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lgbtlunaverse · 8 months

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Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

#writing #fic writing #like this is stuff i'm doing for fun with my perfectionism meter turned down as far as i can get it #and i am still thinking about it A LOT #talk to me about how in red string fic jgy perceives the memory block both as syrup and as mud but nmj thinks it feels like blood #it's just a thing in their heads that mentally feels kind of thick and sticky but they both made something different of it #it's about issues with cleanliness / lies as a way to craft an illusion of a better lopking world vs the constant violence nmj lives in

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ruporas · 19 days

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trigunned the hades or hadesed the trigun (id in alt)

#trigun #trigun maximum #nicholas d wolfwood #vash the stampede #meryl stryfe #milly thompson #millions knives #ruporas art #type of shit ive been on lately bc ive been playing an obsessive amount of hades 2 lmfao… ofc imstead of drawing fansrt for hades #i channel that energy into trigun?😭 SEE.. the thing is. i am ALWAYS thinking about a trigun game… like an action story game #it is rotating in my brain 24/7 and now after 7billion years i finally pick up a video game #and the inspiration sparked. obviously this is just a mere mimic of an existing media... but im thinking about the plot of max now #executed differently between mediums… webbing a new retelling of the original story as game mechanics allows you - thinking of the #new roles the characters would take. like wolfwood here is not Constantly by vash’s side but he will show up once a run to clear out an #encounter. shows up seldomly at home base to make gifting difficult... an existing companion and still journeys on his own. for more #relations options merylmilly will also have occasions where they separate so vash can speak to them individually - the gungho are not bosse #most of them get the roles of giving “boons” i think.. BUT ANYWAY thats me reimagining trigun into hades. now imagining trigun into an #ORIGINAL video game.... ough... ohhh....guhh... I WANT IT SO BAD!!!!!!!!#this was just a fun exercise... im thinking about doing more but i think i shouldactually draw some hades 2 fanart first

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queseraphita · 11 months

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Now that i got a c drama watch buddy, I'm gonna make her finish word of honor with me so we can both suffer

#we got like 16 episodes of love between fairy and devil #i was like half way through woh but it was a bad time for me so I'm gonna rewatch it with her #and now understand why everyone starts screaming and crying when they see red and green colors #c dramas have all the tropes my sister and i love in shows and stories so its like oh we are in it #mikh talks #i would rewatch cql with her but i need to like mentally prepare myself bc now that I've read the book and some of the audio drama #I'm like hmmmm i love the set design and production and actors just the overall of what it is #i do not like some of the story decisions #like if it wasnt apart of this adaptation i would be wholeheartedly in it #i still am just different

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dkettchen · 28 days

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she would've told them unlike her canon! version who decided not to be an ally smh

#one piece #trans!sanji #sanji #kiku #yamato #ワンピース #I'm practicing my japanese shhhhhh #（日本語のペラペラ人：俺は文法とか書く方とか間違ったら教えてください😅ありがとうございます）#translation:#Yamato: I'll be able to get as strong as Oden?#Sanji: Probably... 🤔#[meanwhile Kiku is remembering the time in the hot spring]#(Sanji: Nami-chan!!!)#(Nami: Shut up!! The women's bath is supposed to be a peaceful place!)#Kiku: I am also ⚧️ ... o.o #(y'all english speakers had me all to yourselves for a decade it's about time I start to also sometimes make stuff in my next language lol #notably for media *from* that language #same as it made sense to make fan content in english for [american superhero franchise we don't talk abt anymore] back in the day #(happy seasonal reminder that Ren Is Not A Native English Speaker and This Is My 5th Language hi 😅))#while looking up reference for this I learnt that the straps to tie back the kimono sleeves are called tasuki #also I decided yamato get big muscles cause he got them kaido genes in im (I also gave him his dad's young-man-facial hair)#the more I do transition projections for one piece characters while tryna adhere to the style the more I learn that sometimes stylisation #uses bones less as literal determinants for where things go and just kinda exaggerates shapes based on vibes alone instead #meaning trans characters' bones wouldn't literally stay looking the same in that stylisation in the way they do irl #they'd get exaggerated differently based on what the surrounding stuff is doing #I still think oda's transition demonstration when we first met iva was unreasonable even with that in mind tho

