#i guess this is vent-y

[muirmarie]

Me: I joke about writing the same McCoy centric story over and over again in different ways

Me: and like. I love doing it and imma keep doing it because it makes me happy.

Me: but also. I do sometimes wonder if it's like. A little Much.

Me: like maybe I should branch out or something

Me: [reads another fundamental and extremely insulting misread of McCoy's character by someone who is clearly making a Choice to cast McCoy as the villain, because they have to get him out of the way of spirk, because they're too???? idk immature??? to realize that even when you're in a relationship with one person, other ppl can and SHOULD still be important to you]

Me: lmao I hope I AM too much actually!!!! I hope it is 100% obnoxious how much I love that doctor!!!!! Time to write more versions of the same story of McCoy being forced to realize that he is loved and cared for!!!!!!

Me: I KNOW MY NICHE AND IMMA DIE IN THAT NICHE, THANKS

[heuffopla]

Girlz with issuez

[yoofte]

But you did.

"It wasn't like that!"

Daryl seems desperate. Like everything he waited for and fought for was about to disappear from his life in seconds.

"I know what I saw " says Y/N.

All she can think is her. Samantha. How she always looked at Daryl, how she laughed a little bit too loud when he was around, how she played with her hair and how she tried to touch his arm or be as close to him. At first, Y/N wasn't insecure about her. She was just friendly. Right? That's what everyone said. Samantha is so amazing, she is hard-working, she is nice and friendly. That's what she tried to tell herself too, but then it wasn't just giggles and jokes. It was Daryl coming home late, she always asks for help from him. And then, when Y/N really tried her best to not get jealous, to stay calm about all of this. She saw what she didn't want to see.

"Y/N..."

She glares at him.

"Are you going to tell me she kissed you, and how it's only her fault?"

He is scared now. Not in a way, there's a bunch of walkers trying to kill us, but he knows he is about to lose someone. And it's not some random person. It's Y/N. His Y/N. She looks at him with her big eyes, but there's nothing in them. There's no love, no tears, nothing. It's so empty it really scares him to death.

"You have to trust me, please, " he is begging now. "I would never do something like that, to anyone. Especially you."

Y/N is no longer looking at him.

"Come on, please just listen to me, " he takes one step closer. "I didn't kiss her! You have to trust me!"

Y/N shakes her head. 

"I saw you!"

She cries. Big tears streaming down her face and it hurts so much. Daryl feels weak, maybe even pathetic. He knows it's because of him. He knows it's all his fault. But is there anything he could do? He didn't kiss Samantha, he was surprised when she did what she did, because for him it was only friendship. He didn't see her in a romantic way.

"You are right. She kissed me. I know how that sounds, but please, Carol was right there, with us in a room. You can ask her how it was. Please, Y/N."

It hurts even more when she takes a step back. He knows it must be hard for her, to trust him in a situation like this. He would probably crush everything and would run away from everyone if that happened to him. If he saw Y/N kissing someone... he shakes his head just imagining this.

"I'm sorry."

There's so much tears running down her face right now, and Y/N feels like she is about to collapse.. At this moment it didn't matter if he was telling the truth, or if Carol could say something and help them fix this mess. Because for some reason she couldn't trust herself or anyone else.

She could still see them both. In their home, right next to dinner table. Kissing. Her hands on his neck, her rosy smell in the air and her giggles. All she could see while looking at him was her. And she hated that too. Daryl took another step to get closer, but Y/N stopped him by pushing his arm.

"Go away Daryl."

"I love you Y/N. You know that. I would never..."

"But you did."

It's quiet. He is too scared to speak, because he knows. Right now he knows how he fucked everything up.

"I love you so much and you broke my heart Daryl. There's no going back from this."

[brokend0ll]

little reminder that anorexia nervosa is actually the deadliest mental illness of all so be careful lovelies and never forget, recovery is always an option and always okay

you dont have to be a certain weight, bmi, look a certain way, have had it for a certain time or anything else, its not necessary others know about how bad it actually is, you dont have to have doctors tell you youre close to dying to recover recovery is always possible and it is important to remember, anorexia nervosa, ednos and bulimia are all not weight or physical disorders but mental disorders

[tumblingxelian]

Some of the asks sent to @citadelofmythoughts had me musing on all those RWBY fanfic animation projects proclaiming to be rewrites.

Firstly, I am eternally vexed that there's so much energy and resources being spent on stuff that spins the wheels of Beacon forever or is basically the original series but with screenshots & also bad.

Like, can you not imagine how cool it would be to be having fan projects around "What of RWBY were dragon riders" or "What if RWBY were super heroes?" or "What if RWBY but older, Weiss never escaped Atlas, Blake's now a general in the White Fang, Ruby is Weiss's bodyguard & Yang's a WF double agent & also dating Blake" AU.

