#i started reading it and then June 2021 hit and then I just got really sad and stopped 😭

[dodgebolts]

I'm 12 pages deep into this paper, its nuts. Also worldcat and jstor have a bunch of journals.

YAAAA I love jstor it’s my best friend like I found a book on queerbaiting on there that I downloaded freshman year for a paper that’s still sitting on my computer to be read 😭

[personasintro]

I started reading Mh two summers ago I think around June/ September of 2021 I honestly couldn’t keep my attention away. I was reading it every moment I got. I’m so proud of you Mimi for achieving what you have, but to realize the bash you’re getting is honestly sad. You’re the last person who deserves that. I remember there was this one chapter of mh I had to wait like so many months for and I remember the excitement I felt in that moment when you reposted was honestly such a great feeling like I was genuinely happy. I tried looking for books that would be nearly as similar as mh but I couldn’t find anything like it didn’t hit the mark like your book did. Whenever I read mh i feel so many emotion s like I I feel like I’m living through that book. Every little moment of happiness or sadness i feel that. That’s what I love about you. Your book made me feel like home. Like I could read any chapter whenever I’m feeling down and I know I’ll be in a better mood later on. The way that it varies. I don’t like that now all the people want in each chap is smut like yeah it’s great but sometimes the little moment we see in between them are so fun to read. Each interaction between tae and y/n or anything of that sort just brings so much happiness. Like I feel like I want to be part of that group of friends. I love your books Mimi. Keep going you’re doing amazing. ( i feel like I’m talking like a granny trying to revive her old memories )

Wasn’t the biggest wait for MH chapter like 2-3 months? And that was purely because I was out of the country for 2 months without my laptop 🥲 and I still wrote many MH drabbles during my stay to make it up to everyone. Sometimes it really does sound awful when ppl say they have to wait for a month or two (which is not even that much in this writing world) and some don’t see what got created instead or the reason why it takes that time. It just feels very tiring trying to justify it each time 🥲

But anyway that’s not what this message should be about. Thank you so much for loving this story! It still feels very unreal that my story can evoke such feelings in people. I still can’t believe it so every time I get a message or comment like this I’m like 😵. I swear! I don’t think I’ll ever get used to it.

Thank you for showing me some love and support! 🩵🫶

[fairygodpiggy]

As winter's wilds send us fleeing for shelter,

My thoughts turn toward the kiss of Costa's sun.

I think of Westerly winds and sandy shores,

And I know that, soon, the dawn will come.

Ride again, early June.

Q: What is this??

A: Well, this is the first time I've been back on tumblr while this event has been held!

This is a teaser promo for Ride the Tide 2024!

Q: What is Ride the Tide?

A: RTT is a virtual summer/beach festival that is put on in XIV in Costa del Sol. It's planned, sponsored, and held by a XIV discord community I helped to found, The Aetheryte Plaza.

We gather RP venues from all over the NA data centers and together, we run various booths for games, refreshments, and hangouts - including a main stage where well known bards will play to get you into the festival mood!

We try to hold it well out of range of the game's official Moonfire Faire, but before Pride events really start kicking off so we don't detract from them.

This will be Aetheryte Plaza's 5th year hosting the festival, and my 4th year helping with its planning!

Q: What caused AP to start hosting a summer festival?

A: The festival was first conceived by a couple of good friends of mine in 2020, just after shutdowns really started happening. And since vacation plans were out the window for a lot of people, they decided to create a virtual festival...and it was a WILD success.

I was only attending as a venue worker for one of the booths, but I got to see it all at the forefront:

We hit the zone cap!

We got the S rank to spawn in the middle of it!

We had mentors mad at us because they couldn't get their little sprouts through Titan, meanwhile said sprouts were running around with stars in their eyes because it was a FESTIVAL and this was the most players they'd seen outside of the main cities!!

People were posting all their screenshots of their WoLs hanging out together!

It was so cool to see how many people came because...in the middle of the pandemic when we couldn't physically leave, we all needed this.

Q: Is this strictly an RP event?

A: Well...the short answer is no, it's RP-lite.

The long answer is: originally it was going to be during its 1st year, but because of its nature, we got a mixed bag of RPers, casual players, streamers, and people who were just there to vibe...so RP kinda got tossed to the side unless we encountered fellow RPers.

If you're an RPer and you want to RP with the people working the booths, go for it!! They'll happily RP with those who want to.

Q: What's your role in planning?

A: If you've come this far, dear reader, I thank you because if you came here because of the image at the top of this post...then you have half of your answer!

I'm in charge of the media aspect - making teasers and posters, etc ❤️

I'm also in charge of the RTT website and the festival's interactive map. That was my addition when I joined the planning team in 2021. No more need to guess where booths are and what they offer!

However, this...is going to be my last year being on the planning team only because I stress myself way out in the late phases of the event planning, and my best friends are putting their feet down 😅

Thank you again if you read through all of this. If this has piqued anyone's interest, then keep up with me! I'll be including tumblr this year as I share RTT posters in a few months!

[lurkingshan]

Inspired by @waitmyturtles and @nieves-de-sugui, sharing my journey through BL! Putting this under a read more because I really found a lot of words on this topic. Feel free to skim at will - now that you got me going I have a lot to say!

First, a bit of background. Three big interests of mine really converged to make BL kind of a perfect storm for me:

Romance: I have been an avid consumer of romance stories as far as back as I can remember. When I was a kid I would read several books a week and before I even hit my tween years I always gravitated to the romance genre. Add in film and television and it's safe to say I haven't gone a week of my life without consuming some form of a story about two people falling in love. It is absolutely my shit.

Asian dramas: More recent but no less intense an obsession for me. I watched my first kdrama in 2019 - my favorite gossip blogger (shoutout to Lainey) was constantly posting about a drama on Netflix (It's Okay Not to Be Okay). So I decided to try it out and I instantly fell in love. Kdramas are written nearly exclusively by women, they respect romance as a genre, and they cater to female audiences. It was unlike anything I ever experienced watching Western media. I started watching them more frequently, then when the pandemic hit I found myself with a ton of time at home and a fun new focus issue, and watching dramas with subtitles was a huge help.

Fandom: Since I was a teen I was always kind of hopping in and around internet fandom. When I like something, I like to enjoy it with others and find community around shared interests. And when I'm frustrated with media, I really like to dig into that and explore ways to fix it, so I became an avid fanfic reader, as well. Fandom to fandom my level of involvement varied - sometimes I just lurk around fandom spaces, sometimes I actually develop a presence, and in one instance I even got deeply involved in a fandom community to the point where I was posting meta, writing fic, and leading fan activities.

ANYWAY, after that long preamble, I come to the point: Because I was so into kdramas, and had watched/read a lot of Western QL romances, when I saw Where Your Eyes Linger pop up on my Viki recommendations I clicked on it. I liked it, and immediately wanted to understand more about it, because it was the first kdrama I had ever seen with a same sex pairing, and the format was so different. So I did a bit of research, and that was the first time I ever heard of BL. I was a little mind blown - there's a whole genre of QL romances in Asia??? So of course I set out to find more. I did a general search and the first thing I found was 2gether. This was June of 2021, so it was already about a year following the initial frenzy of that show, but it was still hugely popular and there was fan content about it everywhere. So I journeyed to YouTube to watch it, and that was my introduction to Thai BL and the wider genre.

