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laufire · 4 years

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Supernatural s1

my dash: decries Supernatural every five posts.

me: time to watch it seriously for the first time in my life.

-First thing first: it’s an amazingly well-crafted season of tv. I’m a character-focused watcher, not a plot-focused one; I never connected emotionally to the Winchesters (still haven’t and likely never will, as interesting I might find them as character constructs), so I feared I’d be bored and would want to skip scenes. Nuh huh. I was many things, but none of them were bored xDD. Each episode was a lesson in good pacing and the entire season another in proper build-up. There are one or two or a few dozen tv-writers I would like to show it to, ngl.

-Another thing it excelled at was in its portrayal in abusive family dynamics. The way Dean went mellow and so unlike himself when John gave an order (and what a SHOCK it is in the later episodes when he finally stands up to him!!). How Sam said HE would apologize to his father when they saw each other again, or how he made apologies for his father because “it could have been worse” (at least John didn’t beat them up, like it happened to that poor kid!). John showing Sam more “““respect””” (as far as he’s able at least) simply because Sam already proved he’s capable of leaving him; the way John controls the information he gives them and when and how and how much and how small they feel when they reunite with him. Dean knowing his father had been possessed by a demon because it wasn’t reprimanding him and belittling him. Dean’s psychic shapeshifter (?) expressing his resentment towards Sam for getting to escape. Dean’s quickness to resort to violence when Sam says something that makes him angry, or how he tries to severe ties between Sam and his college friends, or how he guilt trips him when Sam says he plans on returning to his studies, or how he minimizes Sam’s experiences with John or how Sam criticizes Dean’s compliance... (I don’t think Dean’s being consciously manipulative. I think it’s intuitive. Which is far, far scarier. He’s the Elena Gilbert of Supernatural and a walking red flag for controlling behavior). How it’s paired with ~honeymoon periods. The way they use the families around them to highlight their issues. It’s... chilling and terrifying and I can’t look away. I won’t get into the shit John pulls in 2x01 because that’s for the s2 POV, but oh my god I’m so happy he’s dead.

I wasn’t all that sure of how self-aware the creators were about this trend (especially because of how centralized and validated Dean’s POV is in his conflicts with Sam IMO. OTOH... characters like Dean and actors like Ackles are the type to take over a show by charisma alone tbf. The way he swoops in in the pilot and starts disrupting everything, including Sam’s relationship, reminding me of both Angel in BTVS and Chuck in Gossip Girl, Doylist-wise. This comparison is going to make sense to like three people I talk with regularly xDD). At least on early seasons, since certain spoilers about the later ones make me think it grew over time. I’m still unsure but I think they are a little self-aware because of this quote:

Eric Kripke said of Buffy: “I loved ‘Hush’ and ‘Once More, With Feeling,’ but overall, Buffy really taught me about effectively using metaphor in genre. For Buffy, it was ‘high school is hell (literally),’ and Joss Whedon did such a masterful job of grounding his horror and fantasy concepts in this notion, and ultimately telling allegories about high school, which turned what could’ve been B-Movie material into an all-time classic. I used that same philosophy on my run of Supernatural, with the mantra ‘family is hell (literally),’ and always grounded my horror episodes around the notion of families, to the show’s benefit. So thanks, Joss Whedon. I owe you a beer. (Credit: The WB)

everyone wants to be Buffy lol.

-My absolute favourite thing was how competent the Winchesters are (I’m even reluctantly including John here. That bastard). They’re sneaky with local authorities, crafty about fake IDs, credit scams, research abilities, DIY supernatural detectors xDD... I loved the lack of an audience proxy, the fact that the story throws you into the deep end with people that already know their shit. And that the other side is competent too, like when Meg & YED’s plan to trap John relied on the Winchester being competent; on Sam immediately going into the defensive because, what are the chances of finding that cute weird girl a second time, miles away?; on John suspecting it was a trap and only revealing himself after Meg appears to be dead... Another scene that I loved in that sense, from 2x01 (I watched until 2x03, I wanted to see Sterling K. Brown’s first appearance lol) was how upon discovering Reapers are shapeshifters, Dean immediately knew that cute ghost he’d befriended was the one after him. I get the feeling this aspect will get lost in future season and it’s a pity, tbh.

-Related to that, some of my favourite moments: Sam straight up bribing a guy to get into the morgue when Dean’s arguments are failing (with Dean’s money!); Dean’s plan of “well, if this guy is haunting the house and there’s no other way to kill him, we burn the house. No house no haunting”; Dean telling that kid to fake appendicitis to get his parents out of the house; John blessing the tank of water knowing he’s walking into a trap with demons... I dig this stuff.

-I get whiplash sometimes, with the show making a point of (very briefly) telling you racism, homophobia or pro-life attitudes are Bad(TM) and the brothers are Against them (the Racist Truck episode, the one where a woman used a Reaper to exchange “virtuous” lives for those of sinners...), when the rest of the show is err... what it is lol. Dean is toxic masculinity’s poster boy (I was so disgusted by how he acted with Jess omfg), in s2 we don’t get the monsters’ perspective on hunters until we’ve conveniently met our first black one (I love the episode AND the character but it’s fucking true)...

-I need to make a note of paying attention to the writers credits/Bts stuff because I find this show’s progression fascinating on a metatextual level. The only problem is that audience reaction seems to have played a big role (which is a problem on one or two different levels imo xD), and tracking that down is sliiiiightly more difficult lol. Oh well (I don’t even think I want to see too much of this fandom, even to satisfy my curiosity. Some of the glimpses I’ve caught of it are disturbing to the extreme).

-The detail about dead people’s blood being toxic to vampires is SO COOL OMG. I’m tempted to steal it xD

Some random stuff:

-The monsters of the week were some legit creepy stuff.

-I love that Meg has her own hellhounds. Is that still a thing when she returns?

-Dean: you and dad are reckless and I’m going to have to be the one that buries you. / Me, with the power of foresight: 👀

-Also Dean: sometimes it scares me how good I am at killing. / Me: it scares the shit out of me how good you are at killing, too, fam.

-I get the impression Sam loses his demonic-in-origin powers later on, right? What a waste, I love those.

-I’m pretty sure at one point it’s implied John used Dean to honeytrap monsters (when he sends him as a trap for the lady vampire that stole the Colt) and I really don’t know what to do with this information.

-Cassie was GORGEOUS and even make Dean likeable for me while they lasted xDD. But given this show’s track record I’m considering the lack of more appearances a blessing.

-So many guest stars. Everyone’s been on SPN. Especially if they were on the Buffyverse first (I totally get the impulse of casting Buffy actor after Buffy actor lmfao).

-Funny how Luther Hargreeves is exactly who a lot of fans think Dean was (Dean is far, far colder imo), and yet one is constantly called pathetic and evil and the other woobified. Very Funny Indeed *coughs* (funnier still that the character I often see Dean compared to is Wynonna Earp when the parallels are kids-pool deep at best and offensive at worst. Dean is not a Wynonna. Again, Dean is an Elena Gilbert xDD).

-The two paranormal investigators were dumb as rocks, but their motto was “What Would Buffy Do” so I like them (if they ever change that to What Would the Winchesters Do or something like that I’m going to be furious lmao).

-When I want to ~chill I dress about exactly like Dean (minus the flannel I’ve seen in later seasons, you can’t pay me to wear flannel). Like, I think I have a couple of shirts that look exactly like ones of his. I don’t know how I feel about this xDD

-IDK how I’ll feel about Bobby later on (I get the impression every long-term character on this show has their hateful phases xD), but in his introduction he said the last time he saw John he threatened to shoot him (“he causes that reaction in people”), so he’s so far the most relatable character around lol.

#talking to the void #my thoughts #spn thoughts #the writing tm #sam winchester #dean winchester #john winchester #and others #abuse mention cw #here be negativity warning lol #spn s1 #the winchesters get to have a tag I GUESS

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moviegroovies · 4 years

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so i know i’m breaking like, this unspoken vow of silence re: the movie by making this post but this IS a movie blog and i did watch the last airbender. and can i just say. holy fucking shit.

y’all know i like a lot of bad movies. knowing that, take me seriously when i say: this is a BAD movie. and not in a good way. i went into it with no expectations except morbid curiosity and i was STILL let down. i wanted to hate watch it, and yeah, i hated watching it, but it wasn’t even fun to hate. i just hated it.

don’t watch the last airbender.

if you’re like me and you just wanted to know exactly how bad it was, please benefit from my mistakes. read my fun funky rant and then never think of that movie again. put it out of your mind. rewatch boiling rock. love yourself.

anyway.

pretty much the one and only thing i knew about why it was bad going in was that it was whitewashed; that’s like the only thing anyone ever mentions in conjecture with this movie, when they mention it at all. knowing this, going in knowing full well that the casting department did crimes against humanity, i was still shocked and disturbed at the sight of white katara and white sokka. literally... that casting choice was a hate crime. look them up (or check out my last post) if you need to see it for yourself... it’s bad y’all. somehow i had braced myself for white aang, but before i saw it with my own two eyes i couldn’t believe that they would actually whitewash katara and sokka, And Yet. the really stupid thing is that it’s not even “””justified””” IN UNIVERSE; most of the members of the southern water tribe are played by asian actors, meaning that they didn’t even pull a pan and make the WHOLE southern water tribe white, they just made sokka and katara mysteriously “special” in a spectacularly poor judgement call.

actually, that’s another thing. outside the northern water tribe (which is also mostly white... i’m wondering if sokka and katara are white because gran gran--a white woman in the movie--is from the north? anyway it’s a moot point either way because none of them should be white, there are NO WHITE CHARACTERS IN THE SHOW AVATAR, jesus FUCKING christ), most of the extras and background characters are played by actors of color, particularly asian actors, which would be accurate to the show’s canon. maybe m night shyamalan or someone else involved in the making of this shitshow of a movie thought that this would somehow absolve the whitewashing of the main characters, but in reality i’d argue that it makes it even worse; by having characters mostly played by people of color continuously being saved by three little white bitches, the movie goes HARD on the white savior trope, and also just generally uses these actual, living people as exploitative, orientalist set dressing for this 1 hour and 43 minutes of special hell.

