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jewpacabruhs · 2 months
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I genuinely wish it were possible to scroll through the kyman tag for more than five minutes without encountering hate. Like, I hey people being uncomfortable with the ship and disliking it, but they don't have to go out of their way to be mean and tag their hate? I find it kind of funny when it's people like the guys who made the microceleb au who say the most demented vile shit on a daily basis (cool, it's south park) but are so childishly malicious and prudish about kyman? Like, this is south park tumblr, we are all in the circus together
i know right :( honestly... i dont wanna get into ship morality discourse, but my general thought on that is we've strayed far too far from a good ol 'this thing squicks me out, im gonna avoid it and focus on what i like' mentality. remember 'dont like, dont read' from the fanfic dot net days? we need that back. i have a handful of ships that make me very deeply uncomfortable - yknow what i do? i block the tag and i dont think about it ever bc its not worth my time. maybe if i run into smth ill complain in private, but im not gonna waste time policing other ppl's fandom experience when there's much more important stuff going on in the world. i think problematic ship discourse is one of the silliest, most chronically online things in the world. like you said - it's south park, greg. fandom is meant to be a fun hobby, and a lot of people have turned it into a miserable and extremely puritan lifestyle. curate ur fandom experience, keep it fun, dont dwell on negative bullshit . best advice i can give.
as for this microceleb au thing, i had to google it cuz i have no idea what the hell ur talkin abt fsdjkfd. i am so fantastically out of loop w the sp fandom - and thank g-d, honestly. im still fond of south park and cartman & kyman are still in my all-time fav characters + ships, but as a south park fandom veteran, lemme tell you - this is one of the most... bizarre fandoms ive been in, let's say that. i was gonna say worst, but that's simply not true, because there's a lot of really great talent and i have a tremendous amount of respect and fondness for a lot of rlly wonderful creative artists n writers ive had the pleasure of knowing. but there's like... a culture thats specific to the sp fandom, thats just a bit... rancid. my sp fixation seems to be recurrent, but if i ever come back im gonna tread the fandom carefully cuz its just very easy to get sucked into nonsense. but that being said, i havent been active in it for a few years now. might be totally different now. doesnt fully sound like it, though
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i haven’t been here in wayyy too long aa but hi!! i’m back!! :3
gah still craving my fictional men and a bf but i wanna tell you abt my qpp bc they’re amazing an i love them sm <3 (he goes by he/they) yk that ask i sent abt braiding hakkai’s hair? my qpp braided mine yesterday.... and i got to cuddle him all day and night... with lots of little cheek kisses and stuff. afjjfdhhf he’s so amazing. we watched csm together (i’ve already read most of it, just not caught up with the latest few chapters) which was really fun, and, as always, we talked abt our current hyperfixations, and just co-existed in each other’s spaces while reading fic or scrolling through tumblr or smth on our own :) istg i love them so much. if i could i’d wake up next to him every morning. i wake up earlier than them anyway so i get to look at them sleeping in my arms whenever i sleep over before i close my eyes and fall asleep again bc 6am is way too early to leave the bed on a sunday anyway.
the craving of a bf i can do more /r things with is real but i love my qpp so so much man. i’m poly anyways. and like i wanna kiss boys and go on traditional dates with them and stuff but i’m happy not doing any of these things with my qpp bc i think we’re perfect the way we are already <3
adgjfssfg i just needed to gush abt my qpp for a bit 😭 - 🎆 anon
YOU ARE SO LUCKY OMGGGG
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boycott-peterick · 2 years
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I know I don't post much. It's hard keeping up with life, responsibilities, and all the damn social media platforms @_@ there's too many. I've been Big Sad lately and haven't like... been able to do much about it? So I'm probably gonna go back on antidepressants or smth, cuz therapy alone isn't enough rn.
But like, I guess life update?
[This is where I'd put a read more line if I could figure out how to do it on mobile]
I got married. I have a puppy. I have a home. Things I should be happy about. But, y'know, brain gremlins out here makin me eat away at myself with worry over all those things, and others.
I come back occasionally when I'm braindead and need to scroll. Admittedly I should probably change what blogs I'm following for a lot of reasons. Been following pretty much all the same blogs since.... 2015? A lot of those blogs have changed what their theme is, and frankly I'm just not interested in those themes. I have to be a lot more conscientious about how I spend my spoons.
But, a big reason I stopped coming to Tumblr was the fact that I followed a lot of blogs where folks talked about their own mental health and/or darker themes. I thought it was helping me feel less alone, but eventually it became a feedback loop for my own struggles. Coming to Tumblr wasn't a relief for my depression, it was making it worse. It didn't occur to me that this was the case until I got hospitalized. I know I can change who I follow, limit what content I see etc. But it takes time and energy to cultivate that.... Time and energy I just haven't had since then.
I don't think anyone followed me closely enough to wonder where I went, or really read through all of these kinds of posts. Mostly I think it was the few IRL friends who follow me on Tumblr, idk how many of y'all still use it. But, if any of you were wondering, thanks for reading up ❤️ Admittedly things have been more up than down in general the past 5 years, I'm just Going Through It rn cuz of burnout.
Love y'all, and hope you're safe~
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transanger · 5 years
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ok uuh im gonna maybe go on a mini hiatus from tumblr follow my public twt, private twt, and my insta if u wanna stay in contact ig
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blueprint-han · 3 years
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[Image ID: A black picture with the title “HOW TO SUPPORT FANFICTION AUTHORS” written in bold caps lock, colored with a winter forest picture. End ID.]
Well, this post has been made countless times, but I’m making one too because I’ve seen a lot of people say they’re new to tumblr and don’t know the whole “reblogging is better than liking” rule and other stuff. So without any further ado, here are ways YOU can support the fanfiction authors. Now keep in mind this applies to almost every author out there, not just the stayblr fandom, so if you’re a silent reader (or even if you aren’t), I advise you go through this post. Warning, this is a fairly long post going into detail, so yeah. I still expect you, the readers to read this, and if you’re a writer, feel free to lmk if i’ve written smth wrong or if you want me to add something! ^^
In this post I’ll go into thorough analysis of the pros and cons of each of the methods listed here and how YOU as a reader can show the authors whose fics you read more love and motivate them to produce content.
WARNING; LONG POST! GOES INTO A DECENT AMOUNT OF DETAIL. NOT EDITED, EXCUSE ANY TYPOS.
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#1 : LIKING !
I think this is basic common knowledge, and a lot of people tend to do this. When you like the post, the author sees it, you see it, and if the author has their liked posts accessible (which majority of the time they don’t), and if someone deliberately goes to check it, then they see it. See why so many authors say just liking does nothing? Only liking says “Hey, I’m gonna tell you your story is not that good by simply liking it and not sharing it with other people. :D”
♯ PROS:
You’re telling the author that you've read their fic, and either you’ve enjoyed it to a certain extent, or you’re just saving it to read for later.
Likes are seen by you, the author and anyone who has access to your likes (which, most people don’t).
♯ CONS:
If you ONLY like, you’re not really helping the author’s work reach a wide audience because this site isn’t Instagram. Reblogging is the only way people can SEE our works. I’ll cover more on that in the next section.
In a nutshell, liking is good! But you should most likely use it in a combination with the other stuff I’ve listed below, because just the like itself doesn’t really do much in giving the author any feedback or interaction on their fics.
To clear shit up; I’m not talking about those people who don’t read the story or appreciate it in the first place. I’m talking about those who appreciate the fic, like it, but don’t leave any sort of feedback to show that.
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#2 : REBLOGGING !
This is SO, SO important. I cannot stress on this enough. Let me explain WHY so many writers stress on reblogging content: 
Tumblr’s tag system is inherently fucked up, and has grown more so over the year. I’m not kidding, at first, the fic either used to show up in the tags or it didn’t, but now, sometimes your fic can be REMOVED from the tags because of,,, idk tumblr tag shit. Anyways, as you can see, it’s very demotivating for authors at that point, because the major way for people to find their content and expand their blogs has been blocked.  
Due to this reason, tumblr authors need to RELY on you, their followers to help spread their works to a wider audience. Now again, before you get me wrong, I’m not saying you ae forced to rb our works regardless of whether you like them or not. BUT, that being said, if you DO infact like the story, there’s no harm in reblogging, right? By doing this you’re indirectly telling the author — “hey! :D I liked your fic! Which is why I am gonna share it to my followers so they can read it too :D” Trust me, you’re doing nothing but helping the people who produce content for you to read. Seems like a worthy cause to hit the reblog button, right? It’s only a one, or maximum two step procedure.
Leave tags in your reblogs! Trust me, as an author myself and as much as I know from all my author friends, we oft check the tags of your reblogs to see if you found any part amazing or even if you have anything to say about the writing we put so much hard work into. Even a key smash or a “This was so [insert adjective] 🥺” is enough to leave a smile on your authors face. 
♯ PROS :
You’re !! Sharing !! Your authors !! Works !! This leads to them getting more recognition, so for the content they’re so graciously providing for free, you’re promoting their blog and helping them expand it.
If the tags are being a shit, which majority of the time they are, then you’re literally making an author’s day by reblogging! You’re showing them that you, a follower and appreciator of their works are willingly sharing their content because it deserves to be seen by more people. Again before any dumb people decide to attack me, i am talking about people who like the fic but don't bother reblogging and are silent/ghost readers. I am not forcing anyone to read anybody’s work.
YOU’RE MAKING YOUR AUTHOR SO HAPPY WHAT MORE REASONS COULD YOU POSSIBLY WANT !! 🥺
♯ CONS :
Literally none, because as far as I remember no author is against reblogging of their works. It’s quite literally the way this platform functions. Reblogging is IMPORTANT.
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#3 : COMMENTING/SENDING FEEDBACK !
This kind of overlaps with the previous section, but THIS IS SUCH AN IMPORTANT STEP !! When you leave feedback, you are directly giving the author something so much more valuable to them than high follower/note counts or money. Your feedback is literally our serotonin. I kid you not the number of times I’ve received a positive comment and smiled and it has made my day. There’s a reason youtubers (though not the best example, bear with me here because it was the only one I could think of) ask people to subscribe, like and COMMENT. The subscription is like a follow, the like is ofc like a heart, and the comment is equivalent to an rb with comments in the tags. 
You might argue and tell me that a comment is basically like an ask so the reblogging step isn’t necessary, but I’m sure 99% of you use YouTube and you know that more comments leads to people’s videos boosted in the stream/trending charts. This is what reblogging does. Reblogging shares the piece with other people like minded, which leads to a boost in reads. You are literally helping your author grow.