From there I started looking for guidance on what to watch, and because of my time in various fandoms tumblr was always a go-to place where I knew I could find other people watching whatever obscure thing I was into. I found @absolutebl quickly and started reading their history and analysis posts on the genre. That was when it really sunk in for me how much culture and history there was to dig into, and I was really intrigued by the different styles and industries of each country. So I started working my way through their lists of the top 10 BLs from each country and it all just kind of spiraled from there.

I will not go into detail about every show I watched, but a few highlights:

TharnType: This was the first high heat BL I ever saw, and because I came over from kdramas, the first high heat Asian show I had seen, period. This show is messy and the writing was a hilarious hodgepodge of strong character work alongside absurd plotting and what I came to learn was typical Mame problematic content, but the chemistry between the leads was off the charts. It really set the bar for me in that respect, and got me looking for other examples (which at that time were mostly from Taiwan).

Theory of Love: This one inspires mixed opinions in fandom, but for me it was the first time I realized a Thai BL could not only be fun, but also good (no disrespect to other early Thai BLs but... yeah lol). There was a coherent emotional narrative arc! Smart story structure! Believable character development and earned redemption! Good actors! This one set me on a path to find the good stuff.

I Told Sunset About You: Which led me to ITSAY, the drama that convinced me BL could also be high cinema and art. This show blew me way, honestly. And got me more interested in finding the other more cinematic entries in the genre, which I mostly found from Japan.

The Untamed: When I saw this one on the list for China, I was like wait why have I heard of that? The Untamed/Mo Dao Zu Shi is one of those fandoms that is so big and ubiquitous, anyone who spends time online will have heard of it long before they know what it actually is. This show opened up a bunch of new fixations for me - a new all-time fav character, an introduction to cdramas and the xianxia/wuxia genres, and the discovery of Chinese web novels. It's a very expansive universe with a lot going on outside the romance, unlike most BLs. Which I guess can be good or bad, depending on your perspective.

Bad Buddy + Semantic Error: These are the shows I credit for fully sucking me into the BL fandom on tumblr. Before BB aired, I was just kind of lurking about (it’s right there in the handle, fam) checking a few blogs periodically for recommendations and watching shows at my own pace. But BB and then SE caused such a frenzy that I decided to start watching them live and checking tumblr every week for reactions. I found more excellent blogs (like @bengiyo @negrowhat @laowen @liyazaki) that were posting not only BB and SE content but also commentary about other shows. Eventually I gave in and created a new tumblr account so I could actually follow them instead of going to their blogs on web browser like a weirdo, and my participation in fandom escalated predictably from there.

By early 2022 I had pretty much caught up on most of the history of the genre (though not everything - I refuse to watch Waterboyyy, I do have some standards) and developed a fairly solid understanding of the cultural context around it. I then started trying to keep up with new shows. As a cishet, it wasn’t the thrill of representation that drew me into the genre as much as the thrill of finding a genre that brought together so many of my favorite things, combined with the excitement of seeing the community grow and getting the chance to learn so much from the brilliant people who were watching these shows. Checking reactions to airing shows became a weekly habit, and my watchlist kept getting longer and longer. I learned about which platforms I should be watching on and where to direct my $$ to support the genre. And I heard about so many shows I never would have known existed without this community.

So that’s me! If you made it to the end of this post you are a true champion. Thanks for inviting the conversation @waitmyturtles - it was fun to reflect!

[takeariskao3]

Firstly I love your writing so much. I am always anxiously awaiting updates on Already Gone and TPFY. What were you doing when the ideas for those stories popped up in your brain??

You’re amazing and we, as a collective fandom, adore you

omg thank you for being so sweet! my chest is all squishy!

the path from you was an incredibly gradual evolution over the span of about six months... it started in june of 2021 while i was listening to a dermot kennedy song. i was deep in my third dramione era and was lapping up any and all angst i could get my hands on. harry/ginny has always been my number one and i was falling in love with them all over again as they are frequent side characters in some fucking spectacular dramione fics. but they were never center stage. at the time i had read *some* hinny fics but never truly jumped in head first because most of what i came across was fluff and/or oneshots and i'm a multichap/slow burn kind of girl and only a few otp: true hinny fics seemed to scratch the particular itch i have for calamitous decisions resulting in a happy ending. ANYWAYS my friend @dammitgranger encouraged me to be the change i wanted to see in the world and write the damn canon divergent fic i wanted to read so badly. and boy did i ever. i picked all my favorite tropes, gave harry & ginny's some post-war suppression, and now we are here, two years later, with two spin offs, a collection of epilogues, and two sequels in the works.

if the path from you crept up on me slowly, already gone was the exact opposite. it hit me like a mack truck while i was listening to a different dermot kennedy song back in november of 2022. amnesia is like my FAVORITE TROPE (right after bodyguard lol) because we, the reader, get to fall in love with the love interest all over again. and harry potter, love interest is the kind of energy i am trying to carry with me at all times. long story short, for the months leading up to that, i had a bunch of little one shots or vignettes that were basically me trying to figure out how harry and ginny got back together in a *epilogue* compliant timeline. i had no idea if i would ever post them, it was just a writing exercise really, me trying to get to know their characters better.. but then after listening to already gone (the song) it was like *GASP* WHAT IF THEY WERE FLASHBACKS! so the premise of an amnesia timeline and a postwar timeline happening in parallel was born. at the time i also desperately needed a writing outlet that wasn't tpfy because i was stuck on chaps 12-14 and i kept trying to force something that just wasn't working so i said fuck it and i started something new. i absolutely adore already gone, for lots of reasons, but mostly because those two idiots live in my head at all times and i can pretty much sit down and write a chapter in about two days with no stress. i love it when writing is no stress. unlike the other fic *cough cough*

god this got long. i'm so sorry. thanks for the question!

ask me anything!

[psifitopia]

my two cents

So, some discussion of Christianity and homosexuality is going down in the salt and light tag. I'm going to give my thoughts. This post is going to be part confession, part comfort, and part exhortation.

This is a hard subject. There are a lot of personal feelings involved, as will be true, when humans are involved. This is going to be a very personal post. I'm not going to use philosophical language. I'm going to start this with three assertions. This is not an outline of what I'm going to say. I just want these three things in your minds, while you're reading this.

I do believe homosexuality is a sin. 2. Homophobia is a real thing and it, too, is a sin. 3. If we want to obey God, we have to give homosexuals the same unconditional love that we give anyone else. We are all sinners, who have fallen short.

I'm fifty years old and my family, both sides, is from Missouri, a very conservative state. I was raised attending Baptist churches. Homosexuality was almost never discussed...and never with anything approaching Christian love. It's important that you understand that.

I have heard family and friends of the family talk casually about violence towards homosexuals, up to and including talk about murder. Mind you, this was never carried out. (They aren't brainiacs and would have been caught). But the violent rhetoric was still there. And, most of these people were bigoted in other ways, too.

In my late teens/early twenties, I became convinced that homosexuality was not a sin. I saw the bigotry around me and couldn't reconcile that with what I knew, or thought I knew, of God. I honestly thought they were using the Bible to justify their bigotry. And, you know? They still might have been. You can use true things to justify garbage behavior.

Now, this conviction was not entirely other people's fault. Part of it was my own sinful desire to engage in fandoms with slash pairings. It excited me, for various reasons. Also, my dearest friend, one I will always love as a sister, came out as bisexual. I didn't want to believe she was sinning. She had always been a strong Christian and I couldn't imagine her going astray.

I spent twenty-plus years writing m/m slash fiction, including erotica.