with one notable exception: prince zuko is played by an actor of color--specifially, dev patel. (who is himself miscast, considering how zuko and the fire nation are japanese-coded, but the second they opened on that veruca salt looking ass bitch calling herself katara any hope that the makers of this movie gave any consideration to the racial coding avatar introduced went right out the window.) which adds Another layer of racism to this already inconceivably bad fuckup of a movie; how strange, that the movie’s racebending made all three heroes white, but the primary antagonist (as well as the secondary antagonist, zhao, and the mostly-off-screen-but-still-present ozai) is a man of color. what an odd coincidence. hmmmm.

i hate this movie. i do want to note, though, that dev patel’s inclusion was the only thing that actually got me through the whole thing; i have no idea why he was in this film (he’s FAR too talented for the content he was given and no one else in the entire cast went even one sixteenth as hard as he did) but he was its one saving grace. still, though, even he couldn’t save it. he was so cute and he did his damn best with probably the worst script in the history of film... but he was still in THIS film. since the release of this movie, patel has spoken out against his role in it and the world of hollywood blockbusters in general, and to that i say... good for him.

i was going for zuko though. this time it was like YES baby CAPTURE that avatar. full stop.

so yes, it was horribly miscast, whitewashed to hell and back, and went with a racist white hero/villains of color cast as a backdrop. all of these things, in themselves, are enough to completely condemn the movie, and my work here might as well be done... except to end it there would be to leave one million other glaring flaws unexamined. and i refuse to let any rock be unturned.

because, like, it’s NOT just bad because of the whitewashing. the whitewashing and the other racist elements are huge PARTS of why this is a bad movie, but even if this movie was made with an accurate and un-whitewashed cast, it would STILL be a bad movie, and i need you all to know this.

starting from the top: they ruined katara and sokka.

well, they ruined them the second they cast them the way they did. but again, let’s say they cast someone else. let’s say they cast appropriate actors for the rolls, but the level of acting skill and the script they used was the same. even in this case, they would have RUINED katara and sokka. none of the characters in this movie are 100% recognizable (and i’ll keep repeating it: the casting DID NOT HELP), but katara and sokka got hit the hardest and the worst. the things that sokka should have brought to the table (his goofy attitude, his intelligence) were erased, and the “sokka” we were given instead was a jerkass buzzkill who might have occasionally been the butt of a joke, but was never actually intended to be funny in his own right. reflecting on the series, it’s kind of as if we got his characterization from the first episode (before sokka got any development and was, i guess, kind of a jerkass buzzkill) and never strayed from that, which would be bad enough, but i think even episode ONE sokka was more fun and dynamic than White Sokka™. mistakes were made.

but it was even WORSE for katara. katara’s righteous anger was all but erased. SOKKA was the one who broke the avatar out of the ice, and only because they accidentally happened upon him--katara didn’t get to be angry at sokka’s jerkass sexism and unconsciously fuck up an entire iceberg. katara NEVER got to be angry. in fact, most of katara’s moments were taken and distributed between aang and sokka; aang, for instance is the one who inspires the earthbenders to break out of prison. we don’t even see katara train with master pakku, and SHE was the one who actually became a waterbending master when they went to the north pole. in this movie, katara mostly existed to talk about ~hope~ (very ember island players, lmfao) and hug aang when he went into the avatar state.

by the way, that prison? it’s not the metal platform in the middle of the ocean we got in the show. it’s just... an enclosed village. surrounded by dirt and earth. and the earthbenders never tried to break out until aang came along and told them to? hmmmm....

Unfortunate Implications™, but what did you expect.

other than that, idk. the writing was so fucking bad, y’all. a significant chunk of the plot relies on the “as you know” trope, in which characters have an expository discussion about something everyone present should already be aware of and wouldn’t need to get into. this normally wouldn’t bother me THAT much, if i noticed it at all (exposition is essential, after all, and you only have so much time in a movie, so i guess it makes sense when you’re trying to compress an entire season of a show into one), except like... it’s ridiculous. i couldn’t ignore it, they just hit the hammer so hard. “as you know, this is what the avatar is. as you know, zuko was exiled after fighting an agni kai with his father. as you know...”

bleh.

after that, i guess all my complaints are a little more pedantic. some smaller things that made the movie unwatchable: the bending motions were super weird and i think sped up? there were perfectly good martial arts moves right there waiting for them, and shyamalan fucked even THAT up in an effort to... what? make it look more “mystical?” bitch i’ll kill you. also, for reasons completely unfathomable to me, some of the names were pronounced oddly despite being said one million times in the show. “aah-ng” “ee-roh” “soh-ka” “ahvatar.” literally... why.

i’ve been thinking “soh-ka” in my head for like two weeks. hideous.

and one last thing, which really DOESN’T matter in comparison to what they did to the human characters, but like... what fucking happened to appa?? why did they do that to him?

don’t watch the last airbender.

#the last airbender #text post #katara #sokka #zuko #aang #hideous bad movie time

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vampirecatboy · 4 years

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i need to purge my brain of Amaranth lore so here we go

let’s start at the beginning! he was born to tiefling parents, Abby (warlock) and Faust (bard), a pair of travelers who lived in a secluded cottage in the untamed forests of eastern Cambria. they were killed by a group of fanatics bent on ridding their territory of demons (prejudice and fantasy racism play a big part in this story, fair warning) Amaranth, a toddler at the time, was spared. the killers were above directly killing a child, but not above letting him starve, cold and alone.

luckily, a ranger named Ceridwen Llywelyn was out in those woods less than a day later, and heard crying. they happened upon Abby and Faust’s cottage, door ajar, and went inside, where they found, first, the bodies of Abby and Faust, still lying in pools of their own blood, now dry. she followed the sound of crying to a room in the back, where they found a child no more than two, alone

kindhearted as she was, Ceridwen took the child, forwent their plans to gather food and pelts, torched the cottage, and made the journey back home to her husband, a blacksmith named Gareth. they barely even broached the subject of adoption, as soon as Gareth saw the little doe-eyed tiefling he practically drew up the papers himself. they named him Amaranth for his pinkish-red complexion.

Ceridwen and Gareth were both human, and they lived in a human settlement. they were both compassionate people who loved Amaranth unconditionally. they had no room in their lives for religious fanaticism that led to closed-mindedness and cruelty. the same could not be said of their neighbors, or their neighbors’ children

i won’t go into specifics (i haven’t hashed those out yet because i dread the thought of this) but children can be cruel when they’re taught a certain way. Amaranth suffered at the hands of his peers. jeering and names and jokes at his expense only grew worse as he got older and the other children got more... creative

dropping toads down the back of his shirt, throwing him in a pig sty, pretending to be friendly and leading him out into the woods to “show him something”, only to abandon him, leaving him to wander aimlessly until after dark (this did, however, lead to him unlocking his druidic talents)

but there was a girl, Selwyn, who had a bit of a soft spot for him, never really taking part in the bullying, and she and Amaranth grew... close? kind of. as close as they could get when your friends are being nasty to the nice boy you’ve taken a shine to.

one night, they’re out walking and she kisses him. it’s a nice moment, a little break from the constant slew of hatred, until some boys sneak up on them and dump a bucket of soured milk on both of them. the moment is gone. he runs home before anyone can do anything else. the experience makes him sick

now, where are Ceridwen and Gareth through all this? half-believing the lies Amaranth comes up with to explain the horrible things that keep happening to him.

the pig sty? “i tripped and fell”

getting lost in the woods? “i was out exploring”

getting sick after the sour milk incident? “it must’ve been something i ate”

and so on.

the last straw comes when he’s seventeen. they lock him in a pen of goats. it’s nowhere near the worst thing they’ve ever done, but the comments that come with it breaks something in him. they mock his horns. “be with your people, goat boy” they say. they leave him there. Selwyn won’t even look at him anymore.

that night, he goes into Gareth’s shop and takes one of his metal cutting tools (do those exist? like giant claw clippers you’d use on your pet? idk) and in a fit of self-hatred, clamps down on his right horn and breaks right through it. but he was too close to the quick and the pain is so great he passes out.

he comes to, the next morning with a splitting headache. Gareth is holding him and Ceridwen is nearby with a mortar and pestle, grinding up herbs to help with the pain and bleeding. he’s bedridden for two weeks as his broken horn heals. it won’t grow back, but the exposed quick will heal and scar over. still, as is, anything touching the broken end of his horn hurts more than anything so Ceridwen helps him file the jagged edges of the break, and Gareth fashions a prosthetic from silver

Amaranth doesn’t leave his house much after that. Ceridwen and Gareth know what’s been happening now, and they’re not too happy with Amaranth’s tormentors or their parents. Gareth is a big guy, intimidating, if Amaranth had been honest about what happened, he could’ve put a stop to it with a mere look.

leaving the settlement is not a decision they make lightly, but it’s what’s best for Amaranth. they don’t go very far, just two towns over. Gareth sets up shop as a blacksmith, and Ceridwen works out a deal with a local fur trader.

Ceridwen gets Amaranth some houseplants, and Gareth helps him cultivate a garden. He’s not overly eager to go out and meet new people, after all, he only knew true kindness from his adoptive parents. he doesn’t trust other humans.

still, Ceridwen and Gareth help establish him as a purveyor of herbs, an indirect healer of sorts. he knows what plants help with certain ailments and when his parents come to him with neighbors’ problems, he fixes a remedy and has Ceridwen or Gareth deliver it.

at some point, Ceridwen and Gareth have to go out of town, far north into Pictland, to get something for the smithy. Amaranth will have to be on his own for a while. the people of this new town don’t know he’s a tiefling and he doesn’t want them to find out. he stays inside.

townspeople still come to his door, asking for his help, and he does what he can. he delivers orders in the dead of night, when no one can see him, and has people leave payment on his doorstep. at first it’s only money, but as time goes on, townspeople leave him other things; honey and jams, breads and cheeses, mostly things to eat.

more time passes with no word from his parents. he starts taking jobs that normally go to Ceridwen, mostly pest control, dealing with dangerous and invasive creatures in the woods.

a year passes. still no word from Ceridwen or Gareth. by now Amaranth is an established druid, people go to him for help and he always does, but only at times when no one will see him. rumors circulate about him, but no one comes close to the real reason he’s so reclusive

at twenty, someone from his old town finds him. she stays at his door and refuses to leave without seeing him. in the dead of night, he opens his door to find Selwyn dozing off on his doorstep. he wakes her up and brings her inside. they talk about a lot, but eventually old feelings come up and they end up sleeping together.

the next morning, Selwyn asks Amaranth to come back with her, but he refuses, mostly because of the trauma he experienced, but he tells her it’s because he has to stay for when his parents come back. he tells her she can visit any time and she smiles sadly and nods. she leaves and he doesn’t see her again.

five years pass, and no word from his parents, but news travels and the clans of Pictland are at war, travelling is unsafe. Amaranth holds onto the belief that his parents are alive but worries nonetheless

and that’s the end of the backstory, after this, Draco worms his way into Amaranth’s life and “present” canon begins. going into all that would require going into some of Draco’s backstory and this post is long enough lol

#comm interference #i've been working on this since last night #and it is a beast of a thing #just super long #quite the infodump #dnd tag

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firelord-frowny · 4 years

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Some of y’all might have black friends who seem to be ~lashing out in anger~ because of all the shit that’s going on, and when someone is lashing out in a direction that maybe comes really close to where you’re standing, I know it can feel hurtful and confusing, and it can be hard to know how best to respond.

