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[seeingstarzz]

Homestuck roleplay server in 2024? Insane

me and my friends have a real totally cool homestuck server and we do a little rp.. we r cool and nice and u should join PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE ill give u 1 dollar if u join (not guaranteed)

PLEASE JOiN LMAO

first pic made by @kingoftheboooterflies

[alevens]

zolu is maybe one of the easiest ships i've ever liked. they're dating, except when they're not, they're best friends even when they're kissing and they're still captain and first mate when they aren't. they hold hands, they hug. they have sex. they don't.

Luffy can hold Zoro's katanas and Zoro can hold Luffy's strawhat and no one bats an eye. one says "You're so cool!" and the other says "You're strong" and it's just another way to say "I see you, this is why I follow you/this is why I trust you". it's not seeing each other for a long time and still knowing how the other's steps sound like against wood and sand. the captain runs and the first mate follows. it's always "Zoro and the others" and "Where's Luffy?"

if they're just friends, if they're something more, if they don't have a label for it, at its core, it's just about how they get each other. they understand how the other's mind works. however you view them, it doesn't erase they fact that they love each other in a way they don't love other people.

[rubberhosededede]

Hiiiii Robo-Ky Nation

(send me any animated sprites not on here I want them ALLLL)

[crescentfool]

the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!

[rxttenfish]

Asking because I’m extremely curious about this, how did MonProm’s writing get different over time? I remember you saying that the lore and characters feel different, and that it's missing sincere character interactions, too. I know almost nothing about the lore and I’ve only seen a few people mention the characters, so I’d be interested in a rundown of what aspects you think got worse in the series

I wouldn’t mind a very long response since I’m not that active in the fandom, I need to catch up on what happened

sorry for taking so long to answer this! i kinda waffled on it for a long bit, mainly because i started doubting myself again, and whether or not this was me simply overreacting or being tinted by nostalgia or simply being extremely picky and choosy in what i like (the last of which is true, i seldom get into fandoms at all for this reason and stay away from most popular media, but i wasn't sure if it applied here). i've posted about it already, but i'm in the middle of a psychotic episode where i can't feel a lot of pleasure to begin with + most things i do experience ending up solidly in the "very bad" category, so as you can imagine, i really didn't want to mislead and check that i was actually in objective reality.

as it is, this is also when a lot more screenshots started to be posted in the monster prom tag, and that helped me bridge the gap back into returning to the games themselves and feel like i was making a more accurate judgement. if you're one of those people who have been posting screenshots, i sincerely thank you, and i appreciated seeing you in the tag greatly.

for those not in the know — i've been in the monster prom fandom since it first released, prior to even the first additional ending to be added (the "Punch the sun" ending, and i recall the minor fandom drama that happened at that time due to it). my impression of monster prom is very much influenced by this, as what got me into the first game was the fact that the characters genuinely seemed to care for each other and were friends with each other (not merely tolerating each other's presences nor dressing it up, they sincerely thought of each other as friends and were open about that fact), on top of the wide variety of small details and statements that, if taken at face value, could create compounding complexity in the lives of each and every character and had wider implications for their lives.

no, they were not necessarily explored nor even necessarily "real", with so many conflicting events and statements, but i liked this too, because it meant a wider flexibility in what you could imagine, helping to create a more tailored experience for everyone who thought about these characters. this was what i liked about the early fandom too. what was baseline "canon" was so vague and minimal that you could have wildly different interpretations of the same characters' histories and relationships with each other. you would have radically different perspectives on what the world itself looked like, what it was like, that there wasn't really any wrong answers so long as their personalities remained the same. this is where you got the old headcanon of polly and liam being childhood friends who knew each other as humans, or that the world of monster prom was post-apocalypse where humanity itself had gone extinct or only existed in tiny pockets, or my personal headcanon that both monster and human society existed right next to each other and had minimal crossover for petty cultural reasons. this was also prior zoe-as-ro, and there were wildly different interpretations of zoe's personality, with most going for a far more disquieting creepy-cute than the deep nerd we got.