Then, I got back into church. I found myself surrounded by loving, Godly people. I started not just reading the Bible, but studying it. I spent time with other Christians in small groups. And, I listened and learned.

One time, an elder of our church told a story about an interaction he had with a homosexual friend of his. The friend asked my elder what he thought of homosexuality and was told, "I love you as a brother, but I think it's wrong."

I can't emphasize enough how that hit me. I can not begin to imagine anyone I grew up around, not parents or grandparents, saying that. I can't imagine any homosexual trusting them enough to even ask. Well, no. I can imagine one person in my family being that kind...my late aunt Kelva. My elder's comment helped plant the seed for my repentance and he has no idea. One day, I'll have to tell him.

In June 2021, I decided to stop writing slash. I had already stopped writing porn and using profanity. I wasn't yet convinced homosexuality is sin, but, well. Here's a link to my post at that time, where I explained myself:

I honestly don't know, why God rejects homosexuality. I can make some decent guesses, but I don't claim to know. I don't need to know. I just trust God and submit to His will. But, here's the thing. If you go through your entire Christian walk and never have a moment where you're like "whoa, God, I don't agree with that" or "um, God, really? That doesn't seem fair" or something of that nature? If getting to know God doesn't challenge you? If everything God commands and says leaves you feeling warm and comfortable? You're probably not worshipping the real, living God. You're probably worshipping an image of God that you've tried to remake in your own image. Your understanding is human and limited. That's why the Bible warns us to not lean on our own understanding.

So, yes, homosexuality is a sin. But, we who know the truth have to be careful how we dispense that truth. We have to give love. No one is going to respond well to violence. No one is going to respond well to having abomination screeched in their faces...and these are all things the homosexual community has faced from a Christian community that sometimes has a bad case of i'm-right-itis. Being correct on a point does not justify any and all behavior and we have to stop pretending that behavior doesn't exist.

Here's the exhortation, put plainly. Homosexuals have to admit that same-sex physical relationships are sin. Submit to God. Is refraining from your body's urges really so much for God to ask from you? He's given you everything, including his life. On the other hand, Christians have to start showing homosexuals love and follow the Bible's commands on how to deal with persistent sinners, which is basically leave them alone. Peter and the other apostles were told to shake the dust off their feet and walk away, if a household wouldn't listen to them. Paul told congregations to send members away. Laws were not passed. Politics didn't enter into it. It's only by showing radical love for God and each other that we can shine as lights. And, I know the internet is fairly tone deaf, though entirely, but c'mon. Read your words before posting them. Would you want someone to talk like that to you, even if you were wrong? Well, then.

Now, for the comfort. This is for anyone in the LGBTQ+ community reading this. I love you. God loves you. Your attraction to other people is temptation, but temptation is not sin. Acting on the temptation is sin. You deserve to be as safe in this world as anyone else. You are just as valuable. I'm a sinner by nature, too. Heaven knows, I need a savior and praise Jesus for his forgiveness and love. Don't take our rejection of your sexuality as rejection of you. You are far more than who you enjoy sleeping with. We want you reconciled to us. We just need it to be on God's terms.

[beshrew-my-very-heart]

Thank you @backslashdelta for tagging me in this! I really enjoyed reading your list of fics, and it's given me a whole bunch to add to my list of fics to read!

Rules: List your "top 10" (or up to 10 if you haven't written that many) fics ranked by kudos on AO3. Are you surprised by what's most popular to your readers? Then, under a cut, provide your ranking of your personal top 10 fics (with explanations if you want!), and then tag a few fellow writers!

Top 10 AO3 fics according to kudos:

The Thorn Between Two Roses (271 kudos) (July 2013)

Gotta Secret, Can you Keep it? (225 kudos) (June 2013)

Clothes Maketh the Man (172 kudos) (October 2020)

The New Kid (155 kudos) (March 2021)

A Story is a Journey (151 kudos) (April 2021)

Glee, Eventually (126 kudos) (October 2020)

Private Show (104 kudos) (February 2021)

Centerfold/Hot in Herre (98 kudos) (March 2021)

Sociological Studies A (94 kudos) (April 2013)

Just One Day (86 kudos) (June 2021)

So, in the breakdown of the top ten above, I also included the vague dates that they were posted on, because when I saw the first two, I started to immediately form a hypothesis that "Oh, these are all going to be fics that I posted whilst Glee was still airing!" And then I was really surprised when I found out that the vast majority are one-shots I posted over the past couple of years!

I think it's interesting what the different ships we have here:

Sam/Kurt: 5

Puck/Kurt: 2

Mike/Kurt: 1

Sam/Kurt(/Jake/Ryder/Marley): 1

Sam/Kurt/Puck: 1

I also love that we've got some pretty wild AUs, and some pretty interesting canon diversions in there too. I was surprised that Just One Day was so low, but the fact that both that and Sociological Studies are at the bottom reflects the fact that they're part of longer series? The Thorn Between Two Roses might be longer than either of them, but then I was posting that at the same time as the show so people were more invested back then.

Top 10 AO3 fics according to me: (Or, a bullet-pointed list in no particular order, because I don't feel good about ranking my own stories, but want to highlight a couple that I wish had got more love.

The Game of Love was all Rained Out and Fate Will Twist the Both of You - A collaborative work I wrote with my writing partner Nubianamy about Sam and Finn meeting at football camp the summer before Glee Club, and the sequel written in epistilory format of letters Finn and Sam send back and forth during that year. There's a third story written that we mean to edit and post some day too, covering the summer between seasons one and two.

Soul Soul Revolution - Although the first story in the series managed to breach the top ten, this is the story that I think I'm most proud of. It's a retelling of Season One of Glee, where Kurt hits his head as he's thrown in the dumpster, and ends up in a Freaky Friday situation with a certain blonde from Tennessee. The story has only grown from there, and I update every fortnight. We're starting to get close to Sectionals, guys!

I'm going to tag @nubianamy, @starkurt, @davesdude80 and anyone else that wants to do this!

[holocene-sims]

next // previous

june 25, 2021 2:00 p.m. newcrest counseling center

[margot] before i forget, i got you a few books…

[grant] oh really?

[margot] i give all my trauma patients books at some point. so here you are. these will get you started. the first one is a really great in-depth look at trauma as a historical and inherited process and it's called "it didn't start with you." and the second one is a new book that was recommended to me.

[margot] i'm so glad you happened to mention that the previous exercise worked for you because that second book is a thirty day challenge. maybe start on it the first of july. every day, open it up and do that day’s exercise. each one is different and targets a lot of various topics. some are pretty heavy, some of them are lighter and more fun. i thought you might appreciate that. it’s also a little bit more regimented, since you seem to like having something specific to work on towards versus doing open-ended work.

[grant] i'm actually really surprised "the body keeps the score" isn’t in here. i hear about that one all the time.

[margot] it is an excellent book, but i don’t think that’s the book for you. you’re welcome to read it on your own time, but i'd recommend you don’t.

[grant] why? just curious.

[margot] it’s a very hard-hitting book. my clients who have read it say they struggle to tackle more than a couple pages at a time. most importantly, the main theme of that book is how trauma makes us sick…

[grant] and i have an incurable autoimmune disease because of trauma.

[margot] exactly.

[grant] you know, getting diagnosed with that was the only reason i came to decide i need professional help for my trauma and mental health issues. if i hadn’t, i would have persevered on without help.

[margot] really? i didn't know that was your big reason why.