So, I wanna kinda explain that right now, and all throughout ~american~ history, really, black people have had to suffer PROFOUND psychological wounds. And it might not always seem that way bc I mean, most of us are otherwise ‘normal’ people just going on about our lives. It’s not immediately obvious how hurt we are. But if you’re observant, you can notice big differences in how black people respond to hearing about heinously bigoted acts, vs how white people respond to them.

For example, I somehow wound up talking to one of my violin teachers about eye color. I don’t remember how we got on that topic, but it prompted me to casually mention how my mom was born with blue eyes, and that when she was a baby and her mom would bring her on the bus, the white passengers would coo over my mom’s blue eyes, ask to hold her, and then take her to the front of the bus to sit with them while her mom stayed sitting in the back. Now, obviously I know that’s some racist-ass-shit, but like... it’s not shocking, and I’m pretty desensitized to those kinds of things in the sense that I obviously know it’s horrible and upsetting, but also, I’m not gonna mope about it at all.

But my teacher had this horrified expression and he went, “That’s... sick!”

So, think about that for a minute. Think about exactly how much trauma and abuse a culture would need to suffer generation after generation after generation in order to not even bat an eyelash at an incident that would cause most decent people to reel in disgust.

That’s the trauma.

You can see it demonstrated in Jane Elliot’s “brown-eye-blue-eye” experiment, where white children were scarred for life after enduring only a few hours of a very watered-down version of what black people have to go through for our entire lives.

That’s the trauma.

Trae Crowder, “The Liberal Redneck” summed it up nicely in one of his recent videos: “I mean, black people catch all this shit for rioting, but really, given the circumstances, they almost never do it, you know? But you can only push a people so far, and apparently they draw the line at wanton public murder at the hands of the law.”

We go through so much ugly shit every day, and sometimes it’s small things like being condescendingly described as “articulate,” and sometimes it’s bigger, scarier things like being pulled over because the cop thought the car we were in was Too Nice to belong to a black person, or a professor accusing you of plagiarism because they think you shouldn’t know any words with more than two syllables in it. And this is stuff that more often than not, we just bend over and take it. We just smile and nod. Because I swear, our only real concern is getting home safe. We will put up with the most demoralizing shit if it means we can exit the situation alive and unhandcuffed.

Sure, we go home and lament to our families or friends in private, but we have to “Behave” out in the real wold, because we know that there are people out there just looking for their chance to either ruin our day or end our lives, and we have no way of knowing who those people are until we’re already in danger. It’s a constant state of fear and hyperawareness. But we don’t really call it fear or hyperawareness. We just call it part of the black experience. These anxieties are built-in. It does not go away. It’s not always at the front of our minds, but it’s always present. It’s a miracle for some of us if we can go a full day without having to consider how our blackness someone’s racism may negatively impact us.

So when shit like these most recent murders happen...

it’s essentially tearing into a tender, festering wound. It’s the proverbial straw that broke the camels back. It’s the tectonic pressure, built up for millennia, finally unleashing an earthquake that yanks the ground right out from under everything and everyone, and the only thing anyone’s experiencing is chaos.

That’s the trauma! Your black friends are reeling from pain and grief and fear and frustration that is centuries old, and to be blunt, some of us ain’t coping. I mean really, this is some shit that can’t be coped with. I don’t think there’s a “healthy way” to deal with seeing people in your community being killed in public on camera, and not being able to escape having to see the footage over and over and over again. There’s no “healthy response” to having to witness, time and time again, people keep their freedom after they murder us. There’s no “correct” way to react when people in positions of power proudly defend and even praise the people who threaten and kill us, while demonizing and punishing us for getting angry and demanding change.

So, all off this what I want you to think about when you catch yourself feeling hurt and attacked by some of the things you might hear your black friends say. Try to remember that when a person - any person - goes through so much endless trauma, it’s not always possible to refrain from lashing out. And if you feel yourself wanting to interject with statements about “not all white people” or anything of the sort... try not to do that. Try, instead, to express compassion. Try to BE that hypothetical white person you reference when you say “not all white people.” Don’t TELL us about them - BE them! When you hear your black friends expressing their grief and anger, listen to them. Tell them that you’re here to help. Let them know that they’re safe with you. Let them know that they deserve justice, and that you’ll do your part to shape the world around you into something better. Tell them that you’re sorry for all the pain that’s being inflicted on them. Tell them that you care how they feel, and you care about their safety, and that you know they’re right to be angry. Tell them that they can call you if they ever feel there’s anything you can do to help keep them safe. Be available. Be kind. Be patient. Be sad and angry with us.

I know during times like this, obviously we want the focus to be on all the hurt that’s being done to the black community. And I mean, obviously we do get the worst end of this shit.

But like.

Every decent person suffers from this crap. All of our lives are made worse. All of us are stuck having to fight for shit we should have never even had to ask for. It’s not fair to anyone, and it sucks for everyone, but we all have to deal with it, and we all have to make it stop.

Idk, I guess my point is just... be compassionate. Be a good person. Be one small reason why your black friends maybe don’t have to feel quite so scared.

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toddhowardxreader · 4 years

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well.

things are escalating to an unprecedented level regarding my family, even considering what i’ve been through with them.

this entire blog, the personal sections, at least, has been an ongoing account of my struggles with abusive parental relationships since circa january 2014 and it’s quite a lot of baggage that i don’t know where to begin to summarize but i think i can say with reasonable certainty that much of what makes me the very broken individual i am today can be traced back to the way the adults in my life treated me as i matured.

right now things are reaching a head. i do not live at home with my parents and five younger siblings anymore, i’m hearing about everything secondhand through my brother, who is probably not allowed to be contacting me. apparently all forms of media and electronic devices have been banned in my household, barring anything that must be used for online courses.

from what i’ve heard, my two oldest sisters (20 and 16) got into a huge shouting argument with my parents several days ago about political stuff. i don’t know the details but given that my parents are the very worst sort of red-blooded conservatives who call COVID the china virus and do not hide their racism i can make an educated guess. it did not end well, and my younger sister left to go to a friend’s house, but my parents went after her and her friend’s parents called the authorities on mine.

this isn’t a new experience, by the way! there have been more than one occasion of me reaching crisis mode from their treatment and genuinely fearing for my own safety and desperately reaching out for my best friend and her mother to come rescue me. they have almost done the same thing, given my parents’ treatment towards me.

i’ve almost done the same thing, at times, when i worry about my siblings’ safety in that household.

my brother didn’t have any idea what kind of conversation ensued but following that is when the media crackdown began, and they took all phones away, enforced 7pm in bed curfew, and banned netflix and youtube. i’m assuming because they think that’s the entire source of my siblings’ “liberal views” but no idea.

today i got another update from my brother. he said today a woman came to their door and talked to my father. my brother only caught bits of this conversation but from the gist of it, it seems like my sister’s friend's parents are threatening to bring (or actually are bringing) some sort of legal action against my parents.

(in all honesty, i support this, but alas.)

following this my parents apparently talked alone in their room for several hours playing loud music expressly to prevent my siblings from listening in.

there’s been a period of time, lately, as my parents have made an attempt (a meager one, but better than what i’m used to, i.e.: none at all) to help with my mental health, and it made me think possibly things could be improving.

yet, with the many intake appointments i have had with psychiatrists, therapists, and other mental health professionals over the past several months, every time i have had to unpack the history of my relationship with my parents and numbly recite all the fucked-up events i endured that i’ve had to dissociate from in order to just live normally. the physical abuse, the threats, being locked out of the house, being terrified for my safety in my own home, being unable to contact anyone, being unable to escape. i still have nightmares featuring my mother.

i guess the only thing i want is for my siblings to not have to experience what i did, and it’s broken my heart that i’ve done such a poor job so far. i love them more than i could ever express to them and it hurts that they have to live in a damaging household full of yelling and anger and disregard for their mental wellbeing.

i’m torn at the moment on what to do. i told my brother i want to talk to whichever official is handling this and asked if i can reach out to my sister’s friend’s family, but he resisted this idea. he doesn’t know how legal action will affect the homelife of all my siblings, and i don’t either. i know it will be awful, but i also know it can’t be worse than them being scared to life in their own house.

idk why i’m writing this, i’m not in therapy right now, i don’t have anyone to talk to about this other than my brother and his best friend, who’s offered many times for him to come live with her. coping mechanisms are few and far between. writing down my thoughts helps figure things out slightly but at the cost of exposing my very fragile thoughts and emotions and i just pray no one actually read this far.

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nightcoremoon · 4 years

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lmao is sexting LITERALLY ACTUALLY ILLEGAL in india? or is the english translation garbage. it's ok if it is, english fuckin sucks. it wasn't built to function as a language, it was built to look pretty. spain france italy and germany added a million apostrophes and dashes so england was like "fuc þat, yl mayc me oun langwyj uyþ blacjac and hocers. yn fact, forget langwyj!" oh I'm sorry was that hard to read? yeah oxford predates the aztecs, it's because they realized their language fucking sucks and they spent a thousand years inventing the letters k, i, w, th, the silent e, soft g, long oo, etc, but in the end THEY JUST FUCKIN STOLE IT ALL FROM GERMAN, LATIN, FRENCH, & GREEK ANYWAY. and the bible but oh look the vatican fucking censored and rewrote the original bible in order to suit rodrigo borgia's political agenda. not to mention all the conquests in the name of all of those evil countries. thanks for nothing corrupt christianity. what was I talking about? oh yeah, if sexting is illegal in india I'll be disappointed but not at all surprised. fuckin britain coming in and ruining a perfectly good system. yeah because the hindu caste system was

GREAT.

