#i have to move in?? a month????? bc i cant afford to live here on my own anymore

[bunnihearted]

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[girlhorse]

truly been at my limit for a long time now and i dont know what to do anymore

[niceandbluept2]

anyway kill all landlords lmao

[sylvainlover]

stress posting venting in tags <3

[alxclaremont]

meh

[fagcrisis]

sorry what do you mean your mother's coup. elaborate

this ended up being long as hell so readmore time

so i live in this old fucking apartament building right, turns 120 soon, hasnt really been renovated in 50 years. and our apartament has the attic built in, which wasnt a feature originally and the previous tenant did it himself, badly, meaning weve had a hole in our roof for about 5ish years now that we just have not been able to fix. last november we had a pretty big storm that fucked the hole up even worse and our previous solution of just "put a bucket under it and leave the room" has stopped working because too much water was getting in and my sister had to start sleeping in a different room so safe to say, shit state of affairs

my mum got a contractor to come take a look at it and the dude concluded that its dangerous to be left unfixed and hes gonna have to climb in between the attic walls and the roof bc due to the hole theres a shitton of mold that needs to be cleaned out. overall this wouldve cost us 600k forint thats more than my mum makes in 2 months and i had 9-5 at that point but my shit salary was not gonna fix this. so my mum had a breakdown and decided that well sell the apartament and try moving, which sucks bc when we got this place it was still cheap but since then the housing market has gone to shit and we wouldve had to live in a rental we probably wouldnt have been able to afford. but my mum still called an agent to check the house out, and he told us that theres no way were selling it, because of the big fucking hole, the messed up pipes and bc the building isnt insulated (legally cant be bc its a historical monument lmao. europe)

HOWEVER he also said. since this is an apartament building with 12 flats we have a house representative and we pay *google translate help me* common cost every month, to cover repairs on the house, that we shouldnt have to pay for the repairs, the house should. cause. its the whole houses roof not just our apartaments.

my mum went to the house rep (józsi) to ask about this, and he told her that this isnt true and that he wont pay for the repairs. which made my mum mad and she went and found a lawyer who said the house does have to pay for repairs. but józsi was still like i will not.

so my mum talked to all 12 of our neighbouring flats individually and found out that literally everybody has grievances with this dude. there has been an ENTIRE TREE growing on the roof for years now that we havent been able to get cleaned out, the staircase is borderline life threatening to use, we could technically get authorization for insulating the house but the rep needs to apply and józsi hasnt, one of the gates to the yard is like not working, etc

they ended up calling the first house meeting in years (were supposed to have those every month lol) where they ended up voting to have a new rep, and also to fix our roof. which got fixed by the way, and the mold was also cleaned out

BUT the story doesnt end here bc they still need to vote a new rep in. and my mum found this company who represents apartament buildings professionally and sure itd cost us some money but we pay the common cost anyway, and they have contractors they work with so itd be soooo easy to fix shit in the house. but for some reason some people decided they want this dude instead, who owns one of the flats in the building but does not live here, his insane mother does who hates me. and he DOESNT LIVE HERE the entire problem with józsi was, that he was like not helpful in any way and now they want a guy who doesnt even live here??

ANYWAY TODAY THE PLOT FUCKING THICKENED. because. my mum started looking over the houses finances with 2 of our neighbours one of whom is i think a lesbian but im not sure anyways they found out that józsi has been STEALING MONEY. FROM THE COMMON COST. WHICH IS WHY FUCKALL GOT FIXED IN THE HOUSE!!!!

anyway the coup is still ongoing but i hope u enjoyed my mums tale of intrigue. shes having so much fun w this shes having secret meetings with people to talk about this all day

[saltingsmells]

my partner and i got screwed by a potential roommate and now we have like 2 weeks to find someone to replace them or else we’re gonna be spending thousands of dollars we cant afford to find a new place and move all our stuff into it as well as pay this place’s rent for the last month without financial assistance. xoxo

we are very down to live with another couple and would ask 630/month from everyone if so. if you’re solo and interested too, it would be 850/month. both are doable for us!

this is chicago, pilsen area with free parking surrounding the unit as well as a ~10 min walk to the 21, 18, 60, and 8 buses. 2 bedroom 2.5 bath with a basement guest room. free laundry shared with the other 3 units. neighbors are really friendly. the unit has ac and heat. my partner and i have two cats that are friendly and would get along well with other cats. super spacious coach apartment with a porch.

my partner is @vampboyf47 on here. cat photo for attention but also bc we’re not really selfie people, please please dm me if you want to see pictures of the apartment or get to know us better before committing to anything!