[grant] if you want the full explanation, i'll give it to you.

[margot] sure, go ahead.

[grant] i've been physically ill for a long time. i remember getting sick right after my oldest sister died. it just came out of nowhere. i woke up and my whole body was nonfunctional for a few days. i couldn’t even get out of bed. no one knew what was wrong with me, though it’s not like my parents even cared. they thought i was being dramatic.

[grant] and then i stayed sick. i can’t remember the last time my body didn’t hurt. but no one listened because i've always remained able to function in daily life until i obviously injured my back at work. then finally a doctor had to put me through imaging instead of dismissing me.

[grant] and what do you know, they were stunned to see such a severe case of my disease. they told me that people my age with my disease don’t usually have half their spine fused together already. i guess that’s more common when you get older, like middle age and up, but mine was already terrible. it was so bad they made me go see a functional medicine doctor to figure out why. of course it was trauma and inflammation.

[grant] that information didn't make me ecstatic. i've been through the ringer, some of it my fault and some of it not, but i got mad at myself and wondered i could have avoided getting sick if i'd done better and been nicer to myself and my body, or if things had been different in my life.

[margot] precisely why you don’t need that book. you already know that trauma makes you sick. all that book is going to do is make you feel worse. we can’t go back in time and undo the damage. you’ll only further resent that your health was destroyed and resentment is already such a troubling part of trauma.

[margot] there are some great passages or quotes in there, but it’s not worth it. i could easily just give you the good cuts out of it.

[grant] well, thank you so much for these. i really appreciate it. i'll for sure start on the thirty day thing first thing next month. any recommendations for how to do it?

[margot] no, you just answer the prompts or do the exercises however you see fit, and you can do whatever you need to get you thinking or ready to write. the only thing i'd maybe recommend is getting yourself a nice journal to write everything in. my clients said it was a lot more impactful to have something dedicated for it instead of typing it or putting it on a random loose sheet of paper.

[lerya-fanfic]

I posted 120 times in 2022

14 posts created (12%)

106 posts reblogged (88%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@cyborg-franky

@phoenixkaizen

@arielxlazarus

@autpunk-arsonist

@marco--the--phoenix

I tagged 41 of my posts in 2022

#one piece - 14 posts

#fanfiction - 11 posts

#writers of tumblr - 5 posts

#marco the phoenix - 4 posts

#writing - 2 posts

#portgas d. ace - 2 posts

#fanfic - 2 posts

#this - 2 posts

#bleach - 2 posts

#writers - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 37 characters

#i keep thinking someone else wrote it

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Hello. I'm here to ask for your permission to translate A grandfather's gift to keep the family together from One Piece to Portuguese-Brazil, I really liked the story and I wanted other Brazilian fans to read it, I'll give all the credits and if you allow I'll be translating on wattpad with the user of ET-Black.

Hi, I don’t mind. I already have someone who translates to Portuguese but she doesn’t do One Piece, so you can go ahead. Please send me the link after you finished so I can link it in the original. And give propper credit :) Otherwise have fun ^^ 

2 notes - Posted June 9, 2022

#4

~ ONE WANDERING ASK ~

A solitary ask is now in your box!

Do you have any WIPs?

I have a lot of WIPs to be honest. Right now I have 5 WIPs in progress, that are being posted weekly. 7 WIPs that are being written, but aren't finished yet. 6 WIPs that have been written, but aren't published/posted yet. And 37 WIPs that the Plunny dropped on me that I haven't started on yet.

3 notes - Posted September 15, 2022

#3

Can I brag about this?  I’m just going to do it, but I’m almost as 1K user subs on AO3 - and for some reason that feels like a milestone!

4 notes - Posted January 25, 2022

#2

Fic Writer Wrapped - 2021 edition

I was tagged by @theladygia (thanks for that btw!) on main, so I hope they that I do this on my fanfic account xD

How many stories did you complete?

In total? Over 100, but 93 of those are from October challenges, so I don’t think those count xD 

Full lenght, or multi chap ones; 25

What is your total word count for the year?

1.3 Million 

What fandoms did you write in this year?

One Piece, Naruto, Bleach, Harry Potter, MCU, Teen Wolf - I think those are the main ones.

Did you write more, less, or roughly about what you expected?

More, a lot more. I kept getting attacked by my muse and couldn’t just leave well enough alone.

But I enjoyed every moment of it, and am very rpoud of the things I did pyblush this year.

What’s your favorite story of the year?

I can’t believe this is how I fell in love

It’s a sugar daddy/suger baby MarAce fic that just popped up and wouldn’t let me go. I loved writing it, and going from reviews people loved reading it too. 

What is your most underappreciated story of the year?

I don’t know to be honest, I think I’m doing rather well overall. I think my stats are amazing, so I don’t think I have one really.

Biggest fanfic-related disappointment of 2021?

Spelling mistakes, I have this annoying habit of reading over my own mistakes and as such don’t always notice that I left glaring errors in my fics.

People are pointing them out to me, and I go and correct them. I also have someone who is looking over the fics for me, even if I don’t know if I need a beta-reader per se (I just need someone who points them all out).

Biggest fanfic-related surprise of 2021?

The amount of writing I got in, and the suprising easy way I could get them in.

Not to brag or anything, but if I put my mind to it I could get a chapter finished in about an hour. Given that I write at least 2 hours idea, it isn’t that much of a surprise that I can hit 2.5K words a day, on avarage.

Something you look forward to working on in 2022?

My prompts, I want to explore more about what I can do. With they way there are so many prompts lists out there, as well as the option of readers to send some ine I feel like I’ll accomplish a lot this year!

I’m gonna tag… @know-it-all-hermione, @chromiwrites, @phoenixkaizen and @arielxlazarus

6 notes - Posted January 1, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Davy Back Fight!

@phoenixkaizen, @aspiringtrashpanda, and​ Shadow (no tumblr) completed our fic for the @davy-back-fight; which you can read here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/41315799 

 It was really fun to do, especially with such amazing writers! <3

8 notes - Posted August 28, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[mer-birdman]

this is neither here nor there but

GOSH am i so, so glad for the passage of time. on the one hand, it’s terrifying in so many ways, but

2020 was a Bad Year for me. i lost several friends between january and march (my fault, which didn’t mean it didn’t still hurt), and then the pandemic came and hit right in time for my final term of university to be spent stuck at home. there are a lot of people i never got to say goodbye to properly, friends and teachers and coworkers. my capstone, which was going to involve a gallery display on campus, was chopped down to just the online portion. i didn’t have a graduation ceremony. and then in june i had to move back home to live with my dad, because both my jobs were student positions that i couldn’t keep after graduation!

i got really depressed that year. barely drew, stuck up in my room a lot, feeling incredibly isolated and frustrated with myself. im not saying things were entirely bad — there were ups and downs, and some positives to the situation — just that for me, it was a low point.

but late in 2020 things finally started looking up, and then in 2021, i got real work again! temp work, but REAL, enough that i saved up money to apply for my own apartment! i moved out in august and finally had My Own Place to live. i even took my financial independence and took a trip out of state to see a show and meet friends i’d made online over the past year.

and 2022 continued to improve, with an ongoing temp gig that allowed me to do something i’d wanted to do for ages — take myself and others to shows! i saw three concerts and four musicals in 2022, five of which i bought my own tickets to and two of which i bought tix for one of my parents as well, as a gift. because for the first time in my life, i was able to safely DO that. i started trying to learn guitar, i played D&D with my friends, i kept plants alive for the whole year! i read new books for the first time in an embarrassingly long time!

going into 2023, things are even brighter. i have a new job, a permanent one instead of temp, that’s the sort of thing i’ve been wanting to do for most of the past two years. my apartment is starting to really become a home, and i’m hoping to get a couch this year. i’m happier with my art than i’ve been in a while. i put my mom’s solstice cards up on the wall. i’ve already got one concert picked out for this year, with my eye out for more. i’ve got a lot of things i hope to achieve, and it almost feels like i actually can.

nothing is perfect, but it’s so many miles better than where i was in 2020, and i’m just a little amazed by that.