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featheredadora · 11 months

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#art #fat positivity #body positivity #positivity #birblr #canary #doodle #Sorry I'm a bit all over the place at the moment guys #Had to spend time with my partner's fatphobic family #And I know I'm a thin guy so I am not like directly hurt by the things they believe #But it still was just an awful experience and I'm still kinda feeling that #And it infuriates me that me standing up for what's right is always framed as me being a delicate sensitive anorexic #You should treat fat people nice because they are people and deserve basic decency #I am not being overly sensitive by not wanting to hear your fatphobic crap #You're just not nice people #/rant over #Sorry for my little outburst guys! I am usually an easy going guy #I just get really riled up about this stuff #Fat people are wonderful and it is such a blessing to live in a world with such a huge range of different bodies!

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thepunkmuppet · 2 months

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gerard way has looked like about 300 different people throughout his life and I can shamelessly say that I am deeply and madly in love with every single one of them

#yes this still applies to scraggly homeless-looking bear gerard in 2017-2020 (ish) fucking fight me #also he was a cutie in high school #I’m 16 and if he went to my college I would literally fall in love with him don’t even #I’m just whipped basically this post is me saying I am pathetic and in love and whipped 🫶#speakfromtheheartbeeeefletcher #gerard way #gee way #mcr #my chem #my chemical romance #my chemical fucking romance #suddenly needing the gerard way eras tour #respectfully idgaf about some white lady in different coloured leotards GIVE ME SKELETON BLACK PARADE GERARD TURNING INTO PARTY POISON

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courfee · 2 months

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“Regulus would be proud of us,” James whispered quietly to no one in particular, still gripping onto the painting like a life raft.

— Tender Curiosities, Baby! @otrtbs

#ive thought about this scene for so long it just took me forever to draw cause once again the anatomy of cars is the bane of my existence #like originally i wanted evan and barty holding hands to be visible to have the contrast of sad lonely james and sad not lonely rosekiller #but alas cars wont allow it #ahb just still has my entire heart you dont get it #i have a none blurry rosekiller and a just james in front of blue with stars version of this but i think ill only put them on insta...#tender curiosities baby #art heist baby #james potter fanart #james potter #jegulus #rosekiller #rosekiller fanart #marauders #marauders fanart #evan rosier #barty crouch jr #jegulus fanart #jegulus fanfiction #fic: ahb #art heist baby!#mine #my art #hp #ahb #(sneaky end notes: i do have to admit i am not too pleased with evan and barty but this was my first time drawing them)#(so i couldnt figure it out quite yet hency why they look a little. less efforty...)#(also the snake ring is the same design that i drew for chapter 34 of ahb in my little chapter illustrations for my typeset)#((nvm i just checked back and i am fully lying here i used a different one for my typeset and now im vaguely upset oops)#(i shouldnt make decisions only half awake im going to think about this for too long now i am sad))#((like suddenly i was like. hold up. i had a different design there didnt i... it was an open ring goddamnit))

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lazylittledragon · 4 months

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obsessed with people saying “it’s cool to be weird now” fucking WHERE and how do i get there

#ramble #have you seen an instagram comment section #nobody is meaner #oh you mean the kind of weird that is still attractive and marketable and not the kind that got me bullied my entire childhood #you can look weird and have weird interests as long as you aren’t too loud or enthusiastic or strange for my taste #it is cool to be different but also no the fuck it isn’t #i am still just as ostracised in adult life as i was at school #‘they’ll be jealous of you one day’ i assure you they are Not

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shitpostingkats · 5 months

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Riz Gukgak and his bloody hands

SUCH a metal visual and motif. Kalina, Baron, they tease him for it, they twist it into one of his worst qualities, just as they belittle that he his heart, leverage his fear that he cannot love anyone enough.

Riz Gukgak loves. He will claw himself to shreds on love. He will dig through reality, lacerating himself on crystal, just to help his childhood friend. He will hiss at the devil, he will bite out eyes, he will do anything to help his friends feel safe. He will attempt to eat an entire dragon. Out of love for a father he barely knew.

"That’s you saying “I love you” to the people who matter to you the most."