It’s quite literally the same thing as youtubers. Youtubers NEED validation to keep their content creation going, so do writers, so do other ccs on this site. This post is however, focused on WRITERS, so keep that in mind.
♯ PROS :
By doing this, you’re giving author valuable feedback! It’s similar to what you do in rbing with tags. Interactivity with their fics boosts their note counts and helps expand their audience, so srsly, now think of it: your one comment is playing such a massive role to help ccs create more content.
Imagine how much of a difference the note counts will be in when every person who simply likes after reading the fic, reblogs, leaves a comment and sends an ask. the note counts would be high on each and every fic, which is validation in itself, but your comments would inspire the writer so much more! Please, don’t skip the commenting part. Even a simple one like: “this is so cute!” is wonderful. 
♯ CONS :
Remember, if you’re gonna give constructive criticism (which I’m sure you all are smart enough to know if different from hate), make sure the author is okay with it. Authors need to be in a specific mindset and must be ready to accept criticism, so if you’re gonna give constructive criticism to them when they’re at a low point, it may demotivate them.
Just commenting, instead of reblogging and commenting in the tags/ reblogging and then leaving an ask in their inbox, while it gives validation in plenty, will not lead to the author’s work being spread. Therefore I suggest either reblogging and commenting in the tags or reblog and then leave an ask, or comment under the fic!
!! reminder; I am not saying that if you don’t rb and just leave feedback, your feedback has no value. We authors truly appreciate every bit of feedback, but this post is aimed to help you learn how to interact with and support authors, and make them feel more motivated, because the current scenario of liking and scrolling is taking a toll on their creative abilities. Take it from a person who’s been writing for a year.
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#4 : COMMSIONING VIA THEIR KO-FI/OTHER APPS !
Before any of you attack me, let me tell you that this is not a step that is 100% necessary to do. ONLY donate if you can and if you genuinely want to, and if anyone is forcing you to pay for something against your will, you need to get yourself out of there.
Regardless, if an author has a kofi and you’re able to and you want to donate, you definitely should! It’s also a valid form of support.
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#5 : ADDING THEM ON REC LISTS/ RECOMMENDING THEM TO REC BLOGS
This is such an underrated option, to be honest. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve seen my fic was recommended onto some rec list and it’s made me smile so hard. If you like some fics, create a rec list! They’re oft very popular amongst the fans too. Making rec posts is such a great way to share your favorite stories with others. 
Rec blogs! I’ve seen a couple going around, and needless to say they are a great way to get someone else to read your favorite author’s work whilst also giving them your own feedback. These blogs oft accept recs via a form or ask box, and they leave your feedback along with their own, or else they’ll oft tag the author in the feedback post, so look! You’re basically helping your author share their fic to many more people, because you’ve given them feedback and a reblog.
♯ PROS :
Validation! Feedback! Reblogs! More exposure! Helping a blog grow! Spreading love! basically a run down of the stuff I’ve said before!
♯ CONS :
Literally no con of this. Unless, a one in a million case, this author says they don’t like receiving feedback/being tagged, and I’m sure NO person has said this before, at least none that I’ve heard of.
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#6 : FINAL COMMENTS; MISC !
When an author points out about how the interactivity is drastically reducing, don’t just give them blind apologies. Yes, you feel sorry for not interacting as much, we understand, but rather show that you’ll become a better content consumer through your actions. We need to see that we’re not just throwing words into a void and that people are actually trying to be better content consumers. 
Understand the fact that authors don’t get paid for this, and 99% of the time, these authors don’t take commissions either. They’re giving you novel worthy writings for free. Take Percy Jackson: You think the author would have felt motivated to write the subsequent parts, let alone two whole series based off of it if literally no one showed that they were interested? Rick Riordan has sales, he is being paid, there are millions of people and big agencies who provide him feedback. Now take that huge amount and simmer it down to an audience of maybe 10000 people This is what fanfic authors want. They don’t want your money, nor are they telling you to risk your lives for them. All they want is, a reblog, some tags, some feedback, some INTERACTIVITY.  A sign that they aren’t throwing fics into the void and that people actually like them, some motivation to continue. Seems fairly easy to throw an rb with some tags, right?
Don’t bother to tell me that we do this for ourselves and we shouldn’t ask for likes and reblogs and feedback, because 1) you are consuming the content that we “write for ourselves” and 2) writers post their content here for interactivity and feedback. We could just not post and write and save our fics in our dungeon drafts for years. But we choose to post to entertain the readers, the consumers. And we aren’t even asking that much in return.
Don’t give me the whole “I’m scared that authors feel that comments are annoying” excuse either because seriously this has been DEBUNKED SO MANY TIMES. Istg, in the nicest way possible, if you still think writers are annoyed by interaction and feedback, after so many posts, long rants have been posted as to how we’re not, then you must truly be living under a rock. There, I said it. Please stop thinking this way, I’ll say it again, AUTHORS ARE NOT ANNOYED OF FEEDBACK, COMMENTS, TAGS, REBLOGS. WE LOVE IT. Saying this is like saying that the audience in a theatre play shouldn’t clap when the play ends because the actors would find it noisy. 🤡
I’ve seen some people saying they have anxiety issues and such, so pls note that I’m not invalidating your condition. If you’re trying to be more interactive, I really appreciate it! If you can’t, that’s fine too. You’re trying.
But for the people who have no reason other than feeling lazy to rb and comment, your lack of interactiveness is not excused. Please. Tumblr is a reblogging site. If you’re gonna consume content like authors are some sort of machines, I encourage you to go get some more perspective.
This site is not Instagram or the satan bird app. Your likes are appreciated but frankly speaking, they do nothing to the author except tell them “Hey i read ur fic but i'm not gonna support u :D” and honestly, that is detrimental to their creative capabilities and mental health. 
DON’T FOLLOW AN ACC JUST TO MINDLESS RB THEIR SIGNAL BOOST POSTS AND THEIR REBLOGS OF GIFS AND NOT INTERACT WITH THEIR WRITING AT ALL ! Trust me, authors prefer a lower amount of interactive followers than a high count that doesn’t even give them any feedback. Again your follows are appreciated, but when you’re following, you know the type of content the author creates, so the author expects that the more followers, the more interactivity. These days, this is just becoming the opposite. So don’t do it! If you’re gonna follow to read, interact with their works. I promise, this will make both you and the author happy. A win-win situation.
In conclusion: SUPPORT YOUR FUCKING AUTHORS! THEY ARE NOT MACHINES THAT HAVE NO FEELINGS TO PRODUCE CONTENT FOR YOU! FICS TAKE DAYS AND DAYS OF PLANNING, PLOTTING, OUTLINING, WRITING, EDITING, MAKING TEASERS. SO JUST SHOW THEM YOU APPRECIATE THEM WITH AN RB. IT’S THE L E A S T YOU CAN DO.
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I will be liking this post here written by the lovely @chaninfused​ and @scriptura-delirus​ . Please take time to read it because if you weren’t convinced by my arguments, you will see how much frustration we as writers face on a daily basis. Please, just show support. Here is the post by @stayndays​ about how to get more people to read your work, because it also has a note on reblogging. Please educate yourself, and put an end to this mindless consuming culutre and bring up some interactivity.
If you’ve read this far, I want you to go to two of your favorite authors and leave some feedback in their inbox, and tag me in it (either tag me yourself or ask the author to do so, they won’t mind). Show your writers that our words are taking effect and you are becoming better consumers. I mean it. I’m serious. I want every single one who reads this post to do this. besides valid reasons, if you’re lazy to do this, you’re a part of the problem. PLEASE get more perspective.
Also, feel free to add to this post! I’d love to read your thoughts too, remember to be kind though. And, if I think your rb is somehow contradicting my points and is bringing down the reason I made this post, I will politely ask you to delete your comment, because this post is about being truthful about the harsh reality of tumblr consumers and how we can change it. I’m sure none of you will let it get to that point, though. <3 love you guys. 💓
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And, just a reminder, don’t just blindly like this too. Do what I said before, and while I am not forcing you, I’d appreciate your reblog, because seriously, it took me 3 whole days to write this, plus, I’m sure this will help more of your followers understand the fault in consumer culture. haha, that’s it! This post was way too long uff.
also, this is ur cue to not be stupid in my inbox. You have something to say? Think I worded smth wrongly? I’m sure it wasn’t my intention to do so, point it out with manners. 
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Self indulgent Haikyuu x debate!reader hcs because debate season is over and i suddenly have nothing to do
A/n: Idk the type of debate that they do in Japan so I'm gonna use the PF debate structure. (I heard about parlament style debate in Korea, I watched a video and it scared the fuck out of me) Also I don't know how to do the whole read more thing on mobile tumblr so ✨yikes✨
Characters: Hinata, Sugawara,
Warnings: Swearing, caps, mentions of death
Hinata
He has no idea what debate is, his thoughts only consists of volleyball and meat so when you bring up being on the debate team to him he's just kinda "👁👄👁 what's debate like?"
Since debate is hard to explain you decide to bring him along to one of your debate practices to watch.
A quick explanation of public forum (pf) debate: two teams of two take a pro and con stance on a resolution. (Example: Resolved: Sugawara is not the mom friend) Debaters work in pairs to make a pro and con case that they will present at their debate, for PF they usually have a month to prep their case. The case will usually be written in the style of an essay and will be read out as a speech to begin the debate. Debaters work in pairs so there's a speaker one and speaker two. Speaker one is in charge of laying out the topic and what grounds the team wins the debate on, and speaker two dishes out most of the arguments against the other sides. (Kind of like speaker one is defense while speaker two is offense) Basically pro gives their opening speech, con gives their opening speech, and the they ask each other questions and try to degrade the other side's case. Then the speaker twos give speeches on why their speaker one did better, then they butt heads. After that comes the speaker ones saying why they won, and finally comes the ultimate showdown, the final crossfire. The final crossfire is essentially just a big cat fight where we yell each other about morals. (Sorry Amanda but murder is worse than kidnapping 🙄) Then the speaker twos give a speech about why they're better. Your fate relies on the judge who has no idea what they're doing.
Did you get all of that? You probably didn't. TLDR: Four children scream about why their moral compass is better for about one hour.