[backslashdelta]

Ao3 wrapped: 3, 7, 11, 20, 29 :)

Thank you so much!!

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

Overall? It Was Only A Kiss. From this year? Echoes of You (my current WIP).

7. If you use song lyrics, which artist’s songs did you pull from the most?

I use song lyrics as titles all the time because I absolutely hate naming fics. I have a bit of a mix but I'd say Marianas Trench is the most common artist that I pull lyrics from. I have Echoes of You, All Too Myself, Shut Up and Kiss Me, Don't Say You Miss Me, and Notes of an Old Mistake. :)

11. What work took you the longest to write?

My current WIP (Echoes of You) which I started posting in June 2021 and still have yet to finish. Oops. I promise I'm trying (and to my credit I have posted at least one update per month pretty much since I started posting it).

20. Which work of yours have you reread the most?

I don't really reread my work actually. Maybe I should, but the past while I haven't been reading much in general, and when I am it's usually not my own stuff. I have reread a few parts of IWOAK here and there though, so maybe that? Never in full though.

29. Favourite line/passage you wrote this year?

Maybe chapter 19 of Echoes of You? Things kind of blow up in that chapter (the chapter is just one scene, so I'm counting the whole thing as a single passage lol) and it's been a long time coming, it's very dialogue heavy and there's a lot of emotion and it's just very juicy you know? I had a lot of it written long before I got that far in the fic just because I was so excited about that conversation/confrontation (I usually write my fics from start to end rather than jumping around).

[mostlymalena]

June 14th 2024 6:12pm

Hello friends and fans and family and foe.

This will be an update about Ava so big ole post. I'll try my best to tell this in an entertaining way. I'll write it like I expereinced it.

I met Ava back in 2021 because her roommate and best friend at the time, Becca, had just begun dating Josh. Yes, Josh as in best friends and roommates AND bandmate of Hugh who was my boyfriend at the time. When I find out Hugh cheated on me I get told that him and Ava are snapchatting a lot and Ava tells me that Hugh wants her and wants to hookup but she rejected him bc she is on my side. Anyways when I was going through the court stuff with Hugh because I posted about what he put me through and he said "hey not fair!", she took their side (this comes back around later I promise) and posted about me on her social media calling me a liar and saying I was never abused blah blah. Good for her for being loyal.

Fast forward to 2023, she see's me at blue post bc of course you would and comes up to me and profusely apologizes for taking their side and that she believed me this whole time and I tell her its chill no big deal and she then post me on her story which ruffles some feathers but I don't really care bc when do I ever.

Anyways, she is dating this girl Paige at the time (still 2023) and Paige's father get's really really sick. When he is close to passing away Ava's father very suddenly dies and it's very very shocking for her and her family. So of course Ava is destroyed and a lot of her friends rally to support her. Now I'm not sure when but close to when her dad died Paige cheats on Ava so we all once again rally for Ava and it's fuck Paige. Paige's father dies during this as well. Lot's of emotions.

During this time me and Ava are getting closer - I bond with her over losing a parent as I have lost my mother. Also to note I never fully attach to Ava bc she is well, she was just always in some kind of tizzy with someone and it seems to never be her fault. I mean something was ALWAYS happening to her.

Near thanksgiving time she tells me and everyone that her mother has committed suicide. Now this is when her and I really bond because I lost Emma 6 months prior to just that and I also lost my mother. So! Her and I grow closer and start hanging out outside of just seeing each other at the bars. No one had any reason to not believe her bc who tf would lie about that!! She also reached out for support several times over her father passing. During thanksgiving she even went home and posted pics of her mom's house and captioned it with stuff like "it looks the exact same since she left". She also got support about the struggle of having to clean her parents house out and how she is avoiding it bc its too hard.

Fast forward to when Grace and I start talking again. Grace and Ava had already been friends before G and I reconnected and Ava had made it clear in more than one way that she was interested in more than friends with Grace. Obvi this was brought up when G and I reconnected but Ava had made SURE to make it clear with me that she knows me and G are together and she would never pursue. Grace also sent Ava a very brute and CLEAR text which I READ MYSELF that she ONLY sees ava as a friend and there will never be anything more than friendship between them. Ava was asking Grace to hang out so much that Grace got a weird feeling and didnt wanna lead ava one or make things unclear. Ava also says that Paige is always hitting her up and showing up to her house and it's just played off as ex girlfriend drama. Wait I have a screenshot I know it

Around this time Ava is also served with a FUCKING RESTRAINING ORDER from Paige. And makes a complete joke about it. Won't show anyone the papers. Now IVE BEEN THROUGH THIS!!! So I fucking tell her what to do, like go to court and provide evidence that you are not stalking her. She does not go to court. So if you don't show up to defend yourself.. the restraining order is automatically granted. Ava "not knowing this" texts Paige on the year anniversary of her father's death and Paige calls the cops on Ava for breaking the restraining order. Ava is ARRESTED and goes to JAIL. She calls Reese (her best friend) to bail her out and Reese gets a bondsman and pays for Ava to get out. We feel bad bc Ava is like "I don't have parents to bail me out"," I don't have parents to teach me how to be an adult". so like duh she is right.

Now court is set for a couple weeks later because Ava has to see if she is going to go to actual jail for a couple months for breaking the restringing order. She hires a lawyer and me, Reese, grace, and a couple other friends go to the court room with her to support her. This happens the DAY AFTER I GET HOME FROM A TEN DAY TRIP IN ITALY. Reminder Grace and I broke up for a solid 5 days before a couple days into my Italy trip. Well Ava helped her fucking self to try and get with Grace while I was in Italy (grace rejected her) but was texting me she missed me while I was gone and was hoping I had a good trip yada yada. So already my hackles were fucking raised. I mean all the while I had a sense that Ava wanted to fuck Grace which I have expressed to Grace before lmao.

Back to all of us sitting in court:

Paige signs a paper from Ava's lawyer dismissing the call and whatever so Ava does not have to go to jail. We all celebrate and Grace post something about Ava on her story. Some girl who is Paige's friend slides up and says "If you knew the whole story you would not be supporting Ava. Ask her about her dead mom".

Now Grace and I don't know what to do with that info but we kinda decide to keep Ava at arm's length for now. She also was just always chaotic and being crazy and what not. She gets fired for picking fights with some girl at her work two days after the court win and I tell her maybe me her and Reese should sit down and make a plan for her life to get her back on track. All she does is smoke weed and get fucked up on the weekends. May 26th 2024 I realize I have not heard from her since the night before. I check her local and it's off and call and text her. No answer. I start freaking out. THEN. I get this TEXT. From a number I dont know and it's green.

So I freak the fuck out. I call Reese and we decide to go to her apartment. The door is unlocked and she isnt home but her cat is. We call the local hospitals admission offices and check if she has been admitted. Nothing.