this is why you get stuff like the timeloop theory, where everyone is repeating the same weeks leading up to prom over and over, and are perhaps vaguely aware of it but broadly unconcerned. this is also why it felt like the joke that, the characters were still in high school but were all fully legal adults with most in their 20's, best landed, because it was absurd and strange and didn't quite make sense, but the world itself was inherently absurd and semi-malleable to begin with. realistically, i felt like everyone understood it was making fun of the trope of having adults play teenagers in american sitcoms and wildly casting outside the age range, but for more in-universe explanations it wasn't any different from the way that you would have a large, dramatic ending in which everything changed, but then you'd restart and everyone would be right back at the beginning with nothing different, or even having conflicting events in the same run. it was a dream-logic that fit with the tropes and, thus, diagetically made sense.

to be clear, i don't mind canon having a set, well, canon on which it refers back to itself. i don't mind expanding that or including more things which are set in stone. but there was a perceivable shift in how the games handled this over time, becoming a lot more... bitter, it felt, towards all of these different branching ideas and concepts that, yeah, the people making them knew wouldn't necessarily be "canon" because "canon" already liked to contradict itself so much. most people weren't even sold on any one idea, and there was a much greater sense of enjoying and appreciating all the varying ideas people would come up with even if you personally didn't share them. making the characters be out of character was the real crime, because then it didn't diagetically make sense in the same way, didn't wholly fit.

(again, this is not to say fanon didn't happen and characters weren't smoothed down into a simplified personality that fit these varying fan-interpretations instead of the game itself. certainly damien love/lust was just as bad as it had ever been, and everyone loved to mangle his character into a more stereotypical "bad boy with a heart of hold" all the time. but it certainly felt less set-in-stone about it than it does now, with any deviation from the norm being considered strange and odd and even broadly shunned from the wider fandom.)

all of this is setup for establishing what the writing, lore, and characters felt like in the earlier days. the characters were the strongest part, with their relationships to each other being equally as important. the lore played it fast and loose and was far less interested in setting anything in concrete because that wasn't the important part. the lore wasn't the important part, which was what made it all the more intoxicating to think about, all the more fun to play with.

montrip is easily the biggest offender when it comes to setting everything in all-or-nothing terms and demanding absolutism from the world. broadly i blame the hitchhiker conversations for the worst of it, but i think ultimately the way they handled the entire premise of the game is where this problem stems from. it's not really an exploration in the same sense that you might explore the first game, discovering different perspectives and different people with different relationships to each other. it's an exploration in the sense of a sequel that over-explains the monster, that takes the most boring option out of all those that were possible and floating around and settles on something that was blatant, obvious, typically rejected not because of how novel it is but how trite and par for the course it is in the rest of the genre.

yeah, okay. humans know nothing about monsters and there's a "monster dimension" that exists separately from the human dimension. there's no crossover between the two of them. of course there's a big grand-scale fight between the eldritch powers that zoe used to be a part of, from which not only are slayers the main organization against them, but also the merkingdom has some horse in this race too. it's an urge to make things so universal in explaining them, in revealing connecting threads which unite everything that's ever happened in here, that makes the worldbuilding and lore immediately much more boring than it ever was before.

and it didn't have to be this way! nothing in the first game contradicts any of this too explicitly (see the above, the first game loves to contradict itself), and i would even be happy if this was basically canon but never stated or confirmed to be the big overarching everything going on underneath it all. i believe you should probably know these things about any world that you create and have them in the back of your mind. the difference is that you can know these things and keep them in mind, even focusing on things where its very relevant, and still not reveal them. this is why you have lore bibles, after all. every horror writer knows exactly how their monster works and the full underlying reason for everything that happens, but that doesn't mean the audience will see it or possess this same information too, and leaving it intentionally obscure will make far better stories.

which, this is bad enough, but it wouldn't be the breaking point for me if this was all there was.