You try to explain it to Hinata in volleyball terms and it's ✨hard✨
"Okay so the speaker one is kinda like the setter, they set up the attack on the other side by controlling the grounds that they win on-"
"But controlling the grounds is what Noya does-"
"Hinata it's a metaphor"
"What's a metaphor?"
😃 why
So you decide to bring him to your practice debates, during a normal debate you move around from classroom to classroom debating other kids from other schools carrying your case in a big ass box in stuffy casual formal wear at like 8 in the morning.
Practice debates are a lot chiller and there's a lot less yelling.
You were judging debates that day while the gym was having an inspection so he tagged along with you to watch the debates. He kinda gets lost after the con speech and you're like "yeah it can be like that sometimes".
He admires you for being able to do the whole debate thing (and win)
Since the winners of any debate comp are decided by judges (who usually have no experience) most teams value process over result. Even if you debate better they can still pick the other team because of a dumb reason like them liking the other team's shirt.
After every debate he takes you out to get snacks at Ukai's store, and he lets you rant about whatever unfair judge caused you to loose.
"oKAY BUT LIKE I TOTALLY WON, THE OTHER TEAM DIDN'T EVEN HAVE THEIR CASE TOGETHER" he just kinda smiles and nods, he doesn't get your debate terms but he still hypes you up
He makes sure to text you before he sleeps reminding you to not stay up too late researching your case.
Smth like 'i'm going to bed now :) pls don't stay up too late' smh hypocrite, he probably stays up till like 3 thinking abt becoming the tiny giant
One time your debate clothes (black dress pants, white dress shirt, blazer) got dirty and so did your school uniform so he gave you his clothes. He's kinda small so it's a tight fit but it works.
HE BRAGS ABOUT YOU TO ANYONE AND EVERYONE
"hEy look at my super smart s/o who does dEBATE!"
"we know y/n does debate"
Best ray of sunshine 🥺
Suga
ohohoho,,, im a certified suga simp
Now we all know that Suga is pretty smart, he's not a super genius or anything but he's got good grades and he can probably manage his time.
Which means that he's good at helping your research and revise your case. Whenever you can't come up with any contentions he's always there to help you come up with some.
"Kōshi what're the benefits of the urbanization of West Africa?" (I can't find anything on the debate topics in Japan so I'm using stuff from my previous debates)
"Lessening of poverty, standards of health can be raised, and it benefits the world."
HES PERFECT OK
He's probably even joined you for a debate once when your partner couldn't make it to the competition, he makes a pretty good speaker one but he's definitely a speaker two.
His framework for every case is just 🤌🤌🤌
Research dates with him are just 🥺
You guys are sprawled out on his bed just scrolling through resources trying to put together a case.
You go to all of his games and he goes to support you during your debates. Before every speech you give he sends you a small thumbs up to boost your spirits.
He's super observant and can tell when the judge is full of shit.
Tbh if the other team wins because the judge was stupid even though you
He's too good for us smh
Yachi
PLS
YACHI I LOVE HER
okokok
here's the thing with yachi, she's great at writing cases and she'd honestly be a good asset to the team however,,,
she can't do public speaking for shit
so she cheers you on from the sidelines and helps you out with your case
she can't really do public speaking herself because of her nerves but she knows how to convince an audience so she lets you practice her speeches
she once volunteered to help the team for a mock debate by subbing in for someone who couldn't make practice that day due to getting sick, she got scared during her speech and panicked.
weekly study dates are a must, whether it be for debate or just school in general weekly study dates at a local café or at a library
she brought hinata and yams to watch you debate once and now they're both scared of you (look final crossfire is scary as hell)
i think she'd be a (slightly less than) decent cook bUT she's good at baking, so she always offers to stop by before practice to drop off snacks
the team loves her and half of them join the yachi protection squad (started by noya and tanaka probably)
im just v 🥺🥺🥺 rn lmao
a/n,,, lmao i havent written in a while, if u need a better explanation of how debate works then feel free to ask !
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Okay, I’m just doing this once, to link it to all the idiots who exist in the future.
Dear Makoto fans (cause I don’t know other Rin haters out there), I’m gonna try to explain it as simple as possible. 
If the video is titled “Rin & Haru”, it is most likely surprisingly is about Rin and wait for it, cause you won’t believe it... Haru. So if you hate Rin and you see a video, which title contains “Rin” AND there’s an actual Rin on the thumbnail
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maybe (but that’s just me going crazy here)... maybe you shouldn’t look for Makoto there. Cause I don’t believe they look similar.. but I might check my eyes just in case later.
So for all the pals like this one:
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(and there was a bunch of others that I’ve muted), if you have two brain cells left, please invite them over for a minute here.
1. It is not my fault that my video reached over half a million views and got into Youtube recommendations. I’m not responsible for no your recommendations, no mine. Youtube recommends me all kind of stuff, including Ikuya vids, for example, cause they’re also related to Free!, doesn’t mean I have to watch them.
Like you won’t believe it, but not only the “I don’t wanna watch this” button exists there, but there is also such a crazy possibilty as to NOT WATCH YOUR NOTP VIDEOS (and YES IT FREAKING EXISTS!). You do it by not clicking on the vid and just, well, you know, not watching it with those two thingies on your face thats called eyes.
Also thanks for being my biggest fan and all, but there’s really no need to go through all of my vids, if you don’t even like this ship. Cause I kinda considered to take it as a compliment for a moment there. But this amount of free time honestly can be used to create your own content that actually includes your otp. Just saying. 
2. Breaking news here, but just because Rin makes your ship invalid, doesn’t mean he’s a bad character. 
So let’s just all hate him for much more “obvious reasons” like:
- being a great brother:
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- being a great son:
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- being a great friend:
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-being a great boyfriend:
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- for working hard to get where he wanted in life and for fighting for his dreams:
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I knoooow right? I hate dat perfect bitch, too, but there’s really no need to be agressive about it. You can instead try to do all these beautiful things, too (it’s very hard tho, but believe me it’s really worth it) xD
Like instead of watching a video about Rinharu, whom you hate or scrolling through their tag, try maybe cooking your mom a dinner for once or smth. And I know that to your part of the fandom having life goals is very offensive, but maybe you should try these, too.
Or like maybe watch a 10 minutes Chloe Ting challenge vid and spend few minutes doing this. I mean that’s how I got my sexy abs, after watching Harurin perfect bods xD I mean, all better than bindge watching your notp vids.
3. For tumblr haters. There’s actually such thing as blocking a tag on tumblr. Like “Free!” is a mutual tag, but if you block “Rinharu” tag, you won’t see my post even in the Free! tag. I mean, yeah, tumblr mulfunction sometimes, but in general it works. If the malfunction happens, just scroll past it. 
Cause I’m just kinda already reconsidering my respectful non tagging “makoharu” and “makoto” policy (and mind this: I only talk about those when I’m asked), cause what’s even the point, if 90% of your fandom are idiots who search and post in “rinharu” tag anyways and apparently hanging out on my blog a whole fucking lot.
I mean, I’ve been in some ugly fandoms, but I seriously have not yet seen this much disrespect to the other side, who doesn’t even touch you. Like have you not calmed your tits yet? Even in 2020? I’m really asking you to, please, reconsider this and stop embarrassing those two nice people if they’re still there. Because I’m really close to not giving a shit in return.
4. About anonymous death threats. I have a guy, who fixed my computer, who can track those. Most times I really don’t care and just block, but what if one time I’d have lots of free time or get drunk or smth..? Cause he offered once to do it just for fun xD
5. If you want to shit so much that you just can’t help it, shit in YOUR tag. Like we don’t go there, we don’t see it and you can vent if you need it this much. 
You do not post Rin hate in his tag. If you do not get it, it’s the tag for his fans. And no, “I hate him, cause I ship MH” is not a character study. 
P.S. DM me if you need any help with “how to not go on you NOTP tag”, cause I’m such a genius, I actually know how to do this, too (lmao).
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your art is so pretty ;-; it makes my day seeing it.. can i ask, did it take a long time to get your art to where it is now? and was it a hard process? i wanna get better at art but i dont know how ;-; call me aku! i think ill be asking alot/praising you about your art lol
aku thank u sm ;v; i’m really touched..
um shhshshs to be fully honest i started drawing last december-ish...... just for this blog because of brainrot lmaOoo.... i think that’s kinda obvious if u scroll through my #demi doodles tag and see my sad first posts :’D
although!!! i did tryhard middle school art class a long time ago and i vouch, if u really get into it, u can learn a lot :> i think starting early even when i didnt continue painting afterwards still means a lot, bc since then i always saw art with a more critical & appreciative eye and i guess i still learned through osmosis?? LOL
that being said, the bulk of my learning really was done these past lovely brainrotty months, so don’t sweat it if u start late :) my dad is 58 now and my recent enthusiasm in doodling afflicted him too so now we’re learning together <333 and i adore what he makes already
i made a tutorial for my own painting style here aku nonnie, but there’s so many other resources available online elsewhere for learning too :> here’s my own personal tips for quick improvement below the cut ‼️
firstly i am seconding the ‘general painting tips’ section of the tutorial i linked :>
particularly about which fundamental concepts of art/drawing that u should really explore if u wanna improve quickly! (ex. for drawing humans, learning proportion and gesture is much more useful than detailed anatomy!)
focused practices on areas of art u wanna improve in >>>>>
figure out precisely where u need to improve and focus on solving those issues. smth i like to do is to doodle without reference, find similarly-composed but much nicer art that does the specific thing really well, and then compare & analyze what i’m missing or could do better
in general, looking at other people’s art that u like and figuring out what exactly u like abt it is great! at least thats how i improved in the years i didnt even touch a sketchbook
VARY the art u make as much as possible! even if u have a certain favorite style, in the learning process its important to explore as much as possible. this includes varying the subject matter (draw hoomans a lot? try nature or backgrounds!), the art styles (realism is important to try! but so is stylization!!), the media (i learned SO much so fast when i switched from traditional to digital!), and more!!
comics helped me bc i was forced to make things i don’t naturally love to, like those damn flowers T_T in general incorporating things u need to focus on into projects u love (comics for me, maybe character design for u?) is a great cheat to making the process seem easy :>
ask for feedback!!!!!!
use MANY references every time u draw!!!!!
but ofc nothing beats drawing often. its okay to just draw what u like so u can keep going—i’m personally 100% brainrot fuelled and it did me wonders lol. in the end putting in the hours is what will give u a strong grasp, and its also what u need to develop a style. frequent ‘disposable’ but thoughtful doodles >>>> sparse ‘masterpieces’
be kind to your art. know it is already amazing now, but you WILL keep improving. i believe in you
that’s all i got off the top of my head! it seems kinda overwhelming when i ramble about it this way lol i’m sorry :’> but these are all just lighthearted tips to make drawing more fun! in the end, what’s important is that you are having fun creating. brainrot and tumblr is DEFINITELY my secret :) good luck aku i’m rooting for you!