Ava finally calls Reese and tells us she had bad thoughts and checked herself into the hospital the night before. We are all relieved but also upset she didnt text anyone at all. We tell her about the random number and she loses it and gets so upset. Telling me she is so sorry. Here are some text from that convo:

This random number starts texting Gracie and Ava's other friends terrible things like I wish she had died and shit like that. So we are all reeling from that and worried and shit. Ava and Jo graduate college so we go downtown and celebrate. Ava wears her cap and gown and seems happy.

Fast forward to June 2nd 2024. I get a call from Reese 1 hour before I'm set to pick up Ava for a Pride event at Hi-Wire.

Reese tells me a couple days prior they went to Brunch (her and Ava) to a spot where Ava wanted to go bc she knew a waitress there. Well they eat and another waitress recognizes Ava bc they know or are friends with Paige and tells Ava's waitress that Ava lied about her mom killing herself. From what I remember this waitress straight up asked Ava why people are saying she lied about it and Ava blames it on Paige trying to cause drama and shit.

Well Reese being the smartest bitch on the planet looks into it. Cannot find an obituary for Ava's mom OR dad. What does she find: HER MOTHERS INSTAGRAM. Which has a RECENT POST. AS IN 3 DAYS RECENT. Her mother is very much alive and well and paints and sells antiques. Reese and I lose it. Ethan is with me when I get all this info and me and Ethan look into it bc Reese and now I don't believe her father is dead either. Time is up, so I pick up Ava and pretend all is well and we go to Pride. Ava tells me Reese is mad at her and she thinks it's bc of some drama at her old job blah blah. I keep quiet bc I know lmao.

That night I tell the jester's chat (all my friends) and Adam being a sleuth. FINDS AVA'S DAD. Ava's dad who is also alive and well is using his retirement to be the CEO of a non-profit that builds homes for unhoused people and gets them back on their feet. So I tell Reese all this and Reese and I decide that I'm going to call and confront Ava about it all. So I do. Ava does not answer and her local is off and she wont answer texts for a long time. I get nervous she offed herself again so I do a wellness check on her. She texts me after the cops leave her house and I told her we need to talk ASAP. She calls me. And I record the convo. You can listen below just wait about 20 seconds after you click play and you will hear me say hello.

Anyways. She admits her mother is alive but insist her father is dead. bc of this I decide to post publicly and here is why:

I know Ava very well and she manipulates situations and so I wanted to get ahead of this before she tried to tell people I was a liar and crazy

Ava lied to SO MANY PEOPLE SO MANY. I feel like lies to this degree that led to people giving her money, opening up about their trauma, giving her breaks, need to be exposed.

I have no idea how she would react to this so really I just wanted to make sure Reese and I's story was accurately portrayed which is why this blog post is needed for my sanity.

I posted it on my story and got a slew of DM's of course. I answered everyone's questions and sent my evidence to those who asked.

Reese and I don't want Ava to kill herself bc she goes ghost so I call Ava's mother whose phone number is attached to her insta and record that convo as well. I just tell her mother what has happened and that Ava will need a lot of support right now. She tells me her father is alive and they are still happily married. Ava's mother told me that Claire and Paige called her the day before and that it was not a good convo but thats all the details I got from that bc it was not my place to ask.

After posting I got a call from a girl, who legit 3 years ago copied my heart sleeve as a half sleeve and I told her that wasnt chill and that was legit it. I have not thought of her since then and never spoke about her lmao. Well she has been wanting to reach out to me and apologize for how she handled the situation and ava told her not to reach out to me.

I called her back and she told me more details and also told me about how she told her that she is just my friend bc of my "social status" in wilmy whatever the fuck that means and that she never believed me about the Freedrink/Hugh stuff. AND GET THIS LMAO. Also told me that Ava is OBSESSED WITH MY GIRLFRIEND and was constantly telling her that Grace always asks to hangout and that grace is obsseseedd with her and that Ava is just waiting for us to break up so Ava gets her chance and would constantly talk about me and Paige whenever they hung out. Me and this girl are super chill now.

I called and told Reese this and Reese confirmed that Ava also told her she never believed my Freedrinks stuff and that Ava was constantly talking about Grace and wanting her. Claiming all these people including my fucking girlfriend are obsessed with her (her as in Ava)

I got a bout 104723502358 dms about all the same stuff. Paige figured out Ava was lying and thats why she got a restraining order and so I do want to publicly apologize for being on the wrong side of the court room. That was fucked up and I was wrong. 

Ava's mother also told me that AVA DID NOT GRADUATE COLLEGE LMAO. That she has to take summer classes and maybe some more next semester. SO SHE FAKED GRADUATING COLLEGE.

Ava reactivated her insta recently, blocked me instantly, didnt block MY GIRLFRIEND and posted on her close friends that she added Grace to and said "wilmy is full of lying bitches". So now here it is all laid out. 

The End. 

[threephantomrey]

i’ve got a problem…

so i’m sure by now that at least most of you know i write fanfics, specifically 13 Ghosts fanfics, and have been doing so regularly since 2021. (and that one Dapper Jack fic i wrote last month)

and well, my problem is that im worried that they are actually terrible and that im a bad writer. or that people don’t care about what i write about. part of the reason is because i literally never get reviews on a fic anymore. i used to get more reviews on my stories in 2021, the same year i started writing them regularly. the last review i got was in June on FFN, but i’ve never gotten a comment on a fic on AO3 and i started posting my stuff on there last year. yeah, i’ve gotten a few kudos and hits on my stories, but i always want there to be more. and since i’ve only ever gotten reviews on FFN, i fear that i’ll never get a review again, at least not for a while, since that website is dying now.

and it’s just like, i don’t want to feel like this. and i don’t want this post to make it seem like i’m an attention seeker or that i only write fics just to get kudos and reviews, or that i’m begging for people to read and leave comments on my fics or leave more kudos. i just feel discouraged because of this, like as if no one is actually reading my fics. and sure, i know i don’t tell people about my fics enough, but im worried if i start doing that more, then i come across as annoying. and i don’t want to be annoying, you know?

and i’m also worried that they don’t get the attention that i want them to because people look at them and think they are boring or don’t do the characters or the series justice. and i don’t want people to think that, but i’m worried that’s what they might think. and like, i know there’s not really a big fandom for 13 Ghosts in particular anyways, but idk, something feels wrong here. not to compare myself to other writers or make it seem like i’m envious of them, (though one of the big flaws of my personality is being envious) but i wish i could get similar attention with my fics like them. and i really do hope to inspire someone with my fics one day.

and like, i know that just because my stuff is unpopular doesn’t mean it’s bad, and there are a lot of good fics out there that are unpopular, it’s just i’ve been kinda bothered by this and need to get this off my chest.

[coolnightmarerunaway]

June 7th, 2023

The bullshit he started pulling with Kathleen was after Kathleen got uncomfortable about the situation between Jason and I.. (noticed after reading writings)

I wonder if Brianna was a response to Mike.

Which makes me wonder who was Kim for?

I'm looking at the posts. I'm reading them from the bottom up. Every fucking time we got together after I walked away in June 2022, something happened, every time. He wanted to go on a wicked walk, he made it miserable. he invited himself on my walking trail, he made himself miserable. even sitting having coffee, he made himself miserable. every fucking time.

I walked away on June 1st because he was consistently miserable.

He even tried to destroy Hot August nights.. turns out I had a wicked time at Hot August nights. Chris kept me company at the exciting end.