#sorry lads I'm still thinking about him #something about speaking an entirely different language of love from everyone else but trying to hold a conversation anyway #Baron and Kalina preying on his fears that he can't possibly love enough to be important #when this is a kid who will tear open his own skin on the harsh surface of love #yeah he should maybe calm the hell down about it #but his friends and his family are never scared of him. they never look down on how he shows he cares.#something about being ace and not being soft or gentle #am I making sense #he needs healthier ways to love but he's just a kid. he's figuring it out.#fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 #riz gukgak

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 9 months

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Alternative form of 'Hitting Wangxian with a Catboyification beam'

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #I don't have much more of an explanation to this other than 'i was struck by the vision and needed to create it'#They are both catboy coded. To me. On slightly different alignments of catboy but still.#LWJ is catboy: Fussy + bites and WWX is catboy: Stinky #Neither of them take well to being moved from their nap spot.#I love reading lying on my stomach and my cat just loves it. Hates being moved. We are locked in combat post any cuddle sessions.#I am a cat lover. I love them. They are Rotten little Stinkers. I love them #LWJ is like. *the* definition of 'cat that only likes those its in a bonded pair with.#The kind of cat that screams if it sees any neighborhood cats wandering outside.#wwx is a 'outdoor cat that wandered inside and became domesticated but NOT owned' kinda guy.#he is a menace on the local bird population and the only reason he's not dad to all the kittens is that he got fixed young.#UNLESS: the golden core transfer here was the balls (?) Animal control took JCs balls and WWX gave his up (????)#((I Also Don't Know What I'm Saying))

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thatswhatsushesaid · 4 months

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psa that the day there are no jgy stans left on tumblr dot com is the day i am dead

but rest assured i'll go to my grave exactly as i lived: obnoxiously proclaiming to everyone within earshot how great lianfang-zun is. narratively, metaphorically, spiritually. sexually, too, like why limit myself. i like to keep my options open

#the spirit of su minshan possessed me for a minute there but like. i'm fine with it #jin guangyao #he did crimes??? good for him 😌#editing this post to add that while the tone here is clearly joking #i really am fundamentally still engaged with this fandom #and with this book #almost exlcusively because of my enjoyment of jgy #even xiyao is secondary for me like i love it and i'm ride or die for it obvs #but jgy as a character is the main draw for me. and he would have me by the throat even if there was no zewu-jun #(tho i think jgy's life would be more depressing for his absence obviously)#but he is just. /clenches my fists!!!#THE most compelling character in the story and i cannot stop thinking about him!! cannot will not!!#who else in this book has his range? who else can be the doe-eyed idealist AND the spy with blood on his hands who ends a war?#who else is two different greek tragedies and at least two separate shakespearean tragedies rolled into one antagonist #an antagonist who but for the POV of the novel could very easily have been the protagonist #whose moral event horizon is so deeply entwined with his own trauma and abuse that there is no way to meaningfully separate #the violence he does to others from the systemic violence that was done to him for his whole life?#who else in this book manages to get five separate sect leaders utterly obsessed with him no matter how you choose #to interpret that obsession?#no one!!! that's who!!#ain't no one else in the jianghu doing it like lianfang-zun and that's just a goddamn fact

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sysig · 5 months

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How far did you get? (Patreon)

#My art #Handplates #UT #Gaster #Frisk #A DBZA incorrect quote technically - it's just such a raw line #Even what it's in reply to kinda works in this context! ''What exactly changed between you in the future and now?'' Time travel nonsense #It feels real weird to have a piece fully finished in black and white and have that be Correct lol #I am So pleased with the composition of this ♥#Gaster vertical and the human horizonal! Gaster confined and the human-#Hint: He's not looking at Frisk #Gaster being able to see Zarfox consistently is very interesting to me #Or rather - that bit makes sense lol he got as far as he could within the confines of his world and understanding #It's still cool how much he can actually see tho - understand? Interpret? Hard to pin down and define haha #What Sans is able to see doubly interests me - he got some but just glimpses! Different from - I assume - Gaster's consistent sight #Poor Papyrus being left out haha #It's been a while since I've drawn a Vessel - weird to think about Frisk in that context haha #It's accurate! Just weird ♪#I am so in love with Gaster's post-Void design <3 The fact that his lineart is ''canon'' - however you want to phrase it just ughgjkdslafd #Any instance of The Medium being drawn attention to down to its format and details gives me the zoomies lol #Visual representation of the unfathomable! It's so cool!!#And the fact that at the Very least Gaster suspects just how limited his viewpoint is - is phased in and out of it - what he assumes is real #He knows that even with everything that makes him up now - the threads of the multiverse! - it's still so much bigger than he can understand #''More than I thought'' - and then actually getting to talk with some/thing/one(s) that make up at least a sliver of that Bigger #''Less than you'd think'' - like moving a grain of sand that contains a universe on the beach of infinity #Hghhh it's cool <3