#siddartha gautama gang

(hey if you're hindu that's great, praise shiva, but if you try to defend the caste system you're just a classist idiot and a plutocratic bootlicker)

inb4 "you're racist because you're a white person criticizing a brown government"

>implying I didn't literally criticize the 5 biggest white governments in the world right before that LMAO

I'd shit on the broken-ass indian government regardless of the skin color of the citizens. in fact the LITERAL BILLION citizens all deserve better; thinking that the rich and powerful cis het religious-majority MEN are idiot assholes isn't racism, especially since england fucking planted them all there in the first place. sorta like what happened in rwanda in the 90s. oof.

and anyway india at least functions as a society and its people are SOMEWHAT taken care of. but america? the uk? GREECE? yikes. india ain't the best but it ain't the worst.

"what's so wrong with greece" all video games illegal "what?" ALL. VIDEO. GAMES. ILLEGAL. greece, the birthplace of democracy, is just the birthplace of "if you convince the hundred most powerful dumbasses in the country then poof it's the truth even if it's wrong". however greece did give us 99% of current scientific knowledge [islam gave us math, africa gave us music, and rome gave us technology... that they probably stole from the arabs lmao] and delicious food oh yeah and the motherfucking olympians, so hey, greek culture is amazing, so it's just the chucklefucks in the government who are the idiots.

"ok what about america and england" yeah we're bloodthirsty imperialist monsters, read a history book. which one? any of them since we stuck our damn noses in everyone's business at some point or another.

edit- I'm probably being unfair to germans but like hey it ain't my fault y'all made nazis. y'all made up for it but still. plus they aren't really well known for their international conquests. as far as I know they just discovered beer brats & schnitzel and went fuckin nuts for the longest time until archduke franz ferdinand got shot. maybe I'm wrong and they're just as guilty as sweden and denmark of mass genocides but idk man I just like rammstein, I'm not a history buff I just know some shit about the 1st, 15th, 17th, and 20th centuries WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME

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purplesurveys · 4 years

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Have you ever had a controlling boyfriend/girlfriend? No, my girlfriend is super laidback and in fact she’s always the one encouraging me to go out and try new stuff with other people.

Have you ever written a love letter to someone as a joke? No but that doesn’t sound like a very nice thing to do either.

How many true heartbreaks have you had in your lifetime? In a romantic sense, once. I’ve had my heart crushed in other ways as well, like when a loved one dies.

Who last grabbed your ass? It’s definitely Gab but I don’t remember when that was. It’s been a while.

Have you ever cut yourself? Yeah man, I was big on that from 2016-2017. If I remember correctly I had a short lapse last year too, which is disappointing.

Do you get a 'Good Morning' text from someone every day? Not everyday but often enough. I like them; I do feel like I need greetings like those more so these days since I haven’t gotten to see anyone other than my family for two months now.

Do you have any gay family members? I honestly think I do but my family is so secretive about everything, from family drama to who has a terminal illness to sexual orientation. I will probably be the first one to publicly come out, if everything goes right in the new few months.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? I got it from one of the independent clothing stores in Feliz. They sold all these really cute tiny halter tops for only ₱80 each ($1.60)?!?!?! which was wild so I went ahead and got like four, and one of them is what I’m wearing at the moment. I’m so desperate to be outside, or at least, feel like I’m outside, so I’ve taken to wearing the clothes I’d wear in public right at home loooool.

Do any of your friends dislike each other? Yes lmao it’s hilarious. Andrew (who’s part of the newer wave of members in our org) has never been able to win over my OG org friends – Jo, Kate, Aya – so it gets super awkward when both ~generations~ get together in org parties. Since I’m everyone’s friend I always have to divide my time between groups or tables so that I get to spend time with everyone :(

Who is your last missed call from? It was from Angela’s mom, who called on the morning of my birthday to greet me. I feel bad about missing the call but you have to know that I hate getting calls from anyone other than Gabie, so when I woke up to my phone ringing I just rolled over to the other side and let the call pass. I did thank her profusely once I was properly up though.

Do you feel like everything is falling apart around you? This was me last night. As a journalism major, I felt very helpless seeing ABS-CBN get off the air at 7:47 PM and even more helpless when I saw so many people rejoicing over their shutdown, with absolutely no regard for the 11,000 employees who have just lost their jobs. Times have been hard enough in the country because of the government’s poor response to the virus, and now one of our biggest sources of news and information has also been silenced. It was enough to make me shut down last night and I just couldn’t do anything, couldn’t think properly, couldn’t even talk to my girlfriend.

Was your first kiss romantic? I’ve always thought it had been more awkward, but when we got to talking about it in the past my girlfriend apparently found it very romantic and sweet.

Do you miss any of your ex's right now? No ex.

Have you ever overdosed on anything? I have not.

What would you say if you found out your last ex was in a relationship? Look two questions above.

Who was the last person to text you before you went to bed? No one texted me before bed but I did get a text upon waking up this morning; it was Andrew. I’m guessing they saw that I deactivated all my social media last night because they texted their concern for me and told me they were gonna be there for me if I needed anyone to talk to.

How many chances do you tend to give people before enough is enough? One.

Do you know anybody whose last name is a color? Answered this in a survey but yeah, Maroon and Black.

What are you most likely to go to jail for? Ooh I dunno, I’m honestly such a goody two shoes skskksks. Does answering back to the police count? That’s the legit worst thing I imagine myself doing.

Where was your last kiss? Near my car. I was leaving Gabie’s place and she walked me to my car, and I gave her a kiss before I left.

Who was your date to Prom? My cousin. I didn’t give a shit about prom during my junior year since I was super infatuated with Gabie then, I was already seeing her, and I still had no guy friends, but because prom in my school was mandatory attendance I just pulled my favorite cousin to be with me that night.

Do you still talk to your first love? Yeah, I’m still with her to this day.

Whose wedding did you go to first? I honestly don’t remember since I was gotten as flower girl so many times as a toddler. I do have photos of being a flower girl when I was 3 and at least, that’s the oldest-documented wedding I was in. I don’t know whose it was, but it must have been a very distant relative since I only went with my paternal grandparents and absolutely no one else from my family, not even my parents lol.

When is the last time you went to the beach? Nasugbu, August 2019.

Do you ever feel like life is going by too fast? For sure. April was a fucking blur.

Are you ashamed of anyone you've dated in the past? No but my friends have always made me feel like not dating Mike was a bullet dodged. I dunno what to think of it though as I barely knew/know him.

What about anyone you've been friends with? Mostly no, since former friends were important to me at some point and to be ashamed of them is to throw away the good times we did have, but I do prefer to dissociate myself from Athenna. Her behavior has turned so rotten in college and she badmouthed Angela and made her miserable for a very long time; it’s like I have no clue who she is now. Apparently people in her school also think she’s a fucking weirdo, so that has just made me all the more confused about what’s happened to her through the years.

Have you ever made out with someone in a pool? In the sea, yes. Not in a pool since there’s always kids around.

What are you doing this weekend? Same thing I’ve been doing the last 51 days I guess: have late breakfast, take several surveys, maybe take a nap, continue my Spanish lessons, play with my dog, take more surveys, maybe meet some progress on my thesis if I feel mentally capable to work on it.

Who’s the last person that slept over your house? I think it was Gabie. I’m really the only family member that brings over someone at our place for the night haha, and it’s usually Gabie.

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed? Yes.

Have you ever kissed someone with a tongue ring? No but this did remind me of when I used to have a big crush on CM Punk, who used to have a lip ring hahahahahaha.

Is it hard for you to get over a lover? As a demi, I imagine it would be very hard as it would also be losing a best friend.

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex? I wouldn’t say that. I have a couple of close friends though.

Was your mom ever a stripper? No.

Do you regret any of the relationships you were in? A little bit. I wish my first relationship with Gabie ended months sooner than it actually did. The last few months of it were just us beating around the bush and physically avoiding it each other in school; it was a huge waste of time.

Have you ever tried making someone jealous? Yes, that’s what I did when we ^ finally broke up. By the time we broke up I had long accepted that the relationship wasn’t working and I was already doing a little fine, and I was well enough to do stuff to make her see that she was missing out. It’s high school pettiness so I’ve forgiven myself for it lol.

Would you ever get a boob job? I’ve definitely thought about it but idk. I’ll have to be rich enough to want to allot money for plastic surgery because it’s not very essential for me.

Did your last relationship end because of you or the other person? Because of her.

Who is the last person you flirted with? Just my girlfriend.

Whos the most racist person you know? Probably my mom. She has said some eyeroll-worthy stuff about the Chinese throughout the lockdown and I remember she initially had a negative reaction to my cousin Joelle when she introduced us to her black fiancé. I do know she’s a bit scared of me because I wouldn’t hesitate to call her out on her racism, so thankfully her statements have lessened over the years.

Do people ever compliment your eyes? Not really. It’s not a strong suit.

Have you ever lied to your boyfriend/girlfriend? Eh, just about small stuff like lying about not being hungry.

When is the last time you saw one of your ex's? Gabie was my ex at one point I guess? I last saw her March 7th.

Who was the last person you hung out with? Also Gabie. She was the last non-family member I saw before the whole world fell apart, basically lol.

Which one of your ex's do you hate the most?

Would you be upset if you caught your boyfriend looking at porn? No. I never understood why it’s a big deal for a lot of couples and I’d genuinely like to hear a good reason why. We don’t watch porn together but Gab and I would definitely watch some on our own time and it hasn’t affected our relationship or sex life at all.

Out of everyone you kissed, give me the initials of the best kisser? I’ve only kissed one person and she kisses amazingly, so GAD.

Do you regret a lot of things you did in the past? No. Just some small stuff here and there.

How many people have you kissed this year? One.

How many people has your best friend had sex with? One.

How long have you known the last person you kissed? I have technically known her since 2002, but we didn’t know each other and become friends until 2011.

Do you think one of your friends is a slut? No. One of my former acquaintances was and I’m so not saying that in a judgy way lmao she can fuck whoever she wants whenever she wants, but I don’t really talk to her anymore + she’s no longer single.

When is your birthday? April 21st.