but the worst thing of all has to be the slow decay of the very same characters that sold me on this world, this lore, this game in the first place. monster prom is nothing without the characters in it. it's a dating sim, it has nothing but characters to get you to play, and liking these characters are the entire reason anyone would pick up monster prom in the first place.

and the first game pulls this off extremely well. it's all in the tagline: be your worst self. they are, indeed, all terrible people. yes, even that character that you just thought of right now. they all have points in the game where they commit atrocities, where they kill or hurt people, where they do inexcusable things that could not be ignored in a more serious setting.

but that's the point. i think there's something very powerful in creating a character who not only do you love and love their personality and the way they interact with the world, but who also are inapologetically terrible, and to have the humor and the charisma be so good that you don't get bogged down in the "this is awful". likewise, it never feels the urge to really go out of its way to justify what's going on. this is not to say theres no discussion of if someone "deserved it", but usually there's still the sense that the joke is on them, that this is still an extreme reaction specifically for comedy and not necessarily something that can be justified. you can have damien set leonard on fire and have it feel earned, without prompting the needed reaction of what it's actually like to watch someone burn to death.

this is what sets the prank masterz ending apart from the rest of the game, and really establishes it as the first real "bad ending". because nothing that you do or happens in the prank masterz ending is any different from anything else that happens in any other run. you summon evil beings from other dimensions as a throwaway gag on how visiting one location raises your stats. you kill other people and damn them to terrible fates. you watch as body horror happens. the only difference is that, in the prank masterz ending, the laugh track doesn't play.

the rest of the game and the writing echoes this philosophy, this careful interplay of tropes that keeps everything tongue in cheek and yet sincere enough to make sure emotional beats still land when they're needed. the characters feel true to themselves and their own emotions, even when the world is extreme and excessive, when everything else runs on comedy logic.

this is also what i noticed failing first as time went on.

like i said, fanon has always existed and there's always been very specific ideas as to what characters are like in the same way fanon always flattens down characters into the same tropes over and over. scott is stupid and innocent and doesn't know what sex is. damien is violent and hot and too cool for anyone else. miranda is the idiot girl character. repeat over and over and over until you get sick of it.

but it's been an issue as time has crept on that canon has started to approach fanon and began to merge with it. now, scott is so innocent that he can't even curse. polly starts being mean to her friends and saying things that would be very hurtful to hear. the merkingdom isn't really super evil and fucked up, it's just miranda that's like that. they become simpler, easier to digest, streamlined for social media posts and mass-sharing. they become less and less subversions of existing tropes and moreso just another example of them, something else to add to the collection, not their own individual stories.

even further from this, what more complex traits they had are now stated and not shown. polly is stated to be smart and clever in a way that her party girl persona doesn't imply and to be sincerely rather down to earth with the people she cares about, but we seldom ever see this anymore unless its the game specifically trying to make a point about it, in which case it won't let her do anything that implies cleverness and moreso will just outline it in the narration. vera is stated to care for people in a very genuine and heartfelt way, but seldom will get a chance to do so, and every opportunity for her to do so to their faces is missed while she will just outright state it later. it does not feel consistent, it does not feel like any of these are intended reads of their actions. it feels like the devs have something they want to do but no idea on how to actually do so. and forget it if you want these traits to manifest in small ways that show up in unrelated moments and scenes.

the dialogue becomes harder and harder to tell between each speaker, if you are just looking at what's said and not at the pictures attached to it. the characters' distinct voices have been eroded away, so that they speak more and more like each other, relaying the same terms and ideas in the same words. perspective becomes a suggestion, instead of a must.

this is something that started back in monster camp too, as all of the endings in that game felt ultimately the same as every other ending. it's very hard to place or define the full reason why, why there feels like there's no emotional stakes nor investment, why everything feels moreso like selecting different coats of paint and trying to find all the different ending pictures rather than being interested in exploring the characters as characters.

