#i need better hobbies

[neotrix-09]

I've edited these clips into gifs. Do with these what you will

[watanabes-cum-dump]

Ok no because hear me out-

When Emet Selch/Solus first appears near the end of Stormblood his conversations with Varis make me think a little y'know. Idk if I hallucinated this, but I think he says something along the lines of "you were always so emotional" to Varis. Or like, he insinuates that Varis has always had little control over his emotions.

(I haven't gotten to shadowbringers yet plz do not spoil too much. also apologies in advanced if I am wrong abt Solus/Emet Selch)

Solus was undoubtedly a horrible father and grandfather- and Varis is too- but Varis was sensitive as a child. Like he's genuinely just a guy- according to the wiki, like he denounced a massacre and disbanded the legion responsible. Also, his dad died and that kind of left Solus to be his paternal figure which was definitely super fucked up. Given how much Solus belittles him even in death and when he's the emperor- he was no better in life.

And idk where I saw this, but I think he actually genuinely loved his late wife? Y'know, Zenos' mom who died in childbirth or something? And listen, he's only twenty years older than Zenos- he was a young father. Can you fucking imagine that? Being raised by your asshole grand daddy, and then your loving wife fucking dies and leaves you with an entire new human being at like twenty.

My point is that Varis isn't a monster like the rest of the imperial family. No I'm not defending him, but he somehow just turned out pretty normal compared to the other two memebers of the royal family we know of. He has sympathy, he has morals, he has (or at least, used to have) a line he will not cross. Yeah he turned out a militaristic tyrant, but he was a normal fucking guy at one point and we definitely see that it peeks through a bit. Like I kinda remember he at least tries to be diplomatic when he meets with the alliance and the scions, and he still seems hurt by Solus' words. Idk man I just- he's not completely gone. He has some humanity left in him and he isn't as unapologetic as Zenos or Solus/Emet Selch.

And listen, I'm not defending his parenting style either- but I do understand why he just had no desire to be present in Zenos' life. After having Solus as his parental figure for most of his life, I think he has a fucked up idea of parenthood.

See, I think he loves Zenos somewhere deep down but yk generational trauma and maybe he's even a little envious of what Zenos is. Zenos is this paragon of mortal strength; a prodigy. Varis was no doubt great when he was younger as well, but Zenos is just so strong, unfeeling, and self assured- things Varis was expected to be when he was younger. He wasn't any of that though because we know (or I know because I hallucinated it) that he was emotional when he was younger. Also, Varis was just kinda neglectful towards Zenos, no? He never outright abused him or gave Zenos reason (for most of his life at least) to believe that Varis hated him. Idc if it's not canon, to me, I don't think he hates Zenos. Hates what Zenos had become maybe, but he seemed genuinely distraught or at least shocked when Elidibus was in Zenos' body. Like he took offense to it so you cannot tell me he doesn't at least care a bit.

Idk man. I don't even think I was able to get my point across that well?? I have lotsa thoughts bc I'm writing a little thing. Once again, not defending Varis, but he's very interesting to me in this regard because generational trauma is a song and dance any ethnic child is familiar with so I just had to share my two cents.

[something-something-peaceful]

?????? What the fuck did one of you say that got you sent to the tumblr comment section shadow realm. On a post about chocolate lemon cupcakes??

I wouldn’t be surprised if it was just a bot or something but I’d be kinda funny if someone actually revealed government secrets.

Anyways I meant to give an update on the whipped cream frosting a day later in the most inconvenient place possible.

It held up, I’m sure it would melt under heat or if you didn’t whip it enough, but it held.

[lkluvsu]

not edited AT ALL guys look at this @bellcza

[tw1ssy]

How I feel after channeling dndads into all my exams.

I literally used Mozart's Piano Concerto No. 21 in C maj. Movement 2 (the Henry fart one) for my music composition and took several 'intresting vocubulary' words such as acolyte for my English language paper 1 (and I intend to do it again tomorrow for paper 2) aswell as literally describing (and naming) many dndads characters in my French speaking. (I also made Beth May's head for my y9 art project a few years ago and if I ever met her I'd give it to her but fair warning it's not very good).

I swear I need more hobbies.

[cannibal-king-brat]

Not me getting into runescape…

[dia-oro]

A new proyect to make cover very needs for this old fav, then I want to do it with some sesskag and after that two phanto of the opera fic…

Maybe the transformers one too.

[tea4silver]

another attempt of copying the TGS artstyle except this time I actually studied and analyzed the original panels for over an hour :)))

and some extra content with the Hydes meeting and expression practice with my boi

[1000-joules]

tats ‼️‼️

[satsuj1n]

cringe vent lol (no cw/tw)

WHYYYY can't I have socially acceptable interests:

"oh hey corpse, what stuff do you like?"

"I... really like the tonight show w/ jimmy fallon and the simpsons!"

"oh."

like people expect me to say an anime or smth like thay but NO. I like a late night comedy show as my interest. this is so embarrassing. I want to keel over and die omg

[khaleesiofalicante]

Promise me dani PROMISE ME you will off kill Kyle 😭 or give him a fate worse than death. If ew was a person it'd be him

One of my fave things about killing characters is finding the best way to kill them.

If it's a good character - then would hurt the reader the most?

If it's a bad character - what would hurt the character the most?

It's fun ;)

[chicago-geniza]

Another example of COVID burning through the "pretend you do not possess encyclopedic knowledge about your parasocial Obscure Objects" filter was after the modernism workshop, was getting a ride with historian acquaintance, saw Jewish day school sticker on his car, blurted "oh, doesn't Leon Kass's daughter work there?" And he went "Yeah, she's one of the teachers" like it was a normal inquiry, and then I realized if you assert enough confidence about it, you don't even need to feign nonchalance, because it horseshoes back around to the Party Crashing principle - pretend you belong, and most people will take your performance at its word, since after all, you're already *there*. If I was at a small scholarly workshop and going to a dinner party in Hyde Park, it's not unreasonable to assume I'm asking because I might actually have some social or professional proximity to these people, instead of being a deranged autist online who is obsessed with genealogies of intellectual patronage in the neoconservative movement via the Great Books curriculum in a particular network of private schools. And also Agnes, duh

[nine-fingered-entity]

editing writing my beloathed

[the-study-of-fandoms]

There are plenty of genuine critiques of James Cameron’s Avatar, and some really interesting conversations about the limits of authorial intent and the ways audiences project upon media. Unfortunately, a large number of reviews and analyses are pro-capitalist and pro-military to an extreme level, and fall into a lot of racist tropes both about real indigenous people and the Na’vi. The capitalism bit is for another post, but I want to talk about the way people saw the Na’vi.

I just watched a youtube video by The Closer Look. He had a few interesting points, and then he started talking about the Na’vi. Essentially, he assumed that the Na’vi were a direct recreation of ancient human societies, and that meant that they were ignorant and lacking. He implied that they have no real medicine, and that they must not know what germs are and have high infant mortality rates? And he made a joke out of the scene where Ronal helped Kiri after her seizure, because obviously human technology is better and should have been the thing to help her. I was just so flabbergasted. We can suspend our disbelief for technology that can transmit human consciousness into another body, but not for the idea that they don’t need electricity in order to have medicine and a strong, healthy, capable society?

[sinnabunii]

Feverishly reading a 20k analysis on a character, surrounded by sticky notes, just so I can draw some art and write some stories

[keimarkai]

Two hour study wip