#survey #surveys

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zayadriancas · 6 years

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What do you think are best and worst written episodes from each season of degrassi & why?

I don’t have a reason (or at least not a good reason) for all of these, but:

Season 1:

Best: Jagged Little Pill, Coming of Age

Worst: Basketball Diaries. Idk it was a boring episode and I hate that Spinners ADHD was used as a plot device then never mentioned again.

Season 2:

Best: When Doves Cry, Shout, Karma Chameleon, How Soon Is Now, Dressed in Black, Tears Are Not Enough

Worst: Hot for Teacher. It’s not very memorable and idk it just felt like an uneccesary filler plot

Season 3:

Best: Father Figure, Never Gonna Give You Up, Don’t Dream It’s Over, Our House, Whisper To A Scream

Worst: This Charming Man. Again it wasn’t very memorable and it just made Sean look like more of an ass, like they began that plot in Gangsta Gangsta but they just made him look worse in this episode instead of expanding on what was really going on with him. Thankfully they redeem him later but idk this episode just felt weird. And the subplot was boring and not memorable

Season 4:

Best: Mercy Street, Time Stands Still. Back in Black, Voices Carry, Secret

Worst: Bark at The Moon and Goin Down The Road. BATM was an unnecessary filler episode with two unnecessary relationships starting and GDTR just felt unrealistic and stupid and contrived idk it was weird especially the Kevin Smith stuff

Season 5:

Best: Turned Out, Redemption Song, & Our Lips Are Sealed

Worst: I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For & Together Forever. TF because the Liberty having her baby plot was so rushed and barely shown & this was the only time the pregnancy was actually from her POV.

Season 6:

Best: Eyes Without A Face and Free Fallin

Worst: Honestly pretty much every other episode lmao but If You Leave, Sunglasses At Night, True Colours, Here Comes Your Man, Don’t You Want Me, & Crazy Little Thing Called Love. HCYM because they screwed over Sean’s character for no real reason, tried to make Peter look good when he wasn’t, and the plot itself was just plain stupid. And neither of the subplots were likable. If You Leave just made Emma look like a bitch and was unnecessary drama and it made Dylan look like a bad guy again for no real reason (I never liked Dylan but they just made it worse in this episode and tried to make it seem like Marco was being irrational). CLTCL further damaged Sean’s character and the subplot was just filler cuz it never was mentioned again even though it actually did have potential. DYWM was actually a good episode for Alex even though it was heartbreaking but it still could have been written better and honestly my main reason for putting this episode under worst is because of the subplot. Emma’s “pregnancy scare” and Sean suddenly leaving again was so rushed and horribly written. I don’t really have a good reason for the other two episodes.

Season 7:

Best: Standing In The Dark, Live To Tell, Death or Glory, Hungry Eyes

Worst: Got My Mind Set On You, Owner Of A Lonely Heart, Dont Stop Believin’, Love is A Battlefield, Broken Wings, We Built This City, & Talking In Your Sleep. GMMSOY was one of the most boring episodes of Degrassi that I’ve ever seen. I never liked Derek but they just made him and Danny fight over a girl that was never mentioned again and Danny actually faced racism which is serious but that’s never mentioned again either. I know filler episodes exist but this one was one of the worst I’ve ever seen. The subplot made it worse. Emma/Damian was such a rushed and unnecessary relationship. Owner of A Lonely Heart was barely memorable either. I feel like all of Marcos plots in the later seasons were badly written/unmemorable. And I love Janny but their relationship was really rushed too. Don’t Stop Believin was just weird. I understand what the writers were trying to do but there was no reason for Ellie and Marco to make out/almost hook up to realize they were too dependent on each other. It was just really awkward. I don’t hate the episode but it just wasn’t written very well. Love is A Battlefield just made Paige look like a diva and was a bad write off for Alex’s character who went through so much development. Alex did nothing wrong but they tried to make her look like she was inferior to Paige and that’s not the first time they did that either. That’s the main issue I had with their relationship. And the subplot was an unnecessary filler. There was no reason for her and Damian to start another relationship only to end it in the same episode and then have Manny accused of being racist. It was so stupid. I don’t really have a reason for Broken Wings, it was just boring and not memorable. We Built This City just made Liberty look bad for no reason and made me wonder again what anyone saw in Damian and why his character existed. This class deserved a better graduation episode. & Peters subplot was random and boring and unnecessary, I mean they probably had no idea Shenae would be leaving when they wrote this plot but they have Darcy begging him to stay only for her to leave like 3 Episodes later. Peter could have just left and then we wouldn’t have had to sit through Pia or any of Peters other boring plots. Talking in Your Sleep was bad writing partly because Paige/Griffin being interested in each other was rushed but mainly because the whole HIV thing was never brought up again. I know there wasn’t a high chance of Paige getting it but still it just felt like they didn’t care enough to explore this plot further and Griffin wasn’t even a relevant character so they probably wouldn’t have done this plot to its full potential anyway, which sucks.

Season 8: (ugh why does mobile app keep spacing things so far apart?)

Best: Causing A Commotion, Jane Says, Heat Of The Moment, Lost In Love, Heart Of Glass, Fight The Power, Didn’t We Almost Have It All, Up Where We Belong (most of these are for the main plots, the subplots in Heart Of Glass, Fight The Power and Jane Says sucked)

Worst: Uptown Girl & Degrassi Goes Hollywood. I know DGH wasn’t meant to be realistic but it still could have been written a lot better. They had Paige turn into a total diva even though acting isn’t even what she wanted to do in the first place and it just tainted her character for no reason. What makes it worse is they had Paige specifically tell that Hayley girl or whatever her name was that she’d never treat people as bad as she treated Paige, but then Paige ends up treating people just as bad anyway. As for Manny’s plot, it was great to see her dream come true at the end but the whole teacher/student relationship cane out of nowhere. I know Manny didn’t play a big role in Season 8 but we still did see her throughout the season so even though that relationship should have never happened in the first place, they should have built up to it at least. Ellie’s plot was the only one written decently but that wasn’t enough to me up for half of the movie being awful. Uptown Girl was equally unrealistic but this wasn’t some special movie so it really had no excuse for being that way. Mia becoming a model was a terrible uneccesary storyline and the fact that she slept with the Tom guy but still got to keep the job didn’t add up. I know it wasn’t publicly revealed until later and I know Danny and Leia didn’t say anything but still. It just was stupid.

Season 9:

Best: Shoot To Thrill, Why Can’t This Be Love, Waiting For A Girl Like You, Somebody, & You Be Illin

Worst: Just Can’t Get Enough, Close To Me, Holiday Road, & Degrassi Takes Manhattan. JCGE handled Peters meth use terribly. It was so rushed through and felt pointless. Close To Me tainted Janes character for no real reason by having her cheat on Spinner. Holiday Road just made Emma into controlling girlfriend when they could have instead just focused on the fact she was hiding that she flunked out of college and how hard it was on her. Degrassi Takes Manhattan was just…a mess. Between the rushed, random, unnecessary and pointless Spemma marriage to Janes boring plot, it was just awful. Nothing about Spemma made sense, the writing was awful, it was the most rushed relationship I’ve ever seen. This movie was a train wreck.

Season 10:

Best: Purple Pills, What A Girl Wants, Breakaway, Hide and Seek, Chasing Pavements, Halo, Drop The World

Worst: Love Lockdown. I liked the two subplots but the Holly J/Declan plot was awfully written. I can understand Holly J. not wanting to start anything by admitting that she thinks she was raped and instead just wanting to say she regrets what happened, but the fact that Declan pressured her and didn’t listen when she said no does qualify as rape but they let Declan get away with it which is disgusting. Sure, Declan may have not realized what he was doing but that doesn’t make it okay.

Season 11:

Best: Boom Boom Pow, Idioteque, Take a Bow, Paper Planes, Can’t Tell Me Nothing, Hollaback Girl, Smash Into You

Worst: Love Game. I just hate how they wrote Clare in this episode.

Season 12:

Best: Zombie, Waterfalls, Rusty Cage, Never Ever

Worst: Come As You Are & Walking on Broken Glass. The whole situation with Katie and Drew was written so terribly. They worked so hard to make Katie look like the victim. Yes it was wrong of Drew to cheat on Katie, & he should have been honest and upfront from the beginning about wanting to break up, but what Katie did was way worse. Yet they don’t show everything that happened so we’re made to believe that Drew just “had sex while drunk and forgot because he blacked out” and we’re supposed to think he’s so terrible for dumping Katie after they “had sex” though he made it clear he didn’t wanna be with Katie anymore, he wanted his first time to be sober and with Bianca, there was no way he consented to having sex with Katie, he was too drunk and honestly that whole video of Drew cheering about having sex was so contrived. At the end of the first part of the episode he just says “I did it” which could have meant that he thought he broke up with Katie. Then he falls down the stairs and hits his head, then regains conciousness and looks confused but keeps jumping around and dancing but it’s never implied that he thought that he had sex or that he did have sex. Yes we see him and Katie kiss but that doesn’t automatically mean sex and either way kissing does not equal consent. The next day Drew is completely confused as to why Katie thinks they’re back together, it doesn’t matter why he doesn’t remember, what matters is it’s clear he didn’t want it to happen. So they just created that part of the video to make Drew look like he “wanted it” even though 1) HE WAS TOO DRUNK TO CONSENT 2) It was clear he never wanted to have sex with Katie, he went upstairs to break up with her, even telling her he lied about Courtney to get him to break up with her cuz he wasn’t happy. Katie thought that just cuz Drew said “he might be dead if it weren’t for her” that somehow meant he didn’t want to break up, even though when she was saying all that BS about how he shouldn’t be able to make decisions about their relationship on his own, he just sat there with a dazed expression on his face. He never said he still wanted to be with her. 3) Drew would never talk like that if he were sober. It’s just like Zoe saying “do you think I’m sexy” when she was blackout drunk and assaulted. Drew didn’t even remember saying or doing any of that stuff just like Zoe didn’t and she obviously didn’t want it either. So yeah. Come as You Are & Walking on Broken Glass were both terribly written. The only good part of CAYA was Maya’s plot. The other reason WOBG was terrible aside from the Katie/Drew stuff was also terrible because Eli acted like such an entitled ass and even though Becky was ultimately wrong for being homophobic, Eli only changed the play to spite her even though he said otherwise, and before she was revealed to be homophobic he was totally condescending and rude to her. Eli didn’t deserve to be the director because he acted like he was the only one who was allowed to be in charge of plays. I’m not really saying this was badly written because it made sense for Eli’s character, it just annoyed me. Oh and, Tristan pretending to be Maya to talk to Cam and when Cam finds out, he says he will never be friends with either of them but that’s completely forgotten later. I think the whole plot of Tristan impersonating Maya was dumb but the plot itself wasn’t bad writing it just was a bad idea but the part about Cam saying they’ll never be friends was inconsistent writing.