This is also why I don't take any real issue with that Qrow centric project as that at least exploring a less utilized character, new or rare locations and original story beats.

I am also suddenly reminded that ages back I full on considered trying to get a group together for a RWBY fan project. I can't recall the name now, but it was basically an ABRN-AU.

Or more, "Explore these side characters by making up backstories for them and giving them a fun little arc". In this case each got a color trailer and had a local villain in the form of a gang boss to beat cos some team members pissed them off.

But I didn't have the 3D skills then that I do now, or the time sadly & I imagine it might not have taken off anyway, but cest-la-vie.

As it is, I think there's a couple of reasons why this keeps happening.

Though, to be clear, I know some people who work on some of these and are both very nice and some do have people that really like the show making them, or who at least aren't RWDE levels of "CRTQ".

This is more talking about their general explosive number and scale compared to more original or challenging projects.

Firstly, on a pure production level it is easier long term to make a handful of fairly iconic set pieces and then have the characters just hang around there. As opposed to exploring, seeing new places, meeting new characters and doing new things. Almost like producing something at the scale of actual RWBY is really hard and expensive.

Secondly, even when people do like RWBY make these projects they have a vested interest in keeping it to pre V3/Pre-Fall era stuff. Reason being the RWDE crowd has proven time and again willing to throw money hand over fist and even dedicate hours upon hours of free labor to productions like this. As it provides tacit confirmation of their world view and serves as another bullet in their clunky ass gun that they fire off whenever they can cos apparently they've nothing better to do with their lives.

Third and finally its... I guess comforting? Familiar? Simpler perhaps? Even wen telling something more dramatic like Dust Queen, having a stable setting, no ticking clocks and a 'safe' locale for the heroes with supporting characters on hand but not needing to be present. It makes for easy watching...

It is rather like the 'Bat-Fam' Web Toon where everything is simpler and easier cos all the edges & potential complexities in the story, setting or cast got filed down. Maybe new one's were introduced but those are entirely in the authors control as opposed to leaving them grappling with canon.

That's just my take though.

[gadzooksgalore]

Another month has passed where I've barely drawn anything, which is the second instance to occur within the last 5 months. It's been a very rough year for art and the whole situation is getting me down quite a bit lately...I'm honestly so scared of losing the desire to draw altogether. I desperately want to make art of the things I enjoy, especially my own characters, but I just can't seem to get out of this seemingly endless rut. It makes me feel terrible.

I don't know what to do, and I'm really discouraged at this point...

[seiwas]

a good cry always does wonders

[rosethorn-zz]

trans day of visibility 👍 its a little more somber than the stuff i usually make but i enjoyed making it

alternate palette under the cut

i prefer the pinks and blues visually but i do like these colors also. i think they "match" six's design more

[cyber-streak-2]

Mmm. Not having a good time right now, and probably still won’t for a little while longer. I’m just feeling a lot, having a lot of swings, and I’m just feeling so upset- oogh. Just not having a good time atm.

...Anybody got some Blorbo things, by chance? Might not do anything, but it would be nice. Or chatting.

[mars-ipan]

steroids have decided the two emotions for tonight are Gamer Rage and Deep Yearning Sadness

[blueheartedwolf]

I wish I could find a doctor that wants to find out what’s actually wrong with me instead of recommending prescriptions to address the symptoms. I’m so tired of being recommended ibuprofen for debilitating pain. Tired of relaying my medical history to a new doctor and getting the same furrowed brow and shrugging shoulders I get every time. Tired of having so-called medical professionals ask why I need a cane if I’m able to walk down their clinic hallway without it. When will someone fucking help me?

[pirripfever]

A single mention about weight my day already feels like hell

I ate way to much today i should stop chat🗣️🔥🔥

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

I think about doing things more then I actually do things.

The me inside of me is the coolest person in the world.

Unfortunately they are stuck behind a wall of executive dysfunction, anxiety and sadness.

One day I'll break free

[mew-less]

wld it be evil if i mostly just used tumblr to post stuff and didn’t rlly look at or reblog anything besides Palestine stuffs…. at least temporarily…. idk i just feel like shit right now due Something id rather not talk about publicly and also haven’t properly used tumblr in Forever so it’s honestly a little intimidating lol!!! i honestly don’t even use tumblr that much anyways so like 🙁 idk

[thethingything]

"your gums will probably be really sore and swollen for a few days but that's to be expected" she was not kidding. I'm glad she warned us and explained why it's so painful if only because I would definitely be a lot more concerned if she hadn't

[time-was-over]

learning about manipulative tactics is great because you can immediately just be like ‘ah the classic triangulation. my mother is fond of that particular method’