stranger yet, the series that started with the tagline of "be your worst self" has experienced a kind of... softening, for lack of a better word? what i mentioned about being able to handle the balance between terrible people who do terrible things and the light tone of the game starts to change, as abruptly the same characters who were down with violent murder in the first game start to lose their nerve, acting more and more on more typical morality. it's one of those things that feels like it's starting to damage the tone, as abruptly it's not as absurd as it used to be, demands less suspension of disbelief which could buffer and support the rest of the setting on it. there's even a part in one of the endings in montrip which involves current-polly and current-scott looking back on their monprom selves and reacting in horror at how violent and careless their pranks are, in a way that fundamentally felt like it was undercutting and disparaging all the things that felt fun and made monprom what it was.

which is odd, really, because more and more i feel like the characters in these games like each other less and less. the friendships and genuine enjoyment of each others company that brought me to this game in the first place has gone. now they don't mention each other as much, don't care for each other's feelings and reactions as much, aren't as willing to support each other. they are more and more found on their own, relied on their own, seem to seek out contact and interaction with their own friends less and less. it feels like they're all separating out into their own worlds, but also feels like they wouldn't willingly want to interact with each other if they weren't already forced together by some other outside contrivance.

if anything, i'd compare it to every other dating sim out there, where you, the player, are the most important person in these characters' lives, and they only feel ambivalent or antagonistic towards every other character. which, again, is not why i picked up monster prom or why i liked it so much in the first place.

and it's because of this that it feels like the current state of the series has to focus on its increasingly weak worldbuilding and lore, trying to form a more serious foundation without character relationships being so tightly bound together, without the characters themselves being more developed and rich, without an aspect of absurd humor to rely on.

more and more i've noticed monprom has to rely on referencing other series to make itself funny and create humor, which, again, it's always done. it was just easier to ignore back then, if you didn't know what was being referenced, because there was always more going on in the exact same scene to bolster it and give context clues as to the setup and punchline at play. it feels like the current games are much more dependent on you knowing pop culture references in order to have any fun with it, and i'm someone who, again, is very picky in what i like or what i'll seek out. i'm not interested in a stream of references about other things that i would much rather be doing than playing through a game that feels like it hates that i like it at all, when i could, again, just be engaging with the thing that takes itself seriously and knows what it wants.

[secondhandskootur]

Headcanons I have about the shark dudes

After briefly sharing with one of my mutuals some backstory lore for a Jaws au I'm working on, I got asked to share some of my character headcanons:

Honestly, I have so many headcanons for these guys (particularly Quint and Hooper), that if I listed every single one I think I'd have an entire novel, and we'd be here for ages, so I'm just going to list the ones that I think are the most interesting or... relevant, I suppose? Instead of just re-blogging the other post again, I decided to make a separate post. Some of my headcanons might be kinda far-reaching/out-of-character, and it's a bit all-over the place because I didn't bother to make it sound nice, but fuck it we ball so I'm sharing this anyway. I'll start with Brody first since he's the one I have the least headcanons about.

Martin Brody:

While I wouldn't say that Brody is "normal" — everybody is unique and quirky in their own way — he's certainly the most conventional out of the the big 3, doing things and living in a way that is generally socially accepted. He typically acts as the straight man (no pun intended) when Quint and Hooper decide to go off the rails, and is definitely the most laid-back. In most situations, at least.

He's a genuinely nice guy who doesn't like to offend or hurt people. Somewhat of a people pleaser, but he does put his foot down if he feels that he needs to. Brody isn't really afraid of confrontations per se, but he definitely doesn't like them either. He's mostly a goody-two-shoes. Mostly. He's actually kinda slutty lol. I mean have you seen those form-fitting turtlenecks got dayum.

He's an avid reader. The man is a total bookworm and in his free time, he actually really enjoys sitting down with a good book. Brody will read pretty much anything and he can do it quick. Like, this guy can finish a 1,000+ page book front-to-back in less than a day if given the opportunity. He really enjoys horror/murder mysteries as well as detective fiction like Sherlock Holmes.