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alittleemo · 3 years
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thanks for tagging me gab @12monthoctober and eden @pianoandcookiedoughlover and faith @shades-of-greens <3 (i did not realize how many times i did not respond to this dfjhgjlkds you are all darlings <3)
1. why did u choose ur url?
i was tired at lunch one day and figured, ok im short, im also vaguely emo but not committed enough to go full out, so bam im both a little emo (as in noncommittal) and a little emo (as in short) <3
2. any sideblogs?
technically i have one now but i mostly have it to save the url, if i ever actually decide to start streaming ill prob make a blog specifically for that!! (though i think I’d use my alittleemo handle for it anyway so who knows then)
3. how long have u been on tumblr?
a little over a year now!! i think i made this blog in february of 2019 but started using it march/april of last year
4. do u have a queue tag?
i still do not know how to use the queue function dfjkhgkldjsjdflkh
5. why did u start your blog in the first place?
nearly all of my Pinterest feed was tumblr memes anyway so i figured why not go to the source of it all /hj. also i wanted to find more people into aftg and skam
6. why did u choose ur icon/pfp?
matching pfp with gab’s dsmp side blog!!! ae asked me if i wanted to match and i couldn’t pass up the opportunity :D (plus clingy duo / tommyinnit supremacy) i think it’s pretty fitting honestly <3
7. why did u choose ur header?
i love taking shitty pictures of jellyfish and i thought this one ended up looking really cool 
8. how many mutuals do u have?
13!! i have immense fondness for each of you <3
9. how many followers do u have?
39 babey!!!
10. how many people do u follow?
97 currently !!
11. have u ever made a shitpost?
what is anything i post if not complaining or making dumbass posts (affectionate)
12. how often do u use tumblr each day?
yikes. I mean like i am def here several times per day (its gonna be more now too now that its summer) but i feel like i sort of j scroll through my dash and only rb a few things compared to how much i actually see yk
13. did u ever fight/argue w another blog? who won?
no i hate confrontation but i also would rather j block someone trying to start smth w me
14. how do u feel about "u need to reblog these" posts?
going to steal celia and gab’s response bc yall are more coherent than me - sometimes it's too mentally draining to read abt terrible shit all the time. calm down. not everyone needs to read everything. i don't need ur guilt-trip rn. u can get across that a post is imp. w/o that statement. idk. sometimes i ignore them out of spite. i know that i rb a decent number of activism posts but i dont like those ones as much bc the guilt tripping isn’t the way to go
15. do u like tag games?
yes if u ever tag me j know i would instantly deliver cookies to ur house if i could <3 i do however often forget to respond to them until later (hi this tag is from over a week ago dfjkhgljdksh)
16. do u like ask games?
yes i love them immensely i j often again forget to actually finish them whoops
17. which of ur mutuals do u think is tumblr famous?
ik that i have a lot of relatively famous mutuals-in-law, but as for my own mutuals i’d say @lunawedlers and @lesbeanadiamcnll, i feel like yall have such good vibes in that respect <3
18. do u have a crush on a mutual?
like gab said, yes but platonically <3
tagging @coffee-and-moo, @alinastarkovaz, @lesbeanadiamcnll, @lunawedlers and any other mutuals who’d like to do so!!! (as always feel free to ignore as well <3)
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pocmuzings · 4 years
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mysticroleplay did a female ban in 2020 //:
hi ! thanks for the info , anon !!! when i first received this message i was big yikes tbh , bc female bans in 2020 ?? who even does that . but . . also admittedly , i know how things and misinformation can be spread thru tumblr discourse , so i actually approached the admins of mysticroleplay myself, to ask them for their side and an Explanation of what the 'female ban' really meant , bc . it doesn't Read Well for Anyone involved dfjkndfjnfjn . ANYWAYS , here was their response : ( under the cut bc it’s long , and then i add More commentary at the bottom ) 
 “ So, there’s a lot to unload here… as what initially was presented as a temporary tool in an attempt manage our influx of female characters, had got out of hand and taken out of context >< We hope our explanation below can gain a better understanding as to where we were coming from when implementing this ban, as we know it can come off quite… old school and not at all encouraging of those who disapprove of a gender ban in general. 
 When we started Mystic, we wanted to be a roleplay that didn’t care about ratios, which is why we categorize our characters by ‘stayed, left, new’ (according to our plot). In the beginning stages, we noticed the reputation roleplays were getting for caring about ratios (and ultimately understanding why it was a bad thing), which is why we made that decision in the first place.
As Mystic was growing, we noticed the influx of female characters joining, and didn’t really think much about it. However, slowly, we noticed that we had a handful of non-female desired wanted connections sitting in our tag, and there’s only so much that we admins can do to encourage gender diversity. We were also aware of the pressure a few members (we included) that had male characters felt when interacting with female characters (shipping, and etc), which was also a mildly growing concern behind the scene. As admins, we want to do our best to cater to our member’s experience and because we have encountered a certain feeling (in our own experience as members or admins, outside of Mystic) whenever there’s a heavy gender presented more than others, we couldn’t help but feel concerned. We’ve seen roleplays die when one gender overpowers the other, so we couldn’t help but wonder… should we do something about this? We’re not supposed to care about gender ratios, but our fear of our roleplaying dying due to past (separate) experiences seemingly overpowered that. (And not only that, but we’ve also been approached individually if we would consider a female ban of sorts, as we know *whether it’s a bad thing or not* that there are some people do care about ratios.)
And so, we came to the decision of implementing a temporary female ban, for various reasons. Yes, to balance our ratio to a degree, but to also encourage our members who were thinking of taking on second characters, to think about taking on a different gender. (We were also heavily wary about the backlash this would cause, but under said pressures, in a misguided attempt, did it anyway.)
 That is not to say, we only encouraged male characters in the slightest. Our ban was to encourage both male and nb characters, however, we will admit, we didn’t encourage nb characters as much as we should’ve. We know now, we probably should’ve sent ourselves some anons to put forth the public desire of having gender diversity, but we’re sad to say, we didn’t. We genuinely didn’t encourage (nor do we desire) one gender over the other, but we understand, that not voicing our desire for nb characters outright, could’ve been the reason why it this female ban we implemented was taken out of context.
Within the week of closing our ban (which was only up for about a week), we received anon asking if we’d do the same for nonbinary characters. We weren’t sure what to make of this ask, because admittingly, we were afraid it was a tool someone was using to try and make us (and Mystic) look bad. We know that might sound a bit dramatic, but the three of us are particularly protective over Mystic (as it has taken over two years for us to finally bring this roleplay to light) and we didn’t want a misunderstanding to have all of our hard work go to waste. (We’re also extremely aware of the rpcs of cancel culture, and wanted to avoid that as much as possible.) So, we made the unfortunate choice of not answering it, not for any other reason than being fearful of the outcome. 
 Within the next day, we received an IM from one of our members that it was them who had sent the anon and have expressed deep disappointment towards us for ignoring their query. It was… shameful, and heartbreaking for us to say the least. We loved that member deeply and have grown extremely embarrassed for not meeting their needs, all out of fear. Although they have expressed that they wish to have approached us off anon (as they were aware it came off hostile), they were still disappointed as a whole and we couldn’t blame them.
We did our best to explain why we didn’t reply, and how we weren’t trying to prioritize male or female characters over nonbinary (which is certainly another story within itself), and while we thought the conversation was going quite well and civil, we were met with them ultimately deactivating and we could no longer talk things through. 
 The incident between the three of us and that member was a lot for us. In fact, it still affects a few of us to this day, as we’re continuously fearful of disappointing our members again. We didn’t expect for Mystic to grow this big, nor did we expect to gain traction from the rpc in general. But, through this experience, we’ve learned that we do hold some sort of responsibility for doing what we can to encourage what is needed in the rpc. (Whether we feel as though it’s our duty or not.) We’ve learned a lot from that member, and although we weren’t able to settle things to their likeness, we decided to move on with the decision of implementing a ban for both male and female characters, in hopes of encouraging trans and nonbinary characters to enter Mystic in the near future. We want to look it as taking it one step at a time to be as inclusive and accepting to all as possible, whether we’re fully capable of taking on that task ourselves.
There is a lot more to say upon the matter, which we would be happy to discuss, as we want to lay things out as transparent as possible, but we hope that all of this explains things, enough for you to form a fair opinion about us. Not once did we ever make a decision to purposefully harm a particular community. Between the three of us, we are fully supportive (as well as a part of) the LGBTQ community and have been distraught knowing we have been misunderstood, due to a misguided decision in order to control our ratios. However, that is not to say, that we didn’t harm anyone (intentional or not), and we hope moving forward, we can right our wrongs. 
 If you have any more concerns or questions regarding the matter, please let us know, we appreciate you approaching us privately. <3 “
i kinda do understand what they're talking abt . if u've been on my blog in the past few weeks , we've been talking heavily abt playing male muses and how they're ship-chased to no ends , and i do recognise that this is what the admins were noticing in their own rp with female muses coming in, and creating a MASS amount of wanted connections just for males , and chasing the males that were already in the rp . this is smth we've all seen time and time again , and it makes rps die , and ppl just . Click right out , bc who wants to come into a rp thats just 'ship ' 'ship' ' ship' 'ship' ??? thats not fun , and not the environment u wanna foster. 
 do i agree with the Actions per se , of a female ban ? no . not at all . it's very demoralizing and derogatory to female muses who AREN'T there for ships and actually for the Real purpose of rping. but i do UNDERSTAND what the admins were trying to accomplish , in order to break up the amount of ship-chasing they were seeing . 
 after scrolling through their blog , i did see that they were trying , somewhat, to encourage more male AND nb fcs . however, again , of course - this didn't really pan out , because . . nb muses are hardly EVER picked up , as we all know  . should they have pushed MORE for nb rep , and maybe picked up a few nb chartacters themselves ? probably . admins should lead by example , a classic g line . 
 so . the action of them removing the female ban when they had more Males , but not really Considering as much abt the nb-representation ? not great either , but they acknowledge that in their response too , and admit they're Ashamed of how they acted . it's not my place to talk on the nb/trans community's end on this topic . simply put , if that side of the community is hurt and Damaged by these actions , then thats understandable too . 
i think it's at least Slightly commendable that when i approached the admins out of the blue - they were completely 1000% transparent and honest with me abt the situation in general and what had seemingly warranted , to them, a 'female ban ' 
 look , overall. mistakes are made . people own up to them . they apologise , and they acknowledge they’ll do better in the future . that’s SOMETHING . overall, they’re Trying to do better , and i think that that’s something important , and i do appreciate them for that . they did the wrong thing . they admitted it and owned up to it . i can understand where they were Coming from , but the execution , admittedly , was not done Great .
