#i think i have a restrictive eating disorder

[barbielore]

In 1996, Mattel released the Empress Kaiserin Sissy Imperatrice Barbie, a Barbie in the likeness of Empress Elisabeth of Austria.

A classic of the Barbie style in many ways, featuring a princess ballgown and an elaborate hairdo, this Barbie specifically was based on the Empress as depicted in Franz Xaver Winterhalter's 1864 painting.

Although I can see the likeness and the inspiration, the Mattel designer behind the doll appears to have taken a few liberties with some design elements.

I think her hair really is the standout here as that updo is really quite intricate and they could easily have simplified it.

She is well regarded as one of the more interesting mass-release collectors dolls, and I can completely see why.

Given the fact that Elisabeth was known to be very intense about her appearance and used a combination of strict dieting and tightlacing to maintain an extremely slim appearance (and in the modern day would almost certainly be considered to meet the criteria for a restrictive eating disorder), there are more comments to be made about the suitability of her adaptation into a Barbie... but I will leave my comment at that.

[chocolateaestheticartshark]

I think im finally gonna post instead of lurking on here

My hard rules: no ed "coaches." Don't ask my age. I won't post private information, don't ask. I don't do bodychecks, and I won't body check for you. No creepy old men, I don't really want men in my space unless you have and ed, sorry.

This will probably be mostly ed type of stuff, but im not restricting myself to just that

This is all for fun, and to get out of my comfort zone, if you find it triggering, I don't mind, but I won't privately or publicly give tips or encouragement on ed related topics.

I have anxiety and struggle to socialize in person and online, so I might not engage in conversations. No, I don't hate you. I just overthink and can't find a good response, I'm sorry.

I ask that no one flame me for my posts. If you have an issue, please just block me. I know ed stuff is controversial. I just want a place to talk to myself and gloat about accomplishments that feels semi public.

That's all, now for the ed girlie's

My stats:

Highest weight: 230lbs

Goal weight 1 : 150 lbs

Goal weight 2 : 120lbs

Hight : 5'7"

♡ I might post current weights and food I eat to hold myself accountable for eating well.

I have been clinically diagnosed with bed (binge eating disorder) and anxiety. I will probably complain about them at some point.

[taserblade]

i feel myself getting crazier and more delusional as i sink deeper into whatever mental health issues i got going on rn

[goldkirk]

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[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

went to go clothes shopping today and i got the cuntiest misa-esque dress for like $8 at the thrift store <3

[iscariotapologist]

recovering from growing up adventist is like 50% unlearning the belief that the world is ending 15% trying to accept feeling normal human attraction to other people 15% acting normal on saturdays and 20% convincing yourself that you won't forfeit your eternal soul and make god hate you by eating pork or shrimp

[suncaptor]

Arfid is just so sooooo funny to me because you know you can grow up as a weird freak and all but you're never going to mask completely if every time you're around others they mock you about food and when going places can just guess having food available to eat might just be a no go

[mainfaggot]

in conclusion, I have no choice but to try to recover again. or else another two years will pass me by and I'll be so fucking tired

[blujayonthewing]

realized I've eaten 1.5 meals today and once again thinking about how my mom assumes that I'm fat because I sit around shoveling cheetos in my face all day or something

[philsmeatylegss]

Tw

[claycoloured]

Maybe i live in some weird mirror universe or sth but is there not A LOT of questionable discourse around eating disorders on here lately?? Like, ive seen multiple posts painting ppl w eds as malicious actors on behalf of systemic fatphobia (rather than, y'know, victims of it...I have seen good, nuanced versions of this kinda post but it's like 50% that and 50% 'if you have an ed you HATE fat people and you want them to DIE'. also, i think it's completely fair to want to vent abt stuff like that but it's confusing to me that you'd let the post leave your circle), joking about telling ppl w eds on tiktok (mostly teenage girls, lbr) or in real life to follow whatever harmful impulse they're posting/talking about, making fun of girls w eds for thinking being skinny will make them attractive to men (???which im sure is a motivator for some people but oh my god you sound stupid), and essentially blaming ppl w eds for their disorders, etc etc etc. Like????? This is weird, right??? This is dehumanising and cruel and people would be OUTRAGED if this was abt any other stigmatised mental health issue (or at least the conversation would be a lot more nuanced, like how it was abt the term 'narcissistic abuse' (which btw, weird and bad imo) a while back), right??? There is just no compassion offered, and there's such a clear lack of understanding of the topic – the fact that NO ONE ive seen specified what eds they're referring to (which is why i haven't either, bc i don't fucking know) alone is like...not a great sign – that I'm confused why these posts were made in the first place. Who are they geared towards???? Why are you so set on saying that ppl w eds should be publicly shamed???? HELLO???? IS ANYONE OUT THERE???