Brody also writes his own stories (usually short stories), and he's damn good at it. They're beautifully written. Ellen occasionally encourages him to get a few of them published but every time she does, he's just like "nah" because he's scared to do it.

He has crippling anxiety. I can't explain how I know this, but I know this.

Brody is an only child. From time-to-time, he'll watch Michael and Sean interact with each other and be like, "Ooohhhh so this is how siblings interact." It's a bit foreign to him, to say the least.

Matt Hooper:

Hooper is very intense. He can either be the biggest sweetheart or the biggest bitch, and there is no in-between. I personally think that his sassy, bratty "take-no-shit" attitude is a defense mechanism. He got bullied and harassed a lot growing up and in college so he's developed a spitfire personality as a result.

He's pretty witty and has a comeback for just about everything.

He's definitely kinda cocky and arrogant, albeit in a slightly different way than Quint. He's insanely smart and skilled, and he knows it. And it gets a little to his head sometimes. Quint knocks him down a few pegs though.

Hooper's pretty bad at hiding his emotions in most situations and he has the worst poker face. 99.9% of the time, you can tell how he's feeling just by looking at him. He's better about expressing his feelings and communicating than Quint is, but that really isn't saying much. When he does feel like he's about to cry, he usually tries to run away and isolate himself because he hates being seen crying. He 100% ugly cries, too.

He isn't at Brody levels of bookwormery, but he definitely likes reading (I'll just go ahead and say right now that I think all of the big 3 like reading). He mostly reads scientific books/documents, especially relating to oceanography & marine biology, and stuff about sharks.

Hooper will collect just about any shark-related item. Or anything to do with sea animals. Sharks are his absolute favorite but he loves all of 'em.

I've seen this one floating around a bit on Tumblr so I know I'm not alone in thinking this, but honestly I get so much trans guy energy off of him that I just like to imagine him being trans. (Yes, I realise that he canonically isn't trans. But then again, Quint canonically dies and I ignored that shit too.)

He has one (1) older brother. No siblings other than that. He actually does have a brother in the book, but it's never actually specified whether or not he has siblings in the film.

I also think that a lot (though maybe not all) of his family members are artsy hippie types, and that he's a bit artsy himself. I haven't exactly decided which yet, but I think he either draws 60s/70s style cartoons or paints really weird abstract shit as a fun little hobby. So far I'm leaning more towards the 'toons.

Hooper doesn't come from a family of seafarers. Rather, he had either a neighbor or family friend who was a seasoned captain. He would hear stories about the sea and being on boats and genuinely became interested in it, so he was taught at a young age about seamanship and sailing. He picked up on it pretty quickly because he was so hyper fixated on it.

Hooper is a hippie, counter-culture type. He loves tacky/vintage clothing in general and stuff that isn't mainstream. He absolutely fucks with bell bottoms. He would totally love those ugly collared grandma sweaters that frequently get sold on Depop, too.

Quint:

Quint really likes fucking with people because he thinks it's funny. He 100% enjoys gaslighting, and he has a knack for making stuff up on the go. He'll tell people the dumbest shit imaginable — with the straightest face and most serious tone — and actually get them to believe it most of the time.

More on the "fucking with people" thing, whenever people do come over (very rare), he goes out of his way to make them moderately uncomfortable. Not by harassing them or anything, but in a "He owns exactly 37 copies of Moby Dick that are the exact same edition with the exact same cover and he stacked them in a really weird horrendous way right before you came over, and other subtle ways to be deranged" type of uncomfortable. Don't worry though, he also owns another, 38th copy of Moby Dick that's a different edition with a different cover just for variety! (I actually made a post a couple of days ago about another headcanon that kinda goes in line with this).

He's pretty cocky and arrogant (tbf, that's actually canon lol). Not to the point of being a complete narc or anything, but enough where he can be a dick about it. He's a very experienced fisherman with a lot of skills up his sleeve and it does get just a wee bit to his head. Luckily Hooper is there to knock him down a few pegs.