[fairycosmos]

i feel like ur almost the only person who i can talk to about this. i lost my brother similar to you also almost three years ago. how do you feel about the angus cloud situation? i couldn’t even read the full article bc i related to his situation so well and it hit me to my core. my mom and i almost both took our lives together days after his passing and sometimes i feel guilty for still being here when i wanted to just end it all and still do bc life’s not worth it without him. i also judge myself bc i feel like bc i didn’t leave i’m not showing how horrible i truly feel (to both him, myself, and others) idk. i just wanted ur thoughts on feeling guilty and also feeling invalidated in how we handle our grief

yeah honestly i've been avoiding articles on it like ever since i heard the news ive just been kind of blocking it out, did the same w demi lovato's drug overdose in (i think) 2021 i just can't even begin to approach news like that. it fucks me up for weeks/months at a time and i cant afford to feel like that honestly. i'm so so sorry youre going through it too and i'm sorry youre in such a dark place, i know me and my mam often are too. it's the kind of feeling words cant really touch and i wont try but i absolutely do understand and i think everything youre going through makes a very painful sort of sense - the guilt, the absolute despair, having to go along with the way life just moves forward and then feeling bad because youre not displaying how awful you truly feel. i feel like i'm feeling my sister in so many ways every day honestly, i feel like i failed her the day she died and every day since. guilt is such a big part of my grief, and i think it's one of the most unavoidable and natural parts of it too unfortunately. we'll always feel a heavy responsibility towards them because we love them so so much and the worst thing that couldve happened to them happened. i think there's not many ways for the brain to make sense of that without going a bit mad. there are so many moments that ive wished i could swap places with her, so many moments i just want to die, and still i'm here and i still i have to deal with being here. those are very difficult, conflicting emotions - im so so sorry. i hope you have the support you deserve in your life and i hope youre able to find a way to mourn your brother that feels a bit more cathartic (if there even is such a version of mourning.) i hope you're able to talk about this with a grief counsellor or someone who can help you make sense of what youre thinking and feeling in a way that doesn't hurt so much - not because i think it'll solve anything or bring your brother back, because you deserve to be listened to and validated throughout the grieving process. for your own good, whether you feel you deserve it or not - you do. if you ever want to talk about him, tell stories about him and what he was like, or talk about what ur going please know im always here. i'd like to talk about becca (my sister) more too and share her memory in a way that makes her feel real again. sending a massive hug. x

[salted-caramel-tea]

trying to live in a university city that is also a student city and a tourist sucks bc there’s zero housing for ppl who actually fucking live here it’s all flats been rented out as airbnbs or as student housing and everything’s so expensive you just have to hope and pray you’re not movibg at the same time all the fucking international students and tourists decide they’d rather spend 4 months in an appartment here than official student housing or a fucking hotel also fuck the english bc can they go back to fucking england please instead of taking up all the affordable housing with daddies money since NONE of the girls i know who are moving into flats have fucking jobs . cant daddy buy you a batter flat somewhere else .

[captainimprobable]

I’m so stressed I’m so stressed I’m so stressed

I’ve been working from the shiva house this week so it’s nonstop “I’m sorry for your loss” and getting food together and people asking me what the fuck im doing with my life and I’m forced to tell them nothing!!!! My life is so stupid right now!!! “Where do you live now?” WITH MY PARENTS. YES I UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOUR KIDS WHO ARE YOUNGER THAN ME LIVE IN THE FUCKING CITY BUT I CANT AFFORD IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m making less hourly at my job than I made working retail.  I’m working paycheck to paycheck, I have no benefits, no insurance, no nothing.  I turn 30 in four months and what do I even have to show for it??????? Nobody is hiring no matter how many applications I fill out, and I cannot get past the stupid fucking number.  My breakdown last year was because of this and as it creeps closer and closer I feel myself getting more and more stressed about it I know. I know logically 30 means nothing.  I know.  But I can’t believe it. My brain wont let me.  My brain thinks that because I’m a failure at 30 Ill always be a failure.   And I’m tired of being a failure.  I’m tired of watching everyone else in my life succeed and I feel like I’m stuck in quicksand and I can’t figure out how! the fuck! everyone is moving forward and Im not! And my grandfather is gone and my house lost power and I’m sitting here almost crying but I CANT cry because my grandma isn’t crying. My aunts aren’t crying. My dad isn’t crying.  Everyone is fine and Im spiraling and that’s not fair because this isn’t about me And I keep bothering my girlfriend and she’s probably gonna leave bc I won’t shut up and Im too much and gOD I havent felt like this in months, if I’m going back into an episode I’m going on an arson spree. ok bye