Edit: i wish i had more receipts™ but im not in the habit of screenshotting posts/notes. I SWEAR im not misrepresenting anything lol

[carpathxanridge]

just realized i had a fully vegetarian day of eating without trying, which i’ve probably done before but this is the first time i feel like i actually got enough protein too without being like intentional about it. im pretty excited even though it wasn’t all vegan, one meal was and the other wouldve been easily veganize-able if i had vegan cheese. and like as someone who used to be such a picky eater i had a list of foods i’d have to introduce into my diet before being able to even THINK about eating vegan, it’s exciting to see i’ve done enough of that introduction that i can have a day of low-effort eating that’s unintentionally vegan-approaching. like i forget how limited my diet used to be until i actually examine what my current diet looks like and go whoa i wouldn’t have eaten like 2/3rd of this even just a year ago lol. and tbh i dont know if i ever intend on going fully vegan but my goal is to limit myself to maybe cooking with meat and/or dairy only once or twice a week, and the only animal product to keep a staple would be eggs (i want to have my own chickens.)

[adhd-sweetdreams]

arfid my beloathed

[sideblogformentalhealtshit]

recovery; a return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength.

This is how i have been since i can remember. I can never remember a time before i was very picky with what i ate, before i was revolted by most foods to the point i could only eat a few. There is nothing for me to return to, because i have never known life without this eating disorder.

i will never have a normal and healthy relationship with food. i will never be able to go to a restaurant and order something new, just because i want to try it. i will never be fully ‘‘recovered’‘ from this.

and that’s okay to me. i don’t find this a bad thing, not really. i’m ok with how things are, but i know i’m not healthy and i have no desire to change, but if i did, i wouldn’t focus on trying to recover, or trying new different foods. i would just worry about making sure my body gets all the stuff it’s supposed to, and i wouldn’t mind if i had to eat vitamins daily for the rest of my life for that.

[trans-leek-cookie]

Restaurant food is either too expensive or viscerally uncomfortable to imagine eating or both but I'm still nervous about eating off dishes at home because of the dishwasher and unrelated I think I'm developing actual eating disorder mindset things

[skinny-feels-goood]

ostatnio nie jestem bo caly czas czuje sie jak gowno i pelno binge'ow ze az wstyd mi tu wchodzic XD ale nie mam przyjaciol a musze sie komus wygadac soo here i am

Ogl zerwalam kontakt z takim chlopem ktorego zfriendzone'owalam i wsm mam wywalone w to ze nie bedziemy pisac ani sie spotykav ale znalazl sobie inna doslownie tydzien pozniej jak mowil ze mnie kochal itp. (XD) najbardziej boli mnie to ze terax widze ze nigdy mu nie zalezalo i liczyl tylko na zwiazek, przyjazn mu nie wystarcza i traktowal mnie jak gowno i yk jak mi mowil ze moje problemy nie wplywaja na nic, ze jestem sliczna i wyjatkowa to terax jak to brzmi? Klamal od poczatku a ja mu uwierzylam. Jak ja wgl moglam pomyslec ze ktos mnie moze pokochac XD? Nawet taki idiota jak on mnie nie chce.

A dzisiaj zjedzone ok 3tys i spalone tysiac wiec juz wgl jesr swietnie.

Co ja robie nie tak?

Niby ma racje ze czego sie spodziewalam? Ze bedzie rozpaczal nade mna? Niby nie ale mowil ze jestem jego przeznaczeniem itp to nie myslalam ze znajdzie sobie kogos w mniej niz tydzien, gdzie caly czas powtarzal ze nikt go nie chce. Pisal ze nie spotykal sie z nia w tym samym czasie co ze mna no ale jak po tygodniu od "zfriendzone'owania" go byl na 3 spotkaniach z nia i sa razem juz to cos ciezko mi sie w to wierzy.

Jeez czuje sie terax jak schizofreniczka ze pisze wsm sama do siebie XD ale to pomaga wuec idc

Mileh nocy jesli ktos doczytal do tego momentu 🫶🫶