Quint's also much, much smarter than he lets on. Maybe not as smart as Hooper, but pretty damn smart. Unfortunately, he does sometimes let his arrogance cloud his judgement a bit (again- Hooper keeps him in check. And vise versa).

Speaking of skills, he has so many hidden talents that he just. Does not tell people about. Ever. And then they get whiplash when they find out that he's actually really fucking good at [insert thing here]. For starters, he loves drawing. He's definitely more of a pen and ink type of guy, but he does work with watercolor and oil paint sometimes. He also likes etching and scrimshawing, and can absolutely whip-up some badass, Gustave Doré type stuff. He dabbles in pretty much any kind of craftsman/handyman thing, especially if it involves wood. Also he plays several different stringed instruments and the piano. Seafaring and shark hunting is still his main thing, but he finds a new hobby to try every few years because he gets bored after a while and gets good at the new hobbies stupidly quickly.

In contrast to Hooper, Quint is usually pretty good at hiding his emotions unless he's really pissed off. He's got a good poker face and half the time you'd have no idea how he's feeling. He's also notoriously bad at communicating and expressing his feelings. He's very much a "walk it off" kind of guy and would rather bottle it up, but that doesn't always work.

Most of the deranged shit he does is actually a bit to keep people away. On the highly unlikely chance that he does warm up to you, he'll actually let you get to know him, and he'll take the time to get to know you. That weird Moby Dick book stack? He does like Moby Dick, but the whole stack of them is just to weird out unwanted guests who he's hoping will end up leaving early. He'll show you his bookshelf with other stuff he likes reading. He'll let you see the stuff he's working on, tell you what his latest hobby is, and he might even open up to you about how he's feeling and be vulnerable with you. Might. Point is, he'll actually let you in. To an extent. He's still a grump, though; that's just his nature.

He's very much a recluse. Aside from Hooper (and the occasional hangout with Brody where they sit and crack open a beer and choose not to say a got damn thing), he actually doesn't really talk to people much and doesn't really go out anywhere when he's on shore.

Quint is surprisingly good with kids. Although he doesn't have any of his own — nor does he want to have any — he did grow up with a lot of siblings. I'm not sure exactly how many, but I wanna say he had at least 6 or 7. He was one of the oldest, but not not the oldest, and therefore was expected to help look after the younger ones.

More on his family, he was born into a long line of sailors and was pretty much learning about seafaring and sailing since he could walk. He was raised in a Christian, conservative household. He was also relatively poor and had a rough childhood. Quint's estranged from his family and has been since at least the USS Indianapolis. Most of them don't even know if he's alive.

[bittersweetresilience]

say hi to me i don't know, i just remembered being so much brighter, i guess

cigarette ash like wildfire burning holes in the nighttime open scars feel like barbed wire white lies flying high like a ceasefire dropping flags on the shoreline this is as far as i can feel right 'cause what you don't know can haunt you

and all we ever wanted was sunlight and honesty highlights to want to repeat let's get away from here and live like the movies do i won't mind when it's over at least i didn't think for a while

don't drag it out living like that doesn't mean a thing

so let's, make a great escape and i'll be waiting outside for the getaway it doesn't matter who we are we'll keep running through the dark and all we'll ever need is another day we can slow down 'cause tomorrow is a mile away and live like shooting stars 'cause happy endings hardest to fake

and i wanna let you know i wanna let you go but i just can't bring myself to speak but this is how it goes the end credits, they roll this bridge was built over kerosene but we can watch it and all i ever wanted was sunlight and honesty highlights to want to repeat let's get away from here and live like the movies do i won't mind when it's over at least i didn't think

so let's run, make a great escape and i'll be waiting outside for the getaway it doesn't matter who we are we'll keep running through the dark and all we'll ever need is another day we can slow down 'cause tomorrow is a mile away and live like shooting stars you can wish away forever but you'll never find a thing like today

[rotisseries]

inspired by elli's poll lol cause this seems fun actually but if you guys have bad answers I'll kill myself on your doorstep or smth

[motherakuma]

So like-- I'm still sick as fuck- and I've got 2 friends who are giving me love, care, amd attention during this- (I love yall, you know who you are)

I ended up watching Beetlejuice, and BJ the musical, and reading a few fanfics- uhhh so I've bonded with this shit over the past 4 days- I've had this music on loop. It all I listen to.