Season 13:

Best: Unbelievable, How Bizzare, My Hero, Enjoy The Silence, The World I Know, Better Man, You Are Not Alone, Believe

Worst: About A Girl, Cannonball, Honey, Black and White, Who Do You Think You Are, Barely Breathing, Spiderwebs, Sparks Will Fly, & Thunderstruck. The main reason of course for Honey is Adam dying and the fact that it was so poorly written. But also because the Maya/Zoe/Miles drama was so cringeworthy. And they tried so hard to make Alli/Leo look like a good relationship for several episodes and I know abuse isn’t always immediate but in this episode and in episodes prior they try so hard to make it seem like Alli and Leo have an epic romance and by the time we see Leo become aggressive for the first time it feels underwhelming, like it’s obviously heartbreaking and they do better with the abuse storyline in later episodes but idk the writing was just really weak in this episode. With About A Girl, again I hated the petty Maya/Miles/Zoe/Tristan drama, & Adam impersonating Becky was stupid and felt honestly out of character. With this episode & with Cannonball, they had a great opportunity to explore Connor being asexual but it’s dropped after these episodes and just used as an excuse for relationship drama. Cannonball also sucked because of Adam crashing into a tree of course which was such a sloppy way to write him out of the show, he deserved better. With Black and White, they all the sudden had Winston try to ruin Drew’s presidency and have something against him even though Drew never did anything to him. They tried to make us feel sympathy for Winston even though the way he treated Drew was out of line. Who Do You Think You Are & Barely Breathing were both awful because the plot of Dallas getting kicked off the hockey team and developing a drinking problem wasn’t even from his own point of view. The storyline had great potential but they fucked it up by not making it from his point of view. Then the Maya/Zoe drama was so ridiculous. Both of them were in the wrong for different reasons. What Maya did was awful and she definitely deserved punishment for it, but Zoe also deserved punishment and the way they tried to make her look innocent pissed me off so much. With Spiderwebs, the Drianca break up was so rushed and random and written so awfully. I can understand if Alicia couldn’t or didn’t wanna come back but it could have been written better and it was pretty clear that they only broke them up so Drew could be free to have ridiculous relationship drama plots, even though none of those relationships lasted long (or even happened in the first place like Clew) and all of those plots just dragged Drew’s character down. Drew and Drianca deserved better. Then there was the Eclare plot. Clare took Eli back so quickly even though he made little to no effort to earn her trust back. And then we have Alli supporting Clare taking Eli back even though Alli herself has been cheated on before and she used to strongly dislike Eli and had even more of a reason to now. I could also say that the cheating plot in BOW was written badly but honestly Eli doing shitty things doesn’t surprise me but in Spiderwebs the whole thing was badly written. Clare deserved better. With Sparks Will Fly, Clew finally is about to start an actual relationship after several episodes of build up only for Eli to show up, thus Clew doesn’t happen. What was the point of building up Clew if they were just going to keep bringing Eli back? Then there was the Zig/Maya/Miles triangle, that had both guys acting like assholes and they had the episode to make this episode about why Maya was so scared of rejecting Zig/hurting Miles but instead they made it about relationship drama, yeah they had Maya say “I can’t be with a guy who scares me, not again” and “last time someone I cared about disappeared they never came back” but we don’t see Miles even react or care about those statements which is one of the many reasons Matlingsworth sucks, he never truly cared about her feelings. Yes Zig was an ass in this episode too but he’s proven to care about Maya’s feelings on more than one occasion despite making a lot of mistakes. Miles only ever cared about himself. With Thunderstruck, I didn’t hate the episode but it was badly written. We’re supposed to believe Drew and Becky are romantically interested in each other even though in past episodes they were just shown to be friends. Yes, they spent a lot of time in the woods together in the last episode but nothing about it was romantic. Even though they were friends throughout most of the season, they were never super close yet somehow Drew suddenly knows all this stuff about her. I can buy him being attracted to her, but not actually having real feelings with her. Everything about Drecky was rushed and unnecessary. Then with the Maya/Zoe plot, Zoe and Zig suddenly are interested in each other, again yes they spent time together in the previous episode but nothing about it was romantic. Then, despite Maya supporting Zoe at her trial and them being on better terms, she hates her again all because Miles almost cheated on her with Zoe, even though Zoe was literally out of her mind drunk and was assaulted the same night. Yes Maya was mad at Miles too but Miles was really the only one who deserved blame in this situation. I can understand why Maya was upset, especially because Zig agreed to go to the dance with her after already saying he’d go with Maya, but the way she acted was immature whether she was drunk or not. Yes, Zoe was never a good friend to Maya but Maya still acted irrationally. And Zoe saying she was trying to be Maya’s friend all year was bad writing as well because that was total bullshit and not true. Then the Eclare plot, Clare conveniently hits her head, has to go to the hospital, misses her interview, all the hotels are booked so she has “no choice” but to stay with Eli. Hmm, how convenient. Then the random ass revelation of Clare being pregnant at the end. Which of course leads into more terribly written plots for season 14.

Season 14:

Best: (You Drive) Me Crazy, Wishlist. Get it Together, Give Me One Reason, & The Kids Aren’t Alright

Worst: Anything involving Degrassi Nudes and Clare’s pregnancy in the first half of season 14. Most of the episodes really only suck because of those plots, like they’d be fine otherwise without those plots. It was hard to pick a specific episode. I also didn’t like Finally, I hate how badly Drew was screwed over throughout this episode when he did nothing wrong, and I hate how Imogen and Jack briefly reuinite only for Imogen to once again feel like she has to do everything to please Jack whereas Jack puts in little to no effort, and then they break up again. There was no point in any of that, and once again Imogen loses her girlfriend on the prom/graduation episode :( I know it was Imogen’s choice both times but like with Fiona it was because she didn’t want to hold her back and also because the writers wanted to bring Imogen back for another year. Imogen deserved better honestly. I also felt like the Hunter plot was out of place even though I did like the plot, it didn’t really fit in this episode.

Season 15/NC season 1:

Best: YesMeansYes & ButThatsNoneOfMyBusiness

Worst: NotAllMen and ThisCouldBeUsButYouPlayin. With NotAllMen, I felt like the whole plot with Zoe thinking David was her dad was a bit random and also felt unrealistic, like it would have been great if Zoe had a real plot about finding her real dad but idk, it felt poorly written. and then they have Gracevas kiss and still Grace isn’t honest about her feelings. It would have been great if Grace actually returned her feelings, but seeing where the next episode goes, they didn’t need to tease us like that, it was fucked up. Then there was Frankie’s plot. It was clear Frankie was struggling and instead of going deeper into that, they have Jonah think he knows Frankie, being condescending and rude to her, and having Frankie’s friends guilt her into staying with them even when she wanted to try and go make a difference and volunteer. Jonah had no right to treat Frankie the way he did, it was uncalled for, but somehow this is the build up to their relationship which never needed to happen, at least not the way it did. Frankie could have been given a real depression storyline but instead it’s all about boy drama. I know they also do this in three other episodes of the season but this particular episode’s plot was the most poorly written. TCBUBYP was awful because of the contrived cheating plot that instead could have been Zig talking to Maya about his insecurities, or if he had to talk to Zoe she could have just been there for him as a friend, there was no need for them to hook up, and the fact that Zoe recorded it was even more disgusting. And then of course setting up Gracevas only for Grace to not return Zoe’s feelings and randomly say she likes Zig which made zero sense. Everything about this plot was contrived and awful. It just tainted Zaya, Zig, Grace, and Zoe for no real reason and they couldn’t even write it in a way that made sense.

Season 16/NC season 2:

Best: ThatAwkwardMomentWhen & BuyMePizza

Worst: TheseAreMyConfessions & ThrowbackThursday. & ToMyFutureSelf. TAMC because Grace liking Zig was obviously forced and it was extremely awkward, and the way Grace treated Maya was out of line but we’re supposed to feel sympathy for her and she never even apologizes (like maybe she did off screen but I doubt it because anytime someone screws Maya over they rarely face consequences or apologize, or if they do its not sincere). There’s no real explanation aside from Grace’s illness why she acting the way she’s acting, but her illness is no excuse to treat Maya like crap and it doesn’t explain why she lead Zoe on either (you’re my best friend I tried for you isn’t a good excuse), And her liking Zig was so random and made no sense and it was obviously forced. ThrowbackThursday was badly written in my opinion because the alumni’s lines mostly felt forced and awkward and they deserved more screen time. And while it was great that the writers wanted to bring attention to the BLM movement, Tiny getting suspended wasn’t because he was black, and then they don’t even have the storyline from his point of view. I know that they brought up that Frankie barely got in trouble for her racist banner, they should have done the plot about that with Shay leading the protest, or they could have had Tiny fight a white kid who went to their school and have Tiny receive more punishment than the white kid if they wanted the plot and protest to make sense. ToMyFuturseSelf just made Grace seem like a bad friend and her reasoning for being on Zig’s side for most of the episode even though she called him out the most after he cheated on Maya made no sense. And they just made Zig look even worse in this episode for no reason. The other plots were just boring and hardly memorable.

Season 17/NC season 3

Best: Honestly all of them

Season 18/NC season 4

Best: Obsessed, Fire, KThxBye

Worst: I thought the Zig/Esme/Frankie plot in FactsOnly was poorly written but the rest of the episode was great

#degrassi #long post #anonymous #answered

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yuckubus · 6 years

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disclaimer: i love all my mutuals and respect their opinions, y’all will be missed if you decide to unfollow after i pour my judgmental heart out

1. the most well-rounded member of bts, is hoseok. yall can argue that it’s jk, but i said what i said

2. minghao with a mullet is godtier; out of all the male idols with mullets, he is The king.