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acrobaticcatfeline · 5 years
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Logan and His Little Bumble Bee (Single Dads AU) Chapter 4!!!
Word Count: 3643
TW: swearing, deceit, vague mentions of vague trauma, arguments, crying, unconscious projecting, one quick mention of homophobia, roman is a big nervous a lot lmk if I missed anything!!!
Notes: This was out way sooner than I expected. So I made this one revolving around Roman and Dmitri for once, because we don’t get that much and now he has thoughts and things to say!!! Anyways it starts a bit angsty but its really soft and fluffy and I love my baby gays. It’s dialogue heavy this time around, it’s almost as if my writing changes subconsciously depending on which character I am writing. Huh. I hope you enjoy it, I worked my butt off for it. Previous chapter here, first chapter here!
Summary: “you are 15 years old! Absolutely not!!!” Logan is having trouble letting Roman be himself, projecting his own bad experiences on him without realizing it. Roman and Dmitri kiss a lot because they’re really soft and really gay.
“you are 15 years old! Absolutely not!!!”
“dad people in my grade have been dating since they were 10 come on!”
“and they're irresponsible and don’t know better! Roman it is not a good idea-”
“Logan dear be rational; kids are supposed to-”
“NO!”
Everyone paused as Logan screamed. Roman had flinched and Logan winced knowing he caused it, but he couldn’t just stop at this point.
“Roman, dating this young is a bad idea, take it from me. I mean that was when I got together with mercy-”
“you can’t say that like it’s the biggest mistake you’ve made dad!!! Because… because if it was then I would have-I know it ended badly with you and her, but you were still happy at the time! You can’t just keep me from experiencing things because you're scared dad. I'm not you. I-I need to live my own life eventually, and if I don’t know how to then what am I gonna do when I'm an adult?”
“you don’t- Roman that isn't necessary to be happy, I mean look at me and Patton-”
“well maybe I don’t want to pine for someone for 9 years!!! Maybe, maybe I want to live my life now, instead of waiting in fear!!! Maybe I want my happily ever after before I settle down, maybe, for once, I want to live my life without worrying that I'm a disappointment to my parents!!! I know you don’t mean to but you just, you make everything so hard! You-you have so much, so much hope. That I'm going to be this perfect kid and I'm gonna grow up to be amazing, and its exhausting! I want to make a decision without worrying that I'm going to do wrong by you! And then mercy… mercy never saw me for me, and I always had to be perfect for her and she's gone now but I'm just so tired dad! I'm tired of trying to fit inside this perfect box that I think you have for me, I want to be a teenager, I want to date, I want to go to parties, I want to make mistakes and not cry myself to sleep thinking I've made you hate me. It’s so hard to try to make you happy all the time. I want to have a chance to just make me happy.”
Logan stared at Roman. He had been trying so hard to protect him and take care of him, and all he had been doing was overwhelming him. He had never meant to do any of it, Roman was right, but he went back through his brain and it hurt to see that he had unconsciously pushed his son onto a pedestal that was impossible to escape from. He was never disappointed in him, whether he did good or bad or made mistakes, he had always tried to show that he was proud no matter what. He felt tears welling in his eyes and saw Roman twist uncomfortably. He felt Patton's arm wrap around his shoulders, but he couldn’t stay there, his mind was racing too fast. He was catastrophizing he knew, but he couldn’t so easily stop himself. His head was knocked out of the process when Roman ran into his arms, wrapping him in a hug. He let his arms fold around his sons waist, letting a few tears fall.
“I'm sorry, I'm so sorry dad I just- I needed to tell you and I was going to tell you in a nicer way, a better planned way but then this happened and it all came out I'm sorry dad I didn’t mean to make you cry”
“it’s- its fine Ro. I needed to hear that from you. I'm. I'm sorry Ro I didn’t mean it. I try so hard to show that I'm always proud of you, god you have helped me so much and I've never realized that I was making you feel so pressured I'm sorry bee, I’ll try harder, I didn’t know-”
Logan’s head was buried in Roman’s chest, it was the benefit of his son growing taller than him, he could hide his tear stained face out of sight. He sniffed a bit, rubbing his eyes before letting go of him. He smiled widely at Roman.
“I was wrong to have set such impossible standards. It was wrong of me to treat you like I had a second chance at my childhood. I really, just want the best for you but-”
He took a sharp inhale and looked him in the eyes.
“but its your life. And-and if you want, if you want to date. Then, I-I support you completely. Because, because I love you Roman. So so much.”
His eyes teared up again, and he let out a choked laugh while rubbing his eyes clear. Roman smiled at him and hugged him again, thanking him profusely. At that point Virgil walked back inside. He looked at the scene, sending a questioning glance at Patton over the other two. Patton let out a small smile and shook his head, to which Virgil shrugged and went upstairs without a further thought.
 “so, he was fine with it?”
“I mean he wasn’t, but I explained a few things and he's fine with it now. It took a little bit of the harsher truths to be spilled for him to understand my point, and a few tears, but yeah.”
“wow. I haven’t seen… either of you cry in my entire time knowing you.”
“yeah it doesn’t happen often. I think the last time I saw my dad cry was when he told me that mercy wasn’t coming back.”
“geez that’s a long time. And its always baffled me that I've never seen you cry; I've known you since you were 2.”
“yeah, I'm a uh, private crier. I don’t think I've cried in front of people really since I could talk.”
“fuck man how the hell did you manage that?”
“… I mean I don’t remember it, but I think it was a leftover from when I still lived with mercy.”
“what.”
“eh, it doesn’t matter.”
“no wait what? What did she do to you?”
“pfft, I just told you Vee, I don’t remember. I get vague fuzzy feelings that are sorta like if memories were feelings, but otherwise I have no idea.”
“that’s fucked up man”
“meh. Anyways back to the original topic, soooo can I get Dmitri's number?”
“oh my god.”
“oh, and you're at 75 cents.”
“shit.”
“a dollar!”
 Virgil had handed over his number easily, smirking as Roman gave him a hug before dashing into his own room. Roman had immediately sent Dmitri a text, ‘hey, its Roman! Dads way more chill now so I stole your number from Virgil’ and he had responded almost immediately.
‘neat so are we gonna talk about what that was?’
‘I mean, I thought it was p straight forward, but I mean if you think we should?’
‘I mean yeah but’
Radio silence for a minute
‘but like, idk if you want this to be serious or smth like, casual. I mean I don’t care either way’
‘oh! Well something serious sounds nice!’
‘thank god I was not prepared for something casual regardless of what I said’
‘pfft, its fine tough guy’
‘if that nickname sticks you gotta use it around rem, it'll make him bug out’
‘alrighty! Tough guy~’
‘ouch yo chill it with that I'm in public’
‘pfft ur a dork Dee!’
‘I am absolutely not a whale’s penis and I'm offended you would even imply it’
‘oh my god I'm gonna break up with you’
‘nooooo don’t do that I'm too dark and mysterious to be broken up with for that’
‘dark and mysterious my butt! The only dark thing about you is your humor and the only mysterious things about you are your eyes!’
‘babe I have a reputation to keep up!’
‘guess your rep will just have to fit me in there somewhere then!’
‘god you are adorable, I gtg before you somehow make me start uwuing at my family’
‘uwu bye bye mistew dmitwi!!!’
‘god its disgusting kill it with fire’
‘love you too Dee! <3<3<3’
‘<3’
Roman set down his phone afterwards, feeling the butterflies attacking his insides like rabid animals. He changed the tab over to his YouTube and put on his headphones, listening to his curated BTS playlist, starting off with answer: love myself, bopping along and humming. He switched the tab and scrolled through Tumblr smiling at the posts about his favorite superheroes.
 The next week was absolutely blissful for Roman, he alternated between sitting at his table with a few of his acquaintances who he would chat with about his hyperfixations, and with Dmitri and his friends. Virgil had a different lunch hour luckily, otherwise he would have been slightly embarrassed. But hilariously the first day he sat with Dee, his friends were caught off guard as a boy in soft pastels and stonewashed jeans sat beside Dmitri and was immediately nestled underneath his arm. There were words signed across the table and Dee would chuckle and respond which sent their eyes flying to Roman in his seat as he ate his sandwich oblivious to the reason he was being stared at, just sending kind smiles back at them.
When lunch had ended, he had stood on his toes and kissed Dee’s cheek and his friends all had the shocked looks on their faces again. He ran off to class and had forgotten about the whole interaction afterwards. He was only reminded after school through a text from Dee.
‘sorry about my friends at lunch, they're judgmental shits. I told them off but knowing them they might continue to be asshats anyways’
‘huh. Didn’t even notice. I really need to get around to fully learning sign, I have the smallest feeling that if I'm hanging out with you more it might possibly be useful.’
‘meh, if I really need you to know something and I can’t talk I’ll just text you.’
‘mmm but I still want to learn! Anyways what were they saying’
‘oh they were being dicks about your clothes and then they were being shits about me dating you, they're assholes, I only hang out with them cuz coach had everyone learn sign for me and they're the only people I can talk to during the school day’
‘oh, that’s rude! Do you want me to stop hanging out with you at lunch?’
‘no not at all, I just want you to know what you're getting into’
‘mhm!’
The next time Roman sat with them, he had sent about 8 insults to the people around the table while Dee wasn’t looking, essentially ‘fuck off you judgmental homophobic dicks’ and after that the group shut their traps about him and Dee.
 The week after, Dmitri was busy almost always. There was a big game this weekend and he Remy and Virgil were always either practicing, doing schoolwork, or sleeping for the most part. He would send good morning and good night texts but that was mostly it and Roman felt dumb for missing him so much. Virgil invited him to practice after seeing him sitting around staring at his phone like a kicked dog.