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clambuoyance · 1 year

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[DC] doodled these two a lot this week

#clam draws #dc #kon el #kontent #Conner kent #superboy #cassie sandsmark #wonder girl #this started bc I was thinking about how they have similar outfits and parallel journeys to like masculinity and femininity I think #and part of it is due to the differences in 2000s and 90s culture but also I think this is geoffs fault #like perhaps Cassie does get euphoria from presenting more femme but it’s written by men who just didn’t find her appealing before #and kon well he already lost the jacket and had designs changes before tt03 but there’s still a noticeable difference I think in the way #he presents himself demeanor wise after johns #and ofc johns meant none of this but I like a silly spider am crawling over it and just making my own narrative threads p #as in like oh they’re in a new stage in their life and they have to wrestle w their identities as one does #but like eventually find a new middle ground?#like yeah I can make a narrative #but if I haddd to choose what they’d do instead like if I were in charge of tt03 and told to make them fit 2000s culture I would have at lea #at least made them grunge or smth idk .#what am I even saying #dc clamics

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sneez · 3 months

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conrad veidt would make a great tragedian i think

#pathologic #conrad veidt #artwork #scopophobia #id in alt text #if any of you actually benefit from IDs id be very grateful to know if you prefer them in the alt text or in the post body!#anyway :D HIM #this is caligari-era connie obviously. i was saying this the other day but later connie would be a great saburov i think #i cant decide if i prefer the idea of him playing every tragedian or him being a very obviously incongruous tragedian who has just painted #his face to look like a mask and is hoping nobody will notice #also please ignore that the lighting doesnt make sense on the second one i used reference images lit from two different angles and didnt #notice until i had rendered it out because i always flip my canvas so often and im too lazy to fix it #anyway (part 2) i am still on my conrad veidt autism explosion and i am having a great time. i am having so much fun. i love he #i hope you are all well too my friends! term just finished for me so i am back hoam :D yaaay

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arielluva · 8 months

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screenshot redraw! though i took creative liberty in making it rain here even though it isnt (yet) in the screenshot bc i thought it'd be cool (i also enjoy drawing water droplets)

there are two versions of the drawing here, the first one is edited for mobile to get it to look closer to my intended colors, while the second one is the original from my computer. the third image here being the original screenshot, lol

#my art #revolutionary girl utena #rgu #juri arisugawa #hate how different the computer vs mobile colors are... the original looks so dark on my phone </3 #my computer always displays colors lighter than they appear so unfortunately a lot of my drawings look darker than intended on mobile #sometimes the difference isnt too bad but this time it was. pretty obvious #hence two versions of the drawing #anyway im very happy with how this turned out #the original screenshot just stuck with me and. im not sure what it is about it that i like so much #but i just really wanted to draw it #still got two other rgu related drawings to finish but at least i got one done #anyways its 3 am... time for me to depart to eepytown #2023

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chalkrub · 8 months

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made a little linocut for pixie <:^) miss her so much

#my art #illustration #linocut #printmaking #cat #it's getting easier but it's still hard in different ways now. but i am genuinely just happy she was alive and healthy for so long #went to see the new exorcist yesterday and it was pretty bad but also funny and good at points (the start)#but the REAL win was that I got 2 scoops of ben and jerrys (phish food and cookie dough for those wondering. the best flavours)#and the lady crammed as much ice cream into the pot as posible. like 2 VERY generous scoops followed by extra shoved on top #i had to resist asking to shake her hand she made me want to do like a pledge of allegiance or something

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