#I do what I want and what I want is not dragon adventures right now#Right now I want locomotive#I’m not hijacking that train it sounds like I’m going to hijack that train#however#i would appreciate owning a big train I feel like I would enjoy that#Side note how do my DA followers feel about the genetic traits in the event eggs making motorouk w/ the error trait worth like 100mil#I feel ill when I can recite all of the full species names from memory#It does make sense though I’ve been playing since the first event in 2019#I’m committed what can I say#Almost forgot a tag oops#art
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theres a lotta things i wanted to do this year but I think the thing that would help me the most is to like. start personal projects that make me enjoy my work again. x( i wanna be excited about game development and making games again, it really helped me push myself to learn and get better and this stagnating just feels terrible. Knowing what I'm capable of but not being able to set on the path to getting there.
#i unfortunately thrive in group settings with other passionate ppl#my work is not really a collaborative group setting#and my senior thesis project really burnt me out and kinda killed some of that joy#if i wanna keep in this career i need to figure out how to consistently stay driven#i should be modeling or texturing or sculpting or creating things every day#even just an hour a day#also if i want to be able to do more stuff that i can use in my portfolio i just need to get a lot quicker at making things#so i can justify my work to my boss#that + proper photogrammetry would b really useful#personal stuff#i never had any illusions about where i would go with this degree#i never really thought nor planned to get into any large studios working on huge games#i don't hate where i am with my job and that we do really meaningful stuff is incredible#i just wish it felt like any of it was MY work :/#i feel so disconnected from what I make and it's hard for me to feel pride in it#i gotta settle this out this year or get started on a new career path#and just let this be a personal thing for personal projects#the imposter syndrome is real too#by all rights i am fairly knowledgeable about what i do and i can be pretty quick learning new pipelines and texturing methods#i just am fighting executive dysfunction all hours of the day#i feel like i get so little done so slowly compared to so many other people#i see other ppl's portfolios and I feel embarrassed that I'm not at their level#im a 'its never too late to learn' person but man it feels like i'll just never catch up in terms of skill and speed and consistent output#every time i try to reassure myself it just falls flat. they had mentors but not everybody had mentors and they're still better :/#i have adhd and i have a hard time self-starting. but a really large amount of creatives in all fields have adhd and they still do so well#every thing that makes it tougher is the same for so many other people and it feels so frustrating that im just having a hard time#overcoming what everyone else seems to have overcome just fine#anyway sry for the rambling#i miss loving games soo much and having so many ideas and wanting to l earn new things
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