Anytime I walk into a room I get the intense urge to just randomly say: "Announcing all k-mart shoppers-" or how ever he said it, I don't remember-

To learn there was a second movie coming out is like giving a clean addict drugs. I've gone fucking feral. I'm so in love with this short ass movie and musical that it's embarrassing-- horribly embarrassing.

I can rehearse this entire musical. Everybody's parts, one person, me.

Kill me now, bc I won't hesitate to say that bitch's name 3 times.

[hella1975]

me: yeah i didn't project too badly onto taob haha *sees a quote from taob randomly on a tiktok webweave about girlhood*

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

[theshadowrealmitself]

Everyone playing some kind of spirit for a village festival and Naruto ends up being just a lil too believable as a mischievous sun spirit getting woken up by the loud festival and refusing to go back to sleep, that even people who know 100% that all the “spirits” are just ninjas volunteering to make the kids happy are squinting their eyes suspiciously at him

[johnny-depplyloveyou]

I know there are many bad takes about Gale on this site, but the worst takes I’ve seen on another social media site in another language are much more abhorrent than anything here tbh, the recent one I’ve seen even gets some popularity among his “fans”... They were basically saying it’s Mystra who make him the humble man he is now, without her influence on him he would be as egotistical as in his god ending, and more than a hundred of reblogs are all thanking Mystra for “training her lapdog so well” for them🤢

Did we even play the same game? Isn’t his god ending a direct result of Mystra making him think he will never be enough as he is, and he can only find his self-worth through gaining more power? Didn’t Tara say he’s not himself anymore and she would no longer be his companion in his god ending, she knew him long before Mystra made him her chosen, he was powerful enough before his relationship with Mystra, if he’s anything like god!Gale at the time wouldn’t Tara just leave him? I’d imagine he would have been more confident and had a more stable self-image if Mystra had never contacted him, therefore he didn’t even need the Gale of Waterdeep persona. He would always have been Gale Dekarios in that timeline. And people glorifying Mystra’s grooming and abuse towards him and unironically calling him “her lapdog” is just... I have no words. But what do you expect from an online space that’s infested with terfs and radfems? They just won’t recognize or acknowledge any abuse from women towards men...

[5ducksinatrenchcoat]

school kinda sucks, not even gonna lie

[cheswirls]

looking @ old fic i started when i was 14/15 is so funny bc im realizing once again why i never mark fics as abandoned even if its been literal years since i've touched them. specifically i was checking docs for stuff i started and either did or didn't post to ffn.

and its like. nothing is bad??? like i can see where my outside-the-box ideal of fic writing comes from. not just fics but writing in general, i'm p sure. even if it's a total cliche plot setup, there are details on each that rly make it stand out like oh yeahhhhhh i did have this great idea once upon a time.

funny too bc was it executed well in prose??? no absolutely not i wrote like shit when i was 15. would i revive an idea one day and revise it to be less cliche or cringy while still keeping the stand-out elements??? yea maybe. i might. everything i'm currently working on that i started from 2021 up to now still holds my supreme interest, but like i'm not gonna say never.

esp since i write fic first and foremost for my own need and specifically what i like to read, it makes it impossible to consider an idea i've thought extensively about "not worth writing anymore". anyway not making this too long i jus found everything interesting to consider

[averlym]

a word to the wise sometimes the only true rest is looking beyond what you thought was success

so true! adamandi is full of wise advice such as this, including: "and you'll never feel better if you - fucking die- you stupid ass!"