He had sat on the bleachers, watching the coach drill them and them playing near their best. They had taken a rest and Dmitri had made his way up to him, a giant bottle of water in hand. He smiled and let out a croaked hello.
“oh, Dmitri when was the last time you spoke?”
He had coughed and held up a 6 on his fingers. Roman pouted and placed a kiss on his chapped lips. Dmitri waved his hand to say it isn't a problem with a smile on his face and it made Roman pout more and kiss him again, wrapping his arms around himself after. Dee ruffled his hair and went to say something when the whistle blew calling them back. He sighed and stood up, signing ‘I love you’ before rushing back to the field. Roman sat in silence, watching them play once again.
 Roman was beaming. The game was today and that meant he would get Dmitri back afterwards along with Remy and Virgil. He was filled with jitters; he knows the team had been working tirelessly for the whole week and he was excited to see his friends kick the rival schools butt! He was rushing Patton out the door again, just like he was a few weeks before but for a separate reason this time.
He wasn’t expecting the time at the game to fly as quick as it did, but here he was. It was nearing the end and they weren’t very far ahead, and the worry was clear on the teams faces. And then Dmitri had the ball! The crowd roared in surprise and excitement as he weaved around the opposition. He got caught near the goal and Roman was on the edge of his seat as Dmitri kicked the ball straight into the goal. The cheers were immediate, the buzzer signaling the end of the game followed a few seconds later. Roman was up and standing at the edge of the guardrail of the bleachers jumping up and down and screaming. He raced down and met Dmitri at the entrance of the showers, looking around before tugging him off towards the underside of the bleachers. He spoke in barely restrained squeals.
“Dee I'm so proud of you!!! Oh, my goodness you did so well!!! I can’t even-”
Dmitri cut him off with a kiss, one that Roman reciprocated immediately, wrapping his arms around his neck and tilting his head as well as he could with the height difference they had when suddenly he wasn’t standing on his own feet but being held in the air from his waist. He broke the kiss with a squeak, placing his hands-on Dmitri's shoulders as he was hoisted in the air by a happy Dee. He squeaked again as he was spun around before being set on the ground. When he was steady again, he looked up at Dmitri with an amused but confused face.
“we did it”
“you did! Had you not processed that yet?”
“not really no.”
“oh, my goodness you are a dork.”
“listen if you had scored the last goal you would be a little stunned too”
“valid however-”
“oh, just shut up and kiss me again you prep”
“gladly”
“ey before you two start making out you might want to go talk to the team? They're sort of wanting to congratulate you, but you disappeared.”
Roman froze in embarrassment at his brother catching them. Dmitri just smirked and turned to face him.
“listen if any of them could get a significant other they would understand. But considering that even you haven’t gotten the nerve to ask out Remy yet, I guess they wouldn’t so I guess I should grace them with my presence, huh babe?”
“hey, fuck off my little brother didn’t need to know I like your brother!”
“oops!”
Roman giggled a bit at the blush that spread across Virgil's face. He nudged Dmitri.
“be nice honeybee. And he's right, I stole you from your festivities! We should head back over; we can be cute later”
“nonsense, that implies that you can stop being cute”
“bluhhhh that’s my brotherrrrr come on you two, be gross later”
 “DMITRI THAT WAS LEGENDARY!!!”
Dee had a cocky look on his face as his teammates congratulated him, Remy running up and tackling in a hug at first sight. He chuckled wordlessly at his brother who was screaming praise at him and then dragging him into the showers. The team followed them in all continuing to shout praise and Roman contemplated following as well. He eventually just went in after about 10 minutes, finding Dmitri surrounded by his team and. He blanched and turned around a corner, hiding his face in his hands. On the other side, Dmitri sat with blue jeans and no shirt, still dripping water from his hair. He took a few big breaths before wandering back over, not trying to push past anyone and just standing where he knew Dmitri could see him. He flushed when Dmitri smiled and winked at him over the heads of his teammates, curling up in his arms and covering his face again. He whispered to himself in his hands
“gosh I'm really gay and he's unfairly pretty”
It wasn’t much longer before the group had filed out, done with the celebration, Virgil given him a nudge as he left. He walked in, seeing Dmitri finally pulling out his shirt, and Roman couldn’t help but turn away with a bit of shyness hitting him again.
“what's up Roman? You good babe?”
“mhm! You just um,”
His mouth felt dry as salt and he was wondering when that happened.
“you look nice…”
“pfft you're a nerd.”
Roman’s mind came up with several scenarios for what could happen as he stood up to kiss him. Of course, all that happened was hands around his waist as Dee leant down to give him an easier time. He still felt fuzzy but ignored it as Dmitri pulled away to put his shirt on, quickly pulling on his leather jacket on afterwards before placing a kiss on Roman’s temple and grabbing his hand.
“come on, I'm stealing you, my folks are treating the team to ice cream and pizza and they’ve been wanting to meet you.”
“wh-what? Wait you talk about me with your parents?”
“Remy sold me out day one, but yeah, they seem genuinely interested in meeting you, so I mean why not?”
“oh. Ok then. I should probably tell my dads first, but I’ll be back!”
He ran up to Logan, wrapping him in a hug before explaining everything to him and Patton. Logan looked unsure but Patton backed him up.
“Lolo, Virgil's going to be there too, and it’s not like he's going to be stranded! Plus, there's a new diner that opened a bit ago that I've been wanting to take you to!”
“…ok. You have your keys and your wallet and your phone, right?”
“yes dad!”
“…ok then. Go have fun. Let me or pat know when you are coming home.”
“ok! See you guys tonight! Love you!!!”
 The party was far more calm than Roman had expected, most of the team dipping early on leaving just him and Virgil as guests. Neither could complain, they had free access to an abundance of pizza and ice cream, and they could spend uninterrupted time with the objects of their affections. Virgil and Remy had absconded upstairs playing games or something while Roman was sitting next to Dmitri and his parents.
“how long have you been dating now?”
“um, 2 weeks!”
“wow! And you two are already attached by the hip huh?”
Roman nodded as his cheeks burned. He felt his boyfriends arm snake around his waist, pulling him closer.
“oh, you two are adorable! We’ll leave you be, don’t have too much fun with him kiddo!”
Roman visibly relaxed as they left, leaning against his boyfriend and letting out a sigh. Dmitri moved his arm up, running his fingers through his hair, grinning at the purr like noise Roman made in response.
“you should stay the night”
“my dad wouldn’t let me do that unless-”
Virgil stormed down the stairs with a lovesick expression.
“Roman we’re staying the night!”
“oh! Does dad-”
“yeah don’t worry its fine they're chill!”
“what happened?”
“I-”
“BOY YOU BETTER GET BACK UP HERE AND KISS ME I'M HAVING KISS WITHDRAWL”
“let’s say me and Remy are a thing now? Gotta go!”
“…about what I was saying…”
“isn't that the best timing huh?”
“oh hush!”
“wanna head to bed? It is pretty late.”
“um, sure. But I wanted to cuddle some more…”
“who said I was gonna stop cuddling you nerd?”
“I? um uh”
“you can share a bed without it being sexual I hope you know.”
“oh! Oh yeah I totally, yeah duh, of course”
“come on babe”
Roman frowned at him rolling his eyes but followed him upstairs. He had walked into his room and grabbed some clothing before filing into the bathroom. When he came back, Roman had to confronts his gay again, as he was shirtless once again and he was talking to him and he's got to focus dammit!
“-so that’s why, also I have various pajamas in there, and I also have shirts that are probably way to big for you in there as well, take your pick.”
“oh um, I was just gonna sleep in this!”
“…yeah no. those jeans are way too form fitting to get away with sleeping in, and your shirt does not look nearly comfortable enough.”
“o-okay then I guess…”
He grabbed a pair of sleep shorts and one of his shirts and headed into the bathroom. When he came back, he immediately launched himself into his boyfriends’ arms. Dmitri giggled seeing the shirt choice, placing a quick kiss on his nose.
“nah you're a sarcastic butterfly”
“shhhhh I'm a sarcastic mothhhh”
“keep tellin yourself that precious”
Roman sputters a bit before giving up and hiding his face in Dee’s chest. Dmitri goes back to playing with Roman’s hair, and Roman leans into the touch. After a bit of time passes, he stops, and nudges Roman fully into bed.
“why’d you stop?”
“because that’s not a comfortable sleep position. Lay down prep, sleep is important.”
“but I don’t want to sleep, I want kisses”
Dmitri rolls his eyes and kisses Roman. By the time he pulls away, Roman has passed out. He laughs quietly and wraps his arms around the smaller boy, letting himself drift off as well.
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do not reblog
finally making the post for mobile. let me know if the cut doesn’t work
Rules--
Before we interact you must…
have a properly displayed muse
have easily accessible posted information regarding your muse in a section or page
have easily accessible posted rules / guidelines in a section or page
for AU’s, you must have posted information regarding your muse within the fandom universe in its own section or page
make sure I am following you
cut threads
I Won’t
roleplay sex, generally. there may be a few exceptions, but keep the standard that i probably won’t. sexual content, perhaps, if all muns involved are over 18.
tolerate any sexual advances toward myself ooc
roleplay inserts
always follow back, nor will I follow personals
tolerate pressuring, be it to rp in general or consistent pestering to answer threads
answer everything in my inbox. It’s not often I ignore asks, but I won’t answer something if it violates my rules. If I have difficulty answering something, I will privately message senders or make public inquires about anonymous messages.
Please Don’t:
reblog meme asks. I don’t mind this so much, but it keeps things cleaner when they’re moved to a new post.
reblog inbox answers for non starter memes. examples would be mun opinions and the like but extend to headcanons and other writing. violators will be asked to delete the post and may be blocked.
reblog threads you are not a part of. warnings will be given to violating rp blogs, but personals will be instantly blocked.
reblog personal posts, especial images of myself. violators will be instantly blocked.
I am open to
multiple threads
duplicates of other muses (i do not rp duplicates of my own muse, but I usually have other muses in the fandom which I will be more than happy to interact with there, no twins etc)
shipping, though I will be highly selective, possibly exclusive. I will not instant ship, but I don’t mind developing our muses’ relationship privately over DMs.
mutli verse and/or polyshipping as befits all the muses and muns involved
rping toxic relationships of any sort
angst and/or triggering threads, though I would prefer to discuss  the thread and tagging beforehand
crack threads
select AUs
ask/tagged initiated threads/starters but I ask for some warning if they are not from a meme or other prompt
responses of any length, so long as it is enough to reasonably work with for the pace of our thread
group threads
generally questionable plots. regardless of whether or not I approve of such practices ooc isn’t usually relevant. this is fictional, exploration of an idea– not a real-world execution of that idea. Feel free to DM for details.  