I believe after that, I just stopped paying attention...

I read in one of these posts, he tried to kiss me in May 2022. I would really like to know how that came about. I don't remember.

From my writings I can confirm on two separate occasions, it seems he hit on me, all hell broke loose. Oct 2021, May 2022, Feb or March 2023, Probably March 🤷‍♀️

I know he came over to my house one night. I can't remember if it was February or March 2023. No writings on it. According to Facebook messages he was trying to argue with me before April 14th. Prior to that he was writing to me after 7:00 when he knew I wouldn't respond. (He heard me telling Kathleen seven and eight was too late for me) Then cry about about not hearing from me the next day.

Relationship discontinued April 24th 2023 after head incident.

I don't know what happened between August and December. Other than what appears to be a bunch of rubbish... I'm going to check notes...

August 10th 2022

He said he should have been downtown for the gay pride parade. I said why. He mentioned topless young women dancing on top of floats. I happen to mention the naked bike ride. He looked over joyous to which I responded, it's not what you think. He responded with something along the lines of he doesn't know why I think he is always something to do with sex 🤷so on and so forth.. I'm the only one he speaks with. I simply sat there squinting at him, like you've got to be f****** kidding me bud. I can only assume this was a show for Jason.

Let me check his last maneuver

Everyday there is something

One day he lied about mustang man talking to him. When in fact mustang man was talking to me.

Another time he used gidget to cut me off in his own stupid conversation..

August 21st 2022

We ran into each other a week later

He said hello.. I looked. Was with Terry 🙂

Written date Sept 5th :

Tuesday - conversation about Don and such

Wednesday 31 - motor vehicle branch & bike rally

Saturday - few minutes of chit chat

(I remember the day of the motor vehicle branch in the bike rally. We got pissed on 😃 I was surprised we went up to the bike rally. Looks like the bike rally was August 31st.

He pretty much, he insisted on taking me to the motor vehicle branch, it was different. (I remember that feeling I got when he behaved in a certain way.. funny how I just felt it with that memory)

October 17 dated

Oct 11 - asking how I feel

October 12 - had conversation at Timmy's

"I don't do anything wrong" -

October 16th - showed up at my house. Stayed till 2:00 a.m.... said he saw Brianna driving her mother's gray SUV about 2 days ago. (Everyone knows her mother has a black SUV) When I mentioned Jason spotted a gray SUV in the driveway the night of the storm, he looked like he did when I took the shot at him about doing no wrong. (Caught/guilty/wrong) He also informed me on Friday which would have been October 14th he had a conversation with his wife about how somebody should move out. I asked what she said and he simply said she agreed. (There was something written after this that implied a potential lie to Jason about Brianna's whereabouts)

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During hurricane Fiona Mike offered me heaters. There was a situation with Ray over this. Ray told me he was keeping an eye on me multiple times. I can't remember the day of hurricane Fiona but I was without power for 12 days. I don't believe I ever saw Ray, really. Even mustang man offered me heaters.

This reminds me of a party I attended. Mike purposely had me sit by him. When Ray showed up Mike looked at Ray and asked him what was wrong. I think that was the night Ray opened the iced tea and I pointed out it was alcohol ... This might have been the night Brian was drunk... Kathleen was at this party she brought the tea. it was in Chris's cooler.

I'm starting to understand why I have no idea what was going on with Ray. I had a friend visiting from out of town, then hurricane Fiona.. 😆

I remember Ray asking me if Terry was my friend from out west. 😃

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I think it said November 26th we went to breakfast and membertou. I think that was the day we got stoned, in the yard. It was way too early. That was the day. I still have the photo. It was raining that day.. Just like the bike rally. I like rain. He is not a fan.

I guess rain makes events more memorable. My father and I always enjoyed the rain.

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December 11th he showed up I was sitting with george. He walked around the back of the cars and came up between the middle of Crystal and Jason's car hopped into Crystal's SUV never said a word or acknowledge the fact that Chris myself and George were present

Showed up at my house at approximately 8:18 p.m. I left Horton's at approximately 7:30

Dec 14

I was in a bad mood due to power outage. Al was being stupid. Ray said something about sending me a message on Facebook and that he hadn't received a response. He said, I didn't know your power was out that means you didn't have any Internet. I replied, no really. (He did indeed receive a response. It was his morning text I didn't write back to) When we all got out the car Ray asked what was wrong. I said it's far too much stupidity for this early in the morning. I went and sat in my own car. When AI left Ray went in for his coffees. He went to his vehicle then came over. He asked me if I was going in the store, I said yes. He asked if I was going in to have a meeting. I asked what he was talking about. I told him I went to Hortons to drink coffee and charge my phone. I walked in the store. He was gone. (Stupidity with Brandon too)

Dec 15

He arrived early morning and stayed in his car until Al arrived. I mostly spoke to Al... Ray suggested I sit in. Nope!

Dec 16

He arrived and you wouldn't even have known it. At no point did he even so much as walk by the car. I was sitting with George

🥣🥣🥣🥣🥣

I truly don't understand how him and I even ended up together on New Year's eve. This is nuts. This is truly insane lol

---_---

Reading through this, either Ray was sleeping with Brianna or she is indeed a response, to Mike!

Mike lends me a heater. Ray tells me Brianna is driving a gray suv. The only one that owns the gray SUV, is Ray. Was he trying to cover his SUV in her driveway the night of the storm, or simply lying 🤷‍♀️

I wonder, if Ray and I ever got along.. it certainly doesn't seem like it.

[ewebie]

2022: An Author’s Review

I've gotten in the habit (over the past 9 years) of posting an author's review of what I've done on AO3. Since I started my Patreon, I've been posting it here and sharing across Tumblr and Twitter. I think it's good to take stock, be honest about what was possible and look and what I want for the next year. So here it is:

2022... I must say that I had higher hopes for you. It was a busy and productive year, but I did spend a lot of my time healing from the past 2 years and dragging myself, kicking and screaming, into a healthier place.

I was forced to take time out of work for my own mental health in 2021, and kept a lighter schedule going into 2022. It was very very needed. And 2022 from a society perspective was not what I had hoped for. Hubs and I made a (temporary -- one year only) move back across the Atlantic, and I learned a whole new job (clinical adjacent... research).

Even with all the chaos of a move and work and... *gestures at everything* I did manage to accomplish a few things.Summary of writing in 2022:

I set out with the goal of posting something every month, and I succeeded through August. I settled down after that to really plow through some of my WIPs and get ready for a big push in Jan '23.

In January '22, I spent some dedicated time torturing giving Paia everything she's ever wanted. And kicked off a series of works of Papa Lestrade (and his 3 kids). Series became When You're Fast Asleep, the first one written called Deep Inhale.

February brought two more installments to When You're Fast Asleep: Foundational and Counter Riposte. Also very much targeting Paia. Because if I cannot lob fully completed fic attacks back at her for all the rabid plot-bunnies she sneaks into my DMs, then what's the point of our friendship?

For March, I broadened my attack to hit Moth as well as Paia... An indulgent little praisekink AU that hit up a few important interests, called Praise Worthy. And I finished the NYE fic I was working on that specifically used receipts from Moth and Paia that's just suit worship and proud indulgence: Silver and Gold. I also got Jinxed by V in the MRC and added a chapter to Safety First (my Kiss Kiss Bang Bang shorts collection) called G is for Grooming... because toilet plungers???