3. speaking of seventeen, a lot of their songs are very edm-inspired but it works really well for them

4. woozi deserves recognition for the songs he produces, like i really hope he gets an award for his production skills bc he’s amazing

5. i feel like most wonwoo stans, stan him for his beauty and not his talent (which, he’s not a bad rapper)

6. that being said, i wish he (wonwoo) played around a little more bc his flow is kinda predictable. not only that, but he can do more than just rap lowly and get loud.

7. seokmin/ dokyeom > jungkook, in terms of vocal ability. he’s just better

8. imo, in terms of like younger groups i guess? leader wise, namjoon is the best leader. im not saying other group leaders like scoups, for example, are bad at their abilities to lead, but i think nj really is.

9. spring day, don’t leave me, the truth untold, best of me, and whatever else yall try to advocate as good songs...are not good. they dont do anything for me. sorry

10. also just one day is the superior rnb bts song.

11. house of cards didn’t deserve all the hype it got. like, its good but it hasnt done anything for me since i heard the full version.

12. while im not as into got7 as i used to be, ya’ll took all the stuff that happened with got7 and RAN lol like yall really went in on them and still do and it’s sorta.. annoying? like i get why people do not like certain members (i really do!!) but its tired now. it has been for a while

13. speaking of got7, if they did more stuff like just right (since it worked so well for them) and the flight log trilogy, ESPECIALLY turbulence, it would be effective

14. I dont know why people think lucas from nct is so dumb, he just has moments

15. speaking of lucas, i dont see any purpose for him in nct. he doesn’t provide anything special or new except some personality and physical beauty.

16. sm either needs to get rid of some members of nct, or really talk to these niggas bc he doesnt seem to care about anyone but mark, taeyong, jaehyun, and doyoung...and sorta lucas

17. jungwoo is a product of taemin. either that man is his father, or he’s a relative.

18. in terms of like newer and young rappers, mark lee is the only one with some potential; sometimes, he lacks, but he really is the only one

19. jaemin and jeno ended and revived kpop with their verses in Go!

20. chanyeol and sehun go off in some exo songs, especially forever. they’re still not great rappers.

21. exo has the better vocal line and bts has the better rap line. i just ended every pointless, unnecessary fanwar.

22. the exo l x army beef is so..stupid like all of y’all look childish. deadass. it’s never that deep unless both sides really said some serious shit and, most cases they dont so literally shut up lol

23. astro’s danceline are amazing

24. JEALOUSY BY MONSTA X? SLAPS. HARD

25. kihyun’s voice is absolutely beautiful and deserves that recognition bc he really has such a beautiful voice

26. Pentagon’s first album is THAT first mini album. if you havent invested time in it, please do

27. like the wonwoo thing, mingyu and wonho stans only stan these boys for physical attractiveness. I see something all the time (on twitter) anout wonho’s body and not really much about just him. this sounds fake deep, but forreal

28. stan twitter in general has great memes and stuff, but they are quite literally, the worst set of fans i have ever seen. facebook fans and instagram fans are just evil too but stan twt is satan.

29. in terms of talent level in twice...there’s 9 girls and only 4/9 really do something. i do love them though

30. tzuyu is great and shes so pretty but that’s it. the personality and everything else, where is it

31. imma be honest, i think chaeyoung is the prettiest

32. kyla isnt coming back to pristin, we all know this. it’s just time to face it

33. people only care about like 5 members of pristin, and theyre all in pristin v...there was a reason for their creation lol

34. miss shannon, aka sungyeon, of pristin? she’s got lungs and deserves to be seen as more than just her round face

35. MISS JOY is That member of red velvet

36. i dont think this is unpopular, but all the good rapper idols would be so much better if they just didnt sink into a niggaboo phase

37. ALL MEN WHO RUN ENTERTAINMENT COMPANIES (I.E. JYP, SM, YG, HITMAN BANG, AND WHOMEVER ELSE) ARE EVIL. IDC

38. i dont,...really care for jennie; she overdoes the cuteness sometimes

39. rose would be so much more powerful if she dropped the sza syndrome (I hope this isnt offensive, if it is please let me know)

40. if wendy wasn’t the leader and main vocalist of red velvet, her ass would have already been gone for that crap she pulled again

41. girl groups? are just as low down and dirty with their racism and antiblackness but that stuff gets hidden really well unless you look it up...or are mamamoo

42. IOI SHOULD HAVE LIVED LONGER THAN WANNABE. no one wants to hear that shit, ioi was giving us bops but after that year was up, they couldnt wait to get rid of them...but wannaone still exists. ok

43. all the my idols are gay legends stuff is kinda annoying now... like...you dont know their actual sexuality, so stop trying to justify your weird ass argument with proof from 1997, it’s not cute (this could be said about yoongi, but i mean in general)

44. people dont see holland as more than his sexuality, and what i mean by that is, a lot of people dont care about him or wont until he starts interacting with male idols, so people can start shipping them with him

45. kpop stans do women involved with male groups so fucking dirty, like ya’ll cannot wait to tear them down due to your insecurities as a fan. You’re not marrying any of them, so pipe the fuck down

46.nonblack stans, especially on twitter, dont really care about black issues lol yall do that fake oh my god im so sorry :( then use some form of aave with ?????????? and then move on.

47. IF KPOP GROUPS WOULD JUST ACKNOWLEDGE AND PROPERLY APOLOGIZE ABOUT THEIR PAST ACTIONS, MAYBE WE CAN LEARN AND MOVE ON; BUT THEM AND THEIR COMPANIES REFUSE TO. it’s like trying to feed a baby who doesn’t wanna be fed

48. people are allowed to still be upset about an idol’s past actions. it is valid ESPECIALLY if you are a fan of color. You are also allowed to unstan and not explain yourself bc no one’s gonna beat your ass for it.

49. these idols and their companies dont really care about their fans as much as they want y’all to believe. i believe they care to a degree, but it’s exaggerated

50. none of yall are family; you can say it a million and six times, but you really only believe that if you are not a person of color.

51. ya’ll do not know these idols like you think you do; they choose what they want you to show, even in their “RAW” shows; they are not going to let you see them in their 100% real self, ya’ll are strangers to them

52. being on kpop social media is exhausting, and idk how any of yall are able to do it 24/7. kpop is not that interesting enough for me to be around all day and all night.

53. Idol groups that play instruments deserve the world

54. that being said, i hope that n.flying, day6, and the rose get recognition because they’re out here being multi-talented, funny, and good looking.

i have more opinions but these are ones i could think of. anyway, hope yall enjoyed my ranting.

#if i find this anywhere near twitter im fighting #mine #kpop

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minhoony · 8 years

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11 QUESTIONS

(๑•͈ᴗ•͈) LONG POST AHEAD (SORRY)

i was tagged by both @winneresque and @lonelyand-precarious , thank u so much i love both ur questions <3 so i’ll be answering 22?

maya’s questions:

If you could meet 3 historically significant people who would you pick? i’m embarrassed as i have no answer to this..;;

Whats a book you really like but probably won’t recommend to anyone? it’s not really a book but this collection of pictures which only i seem to find nice so there’s that.

Do you like anime and if so what are your favourite ones? i don’t watch but i’ve seen some, they’re not bad i guess but i don’t have a favourite. maybe if i watch more i’ll have one.

Do you prefer coke or pepsi? cOKE FOR SURE

What would you say your worst habit is? being messy, my room can be quite unhygienic due to my laziness so probably LAZINESS,,smh

Do you think Winner are really coming back on April? THEY ARE NOW THAT’S FOR SURE 4/4 4PM :’)

Are you a morning or an evening shower type of person? evening as i'm lazy in the morning

How long is your makeup and skincare routine? 5 minutes as i don’t do makeup but i’m interested tbh

If someone wanted to get to know kpop music which group or artist would you recommend to them? bigbang, blackpink, bts? most typical oh and exo! perhaps winner but idk their style is not for everyone (as of now)

On a scale of 1-10 how different is your current life from your ideal life? With 10 being the most different it’ll be a 6/5 as i don’t really have an ideal life? but i’m contended as of now but i do wish i’m more productive T^T it’s a crucial year for me

Do you have any pets? How many? What are their names? (I’m sorry but I just really like hearing about pets) i wish i have pet

ree’s questions:

What issues matter to you? this is a tough question, i’d say islamophobia is something that bothers me a fair bit, also racism and homophobia,,asian country problem 101 ; i feel that at the end of the day, no matter who we are, we are humans and actions inflicted on others, we should think in others shoes more often.

What languages can you speak/write? english and mandrin /chinese, also i can speak hokkien (a dialect)

Do you play any musical instruments? i used to play the violin and organ (smth like a piano)

What was the last book you bought? hunger..games..but i’ve read plenty at the bookstore, just that i have no money to buy them.

Do you have kpop merchandise? yES omg i’m proud tbh, all of winner’s albums lmao like every version of 2014 s/s and exit e including westminister version and the exit tour cd also the exit:e collection photobook and both winner and ikon (bc i went for their concert) lightsticks, whICH I PROUDLY PAID FOR ALL THESE WITH THE MONEY I EARNED FROM WORKING :’) + mobb mino version of course!! <3

What is your pet peeve? bad scheduling when i'm going out with them

When was the last time you went camping? last year march

How many hair colours have you had? 1 :( i want to try something new this year

Do you read comics? nah

Favourite dessert? all of them give them to me i LOVE esp choco

Describe your style. whatever looks good on me LOL but fr i guess comfy, basic clothes that i can wear over and over again

finally, on to my questions:

what do you think may happen in the future, tech wise?

do you believe in a heaven and/or hell?

favourite place you’ve been to?

favourite drink and fruit?

what is one thing that makes you happy?

what is your favourite type of weather?

what is your favourite app on your phone right now?

what is your dream and how close are you to reaching it?

how do you normally relax and unwind?

opinions on aliens/creatures out of this world?

what is the best prank you have ever pulled?

well that was random, and long: i rambled a lot but thank u for reading until here, hope you have a good day and that winner drops a billion teasers, love u ヾ(๑╹ヮ╹๑)ﾉ”

tagging: @seunghoonnn @seungyoon @bts-eventeen @hoshlzoras @whimperman @hobitama @jiholeen @yoonmino @taehyuncity @bapgguk @hayigrnd & anyone who wants to do this!!

#well that was a long post #but it was worth it #tags #hope my answers were somewhat interesting lmao im a boring person #personal

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shriekingshxck · 8 years

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James Potter and Draco Malfoy for the ASK game!

ahhh thank you!!