Please Also Note:
I do not require length to be matched and may not always match partner’s length. I will respond as much as I feel I am able to or that I feel is necessary.
If my response is inadequate, difficult to respond to, or otherwise distasteful, FEEL FREE to ask me to redo my response.
Understand that my selectivity will depend on my comfort level and that I am not obligated to explain myself.
I tag all my threads as “thread”
I tag my partner’s url
if partner’s url changes, I will tag both old and new urls for the first response then only the new url going forward.
I generally tag triggers as “trigger tw”. same with general cw’s. i’m not the best with tagging, so let me know if I should watch for stuff in particular
my activity is generally a joke, but I’m constantly lurking, so feel free to drop a message
I am incredibly anxious. It doesn’t matter if we have late night conversations for like a month straight i will still be afraid to talk to you every. single. time. so always feel free to come whack me on the head or smth
while I can be very laid back / crack-ish, I do prefer to explore darker themes and my thread responses are much more serious than I come off as.
Blacklisted / Ask to Tag:
nsfw (for general safe scrolling)
“little space” related
“daddy,” “mommy,” etc
a/o/b related
pregnancy related
vivid depiction of sensory / memory alteration (particularly in images, but not excluded to)
unreality (also especially, but not limited to, images)
Of course I can’t require people tag these, but I will most likely not follow you if your post these regularly and do not have some warning which will be picked up by blacklist applications.
In regards to the sensory alteration, I mean things like seeing/hearing/etc things that aren’t there, mis-remembering or outright tampering with memory, etc. It’s kind of situation to situation on what gets me, but when it does it tends to hit me pretty hard. If you have any questions about it, fire away! [ example text post ]
On unreality, this somewhat relates to the above, I use this as a catch all phrase for images, vivid descriptions, and most especially videos/gifs of things that basically don’t behave or seem to behave as they should. Sometimes, I’ve seen these things tagged as “trippy” and the like, but they those posts tend to be too…idk how to put it. Extra? What tends to get me is when things are going fairly linear and then suddenly go for a loop. That’s not the greatest description, but here’s a few posts that have triggered me the worst that I’ve slowly gotten used to.  There are also things which should seem fine or normal but aren’t. If anyone has a better description for this, by all means let me know! example posts [ one ] / [ two ] /  [ three ] + a weird image that also gets me for some reason. hmvent is actually a blog I use to store things that trigger me so I can slowly get used to them or try and figure out what it is / why these things get to me.
ABOUT MUN 
basics
Name: Jade/Cova Age: 19 Birthday: April 1st (no joke) Height: 4ft 8in Residence: California Timezone: GMT -8
identity
Pronouns: he/him (rarely, she/her) Gender: genderfluid Romantic Attraction: panromantic, polyamorous Sexual Attraction: fraysexual, aegosexuality Ethnicity: Filipino-Italian
personality
MBTI: ENTP Horoscope: Aries Sun, Capricorn Moon, Scorpio Rising Alignment: Chaotic Neutral HP Houses: Slytherin Ennegram: 3w4 Force Alignment: Sith
A few other things to note;
I have very little time to access a desktop but can access most things through the tumblr app, mobile site or mobile version of the desktop site.
I am, at any given time, at least working 1 full time job and 1 part time job but I have gone up to as many as 2 full time, 2 part time and one as-needed jobs at once. That being said, my responses / activity may be slow.
on my main fandom blogs, I tend to make a lot of original shitposts / ooc posts.
I am usually quite willing to give out my PM apps and such (Discord, LINE, SnapChat, etc) but do not roleplay on them.
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Tagged by the amazing @habenaria-radiata​! I dunno why it wouldn’t let you properly tag me, but I still got this, thanks! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
I’m gonna tag @lunalove25​ and @electric-vanoogaloo specifically, and in general anyone else who wants to do it!
List 10 of your favorite ships, in no particular order. Don’t cheat by scrolling down to see the questions yet, either!
Hibiki Kuze/Yamato Hotsuin
Akira Kurusu/Goro Akechi
Laurent/Damen
Misaki Yata/Saruhiko Fushimi
Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy
Marinette Dupain-Cheng/Adrien Agreste
Tony Stark/Loki
Daisuke Niwa/Satoshi Hiwatari
Jack Frost/Pitch Black(or Kozmotis Pitchiner)
Makoto Sako/Fumi Kanno/Otome Yanagina
Questions below the cut.
All questions for copy+paste:
Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?
Have you ever read a fanfic about 2?
Has a picture of 4 ever been your screensaver/profile picture/tumblr screensaver?
If 7 were to suddenly break up today, what would your reaction be?
Why is 1 so important?
Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?
Out of all the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?
Out of all your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond?
How many times have you read/played/watched 10′s fandom?
Which ship has lasted the longest?
How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up?
If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?
Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?
Is 4 still together?
Is 10 canon?
If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?
Has anyone ever tried to sabotage 5′s ship?
Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?
Do you spend hours a day going through 3′s tumblr page?
If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all forever, which ship would you sink?
My answers:
1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?
I’m pretty sure that I started shipping Marinette and Adrien the first scene they were actually together in. And just shipped them harder in each scene after, including all the ridiculous superhero/civilian mixup-mashups lol
2. Have you ever read a fanfic about 2?
Uhhhhhh......would these be my fav ships if I didn’t read fic of them? Either way, I’ve trawled through the Akira/Goro tag so many times that I’m actually caught up with all the completed works for them on a daily basis.
3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screensaver/profile picture/tumblr screensaver?
Not by themselves, but in a group photo, I guess? I had the whole K Project main cast as my computer background for a bit. I did look for a phone background of them a while ago, but I couldn’t find any I liked enough.
4. If 7 were to suddenly break up today, what would your reaction be?
If Tony and Loki broke up then I’d be mildly worried about the fallout on their mental and physical healths, but overall I wouldn’t be super surprised on average.
5. Why is 1 so important?
Honestly I just relate to both Hibiki and Yamato so much, and also I’m a sucker for the dynamic that they set up. Also I wanna break Yamato in the most delicious ways thank you so much radiata for letting me indulge in that through your fics
6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?
I mean, it’s literally a funny/serious ship. Jack brings the fun, but Pitch brings stability and seriousness when it’s needed.
7. Out of all the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?
Well, speaking literal canon, Laurent/Damen is the only actual canon ship so I guess by default they win, But damn if Hibiki/Yamato, Harry/Draco, and Akira/Goro can’t give them a run for their money in innuendo and implied chemistry.
8. Out of all your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond?
They’re all based on growing through hardship and learning to trust each other and deep loyalty due to those so uh all of them? Like half of them were willing to die for their partners and the other half worked (or is working or will work or whatever) extremely hard to make it work so...
9. How many times have you read/played/watched 10′s fandom?
Oh god that’s Devil Survivor 2. I think by this time I’ve logged like 60 bazillion hours into DeSu2. I’ve replayed the game so many times I can recognize when people use actual lines from the game, or slight modifications of lines. I can get the true ending effortlessly. I’ve played both the original and remake, watched the anime, and read fic for it (and nearly started writing my own before realizing I had no plot beyond yay ships). In short: too many goddamn times.
10. Which ship has lasted the longest?
I don’t know if this is asking which has canonically lasted longest or which has lasted longest for me, so I’m gonna answer both. Laurent/Damen is the only currently canon pair, so they win canon lasted longest. Either Harry/Draco or Daisuke/Satoshi were my first real ship, so they’re my personal longest lasting.
11. How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up?
Well, Mari and Adrien haven’t gotten together yet, but I’d like to believe that they wouldn’t quit for anything. The only thing I can see them fracturing over is if they get together before the reveal so they’re hiding Lady and Chat from each other. As soon as that’s cleared up though, they’ll be strong again.
12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?
Ooooooohhhhhhhh that’s certainly a choice. I honestly don’t know. Akira and Goro certainly are skilled and resourceful, but I don’t know how they stack up against Sato and Dai. Satoshi is literally a genius and has skills to back it up, but his stamina ain’t shit. And Daisuke has the skills and smarts to survive, but he puts himself in danger way to often to bet on. Meanwhile Akira and Goro are always fighting smart and using the most out of all their resources, as well as both being super smart and highly skilled. And this is ignoring all the canon extra shit they come with, cause that just muddies the playing field more. I honestly don’t know.
13. Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?
I feel like Tony and Loki would hide their relationship from the Avengers as long as possible just to avoid having to deal with the drama lol
14. Is 4 still together?
Again, the didn’t technically get together in canon, but damn if they ever let each other go again once they do get together (which is also p much inevitable imo
15. Is 10 canon?
It is if you assume Hibiki was just too focused on saving the world to notice and the others didn’t feel like blatantly informing him. I can’t see why Makoto or Otome would tell him, and Fumi just straight up wouldn’t care if he knew or not.
16. If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?
Okay so on an equalizing field of no supernatural or superhuman powers of any kind, probably not Mari and Adrien. Look I love battle couples and I have no idea who would win. I’m gonna say Laurent and Damen literally only because they’re actual adults and not baby adults or near adults and they didn’t have any powers to begin with so that’s all them babe, no boosts needed.
17. Has anyone ever tried to sabotage 5′s ship?
If Harry and Draco ever actually got their heads out of their asses and realized being obsessed with each other really was quite gay, everyone and their dogs would probs be trying to get in their way.
18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?
All of them on my own time with no one making me, but I refuse to do it on command in order to prove anything.
19. Do you spend hours a day going through 3′s tumblr page?
Oh my god look if Laurent or Damen had a tumblr I would absolutely spend years on it, but alas, the closest I can get is modern day fics that include social media
20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all forever, which ship would you sink?
I’m fairly sure that all of them would end with someone dying or otherwise messy circumstances such as world war or smth other than like, Mari and Adrien cause they’re sweethearts who couldn’t hurt a fly and they’re responsible and crap. And cause they would also make very good friends even if they couldn’t be together.