[janeaustenprotagonist]

I HATE THIS ECONOMY APARTMENTS ARE LIKE $1000+ A MONTH FOR ONE BED ONE BATH WHICH MEANS IF YOURE NOT IN A LONG TERM COMMITMENT RELATIONSHIP YOU CAN'T AFFORD A PLACE TO LIVE AND SOMETIMES LIVING WITH YOUR PARENTS IS NOT AN OPTION MAYBE YOUR PARENTS ARE HELL TO LIVE WITH AND TALKING ABOUT MOVING ACROSS THE COUNTRY AND YOU WANT TO STAY HERE BC YOU'RE SICK OF MOVING AWAY FROM YOUR FRIENDS AND PARTNERS AND MAYBE YOU'VE APPLIED FOR HUNDREDS OF JOBS AND NONE OF THEM ARE STICKING AND YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AND TOILET PAPER IS EXPENSIVE AND FOOD IS EXPENSIVE AND RUNNING WATER AND LIGHTS ARE EXPENSIVE AND YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT A PHONE OR WIFI IN THIS DAY AND AGE SO YOU HAVE TO PAY A PHONE BILL AND WIFI AND YOU CANT AFFORD THAT AND EVERYTHING SUCKS AND YOU CANT GET A FUCKING JOB AND YOU'RE JUST TIRED YOU'VE BEEN TRYING TO MOVE OUT OF YOUR PARENTS HOUSE FOUR ALMOST FIVE YEARS AND YOU CANT GET OUT AND EVERYTIME YOU THINK THINGS ARE TURNING AROUND THEY FUCK THE FUCKITY UP AGAIN AND YOU JUST WANT TO LIVE SOMEWHERE WHERE THERE'S NOT CONSTANT FIGHTING AND WHERE YOU HAVE TO WALK ON EGGSHELLS AND WHERE YOU COME HOME AND YOU'RE NOT STRESSED ABOUT SAYING THE WRONG THING WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU EVEN DO

[skunkg1rll]

i have so much sadness and anxiety about the fact that my mom may move in may. that's only 3 months... and we had just started going to the gym together, but i cant go now bc of my gallbladder pains. and when i do get my surgery (hopefully sometime in march....) im not gonna be able to exercise for a few weeks bc of the stitches nd stuff. i wont be able to lift weights for 5-6 weeks.. so im not gonna have any time to go to the gym with her before she moves :(( i wanna spend time with her!!! if she moves she'll move to a city 3hrs away... aso it's not like we can go gym then. also it's not like im gonna be able to afford train tickets so idk how often i'll see her. i am so so so so sad and scared. my mom is the only person i have. the only one i talk to. what am i gonna do when she moves??? and why did i have to get sick right before so that we cant even go to the gym together the last of the time she lives here..... im so anxious i hate this

[uselessimpulses]

if you wanna help a disabled lgbt sw haha

update: i have a roof over my head thank god, im just working towards being able to take care of long overdue medical debt so that i can hopefully see a doctor and get at least some part of my health looked at as a start!

this is really hard for me to do, but i cant afford to stay at my apartment any longer and staying here has tapped out my savings. my medical bills have been on the backburner so i can keep a roof over my head which is coming to rightfully bite me in the ass, and i havent been able to afford to go see any doctor for my declining health, not even have a chance to call my heart surgeon because of my debts.

ive only gone to the hospital or a doctor for absolute emergencies that i couldnt ignore or treat on my own with what i had currently available and, being a sw/str!pper, ive gotten injured more at work especially lately since we have to work outside in the midwest hear. the bruising ive gotten lately is abnormal and so concerning that i havent been able to work like i usually do, and im doing what i can to work and keep a roof over my head but i really need help.

even if its just a share i would really very much appreciate it, asking for help like this is one of the absolute hardest things ive had to do and ive put it off thinking i could handle all of this on my own but i really cant...

this was immediately after a shift, pole kisses are thing but this is way more severe than it should be,,,,,

[piplupod]

just a wee sigh in the tags as one does

[zhuhongs]

Has to physically restrain myself from sayingnshit like "imagine having a room with a door 😍😍" on every interior post I make to not scare away the hoes

[beedinghearts]

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