JAMES POTTER

hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff

best quality: his loyalty and bravery

worst quality: his loyalty and bravery

ship them with: lily evans and a lowkey trash part of me enjoys non-platonic prongsfoot a lot

brotp them with: sirius black

needs to stay away from: ??? i don’t have any james-related notps tbh

misc. thoughts: i cry every single time i think about the fact that james was gonna try and hold voldemort off to give lily and harry a chance to escape even though he knew there was no way he’d survive. i mean he stood up to voldemort and shouted at lily to take harry and run, knowing very well that he’d never see either of them again????? hE LOVED LILY FOR SO LONG AND HE FINALLY GOT HER BUT ONLY GOT TO SPEND A FEW SHORT YEARS WITH HER BEFORE THE WORLD WENT TO SHIT AND HE DIED IN AN ATTEMPT TO SAVE HER AND THEIR SON AND- yeah i’m crying now

DRACO MALFOY

hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff

best quality: his ability to see the errors of his ways and do some good despite knowing he could end up suffer lethal and painful consequences for it aka his courage

worst quality: his blatant racism

ship them with: astoria greengrass

brotp them with: blaise zabini and lowkey harry

needs to stay away from: hermione

misc. thoughts: idk i don’t hate draco, i really don’t, but i do think this fandom has a tendency to glorify him a lot. he saw the errors of his ways eventually, which i appreciate, but he was still blatantly racist and nothing in canon suggests that he ever changed that particular side of himself even though he evidently stopped being openly hostile towards hermione (and, presumably, other muggleborns). i do find him to be an extremely fascinating character, though!

#ask #Anonymous

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yamesutya · 8 years

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1-154 all of them!! Because I want to know everything!! what the heck! I love you, have a lovely night :)

LMAO ANON YOU CRAZY I LOVE YOU THOUGH THANK YOU HAHA

(lol I’m working my way through them, it’s not quite done yet. ANON YOU BETTER SEE THIS LOL)

1. Full nameSonia Fan (that’s it, no middle name)

2. Zodiac signleo

3. 3 Fears bugs, the ocean, being alone/forgotten/left behind

4. 3 things I lovepuppies, tacos, traveling

5. 4 turns onsnice eyes, a good sense of humor, being open-minded, nicely kept hair (particularly the swooped up style that hector used to have)

6. 4 turns offs lack of communication, unfaithfulness, racism/general offensive behavior/lack of understanding of others, poor taste in sports teams lmao

7. My best friend my roommate!

8. Sexual orientationstraight

9. My best first datelol ok well this might sound confusing but I’ve never really officially dated anyone (to me this means officially bf/gf), but I’ve gone on a nice date on valentine’s day and the relationship didn’t end up being weird even though it didn’t work out… we just went to the movies and dinner

11. What do I miss LONDON, all the places I’ve traveled mostly… OOH, the animes I finished recently because I need them to come back RIGHT NOW

12. What time were I born I actually don’t remember…

13 Favourite colour purple

14. Do I have a crush hm, not really, kind of still like the guy I was talking to a while ago but ATM it’s best I just focus on myself

15. Favourite quote this isn’t necessarily my favorite, but one I’ve always remembered and liked is “the past is in the past, let it fucking GO”

16. Favourite place london, hands down, can you tell?

18. Do I use sarcasm hahaha oh boy do I ever I’ve been sarcastic since day 1

19. What am I listening to right now irl nothing lol

20. First thing I notice in new person their smile, how they carry themselves

21. Shoe size teeny tiny, 5-5 ½, sometimes a 6

22. Eye colour brown

23. Hair colour dark brown

24. Favourite style of clothing anything in the color black lmao I kid you not. comfy, clean but cute and stylish I guess, I’m pretty basic tbh

25. Ever done a prank call? noooo

26. What colour of underwear I’m wearing now? I had to check lmao, white

27. Meaning behind my URL hector is the (albeit problematic but lovable) OG arsenal fav, he’s not the first reason I looked into arsenal, but he is what hooked me

29. Favourite song honestly I have a few, my most recent jams have been La Carretera (Prince Royce), Ya Me Enteré (Reik ft. Nicky Jam), Nunca Me Olvides (Yandel), aaand Caroline (Aminé) randomly

lots of latin music since I’ve had the local latin station on a lot lol

30. Favourite band This Century, Marianas Trench

31. How I feel right now a little stressed, but doing ok

32. Someone I love my parents

33. My current relationship status single, a little confused and sad, but still sort of ready to mingle

34. My relationship with my parents I get cranky when I stay at home too much these days, but it’s good so far and I love them, I miss them every time I leave. I don’t tell them enough but I’m super thankful for the life they’ve given me, I graduate soon and I know when that happens and I see them I’m going to be emotional

36. Tattoos and piercings? used to have my ears pierced, no tattoos

Tattoos and piercing i want one day I’ll probably get my ears pierced again, and I actually do want a few tattoos even though when I was younger I never thought I would. I want some purple flowers on my wrist, and potentially ones involving arizona, where I’m from, maybe my astrological sign or some kind of soul animal, but I’m not sure about those so it’d be a while if I were to get the last two

37. The reason I joined Tumblr my friend had one and it looked fun lol. and I was just getting into kpop

38. Do I and my last ex hate each other? um. he’s not even really an ex since we were still figuring things out. but we’re a bit awkward. we’re just both dumb and stubborn tbh

39. Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? i have occasionally

40. Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? it’s my dad, so kind of yes lol

41. When did I last hold hands? october…?

42. How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? if I’m not showering I can get ready in 20 minutes but it’s nothing fancy

43. Have I shaved your legs in the past three days? yes actually

44. Where am I right now? my apartment kitchen table

45. If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably my roommate

46. Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? reasonable

47. Do I live with my Mom and Dad? not at the moment

48. Am I excited for anything? my sports classes, nervous-excited for graduation, spring break…

49. Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? yesss, he is my self-titled gbf actually lol

50. How often do I wear a fake smile? when I’m working games for my athletics department internship haha, it’s not super forced but I do smile a little harder purposefully

51. When was the last time I hugged someone? today! some of my fellow senior friends because almost graduating is weird

52. What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else rightin front of me? it would be real bad, I’m not good at taking things like that. I’d have to leave, if I was drunk I’d probably cry and potentially throw up. this is only because the last person I kissed I really liked, if it was a person I randomly made out with one time it wouldn’t be that bad

53. Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? probably the guy I keep talking about in this, he is a good person who can be trusted, I probably just trusted him with too much of me when we both weren’t ready for each other (ew was that too deep I’m sorry lol)

54. What is something I disliked about today? being too tired to properly read as much for my homework as I had wanted, boo :(

56. What do I think about most? at the moment, my future, and also the animes I’ve recently watched

57. What’s my strangest talent? I can lick my elbow and I have super flexible/hyper-extended knees (idk are these even talents lmao)

58. Do I have any strange phobias? that one where you don’t like tons of tiny holes in things

59. Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?I’d be lying if I said just behind, but I do like taking pictures since I take pretty good ones, so it’s a little of both. I like attention though so mostly in front haha unless I’m doing dumb things

60. What was the last lie I told? I said I’d bring in the routes I was supposed to deliver posters to for my internship, but I’m going to making up notes and turning it in to get paid even though I didn’t deliver any, oops

61. Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? video chatting, I hate talking on the phone for some reason

62. Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? not really, I’m not against believing in them, I just don’t really think about them much

63. Do I believe in magic?hmmmmmm yes…

64. Do I believe in luck? yeah, I’d say I do, I believe in fate a little at least

65. What’s the weather like right now? chilly

66. What was the last book I’ve read? I recently restarted Soccernomics, but I haven’t had time to read again lately

67. Do I like the smell of gasoline? not really

68. Do I have any nicknames? not any that have stuck

69. What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I’m a baby, nothing worse than cuts, bruises, scrapes, etc.

70. Do I spend money or save it? lol I’m not the worst but I’m a spender

71. Can I touch my nose with a tongue? yes!

72. Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? one of my G2 pens

73. Favourite animal? DOGS ALL THE DOGS, but also otters, lions and foxes, red pandas…

74. What was I doing last night at 12 AM? watching youtube videos lol

75. What do I think is Satan’s last name is? um…? no answer? idk

76. What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? 

How can you win my heart? 

What would I want to be written on my tombstone? 

What is my favourite word 

My top 5 blogs on tumblr 

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would Isay? 

Do I have any relatives in jail? 

I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good,and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice!What is that power? 

What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? 

What is my current desktop picture? 

Had sex? 

Bought condoms? 

Gotten pregnant? 

Failed a class? 

Kissed a boy? 

Kissed a girl? 

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? 

Had job? 

Left the house without my wallet? 

Bullied someone on the internet? 

Had sex in public? 

Played on a sports team? 

Smoked weed? 

Did drugs? 

Smoked cigarettes? 

Drank alcohol? 

Am I a vegetarian/vegan? 

Been overweight? 

Been underweight? 

Been to a wedding? 

Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? 

Watched TV for 5 hours straight? 

Been outside my home country? 

Gotten my heart broken? 

Been to a professional sports game? 

Broken a bone? 

Cut myself? 

Been to prom? 

Been in airplane? 

Fly by helicopter? 

What concerts have I been to? 

Had a crush on someone of the same sex? 

Learned another language? 

Wore make up? 

Lost my virginity before I was 18? 

Had oral sex? 

Dyed my hair? 

Voted in a presidential election? 

Rode in an ambulance? 

Had a surgery? 

Met someone famous? 

Stalked someone on a social network? 

Peed outside? 

Been fishing? 

Helped with charity? 

Been rejected by a crush? 

Broken a mirror? 

What do I want for birthday? 

How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 

Was I named after anyone? 

Do I like my handwriting? 

What was my favourite toy as a child?

Favourite Tv Show? 

Where do I want to live when older? 

Play any musical instrument? 

One of my scars, how did I get it? 

Favourite pizza toping? 

Am I afraid of the dark? 

Am I afraid of heights? 

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? 

Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in theend?

What I’m really bad at 

What my greatest achievements are 

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me 

What I’d do if I won in a lottery 

What do I like about myself 

My closest Tumblr friend 

Something I fantasise about my ex

Ask me stuff!

#lol I've legit decided I'm not getting anything productive done tonight so I'm going to do them #it'll be under a read more later #anon #sonia speaks

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