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if you have the time, all of the hayley kiyoko ask meme? 👀👀👀 if not, just pick your favorites to answer
sleepover: have you ever liked a friend as more than a friend? did you tell them? if it was in the past, do you wish that you told them?
yeah but the only time it’s really lasted was in 8th grade i told them and we dated for a few weeks but they broke up w me i dont really regret it or anything 
curious: do you drink? what’s your favourite drink? what drink isn’t your thing?
ive only had alcohol around my mom and my aunt so i dont really drink
girls like girls: what’s your sexuality? how did you discover it? or have you just always known?
l e s b i a n
i realized i wasnt straight in 7th grade when all my other friends started to come out and i went through like a million labels before realizing i was a lesbian last summer
feelings: how do you think others perceive you? how do you perceive yourself?
annoying bitch? idk i have no concept of how others perceive me lmao  
gravel to tempo: have you come out to anyone? if yes, who was the first person you told? if no, do you want to? who would you tell first?
yeah im out to everyone i was never really in the closet except for with my dad
pretty girl: who was the most recent crush you had? do you still like them? did you tell them/do you want to tell them?
i have a lil crush on this girl in my friend group but she’s got a boyfriend n im not like in love w her so it’s fine i’ll prolly not tell her about it
what i need: who are your favourite gay artists? what are your favourite gay songs?
hayley kiyoko n janelle monae,,,,, i can’t choose a favorite song though
ease my mind: what makes you feel at peace? what is your perfect future like? what do you do at the end of a long day to unwind?
idk i like to work out sometimes i feel good after that or like doin witchy stuff? my perfect future is idk bc i have no idea what i wanna do w my life i just hope future me has a wife and is happy n at the end of a long day ill just sit aimlessly on my phone and scroll thru tumblr or read fic or smth 
let it be: who was your worst heartbreak? have you ever been in love? do you even believe in love?
this person i thought i liked in freshman year was prolly my worst but that’s a whole other story so no ive never been in love and idk if i believe in it but i want to
cliff’s edge: what’s on your bucket list? where would like to travel? what makes your heart race?
i dont really have a bucket list but i love traveling i think i wanna go back to the Caribbean i just got back from a service trip in the dominican republic and it was gorgeous
he’ll never love you: were you ever in denial about your sexuality? were you ever in denial of a crush? do you like to talk about your crushes to your friends?
idk it was a long process for me to figure out but i dont think i was ever in denial about it and i dont really get strong crushes very often so no and sometimes we’ll talk about it but not often
wanna be missed: how dependent or independent are you in a relationship? do you like a lot of space, or a lot of intimacy? how do you feel about electronic (vs face to face) communication?
havent really had a real relationship yet so idk and i like intimacy and space so i guess it depends on the day and i prefer face to face bc my last gf and i could hold a coversation over text but irl we could not speak like people to each other and it was really awkward
under the blue/take me in: are you happy where you are right now? if you could change one thing about your life, what would it be? what’s your favourite aspect of yourself?
idk im just chillin i wish i could connect with people like a human being and i like that i try to be a good person
palace: who is your favourite memory? what’s your favourite story with/about them? why don’t you two speak anymore?
lmao i aint doing this one sorry anon
mercy/gatekeeper: what was a difficult time in your life? what did you do/what are you doing to get through it? who has been the most helpful?
ummm my dad’s remarriage a few years ago im in counseling and i moved in w my mom full time and my mom has probably been the most helpful
molecules: have you ever lost anyone close to you? if yes, how did it feel at the time and how does it feel now to talk about them? do you fear death?
no but my aunt has ovarian cancer and she’s been fighting it for the last 3 years and im really scared she’s gonna die and yea death is fucking terrifying
one bad night: do you like casual or serious relationships? have you ever done anything illegal, wrong, or stupid for the sake of love?
i want a serious relationship and nope not really
palm dreams: do you like parties or quiet nights in? would you want to/did you stay in your hometown after moving out? what’s your ideal saturday night like?
already answered!
thanks anon!
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hey darling! my day’s going well but it’s a little bit of a bore. i just finished writing a request but other than that, i’m just scrolling through socmed in bed. that happens tho! like maybe u revised the right parts that’s why you did well. in any case, good luck and you’ll do great no matter the result <3
we didn’t decide yet, honey. i’ll leave that in your able hands. just say the date and i’ll be there. ooh wedding dresses... i haven’t really thought much about it but i do like the ethereal looking ones with long trails. maybe like this? and this is nice too...
my thoughts? kazuha pretty 🥰 i don’t think i’ll pull for him because i’m saving for albedo and ayaka. i’m not even sure how to put him in my team in the scenario i pull for him and won. lmk if u do end up pulling for him!
you don’t need to do that for me lmaoo it’s fine! you can send the link to the vid you want me to see or if you had it downloaded, you can go to your browser and visit my tumblr there and submit a post (for my page that’s ‘and that’s the coffee, sis’). it’s important you’re not logged in in that browser. they’ll ask for a name and email which you can just fill up with anything. << you have to go through all this stuff bc you can send media in anon and there’s no anon submit in mobile smh
gotta love them guitarist boys who are rough against your skin 😌 they’re tasty and i can’t help it sigh. feel free to request both. it’s not my loss seeing as yknow hehe kaeya and childe.
yea sure i’m down! there’s not much to do while i’m stuck in my room anw. i probs should make a separate tag for it. hang on for a second while i try to conjure smth witty.
i freaking snorted— in case you do end up to be a kaeya kinnie, i’m so sorry for you but it’s ok. i’ll love you regardless. /j and please,, not that cat emoji 😭
ooooooh baker au 👀 hmmmm ok wait. it’s coming. it’s coming.
i see a struggling college student childe who knows how to bake because his mother has a sweet tooth. he stumbles into this barely noticeable bakery that had zero customers. zhongli’s the owner but he unfortunately can’t bake and his ex-baker left to pursue culinary school. now, business is suffering. they strike up a deal and childe becomes a part-time baker. over time, business becomes lively again and they hire a stoic but gentle barista, diluc and his eccentric brother kaeya sometimes pops by with a bunch of customers in tow, obviously allured by his beauty.
and then there’s you, another struggling college student who is frowned upon by the gods because out of nowhere a strong thunderstorm falls and you’re forced to seek shelter in the corner bakery store you’ve never been into looking like a hydrated seaweed. just your luck, the baker is hot and he’s smiling at you before noticing your shivers so he promptly offers his jacket. you return the next day, and the next, striking up odd conversations with the cute, lively ginger head who always seems to glow brighter at the sight of your entrance. he knows your favorite table and makes sure no one’s sitting there around the time he knew you’d drop by. he’s had your favorite drink memorized, pointedly telling diluc to make sure your drink is perfect and he always sneaks in an extra slice of your favorite bread before he finally gets the courage to ask you out through a hastily written note on a tissue paper that reads ‘i’m a stud muffin. why don’t you take a bite?’ you laugh at the sheer cheesiness and childe blushes because he swears that’s the most beautiful sound he’s heard but also because you’re writing something back. you leave with a shy smile and a wave and childe almost stumbles over his feet to go to your table and he can’t help the boyish smile and the excited hop in his steps as he recounts the words you wrote back: ‘take me to your bakery because i want a cutiepie like you <3’
pst. hallmark hmu. i’m writing the cringe romantic stories you want
and no matter what, don’t think about childe, alone at closing time, breathing heavy as he kneads the dough for tomorrow, flour covering his arms before smirking in pride, as he wipes a stray bead of sweat that fell to his brows, one hand on the counter carrying his weight all this time.
sigh, i’d love childe even if his hair burns off bc that’s what true love is.
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What is executive dysfunction?
hey so here’s @autism-asks​ ‘s definition of it bc they word it better than me:
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Executive Dysfunction
A disruption to the executive functions which are a group of cognitive processes that regulate, control, and manage other cognitive processes. Executive function includes (but is not limited to) the following functions:
Abstract thinking
Attention
Cognitive flexibility
Decision making
Emotional regulation
Initiating and inhibiting context-specific behavior
Initiation of action
Monitoring internal and external stimuli
Moral reasoning
Planning
Problem solving
Rule acquisition
Selecting relevant sensory information
Self-control
Sequencing
Working memory
Any of these functions can be affected by executive dysfunction, though most people will only be affected in some areas. Executive dysfunction can have wide reaching effects on day to day functioning and is common for autistic people, though it can also be an aspect of depression, anxiety, brain injuries, and more. For more information, check out this post.
Some ways that it can manifest in a person:
Difficulty in planning and initiation (getting started)
Difficulty processing, storing, and/or retrieving information
Difficulty with abstract concepts (the inability to make the leap from the symbolic to the real world)
Difficulty with completing tasks
Difficulty with verbal fluencyInability to apply consequences from past actions
Inability to multitask
Loss of interest in activities
Loss of fine motor skills like grabbing something with your thumb and forefinger more than gross motor skills like running and jumping
Moody or “roller coaster” emotions
Socially inappropriate behavior
Trouble planning for the future
Unawareness that behavior is a problem
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Some people see others with exec dysfunction as lazy, but we’re anything but. We have to work extra hard to do the same stuff as other ppl (including things we like to do!!) bc our brains are holding us back.
a description of exec dyfunction by @inkskinned:
anyone else get a fuzzy-restless feeling when you need to do something but your brain won’t focus on anything and you’re silently begging yourself to just do one thing but instead you’re scrolling tumblr even though you don’t even want to be … it’s like your head is filled with heavy electric cotton like you’re both uncomfy and unable to stop
so yeah…it’s not fun. This post really goes into the differences between laziness, executive dysfunction, and anhedonia. I really suggest reading it.
(More executive dysfunction posts here )
One way that executive dysfunction manifests itself in my life is by making it almost impossible to do some tasks. I really want to make a daily schedule bc I know it will make my life so much better and me happier (hello, autism!) but actually making a schedule?? Nope, can’t do it.
I ask my mom for help in making one and she tells me, “just write down all the things you have to do and then I’ll help you make it into a schedule”. That’s the thing, mom. I gotta make a list first. I need help doing that. It’s almost impossible to actually sit myself down and say, “ok I’m gonna make a schedule right now. Here are the things I need to do, here is when I’m going to do them and for how long..” I feel like a little kid needing her mom to sit with her and guide her through all her tasks but to be honest? I actually need that help bc my brain sure as heck isn’t helping me in that area. I need outside help to do that kind of stuff.
Tbh I’m acutally surprised I’m answering this ask so quickly. I guess it’s due to the fact that I’m just defining smth and giving examples. That’s easier to do. Idk if it’s exec dysfun or the AutismTM, tho. But yeah, I hope that was clear for you. If you want more examples, you can check out the executive dysfunction tag
thanks for sending this ask!
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