Though I technically finished posting in May, the April fic was another When You're Fast Asleep called How Your Heart, and I absolutely adore it (and attacked myself with it). And while that was posting, I was working away on the May-Mystrade (Maystrade challenge).

So that brings us to May - when things started to get really busy as I prepped to move, and the Mystrade is Crime collection, to which I submitted Bait and Switch (since KKBB and Sometimes I Feel... were already in existence and I wanted to go full evil).

June and July were mental... packed up 16years of life on one side of the Atlantic, moved to the other, got COVID, got better, and made my way to a State that I'd never lived in before, started a new job in a new environment, dealt with family health issues, celebrated a major birthday. A lot of stress... not a lot of writing.

August I put up Where To Draw the Line, because sometimes I cannot control myself.

September, I fell off the wagon. Not that I've not been writing, I've been writing continuously. But I went all in on some of my WIPs and committed to finishing Hayloft, which is due to start posting on Fridays in Jan...

Overall, I published shy of 50k words (though, I wrote just over 80k... there are some big WIPs in the works) with 16k hits and I now have 360 user subscriptions and 6000 bookmarks. It was a solid effort and I've spent the year only writing Mystrade -- though... I've expanded my reading ships (I'm looking at you Moth).

Plan for 2023: Starting in Jan, I'll be posting The Hayloft (aka "The Farm AU"). One chapter a week... until done... Which... will be midyear. There’s a few bigger projects that I’ve back-burnered or have been plodding along with, including "the sad one" and "the Pretty Woman one" and some complex, multichapter things. Trello has been excellent this year to keep my bunnies sorted and in some sort of order.

Working titles of a few:

Lesser Things

Used Books

The Marshmallow Experiment

Huff and Hush

The Time Has Come

Attack the Cheese Block

Of Legwork and Dogs Bodies

Make Yourself

I hope to keep adding shorts to Safety First and Badges and 'Brellas. And I have 2 birthday pieces that I'm working on, and hope to get out in Feb/March. I'm not going to aim for monthly new works, since Hayloft is going to take a lot of attention, but I do hope to publish more words than 2022.

Many thanks to everyone who has beta'd works for me through the year (this year was mostly Paia -- many times for her many many sins). Thank you to the Asylum (nee Jail) - you're all gremlins and I-A-Door-You! Thank you to the MRC for being just... whatever it is you are. And the OGC - because intercontinental chat groups are their own, special nonsense!

I want to thank everyone that has left kudos and comments and reblogs and likes. Anyone who has dropped me a message or a thought and has generally enjoyed or encouraged my writing this past year. ILY all!!

[amyunreserved]

Rewritten (II).

Hi friend! Welcome back to my channel. Just kidding, but it's been a while. Since June 2021. It is insane to me how much can happen in a year. Even 3 months. I would not imagine I would be where I am or have gone through the things that I have.

In June of 2021, my grandma passed away. I got to graduate (more-so walk, since I technically graduated in 2020). It was not how I imagined my graduation, but my life hardly ever goes the way I imagine it.

In July of 2021, I was sexually harassed in my place of work. I ended up getting a lot of anxiety from this. For the first time in my life, I got drunk. This was a new low for me. My pain was evident. I could no longer hide how I was feeling on the inside. To others, it may have been amusing but if you ask God, it definitely grieved the Spirit.

In August of 2021, I got into an argument with my little sister. Although it didn't ruin our relationship right away, this argument shook our foundation. I also got into a relationship, which thankfully I am no longer in because it was not healthy at all.

In September of 2021, I started going to the gym consistently. Learning to push past being too tired or feeling lazy has been rewarding. I could not picture myself ever saying this, but exercise really helps you feel better. I have learned to keep going and not give up no matter the pain.

In October of 2021, I got a new job. This was a miracle because I was already feeling uncomfortable at my job due to the person who harassed me. It was also a miracle because I got a job working remotely, which is something I have been praying about since 2018. The way God has graced me for this position is wild. I am so grateful.

In November of 2021, I hit a new level of rock bottom. I put myself in danger's way. I had completely isolated myself from everyone at this point. I ignored every conviction.

In December of 2021, another argument with my little sister led our relationship taking a toll. We didn't talk for months. I was blocked from her life completely. At first I was angry and bitter, but as time went by and things started changing in my life, those feelings went away. I am still praying and believing for complete restoration in our relationship.

In January of 2022, I got my dream dog. The journey with her has not been the easiest. I got her as a puppy, so I had to learn a lot with her along the way. I had to potty train her, teach her some obedience. I have had to learn discipline and routine. But I also almost had to give her up. There were arguments with my mom that my dog caused. This dog has somehow been used to test my patience and trust in God since having her.

In February of 2022, I turned 25. I hardly recognized myself anymore. Who I was at that time was not who I wanted to be. Where I was at the time was not where I should have been. Thank God I was still alive. Thank God He said He was not finished with me yet.

In March of 2022, there was a discontentment forming with my life. I owe everything to the Holy Spirit convicting me more and more. Whispering in my ear to come home. Soon enough it was hard to ignore that voice.

In April of 2022, I had the opportunity to travel to Morocco with my older sister. This trip impacted me in more than one way. I realized just how unsatisfied I was with everything in my life. How much I did not want my life to be my life. I did begin to feel a little depressed but I kept having to remind myself that God healed me from depression and suicidal thoughts.

In May of 2022, I made the decision to face all my worries and fears, and return home. I started attending church again. I fought my flesh so hard not to come home. I was so afraid that people would see me and see all the damage I had done to myself. That they would see me and see how messed up my home life was. They would see me and know all of my sins. Technically, you are reading a lot of them now. I am not ashamed of that because everything comes to the light eventually.

In June of 2022, I started getting connected and plugged back into church. I reconnected with a few friends. God was starting to remove everything that had kept me from Him. I also graduated from Bible College. Did I walk? No. Why? Because going up on stage scared the heck out of me. I was in the world and doing Bible college. Not very godly of me, right? I felt like a hypocrite. I was so filled with shame that I felt like I did not deserve to walk across that stage.

In July of 2022, my whole life completely shifted. I surrendered everything to God. I let go of a lot stuff, including that boyfriend I had. I was brought into complete repentance. My life did a 180. God was working overtime moving me out of isolation and what I thought was comfortable. He was pushing me towards obedience and complete surrender.

In August of 2022, my obedience and faith began to get tested with trial after trial. Earlier in July, I had to take a few tests health wise. August was about finding out those results and trusting God with them. I am believing I am healed the next time time I have to tested in 2023. This is something doctors do not have a cure for. I am trusting the One True Doctor to heal me.

In September of 2022, I found true contentment with my life. The trajectory of my life has completely changed and I cannot thank God enough. I began to write once again. I got a new opportunity at work, thank the Lord.

Here we are October of 2022, watching God do incredible miracles. My relationship with my little sister has drastically improved. I sought her forgiveness and have been able to work on mending our relationship. Things are getting a little hard health wise.So much that it wants to distract my mind. I am learning to take every thought captive. I went back to counseling, which I am grateful for. God has been showing me areas in my life that need Him and His healing power, so we’ve been doing some hard work here. But it has been good because He is good.

A tremendous amount of things have happened in my life. There are still 2 months left of 2022 and I still have about 3 months before I turn 26. I cannot wait to add to this later and see what else God has done. If there is anything I have learned is that the Lord  is so faithful and does not stop His pursuit of us. He is constantly calling us to greater. I know He is not done with me yet. He is not done with you yet. Heed His call, friend. You won't regret it.